For anyone who has body insecurities... I know that this isn't a good option for everyone, but something that worked for me was getting a tattoo on my arm. I used to hate showing my arms but I got a tattoo almost a year ago and I love it sooo much that I love showing it to people. Now I wear short sleeves so that people can see it and I feel much more confident now. again, I know it's not a viable option but if it is, that's what has helped me!
@@mariahbailey9753 It definitely will be, I've had a lot of ideas floating around in my head for quite some time and they all mean something to me. I hope I end up getting some. 🥰
Ive never considered hiding my insecurities, thats a real fun Idea though! Personally I always wanted to never hate any part of me, but if I did Id work on getting myself to at least a comfortable spot with myself! Over the years Ive gotten tattoos to make me feel sexy, happy and to my surprise its helped me love my insecurities a little more! Example : I suck at being in public Im awkward and weird 😅but my tattoos now help me ease into conversations and Im overall less insecure. cause most of the times Im just answering the question “does it have a meaning?” Not saying its for everyone but definitely worked for me and I wish more people would give tattoos in general a shot!
I agree with the self therapy, I’m a recovering alcoholic and almost 27 years ago (the night Princess Diana died) I got down on my knees and just asked for help to help myself. I started writing and 6 filled journals later I was excited about my journey into sobriety. On my 1 year anniversary I took those 6 journals, read them then burned them. My trauma isn’t gone, but I know how to cope with it with a sober mind. Not only am I better off, but so is my entire family (especially my children.)
This is the first time I’ve seen a video of Eleanor’s other than her true crime. I can’t believe how bubbly and funny she is! Really goes to show how respectful she is while covering cases ❤❤
there was a period in time where i would journal everyday and just rate my day. i would give a summary and a rating out of ten and it really helped have like a birds eye view of what happened and why it upset me. truly journaling is one of the things that got me to a stable place
Just wanted to pop in and say this. I'm almost 50 so from a completely different generation so these type of videos I usually ignore HOWEVER I just absolutely adore you so I'm over here going omg how has she been? Is she okay? I've been so worried lol. I sit and crochet and listen to true crime and audiobooks (a suggestion ..freida McFadden you will love her).
I’m even older than you and I’m addicted to Ellie’s videos, true crime of course that’s where I found her, but here Ellie is so funny she cracks me up, Ellie has such a fun loving happy personality it makes anyone who is sad get happy just listening to her , she’s so special. I also was worried, I kept checking her channel to see if I had missed notifications or something. Doing true crime is so dark and heavy, it would effect any utuber, in my opinion, those that have real feelings like Ellie. ❤❤❤
AHH girly i also got a tummy tuck and a boob job post weight loss and while the recovery is awful, it is worth it! good luck on those surgeries if you end up getting them! also so so glad to see you’re back again!! truly missed you and your content, but also am so glad that you take time to take care of yourself, it’s so vital! sending you love!🫶🏻
It’s amazing to have you back Ellie! You really are an angel! And I really honestly mean that! Please take as much time as you need with making your videos etc, you’re health and your well-being are by far the most important things! And if and when you need a break at any point, you’ve every right to do so, no one will even be remotely be offended, you must take your time and just go at whatever pace you’re comfortable with. As a slightly Autistic person myself, I 100 percent appreciate how very overwhelming it really is if too much is going on at once and/or too much to deal with in a short period of time! So please do take care of yourself and just take it at your own pace and do what is comfortable for you! All the very best to you Ellie! 😊😄 ❤️
Hello Ellie, I wanted to say, thank you so much for that pep talk about body confidence and positivity. I am 32 years old. I'm overweight and I struggle with the fact that I'm gaining even more weight. I have stretch marks on my belly (my skin isn't elastic at all, even when I was a teenager I'd get new stretch marks every other season, I'd gain or lose weight) and am very seriously self-conscious about them. Hearing you talk about your loose skin both made me feel reassured and worried. Because if I manage to lose weight, I believe I'd end up with loose skin anyway. But hearing you talking about it so openly is reassuring. You know, I have come to realize with time that the fear of showing your body is a bit like social anxiety - if you do put yourself out of your comfort zone, after a while it gets a bit easier. It's not necessarily *fun* but it's easier. Just like Ellie said, it's just her arms and her arms, well, are her arms. With social anxiety, you're just being yourself. People who don't understand that you're making an effort to be there aren't worth your time, anyway. It has taken me a long time (like decades?) to discover this, and I had to make friends with a huge extrovert who likes me the way I am and she just wanted me to meet a few of her friends because she knew they'd like me. This weekend, I'm going to the aquarium with her and some of her friends that I haven't met yet, and you know what? I'm actually excited about it. 😊 I can't wait to see the jellyfish and the sea horses.
Glad you are back, and very happy you had a successful gallbladder surgery. Just be careful if you have a tummy tuck, because if they take too much away you can end up in my current situation. I am having surgery this coming Monday (7/17) for a strangling hernia, that is the direct result of my plastic surgeon taking too much away during my tummy tuck. I am so nervous. I don't like anything that is out of my control. Anyway, welcome back we have all missed you! 🙏 for a speedy recovery.
I hope you have a successful surgery and especially a quick recovery! As a stranger on the internet to another, for the little that it's worth, I'll be thinking about you on Monday!
Something that worked for me was trying lots of different and unique cuts of clothing and figuring out through trial and error what kinds of clothes fit well and look cute. A huge problem was I was uncomfortable because my clothes were uncomfortable. You’re such a precious girl Ellie! Happy to have you back!
I'm currently 6 months post op on a tummy tuck and breast augmentation after weight loss. Definitely have patience with your recovery and best of luck on your upcoming procedure. I'm sure you'll love your outcome! Make sure you have help close by and put everything you may need within reach. LOL
I can so relate to the kids thing! For literally 23 years (or I guess… 11-12 years since I wasn’t thinking about this stuff as a baby) I have adamantly NOT wanted kids but it really can change if you find someone you’d love to see be a parent and you’d love to be a parent with. Obviously not everyone who doesn’t want kids will change their mind but I almost felt embarrassed about changing my mind because of how every know it all adult would tell me I’d change my mind. But I really think it was finally being in a healthy relationship that changed my mind rather than some ~biological natural urge of womanhood~ as they would say.
welcome back! oh such nostalgia when u talked abt the weepy voiced killer, it was one of the first vids i saw by u :D also as a fellow thriller genre fan i recommend books by C. J. Tudor! good luck with the surgery, we’ll be waiting!
