★ How I fixed a £12,000+ Debt (My Mental Breakdown Story)
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- ★ How I fixed a £12,000+ Debt (My Mental Breakdown Story)
⚠️ Today's Project Diary Video have extremely adult themes!
I will be explaining my story of how the HMRC and various other institutions landed me in £12,000 debt by mistake, and the events that caused me to have a mental breakdown.
While my experiences with Mental Health Hotlines may not have been the best, it was at an extremely overwhelming time for everyone. If you are at a low point, please don't leave it too late and reach out as soon as you're not feeling ok. I can strongly recommend The Samaritans but you will be greeted by an automated system at first (Which at a very low point can be off putting) but they are wonderful people.
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Today clearly isn't my regular viewing. I will return to my regular content as soon as I feel strong enough to do so but please be patient this year.
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Iv commented to you here ....please feel free to contact me free if it feels right for you 👍....hang in there 👍
Do you know how many lives you touch? I wish I could be there to help.
So true what you say Lee
Nobody cares about us living with disabilities and MH
I’ve shared your brave story to my Facebook page
Wow £20 crazy and they want us to be homeless and beg on the streets Lee and I’ll take my life before that happens
Prayers to you 🙏🏽
The world is a fucked up place Lee. But you are a bright star within it and will survive the rubbish dealt out to you. For evil to exist all it takes is for good men to do nothing. You do something, with more guys like you we will turn this unequal, self serving, greedy world around. Stay strong brother.
Brother peace and blessings upon your beautiful soul. Don't take the medications they gave you. I'll be praying for you 🙏
There are many people who have not survived the distress and upheaval that these last 2 years have caused. Your experience, which brought me to tears, though heart-wrenching, also shows that YOU have the tools to SURVIVE this and THRIVE beyond. Your smile is infectious, and embodies the passion for what you love doing. As you have been there for us, sharing and caring about our welfare, know that your 500,000 plus followers clicked for a reason, and I for one will be here through thick and thin. You are not alone. We will lift you up as you have us on so many occasions. Continue to bless us with your smile... as you make our lives richer, so will you be enriched. Keep on keeping on.
Whatever else happens, you need to remember, you have changed the lives of over half a million people and those they love for a massive positive. There is nothing better a person can be.
And we love you for it.
You feed our kids, Lee. Focus on the life you bring. There will always be haters - what a hideous life they must have, so shield your heart with the goodness you create and the waves of love that come back to you 💚
Thank you Debra! Much love
Beautifully said.
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I couldn't agree more, he is a hero in more ways than I can even put into words. Beautiful soul, beautiful man, with the strongest resolve. He is changing lives and this does not go unnoticed in the universe, trust me.
What Debra Moss ☝️ said, thank you Lee, for sharing part of your life and please continue to share the positive parts as well 😁🌱☀️
Good bloke
Lee, here's the first thing I have to say: it is a truth that those who make nasty comments do not love themselves, for people who do love and value themselves only see that in others. I have seen this in action for decades.
For you: I thank you for your honesty and vulnerability in sharing your story with us. We all are here in love for you and will assist you in any way we can. I have been checking in for this time period and feeling that your absence suggested difficulty for you and I have been, with many others, I am sure, sending you lots of love, light and hugs. We will stand with you through your recovery with prayers and hugs! Thank you for taking good care of yourself and please share with us how we can contribute to your healing. And we will do it whole-heartedly because WE LOVE YOU!!!
Oh man, you’ve been through so much hell! Thank you for having the guts to go outside your ‘theme’ and sharing the realities of life - it would help so many people to know they’re not alone. Dealing with all the bureaucracies involved in disability and whatever else is just so SO stressful. And you’re right, the people on the other end never realise the consequences of their actions. I’m so sorry all this has happened to you. The world had been such a mess for so long and I think it’s catching up with people, and systems everywhere are at breaking point. I hope you can find joy in your gardening again. Look after yourself and take whatever time you need. ❤️
I've tried so many times to write a comment, without success, each time I tried sounded worse than the one before!. I then found your words... Bless you for eloquently saying what I hadn't managed to say.🤗
Wow, British bureaucracy at it's worse and most callous. Thank goodness for the last man who had sympathy, empathy and compassion with your case and wrote off your supposed debt.
