Story of my life. It’s like the movie « Very bad Trip »: you wake up and don’t remember anything. Everyone tells you « what the fuck happened? Way did you act like that? It was so wierd. ». It is so embarassing (especially at work).
yeah samw here! it’s the absolute worst and i overthink it so much. there’s so many people who can’t take me seriously because of what i did in my manic episodes and thinks that i’m crazy/delusional while i’m actually really open minded, down to earth and kind. makes me feel horrible tbh
I just got diagnosed with Bipolar 1 about a week and a half ago. It was the hardest thing to hear. I am embarrassed with how I've acted but I can't control it when I get manic. I don't know what the future holds for me. It's scary and the unknown. I have been staying up for 20+ hours recently but I can't admit to myself that it's mania. I thank you for sharing your side. You are so strong.
Thank you for uploading this. We need more normalcy in the mental health community, especially for bipolar and schizophrenia. The stigma can make us feel like an unlovable monsters.
today was the first day my psych told me that i might have bipolar. everything makes much sense now in my life. i didnt start taking meds, but knowing that all of that wasnt my fault made me feel better about myself.. thank you for sharing your journey!💗
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 as well. I was hospitalized twice for about almost 4 weeks each time. It is not a linear process because your ENTIRE life is affected. Relationships, family and your job! All of it! Then the recovery time once you get out of the hospital is even longer and it makes you feel so weak. I am finally somewhat stable now in life, but it terrifies me to think it could all just get pulled out from underneath me at any moment. The fear of not sleeping and doing crazy things in front of those who love you is truly horrifyin. Thank you for sharing your story! It makes me feel less alone....:/
I got diagnosed with bipolar one after my 1-2 hospital visits earlier this year. It took me several months to cope with even just the diagnosis, and this is actually my first time since January, when I got diagnosed, looking up videos for other people who live with bipolar 1 too. Everything you described, having a lot of friends, good grades, being successful, seen as being "normal",when you yourself feel like you're crumbling on the inside, that was and is me. My father for months disregarded my diagnosis BECAUSE of comparison to my other sibling who is less successful with more mental issues. This all also happened to me starting a brand new semester in college, and I can easily say it was the most shameful time in my entire life. I am now approximately 10 months after being diagnosed, still coping with what it even means to have what I have. Just wanted to say I'm really glad you made this video, the one thing I have been lacking from my bp journey is other people who know exactly what it feels like to live this way, and I thank you for being one of those 10 min friends to me.
Thank you for sharing such a personal story, living with bipolar is by no means a walk in the park. I haven't been diagnosed with it but I'm almost certain I have it along with autism so honestly, thanks for sharing this. It really helps with everyone realizing it's okay to talk about mental Illness
Omg, I feel this so hard. I got diagnosed with Bipolar II a few days ago after previously being diagnosted with depression and PTSD. I only got here because I was so fucked on lexapro (I studied for 48 hours straight for example). Hahah, my hypomania is characterised by studying for 12+ hours a day and gaslighting myself into thinking I'm mentally healthy. But yeah, bc I'm in vet school and have always been good academically, it was really hard for my hypomania to be recognised. In fact it only got recognised because I made a powerpoint presentation because I couldn't understand why I would be so depressed then convince myself I'm mentally healthy, and then become really depressed again XD
I was 17 when I was diagnosed with bipolar 1, and five years on I’m still struggling to accept it. Thank you so much for making me feel less alone. It’s very much appreciated.
you're valid in all conditions we all are, and it's okay to be neuroatypical it's not a barrier in your life, there's always potential in living hope it helps
I just came across your video. I have also been told that I don’t look bipolar or that I seem too put together to have something “wrong” with me. I am a dental hygienist and did well in school just like you. It is upsetting whenever I hear people say things like that but I just try to joke around and say “thank you”. No one knows how much we suffer inside sometimes and the never ending emotional rollercoaster that we are on. Thank you for making this video. It is nice to see someone like myself talking about it and you help many people ♥️🫶🏻
Earlier this year I got diagnosed with bipolar 1 and I thought something has been wrong with me for years and a few years ago I was put on meds for anxiety and depression and those meds absolutely made something in me snap and I was insanely suicidal and very hypersensitive and just incredibly manic. My mom is a PhD level psychologist and because like you I have always been the very kind high achiever girl she very much didn’t think I have bipolar. Thank you for talking about your experiences it makes me feel like less of a monster that all of us living with bipolar disorder are made out to be. I really really appreciate this especially because I’m not feeling the best rn! But we are pushing through like I’m on the struggle bus but I’m trying and that’s what matters!! I can def def improve on self care! Thank you for this!
