Eu quero tá me dando é o que ela tá me dando o que você táo que ela sempre vem me dando essa cena criminosa escandalosa o que ela sempre vem me dando que você tá acabando de falar eu queroque ela fala aí que você acabou de falar que ela tá sempre me dando ao crime e o escândalo que ela
O que ela vem me dando é o que ela vem me dando essa cena criminosa e os cantos é o que ela sempre vem me dandoa palavra de crime e os canto que ela vem fazendo é o que ela vem me dando essas palavras que você tá acabando de afirmar
pode perceber que as palavras dela tem sempre a cera criminosa sempre ela tá falando o crime sem perdão tá confessando o crime e meela tá sempre fazendo a cena criminosa e me jogando como culpado ela faz a cena criminosa assim como ela usou as partes íntimas delamesmo assim essas palavras criminosa dela foi a mesma forma que ela usou as partes íntima dela para mim ainda contratou santai se uniu ao Santarém para mim fazer o sequestro e o santo e feijão de Jacke ela fez esse inferno na minha vida com esses canto que ela vem fazendo tudo santo dela faz um escândalo diferente
@@moniquelevasseur7546 There absolutely right... I know first hand about those obstacles. You tell yourself " I still look good" , " I don't look like I do dope", " I'm young, I have time to get my life together", " Nobody would think I get high" , " I'm smart, I can control my habit" .these are all the things you tell yourself when your good looking, intelligent, youthful etc . That is why they are obstacles for getting clean .
He's so handsome, intelligent and articulate. If he would get clean, he would be an awesome counselor and model. I wish him the best and hope he gets clean🙏🏽
I had a handsome, smart, intelligent recovering addict in my life. He took me for thousands of dollars when he went back to drugs, cleaned out my bank account, ripped off his friend also for thousands to go on a binge. Don't let the charm fool you.
This man has something, he has THAT special thing. Charismatic, intelligent, goodlooking. Really hope that he gets clean and stays clean, because I see he has a future.
This man really humanizes addiction. I lost my 21 year old daughter to overdose 4 years ago and I tried to save her for years. Now I search for meaning in her life as well as her death. I need to understand what she went through and why she couldn't stop. Chris has articulated his experience very well and with authenticity that brings me to tears for him. I pray for some relief for him, a better life and for his son. Your videos are valuable on so many levels. Thank you.
This is heroin for you. Addicts take it to feel normal. So they are not sick. That is all I ever got from it. Clean for 3 months. It is possible guys. Put the needle down
I can picture Chris getting into public speaking, sharing his struggles/experiences with addiction, as he possesses all the qualities to make a great public speaker. He's insightful, articulate, intelligent, handsome, and wise; so much potential there...I believe in him!!
The reason why you wrote such a detailed analysis about the guy is because you're attracted to him. You are so biased, it was so cringy. The thing is he's just average looking with average intelligence.
@@Iriss89 You need to listen to him. 17-years of addiction he's NOT going to change. His choice, not yours. If I were you I'd find something more fruitful to invest your empathy on.
@@pam_jackson And you know this how? Did your crystal ball tell you that? 17 years isn't really that long. I've known people who were addicts for 25-30 years and got clean.
not going to speak for everyone but most addicts that I know are tremendously self aware. myself included. I think that’s a big reason we turn to using in the first place.
I'm pulling for you, Chris. Break that cycle for Michael. Both my husband and I broke the cycle for our children. My husband just celebrated 32 years sober and I have 11.5 years sober. We do recover. Trust God. Clean house. Help others.
He doesn’t look like the “typical” addict that I see in Kensington... it’s crazy that he’s been using drugs for so long and he still looks relatively healthy. You can tell that he takes decent care of himself (looks-wise) even in the midst of his addiction.
I went to high school with him. As soon as I saw his face and once I heard him talking I knew it was him. Still appears as lucid in this video as he did 15+ years ago. Wish him the best.
@@KELSEYYYYY he's 32, been using needles, and speedballs, been using since the age of 15.... he graduated, messed around with pill, heroin.. ECT so he's been around for a while.... he literally said he fell in love with heroin!! Beyond that he's very attractive and a easy looker.... hope he gets better...
I was thinking that too that he is too good-looking to let everything go to SHIT Because that fentanyl stuff that's out there they're putting anything they can in it and it's more like that Ukrainian drug krokodil that's making people skin flake off or it's giving people gnarly looking abscesses
As a recovering opioid/heroin/benzo addict for almost 20 years, this man is 100% accurate except for one thing, u can train ur brain to forget about it. After ur sober u can fill ur head with not what that drug feels like , but where it will take u..... I have been sober for almost 6 years.
Yeah but it can come back in a heartbeat - that feeling - when you're least expecting it. Like a random memory can have an association, or a certain tune or something.
I am so glad to hear this as I'm trying again and only hope with q few months to years under my belt I won't look back. Thank you for writing this I needed to hear this the now thank you 💯👌...as I am being told the brain does recover and the cravings do stop. This is what I am being told and starting to beilve and hope its true glad u and some others feel the same way this is what some folk need to know thank you 💛xx
Chris do you even realize what a mentor you would be if you got clean and helped these addicts that need to hear your experience. Your intelligent!! Save yourself to save others, Gods got you on a journey for sure, your worth it!!!
Such a intelligent and articulate man. One of the best interviews like this iv ever seen. I’m also a recovering addict I was also injecting crack and heroin together. Iv been sober 18 month from that. Just struggling kicking the methadone. I’m from the uk and I wish Chris the very best of luck.
Absolutely 💯 agree! He articulates himself in such a way that it is clear he knows himself well and has put a lot of thought into the situation he is in. Intellectually understanding yourself is a huge part of getting better.
My brother has been gone a week, he lost his life to his addiction. I stumbled across this channel through a fb page that helps supports families with loved ones who are addicts today. Its definitely an eye opener for me. I never truly understood my brother and his ways but thanks for sharing your story Chris and to the people who making these videos your amazing, your doing a great thing!
I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely understand how you feel. I loss my only brother to his drug addiction. I always found myself being so judgmental and never really understand WHY? until one day I asked my brother if he could allow me to interview him (I never interview anyone before) just to help me understand why/ and how. He promised me he would tell me everything and about a month later he overdosed. I wish I could've came across these videos before it was too late I probably would've told him I loved him more instead judging him as much as I did!
ACTUALLY..... I watched a few of these videos and noticed mostly white and black and a few Mexican, but like zero Asians... SO, I look up statistics of Opioid usage by race and it is massively white, then black, then Mexican, with Asian and others a small sliver of the pie, like 1% small!!! Addiction CAN tackle everyone, but it is very unwise IMHO to ignore these statistics and pretend it happens to anyone... There must be something, maybe cultural, maybe family values, maybe even genetics that this hurts certain races much more than others and *finding that answer may be a big solution to the problem!*
Chris explains addiction so well and is so well-spoken. He gives a great perspective on what it's like dealing with this for the majority of his life. I have so much respect for him and really appreciate him telling his story and sharing his thoughts. If only there was a way to erase the brain's "memory" of what it feels like to do hard drugs, then perhaps the problem could be solved even after detoxing.