It just takes one person who knows their job but it seems a growing number of people that simply don't get proper training that cause serious issues that can't be fixed using conventional means.
The system is rigged Lee. Stress is the #1 killer in the world. Get your fingers back onto the dirt. You will see the miracle growth of seeds and your heart and soul will heal .Let go and let God my friend. Your channel will continue to grow and in turn put out your enthusiastic energy. Cheers from America 🇺🇸
Agreed. The bird to everything negative.
hey brother, i feel what you've gone thru. i've recently been diagnosed with PTSD. Im 52, and when I was 19 I found my mother after a brain aneurysm. I tried to get better, and 3 years ago a client (im a welfare agent) died in front of me from an OD. it intensified my PTSD which caused me to lose my mind, my family, my daughters/wife, my house, and my sanity. im at the absolute lowest ive ever been in my life, and "things" were considered to end the pain. im currently doing a little better, but please know you are not alone in your struggles. im with you and i love you.
I CANT BELIEVE YOUR DR GAVE U FENTYNAL KNOWING THAT U R NOT FEELING YOURSELF BECAUSE U R DOWN DUE TO WHAT U HAVE BEEN THROUGH AND R STILL GOING THROUGH, IT'S SO EASY TO GET ADDICTED TO ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU FEEL THE WAY U DO. NEVER EVER TAKE THOSE I THINK U R EXTREMELY SMART TO SAY THAT U R NOT GOING TO. GOD BLESS MATE.
I sat through your video with a broken heart. I am there in that Hell. Two years plus. I've had mental health issues most of my life the pandemic spiralled me into something I don't know how to fix. I had covid,and now have health issues with my joints, my Dad died, financial torture and a system generated to keep you in a state not help you get out. This whole thing resonated so much. I've cried non-stop for an hour. Nothing has meaning. There is no joy. I see you. I hear you. Today, like tomorrow,is just another day to get through. I keep hearing a line from a movie "get busy living or get busy dying" each day is a choice. Thank you for choosing to share your experiences.
This brought me to tears to listen to. I am still recovering from having a nervous break down caused by different surcumstances but I know too well what it's like to live in a constant state of fear. Sadness, confusion. To feel the world crumbling around you to the point you feel so tortured by your own misery that you contemplate how to make it stop. To wake up and be hit by an almighty anxiety stomach churning fear day after day. To forget what waking up and having a coffee and stretch even feels like. I've been there. And I wouldn't wish it on my worst nightmare. I'm still recovering now from the strong antidepressants they pushed me into taking. And me being so weak and desperate was willing to take anything without asking about a single side effect. Had to put up with almost a year of feeling like a heart broken walking zombie. I somehow weaned myself off of that medication and I'm alot better than i was but like you I don't think I will ever be the same. I feel like I've lost the spark I had before. There's always this sadness that is just lingering from the trauma. I find myself looking back at pictures from a time that I was happy and remembering what life was like before. I want you to know your not alone in all of your pain. I'm also struggling too. I also called the samaritans and they were amazing. I got so tired of family just telling me 'you need to just up your medication dose' that i was pushed into calling a stranger. Because all anyone wanted to do was medicate me. I sobbed so hard down the phone that they couldn't understand me. I will never forget the kind man who answered. I hope you can move forward somehow and feel better. I hope anyone who is suffering mentally can find peace some how. Some way ♥ if anyone reads this ridiculously long comment and your struggling. Your not feeling this alone ♥
You've helped more people than you'll ever know. Thank you for sharing your story.
Omg i can hardly believe this horrific story. The entire system hospitals and government are broken beyond repair. We must be our own advocates at all times. So sorry you experienced this.
You've been through all this yet still take the time to teach us. Those venue rules are ridiculous! This whole situation is ridiculous! Your tenacity is inspiring. Take as much time as you need. X
Congratulations on making it this far. Keep getting stronger.
