I'm Struggling
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If you're like me, you may have felt like the whole world, including the Church, has gone insane and you're exhausted from standing your ground in opposition to it all. In this video I describe a recent experience of contemplating a way that I could surrender the fight, especially the fight for traditional Catholicism and where that time of prayer led me.
Stay strong Brian.
"I do not care if I have against me all the Bishops ; I have with me the Saints and all the Doctors of the Church."
St. Thomas More
Amen
Yes! The more Christianity as a whole tries to be more on the level of the world the less interested the world becomes in what the church has to offer. Lack of reverence in the churches across the globe has caused such a decline in interest from the lost (and sadly even the proclaimed Christians, Catholic or Protestant) If we are no different then why would they be interested? The lost & suffering are searching for something vastly different than what they have! The church needs to be different, set to a higher standard and stand out, not blend in!!
Amen
Amen!!
This is so good amen!
“When the whole world is running towards a cliff, he who is running in the opposite direction appears to have lost his mind.”
- C.S. Lewis
I understand, I am Catholic and also Vegan . 🙏🙏🙏
"No one is more hated than he who speaks the truth." ~ Plato
Thanks thats a great quote!
The must powerful healing prayer from Father Pio: “Pray, Hope and DON’T WORRY “
I wrote a song about it :) th-cam.com/video/zeoFTbTRxmg/w-d-xo.html
@@JacobThomasRudd That is great!!!!
@@JacobThomasRudd I watched your video and the song is beatiful... You also have a precious family and a wonderful talent . Congratulations!!!!!!
I found this very helpful as I’m feeling very isolated lately, too. I feel like I don’t fit anywhere. I’m thankful that you said this out loud so I don’t feel “crazy.”
You most certainly do fit, when I was born again the most liberating truth and change for me was that my identity was found in Christ not fitting in with a group even my local church group ) I’m a isolater by choice I like my own company and space so that might not be you, but I was just trying to impress that truth that in Christ I have everything and I don’t need the “””things””” of this world to fit in anymore if that makes sense ) I believe we are all crazy to a degree, I’m not catholic but I have found my identity in Christ ) and that has transformed my life for eternity ) just wanted to state that. I still have my struggles due to the groans of this world and all that entails, just wanted to say you ain’t alone and Christ knows our struggles very personally and the Holy Spirit comforts us when these matters arise ) we are blessed beyond measure.
I'm thankful and a sense of relief to read your comment here also, which expresses the isolation I've been experiencing too. I've been asking my husband lately what if it's us that's crazy. And reading all these great comments here tonight, I'm finding I'm not alone. Thanks.
I am right there with you Brian. It is hard to be a Catholic, even harder to be Traditional. But that is where I am called by God. As for the difficulty of being in the minority, so were the Apostles. So take heart my friend, we are in good company.
Beautifully stated .
I also feel as though I have been called to traditional Catholicism .
It is simply but profoundly where I belong for worship .
It is the closest I've come to worship worthy of Our Great God .
May we pray , one for the other , through these difficult times .
Well said, Karen.
Let’s just remember not to have pride guide us. Saint we are not.
@@kubatism6658
Good point.
Let's remember that there should not have spiritual pride in our hearts.
And the liturgy of the Latin Mass reminds me of that , and of my desperate need for mercy , unlike anything else .
The Traditional mass goers of today remind me of the Apostles hiding in the Upper Room until the Pentecost, when after having received the fire of God's fierce Love, they went out into the world and changed it.
So, here is my prayer: Dear Holy Spirit, give my Catholic brothers the courage to come out from hiding and help change hearts and minds of their brothers in the Novus Ordo Church. I am fighting all alone and I attend both forms on Sundays. Yes, dear Lord, you gave them the best form of Adoration of Our Lord Jesus, but this time you forgot to give them the courage that goes with it. Therefore Holy Spirit, "Send forth Thy Spirit and they shall be created, and You shall renew the face of the earth... "
Brian, YOU might not deserve the Traditional Mass, but GOD does. The mass isn’t about us, it’s about God. He deserves the best we have to offer Him.
Well said
Beautifully stated. "The mass isn't about us, it's about God. He deserves the best we have to offer him."
That's why we should defend and attend the traditional mass.
Amen, sister!
I was just going to write that same sentiment, but I liked your comment instead. You are absolutely right on! God deserves to be worshipped according to His revealed way of worshipping him. It is a matter of Justice to give God what is due to Him alone. To Him be the Glory+
Well said Donna!
John Voight: “It is difficult!”
God: “It’s supposed to be difficult…”
Hang in there, I go through the same struggle…
As do most faithful Catholics 😉
We have plenty of help
Laure, please don't hold up fake-Catholic Jon Voight as anyone to listen to for wisdom. Voight starred in the first general release X-rated Hollywood films in the '60s: Midnight Cowboy. And at the time, he had a baby girl named Angelina Jolie (Voight), whom he virtually ignored for several years until her mother died from cancer. Really, he's not a good guy.
@@patricegravino6283 and let’s not hold up that Augustine of Hippo dude either…. Talk about not a good guy!!!!
@@patricegravino6283 I'm not a good guy either. Is there a process that has to be gone through that is forgiveness or is it only judgement? Isn't that a problem with Catholicism even for Catholics?
Hold on, chear up! I'm a seminarian... Just want to tell you, your videos have been a source of great light in this troubled times for me. God bless!