So handsome and intelligent, addiction doesn’t discriminate, I hope he gets help to quit he’s capable of so much, he’s smart enough to go far. Btw he doesn’t look like a typical heroin addict, must have good genes
If everyone on earth saw this interview the world would be better off. Fantastic interview this guy is very much down to earth and aware despite his addiction
He is very photogenic, good looking level headed man, he has so much potential, he needs to make a full swing recovery and become a model, or something on that scale.
Chris if you happen to read this, you are amazing and you are in everyone’s heart. Your explanation of how us addicts think is spot on and you explain addiction so perfect. You can beat this, you can do it. Your message speaks volumes. Mel, Thank you for sharing
i got to stop watching these late at night...only brings up heartbreak from the past. stay strong everyone, you are loved. i hope the guy in this video finds peace, he seems so intelligent and like a good soul 🖤
Anthony Gomes my fiance his parents are so addicted same for his uncle and many other in his family. He made the decision to not do alcohol, no painkillers ever and keep away from cigarettes. Its a scary idea he is predisposed to end up like that. I hope he is strong enough to resist. I’m strong enough to keep him on the right path
I’m a recovering addict also from Long Island NY who just celebrated 4 years clean April 12th. I relate and feel for this man whole heartedly. He seems like a very intelligent person and i pray he gets the help he needs and makes those 3 wishes a reality in his life. 🙏❤️
He's in a recent video posted just a couple months ago on All Time Media TH-cam page, with a gf he met in rehab. He was clean for a bit, but unfortunately just weeks before the video he relapsed. He does look much healthier there, than in this video. Very good looking, and well spoken. Seems to be ready to leave Kensington and be done for good. I pray he finally does. You can tell he's got so much more life to live and so much more to give. ❤
I too have a son named Chris. We also are from N.Y., born & raised. My son is 41 years old. To hear this mother's son tell his story, I couldn't help but be touched. There but for the Grace of God go all of us. Chris, you are in my prayers this night.
Great interview - what a smart, articulate guy! I was a Heroin addict , now my drugs are carbs and sugar - I exhibit the same out of control behavior with food like I did w Heroin...the cycle of addiction never ends.
Is there any update on this guy? He's very articulate well spoken. He really humanizes addiction. He's a talented at telling his story. If he could get clean he would definitely be a great person to talk to youth about addiction.
He is so self aware it's astounding. I hope that he gets the help that he needs to erase those tapes in his head that force him and many like him, to continue down a path of destruction. He has so much to live for. He is intelligent, articulate and capable and he has a small child who he can use as additional inspiration to break this curse - the paternal addiction that is afflicting his family. He has to be the one to stop this. Children of addicts are 50% more likely to also fall into addiction themselves. Due to the fact that both of this little boy's parents have a history of drug use, that increases his son's chances of falling into his footsteps even more. Chris, if you are reading these comments -- remember that yes, your brain is telling you the wrong thing, it is tempting you and telling you it needs the drug (being the gorilla on your back) - but YOU are in control. YOU have to say enough is enough. You have to get into treatment, dig deep and find out what you are running from, address it and you have to do it daily. You are still young and the possibilities for you are endless. You are worth the effort and so is your son! We're rooting for you!
If I passed this guy on the street and spoke with him I’d never guess he was a drug addiction. He doesn’t seem spaced out and he has clarity. He appears to have good hygiene and look healthy. I noticed this interview was awhile ago. Is there an update?
Best interview I have seen you do so far. He talked. Very informative. He is a very good looking man. Hopefully he gets everything he wishes for. He knows it is possible. Chris keep your head up. Stay positive. You got a lot of living left. I'm rooting for you! I'm hoping you get your 3 wishes. Best of luck!
This guy has such a good head on his shoulders! I really hope he gets clean because life on the other side is amazing! I got clean in 2016 and life is great now! God bless him, he’s in my prayers 🙏🏻🙏🏻
If he could get clean, he make a GREAT mentor. It must be SO frustrating knowing what you went to do in life and where you want to be. But you’re so wrapped in addiction you can’t break free from it. This guy is the same age as me. That’s heartbreaking to watch. He’s very articulate and smart. I wish him the best.
i like this guy. i had a similar story of my youth. i just never ended up actually hanging out with other drug addicts unless it was to cop. alienated all my friends and family. finally got clean thanks to massive support from my immediate family. wasn't easy but i've been clean over 5 years now. graduated from university for electrical engineering and gainfully employed. i should start hitting up meetings again though, not only for myself but to show newcomers this shit does get better and there is light at the end of the tunnel.
I hope that you do. It's good to know there are survivors. Congratulations for your hard work, as I know that it is harder than anything anyone will ever do.
@@sixdinnersyd try doing it in a toxic environment with an unimaginably painful rare disease and having everything constantly stolen from you while you try to rebuild your life/mind/body lol. imo, everyone could do it(get clean) with a decent support system but usually addicts get stigmatized and abandoned by society if they dont have families. these stories and videos make me kind of surprised i never slipped back into drug abuse/addiction with how much my situation got worse after getting clean. i have every reason to go back to using but i never do.. sometimes i think it would improve my quality of life since nothing else i do seems to result in any real improvement lol usually the opposite. its messed up how some people will get treated like they're in active addiction by so much of society for simply being poor/stuck in a bad situation..
Shaun Did, Congratulations and please go to some meetings.. My dad passed away today at age 70. He was a recovering addict that was a sponsor and active in meetings for the last 30 years.
This guy NEEDS to be heard! This is the perfect example of a story and message that these videos are trying to get people to see. I really hope he gets well. Best of luck to him.
My heart breaks for you Chris please get sober again you and your son deserve it. You have a lot of years left if you can get sober and stay sober. ♥️♥️♥️
Never believe nor trust addicts. He loves heroin more than his family. They all do. I knew triple amputees who still heroin addicts. They pay other addicts to shoot them up.
@@themako990mako9 he does it himself for money, when he says his a "pan handler" to get money for his next bag\fix this is what he means, he either cooks up and injects ppl or runs the heroin on foil for ppl to smoke who can't do it themselves.. he may seem a nice guy but that's one of the lowest ways to make money, sorry to say it but it's true, your basically enabling someone's addiction who otherwise might not have a addiction for the simple fact they can't do it themselves
When I was getting sober in florid I saw this guy around at meetings for a good amount of time, hard to watch this knowing exactly what he is going through. I hope he gets well and finds what he’s looking for inside of himself. A lot of people commenting that “he doesn’t look like an addict” addiction has no face, no race, etc. it effects all walks of life. Good luck Chris.
