My favorite thing is when me and my family go on road trips. We're not scared of driving at night so we get a good bit of driving on the highway at night. I love just putting my headphones on and blocking everything out. Some people hate long trips or driving. I love it.
Reminds me of drifting off in the backseat as a child while my parents drove home and the light from the street lights passed by rhythmically. Thanks for the journey
When he suddenly, slowly changing, drifting away from u. He slowly changes the way he talks to you, the way he cares for you, the way he loves you. When suddenly, seems like everything is falling apart, you remember the night you used to be so inlove with each other.
i wish i didnt and am glad i know what youre talking about im still with him and hes changing right in front of me but that boy gave me the best 5 months of my life.
I regret listening to this in one sitting, awake. ,.Starring at the ceiling. At 47:21 my eyes started to itch. I figured its due to me not looking at something else but a ceiling for an hour. Then I felt like blood was pouring out my eyes. Again, im thinking "starring at the ceiling for so long must have its toll. " My chest started to hurt, and I thought I had heart burn. Turns outs, I was asleep the whole time. Waking up with a with a broken heart and trails of dry tears running down my cheek to my throat. What the hell am I supposed to do.
@@mehgenvargas4881 Dude I got it even worse. I burted out crying for no reason when I saw a Door knob. A DOOOR. KNOB. Because In my mind I thought the door knob was me, [Door knob is always opening up to people, but ultimately being used by many people without thank. Along with Some people abusing it like, adding germs to it." So yuh. We out here, crying about doorknobs n shit.....
It hurts, because after that night, i got a message that said we couldn’t talk anymore. He broke it off. Someone who i only talked to for such a short amount of time, someone i feel like i shared so much with. I haven’t talked to him in like two months. He’s leaving next week for the army. i’m never going to see him again and i’m scared to even look at him now. we share looks at each other in the hallway and we look away and keep walking. I miss him so much. I miss that time in his room so much. i miss when i didn’t have a boy to cry about. He just broke it off as if i didn’t exist but he had his reasons why and i respect that. But i can’t get him out of my head. It sucks really.. i’m crying about a boy who’s with his friends right now and i’m spending my weekend nights crying about him when i know he doesn’t think about me
truly greg similar for me but towards a girl, I’m here thinking about her 24/7 but she couldn’t care any less, We just have to try our best to get on with life, as hard as it may be, these are the things life throws at us and we have to dig deep to stay strong, know your worth and keep your head held high, you’re not alone x
i have been having a *REALLY* rough past few months from moving to school to being bullied. i kept on feeling like i need to leave this planet. i finally met someone who understands how i feel. i like him a lot and i told him today that i liked him. he said he liked me back and it finally felt someone is there for me. hearing this song makes me think of him. but hearing it in the rain just makes me cry. the song has always been depressing to me but hearing it in the rain added this calmness and i don’t know why. maybe it’s because i finally feel like someone is there for me. UPDATE hey it’s me again, thought i’d update you about my situation. i feel happier and loved by my better and REAL friends. remember that boy i talked about, we ended up dating, but that ended badly. he ended up cheating on me and it was the most heartbreaking moment of my life so far. i really cared for him and well damn, loved him, and i though he did too. school is awkward now i try to avoid him everywhere i go. and what makes it worse, it seems like he didn’t realize what he did was wrong and know he’s acting like we are friends. it’s hard but hopefully i’ll be doing better. UPDATE tbh i forgot i had posted this but here’s another update. this comment is a year old and there was so much loss and life i’ve had in the past year. i was finally diagnosed with depression and anxiety this year and i’ve finally been getting the help i need. i’m at the happiest i’ve been in years. if you see this and you’re in the same place i was a year ago, know it gets better.
I feel like I can hear her reaching out to me still. I crave anything that she could provide me. A laugh. A cry. A glare. A hug. A kiss. Take me back...
I thought I forgot about him .... I really did But this song made me remember him everything I had with him And how we slowly drifted apart Now I miss him so much
I miss him and I think about him now and again. But what really gets me is the dreams, sometimes I can't wait to fall asleep, thinking and hoping I can feel his touch, hear his voice, or see his face. It's gotten so bad that I almost moved back into the apartment we lived in. Just so I can see a shadow of him or just feel any kind of comfort. I saw a quote the other day it read, "One of the hardest things you will ever have to do my dear, is grieve the loss of a person who still alive". I wish I had known this before falling on love and losing it.
“One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65, you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die. However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find-- is they are not always with whom we spend our lives” ― Beau Taplin
i hate how how bad this hurts. it makes my heart feel like it’s caving in and like i just got told the worst news of my life. and i somewhat feel like the news i’m receiving is the fact that this song makes you realize how you will never be able to go back to that moment that this song makes you think of. but then i find myself listening to this over and over again because i just want to hold on to that moment even though i need to let go. and maybe that’s the beauty of this song.
Lyrics. I am not the only traveler Who has not repaid his debt I've been searching for a trail to follow again Take me back to the night we met And then I can tell myself What the hell I'm supposed to do And then I can tell myself Not to ride along with you I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you Take me back to the night we met I don't know what I'm supposed to do Haunted by the ghost of you Oh, take me back to the night we met When the night was full of terrors And your eyes were filled with tears When you had not touched me yet Oh, take me back to the night we met I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you Take me back to the night we met I don't know what I'm supposed to do Haunted by the ghost of you Take me back to the night we met
This really just lets me cry, When i really just feel like i can’t cry this never fails to make me. It feels nice, most of the time, but right now isn’t one of those times being honest. There’s just so much going on, it’s so hard to comprehend, i just wanna disappear for a little bit until it all passes.
Glad to hear that what I put together has helped you. Stay strong, there's always a brighter side of things. And don't forget that it's good to cry. It lets your emotions out.
I’m sorry to hear that you are going through things but believe me all of us here would understand there’s a reason why we are all here, keep it strong it’ll all go away eventually you just have to make it through the bad times
Jesus loves and has a plan for all and can help you through anything if you let him. God bless he loves you you will get through this. Praying for you!
I saw my crush kiss my best friend right in front of me, the amount of sadness I felt at that moment. Still haunts me, it's been about a week since then and it's getting better. But seeing them together in a happy relationship still doesn't hurt any less then it did originally, this song has so much depth. After that day with the kiss, I've fallen asleep to this every night since. I keep scrolling through my phone looking at photos of us, waiting for him to text me. But nothing, so I keep sitting here. Waiting, hoping that he'll reach out. Because he's all I need. I can't lie and say I'm okay, tears are rolling down my face right now as I type this, it's getting easier every day. If you read this, thank you so much. Just the fact that you're willing to read about a stranger means the world to me, thank you xx
Partners come and go all your life, and you can't force anybody to love you. They either do or they don't..... And it's very difficult to get one that does, I'm sorry to say. You will meet the right person when you least expect it.
One of the hardest pills I've had to swallow in life is accepting when people I used to share countless memories with themselves become nothing but a memory
Imagine this... Your at a party in a club with your lover. Your sitting in the bathroom stall and you feel alone even if your here with your friends and love. It seems as if blood is streaming from your cheeks to your throat, when really, it’s only your tears. You can taste the salty water as this song comes on, you then remember the night you both met. This forces you to cry even harder, almost like ugly crying. You have flashbacks of your first kiss even though you can’t even remember there face. You picture how genuine the moment was as the passion is lingering around like your perfume/clone. The memories slowly fade away as the song ends. You stop crying and grab your stuff. You smile only slightly and leave your stall, which is now empty. You manage to get past everyone thanks to the shadows, your only friend. You flip a nickel in the tip box by the bar as you exit the building. Rain comes trickling down as you pull out your keys. You open your car door and start it. You drive slowly through the empty roads alone, as the song comes on again. You turn it up, and sadly laugh to yourself as you remember all the jokes you’ve shared together. As the thunder crackles you turn up the radio to its fullest. The light turns green due to the lonely ness of the blackened roads. The night sky shimmers in the dullest parts of your eyes. You see your house in the distance as you pull up in your driveway. You slowly leave your car and walk towards your house step by step. You finally reach your door and swing it open. Your pet is ready to greet you as you enter the kitchen. You stare at the sink and yawn. You go up to your room and sit on your bed taking off your coat. You then throw it on your chair and grab your phone. You text your significant other and tell them your Love him/her. You then realize they haven’t told you that in months. You put your phone beside you and rest your tired head on your wet pillow. The song rings in your head as you gaze off to sleep. The next morning you wake up to find him/her holding you in their arms. Your eyes water as you grab your phone to check the time. To your surprise, you have a message, it’s from your lover, it says... I love you.
