Still get goosebumps listnening to EDEN! Takes me back to when me and my old friends would go and stay out all night walking for miles in the countryside with a speaker! When life was so much better!
Just lost my little sister due to an overdose, this was one of her favorite songs. Really hits different now, I feel like there's a void in my chest which can never be filled. The entire world is stained black now. My father found her laying on the kitchen floor, purple and black from being dead for a few days. It's a weird feeling deleting your sibling's phone number or deciding what to do with their personal belongings after they're gone. All I can do is think about our good memories together and who she was before she became addicted to hurting. I wish I could've been her drug, but she couldn't trust anyone, not even her own family. We actually both had sons and her baby ended up being adopted, while my baby mama left me and got child support going. After that, it's like our lives went downhill, the disappointment of not making your parents into grandparents to emulate the feeling of a cohesive family and togetherness. We only drifted further away in the end, now that my beautiful sister is gone, everyone wants to think about the "what ifs" and the trap of thinking the trajectory could have been changed. She was truly unique, so funny, and charismatic. I will carry you with me until my dying day, sorry I couldn't go with you. We made a promise to never leave each other, after all the tragedy and abuse we survived. I wanted to convince you of how amazing you were, but I failed in communicating how much we needed you. Now we are left to clean up the mess. I'll let your son know how much of a fighter his birth mother was, should he come searching when he's older and wants to know why he's a different ethnicity. You will always be my guardian angel, Christina. Rest in peace, love your brother. I'll die with your secrets and carry your sins forward with honor. You were a survivor, not a victim.
@@gsdgsgdsgdsdgsgd2003 Thank you for your words. I guess faith is about believing in what you can't see and I understand that now that she's gone, but her memories are still here and exist. I want to know Heaven is real, just so I can see her again in the afterlife. It's hard to explain. But your kind words mean a lot to me... we are doing her Celebration of Life soon. It has been like a month, but it still feels like just yesterday. I been trying to write a eulogy but it's hard to describe someone so special who is unique.
This was the song that I was listening to during my first suicide attempt. I still listen to it. It makes me feel stronger. Some days are tough and some days I don’t wanna deal with the pain. But listening to this reminds me that I am important and loved and I’m here for a reason.
Hit me right in the feels ! I miss my brother!!! He loved this song so much !! 😭😭😭😢 RIP CHAVA 4-11-97 💔 5-6-17 !!!! Wow , I’m just speechless seriously. I just want to thank each and everyone of y’all for all of your love you guys are showing to my deceased brother 😕. Thank you so much guys , and even if I don’t know y’all I just really want to THANK Y’ALL from the bottom of my heart ❤️. May god bless you ALL!!!! THANK YOU from me and my brother 💔.
The song is about being addicted to lying. He's struggling in his love life because he gets high off of the lies, but it's pulling him apart from his girl. "All I needed were some words to say. All these feelings don't mean shit to me. It's all just chemicals anyway." Those are him saying he doesn't feel the love in this in the relationship, he just feels addicted to lying. In the end, it gives you a hopeful feel by adding in the bit "I've spent too many late nights, just thinking about holding her." He wants to love, but in the end, lying is the only love, the only high he needs. Just my perspective though. I didn't know if you'd like this interpretation to clarify why you may feel so connected to the lyrics.
Almost 3 years ago now, I had the worst day of my life.. I received the phone call that my brother had finally passed, after being removed from life support.. I had made a play list. Consisting entirely of Eden songs days before. Because I knew I'd need something to keep me from going off the rails. I knew I was gonna do something dumb and would need a tether to life, and that I did.. I took 6 hits of acid. Put on my headphones laid in the center of my empty living room and stared at the ceiling through misty eyes. I've never cried so hard in my life. For 15 hours I laid there. Watching the ceiling spell out things my brother has said to me. Spell out the words Eden was saying... until this song eventually caught my full attention(it had played several times but it finally clicked) I got up and went for the longest run I've ever ran in my life. And then passed out out on my bedroom floor.. I spoke to my brother in the dream I had, and his words struck hard.. "Don't lose Eden, or you'll lose yourself" and not a week has gone by I haven't lost myself in Edens music... The Anniversary of his death is coming up.. but I'm not worried anymore.. Eden has the Wheel. ❤❤
Hold tight to that strength and take comfort in knowing you are a survivor. And even though we are all just 1's & 0's colliding across the ether, you are not alone and some of us are glad we can share this space.
Stay strong, meditate, breathe, drink water and don't ever stop trying to make a better world that can revolve around you. I believe in you. You're stronger than you know, just dig deep
You know when you're in a really hard time of your life, and nothing seems right. but then something happens, and for some minutes.. or even hours everything just seems so good. everything seems alright and you don't understand how you could ever feel sad and hopeless at all. that's how I'm feeling right now and it's cause of Eden. his music does something to me
Ironically enough, this song actually helped me get through rehab. In music therapy group, I was able to pick any songs I wanted to listen to and I would always pick this one. On replay. I love this song a little too much.
The "Ain't that just the point" and the "And I'll never let you know" always get to me. They both sound so pack full of emotion and it hits right to home. (Then again this whole song is like that).
