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- Taylor Nicole Dean is queen of PetTube, a TH-cam niche for bloggers with dozens of pets. But after disappearing for a few months, she finally came back with a video explaining how she had been addicted to heroin. In this episode of MY LIFE ONLINE, we track Taylor’s meteoric rise to celebrity and how addiction took over her life.
00:00 Intro
01:19 Meet Taylor
03:54 What's PetTube?
06:00 How I got into drugs
11:49 Getting Sober
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Why did I think this was about some chick taking heroin for the first time on a livestream?!
Lol so did I
Me too
the title's a little misleading lol
Why did I think the same thing and why did I click it? Lol
Mee too!
Can you imagine how many other youtubers are drug addicts and people don't even know it?!
The Reality of Life
Probably a lot more than we think. We only see a small portion of their life, who knows what goes on behind the scenes.
Loads more do gear of their choice without getting into bother or problems and so the 'expert agencies' know nothing about them.
Dope As Yola does cocaine pretty frequently im pretty sure
but who doesn’t at this point
every single person i know in real life, whether i like them or not does drugs except for my mother, and i know im from a shit area but if literally every single person i know does hard drugs on the regular then clearly some youtubers have to be as well
2023 update: Since this video Taylor had relapsed many times. She bullied and sent her followers to bully anyone who questioned her sobriety. She told people it’s okay to drink alcohol while freshly in sobriety and on. She then tried to get back with the “man” she speaks so poorly about after not being together for 2.5 years. When people found out all hell broke loose and people lost their minds. She then had taken a long break, got sober and happy to say Taylor is a year and a half sober! Recovery looks different for everyone, it’s hard as hell. So proud where she is today!
How do you know?
this comment written by her or her publicist? lol please
@@gazjaz2010she ain’t sober now? 😂
@@samuelwetz8378nah I think they just making fun of that they posted this like a publicist
Why spread drama?
I'm really proud of her and I'm impressed with her integrity. She accepted both the good and bad of what's happened with her channel. i'm also really impressed with the warning for parents at the beginning. Really well-spoken girl.
Extremely well spoken wow that’s crazy
Was this before or after she relapsed?
@@zer00rdie This was before a couple of relapses, but the time between them has got longer and I think she recently put on twitter that shes finally made it to the one year sober mark after four years trying, which is a big milestone. Relapse unfortunately is part of most people's recovery.
@@ChickenOfAwesomeshes posting again on her youtube channel.
dont praise a drug user
I had a friend that I tried cocaine with when I was 18, he introduced it to me, and I loved it once I tired it. I handed him some money the next day and said, "here's some more cash, get us some more for tonight". I'll never forget his response, "I think you like it a little too much, so let's not'! I never tried it again and I can't help but feel that he helped me dodge a major bullet😉
Yooo thank that guy ! You definitely dodged a bullet if not more !
i mean.. coke is whatever 😂
@@GayActorMichaelDouglas666 how is it "whatever" 😐
I like the scene in Six Feet Under with the girl who OD's on cocaine. Scared the shit out of me when she turns green and starts convulsing. As it is never wanted to try coke even though it was available to me.
A friend would never introduced you to drugs, in this case he did and by not being consistent he actually removed himself from any stigma. After your introduction, he left it up to you to decide if you wanted to continue the use. He could had been your pusher. Stay clean, cause no one likes a druggie
97 days clean of meth. 3 years clean of heroine and pain pills. I’m working on my addiction. I’m 97 days clean. And that’s what I’m sticking to. It’s hard but it’s worth it.
Two days, won't last I'm half out the door planning it in my mind already. Why? I'm 39 now and it's been my entire life, maybe it's just me.
@@Nuffsed81 did you last?
@@Nuffsed81 meth is hell
@@jessemartinez3476 I lasted 13 days and now I'm 3 days clean again. Back to square one basically. I need to change friend, places, job, home, else it ain't ever gonna stop but others should keep trying. Depends where you at at in life ( not geographically but mentally). I will keep trying. Thank for asking but I not a happy ending. Rarely is with hard drugs.
@@umarmujahid8436 I'm not bad with meth, it's crack an heroin snowballs. They got me bad. Meth would grab me by the balls if I did it so I stay away from it. Its damn rare in UK so that is a good thing.
i used to watch her when i was little, i’m a zoologist now. i’m happy she’s doing good now, i had no idea about any of this. thank you for sparking something in me :)
Awwwwww ❤🎉
This is amazing
One last time is what took my wife from me. She said the same thing, that we would do it just one more time and hold each other, then get clean. She overdosed and died in my arms. I've been clean since April of this year. She died in November of last year, only months after giving birth to our second child. I miss her so much.
I live in the worst neighborhood in Canada and I wanna see a couple of Fridays ago I witnessed this guy in front of our building in front of our doorway of our senior citizen's building take one token his face turn bright red he fell over like a board and died I these drugs are killing people like crazy. I'm sorry for your lost I've seen so many people die on how drugs in my neighborhood during this pandemic I'll never get over it I just want my neighborhood to burn down I want someone to bomb it. I'm not on hard drugs I can't even check out unless I jump off my window
May she rest in peace. And may you remain sober for the rest of your life. Hows baby doing?
@@Lumin1116 My little boy is well. The problem is that the foster family that currently has him have hired a lawyer and are trying to get my parental rights terminated so they can adopt him. I've also hired a lawyer and I am fighting them for my son.
@@leedavis8300 Best wishes to you and your kid 😙
@@leedavis8300 i am relieved to hear is he so loved, sorry to hear there is so much strife. This must be so hard on you and i imagine this could make your path of sobriety that much harder. But now you have a reason to fight like crazy for life, for love.. just be prepared for any outcome.. i mean that - prepare for it mentally and emotionally, so that no matter what happens you will not default back to your addiction. I have no idea what your situation is like, and you have probs already thought about this, but if it looks like a losing battle try to compromise, maybe you can have visits, partial custody etc. Just as long as its temporary, so you can prove yourself if needs be. I think its truly admirable that you have kicked the bad habits and are actually fighting for your child. No doubt your wife is proud of you and watching over you both. All the best man! Goodluck!
One more time, is the worst thing a drug addict could ever say.
FALpwn well it can definitely be deadly. 😿💋
I can't help but think about the Daft Punk song... blame it on my dark humor
Frs😪
Very true.
Yet that’s what they say the most. Addiction is a lifelong battle and Sobriety is a lifelong achievement.
The title was too click baity to not click
Shit ass video though
Yea🤣
Is "click baity" a word lol?, but I do agree though had to see what was up myself.
Vice in one sentence
Really
i used to binge watching her videos back in highschool and i really liked her personality, then she just never posted and gone. her videos is one of the things that get me into reptiles, and now im in vet school. sending much love for taylor, i hope she's doing better now
wow that’s crazy
shes posting again on her channel.
