I have come to terms with the fact that in life I believe we will always suffer in some shape or form. I was like you, in the way that during my healing journey I also wanted to suffer as little as possible. I lowkey would avoid suffering in anyway because of the uncomfortable pain it brought in. I realized that life is definitely a balance of ups and downs and in those “downs” we do experience suffering. I think it’s inevitable. While we are going through it, it’s so heavy and we don’t realize how needed all of that suffering is until we’re finally out of it and able to look back and realize all we learned and gained from it. Now I just let myself feel my emotions, it can be draining and heavy at times but ultimately it’s so much better than avoiding it and suppressing. I love your talks, thank you for being so open and honest. It helps so many others who relate 🤍
I’ve been feeling this. Feeling wrecked with guilt for choices I’ve made when I “knew better” but that’s the thing, we observe but we never really “know better” until we go down that path. Yes we know how to navigate what we do know and avoid what we’ve heard of…but what about when it’s the things we have failed to avoid? Maybe that’s why we make Art all the time or talk so much, we have to share our feelings with others because we know when we do someone out there will understand. And honestly seeing this makes me know truly I haven’t been alone in consciousness of my imperfection. Nothing lasts forever and we have to grab the moments we do get to connect with others. You’re not alone. Those nights can be the worst when you can’t sleep or have to cry. This is aging, and it’s scary yes but life’s always been scary, we just weren’t as aware because as scary as it was there was always someone out there to make it more joyful.
I think it’s good to find ways of adding value to other peoples lives with kindness. As long as the energy you give out is appreciated and reciprocated back. I’m a giver, but to the takers I’m definitely a matcher. If i feel they are not matching my energy I will just treat them the same way.
It took me so long to get to where you are mentally.. I had to go through absolute hell while "knowing better" the whole damn time.. I'm lucky because my downfall would've been my own fault for giving demons all of the chances in the world. I'm finally doing better. My boundaries have finally caught up with my self awareness🖤
I was about to quote a bible verse when i heard you say not to 😅😂 But as a christian i do understand you tho, we will have to suffer and its exhausting but i promise you its not in vain ! As long as you use your discernement , even if this world takes and takes and barely gives. You are a light in this world just by exposing these thruths you share , and that is more than enough. Its in those times of suffering, frustration and annoyance that you have to keep going and not forget your value. No matter if people see it or not. It's up to you and you only to claim your value , there will always haters and takers , but human beings are designed to share, give and receive. You cant just receive without giving. Just try dosing out the giving if it overwhelms you and if you feel people dont appreciate it. But never stop giving , it will take some of your humanity out of you. I feel like you sometimes, and i figured out that being a little selfish sometimes is nothing wrong, think about yourself first, because if your not ok you cant give to no one and thats a fact. Lots of courage and hugs 💪🏽
Thank you for this heartfelt comment love and thank you for respecting my boundaries (I promise on the next vid you can comment one lol ). I’m learning to be a little more selfish by the day ❤
I found myself saying a lot of the same things at your age. It does feel like a disproportionate amount of suffering for reasons unknown. At least as we grow it becomes clearer and clearer until it no longer even matters.
I couldn’t have related to anything better than this video, thank you for being so vulnerable because you really helped a lot of us with this same mindset right now, but what I can say beautiful is to never stop being you ❤ so many people become takers because they were taken from but your super power is being able to go through that and still be true to you.
Well you are more aware than many other people be. I don't think you've surrendered. To me surrender is not just accepting suffering, but giving up on not suffering, giving up on having moments of happiness. To me those are the people you see being grumpy and miserable all the time, even in moment that ought to make them smile. Or the people that spend their life trying to be drunk and/or high 24/7 to dull the pain. You don't sound like either. There's nothing wrong with being optimistic, just be measured in your expectations, go with an understanding that things may not work out, and be prepared for it, don't put yourself in a place mentally/emotionally where if things don't work out, it breaks you and you think your life is over. When we get knocked down, we have to get back up and either try again or try something else, either way, get back up and keep trying. I don't think there's any wrong with giving, just understand that not everyone shares the mindset of giving in return. But I do believe that if we keep trying to be a good person, and put good energy out, then God/the Universe, while give it back to you in return, maybe not from the person who you gave it to, or the places that you expect it, but the goodness will be returned. So I try to do the good/right thing towards people, not always necessarily for their acknowledgement and appreciation, but for my own acknowledgement, knowing that I did well, that I'm a good person, and for God's/the Universe's appreciation and rewards for being good and clean hearted.