This song and “Luka - Feelings” are some of the only things keeping me sane through these tough times. I just want to send love to everybody and let everyone know things will get better... i love you 💕
Sometimes by understanding, people can fix or at least try. It's good to have someone that actually cares, though. But it's bad because we are afraid that they just won't get used to it and not accept we're a mess, we get the worry that they would leave us at some point. So many fears that end up making a complete mess and problem for ourselves and life. But... Also... We don't want anyone to feel like we do
From what I think of these lyrics is that they're of a depressed man who does drugs to escape his problems. His girlfriend/wife tries to tell him that he can get through this, and he's "not him when he's like this", but he simply says "that's the point". He feels emotionally trapped and cold. All of his ambitions have died, wanting a part of him to come alive. He feels that he has nothing to offer his partner, and feels that he should die because of his problems.
couldn't agree more. a lot of the 'small' points of the text, like the flashfires, represents his life falling apart between the drugs and the depression. problems keep cropping up, and... after a while you stop tending to them. fuck man, this song is too relate-able.
This song found me and was in my suggested list. It saved me from my rock bottom. Year 2019 when I quit being a mess, 2020 didn't work and started to pick my pieces up. Listening to Eden songs. I still listen to this when I have my episodes of depression, and this make me stronger.
Olivia Draus-Barrett I'm a few days clean, I'm making process... and finding ways to stop myself but when things get bad I can't control myself. I used to do it everyday, so I'm doing better :)
My mental state has been hitting an all time low lately and this song has just been in my head over and over again. It feels... I dunno... calm? I feel like I'm not alone, even though I pretty much am as I'm facing depression alone atm. Anyways, thanks so much for this song Eden.
I fell head over heels in love with an addict and he had me so convienced that he didn't want that life anymore, but the further I fell the further he drifted into the darkness of his addiction. And I just couldn't let go. I kept holding on unable to let go because I knew that the person I fell in love with was in there somewhere... and I wanted so badly to save him. But I couldn't and ended up losing myself in the process. This song hit me like a ton of bricks. He tried to be what I wanted but never what I needed.
I was already crying because this song explains exactly how I feel right now but your comment made me cry more cause I can completely relate and it hurts....
I just want to add something that i think is something you should hear. It is entirely possible, even highly probable that he actually truly didn't want that life anymore lile he said but he just didn't know how to change. The fact that he continued to go down that road doesn't necessarily mean he was lying to you. I know when i was fighting with my addiction, i fucking despised myself and what i was doing and i wanted so badly to change but the influence drugs get over you when you use them to cope is unbelievable and no one who has never been addicted will understand how you can completely see the error of your ways and know you are in the wrong and still feel completely helpless and powerless to change.
Dude... the man I was with told me “I’m so sorry, I thought being with you would make me feel better, but it hasn’t.” It broke my heart. I wanted more than anything for him to be happy, and maybe it’s cuz I wanted that for myself and I saw myself In him...But people have to figure out how to heal themselves.. they can’t depend on anybody, even if you want to be everything they depend on..
eden is everything music was meant to be, you can feel the emotion behind every lyric, the tone of voice, and then the music says everything the words can't capture. every song is pure beauty, and has helped me through so many hard nights. i don't think you're making music anymore but eden i am so grateful for the art you have created
my girlfriend showed me this song. i fell in love with it and totally didn't even think it was her that felt this way about us. Edit: So this really blew up. I can't even speak to how this thread has impacted me over the last couple of years. There's heartbreak here, and yet so much inspiration to keep going. I want to start making playlists for people again, I haven't done that in a while, and I'd also like to start a chat with anyone who wants to just talk about life, so if anyone wants my snap or facebook i'm down
Stream Alexander I recommend telling her shit quick. nothing good is gonna come of it. once you think long and hard about things, you realise that they can and will change your entire life, for better or for worse. I can wager it's a 75/25 chance your life is gonna be hell if she finds out without you telling her, or she starts feeling something deeper and it destroys her life when she realises you don't
Sometimes, I just want. No, I need to go to a very lonely area away from everyone and just scream until you have no more voice, until you spit blood. And let go the years of self hate and disappointment out. Kick, punch, cry and scream all of it. Anyone can relate to that?
You guys ever think that after you die, your music will always live on? Like your great great grandkids might look at old music one day and listen to your favorite song, completely oblivious to your existence, let alone your taste in music
I read a short story once where one character had the philosophy that we are immortal because one day someone, somewhere, sometime will embody the essence of who we are completely
This made me think. I spent tons of time listening to awesome music and after I die someone might feel those same moments with music only which makes me think idk weird
One night I was really depressed and I was trying to sleep by playing shuffle on Spotify and this song came on when I had just fallen asleep but I woke back up and finished listening to the song and wrote the title down and when I woke back up I listened to it on repeat and I love it so much
No matter how hard life hits you, never give up. Found this song while on depression due to many problems came a couple of months ago, especially when covid spreads. Thank you for this strong and thoughtful song. To whoever reads this who is also on my situation before, don't let your light turn off inside you.. it happens to me many times, i even attempted suicide many times but it is really not worth it. It is okay to let go off your tears sometimes. BE BRAVE TO YA'LL OUT THERE
hey, youre doing so good, even if youre struggling, i promise you life will take a turn, you will find people, music, animals, books, shows and smells that will help you find your way through life. You're doing so well, and im so so proud of you love!
You're 16 dude!! Your life is only on the first chapter. I felt the same way when I was you age if not worse keep your head up dude. Don't be afraid to talk
its sad that you have to detach yourself from a person that you love dearly , just because you can see them losing the feelings you're currently gaining.