I had my gallbladder out when I was about 22… I lost a little weight around the time I got married, but now I’m back at the heaviest I’ve been, but I’m super motivated for the first time in yearsss. You’re so relatable to me because I dropped out of college due to anxiety issues too. And I’m not a big movie/tv watcher. I’ve been watching you for a while, I never comment because i watch on my amazon fire stick and I can’t be arsed lol Also I’m 37 and am childfree due to mental health issues and my husband has a chronic illness. But it’s cool to have cute little things in common even though I’m 13 years older and halfway across the world in the USA 😅
The stories you tell with true crime are very heartbreaking and truly horrid and I can’t imagine how they are for you that investigates these things to bring them to us. Eleanor you do you and whatever you need to do to keep yourself healthy. Your mental health is what’s most important.
I need my gallbladder looked at too. The pain sucks. I hope you get to feeling better, and it's nice to have you back! Also, it's nice to hear you so animated rather than the deadpan delivery in the other videos I watch of yours. Glad to see you see you all happy and such. Good luck on your future. :)
about the therapy/journaling bit: in my experience going to therapy was literally just me saying a bunch of stuff and my therapist repeating it back in a different manner so i could see the patterns in my issues. so pretty much like journaling the same thing over and over until i saw the pattern of it and it all came back to the same insecurities n stuff
i will say as someone who has siblings, multiple kids tend to actually hang out together and entertain each other whereas only one child typically needs a lot more attention and energy from you as they don’t have any built in friends. just one persons perspective glad you are feeling better ellie!
I have a sister who is 4 years older. She was always mean to me even way into our adult years. All about herself if its not about her she dont want no part of it…. Well now I am 41 and I still ignore her. I taught myself to forget I had a sibling where she was absent in my life growing up. Now she says hi to me but honestly I want no part of her and rather she not say hi to me nor buy me xmas presents. She tried to strangled me several times as kids until I got stronger than her. I told her many years ago as adults. When our parents are dead I want nothing to do with her! At 41; I still mean it! She even told me to kill myself in 2004 on a beach vacation trip with the parents. And here she is a special ed teacher for the school system!! Now do you think she should be a teacher caring, teaching your children when she tells her own sister to go kill herself when me 22 at the time and her 26?!…To me I dont have a sibling.
Im so soooo glad you're back and so spritely and giddy. Knowing that the respite youve taken for your MH has helped you pick back up is wonderful. We adore you and the most important thing for us all is that you're doing ok. We are always fine waiting and having breaks from your amazing work, when its for you to get self care down xx
Eleanor, or Ellie, if that’s okay, I have watched you for many years now & I just wanna say how proud I am of you!! I know we’re strangers but your growth has been absolutely beautiful to watch. You’ve grown in how well your videos are put together, as well as growing into yourself. You’re a lovely, hilarious human. You are absolutely gorgeous, but I’m glad you’re doing something for yourself, & I know all of your supporters are happy for you as well. You saying what you want for yourself, while reminding everyone that they’re beautiful as is, that’s why I’ve followed you for so long. You’re story telling is always captivating. I can’t wait to watch the future videos you put out. Praying for a safe & quick, process & recovery. Sending you & yours so much love from NC Ellie!!! 💜
it’s ok ellie! i get like that sometimes too so don’t worry! we’re just happy you’re back :D take as long time as you need ! im glad the surgery went ok! happy to see you back
So glad to see you back! I know you said you don't watch shows, but PLEASE IF YOU SEE THIS, ELLIE, WATCH THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE. If you liked AHS, you'll love it. It's so spooky and has such great messages, and only one season and very bingable!
glad to see your face:)) show recommendations: the last of us, shameless, fleabag, the outlaws, am i being unreasonable and KILLING EVE top tier shows that i will rewatch forever and still be amazed by and for books, i just love lisa jewell’s books, they’re crime/thrillers
missed you ellie :DDD so glad youre doing alright and took some time for yourself good luck on the possible surgery! i just got a hip surgery last week and while its fairly different than what you might be getting, i can say that its not as scary as it might seem. all that really happens is you go to sleep and wake up however many hours later (probably w/ some ivs in lol) and youre pretty much done :) of course theres a recovery period, but i found its much easier to recover when its something youve wanted for a bit and will boost your confidence unrelated- somehow, ive made my brain think the only way i can fall asleep is to true crime podcasts or videos. my friends have found it so disturbing but i genuinely cannot sleep without them 😭 i have an entire youtube and spotify playlist dedicated to my “comfort” true crime episodes/videos that i just play in the background while i try to sleep 🕺🕺🕺
You are my all time favorite youtuber! I have been watching you for years. I had my gallbladder out two years ago and have been seriously struggling since. It makes me happy that we can both relate on this experience. :)
Amazing to know that you’re back!! As for shows/movies i think you’d like; Heathers is kind of a spooky film but not supernatural or a horror film, it’s often described as a black satire comedy, I personally love it (and Winona Ryder ;) ) and I think you’d like it too!
It's amazing to have u back Ms. Ellie! I recently heard the case of Alexia who put her baby in a trashcan. It is a very viral case that happened in January 2023 so i think you will have fun finding more about it. There is also a case of Abby Choi which happened in Febuary 2023 which maybe you will like? Hope you are doing well and don't rush things, take time to think about your mental health and just be safe! Thanks for putting in all the efforts that you and your team put in to give us the best quality cases. All the love from India.
i'm so so soooo happy you're back. hearing that you went to jack's brighton and london shows made me wanna scream! i go to uni in brighton but i'm originally from london and would've loved to meet you. i must say this is probably my first time commenting since i subscribed to you after i saw your 'hello kitty murders' video years back, but you are an inspirational person to me and part of the reason i do psychology and criminology at uni. keep doing you, take your breaks; no matter how long and whenever you're ready, we're ready too :)
I agree with you about just making the insecurities lose power. Get outside your comfort more, and before you know it, your comfort zone has expanded!!
