I’m currently going through this... it’s almost as if I’m grieving my old life/ old seasons. Honestly ion know how to overcome this.. I overcame depression last year and the same time this year I’m depressed again. & i came to realization that i love Jesus but i still don’t love myself. God forgives me but ion forgive myself it’s like self sabotage. Thank u for your vulnerability sis. 🙏🏾
Praying for you I battle with the same. But God has you he loves you his hand is on your life. Don’t forget we do go through seasons of life read Ecclesiastes; and read where Paul talks about being content in each season; pray for grace and mercy to get through each season you got this God has you; and most importantly he loves You
I say this all the time! I was constantly grieving my past traumas and pain not even realizing God was still pushing me forward. I received a message while praying and it said If God has shown you he has forgiven you and keeps blessing you, why are you still not forgiving yourself? You are worthy, and highly favored! The same grace God gives you, you must give to yourself! Stay blessed 😊
My problem is I often feel like God is angry at ME. It stems from trauma and perfectionism (also from my upbringing). I struggle understanding God’s love for me. :(
If you have loving parents who check up on you to make sure you’re ok, you’re not alone. You don’t know how much of a luxury that is. Some people really have no one who checks on them, parents who don’t even remember birthdays, or no one who cares whether you live or die. Good parents and caring siblings are priceless. A thousand more blessings to you.
I feel this on so many levels and it only stings when I fall on hard times. I've accepted that I don't have a proper support system but I do still ask God to send me angels and protection.
This year I lost my entire family. My sister, brother and mother all passed away leaving me alone in this world. I’ve been so anger with God. I’m not sure how to overcome these feelings. Thank you so much for this video.
No words can express how devastating it is to loose your loved ones. You're in my prayers and I pray that God will comfort and strengthen and give you peace in your hurt and pain. I lost my dad 10 years ago and I can't imagine losing my mom or my brother and my sisters. I pray that God will bring the right people into your life. Be blessed
If my life were a ticket and i could hand it over to God, i would have done it years ago....i am SO sick and tired of life....i have no ambition, hope, drive, future.....i just want to go "home" and be tucked away in heaven.
Man I felt that. I feel like the last two years of my life have been a train wreck and I find little to no happiness. So if I had a ticket I probably would have turned it in too a long time ago
That line where you said “if you ask God for something he’s going to do it” is the absolute TRUTH. This’s why I tell many, when you ask God to do something in your life *within his will* like removing people who aren’t supposed to be there, pray for him to give you the strength to endure. Because there will be people you least expected, who will leave your life. Don’t say that prayer unprepared! Amazing video 💕✨
@@yourbore Nah don’t feel that way God loves all of us and you may think he isn’t responding to you but the truth is it may be you… Try fasting & praying for your answers be sincere about what your speaking to him about and make sure your repenting from everything including what you just said about him he answers it’s just in his on timing man
@@yourboreh he loves you more than anybody ever can. The bible says a man’s days are few and of many troubles but God delivers him from them all. Endure and keep enduring, don’t throw in the towel…it’ll only make matters worse. If you have any unrepentant sin you are dealing with….repent! Ask for forgiveness and watch God move in your life. Hate and bitterness will keep you at a distance always. Trust me I feel your pain I’ve been there. But God is real and Just
I'm struggling with pride..been angry and resentful towards God and this has really harden my heart. It becomes hard to even talk to God and this has affected my relationship with God greatly.
What has really helped me is going back to the Gospel. Read Luke or John to remind yourself of what God has done for you. I recommend Luke greatly. I hope this helps
I am starting to realize from a friend that God right there with us even when we feel alone and unloved . I felt the same way but I had to let go of a lot of things and people. Now I’m understand what’s hurting me was that I hurt myself and others hurt me I am learning to forgive let go and love myself. You are worthy ❤
It's so scary. It's hurts and I'm so angry at God. Like I'm so mad at God. And it's growing. On the one hand He has fully delivered me from alcoholism, addiction, cigarettes, porn, musterbation and all that, those are things ive prayed for and God has TAKEN AWAY ONE BY ONE AMEN, however when it comes to jobs, my finances, my lack of career. My dying TH-cam channel,not meeting my husband. So many things. Like I can't even afford to buy panties, but He has also delivered me. So I feel so bad. Yet so angry. Yes I have no desire to read the word or pray.
This is me right here I thought I was alone. I graduated nursing school since December and can not find a job, I was fired from the first one after 2 days due to an issue ( it was a spiritual issue). I have depend on other people financially and I am the only one in my class without a job. I have struggled so much financially that I am so tired and have even thought about not praying about it anymore.
It's all about PERSPECTIVE my sister. The devil's #1 weapon against us is to separate us from God. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.(James 4:8) You are truly blessed. God has brought you through so many challenges that have destroyed others. Lastly God will always close some doors and open others. According to His divine plan, our steps are ordered. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5) God bless you!
Are we living the same life. I swear! I know I’m not the perfect Christian but I don’t deserve what I’ve been going through. I mean when things just happen back to back it’s like why even get up in the morning because honestly you don’t feel like there’s a reason. I’m literally over everything. It’s like I’m waiting for God to take me home.
I’m in a period of forced isolation, it’s not fun-it hurts deeply. I’ve prayed and read the Bible every day. Yesterday I read the book of Job and I suddenly got so mad at God-I couldn’t control it. It scares me and I’ve been asking for clarity from God, so many things make no sense to me.
I been through the same season for years. I wouldn't say I'm angry but I am tired of disappointment and watching everyone get their blessings that I have prayed for especially when they were people that hurt me. I'm just used to the negative so I'm in the not bothered phase of just not caring or feeling. I'm numb
I'm not angry at God anymore I realized it's not God's fault but I'm still in a defeated thought process about this new season I'm in. Alone. Absolutely no one to turn to . And tired of being alone an wishing my life would be good already
About 15 minutes ago I told the lord that I’m angry with him, 10 minutes ago I saw your content popped up on my phone, I’m like whattttt lol then I started listening and now a girl in tears, I pray that god heals my heart and provide for me my hearts desires, this video is so on time🙏🏽❤️❤️❤️thank you for being obedient to the Holy Spirit 😊
wow, that’s insane! be and stay in steadfast prayer and i will pray for you as well! pray and ask Jesus to help your unbelief! Mark 9:24 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m going through a tough phase, but Jesus is close to me. He loves me deep down I feel it. I pray for everyone out there, may the Lord comfort you and give you peace
I have literally prayed the same prayers. Somewhere last year, and God really answered them. One by one, he answered my prayers. I did feel hopeless at some point, but then it started to make sense. God’s ways are higher than our ways. Thank you for sharing this, sis🤎 God bless you and keep you in this season🙏🏾✨
Pride and disobedience. This was my folly. God gave me EXACTLY what I prayed for to the T. And then I idolized the blessing without even knowing it and then became proud, disobedient, broke promises to God about this blessing. And then he snatched it…. I have been praying for him to return that blessing to me for the past 2 months and 16 days. I realize that had he not taken the blessing for the moment that I wouldn’t have realized I was doing these things against The Lord. I was so mad at God and sometimes the frustration still comes back. I thank him for showing me the error of my ways. Now I’m praying he returns/resurrects the blessing since I have learned and changed. I’m praying and believing it’s not a situation where I’ve been kicked out of the garden but instead it’ll be like Lazarus and Jesus will resurrect the blessing/relationship.
Be encouraged y’all. Your praying, your honesty, your petition to God is not in vain. I just got through depression and feeling hopeless and impatient bc I’d been seeking God for a move and peace. After a few months God has truly moved and revealed so much to me. I felt his presence soooo strong and heavy like never before and he met me. He is GOD. ALMIGHTY. PERFECT IN ALL HIS WAYS. Continue to ask for understanding and wisdom in him.
I'm going through this as well. I find myself in my heart trying to be the centre of attention and hero in my own story instead of letting go and letting God. I'm currently praying against it though and it's nice getting these helpful tips in this video.
I was recently angry at God because of what I went through from childhood to my adulthood. I’m still angry and resentful towards God a bit that he allowed things to happen from my narcissistic mother and other people. Being bullied for being the square girl . It still hurts. I’m still working on it
Im so angry at God that I don’t wanna pray or anything as you said. I don’t kno how to let go of this pride because it’s so strong in my life. I’ve lost hope tbh. And it all just makes me angrier
This helped a lot. Lately God has been revealing that my heart was the root to all my problems. Thank you for being so open, just to know that I’m not alone and their are other brothers/sisters in Christ that struggle and deal with things as well just shows that were nothing without Jesus ❤ God bless you !
One of the things that hurt me the most is when I wasn’t “ grateful “ I use to pray about so many things, why this, why that ? Instead of accepting my humble position and what I already have.
