Former Addict Reveals Near Death Experience | William Milligram
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 21 ก.ค. 2024
- It took more than 40 rehab centers for William to finally find a path to recovery. During his 15 years of substance abuse, William was homeless and struggling to survive on the cold streets of Newark, New Jersey. Listen in as he talks to Ian about the trajectory of his life and the catalyst that helped him truly turn it around.
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00:00 Intro
00:45 New Merch Discount
02:50 Childhood
06:34 What school was like for him
11:25 Being triggered
12:50 Thinking about what could have been
17:32 Weight on his shoulders
18:40 Finishing high school
20:45 Lowest points of his life
24:00 Homeless in Newark
27:27 Relationship with parents
28:50 Advice for saving a loved one
34:40 Day in the life of a homeless addict
41:06 Crazy things homeless people do
45:44 Arrests on record
46:25 Near death experience
52:50 Continuing to use
54:12 Body Brokering
57:24 What rehab facilities are like
1:01:38 His daughter giving him purpose
1:04:52 Triggers after getting clean
1:06:21 Getting the message on substances out there
1:08:05 What he does now
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I like this guy. This was a great interview and he has a great perspective on recovery. Hope all the best for his endeavors
Thanks man!
Yeah "ya know" was killing me!
Bruh Great story great interview but that ya know is killing me too!!!😂
I randomly came across a clip of his interview on TikTok and I instantly had to find the whole thing. This was incredible. As a recovering addict thank you for sharing your story and thank you doing what you do. ❤
I’ll say this after listening to this podcast fully…When Will was asked “Do you think if you went to college things would have been different?”…His response made my whole soul happy. I always tell people this at the end of the day I did things all the way WRONG. But I’m so grateful for ending up at the bottom of the barrel. If it wasn’t for being at the bottom and seriously receiving the true gift of desperation I would never be the woman, the mother, the sister, the daughter, the friend I am now. So for being at rock bottom I’m forever grateful. Things could have gone very different. But they didn’t. Here I am in 2023 and have been clean since May 18,2016.
My parents completely cut me off. I HATED them for it in active addiction. Now I’m so grateful. I pray everyday I never have to experience that as a mother of a teenage boy. I still hold so much regret for my own child. I have vowed I’ll be the mother now to my son that my parents have been to me.
I’m going to edit this for the 900th time THANK GOD FOR YOU AND CONNOR. I hope I spelled his name right. Anyway good for you both and this world needs more people like you guys.
Same
Great to see another person clean and doing well. I quit oxy in 2008 and went on a Sub program/Doc thinking I was doing the right thing and actually being clean. I wasn't using oxy but I wasn't clean. Once I saw people selling the pills and then strips I realized I traded addictions. I quit suboxone July 11th 2012, I can't begin to explain the sick. It took months to feel like a human again. It was coming off Oxy 160+ MG a day min every single day 100 times over. I would never recommend Subs to anyone at this point. Not to mention they neglected to mention the horrific teeth damage it does. Now I need about $9,000 in dental work. However God Blessed me with an amazing woman who's been with me 16 years and supportive beyond belief. The most difficult moments of getting off subs she supported me. I was in a bad accident that should have killed me. I am in pain daily. Then I was shot in a random attack against her and I. Still on going legal case against the shooter. This was my 2022 lol, and had probably 4 different times I could have legally been prescribed 30s or other opiates and I'm proud to say I turned them down each time. When I was shot I did receive morphine 4x in the hospital but I did have a 9mm hollow point tear through 2 muscle groups in my thigh. I left the hospital with 5 days of 5mg oxy. I took one the night I got home about 24 hours after getting shot to get up the steps and have her change my dressings. That I don't count as a relapse, some may. But the other 4-3/4 days worth of oxy never got touched even on a walker and cane. I refused because I feared so much I would fall into silencing the emotional pain and confusion of the attack with pills. I am in therapy and working through this without a drink or drug. Her and I communicate the struggles we have from tge shooting and our shooter being free on bail after firing 9 shots at us. Unprovoked, no words, no warning. We saw the gun and ran. I heard bullets passing my head. I'm blessed to be writing this.
Again congrats on your sobriety and the kind words you have shared to others. God bless you and your family. 🙏
What an awesome name for an addict. But damn he says "you know" sooo much
Sending ppl to rehab and paying them is not preying on them for their downfall. As an addict myself this sounds fantastic. I’m functioning so I have a job a car a place….etc so w all my bills I really can’t afford to go but if someone gave me 5k for a month of rehab it’d be way better than the situation I’m in and I could still pay my bills. Nowadays you have to pay to go and I can’t afford it.
Great story will. Love you man ! Blessed to call you a friend. You’ve touched a lot of lives and continue to inspire me and others on a daily basis ❤ !