I went thru that a few times its not in your destiny god must have another plan for u i woulda died for this chick thought id never get over her then im met the most ride or die. Chick ive ever met 9 years later 5 kids later still going strong keep your head up sis it will pass and u will find your prince
I dunno why but the feeling of pain actually is attractive. I like the pain, the hurt, it changes me somehow, I always accumulate hate for myself so I become cold. Even though it hurts, I need my pain. It makes me, who I am... It's weird actually
Shifana Fathymah wouldent thst hurt? Even pouring water into your ears it will sofen the your ear drums, leaking liquids that are harmful to the gas and oils inside your ears and body
this one song expresses the feelings ive had, that ive been trying to come up with words for for two years now. this song hits home in all the worst song, I'm so addicted to it.
@@VeryGoodDad bruh???? This reminds me of my 14-15 year old depression too. I don't think they were saying that being depressed at that age is a fad or an invalid thing. They were just saying this song reminds them of that period of their life. This song reminds me of that period of my life too because I listened to this song on repeat during those years when I was depressed. Still listen to it today, but i get flashbacks of being younger and the feelings i was going through when i was listening to it then.
@@shiggysimp6047 yeah but he said it like "my 14 - 15 year old depression" instead of "the depression that i had when i was around 14 - 15 year old" as If he was saying teenage depression is a normal thing and will eventually fade out on its own which do seem like he's underplaying depression in general.
I'll forever remember this song, i first encountered it during the worst years of my life struggling with addictions and grief... Coming back to listen to it again reminds me of why it was on repeat when i found it and ignited the reason to why it'll remain on repeat 💯
All my friends are just like, "Really? This is what you listen to? This is depressing as hell..." I mean...true but, hell, i actually relate to these songs, unlike all this other happy-go-lucky bullshit... Too real?? Lel, sorry...
@Viki Hülyeségei I haven't drank since 2014, though I used to be a big drinker. My DOC tho , are opiates & benzos . I did my time with amphetamines too, but opiates and benzos. Mainly opiates.
Who’s still listening in 2024?
I remember listening to this song so long ago, it still hits the same after all these years
Listening, watching, loving
Me
Still get goosebumps listnening to EDEN! Takes me back to when me and my old friends would go and stay out all night walking for miles in the countryside with a speaker! When life was so much better!
:')
Voice is perfect.
Music is perfect.
Meaning is perfect.
This song is perfect.
EDEN is perfect.
O, znalazłam Polaka
Julia Martinez O, ja też :D
I ja :D
O, Polacy lubiący EDENA, więc jest szansa dla tego kraju. :O
Kr ol I ja
"I can't love when I can't even love myself"
oh, that hurts.
cskyla I know that feel bro ;-;
cskyla. : dude that hurt me
Depressed guys up there
Exactly how i feel.😟
cskyla to me it's not like that. How can I explain it... It's because I don't love myself that it's easier to love someone else...
EDEN's been at this for years, released more music us fans could ask for, and yet he's still so underrated
amen right girl
And new album in 2020 Feb.. Stoked!
Omg yess
Its our secret
I like it the way I keep him my lil secret is that wrong ?
Just lost my little sister due to an overdose, this was one of her favorite songs. Really hits different now, I feel like there's a void in my chest which can never be filled. The entire world is stained black now. My father found her laying on the kitchen floor, purple and black from being dead for a few days. It's a weird feeling deleting your sibling's phone number or deciding what to do with their personal belongings after they're gone. All I can do is think about our good memories together and who she was before she became addicted to hurting. I wish I could've been her drug, but she couldn't trust anyone, not even her own family. We actually both had sons and her baby ended up being adopted, while my baby mama left me and got child support going. After that, it's like our lives went downhill, the disappointment of not making your parents into grandparents to emulate the feeling of a cohesive family and togetherness. We only drifted further away in the end, now that my beautiful sister is gone, everyone wants to think about the "what ifs" and the trap of thinking the trajectory could have been changed. She was truly unique, so funny, and charismatic. I will carry you with me until my dying day, sorry I couldn't go with you. We made a promise to never leave each other, after all the tragedy and abuse we survived. I wanted to convince you of how amazing you were, but I failed in communicating how much we needed you. Now we are left to clean up the mess. I'll let your son know how much of a fighter his birth mother was, should he come searching when he's older and wants to know why he's a different ethnicity. You will always be my guardian angel, Christina. Rest in peace, love your brother. I'll die with your secrets and carry your sins forward with honor. You were a survivor, not a victim.
💜
I'm not even religious but I know that God's with your sister:)
@@gsdgsgdsgdsdgsgd2003 Thank you for your words. I guess faith is about believing in what you can't see and I understand that now that she's gone, but her memories are still here and exist. I want to know Heaven is real, just so I can see her again in the afterlife. It's hard to explain. But your kind words mean a lot to me... we are doing her Celebration of Life soon. It has been like a month, but it still feels like just yesterday. I been trying to write a eulogy but it's hard to describe someone so special who is unique.
🥺this hits...sorry for your loss I hope life will take you uphill from here.....rest in peace to her☝️☝️✌️✌️
@@rollin3480 Thank you for those kind words. I appreciate it. Each day gets a little better.
"I just feel so tired" hits me in the feels
Same
Lauren Reyes Same
Same 480° around
I'm obsessed with his songs. The sound, meaning, everything feels so deep. Eden is just perfect in every way and deserves much more attention.
