I have autism and there was a time in my life when I felt like I was not enough. Before I met Jesus, I grew up trying to be a people pleaser and getting validation from others. Every time I failed at that, I just felt like a not quite. Going into college, I struggled with alcoholism, drug addiction, and pornography as ways to fill in the void in my heart. Similar to Mark, I tried to build my life around a girl, I attempted to take my life. Earlier in this semester, I had an encounter with Jesus and He told me to come as I am and he will accept me as I am. Jesus gave me a new heart and desires. I’m truly thankful!! Praise Jesus!! 🙌
I grew up thinking i was nothing. My family had always pushed me to the side, and one day, I asked my mother if i was a mistake, and she said yes. I'll never forget that day, but praise God, i found Jesus and found my worth in His shed blood.
This really hit home, I was in 2nd grade and my teacher told my parents that I was the r word, and I was never going to be able to learn, basically told me I was a garbage and I'd never end up being anything. For a longtime I believed it and covered up my issues with drinking. Thank God I found Christ and now understand we are all sinners.
Wow. Thank you for your openness. The heart of this series is to let everyone know they are NOT alone. As another commenter said here, YOU are special to God.
If funny how we are so good at hiding and masking in Christianity when all of us are seeking freedom. We cant even be free at churches bc is God really running them or He is there but outside looking in bc moast of us dont want to or dont know how to address our issues
I was also diagnosed in second grade in the 70’s with dyslexia. I am now learning that add, dyslexia, bipolar disorder and even addiction are all linked to trauma as a child. Sometimes physical sometimes emotional or both. I learned to be hyper vigilant at home to feel a sense of safety and stability. Tried to stay ahead of things and preemptively fix it. Then I took that instinct with me wherever I went as a coping skill in life. When you are hyper vigilant you cannot absorb certain information around you especially in a traditional school setting. I excelled in friendships and helping others and that was very fulfilling for me although it lead to problems with people pleasing issues. Not until I had four kids of my own.. one of which is very much like me did I finally start to stand up and search for information that would help him and that has helped me as well. I struggle with my faith in God a lot but somehow and at what seems like the last minute or 10 minutes after the last minute God comes through with something I could have never done myself as hard as I try. I have a small tattoo that says Let Go to physically remind me to stop trying to control everything and trust that God can do a better job than me to “fix” things than me.😌
Wow, that hit hard. It takes humility to be that open. Because Mark Hall was open he could explain his own brokenness and how Christ wraps it with His grace shining through it.
So he mentions at 19, his life got really dark. Well, my oldest son had a life that’s incredibly similar to Mark’s. He’s 19 as of this year, and he believes his life couldn’t be worse. But he’s growing his faith in Christ as we speak. I have faith that life will get better for him, and the Good Lord will provide for him, as he has been.
April 7, 2005, I met the entire Casting Crowns Fam. I introduced myself & Said, “I’ve been the one emailing you!!” Mark replied w.”Hey Nathan!! How ya doin’ Buddy?!” Luv this Man!!
Casting Crown crew❤❤❤. I still listened to their song this morning. You're already there.💃 Undone💃 To know you and the list goes on 🎉🎉 Feeling some hope in ma soul brother. Thank you for being REAL.🎉
I have Adhd & autistic to the world. To God I'm his child made in his image. I was really struggling as I know Jesus wants me to worship him in spirit & in truth. I was ready to give up & the holy spirit told me to listen to Mark Hall's testimony. I now know why. Glory to God
The reality that you are never alone, no matter the pain or stress. Without your sharing your gifts with us I myself have had moments like your friend’s gun but your words helped me so much! Thank you for your witness!
You are not alone friend, Jesus truly loves us and you and to be honest I struggle to believe through each day but he doesn’t give up on us and he is still our father and your still his loved child
Thanks so much for sharing this incredible interview because one would have never guessed that Mark struggled in these areas. Some hurts may never be fully resolved in our lifetimes, but remembering what God says about us and having a real relationship with Jesus does help us rise above them. God Bless Mark Hall and Casting Crowns for drawing our hearts closer to God through their music and words.
Truly heartbreaking yet inspirational. Thank you for your honesty. You are not alone. Of course that realization is a personal journey one does one step at a time. God knows us intimately. Much love.❤
Thank u so much for ur honesty, I have listened to ur songs now since I've accepted Jesus and casting crowns has always been my favorite group. Just connect to every song u all write. Ty
Amein, thank you for the testimony and encouraging message. The enemy seeks to twist, distort and distract us from the truth. He seeks to cause us to look like and do things of the nations. But we are to not be conformed to their ways. GOD has always commanded His people to be guardians of His Word. It "is life".