God Bless you in your vocation Juan 🙏🏼
Thank you so much for your vocation! May Jesus and Mary protect you always.
Thank you so so much for your vocation! 🙏
Novus Ordo Seminary?
+1 Ave Maria for you vocation!
Just wanna say you're not alone. Literally 100% agree and share the same struggles.
" I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace; but take heart - I have overcome the world. "
(- John 16:33)
Deeply empathetic to your struggle, Brian, because it is OUR struggle. Sometimes we need to shut the ‘news’ out and focus on our little portion of the vineyard, which begins with our very self/soul. It is in these times that Christ calls us to trust.
Excellent comment, thank you. I can only control myself and need to focus on building those virtues I wish other’s had in myself.
“A time is coming when men will go mad, and when they see someone who is not mad, they will attack him, saying, 'You are mad; you are not like us.”
Saint Anthony
That time has always been there, think about the world situation 100 years ago, would you say those were old good days? Absolutely not!
Saint Anthony called it perfectly.
@@d.o.7784 I would certainly say we have different challenges today that in many respects have more gravity to them
Great quote! Never heard it before.
Brian, I understand your struggle. I am a convert (30+ years) My first experience was as a child at a TLM. In converting I was a bit disappointed of all that was missing but I still felt called. Pendulums swing far right then back. I pray we return to more of what drew me and many others to the church. As it is, it can feel dry. We are to be set apart for God. Why are we trying so diligently to blend with a culture we don’t respect? God bless you for your honest and edifying talks.
Brian, there's nothing wrong with you or what you're feeling. We all experience what you do at various times. Hang in there!
Hello John. You have the same name as my brother! Please pray for him :)
@@SandyL0uise I will be happy to!
@@johnciesla4715 I come from NW Indiana Cieslas. How about you?
@@SandyL0uise 40 miles west of Boston
I'll tell ya brother. If you're struggling, you're on the right path. The Enemy has no need to attack his own. For my part, I'm thankful to have access to the Sacraments in my simple mountain church. I love learning about the struggles of the Saints. Our Faith is the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. As you mine deeper and press harder into the precepts and Traditions of the Faith things get richer, more vibrant and more alive. Also, I'm so happy to be alive in this time of the ascendancy of evil as these are the times that Saints are made. These are times we can live out our Faith in opposition to the powers of this world. To live the Faith under the threat of oppression and even lethal hatred is awesome, to me at least... I love it. This is the time to be a Faithful Catholic!
That is true. God deemed us somehow for some reason right to live in this age of Holy Mother Church where she is being subverted and attacked from within. We stay faithful and proclaim the true Catholic Faith. We are fewer but we are fighting in Christ's army. We win in the end. Quis ut Deus?
God intended us to be *here in this place now.* He has His reasons and maybe all will be revealed but maybe not. But we must stay the course. No matter what.
You managed to convert at the worst of times and there will be others who do too. When my parents converted after WW2, they felt that the Church was hopelessly out of “style.” They felt distinctly excluded by Vat2. We had No Mass at all to attend for pretty much THIRTY YEARS. Imagine that. Imagine being like the young Athanasius Schneider, taking a train trip to attend Mass. We ourselves are that “Church” you want to exist. The NO liturgy is a train wreck. My older sister loves that crap (born in 1952). She sometimes goes to the Methodist Church too! Explains it all, right? She is one of those boomers who just loves every deviation from the old faith. Ugh. We can’t speak. My parents were appalled, while they were living.
Soldier on.
You have the mindset of a spiritual warrior and I like it.
But not just to pray and only receive sacraments. But we also must act and stand up for Christ and His True Teaçhings.
I’ve got to agree, if anything worry if your not struggling..
As a Catholic theology professor, I feel a lot of this. I'm tired, too. And a lot of my colleagues do, as well. And most of us do not even teach at particularly traddy colleges and universities. I take a lot of comfort in St Athanasius' nickname these days: contra mundum.
I’m a weird one. I’m excited it’s the world vs us. Thank God He deemed us worthy to live in this time
Doesn't that ignore Ephesians 6:12? For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.
@Brian Farley But that doesn't make the same distinction made in Ephesians. Our fight is NOT against flesh and blood. It's against the principalities and powers who are permanently fallen. Humanity isn't considered in that category.
@Brian Farley Yes but it's not us vs the world as much as us versus evil. The world is only one manifestation and not even the most important.
"Thank God He deemed us worthy to live in this time"
I had a similar thought as well and I find it quite encouraging. Maybe the fact that God chose to put us into this time period means that we are more resilient than people who lived in easier times, spiritually speaking. I hope it's not too prideful to think this way, but I sometimes do believe that it's a miracle that I'm still a Catholic and received the grace to understand Catholic morality as someone who grew up 24/7 surrounded by sin and debauchery through pop culture and constant propaganda against the Church.
It makes me excited, but afraid. I might lose everything, my job, my family, my friends, but I gain a powerful faith and the undying love of God.
It's OK to take a retreat from the news media. Attend adoration or whatever you need to do center yourself around Christ. Rosary etc. My prayers are with you Brian.
Yes I totally agree! I sent som of that too.
Stop watching the news and focus only on Jesus!
