Anyone listening to this song on purpose has a pain no one can fully grasp. I hear pure beauty in this and I assume I am not the only one. This song is dark yet it makes me feel so good.
I was a younger boy back then when this came out that was the only white boy living in the hood where I come from and I had to do a lot of f*****-up things to keep me in my family safe that I am far from proud of things that I could never ever tell anybody no matter what imagine living with something so and then knowing your whole life don't nobody would ever understand knowing that you could just never ever say those words to a single person ever there's only two ways to turn you either get depressed or you get angry because there are no other emotions
Song describes a broken soul whose purpose is nothing but only living for that one person and details the struggles of anything for that matter. Addiction, Depression, Lies, Suicide and more it is one of those songs you can relate to in almost any instance. Im one of the many people to relate to this song i suffer from depression,addiction, and suicidal thoughts. Its a hell living inside you that you cant seem to get rid of no matter how clean you think you are, no matter how happy you are, you always live with it as its a part of you and grows on you with everyday and gets harder to ignore and easier to accept. For anybody thats suffering from something they cant help but just want to break down and cry. Find somebody that you can talk to it wont help relieve you of what you have but it will help letting out balled up feelings. Because at the end of the day we are only human we all have our problems that eat us up within but we have a voice to let people know of the hell that comes with these things. Maybe one day there will be a permanent solution but for now we wait and hope to make it another day.
I’ve tried to post things like this, then delete it the next day so they don’t see how ugly my face is. And I read this and scroll up and see you’ve left this here a year... Your a bigger man than I... Your post gives me hope. We can be strong, rise above. We are not alone in this battle. We don’t need to feel ugly. Your not alone. And the rest of us need you here.
This song is a snapshot of me. Paranoid schizophrenic schizo effective and borderline personality disorder. Wish so much that I could beat those afflictions just to be happy with her. But the fight comes in new and more painful ways every day. It hurts her and it hurts me. Just wish we could have been a normal happy couple.
One of the darkest and realest songs ever written. Aaron Lewis doesn't get the credit he deserves as a songwriter. He truly speaks from pain, this song means so much to me. It truly is my secret song.
Junk Head, You're right, he's one of the best of this generation, and you're right when you say he doesn't get the credit he deserves. I saw him in concert a few weeks ago in Pikeville Ky. He was even better than I figured he'd be. Hang in there bro, this secret song is awesome.
My god, I'm sitting here bawling because this could be my song. I try to hide all the dark side.. the pain, the damage and put on the happy face for everyone, but it slips away sometimes..like now.
I'm reading your comments 8yrs later. I'm to am feeling this way were you able to overcome it!!! I don't no how long I can take this😢😭💔💔I hope you read this and comment back
As a rock / heavy metal musician of 25 years (I know guitar music). This is a master piece of art. This is so underrated unfortunately because it’s not like a painting that most can see. This is coming to the heart through the ear. Not the brain through the eye. So not a lot of people will see what this actually is. This is a masterpiece. The MonaLisa of acoustic music. It will never be topped. There will be other sounds that will have the effects on the heart and mind. But not like this. It can’t bring this same type mirrored pain in all who can relate. This rips open any old wound in a lot of us. It’s proof even tho times heals some. It never goes away. And this is a tapped IV right to the source of our worst heart aches. Very powerful piece of music that will always be underrated.
My soulmate told me to listen to this song when I doubt his love..he is a victim of sexual abuse as a child and an addict that is on that merry go round..slow suicide..my heart aches and my tears fall..knowing his heart and I can't save him..Staind..this song is full of raw emotion..beautifully done..thank you💜
I had a very similar childhood, and I have spent most of my life self-destructing, though for some reason I am still here. I listen to this song when I want to feel something other than numbness. Just sitting in a dark room, grinding my teeth and crying silently while my own soul mate sleeps unaware in the other room, I'm sorry to hear that he ended his life but I certainly understand why one would,.
I see it has been two years since your comment. I hope things have worked out for the better. Some people have a hard time with things as others not as hard. I hope that this message finds u both happy and at peace and no addictions.❤
I've gone through exactly to a T what you have for 10 years now. It's heartbreaking. We've known each other since we were 8 years old. We were together for the last 10 years. It's been a heartbreaking cycle. 😢
My lover is a survivor and undefined by atrocities past. Today will no longer be linked or likened to any past damage. I pray this love for us all. ❤❤❤
Yeah, but when it comes out all hell breaks loose, I for one will say hurtful things to my father who beat my mother and me and my brothers for years. He claims that he has been forgiven since he has since been baptized. Well, he may be forgiven but some things you can't forget.
Your right I've never really forgot my pain I just pretended it wasn't there because it was easier, soo I tell a lie and say I'm okay because I don't want to talk to people. They never understand anyway.
the song really displays how deeply we can be damaged in relationships and how the pain and scars never heal. I re-live my pain everyday, but like many, I have learned to hide it and continue on...a damaged soul.
MaxRV I get where you're coming from. Those relationships you speak of can also be the relationship we have with our parents growing up which stay with us for our lifetime.
The damage inflicted by narcissistic abuse. They tear you down with the mental, emotional, and physical abuse that you no longer know who are, who you used to be. Taken away your faith, hopes, joy, dreams. Hurting you to the very core of your being. When this is done, now they can show the world how SICK you are and ALL that they had to deal with trying to HELP this person that they love with all their heart and soul. They become the down-trodden victim at last.
Coreen Marie, damn, I know exactly what you're saying. I've dealt with that my entire life. I've seen every friggin psych Dr. in Ky. and nothing works. I hope that you get to feeling better and kick this depression/anxiety hell that so many of us have to live through. God Bless
Dear Aaron, Please, please make an album with all of your acoustic songs and some of these covers! It would be the greatest thing in the world. Please like this comment, and maybe if we get enough thumbs up, he might actually do it!
