Your song saved me. My only brother committed suicide 11-03-15. I found him an he left no note nothing. I hurt for the longest time I let my anger for him doing it consume me. Leaving me alone to take care of our parents an our baby sister his sons. After so long of fighting an fighting I came across your song. It helped me see from him point of view not just my own. It helped me let go of all that anger hurt an sadness go. After that I started feeling the need to take my life as well anytime I did i put this song on thank you so much you saved my life. Thank you thank you
Making sure that you are still with us?? Wishing u and your family the strength and will to survive! To keep pushing thru all obstacles in life. Keep killing life and don’t ever let it consume you!
It takes a strong willed person with a big heart to make it threw that your a good person I couldn't imagine having to go threw that I had it tough myself I'm sorry life dealt you with that hardship losing a loved one can be hard God would want you to stay strong and your here for a reason life's lessons are what makes us or breaks us we can choose to make better life's as hard as it is we can get therw it just think of better days and all the beautiful things you will miss out on if you leave it all behind ❤️ much Love ♡♡♡ GodBless
I remember being 15 one of the worst places of mind for me, I had showed all my cousins and older siblings this song as a cry for help, in the end no one did, instead his music did.❤
This song has ne in tears right now. 5 minutes ago i had no clue who you were, now in 5 years ill still be slappin your music. This really hits home. Phenomenal job mr. Rep 🙏
10 years, wow! I'm not religious, but your music got me through the toughest of times. I no longer have the metallic taste in my mouth. I like to stop in and remind myself of those struggles; not to forget
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Justcallmekayable AMEN!! GOD AND JESUS ARE FIRST. It's time we keep THEM that way in our lives before it's too late. IT. WILL. BE. SOON. I promise. Please pray, listen, respect, repent. Please don't bully. Love like God loves. Unconditionally.
Honestly though, sometimes it would've been a better mercy to let a failed suicide attempter die. I once heard of a man drinking bleach or some other chemical. He was saved, but now he's in so much pain, and his digestive system is so fucked up that he should've just died and went to a better place
God bless you guys. Thank you for sharing this woman's testimony. This is just a reminder to me that God does control everything from the weather to the moment we die. So God bless this woman! Thanks to The Rep who is spreading God's good news and may God bless you!
"You are amazing! Your words have touched my soul. In the past, I attempted to commit suicide a few times. During one of my stays in the hospital, I saw Jesus at the end of my bed rubbing my feet. He reassured me that everything would be okay. I have been sober for almost 9 years now. Thank you for creating this song and video. I believe that it will touch so many souls. God is great! May God bless you and your loved ones!"
I'm one of those ppl. I'm struggling with this right now at this very moment. Whenever I want to die I listen to this. Sometimes it helps sometimes it makes me want to do it even more. But I'm definitely my own prisoner. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I really don't. It sucks when ur always alone and truly don't have any fucking where to turn or anybody in the world who will just be there for u the way u need them too. I have been strong for 32 yrs. I have been battling suicidal thoughts and attempts and hospitalizations since i was 12. It doesn't get better. And I don't have much strong left in me.
Ivan Leal suiside is not a joke its a mega joke ha ha ha if people are weak like that just let them go be pussys and kill them selfs life is orerated anyway
I am too she's a beautiful girl how dare motherfuckers these days hurt people like this.I agree with u Rep.I almost committed suicide really did almost die with a knife busting my hand wide open but I survived survived therapy everything thank god cus Lucifer will never have me.
Intro After I shot myself I was conscience. I couldn't see, I heard everything. I heard my boyfriend screaming. So I remember feeling around, the recoil of the weapon was so powerful it took me from being on my hands and knees, To sitting on the bed, it threw me on the bed. And I remember the first thing I thought was, oh my god, I did it, I did it. I can't believe I did it Verse 1 I'm so tired of falling If this Tylenol could numb the pain or extra strength but a firearm would I got a friend who survived the shot Suicide, humans die, say goodbye then say hi to God She said a prayer 'fore she pulled the trigger: "Lord if it be your will, I apologize so please forgive me" Then the hammer clicked The devil and his demons laugh entertainment like they're staring through a camera lens She's on the doctor's table operating She said that's when she left the body Nurses screaming like they lost a patient And she woke up in hell so goes the tale That it was hotter than the barrel of the gun she shot her face with And to make things even worse She can hear herself falling while they calling out a name that wasn't even hers And she's like dang I'm dying And no one even knows my name What a shame that I am Like an insane asylum the way they tie me to this bed and stich my face together My names a waste of letters Colder than the late December That's when she heard God say: "I did not forget you, I know your name and I would twice hang on that cross to get you. And the scars on your face I'ma leave you with are there to remind you that from this day it's for me you live." And her story is so bittersweet Cause I know if God can deliver her Than surely he'll deliver me (Chorus) I'm sitting in my room and I wonder what it is that you see when you look at me Is this how it is? I don't wanna pretend like I'm something that I'll never be Lord pick me up cause I don't wanna to fall again And save me, save me, from this prison in my head (Verse 2) So there's no one else to blame or point the fingers at If life's a sad sad song than where the singers at? Love just flies away I guess that's why these artists always seems to draw the red heart with the wings attached Life is short time is borrowed like the tweaker who just never brought my speakers back Mr. Deacon, please don't put me where the preacher sat Cause I don't