I had to stopmwatching the news leading up to the 2016 election. The plan was to be able to return to watching news after the election, but it's just gotten worse, so I may never return to regular news watching again. It's just too damaging to my peace & state of mind.
@@southbug27 Given the shoddy journalistic quality of most of it, you aren't missing much.
I'm from Croatia and I stop watching news 2 months ago, more Bible reading, praying and everyday mass help me through day, only Sunday mass is not enough for me these days because I can't handle the world without Christ strenght anymore.
Why would anyone watch the news? It's mostly lies, propaganda and glaring omissions. Satan himself writes the news.
my wife and I are both Catholic physicians and know exactly how you feel about the confusion. I would highly recommend the Catholic identity conference by Michael Matt and the Remnant we were there this year 700 likes-minded traditional-minded Catholic and it was a real shot in the arm
I'm through the 1st third of those talks and they are such a gift, like Brian is here. P.S. Catholic lay chaplain here just fired this week from health system for living jab free.
Good to hear from doctors of the church.
My understanding is Matt and other semi traditional Catholics recognize Bergoglio as valid Pope. So bashing Francis is not Catholic and harmful to one's soul.
I was there too. Great stuff.
@@majorpuggington it’s outrageous. I’m so very sorry.
I know the feeling well. As Anglicans, we had the beautiful and reverent English liturgy, fantastic old hymn books, gorgeous architecture, well-crafted homilies, a wonderful parish community, and not to mention altar rails, ad orientem posture, Eucharistic reception on the tongue, and many more of the same features many love about the TLM. But we lacked one big thing: communion with Rome.
So we gave all that up and took a leap of faith to join the Church. It has had its rough spots, but we’ve never regretted that decision. Plus, with the gift from Pope Benedict to the Church of the Ordinariate, we’ve even been able to get almost all of those traditions back.
God never takes anything away unless he’s planning to give back far more than he’s taken. We only have to have the trust to let go and take a leap of faith.
Woody R You have come Home, you are loved.
The Ordinariate is a HUGE gift to the Church. I love it dearly!
Most of the things you listed are originally Catholic… like the architecture, the most beautiful CoE and Lutheran buildings are from before they split. But good for you for joining. We’ve survived heresies in the past, even the early Church, at points it seemed like the heretics had control of it all.
In Eastern Christianity "right glory" (orthodoxy) must be given to God. So it is not about human entitlement, but about the responsibility man has to properly glorify God.
Hi, revert millennial here. It really echoed with me this video. During the first year of my conversion I used to go to a “charismatic renewal” parish, full of the tambourines and cringe dancing we all Catholics know from some of the novus ordo. It hit my faith. I converted mainly during college after reading medieval philosophy and then getting into studying the Bible. What I found in the Gospels was that something that I had been looking for, it resonated through me so much I felt it stabbed my heart with light and truth. I somehow didn’t see it reflected in that mass. I went through a crisis and decided not to to return and even considered abandoning Catholicism altogether. But something kept pushing inside me and I continued praying the rosary and reading the Bible. One day I attended a mass in a little chapel inside my college campus, not even knowing why I did it. It was small event but full of solemnity and I felt for the first time I had attended a mass dedicated to God instead of dedicated to people. I knew right then I was a catholic and that there was only that path. I don’t know what to say to you that would ease your struggle because we are all so different, but focusing on God instead of the ones who attack Him and refraining from caring too much about people’s opinions has helped me. “Stat Crux dum volvitur orbis” . The Cross is steady while the world turns.
"The Cross is steady while the world turns." AMEN. How beautifully said. A word to our souls for sure... thank you.
Mmm powerful words you got there, "a Mass dedicated to God instead of dedicated to the people".
@@lovelettknight9344 that is the motto of the Carthusian order
Brian, stay the course. Your struggle is shared by many. Our Lord is working in this struggle to bring us closer to Him. A priest told during a recent confession to ask God for joy in the midst of these struggles. The Catholic Church has suffered with this before. The good Lord does his best work when we are walking through the desert. God bless and keep you.🙏🙏🙏
Pray, hope and don’t worry 💕
The one who perseveres until the end will be saved.
We have these conversations in Protestantism also. To quote a vicar I heard this week, it's all well and good to make the church door wider so more will come in but it also makes it easier for them to leave. So true. The beauty of art inspired by God is often the route by which people come to see the beauty of God himself, so I would stand up for it and say it is indispensable to the soul.
Stay with the Church but ultimately do not rely on anyone but God alone.
Yes "ultimately do not rely on anyone but God alone". That is precisely has been my directive going forward every day. He will not fail us... He is purifying us and cleansing us from the ways of the world ...to be His SPOTLESS BRIDE...
Exactly.
It's all about the Eucharist, stay focused on the cross and try not to get distracted.
“He who marries the spirit of the age becomes a widower in the next” - GK Chesterton “There is no there there” - Gertrude Stein. Brian you have described well the banality of our culture and the Church that ran to embrace it. However, if Catholics priests and laity came back to believing in the Real Presence of Jesus Christ in the Blessed Sacrament as He told us in John 6, they would run back to Church and get on their knees in awe. The Church’s response in providing beautiful architecture, traditional liturgy, powerful homilies and the discipline of the sacraments would naturally follow.
This doesn't make any sense. There's no data showing that priests don't believe in the real presence.
That's nonsense.
Spot on. The modernized, "sanitized" mass fails miserably in the worship of the real presence of Christ in the eucharistic celebration.
