This last year within a three month period I lost my father, my wife had an affair on me and my cancer became very severe when I caught covid. It’s hard to hold faith in the darkest of times. It confusing to think about why god allows these things to happen. It’s the hardest chapter of my life as I am only 23 years old. I have to just continue to pray and live the best life I can.
Lol before I was saved everything was just so much easier, positive, almost like it was handed to me on a platter. After I was saved the exact opposite became true.
God will restore you, God will give back what the enemy has taken from you , God will give you the joy you disire and deserve! I will pray for you, but i know for a fact that he will deliver you! there is nothing you can do or say to change the gifts that God has written for your life.
Just think of what He did for us and how traumatic it was for Him. He made it. We will too although not fun sometimes. There are health problems with a few of my kids that just make me want to go away, but I think of them and how strong they are and I’m so weak and they give me strength ( although Yah does). I just pray for them to come to know the truth first and foremost. He says endure till the end and THEN you will be saved and already warned us that we will have tribulation. I don’t look on the “ easier times” before , because I now know where I was headed , although the world looked at me as good. We need to look forward and not look back at the easier.🤷♀️
@@serdlc64 God is so good. He always provides. I think a lot of us are struggling with the fact it's ALL IN HIS TIME, not ours. But God knows the perfect time for everything. We who are struggling just need to be patient, a fruit of the Holy Spirit in Christ.
@@matthewj2492 Just checking in. How are things since this comment. I have been like you, but I am someone that does care about the pain of others. I hope things are better or are working there way towards being better for you. Keep on keeping on, I believe in YOU!
I am losing my faith right now because before I got saved, I was alot happier. I was a free spirit who was generally a happy person. Once I got saved, Ive gone through so much spiritual warfare and there is just alot of restrictions on my life I feel like once I got saved. Can't listen to specific music, can't do this, can't do that. It is very hard but what really was a breaking point for me was a group of people betrayed me when I did nothing wrong and here they are, living there lives happy, while here I am miserable. It's like I feel like Christianity is all about breaking you down where you feel you lost control of your free will.
I can clearly understand especially as a pastor's daughter. My whole life was consumed with church this and church that. I grew to understand the different between religion versus relationship many years later but now after all the things I've lost and the horrible so called hypocritical Christians, I don't want anything to do with it. My only option at this point is to leave Christianity and turn to Messianic Judaism as one last ditch effort or become a agnostic.
Praying for you, for the warfare to break. It’s unbelievably difficult when the warfare is so heavy; you definitely start to question everything. Christianity at its core is about a relationship with God though-the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. It’s all about relationship-if that hasn’t been explained or taught-which it often isn’t and I think takes a good while to really understand if you weren’t taught; it definitely has for me and I’m still learning-it turns to empty, dead religious rules. A loving father gives parameters to his child’s life and those are known through relationship. Maybe the child doesn’t understand when he’s 5 why he can’t drive the car; but when he’s 16 and learns the ins and outs as to how to drive and all that comes with it, he understands why his father set that boundary in place and can see it was for his best interest and safety of his life. God has rescued us out of the control of darkness though Jesus-keep turning to Him, He is the only way out of the darkness-if the only thing you can do is just that (turn to Him). And tell Him how much you’re struggling, like Jason talked about in this interview-tell Him everything and ask Him to make Himself real and known to you where you are. I’ve prayed this many times and know that He answers this cry ♥️
I know what you mean. I can't relate specifically, but I can relate generally! We have two options, really: life without God or life with Him....and I can't imagine life without God!
It's very hard to see people who don't even acknowledge God live beautifully while you suffer as a born again Christian, nothing seems to be going well, career, finances, your overall well-being is a mess yet you pray,you trust and obey.😢
@@DK1MM Just checking in. How are things since this comment. I have been like you, but I am someone that does care about the pain of others. I hope things are better or are working there way towards being better for you. Keep on keeping on, I believe in YOU!
The son of Tobymac died a few years back and he also had a really rough time. Almost quit. I saw one of his videos about the struggle he had. It was uplifting for me
I've believed in God all of the days of my life but I've lost my faith to a great degree. I'm tired of the constant pain, loss and suffering. I don't even have a real prayer life anymore. I don't want to talk to God because it doesn't matter because He is going to let things happen to good people. Everyday I wonder when I open my eyes what new tragedy awaits me.
@shespeaks2441, if I didn't see your name attached to this post, I would have thought that I wrote this. Your words are my exact feelings and words. I wait to see what horrible things will happen next. I watch every evil person who crossed me living their best lives. Knowing that they did me dirty. I looked to God... like wait. I know I'm not perfect, but I haven't done half the things that some have done to me to, but see those people coming up and I am dying inside every single day. If I didn't have my children...I would probably be dead now. But I love them too much to hurt them like that. 😢
@@SheickaLewisAnd i feel like you wrote everything I am feeling right now. My life is in a complete wreck. Soon to be homeless with two kids. And the ppl who caused me all this are enjoying watching me suffer. I prayed to God so many times but I feel he's not listening to me. I truly feel like God is punishing me And I am a bad person that's why all this is happening to me. Thank you for putting my thought's in words🙌🏾
I've stopped praying. Just a week ago I lost my faith like breath blowing out a candle. Just sudden and abrupt. I convinced myself that this time would be different, that even after all the no's, God was going to bless my family with an income that was substantial to say the least. That God was just trying to teach me patience and hope. It would have helped us greatly with our child, a vehicle, food. And it didn't happen. Instead we were yet again skipped over for someone else. I cursed and cursed saying all sorts of vile things, that i wish the person who was chosen would just drop d*ad on the job. I am slowly but surely turning into a bitter person, a person who doesn't have love for their fellow man anymore. A person who doesn't even care for God anymore. It's not that I don't believe he exists, its just that i am convinced if he does exist he certainly doesn't care about any of us.
I just want to say I’m sorry for the pain and hurt. It says in the Bible it rains on the just and the unjust. You’re doin nothing wrong. This world isn’t our home. Disciples were killed for their faith. We have to be saved but not soft on things of God. I suggest you fasting and praying. I will pray for you right now. I’m a pastors wife and stuff isn’t always easy, trust me. But God is always with me even when I can’t feel him for weeks on end. I praise him regardless.
@@hannbanan715 my dad abused my mom up until her death and he is more successful and appears to now be more happy than he has ever been. He just acts like nothing happened.
Finally, someone who is where I am and knows the depths of just no longer having faith. Built your life around it, hope in it, yet find yourself very disappointed with the outcomes. Church, small grpup,prayer, sozos, but nothing. I've been here for a decade now. Just dead on inside
I know about the dead inside. I've fought the good fight of faith even nearly dying five times. I'm tired of fighting I just want some peace, a break from battle after battle.
I’ve been there. I know it’s easier said than done but you’ve got to change your perspective and be okay with the fact that He is sovereign and we are not. All things work together for the good of those that love God and are called according to His purposes. Praise your way through. Your praise is a weapon. Lean on God and i promise it will pass. The word says that many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivereth them out of them all. You will be delivered. Please believe it and hold on.
@@ElizabethThorpe815 But that is a promise you can not keep. My Mom had a strong relationship with God and she suffered her entire life and it did not pass until she passed away. Many others are the same. It has led me to question is there really any point whatsoever to this life we live?
That hit home right now. Things are so hard, and I feel like I'm drowning. Its so hard to keep holding onto your faith when your world is crashing down, but I always keep fighting.
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All it would take is God to just tell me... something, anything. I'm breaking down, crying on my bed begging him to just talk to me and give me some kind of comfort, and I get nothing but silence. I want to stop feeling this way whenever I talk to him, but how can I do that when the only thing I get in return is silence and signs that I think might be him talking to me but I never know for certain. I'm just so tired of the uncertainty, and all it would take is quite literally one clear, direct, unmistakable word from him in my head to do that.
@JMRabil675 I know that God loves me. There are certain things that have happened in my life that have proven that to me despite the uncertainty it also brings due to it being indirect. What I don't understand and likely never will (at least in this life) is why God is silent.
God does indeed love you and you know that. I’m glad you do but let me give you a tip. The uncertainties you face about whether it’s God’s voice or not will be cleared when you focus on His written word, the Bible. You can’t tell right now because you don’t really know Him. My advice- focus on His word, get a very sound Bible believing church, spend time In prayer. Gradually you’ll see that what you’ve been looking for is right in front of you. I genuinely pray that you get to that point where you can boldly testify that you have an intimate relationship with your creator . I love you❤️
@ejirojones7356 Thanks for your comment. I don't want to make it seem like I don't have a relationship with God, I do, but it just feels....distant. Partly because I just want a more direct relationship with him where I can ask questions or advice and get actual audible answers rather than just spontaneous suggestions. Do you hear God's voice as a literal voice, or is it more along the lines of a strong mental suggestion that comes out of nowhere?
Im gonna give you a verse that the Lord has helped me with many times. Isaiah 43:1 "But now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and He that formed thee O Israel, Fear not: For I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine."
I am reading through the comments. It looks like a lot of people are hurting. I used to be on fire for God and served in many church ministries, even leading a Bible study class. I used to pray daily and many times I have followed a program to read the Bible (OT and NT) in one year, so I have read it from cover-to-cover numerous times. However, I have lost my faith due to a series of terrible and sad events in my life, but I still go to church looking for that one thing that will turn my faith back on, like he said in the video. So far, I have not been successful, and I was hoping he would share which psalm did that for him. I cried when I heard the song On Fire (Sanctus Real) the first time, because that was me. Pray for me is all I ask.
Not that I don't want anyone to pray for you, but I wonder why? Why should we pray for something good for us? If God is Love and know our thoughts why does he expects prays?
THANK YOU!! I’ve been through this but we Christians don’t share..sharing HEALS others. We need more transparency like this, thank you for stepping out and sharing
I agree. Christian churches seem to be the greatest pretenders. We don't talk truth and we keep a fascade of verses to mask what's really happening. Verses have their place, don't get me wrong, but being honest about life has it's place so God can step in and we can get healing we need verses contining to be dead on inside. Iam at thai loint of deep disappointment in God that has jaut leadt o deeper depressikna nd despair. No christians is around to help no good counseling and being a member of chirch for years hasnt helped. I am just silent. The power if God isnt what I thought it would be, the plans of God havent been what I thought they would be, the answered prayers and direction of God hasnt been what I rhought it would be....now sit here numb. I don't even want to go to church to pretend anymore and be alone....nor make effort to believe - believe in what....? My exoectations have been way iff
Please do not give up on the Lord!!! He has a plan for your life: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV). He loved you before the world was even formed! "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" (Ephesians 1:3-4). He is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
@beekeeper6778 yes he does. God chose David over Saul even though David ended up doing horrible things. He chose Joseph over all other brothers. He chose certain individuals over others for reason. Heck he even chose Israel over other nations even though Israelite betrayed him many times and ended up killing Jesus.
@@chookgoo77 it's not because He has *favorites* though. It's because He has a plan. We were not created for our testinonies- our testimonies were made for us. He crafted our stories FOR us, because He knows us before we're even born. He knew David was a natural born leader because He made him that way. He also knew all of David's weaknesses and worked his testimony to bring him good and Himself glory. God doesn't have favorite creations- just because someone is better liked by other people, doesn't mean God loves them more.
Life was so much easier before becoming christian. Tribulations are non stop. I'm depressed all the time. I'm deeply hurt on a physical, mental and spiritual level where all three bleed into each other. I've been praying for God to deliver me from them but He never has. I'm drowning on dry land.
Same here… the closest I wanted to be with God the worse my life bacame. Ilness, all friends left me alone I feel am loosing everything. I dont even have any mroe goal in my life but just to die…
@@annawojtowicz1330 John 15 19: If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.
I was full of life.. until i lost my dad and my young brother on the same day.. its been 4 months and my life is miserable.. i have no hope left in life anymore.. i pray that no one goes through the amount of pain I'm passing through.. i still have my faith in God but i feel like i have lost hope in life.
This helps me so much. I’ve been in such a dark season for some time now. I’ve been depressed and anxious and ultimately just sad. Sometimes I get discouraged because it feels like I don’t have the Holy Spirit anymore. Then from there I just spiral into thinking that God is done with me and has thrown me away because I’ve sinned and been disobedient too much. It feels never ending but this gave me hope.