own a suit, and just might stain your carpet Cause lately to be honest All this dirt I've been walkin' in has turned my sneakers black My wife's the best of me And I'm the weaker half If life's a recipe I'm sick of eating that Become the death of me This pure ecstasy so let it be Put that on everything that Jesus has But thou shall not swear So my words are locked there In a freezer bag They just melt away Talk is cheap Can't afford to pay if there is hell to pay So I'm feeling kind of nervous And my stomachs turning At the dinner table like I'm hoping someone else can pray All my selfish ways I've been caught red handed Like the kid who stuck his hands in the velvet cake (Chorus) (Verse 3) Yeah, kids look up to me It's like they think I'm perfect See I'm drowning barely breathing trying to reach the surface They say my songs speak to 'em like I'm preaching sermons And the pastor at his church sounds like he's speaking German But I just wonder if he knows That I got problems of my own And I'm following this road But I ain't perfect neither That's why I need God His grace keeps me from flippin' out at my wife And packing my bags at night to leave her And trust me I done thought about it And not one homey was around that I could call on like "Dog, I'm drowning." They just left me drinking oceans Trying to swallow mountains Walking the tightrope during an earthquake I'm all off balance But I'm convinced that he was there when no one else was Satan gives the evil stare but Romans 1 says I am not ashamed And I am not ashamed So even when it's all over I still overcome
The Rep is my favorite rapper, period. Dude is just raw and tells it like it is. As a believer, it's hard for me to listen to a lot of Christian rap because its corny and just isn't that good. I've drove around some of my dudes that are fresh out the joint bumping some of Rep's music and usually get a response such as, "Who the f*** is this dude? Dude's a Christian rapper? This is sick!" Be encouraged REP. You're music is for the misfits of society and the unchurched. God truly has given you a unique gift that you are faithful with your stewardship bro.
Keith Moore true. but I also like hazakim ,Timothy brindle,believing Stephen ,Shai linne, Matt bold,ASAP preach, Lazarus, willy will..man there's alot of tight stuff out..nowadays ..check out gospel rap ..all in..
I just tried a week ago Monday, this was my 4th time trying since I was in jr high im 39 now...i hope one day I can be ok and not have these thoughts haunt me daily
God takes his strongest people early. Everything happens for a reason weather or not you know that reason there is one and you have to replace the negativity with positivity and then the positive will over take everything else. It can be hard at first but it will get easier.. Remember you always have to keep your eyes ahead of you not behind you... My uncle who was everything to me killed himself exactly two weeks before my 16th birthday and then everything and I mean everything fell down hill from there and I thought that I was never going to be able to get out of the state my mind was in it was almost to late for me but then God showed me that he will only give what he KNOWS you can handle, after 3 years he brought my wife into my life and then after he did that its been nothing but blessings.. No matter how low you are never lose all of your faith completely because it won't get any better if you do lose all of it.... Look high to the sky and never lose sight of who you may truly be
th-cam.com/video/fBhi9Ke1h7w/w-d-xo.html Why do we want to die before our time? For all those who have power in this fallen world are not even humans. They are the evil spirits, who have stole everything from us. And we, going away before our time to die - we give our enemies what they have wanted all along - we give them our lives. Ephesians 6:12 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. If we do not call upone the NAME OF THE LORD and SHALL BE NOT SAVED - then our souls - our very being is theirs (satan`s) and not GOD`S. Romans 10:13 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. Psalms 145:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. Psalms 18:3 | View whole chapter | See verse in context I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. Psalms 116:13 | View whole chapter | See verse in context I will take the cup of salvation, and call upon the name of the LORD. Do not take away what`s GOD`S . Your soul belongs to GOD who give it, your soul do not belong to satan. For lucifer is none to be worshipped, he is also the creation of GOD. Without GOD, there be no lucifer. For even the name: “LUCIFER” is GOD given. 1 Chronicles 16:8 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Give thanks unto the LORD, call upon his name, make known his deeds among the people. Psalms 105:1 | View whole chapter | See verse in context O give thanks unto the LORD; call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people. Psalms 116:17 | View whole chapter | See verse in context I will offer to thee the sacrifice of thanksgiving, and will call upon the name of the LORD. Psalms 80:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context So will not we go back from thee: quicken us, and we will call upon thy name. 2 Samuel 22:4 | View whole chapter | See verse in context I will call on the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
My names are wasted letters colder than late December thats when she heard God say I did not 4get u I know your name and I will twice hang on that cross to get u!! Amen thank you Jesus! I can never repay u...
Bro I know I've probably at least watched this 30k times!!💯🎼🎶🎤🎧🎻✝️ Everybody that's still listening to this WE HAVE TO SHOW MY DUDE SOME LOVE! HIT THAT LIKE AN SHARE FOR THE GREAT ("Rep")
Hey brandon, its tori, you talked to me at teen break and signed my backpack. Id like to tell you that you are my inspiration and you have taught me that no one can tell you how your going to succeed because its my decision. I make my future, good or bad. I wanna be a rapper when I grow up, I dont care who tells me I cant rap because I believe I can, just because im a girl doesnt mean I cant rap. I will keep working on it untill I succeed in life. Thank you so much because I believe that if you went through all u went through I have just a little shit at being successful. Thanks, I believe that ull get through life well. We all have those bad days but always keep your chin up because everyone has those days. Stay strong thank you!