I started taking heroin since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting heroin addiction. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be used globally for treatment of certain health challenges.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
Yes Dr.alishrooms
I'm really happy for you that your mom decided to help you...I hear about alot of family members or so called friends shutting an addict out of their life, which since most addicts do it to mask emotions to me is the worse thing someone can do to an addict.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
138 days clean off Heroin. Stay strong and stay with the people in recovery.
You’re doing great🦋! I wish you the best
That's whats up, proud of you! I got over 6 years that I never actually think about, I just take it day by day. You got this! Stay strong
Stay strong. Good luck
Helloamrose thank you
Sincity Angel life on life’s terms day by day lol thanks man
Did heroin for 10 yrs, shot it the last 6 yrs of it. Started when I was 17. After I was told I'd never see my kids again and 3 short stints in jail, enough was enough. Now I'm 37, married, and been 10 yrs clean, 11 yrs next month. Did it cold turkey, 2 1/2 sleepless wks. I couldn't lose my kids, just couldn't.
3/30/2009
You came through for your kids, that’s what a good father does. I wish you the best
I hope you know your strength is indescribable. You are incredibly brave
I'm so happy for you Robert. Even if it's been 10 years, every day can be a challenge some times. Wishing you the best
@@jessicacole8404 especially now, when everyone stuck in the house. Dark thoughts run thru your head.
Thank you all. It's been a blessing.
To be a person addicted to drugs and drag a naive beautiful soul; who LOVES and wants to save you, into addiction so you won’t be alone is the most heartbreaking tragedy.
Right? She seems like a very lovely, genuine person, and he got her addicted
Happens far too often
Damn yall aren't addicts are you?
@@Fab-n-dabKev Damn you're not really that much of a judgemental prick are you? 🤢
I did heroin once because of this exact situation and immediately overdosed. They used narcan on me twice and still couldn’t revive me for 10 mins. I aspirated and they for sure thought I’d be brain dead. Luckily the DA charged the guy and I actually receive restitution now from him with no contact allowed. I struggled with alcohol for a few years after but I’m completely sober now. Terrified of looking for love or friends. But doing well.
Found Taylor when I got into fish tanks after my mom passed. Believe it or not it became a very therapeutic hobby for me. I had no idea she was struggling with this. I was shocked to learn this news. Very brave of her to share her struggles.
I did the same at 18. Almost a 4 year relationship and I told him that I wanted a new life for us. He promised to go to rehab but changed his mind last minute so I packed my shit and went to rehab in a different state. 55 days later I left the rehab but refused to return home and made a life for myself in california. I am almost 4 years clean and he is getting sent to prison.
That’s great. I am happy you got out and made healthy choices.
She was warned before and during the early stages of her relationship tho. His abuse was public and his former abuse victims warned her and offered her shelter. So it’s probably a little different.
If your in socal stay away from downtown la. Drugs are everywhere.
Joey Whiteside nah just stay away from so-cal
@@conradkorbol Oh. Yes, that is different.
@@joeywhiteside3729 Yes they are. I spent 3 years of my sobriety there and saw how bad it is in certain areas in California. Very sad.
She never said he forced her to do drugs. She says he encouraged her and was an enabler to her addiction problem.
It's still just as bad- imagine someone manipulating you and taking advantage of your state of mind
She still has no right to blame him. She had a drug problem before him. Liked him because he had access to drugs and probably truly enjoyed his company. She was heavily addicted to pills which she thought were safe because it was a prescription.i doubt shes telling the full truth especially about the whole ice cream story.
Anthony Pareigis got something against her sounds like...
@@PuffyAmiYumi yeah i do. She's an adult. She knew full well he was a junkie. And she was too. She used him to get access to drugs because she didn't know where to get them. Then decides to rise the jonny is a pos wave to gain more followers. She minimizes everything she did by glossing over it and focusing on how he gave her heroin, when she was actively seeking drugs. That's literally a junkie blaming the drug dealer for giving them drugs. Jonny is a total shitbag dont get me wrong. But shes absolutely blaming him, when the truth is if it wasn't him it would have been someone else because the problem was inside her. She had things she needed to deal with and still does.
Anthony Pareigis She barely an adult. She still young and has a lot to learn in life and how the real world was/is.
This was filmed a few years ago when she first came out about her addiction. She’s sadly struggled with staying sober since then. As of now, she claims to be sober for almost a year. I was addicted to opiates at her age too, and I had the same issues with relapsing after months of sobriety. Finally it just stuck and I’ve been sober for over a decade now.
I think she’ll get it. Hopefully she won’t fall back again, but even if she does I think she’ll eventually stay sober. Opiates/heroin is the absolute worst drug and hard to quit.
Hopefully if she is using she’s doing prescriptions and not actual heroin, not great but much less damaging
she did relapse again but she's sober for a year now :)
@@namesizack the problem with heroin is that its never pure, if it was pure there would be nearly no negative long term effects other than sex drive loss constipation and addiction
It’s super inspiring to hear how long you’ve managed to be sober for. It’s such a tricky hole to get out of and for me personally, the black and white thinking of complete recovery or relapse has been detrimental because I always interpreted it like all or nothing. I was scared by the thought of abandoning my coping mechanism forever (especially since it was how I was controlling s***cial urges) and therefore didn’t want to even try to get better. Seeing it first through the lens of harm reduction and then all progress still counting as progress no matter how minor; like increasing the amount of time I went without my DOC, then managing a week, month or six months of general sobriety in one go. When i’d relapse my rule was to minimise as many of the risks as possible and put it down again the moment I have sufficient mental health support for it not to be integral to my survival. More clear cut recovery is still my goal but i’m trying to be proud of the steps i’ve taken instead of dismiss it as not enough
@@dizzy_izzy_ohh realizing there’s a problem and knowing you need to do something about it I think it’s the biggest step of all, which you’re already half way there now. You’ll get to the point of where you want to be. I’ve met a lot of addicts over the years and the ones that seem to have the most success are the ones who are aware of their issues and keep trying no matter how many times they fall off. Self awareness is so important.
My sister sadly became an addict and it’s going on 4 years now. She hasn’t come to that point of realizing she’s the only one who can turn it around and instead will blame anyone and anything else.
Hopefully one day she will but I don’t know.
I wish you all the luck and success on your journey!
My best friend in my 20s intentionally committed suicide with heroin. Pretty tough stuff I was a pallbearer at his funeral. I’m 31 now and I doubt I’ll ever forget what he looked like after the fact. Anyone struggling with this you can do it as long as you have the mental strength. You got this.
Sounds like she had a bigger problem with stalkers and American based eco terrorist group, than heroin.
For example, after thousands of U.S. citizens showed their dedication to fundamental human rights and went out in protest of the torture of detainees at Guantanamo Bay as an affront to human dignity...I apologized because I thought those members of Al-Qaeda deserved the death penalty.
