i fell into a deep depression and wouldnt leave my room because i believed people were waiting outside to harm me. i started hearing full on conversations with people who werent there. it was the scariest month of my life.
I don't have Psychosis or nor am I schizophrenic. I'm here because I wanted to be more aware about it and my heart goes out to anyone who's truly going through this I know it's not easy.
I’m trying to find out what I have but this seems spot on I’m just not delusional or see stuff but all the moon and how I had go through my day today is spot on
It’s nice to know that at least there are some people out there who try to learn about and understand these things. It’s hard to go through something like psychosis alone.
I'm feeling the "no motivation" one and I'm finding myself feeling less and less emotions good ones atleast And my memories get scattered at times aswell Oh yeah and I feel like I wanna strangle or kill something 😁😐
How sad to go thru that. I have bipolar depression, and fight my sleep. there were times after being awake for 16 hrs I'd be so overtired the 1 time I was doing laundry trying to convince myself I needed to finish and go lay down. but I pictured myself somewhere else with friends they were talking and I caught myself comment "out loud" I snapped out of it, it scared me, I thought that's not good ! It was as if I was dreaming. It's happened a couple of times , a conversation in my head and I'll say something out loud snap out of it, it's after being awake for that many hours, and at the point of falling asleep standing up, feeling mentally and physically exhausted. I asked the nurse practitioner she said that's nothing to worry about( although she'd say anything just to get on to the next patient and go home) so I don't know what to think 🤔🤯
I found my file somewhere when I was a kid I was sneaking up behind the staff on the computer and when I read what it said it said I have psychosis plus I think I’m a lil insane I’m 21 now I’m glued to my tv and electronics all days and my room is a hot mess and I refuse to take my meds cuz it makes me feel worse and I stay up all night like an 🦉
I fiend of mine was in psychosis for almost 7 months, he was hearing voices and feeling tingling sensation on his skin. Severely sleep deprived and smoking heavily. He was delusional, thinking someone hacked his brain. But he was just functioning normal, going to work and meeting up with his family and friends. As the voices got laugher he was hospitalized, came to find out it was a tumor. After the surgery he was back to his old self and doesn’t smoke at all.
I think I developed psychosis by knowing people were talking about me then when I confront they’re fake so then I could never truly reassure which caused psychosis thanks to them being fake
Joel Beeton even when it’s there fault or partly or didn’t believe them or me devolope these problems through Neglect so all about the cure not the prevention another step backwards in mental health etc then 😞
I suffer from psychotic depression with excessive audio hallucinations, paranoia and delusions etc. and this was spot on. My panic attacks and inability to express myself has cost me a few good friendships because I'd think they were plotting something against me, like Steve Carell in Shmuck For Dinner as well as going heavy on sarcastic humor and over-the-top compliments that came across as mean and creepy. I'm better off a tribe of one.
I bet you are a high conflict person that plays the victim to perfection. My guess is others find you highly manipulative, but you think they are full of shit. You like to obsess on people trying to help you and they always let you down, so you hurt them in response. Correct? Your psychosis is really schizophrenia because you can't live with yourself in your mind.
Guys can you all tell me your experiences privately, Because I think I have something similar but ai want to be sure before trying to talk with a psycologist
I think I have psychosis, from constant on going trauma honestly.. I thjnk very irrationally and worry about crazy things but not to the point where I'm paranoid
Well im not a doctor but i have heard many say that crazy people don't know that they are crazy and same goes with psychosis. If you have psychosis you have no idea.
@@mftripz8445 Well tell that to the next person with psychosis who thinks that the government and aliens are after him and that he has a chip under his skin. Its a loss of reality. If they truly understood that they have a psychosis they would not believe in all the delusional things they believe in for the moment.
I experienced cannabis induced psychosis once and man is was terrifying. I was hearing people talk about me to eachother, everything was moving slowly, I saw shadows and bright fuzzy colours, I couldn’t stop twitching and I was convinced I was dying and that my face and throat were swelling. Completely mortified.
I've lost interest in most things, and I'm not very social, nor am I motivated to do anything. Not to mention I also like talking to myself, along with thinking that people talk about me, or judge me. And let's not forget the fact I have bi polar depression 🤦♀️
Whiskey straight will drive the blues away, yea I grabbed my gun an broke the barrel down, put that joker six feet in the ground, yea got the blues can't be satisfied
I believe I might be going through this right now. I've been depressed and anxious since I was 12 or do, but this s experience is far worse than any thing I've felt before. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'll do the same for others to. Compassion and understanding are key.
Donovan how are you ? It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep . I been feeling anxious all day . It feels like I’m going to have a heart attack . Are you okay ? I need help
❤️❤️ praying for you for healing and acceptance during your journey wether that is psychosis or any other mental issues. it’s not easy, im struggling with the same stuff rn but we’ll make it!
Unfortunately in my case a Psychiatrist told me he wanted me to suffer, when i told him about my mental health. This in my opinion is very cruel and extremely sadistic to want another person to suffer, its very cruel.l when i complained about it i found mental health staff very nasty. I will never forgive Psychiatry for showing me absolutely no empathy or kindness, its not just me a'lot of innocent people are abused by Psychiatry
I simply don't understand why they would do that to you in my experience this hasn't happened to me yet but I do see them doing smart remarks like sure when I tell her my problems
well i am happy that you've not had a bad experience that's good i'm happy for you.For years i went over it in my mind why would a Doctor be so cruel for no reason. It makes no sense ? i was really friendly and polite to the Psychiatrist he had no reason to be wicked to me. He even said he didn't care about me, i was so scared of this Psychiatrist i refused treatment by them. If you look up speak out against Psychiatry facebook you will see lots of vulnerable people have been abused by Psychiatry. I wish this never happened to me it made me feel very disturbed by what this psychiatrist said.My friend was stabbed to death when i told this to the Psychiatrist he replied its normal for people to stab people i disagree, i don't think its normal to stab people i think stabbing people is a disgusting thing to do i wish i had a recording device on me i could have got him struck off the Medical register. best wishes to you
I have been studying Psychopathy for 25 yrs now. I have come to the conclusion the Psychiatrist i saw was a person with no empathy, a person with these traits is a Psychopath. This Psychiatrist was a full blown Psychopath also a very wicked evil person
I had psychosis when I was in high school. The reason why I had it was mostly because of school. My parents did play a role in it. I know school was a major factor because during breaks from school (Thanksgiving, Christmas, spring break etc) I felt more sane. As I returned to school from those breaks my mental health would quickly decline. Fuck high school.
@@bsjsbsbsjk9059 I still get mild disconnections from reality, and they can last for a couple of days at a time. Stressful days at work, and or worrying about life (more specifically health issues,money issues, relationship issues) seems to increase the likeliness (anxiety, and panic attacks as well). But de-stressing everyday helps. I try to stay away from drama as much as possible (it increases stress hormones, and anxiety). Everyday when I get home I do something relaxing for a while (message beds, chairs, and machines at the gym,long hot shower followed by listening to peaceful music/sounds for a bit, tanning in the hot sun, cold packs on my back/joints during the hot months while watching TV/listening to peaceful music/sounds). Also, reconnect with nature! Long walks (preferably in nature parks, or a rural area that's safe) a few times per week. That way you can hear, see, and reconnect with nature (humans are just more evolved primates btw. We're still evolving to adapt to society, so we still need to reconnect with nature. To help get emotions back you need to hang out with a trusted friend (teamwork related tasks/video games help well if done properly). Also, teach the person with psychosis about personal hygiene (like washing daily/properly, using mouthwash/brushing teeth properly, keeping acne/body oder under control, dressing appropriately based on weather/temperature/activities). Seeing a licensed psychiatrist, and getting a personal diagnosis is strongly recommended.
I got PTSD and bipolar schizophrenia and epilepsy sezuire from a brain 🧠 tumor surgery 2 years ago she totally right i stamp ✅ dat I'm blessed to see 25 this year i was shock wen my doctor 👨⚕️👩🏾⚕️ and Allah 🤕🙏🏾 brought me back to life im truly appreciate and blessed to be here 💯
Sometimes i feel things that aren’t there and sometimes I get the urge to scream sometimes parts of my body just twitch for no reason some times i can feel my veins
Literally me rn. Idk what's happening, but i feel terrified and i feel like someone is outside the window. I want to scream and cry and laugh at the same time. I hope it goes away asap
My hopes and prayers to everyone in this comment section dealing with psychosis. As I recently had another episode last night. Wish you all the best. Before yesterday I was like almost a year without an episode. It's very hard when you mind plays tricks. Stay positive!!! 🤞🏽I have love for you all !
As someone who suffer from borderline personality disorder, adhd, ocd and general anxiety. I can speak from experience and say paychotic episodes/behavior is both the best i ever felt and at the same time the scariest thing i ever experienced.
@@kaeji_namitsua you don't understand it till you lived with it the doctors only know so much their selves they don't know everything plus it affects people differently like I live with it and have been diagnosed but I can't explain what it's like to people it's just fucked I wouldn't wish it on anyone I've been smoking weed 8 years now daily because I feel more normal when I'm high and it's like getting high gives me a rest from it I just feel like I'm in a dream all the time with things I can't understand or explain but it happens luckily I'm sort of strong minded and I can deal with it without suicidal thoughts but any normal person it will mentally destroy them into thinking things that doesn't even exist when I use to jump on a bus before I learnt to drive I once attacked a man at my peak because he looked at me in a normal way but I thought he was trying to harm me no one understands it till it happens
Then they see you as weird or crazy, you can never put it into words💔 I stopped taking my medications years ago, and I gradually lose touch each and every day.
At school I am so afraid of people I will wait untill the halls are empty to go to my class because I can hear people whisper about hurting me it's terrifying
thats cause they do. although not as much as you might think, most of the time people distract themselves from their problems. they'd have to know care a lot about you to even consider hating you
Sounds serious. My psychosis isn’t as bad as yours. Definitely seek some help man. It’s always okay to stay cautious but don’t live your life in fear if you don’t have too. You are loved and you have support remember that
Psychosis condition can be used positively with the right guidance. Changing thought process during those interrupted thought moments can make a person with previous traumas look at life positively with proper guidance.
18 y.o, I definitely have psychosis; >Thought broadcasting i believe? i talk to myself like a crazy person for HOURS. in my mind im explaining something about myself or how great i am to my friends. I talk as if theyre really there and could hear me. yesterday i spent 4 hours doing that. my eyes are open but it's like im blind to everything in front of me. all i see and hear are my hallucinations >Also have severe thought persecution- i feel like people are plotting to murder me in my house so i covered all my windows with metal bars, and i sleep with a huge knife by my bed. once when i was 15, i had a mental breakdown and wrote "im so scared help me" on a piece of paper hundreds of times after hearing a rustle outside >mild disorganized speech, would repeat things a lot, jump from topic to topic real fast >smell hallucinations- i would smell SMOKE all of a sudden and find it hard to inhale >would imagine grotesque/creepy looking creatures behind me in the mirror or in the corners of my room, they look very realistic i really need treatment but im broke asf :( need to start saving up. i cant go on like this,,,
Shit, take care you will get there. Just try to find a cheap psychologist who can help you. I am doing the same and doing my own research at the same time.
A few weeks ago my downstairs neighbors moved in. They were a couple. One day the boyfriend kicked my front door in and my him and my dad argued. We has the door fixed but that’s where the problems started. Every time I came outside he would stare at me and he would always ask me and and siblings if our parents were home. We always said yes. One day the girlfriend got so annoyed that she took scissors and stabbed him in the eyes. That’s when everything changed. Seeing the blood outside his door and on the sidewalks from him running away from his gf made me snap. Now I only leave my room to use the bathroom and eat every time I go to the bathroom I think someone is watching me and waiting on me outside and I always cover my phone cameras because I think people are watching me even when I get in bed I never sleep I just stare at the door wait to see if someone will come in and harm me and I only ever sleep at day because I’m scared of what lurks in my closet when it’s dark and I always think there’s people in my house or in my vents or waiting to break in or kill me or kidnap me. Sometimes I even think that my anime posters and plushys are watching me. Also I can’t shower without the curtains open and the door locked. Sometimes I just want to slit my wrists and fill up my bathtub and drown myself but I’m scared of the afterlife and I always need someone else I the house with me or I will spend the whole day in my bed crying. I got so scared once that I literally took my fish out of its tank and laid in bed with it. It almost died but my sister snatched it from me. She asked me what was wrong with me and I refused to tell her. Yesterday during family dinner I told my sisters I had various dreams about death and even dreamt about killing them and having a plan if I had to kill them. They thought I was joking and tease me about it a lot but little do they know it makes me want to pick up a knife and execute my plans right there and then. Still to this day nobody knows because I’m too scared to tell anyone. I think they won’t believe me. They just think I’m scared of the dark but in reality I need serious help or I might not make it to 2021.
Hi brother you are not alone I've spent 13 years with it and have been through every mental thought on this planet cannabis is the only reason I'm still here if you have any questions or need a chat I'm here for you I relate to your thoughts I have it that bad the doctor couldn't even prescribe me at first as he thought I had something even bigger my minds that messed up you're not alone mate
please tell your parents seriously. You know you're not ok but from what you wrote, Your inside is screaming for help. You're in constant pain, you're the only one who harm yourself just don't allow it and get medical help
Like someone said a week ago Please im begging you to tell your parents everything that’s literally the best way to get help. My sister had her own problems and didnt tell my parents or basically anyone about it and it seriously would have been better if she did. Don’t worry she is alright but only cause we found out she was going through stuff ourselves. Im telling you it can all be worked through and you can be you again from before the incident. If you need to talk about anything message me on sc - abdigo19 hopefully everything is getting better right now.