I hope you do become a rapper Tori, girls these days got bars! Find your style, get those punch lines in there, and definitely got to have a good hook. Good luck to you, hopefully your dreams come true
This song hits close to home for me cause you have no idea how many friends I’ve lost to sueicide, man that stuff is not funny. Amen brother hope you stay speaking the truth.
I've sat for 3 days playing this song 600 times. I pray to God please bring me peace. Please deliver me. But I'm so alone and I am scared. I don't want to survive if I fail at ending my own life. But I don't want to keep being alone and afraid. I'm scared. Please God. See me. Reach me. But nothing. I find no peace. I can ask his forgiveness. Maybe he forgives me. But where do I turn for my own forgiveness? Why? I'm so confused and afraid. I don't know where else I can turn anymore. I have only myself. The later it gets the more alone I am. The more I pray the more I see I am alone. Why won't God hear me? Is this what I deserve?
Devin Starkey Your not alone Devin. Your not the only one who feels this way. All of us are broken. Some of just sense it more than others. All of us are wildly desperate . Some of us just feel it more than others. Look at what Revelation says 3:17 “You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. 18I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see.” Call upon the name of Jesus. God loves. You may not “feel” anything but that’s ok. We walk by faith and not by sight or “feelings”. I’ve felt like killing myself hundreds if not thousands of times. That’s why I wrote this song. But God is your strength. If you wait upon Him He will save you and clothe you with His love. I strongly encourage you to pick up and bible and begin reading from the book of John. Let God’s Word wash over you. Praying for you Devin. DM me and Ill reply with my info. Hit me
We need more of people being real like this and speaking nothing but the truth... There are a whole lot more fake plastic people who think they are living in a plastic world its almost over powering the real people aint no one know how to be real any more hahaha
This is the best of Jesus, God I've ever met or heard!! When you met me in my place and give me reason to change I can't thank you enough for hope you give me. And I can't imagine a better voice for the people out here suffering. You are our Aaron, you are a blessing to us. I thank God for you brother.
this song is so powerful i come accross this song like 6 years ago and i still listen to it on a daily basis 6 years later, i feel everything from the words of his voice helped me out of alot of situations, if god can deliver her then surely he can deliver me ----- i felt that sooo much
HE HASN'T MADE IT YET? MAYBE BECAUSE OF THE KIND OF SOCIETY WE LIVE IN, IF YOU'RE NOT RAPPING ABOUT MONEY, CARS AND CLOTHES YOU'RE NOT RAPPING. IF YOU RAP ABOUT JESUS THEN THE ILLUMINATI DON'T WANT YOU, AND THOSE ARE THE ONES WHO BRING THE EXPOSURE AND THE FAME. SAD I KNOW.
Julian Pitoscia nkkuh there afew of these artists like tht out here now the fkn industry dead n promote only pure evil n push ppl like rep down look at how TH-cam demonetizez and takes veiws n sht Shtz RL fkd up .. when u see it all kno too
This song moved me in ways I've never been moved and I wonder the same thing to, I sit in my room wondering what you see in me. I've been my own prisoner in my mind for years, don't give up God can and will save you!
You know what I don't know who you are REP but I know you got God in your heart I dunno what faith your from but I am Muslim n yo I can relate to your lyrics coz it's raw pain .... I cried to this
Praise God for what he's extracting from Brandon Kagels lyrical talent. This song and video is so dope!! Keep it up and please continue reppin Jesus in your music Bro. I'm sure I speak for than myself when I say that it is a true blessing to be avid listeners of every song the holy spirit inspires you to write.
good song good flow good message your flow is tighter and straighter than the video i saw of dee 1 for sure. Please pray for me in Jesus's mighty name.
Sometimes I feel like there are two of me. The weak, righteous me, and the stronger sinful me. I used to always forget that Christ is stronger than the dark me. Backslide. But now I know his power, his love, and know that the good me, will never defeat the bad me, without Christ.
Wow... 2 Corinthians 10:5-6 casting down every imagination that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and taking captive every thought to the obedience of Christ!! Subside comes as a thought, it is a lie from the devil!
Keep it up brother doing good for yourself God got you everyday all day believe keep the faith God bless you and much love and from the heavenly father to mean to you much much much love
Love Rep just had Toca Legacy spinning him im 93.1 in Mass for all the worcester county inmates!!! Gods blessings for you to speak truth in rap to reach out to my ppl.
Over a year ago I was lifting and I had 275 pounds on the bench bar. Before I started I’ll my lift I don’t how to say this but I techni accidentally dropped the bar and it crushed my face. I broke 26 facial bones and I was choking on the blood and couldn’t breathe due to the nasal and roof of my mouth splitting open. I KNEW I was going to die it felt like an electric shockwave and an uncontrollable 15 second countdown. I panicked thinking that “this is it, it’s over.” I woke up a minute later and my friends picking me up and all I wanted to do was lay down and die bc the PAIN was MISERABLE, HORRIFIC, and AGONIZING. Long story short is I miraculously survived and had a facial repair with metal plates and screws. The recovery was also unbearable but I’ve made it through. I know exactly what it likes to feel as though you have a prison in your mind and I still and will always battle PTSD and trauma but all we can do at this point is fight, stay strong and believe in the ONE above 🙏🙏
I been through alot in my 39yrs, aloy of ups and downs and this song just hits me in the heart.. Feel like he made this for me. Song is great/ lyrics are heart touching.