I swear it’s as if I made this video. The last two years I’ve lost most of my weight and now dealing with the skin thing. Was just looking into surgery. But like you said.. I’m also extremely anemic so I’m not sure if I can. Funny hearing you say it all out loud as if you’re telling a part of my own story 😂
I'm so glad you are back Ellie. I missed you. So glad that you know when you reach the point that your mental health needs to be nurtured. Stay healthy and good luck with all your surgeries. Take care ❤️
I dont usually watch your personal videos but I was very worried about you. I have those overwhelming slumps every month to be honest. I am glad you feel better. I also fully endorse all the advice you gave. You know a lot that I had to learn from dumb books. I think you are very thoughtful and bright!
Honestly my life hasn't been the same without Eleanor's videos 🫣😅 I tried every other true crime creator and no-one felt the same. I think it's just so easy to relate to her, I literally watch her videos every day whilst getting ready and find comfort in them.. was genuinely worried about her when she went AWOL. I also hibernate when overwhelmed (I've ADHD and my mental health just sometimes get the better of me so I GET IT. Glad you're feeling good again, don't feel guilty for taking time out ever and good luck for your surgery, you will feel AMAZING after! I had my boobs done in January this year and it's made SUCH a difference to my confidence! ❤❤
Hi Ellie, just want to say, don't be embarrassed for not liking needles! I'm 28 and have severe needle phobia. I still have to take my mom to needle appointments with me and I've never managed to get a blood draw. In fact, I've had a nurse who was trying to take my blood to test for lupus send me home because my panic attacks were so bad ... I was on a double dose of tranquilizers 😂 we don't like what we don't like. And to be fair, I think we have a valid excuse for not liking things meant to pierce flesh being shoved beneath our skin where we can't see what they are poking 🙃
@@tiki_riot they will literally let themselves die. There was a woman who was afraid of needles and needed a C-section to deliver her baby alive safely, but she refused. She knew the baby would die, she didn't care. Her needle phobia took more importance. The hospital got a court order to get the C-section against her will. Her baby survived, she sued the hospital and won. Doesn't matter her baby is alive, get those needles away from her! Delusional. People who are afraid of needles shouldn't have kids if that's the case.
I had gastric bypass in 2010 and had to have my gall bladder out in 2019! Most people that have weight loss surgery have to get their gallbladder out. I really wish I could get plastic surgery to remove my excess skin. I’m so excited you are going for the surgery! Please let us know how it all turns out. ❤ I’m also looking forward to seeing your new kittens. I love that you flashed up James Charles when you said Sisters. 😂😂😂 As much as I don’t like his actions, that was hilarious!
I had a gastric bypass at 16, now 35... gallbladder surgery as well. I just began strength training for the first time, and though I am toning... the loose skin is still an issue. It's also common to have what is called diastasis recti which is the separation of ab muscles that can often result in... well, a "mommy pouch" or " apron belly." Hate those terms. It's nice knowing other people face these struggles as well.
Eleanor i had the surgery after weight loss and its the singleBEST thing ive ever done for MYSELF and my mental health! Don't let anyone talk you out of it, it changed my life, my health, my confidence and it will be the best decision you make for you. Goodluck. ❤
For horror movies id recommend "the strangers", "ready or not", "the mist" or any of the scream movies, if you dont have the patience for full movies id really recommend the dead meat channel. Also thank you for talking about dropping out because of anxiety, i had to drop out at 12 because my anxiety got so bad, im 14 in a week and knowing that other people went through what im currently going through just really makes me feel better about my situation. Knowing that it gets better is genuinely so helpful.
you're such a likeably bubbly person, as someone who also absorbs emotions i get so sad to imagine you sad :( good to know it's an episode you know passes, you deserve to feel well
So glad you’re okay! (I haven’t watched the video yet so I don’t want “okay” to be out of touch) But I’ve been checking and checking for new uploads or community post and have been worried about your well-being. So nice to open the app and see your beautiful face on my screen!
I’m so happy you’re back and more importantly that you’re doing well ❤ Also as a recommendation, I highly suggest Black Mirror. It gives you those wtf moments and a lot of the episodes have fantastic twists!
I am so sad that your video about the weepy voiced killer got taken down! You did an amazing cover of that story and it's so sad to see it go away after you put so much work into it. Absolutely love your videos ♡
I hope you can do a video about the journey with the plastic surgery, I’m contemplating a tummy tuck myself and possibly a small amount of liposuction aswell, I’m also highly anaemic on iron prescription meds for it so it would be helpful to hear what the process was like. Glad you’ve been ok 😊 been a bit concerned with your absence xx
So fab to see you again! Missed your lovely face! I had my gallbladder out in February 2021 and I havent looked back. You will never feel that same pain ever again! It's gone forever!
so happy you are back! ❤ I too lost a lot of weight and had a circumferential body lift and my boobs done! Best money spent on myself ever! Canadian here but had it done in Mexico. TOTALLY changed my life. 🇨🇦 I also have anxiety disorder and CPTSD. NEVER heard of hip dips 😮
Also tip from me about feeling good in your body is to everyday before u leave home start telling urself u look beautiful and after time u won’t need to say it to urself u gon remember ☺️ I know it’s simple but it does work
Kittens, true crime and books are top tier. I can’t wait to see what you have been reading. I’ve got two little black cat brothers, they elevate my spooky vibe
If you don't feel too bad, I would greatly appreciate you vlogging the surgery. I've wanted a boob job for so long but I'm afraid lol. Seeing the process would make me feel better. I'm a new follower on your true crime channel, and recently followed this one, but I'm already glad you're back! I hope you're feeling better!