Are u ok now? Only thing i can tell u is go to your mom or dad alone and talk to them Or maybe your sibling the one u most trust i know its late but if youre still feeling like that tell the person u trust the most or go to a docc yourself dont hide it Did something change in the 2 years? Remeber We should take help sometimes I told my mother and youll be fine
I have two brothers that both have problem with mental health. Our second brother have schizophrenia at 19, now he is 36 yrs old.. my mother went through a lot still now and almost died because he strangled her.. he is smoker and drinker. He is good as a construction or carpenter. Mostly neighbors like him the way he work, helpful and not lazy. He worked smoothly and finish it clean. His episode would come and go. It will trigger when he is hungry, mad and mostly if he hears negative comments around people. Sometimes he misinterpret the talk or gestures etc. He sometimes confused about reality. I am mad and hated him. Because he is a threat to us. He would tell us that he will kill us or beheaded us. In 2011 he burned our house that its only made out of light materials like bamboo, we are poor, we hardly eat 3 times a day. This problem added to the family is forever burden. He broke the tv i bought. He burned his all clothes, He broked mobile. He is sometimes normal and sometimes not. He sometimes talking alone as if talking to someone. So scared that he looks like he is possess. We already sent him many times in mental but he cannot be hold there forever because he is ok most of the time and cost of money too. He is voilent whenever he has episode. Last year my eldest brother had depression because they broke up woth his live in partner. He said someone trying to hurt him. Its really hard that we, us normal person.. those do not experiences this will not sometimes understand them. But we need patience and be strong. But I cannot trust those who has mental illness. Im sorry but it sometimes will lead them to might kill someone. And it happened in reality where we saw in the news. My both brothers wont drink medicine becuse they said they are not sick. Im so scared staying with them in one roof even if they are normal sometimes. They both no kids of their own. I dnt know how am gonna take care of them when they grow old. My mom is old now and im the only sister they have who only has family with my own. Im the bread winner, my mom rely on me financially. We are 4 siblings. Hope God will ease our burden and provide us our needs.
I hope you’re doing well and things get better, I can see that you are really trying for your family. You are doing a good job I know it must be hard dealing with it all…
I developed a Paranoia induced Psychosis. Because of my extreme paranoia for severe bullying in school from grades 1 through 10, my parents were 100% unreliable and the teachers actually physically helped the students bullying me, in grades 11 and 12, I was undoubtedly convinced that everyone knew me and were plotting to kill me. So I started taking certain tools to school in my backpack waiting for the ambush that I "knew" was going to happen, but THEN, when students that were following me and watching me started vanishing right before my eyes, that's when I realized, maybe they aren't out to get me after all. It was my hallucinations that saved my life and the life of others. This was back in 2015 or so. Going home to hostile parents that hurt me and going to school to being severely bullied for my entire academic life did a real number on me. I'm 25. The abuse lasted 20 years straight. Now I got 4 diagnosises and medications and finally living peacefully in my home. I spread awareness every chance I get on mental health and illnesses, trauma and abuse. People need help, not be scolded or ashamed because they can't be "normal" like people want them to be. Make sense?
@oldmanhendo7183 I never took medication for any of that extreme stuff. I just put my faith in God that one day He was gonna take me out of there. That's what He did. I just dealt with it and cried myself to sleep. I endured. And wrote in my journal. That's a horror book if I have ever seen one. I only started taking prescribed Adderall for my Attention Deficit Disorder, and that only started this year. I don't wanna take any meds for any of the other stuff. Now I live 3,000 miles away from there, and all the horror in my head has mostly gone away. Throughout my whole teens, I desired being a serial killer, getting my revenge, hurting everyone, I developed a second personality even to cope with a lot of stuff. I don't wanna take meds for anything else. I only take Adderall and it's awesome. I've been A LOT better. A peaceful, beautiful town. This whole town is basically my asylum because it is extremely calm. NOTHING happens here, and everyone is extremely nice. Sorry if I added too much to the answer of your question. People just need to know, y'know? What could have been...
had what I believe to be psychotic delusions from May to June of 2022. The main one was that people could read my thoughts and knew what I was thinking, so I'd be nervous to a point of constant fidgeting and weird behavior in class. That coupled with my severe depression and anxiety (and possibly bipolar II) made me attempt to end my life in a drunken stupor one day in April/May. I would never wish that hell on anyone. It wasn't something that I carried for the whole month, there would be days that it would hardly even be a thought in my head, and other horrible days where I thought everyone around me could read up on the thoughts that were placed in my head. imagine for a second you have no constraint on the things whirling through your head, and you think other people are judging and shunning you because of your thoughts. I believed God talked to me through a book, and that famous musicians would spiritually control me while I played guitar. It took me a while to build courage to ask someone who I thought could read my mind if he could, he was concerned but told me that he couldn't. Since then I've made sure my thoughts sound sane and immediately denounce negative ideas that creep up on me. This really kinda stemmed from a year of self abuse and drug abuse, and it's taken so much time and effort but life is starting to look good and livable like it did so many months ago. If you're suffering from thing similar to what I described, please seek help. There are countless programs for mental stability and health.
omg i had the same thing happen to me for a month after i stopped smoking its hell i wish i had someone to ask whether what i was imagining was real or not
I’ve always had quite an imagination growing up, teachers would always tell me how “creative” I was. I was always obsessed with fantasy fiction books. I always wondered how humans came to be, and basically how and why our universe was created. For many years now, I have the same feeling that we are being watched. I feel like “eyes” follow us around everywhere observing us and analyzing us. Now, I don’t see literal eyes floating around everywhere, I just feel the presence of it. I feel like the world we live in is just fake. Well, recently someone showed me the movie,”The Truman Show” and gosh, the moment I saw it, I began to have a panic attack because it was insane how much of the movie resembled how I feel most of the time about people and the world around me. I later found out that people who think the way I do are labeled as psychotic. It never occurred to me, I just thought I was open minded. I usually have trouble talking about myself and this is the first time I’ve talked about my thoughts because they always seem so unreal and inappropriate, I do admit that.
eyes warching you can be true , only you may have taken it to another level, but God is real and the devil is real , amd you will have to get to know both to understand what is happening at times in your life and brain. eyes watching you is called monitoring eyes and has to to with witchcraft and is to be prayed against , witches and wizards will have to bow for the blood of Jesus , they have no right to come against any person , anyway, prayer and knowledge is the key, God is good .
Almost every thought i have is mirrored back to me through social media and songs. Its terrifying. If i think it or say it, ill see it again on social media or the tv. Sometimes i will see it as im thinking it. Not reading it. Thinking it.
I’m pretty sure I have some kind of catatonic schizophrenia, but my psychiatrist and therapist haven’t even given a proper diagnosis because I still need more testing to figure it out. Living with an undetermined mental illness means I can’t get the proper treatment, so I essentially just have to live with it right now. Whatever it is, it’s torn apart my social life and my own self health. I don’t fit in around anyone else, but I don’t fit in with myself either. As long as I have this mental illness I don’t thrive anywhere.
You're not alone my friend. I self isolate as much as possible. Sometimes even from my own family due to my social fears. Some days are better than others and I can be comfortable socializing with them. Even on my best days, I still struggle simply going to the gas station or grocery store and having to deal with the public. Even using self checkout amd not having to socialize with anyone, I still feel paranoid that everyone is staring or talking about me. In my defense, I live in Buttfuck, Mississippi.. Where at least half of the population truly are close-mknded country bumpkins who are preemptively judgmental. If you don't agree with them about everything or just don't fit into their "mold" of society then you do get funny looks and smart ass comments occasionally. So that doesn't help. However, I relaize that the majority of the time it's just my mind fucking with me. I'm to the point of quitong weed and getting in therapy. I just have to build up the courage/motivation to face a total stranger and tell them my deepest, most sensitive thoughts. Sorry for rambling. Just feels good to see all these comments and know that I'm not alone. I wish you only the best and I hope we can both overcome whatever disorder(s) we've been cursed with🤞
Please read this if your mental state is very bad, or if you seem disconnected with people or life. I was not in a good time last year. I used to go out with my mates and do drugs for fun but we were responsible and prepared to use them so nothing bad would happen to any of us. My life drastically changed badly after taking 3 tabs of acid in the space of 5 minutes. When i came up on it, my head was so noisy and could here voices about me going crazy and my body tensed up. My mates were chilling on acid too but didn’t make the stupid mistake i did by taking a bigger dose in a shorted period of time. Think of it as the room being quiet and peaceful naturally and me on the sofa arguing with myself and battling my own mind when i hear often phrases from a song repeating and voices judging me. I couldn’t sleep for 3 days and felt like the trip was 3 days anyway. After that my body was tense and i didn’t have a connection with reality for nearly half a year and as i was battling my own mind constantly i wasn’t my true self. All because of one silly mistake. I started meditating and my life is slowly becoming how it was before i did acid and i am in more touch with life and more self aware.
Hope you are well after two years, no one commented so here I am, thats some crap acid really sucks it seems its one of those things that randomly really mess a person up sometimes, I haven't done it an don't want too, all those psychedelics seem pretty sketchy in various ways an reasons
@@nathanael8612 Thanks and yeah it’s not worth it unless you’re prepared, but being prepared is just taking mini doses each time instead of loads at once
@@tbtnr9851 same here I'm kinda ok now but the drugs permanently fucked me up unfortunately I kinda went through the same thing but with different drugs.
Wow I actually recognize this in my self. Little and a lot sometimes. But usually it's just my inability to control my thoughts and my head would just ramble on about things that don't really matter to where I wouldn't be able to sleep. Luckily they come and go and it's been more than 10 years.
Bro I have this too, I start thinking about random things that have no meaning usually in the middle of the night and I start stressing out. Mine come and go and I normally solve it by just talking to someone for a sec or watching a random video.
My mind is a complete flood of thoughts. I was a high school teacher and now am in a motel and the noise in my head won't stop no career everything has become a blur.
When I was given the truth about life I couldn't go back... & once I discovered more & more .. I knew there was a deeper meaning to our lives... & our pain didn't just happen to happen... u must question it, & demand intelligence to take its place as it was meant to awaken your gifts not HINDER THEM....
Looking this up because I have been feeling super off the past month or so, and I definitely don't do drugs. I have been not caring about things much,not like a depression thing though, I just don't feel worried about important things I should worry about. I also feel like time is moving quicker and I cannot keep track of things and I keep feeling confused, as though almost nothing is adding up. I've also been feeling drowsy more than usual.
I hear negative voices and laughter and thought some real people were taunting me at my home. I found out someone is doing screenshots of someone's posts in a Facebook group I am in, someone warned people of someone doing that so admin in that group now know. Can't ask for advice, or rant on social media these days when negative people take your mental illness as a joke. Just ranting instead of bottling up my emotions. If someone is taking me to court for expressing how scared I am. Well nothing I can do about that. Trying to make a appointment with my doctor to talk about the negative voices and to get help for my mental health disorder again and to change medication. I keep hear hearing a female voice taunting and laughing at me and that is making me feel uncomfortable, scared and depressed. I don't know if I am just hearing my neighbours, or their friends near my place or there is some woman with a grudge and wanting to annoy and make me react.I hope my mind is just playing tricks on my mind and I am going through psychosis again and not being bullied by some random coming to my place
Mark Steve , yes , because when your stressed , anxious your perception is sharper , so you imagine you can hear people talking , but it is real to the person !
I don't know forsure if I have any type of thought problems but could maybe be a bit ocd or just ocd, I really don't like touching things anymore certain things, I haven't even opened my own front door with my bare hand in I don't know how long I can't remember the last time I did I wear gloves now an actually thought I'd be lookin kinda weird with gloves in the summer cause I've got kinda comfortable with gloves really takes the edge off of having to touch stuff
Diagnosed with PTSD and I don't hear anyone talking about this...sleep depervation due to being stuck in fight -or - flight! Can easily send you info psychosis it's important being you don't need all those medications!!!! Just sleep and feeling safe.
Although psychotic behavior exists, there are spiritual practices outside of Christianity that support the idea of the "Surrounding Element". This is usually recognized in meditative practices. Some people have been known to have the long term experience and exposure of certain forms that allow them to tap into it and perform unfathomable abilities. I'm referring to a Buddhist Abbot, Taoist Priest, Medicine Man, Witch Doctor, ECT.
When I feel depressed,, i feel like it’s my fault that I let it happened,, even with my friends letting me down,,, when they needed me I was on my way,, but when I needed them I had to wait,, it really sucks and I’m so sick of this shit, I can never be happy
the first time i was shooting a gun in my life was at a wedding,before grabbing the weapon i was afraid the recoil would be too much,but it was fine.But when i grabbed the loaded and ready gun i just had an sudden urge of turning around and shooting everybody,same thing with knifes.But luckily i never hurt anybody in my life(or myself).
Starting to get psychosis from my long term use of mdma and pot. At the moment, I can deduce whether a thought belief Is true or abnormal but I'm afraid as I get older, I will not. I should quit but its so damn addictive.
It is alright and I dream everyday that I'm still smoking pot and I ruin my 5month streak. One immediately change I noticed was that there was no negative internal dialogue. I've always said that I could tell it's going to be a good day the less I could hear my internal dialogue. Now that I'm completely sober from every substance I have a job and extra money. I honestly feel if you could overcome addiction you rank up in your emotional and mental strength. You learn about ppl and see they're just around because you got weed or if they really your friend. The dreams get crazier and vivid the longer you go it really kicks in around the 1st month. I smoked for 10 years with drinking and cocaine once in awhile, it became very taxing and added momentum to my mood swings. Although in regards to my general thoughts, I still feel like most people would turn against me if it was in their best interest so I avoid lengthy conversations and giving them ammunition to use against me. As an experiment, i didn't really speak to anyone during the first few weeks of work just to see who noticed. Very few people didn't care but most would try to bond with me thru gossiping or bullying someone else. Confirming my theory about people being cunning but not necessarily organized specifically against me, it really just is in their nature which is a characteristic they all have in common and could make it seem that way but it isn't. I still do believe in the 'hive' mentality and most people seem to be living day by day reacting to what happens to them and never really think for themselves or motivated to create positive momentum. What abnormalities do you feel are not normal in your thought pattern?