@@wesleyalldredge4293 I was a fan for decades but he SUCKED in concert. He just wasn't 'into it' and was 'robotic', ie. burnt out working mode. It was disappointing ~
I know the feeling all to well... Heartbreak REALLY messed me up bad plus helped assist me in making some horrible choices in life! Don't let it do that to you, things will get better I promise!😉
I have battled drug addiction for 13 years now. And I have lost my family because of it...I totally feel this song. From my ears throughout my fuckin' soul. It's such a hauntingly beautiful song for me.
one thing you have to understand bro is people see you for wat u let them see. i cooked meth for many years. i stole from my ppl been in prison for a total of 8 yrs. my family was not only scared of me but didnt wanna have shit to do with me. look inside of yourself and bring out the warrior. bc s warrior belives in something greater than himself
I'm an adult survivor of child abuse that extended literally from as far back as I can remember until well into my adult years. I have no self-esteem today, at 37; and I can't look in the mirror without seeing my father's face, because God apparently thought I should look just like him. The only thing I know how to live with is pain, and it never goes away. Sometimes I'm not even sure it dulls over time. I've just gotten so used to it, day in and day out, that it has become my entire frame of reference for "normal." Last night I listened and sang along to this song for the first time in probably ten or twelve years, and every word, every note, every breathy delivery of each raw admission, pummeled me until I completely lost my voice and began to cry at the line "When you look at my face / Does it seem just as ugly / To you?" I virtually never cry. It's not weak or wrong or shameful or anything; I've just hurt so badly for so long that I don't even remember how to let go. But this song broke me instantly. I don't know what to say, except to thank Aaron for this beautiful and profound song; because when I was still too young, scared, angry, self-destructive, and voiceless to put it all together, he was weaving my life story--a stranger's story--into this song. Today, my eyes still ache a bit as I listen once more; but I haven't felt this calm and alright in what feels like years.
Incredibly articulated, intense story. Thank you for having the bravery to share something so personal and traumatic. As cliche as it may sound, try to remember your past doesn't have to define you. You survived something almost nobody could truly comprehend. Reflect on your strength as you move forward. If you were strong enough to overcome that hell, you can overcome anything! Never forget that my friend
Once again I'm here ... everytime i listen to this song a lot of words, pain and empathy embrace my heart . Feel this heavy heart, tired mind,broken soul able to fight and can still "give" more and more to his beloved one even if in the end he has empty hands and completely devasted and ragged... I'll carry you with me ..until I'm not live
This dude has been through some sht ! No way you can write songs like this , please , outside and all the others and sing it this way without taking a few trips to hell ! Can relate ! Love him 💕
Dark? I hear a man that found an ability within himself to write beyond what most people see. This song has the ability to play in so many different realities, as depicted in the comments. This song was written for all of you. It opens a portal to the thought you have inside you that you, yourself either didn't know were there, or cannot deal with. Epic beyond words and I owe him my sincerest appreciation as well. His musical abilities are the tip of the of the iceberg for what Aaron Lewis has done in his life.
same here, my wife had an affair whilst I was working shifts. This was whilst my cubs were sleeping in the same house, my house a house that was their home. It's been a year and power of my two cubs have kept me alive every day. They are too young to know and they will never know the true power they hold for me.
for those who don't know this song is called excess baggage and as far as my thoughts on this song I've sang it so many times when I was in pain and it helped staind...literally without these guys my life would either be gone or be very different than it is now shit this song right at this very minute is helping as I'm crying through my current situation anyone who is battling depression and such...I'll always recommend staind they always help
he got me through the abuse I was going through..I can listen now and remember the strength that it took to fight for my life. listen to him when you have your healing or better days and look at it for that perspective..💜
These guys saved my life. Went through some painful shit, these last few years. Helped me understand what I was feeling. Helped me keep going on, for my son. He’s all I have. And I only get to see him every other weekend. I do it for him. But I don’t know how things would have possibly turned out without Aaron. I’m a life long fan.
This song really hits my heart... I don’t think I’ve related to any song more than this... all of Staind and Aaron Lewis’ songs are so greatly underrated it’s unreal and “I love them so much” is such an understatement to me
Noone is empty. Believe in yourself and stay strong. Look in the mirror and say no will put me down or damage me today. Why.....because you won't let them win. You are the champ remember that...❤
One of the first CD's I bought with my own money, also one of the first songs I learned to play on the guitar. An amazing CD, Amazing song. Staind is one of the most underrated bands ever. Aaron Lewis is also one of the best singers/writers alive. Maybe one day people will see that.
He truly sounds amazing. He's one with what he sings and I bet he's been trough some really hard shit before being able to write this beaty. guitar is also simple but oh so damn gentle that it literally takes me outside my body when I close my eyes
+viperium101 i remember this cd was left on while I went to bed. wasnt it like 45 minutes after the end of the last song? i remember waking up to this and I was in awe. I was 12 then?
thank you Staind for this song, i listen to it everyday. There's no words that can explain the pain i feel everyday, but this song seems to explain it just right.
I'm often in that dark place but please remember those who love you and the devastation that your death would bring. Please reach out for help. The only thing that keeps me here is that I dont want to cause my loved ones the pain that I suffer. Please hold on.
@@kellyc4144 thank you...I don't have any family or friends which makes it that much harder. Trying to hang on because I know I'm better than that but I'm slipping...
He could do this with no guitar and it still sounds amazing...love he was able to break away and play what he truly wants to. Really good and best of all, he knows his worth.
adult children of alcoholic parents (acoa). I was emotionally neglected. now I live with the pain I hide inside things people will never understand. flashbacks, ptsd , anxiety and depression.
I have some much pressure on my chest... Sometimes that pressure, makes it so hard to breath. I have nothing to life for in my life, except a couple of friends. I feel so alone at times, that my life flashes before me. I don't want attention from this, its just good to have someone to listen to me for a change.
I hope you’re around to read this! I hope life brought you more loved ones! I hope you grow stronger as the minutes go by! I hope you’re still here-and not up so high! I hope you know that you are a big part of many peoples lives so don’t leave them behind! Stay here for awhile longer!