I understand so much. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. It’s beautiful. I want to give to you, right now. I hope this helps. the power of your words shift how your environment including people treat you. That helps me and I’m just wanting to give to you what helps me get through this weird space
Your focus is on external factors...the things that hurt you. You are better off focussing your gaze inside...Who is the one thats hurting....Who is the one that has guild or shame or fear!! Make your mind focus on itself to find out Who is asking these questions!?! Lots of ❤ from just a random nobody from the Netherlands (ps youll get there ones youll see you are there already ☮️)
Awareness and consciousness are 2 different things. Your consciousness just IS. Your are experiencing through your consciousness. It domes lead you anywhere. Awareness is a step in the process to change
Curiosity killed the cat satisfaction and brought it back. With 9 lives learning how to act with empathy, unconditional love, and compassion. 9 stands for completion. That's what we come here to do. Complete our journey of our path. To align ourselves with our values. To show and teach others a different way of begin. Not the program of the matrix of the worlds way of life. Outside of yourself. You're operating off your inner world. You're an eternal universe. 😎👁💯💪🏾🌞🌎💫✨️💫✨️🌚 master thyself.. especially emotions and feelings. Balance and flow never try to control. Control brings Chaos 💫 energy. Stay grounded to Mother Earth 🌎 Sun 🌞 nature. Your diet is your health to wealth. Energetically.. You become like a magnet, then you automatically attract. What is for you on your vibration and frequency.
Awareness and consciousness are 2 different things. Your consciousness just IS. Your are experiencing through your consciousness. It doesnt lead you anywhere. Awareness is a step in the process to change
I dead B sayin the same exact things u sayin N this video, Constantly givin nd not receivin much or nothin @all, but ur justified N not wantin 2 give no more…continue to give back 2 urself and replenish ur energetic battery until there’s someone who has mutual respect for The energy u bring nd actually acts on it💯 PEACE nd L♥️VE
I’m 42 yo….. I’ve been involved with women for 5 years total of that 42. I reckon it would be foolish to be bitter or resentful. I guess what I learned is….. you cannot be in equally yoked! I think the labor you feel or felt is that …… if you perceive you’re not getting what you’re giving……bypass…. I listen to you… I hope you will continue the vlogs… I’m just a fan…
As a giver l'd suggest you start taking more from the people you give the most to. You should be benefitting from giving too even if you don't want anything in particular. But I'm sure there are specific things you want that they are capable of giving you in return for your labors of love. Get comfortable with asking for those wants to be met by those who are comfortable asking you.
@zions_diary OK, Then Keep Thinking You Can Do It Yourself. None Of Us Have The Ability Without GOD! NOT About Religion, This Is About You Looking For Answers. I'm Pointing You In The Direction Of GOD, If That's Disrespectful Then That's What It Is In Your Eyes! Doing What Needs To Be Done To Make It Is NOT Easy, That's Why We ALL Need GOD In Our Life!!!
@@FlyBoy02I am religious but I mentioned in the video why I didn’t want anyone bringing god in the conversation as a way to suggest that would “fix all my problems” but I personally don’t believe that. I also follow eastern religion not western since there’s many things i don’t agree with
I have come to terms with the fact that in life I believe we will always suffer in some shape or form. I was like you, in the way that during my healing journey I also wanted to suffer as little as possible. I lowkey would avoid suffering in anyway because of the uncomfortable pain it brought in. I realized that life is definitely a balance of ups and downs and in those “downs” we do experience suffering. I think it’s inevitable. While we are going through it, it’s so heavy and we don’t realize how needed all of that suffering is until we’re finally out of it and able to look back and realize all we learned and gained from it. Now I just let myself feel my emotions, it can be draining and heavy at times but ultimately it’s so much better than avoiding it and suppressing. I love your talks, thank you for being so open and honest. It helps so many others who relate 🤍
You are not alone in your observations about life. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve been feeling this. Feeling wrecked with guilt for choices I’ve made when I “knew better” but that’s the thing, we observe but we never really “know better” until we go down that path. Yes we know how to navigate what we do know and avoid what we’ve heard of…but what about when it’s the things we have failed to avoid? Maybe that’s why we make Art all the time or talk so much, we have to share our feelings with others because we know when we do someone out there will understand. And honestly seeing this makes me know truly I haven’t been alone in consciousness of my imperfection. Nothing lasts forever and we have to grab the moments we do get to connect with others. You’re not alone. Those nights can be the worst when you can’t sleep or have to cry. This is aging, and it’s scary yes but life’s always been scary, we just weren’t as aware because as scary as it was there was always someone out there to make it more joyful.