Wow, glad he was honest bc this is where we heal. This makes sense why his music feels so real and touches yiur heart. Glad you didn't give up!!!! It's interesting how we gravite to the negative more than any positive. All those people paid for a ticket if they didn't want to be there guess what they wouldn't have come. We need to keep in mind that we dont know what people are going through and sometimes reacting to their own life not ours
I grew up believing that I was not enough, but it was for a different reason. God is good. I learned the truth. I have no doubt that the biggest reason Mark works so well with teens is because of the dark places he had been. God takes the painful parts of our past (if we give them) and makes beauty from them.
I cried listening to your story. Thank you for sharing and I am so grateful GOD saved you and use you to bless so many others including me. May GOD continue to bless you and use you to bring more souls to his Kingdom. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen 🙏
Thank you for sharing God's healing journey. Everything you spoke of, happened in my life. Every day holds another part of the journey. You are a blessing today for me! ❤
This was so amazing! Thank you so much. I needed to hear this. My brain likes to say to me that I don’t matter in so many ways. And my ocd just makes it worse. I’m not alone though. I also have a learning disability. I’m from St. Petersburg Russia and me and my brother were adopted into an amazing family here in the USA. I can only think of God giving me that miracle and blessing. From being in a bad place in an orphanage in Russia to a brand new life where I have parents and family and friends who love me now. I pray that one day I can understand Gods love for me and believe that I’m enough. I feel like I see these videos at times and I still don’t get it. Even though they are awesome. I pray one day I will understand.
In order to understand, you need to experience it. In order to experience it, there are 2 things i suggest you to do: ask God to do it in you, & speak the truth about yourself although your brain tells you different thing. I've been in your place, and i'm free now, thank God everyday for this incredible inner freedom to appreciate & love myself so i'm made able to appreciate & love others!
Don't make it more difficult than it really is. It's about True Love, The Only True Love there is, & that's through Jesus Christ. As it's also reflected & given by others, who know The Almightys Powerful Love. You are & have Always been Loved. 🙏❤️
Thank you for sharing this. I struggle with similar issues. I am thankful for you and the others, I am encouraged by this and the songs that help me to keep my mind towards Christ.
Been goung through that "building your life around a girl" he talked about.. when she leaves.. She was my wife and best friend of 11 years.. 2 kids.. its been 8 months.. hardest darkest time of my life
Thank you guys, this was eye-opening. I struggle with perfectionism with schoolwork in college, and just knowing that it's normal for the lies to still be there even as a believer was comforting, knowing that God can still work with where I'm at.
Thank you so much! Mark Hall you open my eyes to a lot of things. Our roads and younger day were the same same problems with school I thank you so much for your leadership and I thank the Lord for blessing us with you. Amen
I feel you sir. Because I am in the same boat and this honest talk really gives me some hope, at least there is some light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you, God bless
This really spoke to my heart and is much needed!! Thanks so much for you and Casting Crowns!! Your music, videos and the words to them have helped and continue to help me to keep keeping on whilst also focusing and praising the Lord!! Keep doing what you're doing Mark and Casting Crowns!! Jx 🕊🙏❤🙂👍
Thank u mark Finally i have found out where I belong. U opened my eyes I need to find .me again U have helped me very much I know now what i.need to do God Bless u.🙏🙏🙏🙏
I wasn't diagnosed with OCD because of my self-confidence issue. In an environment of blaming myself and hating myself, I do not understand what is not within my control. Deciphering lies from The Enemy is important.
The way you described finding music and song is exactly how you and your band found me. It was the weirdest thing ever. I asked for something in a prayer and there you were totally out of the blue. Yoe were meant "TO BE " ......... thank you ❤
I have undiagnosed adhd inattentive and dyscalculia. I wish I could get in touch with Mark Hall and get advice. I can't get help anywhere. When you don't want medication, it's like you get excluded 😢
As a child I really struggled with self esteem with ear problems and it was more than just hearing loss because of narrow ear canals I couldn’t get water in my ears I was told, if I did , I got an ear infection. I had a lot of infections, many doctor visits as a result. With runny ears, pus and blood got into my hair which was not pleasant. I felt no one would ever want me. I knew God from childhood and felt he was with me. Still struggled with letting people too close to me, when I did let them close, I’d have to suddenly excuse myself and leave. I cannot finish this as it brings back so much emotions that still hurt. Your right, going through, I thought I was the only one.😢. Older and hopefully wiser now.❤
I inlike manner, I was like that fearing even when I've done nothing and being interested in other people's opinions. Now I'm being forced into baptism in the Adventists and it's really hitting hard. But Iike Mark I pray that utterance is even me because as Luther said in 1517 sola fide and sola scriptora. Salvation by Faith alone in Christ and infallibility of scripture. I don't have to do anything to fill complete neither by pleasing anymore nor feel worthy through works but rather let Christ have dominance over every matter of my life . Please pray for me. Praise God 🙏🙏🙏
Mark and anyone else that might be reading this, I have some friends in Pakistan and a few countries in Africa that are Christians, in desperate need, I don't know where to look for help for them. I'll lead you to them and you can check them out to make sure they are real. Or if you have any suggestions on where I can look for help for them??? I truly don't know where to look??? If you can help??? Thank you in advance, God bless, always in my prayers ☝️🤲❤️
I heard Mark Hall has ADHD and Dyslexia. I have ADHD on too of Asphergers. I don’t understand why God made me this way but know He has a purpose for my life.