@@donaloregan7481 Even in taking too much weed at once can induce a significant psychotic episode. It's not as personally noticeable over a long period of regular use, however cognitive function definately appears to be affected when put to the test
Mood disorders run in my family. I have had moments of mild hallucinations, and am prone to them even with very mild sleep deprivation. I know this intellectually and take steps to counter this... I also have a tendency to have flare ups where I start to have weird blurring of instances from old dreams and feel like I am unsure of what I have experienced and what is a dream, at times. History of dissociation due to early and severe trauma. And even as a child would battle paranoid thoughts that I knew intellectually were not true...like my brain would think of something awful and I would panic with the worry that someone was hearing my thoughts and would lash out. Odd fears too. Like if I look through the peep hole of my apartment door I have a scary feeling that someone will peep up and start screaming. This has extended to a variety of weird terrors. That I could have a brain aneurysm rupture or that someone will shoot me through a window at a coffee bar. The fears seem to skip around to fast actions that could happen in an instancs. I feel like the more irrational/ paranoid thoughts are often linked to horrible thoughts of doing harm to myself or intrusive thoughts that I believe are likely OCD related (biological father has severe OCD but was sadistic to me as a young child, biological mum had compulsions without obsessive ruminating), but I have waning moments where I can feel my brain tugging towards something very disordered and then I fight it off and remind myself that my difficulties sleeping, OCD like thoughts and history of abuse have made me very fearful of anyone being a threat and my imagination is over the top. I know it's way too hyperactive. Most days, when I am doing well...those symptoms die down. But I have had a few events that make me very nervous. For example, when I was a kid I also had OCD like thoughts and compulsions to reduce my anxiety. I had a phobia of stabbing myself in the eye with scissors or knives (this one flares up...especially with scissors). It still flares up occasionally, along with my fear of throwing myself down an escalator. Not an actual wish but an almost demonic assault on my mind when overwhelmed. I read up on intrusive thoughts and did not think much about it until one evening when I was drinking some red wine, given to me as a gift, I had the thoughts reach critical mass. I was undoubtedly very depressed at the time (distantly knew I was depressed but in a removed "I'm not feeling connected to my own life" way) and ended up crying after the second glass (that's all I had) and grabbed a fork and stabbed it into my hand. Not enough to do tremendous damage but badly enough to cut through the flesh and produce quite a bit of blood. I remember reacting in a sort of split horror and yet drive to continue doing so and I think that was the most horrified I have ever been because I knew at some level...that this was beyond strange and obviously the alcohol mixed with both depression and OCD like thoughts increased my risk of following through on the thoughts to reduce anxiety. I have not had much in the way of visual hallucinations...a few, mild. Many more auditory hallucinations. I am quite prone to hearing many voices talking, and speaking so fast that at first it sounds like white noise. Usually what they say is random, weird phrases that don't make sense. Sometimes they will say odd things that make up splintered sentences. I recall one time, right on the periphery of sleep jolting up because something terrified me and to this day I seem to have this weird schism in my brain where I sort of blocked out what was said. It's sort of like being in a fog, although this generally happens when I have difficulties sleeping. If my sleep is very poor I can hear snippets even when awake and will feel everything stretch out and seem very cotton batton-y and also emotionally removed. I have gone through some severe trauma both in childhood and adulthood and have a tendency to disengage emotionally. I can go quite numb when under stress and feel so distant at times that I am sure aspects of what has happened to me would qualified as more than a bit not good, but with a history of seizures and trauma, I sometimes wonder if aspects could be something like an absence seizure? I sort of feel like something neurologically based comes over me, especially when run down or sick, and diminishes when I am physically healthy. I have been wondering about seizures for awhile since I had quite a few as a child, but they were relatively infrequent so they did not diagnose me with epilepsy although they specified that I am prone to them. For example, I am more likely to have absence seizures when sleep deprived and that was determined to be sporadic. It's weird because I feel like I have definite symptoms at times that one would say would line up with aspects of psychosis but I feel like intellectually I never lose sight of the fact that my brain is screwing around with me. I never completely trust my mind to be telling me the truth although sometimes my fear response cuts in (more with intrusive thoughts or when I am forced to engage with something that I have an irrational fear of...) I have social anxiety disorder and there is this weird crossover where I become highly anxious if I hear people whispering near me because I am convinced they are mocking me but a part of me knows that's likely not happening. Hard to explain. I feel it's anxiety to such an extreme that it is driving behaviours that I know are bizarre to just get the anxiety to reduce. Other times, when I have been in a healthier states...it all quiets down and I can blend in and not have the same degree of troubling thoughts. I feel like my mind itself is sane and does not lose sight of reality but the intrusive thoughts and the ease with which I start to hear things that are not there when I am sleep deprived even mildly...seems very "on the edge" of something that arguably intersects with mental illness. I do have a friend with schizophrenia and her life diverges wildly from mine. I can work and function well and stay in reality, and the worst that people see is anxiety (often driven by thoughts that seem to insert themselves into my minds eye...although it's not consistent. It can flare up and receed.) I have always had a tendency to get lost in my own world and sometimes I feel the edges of the world I create blur with the so called real world without losing the perspective that there is definitely something neurological which is off. I have even gone non-verbal when very stressed and sometimes feel separated from life and people. Other thoughts were anxieties about being manipulated or tested or the sense that everything is a simulation and someone is merely toying with me. Again, they have a paranoid basis even if I am not firmly convinced. It's like the anxiety that they could be flares up.
I pray you find a way to heal... and I pray you even help your friend, she may need you and you her... but I pray you start understanding how to be mentally free and find peace of mind and create a peaceful, happy, lovely life... much love and blessings to you 🙏🏿❤️❤️❤️
I myself am dealing with my mental disorder, while trying to be a normal person...I don't know if I'm going to make it but I know you will... you're grown and free from your family... now you can make the decisions to help and heal yourself, search for yourself and find yourself...me I'm still living with my toxic family hiding and dealing with my problems alone, u older than me meaning your free... Enjoy the fact that your free, try to help others, love more and know yourself...more blessings to you ❤️
I feel you, the only way I found for this is to forget about it as simple as that. The more you think about it the more you'll give your mind the chance to come up with new fucked up things that are unlikely to happen. Also hanging out with normal ppl helps you connect with reality too. So just try to convince yourself that you're a normal guy that just happen to have an over creative mind and the only way to shut it down is not using it to the point you start forgetting about it. Starve it untill it dies (your over creative fucked up part of it at least). Wish you the best brother.
Right there with you, man. I have been having trouble lately but I am 37 now. My anxiety and sleep deprivation was much worse when I was younger. I too have slipped into these weird foggy thoughts, memories, dreams that they start to blur. I've experienced so many cool and comforting thoughts/dreams/delusions and also terrifying ones. It's like movies playing in your head, some real, some not. It started with panic attacks, and then into just severe sleep deprivation for like days and days. It was like sleeping while awake. The dreams are happening but I'm just laying there awake or something or zombied out. It scared me so bad because I have a family. Wife and 2 kids and the thought of going crazy and leaving my babies with a dad who is too sick to deal with things makes me cry and feel even worse. I am sorry that happened to you. Let's try to remember that right now we are okay, and we are in control. We are not crazy. The real crazies don't take time to evaluate themselves the way that you have. I was always scared that I was schizophrenic especially when I would experience these symptoms. But I can say with 99% certainty that the reaction is normal and a product of a tired mind. I had a cousin who was schizophrenic and he was saying things that made no sense or rambling about people following him. And it was permanent... Nothing like what I went through, thank God.
I live with this, it got so bad I started cutting into my face my tendons my veins, but now I train 4 hours a day, and a keep moving to divert the thoughts, it's the worst feeling, I lost my friends can't engage with people properly can bearly speak, I don't feel human, but everyday you got to get up and fight it, and you got to convince yourself that you can beat it, doctors put me on 3 different medications that didnt work, the only thing that worked so far was out racing it ❤❤
Hearing people talking about me and laughing at me and at the things am doing in my room... Thinking there's a big conspiracy only I don't know about. Thinking my phone's hacked, thinking once I step out people are waiting to look at me and laugh at me. Believing am being video recorded and ganged up on. I attacked people about two times, opened my ceiling looking for hidden cameras, at I set the house on fire. This is a slowly growing problem and most people who suffer mostly in west Africa here, are ashamed to speak up or can't afford therapy and the rest. I have lost the love of my life to this, my house. Am going to start medication and I plead with you guy especially Nigerians don't sleep on your mental wellness just cause your not working naked on the road just yet.
I shut down under high stress, I am unable to focus, think straight and communicate, I am probably acting psychotic and I can hear my co-workers trash talk me from across the room. I wonder if I hallucinate but I believe they are most likely trash talking for real because I am acting strange, which stresses me out even more and reinforces my paranoid negative thinking.
ɹǝsn snoɯʎuouɐ I already changed jobs and am working in a different field now. It is not a high stress environment to begin with and people are more open minded. :)
@@eddieortiz873 for me it's always situational, I feel like this for shorter periods, maybe a few days. It is always combined with a guilty conscience for me. I still think my co workers were talking about and looking at me BUT I probably interpreted there looks as judgemental when the were not. There are 1 or 2 who's comments were malicious and they were clearly bullying me, which stressed me out tremendously and made me spiral in the first place, inducing guilt and shame. (I'm ENFJ so I do care about how people see me and my reputation) or maybe they were just bored and joking around but still that's screwed up in my book. Nasty sarcasm. Anyway I just focus on my co workers who like and support me and don't give a damn about what teh rest thinks of me. They are already below me and can't bring me down. In the situation itself it is important not to deal with all of this on your own, talking with trusted people who support you and know how not to judge you and reassure you is key. (I tend to feel shame for opening up but if you bring it up in a more lighthearted way they will probably not judge) Just be concious of who you talk to. Also avoiding a guilty conscience of course. Be kind and compassionate to yourselfes, do not take on the judgement of others.
I was on vacation in Costa Rica and smoked some strong weed that triggered psychosis. I lost my mind completely and it lasted a year. I lost everything and ended up getting arrested twice for possession. Psychosis made me not able to make any good decisions and it almost killed me. I somehow survived and am now in full recovery from psychosis. The most important thing is to get sober if you are suffering psychosis.
One time I had psychosis and I couldn't sleep for 5 days and was hallucinating really bad I went to mental hospital for 2 days I've been normal ever since lol
Best advice i can give is pray for your soul to be protected and accept the changes. You dont got too be religious but you want that personal relationship that gives you comfort when you are disscoating you're worried where you are going to go. The sky is beautiful but also creepy we are in a big world times seem worrisome find that comfort with god
I had a psychosis when i was 15 for about two months. Something that my doctor recebtly said i had. I just thought it was a long mental breakdown. I first thought thst the mosqueits carried Malaria (i live in Sweden where there is no malaria) i slept with winter clothes when it was 23+celcius and refused to leave my room no matter how hot it would be inside of it. Later i started to believe that people watched me through my phone, that random people on the street would hurt me. I had never experinced such fear, terror and anxiety in my life. Everyday for those months i believed i was gonna die. Luckily i had a very kind high school counselor that helped me practically stay sane so after some time i managed to get back to reality.
i wish i knew what was wrong with me even if there was 1 person that could relate to my thoughts would comfort me in the smallest way its a hard life this one.
I have the same thing I believe everyone in the world is making fun of me and things I'm dying you have no idea what that means but I made up a story in my mind 3 years ago that people watch me and know what's in my mind and they think I'm high and dying you have no idea what I'm talking about and I have to put something over my phone camera because it feels like someone's watching me and I can't go outside because it seems like someone's going to kidnap me or kill me and it feels like people are watching me day and night
I was trying to sleep one day, and I didn’t sleep that night at all because I was under my cover and I believed I was paralyzed and I didn’t try to move, voices in my head were telling me I was dead and in a coffin for whatever reason I believed that and remained motionless for another few hours, before finally falling asleep 10 minutes before school.
My older brother is going through this and we really dont know what to do as a family,i am the last born,my eldest brother passed away in 2021 andbefore his passing, my immediate older brother started exhibiting signs of psychosis, its so bad,he doesnt change clothes,stays in his room all day, when he comes out,he mumbles and is humming to himself,its a whole mess, i live in Zambia where treatment is literally impossible, he lost his job because of this and believes me and my mother are enemies and has a nasty hatred towards us. Its so sad because he was such and intelligent man,a script writer at that. This video breaks my heart even more
I see them I see thier faces everyday every night I hallucinate them even when they're not there I spend hours talking to them asking for thier forgiveness the people I've hurt in the end they all smile and don't say anything.
I am diagnosed with mental disorder, since 2020 depression disorder anxiety disorder and Psychotic disorder and i having psychosis for many years now .
you are not paranoid ,God is watching you and want the best for you , angels exist and want to help you , devil and demons are watching you and want the worse for you and for people around you just pray and use the name of Jesus, plenty information to be found everywhere , starting with a bible
I took drugs underaged which ended up in me having psychosis. I just hope everyone here is okay. I’m starting to think things aren’t real. Which I’m trying to talk myself out of.
The way my brain thinks is like when you're is in hard stress and panik 24/7 my brain never relaxes because I'm most of the time thinking about my problems and how to solve them. I feel like/am im very bad socialy and that started with social fobia me enagening that if someone looks at me something is wrong with me and my ego always believed I had to be perfect
My entire marriage fell apart because of this bizarre state that our brains are susceptible to. Do NOT think you are safe from psychosis. I experienced my first and only episode when I was raped at 14. So when my husband came to me even though he was beating me at the time, I knew what was ailing him from the symptoms he described. He never got help but the psychosis drove him violent to a point where I almost lost my life. I filed a restraining order since he wouldn’t get help and our local crisis unit would not help. The cops would not help. I’m now divorced and will forever be heart broken that my ex won’t ever be the man he was. Psychosis stopped but he was never the same. My heart goes out to all who have been affected. Please listen to those around you. Please see a neuro psychologist if you can bc I don’t care if I offend those in mental health with this statement but psychology is the only group of dr medicine that does not require seeing an organ in its current state before prescribing. That’s insane. That’s not right.
I have severe OCD and I also have comorbidity with a few psychotic symptoms. I always feel objects are alive and are watching me and know what I am thinking and can see everything in my head. it used to give me full-blown panic attacks but on medication has lessened the attacks and how severe I react to them.
Gosh I relate to this hard. I have OCD and one of the key things in my life is a constant feeling like people watch me through objects. Never reading my mind, they can only so that if I touch their objects. I eventually got used to being watched though sometimes it becomes too much and I yell and cuss them out for watching me and start having a mental breakdown. T.T But im very glad medication helped for you!
I had a psycotic episode once. I was fully convinced there was a bomb in my backpack so i told the school and I ended up being hospitalized for a week just in case it was full blown psychosis.
I see a animal that's never there, I hear a voice idk most of the time it's comforting and never negative and never has been, it's only negative to other people sometimes
Developed similar symptoms earlier this year after a deep depression. Didn't break though(experienced to much shit to let worldly matters break me) and was able to maintain being grounded even though some of the original reasons for the start of the psychosis was justified.