I listen to this everytime I can't sleep for the past 4 years For the creator of this , in the most genuine and grateful way , Thank You. It's helped me thru some rly dark times. ❤
>tfw you get inspired to write a short story at 2:41 in the morning He looks over to the passenger seat where she's sleeping, her face illuminated by streetlight, lips curved in a small smile. God, she was as beautiful as the night he'd first saw her. It'd been seven jobs, two houses, and three kids ago, but he still remembered it like it was yesterday. It was the summer of 1985 and he'd been sulking in the mall food court, nursing a black eye. Brad Sherman had started it, like he always did, but of course *he* was the one who got in trouble. It was a stupid job with a stupid boss with stupid biases anyways, he thought, watching the neon lights flicker overhead. He didn't need it. Whatever. His moping was interrupted by a small cough. He tore his eyes away from the lights and focused on the girl in front of him. She was wearing the uniform for the ice cream shop, but that's not what captivated him. She was beautiful. The neon light caught in her curly hair, giving her a multicolored halo. There was something that flickered in her bright, curious eyes- amusement, pity, maybe? She held out the milkshake she'd been carrying, jolting him out of his haze. "Here." Her voice carried a little bubble of laughter with it. He decided he liked the sound. "Huh?" She pointed towards her eye, a wry smile slipping onto her lips. "That's one hell of a shiner. Thought you could use something cool to help with the swelling." He couldn't help but mirror her smile when he took the shake. "You really didn't have to-" "But I wanted to. Saw you looking pretty damn sad out here, thought a little milk of human kindness might help." She snorted. "Hah, milk. Didn't even mean for that." He reached into his back pocket, pulling out his wallet. "Here, let me pay you back. How much-" She held up one hand, cutting him off. "Don't worry about it. We're allowed to sneak some free shit every now and then." He blinked. Damn, she was nice. "I- thank you." He held out his hand like a gentleman, finally putting his grandmother's years of hammering good manners into him to use. She took it, her tiny hand fitting into his perfectly. Her nails were painted cherry red, and he decided he liked the color. "I should at least know the name of my personal Florence Nightingale, huh?" She laughed, the corners of her eyes crinkling in mirth. "It's Rachel. And what might the name of my patient be?" "Steve." She squeezed his hand once more before letting go. "Well, Steve, I hope your eye feels better. I'm here all summer, so I expect to see some progress reports." He can feel his lips slip into an easy grin. "Oh, definitely." "See you around, Steve." She turns, looking over her shoulder and giving a little wave. "Yeah. See you around." He can't help but wave back. Rachel stirs in the passenger seat, cracking open a bright, curious, and rather sleepy looking eye. "What do you have that look on your face for?" She asks, voice raspy with sleep. "It's nothing. Just... remembering, that's all." She smiles, her eyes crinkling at the corners. God, he loves that smile. "You're such a sap. I love you." He reaches across the arm rest and intertwines his fingers with hers. Her nails are a bright blue this time, and he decides he likes the color. "I love you, too."
This makes me feel I'm here right now. I'm dying and living.. I feel alive. My heart's beating, I feel relieved. I'm in the present. forever, stopped.. just floating around.
This song is a reminder of happiness for me, probably because I’m too young to experience the sadness that others feel with this song. It reminds me of memories, beautiful ones, where time stops and everything feels like a dream in that moment. That is when an unreal memory is made.
This song makes me so sad which is really upsetting because I love it so much. But you know when you associate certain songs with a person who has hurt you in some way, well this is my song :(
dear jessica, i sometimes wonder where my life would be without those 3 years. at one point you made me the happiest guy ever. i remember the first day we started talking, it was the same old girl every time. the way you talked to me seemed perfect. the way you did things was perfect. your personality was perfect. then you had to go break my heart. you would consistently come back after a while and I would let you. I remember the latest time. we were at a concert, i didnt even know you would be by us. i remember seeing you walk up and instantly all my feelings came back. i look at you and feel a bunch of emotions i cant even explain. i remember i was at that concert with a girl i didnt even want to be there with. i remember it started to rain and how i covered your head in the rain. then the food fights started and i was blocking you from everything coming. i remember getting text messages from the other girl asking when i was coming back. i told her i was having the concert with my bros (it was a boogie wit da hoodie concert) i remember you sitting there by yourself and you’d look over at me and id just get a bunch of butterflies in my stomach. instantly. i remember you talking about not having anyone to dance with at the concert. it was said in a way as if you wanted me to hear. as if it was me who you wanted to be with that night. i remember i was bold enough to tell you straight up that i wanted to spend the rest of the night with you. you agreed, we danced the night away during the concert. i remember this part vividly. the song come closer came on. i remember dancing as i sung the words into your ear. i remember you turning around and just looking into my eyes. i remember the way you kissed me. holy fuck. this gets me everytime because this is when i really fell in love with you. the kiss i was waiting for. the kiss i waited such a long time for. it actually felt real. you made all my problems go away. you made me feel good. you made me feel things ive never felt before. i remember leaving the concert holding your hand making sure you get to your bus okay. i remember the way you hugged and kissed me infront of everyone. something i thought was genuine. something i adored so much. things went good, came over a couple times, we’d cuddle. watch movies, then you would kiss me before you’d go. it felt perfect.. until this one time. you come over, we are watching movies and keeping your distance with me. you were being distant. i remember me texting you saying come cuddle with me. trying to lighten up the mood. you continued to sit there, so i got up and went to my room. i laid there wondering what the fuck was going on, i was getting vibes from previous occurrences, my anxiety was killer and i cried. i ended up crying myself to sleep. i remember being woken up by you asking for the wifi password. i remember you staying in there after i was done. i asked you why you stayed and you said you didnt know. i asked you why do you always do this. you said i dont know, you said you dont know your feelings and can never get them situated. i fell for your bullshit. i remember telling you i couldn’t do it anymore, and blocking you. that was very hard to do, i was in love with you. i remember i started to think about things, i remember asking myself why i wasnt good enough for you. i remember hearing from my brother that is has to be with the way i describe myself. (im an edgy kid, an “eboy”) i remember confronting you asking if this was true. you indeed said it was true and tried to tell me that wasnt me. you tried to tell me to change. want to know the part that hurt the most? when you said you cant love me because of who i am. it really fucking hurt when someone you love cant love you back because of the person you are. it really fucking hurts when you are being told to change yourself to be with the one you love. it made me feel really shitty that you basically meant i wasnt good enough for you. i sometimes wonder where would i be if you never played a factor in my life. i let you control me too many times and i genuinely was hurt by you. i rarely give myself up to people. i gave myself to you and you ruined that. sometimes i wish i could take myself back to the night of the concert. it almost felt perfect with you. its like it was nirvana, then i realize its not a perfect moment. because it lead to a road of heartbreak, hurt, trouble, drama. something you were supposed to help with, not cause. i hate saying this, but im scared. im scared to see you in person, see your name, hear things about you. want to know why? im scared to see you because once i look into those beautiful eyes in there i fall back in love everytime. i see your name and think of the good times when the genuine care was there. im scared to hear things about you because it will lead to me overthinking and texting you. im scared that you are with someone happy. someone who was truly good enough. ah, take me back to the good memories with us. i fucking love you but fucking hate you at the same time. sincerly, gary :/
MkeGary -OfficialGary- I just wanted to send over a message to Jessica, Tell her to get her shit together and hold on to the real ones. Stay strong my dude :)
about 17:00 is when i lost it and couldnt hold it anymore. after staring at the ceiling and watching the lights fade around me in and out, and hearing the sound as if it were distant. i gave up and let loose. my face is stained
Damn.... I remember laying under the stars on a blanket alone thinking about him.... missing him.... crying over him..... and after 2 years of being together he left me.... and this song takes me back to when we were in love.... and it just reminds me of what we aren’t no longer
this song makes me remember my first love in highschool whom i never got to be with. I remember him saying that he'll wait for me till we both graduate college and have stable careers. Though i lost contact with him when i left my hometown for college, i never forgot him. I focused on my studies and never been in a relationship all through those years,I got my bachelors degree and now working in my first job. for 5 years I waited for him hoping that his words will rly come true. For 5 years I watched how many times he's been in a relationship w/ other women I'm still waitin. He is too,but he's now waitin for his first child's gender.