Thank you, I will
It's terrible what you've been through, Lee. I have fairly similar health problems, it all began to develop during my school years due to bullying and constant stress. To be honest, your video brought me to tears because I know how difficult it is in terms of health, and when it is difficult to get much needed psychological help. I want to say that I love you and your channel very much, you are a very positive, kind person, and I want to say thank you for your videos, you gave me a lot of different useful and interesting ideas.
I am writing to you sitting in a shelter, while sirens are buzzing in the street. The war will not take away my passion for plants, I have so many more projects planned : exotic plants, organic fruits and vegetables, etc. 😉
Much love from Ukraine 🇺🇦, don't know if i am only fan from here or not 😅
Take care! God Bless you through the terrible time where you are, in all that danger.
Blessings and your kindness in supporting Lee right now, is remarkable and thank you that I could read your comment now.
I pray that you will be safe!
I pray soon that you will have peace there and I pray for peace in your heart and for peace in Lee's heart too.
@@Margi183 I thank you with all my heart :)
@@ukrainiantomatoman I am praying for you!
Pls give me your number with code so I can text or whatsapp you if you have WhatsApp? I encourage you !
I am near Seattle USA
My niece who married my nephew in S Africa is from there.
@@Margi183 Oh, i am glad to hear that 😉👍
OMG, I am so sorry that this has happened to you. I wish there was something I could do to help. You have been through hell and back. As bad as the US medical system is, what you described is much worse. I'm sending prayers and a virtual hug to you. Take care and do what ever you need to feel better.
Lee, I hope you feel how loved you truly are from all 500k+ of us. Your strength inspires me. You don't deserve to have gone through this, I'm so sorry for your suffering. I am so happy you made it to the other side and can begin to heal. May the garden season help to restore your mental and physical health. So much love and light to you my friend.
Of course we will "bear" with you. Take your time. You've done so much content it'll will last for years to come. You're amazing. I was thinking of you last night and searched all your video lists to see your latest update. Your FB page is so organic it's keeping itself alive! Much love, healing light and rest for you. Chubby X
Serious respect I know how hard it is putting your struggles out on here and how hateful some people can be. I'm a recovering cancer patient that suffers with my mental health along with some other things and I try to make some content to help others in similar situations so yep I know the pressure. I'm not a big enough youtuber/self employed to have all the tax issues thankfully as I struggle as it is. I'm learning alot from your channel as I'm trying to start growing some foods. Your appreciated and thank you for all your content you really are an inspiration x
Thanks for being here Lee and sharing issues like this. I'm going through something similar. Seeing this has given me a massive burst of hope. Sending positive and healing vibes into the universe for you. Big hugs. Take care.
I know you dont want people to feel sorry for you Lee, but Dammit......you have been through too too much BS over your life. You are such a beautiful person, I dont know why you dont seem to catch a break. Try and be strong and continue to be the positive person that you are. Thank you for coming back on here and giving us and update, I have been wondering about you. Love ya Man!
I'm so sorry you're going thru this, I've suffered from depression and anxiety my whole life been suicidal more times than I can count. You having the strength to come here and share your struggles shows how resilient you really are, watching you after my last child dipping deep into ppd gave me the escape I needed, getting my hands in soil finding purpose and giving my brain a break saved me. You are stronger than you think and you will recover and be even stronger for it.
I am so genuinely sorry for everything you’ve been through, the pain that it has caused you is genuinely unacceptable. But I believe in your strength and your heart and even though it may take time to recover, I know you can do it. Thank you for taking the time to tell us all this story, even making yourself relive the pain - you didn’t have to, but because you did, there are hundreds and thousands of people out there who feel more reassured and comforted knowing they are not alone. You have touched all of our lives in such an important way - made us healthier, happier, and more knowledgable about our natural world - and I hope you’ll take care of yourself as best you can. Please don’t apologize! Sending you love and care.
We personally so appreciate you and what you share. We understand and have been there. You now need to heal. The pain meds are not your answer. We will pray you recover.