I just want to say I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 this week officially after 13 years of trying different medications seeing multiple people. I have just been started on lithium. I’ve struggled so much with my mania and doing what my family call “crazy” things. I’m a high achiever and with the type of job I do I’ve been embarrassed by my diagnosis. It’s so nice to see someone young embrace their diagnosis and speak openly about what they’ve been through. X
Thank you for making this!❤️ I felt so alone and always thought that I would never be able to meet someone who went through a manic similar to mine. I was misdiagnosed with depression when I had my first manic in summer of 2019. I felt on top of the world, overly confident, thought I was unstoppable, never slept and did embarrassing things in public and social media and was escorted to a mental hospital. Spring of 2020 I had another manic and I was really depressed but a lot of the symptoms came back again and I was taken to the ER then the mental hospital for the second time and was diagnosed with Bipolar 1. I finally got on a medication that works for me and I am now 1 1/2 years manic free and no longer feel like a zombie as I did on other medications.
Hope you're doing well and I completely felt your point about there not being enough channels from regular people with Bipolar sharing their experience. I really hope you will come back and continue on this path because it is so so important for many of us!
I was just somewhat recently diagnosed and I didn’t want to accept that I was bipolar when I was diagnosed. Like I didn’t “act that way”, “that’s not me”, but I’ve finally have come to terms with it and accepting it and getting the right help I deserve
Hi there, I just wanted to say thank you for this video. My girlfriend was recently hospitalized involuntarily for a manic episode into psychosis and while we were all frightened for her well-being we knew it was necessary to be done. She was just diagnosed with bipolar 1 while she's doing inpatient treatment. It is very helpful to hear others' experiences with bipolar, especially those closer to our age like you. Thank you
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Thank you so much for making this video. My husband shared it with me, and it definitely helped me out so much to hear that you are bringing awareness to this. Thank you so much. ❤
the ancient Greeks used to consider bipolar disorder as a divine gift from the gods! A divine gift! Wow! That’s WAY different than how we are looked at today. How fascinating. “Mania” and “melancholia” were among the first two diseases ever categorized. Even Socrates and Plato understood that mania was a divine state with various characteristics such as “erotic inspiration” sent from the god of love or “proteptic inspiration” derived from the Muses. They even go on to say that the god Apollo is the source of this divine inspiration!
hey jessica love ur channel i absolutely understand everything ur going through i was diagnosed with bordeline personality disorder which is kinda like cousins to bipolar so i get u girl. i was also admitted because i wasnt copying for like 3 weeks in a mental hospital and honestly it was the best decision ive ever made. it will get better i promise, my psychiatrist always says it may feel like a wound now but soon it will heal up and all you'll have left it a scar. keep well lots of love❤🔥
Lost most of my 20s to undiagnosed bipolar 2 and alcoholism, which I'm sure was brought on by bipolar disorder. Being a guy, nobody gives a shit about your mental health, got put on antidepressants. Lately tho, I've been hearing and seeing shit I know isn't there.
Thank you for making this video I really needed this I had similar things happen to me and I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 after one episode but I was in denial and then had another manic episode.
It’s so frustrating that you have to be reck-less with yourself to ever get results from a Dr. Thank you for that outpatient program idea thats essentially what I think I’m looking for. I have bipolar and adhd and they work together to ruin my life lmao
Thank you for this video Jess! I have been struggling for years with my depression/manic cycles & not really understanding what is wrong. I’m currently struggling to get the help I need due to wait times here in uk. Watching this I can definitely relate to things/feelings you talk about- you’ve def made this video more personal. Makes me realise that I’m not alone and I’m still in the process of finding medication that works for me. & hope you don’t mind me saying what a beautiful lady you are 😍 please keep up the content because I’ll be waiting ☺️
Clinical therapy is effective. An effective plan and weekly goals on better coping skills. Take Antipsychotics. And mood stabilizers. Bipolar 1 suffer from the following: 1. Black and white thinking 2. Expansive thoughts. 3. Thinking everything is going wrong. 4. Comparing yourself to others when you should only compare yourself to who you were yesterday. 5. Feeling disconnected from depression. Don’t ever let any one tell you are okay. Only you have that right. It’s not about others it’s about you first then others.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 in 2021 and literally is 2023 and I was indinail for a while and now I’m not. It hurts to say but then manic episodes be kicking my ahh.
