What A Day As A Cocaine Alcoholic Addict Was Like
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his monthly addiction was more than my monthly income
Drug addicts usually make more than you do in a month within a few weeks lol
It’s I started balling. That was over 20 years ago.
@@zachquirk467especially cokeheads. not a cheap habit
“They never called Scarface a knock”
yeah i spent over 100k in a year and maybe a half. and thats on the lightside
Bro that RV dealership sounds wild
Are they hiring?
The Wolf of Winnebago coming soon... Starring Leonardo Di Caprio.
I imagine any kind of vehicle dealership in a beach town is the pinnacle of greasiness
Bro I shop their
fucking insane 600,000 a year
This dude was like rv salesman version of wolf of Wal Street
Honestly
40-50k per month
Wolf of Winnebago
“i was having sex with a lot of people i shouldn’t have been, including my wife”
bro WHAT 😂😂😂
Liquor, rebull, and coke. My heart is beating fast just hearing this!
Dont forget the viagra! 😂 bro’s heart was running marathons
@@richreacts8814bro I can’t even drink coffee cause it makes my heart beat too fast this guys railing blow and eating viagra lmao
@@Iambetterthanyouanduknowit they even each other out
Viagara has to be bad combo it increases blood pressure as well
@@tcoom76 no it lowers it its a blood pressure medication, i originally thought it was a heart attack pill as well
13 days today without a drink, I already feel better about everything and cant wait to see what else will improve. Don’t be afraid to talk to the people you care about for help.
Stay strong.
That's just a tip of the iceberg, be ready for the real fight ahead of you...
Ahh the pink cloud. Enjoy it. And as for talking your feels to family or friends.... ummmmm.. yeah. No
Excellent
how you doing?
When the drugs stop being fun but makes you feel normal……is the time you need to reevaluate life
Such a real statement. It's not even fun anymore 😢😢I know it's time to stop
Such a true statement
@@miamiglia I talk from experience I was one of the worst drug addicts possible I spent 15yrs of my life in prison and 25 yrs chasing heroin and crack I’m now 11yrs clean and do charity work to raise money to get others into rehab and when they get clean there’s a job to go to when they come out…I have over 50 phone numbers of ex addicts who phone me if they feel like they’re going to relapse so I can talk them round or help them deal with the issues bothering them…..I feel like everything I went through was so I could reach the place I’m currently at so I can help others….thats what keeps me clean …knowing I’d be letting everyone down if I messed up….although these days I never think about drugs even in the hardest of situations
damn getting high ain’t been fun since i was like 14 started smoking weed doing pills at 12 i feel like im still trying diff things tg not to the same level i used to but i feel like im trying to find what mixture of things makes me feel the most stable mentally while still being able to function and be productive
true
How did the company he worked at stay in business for more than a day? Imagine walking in to buy an RV and the staff is yolked out of their mind. I’d walk out.
😂
And hearing sounds from the bathroom 😂
coke addicts make great sales people
Every single salesman that works for commission is ok coke buddy, you just didn’t notice. Not everyone chews their face off or acts super crazy 😂
😂
Yeah, one day of that at work would be a blast. Everyday, it becomes a nightmare. But the addiction latches on to that one day and makes you chase it until you quit or die.
I first used coke in the early 90s for a couple years then it got tough to get around 93-94 like very hard so I quit . The second sting was 2009 -2010. The first thing I noticed was the quality of the stuff was never as good as when I got it in the early 90s. I'm not sure if it was in my head or what but even the very best stuff smelled like gas or paint thinner I assume it was made differently by then. The main reason I stopped was because my heart rhythm was off and it scared the crap out of me. Finished. Done.
They beat it to nothing now. Stretching the profits. And pablo is long gone.
Spot onn
It's not a blast though, that one day f--is you up for days..
@ddesimone9912 Well in the UK cocaine purity has risen to 30 too 40 percent now from about 4 percent a few years ago..Would have thought you guys in the States would have way higher but app its not ?
Hey man I just want you to know that your videos let me get through a lot of stuff. I'm a recovering cocaine, opiate addict and suffer severe depression. It's nice to know I'm not alone and I love relating to you through your videos
stick with it
Got a month sober today. Appreciate your videos and honesty man
This dudes living the dream
Living in a dream / nightmare you cannot translate to anyone, because we are trained to think like you, that this is good stuff.
Pure nightmare
It would be excellent for about 6 months and if after those 6 months you could just quit with no issues
He is seeing his memories as he talks. He needed a week of sleep to break the habit along with caffeine, good food and exercise. That keeps boredom away and interest up but one needs a replacement activity. Gardening or rock climbing, whatever works.