Isaiah 41:8-9 Isaiah 43:1 Isaiah 54:4 Isaiah 54:19 I've been in the same situation many times in the past year. The Lord used these verses to soothe me and encourage me in those terrible moments. Remember, He's holding onto YOU. He fought for you before you were His. Just imagine how He'll fight for you now. Never give up, or forget His love for you.
I can totally relate to this. This season for me has been filled with so many ups and downs, so much so that I became apathetic in my faith, but God is restoring my joy again. Never believe that God is done with you. We all mess up. Once we repent, He forgives, restores, and accepts us back with open arms. Day by day, say yes to Him and try not to mediate on your mistakes.❤️
It's raw honestly with God and everyone close to us that helps with the healing. I discovered Jason's song, "Remind Me Who I Am" and fell in love with it. Recently, he did a show where he opened with that beloved song. I stayed in my car after parking at home to listen and sing along. After seeing this, I will try and be more aware to pray for Jason and others on this comment page. God bless. Thanks for sharing your gift.
Hi there. I recently discovered that same exact song. I fell in love with it instantly. I was going through the phase of losing my mother and it stings but it comforts at the same time. God bless.
These thoughts resonate so very deeply with me. The doubt, the pulling away, the isolation from the body of Christ that divorce created, all were very real. The struggle of fighting those demons of the mind and trying to figure out who you are in the ‘after’ can be so depressing and challenging. I also struggled with being angry with God for not ‘saving’ my marriage. I’m still working on ALL of those things, but thank you Jason for articulating so well your struggles and your victories with these same things!
If everyone would be honest, we’ve all had these same feelings. And I’ve experienced bouts of deep depression too. When I finally realized that God actually wants us to question the “whys”. It keeps us in communication with him. He loves us through it all.
I’ve been very ill. Doctors are worthless. I always believed God would step in when I really needed him. I’ve prayed so many nights to be healed or let me die. I just have nightmares and wake to a nightmare. I still have faith. God works in his time. Blessing to all.
This is where I am in my faith. I don’t feel like praying or going to church again. I prayed to God to bless me with a normal baby boy when I found that we were pregnant after a long time. I specifically asked God. Now my son is developmentally delayed. I have been a believer for a long time. I have been praying to God to change my son’s situation but he has been silent. I have struggled with believing Him and trusting again. I have prayed, fasted and no changes. I am giving up on him and if he wants to take me away so be it. I hope he can answer because my faith in Him is down.
Please do not give up on the Lord. He has a plan for your beautiful little boy: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV). He loved you before the world was even formed! "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" (Ephesians 1:3-4). He is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
@@olentangyriver1191 only God can heal. The only reason people become healed from physical illness and become saved from their sins is because of the Lord Jesus’s work on the cross and His new life after He was crucified and buried. He resurrected from the dead so that whosoever believes in Him would not perish but have eternal life! Eternal life with God, in total good health and fulfillment.
This is why I love honesty especially in something such as faith. I recently lost mine on Easter of all days. It felt like a candle lost its light and a new journey started for me. I’ve lost hope, gained it and flailing to say it lightly. I usually write the word, “but” with a comma cause there was always a, “Life is like this which is horrible, but Jesus…” and it just hasn’t resonated like before. I’ve decided to get plugged into a church, be honest with my spouse about it and hopefully she doesn’t have her faith shaken since she’s seen how much it’s changed me over the years. I truly feel lost, angry, and left alone by God. I’m hurt to say the least. He loves and yet we go thru these trials where if I just believed in my heart, I know the strength would be there to endure. It’s suffering that plagues my everyday life. I’m just waiting on Jesus to shine a light back in my heart and tell me He’s always been there even when I’m scared. Even when the light of the loving Christ vanish within me. It’s okay. I just keep trying to remind myself of when I first believed. When I felt something so real and tangible open past the ceiling walls at that church to pour in my heart. I felt a change then. And honestly, I keep asking myself do I need to feel it now? Maybe a little less when I just remember His presence and being more real to me than reality itself. Maybe, I just need to remember when my spiritual heart was first opened up and I believed.
That has been one of the hardest things to deal with as a Christian. All my good friends have apostatized. It has left me alone and missing them. They don't want God or to hear from me as a Christian anymore. Coping with life's disappointments is a test from God of our expectations. It takes many forms.
I just had my best friend openly reject his faith in Jesus to me after so many years running with him. It made me cry horribly. And I still pray that he finds his way back and that God does a good work in him. I will pray for your friends
@@alecferguson8428 (sigh) I had pretty much the same thing happen. A close "Christian" and best friend for many years denied Jesus and tried to deconvert me. It was like handling a death as I cried too. Other close friends just slipped away and ghosted me, not wanting to talk to me about God anymore. I will pray for you and your friends too.
I am reminded of the parable of the sower, also too the prodigal son. Never know if your friends will return or not, pray for them, let them come to you..as now they have excommunicated themselves. If they do come, be gracious, speak the truth in love..meanwhile I'll pray you find your solace in the Lord and that he might gift you with committed friends. Seek ye first the kingdom of God..God helping you. In Christ..🦋
Im battling depression right now..i have many negative thoughts in my mind..im tired,im weary,im lonely,im mad,sad,crying, panicking,losing hope,i cannot carry my burden anymore..Im in my darkness life..I dont know if I can still make it..GOD please,have mercy..please I need you..I cannot carry my load anymore..im tired..I surrender..GOD ALMIGHTY,help us please..in the name of JESUS CHRIST.amen
I had alot of fallouts with God, I yelled, I screamed, a lil profanity but with great fear. But I was blinded by anger and frustration at those times. Its all about communication, having a relationship with Him, and He understands us better than anybody else ever could. Some things I cannot talk about with friends or family for fear of being judged, laughed at, mocked or labelled crazy. Nowadays I just take Everything I'm dealing with to Him. Even if it was my own doing that got me in that predicament, and yeah, I get scolded alot! 🙄😂🙌
I can so relate to this ! Father heard " some wild things " from me 😊 But throughout the years I have come to realize that God can handle it and its a relationship, as such, we go through many emotions as we learn to communicate with Him effectively
Here's the thing, we're allowed to get mad at God. He can take it! He knows everything about us, and we have no secrets from him. He loves us more than anything and sometimes it's hard to believe his intentions are best but it's an everyday journey! Hang in there everyone! It's so worth it!
@@barbcramer763 it’s not okay to get mad at Him if we have faith, because we know that our lives are not our own anymore. He decides what to do with it by Himself
@@benjaminmagambo3849 there's like 10 psalms where David gets mad at God. Those books are put in the bible for a reason. Are you to now accuse David the man known for being after God's heart of being faithless because he was angry at him? We can be upset with God and till have faith in Him. We can know that He controls everything but still be upset of how is He is controlling things especially when we do not understand His reasons for allowing pain into our lives.
Beautiful testimony, it saved me from walking away from God. I’m struggling with patiences and I’m angry with God because he’s taking too long to answer my prayer. But through faith, I must understand that it’s his timing and not mine. Lord, I love you. Hear our cries. Amen.
Amen!!! Please do not give up on the Lord. He has a plan for your life: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV). He loved you before the world was even formed! "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" (Ephesians 1:3-4). He is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
Just seeing this today and i will be praying for everyone however God is God He is love He is good He is faithful. Please remember we have a real enemy who resists us day and night. None of the things that happen to us are God's fault. We are in a battle. Spiritual warfare is real. Walking in the Spirit is dying to your emotions to your feelings. So no matter how you feel push through. God rewards those who diligently seek Him. I love Psalm 40:1-3 the nlt version. You can turn those scriptures into a prayer. Be blessed everyone ❤
I’ve been waiting over 7 years to have an encounter with God that was meaningful to me, and it to change my life. I’ve tried to move on but I can’t. It’s something imbedded so deep in me I can’t get past it now. Jesus help me I don’t know what to do anymore
You can get past it. With man things are impossible, but with God all things are possible. Remember how the early church members were suffering, deeply hurting because of their faith in Christ. Prophets slaughtered because of their faith and boldness. Suffering is biblical. Hurting is biblical. And so is Gods promises to us. Even I, right now, am going through things that hurt terribly. But the Glory of God will be revealed in the victory. You got this because God got you.
Jason, you have been a ridiculous encouragement through so much! Your honesty and desire to hold on as hard as you can are just so refreshing consistently. Thank you!
I needed to see this so badly tonight! I've really been going through it the last two weeks and this was the reminder I needed. Thank you God - and thank you Jason!
You’re helping so many of us on our walk…..you’ve helped me on mine for years now. I ask others to walk with you…so God can use you to help them in their walk too. Much love for the part you’ve played in my walk.
Thank you for sharing your story! I can relate on many levels. Especially wrestling with God and learning to be brutally honest with Him. “Hallelujah I’m going through hell. Hallelujah I’m still singing it is well.” These are powerful words!
This! This! This! It’s the humanity of being God’s children that sometimes I need to hear more. This is why in the Bible people like David make me feel validated through my walk. It’s not easy and we get to low places but God! I needed this!
Agreed 100%. I wish I could say my faith is back where it once was but I don’t know if it ever will be. But when I’m angry at God, I have never been afraid to tell Him. He knows my heart anyways. It’s a struggle, but I haven’t given up.
God is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
My wife and I have had to walk through two sons with autism. I totally understand the dark places we can get to as we wrestle with God. I can honestly say He is good and He is worthy to be praised.
Thanks for saying this...I was also in that dark place after my son was diagnosed with autism until He showed up and rescued me during the pandemic when all the plan A and plan B failed... and Jesus showed me He is faithful and I can trust him. He is faithful ..loyal..kind and merciful🙌 ....fast forward post covid..He is reading now and communicating better after 15 months of staying home during covid ..at 12 years old!..the past 15 months have been the most challenging for our family but He rescued me..... Jesus said he will be with us in all circumstances...we just listen to the voice of the accuser who tells us we are either unworthy of his love or he doesn't love us or care..thanks again for your post.
I pray Lord you have a purpose and a plan for all those who are feeling you’re not close to them or believe you don’t have better for them. In Jesus name renew their faith in you and send your comfort and peace🙏🏾.
This is the most real video I have watched in a while. It maybe be partly because I struggle also and I can relate to how it feels. Thank you for sharing this. It helps
Thank you Jason Gray. I’m sorry to hear about your loss in divorce. I am right there with the loss of our daughter going through 2 years without her and approaching our 3rd year coming in August. I really don’t know how I made it this far without her. My faith too has been wrecked but still have it because without God I don’t know how to do anything. Grief doesn’t go away but hope lives on and I know she went before us to heaven and I’m looking forward to our turn to be together in heaven. Thank you for your heart and music that has resonated with me in many ways. Jesus loves you and I do too. God bless you right here right now. Amen
Debbie I pray that in those moments you miss your daughter you would be comforted by our Heavenly Father. I lost my grandmother due to cancer and I can’t express how much I miss her. But May God send the presence of the king of peace where ever you may be 💕
Dear Debbie having lost our beautiful son I know what you are going through and wondering how you can carry on. God will always be there to help you through, you are so much closer to Him than you can realise, and your daughter is praying for you too because she loves you. God helped me in ways I can only be ever thankful for as I felt I couldn't go on with my life and prayed for years to die myself, and after 7 years of praying to die, I was admtted to hospital and hoping this was it that my prayers to die were finally going to be answered but whilst there one afternoon I had this dream that my son was on top of a lovely green hill, in the sunshine with other children and happy and smiling and he was waving to me and said 'not yet mum' I woke up. If that had just been it it was a lovely dream but I smoked at the time and when I woke up I asked the nursing staff if I could go out and have a cigarette and they let me out the back door to a place I that I had never seen whilst there, and there in the back of the hospital grounds was a big green hill just like in my dream, 2 big green hills in fact, as if one wouldn't have been enough, and I knew it was a sign from God and my son to carry on with my life. You will be given strength everyday Debbie, to bring you through the hardest time(s) of your life. It is written 'Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted.' I share this with you to reinforce that God loves you and has you and your daugher in His loving arms. Recently, decades later I have made a big mistake due to depression and anxiety, and had a complete breakdown, and now I have to remember to fall back on into God's loving arms and cling to Him even though I just want to go home myself and sometimes have doubted God lately, as I do not get the sense of God as I use to in those early years of losing our son and I miss that so much, but I do know He is still there because I once felt so surrounded by His love and I have to trust Him completely because He has not brought me this far to leave me now. You will be given something too, in due time, that all is well.