@@TheRealShrike The only "data" that is required is the sad state of the Church today. It is amazing how little wisdom there is in those sad excuses of souls who call themselves Christian today. Anyone with even a TRACE of righteousness can see this, and the fact that you cannot see without "data" means that you are blind indeed.
@@khatack My goodness, you sound like a wonderful Christian! Keep up the incriminations. I'm told god really likes that.
I’m a first time listener (I first heard of you from a Tim Gordon podcast) and your title “I’m Struggling” really drew me in. Thank you so much for doing this podcast! It was a real gift to me (and so many) this Sunday!
Thank you so much for the video Brian because this is exactly what I have been struggling with. Please keep me in prayer and I will keep you in prayer.
My friend , I have been “ working” in the church for over 30 years . Trust me , I’ve been where you are at . Actually quite recently , thanks to the indifference of our parish priest during this pandemic . Very very trying times. Be strong . Pray , pray a lot .
Please remain strong!! I too am struggling and am in the desert. I will pray for you if you will pray for me!
Rosary, Rosary,Rosary
@@itsmekaren1884 Amen
How do u think Moses felt when he saw them all dancing and partying over the golden calf- I appreciate you brother- we all have to carry our cross💪🏼🙏🏼💪🏼
Amen!
Moses committed mass murder...is that what you mean? Read the rest of the story...he turned into a homicidal maniac.
Amen! Such a great example to draw from.
@@TheRealShrike Good for him. It’s always a good thing to be enraged by what is evil.
@@joshuag.4873 Slaughtering ignorant people, many of whom are innocent, is not a moral strategy for a successful servant leader. It's probably a moot point, though, because many scholars, including Catholic scholars, believe Moses did not exist.
We are not alone. This is not our home. We will not know home until we rest in Christ. God be with you Brian, praying for you.
Struggling...you are not kidding. You said what so many of us are feeling. Keep doing what you do, I am listening and it is so helpful to hear. God bless you!
I am a revert and that transition involved some growth in the faith, character and devotion. Meaning, since returning to the church I have gone from what I would consider a nominal to devout Catholic. I now cherish both the faith and the culture. While that has set me apart from others, to some degree, I try to remain open and loving to everyone. But, something has shifted. I completely agree with you Brian. I too feel the world becoming less tolerant of us - more boldly critical. And, it's not just me but my Protestant friends say the same.
Well there is that whole sexual abuse scandal and how the church is reacting to it. That would make people a little critical.
Christianity is under attack now. It's scary sometimes.
it was prophesies...if they mock us because of Jesus,you can not ask for better gift
@@kevinkelly2162 you have to take that in the context of bad behavior generally and of sin in the history of the world.
Compared to that, it's almost nothing.
Jesus never promised an easy life for his followers, he promised persecution and death. That is simply part of the true FAITH. The Church has grown so fat and lazy that it relies fully on tradition, ritual and silly pseudo-philosophical arguments to justify their belief in God. Real FAITH is almost nonexistent in the modern Church, and that is precisely because of the lack of struggle. Comfort and wealth are the DEATH of faith, and it is about time the Church gets attacked by the world of flesh, now the worthless deadwood can burn away and Christianity can start growing stronger again instead of simply growing larger and more fat.
"If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you."
~ John 15:19
Exactly the religion of Vatican II is of the world so objectively Novus Ordo followers belong to the world not Christ.
@@danpan001 I did not say that
I was talking about the COVID news
Brian we all struggle at a certain time. Don't worry you will overcome it. God bless you always!!
I've sent some of your videos to my daughter and my sister and they were moved by your words.
Greetings from Argentina!! Hang in please!!!!
This is a very relatable post and I really appreciate you being vulnerable about these struggles.
God will never let His people down. Nobody told us that we were entitled to get our way. We have to try to understand the ways of God and to accept and offer our struggle.
There's no God for a few people, there's God for everybody and nobody
Yes amen! God’s will be fine! Rest your brain awhile and listen with your heart, Brian!
The Novus Ordo and Bergoglio are not of God. "By their fruits ye shall know them".
Cope and hope. If I believed in god I'd definitely be an anti theist. All the "good" gods abandoned good people. You guys live too comfortable like there are no traumas, shitty circumstances, unfairness etc and it is all allowed by your pathetic beloved god. If he's there, he's not good at all.
@@kubasniak You're ignoring all evidence for God's Existence.
The whole world besides a few were against Jesus in the Cross, don’t loss Hope. Jesus is with you in your struggle.
As always, well said Brian and I feel the same way about the Church as my refuge. I just met a fellow Catholic from Ontario that moved to the U.S. for work and recommended your channel. Stay strong.
This is the first time I've seen one of your videos and I have to say I'm very impressed. You are very articulate and have expressed exactly how I feel. Truth is what I desire most and that is what keeps me faithful. Thank you for posting.
Brian, as I told my priest friends 30+ years ago. "If my faith was in you, I'd be long gone!" I'm Catholic still because of the Transubstation. I so appreciate your position. Stay true to yourself and Christ!
I find your sincerity and vulnerability in this reignites my love for the Church.
I found this video expressive of many of my own thoughts and feelings, stating them more clearly than I have been able to myself and leading to more contemplation. I am member of a high church Anglican church where at least some of what happened and happens in the Catholic church also are to be seen and, along with having found myself, as you describe, opposed to the narrative, I came to be tormented by questions.
