Okay, you are my favorite. I enjoy hearing people talk about this, it makes me feel less alone. I thought I was alone for the longest time, I still have yet to get a therapist because of money and “pride” but I am working on it and journaling. I am so proud of you!
I think having the strength to go to therapy is something to be proud of :) there is no shame in getting help!!! ever!!! u got this (when money isn't an issue❤️)
The begining has me LIVING, I love the skits so much they shall never die! Literally a cinematic experience everytime I love it. I appreciate and thanks so much for sharing! I have/had a similar mindset to you about leaving mentally on the backburner but hearing others experience especially the ones that aren't perfect cookie cutter types really helps. Much Love from EAST COAST BEAST COAST.
On the assumption of every same-gendered friend being questioned as a “crush” or “love interest”…. Preach that annoyance!!! Biggest. Pet. Peeve. 😑 Also, you are killin’ this TH-camr thing so far, Emily!
Emily I am bingeing your videos after meeting you through Rachels channel. I am super excited you are going to start vlogging. These skits get me good 😂 and youre so open. so excited to watch you grow! Alsoooo you should post skits in shorts!
I completely understand everything. I feel like I could be BPD. I just have been officially diagnosed with General Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder and OCD. I just have my wife as support. All of my friends dipped between me coming out and having depression/anxiety.
I know you’re newer to the platform (I came here from Rachel’s) but your content and production value, skits, subject matter and execution are so seasoned and legit! You are quickly becoming one of my faves!! Thanks for sharing!
I relate to all of this so much, it's almost like you took everything I've been thinking about and put it into one video, especially the part about the conversation
I have had similar experiences with therapists. A lot of them aren't good. I have only found one I've liked in a series of attempts throughout my life. Once I was expressing to a male therapist that I was in an abusive relationship with a partner I believed to be narcissistic. And that man gaslit me by basically telling me everything I had experienced was my fault. It was a trip. You definitely have to be patient and try not to get discouraged when looking for a therapist. There are good ones out there, they are just few and far in between.
I’m so happy you started your own channel!♥️. I have enjoyed it so much. I have been dealing with my mental health issues since I was 17. It was really brought out by a Traumatic event also. My Best Friend in High School, ( all of school since pre-k ) In our senior year, was killed in a car accident.💔I literally became a zombie, lost in my own mind… unable to eat or sleep or function at all for months after. My parents, family, friends, just didn’t know what to do. it was 1989 then and mental health was not a “thing” people talked about in a kind way. But it did get to a point where my parents were going to have me hospitalized because I didn’t eat or sleep… I lost a lot of weight and basically my will to live. But I agreed to see our Dr instead. I tried explaining this feeling I would get to him most of the time. sudden fear and then I would cry so hard I would hyperventilate and feel numb and outside of my body. He didn’t seem to understand what I was talking about at all. That was my first introduction to antidepressants and i hated taking them. I was 17 and just didn’t want to be “that person”. besides smoking weed seemed to work much better on me anyways. Fast Forward to 2008 I had already been on antidepressants since I was 24 because I gave up the weed at age 18 when I got together with my then husband. I lost both my parents within a year and a half of each other march 1999 and september 2001 which to this day has destroyed me but i never dealt with it or grieved it properly. in 2008, my best friends husband passed away in a car accident, one of our friends unexpectedly passed away from strange heart abnormality, 5 people I was extremely close with at my work with passed away from cancer and heart issues, and a very close friends son passed away from an unknown heart condition… I was at work the day after the last funeral, standing talking to someone, when my heart started racing, the room was closing in on me, It felt really hard to breathe, I felt completely numb, and then I was completely outside of my body… I just fell to the ground trying to catch my breath. Once I came back out of it, the woman I was speaking to asked if I was having a Panic Attack? I said I don’t know, what is a Panic Attack ? and she described exactly what I had just gone through and what I had gone through for Months when I was 17 and I was blown off as if it were nothing. ( I should tell you I had a heart attack in 2006 at age 35 due to Family history it’s a family cholesterol disease ) so having these panic attacks probably isn’t great for my heart. I called my family Dr and he told me to come right in. I didn’t realize that would be my last day of work ever when i left. My family Dr upped my dosage on my antidepressant, gave me a prescription of Xanax in case I feel another panic attack coming on, set up appointments with a psychiatrist and a therapist he trusted. There is nobody more than i trust this man. he has been my Dr since 1993, been at the births of all 3 of my kids, because he was their Dr instead of pediatricians. I had 2 premies and he was at that NICU every morning and night regardless of how busy his office was that day. and he always checked on me. But anyways….after