Very brave to talk about it friend. Much respect for you man to man. My wakeup call was about 8 or 9 years ago, blacked out and tore a cheap bathroom door off the hinges because I couldn't find the handle. Pissed myself on the couch. Rock bottom only hits this hard if you still care about yourself, your life and your loved ones. The hard part for me was learning to both cope and overcome problems without taking a shortcut by drinking them away but they were still there in the morning when I came to. I understand. Do it for yourself though please as doing it for anyone else will only add pressure to not let them down by slipping up. Binge drinking, functional alcoholic, daily drinking is all the same shit from different points on a troft. You're stronger than you think you are, trust me. It gets better the more time you put between yourself and what you're feeling while recording this, I promise.
was a black out drinker for 25 years 6 years sober now, just a day at a time brother, you can do it... I found my sanity and hope at the rooms of AA. What awaits you is amazing!
I quit drinking about 6 or 7 years ago, because of a ton of reasons, most of them soul and life destroying reasons. My relationships were garbage and I my behavior was extremely reckless and dangerous. I basically had to be given an ultimatum by my wife to keep me motivated. And even when I failed a couple of times, I had that threat to help get me back on the wagon, because I knew that her patience had a very short shelf life after the hell I brought into our home. My physical cravings were a side note to my psyche, similar to you, but from my understanding, that's the norm. In AA they will tell you that your problem isn't drinking. Your problem is you. First, you should stop comparing yourself to others. Those people worse than you are potentially you if you keep drinking. Always keep that in mind when looking at and listening to other alcoholics. Also keep in mind that your brain is going to try and trick you into drinking. It will be your greatest enemy and threat to your life. You have to commit to not listening to it and reminding yourself that that voice telling you you aren't addicted or can have a drink is literally trying to kill you. If you didn't have a problem,, you wouldn't have to worry about these things and you could just have a drink. A drink would be a casual occurrence and not some obsession you have to trick yourself into indulging in or not indulging in. I can have a drink and walk away, but I don't because that will justify me having another drink some other time and that will justify more drinks and that will justify me becoming a regular drinker and then i'm likely ending up right back where I was. For me, the main thing is to just stop trusting myself and the inner voice that tells me to indulge in things that have proven themselves harmful to my well-being. Ultimately for me, the hardest part was getting through the bouts of obsessive thinking which was usually during the times i'd normally be drinking. During those times, I'd just keep reminding myself that it was a demon talking to me(i'm not even a believer, but it's a concept that works) and also it really had an impact on my ability to sleep. I couldn't sleep without drinking and for a very long time, I couldn't stay asleep for more than 2 hours. Even after working a 12 hour night shift, I couldn't stay asleep. Even after several years, the thoughts crop up to test me, but they are nowhere near as loud and strong as they once were. Mostly just feeble whispers now. I'm not condoning this in anyway, but I never went to many AA meetings. Not saying I had a better way or that it can't help, but I just absolutely hated the idea of being reminded every day of drinking. I already thought about it enough and didn't want to go somewhere to hang out with people to talk about it more. I'm also extremely resistant to sharing with people, especially strangers and the idea of a sponsor really turned me off, because there was just zero chance in hell I was calling a stranger in those moments when my brain was trying to kill me. I was either going to drink or not drink, with or without a sponsor. The choice was always going to be mine and I have no interest in what others have to say. Call it a personal shortcoming. Anyway, best of luck. You can absolutely do this, just always be conscious of the demon on your doorstep. He will spend countless hours trying to convince you to open the door and let it in, especially when you're at you weakest.
