I met Moser around 2012 in LA. He was sitting on a wall at an intersection by the freeway in Westwood holding up a sign that said he was looking for work and that he was clean and sober. To this day I still dont know why - but I motioned him over and ending up taking him to my house to have him help string Christmas lights up on my roof. I had never before and have never since picked up anyone looking for work but there was something about his face that seemed almost babyish. Plus, this was a long time ago in LA crime years, if that makes any sense. Moser ended up becoming a friend to me and my kids and spent some afternoons and evenings hanging out at our house, sometimes doing odd jobs, sometimes just having a meal with us. He was a 21 year old kid with horribly stinky feet and an old soul. Moser played guitar and sang songs he made up and was just an all around cool and goofy guy. And very smart. When it was time for him to go I would just drive him back to his tent by the freeway. That's where he lived and refused to have it any other way. I loaned him money once and never expected to see it again but after he moved back to PA he sent me a letter with a check included for the exact amount, plus interest. Over the years he would write (never email) and send me copies of his different band's CDs asking me my opinion. He was a really good singer and an exceptional song-writer. He really could have made something of himself because he ABSOLUTELY had the talent. For many years after he went back to PA, I would sometimes drive past a Westside 7-11(he used to call certain 7-11 parking lots his "office") and I'd see some tall scrawny kid with long hair, and puppy dog eyes wearing a backwards baseball cap and I'd think "Well, it looks like Moser's back". I dont know. Maybe I could have done more, maybe I should have done less. Maybe it doesn't really matter because, in the end, people are just people. I miss him. Paula
Their comments all look so similar that it's weird. I'm not sure what's up with it and how they all found the video. If they're all real then it looks like the guy's a narcissist, charming and empty inside, that's why he needs drugs
I knew Moser for so long I know his first name. He was always on shit, but, healthy. We used to party in the “riot house” on wood street in Bethlehem. I was one of the low key people. I just ate my triple c’s and drank my alcohol. The shit that happened in that house is a doc on its own. Cris was crude, funny, silly, harmless to me, I was the cool lesbian chick. He went on to front a band, got clean for a while, and idk what happened between 2020 and now (met him in 2012ish) but omg I’m crying. I can’t even express. Seeing a friend like this after wondering what happened to him and his snarky comments on my social media. He’s holding back so much trauma. He comes off as the embodiment of hopeless addiction, but he has passions. He has a heart. And he’s hurting. If anyone sees him let him know I’m trying to reach him. The cool lesbian who met him at the riot house, Lindsey.
I grew up with this man. He was a highly intelligent, extremely talented individual. He played 4 different instruments, played football and was the kindest person you could meet. He literally gave me the shirt off his back when I was in need. He had a lot of choices and he did pursue them for a while until he got bored and went back to the drugs. Its heartbreaking seeing someone so talented choose this path for themselves. Mos, you were loved and we miss you man.
@@mishariealsaqer8951 by his use of past tense to describe Moser....makes it seem like he has passed? also as a recovering addict no one person can rescue you, you have to want it....clearly Moser is not there yet.
This man is not what you see. He was an intelligent, creative, loving soul. He is still in there....he is worthy...he is loved.....I love you....I pray God helps you find your way. I pray for you every day!!
“He is worthy”??? Are you saying that the other drug addicts here are not worthy? Odd thing to say for a someone who claims to be religious and who prays to god.
@@seabassvn they literally didnt say anything about any other person… why are u trying to twist it to make it seem like theyre saying other people arent worthy?? theyre just saying he is
@@tenn_420 “he is worthy” implies that other people aren’t. Otherwise why specify that this person, specifically, is worthy? Wouldn’t it be weird if I were to say “Bob deserves to live”? Without mentioning anybody else, it is implied that other people don’t deserve to live. I’m just calling religious morons for that they are: hypocritical pieces of shit.
This is as sad as it gets. Moser is the person that has no rock bottom. It's hard to see any hope or potential for him because he loves drugs more than living. He will go out doing what he loves.
Find what you love and let it kill you- bukowski. We are all looking for it. Just like there is no such thing as addiction, only things you enjoy doing more than life.
This is my VERY first boyfriend/ex-fiance moving to Northampton... We dated for 2.5 years, started at 15-16y.o... he was such an amazing man and so sweet and kind, very loving, until he started hanging around the wrong crowd.. I tried to beg and plead for him to stop but he didn't listen to anyone... It's such a shame and breaks my heart to see this.. I cried the entire video... I really hope you find your way sweetie and make something of yourself before it's too late... Please cris.. do the right thing, you have so many people that love you ❤️❤️❤️... I pray for you every day and will continue ❤️❤️❤️..
This breaks my heart.. he dated my older sister for a while and he was so in love with her.. she was his first love. They were engaged at a young age. During that time they were together him and I developed a brother/sister bond and always had so much fun together, til this day I still call him my big brother. I’m pretty sure we still have each other on FB marked as brother/sister lol. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out. Even though they didn’t work out he still made time to come see me and let me know he was always there for me no matter what.. and to give me my big hug!! He’s a very smart and intelligent man for sure. Anyone who knows him will tell you the same thing. One of the smartest people I know. I wish he never went to California.. but he had big dreams.. Moser, (even though I always called you by your first name) if you see this just know I love you and care about you so much. I just want to come down there and pick you up and try to help you, I know you don’t want it, but I believe you can pull through this and get better if you really wanted to. I love you and miss you so much.. please be careful out there.. Love, Selena ❤️
He is the most honest drug addict i have ever watched in many interviews. He doesnt make excuses for himself and wants his lifestyle. He makes me more sad than anyone else i have ever seen
The honesty doesn't change the fact that he is sick, and addict, a criminal and a burden on the social service system. Hitler was a vegetarian and loved animals, but it doesn't erase all the other shit.
This guy is so honest! I don't think I've ever seen such an honest interview. He just loves his drugs.... No glamorous stories, no excuses, no regrets. Wow. This was a great interview, Mark I'm glad you decided to go to Kensington to show the lives outside of skid row.
@@aliciamari85 it seemed halfway through the interview he kept his answers short so he could get out of there and get his fix. I agree with Tony there was a level of honesty about accepting that this is his life, and then he started deflecting. My heart breaks watching this video 💔
It’s hilarious that people always talk about honesty and drug addicts! Drug addicts are master manipulators and liars and he is only showing you wants he wants you to see. He is far from honest but you are gullible.
Not honest in the way you think, honest in so much as he's been completely reduced to his addiction, nothing else matters. It's tragic. He'll die soon.
@@revfunk8823 i mean ur right but hes gonna die early by living the life he is. he may not feel there is a loss now but its different when its affecting his lifespan bc of a selfdestructive lifestyle.
This is my friend. I've known this man since we were about 6. I haven't seen him or heard from him in 2 years. This is obviously so sad but I love him. Just being able to see him alive and hear his voice, see his movements and habits, the humor in him, makes me smile despite how fucked up this is. If you see this, I love you man. - KY
I was prescribed fentenyl patches for about 4 years. It was when they were just plastic full of jelly so I was cutting them open and eating the jelly. I've had a lifelong struggle with addiction starting at age 9. In 2018 my brother and I overdosed on fentenyl laced heroin and I survived but he didn't. I am now 3 years in recovery. RIP CHRIS 8/4/1972-9/9/2018
@@emfie1 thank you my friend 💖 I miss him so much. He was a talented singer/songwriter/musician until the drugs came into the picture. His band was Cruel Twist of Fate... there's however only one of his songs on TH-cam "Hearts Will Turn" and I have videos and CDs of him singing and playing guitar 🎸 it seems to comfort me. May God bless you and your loved ones ❤️
please please stay on track. you are doing well now. so sorry you lost your bro. time for you to stay well. keep your brother alive through living your life well for the both of you. he is with you, always. best of luck.. you got this
Dude is a low life who injects other people with extremely potent deadly drugs in an unsanitary environment for a living and you like him… you should go set an appointment and meet him
@ Dolores Parra. My thoughts exactly. So he says. There have to be more to him and his story than what he's saying. He could not even come up with one childhood memory. Or he's autistic. Something in the way he answers the questions make me wonder if he's got Asbergers.
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, fentanyl, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,
I can see how handsome he is…breaks my heart to see him in this state. So skinny and I see the scars on his skin. You’ll be in my prayers tonight Moser. And even tho you say you don’t want to live I hope one day that mindset will change. Take care ❤️🙏🏽
This man is the epitome, definition, embodiment, of a drug addict: a person experiencing chronic, progressive dependance to opiates. To someone like Mark who isnt an addict is so perplexed and has just a complete lack of comprehension to how or why he could have no hope. Mark and others without the burden of addiction, to them its like...there's gotta be something this person is missing. But when you love heroin or fentanyl more than literally LITERALLY anything and everything else in this life...nothing will stop that affair from continuing until they find that something they love more. And unless a divine intervention swoops in...a legit miracle.... this is death. Although tragic, incomprehensible, deeply sad... I do commend this man for speaking his truth. When he explained that he lost his voice by shooting in his neck which later he explains that's his voice or talking is his best and only thing he has to keep him going....he continues to take that from himself time and time again because the fentanyl in the moment is more important than keeping his last line of communication open and useful, a must-have in order to obtain his drugs...makes no sense. Addiction in a nutshell. No games, no excuses, his rock bottom doesn't exist. His honesty about his life is like a punch in the face. Somewhere along his journey he lost hope and all light.. he has embraced the darkness and will admit what most people on drugs are too ashamed to say but most all will feel hard inside. He loves being high. Being sober or having a clear mind is boring, unfufilling, he is at peace with what he created as a life for himself. I want to say I hope this man gets clean... but he has crossed that line where he has decided there's no life for him without fentanyl and I know that it's powerful enough to drown him without him struggling for breath. I hope he goes peacefully. And I hope the next life gives him a brighter perspective.