Chris seems like a cool dude, probably be a good support worker, get off the gear man, he made a lot of sense, very bright and articulate guy, god bless Chris
What a lovely man! but let’s just give a thought to his poor mother my heart goes out to her addiction does not affect just the user it’s a family disease, hopefully if he ever reaches his rock bottom they can be reconciled and he can be in his child’s life, best interview yet!🙏❤️🇬🇧
You're not a dopehead, you're a human being with a brain disorder. Be kind to yourself. I hope that you reach out for help, you deserve to be happy. Thinking of you
I'm glad I found these videos. It has truly changed my perspective. If you want to recover, I hope everything goes well! Anyone can do it, that's a fact. You just gotta be physically and mentally prepared.
"We need to get back to basics" I felt that one. Chris you're intelligent, wise and handsome. Please beat this struggle, we need more ppl like you in this world 🙏🏾
This guy is very articulate and can tell he's got a good head on his shoulders, but is fighting the genetic disease of addiction, like so many... I really hope that he can get clean, and be the father he wants to be so badly... gonna keep you in my prayers, yo! Much love and God bless 🙏🕊💙
I can listen to Chris all day he’s a awesome speaker Chris you’re absolutely are blessed from God it’s so natural for you to share and express your points of views We are your audience the people that use and the ones that don’t May God Continue to guide you and protect you God Bless
One of the best interviews on this channel. He broke it down. I've worked as Detox Technician in a Detox Center, and I've seen it all. This affects the addict, and everybody you love. It destroys life's. I just read his mom's post. It was heartbreaking. Listen to these individuals. Please don't do drugs. Thanks Mal for giving these individuals a voice. This is your purpose in life. God picked you. Thanks for all these raw, and real stories.
I’ve been watching so many videos on this channel. I can’t get enough. I love how this channel is showing what REALLY goes on in this world👍🏼 Great job guys👏🏻I’m the same age as this guy Chris and, it’s crazy cuz him and I literally have almost the same stories. Down to the father situation. Which obviously addiction runs in genes. My dad was also a addict & left when I was very young, and he recently just tried coming back in my life which is a whole other story. Yea Chris and I have some differences but, wow so similar! Crazy! I’m still trying to figure my life out but, I don’t have much hope. I’ve wasted so many years. And, I know it’s my own fault. I’m in a real deep depression right now. I wish the best for this guy. It’s so hard though. I hope and pray he gets off the streets and stays off. This lifestyle is basically eternal though. I understand where he’s coming from because it truly is a NEVER ending battle☹️Even if your good for a while, u always gotta remember that beast is always manifesting. And, as soon as you feed it that’s it! It’s a wrap! It goes downhill from here. And it can happen THAT quick. U could be clean for 3 years and, it goes down the drain as quick as a snap of a finger. Cmon lets get real here...NO ONE just wakes up one day and, says “oh I’m gonna shoot a needle in my arm today and be a junkie for the rest of my life and loose everything and anything I’ve ever cared cared about while doing it.” Nope! And who the hell enjoys needles? who wants that?? No one! No one wants to be homeless. No one wants to feel this way or go thru this shit. No one deserves that. This is the hardest thing to go through, and when people are quick to judge or ridicule, try walking in my shoes, and let me know how u make out. It’s one of the hardest things u would ever have to do. Everyone lives in their little bubbles with no regard to what goes on. So before ppl judge, educate yourselves! Which is why this channel is great for what they are doing. It’s showing a personal insight into these peoples lives. It gets real and raw which is great because it shows that everyone is human. EVERY addict is someone’s son/daughter/brother/sister/cousin/niece nephew etc! And, when some1 takes a mind altering substance, that shit fucks up the chemicals in ur brain. Exactly like he said...even if u have the physical part under wraps, u still got the mental part. It’s tough. Addiction and mental illness run hand in hand, and I fall victim to both. Our government allows this shit in this country at the end of the day too. Something NEEDS to change. People need to have more compassion. I never wanted this. My life is in shambles. Looking back when I was younger and in my early twenty’s I had my shit together. I had a normal life. Now, I have NOTHING. It sucks. I just wish people understood where we are coming from ya kno? Like I have people that talk to me like such a piece of shit because they have never been in my shoes and think they know everything. It’s humiliating. Do you really think that this guy Chris wants to beg ppl for change outside a store. As you can see, this man is a pretty well educated person. He has his wits and, can hold a conversation. I bet he can be a CEO of a company if he wanted. Think about it, my habit was so high and, somehow I figured out how to get enough $ every day to maintain my habit. For someone to come up with money every day with no job, no income, no help should speak volumes about the capability of an addict. If only us addicts would put that energy/effort into something productive. I bet we could all be very successful ppl. But, instead I am forever in debt to the devil cuz of this shit. I have no home, no money, no bank account, no car, nothing. I am starting fresh again at the age of 32!!! It blows. I don’t even have clothes for the winter and I live up north. So in the end, the devil one and took everything from me. I almost lost my life a few times because of drugs. The devil is always battling for my soul. He’s close to getting it too. Im ready to give up. I lost myself over the years. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I can’t hold a job down cuz I’m all over the place. I don’t know where to start. My adhd is so debilitating for me nevermind everything else. My brain is scattered 24/7. It never stops. Even now, I’m going on and on in a comment on a TH-cam video basically talking to myself for no reason?🤦🏻♀️Like no one is prob even gonna read this lol. Anyways, I’m gonna shut up now. Either way, I appreciate what this channel is doing and want to express my gratitude. U guys are awesome 🤘🏻 Please continue to share this material because I am def one of ur fans that will keep watching/subscribing/liking! These videos allow people to get and up close and personal narrative which in turn may help some naive people open their eyes and get a better understand where we r coming from. And, I hope God can show me the way because the light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer and dimmer for me day after day. 🙏🏻 Much love to the creators of this channel❤️🥰 (sorry for the novel)🙈
@@hopecampbell9533 Thank you very much, it is especially hard on my mother. She got ill after his demise and is struggling to go on with her life. I have accepted the situation as he was not the boy I grew up with as a child. He turned into somebody I did not (want to)know. The lies, hurt, theft, deceit and destruction were too much. I hope he is at peace now and that my mother can get closure. All the best
"theres a spiritual side to this world, and i feel people are leaving that behind." Truest thing ive heard and have been feeling myself. This guy is incredibly smart and csn avorecome. Please give us an update if you can
True! Im 8 months sober now but i remember in the beginning there was always that voice in my head to go get high and it felt like someone was sitting on my chest i was all tingly inside just thinking about it and that thought wouldn’t go away. It still happens to this day but it’s not overwhelming like in the beginning.
Yes, the "functioning addict". I was there, it sucks when I think back on how much money I made and spent on my habit. I was always a hard ass worker. God I would've had a very impressive savings by now if I didn't use lol
Me too. Somewhat of a high functioning addict. He had guys jump him calling him an addict. Nothing I did would let anyone know & I had a very serious $$$ IV drug Addiction. I am 13 years clean now phew life is so phenomenal who’d of known.. life is sooo much easier finally.