Samme☔️
This was the song that I was listening to during my first suicide attempt. I still listen to it. It makes me feel stronger. Some days are tough and some days I don’t wanna deal with the pain. But listening to this reminds me that I am important and loved and I’m here for a reason.
i hope u r doing better now :D
Why did you do it?
Stay strong
@@rich9973 Being a little rough today aren't we?
I don't understand how slow songs Id like to get riled to is in your shower play list? what are you doing in that shower exactly?
"Cos' I'm a fucking mess, sometimes" sums up my whole life.
Desiree Jefferson same
Alice Fangs replace sometimes with always and then it describes my life
Desiree Jefferson it's fucking hard but it's true
i got this "cos I'm a fucking mess, all times "
Trojan man all the time*
anyone still listening in 2019?
Koala Kontrol always listening ❤️
Yup same
yeet I am
Of course ❤️
Koala Kontrol yess
the part between 0:00 and 5:39 gave me chills
oooooooooooooh... true
that's my fav too!!
Same
Broo same
Hit me right in the feels !
I miss my brother!!! He loved this song so much !! 😭😭😭😢
RIP CHAVA 4-11-97 💔 5-6-17 !!!!
Wow , I’m just speechless seriously. I just want to thank each and everyone of y’all for all of your love you guys are showing to my deceased brother 😕. Thank you so much guys , and even if I don’t know y’all I just really want to THANK Y’ALL from the bottom of my heart ❤️. May god bless you ALL!!!!
THANK YOU from me and my brother 💔.
Ohhhh 😥😥😥
Rip ❤️
Thanks guys!
Your brother had very good taste, may he rest in peace.
~Rylee
Damn bro.
I don't do drugs, but I feel this song fits so well with my life... It made me even cry.
Same
same. i listened to the 1 hour version everytime i go to sleep
Micaela Blezio Sierra I thought I was the only one..
It not about drugs. The "drugs" are just the catalyst for this guy's struggles. Which is the song is about.
The song is about being addicted to lying. He's struggling in his love life because he gets high off of the lies, but it's pulling him apart from his girl. "All I needed were some words to say. All these feelings don't mean shit to me. It's all just chemicals anyway." Those are him saying he doesn't feel the love in this in the relationship, he just feels addicted to lying. In the end, it gives you a hopeful feel by adding in the bit "I've spent too many late nights, just thinking about holding her." He wants to love, but in the end, lying is the only love, the only high he needs. Just my perspective though. I didn't know if you'd like this interpretation to clarify why you may feel so connected to the lyrics.
The part where it goes "Cos I'm a fuckin mess sometimes" speaks to me
Christina Loutina same :/
Except for the sometimes part ha
Christina Loutina hey you there on insta? 😂
@eden lol
Christina Loutina omg I'm a fan of u!
Almost 3 years ago now, I had the worst day of my life.. I received the phone call that my brother had finally passed, after being removed from life support..
I had made a play list. Consisting entirely of Eden songs days before. Because I knew I'd need something to keep me from going off the rails.
I knew I was gonna do something dumb and would need a tether to life, and that I did.. I took 6 hits of acid. Put on my headphones laid in the center of my empty living room and stared at the ceiling through misty eyes. I've never cried so hard in my life. For 15 hours I laid there. Watching the ceiling spell out things my brother has said to me. Spell out the words Eden was saying... until this song eventually caught my full attention(it had played several times but it finally clicked) I got up and went for the longest run I've ever ran in my life. And then passed out out on my bedroom floor.. I spoke to my brother in the dream I had, and his words struck hard.. "Don't lose Eden, or you'll lose yourself" and not a week has gone by I haven't lost myself in Edens music... The Anniversary of his death is coming up.. but I'm not worried anymore.. Eden has the Wheel. ❤❤
Hold tight to that strength and take comfort in knowing you are a survivor. And even though we are all just 1's & 0's colliding across the ether, you are not alone and some of us are glad we can share this space.
Im so sorry for your loss, it must hurt losing a brother..
Ily baby thank you for being strong
Sorry for your loss dude :(. That happened to me 2 months ago but im still here so be strong man :)
Stay strong, meditate, breathe, drink water and don't ever stop trying to make a better world that can revolve around you. I believe in you. You're stronger than you know, just dig deep
You know when you're in a really hard time of your life, and nothing seems right.
but then something happens, and for some minutes.. or even hours everything just seems so good. everything seems alright and you don't understand how you could ever feel sad and hopeless at all.
that's how I'm feeling right now and it's cause of Eden. his music does something to me
Ironically enough, this song actually helped me get through rehab. In music therapy group, I was able to pick any songs I wanted to listen to and I would always pick this one. On replay. I love this song a little too much.
eden have a perfect songs OMG
Love this song just enough
helped me stay sober too!
The music helps me keep clean
Suzy Skies same... just graduated a 90 day program. Into an Oxford house got 105 days off herion.
The "Ain't that just the point" and the "And I'll never let you know" always get to me. They both sound so pack full of emotion and it hits right to home. (Then again this whole song is like that).
That is the point. Please re-post this comment on the official video. {EDEN} They only get your good news there.
This song and “Luka - Feelings” are some of the only things keeping me sane through these tough times. I just want to send love to everybody and let everyone know things will get better... i love you 💕
Then call me a fan cause i spin things to chill out
Sending love back hope you ❤️ ok
this song has really been a sort of anthem for me "I just feel so tired", "I'm a fucking mess sometimes". really hits home
Bardley same
Bardley same
Bardley same
Bradley same
Bradley do we care? jk
We'd rather have someone understand our feelings than try to fix them.