I'll never forget meeting him at some show in allentown, probably mayfest. It was 2010 I think. He saw a friend of mine at the mall and asked how I was, didn't have access to a cellphone. It killed me inside to see him on social media just destroying himself. We didn't get to talk much, but I always considered him near to my heart. He's so talented. Such a good soul. It's hard to see him this way.
@@froandcara Sadly he's not active on it and hasn't been since maybe two years ago about. People tag him in stuff but some of us think maybe he didn't make it. Sadly I have no news on him or know how he's doing.
I related to him a lot when he said "I *could* do everything" and I truly believe he could, smart, great communicator, resourceful, empathic. I just think he decided being an addict was going to be the only and best thing he could be in life. He seems content where he is but I sincerely hope somebody could show him that there's so much more in life to see, to give, to do than being stuck in Kensington.
If he isn’t the definition of a drug addict, I don’t know what is. This one got me. He is someone’s son; so young. Not a gray hair on his head. I wish him luck ❤
Better than nothing. Hope, Luck, Best Wishes, Prayers. It's all electrical impulses with dedication towards an energy source. No matter what your belief system even a lack of one... it's something. That, will always be better than nothing.
“Are you afraid of living?” is one of the most poignant, insightful and empathetic questions I have ever heard anyone ask a fellow human - especially since, in reality, no shortage of people out there actually are. Stellar interview as always, Mark. Thank you beyond measure for all that you do and help to bring out from the shadows and into the light of every glowing electronic screen the world over of those who are fortunate enough to be able to view your content. 🙏🏻💗
Things are bad for Moser, he's ill and there is a lack of hope about him. If he don't get clean he's gonna get his wish sooner rather than later. God help him.
Death is a blessing to those who suffer so greatly. when I hear that 100 thousand users died as a result of overdose, something inside of me smiles with the relief of knowing that they are finally free from the misery of what they were trying to escape.
I never comment on your videos but he just struck me. I’d love to see more of him. This is just tragic and I really pray he makes it out of this alive.
This interview was so real. It's sad that he has surrended he's life to drugs, he is a lost soul. I wish him well and hope he makes something out of he's life, I mean he's still young. What an authentic interview man!!
This poor guy is a sad representation for a disaffected generation of society that feel hopeless, isolated and with no future worth trying for. Breaks my heart.
@@geebee6244 Agree, He is one of just a few people here who just seems honest , not proclaiming some almost unbelievable tragic childhood story. No pathetic excuses, not crying for help. From me although I dont support his life style , Moser has all the respect.
@@geebee6244 how do ppl end up arguing in dee comments...u cnt tlk shit cus they havea bleeding heart fr....u can feel ur heart hurt over anything maybe his blatant attitude is heart crushing....maybe mysoullovessoul gotta kindred soul....mmmmm maybe doiii
I was reading between the lines. His gf of ten years left him, he's on the streets and intends to take a lethal drug with no care if he dies. He's not proclaiming happiness, he's given up.
I have a friend from high school just like this. open to the idea of dying and refuses to be sober. and not just like a couple beers and some pot refuses to not do tweak and dope everyday. nobody can make anybody do anything.
Thats not true at all. I never thought this way ever and I was a bad one. This is how every addict who wont get clean thinks. You manifest your own reality. You speak and think it into existence. Anyway I have a feeling you arent an addict. And if youve watched videos on here you know there are plenty who are dealing with extreme trauma which use to cover it up. Not because they love drugs.
OMG so so emotional to watch this. His hands are a product of fentanyl use no circulation. May he find peace in this world while he is still here. Sometimes these affects aren't reversible. My heart breaks for people. I have not lived a sheltered life and have done my share of things I regret. Thank God I have been a strong woman and have overcome the battles that I have fought. God bless you Moser.
I think it's due to the so called "tranq dope" going around. It's got xylazine and/or benzos in it and it's causing horrific wounds, even in areas where they haven't been injecting. VICE did a documentary on it if you want to know more
Welp... I never knew there was such a thing as an injection specialist in the fentanyl world. I learn so much from this channel about the human experience. Another fascinating interview Mark. well done sir 🙏
Oh yeah..I think I learned that in some of his other videos. People who can't put a needle into themselves because they have a phobia, of needles. Or blood. Or what ever you would think would keep them away from shooting up. Nope..you find one of these guys, a friend, the dealer..often times kicking those people down some of your drugs. It's crazy
Of course has every drug-communtity people who are injection-experts. After a while it is a big job getting the needle into the right part of the body. In a way nice he helps the other people.
It's actually pretty common amongst IV drug users. After a while your veins collapse and it's super hard to hit anywhere. Add in some dope sickness ontop of that and it's even more difficult. It can be a real struggle.
This breaks my heart. He's so honest, so blunt. I wish I could speak to him personally as a clean recovering addict & alcoholic. He seems like he has a glimmer of light, saying things could possibly change. I pray for Moser. I think he's so far absorbed into this lifestyle, the things he does, and the people he's surrounded with, that he can't envision a life without drugs. I pray he one day wakes up and realizes that he can change before it's too late.
This guy can be multiplied by the millions. Something is wrong with American society that this bleak hopelessness is pervasive in much of the population. This emptiness is a result of the emptiness of a culture that places all its value on THING$ and not a rich culture based on love
I agree and it runs through every demographic too. I know for me personally the hopelessness is partly that all the anger and hate around me makes me feel there’s no place to belong and has driven me further and further into isolation. Add health problems paired with inadequate healthcare, and I can easily relate to Moser’s outlook.
bleak hopelessness also exists in "rich" gated communities... where i've seen soccer moms (and their kids) addicted to prescription pills, cocaine, heroin, etc. so that 'rich' culture you speak of isn't immune to drug addiction... and those people have lots of 'things.'
Yeah, well said. As a young(-er) person myself, one thing that people underestimate are the effects of things like the pandemic. Imagine losing two years of your youth when you're supposed to be interacting with others and living your life at its physical peak. That takes a real toll. Once you lose that socialization it becomes a lot harder to pick it up again.
Moser, happiness could be right around the corner. Please don't throw it away! You are worth so much better. I don't believe that you're really comfortable with the way things are. The fight to get clean will be so worth it. I'm going to pray for you.
"Is there anything that happened in your childhood, anything you're running away from" "no, but if I am I'm doin a really good job at it". Wow. That was the single most compelling line I've heard on you channel. He is so mentally sharp. Even a wordsmith in there I think. He really could do anything. I like to think he's more of a "specialist", putting every ounce of life into the actual lifestyle. Like maxing only one stat in a video game. This fellow is a user and an abuser. The most telling for me is the lack of info on the string of ex girlfriends. Con artist. Not a bad person to sleep next to next to his tent near skit row either, in my opinion
Give this guy a hug💯 Another amazing interview Mark. I have been addicted to heroin on and off for 20 years. It never got this bad. I am sending this guy positive energy, he deserves it. We all deserve it. I wish we understood that humans are 1 tribe and we need to learn to love, respect and appreciate one another. I also believe we are only as strong as our weakest member. ☮️❤️💪
Moser’s exceptionally intelligent. When he says that he has the capacity to excel at anything he wants, he’s simply telling the truth, unreservedly. I don’t think the same can be said for him saying/suggesting that there is no ultimate catalyst for his drug use, however. He’s probably manic depressive/bipolar/clinically depressed.
No bullshit, just real. Has me in tears. Moser, if you go out, I hope you go out knowing you've touched my heart, you are loved, and in a way you've given me hope. God bless you bro fr. 🙏 "No one's going to understand you." "That's alright." ❤️
Awesome interview, Mark! The comments here tell more about the commenters than about Moser. In the USA, people have it drilled into their brains from childhood that they have to be somebody. If they are not somebody, they are nobody. And there is nothing worse than that. In Buddhist temples, people work hard to discover that they aren't anyone, that trying to be someone is the core of human suffering. Sense of self is suffering. Moser seems to have figured this out already. He's surrendered to the true indifference of the universe...but his heart seems warm, his words ring true. TH-cam watchers look desperately to find some weakness in his story to validate their own story. For me.....Moser doesn't strike me as a liar. That's probably his main appeal...his honesty, his sincerity....a lot of women probably fell for him over the years....that honest charm. He's probably had some very good moments in his short life. That's why he's low on regrets.....and more or less ready to die. We all have to die eventually....unless you are waiting on Jesus and company. Well.....I would say....try not to judge people that you can't understand. We really understand much less than we think we do. We posture ourselves to think we know everything. We know very little. Thanks, Moser! Thanks, Mark! Great video!
I think that people living this life are the lowest depth of misery ...they don't contribute to humanity in any way...they are a drain. There is nothing wrong with judging people who have been given the gift of life and squandered it. Disgusting display of a life wasted.
There is nothing brave about this. Let's stop glorifying this type of lifestyle. I understand it's his life and his choices but people need to stop being selfish. This life is not only about making yourself feel pleasure while putting those who love you through pain. Bravery is about facing the pain everyday and overcoming it by doing something great with your life and not escaping with drugs.
