I just found your channel and my heart shattered into a million little pieces for you when I watched your stillbirth story. I am so so sorry that you had to go through that. You’re a really strong mama 💪🏻
I lost my daughter the May before you lost Prim. I watched her story before this one, and I relate so much. Eleven weeks after her stillbirth I became pregnant for her little brother and now have to rainbow boys. Everything you say resonates with me. I know it’s been a while since you filmed this, but I hope you are well. I still struggle daily.
Therapy is amazing. You have no idea the weight it lifts from you. I’m so sorry for your loss hun..youre very strong and beautiful!! Also I love the name Primrose!! Such a unique and beautiful name. 💕🌹
Thank you so much for sharing! I completely feel the same way. I have been pregnant only one time though. I lost the first twin at 8 weeks and the second we lost at 26 weeks and delivered our little baby girl Evelyn Rose. My heart hurts for all the mama and the day to day heartache. Enjoy your little Teddy. Thanks again for sharing.
💕💕💕💕💕 You are an awesome, wonderful mum...grief counseling really is a valuable resource; talking to others’ experiences does help. Grief has no timetable-just honour your feelings and stay strong.
Just stumbled across your video... wanted to say that my heart is broken for you and sending all my love. Definitely go to counselling, you’re incredibly strong and deserve to let go of any negative feelings you currently have. You’re a great mum :)
I'm so sorry sweetheart, I wish there was more doctor's can do to prevent stillbirth. I've seen so many cases of babies born sleeping it's so heartbreaking. May God bless you and your family.
Good luck seeking help, I know it can be really hard to get there. I went to a psychiatric hospital for the first time today, and as a grown adult brought both of my parents from 4 hours away for support -- without them I wouldn't've even made it through the doors. Reach out to your youtube community and/or in-person loved ones if you need anything at all!
Thank you for sharing this with us, it really has hit home with me. I’m currently experiencing grief with the unexpected loss of my dad just under 3 months ago. Grief is the weirdest path I have taken, you think you’ll know how you will feel or the expected side of grief however my journey has been nothing like the standard people expect. I feel awful that I’m not consumed with sadness.. or that I’m not completely distraught... I thought that when they withdrew my dad’s life support machine I’d be heartbroken but I just really quickly accepted the reality of it all and knew there was nothing I could do. Maybe in time I’ll feel all these emotions that I’m suppose to feel.. Grief is such a personal journey for us all, and eventually everyone will go through it at some point. I’m sending all my love to you 🧡
Stephanie Blunt I am in the same boat myself...my dad passed just over a week ago out of nowhere. His funeral was Friday and it was gut wrenching. Grief is this path that no one wants to walk and it is just all over the place.
I read this and it was as if I had typed it. I lost my Dad in January and am acting just like you. I thought I was the only one. Thank you so much for sharing. Xx
I lost my 6 month old baby girl to SIDS. Its been 5 years since we lost her. I have since had 2 little girls who are my world ! However I totally relate to you saying you feel she should be here as I do to. I hate the fact my daughter can never do and see what my other 2 can. I have never recieved counselling mainly due to the fact I couldnt find any body and GPs were absolutely rubbish. Cant lie that pain will never go away however you will learn to live with that pain better. I believe time does heal . It is a big wound which may never close. I cant see mine closing any time soon. My girls were also a gift of healing. Gives me focus to my life. It took and 2 amd half years to close the whole case of her death. Until the case was done I found it hard to move on with my life. I dont mean move on as forget . Move on as in moving on and learning to be a new person from what I have experience. Im sorry this is long but I really hope you gain some comfort from this. I hate the saying everything happens for reason as I never belive there is a good enough reason for a child to die however I belive that a child no matter how short their life was , WAS here for a reason. .
@@socooltiff hello I really wish I could contact you privately and give you advice as I would have loved contact with someone who had been through it it. My best advice is keep going I know that sounds stupid now but it does. I still hurt 5 years on . However that horrible pain your feeling does go but it does live with you. Honestly I send you all the love in the world and hope your friends and family are there for you as mine were.
So sorry😞 I just lost my first daughter Sofie Grace to stillbirth on Sunday 23rd June💔 I was 30 weeks pregnant and we had no idea. She was perfect just the week before. We have opted for post mortem and should get the results by end of August. As you say, wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. Just know you arent alone 💔
@@indumm7869 so sorry for your loss. There was a knot in her umbilical cord which in turn stopped the oxygen and bloody supply. I have since went on to have another daugher and son. Don’t lose hope sending you lots of love
@@rachelalbert4929 thank you for ur concern 💖 I will be trying for the next one in June and is there any way where we can avoid umbilical cord accident?
