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Trusting God Through Anger and Fear | What's Helped Me Keep My Faith during Cancer Trauma
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 9 ก.ค. 2024
- Trusting God through the anger and fear of a cancer diagnosis or other trauma is not easy. There have been so many days through this journey that have shaken my faith, but it has also strengthened it too. As a Christian it can be hard to feel encouragement during times of trauma or when our faith feels tested. These are some of the ways I have been able to keep working on my relationship with the Lord even though I have been angry with Him. I have also been so fearful, and worry and anxiety have become part of my new normal, but I am trying to lean into Him and let Him give me peace.
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There's one other thing I forgot to mention that has helped me a lot when I wake up anxious. I try to start my day with the YouVersion Bible App and work my way through some of the plans they have. I have been doing ones on anxiety or peace and they have been really helpful. Here are the Kate Bowler Books that have also helped:
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That's so Krazy I lost my brother 4yrs ago to a overdose as well sending hugs!😢
Prayers for your surgery and good outcome.❤
I have that app and I also have physical Bibles too and prayer cards and things like that. It's a good idea because it can help and I have all my stuff in a tote where I can take notes and things like that and really just get into it. I prayed for you! For peace and comfort. God bless you sister in Christ! ❤
I use the same Bible app & love it! God will bless us through reading his word. I also believe that all things are for God’s glory!
I’m so glad to hear your testimony of faith. I felt from watching your videos that you were a believer & I’m happy to hear that you are. This will be a blessing to many people & hopefully lead some of them to Christ as well. Praying for you from Tennessee!
I remember when my husband of 15 years left me and our 2 little girls for another woman. Someone at church told me I needed to have Faith that God would put our family back together. She told me to set his place at the table and claim that God is bringing him back to our family. No matter how many dinners I placed his plate at, or how often I declared, “God is bringing him home”, he never came. Eventually I realized that God gives all of us Freedom to choose our path in life. My husband was free to choose to leave me and the girls and God wasn’t going to override his free will to force him to do the right thing by his family. That was likely the same for your brother; he was free to choose those dangerous drugs over his daughter. You are right, we live in a broken and fallen world and God isn’t the puppet-master.. but He is here to come alongside us and strengthen us when we call upon his name. The Bible says, “God makes the sun to shine upon both the Good and the evil and it rains upon the Just and the unjust alike” Mathew 5:45 Since the Fall of Adam, sin, evil, and disease came into the world and touches both the just & the unjust alike, but God is near to us and able to bring us through as we trust Him with each situation that we face. ❤ I just want to add, I ended up (a few years after my husband left me for a woman he also left for another woman) I ended up marrying the marriage counselor who counseled my husband & I before he left. I have been married for 34 years to the sweetest man in the world. God truly caused good from the things meant to destroy us. 💕 God bless & keep you, Babe and Babygirl 💙
Well said. Congrats on finding your true soul mate.
Yes very helpful, I go for my CT scan tomorrow, I had been very a anxious and afraid, I feel that my fear has alleviated due to prayers for me and now your testimony. ❤ I continue to pray for you and your family. He is walking with through this journey. ❤❤❤
@@BibleBeauty wow, what a testimony. I am so sorry that happened, but yes our free will sometimes gets the best of us and leads us to make choices that go against His plan. I am so glad you were able to find love again and it sounds like your husband is wonderful!
I loved your story!❤
I have been praying for you. Psalms 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God." This verse has kept things in perspective for me. My 4 year old grandson died in a drowning accident 1 year ago. It was incredibly hard, and my faith in Christ is the only thing that got me through. These earthly trials definitely shake us. Jesus promised to never leave us or forsake us. This is not our home we are just passing through. Some glorious day if we know Him who died for us, there will be no more sickness, sadness or tears. He is preparing the most wonderful place for us to be with Him for all eternity. Praise His holy name forever!!!❤
I love this verse❤
One of my favorite verses.
@@lindanugent4294 oh, I am so sorry to hear about your grandson! I’m glad you had the Lord to sustain you. It’s definitely a hard world we live in and that much harder without Him by our side.
@@melaniefostersnavely I am keeping you in my prayers. God bless you and your family.
I am a Christian and I think your testimony and being transparent about your anger to God is inspiring to people. Yes every day God has been with you and will be until the day you die. Keep trusting God. He loves you and having a baby is Gods way of turning a bad thing into a good thing. I am praying for you and one day you will have a perfect body.
Beautiful words
I am not religious but really respect all you said here. Sending you so much love!!!
You are so very kind. On this platform where so many people choose to be rude and disrespectful regarding religion, I appreciate your kind response to this beautiful lady ❤️
@@TeeGreen222 I can honestly extend that gratitude to you also, I am very happy to hear that. You're welcome. Love and care should extend to all people, regardless of spiritual or religious beliefs. We need to value ourselves and each other along our journeys.