I broke up with my girlfriend and best friend of almost 3 years. Everyone always said we would make it. I totally believed them. I would cry sometimes just at the thought of ever potentially losing her. But the way life works out it just made it so that I had to end things with her. The worst was knowing how much I hurt her. I wouldn’t be able to think for nights straight because my mind was totally occupied with worrying about her. Hoping to God that she wasn’t crying like I was. Hoping that she had a friend to talk to. Hoping her amazing parents were there for her. And all of those eventually were true. She’s okay :) it’s seven months later and she’s finally okay. I get so smiley and giddy when I see her new boyfriend on her Snapchat story. It makes me so unbelievably happy to know that she’s finally happy again. I guess it’s just weird that I’m not. I don’t regret breaking up with her because I know it’s what I had to do. It just hurts being alone. I haven’t felt a desire for a deep emotionally connection with anyone I’ve come in contact since. And I guess that makes me scared that I never will find someone like her. I don’t think I necessarily miss her, I miss the love. It’s weird knowing I’ve done this totally to myself, while still being thankful that I did it and not regretting my decision. But at the same time hurting this much for this long. The heart is so confusing.
You're a thoughtful person, and you done what you had to do even though it was very difficult to do. Means you're a man now. Nobody said it was easy, dude. You'll be fine.
This video makes me nostalgic. I closed my eyes while listening to this and it felt like i was there, sitting in the car with him right at this very moment. When all of our worries were school deadlines and school plays. Now, it’s been 2 years without him and everytime i hear this song i somehow relives that memory of him. I miss those good old times. I miss him.
Just the way you can hear the guitar pound at one part just reminds me how many times he had plummeted my heart into the ground...and i still love him.
Honestly, just came to listen to a good song to some aesthetic rain. And all these people talking about their exe’s just left me bummed out man. Who ever hurt you, or left you behind for someone else, just know they weren’t meant for you. It’s hard to move on past some people, but one day you’ll find someone else who will make you forget about that one mistake
My sadness is pushing people I love away. They have had to be there for me too many times. I hope I don’t loose them and I change Edit: so I had no idea I wrote this comment but I just wanted to say I am now happier than I’ve ever been. Life changes. Dropped someone who was negative in my life and I’ve never felt better.
as someone who is only 14, unable to drive, and its 4am, I thank you because I love going on car rides when I'm sad or in panic. and I love this song. plus, white noise (ex: the rain) helps me sleep
I recommend sitting or laying down, getting some headphones (mine are wireless) and a vr headset (it doesn’t have to be one of the really expensive ones, I have one that’s pretty shoddy but does the trick), and just watching this. it feels so ridiculously real
Dear ex, thank you for being my first kiss. thank you for talking me through wanting to kill myself on rough nights. thank you for bringing me slushies when i was sick.and thank you for breaking me. i love you and it pains me to say it cause i know you lost that feeling 3 weeks ago when you starting to lead me on. i have so many questions for you like why everytime i asked you if we were okay you brushed it off like we were and you just told me it was a bad day. why werent you honest and why did you look me in my eyes after we kissed and told me you loved me when less than 24 hours later you would break up with me. why did you have to break me not once but twice. why 4 days after we broke up did you go to her when you told me she was "just a friend" i shouldve listened to my mom and sister when they said youd hurt me. but i didnt cause i was naive. i hate you... or at least i wish i did cause reality is i dont, i cant, cause my love covers the hate i wish you nothing of the best but sometimes you make that so difficult. the first time i dated you i had "all" of you. all your attention, love, and time. towards the end of the first time we dated i had "most" of you when we broke up i was heart broken i cried everynight. then we dated again for about a month but even at the begining of the second time i only had "some" of you. i thought i had "all" of you but it turns out i truely had "none" of you. do you know how badly i wish i could go "back to the night" when you told me you liked me not so i could tell you to shut up or fuck you so that i could do it all again. i hate that you hurt me so badly that every song is about you and that floors that i used to pace around talking to you on turned to the place when i cried in a puddle of my tears cause you left me. i want to forget about you so badly but i crave your hand on my thigh and forehead kisses. i just wish you wouldve told me sooner that you didnt love me cause you wasted my time and you just werent worth it in the end. you arent worth the tears i cry for you when i lay at the bottom of the bathtub. i wish i hated you but i just still love you. xoxo, the girl you ruined
Connor OBrien I went back to read what I put on here tonight and I can say I’ve come a long way still hurts but I was put on medication for anxiety and everything is OK now
November 2nd 2020 9:56pm Entry #10 Dear Diary, Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to the girl who gets everything and still isn’t satisfied. The girl that misses face timing the person they loved until their eyelids were to heavy to keep open, or laugh until they were too exhausted to keep going. The girl in love with her bestfriend and the girl who will never get her. To the girl that can’t go back to the night we met. We can’t go back. Why did you hurt me? Happy birthday to me.
Vent comment, you can skip: This song really sends me back to that first night I spent with a person who was once a close friend. Losing them did not hurt as much as seeing our relationship deteriorate and morph into something hateful, vile and gilded in betrayal. I would give anything to go back to that day we met and tell myself to look the other way, to not answer the late night calls, to let them be the one that got away. Even now, I am haunted by the good times, the ones that bring a smile to my face and make their betrayal seared inside burn and throb like a fresh wound. Not a knife to the back, more like a GD chainsaw to the neck. But you really can't know better until knowing better is useless, it's true. So cheers to the memories, at least there's that left.
I’m so lost. As I try to find words to describe how I feel I just get overwhelmed with this emptiness. They way I feel about him yet there are feelings that I’m lacking. I’m lacking the words of the feelings because the feelings don’t exist. As much as I want them to exist. As much as I want to put on paper how I see him I can’t. I’m just so lost in the person I wanted him to be to the point I’ve lost the actual him. I can’t talk to him. I can’t breathe around him. I can’t think around him. Yet I can’t feel without him. It’s this endless loop of falling in love but not really knowing where to land. Oh my goodness 😂😂😂😂 I’m struggling so much with writing. I was playing this to be able to write how I feel yet I couldn’t so I just came into the comments and wrote this without thinking and holyyyyyy 😂 welp hope you enjoyed as I try to turn this into something beautiful 🥰💛
I had a crush on my college senior.I hadn't even talked with him.Idk if he even knew my existence.It was more like an admiration from afar.Something about him always pulled me like a magnet.But now he's gone.Forever from my life.But songs like this make me feel nostalgic about the feeling he gave.