I attempted suicide and jumped from a 3rd floor every one was surprised including me bc it wasn’t planned it was more like intrusive thoughts telling me I was dead already and nothing is real and then I acted on impulse keeping in mind before hand I was reaching out to friends trying to find an outlet from the thoughts before the attempt I then was admitted to the hospital and was admitted to psychiatric hospital and diagnosed with bipolar disorder it was hard to accept I still didn’t believe it especially bc they didn’t really explain to me clearly on what bipolar disorder is and only said it was a mood disorder once out I got a different psychiatrist and since this happen after I broke up with a bf that I was with for 5 year all through my high school years and he was emotionally and mentally abusive me the psychiatrist said he doesn’t think I’m bipolar but rather depressed and have anxiety he said to take anti depressant and I’d it’s not that it might trigger something else and that’s how he will know whats wrong with me and that scared me bc I don’t like the hospital bc of the memories there and so I didn’t take the ani depressed pill and I stop my bipolar medication bc I was like okay I can do it with out medication and so over a week or so I entered psychosis didn’t sleep and it was pretty scary psychosis and my parents said to take the anti depression taking the word from my last psychiatrist diagnosis but it didn’t work maybe did it worse and my parents then decided to admit me to the hospital and was then once again diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 this all happened while in my last semester in college I was in and out of the hospital and it brought stress into my life over all bipolar disorder definitely isn’t easy I personally disagree how my 2nd psychiatrist diagnosed me I feel like he should of had more talking sessions with me instead of taking me off my previous medication and prescribing me a new one Also he apologized after I got out the hospital and said my mistake and we barely taked for like 3 min and he was like I’m already taking long time with you but since your new I’ll answer your questions If y’all know any groups and good psychiatrist please let me know I’m located in Houston
I agree with this more than anything. My husband especially does not understand or does not want to understand what i have to deal with everyday. He is Egyptian and it is his belief you have the power in yourself to get over anything.😢
Interesting... in Italian it's called Asse 1 bipolarismo. Have it for about 30 years. Decided to start my life over because I felt I couldn't be an effective father for my daughter. In the 90s they could never understand my choices. It's only been in the last 10 years I've been able to get my sh!t together. I'm lucky I have a daughter who understands. I'm a grandfather today. The important thing is no matter what always believe in yourself. And focus on people you love, real friends and build dreams. Plus be regular with medication if that's what it takes
@Maureen Smith Sleep is very important!!! Try an make it a priority. Especially with bipolar your body needs to rest because your brain over works. Take it one day at a time! Everything doesn’t need to be finished today! Words of affirmation!!❤️ if you just need someone to talk to I’m always here
Thank you so very much for knowledge!!!! My sister has recently been diagnosed. It’s always going to be unexpected because nobody really sheds light on this disorder. One day I hope to create a group for people with this disorder. They need to look at the patterns.
Thanks for sharing your truth. I also have bipolar 1 and want to start a channel for more awareness. There is not enough real stories on living with this mental illness.
Do you have stomach problems? I was diagnosed with Bipolar I and depression with schizoaffective disorder. Ive had severe irritable bowel syndrome for twenty years. I was told to follow this special diet called specific carbohydrate diet. No rice....corn...potatoes...wheat or milk. When I was super psychotic and manic I had to take Lithium and antipsychotics. Now I just simply take Seroquel and risperidone.
I was just diagnosed with bipolar 1. I honestly didn’t know what it exactly was when I got diagnosed. Your video was helpful to know I am not the only trying to figure things out.
ooof, Bipolar with panic attacks is a rough one. GAD was the first thing I was diagnosed with. I mean technically I do meet the criteria but most likely that anxiety and the panic attacks are related to the bipolar. It's actually common enough to have both that studies suggest they can be used as an indicator for bipolar disorder or at least what some doctors believe may be a specific subtype of bipolar disorder. Same goes for schizophrenia. other studies suggest they're all related as it's apparently not uncommon for all three to run in the same families.
This video gives me hope. I feel like if you can go to brown and accomplish your dreams w bipolar 1, I can do that w bipolar 2. Please take care 🤍🤍 you're inspiring
I don't get as manic but I get major depressive or hypomanic. Like you said, there's more than just a depression element to it. I think I've been living with undiagnosed BPD. My question for you. You seem like a lovely young lady who was raised right. I know there are genetic and environmental factors that play a role in BPD. Did you ever experience abuse or neglect?