Have a nice evening and take care :)
I'm not religious either. I was brought up in a Christian household,but things happened where I won't go into it (out of respect for this channel and the believers)
I have a lot of medical problems. Polycystic kidney disease which there is currently no cure and it leads to kidney failure and co-arctation of the aorta.. requiring two open heart surgery so far. I have always thanked modern medicine and my doctors. I am lucky because if I was born 100 years ago with both these diseases, I would have been dead by the age of five years old.
However, I understand people's reasons for belief and respect peoples choice.
Unfortunately, when some people find out I'm not religious, I get looked down on.
But she seems so nice and I'm so happy for her.. that her latest scans were such good news!!
@@JerseyboondocksI feel the same as you, not religious. I hope that you live a long time, Sweetheart! ♥️🌹
When my daughter was 3 we found out she had a fatal disease called Cystic fibrosis. She died at 12. I asked why God would take my blessing away since He says children are a blessing. My husband said stop asking why. There is not answer to that. Hubby is right. Sin entered the world. Period. We all carry our own crosses….we are all dealing with something. I have autoimmune and health issues, hubby broke his femur. Shin bone and ankle, lost his job, my daughter has had two miscarriages….my brother had a heart attack and was brought back four times…you aren’t alone. I know it feels like it but we are all putting one foot in front of the other and dealing with life the best we can. God is always with us, always.
I'm truly sorry for your immense loss and what your family has gone through. Cystic fibrosis is an unforgiving nightmare of a disease.💔 I really wish you never had to go through this. 😢 I do feel you can help others who have had to walk this very hard path as well. You are a vessel for God to help his other children understand and walk a hard path..all because of your daughter. ❤ much love to you
@@wishingyoupeaceI didn’t get that at all from her post. She’s basically stating that everyone has a cross to bear and that you’re not alone. Sheesh.
@@pjgreen1786 yes I deleted my comment as I don’t want to imply anything negative here.
@@bekayezme I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your daughter. Thank you for sharing your story with me. I will be praying for your whole family.
My daughter also has Cystitic Fibrosis. I am a Christian and thanks God she is healthy right now. But is hard . She is 4 months old and I am scared about her future. I trust God that she does her will and is a blessing to us.
Melanie, I prayed for you and still pray for you. Your strength has given me strength. I had brain cancer. I still have worries and fears and loads of tears. You are so beautiful and have such an amazing story to tell. Your daughter is so precious and you are an inspirational mommy. I love your Jurassic Park shorts. I find journaling helps me. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a beacon of hope. Your strength is immeasurable. Thank you for sharing the books. I am so lucky to have found your TH-cam channel.
God brought us here. I was brought to Jenny Apples channel then Samantha and Melanie. I found out my Brother then my husband both have cancer. I think God was preparing me.
Awww, thank you! This means a lot!
Melanie, this was a beautiful witness,I thank God for His love for you . I continue to pray every day for your recovery and total restoration. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🕊🕊😇🥰🥰
My faith went South when we worked so hard to send our children to private schools and find out priests here in Erie were molesting boys and they would be sent to their states to work my boys no longer believe in the Catholic faith and I get it. Then I get cancer and my husband gets cancer. His father was a minister so he still has faith. I stopped going to church and refuse to have a funeral only want my ashes with my dogs in a nearby park. End of story. I give you so much credit! Love cancer survivor Kathy Erie pa
Melanie this video brought joy to Heaven, and shame to the devil and demons who always torment us with all kinds of thoughts in our troubles!
We are praying for you!
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It makes my heart happy you know the lord as your savior. God bless you Melanie.
You are awesome. You are strong. "When you are afraid trust in me" "Be still and know that I am God" "have faith do not doubt" sweet Melanie I pray for you every day ....
Thank you for sharing your faith so boldly...I pray for you each day and am glad you are showing the world what it looks like to be a Christian through hard times....hoping you share more of your Christian walk in your update videos....the world needs to hear....may God bless you.
Thank you for letting me know that my anger is alright and I won't be punished for it. I pray for you. 🧡
It's OK,❤ God expects us to be angry sometimes and He knows us and our hearts.
Hi Melanie! I wanted to tell how much this video meant to me. I've struggled with my faith quite a bit in my life. I think when we go through difficult times in life, it's normal. I struggled with addiction for 10 years, I overdosed 3 times and lost 3 of my friends to overdoses during my 10-year journey. I was a typical "soccer mom", I had a great marriage, two boys and a really a great life when I started abusing pain pills and then heroin, I ended up homeless in 2017 and finally decided to get help, I spent 8 months at a faith-based rehab, and I've been clean since May 8th, 2017
. I can't fully understand what you're going through, but I admire how strong you are and the outlook you have about faith, the Lord and life. God bless you and your family!
God bless you, Donna
Having survived cancer so far, I totally understand what you're saying. It has been over 42 years since my breast cancer and I never thought I'd go through it again. People who haven't gone through this really have no idea what you're going through. I pray for you and your family.🙏🙏🙏
I have to say that I never blamed God. I just couldn't understand why it was happening when I was 25 and then again at 68.