i left his office that day, I went home and that’s the last time I literally could physically leave my house for 9 months without my husband. nobody else, just him. and it took 5 months to get to that point. for 5 months i was completely agoraphobic. It was so terrifying. I didn’t even want my kids going to school, I was positive something horrible was going to happen. Finally when I could leave with my husband, it couldn’t be far from home… but it was to the psychiatrist and therapist were the obvious connection was made all these deaths in 2008 had overwhelmed me emotionally and mentally as it did when my Best Friend Passed away in high school. so my brain was reacting the same… sever panic attacks, becoming agoraphobic ( which I didn’t realize I did at 17 until then… but I did stop going to school for 3 months and didn’t go anywhere or talk to anyone at all ). Unfortunately the Panic Attacks never stopped… The depression got worse… tweaks and changes of medications helped with depression. but I am someone who will probably always have sever Panic disorder and chronic depression. ( and seasonal depression which stinks when you live in NY ) but i’m not ashamed of my mental health status as i was at 17 in the late 80’s. I think we have come such a long way! and I can’t wait to see how much further we go! Thank You ☺️ for sharing your story and giving others a space to tell theirs♥️🌹♥️ Stay beautiful
I'm so glad that you posted this video. The journey of finding a therapist that makes sense for you is so hard, and having the wrong therapist can be awful. First of all, going to a therapist in the first place is hard, because admitting that you need help is hard and stigmatized. Then to have someone misunderstand you during your most vulnerable moment can make things worse. I didn't have good experiences with my first two therapists either, and it also put me off therapy for a long time. It makes you doubt yourself and psychology in general, which for a person who is already struggling is extra painful. Thank you so much for sharing your journey, and I am so glad you have someone now who validates you and supports you. Keep making videos please!
As someone who has struggled with mental health this is great. Rachel actually helped me get into therapy years ago. She said “get a therapist before you know you need it.” I have stopped going for a few months now and Emily, you reminded me I should go back. Thanks for this video. We shall be strong together!
Thank you for this vid!!! Although the intro was silly and made me laugh, it is SO real! I'm so glad you made the decision to try your hand at your own channel. You're really relatable and I'm looking forward to following you thru your new adventure!
I can't believe how much I relate. I also strongly believe that I have BPD, but I can't go to therapy right now so I can't get an official diagnosis. Listening to you talk about how you felt and the splitting and episodes, I was like this all sounds *oddly* familiar! Then you said BPD and I was like I knew it!!! How you talked about your cousin was word for word how I feel about a best friend of mine. Thanks for sharing your journey! I really do hope it gets better
Thank you so, so much for sharing your story. I identified with SO much you said, I was baffled. I have been officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but I always felt like there was more. Last year my therapist brought up BPD and it made so much sense, I hit almost all the criteria. I haven't been officially diagnosed because talks have just gone elsewhere, but PTSD has also come up. For me, I feel like I could have both, but that's a rabbit hole for another time. I just wanted to thank you Emily so much for sharing. I follow and watch plenty of other TH-camrs who talk about mental health struggles, and have related to a lot, but not until now, watching this video and you talk about your symptoms and experiences have I found someone who I have related to so much. So thank you, and please please keep creating content like this because it does matter ❤️
Some therapist are just too full of themselves. I’ve had one tell me she could lock me up if she wanted to on my first visit and I didn’t do anything. I guess she didn’t like that I started crying. But I had just lost my damn friend to suicide. My second time seeing a therapist was at couples counseling because my hubby cheated. Therapist said it was my fault I wanted to flip his desk. I swore to never see another until a year ago when I almost took my own life and found a social worker in the therapy field. She promised me she would stick with me as long as I kept being open and honest with her and she works with my doctors to get me the meds I need. She’s wonderful. Love her to pieces.
wow I can relate to the: having a bad first session and being discouraged to go to another. I started looking deeper into myself and doing research trying to find answers as to why I am the way I am and maybe find ways to deal. (my conclusion was a mix of: depression/anxiety/adhd) I finally gathered the courage to talk to a therapist. He completely looked over the 2 things I thought were most concerning (skin picking / derealization /depression) and tried to pin it all on stress. Meanwhile i've been dealing with these issues since an adolescence. He said I no where near qualify for any of the 3 even though I know the research I did suggested I 100% did. Sooooo months later still havent sought out a 2nd option and scared to be told I'm wrong or even to not get any answers at all AGAIN. But seeing as you finally found someone to listen to you and give you answers, encourages me to try again. So thank you for that!