Don't worry Lee. We are all there for you and to support you. I also had some lessons to never give up and it's also thanks to my family and loved ones that I kept moving forward. You will always be an inspiration to us no matter what.🙌🏼🤗💚🌱
Your story is very moving. So sorry you are going through this. Thank you for sharing. I hope your story helps others going through similar things. I pray that you will come out the other end stronger. Take care of yourself. I wish I had some better words and ways to help. ❤️
Be strong, practice lots of self-care and self love. You have always been an inspiration to us. Your videos have helped us grow better gardens. We've learned so much. And, we love sharing that knowledge with others. God bless you.
Thank you Don!
Just now watching this. I wondered where you have been. I am so sorry for your troubles and all the red tape. So thankful that you found a helpful person to relieve your debt. Please stay well!!
I am so truly sorry for all you've been through and for all your suffering. I am happy that this terrible issue has finally been resolved. Take good care of yourself and take time to heal from all your emotional and physical pain. All of us who are here on your channel at this moment have watched and listened to you with great empathy because we care. We very much VALUE a good person like you. Please keep us posted. We are your friends. Your life and your health matters to us very much.
Wishing all the best for you and a very fast recovery !!!🌈😃🌈
Thank you for your honesty. Just keep on hanging in there one step at a time.
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you, Lee. Thank you for your light and spirit that you share with us. May even just a bit of what you've given out to each of us come back to you three-fold and more!! Sending you love, prayers and peace my friend!!
Your channel has helped so much. I have gone through mental trauma and health issues that the health system refuses to address. having your channel has helped be a support. I so understand how this messes with the brain. I have brain issues from what others did to me and I have to live with what they did.😢💖Hugs
So sorry to hear you have been in so much distress , Lee. Thank you for sharing this. Take your time . HUGS xx
I watched the whole video Lee. I'm so glad you were vindicated. Thankyou for sharing your experiences. It can't have been easy for you. Project Diaries is one of my favourite TH-cam channels. AND... My absolute favourite TH-cam video was made by you, which was when you took your grandad out for a day. I am 50 yrs old and have arthritis too, and am on meds. My problems are not as severe as yours but i can definately empathise with you. I hope this message makes you feel a bit better. Your gardening videos always cheer me up mate. I hope you get past this, and thanks for sharing your experiences. I genuinely hope you feel better soon. All the best.
Thank you for your bravery in sharing. We all have all the patience you need. Remember to be patient with yourself as well, kind to yourself, and go easy. The sun will shine again 🌻
Sending you positive and healing vibes. You’re stronger than you think you are. Hang in there.
Lee, please be safe. This is all so awful. You are a wonderful soul, emotionally battered at the moment but you are still there. It takes just one person, one call, one pure connection to change everything , you have all of us. 🤗
Please be real! Stop talking crap with people's emotions...of course he is safe
Thanks for this video, and I'm so thankful you made it through this stressful time.
Lee you are appreciated and understood. We love and support you; please take all the time necessary to do everything possible to heal. And know
so many all over the globe are sowing seeds of support and love for you, in no small part thanks to the knowledge you’ve shared over the past several years. Thanks for all you’ve given to date and please do not rush yourself in your physical, mental, and emotional recovery.
Hang on in there and keep going Lee. You are an inspiration to me and (after reading the comments) clearly many others too.
Absolutely horrible thing to go through. This video shines a light on so many broken systems. You have been through an absolutely massive and long ordeal. Whilst I think you will always carry some of the scars of this I do hope that you find some healing through your gardening. Take your time xx
I hope you are feeling better now. I love your videos and how you help people in so many different ways. Please, take care. We will be here waiting for your return. 💗
Oh my goodness - your video sounds unbelievable but of course it’s all too believable. What an impossible Catch-22 situation you were trapped in. Thank you for telling your story. You have real strength. I hope that the turmoil of this season of spring and life pushing through brings you small unlooked for bursts of support and happiness and calm. Thank you for your work in Project Diaries and thank you for always being true to who you are. I wish you well. Good luck.
We love you Lee , take care and keep safe and thank you for the vids. We will be here for you when your ready .❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Hello Lee, :) I have been checking in a lot recently hoping to see a new video from you, and wondering how you were, certainly wasn't expecting this :'( My heart was breaking & i cried for all that you have been through and I could feel your desperation & frustration. I truly wish that there was something that I could do to help you. I love your videos and have been watching & re watching. You have inspired me to start gardening, I have joined the FB gardening page and yesterday I cooked from one of your videos too.