Iv never been angry with God. Iv question him most of my life. 6 years ago I was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer, I all of a sudden put ALL MY FAITH IN GOD. It's was magical. I believe it's all in his hands. Amazing for me to believe in him now. But never have I been angry.
That's so good that you didn't hold on to anger. I wish I didn't feel angry, but cancer just seems so unfair. I am starting to feel less angry every day and am grateful He is an understanding God.
Melanie, don't loose hope my friend. God is in control and listening to you as a believer, you give me hope with every video. You are a beautiful woman and I love watching your videos as this is a learning process for me too. Praying for you, Mrs Joey❤❤
This is a good one to hang up.. I had this on my wall for years.
"Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28.
After your last positive scan, this is the time to " praise the lord" to rejoice that for now there is no cancer present.
You're not wrong or a bad Christian because you have questions. Questioning is how we learn and continue to grow.
You left it in God's hands about a baby. God answered you. He gave you your daughter at a time when you may have needed her the very most. She a big part of your courage. Why you fought!! Why you were willing to allow your eye to be taken. You want to be around while she grows up!!
We can question and we can be angry but God always knows what he is doing. That's something that his children should never doubt.
I believe you're going to get through all this. I believe you'll see your daughter grow into a beautiful adult woman.
We all question at times. You've had it real rough. Its understandable. You've questioned, but you have also shown and exercised your faith.
Peace and blessings❤we love you and will continue to pray for you❤❤❤❤❤
@@ellacobb6872 never tell someone else who’s suffering to be grateful.
I used to be angry at God and questioned why He would punish me with so many adversities when I was a good Christian woman who tried hard to live by the 10 Commandments. My Mother told me that all the hardships and suffering didn’t come from God, they came from Satan. I believe Satan goes after the righteous and strong Christians to try to cause us to lose our faith in God. I always wanted children but couldn’t have them. I’ve had two cancers, I was raped by a stranger and narrowly escaped as well as many other health issues. As a senior citizen now, I have no family, no siblings, no children or extended family. It’s hard and I’m so sorry for all your suffering Melanie. I lean heavily on my faith in God and His son Jesus and I direct my anger towards Satan who is doing these evil things. My oncologist told me “go live your life” and that is what I try to do. Through Matthew 6:34, God asks us to not worry about tomorrow, to live in the present moment and only focus on what we have to do today. I have been and am praying for you Melanie and your family. God bless.🙏🙏💖
God bless you. ❤
Prayers hun
I will add you to my YT prayer list. I feel led by Holy Spirit to prayer for a few I follow. There are occassional comments similiar to yours. My heart goes out to you🙏🏽🙏🫂 Sending you love & virtual hug.
@@kripptonite7457 Thank you and God bless you and your family.🙏💖
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“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
This verse has helped me through some hard times. As you know, God does not promise us that we won’t have difficulties in this fallen world, as you so eloquently said. His promise is to never leave us. Your faith is such a testimony. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers.
Melanie, I'm so glad that you are a believer in Jesus! Just know that I pray for you every day. You have every right to be angry and you're right God understands and He can take it. I'm so glad that you have Him to lean on.
Oh Melanie how could you not be angry , fearful when this happened. Faith really does make this journey bearable and gives you strength. Everyday with your sweet baby , your hubby , family and friends is a blessing. I’m sure it takes time and each person has there own time frame. Prayers and hugs. Take care.
God tells us that he cannot save us from pain and suffering but he promises that he will always be at our side. Be patient with your afflictions. Praying for you always. Hope to meet up one day.
Melanie you are a true testament to Gods work. You have been through so much. I personally have been a doubting Thomas. When I lost loved ones, when I have been sick. What ever it may be. But I still pray every nite. I would remember you in my prayers. God is good. He will see us through no matter what. God is Good.
I totally understand where you’re coming from. Thank you again for sharing. I have stage four breast cancer. I was diagnosed in 2020… I dove deep into my faith which is help me so much. I recently bought a book called power in Praise . I bought it on Amazon… I’ve been reading it Every night and it’s helping me so much because I just had my CT scan and leading up to it. I was very afraid this time for some reason I think because I’ve had more pain in my body turns out everything‘s good! Praise God! During my fears that come and go I tried to remember that this is the path he chose for me , and I am thankful for my illness. It has changed so many people in my life to be more faithful seeing how I am… Life is a journey and we have to trust that God knows what’s best for our soul and experience as we go through our meant to bring us closer to the suffering that Jesus had an understanding of what he wants for us… You are so brave! Again, I so appreciate you sharing God bless you! And your family 🙏🏻
Cancer robs us of so many things in life… But in that process of being robbed, I feel I was also given so many blessings from God…
Thank you for your testimony. God bless you. I am praying for a cure for you, sister in faith.
I understand all of this fully! Every ache in my body had me thinking it was back. And yes, it has robbed us of a it, but also given me a better perspective on life. We have so much to be thankful for. And thank you for the book recommendation!
When I became a widow after 46 years I came to this conclusion, I trust Gods will, I don’t always like His will.