Our god is more than amazing . You are chosen. you are god purpose he have plan for you . Look at you now you have bless so many souls with your spiritual songs god is truly using you as ambassador for Jesus Christ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤💯🎤
I have autism and there was a time in my life when I felt like I was not enough. Before I met Jesus, I grew up trying to be a people pleaser and getting validation from others. Every time I failed at that, I just felt like a not quite. Going into college, I struggled with alcoholism, drug addiction, and pornography as ways to fill in the void in my heart. Similar to Mark, I tried to build my life around a girl, I attempted to take my life. Earlier in this semester, I had an encounter with Jesus and He told me to come as I am and he will accept me as I am. Jesus gave me a new heart and desires. I’m truly thankful!! Praise Jesus!! 🙌
I grew up thinking i was nothing. My family had always pushed me to the side, and one day, I asked my mother if i was a mistake, and she said yes. I'll never forget that day, but praise God, i found Jesus and found my worth in His shed blood.
This really hit home, I was in 2nd grade and my teacher told my parents that I was the r word, and I was never going to be able to learn, basically told me I was a garbage and I'd never end up being anything. For a longtime I believed it and covered up my issues with drinking. Thank God I found Christ and now understand we are all sinners.
We are special to God
Wow. Thank you for your openness. The heart of this series is to let everyone know they are NOT alone. As another commenter said here, YOU are special to God.
That's unbelievable how cruel adults make kids feel and not understand how hurtful their words are or don't care.
If funny how we are so good at hiding and masking in Christianity when all of us are seeking freedom. We cant even be free at churches bc is God really running them or He is there but outside looking in bc moast of us dont want to or dont know how to address our issues
I was also diagnosed in second grade in the 70’s with dyslexia.
I am now learning that add, dyslexia, bipolar disorder and even addiction are all linked to trauma as a child.
Sometimes physical sometimes emotional or both.
I learned to be hyper vigilant at home to feel a sense of safety and stability.
Tried to stay ahead of things and preemptively fix it.
Then I took that instinct with me wherever I went as a coping skill in life.
When you are hyper vigilant you cannot absorb certain information around you especially in a traditional school setting.
I excelled in friendships and helping others and that was very fulfilling for me although it lead to problems with people pleasing issues.
Not until I had four kids of my own.. one of which is very much like me did I finally start to stand up and search for information that would help him and that has helped me as well.
I struggle with my faith in God a lot but somehow and at what seems like the last minute or 10 minutes after the last minute God comes through with something I could have never done myself as hard as I try.
I have a small tattoo that says Let Go to physically remind me to stop trying to control everything and trust that God can do a better job than me to “fix” things than me.😌
Wow, that hit hard. It takes humility to be that open. Because Mark Hall was open he could explain his own brokenness and how Christ wraps it with His grace shining through it.
So he mentions at 19, his life got really dark. Well, my oldest son had a life that’s incredibly similar to Mark’s. He’s 19 as of this year, and he believes his life couldn’t be worse. But he’s growing his faith in Christ as we speak. I have faith that life will get better for him, and the Good Lord will provide for him, as he has been.
"Jesus, I need you to tell me who I am..."
Thanks for what you all do
April 7, 2005, I met the entire Casting Crowns Fam. I introduced myself & Said, “I’ve been the one emailing you!!” Mark replied w.”Hey Nathan!! How ya doin’ Buddy?!” Luv this Man!!
No way! That's really cool. Mark is such an awesome man.
I wish that I could get to meet them all but too far away
Casting Crown crew❤❤❤. I still listened to their song this morning.