Because he's "free-styling"... if you listen to the whole thing, you hear him just plopping down in the studio and with a drink and letting it out. Same story for Outside... when him and Durst went out on stage to perform it, Aaron had the chorus and the first verse done, and that was about it. Or so the story goes. The Legend.
This year I have lost a couple of good friends that I could always count on and it hasn't been the same. I can feel myself slowly falling into depression but trying to fight it. I hope everyone who is listening to this gets stronger and may many blessings come your way
Nicole, life is so difficult! The older we get - the more loved ones we lose. It’s NOT FAIR! Although it never becomes easy but someday it’ll get less hard! Stay strong! You’re lost loved ones wouldn’t want you depressed bc they aren’t here! You have to know that!!! Hang in there sunshine!
A part of me I havnt felt for a while thats beginning to overcome me again... amazing song perfectly worded and executed. Music the reminder that we are not alone in the darkness
i have epilepsy and i have scars on my body. back then girls called me pretty boy now im called scarface . but i keep my head up high, and still pushing forward.
I feel for ya bro girls used to call me pretty boy when I was younger now I'm a bigger guy covered in scars you will find a woman that likes your scars haha they are definitely out there.
Robert Wilken you have nothing to be ashamed of. nevee trust a man without a story. a person with out scars or tattoos has something to hide. my son was born with a rare brain injury called west syndrome. prior ro his birth i was kidnapped as a child, molested and beaten. for years i was a cutter and had no selfworth. drowning the pain in drugs is all i could do and in the end it left me more unstable more often then not. it wasnt till i have my son and saw his struggle that i found out who i was. now people comment on my old cut marks and i wear my heart on my sleeve. im not afraid of the scars and i love who i am. learn to love yourself too. everyone has value and a light to share with the world. if they try to tell you otherwise I SAY FUCK THEM. i hope things will get better for you friend.
i was a star footbal player. had a great body. i got drunk one night and hit a tree. most of my body was destroyed including losing my leg. i know the feeling
+Vanessa Montoya on one of their albums, "Dysfunction"... hidden track after "Spleen" whole album is FANTASTIC, sets the stage to what Staind is really capable of
I dedicate almost every song that Aaron has written and performed to everything, and everyone that has tried to destroy me. I s, STRONG, I can have a smile on my face, but be literally broken and dying inside. I Thank God for this man's ability to put the pain that I, and others, carry inside of our souls every second of every day. God Bless Aaron and God Bless each and Everyone that can easily relate to his pain, and the talent that he has been Blessed with to put it into words and music. ♥️♥️♥️
My life's current situation wrapped up in one song. And no one will ever know how much pain I can carry before it breaks me. But it will break me and it will be far too late.
Val if i get by just min by min i know youll get through Val...even if its only hour by hour roday...I know you can still make it through too. Sending much love and hope blessings of love and healing your way. If your christian or jewish may the angel Raphael guide you in healing and the angel Michael protect you from all evil and the angel Gabrielle soon bring you some good news to cheer you.
Song holds a very dear place in my heart. My best friend who taught me guitar covered this and it was an amazing cover. It was a real WTF momment. First time n my life I had experienced someone personally express their discomfort at that level. Damn I miss him all the time especially around thos time a year. 😢 Don't do drugs kids!! Just hear to hear this a rwlearn it as a.cover.
Been a fan for 15 years and Arron lewis and his his band mates insightful music has helped me through the toughest years of mtly life I can honestly say I would not be here today if my brother hadn't played their song for me and handed me the lyric sheet during my darkest day as a teenager it instantly made me feel like I was not only not alone but I did have a voice and it just came out of another person. I want to thank stains from the bottom of my heart for being who they are and sending their music to the world. It has encouraged, helped sothed and mended so many people in more than one way. They were , are and always be the music in my heart and I hear them even when the music's not playing. So to all the hearters of stains I feel nothing but pity and saddnes that they can't get past the shit that is blocking their vision and mind and heart from not seeing the beauty and words that have touched so many. I wish u all luck in ur journey called life cause I will make it through thanks to this amazing band called STAIND. I LOVE YOU
I remember the first time i heard this song i was listining to the cd and i thought it was over i wasnt even in the same room when suddnly i hear what sounds like pots and pans or something in the back room me and my girlfriend looked at eachother like who is back there lmao then i here him singing and i was like oh shit hidden track ....i fell in love with the song ever since
So hauntingly beautiful.... love the minor cords. My new anthem to every rainy summer day. I'm feeling like there's no way out of my depression so I'll do the unthinkable.
When my depression hits, mental illness and sexual abuse I have lived with it is crippling sometimes. I actually find comfort and peace listening to him because he understands the pain he has learned bed it. People tell me why do you listen to such sad, negative music but they just don’t understand it, don’t get it when you hurt how bad it truly feels. Much love and peace to all who are suffering and hurting you are not alone!
I f*cking love this song so much. my exact feelings put into words that i can actually understand. it feels good to know that someone else knows what its like. now i dont feel so alone....
I love the secret song I have heard it many a times and still listen to it .. I have always been a big fan of Mr Lewis he puts heart into every song I think this song he is saying how he holds something in and will till he passes it may be just words he made for a song or something he may hold all in all he rocks out 💗 his music everyone has different pain in life be strong conquer it
4 days CLEAN opiates my delusions ruined a lot I see more clearly everyday I want this for me and my daughter's I have ptsd anxiety depression sleep disorder love this song 4 DAYS
Dmozzy Money HOPE YOU CAN STAY STRONG FIGHT FOR YOURSELF & YOUR DAUGHTER. I WISH for you strength , courage, self love , & patience to battle the demon's in your war. YOU ARE ENOUGH. ..
There's always a group that says wat u feel better than you can yourself. Aron is truly one of the greatest song writers and I'm so glad I heard mudshovel on Napster before it ever hit .