@@Jonhistorymodel brother, I'm not trying to be rude or anything like that. I am a 15 year heroin addict myself, so believe me I understand this guy. However, I came to learn that addiction was just escapism and there's nothing brave about it. Bravery is a when you face your fears and whatever life throws at you. Thats all I'm saying. Call him cool, smart, whatever but brave is not one of them.
Delusional grandeur ? That's far from the truth in this guys case . I don't think he's living the time of his life and truly believes that .hes just accepting things the way they are of anything that's the furthest thing of delusions of grandeur
I feel sorry for his family because they are the ones that are sober and have to witness the complete destruction of their child with no way to stop it…coming from someone who has lost a child to fentanyl
@@scottmatznick3140 glad to hear you are clean. Always remember everyone has people who love them. Losing you can totally ruin your families life. The pain is deep and never goes away. Good luck
I feel more sorry for him. usually addiction stems from child hood trauma... maybe his parents had something to do with that? it's sad for everyone though (who cares about him)
I was so shocked this guy is from my neck of the woods… He’s about the same age as my oldest niece, about 9 years older than my oldest… My mom heart was breaking the whole time I watched this. Here’s this young, nice looking, obviously intelligent young man and he’s literally throwing away the precious gift he was given for drugs. Worse, he doesn’t even care… Then I was reading the comments, a lot from other locals who knew and love him, one from a random person who happened to pick him up out in California and had him over at Christmas… I wish he could see how his sweet, gentle ways, his silliness, his kindness, have touched so many people. Maybe he’d see that his work here ISN’T done, that he hasn’t done all that he wanted to do, that he could do so much more. What he offers people, the way he touches lives, that’s what people rarely see today and what people need most. He’s a special breed, like an angel here on earth (and I don’t say that lightly, I’m an atheist). I hope he has decided or will decide to get clean one day. I hope it’s not too late. He’s the kind of person this world needs and I’d like to see him stick around. If you’re still out there and read this, Moser, know that there are a lot of people who love you and want to see you clean and sober. You still have so much to offer this world ❤ - a local mom ❤
If anyone ever wanted to see the later stages of how addiction can progress they need to watch this. This is what happens when it takes your soul and you cross that thin line of not caring... subconsciously you want the next shot to be your last so you don't have to endure another day of hopeless darkness. There is still hope but it is extremely difficult for anything positive to happen when you are at his point. Good luck and I hope you come out the other side!
Many of us were concerned with where he's ended up. Now we know. He was/is a musician, a great one.. at his best he is the easiest person to follow and admire. I have some videos of his performances.. pictures and all. I'm glad he's 'thriving' in his position, but it's heartbreaking to see the detriment he's sustained to himself. Anyone can message me for some media of what his best sounded like, since I can't seem to post a video in the comments.
he has a handsomeness about him. Really beautiful eyes. I hope he continues to do whatever he wants to do, but I also hope he becomes healthier and finds peace without addiction.
Okay people, there you have it, straight from the horses mouth! This is one of THE saddest interviews of a person I’ve ever watched on Mark’s channel, and I’ve watched hundreds of them! His eyes are deeply cold, dark and hurt, yet oddly “happy,” in a way…just a collectively difficult way to try and describe him, but that’s what I see & feel from this man. As the famous Etta James sang, “All I could do is cry…” 😢😭
If Moser had been turned on to a hobby, skill, or subject at a young age, such as sports, music, art, science, anything, I think he would have been successful. He stated that he is good at everything when he puts his mind to it. I believe him. I hope he is able to release himself from this destructive passion and finds a reason to live.
@Jaybird exactly Jaybird. Take it all with a grain of salt. I look for actions and behaviors to see how people are really living. That’s where the truth lies.
I agree, i was raised with not alot.of attention and no push for me to do any activities and even if i wanted to do something extracurricular i never ended up getting slips signed money for fees etc. Just "get good grades". I WAS good at everything i tried, but better at doing drugs and staying out of people's hair. I ended up a heroin and whatever drug addict and alcoholic. I ended up getting out of that life, but only out by my own choice. It's hard, but it's all about personal drive for him at this point
@@baublesanddolls but if he fully decided to be good at being sober he would likely do great at it as well. He is probably great at many things you dont have to do or deal with in a day.
Man I can really identify with that feeling of “I’m just done.” I wonder why two people can feel the exact same way but one does what he does and one just muddles through life anyway without drugs. I will say, my feeling of being “done” or just not caring stems from major depression and PTSD. Maybe that’s his struggle too but he’d rather not deal with it.
Ive been there before. When you have lost everything you have built and worked so hard for its devastating. You want to give up and sometimes for awhile you do. At the same time you eventually build another life, one you may not be totally happy with but the fear of loosing everything and starting all over once again keeps you there.
Or it stems from seeing the path in front of you and it looking boring and repetitive..actually I guess that is very depressing, but don't a lot of folks live the same day over and over?
@@bicstic8 that could be as well but the guy didnt give alot of context but from what he did say and frommy own experiences of going through something similar, when his wife left after 10 years he didnt want to start over. From personal experience I can tell you I felt the same way. I had worked hard for years had a child, a home , a family, one day, and the next it all was just gone. My ex took everything. Even my car was in her name. She took it as well. Alot of it was being you and not knowing any better, but for a long time I felt hopeless. I didnt know what to do or where to begin. I didnt want to. Why work so hard when it all van be taken away in the span of 24hrs. Not to mention the betrayal I felt from the one person I implicitly trusted. I didnt have a clue. One day I had it all the next day I had nothing.
Respect to Moser he is owning it and must be skilled in his own 'field' to maintain. No excuses or BS just straight truth. Good luck brother ✌️ Mark- these interviews are cutting edge social anthropology of our time!🖤
As a former heroine addict from the age of 15 until I got clean almost 4 years ago it is very hard to watch this one. He is so negative in a self destructive way. I used to think like that, even did 4 years in prison and I finally woke the hell up and realized there's nothing to that life. Now I'm married to a wonderful woman and have two amazing kids! I wish he will wake up before he dies. It's not too late until it's too late.
I pray this man gets a better and well ! His honesty is refreshing he is not asking for help or crying for attention ! He knows his problem and isn’t blaming anybody but his self .. he loves drugs he said that about 5 times during this short interview ! Hope he finds a Light
I hope he's okay. This interview has stuck with me since it came out and he reminds me of so many people who I've loved & lost. I wish I could do something to help even though he doesn't want it. Please be safe Cris we love you❤️
This is so scary . His voice from shooting up in the dark . The girl with the flesh opened in her arm . Nothing scares them obviously. The pain they go through from sores and living in filth just doesn’t make them want to stop. Unbelievable and nauseating at the same time.
@@jasmines.6325 is it? Because it dont seem like they are reducing harm. The best solution is methadone first and legal heroin second. Fent is so much worse than real heroin. The gov't needs to start giving these people real heroin again.
Smart, well-spoken, honest, and probably a good looking guy at some point. It's obviously sad, but in a way refreshing to see a person so absolutely honest about their relationship with drugs. This guy isn't lying to himself. He knows the situation he's in and just accepts it. He also clearly got high during the interview around the 10:30 mark. His demeanor and eyes change quite dramatically at this point. Good luck brother.
What a legend, no past he's running from, no future he's working towards. Just drugs and the now. I'd feel bad for him if he didn't say he chose that life for himself. 0 blame, just him and his choices. Legendary
@@silverapples75 Might not be about nihilism. It may be just be about accepting what the world throws at you, and being humble enough to say thanks for 30 years of fond memories. Some people live 90 years of total misery - is that better because they prolonged death? This futile attempt to escape death that we all irrationally desire? Soon there will be no Ras either. For all you know, you get hit by a car tomorrow and Moser outlives you. I lost 2 mates who were in their teens that way. The man did what he wanted, and this is where it got him. That would suggest that to get somewhere else, he would have had to do something that he did not want to do. This man is in many ways more human than any "successful" person I've ever met.
@@MicroCatalyst Strongly disagree. What metric of 'success' are you using here!? A complete negation of existence. The guy has just given up. He knows he has no chance against his compulsions and has accepted non-existence. There may well be no me tomorrow, but I'll strive to fulfill whatever potential I have before my brief flickering of illumination is swallowed by the void. This isn't a heroic stoicism - the man has no self control and is overcome by negative emotions. This guy is pure negative, there is no heroism in this nihilism.
I think when they say drug addiction can steal yr soul...this is what they mean. ....very sad. Respect to Moser for sharing w us and to Mark for making it possible. It definitely helps illuminate the struggle.
i met a girl in Salem, NJ who's attitude about drugs was JUST like this guy's attitude. she was a "proud, happy, and faithful," drug addict. she didn't want your pity, sympathy, empathy, or (free) money... just wanted to clean your house, wash your car, shine your shoes, walk your dog... whatever it took to get some money to go to the park and do heroin. the scary thing about watching this video is that if you saw a picture of her, you'd think she is Moser's younger sister; they look very similar. i'm NOT a psychologist, but for some reason, i think Moser's 'drive' to stay high might be based on losing (romantic) love interests. some guys, when they lose their woman... etc., resort to self-destructive activities. he did say he had girls that took care of him (motherly love) but that they left.
