life after miscarriage... how I'm actually doing...
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 6 ก.พ. 2022
- hi friends!
I felt I needed to update you on how I'm actually feeling since having my miscarriage...
What you see on camera is not always the full reality of how I'm doing... life is hard... and I hope opening up about this will help encourage others who are going through the tragedy of miscarriage or anything that is painful and hard to walk through... know that I'm with you... and God is good... regardless of our circumstances and feelings.
I had a miscarriage...
• I had a miscarriage...
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Kendra
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I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through a miscarriage. It’s awful to lose a baby. It’s going to be a year since my first pregnancy and missed miscarriage in May. And I totally relate with you when it comes to grief. It really never hurts any less. I’m slowly learning to live with the grief and not be sad all the time, but honestly almost the entirety of last year I was walking around sad. I never understood grieving people prior to my miscarriage. It’s crazy how we expect time to lessen the pain and help “get over it” but that’s not really how it works. I relate with the church thing, too. I couldn’t go for almost two months. It was also Mother’s Day the weekend of my miscarriage & I watched the online service. They had asked the mothers to stand briefly and I couldn’t hold it together watching that. I think even the identity of whether I was a mother was confusing to me. It’s just so hard. All of it is so hard to go through. I never realized how difficult having a miscarriage would be. Hugs to you. I will be keeping you in my prayers. 🤍
I'm crying while reading this... I'm so sorry you are also carrying around this grief, and I can't imagine how hard that was to watch on Mother's Day... this Mother's Day will probably be extremely hard on me as well, I haven't even begun to think about it. Thank you for sharing your story, it breaks my heart and at the same time gives me comfort.
I spoke to you when this first happened to you, I’m an old lady now, I had two miscarriages in my lifetime, one at at 3 months and the second at 4 months, back in my day woman were just supposed to get over it and move on, it wasn’t a big deal in other words..I have 5 children and 6 grandchildren and I’m 75 yrs old now and I still think of my lost children and I know I will see them one day, it does get easier, you will,find joy again and you will never forget your child but you will find that place that you can enjoy life again, your husband, family and friends, they need you and you need them even if you don’t think so..God Bless you , you will be alright I promise❤️
Thank you for sharing your story Phyllis, I can’t imagine what you’ve gone through.. thank you for sharing love and wisdom with me ❤️
Love this background soo much🥰Love you girl, praying for you!!🥺🖤
Love you💛💛
Thank you for sharing this and being so open💛
I’m so sorry you went through a miscarriage. I’m sending you all my love and I’m praying for you. Sending you big hugs 🤍.
Thank you Jayda💛
I'm so sorry for your lost kendra
I needed this today❤️ thank you for sharing your story. Hope life has brought you many blessings since this.
Sending you prayers! 🙏
Thank you for sharing your story. 💕🙏🏽 God bless you.
I can’t imagine what you are going through and I’m not going to pretend to. I am going to say that I am sorry for your lose and I hope you do come through this.
You’re speaking right to my heart in this one. Praying for you.
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Thank you Kendra for opening up on your feelings. I cannot imagine being in your place. I will be praying for you and Nick for healing. I am mourning with you both. Actually I cried a lot watching this video. I am also going through pain and this whole week I have been going through the motions. I thought I was okay and I kept praying to God and thought I am actually okay. I think I was not able to acknowledge that I am sad and tried to mask it. But your video opened up my wound and I just cried it out. So thank you for this video. Again there is a season for everything and I hope you will transition into a season to dance soon. God bless your family.
Aww I’m so sorry to hear you are also hurting… I’m so thankful we have a God who sees our pain! Thank you for sharing ❤️
Beloved healing takes time. Give yourself some grace and take your time. This is your journey. Prayers up for you 🙏🏾❤️
Thank you Robin, I appreciate that so much!
Hey Kendra,
Praying for you during this very difficult time in your life. I really love the book videos that you have on your channel. I'm someone who really love's to read. God Bless you Kendra 🙏✝️.
Thank you so much Hunter!
Still praying for you & thank you. You are the first who has said take your time in grieving. Myself, I rush through my feels so I don't have to keep feeling. But I have found that I get along in my room & just like you talk to us in the camera that is how I talk to my daddy(God). & it has helped me tremendously. He is so loving & kind. You are in my prayers.
Thank you Jenna… God is definitely teaching me a lot through this, and for someone to say “take your time” it was also exactly what I needed💛💛
My heart hurts for you so, sister 💔 like you’re saying, grief isn’t something you can get around and the pain you feel is because of how valuable that precious child is to you. And the shattering of your dreams for their life. You will always hold that in your heart. But The LORD truly meets us where we are, in our pain and I pray you feel held and sustained by Him in your weakness. He knows our anger and how we question things and want to bargain with Him and deny reality…He wants to hear all the cries of your heart. I’ve been feeling that same theme in my life, when so much is taken away, trusting God. Especially when life doesn’t feel good and joy is a battle. Our tears make us long for heaven, when all will be made new.