i just got my diagnosis and i was spiraling from fear that i was stuck like this forever bc same thing happened to me i was misdiagnosed w severe depression and given so many dif types of SSRI’s at very high doses and it got so bad i felt like i slipped away from the fabric of reality like i was just floating in a different realm while also in this one going insane fantasizing ab killing myself and i substituted my drug issues w shoplifting which is like insanely out of control rn so im hoping my new medication cocktail will help me bc the worst part ab this are my intrusive thoughts esp the ones related to my history of getting SA’d so i want all of it to end, i want a clean head and a normal life i feel so scared of everything and that includes myself and my brain which sucks bc how am i supposed to leave my brain 🙁🙁🙁🙁 anyways thank u for this, it rly calmed me down, i send u infinite love 🤎🤎🤎⭐️⭐️⭐️
omg.... Hi Jess I honestly felt like I was listening to my own story! I was diagnosed with depression at first but later i found out that im bipolar it would be great to share my stories with you In the video, I found you try to look more energetic than you are but you dont have to! its okay to be serious its okay to be sad you dont always have to be happy🤍 sall good❤️
I think that you need to see a functional medicine doctor to get a vitamin and mineral deficiency test before being described antidepressants because of short and long term side affects.
I don’t have bipolar but I rarely experienced some manic symptoms I had it yesterday yesterday early morning only lasted for a few minutes and I made stupid theories and came back later It was like something is possessing me (I experienced depersonalization symptoms also)
I’m going through this now as a senior in college. I have one major questions - When I try to exercise now I get extremely manic instantly. It’s horrible. While taking medication for bipolar would I be able to run and go to the gym again? It’s a bleak fucking outlook but that’s all that I want right now
Hi Maz, I’m sorry to hear you experience this. I personally cannot give advice because it hasn’t happened to me. I would definitely consult a professional!
You are obviously very intelligent. Remember that bipolar doesnt have to be a disability - it can be a superpower. I was diagnosed at 14 and am 61 now. I have over a hundred patents, won every award possible at my company as an engineer. Find a good psychiatrist and get your meds right and add regular psycho analyisis if possible. It gets better, hang in there.
Girl the manic episodes are so embarrassing after you are finally sane. Like literally I have flashbacks of manic episodes.
Agreed! I was humiliated after my first manic. I would post weird things on social media too.
Lord yes, so embarrassing.
Story of my life. It’s like the movie « Very bad Trip »: you wake up and don’t remember anything. Everyone tells you « what the fuck happened? Way did you act like that? It was so wierd. ». It is so embarassing (especially at work).
Saaaaame omg!!
yeah samw here! it’s the absolute worst and i overthink it so much. there’s so many people who can’t take me seriously because of what i did in my manic episodes and thinks that i’m crazy/delusional while i’m actually really open minded, down to earth and kind. makes me feel horrible tbh
I just got diagnosed with Bipolar 1 about a week and a half ago. It was the hardest thing to hear. I am embarrassed with how I've acted but I can't control it when I get manic. I don't know what the future holds for me. It's scary and the unknown. I have been staying up for 20+ hours recently but I can't admit to myself that it's mania. I thank you for sharing your side. You are so strong.
If you are staying up for 20+ hours, that is mania.
Hey buddy how are you doing now?
Thank you for uploading this. We need more normalcy in the mental health community, especially for bipolar and schizophrenia. The stigma can make us feel like an unlovable monsters.
today was the first day my psych told me that i might have bipolar. everything makes much sense now in my life. i didnt start taking meds, but knowing that all of that wasnt my fault made me feel better about myself.. thank you for sharing your journey!💗
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 as well. I was hospitalized twice for about almost 4 weeks each time. It is not a linear process because your ENTIRE life is affected. Relationships, family and your job! All of it! Then the recovery time once you get out of the hospital is even longer and it makes you feel so weak. I am finally somewhat stable now in life, but it terrifies me to think it could all just get pulled out from underneath me at any moment. The fear of not sleeping and doing crazy things in front of those who love you is truly horrifyin. Thank you for sharing your story! It makes me feel less alone....:/
Hi Jess! I also have bipolar 1 and was diagnosed in 2020. Thanks for sharing your story. It helps to feel like I'm not alone.
Always
Hi Jess... I find you really cute
@@tirukotisuraj lol
I got diagnosed with bipolar one after my 1-2 hospital visits earlier this year. It took me several months to cope with even just the diagnosis, and this is actually my first time since January, when I got diagnosed, looking up videos for other people who live with bipolar 1 too. Everything you described, having a lot of friends, good grades, being successful, seen as being "normal",when you yourself feel like you're crumbling on the inside, that was and is me. My father for months disregarded my diagnosis BECAUSE of comparison to my other sibling who is less successful with more mental issues. This all also happened to me starting a brand new semester in college, and I can easily say it was the most shameful time in my entire life. I am now approximately 10 months after being diagnosed, still coping with what it even means to have what I have. Just wanted to say I'm really glad you made this video, the one thing I have been lacking from my bp journey is other people who know exactly what it feels like to live this way, and I thank you for being one of those 10 min friends to me.