I've been praying for the same things for Almost 20 years. Keep going in circles no matter how hard I try success seems to be far from me. I'm like ok God you said if I make one step you'll make two but Everytime I step you take me backwards. I'm not perfect by far but I'm not terrible either. But whatever 🥴
Recently, I voiced out my struggles to God, which I hardly ever do and I asked for help. The thing is I write a lot instead of being vocal about things, and like you said, I tend to want to figure things out alone. I didn’t really think much about me reaching out like that but when I found the answer in my writing and when everything clicked, I just broke down into tears. God really is listening and is always there for us, if only we let down our pride. Thank you for sharing sister 🌕🤍🦋
GIRL ME! it’s so hard for me to be vocal about things and open up vocally about my struggles especially being in a vulnerable place so i completely understand💗💗💗💗💗
I'm going through the samething sis. i was that dude telling all my friends to stop fornicating just basically preaching to them every chances i get. Firstly, I didn't have a job for many years, eventually I got one .I was happy that God heard my prayer as soon as I started the job, my TM was just straight threatening me regarding termination requesting me to do things that I wasn't trained for, and whenever you ask her for help, is either she gives you the wrong information or she ignores you. totally. everything about my daily activities just started going wrong from the company's software not working and not getting answers from the support team and all . I became heavily stressed out with anxiety,I couldn't sleep so I went to the doctors and I was diagnosed with diabetes type 2. I was lost, I felt unprotected by God . I couldn't talk to my friend about God anymore.I was confused, even one of my friends somehow took a shot at me , and to make the matter worse, the company I was working for laid me off from my job saying that they where over staffed . I was ashamed, angry. Now, I am in a dilemma as to how to get a good reference from my TM regarding my next job and i dont want to lie on my resume. but i know God is faithful still,perhaps i don't know where he's taking me too. I mean, I couldn't talk to God like I do everyday in the park and I can sense the devil saying where your God now, trying to yank off my built up faith in Christ, and that ain't going to happen regardless of what I am going through. Pray for me Kiki.
I stumbled across this right after I was internally venting to God, so I know Holy Spirit is at work. I’ll be honest. This hasn’t helped me one bit. I already know these verses and have spoken to Him and vented to Him in anger, tried to humble myself + tried to repent in prayer, did all- yet my patience is still running thin. I didn’t do it to get what I want- I did it because I wanted Him by my side and my spirit urged me to. I’ve been through hell for 16 months- endured it as we all must (as good soldiers of Christ) and I still can’t catch a break, it’s just been back-to-back obstacles + warfare + wickedness +jealousy + meeting people who aren’t doing their due diligence. I know I’m not perfect and not deserving of His grace but I’m really questioning why I’m here and am starting to prefer death over life. I’m wondering just how big my purpose must be for me to be fought heavily like this. Is all this worth my purpose? I want to throw in the towel. I’ve been angry at God a few times, but normally there’s a peace that enters my heart after speaking to Him, whether He answers me or not. This time, it’s created more anger. I’m in tears as I write this both because of the ongoing warfare and me not wanting to hurt God as He sits with me in the furnace and prunes me. These thoughts are by virtue of me being under intense spiritual attack- but the truth is I don’t want to fight anymore- I’m left with no strength- I don’t even have the strength to ask God for strength, but if I don’t- God’s name doesn’t get glorified. It’s so hard being in survival mode.
thank you so much on ur honesty! i can’t count the number of times i’ve watched a video relating to something i was going through and it didn’t help me one bit. sometimes i wish God can just come and sit on my bed and tell me what’s next, what’s to come, what to do plain and clearly but if he did and it was that easy we’d never get to full bask in his blessings, grace. We need to rejoice in our sufferings and through that it produces endurance and that produces character and that character produces hope! I recommend reading the book of Job. A man of God, a bond servant, blameless and upright someone who feared God and shunned evil! He was not to be played with until God said so. He had EVERYTHING stripped from him and was struck w complete physical and emotional devastation. I don’t wanna spoil the book for you but came of his situation at the end of it ALL was something he couldn’t even fathom and exceeded his expectations because that’s just what God does. I ask the same questions because sometimes i feel like all of what i go through mentally doesn’t seem to be worth it but it IS we just can’t see it. I understand sis 🥺 i really do 💗💗💗💗💗
@@journeywithkiki hey sis🥰❤️ I’m really familiar with the book of Job, yes his restoration was amazing. I’m feeling a little better today- with a touch of excitement but still have a long way to go as far as mastering spiritual maturity. He’s managed to replenish me since writing the OP. My biggest lesson this season has been to not despise humble beginnings. God bless you richly ❤️
WHEN I TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU SAID I CAN FEEL!!!! I feel it hun, down to the “he doesn’t answer me” I’ve told everyone that and they don’t believe me, it’s like I’m going crazy and I wanna keep a positive mindset about God and his powerful work, but it’s like I’m fighting to keep my head above water and it has been months for me too 🥺so if nobody understands what you are saying, I understand 💯
I read this with tears in my eyes. I won’t tell you what you already know, because as far as everything you’ve just said it’s evident you want to do the right thing by God, and that’s how I feel (you’re not just thinking about how get out for yourself/that’s faithfulness and God will honor that as you continue to put one foot in front of the other). This season has birthed new songs in me, if I don’t remain in a stance where God knows I’m still for Him it won’t be any good. We’re all in this together, I don’t know you physically, but I want to say that I love you, I’m rooting for you, I believe in you. The devil is a liar, you will live to see the glory of The Lord risen upon you. One verse that God brings to me is in Romans 8:28, the pain we’re feeling now cannot compare to the joy that’s coming, and another verse is the glory of the latter us greater than the former. I absolutely feel you. God is faithful🤍
I’m not angry at God but just today at work I was crying because I’m in a place without my family no real friends just me. I told him I just want to be around my family.
Algorithm really does know me well. I actually needed to hear this so thank you. I was once too angry at God, whenever something never works out, I get angry and throw a fit mentally to God. I've overcome that over the years. I realized that God or any of the people around me are not the problem. I realized that I'm the problem. I've prayed for so many things that I've been praying for for years now. Right now I have officially lost hope. I'm even afraid now of my own happiness because bad things might happen next. I realized that I'm just not skilful, talented, hard working or good enough to go to a place that I want to be in. I lack drive and passion which is my biggest struggle right now. I'm just officially tired, wanting to to not live anymore, lost, soulless, and hopeless while being numb with emotional pain. My family and friends can't help me, I have to help myself. I decided to just be more realistic with my hopes and desires by not wanting it anymore, even though I still do. I just think that I'm undeserving of God's grace since I'm just a sinful, ungrateful, and selfish of a human being. 2021 and 2022 has just been filled with failures and heartbreaks when it comes to my growth and career. I'm just overall done and tired. So now I just gave up. I hate myself even more now. I'm in the place that I don't want to be in. Maybe I do deserve it, because of all the mistakes and sins that I have committed from the past to this day. Despite of all the failures I've experienced, I still love and praise God no matter what until my last breath. I'm forever greatful for all the blessings he gave my family and I from the past to now. Maybe my goals and dreams aren't really meant for me. I'm just meant to live a sad, simple, and depressing life till the day I die. I've accepted that. Being hopeful is dangerous and has only made me feel worst, so now I'm just going with a flow. Maybe I was just so desperate and delusional. It's my fault that's why I'm miserable. I'll just pray for my family and I's health and that's it. No more dreaming about dream job or happiness that I've been longing for since I don't plan on taking the action towards my goals because I don't know how or where to start. I'll just pray for simpler small things and that's it. Dreaming big will only led me to more pain and disappointments. 14:15 I really needed to hear that so thank you. Only time will tell. I just really need to get this out of my chest. What a relief 😌
I don't know how to help all the problems in your life but I'm currently experiencing the same thing in regards to me being the problem. The bible verses been meditating on are Isaiah 54:10 '"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace removed," says the Lord who has compassion on you.' Compassion. The Lord has compassion towards us. As human beings, we do things that can be poisonous to our relationships and lives but we make errors... when no one else wants to help us or even love us, God does and He wants to change our situations if we submit to Him. You'll be greater than okay because God is ready to forgive you and renew your situation if you diligently seek Him ♡
Maybe God wants to direct you to your true purpose. Try talking to Him about it. When God puts qualities in us that makes us us It's to help us fulfil our purpose
No, it's not the algorithm that knows you well, it's God. You were meant to hear this message because He wants you to know that this is not a singular experience. It's a human experience in which even Jesus Himself felt the pressure at some point in His earthly form. I'm going through something very similar to you, so thanks for sharing! Man, it breaks my heart to read your comment, because as difficult as life has been for me for the past four years, I refuse to accept that life is going to be this way forever- those are lies from the enemy! REBUKE this lie! I want you to remember that there's no great human who became great from having a smooth sailing life. Greatness is built from hardships/immense pressure. You're going to be so great! What you have right now is a testimony. I sometimes wonder if my dreams are too big, but I know God wouldn't put them in my heart if they weren't my dreams to have! Many people in the Bible waited decades to see God's promises, not to discourage you, but to remind you that you are highly favored. God does not make a "Judas" wait, He makes His children who are called by His name wait! Right now I'm realizing that my long wait isn't to break me down to die, but to break me down to build me up into the person I need to be to walk into my new season. You might not feel special right now, but the fact that you are here is a big indicator that God is doing a great work in you! He's not done with you! He has just begun! I wondered what the lesson in my struggle was after I stopped pitying myself, and realized that this is a key moment in my journey. You're growing through the pain; never hate yourself. You were made in God's image. He does no wrong. We might not understand now what He's doing exactly, but God has a plan for us to prosper and not to harm us! (Jeremiah 29:11) God is adding pressure so that someday (in His timing) the Diamond in you will be revealed. He's preparing you for things that are far greater than what you've dreamed of. "...be of good cheer; I have overcome the world," John 16:33
I was just balling my eyes out to God, angry at Him for allowing me to go through so much pain alone but your video popped up and yeah, all I can say is thank you. Thank you so much. I definitely needed the reminder of all of those things and it brought me peace. This video definitely helps many. Thank you and God bless you. You got this girl
I literally had this break down the other day with God. All the things I learned and found comfort in i had to get rid. I was never alone giiirl it was so much to accept where i was mad and didn't speak to him but taking matters into my own hands which led me to stress and fall back into sin just to escape the feeling. Which made it worse because I actually care about God and his point of view . Where now im at a stage of accepting my old ways are not good for me and learning how to express myself with God regardless of how i feel .