Its fairly clear everyone from John Stewart to the other fine citizens of Massachusetts agree that I'm in the wrong here. So I'm sorry that I believe in the death penalty and I'm sorry that I believe Al Qaeda members involved in the 9/11 Attacks should have been executed. The People of the United States have shown me the error of my ways and I admit that I was wrong and I'm sorry.
Seriously though, watching the U.S. military gay gang rape and serially gay rape those POWS might have traumatized children and turned them as gay as the military personnel who did the gay raping. I just wasn't aware you wanted more gay children whose first gay experience was watching U.S. military personnel gay rape, gay gang rape, and serially gay rape Muslim POWS.
I'm sorry. I was wrong. I didn't know you people wanted gay children. And I'm sorry for believing that people guilty of mass murder deserved the penalty. I truly wish I could have supported the U.S. military and it's personnel who sexually abused these POWS for years while shooting those videos, and promise to make every attempt to support the U.S. military in these endeavors in the future.
@@justinlavine9209 I’m not entirely sure what this response has anything to do with what I said if I’m honest
@@veritasbutnotthatone2119 I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group.
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@@justinlavine9209 oooooh I thought you were referring to my comment my bad. Woops
@@veritasbutnotthatone2119 Oh, sorry. I see the confusion. I had initially written. "Lady, don't apologize to an angry mob..."
I have some experience with angry mobs. So I attempted to give an example (the never ending digression on POWS & Iraq) on how someone can end up shooting themselves in the foot trying to placate an angry mob.
I thought a vice employee was going to literally get addicted to heroin as a documentary to show us the symptoms of addiction and withdrawal. That would be crazyyy
Jacob Wilson lmaooooo
Same here😂😂😂😂
Same!!
Yea that would have actually made a good video. I really don't care about this woman's clickbait woe is me story.
Some guy did that for a documentary years ago, he's still addicted to heroin to this day as far as I know. Super tragic. Think it was for the BBC in the 90s
Almost a year havent touched a needle and bout a month and a half haven't had a drink..wheres the emoji for when you jump in the air and click your heels?
There should be one for occasions like this 😊 Well done. 🙌
:)
@@pererik6731 thanks man..if only the good you feel clean could be properly expressed to those still struggling so they'd know its worth it
I hope someday you share how and why you recovered. Soooooo many ppl do not make it. It's so sad. If you ever want to send me your story on video or do an interview online I'd love to share it with the numerous addicts who can't find reason to recover.
Good for you! Wishing you strength on your journey x
He totally manipulated her into getting addicted to drugs so she wouldn't convince him to stop. Been through it in the past I send her love and everyone recognize what someone goes through on drugs is not them. I'm glad she seems to be doing better now
“Couldn’t be my fault” said the addict
@@mastergator9641 I don't disagree that one cannot get better without accepting their own accountability for their actions but it is ok not to blame oneself for the past and see reasons why one could quickly become trapped in a bad relationship. Keep in mind victims of abuse are threatened with their lives if they attempt to leave the relationship.
You’re not in recovery if you’re still blaming others for your addiction. And neither was she which is why she’s relapsed over and over since this video. They tell you this repeatedly in recovery- no one forced her to do drugs. No one forced you either.
No he didn’t he offered and she took it fully aware of the results hence her screaming when she found out
This is such a real subject and I appreciate how open she is. She comes off as very genuine and I appreciate her. I hope shes doing better these days and keeps growing. Everyone makes mistakes.
I watched her for ages, then she was gone, then all these people were talking about how awful a pet parent she was. Next thing I saw she had a video about her struggles and I was like 😳
Yeah she’s a sweet girl who was struggling
Dam
What in tarnation is a pet parent?
@@edmanrapperu you just made my day ☺️ tarnation almost as good as cripes 😁
@jason bauer
*you're
So she basically was young, lonely, and lead a sheltered life- which made her a perfect victim for a heroine addicted psychopath who lives by using women. ...Its a wonder she got out alive really.
Jonny Craig is the biggest piece of shit leach in the world, he’s burned every bridge in his life and still, just some how, managed to continue his journey of destroying everything he touches
Bullshit no one forced her to shot heroin.
Flofy387 this comment never mentioned her being forced to do heroin lol what. Just mentions what POS Jonny Craig is which is the truth.
@@Flofy387 And you could argue the peer pressure of someone who has insecurities and who has self esteem issues as she did, was coerced or felt the need to take drugs by others around here.
very surprising especially cus she was easily manipulated by her ex like damb
I'm 3 plus years from heroin and cocaine and you can do this! your story touches me and i love that you love your animals very much. You were so truthful and you're so strong. I'm here for you and very proud of you! I know how hard it was getting away from heroin and just getting off it. Whenever something's going wrong or bad in life remember how hard it was to get off and how shitty life was before.
18 months sober it’s important to know that this drug and specifically does not discriminate doctors lawyers girls boys all people young people get addicted to opiates and it turns into a hard-core heroin addiction
Vice didn’t add a single link to her channel in the description but somehow managed to find the time, strength and stamina to add 17 of their own... 😒🙄
Because this girls neglect lead to several of her animals deaths, and a prolonged stage of neglect. You want this kind of person to get publicity? Weirdo.
@@russ7233 but they're ok to make money off her?
@@MrsHouseTakeNewVegas hold on, please say that again. Vice and making money don’t belong in the same sentence. Vice is struggling. Vice is a joke.
@@russ7233 7.5 million net worth doesnt sound like they're struggling to me
@@russ7233 If they're willing to post her story for their own benefit, the least they can do is link her channel. Otherwise it's blatant exploitation.That's just elementary- level, common curtesy on social media
To everyone in the comments saying they're in the recovering process or have recovered from drug abuse I'm so proud of you 👏 👏👏👏
Very kind of u! Wish more thought like this💕
thank you 🙏🏼
You're awesome! Thank you! :)
Pa... im proud of ppl who dont touch it fullstop not some skag head who "says" this and that in the comments of a self harm vid. Jokers...your pride aint worth a wank
Martin Conneally, Eat a snickers. You’re kinda biotchy when you’re hungry.
As an heroin addict my self, struggling with co dependent relationships, I can see my self in alot of things she said. I used for about 5 years since I was 17 when I first met my ex gf that gave me some weird brown powder to smoke. I loved it from day one, it was everything I ever wanted to feel and I struggle extremely up holding my life without it. I was a functioning heroin addict. It made me cope with my life I only stopped shooting up or smoking when I met someone I really loved. But the relationship became very codependent we both had the same issue with love and we split and I instantly fell into it again. Now I am clean since 2 months and My last time shooting up was in July on my birthday.
You should be really proud of yourself for how long you’ve been clean, and for continuing to fight to have a life without it. I things continue to be good for you. Keep fighting the good fight.
you can do it!!