I find masonry work keeps my mind off booze and coke
@@jamie.777 knew a bricklayer that thrived on coke while he worked
These videos are very informative. Glad this channel showed up. Helps me with some insight on what my clients may be experiencing.
Ive been sober for 90 days and im craving a couple beers ! But if i drink i cant stop and if i drink i will be snorting cocaine
There is no much thing as just 1. Remember that
@@tylerkay825 I know
hope you managed to keep the sobriety man. Stay strong it will get easier eventually!
Me too bud
@@amandarodriguez1605 stay strong one day at a time ...
600k a year to work with a bunch of crackheads at a dealership. Wow
Has changed a lot
@@EricBZinkDid you work at a sales department? If so, would so make a video on how to become good at sales?
That’s immediately what I thought. And the older generation wonders why the younger generation can’t get ahead? You guys were getting paid hundreds of thousands of dollars to do coke, drink liquor, and bang your receptionist……..things have certainly changed.
@@EricBZink you’re embellishing those numbers man
@@chriskozub8012 not even close I wish I would have stayed in during 2020 people make over that easily till around 2022
Channel is growing nicely. Messages are good. Good job
Addiction is a nightmare. It is complete darkness.
Depends on what you are addicted to.
Alcohol and cigarettes addiction actually destroyed my life. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my wife which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
How do i reach out to him? Is he on Instagram
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an
obsession with violence.
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them
again, either. I wish there was a good,
organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
Mushrooms changed my life as well.
Im proud of you wish i had the strength. I started drinking at 13 and am 51 now. I've lost over half of my life, family, friends, jobs so many jobs. I tried my hardest i got to 63 days sober and then ruined it about 3 weeks ago and been on a binge losing everything again. I have a new job to start tomorrow so I'm just sitting here slowly drinking at 11 am today so i can keep the withdrawals off and hopefully get to bed early and eat good today and start my sobriety with a new job i hope and pray i can do it! Praise the Lord give me the strength please!!!
Only Jesus can help us. We need to follow him. Its not easy, but possibly. May Jesus set you free and give you faith, strength, and everything
How's new job mate
Have you done meetings? They can help with the depression, cuz usually everybody there is as fucked as you are
you got this friend! don't shame yourself for relapsing, give yourself a pat on the back for trying really hard and try again. you WILL make it, it takes practice
@@kevins8386 so far so good 14 days sober praise the Lord!
That is wild, thanks for sharing dude!
I like this guy he makes so much sense and makes me wanna stay sober 👍🏻
Thank you for your transparency and honesty. Condolences for the loss of your wife 💐 Grief can cause an addict to go down a path you can’t come back from. I’m glad that you found and connected to your higher power. 🙏🏿
Thanks for your story. Part of what you said is almost as you were talking about me some time ago. Keep going.
thank you for sharing this, it takes courage to put it out there like that :)
Recovering Heroin Addict here, the minute you mentioned "711 on Beach Blvd" I immediately got flashbacks, the one on Beach near Walmart was my hangout spot. Miss HB
I cant tell if he's trying to brag or warn us about something. Sounds to me like this guy was living the dream.
Stay strong, appreciate your honesty
This is insane glad you’re still with us man 🙏
Such a champ!
Were all proud and look Up!
This is an brutally honest story thank you
This is crazy. S/o for sharing you story
Love your honesty
Thank you for sharing 🙏🏽
He regurgitates the same shit in every video lol
Bro this sounds awesome
Watching you tell this story makes me believe you're still high. All do respect
why
Nah he’s adhd
You know him or something? Your opinion means nada. 👎
He’s not
Hey Eric. I've watched your channel for a while now and this is actually my first time commenting. Honestly man, I'm still currently struggling with both alcohol and cocaine addiction and from watching your videos I did exactly what you and everyone else says, admit to yourself that you're an addict, and let everyone know you need help. Unfortunately in my case when I started to open up to my friends, family, anyone, it feels like I got the opposite reaction that I was looking for. I've only been judged and labeled as a junkie, my peers began to look at me differently, almost to a negative effect. I want to be like you man and fight through it. I'm tired of the things I've lost and the relationships I've destroyed. It's almost like I'm just watching everything crumble around me and sometimes it feels like there is no way out. I don't know, I just felt like it was finally time to just put this stuff out there. Either way, I love your content and the impact you make on peoples lives is huge, I appreciate and respect you a lot man, thank you.