This perfectly describes what has been happening to me lately and how I've been feeling. I am currently having a slight break from reality due to the continuous truama that I had to endure and still endure in my life until this day and from past iv drug use. I actually finally got health insurance so I just set up a visit with a therapist and psychiatrist today. The crappy part is that I have to go about this on my own without anyone elses support but my own
@@nicoleshelly1225 and thank you for telling me , i am trying to get som insight . my son is having trouble so therfore i am trying to gather as much information as possible through people who have similar problems, . i am now not only concermed for my son but for eveyone around the world having to cope with it and i really like to read some of your experiences , thank you , a mum
What do I do for my husband who is in a delusional state that has now completely taken over his reality and some days he thinks I’m a liar and the enemy. What can I do to help him? No one seems to be able to help-Husband is a disabled Veteran. He has a routine visit over phone with a psychiatrist and they don’t see or hear what I do at home. I have been dealing with this hell for over 3 years now and no one is helping me.
I'm scared I'm going through this. I know it's chemically induced too, since ive been smoking weed since i was 14. When I first started smoking weed, it was fun. It remained fun until I had my first psychotic episode when i was finishing grade 10 (so i was 16 turning 17). I ended up seeing something in my closet and thought it was some demon smiling at me lol. I literally got up and tried boxing it. The amount of fear I had in me then was enough for me to decide I was done with weed. Then i quit for a while and i was happy.. until a few shitty situations later. I ended up caving back into my pot head life again in december 2021. It helped for a little, but overtime it worsened my already shitty ocd and kept me in a psychotic rut until now. I have been able to tell the difference between thought and reality before it began but now it's like I'm wondering in a fog. I know this is all in my head, but sometimes I'm afraid it's becoming too real. I feel like if I just quit weed, my psychosis and all the symptoms of it will go away. Slowly but surely I will get better. It doesn't matter to anyone in the end so typing this is pointless... but it helped me to type it out. I'm going to quit weed starting on my birthday. The 28th of August. Hopefully this will cure my mind.
@@FRIENDPIRA it's going okay so far. I fully quit smoking weed a couple days ago and I feel like I'm slowly being able to think straighter than before. I still have some distorted thinking but it's much easier to put it behind me. Weed was one of my ways to cope so it's a bit hard to not think about smoking it. i have to remind myself what it does to my mind and then im able to stop craving it. Ive also been drinking alot of water too. It helps with flushing the chemicals out of my system and stuff. I feel like as the days go by i will feel better more and more. Thank you for asking.
@@yurei2222 can you explain me what you mean "distorted thinking" ? btw small tip " cause weed and other drugs caused me some similar things , i changed it with prescribed sleeping pills alcoholics often use, works good without this psychosis effect.
I never had a schizophrenic episode in my life until some guy bought me a drink and hours later I started seeing things and could not sleep, I would see scary looking things in walls like demons and in people.. when I would scratch my arm the feeling would be delayed and wouldn't show up until seconds later and when people would talk the words would be delayed with their mouths. The tv would also talk to me and this was literally after I had a drink from some stranger. ( first time it wasn’t even alcohol it was a regular drink ) This “episode“happened for months until my parents realized they couldn’t do anything. I called the police the same night and they tested my blood for drugs and said nothing was found in my system, I was just paranoid. Then, eventually I had to go to the mental hospital because I couldn't sleep for months even when I tried to. This happened in 2018, no schizophrenics in my family or nothing. Now in 2020 back in June the same thing happened some guy bought me a drink , my friend drank out of it as well and nothing happened to her ( I swear I had felt a pill ) and I had another episode and had to go to the mental institution because I wasn't in my right mind, seeing and hearing things. They said I had psychosis and schizophrenia, is it my mind playing tricks on me making me think they did something to my drink or am I actually schizophrenic because I never experienced this ever, the first time it happened I was 19. Now I am 22.
You possibly opened your third eye, that’s the symptoms or “abilities” of it. Sounds crazy and like bullshit but it’s true, mines open and I experience similar stuff but much more. If you tell people about it then yeah people will think your mental, I could link you info if you want
I believe deeply that this is connected to some evil tampering with and trying unworthy things for fun then it triggers. Moods are mental ita all about your history and what you learn and experienced in time till now. Everyone needs love and attention if not, they turn to what ever makes them feel good.
narcissistic abuse can make you think you are crazy and actually make you start hearing your abusers voice calling for you from a distance. check if the people around you are safe
I feel like I’ve been experiencing Psychosis now for over 2 years and I just don’t know what to do anymore.. I’m trying my hardest to get through this.
i see your comment and i am surprised that nobody is answering you . so . i will . you say you think you have psychosis . but the fact that you can reason is allready a sign that you are oke.. its not all that bad . but maybe you can point out the things that you ,re experiencing . i know for a fact that people are often not understood and therefore you feel very lonely in what you are going through , maybe if you can point out your ( wrong) thoughts you can get help to get you out of it .
Laptop M I appreciate you! Tbh what has been going on has been very difficult to explain to anyone. I’ve tried to word it to several people and I still couldn’t word it out to them. I even try to like break down what’s happening to myself and I still can’t. It’s like I hear a voice in my head but it’s my voice and it speaking over my own thoughts. Saying really fucked up things like one time it was saying I was going to die soon. And I actually believed it. But that was over a year ago now. It hasn’t spoke much on that recently but it’s been saying other things and also speaking in a language I can’t really understand and I even will speak it out loud too. Randomly. And it sounds like a Demons chant. That’s the best way I can describe it. Like not human. And about each night I would speak in this language but only for a few brief moments. When I’m trying to sleep in the night, the voice will be whispering things saying all kinds of shit. There’s been a couple nights where the voice in my head changed to not my voice anymore but very like dark and evil and it said it was Satan. And I was terrified. This lasted for about 3 hours. And it felt like I was having a conversation with Satan. The voice would even echo. And I remember saying I’m with God I’m with God I’m with God and then it said “ Gods not going to save you !” Very angrily. And would even mock me when I was praying. Other things I can think of is rage. I been having these rage moments that just come instantly. And I just completely explode and I start raging. I’ve been trying my best to control it.
@@stayhazy2478 i thank God who made me to text you and i thank you for texting me back, i can see from your writing that you are not realy a believer but i think you should now know that Gud exists and so does devil, oke , where can i start , i wil tell you something and then give you some names that you can try on you tube and see what i am talking about, i cant yet figure out yet if you are a believer, but i can see that you lack knowledge, bible say; my people perish because of lack of knowledge , so you say; it was as IF you had a conversation with satan, no dear, not as IF , it realy is true, demons talk and they talk all kind of things , the devil is here to kil , steal ( life, sanity, hope, joy) and destroy, God is here to help, build up, give peace , and destroy the works of the devil, that is why Jesus died , but we have to open our mouths, and use His name , i will give you names, that MAY BE to high in level for you , than just find something to build you up as well first, but to let you understand that all you are saying is not a strange thing at all please go to , jeremiah omoto fufuyin, or joshua selman , pick something out that interest you , and see for yourself,, i give you reliable names whom i know are real man of God , not fake,, God bless you . ow , and me myself, before i ever knew God , somebody who died was talking to me and i said, now it is enough , go sway and the image of the dead person left , its an image that the devil uses, never the dead person itself , God bless you , you are not crazy and if you start searching now you never will be
@@stayhazy2478 from today . dont give the devil chance to talk to you for 3 hours , shut him up . in Jesus name . the bible says that we have the authority to step upon snakes and scorpions . so the devil has nothing to say, he is under our feet .. to control your mind though , i did that when i was realy young, but i know for a fact that we need the right kind of help too , let me know about your journey , Bless you
It puts you into a state where nothing matters in a good way. You truly don't give a shit about anything and you're just happy as fuck as a result, because nothing matters. Nothing matters, nothing means anything, there's nothing to do, there's no point, there's no goal but there's also no boredom, there's no negative meanings attached to the meaninglessness, it's just perfectly meaningless and it's awesome. You're basically just like sitting like a cat on a windowsill enjoying whatever experience is before it, just being and it feels amazing. 🦄
I had an episode that lasted such a long time. It was fkng terrifying. I started to believe I was going to be sent to jail for things I hadn't even done. I was out on seroquel and clopromazine for it which took the edge off but ultimately I had to pull myself out of it. The worst day of it i can recall was when I cut my arms with a razor and was Sat in my room trying to gouge a hole in the wall cause I be!ived there was a parallel universe inside the wall where id be safe. It was brutal and I'm still recovering. You can get well again. It takes time but you can recover.
I don’t know if I have psychotic depression but I keep getting this sinking feeling that I’m already dead and in purgatory or hell. Also I have this sharp pain in my back that shoots through my chest like a knife and numbness/tingling sometimes burning in my arms but I’ve had MRI’s, X-rays, an EMG study, and blood tests but the doctors said everything was normal and they can’t explain my symptoms. Whenever I think things can’t possibly get worse they always do. I feel like I’m cursed.
High functioning psycho here. Delusions, panic attacks, auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations my whole life. Learn to deal with it and don't let it show. I accept that these things are normal for me. It is the way reality is perceived. I know that others perceive it differently and will interpret those perceptions in various ways. As long as you continue to be able to perceive as others do, then you have no problem. Learn from unusual perceptions, but don't indulge in the weirdness or talk about it to those who don't get it.
Hello, may I ask on how do you wanna be treated? In no offense, I'm just curious as my partner is in a mental facility today so I can understand him by the time he gets out and by the time he is with me. Thank you Sir.
I think I have it, I have anxiety and “depression” and I had an illusion when I woke up, it sounded like someone said something and started yelling at me. I got scared and tried to get out of it but I couldn’t control it, they sounded evil. I was so confused as it sounded so clear and real now I’m scared I have this. I had other of its affects before but I thought it was normal. But there’s no way in hell that was normal. I’m hoping it’s just cause I’m sick and dizzy but I don’t know.... when the voice finally went away i walked into the bathroom to try and clear my head.
Would it be considered a hallucination if I hear past conversations in my head that make me feel most of the time bad sad or embarrassed and reply as if it happened right then and there?
@Nicole it’s actually not. That’s just a excuse of people, who gossip, to feel better. Of course a lot of people gossip, but there are some, who don’t and it definitely isn’t a human trait. It’s not a needed part in our communication. :)
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i fell into a deep depression and wouldnt leave my room because i believed people were waiting outside to harm me. i started hearing full on conversations with people who werent there. it was the scariest month of my life.
Mark Mendoza Hernandez Hope things are better for you now
Mark Mendoza Hernandez just because your paranoid don’t mean there not after you
ye same we are rarely violent
Do u use drugs
@@Scott.18348 wow were you the voices it his/her head?
I don't have Psychosis or nor am I schizophrenic. I'm here because I wanted to be more aware about it and my heart goes out to anyone who's truly going through this I know it's not easy.
I’m trying to find out what I have but this seems spot on I’m just not delusional or see stuff but all the moon and how I had go through my day today is spot on
Moods*^
It’s nice to know that at least there are some people out there who try to learn about and understand these things. It’s hard to go through something like psychosis alone.
I'm feeling the "no motivation" one and I'm finding myself feeling less and less emotions good ones atleast
And my memories get scattered at times aswell
Oh yeah and I feel like I wanna strangle or kill something 😁😐
For me im here trying to get it
Psychosis is pure hell. You can’t tell the difference between delusion and reality, and it’s terrifying
does it get better?
@@howdyhey nope, you just pray for death or end it
How sad to go thru that. I have bipolar depression, and fight my sleep. there were times after being awake for 16 hrs I'd be so overtired the 1 time I was doing laundry trying to convince myself I needed to finish and go lay down. but I pictured myself somewhere else with friends they were talking and I caught myself comment "out loud" I snapped out of it, it scared me, I thought that's not good ! It was as if I was dreaming. It's happened a couple of times , a conversation in my head and I'll say something out loud snap out of it, it's after being awake for that many hours, and at the point of falling asleep standing up, feeling mentally and physically exhausted. I asked the nurse practitioner she said that's nothing to worry about( although she'd say anything just to get on to the next patient and go home) so I don't know what to think 🤔🤯
I feel paranoid and it's the source of my lack of growth and feeling terrible and alone.
Absolutely. I wouldn’t wish it on anybody. I’m always scared that I’m going to fall right back into it.
Imagine before science like the 1800s how many ppl suffered with conditions like these
Imagine I can find a doctor in 35 years now
In my record it says I have psychosis
I found my file somewhere when I was a kid I was sneaking up behind the staff on the computer and when I read what it said it said I have psychosis plus I think I’m a lil insane I’m 21 now I’m glued to my tv and electronics all days and my room is a hot mess and I refuse to take my meds cuz it makes me feel worse and I stay up all night like an 🦉
Called them demons and performed exorcisms on them
@@uidfuJOEYslfs facts
I fiend of mine was in psychosis for almost 7 months, he was hearing voices and feeling tingling sensation on his skin. Severely sleep deprived and smoking heavily. He was delusional, thinking someone hacked his brain. But he was just functioning normal, going to work and meeting up with his family and friends. As the voices got laugher he was hospitalized, came to find out it was a tumor. After the surgery he was back to his old self and doesn’t smoke at all.
I think I developed psychosis by knowing people were talking about me then when I confront they’re fake so then I could never truly reassure which caused psychosis thanks to them being fake
Joel Beeton even when it’s there fault or partly or didn’t believe them or me devolope these problems through
Neglect so all about the cure not the prevention another step backwards in mental health etc then 😞
Don't blame anyone not even yourself remember that.
But still you developed a sickness not many people in your position would
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True
Psychosis is developed by Low Interaction with people along with negative interactions that end interactions with others.
I suffer from psychotic depression with excessive audio hallucinations, paranoia and delusions etc. and this was spot on. My panic attacks and inability to express myself has cost me a few good friendships because I'd think they were plotting something against me, like Steve Carell in Shmuck For Dinner as well as going heavy on sarcastic humor and over-the-top compliments that came across as mean and creepy. I'm better off a tribe of one.
ᕼᑌᗰᗩᑎ ᖴᗴᒪᒪᗩ sounds similar to what I went through, also thought the illuminati was trying to kill me
I bet you are a high conflict person that plays the victim to perfection. My guess is others find you highly manipulative, but you think they are full of shit. You like to obsess on people trying to help you and they always let you down, so you hurt them in response. Correct? Your psychosis is really schizophrenia because you can't live with yourself in your mind.
ᕼᑌᗰᗩᑎ ᖴᗴᒪᒪᗩ we love you brotha. You are apart of the human tribe🤝
No one is alone here with shit. I m suffering from it and hv sufferd heavily
Guys can you all tell me your experiences privately, Because I think I have something similar but ai want to be sure before trying to talk with a psycologist
I think I have psychosis, from constant on going trauma honestly.. I thjnk very irrationally and worry about crazy things but not to the point where I'm paranoid
See a doctor! Stop messing about!
