I had a friend that I tried cocaine with when I was 18, he introduced it to me, and I loved it once I tired it. I handed him some money the next day and said, "here's some more cash, get us some more for tonight". I'll never forget his response, "I think you like it a little too much, so let's not'! I never tried it again and I can't help but feel that he helped me dodge a major bullet😉
I like the scene in Six Feet Under with the girl who OD's on cocaine. Scared the shit out of me when she turns green and starts convulsing. As it is never wanted to try coke even though it was available to me.
A friend would never introduced you to drugs, in this case he did and by not being consistent he actually removed himself from any stigma. After your introduction, he left it up to you to decide if you wanted to continue the use. He could had been your pusher. Stay clean, cause no one likes a druggie
every single person i know in real life, whether i like them or not does drugs except for my mother, and i know im from a shit area but if literally every single person i know does hard drugs on the regular then clearly some youtubers have to be as well
Did heroin for 10 yrs, shot it the last 6 yrs of it. Started when I was 17. After I was told I'd never see my kids again and 3 short stints in jail, enough was enough. Now I'm 37, married, and been 10 yrs clean, 11 yrs next month. Did it cold turkey, 2 1/2 sleepless wks. I couldn't lose my kids, just couldn't. 3/30/2009
2023 update: Since this video Taylor had relapsed many times. She bullied and sent her followers to bully anyone who questioned her sobriety. She told people it’s okay to drink alcohol while freshly in sobriety and on. She then tried to get back with the “man” she speaks so poorly about after not being together for 2.5 years. When people found out all hell broke loose and people lost their minds. She then had taken a long break, got sober and happy to say Taylor is a year and a half sober! Recovery looks different for everyone, it’s hard as hell. So proud where she is today!
I did the same at 18. Almost a 4 year relationship and I told him that I wanted a new life for us. He promised to go to rehab but changed his mind last minute so I packed my shit and went to rehab in a different state. 55 days later I left the rehab but refused to return home and made a life for myself in california. I am almost 4 years clean and he is getting sent to prison.
That’s great. I am happy you got out and made healthy choices. She was warned before and during the early stages of her relationship tho. His abuse was public and his former abuse victims warned her and offered her shelter. So it’s probably a little different.
I'm really proud of her and I'm impressed with her integrity. She accepted both the good and bad of what's happened with her channel. i'm also really impressed with the warning for parents at the beginning. Really well-spoken girl.
@@zer00rdie This was before a couple of relapses, but the time between them has got longer and I think she recently put on twitter that shes finally made it to the one year sober mark after four years trying, which is a big milestone. Relapse unfortunately is part of most people's recovery.
97 days clean of meth. 3 years clean of heroine and pain pills. I’m working on my addiction. I’m 97 days clean. And that’s what I’m sticking to. It’s hard but it’s worth it.
@@jessemartinez3476 I lasted 13 days and now I'm 3 days clean again. Back to square one basically. I need to change friend, places, job, home, else it ain't ever gonna stop but others should keep trying. Depends where you at at in life ( not geographically but mentally). I will keep trying. Thank for asking but I not a happy ending. Rarely is with hard drugs.
@@umarmujahid8436 I'm not bad with meth, it's crack an heroin snowballs. They got me bad. Meth would grab me by the balls if I did it so I stay away from it. Its damn rare in UK so that is a good thing.
She still has no right to blame him. She had a drug problem before him. Liked him because he had access to drugs and probably truly enjoyed his company. She was heavily addicted to pills which she thought were safe because it was a prescription.i doubt shes telling the full truth especially about the whole ice cream story.
@@PuffTheMagicDragon86 yeah i do. She's an adult. She knew full well he was a junkie. And she was too. She used him to get access to drugs because she didn't know where to get them. Then decides to rise the jonny is a pos wave to gain more followers. She minimizes everything she did by glossing over it and focusing on how he gave her heroin, when she was actively seeking drugs. That's literally a junkie blaming the drug dealer for giving them drugs. Jonny is a total shitbag dont get me wrong. But shes absolutely blaming him, when the truth is if it wasn't him it would have been someone else because the problem was inside her. She had things she needed to deal with and still does.
One last time is what took my wife from me. She said the same thing, that we would do it just one more time and hold each other, then get clean. She overdosed and died in my arms. I've been clean since April of this year. She died in November of last year, only months after giving birth to our second child. I miss her so much.
I live in the worst neighborhood in Canada and I wanna see a couple of Fridays ago I witnessed this guy in front of our building in front of our doorway of our senior citizen's building take one token his face turn bright red he fell over like a board and died I these drugs are killing people like crazy. I'm sorry for your lost I've seen so many people die on how drugs in my neighborhood during this pandemic I'll never get over it I just want my neighborhood to burn down I want someone to bomb it. I'm not on hard drugs I can't even check out unless I jump off my window
@@Lumin1116 My little boy is well. The problem is that the foster family that currently has him have hired a lawyer and are trying to get my parental rights terminated so they can adopt him. I've also hired a lawyer and I am fighting them for my son.
@@leedavis8300 i am relieved to hear is he so loved, sorry to hear there is so much strife. This must be so hard on you and i imagine this could make your path of sobriety that much harder. But now you have a reason to fight like crazy for life, for love.. just be prepared for any outcome.. i mean that - prepare for it mentally and emotionally, so that no matter what happens you will not default back to your addiction. I have no idea what your situation is like, and you have probs already thought about this, but if it looks like a losing battle try to compromise, maybe you can have visits, partial custody etc. Just as long as its temporary, so you can prove yourself if needs be. I think its truly admirable that you have kicked the bad habits and are actually fighting for your child. No doubt your wife is proud of you and watching over you both. All the best man! Goodluck!
I thought a vice employee was going to literally get addicted to heroin as a documentary to show us the symptoms of addiction and withdrawal. That would be crazyyy
Some guy did that for a documentary years ago, he's still addicted to heroin to this day as far as I know. Super tragic. Think it was for the BBC in the 90s
Pa... im proud of ppl who dont touch it fullstop not some skag head who "says" this and that in the comments of a self harm vid. Jokers...your pride aint worth a wank
i used to watch her when i was little, i’m a zoologist now. i’m happy she’s doing good now, i had no idea about any of this. thank you for sparking something in me :)
You should let her know( if you haven’t )she would be so proud of you, and it would be such an honor to know she was one of the influences in your earning your degree !
So she basically was young, lonely, and lead a sheltered life- which made her a perfect victim for a heroine addicted psychopath who lives by using women. ...Its a wonder she got out alive really.
Jonny Craig is the biggest piece of shit leach in the world, he’s burned every bridge in his life and still, just some how, managed to continue his journey of destroying everything he touches
@@Flofy387 And you could argue the peer pressure of someone who has insecurities and who has self esteem issues as she did, was coerced or felt the need to take drugs by others around here.
Such a powerful story. I was a homeless junkie. Got clean in 1995. This November I will finish EMT school and have plans to go on to paramedic school and am blessed to own my home. there is always hope. 💚
i used to binge watching her videos back in highschool and i really liked her personality, then she just never posted and gone. her videos is one of the things that get me into reptiles, and now im in vet school. sending much love for taylor, i hope she's doing better now
I watched her for ages, then she was gone, then all these people were talking about how awful a pet parent she was. Next thing I saw she had a video about her struggles and I was like 😳
Vice didn’t add a single link to her channel in the description but somehow managed to find the time, strength and stamina to add 17 of their own... 😒🙄
Because this girls neglect lead to several of her animals deaths, and a prolonged stage of neglect. You want this kind of person to get publicity? Weirdo.
@@russ7233 If they're willing to post her story for their own benefit, the least they can do is link her channel. Otherwise it's blatant exploitation.That's just elementary- level, common curtesy on social media
To be a person addicted to drugs and drag a naive beautiful soul; who LOVES and wants to save you, into addiction so you won’t be alone is the most heartbreaking tragedy.
I did heroin once because of this exact situation and immediately overdosed. They used narcan on me twice and still couldn’t revive me for 10 mins. I aspirated and they for sure thought I’d be brain dead. Luckily the DA charged the guy and I actually receive restitution now from him with no contact allowed. I struggled with alcohol for a few years after but I’m completely sober now. Terrified of looking for love or friends. But doing well.
Two days clean . Broke. Depressed. And got Twins on the way. Time to set the drugs aside . And This video gave me hope I can break the cycle ! I’ll be back in a year with an update. Today’s date is September 25th 2020. See you next year.
You can do this, sweetheart. I’m so fucking proud of you. You are your own, no drug can take away that power or identity even if it feels like any drug is all you have, I’m a child of a long history of people with addictions. I am a person with an addictive past, but I know how it feels to only live for the next time you get it, and how it feels to truly live past it. Please add me on snapchat (@notsamijo) or respond to this comment when you need. This also goes out to anyone reading this reply who needs any reason not to use. I love you, you are smart and beautiful and I hope you let me see that! -Samijo
Don’t go back think about your twins, and your family, it may be harder to think about them than the drugs but just try, try to think about the future bc there will not be be one if you go back remember that, stay safe, be blessed a year will go by in no time😁👍🏽
Yeah but heroin addicts aren’t thinking “oh let me go to the hospital and give them my heroin needle” the fear of being arrested I’m assuming is too strong.
@@shannon6281 they should have a drop off box some were. No ones wants go in hp and drop needles off. There going ask questions and try talk you in rehab. Witch is good but some people dont want to put there self's out there.
Found Taylor when I got into fish tanks after my mom passed. Believe it or not it became a very therapeutic hobby for me. I had no idea she was struggling with this. I was shocked to learn this news. Very brave of her to share her struggles.
It’s really shocking that people would think she doesn’t take care of her animals. I have a close family member who is a recovering addict and they thrive in routines. Feeding and taking care of animals is a routine which could help reinstate stability back in her life. So glad she’s doing better!
Addicts face a horrible stigma. It is a big reason why they suffer as much as they do. Addicts are people. They all have different personalities. The one thing they have in common is that they are sick.
It’s not that we think she wouldn’t take care of her animals, it’s that she DOESN’T. Almost all of her animals that have died didn’t reach HALF of their life expectancy. A lot of her animals are not given enough space live. She manhandles animals for the sake of getting cute pictures.
As a foster mom.. it really isn’t that crazy. Kids come from horrid routines and environments from drug abusing parents or parent. They often had pets too that were getting not taken care of. Sadly, the kiddos get removed, but not the animals.
@@Bowblaxian_Tricknology A lot of people putting her down are just dysfunctional, misanthropic, puritanical hypocrites who only love animals because they hate people. They wanted a punching bag and she became their bright, shiny target. By all means she seems to love her animals and seems like a very good person. Let's not forget, that when we talk about helping adjust addicts and people with mental issues to society, we are talking about a very fucked up society. It's no wonder a lot of people would rather just do drugs all day.
This was filmed a few years ago when she first came out about her addiction. She’s sadly struggled with staying sober since then. As of now, she claims to be sober for almost a year. I was addicted to opiates at her age too, and I had the same issues with relapsing after months of sobriety. Finally it just stuck and I’ve been sober for over a decade now. I think she’ll get it. Hopefully she won’t fall back again, but even if she does I think she’ll eventually stay sober. Opiates/heroin is the absolute worst drug and hard to quit.
@@namesizack the problem with heroin is that its never pure, if it was pure there would be nearly no negative long term effects other than sex drive loss constipation and addiction
It’s super inspiring to hear how long you’ve managed to be sober for. It’s such a tricky hole to get out of and for me personally, the black and white thinking of complete recovery or relapse has been detrimental because I always interpreted it like all or nothing. I was scared by the thought of abandoning my coping mechanism forever (especially since it was how I was controlling s***cial urges) and therefore didn’t want to even try to get better. Seeing it first through the lens of harm reduction and then all progress still counting as progress no matter how minor; like increasing the amount of time I went without my DOC, then managing a week, month or six months of general sobriety in one go. When i’d relapse my rule was to minimise as many of the risks as possible and put it down again the moment I have sufficient mental health support for it not to be integral to my survival. More clear cut recovery is still my goal but i’m trying to be proud of the steps i’ve taken instead of dismiss it as not enough
@@dizzy_izzy_ohh realizing there’s a problem and knowing you need to do something about it I think it’s the biggest step of all, which you’re already half way there now. You’ll get to the point of where you want to be. I’ve met a lot of addicts over the years and the ones that seem to have the most success are the ones who are aware of their issues and keep trying no matter how many times they fall off. Self awareness is so important. My sister sadly became an addict and it’s going on 4 years now. She hasn’t come to that point of realizing she’s the only one who can turn it around and instead will blame anyone and anything else. Hopefully one day she will but I don’t know. I wish you all the luck and success on your journey!
Thank you. It was the hardest challenge I've ever accomplished. I was dying, I was 85 pounds. But I've been on Suboxone for almost 4 years now and it has saved my life. Now I can be the best mom I can be for my daughter, my dog & my 7 cats (:
You are in the right path QUEEN ❤️❤️ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” -Joshua 1:9
Drug addicts still are people. It can happen to any human. It took a lot of guts to make this video, you are brave and authentic. There will always be haters that make rude comments simply because they hate to see somebody happy and doing well because they are just jealous and need to grow up. You got what it takes, don't let nobody tell you different. Keep strong in your sobriety. There are many who wish you the best.
LongLiveTheYouth you can damage plumbing inside and beyond the building, and drugs in the water supply is a very real problem, which is why you should never flush drugs either. it’s very hard to filter out in water treatment plants. just dispose of any used needles at the nearest hospital, they will have a sharps disposal container.
@@spookykidbunny Although with most western countries, there's a war on drugs. So if you go to the hospital with a bunch of used syringes, and you get stopped by police on the way, you're getting at least a paraphernalia charge.