AARON LEWIS, YOUR VOICE HAS THE PUREST OF TOUCHES TO CLEAN THE WOUNDS THAT YOUR ENERGY LETS OFF. YOU'RE MUSIC WILL FOREVER BE ONE OF THOSE GUIDES TO HELP SO MANY OTHER ROUGHED UP MAPS THAT WE CARRY IN OUR MINDS LIKE YOU HAVE HELPED ME WITH. SING ON!
My song to my love of life i can't be with her... but ill love her forever amanda G peterson if you ever see this remember I brandon R donelan would give my soul to have you again i been fucked up to you but ill do whatever to make it up to you!!!!!
I will never forget meeting him at a small hotel. He was one of the nicest guys. He was thinner then i expected not that he was ever thick really but i just kinda felt the feeling down vibes. It was 2017. Chester just passed and so did chris cornell. He hid in this small town hotel for the night and they kept the bar open later. We were the only ones in there. Beside this guy that I realized later was his manager and his right hand security guy. I didnt know it was him at first. Had a great conversation with him and bought him a drink. Told him I was waiting on my husband. But he probably was one of the more down to earth humble guys. He had a way of bsing with you that you felt like you knew him your whole life and not as an artist/musician. I realized it was him by the way his long sleeve plaid gave away a signature tat while he showed photos on his phone. Photos of his wife Vanessa and his recent concert trips (hes a country fan btw). And river fun with his family. But all that star struck never hit me. I think its because it was just us in there and it felt like you connected with a long lost friend in a dive bar.
im not a fan of alternative rock at all but this guy right here knows pain nd touches ur soul one good alternative rock group I can proudly say I listen to
Anyone listening to this song on purpose has a pain no one can fully grasp. I hear pure beauty in this and I assume I am not the only one. This song is dark yet it makes me feel so good.
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I can so relate to this song and haven't heard it in years and just remembered it
Amazing song😢😭
😭 I wish I Knew You and could finally weep n hug a person in 10 years for at least 10 seconds ❤️🩹💚 I love you as a person Truly
I was a younger boy back then when this came out that was the only white boy living in the hood where I come from and I had to do a lot of f*****-up things to keep me in my family safe that I am far from proud of things that I could never ever tell anybody no matter what imagine living with something so and then knowing your whole life don't nobody would ever understand knowing that you could just never ever say those words to a single person ever there's only two ways to turn you either get depressed or you get angry because there are no other emotions
If this guy doesn't touch your soul, you may be soulless!
Tearing up
Dont need to call me out for not having a soul
Sadly, some are 😢
If he don't touch your soul then I will 😉 ☝️
One of the most underrated songs written by Aaron Lewis 🔥🔥🔥
This hits hard and his words are profoundly powerful on a whole 'nother level. IYKYK
Song describes a broken soul whose purpose is nothing but only living for that one person and details the struggles of anything for that matter. Addiction, Depression, Lies, Suicide and more it is one of those songs you can relate to in almost any instance.
Im one of the many people to relate to this song i suffer from depression,addiction, and suicidal thoughts. Its a hell living inside you that you cant seem to get rid of no matter how clean you think you are, no matter how happy you are, you always live with it as its a part of you and grows on you with everyday and gets harder to ignore and easier to accept. For anybody thats suffering from something they cant help but just want to break down and cry. Find somebody that you can talk to it wont help relieve you of what you have but it will help letting out balled up feelings. Because at the end of the day we are only human we all have our problems that eat us up within but we have a voice to let people know of the hell that comes with these things. Maybe one day there will be a permanent solution but for now we wait and hope to make it another day.
Moonman .. Thanks i needed to read this.. god bless you !
@@michaelstacey6186 your welcome man
I’ve tried to post things like this, then delete it the next day so they don’t see how ugly my face is.
And I read this and scroll up and see you’ve left this here a year... Your a bigger man than I...
Your post gives me hope. We can be strong, rise above. We are not alone in this battle. We don’t need to feel ugly.
Your not alone. And the rest of us need you here.
This song is a snapshot of me. Paranoid schizophrenic schizo effective and borderline personality disorder. Wish so much that I could beat those afflictions just to be happy with her. But the fight comes in new and more painful ways every day. It hurts her and it hurts me. Just wish we could have been a normal happy couple.
Are u still here on TH-cam now?? Would love to chat with u.
One of the darkest and realest songs ever written. Aaron Lewis doesn't get the credit he deserves as a songwriter. He truly speaks from pain, this song means so much to me. It truly is my secret song.
I so agree with all you said!hidden song is definitely my go to.
I can relate to so many of stainds songs..its crazy...
+Christy Brown thanks for replying, I hadn't listened to this song in awhile an this was perfect timing!!!
stained has been in my life along time,wierd way of understanding
Junk Head, You're right, he's one of the best of this generation, and you're right when you say he doesn't get the credit he deserves. I saw him in concert a few weeks ago in Pikeville Ky. He was even better than I figured he'd be. Hang in there bro, this secret song is awesome.
Red Dead Junk Head I agree Aaron Lewis is a underrated song writer
My god, I'm sitting here bawling because this could be my song. I try to hide all the dark side.. the pain, the damage and put on the happy face for everyone, but it slips away sometimes..like now.
Love you ♥
I'm reading your comments 8yrs later. I'm to am feeling this way were you able to overcome it!!! I don't no how long I can take this😢😭💔💔I hope you read this and comment back
Emo
Me too.. song means so much..
Me too
As a rock / heavy metal musician of 25 years (I know guitar music). This is a master piece of art. This is so underrated unfortunately because it’s not like a painting that most can see. This is coming to the heart through the ear. Not the brain through the eye. So not a lot of people will see what this actually is. This is a masterpiece. The MonaLisa of acoustic music. It will never be topped. There will be other sounds that will have the effects on the heart and mind. But not like this. It can’t bring this same type mirrored pain in all who can relate. This rips open any old wound in a lot of us. It’s proof even tho times heals some. It never goes away. And this is a tapped IV right to the source of our worst heart aches. Very powerful piece of music that will always be underrated.