I’m thankful to hear this all! Thanks for sharing ❤️
Thank you for sharing such a personal story, living with bipolar is by no means a walk in the park. I haven't been diagnosed with it but I'm almost certain I have it along with autism so honestly, thanks for sharing this. It really helps with everyone realizing it's okay to talk about mental Illness
Omg, I feel this so hard. I got diagnosed with Bipolar II a few days ago after previously being diagnosted with depression and PTSD. I only got here because I was so fucked on lexapro (I studied for 48 hours straight for example). Hahah, my hypomania is characterised by studying for 12+ hours a day and gaslighting myself into thinking I'm mentally healthy. But yeah, bc I'm in vet school and have always been good academically, it was really hard for my hypomania to be recognised. In fact it only got recognised because I made a powerpoint presentation because I couldn't understand why I would be so depressed then convince myself I'm mentally healthy, and then become really depressed again XD
I was 17 when I was diagnosed with bipolar 1, and five years on I’m still struggling to accept it. Thank you so much for making me feel less alone. It’s very much appreciated.
you're valid in all conditions
we all are, and it's okay to be neuroatypical
it's not a barrier in your life, there's always potential in living
hope it helps
I just came across your video. I have also been told that I don’t look bipolar or that I seem too put together to have something “wrong” with me. I am a dental hygienist and did well in school just like you. It is upsetting whenever I hear people say things like that but I just try to joke around and say “thank you”. No one knows how much we suffer inside sometimes and the never ending emotional rollercoaster that we are on. Thank you for making this video. It is nice to see someone like myself talking about it and you help many people ♥️🫶🏻
Are the mood stabilizers not abating your mood shifting?
U can make it, we are bipolar people, we will get through this.
💖💖💖
Bipolar is tough. But you are tougher.
Earlier this year I got diagnosed with bipolar 1 and I thought something has been wrong with me for years and a few years ago I was put on meds for anxiety and depression and those meds absolutely made something in me snap and I was insanely suicidal and very hypersensitive and just incredibly manic. My mom is a PhD level psychologist and because like you I have always been the very kind high achiever girl she very much didn’t think I have bipolar. Thank you for talking about your experiences it makes me feel like less of a monster that all of us living with bipolar disorder are made out to be. I really really appreciate this especially because I’m not feeling the best rn! But we are pushing through like I’m on the struggle bus but I’m trying and that’s what matters!! I can def def improve on self care! Thank you for this!
I just want to say I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 this week officially after 13 years of trying different medications seeing multiple people. I have just been started on lithium. I’ve struggled so much with my mania and doing what my family call “crazy” things. I’m a high achiever and with the type of job I do I’ve been embarrassed by my diagnosis. It’s so nice to see someone young embrace their diagnosis and speak openly about what they’ve been through. X
Thank you for making this!❤️ I felt so alone and always thought that I would never be able to meet someone who went through a manic similar to mine. I was misdiagnosed with depression when I had my first manic in summer of 2019. I felt on top of the world, overly confident, thought I was unstoppable, never slept and did embarrassing things in public and social media and was escorted to a mental hospital. Spring of 2020 I had another manic and I was really depressed but a lot of the symptoms came back again and I was taken to the ER then the mental hospital for the second time and was diagnosed with Bipolar 1. I finally got on a medication that works for me and I am now 1 1/2 years manic free and no longer feel like a zombie as I did on other medications.
What was your medication?
I am also diagnosed with bipolar
its so so so so relieving to know that there are other people out there who are bipolar but extremely high achieving
Hope you're doing well and I completely felt your point about there not being enough channels from regular people with Bipolar sharing their experience. I really hope you will come back and continue on this path because it is so so important for many of us!
The way you phrased it "so in your own head" was perfect. I got diagnosed with bipolar 1 a few weeks ago 😅 thanks for being bold enough to share
Thank u for being light hearted. It's helping me because a family member might have it and it makes me hopeful.