Emily, how are you explaining everything about yourself but at the same reading my mind??? I had a rough few years and recently I’ve been feeling better. Just a week ago though, I was crying everyday and was clearly depressed. I would read all these quotes about how hard times are temporary and it WILL get better. I hated hearing that because I was feeling my worst and just couldn’t picture myself living a happy life anytime in the future. But today, as I’m feeling a little bit better, I stumbled upon your video. And I was flabbergasted. Because you were stealing the exact words from my mouth! I couldn’t help but scream “YES!!!” throughout the entire video. So, thank you Emily for making this and opening up to us about your mental health :) P.S. I’m looking forward to your podcast coming out next year!!! XD
Hey Em, I found you through Rachel and absolutely fell in love with your spirit. I subscribed to your channel and started watching your videos. I came across this one and listened to you list off your symptoms. Before you even said it I said to myself… she has BPD. I know this because I also have BPD. I can relate to all your symptoms, feelings and struggles. I actually have every one of the DSM-5 criteria. I struggle everyday to maintain some sort of calm. I am so glad to know that you are getting better and it gives hope to me that one day I will too. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤
Here I am commenting on another video! BPD is no joke. It can be so exhausting and debilitating being in your own head. Once again, you’re vulnerability is so admirable. Loving all your content. ❤️ also related so hard to that Oreo break. Lmao
I love this. At 44 I am just now realizing I most likely have BPD and have an appt in August to talk to someone about it. It’s scary as hell and I’m so proud of you for getting help! My daughter has ADHD but the first lady she tested with told her “You’re just really smart and bored” 🤦♀️ She’s 24, not a little kid. She was pissed lol
How do you only have 4k subscribers? You put in more effort than most TH-camrs do now a days. And you're so funny even while talking about serious subjects! You deserve like 100k+ subscribers!
You are amazing Emily. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. It's truly relatable and it's nice to hear it because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. As a child and teen I had awful traumatic experiences with therapists. It's honestly kind of a trigger for me when someone says you should go to therapy. After having three traumatic experiences I never wanted to go to another therapist. Deep down I know that it could be helpful for me since I deal with so much mental health problems but I don't know if I'll ever be ready to trust and open up to another therapist. I'm really sorry you had some bad experience with therapists but I'm happy you were able to find a good one who helps you. Thank you again for your sharing your story. You are truly amazing and beautiful. I hope you are doing well and I hope you have a wonderful day.
Emily, I absolutely LOVE the skits ❣️ I appreciate the hard work that you have put into your videos ❣️ I'm am so glad that you are sharing your struggles with mental health with us 🥰 For me, your videos give me someone to relate to. Watching videos like these help me to realize that I am not the only one dealing with the struggles of mental illnesses. I have had "problems" since I was a child. And have felt so alone and misunderstood most of my life. Thank you for sharing with us and helping a lot of us feel less alone and more "normal". Love ya ❣️🥰
Just found you, going through a separation right now, 42, depressed, major anxiety yada yada yada… i love your skits, i think they’re great! You’re a great actress!!
This is insane. I relate with a lot you talk about and today of all days this has helped me to realize that this is a sign for me to get help. I have always struggled with mental health but like you I’m stubborn.
I love you so much. I love getting to know you and I’m at that stage in my life where I feel worthless and a burden. I don’t have the money for a therapist and my thoughts are getting bad. I genuinely have no one to go to for help. But I’m hoping it ✨gets better ✨ I can’t wait fir your next upload. You’re a beautiful human.
I will never get over your ability to articulate such important topics so well. Beautifully done 🙌🙌 (also, loved that West Virginia joke. I spit out my drink on that😂)
I can completely relate to a lot in this video! Including the first therapy session! I spoke to this (I’m assuming African/Jamaican) woman about my past life and my self harming and she sat there and told me that I shouldn’t be doing what I’m doing or feeling how I’m feeling because people from her country have it a lot worse than me and I was only 17, been through a lot and a didn’t even try therapy again until I was 21 when covid happened and my mental health got really bad! I was then told I have many symptoms of Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder which sucks but it’s made me realise why I think the way it do!
My first experience with a therapist was terrible. I was about 15 and I went there because I have MAJOR anxiety, especially social anxiety. Well I talked to her for a bit and she goes on to tell me a 15 year old girl that I don't have anxiety, I'm just insecure about my weight and hands me a teen diet book. Yes I was fat then and yes I'm still fat and I do indeed hate my body but that was not my only problem. I 100% have anxiety but she didn't want to hear it because I was able to talk to her and be respectful that must mean I wasn't shaking and about to vomit because my anxiety was so bad. I thankfully found a therapist that was better for me but unfortunately I lost my insurance after just a couple sessions with her. I can't afford to see a therapist now even though I need it more than ever. I hope one day I will be financially stable enough to be able to see a therapist again.