Maybe that's what you need to fix them, it soothes people to know they aren't the only one
It's hard for people to fix them but when someone understands it acts as a soother and numbs the feeling of being alone
I would rather have someone understand. At the end of the day the only one who can fix my shit is myself, yanno?
Sometimes by understanding, people can fix or at least try. It's good to have someone that actually cares, though. But it's bad because we are afraid that they just won't get used to it and not accept we're a mess, we get the worry that they would leave us at some point. So many fears that end up making a complete mess and problem for ourselves and life. But... Also... We don't want anyone to feel like we do
I feel like this is true in a lot of ways. But to fix something it helps to understand it.
I heard this song yesterday. when I heard the "cos I'm a fucking mess sometimes" I fucking fell in love with it
Yup I can't love when I can't even love myself perfectly describes me wish I knew why
T a y T a y yeaahhhh
T a y T a y ikr it's just awesome! I love it
Same
Almost 2023 and still listening to this song
Yup
And money says you're depressed af like the rest of us😁
Yup
WHAT DO YOU MEAN ALMOST😂
🎉
From what I think of these lyrics is that they're of a depressed man who does drugs to escape his problems. His girlfriend/wife tries to tell him that he can get through this, and he's "not him when he's like this", but he simply says "that's the point". He feels emotionally trapped and cold. All of his ambitions have died, wanting a part of him to come alive. He feels that he has nothing to offer his partner, and feels that he should die because of his problems.
Wow astonished by that description really deep
MRfabelj Sarcasm? XD
Terribly Charismatic Duck
not at all i really felt touched by that description (:
couldn't agree more. a lot of the 'small' points of the text, like the flashfires, represents his life falling apart between the drugs and the depression. problems keep cropping up, and... after a while you stop tending to them.
fuck man, this song is too relate-able.
thats way better what i could ever think of...
“I can’t love when I can’t even love myself.” Damn...
Ik I can't I had to go to memes for solitude
that's how I feel dude ;-;
My literal goddamn stupid life
Ian from sirens lament said that (yall read any webtoons??)
Eden is love Eden is life
Hazard or the artist or Both :D
Kaneki Ken 😂
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ChelseaGamer omg hahahahahahahahhahahaha (it reminds me of that shrek video )
lol thought the same, hes a goood player!
This song found me and was in my suggested list. It saved me from my rock bottom. Year 2019 when I quit being a mess, 2020 didn't work and started to pick my pieces up. Listening to Eden songs. I still listen to this when I have my episodes of depression, and this make me stronger.
This is my go to song when fucked up out of my mind on just another bender. We are not the same...
2 years clean again in September. Here's to working towards the 3rd and all the ones after..
Congradulations. Here is to many more myself. I've been clean since september 2019
Olivia Draus-Barrett Very proud of you!
• k e l x i z i q • It’s amazing, remember your worth and you are here for a reason ok? Keep that head held up strong you got this 💓💓
Olivia Draus-Barrett I'm a few days clean, I'm making process... and finding ways to stop myself but when things get bad I can't control myself. I used to do it everyday, so I'm doing better :)
@• k e l x i z i q • YOU CAN STILL DO THIIIIIISSS, YOU GOT ITT
It makes me angry that EDEN is so unknown. EDEN is the best musical artist I've ever heard.
same feelings bro. spread the word i guess!
so true man. He really is.! He is in Berlin soon, just bought my tickets !:)
Gonna be in Berlin too. With the VIP Package to meet him :P
There's no best musical artist. There's not best art. There's just things that make you feel some ways you like. Art is no competition :)
DN4E I'm aware, and it's my opinion. My opinion can say anything I want about the best art.
My mental state has been hitting an all time low lately and this song has just been in my head over and over again. It feels... I dunno... calm? I feel like I'm not alone, even though I pretty much am as I'm facing depression alone atm. Anyways, thanks so much for this song Eden.
Hope u make it king 👑
I need more Eden in my life
me too!
Another new EDEN is gonna be out tomorrow :)!
+TomTropical really ? what is it
I dont know either but Koala stated there is gonna be one tpmorrow in another comment :)
+TomTropical so cool!
I am becoming more and more stressed and depressed every single day and this song is me
:(
Have a nice day !! You'll get better !! I wish you the best, Never give up !!
Arthur Aguiar ok thanks
Jay Pittman Stay strong bro. I went through depression about a year ago, it will get better.
d7_TeMpErRz you sure
I relate to this from a mental health standpoint, not the drugs. It still hits. And it's just such a fucking good song.
Same Mental health and Drugs point of view
I have a non-drug addiction but relate to the drug part
2024 anyone???
No
Don't wanna be here...
"But i'm addicted to hurting"
❤
Yup I remember listening to this on the way to school 5 years ago and it came up on my recommended bringing back memories
@@antoniohenry6028 been a long time coming! Go check my music out!
I need to go to rehab cos' I swear I'm addicted to anything EDEN
Lol
Same XD
me too... help
well i mean the song is literally called drugs so.... u may actually be addicted lol
Kritikill lol
‘I can’t love when I can’t even love myself’ favorite line that I could relate to so much
Abegail B. ikr same
All I want for Christmas is a follow on Instagram
instagram.com/koalakontrol/
K thx
done
Np
you're getting coal for Christmas instead
I like it I love O want some more of it.. It says I dont drugs, I am drugs. ???? !!!!!! 😅 I get it.