I'm also an alcoholic my friend. Have been for years. I'm not a typical alcoholic ( if there is such a thing) as I don't struggle day to day to not drink. I go months without alcohol but if I have that first drink for a multitude of reasons I fall into oblivion for weeks on end. Bottles of vodka straight from the bottle, alone . Only leaving the house in a taxi to get more alcohol and cigarettes, straight home in the morning to start drinking straight vodka again. There isn't one second where I'm sober except if it's the middle of the night and delirium trems set in and the shops aren't open yet ( you can't get alcohol in Scotland before 10am ). I don't eat anything for weeks or shower, brush my teeth.... nothing. I just go off the end of a cliff and give up. The alcohol makes the misery bearable for a time. This happens to me about 5 times a year roughly and it used to be a lot, lot worse. Alcohol is this worst drug on earth. Don't beat yourself up to much, it doesn't make you a bad person and it doesn't make you selfish, it's not a party were having when we drink. There is help but you need the right help because most people don't understand it. I fill my life with being as good a person as possible. I cycle almost every day in the countryside, I eat really healthy . Everyone needs there on path out of it because everyone is different. My brother is a functional alcohol that is physically addicted to alcohol, that's different from me as I only need alcohol once I start, the idea of drinking most the time makes me feel sick because of how I drink. There is a way out mate, and you'll be surprised that even just a few weeks of clean living with a determination you start to see the world in lights again 👍🏼
Am the same......mathew perry said .....don't take the 1st drink.....am not....35 days sober never going back.....44 years on the sauce......Good luck mate
@@michaelosullivan9339 35 days of sobriety can give you a lifetime of clarity. Get yourself out walking in the countryside mate, back a bag and head out for a few hours on your own for a walk through nature. That's where I find the most incredible peace and remind yourself that there is beauty in the world.
brave speaking out. Just also have a look at your kidneys and liver... may change your mind about drinking .. Love you both for stepping up @@michaelosullivan9339
@baronalo did 5 months...but had a drink....lucky it didn't turn into a bender.....but how the hell do you socialise.....every one around me drinks....hope your well.
Unfortunately we all need a wake up call. Yours was falling and hitting your face. 4 years ago my brother was drunk and a chronic alcoholic, he fell and hit his head, but he didn’t get back up. I wish you the best of luck and hope you can defeat this demon.
I drank at home so no one could see it, spirits every day in the end in a hopeless quest just to feel OK. It ended in hospitalisation a week ago and I fessed up to my family. One week without a drink is longer than I've gone for years. Like you I arranged help but there doesn't seem much available. All the best, you'll do it, I see you want it so you'll be fine. Time heals us well.
Welcome to the club. Drinking, drinking to excess, doing regrettable acts, feeling shamed, embarrassed, and remorse, and then, the hangovers, anxiety, and depression. You don't have to drink daily or even monthly to have a reoccurring problem. AA is a great start; try reading This Naked Mind by Annie Grace. It''s a process, keep trying. I do. And you don't have to apologize for the "dour tone" I search for videos like this every time I fark up. This is a big help, so thank you.
You are an alcoholic accept it...if you can make the first 3 days without a drink you will respect yourself, you will sleep better in a week and every week after will improve and improve...I quit drinking on May 3rd its been like 6 weeks and I feel way better and can focus on rebuilding my life.
I'll be praying for you man, I've been clean and sober from alcohol and methamphetamine for almost two years now. I thought that I would never get clean and sober but here I am now. You can do this man, I believe in you. You'll feel 10 times better once you get help and get clean and sober. It'll be a long journey but it'll be 100% worth it in the end.
Same mate.. I'm much better these days though. But the risk of becoming a hardcore drinker again will always be there. My half Brother died of liver failure due to alcoholism. It's clear by the tone in your voice you're now taking your issue seriously. All the best for the future and be thankful you have a supporting Wife. It really can be the difference between life & Death/
So was I I quit drinking when in my 20s after having a handle a day habit. Jesus and cannabis fixed that. I was drinking to numb back pain. During that I was addicted to pain killers. Been clean for years now. Seeing a shrink helps too. So does therapy in general.
Takes guts to do this. Lucky you didn't take any major damage when you fell on the concrete. Weed is my drug of choice. I can just drift away from my problems... Until i run out of money.
If I saw your eye, and you told me you fell and hit the pavement, I would probably not believe you. I went to visit a lady friend once and her face was somewhat messed up, probably a bit worse than yours. She said she fell, but honestly, I suspected a guy probably punched her. She could have been truthful, but there will always be a question in my mind. I have blacked out many times but luckily I never got any facial injuries. It's dangerous, and I'm lucky I made it home in one piece.
The thing about drinking is you don't think it's a problem until you think it's a problem. You know what to do. JUST STOP. You can do it. Have faith in yourself.
This video popped up on my feed. Must mean that I need to share. I too was where you are now. There comes a time when it's now or never. This is your now time and if you want it enough you can do it. Life will feel better in so many ways. All the best.