Now I know a lot of people will say that God saved her because he had a plan for her life. I will stand and say God has a plan for us all. The reason she's alive today is because of intercessory prayer. When the Spirit tells you to pray, PRAY. That's the only reason I'm here today myself is because of someone else's prayer.
Rep you helped me through so many suicide attempts it's crazy.. been rocking with you from the jump! I finally feel free after so many years and I wanna say thank you!! It would make my year if I could have a CD to listen to and just shut this phone off once in a while❤️ much love to the realest!!
Brandon Kagel i just got out of Durango jail and the pastor there would play you songs for use and i just wanted to let you know they hit me hard and changed my walk!
I feel this video and I’m a prisoner in my head and I suffer from suicidal, the thoughts and all. It’s hard and I’ve almost died quite a few times but My God, Jesus and Lord always got me out of it. If it wasn’t for My God, Jesus and Lord I definitely wouldn’t be here at all🙏🏾. God Bless you 🙏🏾❤️🙌🏾
Everyone has someone out there that gives them the strength to carry on...I pray that each of you find that whether through a spouse, friends or family or children!!! 💯💯💯✌️
The tears want to fall from my eyes but this song is so familiar that the tears have already fallen... Now I heal...."I held the keys to my hand" the whole time.. the whole time.. thank you NF for that quote. It's real for me.
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Your song saved me. My only brother committed suicide 11-03-15. I found him an he left no note nothing. I hurt for the longest time I let my anger for him doing it consume me. Leaving me alone to take care of our parents an our baby sister his sons. After so long of fighting an fighting I came across your song. It helped me see from him point of view not just my own. It helped me let go of all that anger hurt an sadness go. After that I started feeling the need to take my life as well anytime I did i put this song on thank you so much you saved my life. Thank you thank you
Damn im sorry for your loss
Making sure that you are still with us?? Wishing u and your family the strength and will to survive! To keep pushing thru all obstacles in life. Keep killing life and don’t ever let it consume you!
I hope ur still doin fine !!
Keep fighting , stay strong
It takes a strong willed person with a big heart to make it threw that your a good person I couldn't imagine having to go threw that I had it tough myself I'm sorry life dealt you with that hardship losing a loved one can be hard God would want you to stay strong and your here for a reason life's lessons are what makes us or breaks us we can choose to make better life's as hard as it is we can get therw it just think of better days and all the beautiful things you will miss out on if you leave it all behind ❤️ much Love ♡♡♡ GodBless
I remember being 15 one of the worst places of mind for me, I had showed all my cousins and older siblings this song as a cry for help, in the end no one did, instead his music did.❤
There's ALWAYS ATLEAST ONE THAT TRULY CARES
This song has ne in tears right now. 5 minutes ago i had no clue who you were, now in 5 years ill still be slappin your music. This really hits home. Phenomenal job mr. Rep 🙏
Fax.
Shiznits fo real Dope Gnarly.
🔥🔥💯💯.
This song saved my life frfr God is Good I 🙏 for anyone struggling and reading this
amen brother. just got my boys and woman baptized last evening. i battle my demons but know the light. i could never ask for more than your music
10 years, wow!
I'm not religious, but your music got me through the toughest of times.
I no longer have the metallic taste in my mouth.
I like to stop in and remind myself of those struggles; not to forget
I first heard this song when I was in prison, helped me through 5 years. Wish he would do more music. Much love and respect
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I became an instant fan the day I heard this 9 years ago and Im still here waiting for more
This song is so deep. Praise the Lord this lady survived. Wow !
Justcallmekayable AMEN!! GOD AND JESUS ARE FIRST. It's time we keep THEM that way in our lives before it's too late. IT. WILL. BE. SOON. I promise. Please pray, listen, respect, repent. Please don't bully. Love like God loves. Unconditionally.
Honestly though, sometimes it would've been a better mercy to let a failed suicide attempter die. I once heard of a man drinking bleach or some other chemical. He was saved, but now he's in so much pain, and his digestive system is so fucked up that he should've just died and went to a better place
Justcallmekayable hello I was wondering if you want to make a decision to make some fun with me
Why would they save her if her wish was to die? Is it forceful to live?
@@CMchyy i hope i don't
God bless you guys.
Thank you for sharing this woman's testimony. This is just a reminder to me that God does control everything from the weather to the moment we die.
So God bless this woman!
Thanks to The Rep who is spreading God's good news and may God bless you!
"You are amazing! Your words have touched my soul. In the past, I attempted to commit suicide a few times. During one of my stays in the hospital, I saw Jesus at the end of my bed rubbing my feet. He reassured me that everything would be okay. I have been sober for almost 9 years now. Thank you for creating this song and video. I believe that it will touch so many souls. God is great! May God bless you and your loved ones!"