I was just somewhat recently diagnosed and I didn’t want to accept that I was bipolar when I was diagnosed. Like I didn’t “act that way”, “that’s not me”, but I’ve finally have come to terms with it and accepting it and getting the right help I deserve
I wish there was more stuff like this on yt!!! I am having a bad day and this made me feel less scared and alone
Hi there, I just wanted to say thank you for this video. My girlfriend was recently hospitalized involuntarily for a manic episode into psychosis and while we were all frightened for her well-being we knew it was necessary to be done. She was just diagnosed with bipolar 1 while she's doing inpatient treatment. It is very helpful to hear others' experiences with bipolar, especially those closer to our age like you. Thank you
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Thank you so much for making this video. My husband shared it with me, and it definitely helped me out so much to hear that you are bringing awareness to this. Thank you so much. ❤
the ancient Greeks used to consider bipolar disorder as a divine gift from the gods! A divine gift! Wow! That’s WAY different than how we are looked at today. How fascinating. “Mania” and “melancholia” were among the first two diseases ever categorized. Even Socrates and Plato understood that mania was a divine state with various characteristics such as “erotic inspiration” sent from the god of love or “proteptic inspiration” derived from the Muses. They even go on to say that the god Apollo is the source of this divine inspiration!
How do you use the gift?
hey jessica love ur channel i absolutely understand everything ur going through i was diagnosed with bordeline personality disorder which is kinda like cousins to bipolar so i get u girl. i was also admitted because i wasnt copying for like 3 weeks in a mental hospital and honestly it was the best decision ive ever made. it will get better i promise, my psychiatrist always says it may feel like a wound now but soon it will heal up and all you'll have left it a scar.
keep well lots of love❤🔥
this is the sweetest, enhle! thanks for sharing and glad you’re doing better ❤️
It's very interesting to see a girl in the US with bipolar disorder. I'm Brazilian and I suffer from this condition.
Everyone in the world is at risk of developing it
Lost most of my 20s to undiagnosed bipolar 2 and alcoholism, which I'm sure was brought on by bipolar disorder. Being a guy, nobody gives a shit about your mental health, got put on antidepressants. Lately tho, I've been hearing and seeing shit I know isn't there.
You are amazing and strong. You are helping so many people by spreading awareness. Thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you for making this video I really needed this I had similar things happen to me and I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 after one episode but I was in denial and then had another manic episode.
It’s so frustrating that you have to be reck-less with yourself to ever get results from a Dr. Thank you for that outpatient program idea thats essentially what I think I’m looking for. I have bipolar and adhd and they work together to ruin my life lmao
Thank you Jess fr 😢❤ I’m that one person and I needed this and you are a baddie for sure
The world needs more videos like this. Super brave.
Thank you for this video Jess! I have been struggling for years with my depression/manic cycles & not really understanding what is wrong. I’m currently struggling to get the help I need due to wait times here in uk. Watching this I can definitely relate to things/feelings you talk about- you’ve def made this video more personal. Makes me realise that I’m not alone and I’m still in the process of finding medication that works for me. & hope you don’t mind me saying what a beautiful lady you are 😍 please keep up the content because I’ll be waiting ☺️
Ssri triggered my first manic episode
I have Bipolar 1, and I always laugh at my self and the the silly situations I get into x
Same
Hey Jess …… it’s just a day after I was diagnosed with bi polar …… my heart is shattered to pieces … will I be able to have a normal life again ?
I’m waiting to be diagnosed with bipolar after 20 odd years of suffering mental health , thank you for your story
Clinical therapy is effective. An effective plan and weekly goals on better coping skills. Take Antipsychotics. And mood stabilizers.
Bipolar 1 suffer from the following:
1. Black and white thinking
2. Expansive thoughts.
3. Thinking everything is going wrong.
4. Comparing yourself to others when you should only compare yourself to who you were yesterday.
5. Feeling disconnected from depression.
Don’t ever let any one tell you are okay. Only you have that right. It’s not about others it’s about you first then others.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 in 2021 and literally is 2023 and I was indinail for a while and now I’m not. It hurts to say but then manic episodes be kicking my ahh.