Watching the videos, I have laughed with you, cried when things went wrong for you and felt your excitement in others, such as the 6 week challenge with your diet, that was fantastic! I also loved the Nature walk with you
Everyday you push through, you will gain energy. the haters give you balance from all the love we have for you. You are great, keep pushing
Lee, God has blessed you richly. You have long been a blessing to us. I haven't seen your videos for awhile but I haven't forgotten you.
So in tears as I listened to your painful story. But thank God it was sorted out. Please continue being strong. You're an inspiration to a lot of us.
Bless you ❤ I hope you are feeling a lot better, you deserve better than this. Sending much love wherever you are at the moment ❤❤❤
i can defiantly feel your pain, that's is some of the most stressful things is to see bills piling up to no end and no way to resolve it ....i am happy you got some of it resolved, ive been subbed for a while and even through all this strife you come on here with that wonderful smile hoping to help others....it is truely inspiring and admirable the things you have accomplished. you have such a beautiful soul im so grateful that you let us strangers into your life.... just you sharing this i know you saved someone out there, if no one has told you, i love you 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Be strong my friend. Keep posting and I'll keep supporting.
I hope Grandpa's OK. Sending hugs. You are inspiring to me. You don't know how strong you already are! It takes a strong person to get through all that you have been through and you should be proud of your persistence through this journey. Your current Project is working on your health. Sometimes things "can't be fixed" but things are continually being updated to create a new you, and get more complete over time. Right now you are helping so many people that you don't even know it! I expect your video will be seen by the authorities, perhaps even used as a learning tool for training new staff in some form, so that they can be better aware of their current vast inadequacies and the impact they cause to so many people's lives. Those who care want you to take all the time you need in your recovery, and look forward to seeing you again sometime soon enough. With love and best wishes.
Absolutley awful!!! I’m so sorry for you! I wish you will get proper help and I really applaud your strength thoughout this truly horrific ordeal. Sending you lots of hugs and positive energy.
I'm so sorry you have gone through so much! I am also disabled (in the USA) and I am blessed to not have experienced the things you have. Will be praying for you!
Omg I can hardly even listen to this, let alone fathom how you lived through it! Beyond Kafkaesque. You have amazing inner strength! I’m so glad you are back on track.
Congratulations on the half a million subscribers! Wow! I’ve been watching you for 3 years now! I’ve always loved how detailed you are. I’ve learned so much from you!
I started watching end of 2019.. finally got my greenhouse in last couple of week during lockdown followed your vids and grew seeds from scratch cheers bro hope your health picks up and you feel better soon
I'm so very sorry you went through all of this and I'm glad you're doing better. Thank you for sharing this, I'm sure it wasn't easy. I've been very hesitant to share any details about our health journey as well for the reasons you mentioned. Sending positive thoughts from across the big pond.
Omg you had me in tears 😭😭😭. I really hope you get the compensation you truly deserve and your health gets better. Keep fighting 👊👊👊. You’re such an inspiration ❤️
I have returned to your site so many times in the past and sent so many links to family and friends. I only tuned in again today to find a specific gardening tip, but so glad I did Lee. You are incredible and this video is so honest, informative, frustrating and devestating. I will be sending the link to many people who will see that they are not alone in their despair of the broken systems that have to be navigated, as well as some others who need to be reminded about ground level experiences. This video should be aired as a Panorama documentary, without edit. Thank you for all you do. I can't send you enough good wishes in your quest to find your strength again and recover as best you can. You so deserve greater recognition.
I feel I was truly guided to this video today. Here I was trying to figure out how to get rid of all of the leaf miners on my tomatoes 🍅 and found and was informed by your video on it that I went to subscribe and realized I already was subscribed! I started watching more videos and saw this one was the last you posted. Needless to say after coming to the end of this, I feel you have completely strengthened my Spirit. I am grateful and appreciative for your openness to share all you have and feel stronger to face all the current health and financial issues I am dealing with. You have entered my heart and I will keep you in my thoughts. Know you are not and are never alone. Thank you for you.