Yep - When I myself was at my worst, my parents told me that they didn't hate Me, they "Hated the situation"... ...I understand very well what "being the situation" means... 😶
His entire life since leaving school has been drug addiction, his life's work, his legacy, as Mark states. He went to L.A. to do drugs and moved to Kensington to do drugs. I think he already knows the jig is up, a death wish of sorts. "I'm great at everything l do" is code for "l don't have the will to do anything else except shoot fentanyl into my collapsing veins". And yet, quick-minded and articulate. But every statement of positivity ends on negativity, "l'll either do something great....or I won't". My guess is sadly, he won't.
". . . .Be nice to people . . . Not to hate anyone, or anything . . .To love everybody . . . ." We're all here for only a very short time . . . some shorter . . .others less short. I don't feel/sense or hear a mean bone in this young man's body. How many of us at the end of a tether, or bad break, can . . .or have ever spoken such words with clarity, simplicity and heartfelt conviction? Not many I'll wager. God does make Angels to walk the earth among us with broken wings, tattered clothes and broken hearts. When God asks Moser about his life those words will ring the heavens as silver, gold and sunlight. God Bless You Son🙏❤️🥰
I am really struggling with this guy and the reality he lives in. He seems such a nice guy, so reasonable, balanced and self aware. But he chooses to do drugs and live a life like that. Most of the drug addicts I have known hate their lives which is why they do drugs to escape, Moser loves his life because he does drugs. So challenging and difficult. Amazing interview that has changed my perceptions.
He denying the fact his mother left him when he was twelve and it affected him emotionally. Twelve is a crucial age for a child. He goes through women, falls in love all the time. Repeats the abandonment peptide and puts a needle in his arm. Feels good.
yep, 12/13 is a pivotal time in a person's life. Many tribes and religions unrelated to each other have some rite of passage or transition event at this exact stage in the human's development. We really do no understand the human soul and its vulnerability at this exact time OR we choose not to understand it because it's inconvenient.
I respect that he admits there was no wrong doing in his life he chose this and sadly will keep going till his end. He seems a genuine guy who has well and truly given up on this side of life and cannot see him ever changing his mind sadly 😥
Speaking from my living hell, living with Lyme disease I know that most people who are constantly suffering (physically/ emotionally) do not really want to die but just want to escape and end pain. Being incapacitated myself I considered trying illegal drugs, but only to feel better. I can see very easily how the pain and suffering of every day life can lead to dangerous drugs and from then on a vicious cycle.
I look at this man and I just want to cry. He's young, with a beautiful face yet he's so unhealthy and thin. Soon he'll be dead and it doesn't even matter to him. I am the mother of two grown sons. If I saw either of them in this condition, I would be inconsolable. These drugs steal their souls. It's absolutely heartbreaking.
@natrural flavor Biden’s got nothing to do with it. It was the same under Trump too. America has always had a huge appetite for drugs. BTW Biden didn’t really change any of Trump’s border and immigration policies and Biden even added article 42. So Biden has now deported more people than Trump did. Just like it’s impossible to stop an addict from getting high, it’s impossible to stop drugs getting to them.
@natural flavor making this political is total BS. The war on drugs was lost long ago. Synthetics and tranqs are being mixed because Fent is illegal in China now. Biden doesn't "let" more in. I'm not a Biden fan, your take is just ridiculous though.
Moser; You said you are done. What do you have to lose if you try to be another person, live another life away from the BS? You are a tough individual , you got one kick in you left! You got this...if you are good at everything, be good at living! You are 30...you have so much life left and there is so much more out there then LA and Kensington. God Bless you. ( by the way I am 4 years clean off of opiates..also was homeless, IV drug user)
this dude is clearly super intelligent. unfortunately he seems to be too far gone but if he were to go back ten years it would be truly incredible to see what he could accomplish.
I really hope you change your mind Moser. Ten years from now you can be married with a couple kids living a real life. Think real hard about it man, you're one of the good guys, the world needs more dudes like you Moser. Clean of course. Peace bro. Take it easy.
I met Moser around 2012 in LA. He was sitting on a wall at an intersection by the freeway in Westwood holding up a sign that said he was looking for work and that he was clean and sober. To this day I still dont know why - but I motioned him over and ending up taking him to my house to have him help string Christmas lights up on my roof. I had never before and have never since picked up anyone looking for work but there was something about his face that seemed almost babyish. Plus, this was a long time ago in LA crime years, if that makes any sense. Moser ended up becoming a friend to me and my kids and spent some afternoons and evenings hanging out at our house, sometimes doing odd jobs, sometimes just having a meal with us. He was a 21 year old kid with horribly stinky feet and an old soul.
Moser played guitar and sang songs he made up and was just an all around cool and goofy guy. And very smart. When it was time for him to go I would just drive him back to his tent by the freeway. That's where he lived and refused to have it any other way. I loaned him money once and never expected to see it again but after he moved back to PA he sent me a letter with a check included for the exact amount, plus interest. Over the years he would write (never email) and send me copies of his different band's CDs asking me my opinion. He was a really good singer and an exceptional song-writer. He really could have made something of himself because he ABSOLUTELY had the talent.
For many years after he went back to PA, I would sometimes drive past a Westside 7-11(he used to call certain 7-11 parking lots his "office") and I'd see some tall scrawny kid with long hair, and puppy dog eyes wearing a backwards baseball cap and I'd think "Well, it looks like Moser's back".
I dont know. Maybe I could have done more, maybe I should have done less. Maybe it doesn't really matter because, in the end, people are just people. I miss him.
Paula
😢wow!!... God bless you
This was so moving. Thank you for sharing. 🥺
Thank you for sharing that with all of us!god bless❤
Wow.... I bet it a pretty good soul urself.
What an amazing story. It's funny how people we may never see again, stick with us
Is this him?
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Can you please do a follow up with Moser? He is by far my favorite interview, for how honest he is and I would love to see what he’s up to now.
I agree a completely honest man id like to know how he is also.
I think he passed
The way there are people who know him in the comments all saying the same sweet things…this is so heartbreaking.
Their comments all look so similar that it's weird. I'm not sure what's up with it and how they all found the video. If they're all real then it looks like the guy's a narcissist, charming and empty inside, that's why he needs drugs
I knew Moser for so long I know his first name.
He was always on shit, but, healthy.
We used to party in the “riot house” on wood street in Bethlehem.
I was one of the low key people. I just ate my triple c’s and drank my alcohol. The shit that happened in that house is a doc on its own.
Cris was crude, funny, silly, harmless to me, I was the cool lesbian chick. He went on to front a band, got clean for a while, and idk what happened between 2020 and now (met him in 2012ish) but omg I’m crying.
I can’t even express. Seeing a friend like this after wondering what happened to him and his snarky comments on my social media. He’s holding back so much trauma. He comes off as the embodiment of hopeless addiction, but he has passions. He has a heart. And he’s hurting.
If anyone sees him let him know I’m trying to reach him.
The cool lesbian who met him at the riot house, Lindsey.
Hope you find your friend. His interview really touched me ❤
The denial & avoidance is strong within this one
@sthlmnoir yeah, sad that he's in so much denial about his childhood.. but drugs will numb you from that realization.
TRIPLE C. Now that is something I have not heard in a long time. Old robo head checking in
I think you probably werent nearly as cool as you thought you were.
I grew up with this man. He was a highly intelligent, extremely talented individual. He played 4 different instruments, played football and was the kindest person you could meet. He literally gave me the shirt off his back when I was in need. He had a lot of choices and he did pursue them for a while until he got bored and went back to the drugs. Its heartbreaking seeing someone so talented choose this path for themselves. Mos, you were loved and we miss you man.
Well said my friend.....
I guess you should try to help em if you miss em
@@mishariealsaqer8951 by his use of past tense to describe Moser....makes it seem like he has passed? also as a recovering addict no one person can rescue you, you have to want it....clearly Moser is not there yet.
@@mishariealsaqer8951 How? You can’t. The only person that can help them is themselves
So sad!
This man is not what you see. He was an intelligent, creative, loving soul. He is still in there....he is worthy...he is loved.....I love you....I pray God helps you find your way. I pray for you every day!!
Amen
“He is worthy”??? Are you saying that the other drug addicts here are not worthy? Odd thing to say for a someone who claims to be religious and who prays to god.
@@seabassvn they literally didnt say anything about any other person… why are u trying to twist it to make it seem like theyre saying other people arent worthy?? theyre just saying he is
@@tenn_420 “he is worthy” implies that other people aren’t. Otherwise why specify that this person, specifically, is worthy? Wouldn’t it be weird if I were to say “Bob deserves to live”? Without mentioning anybody else, it is implied that other people don’t deserve to live. I’m just calling religious morons for that they are: hypocritical pieces of shit.
This is as sad as it gets. Moser is the person that has no rock bottom. It's hard to see any hope or potential for him because he loves drugs more than living. He will go out doing what he loves.
true. I know that feeling to think that staying sober seems unimaginable because you can't really stand clear life.
I was thinking the same thing, he has no shame or remorse, sad way to live life when there are other wanting and fighting to live
Find something you love and let it kill you
Exactly- no rock bottom. He already seems terminally ill to me...
Find what you love and let it kill you- bukowski. We are all looking for it. Just like there is no such thing as addiction, only things you enjoy doing more than life.
This is my VERY first boyfriend/ex-fiance moving to Northampton... We dated for 2.5 years, started at 15-16y.o... he was such an amazing man and so sweet and kind, very loving, until he started hanging around the wrong crowd.. I tried to beg and plead for him to stop but he didn't listen to anyone... It's such a shame and breaks my heart to see this.. I cried the entire video... I really hope you find your way sweetie and make something of yourself before it's too late... Please cris.. do the right thing, you have so many people that love you ❤️❤️❤️... I pray for you every day and will continue ❤️❤️❤️..