Marlene's Testimony is so awesome!!! it makes you think wow!! how good is God!! A God full of Grace and Mercy
this is powerful bro suicide is no joke these people are hurting bad
Most people need help that have suicidal tendencies but no one helps them until havoc reigns
I'm one of those ppl. I'm struggling with this right now at this very moment. Whenever I want to die I listen to this. Sometimes it helps sometimes it makes me want to do it even more. But I'm definitely my own prisoner. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I really don't. It sucks when ur always alone and truly don't have any fucking where to turn or anybody in the world who will just be there for u the way u need them too. I have been strong for 32 yrs. I have been battling suicidal thoughts and attempts and hospitalizations since i was 12. It doesn't get better. And I don't have much strong left in me.
@@destinyludwig3113 stay Living bro Jesus is with us even if we mostly dont feel him
Ivan Leal suiside is not a joke its a mega joke ha ha ha if people are weak like that just let them go be pussys and kill them selfs life is orerated anyway
I am too she's a beautiful girl how dare motherfuckers these days hurt people like this.I agree with u Rep.I almost committed suicide really did almost die with a knife busting my hand wide open but I survived survived therapy everything thank god cus Lucifer will never have me.
Very Powerful 👍💯🙇♀️
GOD bless U
Our world need more people speaking God's word to the youth...rep what u do is very important keep up God's work
I'm like just seeing some of you really great artists and I'm like damn they got bars and meaningful songs 💞💞💞💞💞
Intro
After I shot myself I was conscience. I couldn't see, I heard everything. I heard my boyfriend screaming. So I remember feeling around, the recoil of the weapon was so powerful it took me from being on my hands and knees, To sitting on the bed, it threw me on the bed. And I remember the first thing I thought was, oh my god, I did it, I did it. I can't believe I did it
Verse 1
I'm so tired of falling
If this Tylenol could numb the pain or extra strength but a firearm would
I got a friend who survived the shot
Suicide, humans die, say goodbye then say hi to God
She said a prayer 'fore she pulled the trigger:
"Lord if it be your will, I apologize so please forgive me"
Then the hammer clicked
The devil and his demons laugh entertainment like they're staring through a camera lens
She's on the doctor's table operating
She said that's when she left the body
Nurses screaming like they lost a patient
And she woke up in hell so goes the tale
That it was hotter than the barrel of the gun she shot her face with
And to make things even worse
She can hear herself falling while they calling out a name that wasn't even hers
And she's like dang I'm dying
And no one even knows my name
What a shame that I am
Like an insane asylum the way they tie me to this bed and stich my face together
My names a waste of letters
Colder than the late December
That's when she heard God say: "I did not forget you, I know your name and I would twice hang on that cross to get you. And the scars on your face I'ma leave you with are there to remind you that from this day it's for me you live."
And her story is so bittersweet
Cause I know if God can deliver her
Than surely he'll deliver me
(Chorus)
I'm sitting in my room and I wonder what it is that you see when you look at me
Is this how it is? I don't wanna pretend like I'm something that I'll never be
Lord pick me up cause I don't wanna to fall again
And save me, save me, from this prison in my head
(Verse 2)
So there's no one else to blame or point the fingers at
If life's a sad sad song than where the singers at?
Love just flies away
I guess that's why these artists always seems to draw the red heart with the wings attached
Life is short time is borrowed like the tweaker who just never brought my speakers back
Mr. Deacon, please don't put me where the preacher sat
Cause I don't own a suit, and just might stain your carpet
Cause lately to be honest
All this dirt I've been walkin' in has turned my sneakers black
My wife's the best of me
And I'm the weaker half
If life's a recipe
I'm sick of eating that
Become the death of me
This pure ecstasy so let it be
Put that on everything that Jesus has
But thou shall not swear
So my words are locked there
In a freezer bag
They just melt away
Talk is cheap
Can't afford to pay if there is hell to pay
So I'm feeling kind of nervous
And my stomachs turning
At the dinner table like I'm hoping someone else can pray
All my selfish ways
I've been caught red handed
Like the kid who stuck his hands in the velvet cake
(Chorus)
(Verse 3)
Yeah, kids look up to me
It's like they think I'm perfect
See I'm drowning barely breathing trying to reach the surface
They say my songs speak to 'em like I'm preaching sermons
And the pastor at his church sounds like he's speaking German
But I just wonder if he knows
That I got problems of my own
And I'm following this road
But I ain't perfect neither
That's why I need God
His grace keeps me from flippin' out at my wife
And packing my bags at night to leave her
And trust me I done thought about it
And not one homey was around that I could call on like "Dog, I'm drowning."
They just left me drinking oceans
Trying to swallow mountains
Walking the tightrope during an earthquake I'm all off balance
But I'm convinced that he was there when no one else was
Satan gives the evil stare but Romans 1 says I am not ashamed
And I am not ashamed
So even when it's all over I still overcome
Why
Alex because
The lyrics are very deep
God grace is sufficient God bless bro
My new favorite artist. You truly have amazing talent. Better yet you tell the truth ❤ amen.
The Rep is my favorite rapper, period. Dude is just raw and tells it like it is. As a believer, it's hard for me to listen to a lot of Christian rap because its corny and just isn't that good. I've drove around some of my dudes that are fresh out the joint bumping some of Rep's music and usually get a response such as, "Who the f*** is this dude? Dude's a Christian rapper? This is sick!" Be encouraged REP. You're music is for the misfits of society and the unchurched. God truly has given you a unique gift that you are faithful with your stewardship bro.