Yeah, sometimes I feel like I hit a dead end, that my life isn’t where it used to be, and I question if God has taken me this far just to leave me at a dead end.
Also, I lost two very dear and close friends, a few years ago or so. I miss them a lot. It’s like a chunk of my life has been taken out. It’s not the same anymore. We used to joke about funny names of our Uber drivers and talk about the weather, and go to movies and trips and outings. There’s a hole in my heart where they used to be, but I don’t know if I’ll even see them again. I don’t know if I’ll see them in heaven. They were really good people(though one of them had both bad and good sides to him), but they were good people, especially the other one with how much he did for the disabled community, he was so giving, he was an outstanding person. But good people don’t go to heaven. 😢 Forgiven people do.
Jason Gray, your struggles with faith and the music that resulted from it has helped many, including myself, to have hope in our own struggles with faith. I love your music! And I love Acoustic Story Time on The Message. Fav song: Remind Me You're Here. Thank you!
This is extremely validating for me. I'm still angry with God for things that happened in my family in 2017. I still believe and obey as I can but it's hard a lot of times. I'm glad I'm not alone in this feeling. I do pray that it heals
God is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
There will be times that we don't feel God, or feel a connection to Him, or we feel nothing. Faith isn't just a feeling within us.. it is a choice, it is a choice to trust Him. That even though I feel nothing or don't feel God in my life, I know in my head though that God is there, that He never changes, and I will choose to still trust Him and the true things about Him.. and that is faith. I don't know if this helps anyone, I hope it does. Don't lose your faith.. your trust in who God is and that He is still there.
It doesn’t. I know the truth. He picks and chooses (he allows to happen, excuse my ignorance) who gets what, who doesn’t get what, no matter your effort or prayer or obedience. What’s the point?
I’m 21 years old and in the last year I had to quit both amazing jobs, take a break from college because of severe anxiety, ocd and depression. I’ve returned to school and I have a new job, but what I went through for those 6 months was absolutely the worst time of my life. I can’t even remember half of it. All I know was I spent most days in a panic attack or crying. Now I have just learned to cope, because I can’t afford to not work. I still suffer so much all the time. I have been begging God for months and now I am at the point where I am so hurt because everyday is hard. Every single day. I find myself looking back on some days and realizing I spent the whole day battling with negative thoughts about myself. I am so hurt, I have tried everything. I don’t want to give up, I want to believe but I am so hurt. I used to be so on fire for God and now I feel like I have been completely abandoned. Everyone around me seems to be at such peace with God but I am just here just trying to get through a day. I don’t feel at peace. I feel sad and hurt.
I'm mad at God, but what difference does it make to him? Does he heal me? Does he help me? I've been in emotional and mental pain for 33 years....where is he?
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
Although tragedy has hit our lives and yes it's upsetting. Yes we feel disappointed but sometimes the thread that we are holding on to needa to be what can I find in these situations to be thankful about.. Lord thank you for keeping my mind in all that I've been through in the last year. I should be and would have been crazy but you kept my mind. Find areason to be thankful and when you feel like giving up let that be the reason you keep going🙏💪
Sat down with him and told him what I was really feeling-not how I thought it should be. This is it…why do we think we can hide from God? After all Jesus asked the Father why have you forsaken me. Thank you for sharing this, loved the analogy of your sons anger being a wall between you, I believe the same is true in our relationship with Jesus, when we try and ‘be’ the ‘right’ Christian yet harbor much unspoken suffering there is a wall that will remain until we surrender all.
Faith isn’t based on feelings. In seasons of depression even if you can only hold onto a few verses you must trust God’s word over your feelings. #fight the fight of faith #live by faith not sight
Even one verse of God's word has His power in it. I wish I could always recognize that. It seems like everyday I'm not necessarily losing my faith, but I'm losing evidence for God. The evidence that used to be satisfactory now doesn't mean anything to me. So I'm learning how to walk by faith alone, but it's terrifying.
@@gregsmith5875 okay then, when you’re depressed and anxious, are you gonna rely on your feelings for your faith? No. The truth is the basis of faith. Not feelings. The truth produces feelings but not always.
Very comforting as I’ve also gone through an unwanted divorce that’s left wounds that feel like will never heal. Thanks so much for sharing this video.
Praise the Lord for the way that he called you back into His arms! The words of the psalms are wonderful life bringing ministers to our souls. I was at the meeting where your mom gave her heart to Jesus. I have known your dad and grandparents. It has warmed my heart to see your singing minister to millions of people worldwide. May God richly bless you for sharing your testimony and continuing to create and sing for His glory.
I often wonder if as we get older we have to shed the simple beliefs we have about God so we can be free from the religious restraints that "we in our young minds chose with what we knew about God" to discover Hod for who he really is that only a mature mind can comprehend. Psychologically speaking it's true. We age out of our beliefs but we don't change them in many categories. God is no different. God doesn't get alarmed about our questions because he knows it will lead us deeper and when we go deeper we see values we didn't know could be ours before
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
I lost my mom to pancreatic cancer and ever since my faith has been teetering. I don’t want to walk away from God- he’s all that I know. I’ve been saved all my life (both parents are believers) and I just don’t understand why this and everything else is happening to me it’s like my life turned upside down. It’s been five months of this wrestle and I’m tired.
Sis I had to reach out…i have been through a similar experience recently and I’m going through pretty much the same feelings as you spiritually. It feels overwhelmingly sad, lonely and unusual (always felt close to God).… I’m not there yet but I just know we have to hold on to the Hope God has for us ahead xx
Thank you Jason, for being raw and transparent. Your story will help others going through the same or similar situation. Interesting the bit about Bono. As a U2 fan, I know many of their songs in which they reference God, Jesus, and Bible verse. Praying for all to have God in their lives.
oh gosh, am happy you were revived back in Christ. That's a blessing. Wish I can say that in my situation. Anyways, kindly keep me in prayers as I am going through mines theses months. Feeling stuck and my heart and mind are not aligning in Christ. I cant even say a word of prayer. thank you.
The Lord helped me with these from Isaiah 41:8-9 43:1 54:4 54:10 After 8 years, you may have already seen these, but I just can't keep them to myself. I pray your struggle is nearing an end.
Take dominion over these demons. Prayer will help you. Keep contending and pray against any curses or any witchcraft in your family cause their could be stuff you never know about in your bloodline. When you see demons, rebuke them with Jesus name and have Jesus in your heart because if your not careful enough those demons can jump on you. But rebuke them and take dominion over them. It's good to live a repentance kinda lifestyle.
I spent 10 years in trauma and disappointment and watched as my life went down the downward spiral to the point where I felt useless for and to God. I still do. I can’t see the solutions. I just see the problems.
I feel abandoned in the sense that it seems whatever I pray for. I get the very opposite. Whenever I share the good news or uplift Gods word to family or friends, I, in return, seem to get bad news. This seems to be a common theme in my life, for over 30 years now. I truly love God and try to live to please him in everything I do but for some reason I am always struggling with some form of oppression, whether that be ,my adult children rebellion or just simply financial attacks. It just feels so personal and direct to pierce my heart with agony...I dare not question God, but it just hurts bad and robs me of happiness and my strength to live.
Wow! Yes I totally am there with him! I thought that nothing could ever shake my faith, but then the last 3 years have really shaken me and one of them is facing divorce and you feel like you can't be mad at God because you "aren't supposed to be". "You shouldn't question God, just trust" right? I think David was a prime example of expressing his emotions to God and he was considered a man after God's own heart, so there has to be something to that relationship that God wants in our relationship with Him. I have to question is it openess and laying everything before Him? I mean after all, He does say cast your cares upon Him. Thank you for sharing your experience and part of your journey.
Let's not lose faith!! I am going through moments of indescribable suffering, but remember that Jesus said that when he returns he will find faith? I also fail in faith, let's not be part of those who lose faith in the midst of brutal suffering, I have wanted to die, I have begged to die, I can't sustain it anymore, however always, I don't know what lifts me up despite everything, Let's hold on a little longer. Let us unite in prayer for those of us who are weak in faith. I love you my fellow sufferers.
I like the NLT version of this verse…““For everyone will be tested with fire.” Mark 9:49 NLT By and large the modern day church does NOT prepare us for trials….and many fall away sadly…. During my time of testing, I wanted to quit so many times but God gently brought me back every single time….. and as the songwriter said…where could I go back to the Lord?
Dear Jason Gray, your music has always moved me deeply in the past. I didn’t know you had suffered a divorce. I’m so sorry. I did too. From what I have experienced the church may struggle with how to love Christians who are struggling with their faith. Then people leave to regroup because it can be difficult to be in church as we can feel like hypocrites, just to name one scenario. I could say more but the point is Christian’s, especially pastors need to learn to not just love the lost well but to really love their flock. I am so happy that Jesus loves us well and will never shame us or turn his back on us.
Wow! Our stories of brokenness, “dead” faith, and disappointment are so similar! Thankful that He is a perfect loving Father and Healer; always faithful, even through our faithless times. Thank you, Jason, for sharing your story. It shows others going through similar struggle that while the LORD may ALLOW His children to be broken, He never ABANDONS us, and always creates something new and wonderful out of the brokenness.
One thing that God did for me, is that I thought that I would never find love, and then love came when I least expected it. It came in the form of someone I knew since college, since 2004.
God has left me 😢! I pray for good things and everything happens opposite. I am beyond done with this world and I don’t want to live anymore! I didn’t chose this, but I feel my faith is slipping out of my hands.
what a great testimony! there have been times when I was so disappointed with God that it has felt that if it were possible i would die from disappointment. But as Jason says here, we need to be completely honest and transparent with our heavenly Father, and I've found that only through being real with Him, warts and all- there was my breakthrough. terrific testimony brother
Thank you Jason for articulating this so well. Lately Ive been burying feelings of disappointment about my two sons. Last night, after a conflict with them, depression hit me hard. When you mentioned your son, I realized Ive become angry with God about my sons. I love them so much but they must make their own choices in life. Your words help me realize I can take my disappointment to God, and know he cares more about my sons than me.
Thank You God for rescuing Jason and bringing him back to The Faith. Thank you that even when this world puts us at the bottom of the trench, we have hope in You
I turned down a lot of opportunities in life to follow God and now I haven spent the last 7 months in college debt and no career. Which has lead me to losing my faith in God. Now I understand I'm not angry I am pissed with God. I listened to him and now I am worse off career wise and financial wise then I could have been and that anger for that is killing my faith. I really need to have that talk with God. Im glad I found this.
Me too I understand I did the same things It seems like God is preparing us for something both natural and physical, you can’t buy these trials , but faith
Same, I was and still am in an abusive relationship with my parents, my brother got away but the child protective services left me behind and I had to tolerate it, there was times I wanted to escape but I ended up back at my parents home. I was told by many churches that god wants me in that houses. Mind you I was the youngest and and I was the child no one pay attention and if I had attention it was usually neg from my narcissist mom. I stay and obey but ended with having schizophrenia. I'm mad at god cuz he knew what will happen to me yet he force me to stay by blocking me everytime I had an escape. Now that I'm 27 I'm even more mentally cribble and I'm still living with them. I hate god for playing favorite and leaving me behind and allowing voices in my head to bully me and mess with me and gaslight all day long and blame me for their actions
Three month update. I finally see why I was put into the position. I had a overly self reliant personality. Work was the god in my heart if I had a job at the time I would have spent more time working and less time developing my relationship with God and my church. I needed this time to reevaluate my priorities and make sure God was first above all things. Had I gone and made work my god I would have fallen away from God and been even worse off later on in life. God wanted to make sure I was spiritually prepared for what was to come.
@@melanieguadalupe347 This it seems to be a failure of CPS and the church. My church in time of distress and hurt reached out and sought to help me not let me languish in my difficult situation. Keep in mind I was a very self reliant person. I thought asking for help was a weakness and a burden to the church I was taught the church is there to help its members and its community when it can. Your church failed you. It shows that is a church not speaking the gospel. I am so very sorry this happened to you I truly hope that you find a God centered church family that can help you through this all.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been in the same place of feeling i have lost my faith and not wanting to hear the word off and on for many months since my son took his own life in 2019. I have stubbornly told myself and God and the devil that no matter how much i struggle with doubts i will continue to believe " though he slay me, yet will i trust him" i listen to elevation church and worship music and some weeks that's the best i can do. i appreciate your story about your son, as i have been realizing for awhile now that i need to talk about my feelings honestly with God and write in my journal and i have been avoiding doing so because it's messy and draining and hard to face and hard to articulate and hard to know what to do with those feelings. It's easier to be busy and distract yourself. Just know that so many times your music has ministered to me over the years, thank you, i hope someday i can pay it forward as you have to all your listeners. May God carry you in this time of brokenness and healing. He is near to the brokenhearted and saves all who are crushed in spirit.