Truly heartbreaking what you have been through and are still going through. Firstly I want to wish you well, both physically and mentally. The system is failing so many, what a mess. I really wish you well
I think you have done extremely well to be able to get this out there for others to see that they are not alone as well. I hope as time goes on you will make a full recovery and keep your videos going, they are really enjoyed and so helpful to so many.
I know it's going to be a long journey in recovery, you will do it and after everything you've been through, you've found the strength to speak about it.... That takes true strength.
Hope to see updates on how you are getting on, kind regards and keep going. Marie
You are a great inspiration to lots and lots of us. Just seeing your face and hearing your voice makes us happy! Stay strong, you are a very strong person. And, it’s so good to talk. Keep on touch more often.
Wow u are so strong for going through what youve been through thanku for sharing your story my whole life has been the same, I'm so sorry u had to go through what u went through 😢 so happy it worked out for you & you're still here 💙
So sorry Lee, thank you for sharing your story. I wish you the very best ❤ The system does so much evil to people. Well done for still being here mate. We all care about you so much
You are so, so brave for sharing this harrowing story with us. I'm so sorry this has happened to you and I'm completely outraged. You are a beautiful, strong person. You can do this!
Hi, Lee, I ve just watched your video. I am sorry for this tremendous, painful injustice the system did to you, and for the effects on your health. I experienced for three times in my past this health problem on my stomach, so I know how dangerous is. I m so sorry, I m so sorry. I hope you feel a bit better, you re right, group support can help. You re not alone with so many followers. I m happy the nightmare was stopped like in an unexpected miracol. You are a survivor, a tenacious person, you succeed to repair un injustice and you are alive and with all of us here. I wish you a good recovery. Sending good vibes and healing thoughts to you.
I hope you get the help you need. My heart goes out to you. Please stay strong. Love and light to you.
Thank you Lee, for being brave enough to talk about this.. So many of us, got our payments restricted, Denied.. Or were just left out in the cold.. "COVID" & our supporting councils & departments have soo much to answer for, but Like us, Had no idea what to do! I haven´t received any mental health support from Jan 2020 & onwards.. Loves you to bits .. Never give up . xx
Bless you. You are a beautiful soul. Sending you love and energy for your healing.
Your channel is wonderful, you were the first helpful person I found to guide me on my veggie growing path, and I can remember thinking what a lovely positive, helpful & humble person. I learned so much from you. More importantly I felt your love for what you were doing. Spend your time with the Earths garden. That will help you heal. You are brave to put out this video. Hopefully the love from all your subscribers will find its way to you and help you on your journey to recovery. The controlling system is totally corrupt. But you are strong, Believe in yourself, you will find your path ❤️
You poor guy!! I wish I could give you a big long hug. It's amazing what you've been through and a disgrace what they've done to you and countless others. I found you for planting nasturtium seeds, and after just a few videos I feel like we could be good friends (from across the pond)! Many people are pulling for you and are so proud of how you've come through such a hell. You are a gentle soul and I am very happy to have found you. I look forward to your next video update, no matter the subject, you or plants!! Lots of love, Marina (from Ohio)
Thank you for sharing…powerful stuff!
Mate just watched this for first time. You’re so strong getting through this, and this strength will inspire others. I’m disabled on PIP too so understand just surviving each day is hard enough so this treatment was ridiculous. Keep going, keep inspiring and stay strong..try not too dwell on all this if possible, look forwards 💪🏼 oh and cheers for the tips
I have been away from TH-cam for a while, sorry. I used to watch your videos and that wonderful smile of yours. It was such a shock to hear how you have been treated and the catastrophic consequences to your health. Bless you, take care, x
My heart goes out to you man. I've lived with depression before and found a way out. It's not something I'm aloud to discuss on the internet but I very seriously recommend finding a local Alfa course to join for a little while to ask those questions. If nothing else you will find people who love unconditionally and who will go out their way to help and support you. Mate even if I could help, you just DM me and I'd be there. Well done for not letting go. You've got experience that will go on to help many people. Just rest and recover. You are loved. J
Lee, stay strong! A very emotional video and sorry to hear the nightmare you’ve had to go through, lockdowns have been hard on many people but just know that your videos have helped so many people through it, I love the project diaries channel and have learnt so much from the many wonderful videos you’ve created.