Keith Moore true. but I also like hazakim ,Timothy brindle,believing Stephen ,Shai linne, Matt bold,ASAP preach, Lazarus, willy will..man there's alot of tight stuff out..nowadays ..check out gospel rap ..all in..
Loving THE REP certainly one of the most well written artist around I absolutely am in love with all of these songs
as a suicide survivor this song is deep hits home
lilmisstokenchoke I'm glad ur here... I lost my brother Dec 23 2016 to suicide&it has left so much pain hurt&devastation in my family.
Thank you
lilmisstokenchoke real words girl!!!!
I just tried a week ago Monday, this was my 4th time trying since I was in jr high im 39 now...i hope one day I can be ok and not have these thoughts haunt me daily
God takes his strongest people early. Everything happens for a reason weather or not you know that reason there is one and you have to replace the negativity with positivity and then the positive will over take everything else. It can be hard at first but it will get easier.. Remember you always have to keep your eyes ahead of you not behind you... My uncle who was everything to me killed himself exactly two weeks before my 16th birthday and then everything and I mean everything fell down hill from there and I thought that I was never going to be able to get out of the state my mind was in it was almost to late for me but then God showed me that he will only give what he KNOWS you can handle, after 3 years he brought my wife into my life and then after he did that its been nothing but blessings.. No matter how low you are never lose all of your faith completely because it won't get any better if you do lose all of it.... Look high to the sky and never lose sight of who you may truly be
Damn, this song is one of those songs that a person can literally feel.. Very deep very deep....WOW!!
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Why do we want to die before our time? For all those who have power in this fallen world are not even humans. They are the evil spirits, who have stole everything from us. And we, going away before our time to die - we give our enemies what they have wanted all along - we give them our lives. Ephesians 6:12 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
If we do not call upone the NAME OF THE LORD and SHALL BE NOT SAVED - then our souls - our very being is theirs (satan`s) and not GOD`S.
Romans 10:13 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
Psalms 145:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth.
Psalms 18:3 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
Psalms 116:13 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
I will take the cup of salvation, and call upon the name of the LORD.
Do not take away what`s GOD`S . Your soul belongs to GOD who give it, your soul do not belong to satan. For lucifer is none to be worshipped, he is also the creation of GOD. Without GOD, there be no lucifer. For even the name: “LUCIFER” is GOD given.
1 Chronicles 16:8 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
Give thanks unto the LORD, call upon his name, make known his deeds among the people.
Psalms 105:1 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
O give thanks unto the LORD; call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people.
Psalms 116:17 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
I will offer to thee the sacrifice of thanksgiving, and will call upon the name of the LORD.
Psalms 80:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
So will not we go back from thee: quicken us, and we will call upon thy name.
2 Samuel 22:4 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
I will call on the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
Anyone else in love with the reps gritty voice takes me back to the 80s and 90s rap
My names are wasted letters colder than late December thats when she heard God say I did not 4get u I know your name and I will twice hang on that cross to get u!! Amen thank you Jesus! I can never repay u...
Bro I know I've probably at least watched this 30k times!!💯🎼🎶🎤🎧🎻✝️ Everybody that's still listening to this WE HAVE TO SHOW MY DUDE SOME LOVE! HIT THAT LIKE AN SHARE FOR THE GREAT ("Rep")
😱😍😍 OMG just stumble upon this ; I'm loving it 💞 awww
Hey brandon, its tori, you talked to me at teen break and signed my backpack. Id like to tell you that you are my inspiration and you have taught me that no one can tell you how your going to succeed because its my decision.
I make my future, good or bad. I wanna be a rapper when I grow up, I dont care who tells me I cant rap because I believe I can, just because im a girl doesnt mean I cant rap. I will keep working on it untill I succeed in life. Thank you so much because I believe that if you went through all u went through I have just a little shit at being successful. Thanks, I believe that ull get through life well. We all have those bad days but always keep your chin up because everyone has those days. Stay strong thank you!
Shot*
Would love to send you some cd's if you have an address you would like me to send them to??
i need your words bro send a cd please 8117 n 11st tampa fl 33604
whats with the beggining? from a documentary?
I hope you do become a rapper Tori, girls these days got bars! Find your style, get those punch lines in there, and definitely got to have a good hook. Good luck to you, hopefully your dreams come true
This song hits so close to home... Its like you're speaking to me.
God bless you man. Keep the good songs coming!
Your brother in Christ!
This song hits close to home for me cause you have no idea how many friends I’ve lost to sueicide, man that stuff is not funny. Amen brother hope you stay speaking the truth.
It speaks to me also. I've been suicidal for many years wishing that someone would help
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I've sat for 3 days playing this song 600 times. I pray to God please bring me peace. Please deliver me. But I'm so alone and I am scared. I don't want to survive if I fail at ending my own life. But I don't want to keep being alone and afraid. I'm scared. Please God. See me. Reach me. But nothing. I find no peace. I can ask his forgiveness. Maybe he forgives me. But where do I turn for my own forgiveness? Why? I'm so confused and afraid. I don't know where else I can turn anymore. I have only myself. The later it gets the more alone I am. The more I pray the more I see I am alone. Why won't God hear me? Is this what I deserve?