Glad you're doing well, hope you keep at it. I love me some drugs but I could honestly never understand the appeal of heroin / opiates. I always kind of hated the way they made me feel. Heroin was just crawling around the ground half asleep feeling like I was gonna puke. I guess I should be glad I hated it every time I ever tried it and that ecstasy and mushrooms aren't addictive or I'da had a real problem lol.
i’m so proud of her and how far she’s come with her rehab
I'm using this quarantine as an opportunity to try and really focus on my sobriety. Spending a lot of time with family.
Mr. HiBye Keep going, the positives outweigh the negatives by far. i feel so much better sober, best decision of my life
@@rosslittlewolf4542 Yes! Pure happiness is better than any high I've ever experienced that's for sure.
💓💓💓
Stay strong stay focused, you can absolutely do this! 💪
That's wonderful man
Almost 365 days clean from HEROIN and alcohol! Much love to all my fellow recovering addicts
Congrats!!! Keep going!!!! 🙏🙏🙏👍👍👍👍👍
I feel you I have 1year.... God is Good just keep praying 🙏!
How did u get threw withdrawls? Did you use any medications?
👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿♥️🌱🌱
Congratulations!! Keep up the good work... It's all worth it in the end!
God bless you and your channel and all that you do that obviously your subscribers care about and watch on a regular basis to make your channel such a success. This is the very first time that I’ve seen your channel and I watched this post from start to finish, it brought tears to my eyes to see such a genuine post coming from someone that truly cares and loves what she does, and what you say on your channel matters. I think thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of people could benefit by watching this one video. If they see no other post of yours this could be probably one of your most important ever. This is the type of content that could very well save the life of someone that’s experiencing the same thing that you were and God bless you for making the decision to do the right thing by getting yourself clean 🙏🙏and getting away from the person that introduced you to one of the most evil drugs in this world known as heroin. I know that having your personal testimony as part of your channel and being real with people about what you’ve gone through and have overcome will be a big part of your channel and know that by doing so you touch the hearts of many and could be potentially a part of helping save someone’s life. I’m going to subscribe and share your channel with others in the hopes that someone in need will see your content and know that people care and life is worth living, regardless of where you are.👌🙏🙏☺😊😋💋💋
I took a perc a few months ago and it had me feeling like I was on top of the world, I’ve always had issues with addiction but normally it was whatever I could get my hands on as a teen, but after I tried that perc once I started wanting them everyday and it made me feel so depressed that I had let myself do that, I stayed strong and still am and haven’t touched it since, but it was scary because I really thought I had let myself fall into addiction with a substance that has a lot of potential to kill me, and seeing how my dad was on it for 20 years, I knew it was best to just hold on tight and not fall for it. Not everyone is as fortunate as me to drop the pill before it becomes a habit, and I have nothing but hopes and prayers for the people who fell for the devils tricks.
Keep strong.. it will never feel like enough, so it's not worth the pain.
I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group.
Bct643 xg
FYI: *Do not flush needles.*
Spider Man why not
LongLiveTheYouth you can damage plumbing inside and beyond the building, and drugs in the water supply is a very real problem, which is why you should never flush drugs either. it’s very hard to filter out in water treatment plants. just dispose of any used needles at the nearest hospital, they will have a sharps disposal container.
@@spookykidbunny Although with most western countries, there's a war on drugs. So if you go to the hospital with a bunch of used syringes, and you get stopped by police on the way, you're getting at least a paraphernalia charge.
@Tony O'Brien Oh cool, i wasn't aware of that. I knew about needle exchanges etc, but not about the containers.
Can you give me a call and explain why 1 772 663 2115 my name is Ben Buckland and I have a heroine addiction
“This is echo. Echo’s a gecko” lol the perfect name
I can't watch anymore.
Thank you for bringing this to light for the public, and for struggling addicts also for those in recovery.
I love Taylor so much. She and I got sober around the same time and her responses to me were so sweet and uplifting. So proud of her. ❤️❤️
Please don't flush needles! A hospital can dispose of them correctly for you.
Right and stop throwing them in the streets.
Yeah but heroin addicts aren’t thinking “oh let me go to the hospital and give them my heroin needle” the fear of being arrested I’m assuming is too strong.
Shannon true
@@shannon6281 they should have a drop off box some were. No ones wants go in hp and drop needles off. There going ask questions and try talk you in rehab. Witch is good but some people dont want to put there self's out there.
A lot of gas stations have box for needles
When she gives parents a warning about their child watching her video , that was actually very very cool. I like that. 💜
I agree
I respect the fact that she cared enough and kept it real
@@cartermade8634 yeah
It is very cash money of her
I don’t know what channels you watch but most I do always do that...
She was one of my absolute favorite youtubers growing up. I watched her videos at my worst times. This is heartbreaking, but i am so proud of her.
im happy people come out with videos like this it really helps bring out the issues some people struggle and can help them a ton and i love that
Such a powerful story. I was a homeless junkie. Got clean in 1995.
This November I will finish EMT school and have plans to go on to paramedic school and am blessed to own my home.
there is always hope. 💚
Bloody hell! This is amazing! I’m so proud 💕
What a QUEEN/KING
Congratulations 🎉🎊, I'm very proud of you for doing that, it's never easy ...the battles never end but you've been up for the challenge.
THATS AMAZING. so so proud of you! you’re an incredible person
You're so strong! Congrats!
The fact that the guy made it seem like the heroin was a drug to kick back and watch movies and chill had me dead lol
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heroin
Dee'em Beatz he is E V I L
I mean it actually is...
Johnny Dzidic Maybe... but I’d rather just smoke a bowl or something
There's some truth 2 that - The problem is when it wears off
I watched her and loved her pet videos. So many people started hating on her when she confessed she had a heroin problem. Always felt bad for her though. I ironically was also addicted around the same time she was under similar circumstances so I was able to empathize with her a lot.
I was a heroine IV user for ten years I was clean 3 years then broke my leg got back in and relapsed again moved to az and got into fentanyl and now I’m back to being clean it’s a struggle for sure
Dont ever go to Yale psych ward i think this may be click bait for their ward also what do you know about antipsychotica
Moral of the story:
never trust someone when they say it's "no big deal".
especially if they offer you A class drug with tendency to hook user up from 1st dose
@@it_is_what_it_is269 people don't tend to get addicted to things the first time. But every addict has had a first time so it can seem that way
another good one is "if they're resorted to hiding the evidence, it's gone too far"
Do cake not drugs
When she said she was really outgoing and loved meeting new people but she was too anxious about it... I felt that. A lot.
I reside in the BRONX, NY AND I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU AT......... IT'S NOT EASY AND FOR SURE I DO HAVE MY DAYS THAT ARE VERY HARD TO COPE WITH, BUT I LOOK BACK BY LOOKING FORWARD!!!!!!......... DON'T WANNA BE WHERE I WAS!!!!!!!!!........... DON'T KNOW YOU PERSONALLY BUT YOU TRULY DON'T NEED THE APPROVAL OR PRAISE OF ANYONE, IF YOU LOVE URSELF THAT'S WHAT IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!............. REMAIN STRONG AND ALWAYS BE STRAIGHT WITH YOURSELF!!!!!!!