me and him were close. the only person i could talk to. only person to know about my self harm and how i really felt. he asked for me to not talk to him anymore about that kind of stuff. thats when everything changed between us. i felt like a burden to him. i didnt tell him anything after that. not my crushes, my depression, my suicidal thoughts, or my self harm, nothing except my happy side was what he saw after that. our conversation got shorter, calls ended sooner, he had other friends who he was closer too. it faded. it got to the point he next texted me. i didnt text first because i had before every time and thought i was being annoying. we got into more and more arguments. the only way i got him to text me was deleting older messages(instagram) he never had a problem not talking to other people. i cried every night. now i cant cry, i still feel the same pain but i have no tears left. he makes arguments about how he was the victim and he suffered. he didnt deal with suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, self harm. nothing. but he was the victim because he cried a couple nights here and there cause of me. i cant tell if its my fault of his. but i cant tell anyone how i feel without having a mental breakdown/ panic attack. i delete the message half way though and say im fine. my suicidal thoughts are worse now but im trying. but i cant get over him. i cant blame him either, because he was nice to me before(sorry for errors)
The handsome hollow of cloud and fog heave sometimes to reign, The genuine tender breeze that shakes vain elements in veins, And bones out of their humdrum order in air stretch plain. Sight of such divine happenings brings joy out of pain; Sights of droppings, hitting ground and heads, uncovered and sane, What to fear from wet lives if all Earth be gone without a single rain? From my upcoming second book of poems! :)
Just being sad you can skip How could I break you like people had broken me... I knew what I was doing But I didn't care Whatever it took for me to be rid of you I swear I could feel your heart rip But I didn't stop Because I'm so stupid I should have apologized Should have said what was on my mind Tried to clear it Instead of clear you But woulda shoulda coulda And I still didn't Because I'm selfish Cuz I'm a piece of garbage I can't even make and excuse to get you back I wish I could You were so perfect.... And I ruined it... Just so I could be better Because the thought of you coming back gave me so much anxiety The thought of us kissing made me scared And knowing you'd want to hang out with me made me sick Why? Because I'm so antisocial that everything is like the Cuz I thought it would be unbearable Because that's just how I am You were so much different And I regret ever leaving your side Ever leaving you hanging You never did a damn thing wrong and I still blamed you How could I be so stupid So fucking stupid.... I need you Caden.... I'm so sorry.... I wish I could say this to your face.. Your cute face.... With your deep brown hair... I could never... Because idk which one of us would hurt more And I just got out of my hole... I don't want to put you back in yours If you had one ever It seemed like you would.... I wish I could just talk to you.... Tell you how much I love you... And.... See you... And hug you... It's everything I need... To feel better... I'm sorry
i listened you this song and it played in the background while i tried to take my own life, it’s been exactly 2 years since then and this popped up on my recommendation. it’s been 2 years but the thoughts are still there and they won’t leave no matter how much i try to get rid of them
“I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you.” Me and my bsf have been friends for 11 years(since we were kids) and we are fighting. We have grown apart so much and these lyrics to this song describe what i’m going through so well.
I haven't had a heart break like some of the people in the comments. But This video brings another emotion for me, nostalgia. Listening to this type of song on a rainy day brings be back to my childhood. I miss those dark clouds, pouring rain, and thunder. I feel like it's been so long since I've been alive. I just want to walk in the rain on the sidewalk like I was 4 again. My chest hurts for all the longing
I’ve done this exact thing after a breakup. It was heart wrenching, and beautifully therapeutic all at the same time. Another great song to do this to, is The Greatest by Cat Power.
I can’t wait to have a car, I can finally drive around, whilst the rain pounds of the windows and this soothing music is playing. it makes me want to *CRY*
Reminds me or a senior I loved, the day we met, a lot changed for me. My perspective of Love and how I should go into love more, but then he left at the end of the year, and I feel empty. I just keep remembering his smile and his voice, and his angelic laugh. But, he taught me to feel love again, he was a important lesson.
She’s moving next year. I can’t see her anymore. I’m trapped in my house, and I can’t see her at school either. She’s not gonna be with me anymore, and I’m gonna lose her. Just like that. We went through all that just for it to be lost. I hate this world.
Im here at 1:30am like most nights now and i feel so frickin nostalgic i mean i think of my childhood and now that my great grandad is in the hospital this makes me wanna just break down. My great grandma left us a 2 years ago and this song makes me think that she's there somewhere waiting for him on a white bench in some field. Ik weird right? But it keeps me sane ig and i hate crying hell cant remember the last time i did, but this song brings me close and the rain just adds to it. Thank u 4 this x
Ormai ogni notte mi metto qua ad ascoltare questo capolavoro sperando si avveri, il sogno di ritornare davvero a quella notte e magari di cambiare un po' le cose...
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I don't know why, but I absolutely love car rides. You can just sit and think for a while.
Cute kitten paws especially in the rain
I love car rides but I _hate_ driving
I love car rides in the night bonus if it is raining. I hate them in the glaring scorching sun sitting on blistering leather seats sweating
Except when people drive to slow or don’t use their directionals or cuts you off etcetera and your angry
My favorite thing is when me and my family go on road trips. We're not scared of driving at night so we get a good bit of driving on the highway at night. I love just putting my headphones on and blocking everything out. Some people hate long trips or driving. I love it.
i just cant wait to buy a car so i can drive all night listening to this
Gas is so fuckin expensive and it’s hard to stay alert. I wish someone would just drive me around every night😂
@@somethingwildd i relate
I'm down on driving you people around. My soul needs this and the company 👌😔
@@Venm_Bte sign me up
@@whotrynakillseth4137 Awesome. You're in. 6 seats left see ya in hawkes bay New Zealand where I live 😂
play this at my funeral.
Facts
1000subscriber with no videos challenge impossible lol what 😂
@@abominableman aww that's so sweet lol
@@abominableman you are too
I gotchu
Reminds me of drifting off in the backseat as a child while my parents drove home and the light from the street lights passed by rhythmically. Thanks for the journey
this is exactly how it feels
Nostalgia of street lights from the 80's and 90's.
The internet never fails me.
Came from Mr. Brightside + rain, hoped for Night We Met + rain to exist, and there is this gem: the 1 hour version.
When he suddenly, slowly changing, drifting away from u.
He slowly changes the way he talks to you, the way he cares for you, the way he loves you.
When suddenly, seems like everything is falling apart, you remember the night you used to be so inlove with each other.
I wish I didn't know what you were talking about.
why’d you have to come for me like this i didn’t ask for it
i wish i didnt and am glad i know what youre talking about im still with him and hes changing right in front of me but that boy gave me the best 5 months of my life.
I wish I didn't understand
fr lol
i’m not crying
we all are
oopsie Emma it’s true 😔 ✋
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Absolutely 😭
Yep.
I regret listening to this in one sitting, awake.
,.Starring at the ceiling.
At 47:21 my eyes started to itch. I figured its due to me not looking at something else but a ceiling for an hour.
Then I felt like blood was pouring out my eyes. Again, im thinking "starring at the ceiling for so long must have its toll. "
My chest started to hurt, and I thought I had heart burn.
Turns outs, I was asleep the whole time. Waking up with a with a broken heart and trails of dry tears running down my cheek to my throat.
What the hell am I supposed to do.
Dino DeVito King lmaoo damn. But you should probably chill for second or two lol
@@milanagregory3911 Nah the grind, THE GRRINDD IS REAL. . but its addictive to be broken , ya kno? It's my drug
i just did the very same thing please help
Dino DeVito King I’m crying in the club rn
@@mehgenvargas4881 Dude I got it even worse.
I burted out crying for no reason when I saw a Door knob. A DOOOR. KNOB.
Because In my mind I thought the door knob was me,
[Door knob is always opening up to people, but ultimately being used by many people without thank. Along with Some people abusing it like, adding germs to it."
So yuh. We out here, crying about doorknobs n shit.....
It hurts, because after that night, i got a message that said we couldn’t talk anymore. He broke it off. Someone who i only talked to for such a short amount of time, someone i feel like i shared so much with. I haven’t talked to him in like two months. He’s leaving next week for the army. i’m never going to see him again and i’m scared to even look at him now. we share looks at each other in the hallway and we look away and keep walking. I miss him so much. I miss that time in his room so much. i miss when i didn’t have a boy to cry about. He just broke it off as if i didn’t exist but he had his reasons why and i respect that. But i can’t get him out of my head. It sucks really.. i’m crying about a boy who’s with his friends right now and i’m spending my weekend nights crying about him when i know he doesn’t think about me
I'm really sorry, you're never alone in this life, if you need to talk reach out to someone. You are loved.