Stay strong and best wishes
Hey Lee. I only found your early videos in March 2022 and I loved them. Made me smile and picked me up so much during low times.
And then I found you were suffering so many set-backs and then you disappeared. All the bad comments from the internet trolls, and the abuse - on top of your health problems... I just hoped that you hadn't quit - and I'm very glad that you haven't.
Your posts are amazing and such a happy boost and a great guide for easy gardening even on a not so sunny day... I love them. My garlic bulbs have just come out of winter - from the freezer to the fridge.
You have been - and are still - going through stuff that some people cannot understand or appreciate. But with your easy way, and your honesty - you are an inspiration. Keep going fella.
I hope your health and happiness continue to rise along with my vertical vegetable garden this year. First time for everthing! It's all thanks to you. Whatever crop I get - bumper or not - I'll share it with my buddies. And you are part of the sunshine that helped it grow. Keep on beaming Sunshine! Thank You.
Hello Lee, I hope you are coping well and finding good support from people around you. Your story was heartbreaking...so many people are going through experiences like this, and desperately need help.
It's easy for us to say "you're strong" and "stay strong" but you really need to have a human being who can support you in the moments when you feel you are crumbling.
I love your videos, sometimes you connect with TH-cam characters...you are one of those characters.
Try to immerse yourself in your plants. Watching and helping things grow is so therpeutic💚 and you're so good at it🌿
Wow , this is a heartbreaking story, unfortunately its the same the world over. I'm so sorry you have had this crap experience. I'm so glad you got that wonderful compassionate young man who wiped your debt. I'm sure there are so many others in this situation. I will remember you in my prayers .
I am so sorry for what you have gone through and continue to go through. The fact that you are still with us is a testament to your strength and determination to fight through what has been hell for you. You are inspiring to all of us in this time of upheaval. I will add you to my prayer list and also to our prayers at my church. I wish I could come up with some really inspiring quote or something to give you strength. I will keep my eye out for something. Meanwhile just know that you have so much support and love out here in the world. Keep fighting!
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Keep your head up bro. In a few weeks this will all just be a memory. You’ve dealt with the bs and came out on top. Maybe turn your struggles into a blessing and help other people dealing with that agency one day? You’re great at teaching people everything else. Your videos were an inspiration during quarantine in the US for me and I’m sure many others. God bless and do what you can.
Thank you for bringing this into consciousness and sharing your experience.
I send you so much love.
As someone who also lives with chronic illnesses I completely resonate with you.
The systems and the government are completely broken …
And I mean COMPLETELY BROKEN.
All the lies and deceit runs SO DEEP!
I won’t go any further cos I would not want to distress anyone further.
Take care and you will recover eventually.
Look inside yourself and you will find the strength and answers.
As you said at the end ..
“Never give up”
Thank you, thank you so very much for sharing your experience.
I'm so sorry that you went through and going through this.
Prayers gone for up for healing.🙏🏾
🤗 xx
You have been so brave to do this video Lee. I can imagine a small part of what you have been going through because of my own anxiety attack earlier this year. Fortunately that was short lived . What I cannot imagine is what you have been through these past months.
I wish I could do something to help. Perhaps some positive help will come out of your courage in doing this video. I just pray you keep fighting and that you find appropriate services to help you. My love and best wishes for your recovery. You have been through so much over the years I really hope you can hang on now xx
Last November I hit an emotional wall that did not lift until the Robin's showed up. It was tense and eye opening. So I get how hard your story was to live! We each have a story and some are harder to hear than others! Hugs,Dude! It will all get better.
You are a hero! Thank you for not giving up and continuing to persevere!! You inspire me.
Sweetie , you are not broken! We have all survived a Pandemic. We are all very emotional. You are updated! As all the best people are! You don't need fentenyol. You need hugged....hard and long! You can heal from this but you will be more empathetic and kind!