Today was literally the first day I ran towards God with my pain, hurt and resentment. I can relate to what you are saying. Thank you for sharing this testimony. God bless you.
girl you make it so fun n casual talking about God, i love it 😭💖 i was smiling when u were talking about the list of ur answered prayers, He really did that
I love your video!!! I just recognized that we are in November and as I analyzed this year and listened to you, I realized that I am in the season that I prayed for. It was tough but God had a plan. He even elevated me in front of my enemies which showed me something else about Him. He don’t play about His kids. I learned two things in this seasonal year: 1.) I had to value myself 2.) Really back up my faith with trust in God that He will take care of my needs. I’m not a patient person and He knows that but man I learned a lot from Him this year! This is amazing!
I have been angry at God all week. Resentful. I have had such a hard time with this & this video helped me so so so much. I ended up journaling to God begging for help to soften my heart and bring me back closer to him. Thank you for posting this ❤
Yess. Cause sometimes the enemy doesn't project himself but projects self. It's very important to put our pride aside cause all the enemy needs is just an opportunity!
I believe God allowed me to see this video , when I opened TH-cam and scrolled and found this video because I'm going through the same right now . I remember I prayed for God to expose the things in my heart and when he did through dreams and to other people in their dreams I became angry and bitter and gave up on God because I didn't want to be a bad person or to have those things in my heart towards people and God . I was angry at myself and took it out on God like why was I even born or alive if I'm struggling with these things in my heart . My heart became hard towards God to the point I didn't feel sorry for my sins but now I'm running back to him to change my heart to be sensitive to his spirit and to restore my conviction
Sometimes I get so angry at God & I yell at him because I need to vent it to him. Once I do that, I apologize to God & thank him for allowing me to vent, followed by asking him to help me release my anger & fear and to help me strengthen my trust in him. God wants us to have a personal relationship with him, & sometimes in relationships we get angry & need to vent it. The important thing is we don't get stuck in that anger.
My birthday is august 16 and that devo was speaking right to me. Also the fact that God has been telling me that if he gave me all the things I wanted right now I wouldn’t be ready for the blessings spiritually!
I’ve literally been in the same exact boat since April of this year. I’m just now starting to see the purpose of this season but I was so angry and resentful towards God at first. The good thing about seasons is that they change😭 I stopped resisting and I’m starting to feel a shift again. God bless you! Your channel makes me feel less isolated🙏🏽
Im 50 years old.. i have been upset at God. i felt bad. I did a search on rhis topic, your video came up. I was like, should i watch? What can this young girl say to me??😅 Giirrrll, 👏👏👏👏 ❤❤❤ you are very mature n the flow of your content was great.. God Bless you..Pastors dont touch is this subject very much..n im sure many many people go through this. Any how great job..
I used to be angry at God and now I’m moving out of this season and out of a season of being angry at myself and into a season of forgiving myself, loving myself, recognizing what I need. It’s such a tiring thing because old habits are no longer serving who I’m becoming. I feel like it’s going to be a lifelong process
I’m struggling with this right now I have been angry, prideful and not patient with my walk with God I will get angry about how I don’t have the fire like our fellow brothers and sisters and why my relationship is not where I want it to be, but I need to realize my Faith and my relationship with God will grow with obedience, Faith and taking it one step at a time, as well as just leaving it in his hands. Thank you for this video!!
Came across your video after realizing my anger at god was happening. Never did I imagine somebody else would have gone through this exact obstacle. I found so much peace in my heart after watching the video through and listening to your experience. I truly believe god led me to your story. Thank you for sharing this, god bless ❤
Thank you for dropping this video. I am going through a season of being ALONE and I too was mad at God but, seeing you stand on your faith while being obedient has increased mine!
Having quiet time right now and I've been secretly mad at God for about two months and I'd just started to hash it out with Him in Quiet time today. So I came on TH-cam to look for worship music to worship with and the first thing I saw was your video. Haha I'm like Okay, Jesus let's go. When you said we're standing in seasons we prayed for, I felt that. Feltttt it. Been praying John 15 since forever and I realised oh yes, this is the pruning that comes with Growth. Thank you for this Kiki.
i find myself right now very conflicted with God and my life overall, i went to church yesterday with my parents and was nothing but angry. i really think this was a sign from God to see this video and to revaluate myself. thank you🙂
I’m going through the exact same season wow. I just finished a prayer in asking God for help. Then this video pops up on my feed…ur prayers were my prayers a while back & they’re coming to pass now! Wow😩🙏🏿
I’m so grateful for this because It lets me know other saints are in the same space and that I’m not alone. Potentially the hardest year of my life but I’m so full of faith the Lord is restoring me. 1 Peter 5:10 has been my anchor
Hey girl heyyy I’m not in a space where I’m angry at God but I admire you sharing this with us because people really do go through being angry at God because the outcome doesn’t look like how we thought it would but I say all that to say this I’m learning that it’s not about how the outcome looks. It’s about the process it took to get there and what you learned through the process that leads to God’s bigger Picture for us❤.
Sister continue been a blessing am in that stage too. His preparing us for something big that we don’t even wish for ourselves, your very beautiful your skin is glowing his shining on you ❤keep it up be strong . Much love 💕
You are speaking to me. I cried so much watching this. God is always on time. We just have to be patient and committed to the dream. Thank you so much!
I subscribed half way through this video! Girl, your obedience in making this video is much appreciated! THANK YOU - I, and many other women of God, NEEDED TO HEAR THIS WORD. Keep serving AND obeying God Kiki, and be encouraged in the Lord Jesus ...HE LOVES YOU!! May God bless you abundantly, for being obedient in making this video! Obedience is truly better than sacrifice (preaching everything I said to myself also) 🥰🤗❤
I kept seeing this video on my fyp, and ignoring it, today I've finally watched it. Lord help me to enjoy this season in my life, help me to stop self sabotaging, help me to stop trying to do things on my own.
Hey love, thank you so much for this. At 9:01 you touch on something I have been praying on. I have been going through a period of dried up creativity and this morning I got the wisdom that all my life I have been working and that blocked me from seeing God's grace and now I am being asked to sit back and relax while God is working on grace so I can finally see it. Much love.
WOW!! Thank you for sharing this!! You said so much of what I've been dealing with, for a few YEARS now. Before I found your video, I had literally just finished telling God that I was angry at Him and why. So after I spoke with Him about it...I got up out of bed and read a few psalms and then decided to look for some videos on TH-cam about how to restore a right relationship with Him...after being angry at Him for so long. That's when I found your video. God is so good!! I never thought about the fact that He may have been answering prayers that I had asked Him to. Thank you again for sharing this !! You gave me several things to think about!! God bless you!!❤🙏
I'm 31 and your advice and experience has helped me a lot. At 22 I am so happy at how mature you are in your faith in God. I wish I had strong faith like yourself and feel ashamed that at my age I am still getting angry at God.