Easily top five ❤
I can only say ONE thing
" He has the most BEAUTIFUL, HANDSOME,and HAUNTING voice's" I have ever heard!!! I 💕❤️ this guy!!!
My soulmate told me to listen to this song when I doubt his love..he is a victim of sexual abuse as a child and an addict that is on that merry go round..slow suicide..my heart aches and my tears fall..knowing his heart and I can't save him..Staind..this song is full of raw emotion..beautifully done..thank you💜
He took his life in December 2020..this song hurts and comforts me at the same time..I miss you Vance..😪
I had a very similar childhood, and I have spent most of my life self-destructing, though for some reason I am still here. I listen to this song when I want to feel something other than numbness. Just sitting in a dark room, grinding my teeth and crying silently while my own soul mate sleeps unaware in the other room, I'm sorry to hear that he ended his life but I certainly understand why one would,.
I see it has been two years since your comment. I hope things have worked out for the better. Some people have a hard time with things as others not as hard. I hope that this message finds u both happy and at peace and no addictions.❤
I've gone through exactly to a T what you have for 10 years now. It's heartbreaking. We've known each other since we were 8 years old. We were together for the last 10 years. It's been a heartbreaking cycle. 😢
My lover is a survivor and undefined by atrocities past. Today will no longer be linked or likened to any past damage. I pray this love for us all. ❤❤❤
This is such a dark song, yet so beautiful to me, not many understand way this is truly a beautiful song.
I've battled depression for 10 years .. its a bitch .. shoutout to all those doing the same.
the pain and hurt never goes away,it just gets tucked deep down.
Yeah, but when it comes out all hell breaks loose, I for one will say hurtful things to my father who beat my mother and me and my brothers for years. He claims that he has been forgiven since he has since been baptized. Well, he may be forgiven but some things you can't forget.
skeeterskeet The sins of the father may better the son. I hope through the hell you went through it has benefitted you today in one way or another
Your right I've never really forgot my pain I just pretended it wasn't there because it was easier, soo I tell a lie and say I'm okay because I don't want to talk to people. They never understand anyway.
Thanks its my fault
Very true. Have held it in for my entire life and it's permanently tattooed on my heart and mind. Will it ever end????????
One of the songs that best puts in to words how I feel. Expresses the words I can not say.
the song really displays how deeply we can be damaged in relationships and how the pain and scars never heal. I re-live my pain everyday, but like many, I have learned to hide it and continue on...a damaged soul.
MaxRV I get where you're coming from. Those relationships you speak of can also be the relationship we have with our parents growing up which stay with us for our lifetime.
MaxRV i do not hide my pain nor relive it and project I use my past to help others now
Love this song I'm battling depression to fullest an a man who mentally abuses me an treats me like the furniture it's sad
The damage inflicted by narcissistic abuse. They tear you down with the mental, emotional, and physical abuse that you no longer know who are, who you used to be. Taken away your faith, hopes, joy, dreams. Hurting you to the very core of your being. When this is done, now they can show the world how SICK you are and ALL that they had to deal with trying to HELP this person that they love with all their heart and soul. They become the down-trodden victim at last.
Thank u this makes me feel like I'm not alone
Hits home so much for someone such as myself who has battled depression/ anxiety.
Cmrizzle Marie
Cmrizzle Marie why gotta be so good looking??😘
Cmrizzle Marie I AGREE
this song discribes how I feel about my marraige! domestic relationships are so hard!
Coreen Marie, damn, I know exactly what you're saying. I've dealt with that my entire life. I've seen every friggin psych Dr. in Ky. and nothing works. I hope that you get to feeling better and kick this depression/anxiety hell that so many of us have to live through. God Bless
Dear Aaron,
Please, please make an album with all of your acoustic songs and some of these covers! It would be the greatest thing in the world. Please like this comment, and maybe if we get enough thumbs up, he might actually do it!
I surely hope so
And he did it. Lol he's an amazing artist.
@@wesleyalldredge4293 I was a fan for decades but he SUCKED in concert. He just wasn't 'into it' and was 'robotic', ie. burnt out working mode. It was disappointing ~
@@MrClusters2009 perhaps he was emotionally tried and fighting feelings he had to relive to 'show up' and serve his fans...
I've never heard this song but this is absolutely so real, hits so close to home. Staind is amazing. Thank you Aaron Lewis.
just got my heart torn to shreds. this song is keeping me alive
Hope you're doing better 🤗
Hopefully one day youll feel the warmth again, as I never will
I know the feeling all to well... Heartbreak REALLY messed me up bad plus helped assist me in making some horrible choices in life! Don't let it do that to you, things will get better I promise!😉
:-( keep your head up.
This song was showed to me years ago and wow. It still hits me...
I have battled drug addiction for 13 years now. And I have lost my family because of it...I totally feel this song. From my ears throughout my fuckin' soul. It's such a hauntingly beautiful song for me.
+Justin Law Congradulations, man! How are you holding up now?
+Justin Law You can do it. I'm a stranger, but I believe in you man.
Justin Law I'm in same boat its scary step I want to quit
one thing you have to understand bro is people see you for wat u let them see. i cooked meth for many years. i stole from my ppl been in prison for a total of 8 yrs. my family was not only scared of me but didnt wanna have shit to do with me. look inside of yourself and bring out the warrior. bc s warrior belives in something greater than himself
Justin Law it's a hard ass road to walk down I feel ya on this
I'm an adult survivor of child abuse that extended literally from as far back as I can remember until well into my adult years. I have no self-esteem today, at 37; and I can't look in the mirror without seeing my father's face, because God apparently thought I should look just like him. The only thing I know how to live with is pain, and it never goes away. Sometimes I'm not even sure it dulls over time. I've just gotten so used to it, day in and day out, that it has become my entire frame of reference for "normal."