Well, your doing the right thing. 1. Admitting for yourself and everyone else that you got a problem. This is a big step. 2. Getting help to overcome this. You need to stop drinking, period. Not one more drink or you will be back into it. I would think its very hard, but its also very rewarding long term. And while you are at it, stop junkfood, start working out, that will be your new drug : ) Good luck, and understand its a Marathon, not a sprint. One day at a time!
Respect brotha. I beat my addiction through physical activity, the pain keeps my mind off the bullshit and at the end of the day, i'm too tired to get fucked up anyways! Goodluck brotha.
Most of my friends have a problem with drink, so much so their whole identity is centered around drink. I never had a problem with it and I never will because my friends obsession with it turned me off it, I'll have one or two if I fancy it but nothing at all for the last three years and hardly anything for the last 15 years. You ain't alone in this but the fact you can admit to a problem with it means you have an opportunity to stop it in its tracks before you do need it to function. So do yourself the biggest favour you could ever do and stop!
Good luck - I had an alcohol problem. As of December 19th I will be 2 years sober. You will have struggles , but it will get easier. Drinking simply does not appeal to me now. A tip ; your body will want to repace the sugar you were getting from booze with something else.. Chocolate, junk food etc. If this is the case for you - Let it rip - then work the unhealthy eating habits back. They are much easier to manage than alcohol.
Hang strong , admitting there's a problem with your use of a substance that creates problems in your life is the first step in taking control of your life !!! Good man !!!
Not sure why this video popped up on my feed. But, your story sounds similar to mine. I'm now 12 years sober. It isn't easy....But, you are making the right decision. Just remember....You are doing this for yourself. Nobody can turn you around but you. You have to do this for yourself.
I totally get you wanting to get sober but I'll tell you this.. I was in recovery for 8 years of my life and didn't touch a drop of alcohol... I was miserable the last 4 years people treated me like a slave and whipping boy... Everything was always my fault when I did nothing wrong... Once I took that drink my life turned around I wasn't scared to tell the slave drivers and toxic people to fuk off I smiled in pictures when I used to look like a junkie depressed from years of being the good boy that absolutely never fought back... I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life but I'll tell you one thing when people know you're in recovery they will treat you like absolute shiat because you have two choices take it or relapse
Love ya man, keep working on it. Set boundaries for yourself and be hypervigilant of others' boundaries as a start to make the ones you set for yourself worth something.
This video popped up on my feed and as someone who worked in addiction for 25 years I had to have a look. Firstly, it is brilliant that you recognise that a problem exists, and you want to do something about it. 👌👍🙏 My advice; Do not try to get sober on social media, you will be setting yourself up for failure. Yes the positive comments you will get can give you motivation, but the negative one will give you a reason to drink and people to blame. 🤔 Take the cotton wool out of your ears and put it in your mouth. A day at a time 🙏🙏
Get some Nexium or ask your doc for Pantoprazole Sandoz for that reflux as well mate, I used to get it when I would drink a lot as well. If u don't stop it now it gets way worse and you'll be in hell, damage your teeth n all. ( That's what that throat clearing is if you didn't know already )
if you label yourself an"alcoholic" then you will have in your mind that is what you are. try putting a different label on yourself like a super hero or something positive. and say to yourself over and over that being an alcholic is not who you are and say ,:i could do anything, anything is possible. im not gonna let this little bump on the road get in the way of who you really are. we all can do anything. these little negative experiences are not who we are. just tune out of that frequency. and try,really try, really really try.
Very brave to talk about it friend. Much respect for you man to man. My wakeup call was about 8 or 9 years ago, blacked out and tore a cheap bathroom door off the hinges because I couldn't find the handle. Pissed myself on the couch. Rock bottom only hits this hard if you still care about yourself, your life and your loved ones. The hard part for me was learning to both cope and overcome problems without taking a shortcut by drinking them away but they were still there in the morning when I came to. I understand. Do it for yourself though please as doing it for anyone else will only add pressure to not let them down by slipping up. Binge drinking, functional alcoholic, daily drinking is all the same shit from different points on a troft. You're stronger than you think you are, trust me. It gets better the more time you put between yourself and what you're feeling while recording this, I promise.
Well said
was a black out drinker for 25 years 6 years sober now, just a day at a time brother, you can do it... I found my sanity and hope at the rooms of AA. What awaits you is amazing!