I’m glad you’re feeling better and you got that gallbladder removed that sucks because having it in and aggravated it really sucks! Be well and thanks for the vid.
I shall henceforce refer to long periods of time as, "chunks of while" I'm also very glad she got kittens instead of just one kitten. It's good for them to have a friend.
i was watching you forever a year or two ago and started again recently and COULD NOT for the life of me figure out why you looked different. congrats on the weight loss!!
Awww so glad your back & feeling up 2 posting us your quality stories as it seems ages hunny but never apologise 4 comming & going as mental health has no shame when it decides your gonna feel like shit it just attacks from nowhere 2 drag you down then pisses off making you feel positive again so makes you unable 2 plan anything as no warning given when it strikes again it’s such a cruel illness so totally get how it feels babes just lovely 2 see you & stay strong 😘 x now gonna watch the story 💋
ELLIE!!! watch red white and royal blue when it comes out august 11th. And if you want to, read/listen to the book before, it’s SO worth it!!!! I’ve been OBSESSED WITH IT!! Best thing ever. Can’t recommend it enoughhhhh
I decided that I want to try and loose weight as well, I’ve been exercising almost every day for almost a month now. But I need to try and find some healthy meal ideas that are yummy.
I'm so proud of you!! The way I see it is that maybe it is better to do the surgery now that you're younger & can recover smoothly... btw, been following you since like 2019. Thank you for these updates bc we get scared when you go MIA ok! lol.
Glad you're okay! I definitely missed your true crime videos, but I figured you were maybe working on mental health stuff (not in a bad way, but I also get an annual burnout and need, like, a month to recover, so I was hoping you were looking out for yours). Also, getting your gallbladder out sucks, and idk about you, but it took me longer to recover than they told me I was supposed to when I got mine out, like, 2 years ago... Glad you're back, and I hope your upcoming stuff goes well! Both online and irl. 😊 (Sorry if this comment is weird, I'm a little socially awkward, lol...)
Omg I relate so hard, I’ve also watched mean girls but like I haven’t seen most iconic movies that literally everyone else has seen, name a popular movie, I probably haven’t seen it, I’ve been trying to also knock some off my list recently and I literally JUST finished all the Harry Potter movies the other day and now I’m realizing just how many Harry Potter references there are on the internet daily LOL
The Casey Anthony Case was the first one that I watched from this channel and I absolutely loved the video, not saying the situation, I love learning about things one of them being crimes and stuff like what this channel covers and after that video I saw the Worst Mother in America video which just solidified me into this channel. I constantly lose hours binging this channel 🤩🤩🤩
I think you’d be a great boy mom because you have such an optimistic view on life and such an open mindset with mental health and self exploration that society never really lets boys experience.
OMG ELLIE YOUR BACK WE MISSED YOU I HAVE LISTENED TO YOUR VIDEOS FOR LIKE TWO YEARS YOUR FUCKING AMAZING AND YOU PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO YOUR VIDEO AND YOU BRING LIGHT TO CASES THAT NEED TO BE RECOGNIZED MORE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOUR SUCH A WONDERFUL PERSON. KEEP DOING WHAT YOU DO ❤️
Gallblader attacks are super common after weight loss surgery, luckily my surgeon prescribes a tablet to stop them so ive been lucky but they sound excruciating! I know a lot in the WLS community suffer with rhem. Glad youve got it sorted! Good luck on the second part of your journey! My plastics are booked in too! Super excited. Its great losing the weight but the excess skin after is no joke! X
WE BACK!! WE BACK!!
beware! the boys are back in town
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Hey lovely- where do you go for surgery? How are you feeling? ❤
For anyone who has body insecurities... I know that this isn't a good option for everyone, but something that worked for me was getting a tattoo on my arm. I used to hate showing my arms but I got a tattoo almost a year ago and I love it sooo much that I love showing it to people. Now I wear short sleeves so that people can see it and I feel much more confident now. again, I know it's not a viable option but if it is, that's what has helped me!
Oh my gosh, that's a fab suggestion, I love it, will perhaps consider. X
@@mentallydisturbedllama473 thank you! I hope if you do end up with one, it’ll be something you love!
@@mariahbailey9753 It definitely will be, I've had a lot of ideas floating around in my head for quite some time and they all mean something to me. I hope I end up getting some. 🥰
tbh yeah i got tattoos on the places where i’m insecure and it helps
Ive never considered hiding my insecurities, thats a real fun Idea though! Personally I always wanted to never hate any part of me, but if I did Id work on getting myself to at least a comfortable spot with myself! Over the years Ive gotten tattoos to make me feel sexy, happy and to my surprise its helped me love my insecurities a little more! Example : I suck at being in public Im awkward and weird 😅but my tattoos now help me ease into conversations and Im overall less insecure. cause most of the times Im just answering the question “does it have a meaning?”
Not saying its for everyone but definitely worked for me and I wish more people would give tattoos in general a shot!
as someone with auditory processing issues you have no idea how much i appreciate the typed out captions an absolute queen
Oh my days. I didn't even realise there were captions even though I was reading them the whole time 💀
@@cristianawong9691ME TOO😅😂
SAMEEEEEE, i also have an auditory processing issue :D
I agree with the self therapy, I’m a recovering alcoholic and almost 27 years ago (the night Princess Diana died) I got down on my knees and just asked for help to help myself. I started writing and 6 filled journals later I was excited about my journey into sobriety. On my 1 year anniversary I took those 6 journals, read them then burned them. My trauma isn’t gone, but I know how to cope with it with a sober mind. Not only am I better off, but so is my entire family (especially my children.)