True story: I met Jonny Craig once. His band were playing in my hometown (sort of, nearby), and my band were the main support. We were more fans of DGD than Slaves but we needed the exposure, and my drummer was a big Jonny Craig fan. Nothing really happened that was all that serious, but the guy was a little out of it. Nothing shocking to any of us, we were all fucked up, too. But, halfway through his band's set he started screaming at the audience telling them to "fucking start moving" or he was "going home". He didn't go home, but he did angrily tweet about the Plymouth, UK show for like two days after lol. He didn't realise that he was playing in a total deadzone. He must have been accustomed to very different types of crowds.
TL:DR; Jonny Craig is a little bit delusional.
A year clean from crack and herion.
The pandemic was good for something at least.
So happy for you! Such a strong individual, I hope nothing but the best for you.
Also an addict in recovery. During lock down, addicts being out there in active use was something that was heavy on my mind. Just always wondering what that would be like. I'm proud of you!! Hell yes.
Me too
Keep going!! And even if you fall off the wagon, hop back on and keep going! Don’t ever count that time as lost. ❤️
@@RebekahSBryan don't think it's a wagon I'll be falling off again tbh.
That damn mouse click sound needs to die. Jesus Christ, we get it, don't need it for every transition.
It only annoyed me because you pointed it out
@@dropsmic3224 same lmao
Please stop using Jesus name in such a way
Faith Kings: Please stop believing in fairy tails.
@@Exitof99 jesus christ
Respect to her for being honest and open, hard to admit you have an addiction.wish her the best.
Well done getting away from the devil's dandruff... It's so easy to fall into addiction and so hard to get out of it... Take one day at a time and if you fall dust yourself off and move on and forget about it... I wish you all the best and life's happiness... God bless... I know it's hard but you saved that girl for falling into that life and many more people that you don't even realize... Stay strong 💙💙💙🕊️😇 😇😇 God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️
I'm an addict and trying to stay away
Now I'm clean for the past 3 days and gonna try harder this time not to do any of this s**t it put me and my family into crisis please pray for me that I come out of this demonic mess I'm tangled up into
@@MGKiDunya good for you... I know how hard it is especially within the first 74 hours of staying clean... Just remember with every hour that passes that an hour of victory... When I was getting clean I would think of the babies that are born into this world that are addicts and how much they don't deserve it... I deserve everything I went through but not babies... Keep up the good work... you're in my prayers and thoughts... And starve them demons they will leave you... God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️
@@neilmooney5053 I felt such a relief brother 🕊️🕊️🕊️ Happy New year
@@MGKiDunya happy New Year to you too... Hope you have a great year ahead of you... And remember if you slip it's not the end of the world just a lesson... Stay strong... Your in my thoughts and prayers 🙏🙏🙏🕊️🕊️🕊️
@@MGKiDunya I pray that now it is 11 days sober. Keep fighting. You are stronger than you think.
Am I the only person annoyed with how many "click" animation sounds there are
Right here 🖐
I am now
You are not alone
Viewerisland - VBQL Same, it's like watching a clip show
Not here
3 years clean from heroine & pain pills. Stay strong everyone (:
I cant even wrap my mind around that
I salute you!
Thank you. It was the hardest challenge I've ever accomplished. I was dying, I was 85 pounds. But I've been on Suboxone for almost 4 years now and it has saved my life. Now I can be the best mom I can be for my daughter, my dog & my 7 cats (:
Are you a heroine for quitting heroin?
You are in the right path QUEEN ❤️❤️
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
-Joshua 1:9
I didn't realize her bf was Jonny craig. I played a show with him like 10 years ago where he stole someone's phone and laptop and just walked onto his tour bus with it. Didn't realize that guy is still kicking around ruining people's lives.
Thats a old video. He hit a year sober now.
I’m a 21 year old female heroin addict (I’m currently still using but are working my way towards a serious attempt at recovery) And the amount of stigma I’ve experienced is really shocking. I’ve dealt with multiple serious mental illnesses but nothing could’ve prepared me for people’s judgement. It’s seen as a moral failing and spiteful criminal act. I’m not dodging all responsibility but an abusive childhood and years of my life spent on psych wards may provide a little explanation (not justification) I’ve lost so many friends when I’ve asked them for help and there’s just an assumption that I’m going to lie and steal
Hopefully you stuck by this and managed ❤
i really feel for her. i can’t imagine being an online personality, being constantly critiqued, and then getting addicted to heroin. everyone has an opinion today and everyone is a keyboard warrior. instead of spreading hate, people should try to support and uplift. i’ve been watching her youtube channel for a while and she seems like a really genuine person. hope she’s doing okay!
@@taylordurden8470 oh 100%. and the fact that it is so cheap. we all need to do better to try and view addicts as people, not just someone who has a drug addiction. it’s such a heartbreaking disease. of course, that initial trying the drug is a choice, but from them on out, it’s out of their hands. i hope everyone that needs help can get it ❤️
@Don Shylock yet choices can end up as mistakes.
@@alexandrascauri3799 100%! society in general view addicts as scum who are weak and are selfish and are without any remorse or regrets. Heroin addicts view themselves as unworthy of love and that they are a burden to people they love and those who care about them. They can feel that they deserve the pain and suffering they live through
@Don Shylock what about a veteran who has deeply been traumatized by what they lived through and they start using heroin to cope with the pain of what they did and/or saw.
@@taylordurden8470 exactly. we need to start looking at addiction as a sickness, not a choice
When I saw her boyfriend's name was Jonny, I was like "wait, is that the same Jonny who keeps getting kicked out of bands?" so I looked it up, and yep, it's Jonny Craig.
ya lol i was like is this the one and only jonny craig ?!?
@Jessica Momanyi watch Taylor's heroin addiction video. You won't like Jonny anymore.
dude same! I wasn't paying close enough attention when they first showed him in pictures with her, like damn he looks familiar.. then.. :OO now the DGD scandal days all coming back to me lol
He’s a good guy with a lot of pain in his heart. I don’t like that some people judge him solely based on one side of the story. People who are happy don’t use. People use who aren’t happy. Then everyone around them is pulled down into the darkness with them. It’s a vicious cycle and we have all got to help pull each other up. Jonny’s come a long way so I’m happy for both of them.
@@musicandglamour9184 Jonny is a complicated guy, he's fought some powerful demons and his effort is commendable, but he ended up doing some extremely scummy things in the pit of addiction. Hopefully he's well these days (funny enough, a former classmate played drums with him for a while)
The part where this dude said, that she can't be resposible for those animals while on drugs is just wrong.