Thank you for your honesty. I hope you get help and find something in life that brings you happiness and peace. You’ve got this
I quit drinking about 6 or 7 years ago, because of a ton of reasons, most of them soul and life destroying reasons. My relationships were garbage and I my behavior was extremely reckless and dangerous. I basically had to be given an ultimatum by my wife to keep me motivated. And even when I failed a couple of times, I had that threat to help get me back on the wagon, because I knew that her patience had a very short shelf life after the hell I brought into our home. My physical cravings were a side note to my psyche, similar to you, but from my understanding, that's the norm. In AA they will tell you that your problem isn't drinking. Your problem is you. First, you should stop comparing yourself to others. Those people worse than you are potentially you if you keep drinking. Always keep that in mind when looking at and listening to other alcoholics. Also keep in mind that your brain is going to try and trick you into drinking. It will be your greatest enemy and threat to your life. You have to commit to not listening to it and reminding yourself that that voice telling you you aren't addicted or can have a drink is literally trying to kill you. If you didn't have a problem,, you wouldn't have to worry about these things and you could just have a drink. A drink would be a casual occurrence and not some obsession you have to trick yourself into indulging in or not indulging in. I can have a drink and walk away, but I don't because that will justify me having another drink some other time and that will justify more drinks and that will justify me becoming a regular drinker and then i'm likely ending up right back where I was. For me, the main thing is to just stop trusting myself and the inner voice that tells me to indulge in things that have proven themselves harmful to my well-being. Ultimately for me, the hardest part was getting through the bouts of obsessive thinking which was usually during the times i'd normally be drinking. During those times, I'd just keep reminding myself that it was a demon talking to me(i'm not even a believer, but it's a concept that works) and also it really had an impact on my ability to sleep. I couldn't sleep without drinking and for a very long time, I couldn't stay asleep for more than 2 hours. Even after working a 12 hour night shift, I couldn't stay asleep. Even after several years, the thoughts crop up to test me, but they are nowhere near as loud and strong as they once were. Mostly just feeble whispers now. I'm not condoning this in anyway, but I never went to many AA meetings. Not saying I had a better way or that it can't help, but I just absolutely hated the idea of being reminded every day of drinking. I already thought about it enough and didn't want to go somewhere to hang out with people to talk about it more. I'm also extremely resistant to sharing with people, especially strangers and the idea of a sponsor really turned me off, because there was just zero chance in hell I was calling a stranger in those moments when my brain was trying to kill me. I was either going to drink or not drink, with or without a sponsor. The choice was always going to be mine and I have no interest in what others have to say. Call it a personal shortcoming. Anyway, best of luck. You can absolutely do this, just always be conscious of the demon on your doorstep. He will spend countless hours trying to convince you to open the door and let it in, especially when you're at you weakest.
I'm also an alcoholic my friend. Have been for years. I'm not a typical alcoholic ( if there is such a thing) as I don't struggle day to day to not drink. I go months without alcohol but if I have that first drink for a multitude of reasons I fall into oblivion for weeks on end. Bottles of vodka straight from the bottle, alone . Only leaving the house in a taxi to get more alcohol and cigarettes, straight home in the morning to start drinking straight vodka again. There isn't one second where I'm sober except if it's the middle of the night and delirium trems set in and the shops aren't open yet ( you can't get alcohol in Scotland before 10am ). I don't eat anything for weeks or shower, brush my teeth.... nothing. I just go off the end of a cliff and give up. The alcohol makes the misery bearable for a time. This happens to me about 5 times a year roughly and it used to be a lot, lot worse. Alcohol is this worst drug on earth. Don't beat yourself up to much, it doesn't make you a bad person and it doesn't make you selfish, it's not a party were having when we drink. There is help but you need the right help because most people don't understand it. I fill my life with being as good a person as possible. I cycle almost every day in the countryside, I eat really healthy . Everyone needs there on path out of it because everyone is different. My brother is a functional alcohol that is physically addicted to alcohol, that's different from me as I only need alcohol once I start, the idea of drinking most the time makes me feel sick because of how I drink. There is a way out mate, and you'll be surprised that even just a few weeks of clean living with a determination you start to see the world in lights again 👍🏼
Am the same......mathew perry said .....don't take the 1st drink.....am not....35 days sober never going back.....44 years on the sauce......Good luck mate
@@michaelosullivan9339 35 days of sobriety can give you a lifetime of clarity. Get yourself out walking in the countryside mate, back a bag and head out for a few hours on your own for a walk through nature. That's where I find the most incredible peace and remind yourself that there is beauty in the world.
brave speaking out. Just also have a look at your kidneys and liver... may change your mind about drinking .. Love you both for stepping up @@michaelosullivan9339
@@michaelosullivan9339 How is it going?