@@indumm7869 it’s a very rare occurrence! Nothing you can really do but I took baby aspirin and extra folic acid in both my following pregnancies!! Good luck xx
It took me years to get pregnant and on my first ultrasound at 9 weeks we found out it was a blided ovum pregnancy. The baby didn't develop. It was heartbreaking. After a year of trying again I finally get pregnant with my rainbow baby. I'm 28 weeks pregnant and I fear the worst. It's scary to think that it can happen to me. God bless you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story 💜
I just found your channel and obviously I don't know you but my heart is so broken for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for continued healing. And praying that your family brings you joy in your pain. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you are able to find more answers and hopefully gain some closure and some peace
Everything you are going trough now is the grief you were hiding while being pregnant with Teddy. Let it out now. Don’t go out if you don’t have to. Do what YOU want. I went exactly through everything you are talking about, but right after our daughter died. You were strong enough to hide it till Teddy was here safe and sound. So grief now, it’s absolutely nothing to be worried about ❤️❤️ P.S.: I would love to see the update videos of week 30 to 36 with Teddy, I’m 32 weeks pregnant with our little rainbow and those videos helped me a lot ❤️
Let those thoughts and feelings come. They are fighting to break free. You will come out of the other end. We always do. You have something to live for and that will pull you through. But you do have to allow the thoughts and feelings to flow. Or it will last longer. I held on to grief for many years. It takes the joy away. Please try not to do that. Grief takes time but has to be felt. If you feel the court case will change things for others then I would say it could be a good idea. If it’s not going to help anything I would say it’s not worth it. It will take so much away from you. Sadly still birth often happens with no pre warning. No way for them to have known this was going to happen. I hope that makes sense. I know we want someone to blame. But sometimes this happens and no one is to blame. It can take years for these cases to be sorted out and in that time it may be harder for you to begin to heal. It’s your choice. But I have seen others go through it an wish they hadn’t once the anger and loss of their child was excepted by them as just something that was beyond anyone’s control. Again please let yourself feel that pain. It’s horrible but it has to be done.
I find it really inspiring Lorraine to see how you are doing in this journey. You speak really frankly about loss and how the loss of Prim has affected every part of your life. I find your courage to continue discussing this in a way which is both real but also positive very inspirational. You are a really lovely lady and I think you are completely right when you say that Teddy was sent to you as a gift of healing from Prim. Keep talking about your feelings, you will feel better. So much love, Charlotte x
Don’t beat yourself up about not seeking therapy yet. I think even things like this video and your insta posts are more healing than you realise. however, from therapy I’ve learned that saying things out loud is scary but it really does help stop the thoughts from just going round and round in your head and driving you mad. When you find the right professional to open up to it’ll help so much. Lots of love!
You’re right doing these videos do help me get off my chest some built up feelings. I do struggle to get out how I feel though at times. There’s a lot of anger and tears that feel trapped sometimes as I tend not to let myself delve into it too much. I’ll get there and I’ll absolutely get myself some help because I deserve to try and be my happiest self after everything I went through. I deserve to try and find happiness at the very least. I’ve got two kids here depending on me and they deserve that from me too x
God my heart breaks for you. I can't imagine just how hard it is for you with that pain you're carrying around. I hope your days get brighter soon as you really deserve it. How lucky are your kids to have a fantastic mammy like you who loves them so much xx
Firstly I’m so sorry for your loss of your beautiful daughter. I think you’re an incredible mother to her in the way you advocate for her! Please remember that the people responsible for your and your daughters care in pregnancy are people too and any mistakes that were made were not made with malicious intent I’m sure, rather they were likely the result of a system that overworks and mismanages it’s employees! Doctors and midwives and human too and have undoubtedly also been touched by the loss of Prim. It’s so important to make sure this doesn’t happen to another baby but please also advocate for the mental health of the staff members involved in your care because they are people too! 💕
A mistake is messing up an order. A mistake is telling you the wrong appointment time. You don’t get to make mistakes that needlessly cost the lives of others and be shielded by the fact you’re a doctor or nurse. Her child is deceased. If that ultimately is the result of the care providers she had then fuck their mental health they need to lose their licenses and jobs so they can never cause the death of another baby again 🤷🏻♀️.