My best friend in my 20s intentionally committed suicide with heroin. Pretty tough stuff I was a pallbearer at his funeral. I’m 31 now and I doubt I’ll ever forget what he looked like after the fact. Anyone struggling with this you can do it as long as you have the mental strength. You got this.
Sounds like she had a bigger problem with stalkers and American based eco terrorist group, than heroin. For example, after thousands of U.S. citizens showed their dedication to fundamental human rights and went out in protest of the torture of detainees at Guantanamo Bay as an affront to human dignity...I apologized because I thought those members of Al-Qaeda deserved the death penalty. Its fairly clear everyone from John Stewart to the other fine citizens of Massachusetts agree that I'm in the wrong here. So I'm sorry that I believe in the death penalty and I'm sorry that I believe Al Qaeda members involved in the 9/11 Attacks should have been executed. The People of the United States have shown me the error of my ways and I admit that I was wrong and I'm sorry. Seriously though, watching the U.S. military gay gang rape and serially gay rape those POWS might have traumatized children and turned them as gay as the military personnel who did the gay raping. I just wasn't aware you wanted more gay children whose first gay experience was watching U.S. military personnel gay rape, gay gang rape, and serially gay rape Muslim POWS. I'm sorry. I was wrong. I didn't know you people wanted gay children. And I'm sorry for believing that people guilty of mass murder deserved the penalty. I truly wish I could have supported the U.S. military and it's personnel who sexually abused these POWS for years while shooting those videos, and promise to make every attempt to support the U.S. military in these endeavors in the future.
@@veritasbutnotthatone2119 I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group. Bgxf654ecfy5
@@veritasbutnotthatone2119 Oh, sorry. I see the confusion. I had initially written. "Lady, don't apologize to an angry mob..." I have some experience with angry mobs. So I attempted to give an example (the never ending digression on POWS & Iraq) on how someone can end up shooting themselves in the foot trying to placate an angry mob.
My brother was an addict, he’s no longer with us because of the toll drugs took on his life. To everyone struggling and to those in recovery, you can do it, this world is better with you in it I promise you this.
Drug addiction isn’t to be defeated, sobriety is a work in progress, defeating it is before an addict uses, they defeated the curiosity of using it in the first place ... but defeating will never be the case , coming from a recovering addict
She will never defeat addiction. And her blaming jonny is unfair. She was an active opiate user before him had injected drugs before him. And is using this as a publicity stunt to shift blame and anger toward her away.
@@anthonypareigis6188 He still supplied all of her drug habits. He isnt 100% to blame but dont dare say he didnt influence any part of her getting hooked.
@@jenniferhowe9081 so its the drug deals fault someone is an addict. Makes sense. She was addicted to opiates before he was even in the picture and was injecting drugs up to a year before dating him. But yeah its totally his fault.
I started taking heroin since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting heroin addiction. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be used globally for treatment of certain health challenges.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction? Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
i really feel for her. i can’t imagine being an online personality, being constantly critiqued, and then getting addicted to heroin. everyone has an opinion today and everyone is a keyboard warrior. instead of spreading hate, people should try to support and uplift. i’ve been watching her youtube channel for a while and she seems like a really genuine person. hope she’s doing okay!
@@taylordurden8470 oh 100%. and the fact that it is so cheap. we all need to do better to try and view addicts as people, not just someone who has a drug addiction. it’s such a heartbreaking disease. of course, that initial trying the drug is a choice, but from them on out, it’s out of their hands. i hope everyone that needs help can get it ❤️
@@alexandrascauri3799 100%! society in general view addicts as scum who are weak and are selfish and are without any remorse or regrets. Heroin addicts view themselves as unworthy of love and that they are a burden to people they love and those who care about them. They can feel that they deserve the pain and suffering they live through
@Don Shylock what about a veteran who has deeply been traumatized by what they lived through and they start using heroin to cope with the pain of what they did and/or saw.
🙄🤢 what woman out there made him a father ⁉️Do your kid a favour when choosing their father, it's important, don't give me excuses you can be on multiple forms of birth control simultaneously
Aslen Benavente i personally met him at one of his live concerts & my brother and law and i quickly knew he was intoxicated & we couldn’t really have a stable conversation with him. the way he interacts with any female he saw was disgusting and i’m glad he left the DGD
At least she had the balls to admit it and own up to her shit.I am glad she rehomed many animals. You look fantastic Nichole!Everyone loves a good comeback story! So proud of you!
SammyMarie0721 xoxo I really like her and wish her nothing but the best. Weirdly enough she popped up when I relapsed and started doing herion and benzos again. She inspired me to put my ass back in treatment
He totally manipulated her into getting addicted to drugs so she wouldn't convince him to stop. Been through it in the past I send her love and everyone recognize what someone goes through on drugs is not them. I'm glad she seems to be doing better now
@@mastergator9641 I don't disagree that one cannot get better without accepting their own accountability for their actions but it is ok not to blame oneself for the past and see reasons why one could quickly become trapped in a bad relationship. Keep in mind victims of abuse are threatened with their lives if they attempt to leave the relationship.
You’re not in recovery if you’re still blaming others for your addiction. And neither was she which is why she’s relapsed over and over since this video. They tell you this repeatedly in recovery- no one forced her to do drugs. No one forced you either.
Absolute bullshit. Why not put up the video once you’ve got a couple of years of sobriety? She’s just trying to monetize the situation. I do wish her the best, but this is just sick. I’ve lost too many friends and nearly myself because of this crap. It’s a lifelong battle...
Can't understand how people could say she abuses animals. You can see how clean their tanks are, how stress free the reptiles are, and the love her mammals have for her.
Just because the tanks are clean doesn't mean they aren't abused! 1) She is known for impulse buying new reptiles and often doesn't do enough research before hand to the point where she mistakenly called her lizard the wrong breed. 2) Her reptiles (especially her fish) are always becoming sick and having to be treated only to live not very long after. 3) She is constantly moving houses and bring her animals with her, last time I checked she was living in a 2 bedroom apartment...with all those animals. 4) Another reason for moving was she was once kicked out of her old housing because her landlord complained about an "aggressive monitor lizard" 5) She has most of her pets in one room which is a huge fire hazard and the electrics could over heat...oh wait that ALREADY HAPPENED! A blackout caused some heating pads to malfunction so her Pac-Man frog and two crocodile skinks were cooked alive. 6) She has lied before about the death of some of her pets for example Gus was a mice that she rescued from being snake food (ironic) but one day her king snake Gucci escaped from their enclosure. Taylor post on Twitter or something saying she found Gucci in Gus cage with Gus no where to be seen (implying the snake ate gus) but later deleted that post and said in a video that Gus died of old age. 7) ALOT of her pets has died and she often doesn't mention it so sometimes she'll show an animal in one video and we'll never see it again, it's usually only when people comment asking what happened will she mention it died. 8) Someone literally made a Microsoft spreadsheet detailing ALL of her animals, most of the deceased animals never even reached adulthood and there and around 20 unaccounted animals that probably dead or was (hopefully) rehomed. TH-camrs like Whatever and Mike Dane have made videos detailing everything wrong and have evidence for it so I'd advise checking it out. (If I accidentally got some details wrong sorry)
No way you can be strung out on heroin and take care of tons of animals too. You only see what she wants you to see too. The tanks are probably clean when she first gets them and the new animals she was constantly buying. Doesn't mean they were maintained that great.
I love how open and honest she is now about her addiction. My ex who is my son's father and I were using together for 2 years we ended up losing our son our home living on the street during the coldest winter and eventually we lost our freedom my addiction ruined my life. I quit cold Turkey after using fentanyl for 2 years I am now almost 2 years clean and I have. Full time job and my son turns 8 this month and I am here and alive to see it. Sadly my son's father hasn't taken the same road and we separated but I will never again trade my soul my happiness my health and my son for anything ever again. Stay strong girl we do survive ❤
This is such a real subject and I appreciate how open she is. She comes off as very genuine and I appreciate her. I hope shes doing better these days and keeps growing. Everyone makes mistakes.
Almost a year havent touched a needle and bout a month and a half haven't had a drink..wheres the emoji for when you jump in the air and click your heels?
I hope someday you share how and why you recovered. Soooooo many ppl do not make it. It's so sad. If you ever want to send me your story on video or do an interview online I'd love to share it with the numerous addicts who can't find reason to recover.
Also an addict in recovery. During lock down, addicts being out there in active use was something that was heavy on my mind. Just always wondering what that would be like. I'm proud of you!! Hell yes.
I remember having some minor surgery years ago and at that point I had never done any kind of drug at all. I didn't even drink small amounts of coffee or alcohol. They hit me with an intravenous dose of Demerol and I felt worst so after my mushroom hit I found a better part of myself.
I too battle a raging heroin/meth addiction that started with pills. I lost a decade to my bad decisions. I almost lost my life, my arms, my leg. 6mm pulmonary embolism severe AFIB, calcification of the heart valve. Luckily no hep, no HIV. I'm now sober and my life is like a dream. I never thought my life could be what it is. And it really started with one step and I've never looked back. To anyone struggling with addiction. We're both living proof that there is life after addiction. And it can be better than you could ever know. God bless.
Thank you for the love. I never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be where I am today. I am an uncle, a loving son, a devoted brother, an appreciative boyfriend, and a hard working man trying to support my family. I am so thankful for every day. I value what I have and I won't ever throw that away. It wasn't always easy but it's worth it beyond words.
Oh my God. I watched her when I was younger and then she started slipping and I didn’t feel I could trust her advice anymore so I left. I can’t believe this happened and I’m glad to hear her story.
Drug addicts can give some of the best advice I've ever heard come out of anyone's mouth because they have a 100 lives of experience shoved into a little tiny box.,
As soon as she started her relationship with this guy and people were saying from the very first day, that he is a bad dude, I stopped watching her channel.
I used to watch her religiously as a child and she got me into reptiles. A few years later i realised she existed again and the first thing I saw was this. Makes me tear up seeing my childhood favourite be so sad :(
@@KNCake If HE/she was a child "growing up" when watching this person, they are still basically a child. Because this YTer is barely an adult. YTer has barely grown and hasnt been around long on YT. Therefore if commenter grew up watching her, that "growing up" only occured over a few years prior to now. Short period, rather recent. Therefore they are still quite young. Hence the comment about developing beyond adolescence only after age 25.
PSA: ADDICTION IS AN ILLNESS, AND IT SHOULD BE TREATED AS SUCH. STOP BELITTLING AND ABUSING DRUG ADDICT, WHETHER THEY ARE TRYING TO GET CLEAN OR NOT THEY ARE A HUMAN BEING WITH AN ILLNESS AND NEED YOUR COMPASSION AND HELP.
Edwin El Magico, maybe you honestly don’t realize, but addiction is not fun. People who are addicted do not want to be. It doesn’t happen intentionally, and it can destroy your life and even kill you. It isn’t just getting high it’s damage to your brain.
Roy_Thousand, it’s not quite that simple. Sure there are people in both situations that don’t really have anyone to blame besides themselves, but that’s true for a lot of injuries and illnesses. Some people aren’t educated enough to know better, some people were so young when they were exposed to drugs they couldn’t have been expected to make an intelligent decision. And with obesity, part of that is genetic, and isn’t as easy to avoid as you might think. Especially if you were obese as a child when it was your parents who taught you and controlled your habits.
18 months sober it’s important to know that this drug and specifically does not discriminate doctors lawyers girls boys all people young people get addicted to opiates and it turns into a hard-core heroin addiction
Are we gonna talk about how jonnys statement said “the addition of his first child”, meanwhile he has a whole ass other child he abandoned years ago and has never even met
Well in his defense if he’s never even met the first child, then really it’s not his and never was. It’s shitty af, but I wouldn’t want some man who’s never done shit for my child to claim it.
chingalachuga I mean, I’ve never been around my biological mother. If she was out here telling people I’m her daughter, that would piss me tf off because she didn’t raise me, I’m not hers’.
@@virgie4715 doesnt answer the question though. It's not about feelings, it's about facts. Maybe a mom should admit she has a child she abandoned and look like a piece of shit instead of pretending the child doesnt exist
Hera Sean well technically, those who do have money die from an overdose and those who don’t either die from an overdose or die from trying to rob money
It becomes a neverending cycle depressed use drugs to self medicate then feel guilty for using and in addition inevitably after a brief glory period you will face dire consequences losing everything yourself values family friends housing. You begin in pain and end in more pain. Also, i was most addicted when homeless and getting a mere 150$ month from public benefits. You can be broke and severely addicted and addiction will make you broke, along with all the abovementioned.
Depression among content-creators is a big thing that's not gained a lot of attention. I guess it's hard for most people to feel sorry for the successful but it's a real problem.
Awwww poor millionaire. Doesn't give a shit about anybody, but when they fuck up we should feel sorry for them? If they would jump off the pedestal maybe people would really give a crap.
@@almostout Its not about money. People like me and you could be successful with a house and a family and plenty of money to live off of but still be depressed. Happiness is not always linked to physical objects and "having" things. A lot of people are good at hiding their mental issues until it comes out like it did with this TH-camr in the form of an addiction.
As an heroin addict my self, struggling with co dependent relationships, I can see my self in alot of things she said. I used for about 5 years since I was 17 when I first met my ex gf that gave me some weird brown powder to smoke. I loved it from day one, it was everything I ever wanted to feel and I struggle extremely up holding my life without it. I was a functioning heroin addict. It made me cope with my life I only stopped shooting up or smoking when I met someone I really loved. But the relationship became very codependent we both had the same issue with love and we split and I instantly fell into it again. Now I am clean since 2 months and My last time shooting up was in July on my birthday.
You should be really proud of yourself for how long you’ve been clean, and for continuing to fight to have a life without it. I things continue to be good for you. Keep fighting the good fight.