@baronalo did 5 months...but had a drink....lucky it didn't turn into a bender.....but how the hell do you socialise.....every one around me drinks....hope your well.
Unfortunately we all need a wake up call. Yours was falling and hitting your face. 4 years ago my brother was drunk and a chronic alcoholic, he fell and hit his head, but he didn’t get back up. I wish you the best of luck and hope you can defeat this demon.
Oofta. RIP to him and condolences to you.
God Bless keep your head up brother you got this
Alcoholism will bring you to the depths of hell
All drugs are like having a demon riding your back, cackling madly as he drives you to hell. Hope you ditched yours.
I drank at home so no one could see it, spirits every day in the end in a hopeless quest just to feel OK. It ended in hospitalisation a week ago and I fessed up to my family. One week without a drink is longer than I've gone for years. Like you I arranged help but there doesn't seem much available. All the best, you'll do it, I see you want it so you'll be fine. Time heals us well.
Welcome to the club. Drinking, drinking to excess, doing regrettable acts, feeling shamed, embarrassed, and remorse, and then, the hangovers, anxiety, and depression. You don't have to drink daily or even monthly to have a reoccurring problem. AA is a great start; try reading This Naked Mind by Annie Grace. It''s a process, keep trying. I do. And you don't have to apologize for the "dour tone" I search for videos like this every time I fark up. This is a big help, so thank you.
You are an alcoholic accept it...if you can make the first 3 days without a drink you will respect yourself, you will sleep better in a week and every week after will improve and improve...I quit drinking on May 3rd its been like 6 weeks and I feel way better and can focus on rebuilding my life.
I'll be praying for you man, I've been clean and sober from alcohol and methamphetamine for almost two years now. I thought that I would never get clean and sober but here I am now. You can do this man, I believe in you. You'll feel 10 times better once you get help and get clean and sober. It'll be a long journey but it'll be 100% worth it in the end.
May God be with you brother as you find your way.
Same mate.. I'm much better these days though. But the risk of becoming a hardcore drinker again will always be there.
My half Brother died of liver failure due to alcoholism.
It's clear by the tone in your voice you're now taking your issue seriously. All the best for the future and be thankful you have a supporting Wife. It really can be the difference between life & Death/
much love brother get well mate
First step; admitting you have a problem.
That’s pretty ballsy to face your demon and admit it in ‘public’. I hope it’s been working for you.
So was I I quit drinking when in my 20s after having a handle a day habit. Jesus and cannabis fixed that. I was drinking to numb back pain. During that I was addicted to pain killers. Been clean for years now. Seeing a shrink helps too. So does therapy in general.
Takes guts to do this. Lucky you didn't take any major damage when you fell on the concrete.
Weed is my drug of choice. I can just drift away from my problems... Until i run out of money.
If I saw your eye, and you told me you fell and hit the pavement, I would probably not believe you. I went to visit a lady friend once and her face was somewhat messed up, probably a bit worse than yours. She said she fell, but honestly, I suspected a guy probably punched her. She could have been truthful, but there will always be a question in my mind. I have blacked out many times but luckily I never got any facial injuries. It's dangerous, and I'm lucky I made it home in one piece.
Sending you lots of ❤❤❤🕊️🕊️
The thing about drinking is you don't think it's a problem until you think it's a problem. You know what to do. JUST STOP. You can do it. Have faith in yourself.
Couldnt listen it reminded me of Bob Fleming from the Fast Show. Soz...❤
This video popped up on my feed. Must mean that I need to share. I too was where you are now. There comes a time when it's now or never. This is your now time and if you want it enough you can do it. Life will feel better in so many ways. All the best.
Well, your doing the right thing. 1. Admitting for yourself and everyone else that you got a problem. This is a big step. 2. Getting help to overcome this. You need to stop drinking, period. Not one more drink or you will be back into it. I would think its very hard, but its also very rewarding long term. And while you are at it, stop junkfood, start working out, that will be your new drug : ) Good luck, and understand its a Marathon, not a sprint. One day at a time!