@@carolynturnerclark9287 very well said! I’m so sorry for your loss
Melanie, there is no question, you've had a difficult and trying journey with your cancer diagnosis.
But I was always taught that our God does not give us more then we can handle.
And yet, there are times that our God will even test us, and leave us wondering, and at times angry, too.
And as we look for answers, we look to blame someone or something. With that blame, we turn to anger and at times, we turn to pity, woe is me.
But through it all, our God gives us all the true strength and guidance we need. And when you need more, ask and God gives us all a shoulder to cry on, arms to hug us, and at times he'll even carry us.
And those are the times, that sometimes we are blind to his presence in our day to day lives. We fight the pain, we fight the tears, and fight ourselves.
And we mourn what we've lost physically, mentally, and emotionally from our once perfect bodies. And we tend to see and feel only the many physical changes to our bodies, that we once knew and saw, daily.
But know this, we aren't just our bodies, we aren't our pretty looks, we aren't our smiles, our pretty hair or our nail, either.
We are our souls, we are the beauty from within that was gifted by God. And those are the things that will never change, not even cancer can take those from you, ever. You were, you are, and you will always be beautiful and perfect, as God intended you to be. As God intended all of us to be.
And through it all, God was the teacher, and his lessons were taught. And now, Melanie, God has made you a teacher, too.
And as God's appointed teacher, it's time for you to teach your lessons, to those around you and those lucky enough to cross your path in this lifetime.
So, Melanie, know that throughout your cancer diagnosis and your often rough journey. Please take the time to remember, you're still standing, your still breathing, and your still LIVING.
And your still teaching God's lessons to those around you. How to fight the good fight, and fight with dignity, strength, grace, and love.
And soon, Melanie, what you may see as losses from you cancer journey, today.
I hope and pray that you will eventually see not the losses, but the scars of beauty that you have rightfully earned from a hard fought battle, and WON.
Life's hardest lessons, learned, fought, lived, and WON by Melanie. ❤❤❤
Take care!
Phillipians 4:6… “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God” (NIV). Praying for you Mel, with lots of love from England 🇬🇧❤ Edit: I typed the above before I got to 19:22!! xx
I was diagnosed with Melanoma in April after breast cancer 5 years ago. I wasn’t angry with God but struggle with the what ifs like you. I came to the same conclusion…I don’t know what is going to happen but I know I know Jesus will always be with me. God Bless you and give you strength and peace.
Thank you for this video. Really! I felt understood. I'm not the same person since my husband's death. My anger with God is similar to what you described. I've had a hard time coming back. But hearing about your feelings is strengthening. Thank you for your suggestions and for being so honest. It will help more than you can ever know. I wish the best for you and your future and will be putting that in my prayers going forward.
Hi Melanie,
I watched the whole video and clung to every word. I had my own battle and it changed me completely for the better. I lost my ability to have my own children at the young age of 23 when life is supposed to be "fun". After 3 surgeries, I was broken and defeated. To this very day I wonder how in the world I got through all that. It's likely God carried me through it just like "the footprints in the sand" poem says. There were days I would go into the closet fall on my knees and beg God to help me. I was so angry at times. God's help always looks different than what we are asking for but only he knows why. I eventually found a beautiful, kind and helpful Husband that loves me unconditionally as yours, so we are so, so blessed. Thank you for the book recommendations.
Absolutely - give it to God, all of it, he created us to be the perfect, scared, angry, doubting children we are.
My daughter’s first born child died when he was 4 months old, (an accident) and she would ask me again and again “what did I do wrong mum to deserve this?” I reminded her that Mother Mary watched her son crucified and she was spotless - God doesn’t punish.
It seems to me many that walk with God are tested, or as I have come to understand - purified; purified by fire.
Important we keep our Faith real, that we live authentically. It is the overcoming, the surrender of suffering that gives God the glory, however that looks.
I wish you a Peace that passeth all understanding Melanie. Thank you for your raw, real testimony - you definitely passed the test 💕
A friend asked me a question and this was the perfect answer. Thank You God for this video❤
My dad lost his faith when I was 5 years old (Iam 38 now) I was on one ward of a hospital dying from meningococcal septicemia and my granda (my dad's father) was in another part of same hospital ill with cancer. I was extremely lucky to survive but my granda did not. My dad was very angry at god for a long time, about 20 years, were he didn't attend mass or enter a chapel at all. Only going back when his mother (my gran) passed away. My dad now believes that my granda made a deal with god to let me live and take him, makes me so sad to think like that 😢 but it's so easy to loss your faith. Your amazing Melanie, it's totally understandable to feel how you are 💜
Oh wow! What a tough thing that must have been for your dad. It no wonder it rocked his faith. I am so glad to hear he has redeemed his relationship with God. Will be praying for all of you!