Amazing ❤❤
Im so like grateful for how honest and sweet eleanore is in her videos it just gives such a comfortable and empowering feeling
We missed you Ellie, I’m so happy you’re back and your doing okay❤❤
This is the first time I’ve seen a video of Eleanor’s other than her true crime. I can’t believe how bubbly and funny she is! Really goes to show how respectful she is while covering cases ❤❤
there was a period in time where i would journal everyday and just rate my day. i would give a summary and a rating out of ten and it really helped have like a birds eye view of what happened and why it upset me. truly journaling is one of the things that got me to a stable place
We’ve missed you Ellie we love you and take as long as you need to make your amazing videos 🫶
Just wanted to pop in and say this. I'm almost 50 so from a completely different generation so these type of videos I usually ignore HOWEVER I just absolutely adore you so I'm over here going omg how has she been? Is she okay? I've been so worried lol. I sit and crochet and listen to true crime and audiobooks (a suggestion ..freida McFadden you will love her).
I’m even older than you and I’m addicted to Ellie’s videos, true crime of course that’s where I found her, but here Ellie is so funny she cracks me up, Ellie has such a fun loving happy personality it makes anyone who is sad get happy just listening to her , she’s so special. I also was worried, I kept checking her channel to see if I had missed notifications or something. Doing true crime is so dark and heavy, it would effect any utuber, in my opinion, those that have real feelings like Ellie. ❤❤❤
@@shaz8486 I looove her personality! I would love to just sit and chat with her for hooouuurs
i love crocheting to crime videos too!!
I love Frieda McFadden's books!
I’m almost 30 and I knit and listen to true crime so it’s cool to see someone else does this!
AHH girly i also got a tummy tuck and a boob job post weight loss and while the recovery is awful, it is worth it! good luck on those surgeries if you end up getting them! also so so glad to see you’re back again!! truly missed you and your content, but also am so glad that you take time to take care of yourself, it’s so vital! sending you love!🫶🏻
jakes editing on this was fucking HILARIOUS
Just ran a bath and poured myself a glass of gin, so this is right on time! Glad you're back angel!
It’s amazing to have you back Ellie! You really are an angel! And I really honestly mean that! Please take as much time as you need with making your videos etc, you’re health and your well-being are by far the most important things! And if and when you need a break at any point, you’ve every right to do so, no one will even be remotely be offended, you must take your time and just go at whatever pace you’re comfortable with. As a slightly Autistic person myself, I 100 percent appreciate how very overwhelming it really is if too much is going on at once and/or too much to deal with in a short period of time! So please do take care of yourself and just take it at your own pace and do what is comfortable for you! All the very best to you Ellie! 😊😄 ❤️
Hello Ellie, I wanted to say, thank you so much for that pep talk about body confidence and positivity. I am 32 years old. I'm overweight and I struggle with the fact that I'm gaining even more weight. I have stretch marks on my belly (my skin isn't elastic at all, even when I was a teenager I'd get new stretch marks every other season, I'd gain or lose weight) and am very seriously self-conscious about them. Hearing you talk about your loose skin both made me feel reassured and worried. Because if I manage to lose weight, I believe I'd end up with loose skin anyway. But hearing you talking about it so openly is reassuring.
You know, I have come to realize with time that the fear of showing your body is a bit like social anxiety - if you do put yourself out of your comfort zone, after a while it gets a bit easier. It's not necessarily *fun* but it's easier. Just like Ellie said, it's just her arms and her arms, well, are her arms. With social anxiety, you're just being yourself. People who don't understand that you're making an effort to be there aren't worth your time, anyway. It has taken me a long time (like decades?) to discover this, and I had to make friends with a huge extrovert who likes me the way I am and she just wanted me to meet a few of her friends because she knew they'd like me. This weekend, I'm going to the aquarium with her and some of her friends that I haven't met yet, and you know what? I'm actually excited about it. 😊 I can't wait to see the jellyfish and the sea horses.
Your video editing is top tier, chef’s kiss
Glad you are back, and very happy you had a successful gallbladder surgery. Just be careful if you have a tummy tuck, because if they take too much away you can end up in my current situation. I am having surgery this coming Monday (7/17) for a strangling hernia, that is the direct result of my plastic surgeon taking too much away during my tummy tuck. I am so nervous. I don't like anything that is out of my control. Anyway, welcome back we have all missed you! 🙏 for a speedy recovery.
I hope you have a successful surgery and especially a quick recovery! As a stranger on the internet to another, for the little that it's worth, I'll be thinking about you on Monday!
Something that worked for me was trying lots of different and unique cuts of clothing and figuring out through trial and error what kinds of clothes fit well and look cute. A huge problem was I was uncomfortable because my clothes were uncomfortable. You’re such a precious girl Ellie! Happy to have you back!
I'm currently 6 months post op on a tummy tuck and breast augmentation after weight loss. Definitely have patience with your recovery and best of luck on your upcoming procedure. I'm sure you'll love your outcome! Make sure you have help close by and put everything you may need within reach. LOL
I love your energy! You are so fun to watch! And it’s very special how much you share yourself with us! IT IS SO GREAT TO HAVE YOU BACK 🤗
What’s crazy is just TWO DAYS AGO I WENT TO YOUR PROFILE AND SAID “damn where my girl at?!” Then you uploaded 🥰🥰🥰🥰 love you Ellie girl 😘
I can so relate to the kids thing! For literally 23 years (or I guess… 11-12 years since I wasn’t thinking about this stuff as a baby) I have adamantly NOT wanted kids but it really can change if you find someone you’d love to see be a parent and you’d love to be a parent with. Obviously not everyone who doesn’t want kids will change their mind but I almost felt embarrassed about changing my mind because of how every know it all adult would tell me I’d change my mind. But I really think it was finally being in a healthy relationship that changed my mind rather than some ~biological natural urge of womanhood~ as they would say.
I'm so excited to meet the kittens! I'm glad you're doing well enough and I hope it only gets better~
welcome back! oh such nostalgia when u talked abt the weepy voiced killer, it was one of the first vids i saw by u :D also as a fellow thriller genre fan i recommend books by C. J. Tudor! good luck with the surgery, we’ll be waiting!
Glad your back ellie, take your time giving us your amazing videos for both channels ❤
So good to see you and become MOOD LIFTED by you! 💛
Thank you for that!