You're already there.💃
Undone💃
To know you and the list goes on 🎉🎉
Feeling some hope in ma soul brother. Thank you for being REAL.🎉
I have Adhd & autistic to the world. To God I'm his child made in his image. I was really struggling as I know Jesus wants me to worship him in spirit & in truth. I was ready to give up & the holy spirit told me to listen to Mark Hall's testimony. I now know why. Glory to God
Thank you for watching!! God loves you!
i can relate as someone with learning disabilities
You're not alone!
I Love this Man his Voice his Spirit…Just everything about him to be honest. Huge huge RESPECT🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
❤❤❤ "my feelings are valid, but they arent always true"
Hits right in the heart
This is the quote that hit me, too. Powerful.
What a testimony thank you for sharing 🙏🏻
The reality that you are never alone, no matter the pain or stress. Without your sharing your gifts with us I myself have had moments like your friend’s gun but your words helped me so much! Thank you for your witness!
This really hit home for me. I needed to hear this today.
I struggle with self worth as well i struggled in school and I also have anxiety and intrusive thoughts
You are not alone friend, Jesus truly loves us and you and to be honest I struggle to believe through each day but he doesn’t give up on us and he is still our father and your still his loved child
Thanks so much for sharing this incredible interview because one would have never guessed that Mark struggled in these areas. Some hurts may never be fully resolved in our lifetimes, but remembering what God says about us and having a real relationship with Jesus does help us rise above them. God Bless Mark Hall and Casting Crowns for drawing our hearts closer to God through their music and words.
He’s lovely. You are so worth it!❤🙏
Thank you Casting Crowns for coming to God forsaken Boston. I know you lost money, but lives were transformed. We love you. ❤
How would they have lost money?
Beautiful testimony
So true and beautiful
Glad I am not the only one with default lies blasting in my head. Thanx for sharing your vulnerabilities- very appreciated.
And thanks for watching Shelley! Glad his story was impactful for you!
Now I see why I connect so much to you, blessings to you.
We need more of these.
Wow! Everyone has a story but sometimes we think ours was worse until you hear someone else’s. God is so faithful to each and everyone of us. 🙌🏼
Agreed! He is faithful!
Mark thank you so much for sharing from your heart.
Truly heartbreaking yet inspirational. Thank you for your honesty. You are not alone. Of course that realization is a personal journey one does one step at a time. God knows us intimately. Much love.❤
I love this series. It is very transparent and real.
Thank you Sarah!
Thank u so much for ur honesty, I have listened to ur songs now since I've accepted Jesus and casting crowns has always been my favorite group. Just connect to every song u all write. Ty
Man, is there an extended version of this interview? Felt like he was just getting into the deep stuff. I appreciate what was there tho!
Amein, thank you for the testimony and encouraging message. The enemy seeks to twist, distort and distract us from the truth. He seeks to cause us to look like and do things of the nations. But we are to not be conformed to their ways. GOD has always commanded His people to be guardians of His Word. It "is life".
Wow, glad he was honest bc this is where we heal. This makes sense why his music feels so real and touches yiur heart. Glad you didn't give up!!!! It's interesting how we gravite to the negative more than any positive. All those people paid for a ticket if they didn't want to be there guess what they wouldn't have come. We need to keep in mind that we dont know what people are going through and sometimes reacting to their own life not ours
You are always enough for the Lord!
I grew up believing that I was not enough, but it was for a different reason. God is good. I learned the truth. I have no doubt that the biggest reason Mark works so well with teens is because of the dark places he had been. God takes the painful parts of our past (if we give them) and makes beauty from them.
I cried listening to your story. Thank you for sharing and I am so grateful GOD saved you and use you to bless so many others including me. May GOD continue to bless you and use you to bring more souls to his Kingdom. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen 🙏
I really needed this today. This really hits home for me.
Great story so true
You have a beautiful heart and incredible God given gifts. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. 🙏
Thank you for sharing God's healing journey. Everything you spoke of, happened in my life. Every day holds another part of the journey. You are a blessing today for me! ❤
This was so amazing! Thank you so much. I needed to hear this. My brain likes to say to me that I don’t matter in so many ways. And my ocd just makes it worse. I’m not alone though. I also have a learning disability. I’m from St. Petersburg Russia and me and my brother were adopted into an amazing family here in the USA. I can only think of God giving me that miracle and blessing.
From being in a bad place in an orphanage in Russia to a brand new life where I have parents and family and friends who love me now.
I pray that one day I can understand Gods love for me and believe that I’m enough. I feel like I see these videos at times and I still don’t get it. Even though they are awesome. I pray one day I will understand.
We pray that God continues to encourage your heart and give you reminders of how much He loves you!