Fatima Aragon ❤️ thank you
truly greg similar for me but towards a girl, I’m here thinking about her 24/7 but she couldn’t care any less, We just have to try our best to get on with life, as hard as it may be, these are the things life throws at us and we have to dig deep to stay strong, know your worth and keep your head held high, you’re not alone x
I’m sorry about your loss...I did have the same experience but a little different, I hope you feel better soon...
Same but I feel bad for u I’m going through a similar thing
it's 4am and now I'm crying again.
Thanos easier said than done buddy.
Sorry. Feel better!
Same,,,but mine will never come back he's in a better place rn
@@jannah771 me, too. She died 5 years ago from cancer
Praying for you Jesus loves and has a plan for all and can help you through anything! How are you doing?
i have been having a *REALLY* rough past few months from moving to school to being bullied. i kept on feeling like i need to leave this planet. i finally met someone who understands how i feel. i like him a lot and i told him today that i liked him. he said he liked me back and it finally felt someone is there for me. hearing this song makes me think of him. but hearing it in the rain just makes me cry. the song has always been depressing to me but hearing it in the rain added this calmness and i don’t know why. maybe it’s because i finally feel like someone is there for me.
UPDATE
hey it’s me again, thought i’d update you about my situation. i feel happier and loved by my better and REAL friends. remember that boy i talked about, we ended up dating, but that ended badly. he ended up cheating on me and it was the most heartbreaking moment of my life so far. i really cared for him and well damn, loved him, and i though he did too. school is awkward now i try to avoid him everywhere i go. and what makes it worse, it seems like he didn’t realize what he did was wrong and know he’s acting like we are friends. it’s hard but hopefully i’ll be doing better.
UPDATE
tbh i forgot i had posted this but here’s another update. this comment is a year old and there was so much loss and life i’ve had in the past year. i was finally diagnosed with depression and anxiety this year and i’ve finally been getting the help i need. i’m at the happiest i’ve been in years. if you see this and you’re in the same place i was a year ago, know it gets better.
daniella vlogs your wanted in this world, everyone loves you ❤️ never forget about that 💓💓💓
I understand what you're going through. You wanna talk more about it? 💕
daniella vlogs I hope you are doing better these days 💞 ,wishing all the happiness for you,be strong everything is going to be alright.
Don't leave the planet please.
daniella vlogs i wish you the best
I feel like I can hear her reaching out to me still. I crave anything that she could provide me. A laugh. A cry. A glare. A hug. A kiss. Take me back...
i felt this but with a boyyyy aaaaahhhhh
@@sofiabella82 I feel this and I’ve never had anyone to feel this about... the power of music, eh?
Jesus loves and has a plan for all and can help you through anything. How are you doing
I thought I forgot about him ....
I really did
But this song made me remember him
everything I had with him
And how we slowly drifted apart
Now I miss him so much
Aesthetic Sofia Suárez I relate dude:(
single gang
Count me in the club too! 🙋♀
same :/
Well shit that hurted
“Sometimes I wish I could go back in life.... not to change stuff but to feel a couple things twice”
I agree 🙄
i accidentally clicked this now im looking at the comments being thankful i’ve been single all my life
Still relate to it tho eventough ive been single for life
Stay single, it’s really not worth it
I wish. I wish I had stayed single. Heartbreak has ruined me in a lot of ways.
yeah love sucks lol
Jesus loves and has a plan for all
I miss him and I think about him now and again. But what really gets me is the dreams, sometimes I can't wait to fall asleep, thinking and hoping I can feel his touch, hear his voice, or see his face. It's gotten so bad that I almost moved back into the apartment we lived in. Just so I can see a shadow of him or just feel any kind of comfort. I saw a quote the other day it read, "One of the hardest things you will ever have to do my dear, is grieve the loss of a person who still alive". I wish I had known this before falling on love and losing it.
you have no idea how much i relate to this
:c
@Aspen Wolf thank you for those kind words
Yes. So many feels. :(
“One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65,
you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die.
However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find--
is they are not always with whom we spend our lives”
― Beau Taplin
Whoever made this video,you're a good soul.God bless you.
i hate how how bad this hurts. it makes my heart feel like it’s caving in and like i just got told the worst news of my life. and i somewhat feel like the news i’m receiving is the fact that this song makes you realize how you will never be able to go back to that moment that this song makes you think of.
but then i find myself listening to this over and over again because i just want to hold on to that moment even though i need to let go.
and maybe that’s the beauty of this song.
Im driving away from here, anyone wanna come with?
αвву can I join you??
a little late, but i wanna come
I do
Sure
ok
It’s ok to not be ok. you don’t have to be ok all the time. that can be tiring, just do your best and live your life💕
Lyrics.
I am not the only traveler
Who has not repaid his debt
I've been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to the night we met
And then I can tell myself
What the hell I'm supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to ride along with you
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Oh, take me back to the night we met
When the night was full of terrors
And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet
Oh, take me back to the night we met
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met
Thank you 💕
Why is there only lyrics for the first four minutes of the video? How will I know what the rest of the lyrics are? Outrageous.
This really just lets me cry, When i really just feel like i can’t cry this never fails to make me. It feels nice, most of the time, but right now isn’t one of those times being honest. There’s just so much going on, it’s so hard to comprehend, i just wanna disappear for a little bit until it all passes.
Glad to hear that what I put together has helped you. Stay strong, there's always a brighter side of things. And don't forget that it's good to cry. It lets your emotions out.
I’m sorry to hear that you are going through things but believe me all of us here would understand there’s a reason why we are all here, keep it strong it’ll all go away eventually you just have to make it through the bad times
Wow Wow yeah when i feel sad i listen to stuff like this to cry & just get all of it out so i can sleep peacefully lol
Exactly.. :'3
Jesus loves and has a plan for all and can help you through anything if you let him. God bless he loves you you will get through this. Praying for you!
I gotta learn to drive this will be the song I'm playing
I saw my crush kiss my best friend right in front of me, the amount of sadness I felt at that moment. Still haunts me, it's been about a week since then and it's getting better. But seeing them together in a happy relationship still doesn't hurt any less then it did originally, this song has so much depth. After that day with the kiss, I've fallen asleep to this every night since. I keep scrolling through my phone looking at photos of us, waiting for him to text me. But nothing, so I keep sitting here. Waiting, hoping that he'll reach out. Because he's all I need. I can't lie and say I'm okay, tears are rolling down my face right now as I type this, it's getting easier every day. If you read this, thank you so much. Just the fact that you're willing to read about a stranger means the world to me, thank you xx
So sorry. Hope you’re doing better
Partners come and go all your life, and you can't force anybody to love you. They either do or they don't..... And it's very difficult to get one that does, I'm sorry to say. You will meet the right person when you least expect it.
Absolutely in love with this 😍 I fall asleep to it every night 💭
X2
Kool-Aid Man HOW DO YOU NOT CRY YOUR EYES OUT
One of the hardest pills I've had to swallow in life is accepting when people I used to share countless memories with themselves become nothing but a memory
Imagine this...
Your at a party in a club with your lover. Your sitting in the bathroom stall and you feel alone even if your here with your friends and love. It seems as if blood is streaming from your cheeks to your throat, when really, it’s only your tears. You can taste the salty water as this song comes on, you then remember the night you both met. This forces you to cry even harder, almost like ugly crying. You have flashbacks of your first kiss even though you can’t even remember there face. You picture how genuine the moment was as the passion is lingering around like your perfume/clone. The memories slowly fade away as the song ends. You stop crying and grab your stuff. You smile only slightly and leave your stall, which is now empty. You manage to get past everyone thanks to the shadows, your only friend. You flip a nickel in the tip box by the bar as you exit the building. Rain comes trickling down as you pull out your keys. You open your car door and start it. You drive slowly through the empty roads alone, as the song comes on again. You turn it up, and sadly laugh to yourself as you remember all the jokes you’ve shared together. As the thunder crackles you turn up the radio to its fullest. The light turns green due to the lonely ness of the blackened roads. The night sky shimmers in the dullest parts of your eyes. You see your house in the distance as you pull up in your driveway. You slowly leave your car and walk towards your house step by step. You finally reach your door and swing it open. Your pet is ready to greet you as you enter the kitchen. You stare at the sink and yawn. You go up to your room and sit on your bed taking off your coat. You then throw it on your chair and grab your phone. You text your significant other and tell them your Love him/her. You then realize they haven’t told you that in months. You put your phone beside you and rest your tired head on your wet pillow. The song rings in your head as you gaze off to sleep.