@@dublinsfaircity its true. If you have a job or two and still have a roof over your head ...heroin doesnt make you look like shit .. What makes you look like shit is being so broke you cannot afford to buy food or take a shower or have a home. The reason the typical heroin addict looks like shit is that you dont see the millions of them who still have a home and a job ... Until you go homeless you dont digress.....iwas hidden for 7 years and not I e person ever knew.... my family didnt know ....they were totally shocked because I looked great
I am that guy who started at 27, now I’m 39 doing meth every two weeks , lost my soul in the way, as he said once you numb your feelings with drugs you dont know how to do it without them, I need to get back in track, 2 days clean now.
The hardest part of addiction is the mental part but the best feeling in the world is the first few times you say No to drugs even though a part of yourself says fuck it take it, remember how good you felt, and you still had the courage to walk away from it, feels so much better than any high. For me at least. And I kept it all to myself I didnt need anyone else to know what I had just said no to, and that felt even better. A sense of humility came over me,but you must stay head strong and when the urges came over me and I would cry bc I had to feel emotions I had suppressed for so long it hurt real bad, but I held fast kept going to treatment every single day and I now have no more mental cravings....I wish and pray Chris finds the strength to finally just stop, just stop the pain for good. God bless Chris and this channel!
Does the mental cravings really ever stop? That's where I'm stuck now for the past 3 years. I get clean for a few weeks or month or so then break and get high then withdrawals then feel better then break and get high again. I feel like I'm in purgatory.
Don’t downplay your mothers love, believe me a mother doesn’t have to love you. Throughout my life I’ve seen mothers straight up say I hate that kid. They give up on them, and turn their back on them. The mothers love is the strongest love and you are blessed to have her love , you have a good mom. You are loved.
This man is proof that no one is "typical." I truly hope he's still with us and hasn't lost hope. Thank you, Mal. I know we all hope to someday see an update on Chris.
Never have I heard an addict speak like this. I have always said "the ones that make it out are the ones that have something to come back to" ie: family, lifestyle, whatever. Some people look back and unfortunately there isn't any good to go back to. I hope Chris made it. He is smart and in-tune with his addiction. Quite amazing.
This is the most complete and coherent explanation of what addiction feels like that I’ve ever heard.
Completely agree
100% agree
Eu quero tá me dando é o que ela tá me dando o que você táo que ela sempre vem me dando essa cena criminosa escandalosa o que ela sempre vem me dando que você tá acabando de falar eu queroque ela fala aí que você acabou de falar que ela tá sempre me dando ao crime e o escândalo que ela
O que ela vem me dando é o que ela vem me dando essa cena criminosa e os cantos é o que ela sempre vem me dandoa palavra de crime e os canto que ela vem fazendo é o que ela vem me dando essas palavras que você tá acabando de afirmar
pode perceber que as palavras dela tem sempre a cera criminosa sempre ela tá falando o crime sem perdão tá confessando o crime e meela tá sempre fazendo a cena criminosa e me jogando como culpado ela faz a cena criminosa assim como ela usou as partes íntimas delamesmo assim essas palavras criminosa dela foi a mesma forma que ela usou as partes íntima dela para mim ainda contratou santai se uniu ao Santarém para mim fazer o sequestro e o santo e feijão de Jacke ela fez esse inferno na minha vida com esses canto que ela vem fazendo tudo santo dela faz um escândalo diferente
This guy desperately needs to get clean. He has so much potential. Intelligent, attractive and honest. So sad
He has to really want it. Sounds like he loves it more then anything
Intelligence, education, youth, good looks, etc, are all obstacles to recovery. Makes it all the more difficult.
@@pontificaterebal677 why does that make obstacles?
@@moniquelevasseur7546 There absolutely right... I know first hand about those obstacles. You tell yourself " I still look good" , " I don't look like I do dope", " I'm young, I have time to get my life together", " Nobody would think I get high" , " I'm smart, I can control my habit" .these are all the things you tell yourself when your good looking, intelligent, youthful etc . That is why they are obstacles for getting clean .
He's so handsome, intelligent and articulate. If he would get clean, he would be an awesome counselor and model. I wish him the best and hope he gets clean🙏🏽
I agree, Miesha. He'd make a great speaker: very articulate and says what needs to be said in an interesting way.
Miesha Alvarado
yeah like theres no drugs in the modelling world
I had a handsome, smart, intelligent recovering addict in my life. He took me for thousands of dollars when he went back to drugs, cleaned out my bank account, ripped off his friend also for thousands to go on a binge. Don't let the charm fool you.
Very Handsome and articulate
As long as he stays honest w/ himself, family, others etc... he cud go far.. Good luck Chris.. keep UR head up.. stay strong.. this too shall pass
This man has something, he has THAT special thing. Charismatic, intelligent, goodlooking. Really hope that he gets clean and stays clean, because I see he has a future.
He may have IT but IT DEFINITELY HAS HIM. Damn shame
This man really humanizes addiction. I lost my 21 year old daughter to overdose 4 years ago and I tried to save her for years. Now I search for meaning in her life as well as her death. I need to understand what she went through and why she couldn't stop. Chris has articulated his experience very well and with authenticity that brings me to tears for him. I pray for some relief for him, a better life and for his son. Your videos are valuable on so many levels. Thank you.
I‘m so sorry for your loss!
Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm sorry for your loss ❤
I wish you the best.❤💗
Sorry for your loss, may God bless 🙏🏽
Sorry for your loss Malta. May god bless you x
I'd have to say that of all the interviews that you've conducted, this particular gentleman seems to be the most coherent.
Thanks for watching 🙂
Seems like a really solid dude. I Pray he can break free.
Ryan Adam He’s a good guy. I wish he could see himself the way his family does. We love him and pray for him everyday.
This is heroin for you. Addicts take it to feel normal. So they are not sick. That is all I ever got from it. Clean for 3 months. It is possible guys. Put the needle down
It’s the Coke
I can picture Chris getting into public speaking, sharing his struggles/experiences with addiction, as he possesses all the qualities to make a great public speaker. He's insightful, articulate, intelligent, handsome, and wise; so much potential there...I believe in him!!
Yeah very good story teller
The reason why you wrote such a detailed analysis about the guy is because you're attracted to him. You are so biased, it was so cringy. The thing is he's just average looking with average intelligence.
@@selenek.2160 And the reason why you wrote such a bitter “detailed analysis” about my comment is because you are a miserable human being. :)
@@Iriss89 You need to listen to him. 17-years of addiction he's NOT going to change. His choice, not yours. If I were you I'd find something more fruitful to invest your empathy on.
@@pam_jackson And you know this how? Did your crystal ball tell you that? 17 years isn't really that long. I've known people who were addicts for 25-30 years and got clean.
He’s clear-headed enough to be quite self-aware. What a horrible trap to be caught in. 😢
I agree 💯 heroin is such a powerful drug 💔
Ignorance is bliss. I feel for him, I know his story all too well.
i was just caught there with oxy 30s ... 9 months later im thankfully out of this
Panda Monium Exactly, a horrible horrible trap 💔😢...
not going to speak for everyone but most addicts that I know are tremendously self aware. myself included. I think that’s a big reason we turn to using in the first place.