And so it is with profound sincerity that I thank you for this frank, honest video. The Lord be with you, give you profound peace and guide and inspire you in these wicked days.
Brian, you have expressed what I am feeling these days as well. I’m exhausted and feel so alone these days. My only refuge has been the TLM which I consider God’s mercy in life. It is possible to stay the course but despair is real… may God’s Peace be with you. 🙏🏻
I deeply connect with this episode. It was so refreshing to hear my thoughts organized into words and to walk through it with you. Beautiful.
Join the club, Brian. You’re not the only one. The world has gone entirely insane. Just wish we had Church leaders were there to help the faithful.
Hence why I do clown planet shows
Thanks for sharing your struggle my dear friend, I will leave you with this quote from Scott Hahn.
The Mass
and I mean every single Mass,
is heaven
on earth.
Scott Hahn
Wow! I felt that your sincerity and truthful sharing of your feelings must have been difficult for you. But in doing so, your words helped me a great deal to understand more clearly what I too have been feeling. You are definitely not alone in your struggle and I pray for all of us who are having such a hard time trying to just live our faith while the world seems to have lost its collective mind. Thank you for this.
"If the world hates you, know that it hated me before you"
Several years ago when I started attending the traditional Latin Mass I had a protestant friend who had grown up Catholic visit me. I took her to 3 different masses during that visit. One was the novus ordo mass in my small town the other was a little bit more reverent of a novus ordo mass. And the 3rd was my traditional Latin mass parish. When I asked her about it later she compared all 3 masses and said without a doubt the one that she liked the most and felt God's presence was the Latin mass. It was hard for her to articulate why. But she just knew that if she were to ever come back to the faith it would be to the TLM. Please pray for her. Her name is Traci. Also pray for my son Devin who has also left the Church. I've managed to get him to go to a few TLMs and he did say he could see himself return at some point. Not exactly sure what is holding him back. But PLEASE in your charity could you say one prayer for him today or offer a small suffering or sacrifice for him. I would be so grateful.
🙏🏽
Just done. Blessings on you, your son and your friend 🙏
Thanks for sharing. This is a common theme. Two points. 1) Reverence at liturgy is highly dependent on the reverence of the priest and that of the people, not the form of the liturgy. The people and priest at TLM crave that sort of reverence and jointly bring it about. That could happen at novus ordu liturgies too, if the people and priest made it a priority. It is still a valid form of liturgy. Excessive preoccupation with the lack of reverence shown by others may border on seeing others' splinters (or beams) and ignoring one's own beams. 2) News apps are of course going to highlight the negative news. They do not take random samples of all the events happening in the world. But your observation about Google banners being random is spot on and it is indeed very good to know that the majority is not buying it. Maybe a sea change is coming.
@@musicarroll well expressed and I hope you're right about that change!
Perhaps more smells and bells?
Dear Brian, with all the loving and thoughtful comments you must realize how you are certainly not alone. You are living through “The Dark Night of the Soul.” Please read the works of St John of the Cross, a doctor of the Church. Remember, we are the Church militant. Our Mother Mary loves you. Viva Christo Rey.
That’s NOT the dark night at all. Every struggle is now considered a dark night. A dark night is the loss of the sense of God’s love and presence. The rest of one’s life can be and usually is just fine. Read the book again.
@@mrjeffjob charity. Remember charity when offering counsel.
@@mrjeffjob is correct and does not seem uncharitable in speaking the truth. People frequently assume that the dark night of the soul refers to any struggle. It does not. It is a spiritual affliction particularly relevant to a person's progress in prayer. While it is a desolation, it is a sign that God has prepared us to detach ourselves from the things of this world so that we can cleave only unto Him. It is a sign of progress in the spiritual life and there is great beauty beyond it. It is tremendously difficult, but can be beautiful in its very difficulty. We experience the dark night of the soul as a result of our spiritual condition, not because of our outward conditions.
Thank you for your honesty and I empathise with your struggle. You are not alone.
Bro, say the Rosary daily and do it in Latin. It brings you so close to Christ, and it makes all the political and subversive forces in the Magisterium quieter. It makes these corrosive voices so obvious and bland; it just bounces off. I’ve found hope and close connection with Christ through the Rosary.
You’re in my prayers brother.
In Latin 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
Exactly, October 7th, Our Lady of Victory aka Our Lady of the Holy Rosary, the destroyer of heresies (Arianism) by St. Dominic de Guzman, that the Holy Rosary is a formidable weapon to whip Satan! A battering ram! Daily! To grow in holiness, to live in state of grace, to meditate on 15 Mysteries!
I do it in Spanish, is that any good?
I’m a Christian and I’m honestly curious; why do Catholics think the Rosary is necessary? Why not just speak to God directly and freely? He’s not just some god that needs rituals and specific prayers. He is our Father and loves to hear our pains and struggles, in plain English (or whatever your language is)
@@MyMusiqueLive The rosary is a sacramental, a type of meditation with prayers, not a ritual. In the Catholic churches two things which are sacraments (signs established by God to save mankind), and sacramentals (objects and actions which have the purpose to help christians to be fruitful).
There is also some cases of what's called "private revelation" which may explain the rosary's spiritual nature further, but catholics are not required to believe them to be saved.