The next morning you wake up to find him/her holding you in their arms. Your eyes water as you grab your phone to check the time. To your surprise, you have a message, it’s from your lover, it says...
I love you.
Kamron Moore-Woods awww Tysm! I hope you liked it :)
Underrated comment this was beautiful good work man
GoldStar Thank you! I put a lot of thinking into that
@@oof6431 that was hella good 😊
@@icecream-wf5yb thank you so much! 🙏🏻
I listen to this everytime I can't sleep for the past 4 years
For the creator of this , in the most genuine and grateful way , Thank You.
It's helped me thru some rly dark times.
❤
>tfw you get inspired to write a short story at 2:41 in the morning
He looks over to the passenger seat where she's sleeping, her face illuminated by streetlight, lips curved in a small smile.
God, she was as beautiful as the night he'd first saw her. It'd been seven jobs, two houses, and three kids ago, but he still remembered it like it was yesterday.
It was the summer of 1985 and he'd been sulking in the mall food court, nursing a black eye. Brad Sherman had started it, like he always did, but of course *he* was the one who got in trouble. It was a stupid job with a stupid boss with stupid biases anyways, he thought, watching the neon lights flicker overhead. He didn't need it. Whatever.
His moping was interrupted by a small cough. He tore his eyes away from the lights and focused on the girl in front of him. She was wearing the uniform for the ice cream shop, but that's not what captivated him. She was beautiful. The neon light caught in her curly hair, giving her a multicolored halo. There was something that flickered in her bright, curious eyes- amusement, pity, maybe?
She held out the milkshake she'd been carrying, jolting him out of his haze. "Here." Her voice carried a little bubble of laughter with it. He decided he liked the sound.
"Huh?"
She pointed towards her eye, a wry smile slipping onto her lips. "That's one hell of a shiner. Thought you could use something cool to help with the swelling."
He couldn't help but mirror her smile when he took the shake. "You really didn't have to-"
"But I wanted to. Saw you looking pretty damn sad out here, thought a little milk of human kindness might help." She snorted. "Hah, milk. Didn't even mean for that."
He reached into his back pocket, pulling out his wallet. "Here, let me pay you back. How much-"
She held up one hand, cutting him off. "Don't worry about it. We're allowed to sneak some free shit every now and then."
He blinked. Damn, she was nice. "I- thank you." He held out his hand like a gentleman, finally putting his grandmother's years of hammering good manners into him to use. She took it, her tiny hand fitting into his perfectly. Her nails were painted cherry red, and he decided he liked the color. "I should at least know the name of my personal Florence Nightingale, huh?"
She laughed, the corners of her eyes crinkling in mirth. "It's Rachel. And what might the name of my patient be?"
"Steve."
She squeezed his hand once more before letting go. "Well, Steve, I hope your eye feels better. I'm here all summer, so I expect to see some progress reports."
He can feel his lips slip into an easy grin. "Oh, definitely."
"See you around, Steve." She turns, looking over her shoulder and giving a little wave.
"Yeah. See you around." He can't help but wave back.
Rachel stirs in the passenger seat, cracking open a bright, curious, and rather sleepy looking eye. "What do you have that look on your face for?" She asks, voice raspy with sleep.
"It's nothing. Just... remembering, that's all."
She smiles, her eyes crinkling at the corners. God, he loves that smile. "You're such a sap. I love you."
He reaches across the arm rest and intertwines his fingers with hers. Her nails are a bright blue this time, and he decides he likes the color.
"I love you, too."
Beautiful
This is beautiful
I think you found your skill bro, this is amazing.
Ok dude I didn’t actually read it at first because I wanted to be supportive, so then I read it and I actually think it’s fucking amazing.
I’m listening to this on my phone, staring at a blank tv, eating cereal that tasted out of date waiting for someone to care about me
Blesss your souulll I can’t believe I went for so long without this video in my life. Thaannnnkkk Yooooouuuuuuu
The original video is gone. This is all we have now.
@falling 1013 yes please, post it
@Peyton Maxwell where is it ? :(
@Peyton Maxwell do you still keep it? Can I have it, please
This makes me feel I'm here right now. I'm dying and living.. I feel alive. My heart's beating, I feel relieved. I'm in the present. forever, stopped.. just floating around.
Dont ever delete this video please , its so relaxing, thank u so much❤️❤️
This song is a reminder of happiness for me, probably because I’m too young to experience the sadness that others feel with this song. It reminds me of memories, beautiful ones, where time stops and everything feels like a dream in that moment. That is when an unreal memory is made.
This song makes me so sad which is really upsetting because I love it so much. But you know when you associate certain songs with a person who has hurt you in some way, well this is my song :(
Even after a year I still come back to this video when I’m having hard times or just need to wind down. Plz never delete it:/
dear jessica,
i sometimes wonder where my life would be without those 3 years. at one point you made me the happiest guy ever. i remember the first day we started talking, it was the same old girl every time. the way you talked to me seemed perfect. the way you did things was perfect. your personality was perfect. then you had to go break my heart. you would consistently come back after a while and I would let you. I remember the latest time. we were at a concert, i didnt even know you would be by us. i remember seeing you walk up and instantly all my feelings came back. i look at you and feel a bunch of emotions i cant even explain. i remember i was at that concert with a girl i didnt even want to be there with. i remember it started to rain and how i covered your head in the rain. then the food fights started and i was blocking you from everything coming. i remember getting text messages from the other girl asking when i was coming back. i told her i was having the concert with my bros (it was a boogie wit da hoodie concert) i remember you sitting there by yourself and you’d look over at me and id just get a bunch of butterflies in my stomach. instantly. i remember you talking about not having anyone to dance with at the concert. it was said in a way as if you wanted me to hear. as if it was me who you wanted to be with that night. i remember i was bold enough to tell you straight up that i wanted to spend the rest of the night with you. you agreed, we danced the night away during the concert. i remember this part vividly. the song come closer came on. i remember dancing as i sung the words into your ear. i remember you turning around and just looking into my eyes. i remember the way you kissed me. holy fuck. this gets me everytime because this is when i really fell in love with you. the kiss i was waiting for. the kiss i waited such a long time for. it actually felt real. you made all my problems go away. you made me feel good. you made me feel things ive never felt before. i remember leaving the concert holding your hand making sure you get to your bus okay. i remember the way you hugged and kissed me infront of everyone. something i thought was genuine. something i adored so much. things went good, came over a couple times, we’d cuddle. watch movies, then you would kiss me before you’d go. it felt perfect.. until this one time. you come over, we are watching movies and keeping your distance with me. you were being distant. i remember me texting you saying come cuddle with me. trying to lighten up the mood. you continued to sit there, so i got up and went to my room. i laid there wondering what the fuck was going on, i was getting vibes from previous occurrences, my anxiety was killer and i cried. i ended up crying myself to sleep. i remember being woken up by you asking for the wifi password. i remember you staying in there after i was done. i asked you why you stayed and you said you didnt know. i asked you why do you always do this. you said i dont know, you said you dont know your feelings and can never get them situated. i fell for your bullshit. i remember telling you i couldn’t do it anymore, and blocking you. that was very hard to do, i was in love with you. i remember i started to think about things, i remember asking myself why i wasnt good enough for you. i remember hearing from my brother that is has to be with the way i describe myself. (im an edgy kid, an “eboy”) i remember confronting you asking if this was true. you indeed said it was true and tried to tell me that wasnt me. you tried to tell me to change. want to know the part that hurt the most? when you said you cant love me because of who i am. it really fucking hurt when someone you love cant love you back because of the person you are. it really fucking hurts when you are being told to change yourself to be with the one you love. it made me feel really shitty that you basically meant i wasnt good enough for you. i sometimes wonder where would i be if you never played a factor in my life. i let you control me too many times and i genuinely was hurt by you. i rarely give myself up to people. i gave myself to you and you ruined that. sometimes i wish i could take myself back to the night of the concert. it almost felt perfect with you. its like it was nirvana, then i realize its not a perfect moment. because it lead to a road of heartbreak, hurt, trouble, drama. something you were supposed to help with, not cause. i hate saying this, but im scared. im scared to see you in person, see your name, hear things about you. want to know why? im scared to see you because once i look into those beautiful eyes in there i fall back in love everytime. i see your name and think of the good times when the genuine care was there. im scared to hear things about you because it will lead to me overthinking and texting you. im scared that you are with someone happy. someone who was truly good enough. ah, take me back to the good memories with us. i fucking love you but fucking hate you at the same time.