Girl your feelings are so validated 💯 no one could deny that. I lost both my brothers to drugs. They were truly my best friends and I didn’t think I would pull through those dark days. Know that you are stronger than you think.. which you already know, but all your prayer warriors are going to give it our all on Friday. Talking about it and getting your feelings out is a great step for you and we are all here for you. Your entire face lights up when you see baby girl.. I love it so much. I love your visual sitting with Jesus at the great Hall at Hogwarts.. I’m glad you got to voice your feelings.. there is more room out than there is in.. don’t bottle it up. We are here for you. Try and relax and enjoy your beautiful family.. hugs n love 💕
God bless you Melanie! God is using you in a mighty way by telling your story to others. It takes strength to come through what you have come through! You are stronger than you know!
Psalm 23:1-4
The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
Our sweet, precious, courageous Melanie. Thank you for coming on and sharing with us how in depth your pain( emotionally,mentally and spiritually it has and is for you. I feel your pain sweetie. No, I’ve not been dx. With cancer, but I know how heartbreaking it is to want so much to be a mommy, yet God hasn’t blessed us with being one, until boom, we are pregnant. I too wanted to and was so excited to experience natural child birth, but ended up with emergency C Section and not waking up til 7 hrs later crying out to see my baby. Then at 1 yr old and 2 days I was taken in for emergency hysterectomy. I too did not want an only child, but came to be ever so grateful to God for blessing me with my precious girl, who we had always been so so very close. She is 41 now, and estranged from me going on 6 yrs. Iam so broken and I know what anger towards God is. For sure different reasons. But Iam and have learned to Scream out in prayer, crying my heart out during prayer and seeming to not get any answers as to why. I am so glad that you spoke more about Andrew. What a loving and caring husband Mel. For him to put all the pictures up and Bible Versus, God knew Andrew what he was doing putting you two together. My heart breaks for you, but Oh Mel, what a testimony and how your going to and have helped so so many others that got a Ca. dx at a young age as well as any age. You sweet Mel are persevering with keeping your faith and expressing your anger at God and crying out to him for strength is bringing you closer to him in such a deeper way it sounds like. He is using you! 2 Corinthians 1:4 “ He Comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort other. When they are Troubled, we will be able to give to them the same comfort God has given us”. Your continue to be in my daily and nightly prayers and sometimes during the day, I just feel the need to lift you up in prayer. The Holy Spirit I know speaks to me in letting me know you need to be lifted up in Gods arms for whatever reason. Would Andrew be willing to come on and give his testimony thus far as a husbands pain and struggles watching his dear wife go thru such a horrible experience with Ca.? I am lifting you up in soo many prayers that this surgery all goes well, I ask God to please be the surgeons hands, eyes and mind during the surgery as well as all the medical staff in the surgery as well as your post op care. I ask God to please give you the kindest, compassionate and giving Nurses pre op and post op. I’m asking God to Give Andrew strength as he waits for you to come out of surgery and the surgeon to tell him all is great and went well. You Melanie are so precious. I truly believe that God has great plans for you. And your life is going to be the best ever post op after complete healing. And you,Andrew and baby girl can go Home and begin living your best life as a family. Gods got you in his arms precious. Much love from : momma Karla63 in Oklahoma. You’ve got this sweetie with God as your strength
For some reason it helps me hearing what you are going through. I think it's your honesty and the fact that you are struggling but not giving up on God.
I say you are an encouragement!
Here is a Scripture for you that also greatly helps me, too:
Jn. 16:27
for the Father Himself loves you, because you have loved Me, and have believed that I came out from God.
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You're strength is in your vulnerability and it's so unbelievably humbling. God bless and protect you on your journey to healing♥️🙏♥️
Mel for me I’m still full of anger for my dx back in 2011.
I lost my brother as well in 1/2020 from a drug od.
He was 43. Never knew he did anything.
Mel I am so sorry.
I’m going to listen later when I have time. Power just came back on.
Thank you for making this video. I have felt God carry me, I look back and can see Him. I believe God knows me, he made me to never quit but also all the trauma has given my anger an outlet to never quit, keep going & never give up.
I really related to this video and the things you said Melanie. Having gone through health issues my entire life, including two bouts of breast cancer and having to go through 8 years of infertility treatments, procedures and surgeries then constant migraines all my life and amongst other things now a brain disorder I get mad at God too. My faith really wavers and sometimes I feel discouraged and I get mad at God too and ask why, why all this suffering? I pray for you Melanie, I'm so sorry you are going through all of this.
Thank you for sharing your heart. Praying for you. I lost my 30 year old daughter. You are right, our world is broken but one day his children will have every tear wiped away.
I wait with you💗🙏🏼
Bless you honey
@@marykunselman284 thank you💗
When terrible gut wrenching trials come our way it’s so easy to blame the Good Lord for our hardships when we should see who’s really to place the blame on… the devil roams all across this earth seeking those to devour. He’s the one who placed this on your shoulders.. he’s the one who enjoys watching our dear Lord getting the blame. God is good all the time ♥️ God is light and there is no darkness in him! I pray for you and your family everyday since I found your channel …. May the Lord bless and keep you all the days of your life ♥️🙏🏼♥️
@@carolyn9749 disease brings cancer.
Thank You Jesus for everything
Keep up the faith, Melanie, and I've shouted at him, too. He knows our suffering.