❤
2022. Still gets me through a lonely, dark night... Just like it used to.
Just like it always will.....
i like how every eden song has no bad comments
BenPlayz 16 wow I didn't even realize that
Maybe bc you're the cancer..?
Just putting that out there, take it or leave it.
I fell head over heels in love with an addict and he had me so convienced that he didn't want that life anymore, but the further I fell the further he drifted into the darkness of his addiction. And I just couldn't let go. I kept holding on unable to let go because I knew that the person I fell in love with was in there somewhere... and I wanted so badly to save him. But I couldn't and ended up losing myself in the process. This song hit me like a ton of bricks. He tried to be what I wanted but never what I needed.
This is what I'm going through right now. Thank you for sharing your story.
I was already crying because this song explains exactly how I feel right now but your comment made me cry more cause I can completely relate and it hurts....
Currently locked in this spiral myself. He's gonna end up overdosing and I can't stop it. 😥
I just want to add something that i think is something you should hear. It is entirely possible, even highly probable that he actually truly didn't want that life anymore lile he said but he just didn't know how to change. The fact that he continued to go down that road doesn't necessarily mean he was lying to you. I know when i was fighting with my addiction, i fucking despised myself and what i was doing and i wanted so badly to change but the influence drugs get over you when you use them to cope is unbelievable and no one who has never been addicted will understand how you can completely see the error of your ways and know you are in the wrong and still feel completely helpless and powerless to change.
Dude... the man I was with told me “I’m so sorry, I thought being with you would make me feel better, but it hasn’t.” It broke my heart. I wanted more than anything for him to be happy, and maybe it’s cuz I wanted that for myself and I saw myself In him...But people have to figure out how to heal themselves.. they can’t depend on anybody, even if you want to be everything they depend on..
I'm glad this song is 5+ minutes long.
Georgia Kalpidou same tbh
eden is everything music was meant to be, you can feel the emotion behind every lyric, the tone of voice, and then the music says everything the words can't capture. every song is pure beauty, and has helped me through so many hard nights. i don't think you're making music anymore but eden i am so grateful for the art you have created
my girlfriend showed me this song. i fell in love with it and totally didn't even think it was her that felt this way about us.
Edit: So this really blew up. I can't even speak to how this thread has impacted me over the last couple of years. There's heartbreak here, and yet so much inspiration to keep going. I want to start making playlists for people again, I haven't done that in a while, and I'd also like to start a chat with anyone who wants to just talk about life, so if anyone wants my snap or facebook i'm down
damn. make sure shes okay lol.
josh Subet her new boyfriend does enough of that for both of us
Mason Farrell im so sorry..
Mason Farrell this is how i feel and she don't know.
Stream Alexander I recommend telling her shit quick. nothing good is gonna come of it. once you think long and hard about things, you realise that they can and will change your entire life, for better or for worse. I can wager it's a 75/25 chance your life is gonna be hell if she finds out without you telling her, or she starts feeling something deeper and it destroys her life when she realises you don't
"she said you aint you when you like this" "and i said thats the point"
damn :|
magerr98 he*
magerr98 damn....
Savage.
magerr98 ahahaha that's me :|
magerr98 i dont get it
damn bish •-•
_♪ cuz imma fu•kin' mess sometimes ~ but still I could always be whatever you wanted ♪_
it's funny how that part of the song comes on right as I scroll down to this comment
Addy Wachob sameee
Eden makes me so emotional.
Only artist I can relate with.
40 seconds in, already new favorite song
This song hits a little too hard where it hurts..
TheDangerWolf Aint that tha truth....
I'm ain't American.
TheDangerWolf wdym
TeknoSquirrel ain't means are not.. " I am are not American". Great.
If y'all grow some fucking balls it doesn't hit you where it hurts
"I guess im lying cause I wanna, i gues im lying cause I don't." "Swear Lying is the only rush I need." *que relatable man tears*
Dylan Fray *cue
Nah...we gotta que to cry our man tears, we can't do it all at once. It'd be too much emotion at once.
😭😭😭
There is no time when I listen to this masterpiece and not get chills all over my body
Sometimes, I just want. No, I need to go to a very lonely area away from everyone and just scream until you have no more voice, until you spit blood. And let go the years of self hate and disappointment out. Kick, punch, cry and scream all of it.
Anyone can relate to that?
This makes three of us...
Nani i can understand you.. wish you and all of us whos been hurted a good year 2020
happiness yeah 😣
i’m with you
I need to do that rn. But I’m at home with my parents and I can’t do that without getting into trouble
You guys ever think that after you die, your music will always live on? Like your great great grandkids might look at old music one day and listen to your favorite song, completely oblivious to your existence, let alone your taste in music
If my great great grandkids don't like my music then they aren't my grandkids
No one has kids anymore, unless your a stupid teen that has unprotected sex, it's 3019 get with the times
I read a short story once where one character had the philosophy that we are immortal because one day someone, somewhere, sometime will embody the essence of who we are completely
@@teaadvice4996 this comment made me laugh my ass off
This made me think. I spent tons of time listening to awesome music and after I die someone might feel those same moments with music only which makes me think idk weird
Am I the only one who gets and enjoy goosebumps while singing this song?
this and rock + roll
watch me try not to break down crying it doesn't work
Montage & Filming -MCMXCV I do lol.