Glad he is clean and helping the next ones on their journey
Love you boiiii! So dope to see where you’re at today . Me and Will lm went through treatment together, sober living , and we moved in together after we got out of sober living. We’ve been through hell and back together, and he’s like a brother to me now. I’ve never laughed so hard with anyone ever in my life. Experiencing life completely sober for the first time after years and years and years of having some sort of substance in our bodies at all times, it’s a surreal experience. I remember being in group , and sometimes we wouldn’t even be able to look at one another without breaking out laughing uncontrollably over some inside joke. For those reading this thatre still struggling with addictions, If people like Will and myself were able to get sober, trust me, you can too. We made it through, and look at him now ! The fact that we are alive today to talk about war stories, etc., is a blessing. I know Will is going to succeed in whatever endeavors he pursues, it’s the type of guy he is. I believe our past experiences molded us into the people we are today, and I honestly wouldn’t change it.
Congrats Will‼️TFS Your testimony. I bet & guarantee you just saved someone listening to this. Very Proud of You! And Ian Great job another eye opener to soo many out there 💯🙏Great podcast 👏👏👏
Man newark will chew you up and spit you out, im glad you made it out and are clean and sober today. I give you alot of credit alot of people dont make it out alive and now your opening up your own treatment center thats amazing hopefully one day i can do the same!
Amazing podcast! I love that you've been working with more recovering addicts. I am currently a heroin and it's struggle to say the. These kinds of interviews help me out more than you can understand. When your constantly sitting in a dark room shooting heroin, crack and meth, there's not a lot if hope in my life. The feeling of sitting there and being confident that everything is gonna be okay, that just not something that organically pops into my head or feel. But seeing these guys with similar stories as me gives me hope. Your helping me so much without even realizing it. Thank you so much! Keep doing your that and I'll keep supporting you. Much love bro
Thank you bro I appreciate it. Keep up the good work🙏
Yes it’s Locked In Time. I need a Locked In shirt and Hooded w/logo on back and plain front. My beard covers pics on fronts of shirts. Awesome job Ian
Ian doesn't miss an upload!! These interviews keep getting better! Idk if you remember my name but I've been here since day one and I love to see just how much you have improved!
Thanks so much man!
Dude is 100% correct about Kensington. I have talked to many addicts who went to score in Kensington and "got stuck". Many will go down for a day and if they survive it will be 5-10 years. It's surreal place for those who have never seen it. Great interview.
THIS GUY IS SPEAKING FACTS. GREAT PODCAST EPISODE
Went to boces with this fool! Good dude now! Always got high before class everyday! Greg!!!!
Using opioids is like a disappearing act with your time.
Get clean and it’s like “damn twelve years have passed”. Haha oh well
AMAZING STORY + AMAZING this guy now is helping others despite goin through all that hell. MUCH RESPECT to Will for his story + Ian for his EXCELLENT interviewing skills. Ian REALLY has a talent for that.
Man you're killing it! Looking forward to watching this one & good luck with your first boxing match! 🥊💪💯🏆
Who the heck is this guy boxing? Is it the kitchen CO from Ft Dix?
@@toddmorrissey8372 dunno ask him, just saw his post about training for his first match
Bick is boxing? 😂😂
Great interview
I'd love to see an interview with parents of people you have interviewed to get their prospective on it all....been binge watching all your videos, great job!!
Yeah....that would probably ruin many of those guys' "reputations" and completely change the narrative they presented.
Body brokering in a nutshell: The rehab is breaking you off a piece of what they are being paid by your insurance. These payments are made through a third party "recruiter" that The rehab works with. The longer you stay at the rehab, the more money you get. Examples: Stay 5 days $300, 2 weeks $800, 30 days $2k. Many of these people had it down to a science.
Florida has the most rehabs BY FAR than any other state. Boynton Beach has the most rehabs in Florida. It's ridiculous.
Born and Raised in Newark...it gets Wicked n Tricky in them streets...word
Somebody like me who's from Newark,he's spot on.its a vicious place if u don't keep your guard up,but I love it here in the 973/862 though!
Best damn show on TH-cam and other platforms. Love you bruh.. you keep it 💯🫶🏻
Appreciate you🙏
God bless this Man
Going through addiction for 15+ years (31m in STL), lots of similarities, I disagree with a few points he presented but for each one of those I agreed with 2 others. Genuine good guy that the world needs more of...
I know will, hes a great guy, got clean from a 5 year iv heroin fent addidtion + crack ad anything i coild find but opiates were my main vice, he helped me into rehab in 2022 for free, i coild call him anything for help and hed answer and take the time to talk to me.
By minute 5:37 I counted 8 “you know”…. Can’t see the rest!
Ahh yes, "injecting substances". I always say "why snort it and waste it when you can shoot it and taste it" 😉👌
😂😂😂
I say the same thing. Although it drives me nuts that this dude(seemingly) seems to be editing himself. "Injecting substances"? Keep it raw dude!! Tell us what you were doing!!
@@toddmorrissey8372 Facts, we want the raw truth. No matter how messed up and depraved it is lol.
This guy is awesome
1:00:15.. he mentioned the horse farms in the nice rehabs. Well, I work at a state funded facility. We don’t have a horse farm, we just have a cat with one eye that stays pregnant 😝 We ain’t got the resources for horses.
It’s a tad raggedy, but I enjoy going to work everyday to help people who want to get clean & put their lives back together. It’s awesome.