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your son! My brother took his life July 4th 2019 and I can relate with the heartache & pain of grieving such a devastating loss of loved one. I too enjoy elevation worship ;). I really felt like the last 2 years of losing my brother then the pandemic exhausted me…but I noticed everyone is dealing some sort of post traumatic pandemic stress disorder too. As a believer I felt like I was letting the Lord down over the time of my grieving my brothers loss bc I totally shut down serving at church & needed time to heal. Now I am seeing the Lord has been & continues to refine me in his process of molding me more into who he’s called me to be. My passion for life & to serve had sparked again. I’m very thankful. I pray the Lord give you comfort & blessings as you continue to heal your heart & grieve. There is no timeline on healing from loss. Give yourself grace and give yourself permission to LIVE & Enjoy life again. It’s not easy but the Lord gives us time for mourning and healing and he will give strength and peace as we continue to live life for Him. For me taking a break from serving at church helped me heal, I still spend time in Gods word & worship him daily and praise him but I also learned that during this dry hard time in my life God has been renewing my spirit & slowly reigniting the dreams that he’s placed on my heart many years ago. God has a beautiful plan and purpose for your life & anyone reading this. Blessing to you!!!
It’s so hard sometimes but I kinda have to take a step back and say “ok God what now” knowing his ways are above mine and his thoughts about my thoughts..and I’ll never forget what my dad told me. “Life is like a walk with God and one day he says, “you know what your closer to my home than your home …why don’t you come home son.” ❤️
@@LadiesofPurposeTV thank you so much for these encouraging words, my husband and i have also taken a complete break from church and serving there in order to regroup and heal, i know God is building character and strength as we wait in him
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
gods love is transactional. the harder you work and obediant, the more gods love come in however, there are a large group of people whom god decided to neglect and forsake. it could be that youre one of those people
I lost my dad as an 11 year old. This year I have lost six people including my dad's mom and brother in law who i considered my second dad. I have gone through a horrible breakup that's so so painful and I'm a single mom with everything on me. I don't know where God is. I feel forgotten.
Wow! How he articulated this is incredible. After my marriage fell apart it started me in the same painful journey with my faith. That whole painful feeling of how he described there would be less and less light he could feel in him and even reading the word would make him angry.... if you haven't gone through it you just don't get it. 💯
@@meleshenko3767 oh my goodness I understand the heaviness of what you shared! I am trusting that I am moving forward. I have good and bad days and joy filled and angst filled parts of almost everyday. That part you said about the word closing to you...I have felt that...but just this week I have decided that I will not accept that and won't let the devil come any closer at me with it! I'm gonna let God speak to me in the small chunks at a different pace than what I was once moving at and just be greatful whatever I recieve. This week I had a couple sisters sow beautifully into my life that has encouraged me to keep fighting and hold on. In their wisdom and feowship I felt the Father's love and I could feel Him not giving up on me and though things aren't fully changed I have renewed strength and feel cheered on. I also so know the weariness of wanting to die and then repenting and the cycle. I literally just did that yesterday....and that's when I reached out to a sister I had met who offered to share her testimony of how God healed her. We had met but don't live near eachother. So after I repented God brought her to mind. I reached out and we talked for over an hour and it was such an iron sharpening iron conversation. I've been praising God ever since. There are no coincidences....it was a divine meeting when we met and divine timing for our phone call. I am reminded that we reallly have to draw near to our sisters in Christ and keep the iron sharpened! I also conti up to pray...Lord take me back to the start that first ❤️
Excellent , ty for yr transparency..I went thru the same thing 13 yrs back...And yr right , emotions aren't to be trusted, theyre so unstable, God does want us to come and pour everything out at His feet..He knows our thoughts anyway..the song turn yr eyes upon Jesus, and hymns in general were like a balm to me...the only one who wouldn't want you to come to the Lord w/the whole mess is the enemy of our souls...praise God for cleansing, for forgiveness, for mercy, for healing...ty for sharing yr heart w/us
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT FELT THIS WAY. I FEEL LIKE IVE BEEN FOR SAKEN AND ABANDONED. THE MORE I KEEP HOPING AND BELIEVING AND PRAYING THAT GOD WILL ANSWER MY PRAYERS, THE FARTHER AWAY THAT SEEMS TO ACTUALLY BE HAPPENING.
Maybe it is beyond hoping, believing and praying. Maybe it is time to start doing, time to repent, time to forgive others, time to obey the call of God. Maybe it is time for you to be obedient to what He commanded you to do.
@@adetolaadeola7493 I agree with you. If one checks and confirms he or she is in The Lord's will then that person should wait upon Him. Isa 8:17 BSB I will wait for the LORD, who is hiding His face from the house of Jacob. I will put my trust in Him.
I always believed that God would guide me, give me meaning. I've never found either one, and every time I made a move out of faith and trust in a promise, I lost out. I'm half dead in this life, and I haven't had the chance to live at all. If I'm being honest, I have serious doubts about the blessings of God meaning anything at all, at least for me. I don't have it in me to trust that the next life can make up for the one here. I don't know how to get onboard with the idea of a God who wants praise from 'more than conquerors' who've only lost. I'm worn out pretending to be okay with watching everyone else find solace and contentment by turning to things I won't take part in. I'm getting seriously desperate to experience anything nearly everyone else alive already has. Judgment on others for taking a person's life experiences and agency doesn't restore either, and I don't know how to be okay with that. I'm just tired.
Wish I could send an encouraging word to Jason. I had his first album manufactured and packaged at Disc Makers. I prayed for each client artist I was an account manager over. Jason Gray stood out, and God wanted me to pray from that point. Hopefully he may see this.. and know now… God had you from the beginning. In Christ!
I’m so glad Jason was this vulnerable with us I pray the we can be as vulnerable with God. He will come through! “Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12
I've been alone for 7 years. Suffering in silence. Su-eh-cy-dal thoughts, no purpose, no one to even talk to. Then a girl was brought into my life out of nowhere, and I thought this was it. Destiny. All those years alone would end here, and I'd find a purpose as a husband or a father and nope. Got my heart stomped out. What was the "plan" there? I'm alone. No devil. No God. No one.
Happened to me around 2 years ago. I'm just coasting now. Lost all motivation. The world is just so broken. The self delusion of believing in God kept me going through very difficult times, but I was lying to myself. Nothing to live for.
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
Guys help me. I feel so alone and temptation is overwhelming me. I feel like God is abandoning me and I can’t feel His love anymore… please help me I can’t take the burden anymore
I was struggling and went back to attending mass midday. I needed the sacredness and reverence of God again. I attend mass at a church that is 200 years old in CA and feel God in that old church. I was so angry at God and wounded with shame and a broken heart.
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
This year I lost my mom..she died in my arms I was crying to God and praying hoping she would come I prayed for an hour...I lost my mom lost everything, and finally I am on the verge of losing my faith...😭
Dear Lord, Please be close to this person. They need you. Please comfort them and give them your peace. Please let them know that you love them and let them know that you are looking out for them. In Jesus's Holy Name I pray.
You literally just told my heart. Word for word… give/take a few life traumas on top of divorce. I feel like I’m dead inside and drowning. I cry out to God because I desperately want to know Him again… but it’s been dead for so long now. This story just pierced my soul.
This last year within a three month period I lost my father, my wife had an affair on me and my cancer became very severe when I caught covid. It’s hard to hold faith in the darkest of times. It confusing to think about why god allows these things to happen. It’s the hardest chapter of my life as I am only 23 years old. I have to just continue to pray and live the best life I can.
Brizzo,
I’m so sorry for your losses. I’m praying for you.
Good grief.
I’m very sorry all this happened to you. I hope your circumstances change for the better.
BIG HUGS 🤗. I'm praying for you.
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I am more miserable waiting for God to show up then I was before I was saved and I wonder what’s the point of having faith
I feel exactly the same way.
My life was easy and I had a positive view on life.
Thank you for sharing I know it's not only me.
🧡👍
Lol before I was saved everything was just so much easier, positive, almost like it was handed to me on a platter.
After I was saved the exact opposite became true.
God will restore you, God will give back what the enemy has taken from you , God will give you the joy you disire and deserve! I will pray for you, but i know for a fact that he will deliver you! there is nothing you can do or say to change the gifts that God has written for your life.
Just think of what He did for us and how traumatic it was for Him. He made it.
We will too although not fun sometimes. There are health problems with a few of my kids that just make me want to go away, but I think of them and how strong they are and I’m so weak and they give me strength ( although Yah does). I just pray for them to come to know the truth first and foremost. He says endure till the end and THEN you will be saved and already warned us that we will have tribulation. I don’t look on the “ easier times” before , because I now know where I was headed , although the world looked at me as good. We need to look forward and not look back at the easier.🤷♀️
@@serdlc64 God is so good. He always provides. I think a lot of us are struggling with the fact it's ALL IN HIS TIME, not ours.
But God knows the perfect time for everything. We who are struggling just need to be patient, a fruit of the Holy Spirit in Christ.
Losing my trust in God, has to be the most painful ordeal of my life.
@@matthewj2492 please don't loose hope in GOD. HE IS ALL we've got nothing else matters...
@@MeronMelese-nk1sg Made it through! Thx
Your not alone
@@matthewj2492 don't let the enemy of your soul win!!!!!! KEEP MOVING!!!
@@matthewj2492 Just checking in. How are things since this comment. I have been like you, but I am someone that does care about the pain of others. I hope things are better or are working there way towards being better for you. Keep on keeping on, I believe in YOU!
I feel abandoned by GOD.🙁
Me too
Me too
You are not abandoned by God my friends❤. Remember what God said in Hebrews 13:5?
Don't love money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said, “I will never fail you. I will never abandon you. God keeps His promises
You’re not the only one
I am losing my faith right now because before I got saved, I was alot happier. I was a free spirit who was generally a happy person. Once I got saved, Ive gone through so much spiritual warfare and there is just alot of restrictions on my life I feel like once I got saved. Can't listen to specific music, can't do this, can't do that. It is very hard but what really was a breaking point for me was a group of people betrayed me when I did nothing wrong and here they are, living there lives happy, while here I am miserable. It's like I feel like Christianity is all about breaking you down where you feel you lost control of your free will.
Keep fighting
I can clearly understand especially as a pastor's daughter. My whole life was consumed with church this and church that. I grew to understand the different between religion versus relationship many years later but now after all the things I've lost and the horrible so called hypocritical Christians, I don't want anything to do with it. My only option at this point is to leave Christianity and turn to Messianic Judaism as one last ditch effort or become a agnostic.
Praying for you, for the warfare to break. It’s unbelievably difficult when the warfare is so heavy; you definitely start to question everything. Christianity at its core is about a relationship with God though-the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. It’s all about relationship-if that hasn’t been explained or taught-which it often isn’t and I think takes a good while to really understand if you weren’t taught; it definitely has for me and I’m still learning-it turns to empty, dead religious rules. A loving father gives parameters to his child’s life and those are known through relationship. Maybe the child doesn’t understand when he’s 5 why he can’t drive the car; but when he’s 16 and learns the ins and outs as to how to drive and all that comes with it, he understands why his father set that boundary in place and can see it was for his best interest and safety of his life.
God has rescued us out of the control of darkness though Jesus-keep turning to Him, He is the only way out of the darkness-if the only thing you can do is just that (turn to Him). And tell Him how much you’re struggling, like Jason talked about in this interview-tell Him everything and ask Him to make Himself real and known to you where you are. I’ve prayed this many times and know that He answers this cry ♥️
Same
I know what you mean. I can't relate specifically, but I can relate generally! We have two options, really: life without God or life with Him....and I can't imagine life without God!
It's very hard to see people who don't even acknowledge God live beautifully while you suffer as a born again Christian, nothing seems to be going well, career, finances, your overall well-being is a mess yet you pray,you trust and obey.😢
@@DK1MM Just checking in. How are things since this comment. I have been like you, but I am someone that does care about the pain of others. I hope things are better or are working there way towards being better for you. Keep on keeping on, I believe in YOU!