You’re a very brave woman for what you have gone through and to come out the other side. It’s true that your children do get you through. I suffered two early miscarriages earlier this year and if it wasn’t for my son I wouldn’t have got out of bed but they are the strength you need to hold onto. It will always take time and you can’t rush your feelings and emotions, I hope one day really soon it starts to feel less raw. I know your taking some time out for you now but sending lots of love x
You need to go to a group meeting for women who have gone through what you have. I have been pregnant 9 times with 11 children and only have 2 live births. You will never forget but you will find the pain will diminish with time and counseling.
Cynthia David I completely agree. I really will get myself some proper help. I know it will be worth it when I do. I’ve been pregnant 6 times and the journey has been so hard, I partly know how you feel. I’m sorry you’ve had a tough journey but I’m always here if you need someone or just for a chat x
Lorraine Mulrooney Same here anytime you need to talk I’m here for you. The journey was hard but so worth it. The hugs are healing from those tiny ones. Always remember to enjoy them and the blessings that they are and they will heal you from within.
Hope you get answers Lorraine... it's such a difficult time grief is awful but try not to fight it and hold it in I tried to do that and made myself ill. ..sending you a big hug I think counselling would help you so much just speaking to someone that isn't a family member will do wonders its a slow process but your a very strong and wonderful lady ... take care xx
You are so strong, more than you know. Thank you for the update and I still am sending many prayers of healing and loving vibes from over the ocean. Prim will always be in your heart and know that she wants you to be happy, to live, and to laugh. I pray you have a wonderful day.
You are so relatable Lorraine, thanks for always being so honest ♥️ you are strong & I hope you get the help that you need. You deserve happiness xxxxx
I cannot express how much I admire how raw and honest you are in the content you share with us. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this has been and continues to be, but the way you share your feelings, thoughts, and experiences - surrounding your stillbirth and your family and life in general - is SO genuine and that makes it truly inspiring and powerful. Thank you for sharing and for being such a lovely human. Wishing you nothing but the absolute best, you for sure deserve it!
You really should speak to your doctor sounds like depression and ptsd I have depression anxiety complex ptsd I am on a anti depressant and I had it upped 2 weeks ago because it needed to be I thought feeling like shit and being so ant social was my normal and with my autism but I realised that when I started the anti depressant I have done group therapy and cbt for my ptsd I knew doing it it wouldn’t fix everything because I have complex ptsd but it has definitely helped I only went to the doctor because people who care told me too and I saw my doctor and he could instantly see that I wasn’t well
You are doing so well. Everything you describe is totally normal and the fact you get up each day and live your life is amazing. Obviously having a court case hanging over you is so hard going. I hope you manage to get some help you need but allow yourself all the time you need
Ohh she did send him for you!! He is the cutest little boy! I bet if you fill in the form you'll find the original, your such a beautiful person and thank you for sharing with us! Your so strong, and you are indeed a beautiful mum to your girls and Teddy, lots of love always xxxxxxxx
Thank you for making this video I found it very relatable I lost my precious baby girl at 18 weeks 20 11/2 months ago now I have heard a rainbow baby boy who is now almost one I also found after having a son that I started to cope with and I felt that my daughter sent my son to me to save me a lot of ways
Thank you for sharing. You are such a strong woman. Did you ever share what the reason was for the stillborn? I am just terrified. I am 26 weeks but had a miscarriage before and I am so scared of a stillborn
If anything is disrupting your day that much you need to seek medical attention. You are such a strong women/mom! Couldn't imagine what are you going through. Hugs
I can relate to just about everything you said. Thank you from sharing. I’m a mama to 3.5 yr old jr and my angel baby Jeremiah 10/21/18-10/25/18... I’m currently 5 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby. I had a chemical pregnancy last month before getting pregnant with this baby now.