sincerly,
gary :/
MkeGary -OfficialGary- I just wanted to send over a message to Jessica, Tell her to get her shit together and hold on to the real ones. Stay strong my dude :)
Youll get better buddy, take this as a lesson in your life, not everything is perfect. But eventually youll find the kne for you
You my friend are truly a gift from God, thank you for this!
about 17:00 is when i lost it and couldnt hold it anymore. after staring at the ceiling and watching the lights fade around me in and out, and hearing the sound as if it were distant. i gave up and let loose. my face is stained
Damn.... I remember laying under the stars on a blanket alone thinking about him.... missing him.... crying over him..... and after 2 years of being together he left me.... and this song takes me back to when we were in love.... and it just reminds me of what we aren’t no longer
this song makes me remember my first love in highschool whom i never got to be with. I remember him saying that he'll wait for me till we both graduate college and have stable careers. Though i lost contact with him when i left my hometown for college, i never forgot him.
I focused on my studies and never been in a relationship all through those years,I got my bachelors degree and now working in my first job. for 5 years I waited for him hoping that his words will rly come true. For 5 years I watched how many times he's been in a relationship w/ other women
I'm still waitin. He is too,but he's now waitin for his first child's gender.
Should have told him how you felt. No regrets, kid.
I broke up with my girlfriend and best friend of almost 3 years. Everyone always said we would make it. I totally believed them. I would cry sometimes just at the thought of ever potentially losing her. But the way life works out it just made it so that I had to end things with her. The worst was knowing how much I hurt her. I wouldn’t be able to think for nights straight because my mind was totally occupied with worrying about her. Hoping to God that she wasn’t crying like I was. Hoping that she had a friend to talk to. Hoping her amazing parents were there for her. And all of those eventually were true. She’s okay :) it’s seven months later and she’s finally okay. I get so smiley and giddy when I see her new boyfriend on her Snapchat story. It makes me so unbelievably happy to know that she’s finally happy again. I guess it’s just weird that I’m not. I don’t regret breaking up with her because I know it’s what I had to do. It just hurts being alone. I haven’t felt a desire for a deep emotionally connection with anyone I’ve come in contact since. And I guess that makes me scared that I never will find someone like her. I don’t think I necessarily miss her, I miss the love. It’s weird knowing I’ve done this totally to myself, while still being thankful that I did it and not regretting my decision. But at the same time hurting this much for this long. The heart is so confusing.
Jesus loves and has a plan for all and can help you through anything
You're a thoughtful person, and you done what you had to do even though it was very difficult to do. Means you're a man now. Nobody said it was easy, dude. You'll be fine.
I felt this song and pouring rain. I love the sound. I love the road, the lights, the night. I love everything. 😔
i want to get out of this suffocating place so bad
but the thing suffocating me is my own mind.
this is what I've been looking for,better than original
These rainy showers added deep touch in this song while it was already filled with it. Now love this song more and more!
Thank you for making this, since i havent found out a preferable way to loop with song on mobile yet. ☆
listening to this song in an apartment where you can see the city at night, is such a vibe🤎.
This video makes me nostalgic. I closed my eyes while listening to this and it felt like i was there, sitting in the car with him right at this very moment. When all of our worries were school deadlines and school plays. Now, it’s been 2 years without him and everytime i hear this song i somehow relives that memory of him. I miss those good old times. I miss him.
Just the way you can hear the guitar pound at one part just reminds me how many times he had plummeted my heart into the ground...and i still love him.
Honestly, just came to listen to a good song to some aesthetic rain. And all these people talking about their exe’s just left me bummed out man. Who ever hurt you, or left you behind for someone else, just know they weren’t meant for you. It’s hard to move on past some people, but one day you’ll find someone else who will make you forget about that one mistake
--insert coin here-- some ppl just need to vent lol. We know that right now, it just hurts.
Let me just fall asleep with this.
It feels like paradise
You did amazing. This helps a lot w my anxiety 💞
That's so gratifying to hear. Keep pushing forward x
Praying for you Jesus loves and has a plan for you
My sadness is pushing people I love away. They have had to be there for me too many times. I hope I don’t loose them and I change
Edit: so I had no idea I wrote this comment but I just wanted to say I am now happier than I’ve ever been. Life changes. Dropped someone who was negative in my life and I’ve never felt better.
Gabby H. I know exactly how you feel and the true friends will stay there no matter what
Praying for you Jesus loves and has a plan for all
as someone who is only 14, unable to drive, and its 4am, I thank you because I love going on car rides when I'm sad or in panic. and I love this song. plus, white noise (ex: the rain) helps me sleep
i miss you.
I've never been this dramatic that the ads made me cry even more
I drove for 4 hours today, just to get out and see some new scenery. I loved it.
Everytime I think I could do it, something else happens. Something comes along and bursts my illusion. This is a fucking loop and I can't escape.
I imagine myself going to a concert and this song plays and we are all just vibing together 🥺
I recommend sitting or laying down, getting some headphones (mine are wireless) and a vr headset (it doesn’t have to be one of the really expensive ones, I have one that’s pretty shoddy but does the trick), and just watching this. it feels so ridiculously real
Dear ex,
thank you for being my first kiss. thank you for talking me through wanting to kill myself on rough nights. thank you for bringing me slushies when i was sick.and thank you for breaking me. i love you and it pains me to say it cause i know you lost that feeling 3 weeks ago when you starting to lead me on. i have so many questions for you like why everytime i asked you if we were okay you brushed it off like we were and you just told me it was a bad day. why werent you honest and why did you look me in my eyes after we kissed and told me you loved me when less than 24 hours later you would break up with me. why did you have to break me not once but twice. why 4 days after we broke up did you go to her when you told me she was "just a friend" i shouldve listened to my mom and sister when they said youd hurt me. but i didnt cause i was naive. i hate you... or at least i wish i did cause reality is i dont, i cant, cause my love covers the hate i wish you nothing of the best but sometimes you make that so difficult. the first time i dated you i had "all" of you. all your attention, love, and time. towards the end of the first time we dated i had "most" of you when we broke up i was heart broken i cried everynight. then we dated again for about a month but even at the begining of the second time i only had "some" of you. i thought i had "all" of you but it turns out i truely had "none" of you. do you know how badly i wish i could go "back to the night" when you told me you liked me not so i could tell you to shut up or fuck you so that i could do it all again. i hate that you hurt me so badly that every song is about you and that floors that i used to pace around talking to you on turned to the place when i cried in a puddle of my tears cause you left me. i want to forget about you so badly but i crave your hand on my thigh and forehead kisses. i just wish you wouldve told me sooner that you didnt love me cause you wasted my time and you just werent worth it in the end. you arent worth the tears i cry for you when i lay at the bottom of the bathtub. i wish i hated you but i just still love you.
xoxo,
the girl you ruined
Jesus, I'm crying for you
I'm so sorry for you... be strong
Connor OBrien I went back to read what I put on here tonight and I can say I’ve come a long way still hurts but I was put on medication for anxiety and everything is OK now
thank god this exists thank you so much
Take me back...to the night we met.