@Rose M sometimes you date awful people. It just happens. Doesnt mean you yourself are a bad person. I mean if you stay with and defend them. Maybe. But you have to remember how awful abusive relationships with drugs involved are. I was in one. My ex is now in prison, for beating his ex. And even intimidating her after the fact. Not a good person. Abusive relationships are hard enough but with drugs invovled, you really feel trapped. And you hope they will change. I wouldn't judge her by her exes or people she dates. Judge her by her.
She’s on suboxone (a opiate-like drug that can be abused) and still drinks alcohol while she’s on them because she thinks “it’s ok” despite the fact that the combination can be lethal... this girl is not better and she doesn’t want to be.
Jonny’s statement doesn’t make sense... I didn’t hear her blame him she was just explaining how she got there. Almost EVERYONE is introduced to it by someone she knows that doesn’t excuse her choices.
As someone who has dealt with painkiller addiction, I can't think of anything more evil to do than to introduce someone to it like it's no big deal. I would NEVER wish the addiction on anybody let alone someone I loved. This guy is EVIL and profoundly selfish. Instead of getting help he dragged her down too and told her it was an act of love.
Truly. That’s “codependent abuse” summed up. My mother did that to me as a child, as well as letting my kidney infections (from chronic kidney disease) get so bad that I’d be prescribed oxy or hydrocodone to use for herself. She sold my service dog to buy. I wouldn’t trade my childhood or my mother’s use to anyone because nobody deserves that hurt. Stay blessed and whole, friend. We bond over our evils.
@@samanthaalbanese7441 I am very sorry that you and other ppl in this world have been exposed to such evil from ppl who you should be able to feel safe with. Keep you head up and take care!
@@samanthaalbanese7441 Can I just thank you? I have had a very similar experience and seeing someone speak about their experience candidly like this gave me some solidarity I didn't know I badly needed. The gaslighting has made me doubt myself over and over and while I have an amazing support system who can validate my experience knowing that there are others out there with the confidence to share publicly is really profound for me. Growing up and having these things happen over and over, being told I am the one who is a problem, it has made me doubt every single thing I do and say. Thank you, more than you'll ever know.
J P We are made from those who hurt us, but we are not defined by those who hurt us. I’m thanking you more for finding strength to see your experience in mine, and for coming this far! Grow through what you go through, pal
“Let’s just have one more good night together first” God I can relate to that. Me and my girlfriend said it every night. I had 1 year clean Nov 10th. I’m struggling with cravings badly but getting through it.
True story: I met Jonny Craig once. His band were playing in my hometown (sort of, nearby), and my band were the main support. We were more fans of DGD than Slaves but we needed the exposure, and my drummer was a big Jonny Craig fan. Nothing really happened that was all that serious, but the guy was a little out of it. Nothing shocking to any of us, we were all fucked up, too. But, halfway through his band's set he started screaming at the audience telling them to "fucking start moving" or he was "going home". He didn't go home, but he did angrily tweet about the Plymouth, UK show for like two days after lol. He didn't realise that he was playing in a total deadzone. He must have been accustomed to very different types of crowds. TL:DR; Jonny Craig is a little bit delusional.
@@BriaBarrows I totally agree but she has been separated from him for some time and she continue to relapse. No ones journey is linear but she needs to take responsibility and truly work on the aspects behind her addictions (i.e. her unhealthy attachments to S.O.s, abandonment issues, and having her self worth determined by them etc) and not only focus on the staying sober part. She will not be able to remain sober without handling those other aspects. The best predictor of future behavior is relevant past behavior, let's hope this time she is in a rehabilitation center that deals with addiction in a dual diagnostic sense. Proud of her strength to share her journey with everyone and to be brutally honest about the different stages of addiction and recovery.
Speaking as an ex heroin addict of 10 years, I was literally that guy that said, "Lets just do the last of this bit together and Ill never touch it again." I guarantee everybody on the face of this planet, that if you're able to convince that other person to do that shot with you, it will absolutely never be your last time... Just that other persons first.
As soon as she said “ehlers-danlos syndrome” everything made sense. Eds causes incredible pain 24/7 usually starting when you’re a baby. I’ve managed to make it to age 23 without being on narcotics long-term and it’s so so hard. Like it’s so bad that 1300mg Tylenol and 50mg diclofenac (my current protocol) do almost nothing. So I really feel for her.
@@Angelface11 not only is that medically untrue and impossible (it's a genetic disorder passed down through generations, we simply didn't have a way to test for it till recently) but it's extremely dangerous to insinuate. please vaccinate, especially now that we finally have an effective solution to covid and see re-emergence of formerly wiped out diseases. more diagnosis does not mean more cases, we simply didn't know how many people had things like EDS and ASD before we understood what those things were.
I reached out to collab with Taylor a few years ago, as I liked some of her aquarium content. I got a rude email back telling me to never contact her again. Now I understand she was probably very sick. I hope her story serves to help others with addictions. I can recommend anything by Gabor Mate if you’re reading this and suffering with trauma or addiction.
It’s not only that George apparently she was being harassed over the phone by people on the internet out of state being forced out of her homes yes with a S HOMES because people were making false claims of animal abuse. Animal control was visiting her apartments often to the point management and communities would kick her out.
When I saw her boyfriend's name was Jonny, I was like "wait, is that the same Jonny who keeps getting kicked out of bands?" so I looked it up, and yep, it's Jonny Craig.
dude same! I wasn't paying close enough attention when they first showed him in pictures with her, like damn he looks familiar.. then.. :OO now the DGD scandal days all coming back to me lol
He’s a good guy with a lot of pain in his heart. I don’t like that some people judge him solely based on one side of the story. People who are happy don’t use. People use who aren’t happy. Then everyone around them is pulled down into the darkness with them. It’s a vicious cycle and we have all got to help pull each other up. Jonny’s come a long way so I’m happy for both of them.
@@musicandglamour9184 Jonny is a complicated guy, he's fought some powerful demons and his effort is commendable, but he ended up doing some extremely scummy things in the pit of addiction. Hopefully he's well these days (funny enough, a former classmate played drums with him for a while)
I noticed Jonny’s statement says “his first child”. This is his 2nd kid. The fact that he’s not in the first kid’s life doesn’t make it any less his kid.
Becca K Very. Especially considering one of his most popular songs is about his first kid. He makes money off the poor kid’s existence, yet doesn’t even acknowledge her.
Not to be that guy, especially knowing everything Jonny did, but him not being in his first kid's life was not his choice. There was a whole situation with the girl that was involved that I can't fully remember, but basically she's keeping him from seeing that kid, or at least that's what he claims. Made a whole song about it years ago, pretty wild.
@@blackskater121 If your baby daddy is a drug addict it's probably the best move as a parent to keep him out of your child's life though. It's extremely destructive for a child to deal with. In that sense it is still his fault that he is not in his child's life, even if he would want to and even if he want to be clean but can't. He made the choice to have a child while doing drugs, and that's fucked up and sad.
I took a perc a few months ago and it had me feeling like I was on top of the world, I’ve always had issues with addiction but normally it was whatever I could get my hands on as a teen, but after I tried that perc once I started wanting them everyday and it made me feel so depressed that I had let myself do that, I stayed strong and still am and haven’t touched it since, but it was scary because I really thought I had let myself fall into addiction with a substance that has a lot of potential to kill me, and seeing how my dad was on it for 20 years, I knew it was best to just hold on tight and not fall for it. Not everyone is as fortunate as me to drop the pill before it becomes a habit, and I have nothing but hopes and prayers for the people who fell for the devils tricks.
I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group. Bct643 xg
To see her start to cry when she talked about a different girl being inspired to pack up and leave a relationship like hers after watching one of her videos was so pure and heartbreaking. She is so strong to be honest with everyone on the whole damn internet, and I'm so glad she was able to help herself AND others in the end.
So I was a heroin addict for ten years. I literally felt as though she was describing my own relationship with my ex. Minus the part where I stayed clean after breaking up. I wish I could say that but I can’t. I also wish I had gotten out as soon as she did. I wasted 7 years of my youth on a man that would always love heroin more than me. It’s a losing battle. I used to think “but I’m on heroin and I’m still capable of loving him and caring about him”. Some people are just wired differently. It was always a losing battle. I created an environment where he was completely dependent on me financially (stripping which he didn’t care about either) so that he couldn’t leave me. I was so afraid to get clean because I knew when I did he would leave and I would have to face the fact that he never truly loved me. I preferred living a lie until I couldn’t anymore. The sick thing is there is a part of you that will always love them and crave the day they can love you back. But you have to learn to love yourself instead. Easier said than done but just know you aren’t alone and not to beat yourself up.
Truth Talker hmmmm please show me where I said that? I never said it was his fault at all. In fact I had done heroin before even getting with him. I was simply describing the way my relationship was. He loved heroin more than me. Always. Never said it was his fault I was an addict. Also the term “junkie” is degrading. Not to me but to you. It shows how ill informed you are of the disease of addiction and someone as narcissistic as yourself would never want your ignorance to show ;) I made all of those decisions of my own free will. I chose to stay with a man that could never truly love me. I chose to live a lie. I chose to put a needle in my arm. Just like she did. The feelings that went behind those decisions however are very similar. Notice how almost every sentence in there starts with “I”. Because I did all those things. Not him. I was simply stating my personal pain of dating a heroin addict that would always choose the drug over me.
I'm a recovering opioid addict so I could tell something was up with her. I watched her video a few weeks ago of her explaining her addiction and I honestly wish her the best.
@martin gonzalez do you have nothing better to do with your life besides sit on youtube and comment this shit? You're not bothering me..you dont know me or my story so fuck off.
I'm 3 plus years from heroin and cocaine and you can do this! your story touches me and i love that you love your animals very much. You were so truthful and you're so strong. I'm here for you and very proud of you! I know how hard it was getting away from heroin and just getting off it. Whenever something's going wrong or bad in life remember how hard it was to get off and how shitty life was before.
I had so many “one last good night”s. Opiate is awful. I’m so glad she got clean, it’s such a hard thing to do. Love to her and all other addicts/recovering addicts out there - you are strong and you are worthy of sobriety xxx
Still struggling with that same concept - the dread of stopping is almost paralyzing, and only able to function and reason that stopping is the only way forward after using. :( Your message is well received
the crazy part is that “one last night” lead her into a couple years of addiction. she recently became sober again in august of this year (2021) he honestly ruined her by introducing her to that. i can’t imagine introducing someone to opiates for the first time & also making that first time an IV use. went full force in unlike most addicts who start with snorting or smoking then end up shooting up. so crazy to hear that he did that.
@DJ Pauly D Steve-O is a huge insperation for our generations. I love & respect what the man has done with himself, what he's created & the light he shares. A true insperation for US ALL! And yo Pauly, if ur the "real Pauly", nothing but love & respect you you as well Brother.
@@nafisaali291 he introduced her to opiates but it was pain pills and then awhile later after they both had been on the pain pills is when she found him using a spoon to cook in the bathroom and he talked her into shooting heroin. She didn't go from never doing opiates straight to shooting heroin. She was already a opiate addict with pain pills but kept lying to herself saying it wasn't a problem cause they were prescription medications so how bad could they be as she said this video.
I love how I knew it was Johnny Craig right away. He grew up around Sacramento where I’m from, and I have friends that are mutual friends with the guy. The love people had for Johnny slowly died the more he delved into drugs and for most people who he was is just a sad memory. I do hope he gets help and I’m also glad this girl got away from him. What he did wasn’t okay, and him being on drugs isn’t an excuse to drag her down with him.
I don’t know if you know, but Jonny is with someone knew and has been for some time. They have a child together and.. seem like they’re fine. I hope they’re happy and healthy. Taylor is still struggling, and it’s painful knowing my old favorite TH-camr is still relapsing and trying to heal. I hope everybody will be alright at the end
@@dollblossom_ You don’t mean Sydney England, do you? Because I’m pretty sure they’re broken up and at one point lost custody of their kid because Jonny Craig got a battery charge and was smoking fentanyl around their son.
@@blistertooth dude idfk her name and im not gonna stalk people THAT hard. I dont think he has more than 1 kid because thats all ive ever seen him speak of, so more than likely thats the one Just from randomly watching stories at random intervals doesnt give that information, but ty for that update
@@dollblossom_ I really only know because I used to be a huge fan of Dance Gavin Dance and everyone was talking about it. He actually has two kids, his first baby mama left with the kid and never contacted him again, that’s what “children of divorce” is about
To those commenting that she relapsed a lot after this video, that’s part of recovery. Yes that’s not an excuse for her actions but as someone who is part of the support system of someone who recently got sober, relapses happen. my partner was addicted to substances for about 2 years (I discouraged it but as we both have a past of abusive relationships we don’t dictate what we do and don’t do but just encourage safety at least) his dad and best friend were his enablers. When he finally had a wake up call to get sober he had 2 small relapses in the first month. Since then he’s had no relapses. His best friend has stayed sober with him and his dad, well is at arms length and knows not to make contact when he’s on substances. Most people become addicts because of someone they know exposing them to it, then they do it together, that’s why relapsing is common and almost part of the process. Now this doesn’t mean relapses are ok but it means they shouldn’t be ridiculed for relapsing and should instead be reminded why they are getting sober. If someone gives into the addiction and each time they relapse they say “screw it I’ve already relapsed might as well do more” that’s when sobriety is honestly not gonna be maintained, they need to have a relapse and say “dammit I’m an idiot I’m done with this” and not do more just because they’ve already relapsed so might as well. After the first relapse my partner rinsed his nose out (cocaine) because he realised what he was doing, the second was his best friend convinced him to do it one last time and stay sober from there (that one I wasn’t happy about but I know his friend who help him stay sober after that as his friend was just doing it casually). One last note, those with mental health or who are neurodivergent are more likely to relapse frequently due to poor impulse control.