Sometimes addicts even treat their pete even better. That is because, pets are for some addicts their closest friend and the living creature they trust in the most.
You’re absolutely right. From personal experiences, my senior cat that i’ve had since Elementary school (i’m now 25 and she is 14 years old still hangin’ on) has always been my best friend and even when i’d get sick, she’d lay with me and always made me feel better. No matter how sick I felt, I always made sure she had a clean litterbox and food & water in her bowls. People can’t just assume that “you’re not able to do anything on drugs” because it definitely isn’t true and it also depends on who that person is too. Also, I was already a mother at the time (my daughter is 4 now) and i’ve always worked full time sick or not sick no matter how hard it was for me. I also didn’t shoot any thing up tho.. only snort. So I do know things like that can be a different outcome but i’m only talking from my point of view. Either way, I totally agree with you and i’m happy there aren’t just ignorant people out here and that some of us actually understand.
Yeh cause they are isolated from people
straight up-expecting someone who's on heroin (unless theyre the kind of person who can "functionally" be a heroin addict and thats incredibly rare and not really a thing anyway lmao) to be responsible, able to feed an animal on a schedule, able to bring the animal to the vet, etc. is... not realistic. heroin addicts cant even stay awake behind the wheel, in public, at work, in front of their families, etc. have you seen a heroin addict in person?
@@bee4590 You know not everyone “shoots up” right ? Being one of those who have done heroin, I still have always had a job during the horrible journey.. no one even expected I was on it, besides not having money all the time..... But it got sniffed up my nose like how ppl sniff cocaine.. Just sayin.. It’s more so of how you abuse the drug and how you take it in. Injecting it into your blood stream will obviously be like everything you said just now. Buuuuttt.. sniffing the drug is a much less high than what the needle junkies go thru Lol. You’d be surprised how many people are on drugs or a drug that function just fine and you’d never know. At my point tho, I was only doing it to not be sick cause the withdrawals were freaking horrible and it feels like it lasts a whole lifetime going thru them. That’s mainly why we relapse. Because of the withdrawals. I do agree tho like you say it IS rare if someone can function “normal” but definitely not impossible Lol.
@@bee4590Unfortunately, I have been addicted to opiods, opiates, or some form of pain killing substance for 11 years now (I was prescribed percocet 30's after a very bad car accident at the age of 19, and they kept me on them for over a year then tried to drop me off them completely no weaning down, cold turkey out of nowhere). I do have pets as well though, and have always taken extremely good care of my multiple pets. This is includes two cats, a dog, a beta fish, and until recently a chinchilla. She was at the ripe old age of 14 years however, and chinnys only live for 15 years in captivity much less in the wild. My vet has always praised the health and attitude of my fur babies. I have gotten clean many times, and would still like to get clean and stay clean ro this day. However, my addiction to pain killing substances has never interfered with my ability to care for my four legged friends, or four finned friends, or whatever mode of transportation god gifted them with lol.
Making mistakes publicly and the internet eating people alive is such a real conversation.
Two days clean .
Broke. Depressed. And got Twins on the way. Time to set the drugs aside . And This video gave me hope I can break the cycle !
I’ll be back in a year with an update. Today’s date is September 25th 2020. See you next year.
You can do this, sweetheart. I’m so fucking proud of you. You are your own, no drug can take away that power or identity even if it feels like any drug is all you have, I’m a child of a long history of people with addictions. I am a person with an addictive past, but I know how it feels to only live for the next time you get it, and how it feels to truly live past it. Please add me on snapchat (@notsamijo) or respond to this comment when you need. This also goes out to anyone reading this reply who needs any reason not to use. I love you, you are smart and beautiful and I hope you let me see that!
-Samijo
Cmon
Dummy doing drugs bringing kids in the world what a shame
Don’t go back think about your twins, and your family, it may be harder to think about them than the drugs but just try, try to think about the future bc there will not be be one if you go back remember that, stay safe, be blessed a year will go by in no time😁👍🏽
Ur just one dummass person thats it
My brother was an addict, he’s no longer with us because of the toll drugs took on his life. To everyone struggling and to those in recovery, you can do it, this world is better with you in it I promise you this.
thanks man
I'm so sorry for your loss!
Ty sorry for your loss 🙏🏽💕
Thank you🤍 six months clean
Mine did too, in Nov 2019. Rip to your brother, keep pushing and spreading the message 💞
god i feel so heavily for her when she talks about trying to get her partner help at 9:35 most people unfortunately learn the hard way you can't help people unless they wanna be helped and get sucked into that world
I love the way Americans fixate on the heroin, but completely ignore the stalking and harassment. Sounds like this woman was actually the target of an American based eco terrorist group.
Been a fan of taylor for quite a while and watched this all happen, very proud of her for what she has overcome
Drug addicts still are people. It can happen to any human. It took a lot of guts to make this video, you are brave and authentic. There will always be haters that make rude comments simply because they hate to see somebody happy and doing well because they are just jealous and need to grow up. You got what it takes, don't let nobody tell you different. Keep strong in your sobriety. There are many who wish you the best.
snoopy thank you for understanding.i love you dude.dont know you but I love you,please stay human.
@@otisrush8110 thx, but I'm a female. lol!
Animal abusers aren’t people
No, it cant happen to anyone
@@forestelf2307 they aren't talking about animal abusers tho 🤷♀️
Addiction isnt a joke, affects everyone one way or another
@Will Fryer 2 yes it does
Ya it definitely dose. But at some time it will all come crashing down and hopefully you got family and friends to support you.
Absolute bullshit. Why not put up the video once you’ve got a couple of years of sobriety? She’s just trying to monetize the situation. I do wish her the best, but this is just sick. I’ve lost too many friends and nearly myself because of this crap. It’s a lifelong battle...
State the obvious, I hear fire burns and water is wet too! Yes it hurts, it fucking murders children! It cannot get more abhorrent!
Shes a joke though. She just trying get money to buy more lol
Well done for coming out with this and continue to get better ❤️
It's always a sad thing to see in addiction when people who either don't know anything about it, or have been told whatever in school/after school programs about it and think that makes them adequately informed when all you can know from that perspective is the factual things like what's dangerous, the effects, the risks, the price, how it looks, how it's administered etc.
But what they (And the majority of mainstream "sources of information" about drugs, drug use, addiction) think is not misinformed and incorrect, often it's dangerously incorrect.
So almost always as far as understanding or "getting" addiction people don't, but addiction will absolutely "get" them.
And then it already has you.
That's why peer support, talks with addicts in recovery with a lot of clean time and experience is SO important and not only for people still in active addiction and the chaos that surrounds it but the teenagers who're all just hearing and being shown the same recycled heavily biased misinformation and rhetoric are either just tuning out entirely or any of the information they DO take onboard is incorrect/harmful.