I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your son Jeremiah (what a BEAUTIFUL name) and your recent miscarriage. Sending lots of love your way. Having children has been the hardest journey of my life, who knew growing up how traumatic it could be. Always here if you need someone to talk to, I’ll do my best to make sure I respond x
My sister in law had a still born at 38 weeks. My brother discovered that his wife was prescribed an antibiotic by her obgyn that was never to be given to pregnant women. It killed her perfect full term baby💔💔💔
I feel like doing this for my stillborn Oliver only January just gone, he was 37weeks also and my pregnancy was hard looking back there was for sure warning signs and alarm bells ringing however people ignored them, on the other hand do I need the added stress and trauma? Not sure what to do x
Follow your heart. Listen to it and you will know what to do. I know that sounds corny but trust me, it's true. The more you think about it the harder it becomes! I had a 16 week miscarriage and wasnt allowed to see my baby, or have know the sex etc and I couldnt be bothered to fight at the time due to depression and I've lived to regret it all these years! That baby was our 13th loss and we had no support during that pregnancy! So please go somewhere quiet and just sit. Dont think. The answer will come to you x There is no right or wrong answer, only what is right for you xx
My son also was stillbirth baby and he was my first child I went home after delivary alone me and my husband had and still have the worst period in our live just know that ur lucky u have ur daughter and u have ur son as a gift from god I wish I have my gift soon cuz am really in pain
Me it's September 21st2020, my first as well,42weeks my boy died of cord wrap in the womb which is rare. So sorry for your loss,I know exactly how it feels
Feel sorry for Your loss, having passed such a way already! My daughter passed away in 23 weeks and there is not a day I would not rememmber her. It was 9 months ago.. Sending lots of best wishes for You and Your family! ❤❤❤
Hey beautiful mamma ❤️ just wanted to give you a heads up with this video there’s a weird like loading sound ( maybe from the lense ) I’ve been binging your videos for hours and this is the only one where I can hear it ! ❤️❤️ not sure if I am the only one who noticed it though !
My daughter died after 12 minutes I got pregnant straight away ...he was born at 25 weeks and only had a 10% chance of making it ...he did they don't know why but he did he's 19 now.. I just couldn't go through it all again ..so we made sure we never got pregnant again ..i guess because our First 2 were normal my 3rd was born at 27 weeks then my little angel baby.. I think it was enough is enough it never goes away you learn to live with the pain ...same as you it was having 4 kids kept me going I'd have gave up
Hi, have you had any successful with your solicitor about your case? After 5 months the post mortem didnt sent me the last result. We know all was normal about baby, I have read the documents from them, but I dont get why during so much time to finish this case!! Sorry for your loss, I know what means 😔😔.
I know this is an old video but I just feel really confused and scared right now. Our Ivy was born in September last year, and I had a positive pregnancy test yesterday. We have a screening scheduled in 2 weeks but I can't be pregnant for the tests. Now my partner said we might be better off terminating the pregnancy and do the test first and it makes me so mad when he says that but I know he says it because he wants to protect me. How did your partner react when you fell pregnant with Teddy? Was there ever the thought that it might be better not to have him? What you said about Prim sending you Teddy really hit home for me, it almost feels like a second chance. I just don't know how to talk to my partner right now and I feel so lonely. Any advice is welcome.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16 KJV, Jesus Christ is the only way................
I had a stillbirth In November 2019 when I was 17 and I’m now 18 and 18 weeks pregnant with a boy and your videos have honestly helped me so much
She was and she still is...waiting in heaven for her brave mommy. So very glad about Teddy! May the Lord comfort you in His great and eternal love...
I just found your channel and my heart shattered into a million little pieces for you when I watched your stillbirth story. I am so so sorry that you had to go through that. You’re a really strong mama 💪🏻
Your such a fantastic mummy to all your three children. I really just want to crawl through the screen and give you a massive hug xxx
I lost my daughter the May before you lost Prim. I watched her story before this one, and I relate so much. Eleven weeks after her stillbirth I became pregnant for her little brother and now have to rainbow boys. Everything you say resonates with me. I know it’s been a while since you filmed this, but I hope you are well. I still struggle daily.
Therapy is amazing. You have no idea the weight it lifts from you. I’m so sorry for your loss hun..youre very strong and beautiful!! Also I love the name Primrose!! Such a unique and beautiful name. 💕🌹
Bravest woman I know, so lucky to have you as a friend. I'm always here if you need to vent my darling
Thank you so much for sharing! I completely feel the same way. I have been pregnant only one time though. I lost the first twin at 8 weeks and the second we lost at 26 weeks and delivered our little baby girl Evelyn Rose. My heart hurts for all the mama and the day to day heartache. Enjoy your little Teddy. Thanks again for sharing.
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You are an awesome, wonderful mum...grief counseling really is a valuable resource; talking to others’ experiences does help. Grief has no timetable-just honour your feelings and stay strong.
Just stumbled across your video... wanted to say that my heart is broken for you and sending all my love.