The son of Tobymac died a few years back and he also had a really rough time. Almost quit. I saw one of his videos about the struggle he had. It was uplifting for me
EXACTLY
Heaven is most important
That’s why you know your not of the world but your in Christ.
people don't realise how painful this experience is.
For real. Currently going through it.
shut up drama queen
Agreed.
Yeah
Yes we do.. I've been going through it for years.
I've believed in God all of the days of my life but I've lost my faith to a great degree. I'm tired of the constant pain, loss and suffering. I don't even have a real prayer life anymore. I don't want to talk to God because it doesn't matter because He is going to let things happen to good people. Everyday I wonder when I open my eyes what new tragedy awaits me.
I still believe but I feel so faithless and indifferent to God. Life is unbearable for me at times.
Psalm 13
Psalm 28
Psalm 37
Psalm 107
Matthew 5:3-16
@shespeaks2441, if I didn't see your name attached to this post, I would have thought that I wrote this. Your words are my exact feelings and words. I wait to see what horrible things will happen next. I watch every evil person who crossed me living their best lives. Knowing that they did me dirty. I looked to God... like wait. I know I'm not perfect, but I haven't done half the things that some have done to me to, but see those people coming up and I am dying inside every single day. If I didn't have my children...I would probably be dead now. But I love them too much to hurt them like that. 😢
@@SheickaLewis
Psalm 37
@@SheickaLewisAnd i feel like you wrote everything I am feeling right now. My life is in a complete wreck. Soon to be homeless with two kids. And the ppl who caused me all this are enjoying watching me suffer. I prayed to God so many times but I feel he's not listening to me. I truly feel like God is punishing me And I am a bad person that's why all this is happening to me. Thank you for putting my thought's in words🙌🏾
I've stopped praying. Just a week ago I lost my faith like breath blowing out a candle. Just sudden and abrupt. I convinced myself that this time would be different, that even after all the no's, God was going to bless my family with an income that was substantial to say the least. That God was just trying to teach me patience and hope. It would have helped us greatly with our child, a vehicle, food. And it didn't happen. Instead we were yet again skipped over for someone else. I cursed and cursed saying all sorts of vile things, that i wish the person who was chosen would just drop d*ad on the job. I am slowly but surely turning into a bitter person, a person who doesn't have love for their fellow man anymore. A person who doesn't even care for God anymore. It's not that I don't believe he exists, its just that i am convinced if he does exist he certainly doesn't care about any of us.
Same
I am so sorry for all your losses. I am praying for you right now that god will
Show himself to you mightily
@@theSILVERMANshow 😞
I just want to say I’m sorry for the pain and hurt. It says in the Bible it rains on the just and the unjust. You’re doin nothing wrong. This world isn’t our home. Disciples were killed for their faith. We have to be saved but not soft on things of God. I suggest you fasting and praying. I will pray for you right now. I’m a pastors wife and stuff isn’t always easy, trust me. But God is always with me even when I can’t feel him for weeks on end. I praise him regardless.
@@hannbanan715 my dad abused my mom up until her death and he is more successful and appears to now be more happy than he has ever been. He just acts like nothing happened.
Finally, someone who is where I am and knows the depths of just no longer having faith. Built your life around it, hope in it, yet find yourself very disappointed with the outcomes. Church, small grpup,prayer, sozos, but nothing. I've been here for a decade now. Just dead on inside
You gonna win the fight just keep fighting
I know about the dead inside. I've fought the good fight of faith even nearly dying five times. I'm tired of fighting I just want some peace, a break from battle after battle.
Me too I feel exhausted and mentally tired and losing the little string of faith I have inside just empty
I’ve been there. I know it’s easier said than done but you’ve got to change your perspective and be okay with the fact that He is sovereign and we are not. All things work together for the good of those that love God and are called according to His purposes. Praise your way through. Your praise is a weapon. Lean on God and i promise it will pass. The word says that many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivereth them out of them all. You will be delivered. Please believe it and hold on.
@@ElizabethThorpe815 But that is a promise you can not keep. My Mom had a strong relationship with God and she suffered her entire life and it did not pass until she passed away. Many others are the same. It has led me to question is there really any point whatsoever to this life we live?
That hit home right now. Things are so hard, and I feel like I'm drowning. Its so hard to keep holding onto your faith when your world is crashing down, but I always keep fighting.
Sending prayers and strength your way. God is with you. ❤
CULTS ARE FUN EH? NORMAL PEOPLE TYPE BIBLE CRITICISM ONLINE AND LEARN THE HEBREW MYTHS ARE MYTHS AND THE BIBLE IS FICTION, STUPID. HOW EDUCATED ARE YOU, ANDI?
😢I have lost my will to fight anymore and I am tired of being in this world and praying to a God who doesn't listen 😢
@@nathanieldortch6253He does listen and we're being tested. It's very hard going through trials and we don't hear. Keep praying Brother.
I am so sorry. I came here for the same reason God bless you honey. I am about to pray for you now because I cannot pray for myself.
All it would take is God to just tell me... something, anything. I'm breaking down, crying on my bed begging him to just talk to me and give me some kind of comfort, and I get nothing but silence. I want to stop feeling this way whenever I talk to him, but how can I do that when the only thing I get in return is silence and signs that I think might be him talking to me but I never know for certain. I'm just so tired of the uncertainty, and all it would take is quite literally one clear, direct, unmistakable word from him in my head to do that.
I'm sorry you feel like God has been silent for you. I pray today that he gives you a reminder that he's still there. He loves you.
@911 please dont tell that person god loves them. Theres no evidence of that being true.
@JMRabil675 I know that God loves me. There are certain things that have happened in my life that have proven that to me despite the uncertainty it also brings due to it being indirect. What I don't understand and likely never will (at least in this life) is why God is silent.
God does indeed love you and you know that. I’m glad you do but let me give you a tip. The uncertainties you face about whether it’s God’s voice or not will be cleared when you focus on His written word, the Bible. You can’t tell right now because you don’t really know Him. My advice- focus on His word, get a very sound Bible believing church, spend time In prayer. Gradually you’ll see that what you’ve been looking for is right in front of you. I genuinely pray that you get to that point where you can boldly testify that you have an intimate relationship with your creator . I love you❤️
@ejirojones7356 Thanks for your comment. I don't want to make it seem like I don't have a relationship with God, I do, but it just feels....distant. Partly because I just want a more direct relationship with him where I can ask questions or advice and get actual audible answers rather than just spontaneous suggestions. Do you hear God's voice as a literal voice, or is it more along the lines of a strong mental suggestion that comes out of nowhere?
I never knew darkness as I’m experiencing it now. Still looking for direction, but your words shed some light to my way. Thanks bro.
I just want to say I see you, and I care about what you're going through. I don't know what else to say, but my heart sits with you tonight.
Everything happens for a reason, even if it doesn't make sense at the time.
Im gonna give you a verse that the Lord has helped me with many times. Isaiah 43:1
"But now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and He that formed thee O Israel, Fear not: For I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine."
Isaiah 54:4
Isaiah 41:8-9
Isaiah 54:10
I am reading through the comments. It looks like a lot of people are hurting. I used to be on fire for God and served in many church ministries, even leading a Bible study class. I used to pray daily and many times I have followed a program to read the Bible (OT and NT) in one year, so I have read it from cover-to-cover numerous times. However, I have lost my faith due to a series of terrible and sad events in my life, but I still go to church looking for that one thing that will turn my faith back on, like he said in the video. So far, I have not been successful, and I was hoping he would share which psalm did that for him. I cried when I heard the song On Fire (Sanctus Real) the first time, because that was me. Pray for me is all I ask.
Have things gotten any better?
@@rarenames2270 My head is still above the water. That is a good sign.
@@kemreaktion903 God bless you bro❤️. I struggle with loneliness . Please pray for me
Not that I don't want anyone to pray for you, but I wonder why? Why should we pray for something good for us? If God is Love and know our thoughts why does he expects prays?
If you had a good dad on earth would you speak to him? Or would you ignore him aswell
THANK YOU!! I’ve been through this but we Christians don’t share..sharing HEALS others. We need more transparency like this, thank you for stepping out and sharing
I agree. Christian churches seem to be the greatest pretenders. We don't talk truth and we keep a fascade of verses to mask what's really happening. Verses have their place, don't get me wrong, but being honest about life has it's place so God can step in and we can get healing we need verses contining to be dead on inside. Iam at thai loint of deep disappointment in God that has jaut leadt o deeper depressikna nd despair. No christians is around to help no good counseling and being a member of chirch for years hasnt helped. I am just silent. The power if God isnt what I thought it would be, the plans of God havent been what I thought they would be, the answered prayers and direction of God hasnt been what I rhought it would be....now sit here numb. I don't even want to go to church to pretend anymore and be alone....nor make effort to believe - believe in what....? My exoectations have been way iff
It’s not just Christians who go through this. Everyone does. Jews, Muslims and etc believe in God also
@@ladyj5682 im in the same position
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I've been seeking God for years. Despite my seeking I feel empty. I'll continue to seek so but I'm very discouraged about it all.
Please do not give up on the Lord!!! He has a plan for your life: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV). He loved you before the world was even formed! "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" (Ephesians 1:3-4). He is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
Same. Sometimes I wonder why I continue..
I been stopped and doing alright.
@@Pharaoh_The_Great Please keep seeking him. He is with you.
It's comforting to know I'm not the only one who's felt that way... thank you for sharing.
i guess we are not Gods favorites
@@pedinurse1 probably because God doesn't pick favorites 💜
I fell that way tonight
@beekeeper6778 yes he does. God chose David over Saul even though David ended up doing horrible things. He chose Joseph over all other brothers. He chose certain individuals over others for reason. Heck he even chose Israel over other nations even though Israelite betrayed him many times and ended up killing Jesus.
@@chookgoo77 it's not because He has *favorites* though. It's because He has a plan. We were not created for our testinonies- our testimonies were made for us. He crafted our stories FOR us, because He knows us before we're even born. He knew David was a natural born leader because He made him that way. He also knew all of David's weaknesses and worked his testimony to bring him good and Himself glory. God doesn't have favorite creations- just because someone is better liked by other people, doesn't mean God loves them more.
Life was so much easier before becoming christian. Tribulations are non stop. I'm depressed all the time. I'm deeply hurt on a physical, mental and spiritual level where all three bleed into each other. I've been praying for God to deliver me from them but He never has. I'm drowning on dry land.
He won't help you. You have to help you. You can't wait to be saved.
He's trying to teach you something. Trust the process.
Just imagine your reward on the other side!
Same here… the closest I wanted to be with God the worse my life bacame. Ilness, all friends left me alone I feel am loosing everything. I dont even have any mroe goal in my life but just to die…
@@annawojtowicz1330
John 15
19: If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.
I was full of life.. until i lost my dad and my young brother on the same day.. its been 4 months and my life is miserable.. i have no hope left in life anymore.. i pray that no one goes through the amount of pain I'm passing through.. i still have my faith in God but i feel like i have lost hope in life.
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I too lost my child like brother. I miss him so much😢 it hurts
@@sumansingh7803I know your pain, click left, believe again, be revived , God loves us so much! ❤
This helps me so much. I’ve been in such a dark season for some time now. I’ve been depressed and anxious and ultimately just sad. Sometimes I get discouraged because it feels like I don’t have the Holy Spirit anymore. Then from there I just spiral into thinking that God is done with me and has thrown me away because I’ve sinned and been disobedient too much. It feels never ending but this gave me hope.
Thanks for sharing. I still have my up and down days. The down days are like you described...God is done with me and I am without hope.
Isaiah 41:8-9
Isaiah 43:1
Isaiah 54:4
Isaiah 54:19
I've been in the same situation many times in the past year. The Lord used these verses to soothe me and encourage me in those terrible moments.
Remember, He's holding onto YOU. He fought for you before you were His. Just imagine how He'll fight for you now. Never give up, or forget His love for you.
@@jjguyton9641 Thank you so much😭
I can totally relate to this. This season for me has been filled with so many ups and downs, so much so that I became apathetic in my faith, but God is restoring my joy again. Never believe that God is done with you. We all mess up. Once we repent, He forgives, restores, and accepts us back with open arms. Day by day, say yes to Him and try not to mediate on your mistakes.❤️
How are you now??
I can’t feel God any longer. I never thought I’d feel this way. God has broken my spirit.
Go with God stop lying God loves you
@@averageindoeuropean8103 That’s funny.
