heal with me: a crush on a boy (part II)

It's time to let go!
"The Master says:
When we sense that the time has come to change, we begin - unconsciously - to rerun a tape showing all our failures up until then.
And of course, as we grow older, our quota of difficult moments increases too. However, at the same time, experience has given us the means to overcome those defeats and find a path that will allow us to carry on. We need to include that on our mental video as well.
If we only watch the video of our failures, we will become paralyzed and unable to act. If we only watch the video of our successes, we will end up thinking we are much wiser than we really are.
We need both videos."
Paulo Coelho, Maktub (pg. 3)
After allowing the feelings and energy the space to run its course through me, I integrate new practices and perspectives into the past in order to clear past the fog that feels like chaos. By allowing this energy and my feelings to be what they are, I am able to learn from them, rather than run from them.
Expand the perspective of the experiences by detaching from the thoughts and voices of what others may think about how we feel and behave; I like to just clear out the overthinking by paying close attention to the senses in the memories, like a yummy smell or the warmth of the sun. By doing that, I am reliving the feelings through the senses not fear.
I allow myself to love these people, for a new reason, a reason of that meeting them brought me to learning more about myself and what I want moving forward. I love them for being who they are because that version was the one I was meant to meet in order to heal and love exactly what I did and will continue to expand.
We can love people for how they teach us to love ourselves. There is a reason you are figuring out what you want, I believe it is a lesson we are meant to practice. That takes letting go of the connection and moving forward with what you took from it; there is no way to change the past. There is only the present moment, and if they are not here, it is not meant for me anymore.
The beauty of complimentary energies, and the take-away from this lesson in particular; this is a better and more aligned energy to embody than the one I kept replaying. I want to continue to be in this energy because of how it manifests not THEIR power, but it encourages MINE. One that does not look the same, but that's so amazing!
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I'm letting this go and allowing the space to expand for new experiences in the present moment. I'm letting this go with love, compassion, and grace, by appreciating these experiences for what I learned, not from a place of lack or control, but for the ease it brings me in the present.
WHAT. A. GIFT.
I love you!
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[@thatonelesbassist]

I fw with you heavy i don’t know what you be saying but you eat☮️

[@nathaliemaybe]

thank you for appreciating what I serve love, much love :'3

[@DeJay7]

I just saw the first part and I find this, the Pt. 2, absolutely what I wanted for today, the 13th of October 2024.
Firstly, I absolutely loved these videos, as I said previously I'd love to make one myself, but yeah, I greatly appreciate this!
And secondly, as this is about healing and it also is the perfect day for it, I recommend the artist Ren, he has so much music that is both amazing to listen to and unbelievably helpful for some times, and with that, bye.

[@nathaliemaybe]

I'm glad I found you when it was right :) It is a beautiful day for releasing and realigning! I will surely check out Red :) Also, if you end up posting or sharing content, let me know! I'd love to support you as well!

[@AmeliaSwies]

thank you. And what happened that you realized its time to let go? Im so curious, I never ever recognized the time to walk away correctly and it causes so much trouble );

[@nathaliemaybe]

That's a great question, and this is a great topic to cover, I'll make a podcast! It is called A Cup of Chaos by Nathalie Swenson, and I'll come back to this comment when it is uploaded love! This gave me lots of confusion too on my journey!

[@AmeliaSwies]

@@nathaliemaybe I look forward, love u Natt!