Brian, you don’t know how much I needed to hear this tonight. I will be praying for you and know that we are out here- feeling the same isolation and desiring to leave this earthly place. Offering our suffering as penance, complete submission to the Holy Will is our road now and goes against all things of the world.
Thank you Brian. Your words were thoughtfully, beautifully, courageously accurately and clearly said from your heart! God bless you.
Brian, thank you for sharing your vulnerability. We have a beautiful Church for sure. Many great Saints have suffered as you are now. You are in awesome company❤️🔥Praying for you and your continued journey. We are warriors. Sometimes we get battle weary, but our Lord is Faithful.
I am totally with you Brian! I became Catholic at the age of 51 in one of the Historical Missions in CA - it was so beautiful and so much history (our Baptismal font was a copper bowl made by the Chumash Indians) and the Art Work hundreds of years old. Run by the Capuchins of the Western Province it was so amazing! Then I move to East TN and man what a slap in the face! Most of the churches here (Catholic Ones) looked more like protestant churches, did Novos Ordo Mass, with all sorts of modernist not very reverent things going on!
After 4 yrs of this I finally found the Latin Mass community - had never been to a Latin Mass - but wow! It is so reverent and in an older Catholic Church that at one time was the old Cathedral in Knoxville. Going there to the Latin Mass is like having a piece of Heaven on Earth. The time for prayer and contemplation, the beauty the smells and the Love for God is so real.
Then Covid hits - and wow - what a nightmare! Between the churches being closed and me wondering where everyone's Faith in God is (I mean you could still go to Walmart so why not Mass?)...and then having all the sex crimes revealed more in the Church AND the Hierarchy doing things like having worship sessions to Pachamama - I was thrown for a huge whammy!
I do believe that we have to make our homes now the place of worship - not to replace the church - but in case we can't get to Mass we have at least a corner of our home that focuses on Christ and a love and reverence for him! Some people are even making their homes places where a priest can come say Mass with a small altar area.
I also find that my friends are much more drawn to the TRUE Faith of the AGES and the modernist music and bingo and happenings really put them off - I mean why would they leave their protestant churches for something that mimics them?
We have to be strong in the Lord and His Word by studying the scripture, reading the lives and works for the great Saints - and make ourselves ready for our own death or the day when the Lord returns to Earth like he promised us! YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!
Love you Brian.
Ave Maria
Cor Jesu sacratissimum, miserere nobis
Domine non sum dignus...
@@MrDupledge I am sorry you were lied to by your religion.
You are worthy. All life is worthy.
"You are the light of the world."
Jesus
"Be perfect as your heavenly father is perfect."
Jesus
Live by your intuition, not by your gullibility.
You beg for mercy. Have mercy on yourself, and pull your mind out of the propaganda that is enslaving it.
"Be merciful as your heavenly father is merciful."
Jesus
As one sows, so shall one reap. Sow wisely.
This is the foundation of the teaching of Jesus.
this video popped up in my feed and i just want to say, welcome home :)
sending you digital hugs from Manila
This is me spot on! You are not crazy. It’s okay to doubt. The whole world is on fire and sometimes we feel like we are the sole fireman. My personal anxiety level is through the roof, but that anxiety has brought me to my knees more. Anxiety is not fun, but we can harness it to action.
You’re not crazy man, you definitely have a calm and collected sense of things and
I hope you find peace in the coming days. I also think you are 100% right about beautiful aesthetic being a thing that draws people in, that hymn you play during the intro and ending of your videos is what originally kept me clicking on your videos even though I’m not catholic. I remember thinking of it and actually searching for your channel just so I could hear that hymn and then I would end up staying for whatever you were discussing.
Be not afraid!!! Become Catholic!!!
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Thank you but I’m very content where I am at with my faith.
Brother, I’ve been chronically ill and mostly home bound since 2013. I can’t even access the Sacraments because my illness relates to the environment. I attended the Traditional Mass at Mater Dei in Irving, Tx. I’m holding on to hope and Faith despite my circumstances. My wife and kids attend the Novus Ordo because we live out in the middle of the sticks. Our children are the future. The Latin Mass will carry on, and be restored at some point. Your attitude towards deserving h*ll is accurate. Me too. We are being put to the test. Trust God’s permissive Will. Trust that despite the internal pain in you and the Church, that Christ is with us and will restore all things.
Thanks for sharing some of your struggles! I too have several chronic conditions that make getting to Mass very difficult. (Although I can get there about once a month). I struggle with understanding why God allows this in my life--specifically, the inability to lead my family to church? If you feel comfortable could you share how you cope with this trial and what helps you? God Bless!
@@bretstanley8931 I’ll make a video and post it. Maybe I need to speak to some of these things if that is what God is asking of me.
You dont need the sacrament, you need Jesus.
Don't be ritualistic only...
Part of God permissive will is to know Him in the rightfully.
Firstly, so sorry for your struggles... Not being able to attend mass would be incredibly difficult and I'm proud of you for persevering. And also, hello neighbor! I'm a parishioner of St Ann in Coppell :)
@@sallyrastogi9853 Nice to meet you! We are out around the Hico, Texas area now. In normal terms we are a bit away from each other, but in Texas terms we really aren’t that far apart. 😁
Brian, I can’t thank you enough for opening this can of worms. You’ve discussed so many excellent points and wounds we are all experiencing to varying degrees. Keep this discussion going! It is especially powerful coming from a lay faithful Catholic. If a faithful member of the clergy can enter into it, that would be so great.