So sorry to hear you're going through this. It's unbelievable that these kinds of things can happen. Hoping for a positive outcome. Please remember to take a little time everyday to let go completely to give your system a break.
Thank you! Thankfully I now have more time to focus on healing. I hope you're keeping well.
Great to see you never give up my friend I’ve been there with mental health and every day in pain your canal has helped me in so many ways I thank you for that if you ever need to talk get in touch great to see ya
Thank you for sharing and exposing. Please stay strong and keep on fighting.❤
It’s so terribly angering and upsetting that you’ve been out through this - and continue to be. I’m just so sorry - and I hope that taking a little time out will allow you to breathe and heal x
Thank you for everything you have done and for sharing your story so bravely. You bring value to the world and are appreciated by many. Take time to heal and recover - you owe nothing to anyone other than yourself. I am sorry that you had to deal with this all and to do it alone, that trauma takes a lot of active healing to recover from. Surround yourself with love, kindness and nature.
Blimey Lee, that was a difficult watch. Unbelievable how you got through that terrible episode in your life. The incompetency of government officials at all levels is astonishing. Thank you for highlighting this.
Really hope after some time , you’ll be back to your buzzing self again. It’s impossible to rush these things, just wait for that light switch moment and you’ll realise you’re nearly there. Wishing you all the best , take care of yourself and those around you.
Oh and I’d best not forget, I’ve been watching your amazing videos for years now. I don’t know where I’d be without them. You’re amazing!
I'm so sorry to hear this. These systems are just awful. The way they treated you is unacceptable. Please stay strong. Please continue to take care of your mental and physical health as best you can. We will be here for you, when you're ready.
Wow, just wow...thank you sooo much for sharing this detailed story as I am going through a similar situation right now and totally understand what it does to you mentally and physically. I l live in Canada and the last 2 years took a toll. It seems like nobody wants to work anymore...they are all working from home and just not into their jobs at all. I know what you mean by not being the same person you were. I've lost a lot of faith in humanity...the government, media, doctors, universities...all of it. It changes a person! Please be well and keep sharing your stories, it really helps to know we are not alone in this mess.
So very sorry this has happened to you, I wish you all the best and soon !!
Wow. I discovered your channel last night, while trying to learn about planting Garlic. I binged as many as I could before bed. Just watched this one, and I’m so sorry you went through all of this, and are still going through it. You WILL get better!!! You made it this far, you will make it further!
I absolutely LOVE your videos, and I just happened to pull this one up to watch. Can I just say, my heart goes out to you!!! This has given me a new appreciation for your videos, given all you've been through. Sending great big hugs!!
O wow what a powerful video thank you so much for sharing ❤️ my son had something similar he was being chased for child maintenance for his daughter who lives with him!! That went into thousands too. All subscribers are following you for a reason. We love your videos and I love the non patronising way you speak to us. Mental health is always so poorly judged. Keep safe my friend and I will have to do with watching old videos of yours to keep me going until you are well enough to pick up again.
P.S I still collect my tomato seeds the way you showed us 👍
Hugs to you ❤️❤️❤️
I love your videos as im a late starter. Your video was excellent and brought to the forefront of how our system for 'helping' people is beyond repair. Keep up your positive attitude and remember your are helping a huge amount of people with your videos, which help with their mental health. The only thing you get from professionals is more and more medication that makes the problem worse, when a good listening sympathetic ear is far more useful.
Im became disabled after a stroke which I lost my 25+yr nursing career, and only for my husband helping negotiate all these 'helping' services and fighting my corner, i have no idea how i would cope. There is absolutely no understanding of cognitive issues, fatigue, brain fog, mental health or disability issues amongst the professionals. Its hard to understand these issues via a text book, unfortunately you have to walk in our shoes.
A huge hug from a very grateful subscriber and take care of your self x
I know I’m only one of half a million people watching your videos, but I really enjoyed your videos before the 6 week challenge, now I’m in love with them. The 6 week challenge has inspired me to take care of my own health through nutrition. Be great and good luck with life from the states. Praying for you.