I am 515 day's clean off heroin! I'm so happy to have my life back. It's possible if YOU want it. Congratulations to everyone in sobriety! We fckn did it!! xx
@@realeyesbars they don't gotta provide proof 🤣 Not trying to be rude, but if you don't believe someone, scroll. I do it all the time, cuz yeah, people to lie for attention. So I'll give them exactly the opposite of attention. If people believe them, oh well, people have lied for attention for YEARS, it's just more noticable now cuz with the internet you talk to more people than you ever would without. Also I'm not entirely sure what would work as proof of being a recovered addict. it would be impossible to post pictures of anything, and even so, posting pictures of medical records is probably one of the most stupid things you could do TL:DR- Not trying to be rude, but nobody owes anyone proof of anything. Lying for attention has always been an issue, even before the internet age. Just ignore people who you think are faking it
She's literally just sharing her story in 15 minutes idk why some of y'all suddenly know everything about drug addiction and her character 🙄 (edit: this is in response to people who have only watched THIS video and are saying she's a lowlife/it's all her fault/etc. I feel for this girl and she shouldn't be judged based on a 15 minute video)
Her first video on her channel about her addiction was 1+ hr long. She recently made another hour long video explaining all the fucked up shit this dude did to her. This video is by far not long enough to share everything.
When she talked about the women who left her fiance that night or the people she gave strength to leave.... That's why we should tell our stories. That's why we survived
"I was ready to jump on to anyone who looked at me" This is where her addiction grew from, her deep desire for social affirmation. Add a drug addict, musician with face tattoos and we all know what comes next
Is crazy that these insecurities always come from really good looking people. Maybe it's because when you are ugly you just accept yourself and move on lol
Well done getting away from the devil's dandruff... It's so easy to fall into addiction and so hard to get out of it... Take one day at a time and if you fall dust yourself off and move on and forget about it... I wish you all the best and life's happiness... God bless... I know it's hard but you saved that girl for falling into that life and many more people that you don't even realize... Stay strong 💙💙💙🕊️😇 😇😇 God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️
I'm an addict and trying to stay away Now I'm clean for the past 3 days and gonna try harder this time not to do any of this s**t it put me and my family into crisis please pray for me that I come out of this demonic mess I'm tangled up into
@@Scoopadoodle good for you... I know how hard it is especially within the first 74 hours of staying clean... Just remember with every hour that passes that an hour of victory... When I was getting clean I would think of the babies that are born into this world that are addicts and how much they don't deserve it... I deserve everything I went through but not babies... Keep up the good work... you're in my prayers and thoughts... And starve them demons they will leave you... God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️
@@Scoopadoodle happy New Year to you too... Hope you have a great year ahead of you... And remember if you slip it's not the end of the world just a lesson... Stay strong... Your in my thoughts and prayers 🙏🙏🙏🕊️🕊️🕊️
Carlos Marte I have this disease too, didn’t know Taylor had it too. I can see how heroin can be appealing from a pain-management standpoint. It hurts a lot
I just lost a beautiful friend, Jennifer Nye, to this disease. Also, recently, singer Sia has come forward stating she suffers from this disease as well.
I'm an a addict myself I'm proud to say I've been clean now for almost 3 yrs. Getting clean has been the best thing I could of ever did for myself. Thank u for sharing ur story
@@taylorgarton6983 that's amazing proud of u. This has been 1 of the hardest and best things I've ever done for not only myself but my family an friends. RIP to all the ppl an all my friends that wasn't as lucky as us. If u or any1 ever needs to talk or a shoulder to cry on I'm a great listener
She doesn’t understand how inspirational she is. She made my realize how much my mom went through. My mom died of heroin oct 5 2017. Her abusive ex made her do it.
Yeah she’s sooo inspirational. The girl whose negligence killed her animals. Wow how do I learn to take in a bunch of pets and then kill them? 😡 y’all need to do research on her
She is unbelievably strong for being able to come out and show that’s she’s looked in the mirror and wasn’t happy and decided to fix it. GOOD FOR HER!!!!!
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I had a friend that I tried cocaine with when I was 18, he introduced it to me, and I loved it once I tired it. I handed him some money the next day and said, "here's some more cash, get us some more for tonight". I'll never forget his response, "I think you like it a little too much, so let's not'! I never tried it again and I can't help but feel that he helped me dodge a major bullet😉
i mean.. coke is whatever 😂
@@GayActorMichaelDouglas666 how is it "whatever" 😐
I like the scene in Six Feet Under with the girl who OD's on cocaine. Scared the shit out of me when she turns green and starts convulsing. As it is never wanted to try coke even though it was available to me.
A friend would never introduced you to drugs, in this case he did and by not being consistent he actually removed himself from any stigma. After your introduction, he left it up to you to decide if you wanted to continue the use. He could had been your pusher. Stay clean, cause no one likes a druggie
Javier Martinez great friend
Can you imagine how many other youtubers are drug addicts and people don't even know it?!
The Reality of Life
Probably a lot more than we think. We only see a small portion of their life, who knows what goes on behind the scenes.
Loads more do gear of their choice without getting into bother or problems and so the 'expert agencies' know nothing about them.
Dope As Yola does cocaine pretty frequently im pretty sure
but who doesn’t at this point
every single person i know in real life, whether i like them or not does drugs except for my mother, and i know im from a shit area but if literally every single person i know does hard drugs on the regular then clearly some youtubers have to be as well
Did heroin for 10 yrs, shot it the last 6 yrs of it. Started when I was 17. After I was told I'd never see my kids again and 3 short stints in jail, enough was enough. Now I'm 37, married, and been 10 yrs clean, 11 yrs next month. Did it cold turkey, 2 1/2 sleepless wks. I couldn't lose my kids, just couldn't.
3/30/2009
You came through for your kids, that’s what a good father does. I wish you the best
I hope you know your strength is indescribable. You are incredibly brave
I'm so happy for you Robert. Even if it's been 10 years, every day can be a challenge some times. Wishing you the best
@@jessicacole8404 especially now, when everyone stuck in the house. Dark thoughts run thru your head.
Thank you all. It's been a blessing.
2023 update: Since this video Taylor had relapsed many times. She bullied and sent her followers to bully anyone who questioned her sobriety. She told people it’s okay to drink alcohol while freshly in sobriety and on. She then tried to get back with the “man” she speaks so poorly about after not being together for 2.5 years. When people found out all hell broke loose and people lost their minds. She then had taken a long break, got sober and happy to say Taylor is a year and a half sober! Recovery looks different for everyone, it’s hard as hell. So proud where she is today!
How do you know?
this comment written by her or her publicist? lol please
@@gazjaz2010she ain’t sober now? 😂
@@samuelwetz8378nah I think they just making fun of that they posted this like a publicist
Why spread drama?
The title was too click baity to not click
Shit ass video though
Yea🤣
Is "click baity" a word lol?, but I do agree though had to see what was up myself.
Vice in one sentence
Really
I did the same at 18. Almost a 4 year relationship and I told him that I wanted a new life for us. He promised to go to rehab but changed his mind last minute so I packed my shit and went to rehab in a different state. 55 days later I left the rehab but refused to return home and made a life for myself in california. I am almost 4 years clean and he is getting sent to prison.
That’s great. I am happy you got out and made healthy choices.
She was warned before and during the early stages of her relationship tho. His abuse was public and his former abuse victims warned her and offered her shelter. So it’s probably a little different.
If your in socal stay away from downtown la. Drugs are everywhere.
Joey Whiteside nah just stay away from so-cal
@@conradkorbol Oh. Yes, that is different.
@@joeywhiteside3729 Yes they are. I spent 3 years of my sobriety there and saw how bad it is in certain areas in California. Very sad.
One more time, is the worst thing a drug addict could ever say.
FALpwn well it can definitely be deadly. 😿💋
I can't help but think about the Daft Punk song... blame it on my dark humor
Frs😪
Very true.
Yet that’s what they say the most. Addiction is a lifelong battle and Sobriety is a lifelong achievement.
I'm really proud of her and I'm impressed with her integrity. She accepted both the good and bad of what's happened with her channel. i'm also really impressed with the warning for parents at the beginning. Really well-spoken girl.
Extremely well spoken wow that’s crazy
Was this before or after she relapsed?
@@zer00rdie This was before a couple of relapses, but the time between them has got longer and I think she recently put on twitter that shes finally made it to the one year sober mark after four years trying, which is a big milestone. Relapse unfortunately is part of most people's recovery.
@@ChickenOfAwesomeshes posting again on her youtube channel.
dont praise a drug user
97 days clean of meth. 3 years clean of heroine and pain pills. I’m working on my addiction. I’m 97 days clean. And that’s what I’m sticking to. It’s hard but it’s worth it.
Two days, won't last I'm half out the door planning it in my mind already. Why? I'm 39 now and it's been my entire life, maybe it's just me.
@@Nuffsed81 did you last?
@@Nuffsed81 meth is hell
@@jessemartinez3476 I lasted 13 days and now I'm 3 days clean again. Back to square one basically. I need to change friend, places, job, home, else it ain't ever gonna stop but others should keep trying. Depends where you at at in life ( not geographically but mentally). I will keep trying. Thank for asking but I not a happy ending. Rarely is with hard drugs.
@@umarmujahid8436 I'm not bad with meth, it's crack an heroin snowballs. They got me bad. Meth would grab me by the balls if I did it so I stay away from it. Its damn rare in UK so that is a good thing.
Why did I think this was about some chick taking heroin for the first time on a livestream?!
Lol so did I
Me too
the title's a little misleading lol
Why did I think the same thing and why did I click it? Lol
@@oliviarose7610: it always is, they do it cos their desperate for views.
She never said he forced her to do drugs. She says he encouraged her and was an enabler to her addiction problem.
It's still just as bad- imagine someone manipulating you and taking advantage of your state of mind
She still has no right to blame him. She had a drug problem before him. Liked him because he had access to drugs and probably truly enjoyed his company. She was heavily addicted to pills which she thought were safe because it was a prescription.i doubt shes telling the full truth especially about the whole ice cream story.
Anthony Pareigis got something against her sounds like...
@@PuffTheMagicDragon86 yeah i do. She's an adult. She knew full well he was a junkie. And she was too. She used him to get access to drugs because she didn't know where to get them. Then decides to rise the jonny is a pos wave to gain more followers. She minimizes everything she did by glossing over it and focusing on how he gave her heroin, when she was actively seeking drugs. That's literally a junkie blaming the drug dealer for giving them drugs. Jonny is a total shitbag dont get me wrong. But shes absolutely blaming him, when the truth is if it wasn't him it would have been someone else because the problem was inside her. She had things she needed to deal with and still does.
Anthony Pareigis She barely an adult. She still young and has a lot to learn in life and how the real world was/is.
One last time is what took my wife from me. She said the same thing, that we would do it just one more time and hold each other, then get clean. She overdosed and died in my arms. I've been clean since April of this year. She died in November of last year, only months after giving birth to our second child. I miss her so much.
I live in the worst neighborhood in Canada and I wanna see a couple of Fridays ago I witnessed this guy in front of our building in front of our doorway of our senior citizen's building take one token his face turn bright red he fell over like a board and died I these drugs are killing people like crazy. I'm sorry for your lost I've seen so many people die on how drugs in my neighborhood during this pandemic I'll never get over it I just want my neighborhood to burn down I want someone to bomb it. I'm not on hard drugs I can't even check out unless I jump off my window
May she rest in peace. And may you remain sober for the rest of your life. Hows baby doing?
@@Lumin1116 My little boy is well. The problem is that the foster family that currently has him have hired a lawyer and are trying to get my parental rights terminated so they can adopt him. I've also hired a lawyer and I am fighting them for my son.
@@leedavis8300 Best wishes to you and your kid 😙
@@leedavis8300 i am relieved to hear is he so loved, sorry to hear there is so much strife. This must be so hard on you and i imagine this could make your path of sobriety that much harder. But now you have a reason to fight like crazy for life, for love.. just be prepared for any outcome.. i mean that - prepare for it mentally and emotionally, so that no matter what happens you will not default back to your addiction. I have no idea what your situation is like, and you have probs already thought about this, but if it looks like a losing battle try to compromise, maybe you can have visits, partial custody etc. Just as long as its temporary, so you can prove yourself if needs be. I think its truly admirable that you have kicked the bad habits and are actually fighting for your child. No doubt your wife is proud of you and watching over you both. All the best man! Goodluck!
138 days clean off Heroin. Stay strong and stay with the people in recovery.
You’re doing great🦋! I wish you the best
That's whats up, proud of you! I got over 6 years that I never actually think about, I just take it day by day. You got this! Stay strong
Stay strong. Good luck
Helloamrose thank you
Sincity Angel life on life’s terms day by day lol thanks man
I thought a vice employee was going to literally get addicted to heroin as a documentary to show us the symptoms of addiction and withdrawal. That would be crazyyy
Jacob Wilson lmaooooo
Same here😂😂😂😂
Same!!
Yea that would have actually made a good video. I really don't care about this woman's clickbait woe is me story.
Some guy did that for a documentary years ago, he's still addicted to heroin to this day as far as I know. Super tragic. Think it was for the BBC in the 90s
To everyone in the comments saying they're in the recovering process or have recovered from drug abuse I'm so proud of you 👏 👏👏👏
Very kind of u! Wish more thought like this💕
thank you 🙏🏼
You're awesome! Thank you! :)
Pa... im proud of ppl who dont touch it fullstop not some skag head who "says" this and that in the comments of a self harm vid. Jokers...your pride aint worth a wank
Martin Conneally, Eat a snickers. You’re kinda biotchy when you’re hungry.
i used to watch her when i was little, i’m a zoologist now. i’m happy she’s doing good now, i had no idea about any of this. thank you for sparking something in me :)
Awwwwww ❤🎉
This is amazing
You should let her know( if you haven’t )she would be so proud of you, and it would be such an honor to know she was one of the influences in your earning your degree
!