Could be just anxiety
Well im not a doctor but i have heard many say that crazy people don't know that they are crazy and same goes with psychosis. If you have psychosis you have no idea.
@@fiddyoda you're tripping, people with psychosis can clearly tell it's happening
@@mftripz8445 Well tell that to the next person with psychosis who thinks that the government and aliens are after him and that he has a chip under his skin. Its a loss of reality. If they truly understood that they have a psychosis they would not believe in all the delusional things they believe in for the moment.
I experienced cannabis induced psychosis once and man is was terrifying. I was hearing people talk about me to eachother, everything was moving slowly, I saw shadows and bright fuzzy colours, I couldn’t stop twitching and I was convinced I was dying and that my face and throat were swelling. Completely mortified.
You SOUND LIKE A me IN 8th Grade at Lunch you’ll be fine , no such thing
@@Gio_Greenlllor he smoked fent
Boy you was just high as hell
@@vitaminwater6235yeah. Cannabis helps make people forget things and stupid.😅
For how long were you in the psychosis?
I've lost interest in most things, and I'm not very social, nor am I motivated to do anything. Not to mention I also like talking to myself, along with thinking that people talk about me, or judge me. And let's not forget the fact I have bi polar depression 🤦♀️
This is so me I can't even talk properly from these thoughts
luv u
And I thought I’m alone haha
Me too
Me too .. I thought I was alone
I used to be sad, pitiful of my situation. Now im just mad, mad with the people i love, the people i dislike and myself.
Ebony Stills same
Don't blame the humans for being the way they are that's their nature... be mad at those who actually know better and still refuse to be decent.
Whiskey straight will drive the blues away, yea I grabbed my gun an broke the barrel down, put that joker six feet in the ground, yea got the blues can't be satisfied
That’s called a defense mechanism
I believe I might be going through this right now. I've been depressed and anxious since I was 12 or do, but this s experience is far worse than any thing I've felt before. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'll do the same for others to. Compassion and understanding are key.
Donovan how are you ? It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep .
I been feeling anxious all day . It feels like I’m going to have a heart attack .
Are you okay ? I need help
@@coronavirus4287 u good?
I hope you are okay
God bless you I hope you are doing better
❤️❤️ praying for you for healing and acceptance during your journey wether that is psychosis or any other mental issues. it’s not easy, im struggling with the same stuff rn but we’ll make it!
Psychiatry is not 100 percent decent medical profession, many mental health workers are cruel when the camera is not on them
Why is that
Unfortunately in my case a Psychiatrist told me he wanted me to suffer, when i told him about my mental health. This in my opinion is very cruel and extremely sadistic to want another person to suffer, its very cruel.l when i complained about it i found mental health staff very nasty. I will never forgive Psychiatry for showing me absolutely no empathy or kindness, its not just me a'lot of innocent people are abused by Psychiatry
I simply don't understand why they would do that to you in my experience this hasn't happened to me yet but I do see them doing smart remarks like sure when I tell her my problems
well i am happy that you've not had a bad experience that's good i'm happy for you.For years i went over it in my mind why would a Doctor be so cruel for no reason. It makes no sense ? i was really friendly and polite to the Psychiatrist he had no reason to be wicked to me. He even said he didn't care about me, i was so scared of this Psychiatrist i refused treatment by them. If you look up speak out against Psychiatry facebook you will see lots of vulnerable people have been abused by Psychiatry. I wish this never happened to me it made me feel very disturbed by what this psychiatrist said.My friend was stabbed to death when i told this to the Psychiatrist he replied its normal for people to stab people i disagree, i don't think its normal to stab people i think stabbing people is a disgusting thing to do i wish i had a recording device on me i could have got him struck off the Medical register. best wishes to you
I have been studying Psychopathy for 25 yrs now. I have come to the conclusion the Psychiatrist i saw was a person with no empathy, a person with these traits is a Psychopath. This Psychiatrist was a full blown Psychopath also a very wicked evil person
I had psychosis when I was in high school. The reason why I had it was mostly because of school. My parents did play a role in it. I know school was a major factor because during breaks from school (Thanksgiving, Christmas, spring break etc) I felt more sane. As I returned to school from those breaks my mental health would quickly decline. Fuck high school.
Did you got rid of it and how?
@@bsjsbsbsjk9059 I still get mild disconnections from reality, and they can last for a couple of days at a time. Stressful days at work, and or worrying about life (more specifically health issues,money issues, relationship issues) seems to increase the likeliness (anxiety, and panic attacks as well). But de-stressing everyday helps. I try to stay away from drama as much as possible (it increases stress hormones, and anxiety).
Everyday when I get home I do something relaxing for a while (message beds, chairs, and machines at the gym,long hot shower followed by listening to peaceful music/sounds for a bit, tanning in the hot sun, cold packs on my back/joints during the hot months while watching TV/listening to peaceful music/sounds).
Also, reconnect with nature! Long walks (preferably in nature parks, or a rural area that's safe) a few times per week. That way you can hear, see, and reconnect with nature (humans are just more evolved primates btw. We're still evolving to adapt to society, so we still need to reconnect with nature.
To help get emotions back you need to hang out with a trusted friend (teamwork related tasks/video games help well if done properly). Also, teach the person with psychosis about personal hygiene (like washing daily/properly, using mouthwash/brushing teeth properly, keeping acne/body oder under control, dressing appropriately based on weather/temperature/activities).
Seeing a licensed psychiatrist, and getting a personal diagnosis is strongly recommended.
Omg thanks for this
Are you on some maintained antipsychotic? Or are you able to function without them?
@@adamo36532 I don't take any anti psychotic drugs.
I got PTSD and bipolar schizophrenia and epilepsy sezuire from a brain 🧠 tumor surgery 2 years ago she totally right i stamp ✅ dat I'm blessed to see 25 this year i was shock wen my doctor 👨⚕️👩🏾⚕️ and Allah 🤕🙏🏾 brought me back to life im truly appreciate and blessed to be here 💯
Sometimes i feel things that aren’t there and sometimes I get the urge to scream sometimes parts of my body just twitch for no reason some times i can feel my veins
Same
Literally me rn. Idk what's happening, but i feel terrified and i feel like someone is outside the window. I want to scream and cry and laugh at the same time. I hope it goes away asap
Your on crack no kizzy
@lola adam did it go away?
I have the same thing idk if it's a byproduct of sleep deprivation or something worse
My hopes and prayers to everyone in this comment section dealing with psychosis.
As I recently had another episode last night. Wish you all the best. Before yesterday I was like almost a year without an episode. It's very hard when you mind plays tricks.
Stay positive!!! 🤞🏽I have love for you all !
I believe I am an Orange
As someone who suffer from borderline personality disorder, adhd, ocd and general anxiety.
I can speak from experience and say paychotic episodes/behavior is both the best i ever felt and at the same time the scariest thing i ever experienced.
I wish others could understand more😔
Some understand but do not manifest it.
if only they knew
@@kaeji_namitsua you don't understand it till you lived with it the doctors only know so much their selves they don't know everything plus it affects people differently like I live with it and have been diagnosed but I can't explain what it's like to people it's just fucked I wouldn't wish it on anyone I've been smoking weed 8 years now daily because I feel more normal when I'm high and it's like getting high gives me a rest from it I just feel like I'm in a dream all the time with things I can't understand or explain but it happens luckily I'm sort of strong minded and I can deal with it without suicidal thoughts but any normal person it will mentally destroy them into thinking things that doesn't even exist when I use to jump on a bus before I learnt to drive I once attacked a man at my peak because he looked at me in a normal way but I thought he was trying to harm me no one understands it till it happens
@@dee4024 I feel normal when im high too
Then they see you as weird or crazy, you can never put it into words💔 I stopped taking my medications years ago, and I gradually lose touch each and every day.
At school I am so afraid of people I will wait untill the halls are empty to go to my class because I can hear people whisper about hurting me it's terrifying
Please talk to someone about this. There are people who can help
thats cause they do. although not as much as you might think, most of the time people distract themselves from their problems. they'd have to know care a lot about you to even consider hating you
Sounds serious. My psychosis isn’t as bad as yours. Definitely seek some help man. It’s always okay to stay cautious but don’t live your life in fear if you don’t have too. You are loved and you have support remember that
@@thrasherfoo I have seeked the help I need I still get really anxious and sometimes I have to hide but I'm doing way better now
How are you doing now?
Psychosis condition can be used positively with the right guidance. Changing thought process during those interrupted thought moments can make a person with previous traumas look at life positively with proper guidance.
This is the clearest explanation of what I was going through during long-term prednisone use
I had the same issue. I cant take any steriods. I get hallucinations. 😔
18 y.o, I definitely have psychosis;
>Thought broadcasting i believe? i talk to myself like a crazy person for HOURS. in my mind im explaining something about myself or how great i am to my friends. I talk as if theyre really there and could hear me. yesterday i spent 4 hours doing that. my eyes are open but it's like im blind to everything in front of me. all i see and hear are my hallucinations
>Also have severe thought persecution- i feel like people are plotting to murder me in my house so i covered all my windows with metal bars, and i sleep with a huge knife by my bed. once when i was 15, i had a mental breakdown and wrote "im so scared help me" on a piece of paper hundreds of times after hearing a rustle outside
>mild disorganized speech, would repeat things a lot, jump from topic to topic real fast
>smell hallucinations- i would smell SMOKE all of a sudden and find it hard to inhale
>would imagine grotesque/creepy looking creatures behind me in the mirror or in the corners of my room, they look very realistic
i really need treatment but im broke asf :( need to start saving up. i cant go on like this,,,
Shit, take care you will get there. Just try to find a cheap psychologist who can help you. I am doing the same and doing my own research at the same time.
You need a friend. Seek someone that you can speak to. Make sure you can open your mind to them and they Won't abandon you when you do.
@@ChillstoneBlakeBlast he need PROFESSIONAL HELP
I'm scared
I used to go crazy in my room and talk to myself for hours and hours on end. I loved being in my own little world.
I’m going through this right now. Never take Adderall again, Islept with eyes closed for 8 hours and didn’t fall into the REM cycle at all.
A few weeks ago my downstairs neighbors moved in. They were a couple. One day the boyfriend kicked my front door in and my him and my dad argued. We has the door fixed but that’s where the problems started. Every time I came outside he would stare at me and he would always ask me and and siblings if our parents were home. We always said yes. One day the girlfriend got so annoyed that she took scissors and stabbed him in the eyes. That’s when everything changed. Seeing the blood outside his door and on the sidewalks from him running away from his gf made me snap. Now I only leave my room to use the bathroom and eat every time I go to the bathroom I think someone is watching me and waiting on me outside and I always cover my phone cameras because I think people are watching me even when I get in bed I never sleep I just stare at the door wait to see if someone will come in and harm me and I only ever sleep at day because I’m scared of what lurks in my closet when it’s dark and I always think there’s people in my house or in my vents or waiting to break in or kill me or kidnap me. Sometimes I even think that my anime posters and plushys are watching me. Also I can’t shower without the curtains open and the door locked. Sometimes I just want to slit my wrists and fill up my bathtub and drown myself but I’m scared of the afterlife and I always need someone else I the house with me or I will spend the whole day in my bed crying. I got so scared once that I literally took my fish out of its tank and laid in bed with it. It almost died but my sister snatched it from me. She asked me what was wrong with me and I refused to tell her. Yesterday during family dinner I told my sisters I had various dreams about death and even dreamt about killing them and having a plan if I had to kill them. They thought I was joking and tease me about it a lot but little do they know it makes me want to pick up a knife and execute my plans right there and then. Still to this day nobody knows because I’m too scared to tell anyone. I think they won’t believe me. They just think I’m scared of the dark but in reality I need serious help or I might not make it to 2021.
Hi brother you are not alone I've spent 13 years with it and have been through every mental thought on this planet cannabis is the only reason I'm still here if you have any questions or need a chat I'm here for you I relate to your thoughts I have it that bad the doctor couldn't even prescribe me at first as he thought I had something even bigger my minds that messed up you're not alone mate
please tell your parents seriously. You know you're not ok but from what you wrote, Your inside is screaming for help. You're in constant pain, you're the only one who harm yourself just don't allow it and get medical help
Like someone said a week ago Please im begging you to tell your parents everything that’s literally the best way to get help. My sister had her own problems and didnt tell my parents or basically anyone about it and it seriously would have been better if she did. Don’t worry she is alright but only cause we found out she was going through stuff ourselves. Im telling you it can all be worked through and you can be you again from before the incident. If you need to talk about anything message me on sc - abdigo19 hopefully everything is getting better right now.
Don’t fight it. Let it in and call Jesus name.
Are u ok now?
Only thing i can tell u is go to your mom or dad alone and talk to them
Or maybe your sibling the one u most trust i know its late but if youre still feeling like that tell the person u trust the most or go to a docc yourself dont hide it
Did something change in the 2 years?
Remeber We should take help sometimes
I told my mother and youll be fine
I want to find help but I also don't trust people ,I think they're just pretending to help then hurt me
I suggest you speak to a doctor next time you see one, they can't hurt you the worst thing they can do it's just not suggest you to anybody.
I have two brothers that both have problem with mental health. Our second brother have schizophrenia at 19, now he is 36 yrs old.. my mother went through a lot still now and almost died because he strangled her.. he is smoker and drinker. He is good as a construction or carpenter. Mostly neighbors like him the way he work, helpful and not lazy. He worked smoothly and finish it clean. His episode would come and go. It will trigger when he is hungry, mad and mostly if he hears negative comments around people. Sometimes he misinterpret the talk or gestures etc. He sometimes confused about reality. I am mad and hated him. Because he is a threat to us. He would tell us that he will kill us or beheaded us. In 2011 he burned our house that its only made out of light materials like bamboo, we are poor, we hardly eat 3 times a day. This problem added to the family is forever burden. He broke the tv i bought. He burned his all clothes, He broked mobile. He is sometimes normal and sometimes not. He sometimes talking alone as if talking to someone. So scared that he looks like he is possess. We already sent him many times in mental but he cannot be hold there forever because he is ok most of the time and cost of money too. He is voilent whenever he has episode.
Last year my eldest brother had depression because they broke up woth his live in partner. He said someone trying to hurt him.