@@averageindoeuropean8103 LYING? Dang, some christians say very offensive things
In this world you will have tribulation but be of good cheer, for I have overcome the world.
It's raw honestly with God and everyone close to us that helps with the healing. I discovered Jason's song, "Remind Me Who I Am" and fell in love with it. Recently, he did a show where he opened with that beloved song. I stayed in my car after parking at home to listen and sing along. After seeing this, I will try and be more aware to pray for Jason and others on this comment page. God bless. Thanks for sharing your gift.
Hi there. I recently discovered that same exact song. I fell in love with it instantly. I was going through the phase of losing my mother and it stings but it comforts at the same time. God bless.
Raw honesty. I like that phrase.
Amen!
These thoughts resonate so very deeply with me. The doubt, the pulling away, the isolation from the body of Christ that divorce created, all were very real. The struggle of fighting those demons of the mind and trying to figure out who you are in the ‘after’ can be so depressing and challenging. I also struggled with being angry with God for not ‘saving’ my marriage. I’m still working on ALL of those things, but thank you Jason for articulating so well your struggles and your victories with these same things!
If everyone would be honest, we’ve all had these same feelings. And I’ve experienced bouts of deep depression too. When I finally realized that God actually wants us to question the “whys”. It keeps us in communication with him. He loves us through it all.
I’ve been very ill. Doctors are worthless. I always believed God would step in when I really needed him. I’ve prayed so many nights to be healed or let me die. I just have nightmares and wake to a nightmare. I still have faith. God works in his time. Blessing to all.
You really said doctors are worthless
Wait til she dies and refuses to get a doctor lol
@@Number.1Yanfei.Fan123
After the last 3 years of them pushing the snake venom juice
They most certainly are worthless
Lee.. I'm praying for you
@@Number.1Yanfei.Fan123They are, largely.
This is where I am in my faith. I don’t feel like praying or going to church again. I prayed to God to bless me with a normal baby boy when I found that we were pregnant after a long time. I specifically asked God. Now my son is developmentally delayed. I have been a believer for a long time. I have been praying to God to change my son’s situation but he has been silent. I have struggled with believing Him and trusting again. I have prayed, fasted and no changes. I am giving up on him and if he wants to take me away so be it. I hope he can answer because my faith in Him is down.
Please do not give up on the Lord. He has a plan for your beautiful little boy: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV). He loved you before the world was even formed! "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" (Ephesians 1:3-4). He is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
@@WestieLuver2011 thanks for the encouragement. I just hope God can change things because this is hard.
Unfortunately god does not do healings, none documented.. it's extremely depressing..
@@olentangyriver1191 only God can heal. The only reason people become healed from physical illness and become saved from their sins is because of the Lord Jesus’s work on the cross and His new life after He was crucified and buried. He resurrected from the dead so that whosoever believes in Him would not perish but have eternal life! Eternal life with God, in total good health and fulfillment.
@@olentangyriver1191God Does and Will HEAL! NOT ON OUT TIMING, BUT HIS PERFECT TIMING.
DON'T THROW IN THE TOWEL.
This is why I love honesty especially in something such as faith. I recently lost mine on Easter of all days. It felt like a candle lost its light and a new journey started for me. I’ve lost hope, gained it and flailing to say it lightly. I usually write the word, “but” with a comma cause there was always a, “Life is like this which is horrible, but Jesus…” and it just hasn’t resonated like before. I’ve decided to get plugged into a church, be honest with my spouse about it and hopefully she doesn’t have her faith shaken since she’s seen how much it’s changed me over the years. I truly feel lost, angry, and left alone by God. I’m hurt to say the least. He loves and yet we go thru these trials where if I just believed in my heart, I know the strength would be there to endure. It’s suffering that plagues my everyday life. I’m just waiting on Jesus to shine a light back in my heart and tell me He’s always been there even when I’m scared. Even when the light of the loving Christ vanish within me. It’s okay. I just keep trying to remind myself of when I first believed. When I felt something so real and tangible open past the ceiling walls at that church to pour in my heart. I felt a change then. And honestly, I keep asking myself do I need to feel it now? Maybe a little less when I just remember His presence and being more real to me than reality itself. Maybe, I just need to remember when my spiritual heart was first opened up and I believed.
That has been one of the hardest things to deal with as a Christian. All my good friends have apostatized. It has left me alone and missing them. They don't want God or to hear from me as a Christian anymore. Coping with life's disappointments is a test from God of our expectations. It takes many forms.
I just had my best friend openly reject his faith in Jesus to me after so many years running with him. It made me cry horribly. And I still pray that he finds his way back and that God does a good work in him. I will pray for your friends
@@alecferguson8428 (sigh) I had pretty much the same thing happen. A close "Christian" and best friend for many years denied Jesus and tried to deconvert me. It was like handling a death as I cried too. Other close friends just slipped away and ghosted me, not wanting to talk to me about God anymore. I will pray for you and your friends too.
I am reminded of the parable of the sower, also too the prodigal son. Never know if your friends will return or not, pray for them, let them come to you..as now they have excommunicated themselves. If they do come, be gracious, speak the truth in love..meanwhile I'll pray you find your solace in the Lord and that he might gift you with committed friends. Seek ye first the kingdom of God..God helping you. In Christ..🦋
@@alecferguson8428 Allehuia..good news..thankful the Lord worked in his heart, a spirit of repentance and faith. Will pray for him, to continue..
It’s so hard to keep faith in this religion, I also want to give up 😵💫😵💫.
Im battling depression right now..i have many negative thoughts in my mind..im tired,im weary,im lonely,im mad,sad,crying, panicking,losing hope,i cannot carry my burden anymore..Im in my darkness life..I dont know if I can still make it..GOD please,have mercy..please I need you..I cannot carry my load anymore..im tired..I surrender..GOD ALMIGHTY,help us please..in the name of JESUS CHRIST.amen
I battle severe anxiety and it can be debilitating. Let's not give up!
Me too, so much oppression since 2019 and I am just so broken, I can't even begin to describe it.
I will pray to God for you in Jesus name 🙏
I had alot of fallouts with God, I yelled, I screamed, a lil profanity but with great fear. But I was blinded by anger and frustration at those times. Its all about communication, having a relationship with Him, and He understands us better than anybody else ever could. Some things I cannot talk about with friends or family for fear of being judged, laughed at, mocked or labelled crazy. Nowadays I just take Everything I'm dealing with to Him. Even if it was my own doing that got me in that predicament, and yeah, I get scolded alot! 🙄😂🙌
I can so relate to this !
Father heard " some wild things " from me 😊
But throughout the years I have come to realize that God can handle it and its a relationship, as such, we go through many emotions as we learn to communicate with Him effectively
Amen...no judgement...you wouldnt believe some of the things i said in anger...And God is not juding you either. I don't care what you did or said...
Here's the thing, we're allowed to get mad at God. He can take it! He knows everything about us, and we have no secrets from him. He loves us more than anything and sometimes it's hard to believe his intentions are best but it's an everyday journey! Hang in there everyone! It's so worth it!
@@barbcramer763 it’s not okay to get mad at Him if we have faith, because we know that our lives are not our own anymore. He decides what to do with it by Himself
@@benjaminmagambo3849 there's like 10 psalms where David gets mad at God. Those books are put in the bible for a reason. Are you to now accuse David the man known for being after God's heart of being faithless because he was angry at him? We can be upset with God and till have faith in Him. We can know that He controls everything but still be upset of how is He is controlling things especially when we do not understand His reasons for allowing pain into our lives.
Beautiful testimony, it saved me from walking away from God. I’m struggling with patiences and I’m angry with God because he’s taking too long to answer my prayer.
But through faith, I must understand that it’s his timing and not mine. Lord, I love you. Hear our cries. Amen.
Amen!!! Please do not give up on the Lord. He has a plan for your life: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV). He loved you before the world was even formed! "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love" (Ephesians 1:3-4). He is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
Honesty is probably the best gift we can give God.
and each other xx
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Just seeing this today and i will be praying for everyone however God is God He is love He is good He is faithful. Please remember we have a real enemy who resists us day and night. None of the things that happen to us are God's fault. We are in a battle. Spiritual warfare is real. Walking in the Spirit is dying to your emotions to your feelings. So no matter how you feel push through. God rewards those who diligently seek Him. I love Psalm 40:1-3 the nlt version. You can turn those scriptures into a prayer. Be blessed everyone ❤
I’ve been waiting over 7 years to have an encounter with God that was meaningful to me, and it to change my life. I’ve tried to move on but I can’t. It’s something imbedded so deep in me I can’t get past it now. Jesus help me I don’t know what to do anymore
You can get past it. With man things are impossible, but with God all things are possible. Remember how the early church members were suffering, deeply hurting because of their faith in Christ. Prophets slaughtered because of their faith and boldness. Suffering is biblical. Hurting is biblical. And so is Gods promises to us. Even I, right now, am going through things that hurt terribly. But the Glory of God will be revealed in the victory. You got this because God got you.
God hates me and I want to get over the abandonment 😢
@jordan, how are you today? could I message you to talk more about this?
@@Kressa1111No!!! He loves you very much, Kressa1111!
God doesn't hate in you in fact he loves you ❤
He describes exactly where I am at and how I feel. I have been searching for help to get out of my deadness. Such a comfort to hear this story.
Jason, you have been a ridiculous encouragement through so much! Your honesty and desire to hold on as hard as you can are just so refreshing consistently. Thank you!
I needed to see this so badly tonight! I've really been going through it the last two weeks and this was the reminder I needed. Thank you God - and thank you Jason!
You’re helping so many of us on our walk…..you’ve helped me on mine for years now. I ask others to walk with you…so God can use you to help them in their walk too. Much love for the part you’ve played in my walk.
Thank you for sharing your story! I can relate on many levels. Especially wrestling with God and learning to be brutally honest with Him. “Hallelujah I’m going through hell. Hallelujah I’m still singing it is well.” These are powerful words!
Amen wonderful words. 🙏❤️🩹
I feel betrayed sometimes too. Im like, "God, you say you love me, but this doesn't feel like love."
This! This! This! It’s the humanity of being God’s children that sometimes I need to hear more. This is why in the Bible people like David make me feel validated through my walk. It’s not easy and we get to low places but God! I needed this!
Agreed 100%. I wish I could say my faith is back where it once was but I don’t know if it ever will be. But when I’m angry at God, I have never been afraid to tell Him. He knows my heart anyways. It’s a struggle, but I haven’t given up.
Same
God is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
My wife and I have had to walk through two sons with autism. I totally understand the dark places we can get to as we wrestle with God. I can honestly say He is good and He is worthy to be praised.
Thanks for saying this...I was also in that dark place after my son was diagnosed with autism until He showed up and rescued me during the pandemic when all the plan A and plan B failed... and Jesus showed me He is faithful and I can trust him. He is faithful ..loyal..kind and merciful🙌 ....fast forward post covid..He is reading now and communicating better after 15 months of staying home during covid ..at 12 years old!..the past 15 months have been the most challenging for our family but He rescued me..... Jesus said he will be with us in all circumstances...we just listen to the voice of the accuser who tells us we are either unworthy of his love or he doesn't love us or care..thanks again for your post.
My husband and I have 3 sons with autism. And 4 other children.
Clinging to Jesus.
@@kathleenvisscher9608 Why, he's a joke if he is real.
How many vaccines did you give them
I have high functioning autism and I struggle like right now to trust God. It is also a full moon at this time and I feel tense around a moon
This is what I needed to see. Thank you so much for sharing this. The last song is beautiful.
I pray Lord you have a purpose and a plan for all those who are feeling you’re not close to them or believe you don’t have better for them. In Jesus name renew their faith in you and send your comfort and peace🙏🏾.