I had my gallbladder out when I was about 22… I lost a little weight around the time I got married, but now I’m back at the heaviest I’ve been, but I’m super motivated for the first time in yearsss.
You’re so relatable to me because I dropped out of college due to anxiety issues too. And I’m not a big movie/tv watcher.
I’ve been watching you for a while, I never comment because i watch on my amazon fire stick and I can’t be arsed lol
Also I’m 37 and am childfree due to mental health issues and my husband has a chronic illness.
But it’s cool to have cute little things in common even though I’m 13 years older and halfway across the world in the USA 😅
I saw the the freaking time stamp and I was like omg she’s okay that’s all I cared about we love you queen 👑
Also the lovely bones is an amazing thriller/serial killer/murder movie, also its a book that you can read to and overall its an amazing classic.
The stories you tell with true crime are very heartbreaking and truly horrid and I can’t imagine how they are for you that investigates these things to bring them to us. Eleanor you do you and whatever you need to do to keep yourself healthy. Your mental health is what’s most important.
I need my gallbladder looked at too. The pain sucks. I hope you get to feeling better, and it's nice to have you back! Also, it's nice to hear you so animated rather than the deadpan delivery in the other videos I watch of yours. Glad to see you see you all happy and such. Good luck on your future. :)
My gallbladder pain was worse than contractions, hands down. It's so awful!
We missed you Eleanor, I’m so glad you’re back. Love you lots xx💓💗🥰
about the therapy/journaling bit: in my experience going to therapy was literally just me saying a bunch of stuff and my therapist repeating it back in a different manner so i could see the patterns in my issues. so pretty much like journaling the same thing over and over until i saw the pattern of it and it all came back to the same insecurities n stuff
i will say as someone who has siblings, multiple kids tend to actually hang out together and entertain each other whereas only one child typically needs a lot more attention and energy from you as they don’t have any built in friends. just one persons perspective glad you are feeling better ellie!
I have a sister who is 4 years older. She was always mean to me even way into our adult years. All about herself if its not about her she dont want no part of it…. Well now I am 41 and I still ignore her. I taught myself to forget I had a sibling where she was absent in my life growing up. Now she says hi to me but honestly I want no part of her and rather she not say hi to me nor buy me xmas presents. She tried to strangled me several times as kids until I got stronger than her. I told her many years ago as adults. When our parents are dead I want nothing to do with her! At 41; I still mean it! She even told me to kill myself in 2004 on a beach vacation trip with the parents. And here she is a special ed teacher for the school system!! Now do you think she should be a teacher caring, teaching your children when she tells her own sister to go kill herself when me 22 at the time and her 26?!…To me I dont have a sibling.
Im so soooo glad you're back and so spritely and giddy. Knowing that the respite youve taken for your MH has helped you pick back up is wonderful. We adore you and the most important thing for us all is that you're doing ok. We are always fine waiting and having breaks from your amazing work, when its for you to get self care down xx
Eleanor, or Ellie, if that’s okay, I have watched you for many years now & I just wanna say how proud I am of you!! I know we’re strangers but your growth has been absolutely beautiful to watch. You’ve grown in how well your videos are put together, as well as growing into yourself. You’re a lovely, hilarious human. You are absolutely gorgeous, but I’m glad you’re doing something for yourself, & I know all of your supporters are happy for you as well. You saying what you want for yourself, while reminding everyone that they’re beautiful as is, that’s why I’ve followed you for so long. You’re story telling is always captivating. I can’t wait to watch the future videos you put out. Praying for a safe & quick, process & recovery. Sending you & yours so much love from NC Ellie!!! 💜
Also idk how I followed your main channel but not this one.😭😂
it’s ok ellie! i get like that sometimes too so don’t worry! we’re just happy you’re back :D take as long time as you need ! im glad the surgery went ok! happy to see you back
So glad to see you back! I know you said you don't watch shows, but PLEASE IF YOU SEE THIS, ELLIE, WATCH THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE. If you liked AHS, you'll love it. It's so spooky and has such great messages, and only one season and very bingable!
i love how anything book related is just a jack edwards photobomb😭
Happy return ellie!!
I’m so glad you’re back and also good luck on your plastic surgeries! We all deserve to feel comfortable in our own skin! I’m so happy for you! ❤
glad to see your face:))
show recommendations:
the last of us, shameless, fleabag, the outlaws, am i being unreasonable and KILLING EVE
top tier shows that i will rewatch forever and still be amazed by
and for books, i just love lisa jewell’s books, they’re crime/thrillers
I feel you gurl!! I lost 8 Stone and three years later, I’m still struggling with the loose skin!!
You are and forever will be STUNNING💕❤️
missed you ellie :DDD so glad youre doing alright and took some time for yourself
good luck on the possible surgery! i just got a hip surgery last week and while its fairly different than what you might be getting, i can say that its not as scary as it might seem. all that really happens is you go to sleep and wake up however many hours later (probably w/ some ivs in lol) and youre pretty much done :)
of course theres a recovery period, but i found its much easier to recover when its something youve wanted for a bit and will boost your confidence
unrelated- somehow, ive made my brain think the only way i can fall asleep is to true crime podcasts or videos. my friends have found it so disturbing but i genuinely cannot sleep without them 😭
i have an entire youtube and spotify playlist dedicated to my “comfort” true crime episodes/videos that i just play in the background while i try to sleep 🕺🕺🕺
on the edge of my seat for the kitten reveal can’t lie
My jaw dropped to the floor when she said she wouldn't show them in the video. 😭
You are my all time favorite youtuber! I have been watching you for years. I had my gallbladder out two years ago and have been seriously struggling since. It makes me happy that we can both relate on this experience. :)
Amazing to know that you’re back!! As for shows/movies i think you’d like; Heathers is kind of a spooky film but not supernatural or a horror film, it’s often described as a black satire comedy, I personally love it (and Winona Ryder ;) ) and I think you’d like it too!