I think it’s good to find ways of adding value to other peoples lives with kindness.
As long as the energy you give out is appreciated and reciprocated back.
I’m a giver, but to the takers I’m definitely a matcher.
If i feel they are not matching my energy I will just treat them the same way.
I'm 45 & I feel the same way. I needed this video. Thank u ❤
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It took me so long to get to where you are mentally.. I had to go through absolute hell while "knowing better" the whole damn time.. I'm lucky because my downfall would've been my own fault for giving demons all of the chances in the world. I'm finally doing better. My boundaries have finally caught up with my self awareness🖤
I was about to quote a bible verse when i heard you say not to 😅😂
But as a christian i do understand you tho, we will have to suffer and its exhausting but i promise you its not in vain ! As long as you use your discernement , even if this world takes and takes and barely gives. You are a light in this world just by exposing these thruths you share , and that is more than enough.
Its in those times of suffering, frustration and annoyance that you have to keep going and not forget your value. No matter if people see it or not. It's up to you and you only to claim your value , there will always haters and takers , but human beings are designed to share, give and receive. You cant just receive without giving. Just try dosing out the giving if it overwhelms you and if you feel people dont appreciate it. But never stop giving , it will take some of your humanity out of you.
I feel like you sometimes, and i figured out that being a little selfish sometimes is nothing wrong, think about yourself first, because if your not ok you cant give to no one and thats a fact.
Lots of courage and hugs 💪🏽
Thank you for this heartfelt comment love and thank you for respecting my boundaries (I promise on the next vid you can comment one lol ).
I’m learning to be a little more selfish by the day ❤
I found myself saying a lot of the same things at your age. It does feel like a disproportionate amount of suffering for reasons unknown. At least as we grow it becomes clearer and clearer until it no longer even matters.
I couldn’t have related to anything better than this video, thank you for being so vulnerable because you really helped a lot of us with this same mindset right now, but what I can say beautiful is to never stop being you ❤ so many people become takers because they were taken from but your super power is being able to go through that and still be true to you.
I’m going through this now but trust me you are proof to me that my people are out there !
Just pour that all into yourself! You’ll see a difference, it’ll feel a little selfish at first but it’ll make all the difference
Reciprocity is so few and far between these days! Just want to say I love your insights and your energy and I really do appreciate you. Thank you ❤️🔥
I feel what u saying so deeply, keep it pushin Goddess let ‘em tears out if u need to. I appreciate u very much for keeping it real
Well you are more aware than many other people be. I don't think you've surrendered. To me surrender is not just accepting suffering, but giving up on not suffering, giving up on having moments of happiness. To me those are the people you see being grumpy and miserable all the time, even in moment that ought to make them smile. Or the people that spend their life trying to be drunk and/or high 24/7 to dull the pain. You don't sound like either. There's nothing wrong with being optimistic, just be measured in your expectations, go with an understanding that things may not work out, and be prepared for it, don't put yourself in a place mentally/emotionally where if things don't work out, it breaks you and you think your life is over. When we get knocked down, we have to get back up and either try again or try something else, either way, get back up and keep trying.
I don't think there's any wrong with giving, just understand that not everyone shares the mindset of giving in return. But I do believe that if we keep trying to be a good person, and put good energy out, then God/the Universe, while give it back to you in return, maybe not from the person who you gave it to, or the places that you expect it, but the goodness will be returned. So I try to do the good/right thing towards people, not always necessarily for their acknowledgement and appreciation, but for my own acknowledgement, knowing that I did well, that I'm a good person, and for God's/the Universe's appreciation and rewards for being good and clean hearted.
I feel you... I'm also done giving. I'm giving to myself with no guilt or shame (not in a selfish or narcissistic way, of course).
I understand so much. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. It’s beautiful.