I feel like most things that happen to us are because of ourself, there are things that God had nothing to do with. Best believe he will step in to fix it if you call on him and stick with him
Girl! Get out my business! 😬😅 Thank you so much for sharing this. I can totally relate. I'm in a season of stillness right now. What you said hit home. I prayed for this. I prayed for a deeper relationship with him, more time to get in my word and to hear from him more clearly and he has granted me just that. It's been quite hurtful, separating from people and even my business. I now have all the time in the world to sit in his presence and I'm mad. Whew! I hear you, Lord. Let me be grateful for this time of rest and stillness and get my life together so I'm prepared for what's to come. ❤ God bless you for your honesty.
Thank you Kiki, this softened my heart. I appreciate your vulnerability and exposure. I felt that I wasn't alone and that another was going through anger and resentment towards God and that it's okay to know that and be there, but not stay there. Your points were convicting, peace-filled and encouraging. This is my first time on the channel and I'm a new subscriber. I am hoping the best for you. Btw you look so beautiful 😍, you are just glowing. I need to find my skin care routine and get my skin like that. My mix of stress and harmful products aren't working 😂. Blesssed day!
I believe I did not come across this video by accident. I have been 7 and a half month unemployed, chronic Lyme disease, parents that do not believe my illness and gossip and tell others all my business , lost all friends
I appreciate your words and for sharing. I love that you notice how we can be living in what we prayed to God for a year or two years ago...really makes us think about how he answers our prayers in God's timing.
Same here, since I followed Jesus Christ I lost everything, my home, my wife and my dog 😭 I know it seems small to y'all but it was the only thing I had. For a while I would question why? Lord........ Isolation brings elevation 🙏🙌
@thegirlnextdoor1649 Please understand it still hope for you in life. Don't give up on God keep the faith. And keep blessing his name trying your best do his will. Keep your faith don't let it go please. I know it not easy.
I struggled with trying to figure out how not telling God how you are feeling so pride but now I understand. Sometimes I just don’t even know what to say to Him.
Thank you for creating this video! I went through a similar situation recently, and all the feelings and thoughts you shared are ones that I had during this time. This alone encourages me that being angry at God can be a common thing that happens in our lives, and I don't have to feel like I'm doing something bad (because it is a natural occurrence in human emotion). Most importantly, how you talk about choosing to put pride aside to be humble before Him and ask Him to help you is essential for the next step of the process! Every detail included in this video was done beautifully
I think the biggest thing for me was being real with God allowed me to be real with myself which is extremely hard.. alone.. but with God it felt easy 💕 God bless hon
Haven’t even started this but I’m glad this video is here. I’m in a good place spiritually when it comes to not denying God or out and out refusing to do His will. But I have been dealing with something heavy and twisted for 3 years now. I know He is there, but I have been leaning on faith so long praying for this season to pass. And it just got worse last week. I am so so angry, but I just feel abandoned. Saying it out loud I knowww feeling this way doesn’t lead to anything good, but I’m getting to a point where I feel like I’m a fool being used and I feel done with it. I just look at everyone else seemingly living their normal life and I’m so jealous because I wish for normal SO bad. I ultimately know I have to talk to Him, but I just can’t rn because I’m so hurt. Thank you for this video because it is so helpful not to feel alone.
This year I did nothing I'm alone no love no money no hope no nothing sometimes I wonder maybe I did something bad in my past life so I'm paying now I love everybody but they repay me with bad ...I pray and pray nothing happens I decide to not ask anymore maybe everything good are not ment to me I'm tired and what should I do
Oooph!😩 I've been grieving my old life since January. I renounced EVERYTHING, was led to fast for more than a month, was skin and bone, depressed/suicidal, threw out everything from my past (some of those things were brand new, newish, it broke me), gave up all of my old habits and patterns. The result. I got delivered from nicotine, weed, suicide + depression. I didn't really drink much, but that too dried up. I started reading my Bible and I humbled myself and made apologies to people who genuinely 'think' their victims, but I had to keep my side clean and keep it pushing. I made peace with my past and forgave the people I needed to forgive. I started listening to sermons, watched Biblical movies, started praying and praising and worshipping with songs and dance. Listen to scriptures while I sleep and as a background noise, etc. The last week of my birthday month, January, I heard a diabolical laughing voice, as I was waking up but I could still feel my body laying on my bed. It crashed into my body as if it wanted to either shuff my spirit out my body or as if it wanted to maybe drag me through the bed, like into another dimension or something? People have so many hell encounters like that, but as it literally felt as if I was falling through the bed, but I became aware I was still on the bed, I felt a strong hand wrap around my ankle and start to pull me off the bed - to wake me up? No idea but I was grateful and immediately went into praise and worship with Shackles from Mary Mary. The result?! I had a Godly encounter between 12-3am the morning and it was AMAZING! I've NEVER felt that kind of love and acceptance and compassion. We think we know what love is, but we truly don't. I didn't want to wake up. If it had been an OBE and I was given the choice of staying or returning, I would've stayed. I'm telling you, I'm not throwing away my salvation for anybody!!! If I have to die upside down on a cross, or be poor for the rest of my days, but I'll see God in his fullness, best believe, I'll be a martyr!!!
I was definitely here for most of 2022 and I realised it’s everything I prayed for and asked for. I prayed for an opportunity to do my masters and for God to remove relationships that no longer serve me and chileeee I have lost so much this year but for the goodness and the mercy of the Lord shall follow me all the days of my life. I believe that God is holding my hand through it all. Everything drew me closer to God.
I needed to hear this and Thank you for sharing your story sis!! I’m going through a similar season even regarding school. I’m currently going through a phase or resentment and feeling like I can fix my own problems. I’m glad I came across your video to remind me that I need to lean on God and ask for help. God has brought me this far and I know he will never forsake me! Power to you sis and keep going ❤🙏🏾
I’m currently going through this... it’s almost as if I’m grieving my old life/ old seasons. Honestly ion know how to overcome this.. I overcame depression last year and the same time this year I’m depressed again. & i came to realization that i love Jesus but i still don’t love myself. God forgives me but ion forgive myself it’s like self sabotage. Thank u for your vulnerability sis. 🙏🏾
ugh i completely understand especially on the self sabotage part 😭💗
What the heck this is literally what I’m dealing with.
Praying for you I battle with the same. But God has you he loves you his hand is on your life. Don’t forget we do go through seasons of life read Ecclesiastes; and read where Paul talks about being content in each season; pray for grace and mercy to get through each season you got this God has you; and most importantly he loves You
I say this all the time! I was constantly grieving my past traumas and pain not even realizing God was still pushing me forward. I received a message while praying and it said If God has shown you he has forgiven you and keeps blessing you, why are you still not forgiving yourself? You are worthy, and highly favored! The same grace God gives you, you must give to yourself! Stay blessed 😊
I used struggle with depression until I went through deliverance. Look up Kevin’s teachings on deliverance it’s life changing.
My problem is I often feel like God is angry at ME. It stems from trauma and perfectionism (also from my upbringing). I struggle understanding God’s love for me. :(
If you have loving parents who check up on you to make sure you’re ok, you’re not alone. You don’t know how much of a luxury that is. Some people really have no one who checks on them, parents who don’t even remember birthdays, or no one who cares whether you live or die. Good parents and caring siblings are priceless. A thousand more blessings to you.
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Im blessed to have that AMEN
@@20cutzz You're one of the lucky ones. God's blessings. I am happy for you.
This is very true, we take that for granted.
I feel this on so many levels and it only stings when I fall on hard times. I've accepted that I don't have a proper support system but I do still ask God to send me angels and protection.
This year I lost my entire family. My sister, brother and mother all passed away leaving me alone in this world. I’ve been so anger with God. I’m not sure how to overcome these feelings. Thank you so much for this video.
❤🤍👏you are strong. 2023 will be your year
So sorry to hear this, God will never leave you. He will continue to strengthen you, he will bless you and provide for you. Stay strong
@@krixttysimon2705 thank you
God's got you
No words can express how devastating it is to loose your loved ones. You're in my prayers and I pray that God will comfort and strengthen and give you peace in your hurt and pain. I lost my dad 10 years ago and I can't imagine losing my mom or my brother and my sisters. I pray that God will bring the right people into your life. Be blessed
Your glow alone shows how much God is working in your life.
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It’s called good skin care
@@familyvideosmakingmemories3590 😅
If my life were a ticket and i could hand it over to God, i would have done it years ago....i am SO sick and tired of life....i have no ambition, hope, drive, future.....i just want to go "home" and be tucked away in heaven.
Please just be honest with God and seek help therapy and community through church. I will be praying for you!