I had to find a comment who could relate. I used to be obsessed with her and had no idea when I was little.
So she basically was young, lonely, and lead a sheltered life- which made her a perfect victim for a heroine addicted psychopath who lives by using women. ...Its a wonder she got out alive really.
Jonny Craig is the biggest piece of shit leach in the world, he’s burned every bridge in his life and still, just some how, managed to continue his journey of destroying everything he touches
Bullshit no one forced her to shot heroin.
Flofy387 this comment never mentioned her being forced to do heroin lol what. Just mentions what POS Jonny Craig is which is the truth.
@@Flofy387 And you could argue the peer pressure of someone who has insecurities and who has self esteem issues as she did, was coerced or felt the need to take drugs by others around here.
very surprising especially cus she was easily manipulated by her ex like damb
Such a powerful story. I was a homeless junkie. Got clean in 1995.
This November I will finish EMT school and have plans to go on to paramedic school and am blessed to own my home.
there is always hope. 💚
Bloody hell! This is amazing! I’m so proud 💕
What a QUEEN/KING
Congratulations 🎉🎊, I'm very proud of you for doing that, it's never easy ...the battles never end but you've been up for the challenge.
THATS AMAZING. so so proud of you! you’re an incredible person
You're so strong! Congrats!
When she gives parents a warning about their child watching her video , that was actually very very cool. I like that. 💜
I agree
@CARTERMADE 86 yeah
It is very cash money of her
I don’t know what channels you watch but most I do always do that...
@@Dude0000 first time i hear someone say that
i used to binge watching her videos back in highschool and i really liked her personality, then she just never posted and gone. her videos is one of the things that get me into reptiles, and now im in vet school. sending much love for taylor, i hope she's doing better now
wow that’s crazy
shes posting again on her channel.
I'm using this quarantine as an opportunity to try and really focus on my sobriety. Spending a lot of time with family.
Mr. HiBye Keep going, the positives outweigh the negatives by far. i feel so much better sober, best decision of my life
@@rosslittlewolf4542 Yes! Pure happiness is better than any high I've ever experienced that's for sure.
💓💓💓
Stay strong stay focused, you can absolutely do this! 💪
That's wonderful man
I watched her for ages, then she was gone, then all these people were talking about how awful a pet parent she was. Next thing I saw she had a video about her struggles and I was like 😳
Yeah she’s a sweet girl who was struggling
Dam
What in tarnation is a pet parent?
@@edmanrapperu you just made my day ☺️ tarnation almost as good as cripes 😁
@jason bauer
*you're
Vice didn’t add a single link to her channel in the description but somehow managed to find the time, strength and stamina to add 17 of their own... 😒🙄
Because this girls neglect lead to several of her animals deaths, and a prolonged stage of neglect. You want this kind of person to get publicity? Weirdo.
@@russ7233 but they're ok to make money off her?
@@MrsHouseTakeNewVegas hold on, please say that again. Vice and making money don’t belong in the same sentence. Vice is struggling. Vice is a joke.
@@russ7233 7.5 million net worth doesnt sound like they're struggling to me
@@russ7233 If they're willing to post her story for their own benefit, the least they can do is link her channel. Otherwise it's blatant exploitation.That's just elementary- level, common curtesy on social media
To be a person addicted to drugs and drag a naive beautiful soul; who LOVES and wants to save you, into addiction so you won’t be alone is the most heartbreaking tragedy.
Right? She seems like a very lovely, genuine person, and he got her addicted
Happens far too often
Damn yall aren't addicts are you?
@@i8764theKevassitant Damn you're not really that much of a judgemental prick are you? 🤢
I did heroin once because of this exact situation and immediately overdosed. They used narcan on me twice and still couldn’t revive me for 10 mins. I aspirated and they for sure thought I’d be brain dead. Luckily the DA charged the guy and I actually receive restitution now from him with no contact allowed. I struggled with alcohol for a few years after but I’m completely sober now. Terrified of looking for love or friends. But doing well.
Two days clean .
Broke. Depressed. And got Twins on the way. Time to set the drugs aside . And This video gave me hope I can break the cycle !
I’ll be back in a year with an update. Today’s date is September 25th 2020. See you next year.
You can do this, sweetheart. I’m so fucking proud of you. You are your own, no drug can take away that power or identity even if it feels like any drug is all you have, I’m a child of a long history of people with addictions. I am a person with an addictive past, but I know how it feels to only live for the next time you get it, and how it feels to truly live past it. Please add me on snapchat (@notsamijo) or respond to this comment when you need. This also goes out to anyone reading this reply who needs any reason not to use. I love you, you are smart and beautiful and I hope you let me see that!
-Samijo
Cmon
Dummy doing drugs bringing kids in the world what a shame
Don’t go back think about your twins, and your family, it may be harder to think about them than the drugs but just try, try to think about the future bc there will not be be one if you go back remember that, stay safe, be blessed a year will go by in no time😁👍🏽
Ur just one dummass person thats it
Almost 365 days clean from HEROIN and alcohol! Much love to all my fellow recovering addicts
Congrats!!! Keep going!!!! 🙏🙏🙏👍👍👍👍👍
I feel you I have 1year.... God is Good just keep praying 🙏!
How did u get threw withdrawls? Did you use any medications?
👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿♥️🌱🌱
Congratulations!! Keep up the good work... It's all worth it in the end!
Please don't flush needles! A hospital can dispose of them correctly for you.
Right and stop throwing them in the streets.
Yeah but heroin addicts aren’t thinking “oh let me go to the hospital and give them my heroin needle” the fear of being arrested I’m assuming is too strong.
Shannon true
@@shannon6281 they should have a drop off box some were. No ones wants go in hp and drop needles off. There going ask questions and try talk you in rehab. Witch is good but some people dont want to put there self's out there.
A lot of gas stations have box for needles
Found Taylor when I got into fish tanks after my mom passed. Believe it or not it became a very therapeutic hobby for me. I had no idea she was struggling with this. I was shocked to learn this news. Very brave of her to share her struggles.
It’s really shocking that people would think she doesn’t take care of her animals. I have a close family member who is a recovering addict and they thrive in routines. Feeding and taking care of animals is a routine which could help reinstate stability back in her life. So glad she’s doing better!
Addicts face a horrible stigma. It is a big reason why they suffer as much as they do. Addicts are people. They all have different personalities. The one thing they have in common is that they are sick.
It’s not that we think she wouldn’t take care of her animals, it’s that she DOESN’T. Almost all of her animals that have died didn’t reach HALF of their life expectancy. A lot of her animals are not given enough space live. She manhandles animals for the sake of getting cute pictures.
As a foster mom.. it really isn’t that crazy. Kids come from horrid routines and environments from drug abusing parents or parent. They often had pets too that were getting not taken care of. Sadly, the kiddos get removed, but not the animals.
@@Bowblaxian_Tricknology A lot of people putting her down are just dysfunctional, misanthropic, puritanical hypocrites who only love animals because they hate people. They wanted a punching bag and she became their bright, shiny target. By all means she seems to love her animals and seems like a very good person. Let's not forget, that when we talk about helping adjust addicts and people with mental issues to society, we are talking about a very fucked up society. It's no wonder a lot of people would rather just do drugs all day.
This has less to do with her addiction, and more to do with the fact that she was a bad pet owner to BEGIN with.
When she said she was really outgoing and loved meeting new people but she was too anxious about it... I felt that. A lot.
I’m two years clean. Never heard of this lady till now but she seems like a kind person and I’m sending her all the love
Lady Lecter Thats amazing. I’m so happy you saved yourself. Never ever forget how strong you are. Sending you lots of love!
I'm so so glad you're still here 💜💜
Fuck yeah Lady Lecter, go you!!!
@@giventogrow8533 congrats on two years. Much love ♥
You are also a kind person... addiction doesn't discriminate :(
This was filmed a few years ago when she first came out about her addiction. She’s sadly struggled with staying sober since then. As of now, she claims to be sober for almost a year. I was addicted to opiates at her age too, and I had the same issues with relapsing after months of sobriety. Finally it just stuck and I’ve been sober for over a decade now.
I think she’ll get it. Hopefully she won’t fall back again, but even if she does I think she’ll eventually stay sober. Opiates/heroin is the absolute worst drug and hard to quit.
Hopefully if she is using she’s doing prescriptions and not actual heroin, not great but much less damaging
she did relapse again but she's sober for a year now :)
@@namesizack the problem with heroin is that its never pure, if it was pure there would be nearly no negative long term effects other than sex drive loss constipation and addiction
It’s super inspiring to hear how long you’ve managed to be sober for. It’s such a tricky hole to get out of and for me personally, the black and white thinking of complete recovery or relapse has been detrimental because I always interpreted it like all or nothing. I was scared by the thought of abandoning my coping mechanism forever (especially since it was how I was controlling s***cial urges) and therefore didn’t want to even try to get better. Seeing it first through the lens of harm reduction and then all progress still counting as progress no matter how minor; like increasing the amount of time I went without my DOC, then managing a week, month or six months of general sobriety in one go. When i’d relapse my rule was to minimise as many of the risks as possible and put it down again the moment I have sufficient mental health support for it not to be integral to my survival. More clear cut recovery is still my goal but i’m trying to be proud of the steps i’ve taken instead of dismiss it as not enough
@@dizzy_izzy_ohh realizing there’s a problem and knowing you need to do something about it I think it’s the biggest step of all, which you’re already half way there now. You’ll get to the point of where you want to be. I’ve met a lot of addicts over the years and the ones that seem to have the most success are the ones who are aware of their issues and keep trying no matter how many times they fall off. Self awareness is so important.
My sister sadly became an addict and it’s going on 4 years now. She hasn’t come to that point of realizing she’s the only one who can turn it around and instead will blame anyone and anything else.
Hopefully one day she will but I don’t know.
I wish you all the luck and success on your journey!
3 years clean from heroine & pain pills. Stay strong everyone (:
I cant even wrap my mind around that
I salute you!
Thank you. It was the hardest challenge I've ever accomplished. I was dying, I was 85 pounds. But I've been on Suboxone for almost 4 years now and it has saved my life. Now I can be the best mom I can be for my daughter, my dog & my 7 cats (:
Are you a heroine for quitting heroin?
You are in the right path QUEEN ❤️❤️
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
-Joshua 1:9
Drug addicts still are people. It can happen to any human. It took a lot of guts to make this video, you are brave and authentic. There will always be haters that make rude comments simply because they hate to see somebody happy and doing well because they are just jealous and need to grow up. You got what it takes, don't let nobody tell you different. Keep strong in your sobriety. There are many who wish you the best.
snoopy thank you for understanding.i love you dude.dont know you but I love you,please stay human.
@@otisrush8110 thx, but I'm a female. lol!
Animal abusers aren’t people
No, it cant happen to anyone
@@forestelf2307 they aren't talking about animal abusers tho 🤷♀️
FYI: *Do not flush needles.*
Spider Man why not
LongLiveTheYouth you can damage plumbing inside and beyond the building, and drugs in the water supply is a very real problem, which is why you should never flush drugs either. it’s very hard to filter out in water treatment plants. just dispose of any used needles at the nearest hospital, they will have a sharps disposal container.
@@spookykidbunny Although with most western countries, there's a war on drugs. So if you go to the hospital with a bunch of used syringes, and you get stopped by police on the way, you're getting at least a paraphernalia charge.
@Tony O'Brien Oh cool, i wasn't aware of that. I knew about needle exchanges etc, but not about the containers.
Can you give me a call and explain why 1 772 663 2115 my name is Ben Buckland and I have a heroine addiction
My best friend in my 20s intentionally committed suicide with heroin. Pretty tough stuff I was a pallbearer at his funeral. I’m 31 now and I doubt I’ll ever forget what he looked like after the fact. Anyone struggling with this you can do it as long as you have the mental strength. You got this.
Sounds like she had a bigger problem with stalkers and American based eco terrorist group, than heroin.
For example, after thousands of U.S. citizens showed their dedication to fundamental human rights and went out in protest of the torture of detainees at Guantanamo Bay as an affront to human dignity...I apologized because I thought those members of Al-Qaeda deserved the death penalty.
Its fairly clear everyone from John Stewart to the other fine citizens of Massachusetts agree that I'm in the wrong here. So I'm sorry that I believe in the death penalty and I'm sorry that I believe Al Qaeda members involved in the 9/11 Attacks should have been executed. The People of the United States have shown me the error of my ways and I admit that I was wrong and I'm sorry.
Seriously though, watching the U.S. military gay gang rape and serially gay rape those POWS might have traumatized children and turned them as gay as the military personnel who did the gay raping. I just wasn't aware you wanted more gay children whose first gay experience was watching U.S. military personnel gay rape, gay gang rape, and serially gay rape Muslim POWS.
I'm sorry. I was wrong. I didn't know you people wanted gay children. And I'm sorry for believing that people guilty of mass murder deserved the penalty. I truly wish I could have supported the U.S. military and it's personnel who sexually abused these POWS for years while shooting those videos, and promise to make every attempt to support the U.S. military in these endeavors in the future.
@@justinlavine9209 I’m not entirely sure what this response has anything to do with what I said if I’m honest
@@veritasbutnotthatone2119 I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group.
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@@justinlavine9209 oooooh I thought you were referring to my comment my bad. Woops
@@veritasbutnotthatone2119 Oh, sorry. I see the confusion. I had initially written. "Lady, don't apologize to an angry mob..."