I don’t know anyone who has been tested the ways you have. I’ve never seen anyone in so much pain turn to heart and faith the way you have. I’m a nurse and old so I’ve seen a lot.
You are absolutely amazing, so grateful you’ve shared your journey.
Thank you so much! This is very sweet encouragement.
You’ve come a long way, you’re not done. You’ve grown stronger and wiser. Your story will go on and you will be there. 🙏🏻😊
Thank you for sharing this Melanie. You’ve been through so so much-I’m so thankful you don’t blame God. My friend who passed away from cancer was very very angry with God. It made her last days miserable. I tried everything to get her to see her blessings-a beautiful home in which she raised her children, 55 years of having lived a beautiful life. But she just couldn’t see it and instead was very bitter and resentful for what she was losing. It’s so important ofcourse to praise God in the good times, but as hard as it can be, we must also praise Him in the bad times. In the Bible it says there will be trials and tribulations, and we must trust God through it all. Thank you for sharing your journey. I will continue to pray for your recovery🙏🩵🙏
Melanie,
You are a beautiful child of God.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers ❤.
I pray for God’s love and peace upon you, your husband and your family and friends.
Finding comfort and strength through the Lord Jesus in all circumstances.
Like Job.
Both my husband and I suffered brain injuries before we met ,many years ago , which has had an impact on our lives. We both found Christ before we met.
God’s plan.
We have 2 beautiful children and although life will never be perfect ,we cast all our burdens on him.
He has continued to bless us and is still giving us strength to cope in all things.
I am 60 and my husband Keith is 71.
I understand the feelings you’re going through.
I pray Gods healing power upon you and and future blessings for you all.
Kay ( England)
Melanie watching your testimony I feel your deep anguish & sadness of this traumatic life changing diagnosis & surgery, it has been the most overwhelming time for you, your inner courage is shining through the hurt. Keep going, you're getting there, this will be behind you as you are learning to live as the bravest version Melanie you could be.
God bless, protect & fully restore you, He has you in the Palm of His Hand..
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Good morning Melanie! I’ve been thinking about you today and this verse popped up in my Bible study. I wanted to share it with you:
“Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live.”
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
It seems crazy to thank God “no matter what”, not to mention in difficult or hard times. It is something we all fall short of. God places people in our path for a reason and I will think of you as I go forward, during those times when God wants me to be cheerful but I’m finding it difficult. You are an inspiration to me. 🙏
How much you speak of the past traumas of your brother and still recall this in your own trauma of your disease speaks huge volumes of you as a person, I’m praying your journey in this life is a better outcome to give you long time wth your family, we never know the future but I can say this, whatever your facing, your doing it with so much hope and courage, I love your honestly and pray u will get through xx
I also have been going through a heartbreaking situation with my adult son, that has rocked my world & left me crying for many months. The pain is incredible & I think I will never have joy again in my life. I try to thank God for the good things in my life while also lifting my son daily to the Lord. I’m not sure he will answer my prayer the way I want him too, but I do feel his presence & think it saddens him to see me so broken. I am a broken soul. I’m not trying to take away from the trauma you have suffered & pray for you daily. So many of us have horrible things we are going through. I pray that you will be completely healed & can raise your daughter & enjoy your grandchildren some day. God hears our prayers. Big hugs. I wish I could take this away for you.
I am so sorry to hear this! Each of us walks our own path and we have our own struggles. I will be praying for your mama heart and for your son! It’s heartbreak watching our children suffer.
What a beautiful testimony! Thank you so much for sharing this. Like many others, I've prayed frequently for you and will continue to do so. You are brave and beautiful. Our God is an awesome God! A great help to all who call upon Him.
I am so proud of you....I stand in agreement with everything you said.. the anger and the fear alone has caused me such anxiety with my health issues.....God bless you in abundance .....you are healed claim it as we stand with you... ❤❤❤
God bless you Melanie.🙏 God wants us to be open and honest with Him - keep reaching out to Him and tell Him how you feel. Your courage is such an inspiration for so many and your progress in all of this is AMAZING! Keep going! We love you!🥰 🙏❤️🙌✝️🙏
You are such a gift. You are beautifully wonderfully made. Thank you for spreading the word and sharing you thoughts about Jesus. What a sweet reminder. Beauty for ashes. ❤
Melanie, we are with you. Jesus is with you. God bless you. Anger is normal. It may persist but it is an emotion and a normal reaction to dire circumstances. Praying for you.
Melanie, I have been following you for months- I want you to know I pray for you. I am a believer also and I want you to also know that YOU encourage ME! You have walked down this scary path with such bravery and grace. Your testimony is bringing glory to God and that’s amazing!!
My husband has stage 4 cancer and I am his caregiver. There are days I am filled with anxiety too. But like you I try to recite verses about his faithfulness and his character.
One day soon we will be with him and our broken bodies will be transformed and healed!! No more tears or sorrow.!
Keep shinning dear friend! I will be praying for you as you face surgery tomorrow.