Definitely go to counselling, you’re incredibly strong and deserve to let go of any negative feelings you currently have.
You’re a great mum :)
Sending love to you. My sister went through this 18 years ago this October and it still hurts us all. Big hugs to you 💕
I'm so sorry sweetheart, I wish there was more doctor's can do to prevent stillbirth. I've seen so many cases of babies born sleeping it's so heartbreaking. May God bless you and your family.
Good luck seeking help, I know it can be really hard to get there. I went to a psychiatric hospital for the first time today, and as a grown adult brought both of my parents from 4 hours away for support -- without them I wouldn't've even made it through the doors. Reach out to your youtube community and/or in-person loved ones if you need anything at all!
Thank you for sharing this with us, it really has hit home with me.
I’m currently experiencing grief with the unexpected loss of my dad just under 3 months ago. Grief is the weirdest path I have taken, you think you’ll know how you will feel or the expected side of grief however my journey has been nothing like the standard people expect. I feel awful that I’m not consumed with sadness.. or that I’m not completely distraught... I thought that when they withdrew my dad’s life support machine I’d be heartbroken but I just really quickly accepted the reality of it all and knew there was nothing I could do. Maybe in time I’ll feel all these emotions that I’m suppose to feel..
Grief is such a personal journey for us all, and eventually everyone will go through it at some point. I’m sending all my love to you 🧡
Stephanie Blunt I am in the same boat myself...my dad passed just over a week ago out of nowhere. His funeral was Friday and it was gut wrenching. Grief is this path that no one wants to walk and it is just all over the place.
I read this and it was as if I had typed it. I lost my Dad in January and am acting just like you. I thought I was the only one. Thank you so much for sharing. Xx
Go to that group! Get your clothes ready, lay them out, imagine going with your friend. It'll help so much connecting and sharing stories.
I lost my 6 month old baby girl to SIDS. Its been 5 years since we lost her. I have since had 2 little girls who are my world ! However I totally relate to you saying you feel she should be here as I do to. I hate the fact my daughter can never do and see what my other 2 can. I have never recieved counselling mainly due to the fact I couldnt find any body and GPs were absolutely rubbish.
Cant lie that pain will never go away however you will learn to live with that pain better.
I believe time does heal . It is a big wound which may never close. I cant see mine closing any time soon.
My girls were also a gift of healing. Gives me focus to my life.
It took and 2 amd half years to close the whole case of her death.
Until the case was done I found it hard to move on with my life. I dont mean move on as forget . Move on as in moving on and learning to be a new person from what I have experience.
Im sorry this is long but I really hope you gain some comfort from this.
I hate the saying everything happens for reason as I never belive there is a good enough reason for a child to die however I belive that a child no matter how short their life was , WAS here for a reason. .
Ugh my heart hurts for you so much mama. My daughter is currently 6 months and SIDs has always been one of my worst nightmares.
I hope to be as strong as you someday. I lost mine to SIDS 2 months ago.
@@socooltiff hello I really wish I could contact you privately and give you advice as I would have loved contact with someone who had been through it it.
My best advice is keep going I know that sounds stupid now but it does. I still hurt 5 years on . However that horrible pain your feeling does go but it does live with you.
Honestly I send you all the love in the world and hope your friends and family are there for you as mine were.
@@socooltiff sorry for your loss.. both of you
Go to the therapist. Take the best care of yourself, if not for you, for your children who need you at your best ❤️❤️❤️ you’re inspiring
So sorry😞 I just lost my first daughter Sofie Grace to stillbirth on Sunday 23rd June💔 I was 30 weeks pregnant and we had no idea. She was perfect just the week before. We have opted for post mortem and should get the results by end of August. As you say, wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. Just know you arent alone 💔
Rachel Blair sending you love and hugs xxx
Was there any particular reason y it happened...I just lost mine to incompetent cervix.
@@indumm7869 so sorry for your loss. There was a knot in her umbilical cord which in turn stopped the oxygen and bloody supply. I have since went on to have another daugher and son. Don’t lose hope sending you lots of love
@@rachelalbert4929 thank you for ur concern 💖 I will be trying for the next one in June and is there any way where we can avoid umbilical cord accident?
@@indumm7869 it’s a very rare occurrence! Nothing you can really do but I took baby aspirin and extra folic acid in both my following pregnancies!! Good luck xx
I hope you're doing well and continuing to heal.