Montage & Filming -MCMXCV nope
No. This and several other EDEN songs man
Sydrahh MPS i do to -w-
A song to represent a whole generation
“‘youre not you when youre like this, this aint you and you know it’
and i said, ‘thats the point’”
o h m y g o d
no shit, eh?
I read this right as he sang that part of the song
breanna bree wolf _24 ❄️🌙🌔 BRUH I READ UR COMMENT WHILE IT HAPPENED mind blown
Alex Graelles bro ik.... makes so much sense
I actually worship you for getting the grammar so perfect in that comment...
"My chest is on fire, and my head just won't die"
I get it, paint it self :P
NieGramBezWedki
why isn't this song famous!?
Louiza H because everyone is going to be crying
+ Louiza H, coz then idt we would like it after it blew up.....well i know i wouldnt.but my God hes talented ;)
This song helps so much when you feel like your falling back into old ways.
I also come back to it when I feel myself slipping (or already falling in to) new bad habits.
i can't be the only one who always cries when i listen to this song.
you arent
Kayah G same
Feel you
u ain't cuz i be cryin non-stop...
no I do too it gets me in my feels especially since this song describes my life rn
“I can’t love when I can’t even love myself”
That’s so me right there
One night I was really depressed and I was trying to sleep by playing shuffle on Spotify and this song came on when I had just fallen asleep but I woke back up and finished listening to the song and wrote the title down and when I woke back up I listened to it on repeat and I love it so much
I did the same thing except it was Pandora instead of Spotify
You can't be "depressed" for one night you were just sad mate
I have a dam problem
can also be a synonym don't read too much into it. You know this
No matter how hard life hits you, never give up. Found this song while on depression due to many problems came a couple of months ago, especially when covid spreads. Thank you for this strong and thoughtful song. To whoever reads this who is also on my situation before, don't let your light turn off inside you.. it happens to me many times, i even attempted suicide many times but it is really not worth it. It is okay to let go off your tears sometimes. BE BRAVE TO YA'LL OUT THERE
when says " and I'll never let you know " am just
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0-0
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Nasou Elenh me too
DrastixMachina 💗💗
Nasou Elenh ελληνιδα?
Mine worldtude ναι
Nasou Elenh Και νόμιζα ότι είμαι ο μόνος που ακούει Έντεν.
I wanna cry
Jacob Alvarado are you in 8th grade? I think I know you
Berezerek Tylom No, lol
I did too
Jacob Alvarado who doesn't
You'll be ok, friend. 💙💙💙
last person to reply to this comment gets a hug
i want a hug
I would love a hug right now.
wtf lol i listen to this song at 3 am and there's a fresh comment gg
@@hup234hup lol i thought the same
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16 years old, lost, depressed, with a lot of problems that I myself caused and this song had me to the walls sing my lungs out...
Sorry you're struggling....
That's what music is for .Keeps us keeping on.❤️
hey you are going to be ok
hey, youre doing so good, even if youre struggling, i promise you life will take a turn, you will find people, music, animals, books, shows and smells that will help you find your way through life. You're doing so well, and im so so proud of you love!
You're 16 dude!! Your life is only on the first chapter. I felt the same way when I was you age if not worse keep your head up dude. Don't be afraid to talk
Fun Fact:
The guy who made this video is the same guy that made the "Lemme Smash" meme.
xXLoAfBlOkEXx I love that meme
xXLoAfBlOkEXx for real?
yea its on his channel too
nO
he made the lyric video for 'Are We Still Young" by Grant, aswell
she said you aint you when you like this
ME: Get some snickers brother
Poseidonox made my day xD
My god I have never laughed at a comment before. Now I have.
Stolen comment from MrSuicideSheep's vid
Meeeeeeee
😂😂😂
Where is everybody from?!
why grif so fucking ugly bro..
POLSKA ARMY! :D
I live in Cali if you wanna know how I got here I got here through a friend
India , from 2016 I have been following ur channel
New Zealand
This song and “Love Me” by Lukaz are literally the only two things getting me through these hard times, thank god for music! I love you
In the span of about 3 days, Eden has become my favorite band.
He is a single person. ^^ And same. Literally the first song i heard by him. i fell in love with him and i will never hate him.
When he says "cause I had these lungs" I almost start crying everytime because the sound of his vouce
omg same😂😍😭
Angelee Hoots YYEESS
He is saying that he wouldnt mind getting rid of them. Basically saying he needs this so much that lungs are a small price to pay.
nans life that vouce tho
Finally. A song that describes my anxiety disorder and what contributes to my failing relationships.
ElectricPanda808 I FEEL YOU
this song isn't about anxiety
but its not directed towards any anxiety it doesn't "describe" anxiety disorder
JordanFallsOut I wasn't meaning the Anxiety part. More the failing relationship part.
put its more about failing cause of the DRUGS he is on
and his addiction gets in the way of everything
Here right after the new year, still depressed as FUK!
(Y) same
@@gautam7599 I am honored you chose me to be the recipient of your first reply/comment!
come on babe u can do it, just smile and stay positiv
@@emilieclementine2672 aw thank you so much, I’m trying! Every day is a battle but I am determined to win!
@@grantritter4065 and you will win, I'm sure
its sad that you have to detach yourself from a person that you love dearly , just because you can see them losing the feelings you're currently gaining.