But having recovering addicts come and talk to them, being REAL with them about what that life is like and everything surrounding it, what addiction is like, withdrawal, the things you'd do that otherwise you would never ever do just to get out of withdrawal, and even life and its daily fights AFTER addiction is what really needs to happen to make our younger generations better informed on this disease that's become so incredibly widespread and deeper engrained than ever before, it's in everyone's face, in the street outside.
But it'd also help the kids to see and realise that addicts aren't just people, they're almost always very vulnerable, damaged, abused, traumatised and discarded or forgotten people.
And a lot of those people are more than just addicts, they're GOOD people who BECAUSE of the life they've lead and what they've witnessed or experienced - if god forbid you found yourself the victim of a random attacker on the street with members of the public all around you? Those same addicts are the ones who'll often run in to help you while everyone else is recording on their phone or just completely ignoring you and often not because they just don't want to get involved, but because they don't care that it's happening to someone else - as long as it stays that way.
I bet pretty much everyone here either has, knows, used to know, or IS a person who suffers with addiction and is still fighting that daily lifelong fight.
We've got to make sure our kids don't even set foot in the ring in the first place.
Stay safe all, love ya, appreciate ya. 🖤🤍🖤🤙
Im proud of Taylor defeating her addiction and escaping that man.
Drug addiction isn’t to be defeated, sobriety is a work in progress, defeating it is before an addict uses, they defeated the curiosity of using it in the first place ... but defeating will never be the case , coming from a recovering addict
Fuck that man
She will never defeat addiction. And her blaming jonny is unfair. She was an active opiate user before him had injected drugs before him. And is using this as a publicity stunt to shift blame and anger toward her away.
@@anthonypareigis6188 He still supplied all of her drug habits. He isnt 100% to blame but dont dare say he didnt influence any part of her getting hooked.
@@jenniferhowe9081 so its the drug deals fault someone is an addict. Makes sense. She was addicted to opiates before he was even in the picture and was injecting drugs up to a year before dating him. But yeah its totally his fault.
It’s really shocking that people would think she doesn’t take care of her animals. I have a close family member who is a recovering addict and they thrive in routines. Feeding and taking care of animals is a routine which could help reinstate stability back in her life. So glad she’s doing better!
Addicts face a horrible stigma. It is a big reason why they suffer as much as they do. Addicts are people. They all have different personalities. The one thing they have in common is that they are sick.
It’s not that we think she wouldn’t take care of her animals, it’s that she DOESN’T. Almost all of her animals that have died didn’t reach HALF of their life expectancy. A lot of her animals are not given enough space live. She manhandles animals for the sake of getting cute pictures.
As a foster mom.. it really isn’t that crazy. Kids come from horrid routines and environments from drug abusing parents or parent. They often had pets too that were getting not taken care of. Sadly, the kiddos get removed, but not the animals.
@@Rich_P_Anya A lot of people putting her down are just dysfunctional, misanthropic, puritanical hypocrites who only love animals because they hate people. They wanted a punching bag and she became their bright, shiny target. By all means she seems to love her animals and seems like a very good person. Let's not forget, that when we talk about helping adjust addicts and people with mental issues to society, we are talking about a very fucked up society. It's no wonder a lot of people would rather just do drugs all day.
This has less to do with her addiction, and more to do with the fact that she was a bad pet owner to BEGIN with.
What’s crazy is I know her in person and she is a very sweet girl!
She is unbelievably strong for being able to come out and show that’s she’s looked in the mirror and wasn’t happy and decided to fix it. GOOD FOR HER!!!!!
At least she had the balls to admit it and own up to her shit.I am glad she rehomed many animals.
You look fantastic Nichole!Everyone loves a good comeback story!
So proud of you!
SammyMarie0721 xoxo I really like her and wish her nothing but the best. Weirdly enough she popped up when I relapsed and started doing herion and benzos again. She inspired me to put my ass back in treatment
Ashley Bennet Good luck ,you can do it.❤️
Meanwhile Hundreds or more already amid it on Videos hell on Live TV
@@ashleybennet9243 1:1 story here, was clean for a lil while, then started using oxy and benzos again and then saw her video's. keep it up btw
SammyMarie0721 xoxo thank you ❤️❤️
Are we gonna talk about how jonnys statement said “the addition of his first child”, meanwhile he has a whole ass other child he abandoned years ago and has never even met
xxsarrr what really?
Well in his defense if he’s never even met the first child, then really it’s not his and never was. It’s shitty af, but I wouldn’t want some man who’s never done shit for my child to claim it.
@@virgie4715 so just ignore a child's existence and it magically isn't your's?
chingalachuga I mean, I’ve never been around my biological mother. If she was out here telling people I’m her daughter, that would piss me tf off because she didn’t raise me, I’m not hers’.
@@virgie4715 doesnt answer the question though. It's not about feelings, it's about facts. Maybe a mom should admit she has a child she abandoned and look like a piece of shit instead of pretending the child doesnt exist
This is my first time seeing this video but ive followed nicolenfor a while and my heart has always broken, yet always beated for both her and Johnny. Something she said in here about the screaming hit a nerve in me with my significant other during a time i was with him when he copped heroin and its left such a trauma inside me but it makes me happy cry to know ANYONE can go through these things and come out alive. I live for helping struggling addicts (literally my day job) but seeing beyond that those that can be open and receive support, just makes me see such bigger things for this community.
Once again and again, tks u for such an amazing upload.
I’m two years clean. Never heard of this lady till now but she seems like a kind person and I’m sending her all the love
Lady Lecter Thats amazing. I’m so happy you saved yourself. Never ever forget how strong you are. Sending you lots of love!
I'm so so glad you're still here 💜💜
Fuck yeah Lady Lecter, go you!!!
@@giventogrow8533 congrats on two years. Much love ♥
You are also a kind person... addiction doesn't discriminate :(
it’s terrifying that this man is going to be a father
FOR REAL THO
Children of Divorce is about his first kid... god only knows how many he actually has..
🙄🤢 what woman out there made him a father ⁉️Do your kid a favour when choosing their father, it's important, don't give me excuses you can be on multiple forms of birth control simultaneously
kayla Jonny Craig.... he was the singer of Dance Gavin Dance, emarosa, slaves, he had music under his own name.. he’s a piece of shit.
Aslen Benavente i personally met him at one of his live concerts & my brother and law and i quickly knew he was intoxicated & we couldn’t really have a stable conversation with him. the way he interacts with any female he saw was disgusting and i’m glad he left the DGD
It kills me to see you cry. Stay strong. God bless you!
Gosh, her looks change so much that it literally looks like several different people in this video
And it suits her every time! I stan
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Big time. She was a knock out when I discovered her online years ago. Now she looks like a pure crack head, and the lip injections look gross.