Praying for you and love you Kendra!💕❤️💕
This was so sweet and encouraging, thank you for these words, my heart really needed it 💛
My heart still breaks for you both💔 I am so deeply sorry for Nick and you. Praying for you.
Thank you so much, Diana❤️
Kendra, your willingness to display your vulnerabilities is admirable. I can only imagine how difficult it is to share this with everyone online but I’m grateful that the Lord is using you to comfort other believers. It actually was encouraging to be reminded that our pain has a purpose, and I’m also learning to hold fast to the Lord and trust His character even when my emotions bring me to despair. Thank you for making this video and know that we’re all praying for you❤️
Thank you so much Hannah💕
Thank you so much for making this video, and having the courage to post it. Today makes a week since I passed my baby. I also tune the pain out, but it always returns. I feel empty inside, and so, so, so terribly sad and hopeless. I know it will eventually get better, but this is hard. Thank you again, thank you for your vulnerability. Sending all my love. ❤
Tomorrow marks a week. I feel so hopeless and empty. I am looking for answers and really trying to understand what I did wrong or just what is wrong with me. I feel like I'm such a faulty woman
Still praying for you and Nick, Kendra. Please please please don’t rush through this. This is a time for mourning and healing will come later. You may not be thankful for the mourning part but you will be thankful for the healing.
Thank you Daniel, I definitely needed to hear this!
Sending you a big hug!
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Thank you Michelle💛
Oh Kendra, I get that. I’m very structured too and I like to plan and know what’s coming so miscarriages hit me hard too. This month marks 12 years since I had my first miscarriage and the memory is always there. I always wanted a large family and I didn’t understand why God would do that to me. 11 years to the month after that first miscarriage, our fifth baby was born. I see the beautiful picture now and know he wanted my current children here. Had I not miscarried they would not be here. It’s so hard and I’m so sorry for it but God is sovereign and I can’t wait to see His beautiful plan unfold in your life. Also I’m so glad that we will spend eternity with our babies in the presence of the Lord. That always brought me so much comfort.
Thank you for sharing your story Amy, it brings me hope seeing how God worked through that tragic loss to show and reveal something else to you ❤️
Praying with you and for you... I have never gone through a miscarriage so I can't begin to understand what you are feeling. However, what you said about healing not happening how we think or hope it will made a lot of sense to me. When we heal I don't think we are ever the same. Healing doesn't return us to our previous state. As you said, we are left with scars (be them physical, emotional, or mental). I don't think we can or should expect healing to return us to our previous state. For example, I had a very traumatic c-section and I am still healing physically and emotionally. I now fear getting pregnant again, which I never feared before. It has left lasting scars physically and emotionally and I honestly don't know if those scars will ever completely heal. (If you are interested, I have a video on my channel explaining what happened... it gives a little insight into the emotional scars I am trying to heal "TRAUMATIC C-Section Birth Story *EMOTIONAL*"). Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us.
Also, I understand that my example is not the same as grief... but your video helped me to realize why I am still feeling scarred by my experience.
I’m so glad this could speak to you in the ways that you have also dealt with pain and trauma… I can’t imagine what’s you’ve gone through, and childbirth is one of my biggest fears… it took me years to surrender to the Lord and be willing even to get pregnant… I know I have a long way to go and God still has to change my heart in many ways, but even though our fear is different, and unique to us, I know that God is greater than both our fears ❤️❤️
My friend, you will heal. Yes your pain does have a purpose. Sometimes it gets you closer to God. My grandmother went throught this 3 times.
After so much pain, she got pregnant naturaly and had a healthy kid at 43. For her it was a miracle.
That kid is my dad ☺
She tells me sometimes how that pain she went throught brought her closer to God and how she could get pregnant and have kids even after giving up.
Because after my dad she had another kid amazingly and again it was an easy and healthy pregnancy.
Never lose hope and always know God can heal you from everything and is here to take care of you.
I will be praying for you during this hard time❤️
Psalm 147:3
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.
Thank you so much, Abigail 💛
I keep you and your husband in my prayers 🙏🏼
Ever since you announced your miscarriage I pray for you and Nick almost every night.. so just know that we are, Christian and maybe even non Christian people, thinking and praying for you. You’re not alone ❤️❤️
~ “Rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep” Romans 12:15
Ana, that is so incredibly kind of you! You have no idea how much we appreciate those prayers right now ❤️
Hi. Sorry to hear all of that. “. The Meaning of Life is to find your Gift, The Purpose of Life is to give it Away “ _ Pablo Picasso . You will find your Gift & Purpose…..🇬🇧. 🇺🇸. Hands across the the Sea.
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I'm shocked listening to you because what you just described was what I haven't been able to put into words...and my situation is loss in seperation /divorce. Thanks for opening up wish I could give you a hug by ill just pray. 💜
@@loudlittleroar675 I am so sorry to hear this… sending prayers your way right now💛