I feel that too... 😔
I went thru that a few times its not in your destiny god must have another plan for u i woulda died for this chick thought id never get over her then im met the most ride or die. Chick ive ever met 9 years later 5 kids later still going strong keep your head up sis it will pass and u will find your prince
Going through that right now too...💔
I can relate to this so fucking much, too much
And that's why my flight is booked to leave tomorrow...
I like the part where it says I can't love you if I can't love myself.
Brittiany Jenkins same
*but i'm addicted to hurting*
kyra lucy same to me..i like to hurt my heart and i like to cry
I dunno why but the feeling of pain actually is attractive. I like the pain, the hurt, it changes me somehow, I always accumulate hate for myself so I become cold. Even though it hurts, I need my pain. It makes me, who I am... It's weird actually
kyra lucy we all are
Cutting myself
I enjoy hurting and crying... I enjoy the feeling of breaking down, having no happiness and small emotions
For years and years Ive listened to this song and all of Eden's other songs, and I have somehow just realized
They NEVER miss.
This is like pouring honey and acid into my ears. So soothing yet hits you right in the feels.
Accurate
Shifana Fathymah wouldent thst hurt? Even pouring water into your ears it will sofen the your ear drums, leaking liquids that are harmful to the gas and oils inside your ears and body
this is like bleach watching u copy others comments
@@bishal1125 i know it's been a few years but who hurt u bro?
I don't do drugs but DAMN. And when Eden said "I said that's the point" my favorite part.
Eden is perfect
Eden means perfect in Portuguese
+Paulo Castro THAT'S SO COOL!
ahm? Como assim eden é perfeito em português
Stellx Lps I was joking dude :v
heheueheue br é foda
*Awh, I’m here again. I guess my depression leads me to the best songs I used to listen. Thank you.*
Don't even know why I'm crying for
Because it's relatable
I’m crying because I relate too much and it hurts so much
Same lol
Kinda want him to be known by everyone, get super known and popular, kinda want him to be our lil secret!! Hes so underrated but literally the best ❤
sounds like secret smile semisonic
Realy wanna listen this song i fell like m bad guy
I can't stop listening to this on repeat
me too.
Chloe Iversen Needs another 2 minutes added
Seen this man live, God damn he sounds so good. Would definitely recommend!!
This song rips my heart apart ugh.. song of my year for sure
Exactly
Papa Bleach same father
i don't think i could love this song any more than i already do!
This song is life 😍 I literally have memorized the whole thing❤❤❤
Oh my god this with headphones 😍
Love is like a drug when you have it you feel good when you lose it your looking for it more
That's the more poetic way I've heard of saying that love is addictive.
this one song expresses the feelings ive had, that ive been trying to come up with words for for two years now. this song hits home in all the worst song, I'm so addicted to it.
This song gives me memories about my 14-15 year old depression
@@VeryGoodDad bruh???? This reminds me of my 14-15 year old depression too. I don't think they were saying that being depressed at that age is a fad or an invalid thing. They were just saying this song reminds them of that period of their life. This song reminds me of that period of my life too because I listened to this song on repeat during those years when I was depressed. Still listen to it today, but i get flashbacks of being younger and the feelings i was going through when i was listening to it then.
bro im using this song get through my depression now and I'm a 19 yr old college student lol
@@ShadowDehgf u remind me of my sisters bruh, they're 19 and a college student
Satan Is Here! thanks satan
@@shiggysimp6047 yeah but he said it like "my 14 - 15 year old depression" instead of "the depression that i had when i was around 14 - 15 year old" as If he was saying teenage depression is a normal thing and will eventually fade out on its own which do seem like he's underplaying depression in general.
I'll forever remember this song, i first encountered it during the worst years of my life struggling with addictions and grief...
Coming back to listen to it again reminds me of why it was on repeat when i found it and ignited the reason to why it'll remain on repeat 💯
*This song became my favorite* -This song is like drugs-
this is Fiiirrreee!!! I'm in love with his voice. oh my... loooooove this track!! thank u for uploading!!! :)
I show this song to people thinking they'll LOVE it, but then this is their response. "Pop? Really dude?" I'm just there like "...................."
Why u bully me? Isn't this Indie Rock?
Hannah Dietscher I didn't say this was pop. I said that's what ppl would say to me if I showed this to them
All my friends are just like, "Really? This is what you listen to? This is depressing as hell..."
I mean...true but, hell, i actually relate to these songs, unlike all this other happy-go-lucky bullshit...
Too real?? Lel, sorry...
Why u bully me? EXACTLY
Douglas Nevins Same, everyone says it
Can't believe it has been over 4 years since this song came out, time really does fly by :(
This era sucks wanna go back to 2016
@@Korgvex I sure do wish it worked that way
She said "you're not you when you're like this" I said "that's the point"
Taylor Kay idk about you but that hit me like a truck of feels
Taylor Kay You're not You when you're hungry
He* + Nigga what the fuck is the point of this comment?! Yeah, and your not supposed to quote your own sentence.
Im in recovery, after 16 years of being in and out of active use. This song is everything.
@Viki Hülyeségei I haven't drank since 2014, though I used to be a big drinker. My DOC tho , are opiates & benzos . I did my time with amphetamines too, but opiates and benzos. Mainly opiates.
@@TLL921 I hope you're still good :)
stay strong there, i hope ur doing good
Stay strong!
i hope your doing well !!!