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Youbarw not alone. I hope things get better. God says trouble won't last always
Man I felt that. I feel like the last two years of my life have been a train wreck and I find little to no happiness. So if I had a ticket I probably would have turned it in too a long time ago
That line where you said “if you ask God for something he’s going to do it” is the absolute TRUTH. This’s why I tell many, when you ask God to do something in your life *within his will* like removing people who aren’t supposed to be there, pray for him to give you the strength to endure. Because there will be people you least expected, who will leave your life. Don’t say that prayer unprepared! Amazing video 💕✨
Yes ! & he moves quickly too !!!
@@ashleyscrlla mannnn fr people started falling out of my life within days and they also exposed themselves but sadly they were close
I've asked him to talk to me or even hug me and he doesnt give a shit
@@yourbore Nah don’t feel that way God loves all of us and you may think he isn’t responding to you but the truth is it may be you… Try fasting & praying for your answers be sincere about what your speaking to him about and make sure your repenting from everything including what you just said about him he answers it’s just in his on timing man
@@yourboreh he loves you more than anybody ever can. The bible says a man’s days are few and of many troubles but God delivers him from them all. Endure and keep enduring, don’t throw in the towel…it’ll only make matters worse. If you have any unrepentant sin you are dealing with….repent! Ask for forgiveness and watch God move in your life. Hate and bitterness will keep you at a distance always. Trust me I feel your pain I’ve been there. But God is real and Just
I'm struggling with pride..been angry and resentful towards God and this has really harden my heart. It becomes hard to even talk to God and this has affected my relationship with God greatly.
ugh i def understand girl💗
What has really helped me is going back to the Gospel. Read Luke or John to remind yourself of what God has done for you. I recommend Luke greatly. I hope this helps
@@Sweetlife201 thank you so much
I am starting to realize from a friend that God right there with us even when we feel alone and unloved . I felt the same way but I had to let go of a lot of things and people. Now I’m understand what’s hurting me was that I hurt myself and others hurt me I am learning to forgive let go and love myself. You are worthy ❤
@@BriW3 thank you for this❤️
It's so scary. It's hurts and I'm so angry at God. Like I'm so mad at God. And it's growing. On the one hand He has fully delivered me from alcoholism, addiction, cigarettes, porn, musterbation and all that, those are things ive prayed for and God has TAKEN AWAY ONE BY ONE AMEN, however when it comes to jobs, my finances, my lack of career. My dying TH-cam channel,not meeting my husband. So many things. Like I can't even afford to buy panties, but He has also delivered me. So I feel so bad. Yet so angry. Yes I have no desire to read the word or pray.
This is my EXACT Situation 😭😭
This is me right here I thought I was alone. I graduated nursing school since December and can not find a job, I was fired from the first one after 2 days due to an issue ( it was a spiritual issue). I have depend on other people financially and I am the only one in my class without a job. I have struggled so much financially that I am so tired and have even thought about not praying about it anymore.
At least you have more than 1k subscribers
It's all about PERSPECTIVE my sister. The devil's #1 weapon against us is to separate us from God. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.(James 4:8) You are truly blessed. God has brought you through so many challenges that have destroyed others. Lastly God will always close some doors and open others. According to His divine plan, our steps are ordered. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5) God bless you!
Are we living the same life. I swear! I know I’m not the perfect Christian but I don’t deserve what I’ve been going through. I mean when things just happen back to back it’s like why even get up in the morning because honestly you don’t feel like there’s a reason. I’m literally over everything. It’s like I’m waiting for God to take me home.
I’m in a period of forced isolation, it’s not fun-it hurts deeply. I’ve prayed and read the Bible every day. Yesterday I read the book of Job and I suddenly got so mad at God-I couldn’t control it. It scares me and I’ve been asking for clarity from God, so many things make no sense to me.
I been through the same season for years. I wouldn't say I'm angry but I am tired of disappointment and watching everyone get their blessings that I have prayed for especially when they were people that hurt me. I'm just used to the negative so I'm in the not bothered phase of just not caring or feeling. I'm numb
Everything is a season, and keep praying, hoping and believing you will come out of it by God’s grace…
@@krixttysimon2705 thank you ❤🙏
I felt this so much, because I’m currently going through the exact same thing.
Felt this to my soul!
Being mad at God happens, it either makes us fall to a low spiritual place or lifts us up to higher ground.
I’m definitely at this point right now ... I just feel like he ain’t hearing me. 😞.. I feel like Giving my life to God just made my life more Harder .
I'm not angry at God anymore I realized it's not God's fault but I'm still in a defeated thought process about this new season I'm in. Alone. Absolutely no one to turn to . And tired of being alone an wishing my life would be good already
it’s okay girl you are not alone 💗💗
Girl you not alone is bringing right people to you have faith.
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About 15 minutes ago I told the lord that I’m angry with him, 10 minutes ago I saw your content popped up on my phone, I’m like whattttt lol then I started listening and now a girl in tears, I pray that god heals my heart and provide for me my hearts desires, this video is so on time🙏🏽❤️❤️❤️thank you for being obedient to the Holy Spirit 😊
wow, that’s insane! be and stay in steadfast prayer and i will pray for you as well! pray and ask Jesus to help your unbelief! Mark 9:24 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Same! But I didn’t say it out loud I said it in my heart before the video popped up.
This happened to me 😭🙏🏾
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Our God is amazing!!!!! Thank you guys for being opening ❤
Being honest with God is soooo important!! I loved this 🥺
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This was definitely me, I prayed for my worldy relationship to end and it definitely did😂a girl was HURT!
I’m going through a tough phase, but Jesus is close to me. He loves me deep down I feel it. I pray for everyone out there, may the Lord comfort you and give you peace
The fact that she always looks good & dresses her best >>>
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I have literally prayed the same prayers. Somewhere last year, and God really answered them. One by one, he answered my prayers. I did feel hopeless at some point, but then it started to make sense. God’s ways are higher than our ways. Thank you for sharing this, sis🤎 God bless you and keep you in this season🙏🏾✨
yes!!!💗
Yes!!!
Pride and disobedience. This was my folly. God gave me EXACTLY what I prayed for to the T. And then I idolized the blessing without even knowing it and then became proud, disobedient, broke promises to God about this blessing. And then he snatched it…. I have been praying for him to return that blessing to me for the past 2 months and 16 days. I realize that had he not taken the blessing for the moment that I wouldn’t have realized I was doing these things against The Lord. I was so mad at God and sometimes the frustration still comes back. I thank him for showing me the error of my ways. Now I’m praying he returns/resurrects the blessing since I have learned and changed. I’m praying and believing it’s not a situation where I’ve been kicked out of the garden but instead it’ll be like Lazarus and Jesus will resurrect the blessing/relationship.
Did you get the blessing back? How have you been? Anything new happen?
Be encouraged y’all. Your praying, your honesty, your petition to God is not in vain. I just got through depression and feeling hopeless and impatient bc I’d been seeking God for a move and peace. After a few months God has truly moved and revealed so much to me. I felt his presence soooo strong and heavy like never before and he met me. He is GOD. ALMIGHTY. PERFECT IN ALL HIS WAYS. Continue to ask for understanding and wisdom in him.
yes amen!!!❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much! I needed to see this
I'm going through this as well. I find myself in my heart trying to be the centre of attention and hero in my own story instead of letting go and letting God. I'm currently praying against it though and it's nice getting these helpful tips in this video.
yes!😭💗💗
I was recently angry at God because of what I went through from childhood to my adulthood. I’m still angry and resentful towards God a bit that he allowed things to happen from my narcissistic mother and other people. Being bullied for being the square girl . It still hurts. I’m still working on it
Im so angry at God that I don’t wanna pray or anything as you said. I don’t kno how to let go of this pride because it’s so strong in my life. I’ve lost hope tbh. And it all just makes me angrier
This helped a lot. Lately God has been revealing that my heart was the root to all my problems. Thank you for being so open, just to know that I’m not alone and their are other brothers/sisters in Christ that struggle and deal with things as well just shows that were nothing without Jesus ❤ God bless you !
yes you are NOT alone, i’m so happy this video helped you🥺❤️❤️❤️
Same !!
One of the things that hurt me the most is when I wasn’t “ grateful “ I use to pray about so many things, why this, why that ? Instead of accepting my humble position and what I already have.