I found you through Rachel and I love your podcast with her but I especially love this podcast! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable! Can’t wait for the next one!🤗🇨🇦
Emily is such a good story teller and this was riveting and emotional and really powerful I love Emily so much and this video genuinely helped me hold on. Emily is a kindred spirit she’s perfect I adore her she deserves way more followers! She’s also hilarious usually (I say usually not in that she wasn’t here, but It’s j not appropriate to describe this video as hilarious lol but she was still funny when it was appropriate!!!)
I loved hearing your story, thank you for sharing🥺 i was diagnosed with an array of mental illnesses when i was about 14, but recently (9 years later) it's seeming like its all stemming from a sensory problem. I cannot wait for the validation I get from a good therapist, but I haven't wanted to try because I hate the whole process. This really reminded me how worth it it is to keep trying, even if the first, or SECOND, therapist isnt a good fit. thank u thank u thank u💜
You are not dumb, love the skits. Like you said, it kind of lightens the mood for something that can be a little heavy sometimes💕 loving the content girl
Wow, I can fully relate to having doctors not trusting me, or listen to me and diagnose the issue before I even finish my story(ex. "the pain might be from your period?" "You're too young to be depressed/anxious") and the assumption that I am in love with every female I see because I am out as well.. Thank you for sharing your story, and I love the skits!!
The skit at the beginning is 100% me... The only times in my 34 years of life that i've depression was when ... 1) I had hip surgery when i was 15 and i couldn't do anything for myself for 4 months ... and 2) When my dog died when i was 22.... and the next time that i will have it will no doubt be when my current dog passes away in a couple of years. 😱 and of course, my anxious head always thinks about that day. 👎
My favourite part of the skits was the part where you’re looking in the mirror and you can see someone’s hand holding the camera to film you 😂 So real, doing the best you can with what you have and I LOVE IT!
First off, you’re amazing and wish we could be friends. (Not trying to sound like a creep, promise.) But this is so relatable and you pretty much described me to a T. It’s nice knowing I’m not the only person who feels this way. And I can’t wait for the day that I tell someone it gets better and mean it whole heartedly. Also I love the skits and the effort you put into them. Keep doing what you’re doing! Your content is great.
Oh my god emily, you are so strong. You have been through to much, and i am so happy that things are getting better for you. I also love the skits at the beginning please keep doing them.
I think I might have social anxiety ... But because I'm not diagnose I won't assume anything. I just think it's really awesome for you to talk about this topics, and to show that things can be better if you just ask for help :)
I get that to that you fancy everyone grrr pleased your getting thing sorted your doing well u should be proud with your self you kept figjting amzing emily its hard im having frist therapy thing soon.
emily, will you ever consider doing daily vlogs? also i love your content and the skits are so fun especially when talking about harder stuff like you said :) glad you talk about it though
The "what if she actually dies tomorrow because we've been thinking it" is so spot on.
Okay, you are my favorite. I enjoy hearing people talk about this, it makes me feel less alone. I thought I was alone for the longest time, I still have yet to get a therapist because of money and “pride” but I am working on it and journaling. I am so proud of you!
I think having the strength to go to therapy is something to be proud of :) there is no shame in getting help!!! ever!!! u got this (when money isn't an issue❤️)
@@mariaf7513 thank you so much!🥲
The begining has me LIVING, I love the skits so much they shall never die! Literally a cinematic experience everytime I love it. I appreciate and thanks so much for sharing! I have/had a similar mindset to you about leaving mentally on the backburner but hearing others experience especially the ones that aren't perfect cookie cutter types really helps. Much Love from EAST COAST BEAST COAST.
On the assumption of every same-gendered friend being questioned as a “crush” or “love interest”…. Preach that annoyance!!!
Biggest. Pet. Peeve. 😑
Also, you are killin’ this TH-camr thing so far, Emily!
All of this is too relatable… especially the friendship bits. also the skits are so so fun love them!
Officially my new favorite person. You do skits forever. I freaking love them
Emily I am bingeing your videos after meeting you through Rachels channel. I am super excited you are going to start vlogging. These skits get me good 😂 and youre so open. so excited to watch you grow!
Alsoooo you should post skits in shorts!
I completely understand everything. I feel like I could be BPD. I just have been officially diagnosed with General Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder and OCD. I just have my wife as support. All of my friends dipped between me coming out and having depression/anxiety.
Love how all of them are cinematic masterpieces!
I know you’re newer to the platform (I came here from Rachel’s) but your content and production value, skits, subject matter and execution are so seasoned and legit! You are quickly becoming one of my faves!! Thanks for sharing!
I relate to all of this so much, it's almost like you took everything I've been thinking about and put it into one video, especially the part about the conversation
You’re awesome! Skits are amazing and so relatable (for me). Thank You for Putting out such great content 💕.