It's amazing to have u back Ms. Ellie! I recently heard the case of Alexia who put her baby in a trashcan. It is a very viral case that happened in January 2023 so i think you will have fun finding more about it. There is also a case of Abby Choi which happened in Febuary 2023 which maybe you will like? Hope you are doing well and don't rush things, take time to think about your mental health and just be safe! Thanks for putting in all the efforts that you and your team put in to give us the best quality cases. All the love from India.
I’m so glad you’re back Ellie! You’re like the big sister I never had
i'm so so soooo happy you're back. hearing that you went to jack's brighton and london shows made me wanna scream! i go to uni in brighton but i'm originally from london and would've loved to meet you. i must say this is probably my first time commenting since i subscribed to you after i saw your 'hello kitty murders' video years back, but you are an inspirational person to me and part of the reason i do psychology and criminology at uni. keep doing you, take your breaks; no matter how long and whenever you're ready, we're ready too :)
Missed you Ellie!!!! So glad to hear you voice and glad you've taken the time to for self care
it's so wild hearing you reference old videos and saying, "most of you won't remember this" because it feels like I watched most of them 2 months ago
You are my comfort person. So glad your back, this makes me heart happy ❤
I agree with you about just making the insecurities lose power. Get outside your comfort more, and before you know it, your comfort zone has expanded!!
I swear it’s as if I made this video. The last two years I’ve lost most of my weight and now dealing with the skin thing. Was just looking into surgery. But like you said.. I’m also extremely anemic so I’m not sure if I can. Funny hearing you say it all out loud as if you’re telling a part of my own story 😂
I'm so glad you are back Ellie. I missed you.
So glad that you know when you reach the point that your mental health needs to be nurtured.
Stay healthy and good luck with all your surgeries.
Take care ❤️
I dont usually watch your personal videos but I was very worried about you. I have those overwhelming slumps every month to be honest. I am glad you feel better. I also fully endorse all the advice you gave. You know a lot that I had to learn from dumb books. I think you are very thoughtful and bright!
i've missed yoooouuuu i'm so glad you're doing better now, it's lovely to hear
Glad to have you back Ellie. Take care of yourself and take all the time you need. Love you lots 💞
Honestly my life hasn't been the same without Eleanor's videos 🫣😅 I tried every other true crime creator and no-one felt the same. I think it's just so easy to relate to her, I literally watch her videos every day whilst getting ready and find comfort in them.. was genuinely worried about her when she went AWOL.
I also hibernate when overwhelmed (I've ADHD and my mental health just sometimes get the better of me so I GET IT.
Glad you're feeling good again, don't feel guilty for taking time out ever and good luck for your surgery, you will feel AMAZING after! I had my boobs done in January this year and it's made SUCH a difference to my confidence! ❤❤
Hi Ellie, just want to say, don't be embarrassed for not liking needles! I'm 28 and have severe needle phobia. I still have to take my mom to needle appointments with me and I've never managed to get a blood draw. In fact, I've had a nurse who was trying to take my blood to test for lupus send me home because my panic attacks were so bad ... I was on a double dose of tranquilizers 😂 we don't like what we don't like. And to be fair, I think we have a valid excuse for not liking things meant to pierce flesh being shoved beneath our skin where we can't see what they are poking 🙃
I'm glad I was desensitized to it so young. Hate giving nurses a harder time than they need.
What happens if you develop conditions that require frequent blood tests? Have you thought about that?
@@tiki_riot they will literally let themselves die. There was a woman who was afraid of needles and needed a C-section to deliver her baby alive safely, but she refused. She knew the baby would die, she didn't care. Her needle phobia took more importance. The hospital got a court order to get the C-section against her will. Her baby survived, she sued the hospital and won. Doesn't matter her baby is alive, get those needles away from her! Delusional. People who are afraid of needles shouldn't have kids if that's the case.
I had gastric bypass in 2010 and had to have my gall bladder out in 2019! Most people that have weight loss surgery have to get their gallbladder out. I really wish I could get plastic surgery to remove my excess skin. I’m so excited you are going for the surgery! Please let us know how it all turns out. ❤ I’m also looking forward to seeing your new kittens. I love that you flashed up James Charles when you said Sisters. 😂😂😂 As much as I don’t like his actions, that was hilarious!
I had a gastric bypass at 16, now 35... gallbladder surgery as well. I just began strength training for the first time, and though I am toning... the loose skin is still an issue. It's also common to have what is called diastasis recti which is the separation of ab muscles that can often result in... well, a "mommy pouch" or " apron belly." Hate those terms. It's nice knowing other people face these struggles as well.
Eleanor i had the surgery after weight loss and its the singleBEST thing ive ever done for MYSELF and my mental health! Don't let anyone talk you out of it, it changed my life, my health, my confidence and it will be the best decision you make for you. Goodluck. ❤
For horror movies id recommend "the strangers", "ready or not", "the mist" or any of the scream movies, if you dont have the patience for full movies id really recommend the dead meat channel.
Also thank you for talking about dropping out because of anxiety, i had to drop out at 12 because my anxiety got so bad, im 14 in a week and knowing that other people went through what im currently going through just really makes me feel better about my situation. Knowing that it gets better is genuinely so helpful.
you're such a likeably bubbly person, as someone who also absorbs emotions i get so sad to imagine you sad :( good to know it's an episode you know passes, you deserve to feel well
So glad you’re okay! (I haven’t watched the video yet so I don’t want “okay” to be out of touch)
But I’ve been checking and checking for new uploads or community post and have been worried about your well-being. So nice to open the app and see your beautiful face on my screen!
I’m loving that you’re so willing to share your interest in getting plastic surgery but don’t make it seem like it’s your end all be all
so glad you’re back and feeling better! hoping to see the kittens soon😸😸
Yes! Girl please share you’re experience through your surgery.
I’m so happy you’re back and more importantly that you’re doing well ❤
Also as a recommendation, I highly suggest Black Mirror. It gives you those wtf moments and a lot of the episodes have fantastic twists!