I've been praying for the same things for Almost 20 years. Keep going in circles no matter how hard I try success seems to be far from me. I'm like ok God you said if I make one step you'll make two but Everytime I step you take me backwards. I'm not perfect by far but I'm not terrible either. But whatever 🥴
Recently, I voiced out my struggles to God, which I hardly ever do and I asked for help. The thing is I write a lot instead of being vocal about things, and like you said, I tend to want to figure things out alone. I didn’t really think much about me reaching out like that but when I found the answer in my writing and when everything clicked, I just broke down into tears. God really is listening and is always there for us, if only we let down our pride. Thank you for sharing sister 🌕🤍🦋
GIRL ME! it’s so hard for me to be vocal about things and open up vocally about my struggles especially being in a vulnerable place so i completely understand💗💗💗💗💗
I'm going through the samething sis. i was that dude telling all my friends to stop fornicating just basically preaching to them every chances i get. Firstly, I didn't have a job for many years, eventually I got one .I was happy that God heard my prayer as soon as I started the job, my TM was just straight threatening me regarding termination requesting me to do things that I wasn't trained for, and whenever you ask her for help, is either she gives you the wrong information or she ignores you. totally. everything about my daily activities just started going wrong from the company's software not working and not getting answers from the support team and all . I became heavily stressed out with anxiety,I couldn't sleep so I went to the doctors and I was diagnosed with diabetes type 2. I was lost, I felt unprotected by God . I couldn't talk to my friend about God anymore.I was confused, even one of my friends somehow took a shot at me , and to make the matter worse, the company I was working for laid me off from my job saying that they where over staffed . I was ashamed, angry. Now, I am in a dilemma as to how to get a good reference from my TM regarding my next job and i dont want to lie on my resume. but i know God is faithful still,perhaps i don't know where he's taking me too. I mean, I couldn't talk to God like I do everyday in the park and I can sense the devil saying where your God now, trying to yank off my built up faith in Christ, and that ain't going to happen regardless of what I am going through. Pray for me Kiki.
I stumbled across this right after I was internally venting to God, so I know Holy Spirit is at work. I’ll be honest. This hasn’t helped me one bit. I already know these verses and have spoken to Him and vented to Him in anger, tried to humble myself + tried to repent in prayer, did all- yet my patience is still running thin. I didn’t do it to get what I want- I did it because I wanted Him by my side and my spirit urged me to. I’ve been through hell for 16 months- endured it as we all must (as good soldiers of Christ) and I still can’t catch a break, it’s just been back-to-back obstacles + warfare + wickedness +jealousy + meeting people who aren’t doing their due diligence. I know I’m not perfect and not deserving of His grace but I’m really questioning why I’m here and am starting to prefer death over life. I’m wondering just how big my purpose must be for me to be fought heavily like this. Is all this worth my purpose? I want to throw in the towel. I’ve been angry at God a few times, but normally there’s a peace that enters my heart after speaking to Him, whether He answers me or not. This time, it’s created more anger. I’m in tears as I write this both because of the ongoing warfare and me not wanting to hurt God as He sits with me in the furnace and prunes me. These thoughts are by virtue of me being under intense spiritual attack- but the truth is I don’t want to fight anymore- I’m left with no strength- I don’t even have the strength to ask God for strength, but if I don’t- God’s name doesn’t get glorified. It’s so hard being in survival mode.
thank you so much on ur honesty! i can’t count the number of times i’ve watched a video relating to something i was going through and it didn’t help me one bit. sometimes i wish God can just come and sit on my bed and tell me what’s next, what’s to come, what to do plain and clearly but if he did and it was that easy we’d never get to full bask in his blessings, grace. We need to rejoice in our sufferings and through that it produces endurance and that produces character and that character produces hope! I recommend reading the book of Job. A man of God, a bond servant, blameless and upright someone who feared God and shunned evil! He was not to be played with until God said so. He had EVERYTHING stripped from him and was struck w complete physical and emotional devastation. I don’t wanna spoil the book for you but came of his situation at the end of it ALL was something he couldn’t even fathom and exceeded his expectations because that’s just what God does. I ask the same questions because sometimes i feel like all of what i go through mentally doesn’t seem to be worth it but it IS we just can’t see it. I understand sis 🥺 i really do 💗💗💗💗💗
@@journeywithkiki hey sis🥰❤️ I’m really familiar with the book of Job, yes his restoration was amazing. I’m feeling a little better today- with a touch of excitement but still have a long way to go as far as mastering spiritual maturity. He’s managed to replenish me since writing the OP. My biggest lesson this season has been to not despise humble beginnings. God bless you richly ❤️
WHEN I TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU SAID I CAN FEEL!!!! I feel it hun, down to the “he doesn’t answer me” I’ve told everyone that and they don’t believe me, it’s like I’m going crazy and I wanna keep a positive mindset about God and his powerful work, but it’s like I’m fighting to keep my head above water and it has been months for me too 🥺so if nobody understands what you are saying, I understand 💯
I read this with tears in my eyes. I won’t tell you what you already know, because as far as everything you’ve just said it’s evident you want to do the right thing by God, and that’s how I feel (you’re not just thinking about how get out for yourself/that’s faithfulness and God will honor that as you continue to put one foot in front of the other). This season has birthed new songs in me, if I don’t remain in a stance where God knows I’m still for Him it won’t be any good.
We’re all in this together, I don’t know you physically, but I want to say that I love you, I’m rooting for you, I believe in you. The devil is a liar, you will live to see the glory of The Lord risen upon you. One verse that God brings to me is in Romans 8:28, the pain we’re feeling now cannot compare to the joy that’s coming, and another verse is the glory of the latter us greater than the former.
I absolutely feel you. God is faithful🤍
this is me rn 🥺🥺 i feel very alone and bored but i know deep down inside it's for a reason. I also think to, im not alone im at peace 💛
I’m not angry at God but just today at work I was crying because I’m in a place without my family no real friends just me. I told him I just want to be around my family.
Algorithm really does know me well. I actually needed to hear this so thank you. I was once too angry at God, whenever something never works out, I get angry and throw a fit mentally to God. I've overcome that over the years.
I realized that God or any of the people around me are not the problem. I realized that I'm the problem. I've prayed for so many things that I've been praying for for years now. Right now I have officially lost hope. I'm even afraid now of my own happiness because bad things might happen next. I realized that I'm just not skilful, talented, hard working or good enough to go to a place that I want to be in. I lack drive and passion which is my biggest struggle right now.
I'm just officially tired, wanting to to not live anymore, lost, soulless, and hopeless while being numb with emotional pain. My family and friends can't help me, I have to help myself. I decided to just be more realistic with my hopes and desires by not wanting it anymore, even though I still do. I just think that I'm undeserving of God's grace since I'm just a sinful, ungrateful, and selfish of a human being. 2021 and 2022 has just been filled with failures and heartbreaks when it comes to my growth and career. I'm just overall done and tired. So now I just gave up. I hate myself even more now. I'm in the place that I don't want to be in. Maybe I do deserve it, because of all the mistakes and sins that I have committed from the past to this day.
Despite of all the failures I've experienced, I still love and praise God no matter what until my last breath. I'm forever greatful for all the blessings he gave my family and I from the past to now. Maybe my goals and dreams aren't really meant for me. I'm just meant to live a sad, simple, and depressing life till the day I die. I've accepted that. Being hopeful is dangerous and has only made me feel worst, so now I'm just going with a flow. Maybe I was just so desperate and delusional. It's my fault that's why I'm miserable. I'll just pray for my family and I's health and that's it. No more dreaming about dream job or happiness that I've been longing for since I don't plan on taking the action towards my goals because I don't know how or where to start. I'll just pray for simpler small things and that's it. Dreaming big will only led me to more pain and disappointments.
14:15 I really needed to hear that so thank you. Only time will tell. I just really need to get this out of my chest. What a relief 😌
I don't know how to help all the problems in your life but I'm currently experiencing the same thing in regards to me being the problem. The bible verses been meditating on are Isaiah 54:10
'"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace removed," says the Lord who has compassion on you.'
Compassion. The Lord has compassion towards us. As human beings, we do things that can be poisonous to our relationships and lives but we make errors... when no one else wants to help us or even love us, God does and He wants to change our situations if we submit to Him. You'll be greater than okay because God is ready to forgive you and renew your situation if you diligently seek Him ♡
@@shebalimmugs7896 I feel less alone now. Thank you 💗🙏
@@asketchmr5560 no worries
Maybe God wants to direct you to your true purpose. Try talking to Him about it. When God puts qualities in us that makes us us It's to help us fulfil our purpose
No, it's not the algorithm that knows you well, it's God. You were meant to hear this message because He wants you to know that this is not a singular experience. It's a human experience in which even Jesus Himself felt the pressure at some point in His earthly form. I'm going through something very similar to you, so thanks for sharing! Man, it breaks my heart to read your comment, because as difficult as life has been for me for the past four years, I refuse to accept that life is going to be this way forever- those are lies from the enemy! REBUKE this lie!