I attempted suicide and jumped from a 3rd floor every one was surprised including me bc it wasn’t planned it was more like intrusive thoughts telling me I was dead already and nothing is real and then I acted on impulse keeping in mind before hand I was reaching out to friends trying to find an outlet from the thoughts before the attempt I then was admitted to the hospital and was admitted to psychiatric hospital and diagnosed with bipolar disorder it was hard to accept I still didn’t believe it especially bc they didn’t really explain to me clearly on what bipolar disorder is and only said it was a mood disorder once out I got a different psychiatrist and since this happen after I broke up with a bf that I was with for 5 year all through my high school years and he was emotionally and mentally abusive me the psychiatrist said he doesn’t think I’m bipolar but rather depressed and have anxiety he said to take anti depressant and I’d it’s not that it might trigger something else and that’s how he will know whats wrong with me and that scared me bc I don’t like the hospital bc of the memories there and so I didn’t take the ani depressed pill and I stop my bipolar medication bc I was like okay I can do it with out medication and so over a week or so I entered psychosis didn’t sleep and it was pretty scary psychosis and my parents said to take the anti depression taking the word from my last psychiatrist diagnosis but it didn’t work maybe did it worse and my parents then decided to admit me to the hospital and was then once again diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 this all happened while in my last semester in college I was in and out of the hospital and it brought stress into my life over all bipolar disorder definitely isn’t easy I personally disagree how my 2nd psychiatrist diagnosed me I feel like he should of had more talking sessions with me instead of taking me off my previous medication and prescribing me a new one
Also he apologized after I got out the hospital and said my mistake and we barely taked for like 3 min and he was like I’m already taking long time with you but since your new I’ll answer your questions
If y’all know any groups and good psychiatrist please let me know I’m located in Houston
I’ve been diagnosed from autism spectrum disorder to major depressive disorder to bipolar disorder so idk what to do
I struggle with bipolar II disorder. It is hard to be this way, because nobody understands mental illness.
I agree with this more than anything. My husband especially does not understand or does not want to understand what i have to deal with everyday. He is Egyptian and it is his belief you have the power in yourself to get over anything.😢
Dont go on lithium, it made my kidneys fail
I hope you’re fine, just know you’re not alone in going through this.
Interesting... in Italian it's called Asse 1 bipolarismo. Have it for about 30 years. Decided to start my life over because I felt I couldn't be an effective father for my daughter. In the 90s they could never understand my choices. It's only been in the last 10 years I've been able to get my sh!t together. I'm lucky I have a daughter who understands. I'm a grandfather today. The important thing is no matter what always believe in yourself. And focus on people you love, real friends and build dreams. Plus be regular with medication if that's what it takes
its nice hearing somebody who also suffers, bipolar type 2 here and the depressive episodes are hell
Thank you for sharing, you are not alone.
Thankyou for sharing your story jess.
If anyone needs to talk I’m here & I understand!💖
@Maureen Smith Sleep is very important!!! Try an make it a priority. Especially with bipolar your body needs to rest because your brain over works. Take it one day at a time! Everything doesn’t need to be finished today! Words of affirmation!!❤️ if you just need someone to talk to I’m always here
@Maureen Smith always remember your life has purpose! You were out on this earth for a reason & most times it’s not your fault it’s just genetics
Hey I was diagnosed with bipolar this past February. Been taking lithium
Thank you so very much for knowledge!!!! My sister has recently been diagnosed. It’s always going to be unexpected because nobody really sheds light on this disorder. One day I hope to create a group for people with this disorder. They need to look at the patterns.
Thanks for sharing your truth. I also have bipolar 1 and want to start a channel for more awareness. There is not enough real stories on living with this mental illness.
Thank you so so much for sharing.🥰
Do you have stomach problems? I was diagnosed with Bipolar I and depression with schizoaffective disorder. Ive had severe irritable bowel syndrome for twenty years. I was told to follow this special diet called specific carbohydrate diet. No rice....corn...potatoes...wheat or milk. When I was super psychotic and manic I had to take Lithium and antipsychotics. Now I just simply take Seroquel and risperidone.
I have bipolar 1and have the worst stomach issues Since I was a child
@@treasuremyheart89 Thats horrible. Do you have a supportive family? Now Im just following the GAPS diet.
Thank you for being open and authentic. You're so pretty and I love your haircut 😻
Thank you 😭❤️ I needed this I also couldn't find anything that wasn't therapists and stuff
I’m bipolar 1 and I wrote a song about the comedown it’s on my TH-cam page maybe it will help someone else with bipolar.
I was just diagnosed with bipolar 1. I honestly didn’t know what it exactly was when I got diagnosed. Your video was helpful to know I am not the only trying to figure things out.
Thank you for sharing, you can do it and remember you’re not alone
I had a very similar experience. thank you for sharing your story and being so transparent about it
I'm a counselor-in-training so it's wonderful to learn from your experiences and hear your story. Thank you for sharing, Jess!
ooof, Bipolar with panic attacks is a rough one. GAD was the first thing I was diagnosed with. I mean technically I do meet the criteria but most likely that anxiety and the panic attacks are related to the bipolar. It's actually common enough to have both that studies suggest they can be used as an indicator for bipolar disorder or at least what some doctors believe may be a specific subtype of bipolar disorder. Same goes for schizophrenia. other studies suggest they're all related as it's apparently not uncommon for all three to run in the same families.