It took me years to get pregnant and on my first ultrasound at 9 weeks we found out it was a blided ovum pregnancy. The baby didn't develop. It was heartbreaking. After a year of trying again I finally get pregnant with my rainbow baby. I'm 28 weeks pregnant and I fear the worst. It's scary to think that it can happen to me. God bless you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story 💜
I just found your channel and obviously I don't know you but my heart is so broken for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for continued healing. And praying that your family brings you joy in your pain. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you are able to find more answers and hopefully gain some closure and some peace
Everything you are going trough now is the grief you were hiding while being pregnant with Teddy. Let it out now. Don’t go out if you don’t have to. Do what YOU want. I went exactly through everything you are talking about, but right after our daughter died. You were strong enough to hide it till Teddy was here safe and sound. So grief now, it’s absolutely nothing to be worried about ❤️❤️
P.S.: I would love to see the update videos of week 30 to 36 with Teddy, I’m 32 weeks pregnant with our little rainbow and those videos helped me a lot ❤️
Let those thoughts and feelings come. They are fighting to break free. You will come out of the other end. We always do. You have something to live for and that will pull you through. But you do have to allow the thoughts and feelings to flow. Or it will last longer. I held on to grief for many years. It takes the joy away. Please try not to do that. Grief takes time but has to be felt. If you feel the court case will change things for others then I would say it could be a good idea. If it’s not going to help anything I would say it’s not worth it. It will take so much away from you. Sadly still birth often happens with no pre warning. No way for them to have known this was going to happen. I hope that makes sense. I know we want someone to blame. But sometimes this happens and no one is to blame. It can take years for these cases to be sorted out and in that time it may be harder for you to begin to heal. It’s your choice. But I have seen others go through it an wish they hadn’t once the anger and loss of their child was excepted by them as just something that was beyond anyone’s control. Again please let yourself feel that pain. It’s horrible but it has to be done.
I find it really inspiring Lorraine to see how you are doing in this journey. You speak really frankly about loss and how the loss of Prim has affected every part of your life. I find your courage to continue discussing this in a way which is both real but also positive very inspirational. You are a really lovely lady and I think you are completely right when you say that Teddy was sent to you as a gift of healing from Prim. Keep talking about your feelings, you will feel better. So much love, Charlotte x
I LOVE THE NAME PRIMROSE ,SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS
Don’t beat yourself up about not seeking therapy yet. I think even things like this video and your insta posts are more healing than you realise. however, from therapy I’ve learned that saying things out loud is scary but it really does help stop the thoughts from just going round and round in your head and driving you mad. When you find the right professional to open up to it’ll help so much. Lots of love!
You’re right doing these videos do help me get off my chest some built up feelings. I do struggle to get out how I feel though at times. There’s a lot of anger and tears that feel trapped sometimes as I tend not to let myself delve into it too much. I’ll get there and I’ll absolutely get myself some help because I deserve to try and be my happiest self after everything I went through. I deserve to try and find happiness at the very least. I’ve got two kids here depending on me and they deserve that from me too x
Claire Dennis Thankyou x
Such a wonderful young mom you are!! Sending you my love for your heart to get answers and heal..i can't imagine but hope you can be at peace ❤
God my heart breaks for you. I can't imagine just how hard it is for you with that pain you're carrying around. I hope your days get brighter soon as you really deserve it. How lucky are your kids to have a fantastic mammy like you who loves them so much xx
Rachel Oneill Aw honestly Thankyou so much I appreciate your comment a lot. Really made me smile having such lovely people supporting me x
@@lorrainemulrooney sending alot of love your way ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Firstly I’m so sorry for your loss of your beautiful daughter. I think you’re an incredible mother to her in the way you advocate for her! Please remember that the people responsible for your and your daughters care in pregnancy are people too and any mistakes that were made were not made with malicious intent I’m sure, rather they were likely the result of a system that overworks and mismanages it’s employees! Doctors and midwives and human too and have undoubtedly also been touched by the loss of Prim. It’s so important to make sure this doesn’t happen to another baby but please also advocate for the mental health of the staff members involved in your care because they are people too! 💕
A mistake is messing up an order. A mistake is telling you the wrong appointment time. You don’t get to make mistakes that needlessly cost the lives of others and be shielded by the fact you’re a doctor or nurse. Her child is deceased. If that ultimately is the result of the care providers she had then fuck their mental health they need to lose their licenses and jobs so they can never cause the death of another baby again 🤷🏻♀️.