I want you to remember that there's no great human who became great from having a smooth sailing life. Greatness is built from hardships/immense pressure. You're going to be so great! What you have right now is a testimony. I sometimes wonder if my dreams are too big, but I know God wouldn't put them in my heart if they weren't my dreams to have! Many people in the Bible waited decades to see God's promises, not to discourage you, but to remind you that you are highly favored. God does not make a "Judas" wait, He makes His children who are called by His name wait! Right now I'm realizing that my long wait isn't to break me down to die, but to break me down to build me up into the person I need to be to walk into my new season. You might not feel special right now, but the fact that you are here is a big indicator that God is doing a great work in you! He's not done with you! He has just begun!
I wondered what the lesson in my struggle was after I stopped pitying myself, and realized that this is a key moment in my journey. You're growing through the pain; never hate yourself. You were made in God's image. He does no wrong. We might not understand now what He's doing exactly, but God has a plan for us to prosper and not to harm us! (Jeremiah 29:11)
God is adding pressure so that someday (in His timing) the Diamond in you will be revealed. He's preparing you for things that are far greater than what you've dreamed of.
"...be of good cheer; I have overcome the world," John 16:33
I was just balling my eyes out to God, angry at Him for allowing me to go through so much pain alone but your video popped up and yeah, all I can say is thank you. Thank you so much. I definitely needed the reminder of all of those things and it brought me peace. This video definitely helps many. Thank you and God bless you. You got this girl
Didn’t realize I’m going through this until I was told to click on this video and just started crying first few seconds in
awe it’s okay sis💗💗💗💗💗💗
I literally had this break down the other day with God. All the things I learned and found comfort in i had to get rid. I was never alone giiirl it was so much to accept where i was mad and didn't speak to him but taking matters into my own hands which led me to stress and fall back into sin just to escape the feeling. Which made it worse because I actually care about God and his point of view . Where now im at a stage of accepting my old ways are not good for me and learning how to express myself with God regardless of how i feel .
Currently going through this as well. So many things were taken from me since March but I know God has a new season for me
Today was literally the first day I ran towards God with my pain, hurt and resentment. I can relate to what you are saying. Thank you for sharing this testimony. God bless you.
It has really been a journey 😩, but our strength comes from the lord!! your glow Kiki😍❤
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Yeah sister you are not alone, it’s so nice to know I’m not alone. Much love sister.
Girl…you’re gifted. Continue to do the work of the Kingdom. 💕
I'm going through a separation and I feel like he doesn't answer my prayers. So I'm mad a god and everything in life
girl you make it so fun n casual talking about God, i love it 😭💖 i was smiling when u were talking about the list of ur answered prayers, He really did that
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I love your video!!! I just recognized that we are in November and as I analyzed this year and listened to you, I realized that I am in the season that I prayed for. It was tough but God had a plan. He even elevated me in front of my enemies which showed me something else about Him. He don’t play about His kids. I learned two things in this seasonal year: 1.) I had to value myself 2.) Really back up my faith with trust in God that He will take care of my needs. I’m not a patient person and He knows that but man I learned a lot from Him this year! This is amazing!
yes amen sis!!! so happy for you!💗💗💗
I have been angry at God all week. Resentful. I have had such a hard time with this & this video helped me so so so much. I ended up journaling to God begging for help to soften my heart and bring me back closer to him. Thank you for posting this ❤
Yess. Cause sometimes the enemy doesn't project himself but projects self. It's very important to put our pride aside cause all the enemy needs is just an opportunity!
that part !!!!
Obedience is better than sacrifice! When I tell you it’s been so hard for me to be obedient to what God is telling me to do
I believe God allowed me to see this video , when I opened TH-cam and scrolled and found this video because I'm going through the same right now . I remember I prayed for God to expose the things in my heart and when he did through dreams and to other people in their dreams I became angry and bitter and gave up on God because I didn't want to be a bad person or to have those things in my heart towards people and God . I was angry at myself and took it out on God like why was I even born or alive if I'm struggling with these things in my heart . My heart became hard towards God to the point I didn't feel sorry for my sins but now I'm running back to him to change my heart to be sensitive to his spirit and to restore my conviction
“Grief intermission” I felt that. ❤
Sometimes I get so angry at God & I yell at him because I need to vent it to him. Once I do that, I apologize to God & thank him for allowing me to vent, followed by asking him to help me release my anger & fear and to help me strengthen my trust in him.
God wants us to have a personal relationship with him, & sometimes in relationships we get angry & need to vent it. The important thing is we don't get stuck in that anger.
My birthday is august 16 and that devo was speaking right to me. Also the fact that God has been telling me that if he gave me all the things I wanted right now I wouldn’t be ready for the blessings spiritually!
I’ve literally been in the same exact boat since April of this year. I’m just now starting to see the purpose of this season but I was so angry and resentful towards God at first. The good thing about seasons is that they change😭 I stopped resisting and I’m starting to feel a shift again. God bless you! Your channel makes me feel less isolated🙏🏽
yes that part to seasons changing! no one said we have to stay in a season forever! thank you for sharing sis!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Im 50 years old.. i have been upset at God. i felt bad. I did a search on rhis topic, your video came up. I was like, should i watch? What can this young girl say to me??😅 Giirrrll, 👏👏👏👏 ❤❤❤ you are very mature n the flow of your content was great.. God Bless you..Pastors dont touch is this subject very much..n im sure many many people go through this. Any how great job..
I used to be angry at God and now I’m moving out of this season and out of a season of being angry at myself and into a season of forgiving myself, loving myself, recognizing what I need. It’s such a tiring thing because old habits are no longer serving who I’m becoming. I feel like it’s going to be a lifelong process
I’m struggling with this right now I have been angry, prideful and not patient with my walk with God I will get angry about how I don’t have the fire like our fellow brothers and sisters and why my relationship is not where I want it to be, but I need to realize my Faith and my relationship with God will grow with obedience, Faith and taking it one step at a time, as well as just leaving it in his hands. Thank you for this video!!
God spoke through you in this, absolutely amazing thank you so much, stay blessed and succesfull!!!
Came across your video after realizing my anger at god was happening. Never did I imagine somebody else would have gone through this exact obstacle.
I found so much peace in my heart after watching the video through and listening to your experience. I truly believe god led me to your story. Thank you for sharing this, god bless ❤
Thank you for dropping this video. I am going through a season of being ALONE and I too was mad at God but, seeing you stand on your faith while being obedient has increased mine!
Appreciate you sharing this… I just went through this and finally Jesus delivered me 🙌🏽
Having quiet time right now and I've been secretly mad at God for about two months and I'd just started to hash it out with Him in Quiet time today. So I came on TH-cam to look for worship music to worship with and the first thing I saw was your video. Haha I'm like Okay, Jesus let's go.
When you said we're standing in seasons we prayed for, I felt that. Feltttt it. Been praying John 15 since forever and I realised oh yes, this is the pruning that comes with Growth.
Thank you for this Kiki.
Hahahaha love the let’s go
i find myself right now very conflicted with God and my life overall, i went to church yesterday with my parents and was nothing but angry. i really think this was a sign from God to see this video and to revaluate myself. thank you🙂
I’m going through the exact same season wow. I just finished a prayer in asking God for help. Then this video pops up on my feed…ur prayers were my prayers a while back & they’re coming to pass now! Wow😩🙏🏿
I’m so grateful for this because It lets me know other saints are in the same space and that I’m not alone. Potentially the hardest year of my life but I’m so full of faith the Lord is restoring me. 1 Peter 5:10 has been my anchor
Girlllllllllll. All I’m going to say is thank you so much ❤🙏🏾
Hi Kiki I delated insta and Pinterest today 😅 thank you and God❤ today is my birthday 🎉
I hope see you in heaven you’re so cool girl keep doing 👏👏👏🤩
Hey girl heyyy I’m not in a space where I’m angry at God but I admire you sharing this with us because people really do go through being angry at God because the outcome doesn’t look like how we thought it would but I say all that to say this I’m learning that it’s not about how the outcome looks. It’s about the process it took to get there and what you learned through the process that leads to God’s bigger Picture for us❤.
Thank you for this word. I needed this in the moment. I pray God continues to bless, strengthen and speak through you. Amen!
Sister continue been a blessing am in that stage too. His preparing us for something big that we don’t even wish for ourselves, your very beautiful your skin is glowing his shining on you ❤keep it up be strong . Much love 💕
You are speaking to me. I cried so much watching this. God is always on time. We just have to be patient and committed to the dream. Thank you so much!
Thank you for your transparency this is currently a season I’m going through as well , I no longer feel angry at God I’m more thankful
I subscribed half way through this video!