It must be so upsetting for you to see him like this. He seems like a nice guy.
@georgemaxwell4984 yes, you are right.
Hope life plays out better for Him.
@@kaylamicklos3699 He seems so intelligent his words are well spoken.
Cris you could be a pholbomist (sp) person who draws labs. I hope something better happens for you.
This breaks my heart.. he dated my older sister for a while and he was so in love with her.. she was his first love. They were engaged at a young age. During that time they were together him and I developed a brother/sister bond and always had so much fun together, til this day I still call him my big brother. I’m pretty sure we still have each other on FB marked as brother/sister lol. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out. Even though they didn’t work out he still made time to come see me and let me know he was always there for me no matter what.. and to give me my big hug!!
He’s a very smart and intelligent man for sure. Anyone who knows him will tell you the same thing. One of the smartest people I know.
I wish he never went to California.. but he had big dreams..
Moser, (even though I always called you by your first name) if you see this just know I love you and care about you so much. I just want to come down there and pick you up and try to help you, I know you don’t want it, but I believe you can pull through this and get better if you really wanted to. I love you and miss you so much.. please be careful out there..
Love, Selena ❤️
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He is the most honest drug addict i have ever watched in many interviews. He doesnt make excuses for himself and wants his lifestyle. He makes me more sad than anyone else i have ever seen
The honesty doesn't change the fact that he is sick, and addict, a criminal and a burden on the social service system. Hitler was a vegetarian and loved animals, but it doesn't erase all the other shit.
Nah. These videos are full of honesty. Obviously not all are.
It’s this feeling that you don’t necessarily want to die, but you definitely don’t want to live.
100% true. What a statement.
You just want a damn break.
Just for a minute.
So you can take a deep breath.
Yes, I've been there before.
Yes 🥺
Thats the feeling of having no purpose. Life isn't supposed to be a selfish endeavor.
This guy is so honest! I don't think I've ever seen such an honest interview. He just loves his drugs.... No glamorous stories, no excuses, no regrets. Wow. This was a great interview, Mark I'm glad you decided to go to Kensington to show the lives outside of skid row.
Watch all of Patrick's interviews. Talk about honesty.
This poor fella avoided answering anything in depth, but I can see how you'd think he's just honest.
@@aliciamari85 it seemed halfway through the interview he kept his answers short so he could get out of there and get his fix. I agree with Tony there was a level of honesty about accepting that this is his life, and then he started deflecting. My heart breaks watching this video 💔
It’s hilarious that people always talk about honesty and drug addicts! Drug addicts are master manipulators and liars and he is only showing you wants he wants you to see. He is far from honest but you are gullible.
Not honest in the way you think, honest in so much as he's been completely reduced to his addiction, nothing else matters. It's tragic. He'll die soon.
He’s surrendered totally to his addiction. Seems intelligent, well spoken. Sad. Such a loss.
Who's loss? He's perfectly happy.
@@revfunk8823 the loss of his potential.
@@quinnplaysguitar again. He's more than fine. Other people may feel sorry about a "loss,"....that's on THEM
@@revfunk8823 i mean ur right but hes gonna die early by living the life he is. he may not feel there is a loss now but its different when its affecting his lifespan bc of a selfdestructive lifestyle.
@@quinnplaysguitar again. That's YOUR opinion. Has no effect on his life. He chose this, clearly.
This is my friend. I've known this man since we were about 6. I haven't seen him or heard from him in 2 years. This is obviously so sad but I love him. Just being able to see him alive and hear his voice, see his movements and habits, the humor in him, makes me smile despite how fucked up this is. If you see this, I love you man. - KY
I can't believe what I'm seeing and where he is right now
@@danielsylvester3725 Yeah it's pretty heart breaking, and there's not much we can do.
@pouncer999 I hear you. An old friend of mine as well. Have any contact for Mos?
I was prescribed fentenyl patches for about 4 years. It was when they were just plastic full of jelly so I was cutting them open and eating the jelly. I've had a lifelong struggle with addiction starting at age 9. In 2018 my brother and I overdosed on fentenyl laced heroin and I survived but he didn't. I am now 3 years in recovery. RIP CHRIS 8/4/1972-9/9/2018
Rest in Peace Chris. I'm glad you are clean and I wish the best for you.
@@emfie1 thank you my friend 💖 I miss him so much. He was a talented singer/songwriter/musician until the drugs came into the picture. His band was Cruel Twist of Fate... there's however only one of his songs on TH-cam "Hearts Will Turn" and I have videos and CDs of him singing and playing guitar 🎸 it seems to comfort me. May God bless you and your loved ones ❤️
I wish you all the best ❤️
please please stay on track. you are doing well now. so sorry you lost your bro. time for you to stay well. keep your brother alive through living your life well for the both of you. he is with you, always. best of luck.. you got this
@@julz9378 thank you my friend
I like this guy. Something tells me he won’t live much longer. At least he loved a great life by his own standards.
Thats the best way we can look at it, I guess..it's sad really
So he says
Shit standard.
Dude is a low life who injects other people with extremely potent deadly drugs in an unsanitary environment for a living and you like him… you should go set an appointment and meet him
@ Dolores Parra.
My thoughts exactly.
So he says.
There have to be more to him and his story than what he's saying.
He could not even come up with one childhood memory.
Or he's autistic.
Something in the way he answers the questions make me wonder if he's got Asbergers.
Why did your mom leave?
“I dunno, That’s her business”
As a mom that breaks my heart
That one broke me
Yes, and about as defensive a response as one can give.
In my opinion, the actions and inactions of a mother towards her child will stay with a child and shape that child for their entire life.
This guy reminds me of myself in all of the ways I hate. His paperwork may say fentanyl, but this man is dying of a broken heart.
Such a cool comment.
@@sallyann985 ?
@@LuchadorMasque you can't take compliments?
It’s a profound comment. Not exactly “cool”
@@littlems.tries-to-fix-it6270 I think profound is taking it too far, but it was touching the way she worded it.
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, fentanyl, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,
I can see how handsome he is…breaks my heart to see him in this state. So skinny and I see the scars on his skin. You’ll be in my prayers tonight Moser. And even tho you say you don’t want to live I hope one day that mindset will change. Take care ❤️🙏🏽
Quite handsome
@@Taradise34agreed
This man is the epitome, definition, embodiment, of a drug addict: a person experiencing chronic, progressive dependance to opiates. To someone like Mark who isnt an addict is so perplexed and has just a complete lack of comprehension to how or why he could have no hope. Mark and others without the burden of addiction, to them its like...there's gotta be something this person is missing. But when you love heroin or fentanyl more than literally LITERALLY anything and everything else in this life...nothing will stop that affair from continuing until they find that something they love more. And unless a divine intervention swoops in...a legit miracle.... this is death. Although tragic, incomprehensible, deeply sad... I do commend this man for speaking his truth.
When he explained that he lost his voice by shooting in his neck which later he explains that's his voice or talking is his best and only thing he has to keep him going....he continues to take that from himself time and time again because the fentanyl in the moment is more important than keeping his last line of communication open and useful, a must-have in order to obtain his drugs...makes no sense.
Addiction in a nutshell.
No games, no excuses, his rock bottom doesn't exist. His honesty about his life is like a punch in the face. Somewhere along his journey he lost hope and all light.. he has embraced the darkness and will admit what most people on drugs are too ashamed to say but most all will feel hard inside. He loves being high. Being sober or having a clear mind is boring, unfufilling, he is at peace with what he created as a life for himself. I want to say I hope this man gets clean... but he has crossed that line where he has decided there's no life for him without fentanyl and I know that it's powerful enough to drown him without him struggling for breath. I hope he goes peacefully. And I hope the next life gives him a brighter perspective.
No one ready comments this long fyi
EXACTLY
He has accepted his fate. He knows all of the logic but as you said, addiction is a disease that defies all logic.
@@internetcomment4440 I do
My family knows that “I am this situation”. -Moser
This guy is like an angel with broken wings. He has also completely surrendered, but I think there is still this atom, glimpse of hope inside of him.
He really is
Wow...good comment.
Chill out dude he is no angel
He’s gonna be face down and dead from an overdose in a month, he isn’t an angel and there isn’t any hope
This musthaphfruqr ain't no angel, more like drug addicted, opportunist... with his dirty hands!
Sometimes when people say they are dealing with depression, it seems like the depression is dealing with them.
Yes!
ON POINT 👍
This breaks my heart a little. He seems like a good dude. Just sucks he doesn't care about himself. Godspeed Moser
I'll never forget meeting him at some show in allentown, probably mayfest. It was 2010 I think. He saw a friend of mine at the mall and asked how I was, didn't have access to a cellphone. It killed me inside to see him on social media just destroying himself. We didn't get to talk much, but I always considered him near to my heart. He's so talented. Such a good soul. It's hard to see him this way.
Can you share his social?
@@froandcara Sadly he's not active on it and hasn't been since maybe two years ago about. People tag him in stuff but some of us think maybe he didn't make it. Sadly I have no news on him or know how he's doing.
I can’t believe he’s only 30. He’s not long for this world. Sounds like he knows that too.