In order to understand, you need to experience it. In order to experience it, there are 2 things i suggest you to do: ask God to do it in you, & speak the truth about yourself although your brain tells you different thing. I've been in your place, and i'm free now, thank God everyday for this incredible inner freedom to appreciate & love myself so i'm made able to appreciate & love others!
Don't make it more difficult than it really is. It's about True Love, The Only True Love there is, & that's through Jesus Christ. As it's also reflected & given by others, who know The Almightys Powerful Love. You are & have Always been Loved. 🙏❤️
Praying for you Mark. ❤
Thank you for sharing this. I struggle with similar issues. I am thankful for you and the others, I am encouraged by this and the songs that help me to keep my mind towards Christ.
Been goung through that "building your life around a girl" he talked about.. when she leaves..
She was my wife and best friend of 11 years.. 2 kids.. its been 8 months.. hardest darkest time of my life
Thank you guys, this was eye-opening. I struggle with perfectionism with schoolwork in college, and just knowing that it's normal for the lies to still be there even as a believer was comforting, knowing that God can still work with where I'm at.
Amazing
Thank you so much! Mark Hall you open my eyes to a lot of things. Our roads and younger day were the same same problems with school I thank you so much for your leadership and I thank the Lord for blessing us with you. Amen
Great video!
The message is so powerful. Thank You so much for sharing.
Thanks for watching!
I feel you sir. Because I am in the same boat and this honest talk really gives me some hope, at least there is some light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you, God bless
This really spoke to my heart and is much needed!! Thanks so much for you and Casting Crowns!! Your music, videos and the words to them have helped and continue to help me to keep keeping on whilst also focusing and praising the Lord!!
Keep doing what you're doing Mark and Casting Crowns!! Jx 🕊🙏❤🙂👍
Thank u mark
Finally i have found out where I belong.
U opened my eyes
I need to find .me again
U have helped me very much
I know now what i.need to do
God Bless u.🙏🙏🙏🙏
Wow this sounds so familiar. Thank you for sharing your story I never would have known and I appreciate it
I'm so glad you were able to find some comfort in this video!
I wasn't diagnosed with OCD because of my self-confidence issue. In an environment of blaming myself and hating myself, I do not understand what is not within my control. Deciphering lies from The Enemy is important.
The way you described finding music and song is exactly how you and your band found me. It was the weirdest thing ever. I asked for something in a prayer and there you were totally out of the blue. Yoe were meant "TO BE " ......... thank you ❤
I have undiagnosed adhd inattentive and dyscalculia. I wish I could get in touch with Mark Hall and get advice. I can't get help anywhere. When you don't want medication, it's like you get excluded 😢
Wow.....Mark you spoke my life to me.thank you❤❤
As a child I really struggled with self esteem with ear problems and it was more than just hearing loss because of narrow ear canals I couldn’t get water in my ears I was told, if I did , I got an ear infection. I had a lot of infections, many doctor visits as a result. With runny ears, pus and blood got into my hair which was not pleasant. I felt no one would ever want me. I knew God from childhood and felt he was with me. Still struggled with letting people too close to me, when I did let them close, I’d have to suddenly excuse myself and leave. I cannot finish this as it brings back so much emotions that still hurt. Your right, going through, I thought I was the only one.😢. Older and hopefully wiser now.❤
That’s a good choice bc it’s a right choice. Don’t take the medicine. You don’t need Mark shall but u need Jesus. Call out to Him
“The stickers only stick if you let them.” ___Max Lucado
I inlike manner, I was like that fearing even when I've done nothing and being interested in other people's opinions. Now I'm being forced into baptism in the Adventists and it's really hitting hard. But Iike Mark I pray that utterance is even me because as Luther said in 1517 sola fide and sola scriptora. Salvation by Faith alone in Christ and infallibility of scripture. I don't have to do anything to fill complete neither by pleasing anymore nor feel worthy through works but rather let Christ have dominance over every matter of my life . Please pray for me. Praise God 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you Mark
Amen Mark. I can relate
Mark and anyone else that might be reading this, I have some friends in Pakistan and a few countries in Africa that are Christians, in desperate need, I don't know where to look for help for them. I'll lead you to them and you can check them out to make sure they are real. Or if you have any suggestions on where I can look for help for them??? I truly don't know where to look??? If you can help??? Thank you in advance, God bless, always in my prayers ☝️🤲❤️
I heard Mark Hall has ADHD and Dyslexia. I have ADHD on too of Asphergers. I don’t understand why God made me this way but know He has a purpose for my life.
How do ya reach out to Matt
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Our god is more than amazing . You are chosen. you are god purpose he have plan for you . Look at you now you have bless so many souls with your spiritual songs god is truly using you as ambassador for Jesus Christ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤💯🎤