I have some experience with angry mobs. So I attempted to give an example (the never ending digression on POWS & Iraq) on how someone can end up shooting themselves in the foot trying to placate an angry mob.
My brother was an addict, he’s no longer with us because of the toll drugs took on his life. To everyone struggling and to those in recovery, you can do it, this world is better with you in it I promise you this.
thanks man
I'm so sorry for your loss!
Ty sorry for your loss 🙏🏽💕
Thank you🤍 six months clean
Mine did too, in Nov 2019. Rip to your brother, keep pushing and spreading the message 💞
Im proud of Taylor defeating her addiction and escaping that man.
Drug addiction isn’t to be defeated, sobriety is a work in progress, defeating it is before an addict uses, they defeated the curiosity of using it in the first place ... but defeating will never be the case , coming from a recovering addict
Fuck that man
She will never defeat addiction. And her blaming jonny is unfair. She was an active opiate user before him had injected drugs before him. And is using this as a publicity stunt to shift blame and anger toward her away.
@@anthonypareigis6188 He still supplied all of her drug habits. He isnt 100% to blame but dont dare say he didnt influence any part of her getting hooked.
@@jenniferhowe9081 so its the drug deals fault someone is an addict. Makes sense. She was addicted to opiates before he was even in the picture and was injecting drugs up to a year before dating him. But yeah its totally his fault.
Am I the only person annoyed with how many "click" animation sounds there are
Right here 🖐
I am now
You are not alone
Viewerisland - VBQL Same, it's like watching a clip show
Not here
I started taking heroin since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting heroin addiction. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be used globally for treatment of certain health challenges.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
YES Dr.alishrooms
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction?
Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's
something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
i really feel for her. i can’t imagine being an online personality, being constantly critiqued, and then getting addicted to heroin. everyone has an opinion today and everyone is a keyboard warrior. instead of spreading hate, people should try to support and uplift. i’ve been watching her youtube channel for a while and she seems like a really genuine person. hope she’s doing okay!
@@taylordurden8470 oh 100%. and the fact that it is so cheap. we all need to do better to try and view addicts as people, not just someone who has a drug addiction. it’s such a heartbreaking disease. of course, that initial trying the drug is a choice, but from them on out, it’s out of their hands. i hope everyone that needs help can get it ❤️
@Don Shylock yet choices can end up as mistakes.
@@alexandrascauri3799 100%! society in general view addicts as scum who are weak and are selfish and are without any remorse or regrets. Heroin addicts view themselves as unworthy of love and that they are a burden to people they love and those who care about them. They can feel that they deserve the pain and suffering they live through
@Don Shylock what about a veteran who has deeply been traumatized by what they lived through and they start using heroin to cope with the pain of what they did and/or saw.
@@taylordurden8470 exactly. we need to start looking at addiction as a sickness, not a choice
it’s terrifying that this man is going to be a father
FOR REAL THO
Children of Divorce is about his first kid... god only knows how many he actually has..
🙄🤢 what woman out there made him a father ⁉️Do your kid a favour when choosing their father, it's important, don't give me excuses you can be on multiple forms of birth control simultaneously
kayla Jonny Craig.... he was the singer of Dance Gavin Dance, emarosa, slaves, he had music under his own name.. he’s a piece of shit.
Aslen Benavente i personally met him at one of his live concerts & my brother and law and i quickly knew he was intoxicated & we couldn’t really have a stable conversation with him. the way he interacts with any female he saw was disgusting and i’m glad he left the DGD
At least she had the balls to admit it and own up to her shit.I am glad she rehomed many animals.
You look fantastic Nichole!Everyone loves a good comeback story!
So proud of you!
SammyMarie0721 xoxo I really like her and wish her nothing but the best. Weirdly enough she popped up when I relapsed and started doing herion and benzos again. She inspired me to put my ass back in treatment
Ashley Bennet Good luck ,you can do it.❤️
Meanwhile Hundreds or more already amid it on Videos hell on Live TV
@@ashleybennet9243 1:1 story here, was clean for a lil while, then started using oxy and benzos again and then saw her video's. keep it up btw
SammyMarie0721 xoxo thank you ❤️❤️
He totally manipulated her into getting addicted to drugs so she wouldn't convince him to stop. Been through it in the past I send her love and everyone recognize what someone goes through on drugs is not them. I'm glad she seems to be doing better now
“Couldn’t be my fault” said the addict
@@mastergator9641 I don't disagree that one cannot get better without accepting their own accountability for their actions but it is ok not to blame oneself for the past and see reasons why one could quickly become trapped in a bad relationship. Keep in mind victims of abuse are threatened with their lives if they attempt to leave the relationship.
You’re not in recovery if you’re still blaming others for your addiction. And neither was she which is why she’s relapsed over and over since this video. They tell you this repeatedly in recovery- no one forced her to do drugs. No one forced you either.
No he didn’t he offered and she took it fully aware of the results hence her screaming when she found out
Addiction isnt a joke, affects everyone one way or another
@Will Fryer 2 yes it does
Ya it definitely dose. But at some time it will all come crashing down and hopefully you got family and friends to support you.
Absolute bullshit. Why not put up the video once you’ve got a couple of years of sobriety? She’s just trying to monetize the situation. I do wish her the best, but this is just sick. I’ve lost too many friends and nearly myself because of this crap. It’s a lifelong battle...
State the obvious, I hear fire burns and water is wet too! Yes it hurts, it fucking murders children! It cannot get more abhorrent!
Shes a joke though. She just trying get money to buy more lol
Can't understand how people could say she abuses animals. You can see how clean their tanks are, how stress free the reptiles are, and the love her mammals have for her.
She said it herself
Just because the tanks are clean doesn't mean they aren't abused!
1) She is known for impulse buying new reptiles and often doesn't do enough research before hand to the point where she mistakenly called her lizard the wrong breed.
2) Her reptiles (especially her fish) are always becoming sick and having to be treated only to live not very long after.
3) She is constantly moving houses and bring her animals with her, last time I checked she was living in a 2 bedroom apartment...with all those animals.
4) Another reason for moving was she was once kicked out of her old housing because her landlord complained about an "aggressive monitor lizard"
5) She has most of her pets in one room which is a huge fire hazard and the electrics could over heat...oh wait that ALREADY HAPPENED! A blackout caused some heating pads to malfunction so her Pac-Man frog and two crocodile skinks were cooked alive.
6) She has lied before about the death of some of her pets for example Gus was a mice that she rescued from being snake food (ironic) but one day her king snake Gucci escaped from their enclosure. Taylor post on Twitter or something saying she found Gucci in Gus cage with Gus no where to be seen (implying the snake ate gus) but later deleted that post and said in a video that Gus died of old age.
7) ALOT of her pets has died and she often doesn't mention it so sometimes she'll show an animal in one video and we'll never see it again, it's usually only when people comment asking what happened will she mention it died.
8) Someone literally made a Microsoft spreadsheet detailing ALL of her animals, most of the deceased animals never even reached adulthood and there and around 20 unaccounted animals that probably dead or was (hopefully) rehomed.
TH-camrs like Whatever and Mike Dane have made videos detailing everything wrong and have evidence for it so I'd advise checking it out.
(If I accidentally got some details wrong sorry)
@@instantlyblank7700 OMG GET A LIFE!
No way you can be strung out on heroin and take care of tons of animals too. You only see what she wants you to see too. The tanks are probably clean when she first gets them and the new animals she was constantly buying. Doesn't mean they were maintained that great.
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I love how open and honest she is now about her addiction. My ex who is my son's father and I were using together for 2 years we ended up losing our son our home living on the street during the coldest winter and eventually we lost our freedom my addiction ruined my life. I quit cold Turkey after using fentanyl for 2 years I am now almost 2 years clean and I have. Full time job and my son turns 8 this month and I am here and alive to see it. Sadly my son's father hasn't taken the same road and we separated but I will never again trade my soul my happiness my health and my son for anything ever again. Stay strong girl we do survive ❤
Props to you. Continue to heal and grow 💙
Not to be a downer but this girl lies through her teeth and also abuses her animals
Lana Marie I’m here for u baby
Props to you girl you sound like you’ve turn things around for the better!
Forest Elf where’s the proof though
This is such a real subject and I appreciate how open she is. She comes off as very genuine and I appreciate her. I hope shes doing better these days and keeps growing. Everyone makes mistakes.
Moral of the story:
never trust someone when they say it's "no big deal".
especially if they offer you A class drug with tendency to hook user up from 1st dose
@@it_is_what_it_is269 people don't tend to get addicted to things the first time. But every addict has had a first time so it can seem that way
another good one is "if they're resorted to hiding the evidence, it's gone too far"
Do cake not drugs
Almost a year havent touched a needle and bout a month and a half haven't had a drink..wheres the emoji for when you jump in the air and click your heels?
There should be one for occasions like this 😊 Well done. 🙌
:)
@@pererik6731 thanks man..if only the good you feel clean could be properly expressed to those still struggling so they'd know its worth it
I hope someday you share how and why you recovered. Soooooo many ppl do not make it. It's so sad. If you ever want to send me your story on video or do an interview online I'd love to share it with the numerous addicts who can't find reason to recover.
Good for you! Wishing you strength on your journey x
A year clean from crack and herion.
The pandemic was good for something at least.
So happy for you! Such a strong individual, I hope nothing but the best for you.
Also an addict in recovery. During lock down, addicts being out there in active use was something that was heavy on my mind. Just always wondering what that would be like. I'm proud of you!! Hell yes.
Me too
Keep going!! And even if you fall off the wagon, hop back on and keep going! Don’t ever count that time as lost. ❤️
@@RebekahSBryan don't think it's a wagon I'll be falling off again tbh.
I remember having some minor surgery years ago and at that point I had never done any kind of drug at all. I didn't even drink small amounts of coffee or alcohol. They hit me with an intravenous dose of Demerol and I felt worst so after my mushroom hit I found a better part of myself.
Magic mushrooms has been used in spiritual and religious contexts to facilitate deep spiritual experiences and personal growth.
Psilocybin trips have been some of the greatest experiences of my entire life
These are great healing compounds! When used in proper context.
I've seen lots of positive reviews on mushies I'm really looking at trying them.. any idea?
where do you get from ?
I too battle a raging heroin/meth addiction that started with pills. I lost a decade to my bad decisions. I almost lost my life, my arms, my leg. 6mm pulmonary embolism severe AFIB, calcification of the heart valve. Luckily no hep, no HIV. I'm now sober and my life is like a dream. I never thought my life could be what it is. And it really started with one step and I've never looked back. To anyone struggling with addiction. We're both living proof that there is life after addiction. And it can be better than you could ever know. God bless.
❤❤❤
Nice work man, well done.
well done sir! glad to have you back
Beautiful. Congratulations on your new, sober life ❤️
Thank you for the love. I never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be where I am today. I am an uncle, a loving son, a devoted brother, an appreciative boyfriend, and a hard working man trying to support my family. I am so thankful for every day. I value what I have and I won't ever throw that away. It wasn't always easy but it's worth it beyond words.
Oh my God. I watched her when I was younger and then she started slipping and I didn’t feel I could trust her advice anymore so I left. I can’t believe this happened and I’m glad to hear her story.
Drug addicts can give some of the best advice I've ever heard come out of anyone's mouth because they have a 100 lives of experience shoved into a little tiny box.,
Kimberly Lyons for sure but I think when your in the midst of your addiction that’s hard
As soon as she started her relationship with this guy and people were saying from the very first day, that he is a bad dude, I stopped watching her channel.
May I please have some feedback? open.spotify.com/artist/0MnO8xXccBFGn7mX83mw72?nd=1
I used to watch her religiously as a child and she got me into reptiles. A few years later i realised she existed again and the first thing I saw was this. Makes me tear up seeing my childhood favourite be so sad :(
Hey👋 why don’t ya take a seat right there
As a child? That's cute. She's still a child. Your brain doesnt move beyond "adolescence" till age 25.
@@SolidSiren wtf they meant that they were a child watching her not the other way around 🤦♀️
@@KNCake ....Yes. Re read and see if you can put this puzzle together, Holmes.
@@KNCake If HE/she was a child "growing up" when watching this person, they are still basically a child. Because this YTer is barely an adult. YTer has barely grown and hasnt been around long on YT. Therefore if commenter grew up watching her, that "growing up" only occured over a few years prior to now. Short period, rather recent. Therefore they are still quite young.
Hence the comment about developing beyond adolescence only after age 25.
That damn mouse click sound needs to die. Jesus Christ, we get it, don't need it for every transition.
It only annoyed me because you pointed it out
@@dropsmic3224 same lmao
Please stop using Jesus name in such a way
Faith Kings: Please stop believing in fairy tails.
@@Exitof99 jesus christ
The fact that the guy made it seem like the heroin was a drug to kick back and watch movies and chill had me dead lol
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heroin
Dee'em Beatz he is E V I L
I mean it actually is...
Johnny Dzidic Maybe... but I’d rather just smoke a bowl or something
There's some truth 2 that - The problem is when it wears off
PSA: ADDICTION IS AN ILLNESS, AND IT SHOULD BE TREATED AS SUCH. STOP BELITTLING AND ABUSING DRUG ADDICT, WHETHER THEY ARE TRYING TO GET CLEAN OR NOT THEY ARE A HUMAN BEING WITH AN ILLNESS AND NEED YOUR COMPASSION AND HELP.
i wish the world was more like yourself
They need to stop being junkies that would rob their own mothers for a fix, then they can be treated as humans then
Sounds like a pretty sweet illness.
What are the symptoms? Getting high?
Edwin El Magico, maybe you honestly don’t realize, but addiction is not fun. People who are addicted do not want to be. It doesn’t happen intentionally, and it can destroy your life and even kill you. It isn’t just getting high it’s damage to your brain.