I didn't OD but, the near death experience he talks about I also experienced... I was a teenager and I fell off a tailgate and landed on my head.. had a severe aneurysm and bleeding out of my ears and nose... I remember feeling like I was watching everything... I watched the ambulance and watched my friends crying and hoping I was OK all from above or like an aerial view... like wait that's me they're watching... that and one of my friends saying "they wouldn't let go" was the only thing I remember for 4 days..... the paramedics cut one of my favorite baseball jerseys off when they got to the scene and I just remember being mad seeing my jersey cut apart sitting in my hospital room... makes ya feel like there is life after death or at least lingering....
An old timer once told me, you won't have your head on straight until at least five years. As I've looked around I've learned this to be true. Congrats on his four years but he'll change his perspective in a couple more years
This was a good interview, but something that has become absolutely clear is that people want to see CRIME stories told by criminals. To prove this point, Ian had Chevy Chase on, it was the 2nd lowest watched interview on his channel. Crime stories told by criminals is where it is at.
That Chevy interview was lame, that’s why. It seemed like he barely did any research and it was just awkward. And it was only 2 weeks ago as well. If it had been Bill Murray he wouldn’t have had to say a word and gotten 10 million views by now.
I would get that same feeling even when I hear a certain song I get that feeling cas that would be a song I would listen listen to when I used to get high
Hey ian where has commisary cookoff been? I have not seen a new episode im a few months. Are you still doung it?
Happy for this young man but hes still very young truuuussst me he hast seen it all.
His story is my story 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 recovering addicts know what I mean.
I'm sorry but I can't help but find some irony in the fact that a guy with the last name "Milligram" became addicted to pharms lol. Jokes aside, seems like a really good person. Glad you had him on, he's got a great story!
I grew up in the early 2000s and things like oxycodone OxyContin was nothing to be concerned about I remember getting percs at 10 for the flu long story short I had a 17 year drug issue but that’s how it was back then
How’s a kid from Kensington or Newark get to California wellness? All these guys act like it ain’t about the money but open rehabs in wealthy areas
I wld like to know where he went to rehab the 44th time that got him sober??
This is hard to watch “you know”. I enjoy the show but this one is hard for me
I remember I was 10. I got strep throat and they gave me hydrocodone cough syrup back then they just gave you painkillers. You could have the flu and they would give you percs
How I can get my dad in the show he getting out in a year did 20 years in Florida beat 5 murder charges
Take a shot everytime he says "ya know"
Also love the podcast Ian and love hearing these people's stories... I've only ever done a couple over nighters in a county jail, but everyone can relation to these guests and to you
I appreciate you man
@ianbickCT I had been searching for new stuff to listen to at work and went through your list in just a few weeks lol now I'm constantly waiting for new ones... keep on rocking dude!!
Is his shirt blurred out?
Mr. Milligram haha :D
I was in integruty house in 2000
Maybe I could tell my story of recovery sometime. Never really been to prison so I didn't think I qualified for Ian Bick..
Neither has this guy.
Right this guy in this interview never been to prison either
Damn guy last mame is milligram he was destined to b a addict
Hard watch, can’t even finish it.
Not really a crime story, bummer
Seemed full of himself. Wanted to plug his new 6 bed rehab.
His last name is Milligram…
Can’t even lie watching videos with guys my age. Glad I stayed away from drugs nd trashy ppl. He looks older than me 😂
You're gonna tell me this guy's last name is "Milligram"? Really? He mustve never, EVER heard the end of non-stop jokes and puns.
Ya know. Jesus
Ian got tattoos just to try and look cool and fit in lol he is just a guy that is hard to like..one of those geeks you wanna punch
This dude sounds like a AA meeting. Hate that sHit when ppl get clean and they go a wall about recovery and they speak certain ways, says certain things like do you blame your parents divorce “ before yes, BUT TODAY I TAKE OWNERSHIP” stfu 🤦♂️it’s yes or no did your parents divorce fuck you up and turned you into a kid that you prob wouldn’t of been, yes. Okay into the next. Like da fuck I can own my own my shit all I want but I know at the end of the day my parents divorce fucked me up in so many ways that my life and myself changed forever!!!! If they didn’t get divorced my life and myself 99.9% chance would be completely different!!! I own my shit but I know for a fact that I wouldn’t of done shit I did or have the mental issues I did if the first 10 years of my life with my parents and family continued till I was a adult!! My life, my family, the person I was, was a complete 180 once they divorced. Not because oh they split so sad. But all the years of shit that happened during the divorce cause it took 3 yrs plus after that! No matter how easy it is to blame shit on others, when your a child you cannot mentally handle things like an adult, you can’t understand or differentiate. You can’t even escape cause you’re a kid!!! You can’t just walk away. This dude sucks all it is his addiction story he tells at all the AA NA meetings
Seems like you are getting away from the original concept of your show here lately. Just looking at the timestamps I don't see much here about jail time.
My show is not just about jail
He says "ya know" too much
Bro your gonna body broker. You’ve done it many times before. Now your on the other side and know the mistakes to stay low key. Lmfao don’t lie bro 😎
15 cats by 31… that’s rookie league son, I had 5 in 1 year and average 2 every year and I’m 47 now. Collection is worth north of 1 mil currently!