Thank you for your video blog. I like your pink lights. How are you feeling now? You've got this!
love this!! so proud of you
Thanks for making this. I appreciate you
so proud of you! keep speakin your story ms girl 🤍
This video gives me hope. I feel like if you can go to brown and accomplish your dreams w bipolar 1, I can do that w bipolar 2. Please take care 🤍🤍 you're inspiring
this is so sweet, i believe in you!
Today is International Bipolar day. Get what your saying, I ended up in a "resort" just before Christmas.
I don't get as manic but I get major depressive or hypomanic. Like you said, there's more than just a depression element to it. I think I've been living with undiagnosed BPD.
My question for you. You seem like a lovely young lady who was raised right. I know there are genetic and environmental factors that play a role in BPD. Did you ever experience abuse or neglect?
i just got my diagnosis and i was spiraling from fear that i was stuck like this forever bc same thing happened to me i was misdiagnosed w severe depression and given so many dif types of SSRI’s at very high doses and it got so bad i felt like i slipped away from the fabric of reality like i was just floating in a different realm while also in this one going insane fantasizing ab killing myself and i substituted my drug issues w shoplifting which is like insanely out of control rn so im hoping my new medication cocktail will help me bc the worst part ab this are my intrusive thoughts esp the ones related to my history of getting SA’d so i want all of it to end, i want a clean head and a normal life i feel so scared of everything and that includes myself and my brain which sucks bc how am i supposed to leave my brain 🙁🙁🙁🙁 anyways thank u for this, it rly calmed me down, i send u infinite love 🤎🤎🤎⭐️⭐️⭐️
Thank you for sharing. Wishing you all the best, love ❤️
I've bipolar 2
Got diagnosed at 11. Cool video!
I also have bipolar disorder and psychotic disorder for 4 years. I feel very tired. Do you feel the same? What do you use for energy?
i got told i had bpd and bipolar in December i think and it has been so hard since then
Your video was really clarifying for me! Thank you ❤
so proud! love u
Thank You
I did a partial program at my hospital
If you are on meds, can you still suffer from ups and downs ?
want to ask you, are there any symptoms of isolation from everyone, I am now isolated for about two months, I think I am in a state of depression,
I felt this bro. It sucks. Also meditations are hard
I’ve been so scared to talk about my bpd 2. Honestly I think I’m ready to make my video about it now you really inspired me 💕
The problem is I don’t know still if I have bpd or bipolar but it’s one or the other
omg.... Hi Jess I honestly felt like I was listening to my own story!
I was diagnosed with depression at first but later i found out that im bipolar
it would be great to share my stories with you
In the video, I found you try to look more energetic than you are but you dont have to!
its okay to be serious its okay to be sad
you dont always have to be happy🤍
sall good❤️
WHAT MEDS WORK FOR YOU??????
Are person with bipolar disorder laugh at inappropriate times at school for example
I think that you need to see a functional medicine doctor to get a vitamin and mineral deficiency test before being described antidepressants because of short and long term side affects.
Thank you iWork with Clients both Bi type 1 and 2. Like what you said, thank you for sharing. Pavo
how long until you got manic after the antidepressants use?
I had the same reaction with antidepressants and it took me maybe 2 or 3 weeks when I was having very extremely/heightened hypomanic episodes. /:
I don’t have bipolar but I rarely experienced some manic symptoms I had it yesterday yesterday early morning only lasted for a few minutes and I made stupid theories and came back later
It was like something is possessing me (I experienced depersonalization symptoms also)
I’m going through this now as a senior in college. I have one major questions -
When I try to exercise now I get extremely manic instantly. It’s horrible. While taking medication for bipolar would I be able to run and go to the gym again? It’s a bleak fucking outlook but that’s all that I want right now
Hi Maz, I’m sorry to hear you experience this. I personally cannot give advice because it hasn’t happened to me. I would definitely consult a professional!
Videos like this is what made me want to start uploading videos ❤️I’m also wearing pink today!
luv u jess💓
love you selalu
appreciate you sharing girl.
You are obviously very intelligent. Remember that bipolar doesnt have to be a disability - it can be a superpower. I was diagnosed at 14 and am 61 now. I have over a hundred patents, won every award possible at my company as an engineer. Find a good psychiatrist and get your meds right and add regular psycho analyisis if possible. It gets better, hang in there.
Thank you for this
i love u!!! so much!!!
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hi jess what's your ethnicity?
i have bipolar type 2 suicidal depression
I’m Indonesian :)
thank you for sharing your story beautiful❤❤
much love gorgeous!!