@Rose M I stan her LOOKS you should learn to read during this corona time Baby Girl, educate yourself! Greets from Germany
@Rose M sometimes you date awful people. It just happens. Doesnt mean you yourself are a bad person. I mean if you stay with and defend them. Maybe. But you have to remember how awful abusive relationships with drugs involved are. I was in one. My ex is now in prison, for beating his ex. And even intimidating her after the fact. Not a good person.
Abusive relationships are hard enough but with drugs invovled, you really feel trapped. And you hope they will change. I wouldn't judge her by her exes or people she dates. Judge her by her.
“I was born with glass bones, and paper skin”
Wow, that’s really a thing.
Carlos Marte I have this disease too, didn’t know Taylor had it too. I can see how heroin can be appealing from a pain-management standpoint. It hurts a lot
yes, she talked about her disease in her channel I believe it's still there
Spongebob?
Richard Rodriguez There we go, where are my other Gen-Y members at?
I just lost a beautiful friend, Jennifer Nye, to this disease. Also, recently, singer Sia has come forward stating she suffers from this disease as well.
I feel this so much addiction is crazy and when you are clean you can’t believe you’re still standing and it’s a blessing. Loved this - 10 years clean from cocaine 😇
She seems like a very sweet and caring girl to be honest. Definitely did not deserve what happened to her... But at the same time, there's honestly nothing wrong. Mistakes were made, she's a victim, not a criminal. Her story is amazing tho - dipping in and out of addiction THIS fast! Some people slowly get hooked for years and still don't get clean. She speed ran that experience. Respect. Her mind & heart are in the right place, and that's all that matters really. The rest comes naturally (and with help of course, when needed). Very good.
To quote a very wise man: "Drugs are bad, mkay?"
Mohammed Ouji 😂😂😂
Mkay
JONES BBQ AND FOOD MASSAGE!
You are now the wise man mmkay...
@Runitup Monte Heroin is non toxic.. alcohol is by far the worst drug
As someone who has dealt with painkiller addiction, I can't think of anything more evil to do than to introduce someone to it like it's no big deal. I would NEVER wish the addiction on anybody let alone someone I loved. This guy is EVIL and profoundly selfish. Instead of getting help he dragged her down too and told her it was an act of love.
Truly. That’s “codependent abuse” summed up. My mother did that to me as a child, as well as letting my kidney infections (from chronic kidney disease) get so bad that I’d be prescribed oxy or hydrocodone to use for herself. She sold my service dog to buy. I wouldn’t trade my childhood or my mother’s use to anyone because nobody deserves that hurt. Stay blessed and whole, friend. We bond over our evils.
@@samanthaalbanese7441 I am very sorry that you and other ppl in this world have been exposed to such evil from ppl who you should be able to feel safe with. Keep you head up and take care!
@@samanthaalbanese7441 Can I just thank you? I have had a very similar experience and seeing someone speak about their experience candidly like this gave me some solidarity I didn't know I badly needed. The gaslighting has made me doubt myself over and over and while I have an amazing support system who can validate my experience knowing that there are others out there with the confidence to share publicly is really profound for me. Growing up and having these things happen over and over, being told I am the one who is a problem, it has made me doubt every single thing I do and say. Thank you, more than you'll ever know.
J P We are made from those who hurt us, but we are not defined by those who hurt us. I’m thanking you more for finding strength to see your experience in mine, and for coming this far! Grow through what you go through, pal
It's the business. Introduce them the product, sell it to them like it's their necessity
she's so pretty
She's such a pretty woman. I truly hope she finds all the healing she needs. ❤
“Let’s just have one more good night together first”
God I can relate to that. Me and my girlfriend said it every night.
I had 1 year clean Nov 10th.
I’m struggling with cravings badly but getting through it.
@@robertallenhurst8448 ok..
@@coolintuitivename4910 what did he say
I’m praying for you 🙏
Kudos! Stay strong! 💜
How did u get on it through prescription meds?
6 months clean from heroin!:)
Hopefully 10 months now! Stay on that path Maria Mia, you're setting an example for others to follow, and that's amazing!
Facts Maria don't shoot up
Brendan Page oops I relapsed at my 9 months :( but now I am getting help again
Just so you all know there's very little heroin around anymore. It's all fentanyl.
John Strawson I know that and I know that’s all I’m getting :/
I'm 23 years old and watching this makes me want to quit cocaine again. I went to rehab last summer and then was sober for almost a year from both alcohol and drugs but then recently I thought "It can't hurt, I know how to control myself now". And im almost right back to where i started. I wonder if I should go back to rehab...What if I can't stop myself from being in this terrible cycle? Is it even worth trying over and over again?
You should 10000% go back to rehab, ik it’s been a couple months, how are you holding up?
@@aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa420 thanks for asking! I just got out of my rehab program recently and I’m doing much better. I’m glad I went back. I probably would have died if not tbh lol
Hiii how are you doing now?
Shes brave coming out to everyone about her hardships. Im glad shes safe and pushing through. Also glad her mom found her in time 🙏❤️
Depression among content-creators is a big thing that's not gained a lot of attention.
I guess it's hard for most people to feel sorry for the successful but it's a real problem.
Mental illness doesnt discriminate hey. Sad to see such a lack of empathy in SM comments sections :(
Awwww poor millionaire. Doesn't give a shit about anybody, but when they fuck up we should feel sorry for them? If they would jump off the pedestal maybe people would really give a crap.
@@almostout Its not about money. People like me and you could be successful with a house and a family and plenty of money to live off of but still be depressed. Happiness is not always linked to physical objects and "having" things. A lot of people are good at hiding their mental issues until it comes out like it did with this TH-camr in the form of an addiction.
im depressed and unsuccessful so theres that.
Think if it was the other way around no one would have stood up for the guy. She blames everything but herself and still has all her followers left.
I used to watch her religiously as a child and she got me into reptiles. A few years later i realised she existed again and the first thing I saw was this. Makes me tear up seeing my childhood favourite be so sad :(
Hey👋 why don’t ya take a seat right there
As a child? That's cute. She's still a child. Your brain doesnt move beyond "adolescence" till age 25.
@@SolidSiren wtf they meant that they were a child watching her not the other way around 🤦♀️
@@KNCake ....Yes. Re read and see if you can put this puzzle together, Holmes.
@@KNCake If HE/she was a child "growing up" when watching this person, they are still basically a child. Because this YTer is barely an adult. YTer has barely grown and hasnt been around long on YT. Therefore if commenter grew up watching her, that "growing up" only occured over a few years prior to now. Short period, rather recent. Therefore they are still quite young.
Hence the comment about developing beyond adolescence only after age 25.
I just want to say thank you for sharing your story and take it one day at a time. I totally understand your situation because I'm going through the same situation now and I have to go to detox this week and I'm mentally getting my mind right and this just helped me so much more. #SoberLife
Thats wild, I used to watch her around the beginning of when she started blowing up and I stopped watching her at some point to find out she dealt with substance abuse too around the same time. Crazy