Girl, your obedience in making this video is much appreciated! THANK YOU - I, and many other women of God, NEEDED TO HEAR THIS WORD. Keep serving AND obeying God Kiki, and be encouraged in the Lord Jesus ...HE LOVES YOU!! May God bless you abundantly, for being obedient in making this video! Obedience is truly better than sacrifice (preaching everything I said to myself also) 🥰🤗❤
I love that your personality also shines through this video...I can see that you're bubbly and your funny...am I right? 😃
thank you 🥺💗💗💗
@@JordannChin you are right!! lol my friends and family can definitely agree to that 😭😭
Girl people don’t talk about this enough everybody show the positive but not the negative so thank you for your transportation
I kept seeing this video on my fyp, and ignoring it, today I've finally watched it. Lord help me to enjoy this season in my life, help me to stop self sabotaging, help me to stop trying to do things on my own.
Hey love, thank you so much for this. At 9:01 you touch on something I have been praying on. I have been going through a period of dried up creativity and this morning I got the wisdom that all my life I have been working and that blocked me from seeing God's grace and now I am being asked to sit back and relax while God is working on grace so I can finally see it. Much love.
You are so articulate and inspiring I'm so glad I found your channel. I am trying to grow in my faith. God bless ❤️
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WOW!! Thank you for sharing this!! You said so much of what I've been dealing with, for a few YEARS now. Before I found your video, I had literally just finished telling God that I was angry at Him and why. So after I spoke with Him about it...I got up out of bed and read a few psalms and then decided to look for some videos on TH-cam about how to restore a right relationship with Him...after being angry at Him for so long. That's when I found your video. God is so good!! I never thought about the fact that He may have been answering prayers that I had asked Him to. Thank you again for sharing this !! You gave me several things to think about!! God bless you!!❤🙏
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This is nice, you just gave me a sort of hope…
This video is so healing. So glad he was able to give you understanding and peace and able to speak through you. Lord I thank you 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙌🏾
God works real slow. Many times you think he’s not working in you after a while you see it was all a plan for the better
I'm 31 and your advice and experience has helped me a lot. At 22 I am so happy at how mature you are in your faith in God. I wish I had strong faith like yourself and feel ashamed that at my age I am still getting angry at God.
do not feel ashamed! that is exactly how satan wants you to feel
Wow, it’s the way God sent this video to me! God bless you❤️🙏🏿
I feel like most things that happen to us are because of ourself, there are things that God had nothing to do with. Best believe he will step in to fix it if you call on him and stick with him
Girl! Get out my business! 😬😅 Thank you so much for sharing this. I can totally relate. I'm in a season of stillness right now. What you said hit home. I prayed for this. I prayed for a deeper relationship with him, more time to get in my word and to hear from him more clearly and he has granted me just that. It's been quite hurtful, separating from people and even my business. I now have all the time in the world to sit in his presence and I'm mad. Whew! I hear you, Lord. Let me be grateful for this time of rest and stillness and get my life together so I'm prepared for what's to come. ❤ God bless you for your honesty.
Thank you Kiki, this softened my heart. I appreciate your vulnerability and exposure. I felt that I wasn't alone and that another was going through anger and resentment towards God and that it's okay to know that and be there, but not stay there. Your points were convicting, peace-filled and encouraging. This is my first time on the channel and I'm a new subscriber. I am hoping the best for you. Btw you look so beautiful 😍, you are just glowing. I need to find my skin care routine and get my skin like that. My mix of stress and harmful products aren't working 😂. Blesssed day!
I believe I did not come across this video by accident. I have been 7 and a half month unemployed, chronic Lyme disease, parents that do not believe my illness and gossip and tell others all my business , lost all friends
I appreciate your words and for sharing. I love that you notice how we can be living in what we prayed to God for a year or two years ago...really makes us think about how he answers our prayers in God's timing.
Same here, since I followed Jesus Christ I lost everything, my home, my wife and my dog 😭 I know it seems small to y'all but it was the only thing I had. For a while I would question why? Lord........ Isolation brings elevation 🙏🙌
I lost everything my money my family and my health and at 45 idk how can i ever bounce back in life he should have take me off out with the stroke 😢
I’m so sorry 😢😢
@thegirlnextdoor1649 Please understand it still hope for you in life. Don't give up on God keep the faith. And keep blessing his name trying your best do his will. Keep your faith don't let it go please. I know it not easy.
I struggled with trying to figure out how not telling God how you are feeling so pride but now I understand. Sometimes I just don’t even know what to say to Him.
The entire prayer I had then I saw this. Eager to watch.
Thank you for creating this video! I went through a similar situation recently, and all the feelings and thoughts you shared are ones that I had during this time. This alone encourages me that being angry at God can be a common thing that happens in our lives, and I don't have to feel like I'm doing something bad (because it is a natural occurrence in human emotion). Most importantly, how you talk about choosing to put pride aside to be humble before Him and ask Him to help you is essential for the next step of the process!
Every detail included in this video was done beautifully
I think the biggest thing for me was being real with God allowed me to be real with myself which is extremely hard.. alone.. but with God it felt easy 💕 God bless hon
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I see 12:12 on the clock everyday and all I think of is Romans 12:12 | Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Asé & Amen
Haven’t even started this but I’m glad this video is here. I’m in a good place spiritually when it comes to not denying God or out and out refusing to do His will. But I have been dealing with something heavy and twisted for 3 years now. I know He is there, but I have been leaning on faith so long praying for this season to pass. And it just got worse last week. I am so so angry, but I just feel abandoned. Saying it out loud I knowww feeling this way doesn’t lead to anything good, but I’m getting to a point where I feel like I’m a fool being used and I feel done with it. I just look at everyone else seemingly living their normal life and I’m so jealous because I wish for normal SO bad. I ultimately know I have to talk to Him, but I just can’t rn because I’m so hurt. Thank you for this video because it is so helpful not to feel alone.
Thank you for your honesty my Darling!! This really ministered to me tonight!!🙏❤️
awe this makes me so happy to hear🥺💗💗💗
This year I did nothing I'm alone no love no money no hope no nothing sometimes I wonder maybe I did something bad in my past life so I'm paying now I love everybody but they repay me with bad ...I pray and pray nothing happens I decide to not ask anymore maybe everything good are not ment to me I'm tired and what should I do
Oooph!😩 I've been grieving my old life since January. I renounced EVERYTHING, was led to fast for more than a month, was skin and bone, depressed/suicidal, threw out everything from my past (some of those things were brand new, newish, it broke me), gave up all of my old habits and patterns.
The result. I got delivered from nicotine, weed, suicide + depression. I didn't really drink much, but that too dried up. I started reading my Bible and I humbled myself and made apologies to people who genuinely 'think' their victims, but I had to keep my side clean and keep it pushing. I made peace with my past and forgave the people I needed to forgive. I started listening to sermons, watched Biblical movies, started praying and praising and worshipping with songs and dance.
Listen to scriptures while I sleep and as a background noise, etc. The last week of my birthday month, January, I heard a diabolical laughing voice, as I was waking up but I could still feel my body laying on my bed. It crashed into my body as if it wanted to either shuff my spirit out my body or as if it wanted to maybe drag me through the bed, like into another dimension or something? People have so many hell encounters like that, but as it literally felt as if I was falling through the bed, but I became aware I was still on the bed, I felt a strong hand wrap around my ankle and start to pull me off the bed - to wake me up?
No idea but I was grateful and immediately went into praise and worship with Shackles from Mary Mary. The result?! I had a Godly encounter between 12-3am the morning and it was AMAZING! I've NEVER felt that kind of love and acceptance and compassion. We think we know what love is, but we truly don't.
I didn't want to wake up. If it had been an OBE and I was given the choice of staying or returning, I would've stayed. I'm telling you, I'm not throwing away my salvation for anybody!!! If I have to die upside down on a cross, or be poor for the rest of my days, but I'll see God in his fullness, best believe, I'll be a martyr!!!
wow, that was deep, I never thought about it like I asked for all this, now I gotta think about my life Thank You sis God Bless You 🎀
Dang. Your check points when u see them as a list is like THE EPITOME of self love. Just time to self. Figuring self out without tainting.
I was definitely here for most of 2022 and I realised it’s everything I prayed for and asked for. I prayed for an opportunity to do my masters and for God to remove relationships that no longer serve me and chileeee I have lost so much this year but for the goodness and the mercy of the Lord shall follow me all the days of my life. I believe that God is holding my hand through it all. Everything drew me closer to God.
I needed to hear this and Thank you for sharing your story sis!! I’m going through a similar season even regarding school. I’m currently going through a phase or resentment and feeling like I can fix my own problems. I’m glad I came across your video to remind me that I need to lean on God and ask for help. God has brought me this far and I know he will never forsake me! Power to you sis and keep going ❤🙏🏾