Roy_Thousand, it’s not quite that simple. Sure there are people in both situations that don’t really have anyone to blame besides themselves, but that’s true for a lot of injuries and illnesses. Some people aren’t educated enough to know better, some people were so young when they were exposed to drugs they couldn’t have been expected to make an intelligent decision. And with obesity, part of that is genetic, and isn’t as easy to avoid as you might think. Especially if you were obese as a child when it was your parents who taught you and controlled your habits.
18 months sober it’s important to know that this drug and specifically does not discriminate doctors lawyers girls boys all people young people get addicted to opiates and it turns into a hard-core heroin addiction
Are we gonna talk about how jonnys statement said “the addition of his first child”, meanwhile he has a whole ass other child he abandoned years ago and has never even met
xxsarrr what really?
Well in his defense if he’s never even met the first child, then really it’s not his and never was. It’s shitty af, but I wouldn’t want some man who’s never done shit for my child to claim it.
@@virgie4715 so just ignore a child's existence and it magically isn't your's?
chingalachuga I mean, I’ve never been around my biological mother. If she was out here telling people I’m her daughter, that would piss me tf off because she didn’t raise me, I’m not hers’.
@@virgie4715 doesnt answer the question though. It's not about feelings, it's about facts. Maybe a mom should admit she has a child she abandoned and look like a piece of shit instead of pretending the child doesnt exist
I am always so interested in drugs or alcohol when depressed, but I am always so broke, maybe my brokeness has advantages
Hera Sean well technically, those who do have money die from an overdose and those who don’t either die from an overdose or die from trying to rob money
Change your routines if your depressed and dont take drugs you’ll have to do different things.
Remember don't ever do it. Those things will ruin your life. Hope you're doing well and stay safe and happy:)
It becomes a neverending cycle depressed use drugs to self medicate then feel guilty for using and in addition inevitably after a brief glory period you will face dire consequences losing everything yourself values family friends housing. You begin in pain and end in more pain. Also, i was most addicted when homeless and getting a mere 150$ month from public benefits. You can be broke and severely addicted and addiction will make you broke, along with all the abovementioned.
Interesting
Depression among content-creators is a big thing that's not gained a lot of attention.
I guess it's hard for most people to feel sorry for the successful but it's a real problem.
Mental illness doesnt discriminate hey. Sad to see such a lack of empathy in SM comments sections :(
Awwww poor millionaire. Doesn't give a shit about anybody, but when they fuck up we should feel sorry for them? If they would jump off the pedestal maybe people would really give a crap.
@@almostout Its not about money. People like me and you could be successful with a house and a family and plenty of money to live off of but still be depressed. Happiness is not always linked to physical objects and "having" things. A lot of people are good at hiding their mental issues until it comes out like it did with this TH-camr in the form of an addiction.
im depressed and unsuccessful so theres that.
Think if it was the other way around no one would have stood up for the guy. She blames everything but herself and still has all her followers left.
As an heroin addict my self, struggling with co dependent relationships, I can see my self in alot of things she said. I used for about 5 years since I was 17 when I first met my ex gf that gave me some weird brown powder to smoke. I loved it from day one, it was everything I ever wanted to feel and I struggle extremely up holding my life without it. I was a functioning heroin addict. It made me cope with my life I only stopped shooting up or smoking when I met someone I really loved. But the relationship became very codependent we both had the same issue with love and we split and I instantly fell into it again. Now I am clean since 2 months and My last time shooting up was in July on my birthday.
You should be really proud of yourself for how long you’ve been clean, and for continuing to fight to have a life without it. I things continue to be good for you. Keep fighting the good fight.
you can do it!!
Gosh, her looks change so much that it literally looks like several different people in this video
And it suits her every time! I stan
th-cam.com/video/squYsol0qgA/w-d-xo.html like , share and subscribe
Big time. She was a knock out when I discovered her online years ago. Now she looks like a pure crack head, and the lip injections look gross.
@Rose M I stan her LOOKS you should learn to read during this corona time Baby Girl, educate yourself! Greets from Germany
@Rose M sometimes you date awful people. It just happens. Doesnt mean you yourself are a bad person. I mean if you stay with and defend them. Maybe. But you have to remember how awful abusive relationships with drugs involved are. I was in one. My ex is now in prison, for beating his ex. And even intimidating her after the fact. Not a good person.
Abusive relationships are hard enough but with drugs invovled, you really feel trapped. And you hope they will change. I wouldn't judge her by her exes or people she dates. Judge her by her.
Idk who this girl is but I'm glad she's getting better
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She’s on suboxone (a opiate-like drug that can be abused) and still drinks alcohol while she’s on them because she thinks “it’s ok” despite the fact that the combination can be lethal... this girl is not better and she doesn’t want to be.
Jonny’s statement doesn’t make sense... I didn’t hear her blame him she was just explaining how she got there. Almost EVERYONE is introduced to it by someone she knows that doesn’t excuse her choices.
Agree. She took complete ownership of her own situation. Being over-trustworthy or gullible is not a crime either.
Exactly. He's clearly a fkn idiot and just complete + total GARBAGE. Ugh.
Don’t think he’s at the place in his sobriety to completely face the person he was while addicted
@@Thatgirlcodes I don't think he ever even made an effort to get clean tbh
†TheDarkOne† yeah probably
Making mistakes publicly and the internet eating people alive is such a real conversation.
As someone who has dealt with painkiller addiction, I can't think of anything more evil to do than to introduce someone to it like it's no big deal. I would NEVER wish the addiction on anybody let alone someone I loved. This guy is EVIL and profoundly selfish. Instead of getting help he dragged her down too and told her it was an act of love.
Truly. That’s “codependent abuse” summed up. My mother did that to me as a child, as well as letting my kidney infections (from chronic kidney disease) get so bad that I’d be prescribed oxy or hydrocodone to use for herself. She sold my service dog to buy. I wouldn’t trade my childhood or my mother’s use to anyone because nobody deserves that hurt. Stay blessed and whole, friend. We bond over our evils.
@@samanthaalbanese7441 I am very sorry that you and other ppl in this world have been exposed to such evil from ppl who you should be able to feel safe with. Keep you head up and take care!
@@samanthaalbanese7441 Can I just thank you? I have had a very similar experience and seeing someone speak about their experience candidly like this gave me some solidarity I didn't know I badly needed. The gaslighting has made me doubt myself over and over and while I have an amazing support system who can validate my experience knowing that there are others out there with the confidence to share publicly is really profound for me. Growing up and having these things happen over and over, being told I am the one who is a problem, it has made me doubt every single thing I do and say. Thank you, more than you'll ever know.
J P We are made from those who hurt us, but we are not defined by those who hurt us. I’m thanking you more for finding strength to see your experience in mine, and for coming this far! Grow through what you go through, pal
It's the business. Introduce them the product, sell it to them like it's their necessity
“This is echo. Echo’s a gecko” lol the perfect name
“Let’s just have one more good night together first”
God I can relate to that. Me and my girlfriend said it every night.
I had 1 year clean Nov 10th.
I’m struggling with cravings badly but getting through it.
@@robertallenhurst8448 ok..
@@coolintuitivename4910 what did he say
I’m praying for you 🙏
Kudos! Stay strong! 💜
How did u get on it through prescription meds?
True story: I met Jonny Craig once. His band were playing in my hometown (sort of, nearby), and my band were the main support. We were more fans of DGD than Slaves but we needed the exposure, and my drummer was a big Jonny Craig fan. Nothing really happened that was all that serious, but the guy was a little out of it. Nothing shocking to any of us, we were all fucked up, too. But, halfway through his band's set he started screaming at the audience telling them to "fucking start moving" or he was "going home". He didn't go home, but he did angrily tweet about the Plymouth, UK show for like two days after lol. He didn't realise that he was playing in a total deadzone. He must have been accustomed to very different types of crowds.
TL:DR; Jonny Craig is a little bit delusional.
Unfortunately she has relapsed for the 3rd time but she is seeking help.
I’m pissed she met him in the first place. I really hope she gets better. She’s an awesome woman
@keepingupwithkira she posted it on her personal Twitter account after being silent for about a few weeks
@@BriaBarrows I totally agree but she has been separated from him for some time and she continue to relapse. No ones journey is linear but she needs to take responsibility and truly work on the aspects behind her addictions (i.e. her unhealthy attachments to S.O.s, abandonment issues, and having her self worth determined by them etc) and not only focus on the staying sober part. She will not be able to remain sober without handling those other aspects. The best predictor of future behavior is relevant past behavior, let's hope this time she is in a rehabilitation center that deals with addiction in a dual diagnostic sense. Proud of her strength to share her journey with everyone and to be brutally honest about the different stages of addiction and recovery.
Consuelo you have a point. This is very true
Consuelo Getting clean is the easy part (not easy but still), staying clean is the hard part
Speaking as an ex heroin addict of 10 years, I was literally that guy that said, "Lets just do the last of this bit together and Ill never touch it again." I guarantee everybody on the face of this planet, that if you're able to convince that other person to do that shot with you, it will absolutely never be your last time... Just that other persons first.
This is soo true. Unfortunately.
It took me like 4 attempts to understand this because I’m tired but man that’s deep
Furthermore, the idea of "just one last hit" will keep you trapped forever. If you cant find the strength to toss your stash, you're never gonna quit.
i have 6 years clean and told a friend the other day who wanted to know what Heroin was like "dont touch that shit..its evil "
I don't have enough fingers and toes to count the amount of "final blowouts" I have had. Your words are truth my friend.
As soon as she said “ehlers-danlos syndrome” everything made sense. Eds causes incredible pain 24/7 usually starting when you’re a baby. I’ve managed to make it to age 23 without being on narcotics long-term and it’s so so hard. Like it’s so bad that 1300mg Tylenol and 50mg diclofenac (my current protocol) do almost nothing. So I really feel for her.
1300 milligrams ?
That will damage your liver !
@@dwaynejacobs9558 I’m aware, I’m supervised by several specialists and I get regular scans and blood tests
@@margaretmuncy hope that you are doing well.
Not as baby....It's a side effect of vaccines too
@@Angelface11 not only is that medically untrue and impossible (it's a genetic disorder passed down through generations, we simply didn't have a way to test for it till recently) but it's extremely dangerous to insinuate. please vaccinate, especially now that we finally have an effective solution to covid and see re-emergence of formerly wiped out diseases. more diagnosis does not mean more cases, we simply didn't know how many people had things like EDS and ASD before we understood what those things were.
I can't watch anymore.
Thank you for bringing this to light for the public, and for struggling addicts also for those in recovery.
I reached out to collab with Taylor a few years ago, as I liked some of her aquarium content. I got a rude email back telling me to never contact her again. Now I understand she was probably very sick. I hope her story serves to help others with addictions. I can recommend anything by Gabor Mate if you’re reading this and suffering with trauma or addiction.
good chance it was her abusive boyfriend actually
@@STANKYCHEEZEMAYNE most definitely
@@okaytaylor9965 Have you been on drugs yet?If not you wouldn't know how she behaves. DRUGS works differently on everyone.
It’s not only that George apparently she was being harassed over the phone by people on the internet out of state being forced out of her homes yes with a S HOMES because people were making false claims of animal abuse. Animal control was visiting her apartments often to the point management and communities would kick her out.
you are living in delusion, being additive to something doesn't justify being rude to anyone
When I saw her boyfriend's name was Jonny, I was like "wait, is that the same Jonny who keeps getting kicked out of bands?" so I looked it up, and yep, it's Jonny Craig.
ya lol i was like is this the one and only jonny craig ?!?
@Jessica Momanyi watch Taylor's heroin addiction video. You won't like Jonny anymore.
dude same! I wasn't paying close enough attention when they first showed him in pictures with her, like damn he looks familiar.. then.. :OO now the DGD scandal days all coming back to me lol
He’s a good guy with a lot of pain in his heart. I don’t like that some people judge him solely based on one side of the story. People who are happy don’t use. People use who aren’t happy. Then everyone around them is pulled down into the darkness with them. It’s a vicious cycle and we have all got to help pull each other up. Jonny’s come a long way so I’m happy for both of them.
@@musicandglamour9184 Jonny is a complicated guy, he's fought some powerful demons and his effort is commendable, but he ended up doing some extremely scummy things in the pit of addiction. Hopefully he's well these days (funny enough, a former classmate played drums with him for a while)
I noticed Jonny’s statement says “his first child”. This is his 2nd kid. The fact that he’s not in the first kid’s life doesn’t make it any less his kid.
Sad that this is how this dudes mind works
Becca K Very. Especially considering one of his most popular songs is about his first kid. He makes money off the poor kid’s existence, yet doesn’t even acknowledge her.
Jackie pathetic
Not to be that guy, especially knowing everything Jonny did, but him not being in his first kid's life was not his choice. There was a whole situation with the girl that was involved that I can't fully remember, but basically she's keeping him from seeing that kid, or at least that's what he claims. Made a whole song about it years ago, pretty wild.
@@blackskater121 If your baby daddy is a drug addict it's probably the best move as a parent to keep him out of your child's life though. It's extremely destructive for a child to deal with. In that sense it is still his fault that he is not in his child's life, even if he would want to and even if he want to be clean but can't. He made the choice to have a child while doing drugs, and that's fucked up and sad.
I took a perc a few months ago and it had me feeling like I was on top of the world, I’ve always had issues with addiction but normally it was whatever I could get my hands on as a teen, but after I tried that perc once I started wanting them everyday and it made me feel so depressed that I had let myself do that, I stayed strong and still am and haven’t touched it since, but it was scary because I really thought I had let myself fall into addiction with a substance that has a lot of potential to kill me, and seeing how my dad was on it for 20 years, I knew it was best to just hold on tight and not fall for it. Not everyone is as fortunate as me to drop the pill before it becomes a habit, and I have nothing but hopes and prayers for the people who fell for the devils tricks.