I have had similar experiences with therapists. A lot of them aren't good. I have only found one I've liked in a series of attempts throughout my life. Once I was expressing to a male therapist that I was in an abusive relationship with a partner I believed to be narcissistic. And that man gaslit me by basically telling me everything I had experienced was my fault. It was a trip. You definitely have to be patient and try not to get discouraged when looking for a therapist. There are good ones out there, they are just few and far in between.
I love the skits at the beginning of the videos!
I’m so happy you started your own channel!♥️. I have enjoyed it so much. I have been dealing with my mental health issues since I was 17. It was really brought out by a Traumatic event also. My Best Friend in High School, ( all of school since pre-k ) In our senior year, was killed in a car accident.💔I literally became a zombie, lost in my own mind… unable to eat or sleep or function at all for months after. My parents, family, friends, just didn’t know what to do. it was 1989 then and mental health was not a “thing” people talked about in a kind way. But it did get to a point where my parents were going to have me hospitalized because I didn’t eat or sleep… I lost a lot of weight and basically my will to live. But I agreed to see our Dr instead. I tried explaining this feeling I would get to him most of the time. sudden fear and then I would cry so hard I would hyperventilate and feel numb and outside of my body. He didn’t seem to understand what I was talking about at all. That was my first introduction to antidepressants and i hated taking them. I was 17 and just didn’t want to be “that person”. besides smoking weed seemed to work much better on me anyways. Fast Forward to 2008 I had already been on antidepressants since I was 24 because I gave up the weed at age 18 when I got together with my then husband. I lost both my parents within a year and a half of each other march 1999 and september 2001 which to this day has destroyed me but i never dealt with it or grieved it properly. in 2008, my best friends husband passed away in a car accident, one of our friends unexpectedly passed away from strange heart abnormality, 5 people I was extremely close with at my work with passed away from cancer and heart issues, and a very close friends son passed away from an unknown heart condition… I was at work the day after the last funeral, standing talking to someone, when my heart started racing, the room was closing in on me, It felt really hard to breathe, I felt completely numb, and then I was completely outside of my body… I just fell to the ground trying to catch my breath. Once I came back out of it, the woman I was speaking to asked if I was having a Panic Attack? I said I don’t know, what is a Panic Attack ? and she described exactly what I had just gone through and what I had gone through for Months when I was 17 and I was blown off as if it were nothing. ( I should tell you I had a heart attack in 2006 at age 35 due to Family history it’s a family cholesterol disease ) so having these panic attacks probably isn’t great for my heart. I called my family Dr and he told me to come right in. I didn’t realize that would be my last day of work ever when i left. My family Dr upped my dosage on my antidepressant, gave me a prescription of Xanax in case I feel another panic attack coming on, set up appointments with a psychiatrist and a therapist he trusted. There is nobody more than i trust this man. he has been my Dr since 1993, been at the births of all 3 of my kids, because he was their Dr instead of pediatricians. I had 2 premies and he was at that NICU every morning and night regardless of how busy his office was that day. and he always checked on me. But anyways….after i left his office that day, I went home and that’s the last time I literally could physically leave my house for 9 months without my husband. nobody else, just him. and it took 5 months to get to that point. for 5 months i was completely agoraphobic. It was so terrifying. I didn’t even want my kids going to school, I was positive something horrible was going to happen. Finally when I could leave with my husband, it couldn’t be far from home… but it was to the psychiatrist and therapist were the obvious connection was made all these deaths in 2008 had overwhelmed me emotionally and mentally as it did when my Best Friend Passed away in high school. so my brain was reacting the same… sever panic attacks, becoming agoraphobic ( which I didn’t realize I did at 17 until then… but I did stop going to school for 3 months and didn’t go anywhere or talk to anyone at all ). Unfortunately the Panic Attacks never stopped… The depression got worse… tweaks and changes of medications helped with depression. but I am someone who will probably always have sever Panic disorder and chronic depression. ( and seasonal depression which stinks when you live in NY ) but i’m not ashamed of my mental health status as i was at 17 in the late 80’s. I think we have come such a long way! and I can’t wait to see how much further we go! Thank You ☺️ for sharing your story and giving others a space to tell theirs♥️🌹♥️ Stay beautiful
I'm so glad that you posted this video. The journey of finding a therapist that makes sense for you is so hard, and having the wrong therapist can be awful. First of all, going to a therapist in the first place is hard, because admitting that you need help is hard and stigmatized. Then to have someone misunderstand you during your most vulnerable moment can make things worse. I didn't have good experiences with my first two therapists either, and it also put me off therapy for a long time. It makes you doubt yourself and psychology in general, which for a person who is already struggling is extra painful. Thank you so much for sharing your journey, and I am so glad you have someone now who validates you and supports you. Keep making videos please!