Devin Starkey Your not alone Devin. Your not the only one who feels this way. All of us are broken. Some of just sense it more than others. All of us are wildly desperate . Some of us just feel it more than others. Look at what Revelation says 3:17
“You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. 18I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see.”
Call upon the name of Jesus. God loves. You may not “feel” anything but that’s ok. We walk by faith and not by sight or “feelings”. I’ve felt like killing myself hundreds if not thousands of times. That’s why I wrote this song. But God is your strength. If you wait upon Him He will save you and clothe you with His love.
I strongly encourage you to pick up and bible and begin reading from the book of John. Let God’s Word wash over you. Praying for you Devin. DM me and Ill reply with my info. Hit me
Once again thank you for coming out with a song I can relate to. 7 years ago I tried ending my life but lived.
I saw him when i was in the Arizona department of juvinile corrections he was rapping for us
yeast. bread. food
That's so awesome maybe it was meant for you to get a role model like him in your life in these days where music is everything
You're LucKy 2 b able to meet him in person & to hear him Rap "LiVe" 😍👍💋
Damn u speak the conscious truth , there are few like u but thats all we need.
Max Cooper if I didn't hear this idk what I down do
We need more of people being real like this and speaking nothing but the truth... There are a whole lot more fake plastic people who think they are living in a plastic world its almost over powering the real people aint no one know how to be real any more hahaha
Right, it only takes 1 person to change the world.
Well put. Be encouraged.
This is the best of Jesus, God I've ever met or heard!! When you met me in my place and give me reason to change I can't thank you enough for hope you give me. And I can't imagine a better voice for the people out here suffering. You are our Aaron, you are a blessing to us. I thank God for you brother.
this song is so powerful i come accross this song like 6 years ago and i still listen to it on a daily basis 6 years later, i feel everything from the words of his voice helped me out of alot of situations, if god can deliver her then surely he can deliver me ----- i felt that sooo much
Amen! Totally thumbs up 100% brother, looking forward for the new cd.
honestly i dont know why he hasnt made it yet, realest rapper out there
HE HASN'T MADE IT YET? MAYBE BECAUSE OF THE KIND OF SOCIETY WE LIVE IN, IF YOU'RE NOT RAPPING ABOUT MONEY, CARS AND CLOTHES YOU'RE NOT RAPPING. IF YOU RAP ABOUT JESUS THEN THE ILLUMINATI DON'T WANT YOU, AND THOSE ARE THE ONES WHO BRING THE EXPOSURE AND THE FAME. SAD I KNOW.
Julian Pitoscia Because he's God soldier Brother!! Remember that he's music is for us and those that we are waiting to believe. "+"
Julian Pitoscia nkkuh there afew of these artists like tht out here now the fkn industry dead n promote only pure evil n push ppl like rep down look at how TH-cam demonetizez and takes veiws n sht
Shtz RL fkd up .. when u see it all kno too
Check out NF
nf better tho
The strength and courage it takes to take your own life..you could conquer the world with...
This song moved me in ways I've never been moved and I wonder the same thing to, I sit in my room wondering what you see in me. I've been my own prisoner in my mind for years, don't give up God can and will save you!
Jonnie Ott Check out relentless heart on google and take the John 7:17 challenge it will bless you.
Why am i just finding out about the REP this is the coldest artist out today. Thanks for your music my brother.
coldest ?
It's a black thing...like real good artist.
I just found this tonight, I honestly don't know how much more I can endure. My while life has been a struggle. I am tired.
What a blessing. So real, thanks for sharing
You know what I don't know who you are REP but I know you got God in your heart I dunno what faith your from but I am Muslim n yo I can relate to your lyrics coz it's raw pain .... I cried to this
Miss Haseena Aziz , The Rep is a Christian man 🙏🏼
Crazy how today this song is in my recommended.
Thanks.
Same. Sometimes what you need finds you.
I've been dying for you to come out with more music! Thank you Brandon, keep up the good work! Rep the King!
Praise God for what he's extracting from Brandon Kagels lyrical talent. This song and video is so dope!! Keep it up and please continue reppin Jesus in your music Bro. I'm sure I speak for than myself when I say that it is a true blessing to be avid listeners of every song the holy spirit inspires you to write.
Comdl
first time youtube reccomended actual music.... damn love it
good song good flow good message your flow is tighter and straighter than the video i saw of dee 1 for sure. Please pray for me in Jesus's mighty name.
Sometimes I feel like there are two of me. The weak, righteous me, and the stronger sinful me. I used to always forget that Christ is stronger than the dark me. Backslide. But now I know his power, his love, and know that the good me, will never defeat the bad me, without Christ.
Wow... 2 Corinthians 10:5-6 casting down every imagination that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and taking captive every thought to the obedience of Christ!! Subside comes as a thought, it is a lie from the devil!
Walker Sonneville yea
Very talented to say the least, The Rep should be in and the Mumble Rap should be put out.... Much respect, keep it up as this is real talent...
Awesome brother....
This is pure awesome! This hit really close to home for me! Thank you Brandon! I'm looking forward to more Rep-ing!
In 2019. Still hits home
Keep it up brother doing good for yourself God got you everyday all day believe keep the faith God bless you and much love and from the heavenly father to mean to you much much much love
Great video and testimony, Keep it real brother,. Praying for your your ministry that it will reach more souls for Christ
Love Rep just had Toca Legacy spinning him im 93.1 in Mass for all the worcester county inmates!!! Gods blessings for you to speak truth in rap to reach out to my ppl.