I'm pulling for you, Chris.
Break that cycle for Michael. Both my husband and I broke the cycle for our children. My husband just celebrated 32 years sober and I have 11.5 years sober. We do recover. Trust God. Clean house. Help others.
Amen praise God
Really wish Chris gets help. He’s intelligent and has a lot going for him.
He doesn’t look like the “typical” addict that I see in Kensington... it’s crazy that he’s been using drugs for so long and he still looks relatively healthy. You can tell that he takes decent care of himself (looks-wise) even in the midst of his addiction.
I was thinking the same thing..
Yes
He's a nice looking dude, he looks healthy and you wouldn't think he uses up to eight bags of heroin a day. Geez!
It’s once you quite opiates that your body falls apart. Look at opiates as a pickling agent as long as you take it everyday.
Sometimes the damage is done from the inside...
I went to high school with him. As soon as I saw his face and once I heard him talking I knew it was him. Still appears as lucid in this video as he did 15+ years ago. Wish him the best.
You guys are from upstate or the city?
@@XX-fd1ix he said in the video where he's from
@@XX-fd1ix new York
There was an interview where he was with some girl called Allysa. They met in rehab. They still together does anyone know?
@@rehearsalof_fate3353 I'm not sure, but let me have a look and see can I find it and the link for you.
The best looking and well presented heroine addict iv ever seen .. god help him
Its always the smart hot ones that are hardcore addicts
I tell you something if you know how to use heroin in a right amount you will look younger and live longer
fermata selin really? Send me a pic and I’ll tell u if I agree ! Oh and your age please
@@KELSEYYYYY he's 32, been using needles, and speedballs, been using since the age of 15.... he graduated, messed around with pill, heroin.. ECT so he's been around for a while.... he literally said he fell in love with heroin!! Beyond that he's very attractive and a easy looker.... hope he gets better...
I was thinking that too that he is too good-looking to let everything go to SHIT
Because that fentanyl stuff that's out there they're putting anything they can in it and it's more like that Ukrainian drug krokodil that's making people skin flake off or it's giving people gnarly looking abscesses
As a recovering opioid/heroin/benzo addict for almost 20 years, this man is 100% accurate except for one thing, u can train ur brain to forget about it. After ur sober u can fill ur head with not what that drug feels like , but where it will take u..... I have been sober for almost 6 years.
Yeah but it can come back in a heartbeat - that feeling - when you're least expecting it. Like a random memory can have an association, or a certain tune or something.
Ww2 salute to ur sobriety. Keep it going!
@@terywetherlow7970
Thanks alot.....
That's what I'm trying to do, I'm in recovery, when I get that obsession to use, I want a switch the mindset to something I hate. Good luck x
I am so glad to hear this as I'm trying again and only hope with q few months to years under my belt I won't look back. Thank you for writing this I needed to hear this the now thank you 💯👌...as I am being told the brain does recover and the cravings do stop. This is what I am being told and starting to beilve and hope its true glad u and some others feel the same way this is what some folk need to know thank you 💛xx
Chris do you even realize what a mentor you would be if you got clean and helped these addicts that need to hear your experience. Your intelligent!! Save yourself to save others, Gods got you on a journey for sure, your worth it!!!
Amen
Amen hallelujah
Such a intelligent and articulate man. One of the best interviews like this iv ever seen. I’m also a recovering addict I was also injecting crack and heroin together. Iv been sober 18 month from that. Just struggling kicking the methadone. I’m from the uk and I wish Chris the very best of luck.
This guy has so much to offer ,
such insight, he just needs help maintaining his thoughts in gaining sobriety. I believe he will do it eventually.
So true. Heroin is such a powerful drug destroying the souls of many💔
🤘
Absolutely 💯 agree! He articulates himself in such a way that it is clear he knows himself well and has put a lot of thought into the situation he is in. Intellectually understanding yourself is a huge part of getting better.
My brother has been gone a week, he lost his life to his addiction. I stumbled across this channel through a fb page that helps supports families with loved ones who are addicts today. Its definitely an eye opener for me. I never truly understood my brother and his ways but thanks for sharing your story Chris and to the people who making these videos your amazing, your doing a great thing!
Sorry for your loss💔
I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely understand how you feel. I loss my only brother to his drug addiction. I always found myself being so judgmental and never really understand WHY? until one day I asked my brother if he could allow me to interview him (I never interview anyone before) just to help me understand why/ and how. He promised me he would tell me everything and about a month later he overdosed. I wish I could've came across these videos before it was too late I probably would've told him I loved him more instead judging him as much as I did!
So sorry for your loss
Sorry
Its been awhile sinve you posted that comment. I hope your able to cope with your loss and know GOD loves you soo much!
This dude is brilliant. Is answers on so on point. Addiction tackles everyone. Theres no racism in addiction
💯💯💯 it don’t discriminate
ACTUALLY..... I watched a few of these videos and noticed mostly white and black and a few Mexican, but like zero Asians... SO, I look up statistics of Opioid usage by race and it is massively white, then black, then Mexican, with Asian and others a small sliver of the pie, like 1% small!!!
Addiction CAN tackle everyone, but it is very unwise IMHO to ignore these statistics and pretend it happens to anyone... There must be something, maybe cultural, maybe family values, maybe even genetics that this hurts certain races much more than others and *finding that answer may be a big solution to the problem!*
He is on cocain
Mostly white with a big number of blacks
Spot on Ayo
Chris explains addiction so well and is so well-spoken. He gives a great perspective on what it's like dealing with this for the majority of his life. I have so much respect for him and really appreciate him telling his story and sharing his thoughts. If only there was a way to erase the brain's "memory" of what it feels like to do hard drugs, then perhaps the problem could be solved even after detoxing.
We need to get back to basics and start treating people like people again! 100% correct!
So handsome and intelligent, addiction doesn’t discriminate, I hope he gets help to quit he’s capable of so much, he’s smart enough to go far. Btw he doesn’t look like a typical heroin addict, must have good genes
If everyone on earth saw this interview the world would be better off. Fantastic interview this guy is very much down to earth and aware despite his addiction
He is very photogenic, good looking level headed man, he has so much potential, he needs to make a full swing recovery and become a model, or something on that scale.
i hope this guy heals from his addiction and reconnects with his family. He is smart and spiritually deep. He can help others. God bless him.
This guy is the most clear headed. eloquent addict I've seen,
I've been clean for 9 years, I could help this dude. His story and mine and like identical
He seems so lucid. What a loss. I hope he gets free.
Chris if you happen to read this, you are amazing and you are in everyone’s heart. Your explanation of how us addicts think is spot on and you explain addiction so perfect. You can beat this, you can do it.
Your message speaks volumes.