Brian there are so many of us that have been through the same. I just want you to know that we are praying for you. When I say "we", is a huge prayer group. 🙏🏻🙏🏻
15:00 YOU and I don't deserve the TLM, but GOD does. That's why we need to fight... not for our rite, but for GOD's rights.
God will be all right don't worry, we need mass for our path to sanctification, we can't make God more saintly with it but we certainly need it. Liturgy is not dogma it's a form for incorporating dogmatic teachings.
A sacred liturgy is God’s Will. That is enough to fight for it.
A mother has no need for the wild-flowers which her children find and bring to her. But the child has a need to give the flowers to it's mother. Those who would say that God does not care what "type" of worship we offer they are correct but they are also wrong. God has no need of the TLM. But we have a need to give Our God the greatest expression of our hearts desires. The TLM (well celebrated, of course) does that.
Fair point
Apostolado Petrine, I should have read the comments before making my own. All I did was unwittingly parrot you.
Thank you for sharing! I was raised in the Catholic Church (and then left in high school) and always felt this way but found it difficult to articulate. I just recently - last week! - returned to the Church. Of course the first church that I attended was a TLM, it was beautiful.
@CJ P. Thank you!
Brian
Your struggles are my struggles. That what we, as brothers in Christ, must embrace.
I attend the NO Liturgy, in my Church, that is practiced with great reverence and solemnity. I’ve had those who usually attend the Traditional Latin Mass, come to me after the Divine Liturgy and say they were amazed at the beauty of the liturgy.
I remain a Novus Ordo practitioner, but I have great respect for the TLM and other Liturgical Rites as demonstrated in the Eastern Catholic Churches.
With that said, I morn for the high handed ness of the hierarchy who are trying to suppress a wonderful liturgy. They are injuring faithful Catholics.
I'm not a historian of our Church but I get the sense that their have been crazy ideas in the Church that we had to fight against from day one. You have a place in this fight which is very valuable to us all. Your voice, is very close to many of our voices... Keep speaking out. Thanks
Lately I have had this image in my mind whenever I feel discouraged and overwhelmed by this feeling of everything being in opposition to me. It is that I am walking in a dark wood but ahead of me is Jesus Christ holding a lantern for me to see by, and as long as I follow the light of Christ I will not get lost.
watch the lectures of Swami Kriyananda. See what you think. I find his lectures wonderful.
Beautiful reflection....I will try to remember this. Thank you
Brian, there is a prophecy from Ralph Martin going back to the late '70s where he was told that God would strip away everything, even the things that are good within the Church and the devotions and such so we have nothing to rely on but God alone. God Alone. And then we will have everything else in abundance. Maybe not material things, but love and family and most importantly, God will truly be first in our lives. Keep faithful.
joan62, I've found that in my life, He has stripped away these things.
Satanists are in charge.
Yes do not fear!
Relax accept God’s plan even if it is not yours.
Hebrews 12:25 See to it that you do not refuse Him who is speaking. For if those did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, [i]much less will we escape who turn away from Him who warns us from heaven. 26 And His voice shook the earth then, but now He has promised, saying, “Yet once more I will shake not only the earth, but also the heaven.” 27 This expression, “Yet once more,” denotes the removing of those things which can be shaken, as of created things, so that those things which cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore, since we receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let’s [j]show gratitude, by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe; 29 for our God is a consuming fire.." The shaking going on is causing us to penetrate God more deeply and more passionately, to redefine our core faith, refining our habits and behaviors ..to go against the flow makes us stronger and more effective in our walk in our Faith. Stay the course ... rooted and grounded in LOVE.. His for us and ours for Him and the world ,who is in great distress and darkness. Peace and Viva Cristo Rey.
@@lovelettknight9344 Well said!
We need to be stripped as He was. And after that the worse still comes. The nailing to the cross, the death. But we also know what came after that.
I appreciate the thoughtful way you communicate.
You are not the only person. I needed to hear this, today.
"Everything is a grace, everything is the direct effect of our Father's love-difficulties, contradictions, humiliations, all the soul's miseries, her burdens, her needs - everything because, through them, she learns humility, realizes her weakness.
Everything is a grace because everything is God's gift. Whatever be the character of life or its unexpected events, to the heart that loves, all is well."
St. Therese of Lisieux
Wonderful
DITTO! Stay with the ship.
Pax in Christo per Mariam
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Yeah, I am tired of the battling/struggling also. When Christ had enough and was tired, He would go off and get away. We must always recharge our batteries in small ways. Sometimes big ways. Blessings to you Brian and your family.
Such good advice that I'm taking it myself 🙂
You are not alone. Thank you for this video.
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Amazing video Brian. Many of us think and feel the same way as you. Very well expressed thoughts. Thank you. You are not alone.
I think that’s how a lot of us feel… I never really felt like I loved mass until I started attending TLM, that’s when I truly understood the beauty and the gift that the mass is.
Ditto!
I wanted to tell you that you expressed everything I am feeling. I too am tired and feel like I'm always being antagonistic. I love being Catholic and will never leave but you are right it is hard to defend sometimes especially with all of the ugly scandals. I found a parish that is within a fifteen minute drive that I love and that has been a blessing. I live one block away from another parish but unfortunately I don't feel the reverence and peace in that parish. God bless you for what you do. Thank you, your work is appreciated.