As someone who has struggled with mental health this is great. Rachel actually helped me get into therapy years ago. She said “get a therapist before you know you need it.” I have stopped going for a few months now and Emily, you reminded me I should go back. Thanks for this video. We shall be strong together!
I’m convinced we’d be friends IRL. I’m loving your content so far! Keep chasing that TH-cam dream, lady.
Thank you for this vid!!! Although the intro was silly and made me laugh, it is SO real! I'm so glad you made the decision to try your hand at your own channel. You're really relatable and I'm looking forward to following you thru your new adventure!
I can't believe how much I relate. I also strongly believe that I have BPD, but I can't go to therapy right now so I can't get an official diagnosis. Listening to you talk about how you felt and the splitting and episodes, I was like this all sounds *oddly* familiar! Then you said BPD and I was like I knew it!!! How you talked about your cousin was word for word how I feel about a best friend of mine. Thanks for sharing your journey! I really do hope it gets better
Thank you so, so much for sharing your story. I identified with SO much you said, I was baffled. I have been officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but I always felt like there was more. Last year my therapist brought up BPD and it made so much sense, I hit almost all the criteria. I haven't been officially diagnosed because talks have just gone elsewhere, but PTSD has also come up. For me, I feel like I could have both, but that's a rabbit hole for another time. I just wanted to thank you Emily so much for sharing. I follow and watch plenty of other TH-camrs who talk about mental health struggles, and have related to a lot, but not until now, watching this video and you talk about your symptoms and experiences have I found someone who I have related to so much. So thank you, and please please keep creating content like this because it does matter ❤️
Thanks for sharing. I felt like I was talking at points in this video! You are so authentic !! 💗
Some therapist are just too full of themselves. I’ve had one tell me she could lock me up if she wanted to on my first visit and I didn’t do anything. I guess she didn’t like that I started crying. But I had just lost my damn friend to suicide. My second time seeing a therapist was at couples counseling because my hubby cheated. Therapist said it was my fault I wanted to flip his desk. I swore to never see another until a year ago when I almost took my own life and found a social worker in the therapy field. She promised me she would stick with me as long as I kept being open and honest with her and she works with my doctors to get me the meds I need. She’s wonderful. Love her to pieces.
wow I can relate to the: having a bad first session and being discouraged to go to another. I started looking deeper into myself and doing research trying to find answers as to why I am the way I am and maybe find ways to deal. (my conclusion was a mix of: depression/anxiety/adhd) I finally gathered the courage to talk to a therapist. He completely looked over the 2 things I thought were most concerning (skin picking / derealization /depression) and tried to pin it all on stress. Meanwhile i've been dealing with these issues since an adolescence. He said I no where near qualify for any of the 3 even though I know the research I did suggested I 100% did. Sooooo months later still havent sought out a 2nd option and scared to be told I'm wrong or even to not get any answers at all AGAIN. But seeing as you finally found someone to listen to you and give you answers, encourages me to try again. So thank you for that!
Emily, how are you explaining everything about yourself but at the same reading my mind???
I had a rough few years and recently I’ve been feeling better. Just a week ago though, I was crying everyday and was clearly depressed. I would read all these quotes about how hard times are temporary and it WILL get better. I hated hearing that because I was feeling my worst and just couldn’t picture myself living a happy life anytime in the future.
But today, as I’m feeling a little bit better, I stumbled upon your video. And I was flabbergasted. Because you were stealing the exact words from my mouth! I couldn’t help but scream “YES!!!” throughout the entire video.
So, thank you Emily for making this and opening up to us about your mental health :)
P.S. I’m looking forward to your podcast coming out next year!!! XD
Hey Em, I found you through Rachel and absolutely fell in love with your spirit. I subscribed to your channel and started watching your videos. I came across this one and listened to you list off your symptoms. Before you even said it I said to myself… she has BPD. I know this because I also have BPD. I can relate to all your symptoms, feelings and struggles. I actually have every one of the DSM-5 criteria. I struggle everyday to maintain some sort of calm. I am so glad to know that you are getting better and it gives hope to me that one day I will too. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤
Here I am commenting on another video!
BPD is no joke. It can be so exhausting and debilitating being in your own head.
Once again, you’re vulnerability is so admirable. Loving all your content. ❤️ also related so hard to that Oreo break. Lmao
I love this. At 44 I am just now realizing I most likely have BPD and have an appt in August to talk to someone about it. It’s scary as hell and I’m so proud of you for getting help! My daughter has ADHD but the first lady she tested with told her “You’re just really smart and bored” 🤦♀️ She’s 24, not a little kid. She was pissed lol
How do you only have 4k subscribers? You put in more effort than most TH-camrs do now a days. And you're so funny even while talking about serious subjects! You deserve like 100k+ subscribers!