Its really hard that we, us normal person.. those do not experiences this will not sometimes understand them. But we need patience and be strong. But I cannot trust those who has mental illness. Im sorry but it sometimes will lead them to might kill someone. And it happened in reality where we saw in the news. My both brothers wont drink medicine becuse they said they are not sick. Im so scared staying with them in one roof even if they are normal sometimes. They both no kids of their own. I dnt know how am gonna take care of them when they grow old. My mom is old now and im the only sister they have who only has family with my own. Im the bread winner, my mom rely on me financially. We are 4 siblings. Hope God will ease our burden and provide us our needs.
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I hope you’re doing well and things get better, I can see that you are really trying for your family. You are doing a good job I know it must be hard dealing with it all…
May God be with you and your family ❤
God please help this family 🙏 ❤
The term seems very loaded to me for such a wide spectrum of thought disturbance patterns.
Nadav Igra amen.
I developed a Paranoia induced Psychosis. Because of my extreme paranoia for severe bullying in school from grades 1 through 10, my parents were 100% unreliable and the teachers actually physically helped the students bullying me, in grades 11 and 12, I was undoubtedly convinced that everyone knew me and were plotting to kill me. So I started taking certain tools to school in my backpack waiting for the ambush that I "knew" was going to happen, but THEN, when students that were following me and watching me started vanishing right before my eyes, that's when I realized, maybe they aren't out to get me after all. It was my hallucinations that saved my life and the life of others. This was back in 2015 or so. Going home to hostile parents that hurt me and going to school to being severely bullied for my entire academic life did a real number on me. I'm 25. The abuse lasted 20 years straight. Now I got 4 diagnosises and medications and finally living peacefully in my home. I spread awareness every chance I get on mental health and illnesses, trauma and abuse. People need help, not be scolded or ashamed because they can't be "normal" like people want them to be. Make sense?
If you don’t mind me asking, what medications have helped you?
@oldmanhendo7183 I never took medication for any of that extreme stuff. I just put my faith in God that one day He was gonna take me out of there. That's what He did. I just dealt with it and cried myself to sleep. I endured. And wrote in my journal. That's a horror book if I have ever seen one. I only started taking prescribed Adderall for my Attention Deficit Disorder, and that only started this year. I don't wanna take any meds for any of the other stuff. Now I live 3,000 miles away from there, and all the horror in my head has mostly gone away. Throughout my whole teens, I desired being a serial killer, getting my revenge, hurting everyone, I developed a second personality even to cope with a lot of stuff. I don't wanna take meds for anything else. I only take Adderall and it's awesome. I've been A LOT better. A peaceful, beautiful town. This whole town is basically my asylum because it is extremely calm. NOTHING happens here, and everyone is extremely nice. Sorry if I added too much to the answer of your question. People just need to know, y'know? What could have been...
had what I believe to be psychotic delusions from May to June of 2022. The main one was that people could read my thoughts and knew what I was thinking, so I'd be nervous to a point of constant fidgeting and weird behavior in class. That coupled with my severe depression and anxiety (and possibly bipolar II) made me attempt to end my life in a drunken stupor one day in April/May. I would never wish that hell on anyone. It wasn't something that I carried for the whole month, there would be days that it would hardly even be a thought in my head, and other horrible days where I thought everyone around me could read up on the thoughts that were placed in my head. imagine for a second you have no constraint on the things whirling through your head, and you think other people are judging and shunning you because of your thoughts. I believed God talked to me through a book, and that famous musicians would spiritually control me while I played guitar. It took me a while to build courage to ask someone who I thought could read my mind if he could, he was concerned but told me that he couldn't.
Since then I've made sure my thoughts sound sane and immediately denounce negative ideas that creep up on me. This really kinda stemmed from a year of self abuse and drug abuse, and it's taken so much time and effort but life is starting to look good and livable like it did so many months ago. If you're suffering from thing similar to what I described, please seek help. There are countless programs for mental stability and health.
Your comment was very helpful and straight to the point. Hope, your doing well. 🦅🪶🦅
omg i had the same thing happen to me for a month after i stopped smoking its hell i wish i had someone to ask whether what i was imagining was real or not
I’ve always had quite an imagination growing up, teachers would always tell me how “creative” I was. I was always obsessed with fantasy fiction books. I always wondered how humans came to be, and basically how and why our universe was created. For many years now, I have the same feeling that we are being watched. I feel like “eyes” follow us around everywhere observing us and analyzing us. Now, I don’t see literal eyes floating around everywhere, I just feel the presence of it. I feel like the world we live in is just fake. Well, recently someone showed me the movie,”The Truman Show” and gosh, the moment I saw it, I began to have a panic attack because it was insane how much of the movie resembled how I feel most of the time about people and the world around me. I later found out that people who think the way I do are labeled as psychotic. It never occurred to me, I just thought I was open minded. I usually have trouble talking about myself and this is the first time I’ve talked about my thoughts because they always seem so unreal and inappropriate, I do admit that.
@living in a desert you were being targeted by the government? Im never falling for any illnesses.
Thanks for telling us about it!
eyes warching you can be true , only you may have taken it to another level, but God is real and the devil is real , amd you will have to get to know both to understand what is happening at times in your life and brain. eyes watching you is called monitoring eyes and has to to with witchcraft and is to be prayed against , witches and wizards will have to bow for the blood of Jesus , they have no right to come against any person , anyway, prayer and knowledge is the key, God is good .
Accept Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Saviour
Almost every thought i have is mirrored back to me through social media and songs. Its terrifying. If i think it or say it, ill see it again on social media or the tv. Sometimes i will see it as im thinking it. Not reading it. Thinking it.
I’m pretty sure I have some kind of catatonic schizophrenia, but my psychiatrist and therapist haven’t even given a proper diagnosis because I still need more testing to figure it out. Living with an undetermined mental illness means I can’t get the proper treatment, so I essentially just have to live with it right now. Whatever it is, it’s torn apart my social life and my own self health. I don’t fit in around anyone else, but I don’t fit in with myself either. As long as I have this mental illness I don’t thrive anywhere.
How are you doing?
You're not alone my friend. I self isolate as much as possible. Sometimes even from my own family due to my social fears. Some days are better than others and I can be comfortable socializing with them. Even on my best days, I still struggle simply going to the gas station or grocery store and having to deal with the public. Even using self checkout amd not having to socialize with anyone, I still feel paranoid that everyone is staring or talking about me. In my defense, I live in Buttfuck, Mississippi.. Where at least half of the population truly are close-mknded country bumpkins who are preemptively judgmental. If you don't agree with them about everything or just don't fit into their "mold" of society then you do get funny looks and smart ass comments occasionally. So that doesn't help. However, I relaize that the majority of the time it's just my mind fucking with me. I'm to the point of quitong weed and getting in therapy. I just have to build up the courage/motivation to face a total stranger and tell them my deepest, most sensitive thoughts. Sorry for rambling. Just feels good to see all these comments and know that I'm not alone. I wish you only the best and I hope we can both overcome whatever disorder(s) we've been cursed with🤞
Please read this if your mental state is very bad, or if you seem disconnected with people or life.
I was not in a good time last year. I used to go out with my mates and do drugs for fun but we were responsible and prepared to use them so nothing bad would happen to any of us. My life drastically changed badly after taking 3 tabs of acid in the space of 5 minutes.
When i came up on it, my head was so noisy and could here voices about me going crazy and my body tensed up. My mates were chilling on acid too but didn’t make the stupid mistake i did by taking a bigger dose in a shorted period of time. Think of it as the room being quiet and peaceful naturally and me on the sofa arguing with myself and battling my own mind when i hear often phrases from a song repeating and voices judging me. I couldn’t sleep for 3 days and felt like the trip was 3 days anyway. After that my body was tense and i didn’t have a connection with reality for nearly half a year and as i was battling my own mind constantly i wasn’t my true self. All because of one silly mistake.
I started meditating and my life is slowly becoming how it was before i did acid and i am in more touch with life and more self aware.
Hope you are well after two years, no one commented so here I am, thats some crap acid really sucks it seems its one of those things that randomly really mess a person up sometimes, I haven't done it an don't want too, all those psychedelics seem pretty sketchy in various ways an reasons
@@nathanael8612 Thanks and yeah it’s not worth it unless you’re prepared, but being prepared is just taking mini doses each time instead of loads at once
@@tbtnr9851 same here I'm kinda ok now but the drugs permanently fucked me up unfortunately I kinda went through the same thing but with different drugs.
@@jayy_dawg_928 yeah i’m glad i experienced it because i’m a different person now in a good way, but it definitely affected my head
Wow I actually recognize this in my self. Little and a lot sometimes. But usually it's just my inability to control my thoughts and my head would just ramble on about things that don't really matter to where I wouldn't be able to sleep. Luckily they come and go and it's been more than 10 years.
Holy shit I have been wondering about the whole ramble to myself uncontrollably and can't sleep shit if it was normal, now I got my answer
@@azzy8121 bruh i thought i was alone
Bro I have this too, I start thinking about random things that have no meaning usually in the middle of the night and I start stressing out. Mine come and go and I normally solve it by just talking to someone for a sec or watching a random video.
What your dealing with could be intrusive thoughts
@@mackenzie3853 I heard someone call them, undisciplined thoughts. Implying that these are thoughts that can be controlled.
i had a change in perception and it keeps changing my perception continualy about perception itself.
she's such a professional
Suits.
I had psychosis for a year. And then it was gone through medication. But I got it again and I've never been the same.
Glad to be a part of the club
My mind is a complete flood of thoughts. I was a high school teacher and now am in a motel and the noise in my head won't stop no career everything has become a blur.
After experiencing DMT, I have my doubts about everything. Especially people like this.
When I was given the truth about life I couldn't go back... & once I discovered more & more .. I knew there was a deeper meaning to our lives... & our pain didn't just happen to happen... u must question it, & demand intelligence to take its place as it was meant to awaken your gifts not HINDER THEM....
Looking this up because I have been feeling super off the past month or so, and I definitely don't do drugs. I have been not caring about things much,not like a depression thing though, I just don't feel worried about important things I should worry about. I also feel like time is moving quicker and I cannot keep track of things and I keep feeling confused, as though almost nothing is adding up. I've also been feeling drowsy more than usual.
Hey it’s been a year… hope your good and if your not… I send blessings your way
I hear negative voices and laughter and thought some real people were taunting me at my home. I found out someone is doing screenshots of someone's posts in a Facebook group I am in, someone warned people of someone doing that so admin in that group now know. Can't ask for advice, or rant on social media these days when negative people take your mental illness as a joke. Just ranting instead of bottling up my emotions. If someone is taking me to court for expressing how scared I am. Well nothing I can do about that. Trying to make a appointment with my doctor to talk about the negative voices and to get help for my mental health disorder again and to change medication. I keep hear hearing a female voice taunting and laughing at me and that is making me feel uncomfortable, scared and depressed. I don't know if I am just hearing my neighbours, or their friends near my place or there is some woman with a grudge and wanting to annoy and make me react.I hope my mind is just playing tricks on my mind and I am going through psychosis again and not being bullied by some random coming to my place
Mark Steve , yes , because when your stressed , anxious your perception is sharper , so you imagine you can hear people talking , but it is real to the person !
Thank God I don't have this or OCD I pray for the people that do. Its scary :( being trapped in your own mind.
I don't know forsure if I have any type of thought problems but could maybe be a bit ocd or just ocd, I really don't like touching things anymore certain things, I haven't even opened my own front door with my bare hand in I don't know how long I can't remember the last time I did I wear gloves now an actually thought I'd be lookin kinda weird with gloves in the summer cause I've got kinda comfortable with gloves really takes the edge off of having to touch stuff
Diagnosed with PTSD and I don't hear anyone talking about this...sleep depervation due to being stuck in fight -or - flight! Can easily send you info psychosis it's important being you don't need all those medications!!!! Just sleep and feeling safe.
Although psychotic behavior exists, there are spiritual practices outside of Christianity that support the idea of the "Surrounding Element". This is usually recognized in meditative practices. Some people have been known to have the long term experience and exposure of certain forms that allow them to tap into it and perform unfathomable abilities. I'm referring to a Buddhist Abbot, Taoist Priest, Medicine Man, Witch Doctor, ECT.
When I feel depressed,, i feel like it’s my fault that I let it happened,, even with my friends letting me down,,, when they needed me I was on my way,, but when I needed them I had to wait,, it really sucks and I’m so sick of this shit, I can never be happy
the first time i was shooting a gun in my life was at a wedding,before grabbing the weapon i was afraid the recoil would be too much,but it was fine.But when i grabbed the loaded and ready gun i just had an sudden urge of turning around and shooting everybody,same thing with knifes.But luckily i never hurt anybody in my life(or myself).
The important thing is that you resisted the urge to do so. But maybe never touch a gun again
i have the symptoms and i think i have it but i don’t want to self diagnose but i cant afford to go to a doctor so thats why im watching videos .
Starting to get psychosis from my long term use of mdma and pot.
At the moment, I can deduce whether a thought belief Is true or abnormal but I'm afraid as I get older, I will not.
I should quit but its so damn addictive.
It got so bad for me that I actually quit pot just to see if it was the weed or if my thoughts were reasonable.
@@doctorluzbubs258 What was your outcome?
Or is it too early to tell at the moment.
It is alright and I dream everyday that I'm still smoking pot and I ruin my 5month streak. One immediately change I noticed was that there was no negative internal dialogue. I've always said that I could tell it's going to be a good day the less I could hear my internal dialogue. Now that I'm completely sober from every substance I have a job and extra money. I honestly feel if you could overcome addiction you rank up in your emotional and mental strength. You learn about ppl and see they're just around because you got weed or if they really your friend. The dreams get crazier and vivid the longer you go it really kicks in around the 1st month. I smoked for 10 years with drinking and cocaine once in awhile, it became very taxing and added momentum to my mood swings. Although in regards to my general thoughts, I still feel like most people would turn against me if it was in their best interest so I avoid lengthy conversations and giving them ammunition to use against me. As an experiment, i didn't really speak to anyone during the first few weeks of work just to see who noticed. Very few people didn't care but most would try to bond with me thru gossiping or bullying someone else. Confirming my theory about people being cunning but not necessarily organized specifically against me, it really just is in their nature which is a characteristic they all have in common and could make it seem that way but it isn't. I still do believe in the 'hive' mentality and most people seem to be living day by day reacting to what happens to them and never really think for themselves or motivated to create positive momentum. What abnormalities do you feel are not normal in your thought pattern?