From the USA , I have been comfortably sober since May 2000 !
Respect brotha. I beat my addiction through physical activity, the pain keeps my mind off the bullshit and at the end of the day, i'm too tired to get fucked up anyways! Goodluck brotha.
U got this man. Praying for u
God bless you, this was me 7 years ago, get help and support, a sober life is good, hope you get there
Most of my friends have a problem with drink, so much so their whole identity is centered around drink. I never had a problem with it and I never will because my friends obsession with it turned me off it, I'll have one or two if I fancy it but nothing at all for the last three years and hardly anything for the last 15 years. You ain't alone in this but the fact you can admit to a problem with it means you have an opportunity to stop it in its tracks before you do need it to function. So do yourself the biggest favour you could ever do and stop!
Good luck - I had an alcohol problem.
As of December 19th I will be 2 years sober.
You will have struggles , but it will get easier.
Drinking simply does not appeal to me now.
A tip ; your body will want to repace the sugar you were getting from booze with something else..
Chocolate, junk food etc.
If this is the case for you - Let it rip - then work the unhealthy eating habits back.
They are much easier to manage than alcohol.
Hang strong , admitting there's a problem with your use of a substance that creates problems in your life is the first step in taking control of your life !!! Good man !!!
Well done buddy that's the first step . realization .
Not sure why this video popped up on my feed. But, your story sounds similar to mine. I'm now 12 years sober. It isn't easy....But, you are making the right decision. Just remember....You are doing this for yourself. Nobody can turn you around but you. You have to do this for yourself.
Very honest this video…
Stop and sleep better
Get thee to a meeting. Our friend Bill. There’s hope you’re not alone.
I totally get you wanting to get sober but I'll tell you this.. I was in recovery for 8 years of my life and didn't touch a drop of alcohol... I was miserable the last 4 years people treated me like a slave and whipping boy... Everything was always my fault when I did nothing wrong... Once I took that drink my life turned around I wasn't scared to tell the slave drivers and toxic people to fuk off I smiled in pictures when I used to look like a junkie depressed from years of being the good boy that absolutely never fought back... I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life but I'll tell you one thing when people know you're in recovery they will treat you like absolute shiat because you have two choices take it or relapse
The first thing is to own up to it to yourself. Well done and I hope you find a way to stop. All the best.
Love ya man, keep working on it. Set boundaries for yourself and be hypervigilant of others' boundaries as a start to make the ones you set for yourself worth something.
I likes ya.. and i wants ya. Now theres two ways this can go.. the easy way or the hard way
This video popped up on my feed and as someone who worked in addiction for 25 years I had to have a look.
Firstly, it is brilliant that you recognise that a problem exists, and you want to do something about it. 👌👍🙏
My advice; Do not try to get sober on social media, you will be setting yourself up for failure. Yes the positive comments you will get can give you motivation, but the negative one will give you a reason to drink and people to blame. 🤔
Take the cotton wool out of your ears and put it in your mouth.
A day at a time 🙏🙏
If you wonder if you're an alcoholic, you probably are.
Get some Nexium or ask your doc for Pantoprazole Sandoz for that reflux as well mate, I used to get it when I would drink a lot as well. If u don't stop it now it gets way worse and you'll be in hell, damage your teeth n all. ( That's what that throat clearing is if you didn't know already )
if you label yourself an"alcoholic" then you will have in your mind that is what you are. try putting a different label on yourself like a super hero or something positive. and say to yourself over and over that being an alcholic is not who you are and say ,:i could do anything, anything is possible. im not gonna let this little bump on the road get in the way of who you really are. we all can do anything. these little negative experiences are not who we are. just tune out of that frequency. and try,really try, really really try.
Are you a Cockney?
No he’s not a Cockney
Lmaoooo someone punched you 😂
Ahahahahahaha! Grow up.
@@skorpiogrl 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I have to watch the video again so I can laugh because I forgot I was laughing at this anyways😭😭😭
Ummm does look like a punch injury more than a fall on pavement
@@boxingmonkey8621 😭😭😭😭
Sounds a good night out to me! Lol
You sound like a right laugh to go out with! Let's hit the town and drink some wine brother!
been to AA a few times and it helped.