Girl I’m so happy for you for losing the weight, you look so incredibly healthy and even just in your videos, you seem SO much more confident! 🤍🤍
I am so sad that your video about the weepy voiced killer got taken down! You did an amazing cover of that story and it's so sad to see it go away after you put so much work into it. Absolutely love your videos ♡
It's still available
I hope you can do a video about the journey with the plastic surgery, I’m contemplating a tummy tuck myself and possibly a small amount of liposuction aswell, I’m also highly anaemic on iron prescription meds for it so it would be helpful to hear what the process was like. Glad you’ve been ok 😊 been a bit concerned with your absence xx
lmaooo the random James Charles meme while talking about the kittens 💀😭😂😂😂
So fab to see you again! Missed your lovely face!
I had my gallbladder out in February 2021 and I havent looked back. You will never feel that same pain ever again! It's gone forever!
you should be "then she was gone" by lisa jewell!! my fav crime thriller so far!! so nice to see you back
so happy you are back! ❤ I too lost a lot of weight and had a circumferential body lift and my boobs done! Best money spent on myself ever! Canadian here but had it done in Mexico. TOTALLY changed my life. 🇨🇦 I also have anxiety disorder and CPTSD. NEVER heard of hip dips 😮
Also tip from me about feeling good in your body is to everyday before u leave home start telling urself u look beautiful and after time u won’t need to say it to urself u gon remember ☺️ I know it’s simple but it does work
You reveal you have kittens and don't show the kittens! I'm wounded! Lol but seriously glad you're back and looking forward to the kitten reveal! 🎉😻😹
Kittens, true crime and books are top tier. I can’t wait to see what you have been reading. I’ve got two little black cat brothers, they elevate my spooky vibe
Hey bday twin! ❤ don’t apologize for needing a break!!!!
If you don't feel too bad, I would greatly appreciate you vlogging the surgery. I've wanted a boob job for so long but I'm afraid lol. Seeing the process would make me feel better. I'm a new follower on your true crime channel, and recently followed this one, but I'm already glad you're back! I hope you're feeling better!
I’m glad you’re feeling better and you got that gallbladder removed that sucks because having it in and aggravated it really sucks! Be well and thanks for the vid.
I shall henceforce refer to long periods of time as, "chunks of while"
I'm also very glad she got kittens instead of just one kitten. It's good for them to have a friend.
i was watching you forever a year or two ago and started again recently and COULD NOT for the life of me figure out why you looked different. congrats on the weight loss!!
Awww so glad your back & feeling up 2 posting us your quality stories as it seems ages hunny but never apologise 4 comming & going as mental health has no shame when it decides your gonna feel like shit it just attacks from nowhere 2 drag you down then pisses off making you feel positive again so makes you unable 2 plan anything as no warning given when it strikes again it’s such a cruel illness so totally get how it feels babes just lovely 2 see you & stay strong 😘 x now gonna watch the story 💋
ELLIE!!! watch red white and royal blue when it comes out august 11th. And if you want to, read/listen to the book before, it’s SO worth it!!!! I’ve been OBSESSED WITH IT!! Best thing ever. Can’t recommend it enoughhhhh
ellie if you dont already, get goodreads!!! its so fun to track what books youre reading and organise them all
the hip dip. thing is so true, i have them but im trying to love them and im getting there. its just the bone structure and you cant do much about it.
I decided that I want to try and loose weight as well, I’ve been exercising almost every day for almost a month now. But I need to try and find some healthy meal ideas that are yummy.
I'm so proud of you!! The way I see it is that maybe it is better to do the surgery now that you're younger & can recover smoothly... btw, been following you since like 2019. Thank you for these updates bc we get scared when you go MIA ok! lol.
Glad you're okay! I definitely missed your true crime videos, but I figured you were maybe working on mental health stuff (not in a bad way, but I also get an annual burnout and need, like, a month to recover, so I was hoping you were looking out for yours).
Also, getting your gallbladder out sucks, and idk about you, but it took me longer to recover than they told me I was supposed to when I got mine out, like, 2 years ago...
Glad you're back, and I hope your upcoming stuff goes well! Both online and irl. 😊
(Sorry if this comment is weird, I'm a little socially awkward, lol...)
Omg I relate so hard, I’ve also watched mean girls but like I haven’t seen most iconic movies that literally everyone else has seen, name a popular movie, I probably haven’t seen it, I’ve been trying to also knock some off my list recently and I literally JUST finished all the Harry Potter movies the other day and now I’m realizing just how many Harry Potter references there are on the internet daily LOL
The Casey Anthony Case was the first one that I watched from this channel and I absolutely loved the video, not saying the situation, I love learning about things one of them being crimes and stuff like what this channel covers and after that video I saw the Worst Mother in America video which just solidified me into this channel. I constantly lose hours binging this channel 🤩🤩🤩
Your title made me chuckle. You’re amazing. You will always be amazing. And we all love you 😍😍 you rock Ellie ❤️❤️
I think you’d be a great boy mom because you have such an optimistic view on life and such an open mindset with mental health and self exploration that society never really lets boys experience.
OMG ELLIE YOUR BACK WE MISSED YOU I HAVE LISTENED TO YOUR VIDEOS FOR LIKE TWO YEARS YOUR FUCKING AMAZING AND YOU PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO YOUR VIDEO AND YOU BRING LIGHT TO CASES THAT NEED TO BE RECOGNIZED MORE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOUR SUCH A WONDERFUL PERSON. KEEP DOING WHAT YOU DO ❤️
YOU HAVE TO SHOW US THE KITTENS SOON !!!! I'm glad you're back :)
My next upload will be introducing them, promise!!
Missed you! Hope you are doing well!! So glad you’re back!!❤
MISSED U SO BAD !!! WELCOME BACK QUEEN LOVE U
Gallblader attacks are super common after weight loss surgery, luckily my surgeon prescribes a tablet to stop them so ive been lucky but they sound excruciating! I know a lot in the WLS community suffer with rhem. Glad youve got it sorted!
Good luck on the second part of your journey! My plastics are booked in too! Super excited. Its great losing the weight but the excess skin after is no joke! X