Last night I listened and sang along to this song for the first time in probably ten or twelve years, and every word, every note, every breathy delivery of each raw admission, pummeled me until I completely lost my voice and began to cry at the line "When you look at my face / Does it seem just as ugly / To you?" I virtually never cry. It's not weak or wrong or shameful or anything; I've just hurt so badly for so long that I don't even remember how to let go. But this song broke me instantly.
I don't know what to say, except to thank Aaron for this beautiful and profound song; because when I was still too young, scared, angry, self-destructive, and voiceless to put it all together, he was weaving my life story--a stranger's story--into this song. Today, my eyes still ache a bit as I listen once more; but I haven't felt this calm and alright in what feels like years.
*slow clap*
Remain real stay focused the pain will go away someday and you will find love ..
You r not alone.....hugs
Incredibly articulated, intense story. Thank you for having the bravery to share something so personal and traumatic. As cliche as it may sound, try to remember your past doesn't have to define you. You survived something almost nobody could truly comprehend. Reflect on your strength as you move forward. If you were strong enough to overcome that hell, you can overcome anything! Never forget that my friend
And btw, "Djinn and Jews" is clever af! Badass
Once again I'm here ... everytime i listen to this song a lot of words, pain and empathy embrace my heart . Feel this heavy heart, tired mind,broken soul able to fight and can still "give" more and more to his beloved one even if in the end he has empty hands and completely devasted and ragged...
I'll carry you with me ..until I'm not live
This dude has been through some sht ! No way you can write songs like this , please , outside and all the others and sing it this way without taking a few trips to hell ! Can relate ! Love him 💕
You sir are correct first time hearing it like he was following me around
@@bubhill9618 ma’am 😉
staind- Excess Baggage
One of my most cherished song performed by Staind. Love it.
This is the epitome of a person trying to overcome complex PTSD.
Yes 😔
Exactly
I have complex ptsd too
That statement, of someone who suffers from cptsd is so True
Dark? I hear a man that found an ability within himself to write beyond what most people see. This song has the ability to play in so many different realities, as depicted in the comments. This song was written for all of you. It opens a portal to the thought you have inside you that you, yourself either didn't know were there, or cannot deal with. Epic beyond words and I owe him my sincerest appreciation as well. His musical abilities are the tip of the of the iceberg for what Aaron Lewis has done in his life.
I've fought depression since my wife left. I thank god I have my two beautiful children to keep me going.
💖 Hold strong. Kids are a wonderful blessing. They make life worth living.
same here, my wife had an affair whilst I was working shifts. This was whilst my cubs were sleeping in the same house, my house a house that was their home. It's been a year and power of my two cubs have kept me alive every day. They are too young to know and they will never know the true power they hold for me.
I fell that bro only thing left of me is my 2
My kids are the only reason I still take up residency on this rock.
Modern Prodigal Son Amen to that..💖
for those who don't know this song is called excess baggage and as far as my thoughts on this song I've sang it so many times when I was in pain and it helped staind...literally without these guys my life would either be gone or be very different than it is now shit this song right at this very minute is helping as I'm crying through my current situation anyone who is battling depression and such...I'll always recommend staind they always help
he got me through the abuse I was going through..I can listen now and remember the strength that it took to fight for my life. listen to him when you have your healing or better days and look at it for that perspective..💜
+Candace Buckner o trust me I know ^.^ staind no...Aaron Lewis in general is my favorite singer I listen to one of his/staind songs atleast once a day
Nice!! That's good to hear, keep your strength buddy!💜
+Candace Buckner aye aye captn :3
Austin Nichols the world is more fucked up then most people realize
These guys saved my life. Went through some painful shit, these last few years.
Helped me understand what I was feeling.
Helped me keep going on, for my son.
He’s all I have. And I only get to see him every other weekend. I do it for him. But I don’t know how things would have possibly turned out without Aaron. I’m a life long fan.
This song really hits my heart... I don’t think I’ve related to any song more than this... all of Staind and Aaron Lewis’ songs are so greatly underrated it’s unreal and “I love them so much” is such an understatement to me
My husband sang this to me with love filled eyes last night, it was the second time I had heard this song; now, I can't get enough of it.
That's beautiful.
Hauntingly beautiful
Two weeks ago I had explosive diarrhea... this song helped me through the pain. God bless Aaron Lewis
You are so funny.
This pain will never go away! Years pass and the emptiness still stays!
Noone is empty. Believe in yourself and stay strong. Look in the mirror and say no will put me down or damage me today. Why.....because you won't let them win. You are the champ remember that...❤
I found this song on accident when I left the cd on.... one of my favorites! I called it damage. .....♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
As did I!
And the fact that he recorded it in a bathroom!
one of many reasons I miss actual CDs ^^ I used to put secret songs on my mixCDs
Haven't heard this song since i found it on the album years and years ago. The memories are runnin thru me and yep. Im crying. Thanks Aaron.
Every time I listen to this tune, it brings deep pain inside my chest.
Honestly his best song, just because it's so raw that you can't help but break down a little bit.
beautiful song haven't we all felt this way from time to time
This song 🎵 touches the heart ❤️ and soul much love ❤️ and respect 🙏 namaste brother ❤️ 🙏 💙
One of the first CD's I bought with my own money, also one of the first songs I learned to play on the guitar. An amazing CD, Amazing song. Staind is one of the most underrated bands ever. Aaron Lewis is also one of the best singers/writers alive. Maybe one day people will see that.
Staind rocks 🤘 thanks for all songs Who help me and be my deepest unspoken voice
He truly sounds amazing. He's one with what he sings and I bet he's been trough some really hard shit before being able to write this beaty. guitar is also simple but oh so damn gentle that it literally takes me outside my body when I close my eyes
The most beautifully melancholy song I've ever heard
I remember this song from so long ago, when it first came out! Damn I feel so old. Staind from the early days, nothing can compare!!