This helps me calm down from my anxiety attacks ❤️
November 2nd 2020 9:56pm
Entry #10
Dear Diary,
Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to the girl who gets everything and still isn’t satisfied. The girl that misses face timing the person they loved until their eyelids were to heavy to keep open, or laugh until they were too exhausted to keep going. The girl in love with her bestfriend and the girl who will never get her. To the girl that can’t go back to the night we met. We can’t go back. Why did you hurt me? Happy birthday to me.
thank you so much for making this. this is my favorite song ever and i struggle with sleeping a lot and this helps
Vent comment, you can skip:
This song really sends me back to that first night I spent with a person who was once a close friend. Losing them did not hurt as much as seeing our relationship deteriorate and morph into something hateful, vile and gilded in betrayal.
I would give anything to go back to that day we met and tell myself to look the other way, to not answer the late night calls, to let them be the one that got away.
Even now, I am haunted by the good times, the ones that bring a smile to my face and make their betrayal seared inside burn and throb like a fresh wound. Not a knife to the back, more like a GD chainsaw to the neck.
But you really can't know better until knowing better is useless, it's true.
So cheers to the memories, at least there's that left.
I’m so lost. As I try to find words to describe how I feel I just get overwhelmed with this emptiness. They way I feel about him yet there are feelings that I’m lacking. I’m lacking the words of the feelings because the feelings don’t exist. As much as I want them to exist. As much as I want to put on paper how I see him I can’t. I’m just so lost in the person I wanted him to be to the point I’ve lost the actual him. I can’t talk to him. I can’t breathe around him. I can’t think around him. Yet I can’t feel without him. It’s this endless loop of falling in love but not really knowing where to land.
Oh my goodness 😂😂😂😂 I’m struggling so much with writing. I was playing this to be able to write how I feel yet I couldn’t so I just came into the comments and wrote this without thinking and holyyyyyy 😂 welp hope you enjoyed as I try to turn this into something beautiful 🥰💛
I had a crush on my college senior.I hadn't even talked with him.Idk if he even knew my existence.It was more like an admiration from afar.Something about him always pulled me like a magnet.But now he's gone.Forever from my life.But songs like this make me feel nostalgic about the feeling he gave.
I can’t stop crying lmao
i love her so much.
You my friend are a true gift of god thank you my friend and bless your soul.
me and him were close. the only person i could talk to. only person to know about my self harm and how i really felt.
he asked for me to not talk to him anymore about that kind of stuff.
thats when everything changed between us.
i felt like a burden to him. i didnt tell him anything after that. not my crushes, my depression, my suicidal thoughts, or my self harm, nothing except my happy side was what he saw after that.
our conversation got shorter, calls ended sooner, he had other friends who he was closer too. it faded.
it got to the point he next texted me. i didnt text first because i had before every time and thought i was being annoying.
we got into more and more arguments. the only way i got him to text me was deleting older messages(instagram)
he never had a problem not talking to other people.
i cried every night. now i cant cry, i still feel the same pain but i have no tears left. he makes arguments about how he was the victim and he suffered.
he didnt deal with suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, self harm. nothing. but he was the victim because he cried a couple nights here and there cause of me.
i cant tell if its my fault of his.
but i cant tell anyone how i feel without having a mental breakdown/ panic attack. i delete the message half way though and say im fine. my suicidal thoughts are worse now but im trying. but i cant get over him. i cant blame him either, because he was nice to me before(sorry for errors)
I can totally relatr
The handsome hollow of cloud and fog heave sometimes to reign,
The genuine tender breeze that shakes vain elements in veins,
And bones out of their humdrum order in air stretch plain.
Sight of such divine happenings brings joy out of pain;
Sights of droppings, hitting ground and heads, uncovered and sane,
What to fear from wet lives if all Earth be gone without a single rain?
From my upcoming second book of poems! :)
Chills literal chills
This song and your channel was created for one reason which is HAPPINESS
Just being sad you can skip
How could I break you like people had broken me...
I knew what I was doing
But I didn't care
Whatever it took for me to be rid of you
I swear I could feel your heart rip
But I didn't stop
Because I'm so stupid
I should have apologized
Should have said what was on my mind
Tried to clear it
Instead of clear you
But woulda shoulda coulda
And I still didn't
Because I'm selfish
Cuz I'm a piece of garbage
I can't even make and excuse to get you back
I wish I could
You were so perfect....
And I ruined it...
Just so I could be better
Because the thought of you coming back gave me so much anxiety
The thought of us kissing made me scared
And knowing you'd want to hang out with me made me sick
Why?
Because I'm so antisocial that everything is like the
Cuz I thought it would be unbearable
Because that's just how I am
You were so much different
And I regret ever leaving your side
Ever leaving you hanging
You never did a damn thing wrong and I still blamed you
How could I be so stupid
So fucking stupid....
I need you Caden....
I'm so sorry....
I wish I could say this to your face..
Your cute face....
With your deep brown hair...
I could never...
Because idk which one of us would hurt more
And I just got out of my hole...
I don't want to put you back in yours
If you had one ever
It seemed like you would....
I wish I could just talk to you....
Tell you how much I love you...
And....
See you...
And hug you...
It's everything I need...
To feel better...
I'm sorry
i listened you this song and it played in the background while i tried to take my own life, it’s been exactly 2 years since then and this popped up on my recommendation. it’s been 2 years but the thoughts are still there and they won’t leave no matter how much i try to get rid of them
“I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you.” Me and my bsf have been friends for 11 years(since we were kids) and we are fighting. We have grown apart so much and these lyrics to this song describe what i’m going through so well.
I haven't had a heart break like some of the people in the comments. But This video brings another emotion for me, nostalgia. Listening to this type of song on a rainy day brings be back to my childhood. I miss those dark clouds, pouring rain, and thunder. I feel like it's been so long since I've been alive. I just want to walk in the rain on the sidewalk like I was 4 again. My chest hurts for all the longing
i’ll see you in my dreams..
I’ve done this exact thing after a breakup. It was heart wrenching, and beautifully therapeutic all at the same time. Another great song to do this to, is The Greatest by Cat Power.
i cant believe i found exactly what i was searching for. thank you.
Dad in the other room: WHY ARE YOU CRYING SO LOUD?
me:
I watched the entire drive, still with no direction
I can’t wait to have a car, I can finally drive around, whilst the rain pounds of the windows and this soothing music is playing.
it makes me want to *CRY*
Reminds me or a senior I loved, the day we met, a lot changed for me. My perspective of Love and how I should go into love more, but then he left at the end of the year, and I feel empty. I just keep remembering his smile and his voice, and his angelic laugh. But, he taught me to feel love again, he was a important lesson.
ngl, music in the car is just SO good
"You can't love someone back to life".
"You can try".
She’s moving next year. I can’t see her anymore. I’m trapped in my house, and I can’t see her at school either. She’s not gonna be with me anymore, and I’m gonna lose her. Just like that. We went through all that just for it to be lost. I hate this world.
I can’t even describe how much I love this...Thanks a lot!
all time favorite song, so many memories show up when i listen to this song, ugh heartbreak
Im here at 1:30am like most nights now and i feel so frickin nostalgic i mean i think of my childhood and now that my great grandad is in the hospital this makes me wanna just break down. My great grandma left us a 2 years ago and this song makes me think that she's there somewhere waiting for him on a white bench in some field. Ik weird right? But it keeps me sane ig and i hate crying hell cant remember the last time i did, but this song brings me close and the rain just adds to it. Thank u 4 this x
omg this is so amazing when this song play ım crying, ım sorry..
so serene- i love it
Ormai ogni notte mi metto qua ad ascoltare questo capolavoro sperando si avveri, il sogno di ritornare davvero a quella notte e magari di cambiare un po' le cose...
Sucks. How you think you're all over it but turns out a part of you got taken away and because of that you'll always feel a little bit empty.
this song hits in a different way in me....