God bless your soul! 🙏
Amen
This is the most real video I have watched in a while. It maybe be partly because I struggle also and I can relate to how it feels. Thank you for sharing this. It helps
Thank you Jason Gray. I’m sorry to hear about your loss in divorce. I am right there with the loss of our daughter going through 2 years without her and approaching our 3rd year coming in August. I really don’t know how I made it this far without her. My faith too has been wrecked but still have it because without God I don’t know how to do anything. Grief doesn’t go away but hope lives on and I know she went before us to heaven and I’m looking forward to our turn to be together in heaven. Thank you for your heart and music that has resonated with me in many ways. Jesus loves you and I do too. God bless you right here right now. Amen
Debbie I pray that in those moments you miss your daughter you would be comforted by our Heavenly Father. I lost my grandmother due to cancer and I can’t express how much I miss her. But May God send the presence of the king of peace where ever you may be 💕
Dear Debbie having lost our beautiful son I know what you are going through and wondering how you can carry on. God will always be there to help you through, you are so much closer to Him than you can realise, and your daughter is praying for you too because she loves you. God helped me in ways I can only be ever thankful for as I felt I couldn't go on with my life and prayed for years to die myself, and after 7 years of praying to die, I was admtted to hospital and hoping this was it that my prayers to die were finally going to be answered but whilst there one afternoon I had this dream that my son was on top of a lovely green hill, in the sunshine with other children and happy and smiling and he was waving to me and said 'not yet mum' I woke up. If that had just been it it was a lovely dream but I smoked at the time and when I woke up I asked the nursing staff if I could go out and have a cigarette and they let me out the back door to a place I that I had never seen whilst there, and there in the back of the hospital grounds was a big green hill just like in my dream, 2 big green hills in fact, as if one wouldn't have been enough, and I knew it was a sign from God and my son to carry on with my life. You will be given strength everyday Debbie, to bring you through the hardest time(s) of your life. It is written 'Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted.' I share this with you to reinforce that God loves you and has you and your daugher in His loving arms. Recently, decades later I have made a big mistake due to depression and anxiety, and had a complete breakdown, and now I have to remember to fall back on into God's loving arms and cling to Him even though I just want to go home myself and sometimes have doubted God lately, as I do not get the sense of God as I use to in those early years of losing our son and I miss that so much, but I do know He is still there because I once felt so surrounded by His love and I have to trust Him completely because He has not brought me this far to leave me now. You will be given something too, in due time, that all is well.
Yeah, sometimes I feel like I hit a dead end, that my life isn’t where it used to be, and I question if God has taken me this far just to leave me at a dead end.
Also, I lost two very dear and close friends, a few years ago or so. I miss them a lot. It’s like a chunk of my life has been taken out. It’s not the same anymore. We used to joke about funny names of our Uber drivers and talk about the weather, and go to movies and trips and outings. There’s a hole in my heart where they used to be, but I don’t know if I’ll even see them again. I don’t know if I’ll see them in heaven. They were really good people(though one of them had both bad and good sides to him), but they were good people, especially the other one with how much he did for the disabled community, he was so giving, he was an outstanding person. But good people don’t go to heaven. 😢 Forgiven people do.
Im trying so hard to keep my faith . Its like God dont care about me . VERY WORRISOME
Jason Gray, your struggles with faith and the music that resulted from it has helped many, including myself, to have hope in our own struggles with faith. I love your music! And I love Acoustic Story Time on The Message. Fav song: Remind Me You're Here. Thank you!
This is extremely validating for me. I'm still angry with God for things that happened in my family in 2017. I still believe and obey as I can but it's hard a lot of times. I'm glad I'm not alone in this feeling.
I do pray that it heals
God is with you!!!!! He loves you, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16). What a blessing! What unspeakable mercy and love poured out on us before we were even born. I will be praying for you!
There will be times that we don't feel God, or feel a connection to Him, or we feel nothing.
Faith isn't just a feeling within us.. it is a choice, it is a choice to trust Him. That even though I feel nothing or don't feel God in my life, I know in my head though that God is there, that He never changes, and I will choose to still trust Him and the true things about Him.. and that is faith.
I don't know if this helps anyone, I hope it does. Don't lose your faith.. your trust in who God is and that He is still there.
Amen!!!!!
Thank you. This helped
It doesn’t. I know the truth. He picks and chooses (he allows to happen, excuse my ignorance) who gets what, who doesn’t get what, no matter your effort or prayer or obedience. What’s the point?
@@themorningstar3254 What's the point? We get rewarded for our obedience.
@Bornagaincarnivore My experience and not an argument. Romans 9:21.
I’m 21 years old and in the last year I had to quit both amazing jobs, take a break from college because of severe anxiety, ocd and depression. I’ve returned to school and I have a new job, but what I went through for those 6 months was absolutely the worst time of my life. I can’t even remember half of it. All I know was I spent most days in a panic attack or crying. Now I have just learned to cope, because I can’t afford to not work. I still suffer so much all the time. I have been begging God for months and now I am at the point where I am so hurt because everyday is hard. Every single day. I find myself looking back on some days and realizing I spent the whole day battling with negative thoughts about myself. I am so hurt, I have tried everything. I don’t want to give up, I want to believe but I am so hurt. I used to be so on fire for God and now I feel like I have been completely abandoned. Everyone around me seems to be at such peace with God but I am just here just trying to get through a day. I don’t feel at peace. I feel sad and hurt.
God's timing is perfect. Don't give up. Keep praying. God bless you ♥️✝️ you are loved, I feel for you and share in you pain😢
I'm mad at God, but what difference does it make to him? Does he heal me? Does he help me? I've been in emotional and mental pain for 33 years....where is he?
I really understand. Been waiting even way longer in my case. 😔👋
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
nowhere - God has zero f***s to give.
It's almost admirable, how little He cares.
Although tragedy has hit our lives and yes it's upsetting. Yes we feel disappointed but sometimes the thread that we are holding on to needa to be what can I find in these situations to be thankful about..
Lord thank you for keeping my mind in all that I've been through in the last year. I should be and would have been crazy but you kept my mind.
Find areason to be thankful and when you feel like giving up let that be the reason you keep going🙏💪
Sat down with him and told him what I was really feeling-not how I thought it should be. This is it…why do we think we can hide from God?
After all Jesus asked the Father why have you forsaken me.
Thank you for sharing this, loved the analogy of your sons anger being a wall between you, I believe the same is true in our relationship with Jesus, when we try and ‘be’ the ‘right’ Christian yet harbor much unspoken suffering there is a wall that will remain until we surrender all.
Faith isn’t based on feelings. In seasons of depression even if you can only hold onto a few verses you must trust God’s word over your feelings. #fight the fight of faith #live by faith not sight
Even one verse of God's word has His power in it. I wish I could always recognize that.
It seems like everyday I'm not necessarily losing my faith, but I'm losing evidence for God. The evidence that used to be satisfactory now doesn't mean anything to me.
So I'm learning how to walk by faith alone, but it's terrifying.
I am walking through this right now. It’s a beautiful and hard lesson. Faith is not a feeling. Christ always shows up. He is good.
BS. The words only have value if connected to the one who spoke them!
@@gregsmith5875 okay then, when you’re depressed and anxious, are you gonna rely on your feelings for your faith? No. The truth is the basis of faith. Not feelings. The truth produces feelings but not always.
@@alecferguson8428 You have no idea what you're talking about, do you?
Very comforting as I’ve also gone through an unwanted divorce that’s left wounds that feel like will never heal. Thanks so much for sharing this video.
Praise the Lord for the way that he called you back into His arms! The words of the psalms are wonderful life bringing ministers to our souls. I was at the meeting where your mom gave her heart to Jesus. I have known your dad and grandparents. It has warmed my heart to see your singing minister to millions of people worldwide. May God richly bless you for sharing your testimony and continuing to create and sing for His glory.
I often wonder if as we get older we have to shed the simple beliefs we have about God so we can be free from the religious restraints that "we in our young minds chose with what we knew about God" to discover Hod for who he really is that only a mature mind can comprehend. Psychologically speaking it's true. We age out of our beliefs but we don't change them in many categories. God is no different. God doesn't get alarmed about our questions because he knows it will lead us deeper and when we go deeper we see values we didn't know could be ours before
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
I lost my mom to pancreatic cancer and ever since my faith has been teetering. I don’t want to walk away from God- he’s all that I know. I’ve been saved all my life (both parents are believers) and I just don’t understand why this and everything else is happening to me it’s like my life turned upside down. It’s been five months of this wrestle and I’m tired.
Sis I had to reach out…i have been through a similar experience recently and I’m going through pretty much the same feelings as you spiritually. It feels overwhelmingly sad, lonely and unusual (always felt close to God).… I’m not there yet but I just know we have to hold on to the Hope God has for us ahead xx
Thank you Jason, for being raw and transparent. Your story will help others going through the same or similar situation. Interesting the bit about Bono. As a U2 fan, I know many of their songs in which they reference God, Jesus, and Bible verse. Praying for all to have God in their lives.
oh gosh, am happy you were revived back in Christ. That's a blessing. Wish I can say that in my situation. Anyways, kindly keep me in prayers as I am going through mines theses months. Feeling stuck and my heart and mind are not aligning in Christ. I cant even say a word of prayer. thank you.
I've spent 8 years in a nightmarish state of constantly battling the demons. God is good.
The Lord helped me with these from Isaiah
41:8-9
43:1
54:4
54:10
After 8 years, you may have already seen these, but I just can't keep them to myself.
I pray your struggle is nearing an end.
May God give you peace and rest.
No, god is fake, get real.
Take dominion over these demons. Prayer will help you. Keep contending and pray against any curses or any witchcraft in your family cause their could be stuff you never know about in your bloodline. When you see demons, rebuke them with Jesus name and have Jesus in your heart because if your not careful enough those demons can jump on you. But rebuke them and take dominion over them. It's good to live a repentance kinda lifestyle.
I spent 10 years in trauma and disappointment and watched as my life went down the downward spiral to the point where I felt useless for and to God. I still do. I can’t see the solutions. I just see the problems.
I feel abandoned in the sense that it seems whatever I pray for. I get the very opposite. Whenever I share the good news or uplift Gods word to family or friends, I, in return, seem to get bad news. This seems to be a common theme in my life, for over 30 years now. I truly love God and try to live to please him in everything I do but for some reason I am always struggling with some form of oppression, whether that be ,my adult children rebellion or just simply financial attacks. It just feels so personal and direct to pierce my heart with agony...I dare not question God, but it just hurts bad and robs me of happiness and my strength to live.
Wow! Yes I totally am there with him! I thought that nothing could ever shake my faith, but then the last 3 years have really shaken me and one of them is facing divorce and you feel like you can't be mad at God because you "aren't supposed to be". "You shouldn't question God, just trust" right? I think David was a prime example of expressing his emotions to God and he was considered a man after God's own heart, so there has to be something to that relationship that God wants in our relationship with Him. I have to question is it openess and laying everything before Him? I mean after all, He does say cast your cares upon Him. Thank you for sharing your experience and part of your journey.
Let's not lose faith!! I am going through moments of indescribable suffering, but remember that Jesus said that when he returns he will find faith?
I also fail in faith, let's not be part of those who lose faith in the midst of brutal suffering, I have wanted to die, I have begged to die, I can't sustain it anymore, however always, I don't know what lifts me up despite everything, Let's hold on a little longer. Let us unite in prayer for those of us who are weak in faith. I love you my fellow sufferers.
I like the NLT version of this verse…““For everyone will be tested with fire.”
Mark 9:49 NLT
By and large the modern day church does NOT prepare us for trials….and many fall away sadly…. During my time of testing, I wanted to quit so many times but God gently brought me back every single time….. and as the songwriter said…where could I go back to the Lord?
Growing pains, Jason,we all have growing pains. God loves us and will redeem his creation when it's time.♥️
Dear Jason Gray, your music has always moved me deeply in the past. I didn’t know you had suffered a divorce. I’m so sorry. I did too. From what I have experienced the church may struggle with how to love Christians who are struggling with their faith. Then people leave to regroup because it can be difficult to be in church as we can feel like hypocrites, just to name one scenario. I could say more but the point is Christian’s, especially pastors need to learn to not just love the lost well but to really love their flock. I am so happy that Jesus loves us well and will never shame us or turn his back on us.
Pastors are humans struggling with their own demons, gotta go straight to the source
Wow! Our stories of brokenness, “dead” faith, and disappointment are so similar! Thankful that He is a perfect loving Father and Healer; always faithful, even through our faithless times. Thank you, Jason, for sharing your story. It shows others going through similar struggle that while the LORD may ALLOW His children to be broken, He never ABANDONS us, and always creates something new and wonderful out of the brokenness.
One thing that God did for me, is that I thought that I would never find love, and then love came when I least expected it. It came in the form of someone I knew since college, since 2004.
youre delulu
God has left me 😢! I pray for good things and everything happens opposite. I am beyond done with this world and I don’t want to live anymore! I didn’t chose this, but I feel my faith is slipping out of my hands.