I want to give to you, right now. I hope this helps. the power of your words shift how your environment including people treat you. That helps me and I’m just wanting to give to you what helps me get through this weird space
Your focus is on external factors...the things that hurt you. You are better off focussing your gaze inside...Who is the one thats hurting....Who is the one that has guild or shame or fear!! Make your mind focus on itself to find out Who is asking these questions!?! Lots of ❤ from just a random nobody from the Netherlands (ps youll get there ones youll see you are there already ☮️)
Awareness and consciousness are 2 different things.
Your consciousness just IS. Your are experiencing through your consciousness. It domes lead you anywhere. Awareness is a step in the process to change
Exactly! Thank you so much for this comment ❤
Curiosity killed the cat satisfaction and brought it back. With 9 lives learning how to act with empathy, unconditional love, and compassion. 9 stands for completion. That's what we come here to do. Complete our journey of our path. To align ourselves with our values. To show and teach others a different way of begin. Not the program of the matrix of the worlds way of life. Outside of yourself. You're operating off your inner world. You're an eternal universe. 😎👁💯💪🏾🌞🌎💫✨️💫✨️🌚 master thyself.. especially emotions and feelings. Balance and flow never try to control. Control brings Chaos 💫 energy. Stay grounded to Mother Earth 🌎 Sun 🌞 nature. Your diet is your health to wealth. Energetically.. You become like a magnet, then you automatically attract. What is for you on your vibration and frequency.
Mosquitoes are the worst!!!
Exactly giving me hickeys n shi !
Yall better stop hurting my goddess!!!
Awareness and consciousness are 2 different things.
Your consciousness just IS. Your are experiencing through your consciousness. It doesnt lead you anywhere. Awareness is a step in the process to change
I’ve cussed at a mosquito one too many times so I feel you 😂
I dead B sayin the same exact things u sayin N this video, Constantly givin nd not receivin much or nothin @all, but ur justified N not wantin 2 give no more…continue to give back 2 urself and replenish ur energetic battery until there’s someone who has mutual respect for The energy u bring nd actually acts on it💯 PEACE nd L♥️VE
You looking amazing as always even if u don’t feel it all the time, I like the hair as well
I’m 42 yo….. I’ve been involved with women for 5 years total of that 42. I reckon it would be foolish to be bitter or resentful. I guess what I learned is….. you cannot be in equally yoked! I think the labor you feel or felt is that …… if you perceive you’re not getting what you’re giving……bypass…. I listen to you… I hope you will continue the vlogs… I’m just a fan…
7:00 when u got scarred when u heard the horn. after calling the mesquito a bitch. lol me
On everything I been feeling the same way
As a giver l'd suggest you start taking more from the people you give the most to. You should be benefitting from giving too even if you don't want anything in particular. But I'm sure there are specific things you want that they are capable of giving you in return for your labors of love. Get comfortable with asking for those wants to be met by those who are comfortable asking you.
Surender to me means letting go because you now it’s going to work out. Suffering to me is giving up and lack of faith
Zion 💚🌟
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I know the feeling..... like "whats the point of life"? Whats the whole point of this s#*t?
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Turn To GOD For Answers! Develop a Personal Relationship With GOD!! 🙏
yall are so disrespectful when it comes to my personal beliefs bc what did I JUST say .
@zions_diary OK, Then Keep Thinking You Can Do It Yourself. None Of Us Have The Ability Without GOD! NOT About Religion, This Is About You Looking For Answers. I'm Pointing You In The Direction Of GOD, If That's Disrespectful Then That's What It Is In Your Eyes! Doing What Needs To Be Done To Make It Is NOT Easy, That's Why We ALL Need GOD In Our Life!!!
@@MrMarkMaxwell mark shut up .
@zions_diary you're not religious? That shouldn't be an issue.
@@FlyBoy02I am religious but I mentioned in the video why I didn’t want anyone bringing god in the conversation as a way to suggest that would “fix all my problems” but I personally don’t believe that. I also follow eastern religion not western since there’s many things i don’t agree with
So, u started biking yet? 🚴🏾♀️
Looking to get a bike this week hopefully!
Nice! Biking while listening to some good music in the summer is one of the best feeling 😎✌🏾
Psalms 82:6 “ ye are gods” created in THEIR own image
yall are hardheaded
@zions_diary sorry i play 2 much lol but we rlly r all god 🙏🏼 🫶🏼
@@Maced_with_Nightmares you’re good lol
Look I bet this comment won't get pinned or liked, reply and I'll do absolutely NOTHING.