You are amazing Emily. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. It's truly relatable and it's nice to hear it because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. As a child and teen I had awful traumatic experiences with therapists. It's honestly kind of a trigger for me when someone says you should go to therapy. After having three traumatic experiences I never wanted to go to another therapist. Deep down I know that it could be helpful for me since I deal with so much mental health problems but I don't know if I'll ever be ready to trust and open up to another therapist.
I'm really sorry you had some bad experience with therapists but I'm happy you were able to find a good one who helps you. Thank you again for your sharing your story. You are truly amazing and beautiful. I hope you are doing well and I hope you have a wonderful day.
Emily, I absolutely LOVE the skits ❣️ I appreciate the hard work that you have put into your videos ❣️ I'm am so glad that you are sharing your struggles with mental health with us 🥰 For me, your videos give me someone to relate to. Watching videos like these help me to realize that I am not the only one dealing with the struggles of mental illnesses. I have had "problems" since I was a child. And have felt so alone and misunderstood most of my life. Thank you for sharing with us and helping a lot of us feel less alone and more "normal". Love ya ❣️🥰
Just found you, going through a separation right now, 42, depressed, major anxiety yada yada yada… i love your skits, i think they’re great! You’re a great actress!!
This was potentially the best Intro to any video i've ever seen 🤔
This is insane. I relate with a lot you talk about and today of all days this has helped me to realize that this is a sign for me to get help. I have always struggled with mental health but like you I’m stubborn.
I love you so much. I love getting to know you and I’m at that stage in my life where I feel worthless and a burden. I don’t have the money for a therapist and my thoughts are getting bad. I genuinely have no one to go to for help. But I’m hoping it ✨gets better ✨ I can’t wait fir your next upload. You’re a beautiful human.
I will never get over your ability to articulate such important topics so well. Beautifully done 🙌🙌
(also, loved that West Virginia joke. I spit out my drink on that😂)
I can completely relate to a lot in this video! Including the first therapy session! I spoke to this (I’m assuming African/Jamaican) woman about my past life and my self harming and she sat there and told me that I shouldn’t be doing what I’m doing or feeling how I’m feeling because people from her country have it a lot worse than me and I was only 17, been through a lot and a didn’t even try therapy again until I was 21 when covid happened and my mental health got really bad! I was then told I have many symptoms of Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder which sucks but it’s made me realise why I think the way it do!
I am so grateful for you putting your raw emotions out here. 😭❤️ love you for being such an incredible human.
I have depression and anxiety and yes it's exactly like that. The negative and intrusive thoughts.
My first experience with a therapist was terrible. I was about 15 and I went there because I have MAJOR anxiety, especially social anxiety. Well I talked to her for a bit and she goes on to tell me a 15 year old girl that I don't have anxiety, I'm just insecure about my weight and hands me a teen diet book. Yes I was fat then and yes I'm still fat and I do indeed hate my body but that was not my only problem. I 100% have anxiety but she didn't want to hear it because I was able to talk to her and be respectful that must mean I wasn't shaking and about to vomit because my anxiety was so bad. I thankfully found a therapist that was better for me but unfortunately I lost my insurance after just a couple sessions with her. I can't afford to see a therapist now even though I need it more than ever. I hope one day I will be financially stable enough to be able to see a therapist again.
every video you post or you’re in, i fall in love with you more somehow. such a light of life
Loving each video more than the last! ❤️
I found you through Rachel and I love your podcast with her but I especially love this podcast! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable! Can’t wait for the next one!🤗🇨🇦
I love your honesty and how genuine you are in every video. And I really loved the montage at the beginning. I totally identified with it. Thank you!!
This is ME!!! EVERYDAY!! In every situation.
I love that you took an Oreo break…in my dorm my roommate and I have sadness Oreos too 😂🙌
Never stop doing the skits!! They make me crack up! Ily!! ❤️
Emily, pleeeeeease I LOVE the skits!!! They're a great opening for heavy topics!!! They're so accurate too!!!! Keep up the incredible work!!!!
Emily is such a good story teller and this was riveting and emotional and really powerful I love Emily so much and this video genuinely helped me hold on. Emily is a kindred spirit she’s perfect I adore her she deserves way more followers! She’s also hilarious usually
(I say usually not in that she wasn’t here, but It’s j not appropriate to describe this video as hilarious lol but she was still funny when it was appropriate!!!)