This is a stupid reply mistakes that cost a life are murder period stop defending murderers
You’re a very brave woman for what you have gone through and to come out the other side. It’s true that your children do get you through.
I suffered two early miscarriages earlier this year and if it wasn’t for my son I wouldn’t have got out of bed but they are the strength you need to hold onto. It will always take time and you can’t rush your feelings and emotions, I hope one day really soon it starts to feel less raw. I know your taking some time out for you now but sending lots of love x
You're such a wonderful strong person. I love your honesty.
You need to go to a group meeting for women who have gone through what you have. I have been pregnant 9 times with 11 children and only have 2 live births. You will never forget but you will find the pain will diminish with time and counseling.
Cynthia David I completely agree. I really will get myself some proper help. I know it will be worth it when I do. I’ve been pregnant 6 times and the journey has been so hard, I partly know how you feel. I’m sorry you’ve had a tough journey but I’m always here if you need someone or just for a chat x
Lorraine Mulrooney Same here anytime you need to talk I’m here for you. The journey was hard but so worth it. The hugs are healing from those tiny ones. Always remember to enjoy them and the blessings that they are and they will heal you from within.
Aww I'm really sorry for your loss, xxxxx your such a lovely person xxxxx thinking of you xxxxx lots of love xxxxxxx
Hope you get answers Lorraine... it's such a difficult time grief is awful but try not to fight it and hold it in I tried to do that and made myself ill. ..sending you a big hug I think counselling would help you so much just speaking to someone that isn't a family member will do wonders its a slow process but your a very strong and wonderful lady ... take care xx
You are so strong, more than you know. Thank you for the update and I still am sending many prayers of healing and loving vibes from over the ocean. Prim will always be in your heart and know that she wants you to be happy, to live, and to laugh. I pray you have a wonderful day.
You are a wonderful mom. Keep up the great work.
Please update what happened to prim
you should never ask a grieving mother to do that. i understand you meant no harm but it is honestly quite insensitive.
You are so relatable Lorraine, thanks for always being so honest ♥️ you are strong & I hope you get the help that you need. You deserve happiness xxxxx
I cannot express how much I admire how raw and honest you are in the content you share with us. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this has been and continues to be, but the way you share your feelings, thoughts, and experiences - surrounding your stillbirth and your family and life in general - is SO genuine and that makes it truly inspiring and powerful. Thank you for sharing and for being such a lovely human. Wishing you nothing but the absolute best, you for sure deserve it!
Going through this with my wife... 33 weeks and baby stops suddenly to move... No reason so far... Its horrible and heartbreaking..
You really should speak to your doctor sounds like depression and ptsd I have depression anxiety complex ptsd I am on a anti depressant and I had it upped 2 weeks ago because it needed to be I thought feeling like shit and being so ant social was my normal and with my autism but I realised that when I started the anti depressant I have done group therapy and cbt for my ptsd I knew doing it it wouldn’t fix everything because I have complex ptsd but it has definitely helped I only went to the doctor because people who care told me too and I saw my doctor and he could instantly see that I wasn’t well
Watching this 4 years after the upload. I hope you are all doing well 🩷 I have a daughter named Penelope as well.
You are an incredible woman and mother.
You are doing so well. Everything you describe is totally normal and the fact you get up each day and live your life is amazing. Obviously having a court case hanging over you is so hard going. I hope you manage to get some help you need but allow yourself all the time you need
Ohh she did send him for you!! He is the cutest little boy! I bet if you fill in the form you'll find the original, your such a beautiful person and thank you for sharing with us! Your so strong, and you are indeed a beautiful mum to your girls and Teddy, lots of love always xxxxxxxx
I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this :( sending you and your family so, so much love ❤❤
Aww, so lovely to hear a little update on how you are getting along xx
May God Bless You!! ♥️ Beautiful soul inside out.
You're such a strong and beautiful person bless you x
Thank you for making this video I found it very relatable I lost my precious baby girl at 18 weeks 20 11/2 months ago now I have heard a rainbow baby boy who is now almost one I also found after having a son that I started to cope with and I felt that my daughter sent my son to me to save me a lot of ways
When are you uploading videos. We miss you 🥰
Thank you for sharing. You are such a strong woman. Did you ever share what the reason was for the stillborn? I am just terrified. I am 26 weeks but had a miscarriage before and I am so scared of a stillborn
If anything is disrupting your day that much you need to seek medical attention. You are such a strong women/mom! Couldn't imagine what are you going through. Hugs
Sending you Love and hugs!!! 💖
I can relate to just about everything you said. Thank you from sharing. I’m a mama to 3.5 yr old jr and my angel baby Jeremiah 10/21/18-10/25/18... I’m currently 5 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby. I had a chemical pregnancy last month before getting pregnant with this baby now.