My first time seeing you. We all struggle in our faith, especially in these times when the church seems to be letting us down. Stay true and keep God close to you and your family.
Thanks for sharing your struggle. You are not alone nor crazy. I enjoy your sound advice. I feel much alone in the Church...with all the liberalism. Your faithfulness is encouraging.
You bring it down to earth and you make it real! We all struggle and we need each other in support of these struggles!
Whether celebrating Mass traditional or novus, Jesus is the same. Receive him while we still can. Seek Him while he may be found. Spend some time with Him at adoration. And keep the Faith.
As someone who sees you occasionally at Mass, I want you to know that the way I see things is we are all on a journey struggling to figure out what is right, in faith and in life. I don't agree with everything you say, but I appreciate that you are genuinely trying to figure things out and honest about your journey. So I appreciate your channel.
What a beautiful talk. Thank you
I can't even tell you how deeply I'm feeling every word you're saying and how many parallels you're digging into in my life! It's the liturgy, the politics, the education, everything to do with child raising, the prayers for a good husband now that I'm annulled from my abuser, the interaction among my own family, maintaining friendships... It's just everything! It's literally everything! It feels like the whole world is upside down! I can't thank you enough for this video! God bless you and your family!
Thank you! I feel just as you do. I have been feeling isolated, especially when talking with coworkers. I feel great peace when praying in solitude, on detachment from the world. I hope that you see all of us out here who are with you as the mystical body of Christ.
I live in Southern California and while there is some amount of the boomer modernism in local parishes, it does not seem to be prevalent. Even the "mariachi mass" seems to follow a traditional structure outside of the music choice. The more traditional a service is, the more diversity you see in age as well as race, and the higher the attendance. One of the most crowded events of the year is Christmas midnight mass, which includes incense, choir, and lots of Latin. It's nice to see that even in somewhere as lost as California, modernist Christianity's contradictions are sorting themselves out. I think in more homogeneous places like Canada, you'll probably see modernism recede as boomers make up smaller and smaller shares of church membership.
May God bless you for putting into words what a low percentage of believers feel. This is a cry that shall not go unheard! Jesus have Mercy on us!
Brian, I saw a meme today, "God loves you more in a "moment" than any human can love you in a lifetime" We all offend some one @ some time.
I am right there with you brother! I felt like I was listening to myself there. It's out of love for the most Holy Trinity and for what God deserves in reverence and beauty that keeps me centered in my desire to worship him with all my heart and soul in the Mass of Ages. This gets all the more difficult in trying to keep hope, unity, and joy in the home with the family to focus more on the beauty of our faith and less around the craziness of the world and church unfortunately. I'm expecting #8 in April so please folks say an Ave for my wife and baby. In JMJ- Francesco
Perfectly, beautifully put.
I have had THE SAME STRUGGLE!! You put words to my own thoughts perfectly!!!! God bless you! God bless our Roman Catholic Church! God deserves the highest form of adoration; I will fight for that!
The Love of God radiates from you. We are all in different places with our struggles. I have been a devout Catholic for most of my 55 years. I was warned about these times in the Church decades ago. I thought I was going to be prepared, but it's harder. That's where I have to throw myself in Our Blessed Mother's arms. Offering all this up for souls. 🙏🏼🙏🏼❤❤
I’m older than you. If one stays faithful to BVM as your mother and St Joseph as your father you will NEVER be abandoned or lose your way. Say the rosary and wear the brown scapular.
Same, except I am 59. I also was warned since I was a teenager to expect these days. It's much different; however, living the times we were warned about it than it was even a few short years ago.
@@joanjust8241 I Agree🌅⛪🌅
I love this. This is where you cradle Catholics have a strong advantage. Us converts can lean on that fortitude that's been built up over the years. I'm so grateful that God provides such an awesome dynamic in His Church. Fresh converts to bring new zeal and cradle Catholics to anchor us in times of tumult. Of course Our Lady and the Sacraments do much more than any of feeble sinners can, but it is a comfort for me to have this fellowship.
@@scienquist the church desperately needs the converts to shake us cradle catholics out of our complacency. To remind us with your enthusiasm and devotion the gifts we are given in our sacraments.
Brian this is my 1st time viewing one of your videos. The title caught me, so I clicked to watch. You have nailed exactly the way I have been feeling for about a year now. You have expressed those feelings much better than I believe that I could myself. I am 100% in agreement with you. Thank you for stepping out and expressing those feelings. + Pax
I feel the same. 100%. I’ve always felt like I’m swimming against the current, with everyone else swimming against me too, and it’s exhausting. Thank you for giving these thoughts voice. We all need help at least to know that we aren’t alone in this struggle.
Thank you for posting this video. I’ve been feeling the same way lately.
You're not alone. My time is spent discussing this with Our Lord every late hour at night and at TLM. Stay strong. He is with us in Gethsemane.
Finally someone that is saying what I am thinking out loud! God bless you, you are not the only one. I am a Traditional Latin Catholic and I feel the same way as you, thank you for being open an honest about these issues across the board. Defend the TLM always!
Great video Brian. You're definitely not alone.
so incredibly well put my friend!