At least he’s not playing the victim 🫵🫵🫵👏👏👏🌈💙💛🧡❤️💯🥳😇🏳️🌈🤩
Not His First Rodeo 💉💉💉💯🌈🏳️🌈🌈🏳️🌈🌈👌👌👌Excellent Interview 🥳🤩😇
@@whodat1884 it isn't lol
Hopefully he gets back on his feet
His time is near and that’s a blessing.
I related to him a lot when he said "I *could* do everything" and I truly believe he could, smart, great communicator, resourceful, empathic. I just think he decided being an addict was going to be the only and best thing he could be in life. He seems content where he is but I sincerely hope somebody could show him that there's so much more in life to see, to give, to do than being stuck in Kensington.
the world is corrupt and hes being free, preparing for inevitable death. i envy him
Empathetic? He doesn't care about himself and never made any statements re concern for others.
If he isn’t the definition of a drug addict, I don’t know what is. This one got me. He is someone’s son; so young. Not a gray hair on his head. I wish him luck ❤
I'm afraid that won't help him much though 😌
I agree
Better than nothing. Hope, Luck, Best Wishes, Prayers. It's all electrical impulses with dedication towards an energy source. No matter what your belief system even a lack of one... it's something. That, will always be better than nothing.
There's no such thing as luck
@@snafu4405 Well said
“Are you afraid of living?” is one of the most poignant, insightful and empathetic questions I have ever heard anyone ask a fellow human - especially since, in reality, no shortage of people out there actually are.
Stellar interview as always, Mark. Thank you beyond measure for all that you do and help to bring out from the shadows and into the light of every glowing electronic screen the world over of those who are fortunate enough to be able to view your content. 🙏🏻💗
How many people aren’t afraid of living?? In one way or another.
It kills me to see such a kind and likeable guy go through that...
This guy has no delusions and is super intelligent. It’s hard to watch, but seems he’s made his choices about life.
'Super intelligent'
Yeah.
@@mustertherohirrim7315 hahaha yea, like ppl always trow that ''super intg'' stigma over junkies
@ Hatsu Hioki
Are you saying no junkies are intelligent?
@@leneo1731 for sure not fentanyl/heroin addicts
Intelligence does not mean he can’t make poor choices. He has signs of intelligence.
Things are bad for Moser, he's ill and there is a lack of hope about him. If he don't get clean he's gonna get his wish sooner rather than later. God help him.
Amen
Death is a blessing to those who suffer so greatly. when I hear that 100 thousand users died as a result of overdose, something inside of me smiles with the relief of knowing that they are finally free from the misery of what they were trying to escape.
Thanks for that captain obvious
@@s_photo1385 such profound insights.
@prairiedarkness yes there is.
I never comment on your videos but he just struck me. I’d love to see more of him. This is just tragic and I really pray he makes it out of this alive.
This interview was so real. It's sad that he has surrended he's life to drugs, he is a lost soul. I wish him well and hope he makes something out of he's life, I mean he's still young. What an authentic interview man!!
I absolutely love this guy! "Do you need therapy?", hell no! This guy IS a therapist. What a pure soul.
This poor guy is a sad representation for a disaffected generation of society that feel hopeless, isolated and with no future worth trying for. Breaks my heart.
'Poor- sad -hopeless' these are YOUR thoughts and interpretations. Moser wasn't making excuses, spoke honestly, intelligently and claimed happiness.
@@geebee6244 Agree, He is one of just a few people here who just seems honest , not proclaiming some almost unbelievable tragic childhood story. No pathetic excuses, not crying for help. From me although I dont support his life style , Moser has all the respect.
@@geebee6244 how do ppl end up arguing in dee comments...u cnt tlk shit cus they havea bleeding heart fr....u can feel ur heart hurt over anything maybe his blatant attitude is heart crushing....maybe mysoullovessoul gotta kindred soul....mmmmm maybe doiii
I was reading between the lines. His gf of ten years left him, he's on the streets and intends to take a lethal drug with no care if he dies. He's not proclaiming happiness, he's given up.
Observation Vs judgement?
I can honestly say, this is the first of the addiction interviews where I couldn't stop my tears!!! My heart really cried for him!
I have a friend from high school just like this. open to the idea of dying and refuses to be sober. and not just like a couple beers and some pot refuses to not do tweak and dope everyday. nobody can make anybody do anything.
This is exactly how every addict thinks we just don't ever say it like this.
Facts 💯
@@CatalinaFOIAdefinitely 100
Thats not true at all. I never thought this way ever and I was a bad one. This is how every addict who wont get clean thinks. You manifest your own reality. You speak and think it into existence. Anyway I have a feeling you arent an addict. And if youve watched videos on here you know there are plenty who are dealing with extreme trauma which use to cover it up. Not because they love drugs.
@@CatalinaFOIAsaid by people who arent addicts
@@Living42exactly 100 wrong. Plenty of addicts im sure think like this. Plenty dont.
I see this is from 2 years ago. Is there an update on this guy?
Came here to ask this!
Me too!
would like to see an update also
^
Can almost guarantee if he isn’t clean he’s in the ground. Sad
OMG so so emotional to watch this. His hands are a product of fentanyl use no circulation. May he find peace in this world while he is still here. Sometimes these affects aren't reversible. My heart breaks for people. I have not lived a sheltered life and have done my share of things I regret. Thank God I have been a strong woman and have overcome the battles that I have fought. God bless you Moser.
I've never seen a heroin/fentanyl addict with hands like that.
@@sugarsore I have seen many...
I was wondering what the discoloration on his hands was all about. This is very sad.
I think it's due to the so called "tranq dope" going around. It's got xylazine and/or benzos in it and it's causing horrific wounds, even in areas where they haven't been injecting. VICE did a documentary on it if you want to know more
I think theyre just dirty. Otherwise would be swollen too at least in my experience
Welp... I never knew there was such a thing as an injection specialist in the fentanyl world. I learn so much from this channel about the human experience. Another fascinating interview Mark. well done sir 🙏
Well written
Oh yeah..I think I learned that in some of his other videos. People who can't put a needle into themselves because they have a phobia, of needles. Or blood. Or what ever you would think would keep them away from shooting up. Nope..you find one of these guys, a friend, the dealer..often times kicking those people down some of your drugs. It's crazy
Of course has every drug-communtity people who are injection-experts. After a while it is a big job getting the needle into the right part of the body. In a way nice he helps the other people.
It's actually pretty common amongst IV drug users. After a while your veins collapse and it's super hard to hit anywhere. Add in some dope sickness ontop of that and it's even more difficult. It can be a real struggle.
get paid with a shot
This was just too sad to watch all the way through, seems to be the slowest suicide ever.
Being a recovering addict myself, my heart goes out to these people.
This breaks my heart. He's so honest, so blunt. I wish I could speak to him personally as a clean recovering addict & alcoholic. He seems like he has a glimmer of light, saying things could possibly change. I pray for Moser. I think he's so far absorbed into this lifestyle, the things he does, and the people he's surrounded with, that he can't envision a life without drugs. I pray he one day wakes up and realizes that he can change before it's too late.
This guy can be multiplied by the millions. Something is wrong with American society that this bleak hopelessness is pervasive in much of the population. This emptiness is a result of the emptiness of a culture that places all its value on THING$ and not a rich culture based on love
I agree and it runs through every demographic too. I know for me personally the hopelessness is partly that all the anger and hate around me makes me feel there’s no place to belong and has driven me further and further into isolation. Add health problems paired with inadequate healthcare, and I can easily relate to Moser’s outlook.
Not only THING$, but also false religion. It's no surprise that people feel a hopelessness. Our society has no soul.
bleak hopelessness also exists in "rich" gated communities... where i've seen soccer moms (and their kids) addicted to prescription pills, cocaine, heroin, etc. so that 'rich' culture you speak of isn't immune to drug addiction... and those people have lots of 'things.'
Yeah, well said. As a young(-er) person myself, one thing that people underestimate are the effects of things like the pandemic. Imagine losing two years of your youth when you're supposed to be interacting with others and living your life at its physical peak. That takes a real toll. Once you lose that socialization it becomes a lot harder to pick it up again.
True...poorer countries have less addictions and mental health problems.
Ohhh! What a great interview. His life is so simple, yet so complex. Yet he loves it the best he can. No goals, just living in the moment.
Moser, happiness could be right around the corner. Please don't throw it away! You are worth so much better. I don't believe that you're really comfortable with the way things are. The fight to get clean will be so worth it. I'm going to pray for you.
"Is there anything that happened in your childhood, anything you're running away from" "no, but if I am I'm doin a really good job at it". Wow. That was the single most compelling line I've heard on you channel. He is so mentally sharp. Even a wordsmith in there I think. He really could do anything. I like to think he's more of a "specialist", putting every ounce of life into the actual lifestyle. Like maxing only one stat in a video game. This fellow is a user and an abuser. The most telling for me is the lack of info on the string of ex girlfriends. Con artist. Not a bad person to sleep next to next to his tent near skit row either, in my opinion
Wouldn’t say the most compelling line from the channel by any means lol..dude just loves getting high that’s all there is to it
@@wanghaf_Gl0yper well that's just like ur opinion man
Give this guy a hug💯 Another amazing interview Mark. I have been addicted to heroin on and off for 20 years. It never got this bad. I am sending this guy positive energy, he deserves it. We all deserve it. I wish we understood that humans are 1 tribe and we need to learn to love, respect and appreciate one another. I also believe we are only as strong as our weakest member. ☮️❤️💪
"I dont want to get clean"= a death sentence, especially in Kensington. God bless his family.