Word
double word
so true!
so true!
+viperium101 i remember this cd was left on while I went to bed. wasnt it like 45 minutes after the end of the last song? i remember waking up to this and I was in awe. I was 12 then?
I miss singing this
this is such a kick ass tune love it
I dedicate yet another staind song to my children.
So many of his songs I've dedicated to my only daughter. ❤
thank you Staind for this song, i listen to it everyday. There's no words that can explain the pain i feel everyday, but this song seems to explain it just right.
Loosing the woman I love to my own neglect . time does NOT heal . it just keeps reminding me . every day
This is MASTERED! It's the real unplugged! Aaron Lewis is by far the most talanted vocalist of all time! I love you man!
One day I'm just going to disappear. Maybe then this feeling of complete emptiness will go away. This song will play in my head.
I'm often in that dark place but please remember those who love you and the devastation that your death would bring. Please reach out for help. The only thing that keeps me here is that I dont want to cause my loved ones the pain that I suffer. Please hold on.
@@kellyc4144 your absolutely right. If I didn't have people who would be hurt by me leaving I'd go.
I feel u. My names kane weeks.
@@kellyc4144 what if you have no loved ones
@@kellyc4144 thank you...I don't have any family or friends which makes it that much harder. Trying to hang on because I know I'm better than that but I'm slipping...
I hope to see you in concert one day soon...
He could do this with no guitar and it still sounds amazing...love he was able to break away and play what he truly wants to. Really good and best of all, he knows his worth.
This is what it feels like when you lose someone who was your entire world and reason for waking up everyday.
adult children of alcoholic parents (acoa). I was emotionally neglected. now I live with the pain I hide inside things people will never understand. flashbacks, ptsd , anxiety and depression.
Beautiful song and so honest. Sometimes, you've got to take time for yourself and let it all out.
I have some much pressure on my chest... Sometimes that pressure, makes it so hard to breath. I have nothing to life for in my life, except a couple of friends. I feel so alone at times, that my life flashes before me. I don't want attention from this, its just good to have someone to listen to me for a change.
I feel you man.
Sammmeeeeeeee
You're lucky you even have a couple friends dude, imagine having no one...
Sometimes you just need to get it out.
I hope you’re around to read this! I hope life brought you more loved ones! I hope you grow stronger as the minutes go by! I hope you’re still here-and not up so high! I hope you know that you are a big part of many peoples lives so don’t leave them behind! Stay here for awhile longer!
Still hits hard ♾️
This song fits my life in 2016, dark moment and still follows me today
Because he's "free-styling"... if you listen to the whole thing, you hear him just plopping down in the studio and with a drink and letting it out.
Same story for Outside... when him and Durst went out on stage to perform it, Aaron had the chorus and the first verse done, and that was about it. Or so the story goes. The Legend.
O my. This song. Has so much meaning. And I can't even tell u how I feel. But just wow wow
Depression, anxiety, deadbeat dad, and beautiful music to get me by.
This year I have lost a couple of good friends that I could always count on and it hasn't been the same. I can feel myself slowly falling into depression but trying to fight it. I hope everyone who is listening to this gets stronger and may many blessings come your way
Nicole, life is so difficult! The older we get - the more loved ones we lose. It’s NOT FAIR! Although it never becomes easy but someday it’ll get less hard! Stay strong! You’re lost loved ones wouldn’t want you depressed bc they aren’t here! You have to know that!!! Hang in there sunshine!
A part of me I havnt felt for a while thats beginning to overcome me again... amazing song perfectly worded and executed. Music the reminder that we are not alone in the darkness
If you ever feel down and feel sad there is always hope that you can climb back up those rocks and push forward because this song hits hard
i have epilepsy and i have scars on my body. back then girls called me pretty boy now im called scarface . but i keep my head up high, and still pushing forward.
I feel for ya bro girls used to call me pretty boy when I was younger now I'm a bigger guy covered in scars you will find a woman that likes your scars haha they are definitely out there.
Robert Wilken you have nothing to be ashamed of. nevee trust a man without a story. a person with out scars or tattoos has something to hide. my son was born with a rare brain injury called west syndrome. prior ro his birth i was kidnapped as a child, molested and beaten. for years i was a cutter and had no selfworth. drowning the pain in drugs is all i could do and in the end it left me more unstable more often then not. it wasnt till i have my son and saw his struggle that i found out who i was. now people comment on my old cut marks and i wear my heart on my sleeve. im not afraid of the scars and i love who i am. learn to love yourself too. everyone has value and a light to share with the world. if they try to tell you otherwise I SAY FUCK THEM. i hope things will get better for you friend.
Robert Wilken keep head high because I got scars to, but don't listen what that they say ok I get called names a lot
Sending you many blessings, Much Love and Light
i was a star footbal player. had a great body. i got drunk one night and hit a tree. most of my body was destroyed including losing my leg. i know the feeling
This song got me thro soo much in my life. Plz keep this up do not delete. XOXO'
+Vanessa Montoya Use this and you won't have to care if it goes down or not. www.youtube-mp3.org/
+BloodRage Gaming Hes fr.
+Vanessa Montoya on one of their albums, "Dysfunction"... hidden track after "Spleen" whole album is FANTASTIC, sets the stage to what Staind is really capable of
The tears fell uncontrollably! So Haunting yet beautiful!
love this song
I dedicate almost every song that Aaron has written and performed to everything, and everyone that has tried to destroy me. I s, STRONG, I can have a smile on my face, but be literally broken and dying inside. I Thank God for this man's ability to put the pain that I, and others, carry inside of our souls every second of every day. God Bless Aaron and God Bless each and Everyone that can easily relate to his pain, and the talent that he has been Blessed with to put it into words and music. ♥️♥️♥️
My life's current situation wrapped up in one song. And no one will ever know how much pain I can carry before it breaks me. But it will break me and it will be far too late.