Gabriel love
YO REP..:KEEP REPPIN"..POWERFUL SONG AND NOTHING BUT THE BLOOD!
yessssss praise God and Jesus!!
I literally got chills at the first chorus... good job man!
Thank you for this song man God Bless
If you confess with your tongue that Jesus is Lord and you believe that the father raised him from the dead you will be saved.
This speaks to my heart ty for sharing
Wow. Gave me chills,bros,n sisters ..... OMG.....not the first time I've heard it
Kinda a wake up...... I bet it's all TRUTH!!!😇🤕
Deep. Keep it real Papa! ! God bless you. Keep your Faith up.
WOW!! DEEP God Bless You
this is an amazing... i love it. it got me tearing up.
teared up this is beautiful the pain is incredible but the message is even more
"All this dirt I'm walking in has turned my sneakers black" love that line lol
Over a year ago I was lifting and I had 275 pounds on the bench bar. Before I started I’ll my lift I don’t how to say this but I techni accidentally dropped the bar and it crushed my face. I broke 26 facial bones and I was choking on the blood and couldn’t breathe due to the nasal and roof of my mouth splitting open. I KNEW I was going to die it felt like an electric shockwave and an uncontrollable 15 second countdown. I panicked thinking that “this is it, it’s over.” I woke up a minute later and my friends picking me up and all I wanted to do was lay down and die bc the PAIN was MISERABLE, HORRIFIC, and AGONIZING. Long story short is I miraculously survived and had a facial repair with metal plates and screws. The recovery was also unbearable but I’ve made it through. I know exactly what it likes to feel as though you have a prison in your mind and I still and will always battle PTSD and trauma but all we can do at this point is fight, stay strong and believe in the ONE above 🙏🙏
Epic, I'm a first time listener and I look forward to hearing more. Keep the truth coming and stay strong brother God Bless
I been through alot in my 39yrs, aloy of ups and downs and this song just hits me in the heart.. Feel like he made this for me. Song is great/ lyrics are heart touching.
Now I know a lot of people will say that God saved her because he had a plan for her life. I will stand and say God has a plan for us all. The reason she's alive today is because of intercessory prayer. When the Spirit tells you to pray, PRAY. That's the only reason I'm here today myself is because of someone else's prayer.
powerful words bro God bless.
This was so beautifully put together and the message behind it as well.. Goose pimple's all that I can say.
Being suicidal and wanting to end your life at any moment... this song brings tears to my eyes.
Rep you helped me through so many suicide attempts it's crazy.. been rocking with you from the jump! I finally feel free after so many years and I wanna say thank you!! It would make my year if I could have a CD to listen to and just shut this phone off once in a while❤️ much love to the realest!!
this shit makes me feel this deeply... I'm so glad I clicked I've never heard this guys
Great song! Blessings from Sweden!
So happy my buddy got me on the rep. Just awesome. Especially as a new Christian.
Thanks for your music Rep I listen to this so much.... Speaking sermons to me with this prison in my head
Omfg everytime i listen to this it touches me harder and harder!!!!🔥🔥🔥
Dude....forst song k heard from you but holy shit.... hit me so deep I got tears in my eyes
That's deep thank you needed this one
Thank you for this powerful song ! Thank you!
First time hearing you! This is 💯🔥🔥love that 116 music 🎶 too!
Cool!! I love you!!
Gabriel love love Love
Wow your song nailed my life to a T. Song is Awesome. God bless you.
Found a New Artist I've been to the same exact place and I'm still there.
Brandon Kagel i just got out of Durango jail and the pastor there would play you songs for use and i just wanted to let you know they hit me hard and changed my walk!
Fuck Durango and yes that pastor plays alot of good shit also played lecrae from az
And you can only that our father for that ..praise him
dude, you and NF should get with each other.
Daniel Allen yup
PLEASE.!
dam that would be awesome @Daniel Allen like legit no joke bro like Jesus someone was thinking
Him and Tom MacDonald would make a great song, they both speak the truth.
Daniel Allen NFFFFFFF
I feel this video and I’m a prisoner in my head and I suffer from suicidal, the thoughts and all. It’s hard and I’ve almost died quite a few times but My God, Jesus and Lord always got me out of it. If it wasn’t for My God, Jesus and Lord I definitely wouldn’t be here at all🙏🏾. God Bless you 🙏🏾❤️🙌🏾
Wow bravooooo sick tune love it keep on listening over and over again
I love this man keep on doing what u do best !
SO POWERFUL!
Everyone has someone out there that gives them the strength to carry on...I pray that each of you find that whether through a spouse, friends or family or children!!! 💯💯💯✌️
Damn this song is hella deep. Not what I expected at all. Just from this song he's in my top ten list of favorite rappers
Speechless... Amazing
woah!
Amazing an powerful 🔥
The tears want to fall from my eyes but this song is so familiar that the tears have already fallen... Now I heal...."I held the keys to my hand" the whole time.. the whole time.. thank you NF for that quote. It's real for me.
This is my first time hearing any of his music,I just randomly came across this song,major chills throughout my whole body !!!