I loved hearing your story, thank you for sharing🥺 i was diagnosed with an array of mental illnesses when i was about 14, but recently (9 years later) it's seeming like its all stemming from a sensory problem. I cannot wait for the validation I get from a good therapist, but I haven't wanted to try because I hate the whole process. This really reminded me how worth it it is to keep trying, even if the first, or SECOND, therapist isnt a good fit. thank u thank u thank u💜
this is all so relatable and i’m so sorry you had to go through that:(
I adore you. Your raw honesty is so refreshing.
The skits are informative and entertainment- they creative , cute and easy to digest- keep ‘em coming !
Thank you for being so honest & open about your journey💗
You are not dumb, love the skits. Like you said, it kind of lightens the mood for something that can be a little heavy sometimes💕 loving the content girl
You’re so relatable! I’m glad you shared 😭
Wow, I can fully relate to having doctors not trusting me, or listen to me and diagnose the issue before I even finish my story(ex. "the pain might be from your period?" "You're too young to be depressed/anxious") and the assumption that I am in love with every female I see because I am out as well..
Thank you for sharing your story, and I love the skits!!
The skit at the beginning is 100% me... The only times in my 34 years of life that i've depression was when ... 1) I had hip surgery when i was 15 and i couldn't do anything for myself for 4 months ... and 2) When my dog died when i was 22.... and the next time that i will have it will no doubt be when my current dog passes away in a couple of years. 😱 and of course, my anxious head always thinks about that day. 👎
My favourite part of the skits was the part where you’re looking in the mirror and you can see someone’s hand holding the camera to film you 😂 So real, doing the best you can with what you have and I LOVE IT!
Thank you so much for sharing, you are one of my favorite TH-camrs.
Thank you so so much for sharing this. What an important story and message.
First off, you’re amazing and wish we could be friends. (Not trying to sound like a creep, promise.) But this is so relatable and you pretty much described me to a T. It’s nice knowing I’m not the only person who feels this way. And I can’t wait for the day that I tell someone it gets better and mean it whole heartedly. Also I love the skits and the effort you put into them. Keep doing what you’re doing! Your content is great.
I’ve had such terrible therapists and I hope one day I can find a good one but I gave up for now.
You are an amazing influencer and I can’t wait till your next video
The skits take me back to older TH-cam days.
“I should have been in therapy a long long time ago” I have never related to a sentence so much 😅
Oh my god emily, you are so strong. You have been through to much, and i am so happy that things are getting better for you. I also love the skits at the beginning please keep doing them.
I know this feeling the past couple weeks one day I can be fine and the next day I could be depressed
The skits are great!! Love your creativity and honesty
I think I might have social anxiety ... But because I'm not diagnose I won't assume anything. I just think it's really awesome for you to talk about this topics, and to show that things can be better if you just ask for help :)
Never get rid of the skits lol they are amazing
Emily, you are so cool & I can't see how Anybody couldn't like you! Thanks for sharing & have a great day!
Holy shit Emily. I haven't seen a video that is so relatable wow. You are one strong biotch and I wanna see more of you :)
I'm glad your getting better. 💖
also i really love your silly intros :) ur so cute
We love you, Emily!! 💛
Love the skits, keep them up!!!
I seriously love your channel so much. Your videos are so great!
I relate to this on such a deep level. Thank u for sharing ur actually amazing gurl
I love the skits. So far they have been very entertaining!! I can't wait for more!
Thank you Emily. You are brave and strong. I love the skits.
Your videos are incredible!
It really does get better!
I needed to hear this today.
I get that to that you fancy everyone grrr pleased your getting thing sorted your doing well u should be proud with your self you kept figjting amzing emily its hard im having frist therapy thing soon.
she’s just starting her yt career and already doing better than me and I’ve been posting for 3 years now 🙂✨
I absolutely love your videos. Thank you for sharing, I can’t wait to see where your channel goes!! 🥰
I love this. You are doing amazing. Keep it up👏❤❤❤❤❤
I’m so happy you made this, I relate so much
I love the skits!! So glad I found your channel ☺️
I relate to the beginning of this video so much and I don’t have a therapist. I think it’s time for me to get a therapist. 😬
oh my god the intro is so good
I absolutely love the skits!!!
I feel like I am so alone and I feel so alone because I don't have friends. I would say I would want Emily to be my friend so badly.
emily, will you ever consider doing daily vlogs? also i love your content and the skits are so fun especially when talking about harder stuff like you said :) glad you talk about it though
Love watching you! ❤
You’re doing an amazing job.
I haven’t related to something so much in my life as the first two minutes of this video!! 😱😱😱
OMG I love love love the skits keep them coming beautiful I love you so much😍😍😍
Emily I'm the same way with my mental head