Take it from me, long term weed use will result in psychosis. Its ok if u dont abuse it but that takes control.
Dont let your demons conquer you.
@@donaloregan7481 Even in taking too much weed at once can induce a significant psychotic episode. It's not as personally noticeable over a long period of regular use, however cognitive function definately appears to be affected when put to the test
this is really helpful and i appriciate how unbiased it is
Mood disorders run in my family. I have had moments of mild hallucinations, and am prone to them even with very mild sleep deprivation. I know this intellectually and take steps to counter this... I also have a tendency to have flare ups where I start to have weird blurring of instances from old dreams and feel like I am unsure of what I have experienced and what is a dream, at times. History of dissociation due to early and severe trauma. And even as a child would battle paranoid thoughts that I knew intellectually were not true...like my brain would think of something awful and I would panic with the worry that someone was hearing my thoughts and would lash out.
Odd fears too. Like if I look through the peep hole of my apartment door I have a scary feeling that someone will peep up and start screaming. This has extended to a variety of weird terrors. That I could have a brain aneurysm rupture or that someone will shoot me through a window at a coffee bar. The fears seem to skip around to fast actions that could happen in an instancs.
I feel like the more irrational/ paranoid thoughts are often linked to horrible thoughts of doing harm to myself or intrusive thoughts that I believe are likely OCD related (biological father has severe OCD but was sadistic to me as a young child, biological mum had compulsions without obsessive ruminating), but I have waning moments where I can feel my brain tugging towards something very disordered and then I fight it off and remind myself that my difficulties sleeping, OCD like thoughts and history of abuse have made me very fearful of anyone being a threat and my imagination is over the top. I know it's way too hyperactive.
Most days, when I am doing well...those symptoms die down. But I have had a few events that make me very nervous. For example, when I was a kid I also had OCD like thoughts and compulsions to reduce my anxiety. I had a phobia of stabbing myself in the eye with scissors or knives (this one flares up...especially with scissors). It still flares up occasionally, along with my fear of throwing myself down an escalator. Not an actual wish but an almost demonic assault on my mind when overwhelmed. I read up on intrusive thoughts and did not think much about it until one evening when I was drinking some red wine, given to me as a gift, I had the thoughts reach critical mass. I was undoubtedly very depressed at the time (distantly knew I was depressed but in a removed "I'm not feeling connected to my own life" way) and ended up crying after the second glass (that's all I had) and grabbed a fork and stabbed it into my hand. Not enough to do tremendous damage but badly enough to cut through the flesh and produce quite a bit of blood.
I remember reacting in a sort of split horror and yet drive to continue doing so and I think that was the most horrified I have ever been because I knew at some level...that this was beyond strange and obviously the alcohol mixed with both depression and OCD like thoughts increased my risk of following through on the thoughts to reduce anxiety.
I have not had much in the way of visual hallucinations...a few, mild. Many more auditory hallucinations. I am quite prone to hearing many voices talking, and speaking so fast that at first it sounds like white noise. Usually what they say is random, weird phrases that don't make sense. Sometimes they will say odd things that make up splintered sentences. I recall one time, right on the periphery of sleep jolting up because something terrified me and to this day I seem to have this weird schism in my brain where I sort of blocked out what was said. It's sort of like being in a fog, although this generally happens when I have difficulties sleeping.
If my sleep is very poor I can hear snippets even when awake and will feel everything stretch out and seem very cotton batton-y and also emotionally removed. I have gone through some severe trauma both in childhood and adulthood and have a tendency to disengage emotionally. I can go quite numb when under stress and feel so distant at times that I am sure aspects of what has happened to me would qualified as more than a bit not good, but with a history of seizures and trauma, I sometimes wonder if aspects could be something like an absence seizure? I sort of feel like something neurologically based comes over me, especially when run down or sick, and diminishes when I am physically healthy. I have been wondering about seizures for awhile since I had quite a few as a child, but they were relatively infrequent so they did not diagnose me with epilepsy although they specified that I am prone to them. For example, I am more likely to have absence seizures when sleep deprived and that was determined to be sporadic.
It's weird because I feel like I have definite symptoms at times that one would say would line up with aspects of psychosis but I feel like intellectually I never lose sight of the fact that my brain is screwing around with me. I never completely trust my mind to be telling me the truth although sometimes my fear response cuts in (more with intrusive thoughts or when I am forced to engage with something that I have an irrational fear of...)
I have social anxiety disorder and there is this weird crossover where I become highly anxious if I hear people whispering near me because I am convinced they are mocking me but a part of me knows that's likely not happening. Hard to explain. I feel it's anxiety to such an extreme that it is driving behaviours that I know are bizarre to just get the anxiety to reduce.
Other times, when I have been in a healthier states...it all quiets down and I can blend in and not have the same degree of troubling thoughts.
I feel like my mind itself is sane and does not lose sight of reality but the intrusive thoughts and the ease with which I start to hear things that are not there when I am sleep deprived even mildly...seems very "on the edge" of something that arguably intersects with mental illness. I do have a friend with schizophrenia and her life diverges wildly from mine. I can work and function well and stay in reality, and the worst that people see is anxiety (often driven by thoughts that seem to insert themselves into my minds eye...although it's not consistent. It can flare up and receed.) I have always had a tendency to get lost in my own world and sometimes I feel the edges of the world I create blur with the so called real world without losing the perspective that there is definitely something neurological which is off. I have even gone non-verbal when very stressed and sometimes feel separated from life and people. Other thoughts were anxieties about being manipulated or tested or the sense that everything is a simulation and someone is merely toying with me. Again, they have a paranoid basis even if I am not firmly convinced. It's like the anxiety that they could be flares up.
I pray you find a way to heal... and I pray you even help your friend, she may need you and you her... but I pray you start understanding how to be mentally free and find peace of mind and create a peaceful, happy, lovely life... much love and blessings to you 🙏🏿❤️❤️❤️
I myself am dealing with my mental disorder, while trying to be a normal person...I don't know if I'm going to make it but I know you will... you're grown and free from your family... now you can make the decisions to help and heal yourself, search for yourself and find yourself...me I'm still living with my toxic family hiding and dealing with my problems alone, u older than me meaning your free... Enjoy the fact that your free, try to help others, love more and know yourself...more blessings to you ❤️
I feel you, the only way I found for this is to forget about it as simple as that. The more you think about it the more you'll give your mind the chance to come up with new fucked up things that are unlikely to happen. Also hanging out with normal ppl helps you connect with reality too. So just try to convince yourself that you're a normal guy that just happen to have an over creative mind and the only way to shut it down is not using it to the point you start forgetting about it. Starve it untill it dies (your over creative fucked up part of it at least). Wish you the best brother.
Right there with you, man. I have been having trouble lately but I am 37 now. My anxiety and sleep deprivation was much worse when I was younger. I too have slipped into these weird foggy thoughts, memories, dreams that they start to blur. I've experienced so many cool and comforting thoughts/dreams/delusions and also terrifying ones. It's like movies playing in your head, some real, some not. It started with panic attacks, and then into just severe sleep deprivation for like days and days. It was like sleeping while awake. The dreams are happening but I'm just laying there awake or something or zombied out. It scared me so bad because I have a family. Wife and 2 kids and the thought of going crazy and leaving my babies with a dad who is too sick to deal with things makes me cry and feel even worse. I am sorry that happened to you. Let's try to remember that right now we are okay, and we are in control. We are not crazy. The real crazies don't take time to evaluate themselves the way that you have. I was always scared that I was schizophrenic especially when I would experience these symptoms. But I can say with 99% certainty that the reaction is normal and a product of a tired mind. I had a cousin who was schizophrenic and he was saying things that made no sense or rambling about people following him. And it was permanent... Nothing like what I went through, thank God.
I live with this, it got so bad I started cutting into my face my tendons my veins, but now I train 4 hours a day, and a keep moving to divert the thoughts, it's the worst feeling, I lost my friends can't engage with people properly can bearly speak, I don't feel human, but everyday you got to get up and fight it, and you got to convince yourself that you can beat it, doctors put me on 3 different medications that didnt work, the only thing that worked so far was out racing it ❤❤
Guys if anyone see this pls help me is there a way I can prevent this I am so scared and I have no one
You have us
Pray 🙏🏽
Just ask yourself is this useful
My lil cousin (31) is Schizophrenic.
Off of her meds, it's so scary what she truly believes. I pray for her often.
I feel into a deep depression and hurt both knees and one elbow. I looked up and said to myself “damn that was like a 50 foot fall”
Hearing people talking about me and laughing at me and at the things am doing in my room... Thinking there's a big conspiracy only I don't know about. Thinking my phone's hacked, thinking once I step out people are waiting to look at me and laugh at me. Believing am being video recorded and ganged up on. I attacked people about two times, opened my ceiling looking for hidden cameras, at I set the house on fire. This is a slowly growing problem and most people who suffer mostly in west Africa here, are ashamed to speak up or can't afford therapy and the rest. I have lost the love of my life to this, my house. Am going to start medication and I plead with you guy especially Nigerians don't sleep on your mental wellness just cause your not working naked on the road just yet.
I shut down under high stress, I am unable to focus, think straight and communicate, I am probably acting psychotic and I can hear my co-workers trash talk me from across the room. I wonder if I hallucinate but I believe they are most likely trash talking for real because I am acting strange, which stresses me out even more and reinforces my paranoid negative thinking.
ɹǝsn snoɯʎuouɐ I already changed jobs and am working in a different field now. It is not a high stress environment to begin with and people are more open minded. :)
Thats exactly how I feel, do you still think like this in other situations or in public?
@@eddieortiz873 Nah, I'm good now.
@@eddieortiz873
for me it's always situational, I feel like this for shorter periods, maybe a few days.
It is always combined with a guilty conscience for me.
I still think my co workers were talking about and looking at me BUT I probably interpreted there looks as judgemental when the were not. There are 1 or 2 who's comments were malicious and they were clearly bullying me, which stressed me out tremendously and made me spiral in the first place, inducing guilt and shame. (I'm ENFJ so I do care about how people see me and my reputation) or maybe they were just bored and joking around but still that's screwed up in my book. Nasty sarcasm.
Anyway I just focus on my co workers who like and support me and don't give a damn about what teh rest thinks of me. They are already below me and can't bring me down.
In the situation itself it is important not to deal with all of this on your own, talking with trusted people who support you and know how not to judge you and reassure you is key. (I tend to feel shame for opening up but if you bring it up in a more lighthearted way they will probably not judge) Just be concious of who you talk to.
Also avoiding a guilty conscience of course. Be kind and compassionate to yourselfes, do not take on the judgement of others.
May be that is DPDR which is temporary if u know how to fix it
I was on vacation in Costa Rica and smoked some strong weed that triggered psychosis. I lost my mind completely and it lasted a year. I lost everything and ended up getting arrested twice for possession. Psychosis made me not able to make any good decisions and it almost killed me. I somehow survived and am now in full recovery from psychosis. The most important thing is to get sober if you are suffering psychosis.
One time I had psychosis and I couldn't sleep for 5 days and was hallucinating really bad I went to mental hospital for 2 days I've been normal ever since lol
Your lucky
Glad you're doing well
Are you on an antipsychotic? Or are you able to function without them?
Hello
I think i have psychosis. But why am i in control? I see and hear voices in my head but why am i in sane? Should a talk to somebody?
I disconnect from reality very bad and at moments when i look at the sky i feel trapped? Like it's so bad or sometimes i feel like someone follows me
Best advice i can give is pray for your soul to be protected and accept the changes. You dont got too be religious but you want that personal relationship that gives you comfort when you are disscoating you're worried where you are going to go. The sky is beautiful but also creepy we are in a big world times seem worrisome find that comfort with god
Hmmm sounds scarily like me...
I had a psychosis when i was 15 for about two months. Something that my doctor recebtly said i had. I just thought it was a long mental breakdown. I first thought thst the mosqueits carried Malaria (i live in Sweden where there is no malaria) i slept with winter clothes when it was 23+celcius and refused to leave my room no matter how hot it would be inside of it. Later i started to believe that people watched me through my phone, that random people on the street would hurt me. I had never experinced such fear, terror and anxiety in my life. Everyday for those months i believed i was gonna die. Luckily i had a very kind high school counselor that helped me practically stay sane so after some time i managed to get back to reality.
the comment section is more helpful than this video
i wish i knew what was wrong with me even if there was 1 person that could relate to my thoughts would comfort me in the smallest way its a hard life this one.
I have the same thing I believe everyone in the world is making fun of me and things I'm dying you have no idea what that means but I made up a story in my mind 3 years ago that people watch me and know what's in my mind and they think I'm high and dying you have no idea what I'm talking about and I have to put something over my phone camera because it feels like someone's watching me and I can't go outside because it seems like someone's going to kidnap me or kill me and it feels like people are watching me day and night
I was trying to sleep one day, and I didn’t sleep that night at all because I was under my cover and I believed I was paralyzed and I didn’t try to move, voices in my head were telling me I was dead and in a coffin for whatever reason I believed that and remained motionless for another few hours, before finally falling asleep 10 minutes before school.
Yea i know what u mean with the voices
My older brother is going through this and we really dont know what to do as a family,i am the last born,my eldest brother passed away in 2021 andbefore his passing, my immediate older brother started exhibiting signs of psychosis, its so bad,he doesnt change clothes,stays in his room all day, when he comes out,he mumbles and is humming to himself,its a whole mess, i live in Zambia where treatment is literally impossible, he lost his job because of this and believes me and my mother are enemies and has a nasty hatred towards us. Its so sad because he was such and intelligent man,a script writer at that. This video breaks my heart even more
I see them I see thier faces everyday every night I hallucinate them even when they're not there I spend hours talking to them asking for thier forgiveness the people I've hurt in the end they all smile and don't say anything.
What did you do to them bro!?
@@Joshin_Jinn there's nothing I can do to them they come and go of thier own will sometimes thier faces seem like they're wating for me.
@@cyberbully7718 were u able to stop hallucinating
I am diagnosed with mental disorder, since 2020 depression disorder anxiety disorder and Psychotic disorder and i having psychosis for many years now .
i feel like someone's always watching me or i'm just really paranoid.
you are not paranoid ,God is watching you and want the best for you , angels exist and want to help you , devil and demons are watching you and want the worse for you and for people around you
just pray and use the name of Jesus, plenty information to be found everywhere , starting with a bible
A lot of these conditions over lap and its very difficult to define...hence why diagnosis can change over time
17 trynna figure out if I’m crazy or if I’m just being a teenager
I took drugs underaged which ended up in me having psychosis. I just hope everyone here is okay. I’m starting to think things aren’t real. Which I’m trying to talk myself out of.