Moser’s exceptionally intelligent. When he says that he has the capacity to excel at anything he wants, he’s simply telling the truth, unreservedly. I don’t think the same can be said for him saying/suggesting that there is no ultimate catalyst for his drug use, however. He’s probably manic depressive/bipolar/clinically depressed.
yes, he must have an underlying mental health issue if there has been no trauma
No bullshit, just real. Has me in tears. Moser, if you go out, I hope you go out knowing you've touched my heart, you are loved, and in a way you've given me hope. God bless you bro fr. 🙏
"No one's going to understand you."
"That's alright." ❤️
Awesome interview, Mark! The comments here tell more about the commenters than about Moser. In the USA, people have it drilled into their brains from childhood that they have to be somebody. If they are not somebody, they are nobody. And there is nothing worse than that. In Buddhist temples, people work hard to discover that they aren't anyone, that trying to be someone is the core of human suffering. Sense of self is suffering. Moser seems to have figured this out already. He's surrendered to the true indifference of the universe...but his heart seems warm, his words ring true. TH-cam watchers look desperately to find some weakness in his story to validate their own story. For me.....Moser doesn't strike me as a liar. That's probably his main appeal...his honesty, his sincerity....a lot of women probably fell for him over the years....that honest charm. He's probably had some very good moments in his short life. That's why he's low on regrets.....and more or less ready to die. We all have to die eventually....unless you are waiting on Jesus and company. Well.....I would say....try not to judge people that you can't understand. We really understand much less than we think we do. We posture ourselves to think we know everything. We know very little. Thanks, Moser! Thanks, Mark! Great video!
Beautifully put, I couldn’t agree with you more!
I think that people living this life are the lowest depth of misery ...they don't contribute to humanity in any way...they are a drain. There is nothing wrong with judging people who have been given the gift of life and squandered it. Disgusting display of a life wasted.
@@zeromczero7369 Thank you for proving the OP's point.
@@zeromczero7369 "Theres nothing wrong with judging people..."
Wow.
and thank you for reinforcing my belief that you cannot explain the obvious to an idiot.
The finest person you have spoken too. He has both eyes wide open and stares bravely into the Abyss.
Well said.
There is nothing brave about this. Let's stop glorifying this type of lifestyle. I understand it's his life and his choices but people need to stop being selfish. This life is not only about making yourself feel pleasure while putting those who love you through pain. Bravery is about facing the pain everyday and overcoming it by doing something great with your life and not escaping with drugs.
@@Power50505 pfft. Ok bud.
@@Jonhistorymodel brother, I'm not trying to be rude or anything like that. I am a 15 year heroin addict myself, so believe me I understand this guy. However, I came to learn that addiction was just escapism and there's nothing brave about it. Bravery is a when you face your fears and whatever life throws at you. Thats all I'm saying. Call him cool, smart, whatever but brave is not one of them.
@@Power50505 I was a 20 year opiate addict! You don’t dominate addiction others exist and have opinions.
Brutal honesty mixed with delusional grandeur.
So true.
Actually, no... this guy is top of the food chain...
@@tf6385 what do you mean? sarcasm?
Definately...
Delusional grandeur ? That's far from the truth in this guys case . I don't think he's living the time of his life and truly believes that .hes just accepting things the way they are of anything that's the furthest thing of delusions of grandeur
This sweet soul is lost! I hope he finds a way to heal emotionally that’s not through substance abuse!! Sending him hugs and good juju!!🦋
I feel sorry for his family because they are the ones that are sober and have to witness the complete destruction of their child with no way to stop it…coming from someone who has lost a child to fentanyl
I'm so sorry for your loss.💙
damn, Mo. sorry to hear. I got clean. I come just to remind myself why.
@@scottmatznick3140 glad to hear you are clean. Always remember everyone has people who love them. Losing you can totally ruin your families life. The pain is deep and never goes away. Good luck
I feel more sorry for him. usually addiction stems from child hood trauma... maybe his parents had something to do with that? it's sad for everyone though (who cares about him)
Im off all drugs(booze included) for almost 3 months but this guy, his mentality... He's my spirit animal
I was so shocked this guy is from my neck of the woods… He’s about the same age as my oldest niece, about 9 years older than my oldest… My mom heart was breaking the whole time I watched this. Here’s this young, nice looking, obviously intelligent young man and he’s literally throwing away the precious gift he was given for drugs. Worse, he doesn’t even care… Then I was reading the comments, a lot from other locals who knew and love him, one from a random person who happened to pick him up out in California and had him over at Christmas… I wish he could see how his sweet, gentle ways, his silliness, his kindness, have touched so many people. Maybe he’d see that his work here ISN’T done, that he hasn’t done all that he wanted to do, that he could do so much more. What he offers people, the way he touches lives, that’s what people rarely see today and what people need most. He’s a special breed, like an angel here on earth (and I don’t say that lightly, I’m an atheist). I hope he has decided or will decide to get clean one day. I hope it’s not too late. He’s the kind of person this world needs and I’d like to see him stick around.
If you’re still out there and read this, Moser, know that there are a lot of people who love you and want to see you clean and sober. You still have so much to offer this world ❤
- a local mom ❤
Unfortunately I don't think we'll see this guy again
I have no words.....he has NO bottom, NO happiest day, NO regrets, NO future. It's just SO darn sad. 😪
If anyone ever wanted to see the later stages of how addiction can progress they need to watch this. This is what happens when it takes your soul and you cross that thin line of not caring... subconsciously you want the next shot to be your last so you don't have to endure another day of hopeless darkness. There is still hope but it is extremely difficult for anything positive to happen when you are at his point. Good luck and I hope you come out the other side!
Many of us were concerned with where he's ended up. Now we know. He was/is a musician, a great one.. at his best he is the easiest person to follow and admire. I have some videos of his performances.. pictures and all. I'm glad he's 'thriving' in his position, but it's heartbreaking to see the detriment he's sustained to himself. Anyone can message me for some media of what his best sounded like, since I can't seem to post a video in the comments.
Please send the ig so I can see it, I feel like this guy is intelligent enough to realize he can at least try to function while on drugs
How can you send it?
Can you put it on your TH-cam account? I'm struck by Moser, for an unknown reason, I would love to hear his music
@@aude1545 this was the band: www.youtube.com/@VICTIMofficial
Send one please
he has a handsomeness about him. Really beautiful eyes. I hope he continues to do whatever he wants to do, but I also hope he becomes healthier and finds peace without addiction.
Okay people, there you have it, straight from the horses mouth! This is one of THE saddest interviews of a person I’ve ever watched on Mark’s channel, and I’ve watched hundreds of them! His eyes are deeply cold, dark and hurt, yet oddly “happy,” in a way…just a collectively difficult way to try and describe him, but that’s what I see & feel from this man. As the famous Etta James sang, “All I could do is cry…” 😢😭
Oh puleeze
@@getin3949 I’m sorry you can’t spell and I don’t know what you need or want by your comment. If you’re hurting too, just say so.
I agree with you Maria. Good call.
If Moser had been turned on to a hobby, skill, or subject at a young age, such as sports, music, art, science, anything, I think he would have been successful. He stated that he is good at everything when he puts his mind to it. I believe him. I hope he is able to release himself from this destructive passion and finds a reason to live.
Possibly, Kristina💜
@Jaybird exactly Jaybird. Take it all with a grain of salt. I look for actions and behaviors to see how people are really living. That’s where the truth lies.
I agree, i was raised with not alot.of attention and no push for me to do any activities and even if i wanted to do something extracurricular i never ended up getting slips signed money for fees etc. Just "get good grades". I WAS good at everything i tried, but better at doing drugs and staying out of people's hair.
I ended up a heroin and whatever drug addict and alcoholic. I ended up getting out of that life, but only out by my own choice. It's hard, but it's all about personal drive for him at this point
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@@baublesanddolls but if he fully decided to be good at being sober he would likely do great at it as well. He is probably great at many things you dont have to do or deal with in a day.
Man I can really identify with that feeling of “I’m just done.” I wonder why two people can feel the exact same way but one does what he does and one just muddles through life anyway without drugs. I will say, my feeling of being “done” or just not caring stems from major depression and PTSD. Maybe that’s his struggle too but he’d rather not deal with it.
A lot of times it depends on your core values, support past and present and if/how truama is being dealt with.
Ive been there before. When you have lost everything you have built and worked so hard for its devastating. You want to give up and sometimes for awhile you do.
At the same time you eventually build another life, one you may not be totally happy with but the fear of loosing everything and starting all over once again keeps you there.
Or it stems from seeing the path in front of you and it looking boring and repetitive..actually I guess that is very depressing, but don't a lot of folks live the same day over and over?
@@bicstic8 that could be as well but the guy didnt give alot of context but from what he did say and frommy own experiences of going through something similar, when his wife left after 10 years he didnt want to start over. From personal experience I can tell you I felt the same way. I had worked hard for years had a child, a home , a family, one day, and the next it all was just gone. My ex took everything. Even my car was in her name. She took it as well. Alot of it was being you and not knowing any better, but for a long time I felt hopeless. I didnt know what to do or where to begin. I didnt want to. Why work so hard when it all van be taken away in the span of 24hrs. Not to mention the betrayal I felt from the one person I implicitly trusted. I didnt have a clue. One day I had it all the next day I had nothing.
@@bicstic8 so true. It can get very hard in the “straight” life not to go what the hell is the point of doing this every day?