God is with us❤
P.S. I think you are absolutely adorable with short hair and your rocking eye patch🌸🌸🌺
I’m so glad to have found your channel months ago as my husband was in the thick of his battle. So many things you say resonate with me and I know they would with my husband but I know he probably would be triggered by watching this, so I can’t send to him. Thanks for sharing so candidly. Praying for a clear biopsy consistent with your clinical diagnoses.
Thank you for sharing your amazing journey. At one point you said ‘I hope somewhere, one person is praying for me’. Know that I am and I am sure many others were. I lost my husband to cancer four years ago, and my niece, who is 19, is now battling a recurrence of brain tumor. And yes, all of the same questions for god and challenges to our faith come up over and over again. I choose to stick with god even when it is hard. I start each day with gratitude for something, even if it is small. I ask god to reveal his plan and believe he has good intentions for me. Be strong and good luck tomorrow. I will be praying for you. You are awesome.
Thank you so much! I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband and will be praying for your sweet niece.
Sometimes we give ourselves cancer by bad diet and bad drinks. I believe I contributed to my cancer.
I had an eating disorder which weakened my immune system. I’m talking about me.
Yes, sin came into the world and that’s why innocent babies get cancer. In no way does GOD give people cancer.
I will say stress is the worst thing for cancer. Radiation was the worst for me. It almost took me out twice.
I was in a bad marriage with abuse going on. After I left all my blood work improved.
Your brave, and your helping many with this situation. You have a good support team. Count your blessings. 😊
Trusting that all goes well on Friday. In my prayers. Love from South Africa
May God be with you still today,and always, may He give you strength, hope courage, may He protect you and make your faith stronger everyday 🙏 💪 ❤️ ❤
Thank you for being vulnerable. It is hard to trust and believe during trials. Praying for you and your family ❤️
Melanie - thank you for this video. This hit me hard as I fight anger over "undeserved" things in my life. I too prayed for God's will to be done and for me to be content. I said a prayer for both of us - thank you for leading me to pray. Thank you for sharing your experience. You have inspired me to continue to ask "is this from anger?' and reroute myself. Take care. You are loved and your anger is understandable.
Sister may God bless you bring you peace and comfort during your pain ❤. I’m glad you did this video .
Melanie I’m glad you’re finding comfort and peace. Anger is a normal emotion. I really hope your medical care team have offered you counseling. Best
I’ve been praying for you 🙏 I hope you recover fully ❤❤❤
This video will be such a valuable source of encouragement to others who are suffering. Thank you!
You're an amazing strength to others. There is a reason for everything. You have no idea how many people you have helped through your example. Thank you, dear sister. You are not alone. You are so loved!! ❤
Im so sorry, I will keep you in my thoughts! I look at you and hear you talk and see so much strength !
With you & praying through your grief and pain Melanie.
Love this. What I’ve learned from trials is life is like a parade. We see the beginning and the horrible middle- but God knows the end. He’s got you.❤
I agree with you regarding God.
You are not being punished.
You are touching and helping so many people with your honesty.
God will bring something good from this.
Gods living word cannot lie and God will not be mocked. So I know something good will come from this.
You are so brave. I was sick for 2 years but not anywhere near as brave as you.
I’m better now and the whole experience brought me closer to God. I don’t think I would be without the suffering I went through.
God knows what you need before you pray so don’t worry much about what you might forget.
You have so much wisdom expressed in this video.
Your husband and love ones must be very proud of you.
🙏 for you. ❤
You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.... He blessed you with your beautiful husband and child. He is walking with you through your journey. Keep the faith! I pray you continue to heal 🙏 ❤️
I SO needed to hear this today. Thank you for sharing. Our lives have paralleled in so many ways. ❤️ I pray we both continue ahead on a beautiful path.
Thank you for sharing your story! I can’t imagine what you have gone through recently. All the fears, anxiety and anger. You are beautiful inside and out❤ God will use your story for someone out there who needs to hear this. Praise God for today. You are an inspiration to me and others❤ keep the faith Melanie ❤❤❤
I pray God’s peace, strength, healing and comfort through this all Melanie. 🇿🇦 He promises to not test us more than we can take .. I struggle with that but have to believe it is true. My husband has stage 4 cancer and boy its a hard journey. So sorry for your loss and hard walk. We just try and make the most of the good moments as many as few as they are. Moment by moment walk in faith. I trust you get many good moments for a long long time. I believe each post you make is touching and making a different in others lives .. that is huge too ❤
I am praying for you Melanie. I am also going through some health issues. A lot of the things you talked about is exactly what I feel also. I am a true believer now. I also question outcomes but in the end it seems to work out. Thats what made me put my trust ind god. You are such a real person and a positive influence to many. Keep your faith and god bless.
Will Always Pray for You...Your followers here Care and Love You..Please keep fighting
Trust & keep the faith. What else can you do ? Otherwise, anger & bitterness can destroy you & your family. I'm not being critical. at all. I can't imagine what you're going through . Thank you for sharing as it makes or should make us all realize how fragile life is. You certainly have the right to all of these feelings & I'm sure God understands; after all, he made us.