I love this so much! Thank you for being humble and sharing.
what a great testimony! there have been times when I was so disappointed with God that it has felt that if it were possible i would die from disappointment. But as Jason says here, we need to be completely honest and transparent with our heavenly Father, and I've found that only through being real with Him, warts and all- there was my breakthrough. terrific testimony brother
Transparency thats it. Forgetting how society teaches us how to come to GOD but just me and God, a daughter talking to her dad.
Thank you Jason for articulating this so well. Lately Ive been burying feelings of disappointment about my two sons. Last night, after a conflict with them, depression hit me hard. When you mentioned your son, I realized Ive become angry with God about my sons. I love them so much but they must make their own choices in life. Your words help me realize I can take my disappointment to God, and know he cares more about my sons than me.
Thank You God for rescuing Jason and bringing him back to The Faith. Thank you that even when this world puts us at the bottom of the trench, we have hope in You
THANK YOU JASON! You've been such a blessing to me for a long time. Sending this to a friend going through divorce and you echo her feelings so well
I turned down a lot of opportunities in life to follow God and now I haven spent the last 7 months in college debt and no career. Which has lead me to losing my faith in God. Now I understand I'm not angry I am pissed with God. I listened to him and now I am worse off career wise and financial wise then I could have been and that anger for that is killing my faith. I really need to have that talk with God.
Im glad I found this.
god rather you be desolate, poor, broken and bent
if you want to make a stable income and live a normal life, LEAVE GOD. he already wants to leave you
Me too I understand I did the same things It seems like God is preparing us for something both natural and physical, you can’t buy these trials , but faith
Same, I was and still am in an abusive relationship with my parents, my brother got away but the child protective services left me behind and I had to tolerate it, there was times I wanted to escape but I ended up back at my parents home. I was told by many churches that god wants me in that houses. Mind you I was the youngest and and I was the child no one pay attention and if I had attention it was usually neg from my narcissist mom. I stay and obey but ended with having schizophrenia. I'm mad at god cuz he knew what will happen to me yet he force me to stay by blocking me everytime I had an escape. Now that I'm 27 I'm even more mentally cribble and I'm still living with them. I hate god for playing favorite and leaving me behind and allowing voices in my head to bully me and mess with me and gaslight all day long and blame me for their actions
Three month update. I finally see why I was put into the position. I had a overly self reliant personality. Work was the god in my heart if I had a job at the time I would have spent more time working and less time developing my relationship with God and my church. I needed this time to reevaluate my priorities and make sure God was first above all things. Had I gone and made work my god I would have fallen away from God and been even worse off later on in life. God wanted to make sure I was spiritually prepared for what was to come.
@@melanieguadalupe347 This it seems to be a failure of CPS and the church. My church in time of distress and hurt reached out and sought to help me not let me languish in my difficult situation. Keep in mind I was a very self reliant person. I thought asking for help was a weakness and a burden to the church I was taught the church is there to help its members and its community when it can. Your church failed you. It shows that is a church not speaking the gospel. I am so very sorry this happened to you I truly hope that you find a God centered church family that can help you through this all.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been in the same place of feeling i have lost my faith and not wanting to hear the word off and on for many months since my son took his own life in 2019. I have stubbornly told myself and God and the devil that no matter how much i struggle with doubts i will continue to believe " though he slay me, yet will i trust him" i listen to elevation church and worship music and some weeks that's the best i can do. i appreciate your story about your son, as i have been realizing for awhile now that i need to talk about my feelings honestly with God and write in my journal and i have been avoiding doing so because it's messy and draining and hard to face and hard to articulate and hard to know what to do with those feelings. It's easier to be busy and distract yourself. Just know that so many times your music has ministered to me over the years, thank you, i hope someday i can pay it forward as you have to all your listeners. May God carry you in this time of brokenness and healing. He is near to the brokenhearted and saves all who are crushed in spirit.
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your son! My brother took his life July 4th 2019 and I can relate with the heartache & pain of grieving such a devastating loss of loved one. I too enjoy elevation worship ;). I really felt like the last 2 years of losing my brother then the pandemic exhausted me…but I noticed everyone is dealing some sort of post traumatic pandemic stress disorder too. As a believer I felt like I was letting the Lord down over the time of my grieving my brothers loss bc I totally shut down serving at church & needed time to heal. Now I am seeing the Lord has been & continues to refine me in his process of molding me more into who he’s called me to be. My passion for life & to serve had sparked again. I’m very thankful. I pray the Lord give you comfort & blessings as you continue to heal your heart & grieve. There is no timeline on healing from loss. Give yourself grace and give yourself permission to LIVE & Enjoy life again. It’s not easy but the Lord gives us time for mourning and healing and he will give strength and peace as we continue to live life for Him. For me taking a break from serving at church helped me heal, I still spend time in Gods word & worship him daily and praise him but I also learned that during this dry hard time in my life God has been renewing my spirit & slowly reigniting the dreams that he’s placed on my heart many years ago. God has a beautiful plan and purpose for your life & anyone reading this. Blessing to you!!!
It’s so hard sometimes but I kinda have to take a step back and say “ok God what now” knowing his ways are above mine and his thoughts about my thoughts..and I’ll never forget what my dad told me. “Life is like a walk with God and one day he says, “you know what your closer to my home than your home …why don’t you come home son.” ❤️
@@LadiesofPurposeTV thank you so much for these encouraging words, my husband and i have also taken a complete break from church and serving there in order to regroup and heal, i know God is building character and strength as we wait in him
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
this is how im starting to feel...i just feel tired and fed up and cant seem to understand what im not doing right
gods love is transactional. the harder you work and obediant, the more gods love come in
however, there are a large group of people whom god decided to neglect and forsake. it could be that youre one of those people
@@NWLegacyChannel What if God had forsaken you even when you were a child?
Same
@@NWLegacyChannelthis is not true.
I lost my dad as an 11 year old. This year I have lost six people including my dad's mom and brother in law who i considered my second dad. I have gone through a horrible breakup that's so so painful and I'm a single mom with everything on me. I don't know where God is. I feel forgotten.
Wow! How he articulated this is incredible. After my marriage fell apart it started me in the same painful journey with my faith. That whole painful feeling of how he described there would be less and less light he could feel in him and even reading the word would make him angry.... if you haven't gone through it you just don't get it. 💯
How are you now?
@@meleshenko3767 oh my goodness I understand the heaviness of what you shared! I am trusting that I am moving forward. I have good and bad days and joy filled and angst filled parts of almost everyday. That part you said about the word closing to you...I have felt that...but just this week I have decided that I will not accept that and won't let the devil come any closer at me with it! I'm gonna let God speak to me in the small chunks at a different pace than what I was once moving at and just be greatful whatever I recieve. This week I had a couple sisters sow beautifully into my life that has encouraged me to keep fighting and hold on. In their wisdom and feowship I felt the Father's love and I could feel Him not giving up on me and though things aren't fully changed I have renewed strength and feel cheered on.
I also so know the weariness of wanting to die and then repenting and the cycle. I literally just did that yesterday....and that's when I reached out to a sister I had met who offered to share her testimony of how God healed her. We had met but don't live near eachother. So after I repented God brought her to mind. I reached out and we talked for over an hour and it was such an iron sharpening iron conversation. I've been praising God ever since. There are no coincidences....it was a divine meeting when we met and divine timing for our phone call. I am reminded that we reallly have to draw near to our sisters in Christ and keep the iron sharpened!
I also conti up to pray...Lord take me back to the start that first ❤️
@@radiantheartwomanhave you prayed for reconciliation with your husband?
Excellent , ty for yr transparency..I went thru the same thing 13 yrs back...And yr right , emotions aren't to be trusted, theyre so unstable, God does want us to come and pour everything out at His feet..He knows our thoughts anyway..the song turn yr eyes upon Jesus, and hymns in general were like a balm to me...the only one who wouldn't want you to come to the Lord w/the whole mess is the enemy of our souls...praise God for cleansing, for forgiveness, for mercy, for healing...ty for sharing yr heart w/us
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT FELT THIS WAY. I FEEL LIKE IVE BEEN FOR SAKEN AND ABANDONED. THE MORE I KEEP HOPING AND BELIEVING AND PRAYING THAT GOD WILL ANSWER MY PRAYERS, THE FARTHER AWAY THAT SEEMS TO ACTUALLY BE HAPPENING.
Maybe it is beyond hoping, believing and praying.
Maybe it is time to start doing, time to repent, time to forgive others, time to obey the call of God.
Maybe it is time for you to be obedient to what He commanded you to do.
How do you know the person is living in disobedience. Its possible to obey God in all spheres and still experience this@@Jesus-Is-Lord
@@adetolaadeola7493 I agree with you.
If one checks and confirms he or she is in The Lord's will then that person should wait upon Him.
Isa 8:17 BSB I will wait for the LORD, who is hiding His face from the house of Jacob. I will put my trust in Him.
@@adetolaadeola7493 But this should be after you have confirmed with Him that you are in His will.
Are you ok with this?
"Wrestling is a part of the healing." THANK YOU!!
Thank you Jasaon for your honesty, i also felt devasted when my faith reduced, but now i know God intervenes at his own time.
Thank you so much for sharing your heart and your struggle! It is so powerful! I can relate to your struggle.
Broke down when i heard the song and felt relieved at the same time. Thank you!
Good God. Thank you for helping/letting Jason share a powerful, and FINALLY HONEST RESPONSE TO PAIN AND SUFFERING. I love this man, and I needed it.
Totally! Amen! Deep and real.....I love it!
I always believed that God would guide me, give me meaning. I've never found either one, and every time I made a move out of faith and trust in a promise, I lost out. I'm half dead in this life, and I haven't had the chance to live at all.
If I'm being honest, I have serious doubts about the blessings of God meaning anything at all, at least for me. I don't have it in me to trust that the next life can make up for the one here. I don't know how to get onboard with the idea of a God who wants praise from 'more than conquerors' who've only lost.
I'm worn out pretending to be okay with watching everyone else find solace and contentment by turning to things I won't take part in. I'm getting seriously desperate to experience anything nearly everyone else alive already has. Judgment on others for taking a person's life experiences and agency doesn't restore either, and I don't know how to be okay with that.
I'm just tired.
Wish I could send an encouraging word to Jason. I had his first album manufactured and packaged at Disc Makers. I prayed for each client artist I was an account manager over. Jason Gray stood out, and God wanted me to pray from that point. Hopefully he may see this.. and know now… God had you from the beginning. In Christ!
I’m so glad Jason was this vulnerable with us I pray the we can be as vulnerable with God. He will come through!
“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.”
James 1:12
This spoke greatly to me. Especially his song at the end!! Bless God!
I've been alone for 7 years. Suffering in silence. Su-eh-cy-dal thoughts, no purpose, no one to even talk to. Then a girl was brought into my life out of nowhere, and I thought this was it. Destiny. All those years alone would end here, and I'd find a purpose as a husband or a father and nope. Got my heart stomped out. What was the "plan" there? I'm alone. No devil. No God. No one.
Happened to me around 2 years ago. I'm just coasting now. Lost all motivation. The world is just so broken. The self delusion of believing in God kept me going through very difficult times, but I was lying to myself. Nothing to live for.
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My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
Guys help me. I feel so alone and temptation is overwhelming me. I feel like God is abandoning me and I can’t feel His love anymore… please help me I can’t take the burden anymore
I was struggling and went back to attending mass midday. I needed the sacredness and reverence of God again. I attend mass at a church that is 200 years old in CA and feel God in that old church. I was so angry at God and wounded with shame and a broken heart.
My heart and spirit are broken because my life has been about suffering since young. But I also came to understand that God owes us nothing even if we suffer the most horrendous things. I mean, what human suffering in this life is not caused by people? So what obligation does He have since it is not His doing? Yet He still did the one thing to redeem our souls, so what more can we ask of Him?
Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. The Lord used this to confirm things He's put on my heart for myself.
This year I lost my mom..she died in my arms I was crying to God and praying hoping she would come I prayed for an hour...I lost my mom lost everything, and finally I am on the verge of losing my faith...😭
Dear Lord, Please be close to this person. They need you. Please comfort them and give them your peace. Please let them know that you love them and let them know that you are looking out for them. In Jesus's Holy Name I pray.
You literally just told my heart. Word for word… give/take a few life traumas on top of divorce. I feel like I’m dead inside and drowning. I cry out to God because I desperately want to know Him again… but it’s been dead for so long now. This story just pierced my soul.