He seems like such a cool guy. It’s really sad that he’s fallen so low. He seems like someone that almost anyone can get along with. Really sad
"They know that I *am* the situation"
This dude is super real. Hope he goes out with a smile on his face, straight nirvana status.
Respect to Moser he is owning it and must be skilled in his own 'field' to maintain. No excuses or BS just straight truth. Good luck brother ✌️
Mark- these interviews are cutting edge social anthropology of our time!🖤
As a former heroine addict from the age of 15 until I got clean almost 4 years ago it is very hard to watch this one. He is so negative in a self destructive way. I used to think like that, even did 4 years in prison and I finally woke the hell up and realized there's nothing to that life. Now I'm married to a wonderful woman and have two amazing kids! I wish he will wake up before he dies. It's not too late until it's too late.
Now THAT is a great
comment....really happy for you and that you have found meaning in your life.
I'm not sure I understand why but I cried so hard for this man. I just can't explain my emotions
Because he is a truly lost soul.
It's sad but it's on him
I pray this man gets a better and well ! His honesty is refreshing he is not asking for help or crying for attention ! He knows his problem and isn’t blaming anybody but his self .. he loves drugs he said that about 5 times during this short interview ! Hope he finds a Light
I hope he's okay. This interview has stuck with me since it came out and he reminds me of so many people who I've loved & lost. I wish I could do something to help even though he doesn't want it. Please be safe Cris we love you❤️
I love you, Moser. I hope your days are peaceful. whatever that means for you. 🖤
This is just heartbreaking. He is ON the edge.
This is so scary . His voice from shooting up in the dark . The girl with the flesh opened in her arm . Nothing scares them obviously. The pain they go through from sores and living in filth just doesn’t make them want to stop. Unbelievable and nauseating at the same time.
That's why harm reduction is the most effective
@@jasmines.6325 is it? Because it dont seem like they are reducing harm. The best solution is methadone first and legal heroin second. Fent is so much worse than real heroin. The gov't needs to start giving these people real heroin again.
Smart, well-spoken, honest, and probably a good looking guy at some point. It's obviously sad, but in a way refreshing to see a person so absolutely honest about their relationship with drugs. This guy isn't lying to himself. He knows the situation he's in and just accepts it. He also clearly got high during the interview around the 10:30 mark. His demeanor and eyes change quite dramatically at this point. Good luck brother.
His honesty...the way he communicates...may God help him
What a legend, no past he's running from, no future he's working towards. Just drugs and the now. I'd feel bad for him if he didn't say he chose that life for himself. 0 blame, just him and his choices. Legendary
Absolutely a legend!! Like I said in my comment,that maybe we’re not suppose to try to change him but learn something from him. Great comment btw…..
Legend my arse. There's no nihilistic glory here. Soon there will just be no moser, just non-existence.
@@silverapples75 Might not be about nihilism. It may be just be about accepting what the world throws at you, and being humble enough to say thanks for 30 years of fond memories. Some people live 90 years of total misery - is that better because they prolonged death? This futile attempt to escape death that we all irrationally desire? Soon there will be no Ras either. For all you know, you get hit by a car tomorrow and Moser outlives you. I lost 2 mates who were in their teens that way.
The man did what he wanted, and this is where it got him. That would suggest that to get somewhere else, he would have had to do something that he did not want to do. This man is in many ways more human than any "successful" person I've ever met.
100%
@@MicroCatalyst Strongly disagree. What metric of 'success' are you using here!? A complete negation of existence. The guy has just given up. He knows he has no chance against his compulsions and has accepted non-existence. There may well be no me tomorrow, but I'll strive to fulfill whatever potential I have before my brief flickering of illumination is swallowed by the void. This isn't a heroic stoicism - the man has no self control and is overcome by negative emotions.
This guy is pure negative, there is no heroism in this nihilism.
OMG his hands…I’m sure he won’t admit it but that he has some sort of “abandonment issues” from his mother leaving him.
Beyond sad. He just signed off on his life 😔😔
The Honesty if this man is commendable. I really really really am rooting for you mose.
I think when they say drug addiction can steal yr soul...this is what they mean. ....very sad. Respect to Moser for sharing w us and to Mark for making it possible. It definitely helps illuminate the struggle.
I think his Soul is still in there .. just buried very deep is all.
i met a girl in Salem, NJ who's attitude about drugs was JUST like this guy's attitude. she was a "proud, happy, and faithful," drug addict. she didn't want your pity, sympathy, empathy, or (free) money... just wanted to clean your house, wash your car, shine your shoes, walk your dog... whatever it took to get some money to go to the park and do heroin. the scary thing about watching this video is that if you saw a picture of her, you'd think she is Moser's younger sister; they look very similar.
i'm NOT a psychologist, but for some reason, i think Moser's 'drive' to stay high might be based on losing (romantic) love interests. some guys, when they lose their woman... etc., resort to self-destructive activities. he did say he had girls that took care of him (motherly love) but that they left.
"My family knows I am this situation". Epic and so real comment
Yep - When I myself was at my worst, my parents told me that they didn't hate Me, they "Hated the situation"...
...I understand very well what "being the situation" means... 😶
His entire life since leaving school has been drug addiction, his life's work, his legacy, as Mark states. He went to L.A. to do drugs and moved to Kensington to do drugs. I think he already knows the jig is up, a death wish of sorts. "I'm great at everything l do" is code for "l don't have the will to do anything else except shoot fentanyl into my collapsing veins". And yet, quick-minded and articulate. But every statement of positivity ends on negativity, "l'll either do something great....or I won't". My guess is sadly, he won't.
Excellent comment. Sad but true.
". . . .Be nice to people . . . Not to hate anyone, or anything . . .To love everybody . . . ."
We're all here for only a very short time . . . some shorter . . .others less short. I don't feel/sense or hear a mean bone in this young man's body. How many of us at the end of a tether, or bad break, can . . .or have ever spoken such words with clarity, simplicity and heartfelt conviction? Not many I'll wager.
God does make Angels to walk the earth among us with broken wings, tattered clothes and broken hearts.
When God asks Moser about his life those words will ring the heavens as silver, gold and sunlight.
God Bless You Son🙏❤️🥰
I am really struggling with this guy and the reality he lives in. He seems such a nice guy, so reasonable, balanced and self aware. But he chooses to do drugs and live a life like that. Most of the drug addicts I have known hate their lives which is why they do drugs to escape, Moser loves his life because he does drugs. So challenging and difficult. Amazing interview that has changed my perceptions.
He denying the fact his mother left him when he was twelve and it affected him emotionally. Twelve is a crucial age for a child. He goes through women, falls in love all the time. Repeats the abandonment peptide and puts a needle in his arm. Feels good.
Spot on! 🎯🎯🎯
Yess and he doesn't want to say why she left when he probably knows
So true. How many people out there are looking for a wife thinking they’re going to find a mother? Far too many!
Thanks, Dr. Phil... He's a sick junkie who would sell an infant for a hit of fentanyl.
yep, 12/13 is a pivotal time in a person's life. Many tribes and religions unrelated to each other have some rite of passage or transition event at this exact stage in the human's development. We really do no understand the human soul and its vulnerability at this exact time OR we choose not to understand it because it's inconvenient.
I respect that he admits there was no wrong doing in his life he chose this and sadly will keep going till his end.
He seems a genuine guy who has well and truly given up on this side of life and cannot see him ever changing his mind sadly 😥
Speaking from my living hell, living with Lyme disease I know that most people who are constantly suffering (physically/ emotionally) do not really want to die but just want to escape and end pain. Being incapacitated myself I considered trying illegal drugs, but only to feel better. I can see very easily how the pain and suffering of every day life can lead to dangerous drugs and from then on a vicious cycle.
This one hurts more than most. Almost a Soulmate. Love to Moser.
I look at this man and I just want to cry. He's young, with a beautiful face yet he's so unhealthy and thin. Soon he'll be dead and it doesn't even matter to him. I am the mother of two grown sons. If I saw either of them in this condition, I would be inconsolable. These drugs steal their souls. It's absolutely heartbreaking.
Fentanyl is the scourge of the US. It's a national tragedy. I do feel sorry for this poor lost soul and all the other souls lost in pain.
@natrural flavor Biden’s got nothing to do with it. It was the same under Trump too. America has always had a huge appetite for drugs. BTW Biden didn’t really change any of Trump’s border and immigration policies and Biden even added article 42. So Biden has now deported more people than Trump did. Just like it’s impossible to stop an addict from getting high, it’s impossible to stop drugs getting to them.
@natural flavor making this political is total BS. The war on drugs was lost long ago. Synthetics and tranqs are being mixed because Fent is illegal in China now. Biden doesn't "let" more in. I'm not a Biden fan, your take is just ridiculous though.
Moser; You said you are done. What do you have to lose if you try to be another person, live another life away from the BS? You are a tough individual , you got one kick in you left! You got this...if you are good at everything, be good at living! You are 30...you have so much life left and there is so much more out there then LA and Kensington. God Bless you. ( by the way I am 4 years clean off of opiates..also was homeless, IV drug user)
this dude is clearly super intelligent. unfortunately he seems to be too far gone but if he were to go back ten years it would be truly incredible to see what he could accomplish.
I love this guy. He’s brutally honest and quick witted.
I really hope you change your mind Moser. Ten years from now you can be married with a couple kids living a real life. Think real hard about it man, you're one of the good guys, the world needs more dudes like you Moser. Clean of course. Peace bro. Take it easy.