I absolutely needed to see this today. Thank you for saying things I needed to hear.
Wow Melanie you are so amazing. I agree I think life throws us things that can seem so unfair, definitely in your situation. I agree we’re here for a reason and there’s a path for all of us and it all happens for a reason (even when it seems senseless).
Wow Melanie you are so amazing. I agree I think life throws us things that can seem so unfair, definitely in your situation. I agree we’re here for a reason and there’s a path for all of us and it all happens for a reason (even when it seems senseless). Continued prayers and blessings to you and everyone! ❤
I’ve watched this video 3xs because it resonates with how I am feeling. Thank you for being so strong and continuing to let us in on your journey.
I hope it helped you not feel so alone in your feelings! Thank you for sharing this with ,e.
Everyone’s journey is different. In my “anger” phase, the harder I tried to pull away from him the tighter he held me. Through tears and shaking my fist at God I finally realized that God is big enough to deal with my anger. Cancer is a terrorizing diagnosis and you’ve had a hard fight but God has had hold of you. Let that anger pour out until there is no more anger left. When you get to that point climb into his lap and just cry. Maybe God gave you your baby so you’d have some reason to keep fighting through this battle. Unless your faith is tested you have no idea how strong your faith is… that’s nice but couldn’t he just have sent you a memo? You may want to read “prison to Praise” by Merlin Carothers. It helped me but my life into perspective. I’ll continue to pray for and your family. Gid has this.
Wonderful, wise words, Melanie ... I will be praying for you ... especially Friday.
In the early moments of this video, I would be angry AF too.. listening now
You are so amazing Melonie! I didn’t know you were a believer but I knew there was something about you that I felt connected to. You are my sister in Christ! Thanks for sharing your feelings and what has helped you through all of the pain in your life. ✝️💜
Dear sister im not going through the journey your on but you and your sweet family are in my prayers. God has reveal to me over the years how he uses people who look broken to the world but God uses us for His glory . With my healh struggles over the years I can see Gods handy work in so many areas. So many blessing the cant be explained other the it was God . A large part of me is overwheming grateful for the cruddy days (now seeing how God used the time forHis glory ) . Yet honestly it really suck .
Like today your testemony was a gift. Your real love for God and others made my heart smile . The best is yet to come . Oh and please forgive typos im legally blind . Typing with blurrybdouble vision is challenging . Lol
Thank you Melanie you are a blessing to so man people❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your stark reality. Through your story, you have caused me to think about things that we take for granted on the daily. Like you have said...cancer can happen to anyone of us! Praise God, He is the Great Healer. 🙏❤ 🤗
Respect, Melanie....for the way you handle the situation.
I believe that God is also angry and hurt at all our suffering.
And, yes, you are right.....unfortunately suffering is a symptom of this broken world.
Will God restore your cancer while you are here....we dont know....( for now it looks good !!! 🙏)
But He certainly will the moment you enter Heaven.
This world is not our home.
Our life on earth is the job we have to do for God.
The tougher the job.....the higher the rewarding.
At the end we will understand that our tough job was in fact a blessing!
Head up, Melanie.....YOU ARE DOING GREAT . ( God knows what you are capable of)
Strong warrior.....have a blessed day.
Love from the Netherlands.
Your words are like gold in the treasure trove of God's wisdom. You brought me to tears in your descriptions of pain and loss of who you were especially, not just for you but for myself as well. As you talked I started jotting down my list of loss. I think facing it, though painful may free me of internalizing grief into depression and more grief. Your husband is at your side looking ahead and above in hope and counting the blessings in your life and family. I know I need to let the past go and be in the moment with Jesus and my husband and caregivers. Beautiful worship music lifts me up to joy for awhile. I believe my suffering will bring about my prayers for others. I have seen it already and I rejoice. I see you as a person that inspires me to go through the pain and loss and never give up. Thank you for being so open and vunerable. You are more beautiful now than ever before.
Praying for you and yours daily; God has good plans for you, to prosper you and give you a hope and a future🙏I understand your anger and frustration beautiful soul but He has literally reached down from on high and delivered me and mine from an insane situation and my mess is becoming a message; I have to remember His sovereignty over it all; my ❤️cries out for you ; He is listening to your heartfelt cries and He never forsakes us, it is good that you are sharing; we love you I know He holds you in the palm of His hands🙏🫶🙂↕️
Love to you, dear Melanie! Many of us can relate. We went through the loss of our youngest son at age 42, November 25, 2020. It was like your brother. He suffered from deep depression since he was a teen. The loss was so unreal. I am sure your parents know that pain as parents.
Then, we had our oldest son come through ALL, and as of now, it's been 5 years, and he is still with us. We thank God!All I can say is I am still in a very deep shutdown place. The grief is still unreal. I will never be the same!
I am praying that you can continue to cling to God for each day and faith that you will be with your precious baby girl and family to see her grow, and you will be at her wedding with your devoted husband!!❤❤ And your parents will have you!