I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your son Jeremiah (what a BEAUTIFUL name) and your recent miscarriage. Sending lots of love your way. Having children has been the hardest journey of my life, who knew growing up how traumatic it could be. Always here if you need someone to talk to, I’ll do my best to make sure I respond x
You should be very proud of yourself. Keep going ❤️❤️
My sister in law had a still born at 38 weeks. My brother discovered that his wife was prescribed an antibiotic by her obgyn that was never to be given to pregnant women. It killed her perfect full term baby💔💔💔
I feel like doing this for my stillborn Oliver only January just gone, he was 37weeks also and my pregnancy was hard looking back there was for sure warning signs and alarm bells ringing however people ignored them, on the other hand do I need the added stress and trauma? Not sure what to do x
Follow your heart. Listen to it and you will know what to do. I know that sounds corny but trust me, it's true. The more you think about it the harder it becomes! I had a 16 week miscarriage and wasnt allowed to see my baby, or have know the sex etc and I couldnt be bothered to fight at the time due to depression and I've lived to regret it all these years! That baby was our 13th loss and we had no support during that pregnancy! So please go somewhere quiet and just sit. Dont think. The answer will come to you x There is no right or wrong answer, only what is right for you xx
My son also was stillbirth baby and he was my first child I went home after delivary alone me and my husband had and still have the worst period in our live just know that ur lucky u have ur daughter and u have ur son as a gift from god I wish I have my gift soon cuz am really in pain
Me it's September 21st2020, my first as well,42weeks my boy died of cord wrap in the womb which is rare.
So sorry for your loss,I know exactly how it feels
Feel sorry for Your loss, having passed such a way already! My daughter passed away in 23 weeks and there is not a day I would not rememmber her. It was 9 months ago.. Sending lots of best wishes for You and Your family! ❤❤❤
Hey beautiful mamma ❤️ just wanted to give you a heads up with this video there’s a weird like loading sound ( maybe from the lense ) I’ve been binging your videos for hours and this is the only one where I can hear it ! ❤️❤️ not sure if I am the only one who noticed it though !
Thankyou so much for this video. Xx
My daughter died after 12 minutes I got pregnant straight away ...he was born at 25 weeks and only had a 10% chance of making it ...he did they don't know why but he did he's 19 now.. I just couldn't go through it all again ..so we made sure we never got pregnant again ..i guess because our First 2 were normal my 3rd was born at 27 weeks then my little angel baby.. I think it was enough is enough it never goes away you learn to live with the pain ...same as you it was having 4 kids kept me going I'd have gave up
Sending so much love Lorraine ❤️
Hi, have you had any successful with your solicitor about your case? After 5 months the post mortem didnt sent me the last result. We know all was normal about baby, I have read the documents from them, but I dont get why during so much time to finish this case!! Sorry for your loss, I know what means 😔😔.
Sending you love Lorraine x
Hi, how are you? Do you do videos anymore? Sending love
I clicked on all her social media links and all are deleted. I hope she's doing well
Bell i did the same too. Let’s hope. I can’t find any update. X
I know this is an old video but I just feel really confused and scared right now.
Our Ivy was born in September last year, and I had a positive pregnancy test yesterday. We have a screening scheduled in 2 weeks but I can't be pregnant for the tests.
Now my partner said we might be better off terminating the pregnancy and do the test first and it makes me so mad when he says that but I know he says it because he wants to protect me.
How did your partner react when you fell pregnant with Teddy? Was there ever the thought that it might be better not to have him?
What you said about Prim sending you Teddy really hit home for me, it almost feels like a second chance.
I just don't know how to talk to my partner right now and I feel so lonely. Any advice is welcome.
What ended up happening ? Did you terminate the pregnancy ?
Sending love and strength xxxxx
Sending love and hugs lovely... I think about you all often xxxxx
Your videos brought me so much comfort after my stillbirth 1 year ago. Thank you!
I miss your videos
Lots of love to u all xx
❤️❤️❤️ stay strong, lots of love
Thank you for sharing your story....
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16 KJV, Jesus Christ is the only way................
I would speak to your dr or out a self refferal form for counselling
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