Mel, Thank you for sharing
i got to stop watching these late at night...only brings up heartbreak from the past. stay strong everyone, you are loved. i hope the guy in this video finds peace, he seems so intelligent and like a good soul 🖤
He is so good looking and still look healthy, stop Chris, get help.
Yes but needs to stop NOW. Older u get harder it gets.
Anthony Gomes my fiance his parents are so addicted same for his uncle and many other in his family. He made the decision to not do alcohol, no painkillers ever and keep away from cigarettes. Its a scary idea he is predisposed to end up like that. I hope he is strong enough to resist. I’m strong enough to keep him on the right path
Hey God bless you Marie for real
Its not that easy!!!
'Our society is really gotten narcissistic and I feel we encourage narcissistic behavior....' - very wise and realistic truth, unfortunately.
So so true.
Totally agree, I hope he gets clean and can be a good father to his son.
I’m a recovering addict also from Long Island NY who just celebrated 4 years clean April 12th. I relate and feel for this man whole heartedly. He seems like a very intelligent person and i pray he gets the help he needs and makes those 3 wishes a reality in his life. 🙏❤️
Congrats on 4 years!!! I had 13 months May 25th #wedorecover
He's in a recent video posted just a couple months ago on All Time Media TH-cam page, with a gf he met in rehab. He was clean for a bit, but unfortunately just weeks before the video he relapsed. He does look much healthier there, than in this video. Very good looking, and well spoken. Seems to be ready to leave Kensington and be done for good. I pray he finally does. You can tell he's got so much more life to live and so much more to give. ❤
He is good looking, I’m praying for him. 💕
Where can I find the video???
Does anyone know how he’s doing today? I see so much potential in him. His beautiful soul shines through all the pain.
I too have a son named Chris. We also are from N.Y., born & raised. My son is 41 years old. To hear this mother's son tell his story, I couldn't help but be touched. There but for the Grace of God go all of us. Chris, you are in my prayers this night.
He is such a goodlooking man...and he is well spoken..Please pull it together. God bless.
Great interview - what a smart, articulate guy! I was a Heroin addict , now my drugs are carbs and sugar - I exhibit the same out of control behavior with food like I did w Heroin...the cycle of addiction never ends.
His three wishes are things that I already have. That got me. I will be more thankful from now on that my life didn't end up like his.
Good point, Brandon.
Is there any update on this guy? He's very articulate well spoken. He really humanizes addiction. He's a talented at telling his story. If he could get clean he would definitely be a great person to talk to youth about addiction.
He is so self aware it's astounding. I hope that he gets the help that he needs to erase those tapes in his head that force him and many like him, to continue down a path of destruction. He has so much to live for. He is intelligent, articulate and capable and he has a small child who he can use as additional inspiration to break this curse - the paternal addiction that is afflicting his family. He has to be the one to stop this. Children of addicts are 50% more likely to also fall into addiction themselves. Due to the fact that both of this little boy's parents have a history of drug use, that increases his son's chances of falling into his footsteps even more. Chris, if you are reading these comments -- remember that yes, your brain is telling you the wrong thing, it is tempting you and telling you it needs the drug (being the gorilla on your back) - but YOU are in control. YOU have to say enough is enough. You have to get into treatment, dig deep and find out what you are running from, address it and you have to do it daily. You are still young and the possibilities for you are endless. You are worth the effort and so is your son! We're rooting for you!
Yes! So important for addicts to know, WE ARE WORTH LIVING A BETTER LIFE. WE ARE WORTH LOVING. WE ARE WORTH LIVING!
Yes! 💯
Amen amen and amen well said, Chris please help yourself and "we" will help u too
What a very handsome face!! He looks like an actor.. Pray u find the right path soon.
So sad but true
Looks, we've all been brain washed about what beautiful really is.
I agree. He's very handsome.
Chris, get the hell outta there! I’m serious. Run and don’t look back. You can!!! 🙏🏼💜🕊
Every single word this guy says is the absolute 100% truth.
If I passed this guy on the street and spoke with him I’d never guess he was a drug addiction. He doesn’t seem spaced out and he has clarity. He appears to have good hygiene and look healthy. I noticed this interview was awhile ago. Is there an update?
Best interview I have seen you do so far. He talked. Very informative. He is a very good looking man. Hopefully he gets everything he wishes for. He knows it is possible. Chris keep your head up. Stay positive. You got a lot of living left. I'm rooting for you! I'm hoping you get your 3 wishes. Best of luck!
This guy has such a good head on his shoulders! I really hope he gets clean because life on the other side is amazing! I got clean in 2016 and life is great now! God bless him, he’s in my prayers 🙏🏻🙏🏻
If he could get clean, he make a GREAT mentor. It must be SO frustrating knowing what you went to do in life and where you want to be. But you’re so wrapped in addiction you can’t break free from it.
This guy is the same age as me. That’s heartbreaking to watch. He’s very articulate and smart.
I wish him the best.
He will be a Ted talk sensation
i like this guy. i had a similar story of my youth. i just never ended up actually hanging out with other drug addicts unless it was to cop. alienated all my friends and family. finally got clean thanks to massive support from my immediate family. wasn't easy but i've been clean over 5 years now. graduated from university for electrical engineering and gainfully employed. i should start hitting up meetings again though, not only for myself but to show newcomers this shit does get better and there is light at the end of the tunnel.
I hope that you do. It's good to know there are survivors. Congratulations for your hard work, as I know that it is harder than anything anyone will ever do.
@@sixdinnersyd try doing it in a toxic environment with an unimaginably painful rare disease and having everything constantly stolen from you while you try to rebuild your life/mind/body lol. imo, everyone could do it(get clean) with a decent support system but usually addicts get stigmatized and abandoned by society if they dont have families. these stories and videos make me kind of surprised i never slipped back into drug abuse/addiction with how much my situation got worse after getting clean. i have every reason to go back to using but i never do.. sometimes i think it would improve my quality of life since nothing else i do seems to result in any real improvement lol usually the opposite. its messed up how some people will get treated like they're in active addiction by so much of society for simply being poor/stuck in a bad situation..
Congratulations on beating that demon.
The destruction its doing to a generation of wonderful individuals is heartbreaking
Shaun Did, Congratulations and please go to some meetings.. My dad passed away today at age 70. He was a recovering addict that was a sponsor and active in meetings for the last 30 years.
"Tomorrow never comes" That's something I know all to well as I battle an alcohol addiction that has taken everything from me.
I hope your tomorrow comes! Sending you love and strength ❤❤❤❤
One of the smartest addicts I've seen. Get far away from Kensington get clean and be with your son. Wont be easy but its worth it..great interview 💪
What an eloquent storyteller The pain was palpable in his face with the ‘mirror’ question.
He is very intelligent. The way he articulates his words. I pray he gets clean.
He knows it’s vicious cycle
I really like this guy. He's got a humble mannerism, seems to be a kind, enlightened soul. Sending him love and light to overcome this.
This guy NEEDS to be heard! This is the perfect example of a story and message that these videos are trying to get people to see. I really hope he gets well. Best of luck to him.