The way my brain thinks is like when you're is in hard stress and panik 24/7 my brain never relaxes because I'm most of the time thinking about my problems and how to solve them. I feel like/am im very bad socialy and that started with social fobia me enagening that if someone looks at me something is wrong with me and my ego always believed I had to be perfect
My entire marriage fell apart because of this bizarre state that our brains are susceptible to. Do NOT think you are safe from psychosis. I experienced my first and only episode when I was raped at 14. So when my husband came to me even though he was beating me at the time, I knew what was ailing him from the symptoms he described. He never got help but the psychosis drove him violent to a point where I almost lost my life. I filed a restraining order since he wouldn’t get help and our local crisis unit would not help. The cops would not help. I’m now divorced and will forever be heart broken that my ex won’t ever be the man he was. Psychosis stopped but he was never the same. My heart goes out to all who have been affected. Please listen to those around you. Please see a neuro psychologist if you can bc I don’t care if I offend those in mental health with this statement but psychology is the only group of dr medicine that does not require seeing an organ in its current state before prescribing. That’s insane. That’s not right.
An organ in its current state I don't understand this? As for your ex I wonder if he had temporal lobe epilepsy
I failed my college and lead to this total confusion
Welcome
@@Joshin_Jinn update i return to college again a month after this comment in new academy lol
@@thenpc5527 nice
@@Joshin_Jinn anyway if you had the same problem like me just don't give up dude lol
@@thenpc5527 I've never went to college I went to jail for killing someone
I have severe OCD and I also have comorbidity with a few psychotic symptoms. I always feel objects are alive and are watching me and know what I am thinking and can see everything in my head. it used to give me full-blown panic attacks but on medication has lessened the attacks and how severe I react to them.
Gosh I relate to this hard. I have OCD and one of the key things in my life is a constant feeling like people watch me through objects. Never reading my mind, they can only so that if I touch their objects. I eventually got used to being watched though sometimes it becomes too much and I yell and cuss them out for watching me and start having a mental breakdown. T.T
But im very glad medication helped for you!
yes thank you. the symptoms are still there but at least the medication makes it more manageable.@@jayzepickle6637
I had a psycotic episode once. I was fully convinced there was a bomb in my backpack so i told the school and I ended up being hospitalized for a week just in case it was full blown psychosis.
How are you feeling now? What caused your episode? Did you get it again?
I see a animal that's never there, I hear a voice idk most of the time it's comforting and never negative and never has been, it's only negative to other people sometimes
The last time I had psychosis I repeatedly told my sister I was "halfway to the halfway" and I have no idea what that would frickin' mean 🙄
Half highway maybe? Hehe
Developed similar symptoms earlier this year after a deep depression. Didn't break though(experienced to much shit to let worldly matters break me) and was able to maintain being grounded even though some of the original reasons for the start of the psychosis was justified.
This perfectly describes what has been happening to me lately and how I've been feeling. I am currently having a slight break from reality due to the continuous truama that I had to endure and still endure in my life until this day and from past iv drug use. I actually finally got health insurance so I just set up a visit with a therapist and psychiatrist today. The crappy part is that I have to go about this on my own without anyone elses support but my own
you can do it . believe in yourself
Laptop M I just got out of horsham clinic and put back on Seroquel I feel pretty good now that I’m on the proper medication
@@nicoleshelly1225 so for how long will you take them. because with time you will be able to use nothing and feel good .
@@nicoleshelly1225 and thank you for telling me , i am trying to get som insight . my son is having trouble so therfore i am trying to gather as much information as possible through people who have similar problems, . i am now not only concermed for my son but for eveyone around the world having to cope with it and i really like to read some of your experiences , thank you , a mum
@@laptopm1113 you should consider a psych ward for him they will get you on medication and set him up with treatment afterwards,
What do I do for my husband who is in a delusional state that has now completely taken over his reality and some days he thinks I’m a liar and the enemy.
What can I do to help him? No one seems to be able to help-Husband is a disabled Veteran. He has a routine visit over phone with a psychiatrist and they don’t see or hear what I do at home. I have been dealing with this hell for over 3 years now and no one is helping me.
I'm scared I'm going through this. I know it's chemically induced too, since ive been smoking weed since i was 14. When I first started smoking weed, it was fun. It remained fun until I had my first psychotic episode when i was finishing grade 10 (so i was 16 turning 17). I ended up seeing something in my closet and thought it was some demon smiling at me lol. I literally got up and tried boxing it. The amount of fear I had in me then was enough for me to decide I was done with weed. Then i quit for a while and i was happy.. until a few shitty situations later. I ended up caving back into my pot head life again in december 2021. It helped for a little, but overtime it worsened my already shitty ocd and kept me in a psychotic rut until now. I have been able to tell the difference between thought and reality before it began but now it's like I'm wondering in a fog. I know this is all in my head, but sometimes I'm afraid it's becoming too real. I feel like if I just quit weed, my psychosis and all the symptoms of it will go away. Slowly but surely I will get better. It doesn't matter to anyone in the end so typing this is pointless... but it helped me to type it out. I'm going to quit weed starting on my birthday. The 28th of August. Hopefully this will cure my mind.
hows going on quitting ?
@@FRIENDPIRA it's going okay so far. I fully quit smoking weed a couple days ago and I feel like I'm slowly being able to think straighter than before. I still have some distorted thinking but it's much easier to put it behind me. Weed was one of my ways to cope so it's a bit hard to not think about smoking it. i have to remind myself what it does to my mind and then im able to stop craving it. Ive also been drinking alot of water too. It helps with flushing the chemicals out of my system and stuff. I feel like as the days go by i will feel better more and more. Thank you for asking.
@@yurei2222 can you explain me what you mean "distorted thinking" ? btw small tip " cause weed and other drugs caused me some similar things , i changed it with prescribed sleeping pills alcoholics often use, works good without this psychosis effect.
I wonder if someone laced your weed with opium occasionally
On my medication now after a massive episode. .. have a care plan after hospital.
I
never had a schizophrenic episode in my life until some guy bought me a drink and hours later I started seeing things and could not sleep, I would see scary looking things in walls like demons and in people.. when I would scratch my arm the feeling would be delayed and wouldn't show up until seconds later and when people would talk the words would be delayed with their mouths. The tv would also talk to me and this was literally after I had a drink from some stranger. ( first time it wasn’t even alcohol it was a regular drink ) This “episode“happened for months until my parents realized they couldn’t do anything. I called the police the same night and they tested my blood for drugs and said nothing was found in my system, I was just paranoid. Then, eventually I had to go to the mental hospital because I couldn't sleep for months even when I tried to. This happened in 2018, no schizophrenics in my family or nothing. Now in 2020 back in June the same thing happened some guy bought me a drink , my friend drank out of it as well and nothing happened to her ( I swear I had felt a pill ) and I had another episode and had to go to the mental institution because I wasn't in my right mind, seeing and hearing things. They said I had psychosis and schizophrenia, is it my mind playing tricks on me making me think they did something to my drink or am I actually schizophrenic because I never experienced this ever, the first time it happened I was 19. Now I am 22.
You possibly opened your third eye, that’s the symptoms or “abilities” of it. Sounds crazy and like bullshit but it’s true, mines open and I experience similar stuff but much more. If you tell people about it then yeah people will think your mental, I could link you info if you want
@@Sealedservant exactly
I believe deeply that this is connected to some evil tampering with and trying unworthy things for fun then it triggers. Moods are mental ita all about your history and what you learn and experienced in time till now. Everyone needs love and attention if not, they turn to what ever makes them feel good.
Everyday I always give it a thought, what if I just go missing?
you cant . God is everywhere
@@laptopm1113 explain where everyone who went missing went
narcissistic abuse can make you think you are crazy and actually make you start hearing your abusers voice calling for you from a distance. check if the people around you are safe
I feel like I’ve been experiencing Psychosis now for over 2 years and I just don’t know what to do anymore.. I’m trying my hardest to get through this.
i see your comment and i am surprised that nobody is answering you . so . i will . you say you think you have psychosis . but the fact that you can reason is allready a sign that you are oke.. its not all that bad . but maybe you can point out the things that you ,re experiencing . i know for a fact that people are often not understood and therefore you feel very lonely in what you are going through , maybe if you can point out your ( wrong) thoughts you can get help to get you out of it .
Laptop M I appreciate you! Tbh what has been going on has been very difficult to explain to anyone. I’ve tried to word it to several people and I still couldn’t word it out to them. I even try to like break down what’s happening to myself and I still can’t. It’s like I hear a voice in my head but it’s my voice and it speaking over my own thoughts. Saying really fucked up things like one time it was saying I was going to die soon. And I actually believed it. But that was over a year ago now. It hasn’t spoke much on that recently but it’s been saying other things and also speaking in a language I can’t really understand and I even will speak it out loud too. Randomly. And it sounds like a Demons chant. That’s the best way I can describe it. Like not human. And about each night I would speak in this language but only for a few brief moments. When I’m trying to sleep in the night, the voice will be whispering things saying all kinds of shit. There’s been a couple nights where the voice in my head changed to not my voice anymore but very like dark and evil and it said it was Satan. And I was terrified. This lasted for about 3 hours. And it felt like I was having a conversation with Satan. The voice would even echo. And I remember saying I’m with God I’m with God I’m with God and then it said “ Gods not going to save you !” Very angrily. And would even mock me when I was praying. Other things I can think of is rage. I been having these rage moments that just come instantly. And I just completely explode and I start raging. I’ve been trying my best to control it.
@@stayhazy2478 i thank God who made me to text you and i thank you for texting me back, i can see from your writing that you are not realy a believer but i think you should now know that Gud exists and so does devil, oke , where can i start , i wil tell you something and then give you some names that you can try on you tube and see what i am talking about, i cant yet figure out yet if you are a believer, but i can see that you lack knowledge, bible say; my people perish because of lack of knowledge , so you say; it was as IF you had a conversation with satan, no dear, not as IF , it realy is true, demons talk and they talk all kind of things , the devil is here to kil , steal ( life, sanity, hope, joy) and destroy, God is here to help, build up, give peace , and destroy the works of the devil, that is why Jesus died , but we have to open our mouths, and use His name , i will give you names, that MAY BE to high in level for you , than just find something to build you up as well first, but to let you understand that all you are saying is not a strange thing at all please go to , jeremiah omoto fufuyin, or joshua selman , pick something out that interest you , and see for yourself,, i give you reliable names whom i know are real man of God , not fake,, God bless you . ow , and me myself, before i ever knew God , somebody who died was talking to me and i said, now it is enough , go sway and the image of the dead person left , its an image that the devil uses, never the dead person itself , God bless you , you are not crazy and if you start searching now you never will be
@@stayhazy2478 time for the next level of your believe . dont worry , you.ll get there
@@stayhazy2478 from today . dont give the devil chance to talk to you for 3 hours , shut him up . in Jesus name . the bible says that we have the authority to step upon snakes and scorpions . so the devil has nothing to say, he is under our feet .. to control your mind though , i did that when i was realy young, but i know for a fact that we need the right kind of help too , let me know about your journey , Bless you
It puts you into a state where nothing matters in a good way. You truly don't give a shit about anything and you're just happy as fuck as a result, because nothing matters. Nothing matters, nothing means anything, there's nothing to do, there's no point, there's no goal but there's also no boredom, there's no negative meanings attached to the meaninglessness, it's just perfectly meaningless and it's awesome. You're basically just like sitting like a cat on a windowsill enjoying whatever experience is before it, just being and it feels amazing. 🦄
I had an episode that lasted such a long time. It was fkng terrifying. I started to believe I was going to be sent to jail for things I hadn't even done. I was out on seroquel and clopromazine for it which took the edge off but ultimately I had to pull myself out of it. The worst day of it i can recall was when I cut my arms with a razor and was Sat in my room trying to gouge a hole in the wall cause I be!ived there was a parallel universe inside the wall where id be safe. It was brutal and I'm still recovering. You can get well again. It takes time but you can recover.
Are you able to not be on antipsychotics anymore?
bro this is me ik this was 4 years ago but ya this is me
Could this proverb be true?
“He who is often reproved, yet stiffens his neck, will suddenly be broken beyond healing” 💔
I don’t know if I have psychotic depression but I keep getting this sinking feeling that I’m already dead and in purgatory or hell. Also I have this sharp pain in my back that shoots through my chest like a knife and numbness/tingling sometimes burning in my arms but I’ve had MRI’s, X-rays, an EMG study, and blood tests but the doctors said everything was normal and they can’t explain my symptoms. Whenever I think things can’t possibly get worse they always do. I feel like I’m cursed.
That is Cotard's Syndrome. I made a video on it. Also called "Walking Corpse Syndrome".
If you think you're dead that might be Cotard's Delusion. It's hard to diagnose since it's really rare.
High functioning psycho here. Delusions, panic attacks, auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations my whole life. Learn to deal with it and don't let it show. I accept that these things are normal for me. It is the way reality is perceived. I know that others perceive it differently and will interpret those perceptions in various ways. As long as you continue to be able to perceive as others do, then you have no problem. Learn from unusual perceptions, but don't indulge in the weirdness or talk about it to those who don't get it.
Hello, may I ask on how do you wanna be treated? In no offense, I'm just curious as my partner is in a mental facility today so I can understand him by the time he gets out and by the time he is with me. Thank you Sir.
I think I have it, I have anxiety and “depression” and I had an illusion when I woke up, it sounded like someone said something and started yelling at me. I got scared and tried to get out of it but I couldn’t control it, they sounded evil. I was so confused as it sounded so clear and real now I’m scared I have this. I had other of its affects before but I thought it was normal. But there’s no way in hell that was normal. I’m hoping it’s just cause I’m sick and dizzy but I don’t know.... when the voice finally went away i walked into the bathroom to try and clear my head.
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What happened are you better
Probably not psychosis. It sounds like hypnagogia
Would it be considered a hallucination if I hear past conversations in my head that make me feel most of the time bad sad or embarrassed and reply as if it happened right then and there?
People always talk about other people!
Mary Williams I don’t ever
@Nicole it’s actually not. That’s just a excuse of people, who gossip, to feel better. Of course a lot of people gossip, but there are some, who don’t and it definitely isn’t a human trait. It’s not a needed part in our communication. :)