Keep strong.. it will never feel like enough, so it's not worth the pain.
I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group.
Bct643 xg
To see her start to cry when she talked about a different girl being inspired to pack up and leave a relationship like hers after watching one of her videos was so pure and heartbreaking. She is so strong to be honest with everyone on the whole damn internet, and I'm so glad she was able to help herself AND others in the end.
That's awesome and sweet!
It didn’t seem pure to me at all. But then again these are just opinions, didn’t seem honestly genuine
So I was a heroin addict for ten years. I literally felt as though she was describing my own relationship with my ex. Minus the part where I stayed clean after breaking up. I wish I could say that but I can’t. I also wish I had gotten out as soon as she did. I wasted 7 years of my youth on a man that would always love heroin more than me. It’s a losing battle. I used to think “but I’m on heroin and I’m still capable of loving him and caring about him”. Some people are just wired differently. It was always a losing battle. I created an environment where he was completely dependent on me financially (stripping which he didn’t care about either) so that he couldn’t leave me. I was so afraid to get clean because I knew when I did he would leave and I would have to face the fact that he never truly loved me. I preferred living a lie until I couldn’t anymore. The sick thing is there is a part of you that will always love them and crave the day they can love you back. But you have to learn to love yourself instead. Easier said than done but just know you aren’t alone and not to beat yourself up.
This comment literally reminds me of that song, Rihanna we found love.
Donut Dude so accurate
@@lauraschachte4162 especially the music video
Truth Talker hmmmm please show me where I said that? I never said it was his fault at all. In fact I had done heroin before even getting with him. I was simply describing the way my relationship was. He loved heroin more than me. Always. Never said it was his fault I was an addict. Also the term “junkie” is degrading. Not to me but to you. It shows how ill informed you are of the disease of addiction and someone as narcissistic as yourself would never want your ignorance to show ;) I made all of those decisions of my own free will. I chose to stay with a man that could never truly love me. I chose to live a lie. I chose to put a needle in my arm. Just like she did. The feelings that went behind those decisions however are very similar. Notice how almost every sentence in there starts with “I”. Because I did all those things. Not him. I was simply stating my personal pain of dating a heroin addict that would always choose the drug over me.
Heartattack 77 preach
I'm a recovering opioid addict so I could tell something was up with her. I watched her video a few weeks ago of her explaining her addiction and I honestly wish her the best.
@martin gonzalez you lame soulless pathetic bully piece of shit.
martin gonzalez you're too cowardly to have a profile picture so please keep your mouth quiet x
@martin gonzalez do you have nothing better to do with your life besides sit on youtube and comment this shit? You're not bothering me..you dont know me or my story so fuck off.
Mandy, forget about that guy. Wish you all the best and hope to recover spiritually because that is the hard part.
Ciao!
@martin gonzalez *recovering*
I'm 3 plus years from heroin and cocaine and you can do this! your story touches me and i love that you love your animals very much. You were so truthful and you're so strong. I'm here for you and very proud of you! I know how hard it was getting away from heroin and just getting off it. Whenever something's going wrong or bad in life remember how hard it was to get off and how shitty life was before.
I had so many “one last good night”s. Opiate is awful. I’m so glad she got clean, it’s such a hard thing to do. Love to her and all other addicts/recovering addicts out there - you are strong and you are worthy of sobriety xxx
Still struggling with that same concept - the dread of stopping is almost paralyzing, and only able to function and reason that stopping is the only way forward after using. :( Your message is well received
the crazy part is that “one last night” lead her into a couple years of addiction. she recently became sober again in august of this year (2021) he honestly ruined her by introducing her to that. i can’t imagine introducing someone to opiates for the first time & also making that first time an IV use. went full force in unlike most addicts who start with snorting or smoking then end up shooting up. so crazy to hear that he did that.
White people.
@DJ Pauly D Steve-O is a huge insperation for our generations. I love & respect what the man has done with himself, what he's created & the light he shares. A true insperation for US ALL!
And yo Pauly, if ur the "real Pauly", nothing but love & respect you you as well Brother.
@@nafisaali291 he introduced her to opiates but it was pain pills and then awhile later after they both had been on the pain pills is when she found him using a spoon to cook in the bathroom and he talked her into shooting heroin. She didn't go from never doing opiates straight to shooting heroin. She was already a opiate addict with pain pills but kept lying to herself saying it wasn't a problem cause they were prescription medications so how bad could they be as she said this video.
I love how I knew it was Johnny Craig right away. He grew up around Sacramento where I’m from, and I have friends that are mutual friends with the guy. The love people had for Johnny slowly died the more he delved into drugs and for most people who he was is just a sad memory. I do hope he gets help and I’m also glad this girl got away from him. What he did wasn’t okay, and him being on drugs isn’t an excuse to drag her down with him.
I don’t know if you know, but Jonny is with someone knew and has been for some time. They have a child together and.. seem like they’re fine. I hope they’re happy and healthy. Taylor is still struggling, and it’s painful knowing my old favorite TH-camr is still relapsing and trying to heal.
I hope everybody will be alright at the end
Well said !!!!
@@dollblossom_ You don’t mean Sydney England, do you? Because I’m pretty sure they’re broken up and at one point lost custody of their kid because Jonny Craig got a battery charge and was smoking fentanyl around their son.
@@blistertooth dude idfk her name and im not gonna stalk people THAT hard. I dont think he has more than 1 kid because thats all ive ever seen him speak of, so more than likely thats the one
Just from randomly watching stories at random intervals doesnt give that information, but ty for that update
@@dollblossom_ I really only know because I used to be a huge fan of Dance Gavin Dance and everyone was talking about it. He actually has two kids, his first baby mama left with the kid and never contacted him again, that’s what “children of divorce” is about
i’ve been clean from meth for 2 weeks now yayyyyy
How about now??
@@johnmason1777 💀💀
He dead???
You back on that shit now or what?
I hope you stay strong. Sending you a warm wish. 👍
To those commenting that she relapsed a lot after this video, that’s part of recovery. Yes that’s not an excuse for her actions but as someone who is part of the support system of someone who recently got sober, relapses happen. my partner was addicted to substances for about 2 years (I discouraged it but as we both have a past of abusive relationships we don’t dictate what we do and don’t do but just encourage safety at least) his dad and best friend were his enablers. When he finally had a wake up call to get sober he had 2 small relapses in the first month. Since then he’s had no relapses. His best friend has stayed sober with him and his dad, well is at arms length and knows not to make contact when he’s on substances. Most people become addicts because of someone they know exposing them to it, then they do it together, that’s why relapsing is common and almost part of the process. Now this doesn’t mean relapses are ok but it means they shouldn’t be ridiculed for relapsing and should instead be reminded why they are getting sober. If someone gives into the addiction and each time they relapse they say “screw it I’ve already relapsed might as well do more” that’s when sobriety is honestly not gonna be maintained, they need to have a relapse and say “dammit I’m an idiot I’m done with this” and not do more just because they’ve already relapsed so might as well. After the first relapse my partner rinsed his nose out (cocaine) because he realised what he was doing, the second was his best friend convinced him to do it one last time and stay sober from there (that one I wasn’t happy about but I know his friend who help him stay sober after that as his friend was just doing it casually). One last note, those with mental health or who are neurodivergent are more likely to relapse frequently due to poor impulse control.
I am 515 day's clean off heroin! I'm so happy to have my life back. It's possible if YOU want it. Congratulations to everyone in sobriety! We fckn did it!! xx
Are you on subs?
WOOO YEAH!!!!
I hope you're still doing well, love :)
Given this is TH-cam you literally gotta drop proof for people to believe you these days 😂. Mad but ppl lie for sympathetic likes and attention 😬
@@realeyesbars they don't gotta provide proof 🤣 Not trying to be rude, but if you don't believe someone, scroll. I do it all the time, cuz yeah, people to lie for attention. So I'll give them exactly the opposite of attention. If people believe them, oh well, people have lied for attention for YEARS, it's just more noticable now cuz with the internet you talk to more people than you ever would without. Also I'm not entirely sure what would work as proof of being a recovered addict. it would be impossible to post pictures of anything, and even so, posting pictures of medical records is probably one of the most stupid things you could do
TL:DR- Not trying to be rude, but nobody owes anyone proof of anything. Lying for attention has always been an issue, even before the internet age. Just ignore people who you think are faking it
Recovering addict of opiates, and crack/cocaine since 2019 and still here in 2020 and i refuse to let drugs run my life
@@PoliticalJames i try not to dwell on the last time i smoked hard but rather i think about how much jail time im looking at if i do lol
Well done.
Jacquelyn Ann and Brandon good for you
congratsss
@@21pilotos thank you babes 🖤
She's literally just sharing her story in 15 minutes idk why some of y'all suddenly know everything about drug addiction and her character 🙄 (edit: this is in response to people who have only watched THIS video and are saying she's a lowlife/it's all her fault/etc. I feel for this girl and she shouldn't be judged based on a 15 minute video)
lammer jammy most ppl will know someone this addiction has effected
Your the first negative comment I seen
Her first video on her channel about her addiction was 1+ hr long. She recently made another hour long video explaining all the fucked up shit this dude did to her. This video is by far not long enough to share everything.
lammer jammy I watched the real videos and all of them for like ages so yk
@@anastasiarichmond5523 I edited my original comment for clarification 👌
She was one of my absolute favorite youtubers growing up. I watched her videos at my worst times. This is heartbreaking, but i am so proud of her.
To quote a very wise man: "Drugs are bad, mkay?"
Mohammed Ouji 😂😂😂
Mkay
JONES BBQ AND FOOD MASSAGE!
You are now the wise man mmkay...
@Runitup Monte Heroin is non toxic.. alcohol is by far the worst drug
When she talked about the women who left her fiance that night or the people she gave strength to leave.... That's why we should tell our stories. That's why we survived
"I was ready to jump on to anyone who looked at me"
This is where her addiction grew from, her deep desire for social affirmation.
Add a drug addict, musician with face tattoos and we all know what comes next
No one wants to acknowledge that even though she says it over and over again.
Might I even add.... this reminds me of Amy Winehouse? Didn’t wanna say it cause I respect her music so much but damnn...
Is crazy that these insecurities always come from really good looking people. Maybe it's because when you are ugly you just accept yourself and move on lol
@@KingFuego I got the impression she didn't have much of a chance to meet people and was pretty much pent up at home. I don't know her story, though.
@@KingFuego I must be really beautiful then
Well done getting away from the devil's dandruff... It's so easy to fall into addiction and so hard to get out of it... Take one day at a time and if you fall dust yourself off and move on and forget about it... I wish you all the best and life's happiness... God bless... I know it's hard but you saved that girl for falling into that life and many more people that you don't even realize... Stay strong 💙💙💙🕊️😇 😇😇 God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️
I'm an addict and trying to stay away
Now I'm clean for the past 3 days and gonna try harder this time not to do any of this s**t it put me and my family into crisis please pray for me that I come out of this demonic mess I'm tangled up into
@@Scoopadoodle good for you... I know how hard it is especially within the first 74 hours of staying clean... Just remember with every hour that passes that an hour of victory... When I was getting clean I would think of the babies that are born into this world that are addicts and how much they don't deserve it... I deserve everything I went through but not babies... Keep up the good work... you're in my prayers and thoughts... And starve them demons they will leave you... God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️
@@neilmooney5053 I felt such a relief brother 🕊️🕊️🕊️ Happy New year
@@Scoopadoodle happy New Year to you too... Hope you have a great year ahead of you... And remember if you slip it's not the end of the world just a lesson... Stay strong... Your in my thoughts and prayers 🙏🙏🙏🕊️🕊️🕊️
@@Scoopadoodle I pray that now it is 11 days sober. Keep fighting. You are stronger than you think.
“I was born with glass bones, and paper skin”
Wow, that’s really a thing.
Carlos Marte I have this disease too, didn’t know Taylor had it too. I can see how heroin can be appealing from a pain-management standpoint. It hurts a lot
yes, she talked about her disease in her channel I believe it's still there
Spongebob?
Richard Rodriguez There we go, where are my other Gen-Y members at?
I just lost a beautiful friend, Jennifer Nye, to this disease. Also, recently, singer Sia has come forward stating she suffers from this disease as well.
I'm an a addict myself I'm proud to say I've been clean now for almost 3 yrs. Getting clean has been the best thing I could of ever did for myself. Thank u for sharing ur story
Frankie Bars I’ll be 3 years clean on April 11th, 2020! 💪 so proud of you ❤️ much love to you
@@taylorgarton6983 that's amazing proud of u. This has been 1 of the hardest and best things I've ever done for not only myself but my family an friends. RIP to all the ppl an all my friends that wasn't as lucky as us. If u or any1 ever needs to talk or a shoulder to cry on I'm a great listener
That’s amazing! You’ve done so well, man
Frankie Bars congratulations 🎈 that is awesome 👏🏻
Good for you. Congratulations
She doesn’t understand how inspirational she is. She made my realize how much my mom went through. My mom died of heroin oct 5 2017. Her abusive ex made her do it.
Noel Towart she relapsed 😶 all I’m saying is don’t believe everything you see. She’s kept secrets for a long time and continues too
No one can make you use drugs they can encourage and reinforce use but it's your decision.
Yeah she’s sooo inspirational. The girl whose negligence killed her animals. Wow how do I learn to take in a bunch of pets and then kill them? 😡 y’all need to do research on her
Y’all need to stop she went through all of this and you are still treating her like trash.
@@wolfgirl6031 😂😂😂
She is unbelievably strong for being able to come out and show that’s she’s looked in the mirror and wasn’t happy and decided to fix it. GOOD FOR HER!!!!!