My heart breaks for you Chris please get sober again you and your son deserve it. You have a lot of years left if you can get sober and stay sober. ♥️♥️♥️
You can tell he has a old soul. The way he look true addiction is so wise and smart!
Interesting way you worded your comment
He seems like such a wonderful soul who is just lost. You can break the cycle and be a good father to your son. I know you can do it!!!
Never believe nor trust addicts. He loves heroin more than his family. They all do. I knew triple amputees who still heroin addicts. They pay other addicts to shoot them up.
@@themako990mako9 he does it himself for money, when he says his a "pan handler" to get money for his next bag\fix this is what he means, he either cooks up and injects ppl or runs the heroin on foil for ppl to smoke who can't do it themselves.. he may seem a nice guy but that's one of the lowest ways to make money, sorry to say it but it's true, your basically enabling someone's addiction who otherwise might not have a addiction for the simple fact they can't do it themselves
When I was getting sober in florid I saw this guy around at meetings for a good amount of time, hard to watch this knowing exactly what he is going through. I hope he gets well and finds what he’s looking for inside of himself. A lot of people commenting that “he doesn’t look like an addict” addiction has no face, no race, etc. it effects all walks of life. Good luck Chris.
How you doing?
He's right about society becoming narcisistic. This shit aint no Fkin game!
Chris seems like a cool dude, probably be a good support worker, get off the gear man, he made a lot of sense, very bright and articulate guy, god bless Chris
He definitely is
This Guy is just Amazing. So inspiring! I wish him the best and to get better.
Thank you Chris,for shearing i wish that your 3 wishes will materialized very soon,Sending you LOVE COURAGE xxxx
He’s very intelligent. I hope he has the strength to overcome this addiction. I pray he finds strength.
Street wisdom... That was the most intelligent and articulate addict I've ever listened too. I hope he can find his way out of the darkness.
Dear Chris. I swear you can live without it and have a normal happy life. You can, oh! Yes, you can.
Thank you
The worst part is that he is aware of that :(
Amen to that 🙏🏽
What a lovely man! but let’s just give a thought to his poor mother my heart goes out to her addiction does not affect just the user it’s a family disease, hopefully if he ever reaches his rock bottom they can be reconciled and he can be in his child’s life, best interview yet!🙏❤️🇬🇧
As a dopehead from Philly I've never heard addiction described so perfectly.
“Your brain remembers what it feels like” 🎯
🙏🏼
Dope fiend you mean. Just linguistic.
You're not a dopehead, you're a human being with a brain disorder. Be kind to yourself. I hope that you reach out for help, you deserve to be happy. Thinking of you
I'm glad I found these videos. It has truly changed my perspective. If you want to recover, I hope everything goes well! Anyone can do it, that's a fact. You just gotta be physically and mentally prepared.
"We need to get back to basics"
I felt that one.
Chris you're intelligent, wise and handsome. Please beat this struggle, we need more ppl like you in this world 🙏🏾
He’s amazing . I pray for his ability to crave a life without a drug addiction. Praying for you Chris! I know you you will make it.
We all have that evil voice inside our heads. I feel your pain man. Stay strong.
This guy is very articulate and can tell he's got a good head on his shoulders, but is fighting the genetic disease of addiction, like so many... I really hope that he can get clean, and be the father he wants to be so badly... gonna keep you in my prayers, yo! Much love and God bless 🙏🕊💙
So true. Thanks for watching 🙂
very articulated man! I wish he can overcome addiction...he has so much potential!
Have you seen Chris again? I would love to know how he's doing.
So would I!!
I would love to ,too.Bless him
Me too, he's awesome guy.
Yeah what happend too him some get out
Yes, please update us. I wish he would keep in contact with everyone he talks to and give us updates on them.
Anyone else think he deserves so much more???
Best wishes
I'm 9 years clean so there is hope. Try get on a 12th step program and u won't go back Chris x
Damn he's insightful. I hope he knows his intellectual potential.
I can listen to Chris all day he’s a awesome speaker Chris you’re absolutely are blessed from God it’s so natural for you to share and express your points of views We are your audience the people that use and the ones that don’t May God Continue to guide you and protect you God Bless
Yes he is👍🏾
sajber kurajber you’re a sad person
One of the best interviews on this channel. He broke it down. I've worked as Detox Technician in a Detox Center, and I've seen it all. This affects the addict, and everybody you love. It destroys life's. I just read his mom's post. It was heartbreaking. Listen to these individuals. Please don't do drugs. Thanks Mal for giving these individuals a voice. This is your purpose in life. God picked you. Thanks for all these raw, and real stories.
This man is kind, intelligent and attractive. I sincerely hope he gets his life back together for his son and for himself xxx
Simping for a junkie lol
"There's a spiritual side to this world and I feel like we're all leaving it behind."
Geezus, that is beyond profound!
I’ve been watching so many videos on this channel. I can’t get enough. I love how this channel is showing what REALLY goes on in this world👍🏼 Great job guys👏🏻I’m the same age as this guy Chris and, it’s crazy cuz him and I literally have almost the same stories. Down to the father situation. Which obviously addiction runs in genes. My dad was also a addict & left when I was very young, and he recently just tried coming back in my life which is a whole other story. Yea Chris and I have some differences but, wow so similar! Crazy! I’m still trying to figure my life out but, I don’t have much hope. I’ve wasted so many years. And, I know it’s my own fault. I’m in a real deep depression right now. I wish the best for this guy. It’s so hard though. I hope and pray he gets off the streets and stays off. This lifestyle is basically eternal though. I understand where he’s coming from because it truly is a NEVER ending battle☹️Even if your good for a while, u always gotta remember that beast is always manifesting. And, as soon as you feed it that’s it! It’s a wrap! It goes downhill from here. And it can happen THAT quick. U could be clean for 3 years and, it goes down the drain as quick as a snap of a finger. Cmon lets get real here...NO ONE just wakes up one day and, says “oh I’m gonna shoot a needle in my arm today and be a junkie for the rest of my life and loose everything and anything I’ve ever cared cared about while doing it.” Nope! And who the hell enjoys needles? who wants that?? No one! No one wants to be homeless. No one wants to feel this way or go thru this shit. No one deserves that. This is the hardest thing to go through, and when people are quick to judge or ridicule, try walking in my shoes, and let me know how u make out. It’s one of the hardest things u would ever have to do. Everyone lives in their little bubbles with no regard to what goes on. So before ppl judge, educate yourselves! Which is why this channel is great for what they are doing. It’s showing a personal insight into these peoples lives. It gets real and raw which is great because it shows that everyone is human. EVERY addict is someone’s son/daughter/brother/sister/cousin/niece nephew etc! And, when some1 takes a mind altering substance, that shit fucks up the chemicals in ur brain. Exactly like he said...even if u have the physical part under wraps, u still got the mental part. It’s tough. Addiction and mental illness run hand in hand, and I fall victim to both. Our government allows this shit in this country at the end of the day too. Something NEEDS to change. People need to have more compassion. I never wanted this. My life is in shambles. Looking back when I was younger and in my early twenty’s I had my shit together. I had a normal life. Now, I have NOTHING. It sucks. I just