Val w yame2
Val if i get by just min by min i know youll get through Val...even if its only hour by hour roday...I know you can still make it through too. Sending much love and hope blessings of love and healing your way. If your christian or jewish may the angel Raphael guide you in healing and the angel Michael protect you from all evil and the angel Gabrielle soon bring you some good news to cheer you.
Song holds a very dear place in my heart. My best friend who taught me guitar covered this and it was an amazing cover. It was a real WTF momment. First time n my life I had experienced someone personally express their discomfort at that level. Damn I miss him all the time especially around thos time a year. 😢 Don't do drugs kids!! Just hear to hear this a rwlearn it as a.cover.
Damn man. sorry. video of your friends talent?
I think everyone has a connection to loss or depression at some point in their life. This is one of those songs that help wash it all away for me.
Been a fan for 15 years and Arron lewis and his his band mates insightful music has helped me through the toughest years of mtly life I can honestly say I would not be here today if my brother hadn't played their song for me and handed me the lyric sheet during my darkest day as a teenager it instantly made me feel like I was not only not alone but I did have a voice and it just came out of another person. I want to thank stains from the bottom of my heart for being who they are and sending their music to the world. It has encouraged, helped sothed and mended so many people in more than one way. They were , are and always be the music in my heart and I hear them even when the music's not playing. So to all the hearters of stains I feel nothing but pity and saddnes that they can't get past the shit that is blocking their vision and mind and heart from not seeing the beauty and words that have touched so many. I wish u all luck in ur journey called life cause I will make it through thanks to this amazing band called STAIND. I LOVE YOU
I remember the first time i heard this song i was listining to the cd and i thought it was over i wasnt even in the same room when suddnly i hear what sounds like pots and pans or something in the back room me and my girlfriend looked at eachother like who is back there lmao then i here him singing and i was like oh shit hidden track ....i fell in love with the song ever since
So touching, so many broken loves and friends...
So hauntingly beautiful.... love the minor cords. My new anthem to every rainy summer day. I'm feeling like there's no way out of my depression so I'll do the unthinkable.
do not. depression is so evil, I kno. I have no arguments. still: please dont
I hope you are still here with us
I now own this song it's still a sad song but it doesn't upset me as much the good news is I'm not feeling like I did
Battling PTSD and this song hits home yet again after all these years.
Listening on May 1st 2019 3 a.m. Pacific standard time( west coast California)
Me too EST 8:36am
love the song, passion, anger, but simple a pure pleasure to listen to.
Right in the feels.
This song... Feels like someone looked inside my soul... Every word... Fits me... Unfortunately....
Much love for these lyrics
How this song put the words together what life is was and feelings... Mostly feelings...
This makes me want to cry at how relatable it is. :/
When my depression hits, mental illness and sexual abuse I have lived with it is crippling sometimes. I actually find comfort and peace listening to him because he understands the pain he has learned bed it. People tell me why do you listen to such sad, negative music but they just don’t understand it, don’t get it when you hurt how bad it truly feels. Much love and peace to all who are suffering and hurting you are not alone!
Brings me back.
I f*cking love this song so much. my exact feelings put into words that i can actually understand. it feels good to know that someone else knows what its like. now i dont feel so alone....
I love the secret song I have heard it many a times and still listen to it .. I have always been a big fan of Mr Lewis he puts heart into every song I think this song he is saying how he holds something in and will till he passes it may be just words he made for a song or something he may hold all in all he rocks out 💗 his music everyone has different pain in life be strong conquer it
4 days CLEAN opiates my delusions ruined a lot I see more clearly everyday I want this for me and my daughter's I have ptsd anxiety depression sleep disorder love this song 4 DAYS
Dmozzy Money HOPE YOU CAN STAY STRONG FIGHT FOR YOURSELF & YOUR DAUGHTER.
I WISH for you strength , courage, self love , & patience to battle the demon's in your war.
YOU ARE ENOUGH. ..
There's always a group that says wat u feel better than you can yourself.
Aron is truly one of the greatest song writers and I'm so glad I heard mudshovel on Napster before it ever hit .
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
one of my all time favorites... Has gotten me through allot of Dark days... Peace brother and Sisters
this is my life... thanks Aarron!!!
🥺😢☠
amazing just shows how great staind are just superb
I love this song also 4 walls off of tormented
AARON LEWIS, YOUR VOICE HAS THE PUREST OF TOUCHES TO CLEAN THE WOUNDS THAT YOUR ENERGY LETS OFF. YOU'RE MUSIC WILL FOREVER BE ONE OF THOSE GUIDES TO HELP SO MANY OTHER ROUGHED UP MAPS THAT WE CARRY IN OUR MINDS LIKE YOU HAVE HELPED ME WITH.
SING ON!
My song to my love of life i can't be with her... but ill love her forever amanda G peterson if you ever see this remember I brandon R donelan would give my soul to have you again i been fucked up to you but ill do whatever to make it up to you!!!!!
Cool
I will never forget meeting him at a small hotel. He was one of the nicest guys. He was thinner then i expected not that he was ever thick really but i just kinda felt the feeling down vibes. It was 2017. Chester just passed and so did chris cornell. He hid in this small town hotel for the night and they kept the bar open later. We were the only ones in there. Beside this guy that I realized later was his manager and his right hand security guy. I didnt know it was him at first. Had a great conversation with him and bought him a drink. Told him I was waiting on my husband. But he probably was one of the more down to earth humble guys. He had a way of bsing with you that you felt like you knew him your whole life and not as an artist/musician. I realized it was him by the way his long sleeve plaid gave away a signature tat while he showed photos on his phone. Photos of his wife Vanessa and his recent concert trips (hes a country fan btw). And river fun with his family. But all that star struck never hit me. I think its because it was just us in there and it felt like you connected with a long lost friend in a dive bar.
Once again depression lead me to this beautiful but dark song...
im not a fan of alternative rock at all but this guy right here knows pain nd touches ur soul one good alternative rock group I can proudly say I listen to