wish people understood where we are coming from ya kno? Like I have people that talk to me like such a piece of shit because they have never been in my shoes and think they know everything. It’s humiliating. Do you really think that this guy Chris wants to beg ppl for change outside a store. As you can see, this man is a pretty well educated person. He has his wits and, can hold a conversation. I bet he can be a CEO of a company if he wanted. Think about it, my habit was so high and, somehow I figured out how to get enough $ every day to maintain my habit. For someone to come up with money every day with no job, no income, no help should speak volumes about the capability of an addict. If only us addicts would put that energy/effort into something productive. I bet we could all be very successful ppl. But, instead I am forever in debt to the devil cuz of this shit. I have no home, no money, no bank account, no car, nothing. I am starting fresh again at the age of 32!!! It blows. I don’t even have clothes for the winter and I live up north. So in the end, the devil one and took everything from me. I almost lost my life a few times because of drugs. The devil is always battling for my soul. He’s close to getting it too. Im ready to give up. I lost myself over the years. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I can’t hold a job down cuz I’m all over the place. I don’t know where to start. My adhd is so debilitating for me nevermind everything else. My brain is scattered 24/7. It never stops. Even now, I’m going on and on in a comment on a TH-cam video basically talking to myself for no reason?🤦🏻♀️Like no one is prob even gonna read this lol. Anyways, I’m gonna shut up now. Either way, I appreciate what this channel is doing and want to express my gratitude. U guys are awesome 🤘🏻 Please continue to share this material because I am def one of ur fans that will keep watching/subscribing/liking! These videos allow people to get and up close and personal narrative which in turn may help some naive people open their eyes and get a better understand where we r coming from. And, I hope God can show me the way because the light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer and dimmer for me day after day. 🙏🏻 Much love to the creators of this channel❤️🥰 (sorry for the novel)🙈
May God bless u Chris. I have a brother who is Chris and is an addict too. I pray for healing and recovery for you. GB x
Also have a brother like Chris, he lost everything because of his addictions. And we lost him
@@nllove7937 I'm so sorry yu lost yur brother that's an awful thing to happen. 🙏
@@hopecampbell9533 Thank you very much, it is especially hard on my mother. She got ill after his demise and is struggling to go on with her life. I have accepted the situation as he was not the boy I grew up with as a child. He turned into somebody I did not (want to)know. The lies, hurt, theft, deceit and destruction were too much. I hope he is at peace now and that my mother can get closure. All the best
"theres a spiritual side to this world, and i feel people are leaving that behind." Truest thing ive heard and have been feeling myself. This guy is incredibly smart and csn avorecome. Please give us an update if you can
3 years clean and hes right, once you know the feeling you can never get that thought out of your head.
True! Im 8 months sober now but i remember in the beginning there was always that voice in my head to go get high and it felt like someone was sitting on my chest i was all tingly inside just thinking about it and that thought wouldn’t go away. It still happens to this day but it’s not overwhelming like in the beginning.
He’s cute, you know when I used I was very much like him I always took care of myself I always worked no one ever knew.
Sad
Yes, the "functioning addict". I was there, it sucks when I think back on how much money I made and spent on my habit. I was always a hard ass worker. God I would've had a very impressive savings by now if I didn't use lol
Me too. Somewhat of a high functioning addict. He had guys jump him calling him an addict. Nothing I did would let anyone know & I had a very serious $$$ IV drug Addiction. I am 13 years clean now phew life is so phenomenal who’d of known.. life is sooo much easier finally.
Nobody knew? Come on.
@@dublinsfaircity its true. If you have a job or two and still have a roof over your head ...heroin doesnt make you look like shit .. What makes you look like shit is being so broke you cannot afford to buy food or take a shower or have a home. The reason the typical heroin addict looks like shit is that you dont see the millions of them who still have a home and a job ... Until you go homeless you dont digress.....iwas hidden for 7 years and not I e person ever knew.... my family didnt know ....they were totally shocked because I looked great
I am that guy who started at 27, now I’m 39 doing meth every two weeks , lost my soul in the way, as he said once you numb your feelings with drugs you dont know how to do it without them, I need to get back in track, 2 days clean now.
God Bless, stay strong!
Thanks bro , 9 days today, God bless you
🙏❤️
Keep going proud of you! Every day is win situation keep talking about your feelings so you dont feel going back to that way
Marie marie wow beautiful words! I’m 17 days today!
1 of the BEST interviews with Chris!! I pray for your recovery 🙏 from a fellow addict ❤️
The hardest part of addiction is the mental part but the best feeling in the world is the first few times you say No to drugs even though a part of yourself says fuck it take it, remember how good you felt, and you still had the courage to walk away from it, feels so much better than any high. For me at least. And I kept it all to myself I didnt need anyone else to know what I had just said no to, and that felt even better. A sense of humility came over me,but you must stay head strong and when the urges came over me and I would cry bc I had to feel emotions I had suppressed for so long it hurt real bad, but I held fast kept going to treatment every single day and I now have no more mental cravings....I wish and pray Chris finds the strength to finally just stop, just stop the pain for good. God bless Chris and this channel!
Does the mental cravings really ever stop? That's where I'm stuck now for the past 3 years. I get clean for a few weeks or month or so then break and get high then withdrawals then feel better then break and get high again. I feel like I'm in purgatory.
Will you please give us an update on all the people you've interviewed. Hope they all get help.
His address to write too is in the comment section above
Don’t downplay your mothers love, believe me a mother doesn’t have to love you. Throughout my life I’ve seen mothers straight up say I hate that kid. They give up on them, and turn their back on them. The mothers love is the strongest love and you are blessed to have her love , you have a good mom. You are loved.
Very handsome man it's unfortunate hopefully he'll get his life straight he could be so much more
This man is proof that no one is "typical." I truly hope he's still with us and hasn't lost hope. Thank you, Mal. I know we all hope to someday see an update on Chris.
What a beautiful man, inside and out. I pray he breaks free from this addiction for good. Bless you Chris, thank you for sharing your story.
He definitely knows what he has to do but the addiction is over powering his mind. Praying for you to kick this habit.
Chris you would be a great mentor for alot of folks, once you become clean and do it for yourself, for your son best wishes ❤️❤️
Run Chris run to the arms of your child. He needs you....you can break free others have done it. You can too! good luck to you❤️
Smart guy who is currently stuck in a bad situation. I wish him well.
Never have I heard an addict speak like this. I have always said "the ones that make it out are the ones that have something to come back to" ie: family, lifestyle, whatever. Some people look back and unfortunately there isn't any good to go back to. I hope Chris made it. He is smart and in-tune with his addiction. Quite amazing.
“ it’s like having an alter ego “ I never heard it described like that, but it’s very accurate