Most close to you already know it's an issue. That's usually the case anyway. But cleaning up only works if you're truly doing it for yourself. I mean family and work and friends can motivate you as far as wanting them to know you're getting better and healthy but it's gotta come from within. For me the real help was professionals trained to help me because there was no way in hell I could stop. Alcohol was my deal with some blow and zany but I couldn't stop drinking or go into convulsions and likely die. So detox did it for me and it was the easiest part of recovery. A week off the battlefield getting my central nervous system regulated back to a point where I didn't need a drink to survive. But then real work on recovery happens out in the real world with all those challenges. Sobriety ain't no joke. But broh if I did it I promise anyone can. Trust that.
Try smoking some weed instead of doing coke and drinking. Maybe some mushrooms aswell.
Thanks for sharing your story . I know exactly what you mean about being in those scummy motel rooms all alone.
I’m now approaching 5 years sober in September from Heroin. It does get better your right !
Hang in there my friend.
Great story!
THANKS FOR SHARING
This dude is cool AF! Glad for your recovery but damn this dude is the man.
just Dom across your channel I don’t believe by coincidence cause I don’t believe in coincidences. Anyways, thanks for sharing. You’re incredibly brave. I’m a couple of months away from 10 years Sober.Totally relatable. I subscribe I’m gonna follow you. Stay healthy.
Holy shit. Where the hell was this dude working??
😂
I used to work on high rise doing formwork with my own compagny while high on fentanyl for 3 yrs 😬 now clean for 3 years
@batmasterson7506 I used to be a route driver for a refuse company when I was a oxy addict lol
I was a pill and oxy addict working for a huge investment firm as an investment adviser (series 7/66) and doing a 40 in the morning and then another 40 at lunch… sometimes taking 7-10 7.5 Lortabs a day. Methadone too. All the while calling clients and cold calling prospects.
@@batmasterson7506😮 Did you end up going to rehab? Have help (maintenance medication) to get you through that? Or... did you do this cold turkey with at least 7 days off work?
I relate to a lot of this man. I’m a few years sober now and life is infinitely better
Ur active addiction life was so similar to mine. I was in the construction business and worked out of town and lived that same life. Couldn’t stand who I had become and put myself into rehab. After rehab immediately started getting connected into AA and found the lord and my life changed immediately. I can’t thank the program enough my life greater than I ever thought was possible.
Oh my goodness! This is what killed a close family member of mine.We had no idea just how bad his addiction was until he had a massive heart attack.Excellent to see your still alive!
Jesus Christ 😱
Good for you for stopping and getting sober. 👍
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Congrats on your anniversary man still trying to be sober completely
You are the first person that gets me
You're on point. Sounds like a party!
Im totaly off the speed and other shit, all i do is shrooms these day, and i get fk anxiety listening too this xS^^ We gotta stay clean, thaks for sharing mate. Keep living!
Yer bro, im with you - after 30 years of messing my life up I've finally realised how bad stimulants are for my mind. Weed and shrooms only now.
I have used once in 12 months, biggest break I've had in years....
@@evolveausevolveausthat's my opinion, along with kratom if opiates was your gig
This sounds so awesome
Hahaha yeah. Just the going to work part sucks 😂
ty for the video! liked and subbed. i’m currently trying to kick opioids AGAIN and i am probably going to need rehab AGAIN. it’s frustrating bc ive already been so many times. but it’s necessary
just listening to it, this life sounds so stressfull, glad you did get out of this
Been there bro. Sold dope for twenty years. Gram rail to get out of bed couple grams at lunch then drink and party at bars to make cash until ending up passing out. It’s taken a lot every day to maintain but GOD is good. Glad you better and prayers for you brother. GOD Bless
Im confused as he said he did alcohol and cocaine to cope with his wife's suicide but then he talks about his wife filming him crawling around naked and how he would have to ask her how his night had been. Huh?
I think he had times of going black out drunk/high while his wife was still alive. He has said they both struggled with addiction and were seperated at times.
I saw the same thing. Obviously him and his wife are making money from these lies
Banging the receptionist too? Come on dude! Cool story!!
He seems like he lies a lot this man
Yh im thinking the same
This could be a RED BULL COMMERCIAL! gives you wings. Your a madman. Is the R.V. lot hiring? I know where beach Blvd snd Westminster is. Court house
That's such an inspirational story. I'm usually rendered useless after a few lines
For anyone thinking that this man lived a dream lifestyle, rocking, it is not a laughing matter, alcohol addiction, drug addiction are dreadfull. When you wake up in the middle of the night and see the darkest part of your soul.
I went through addiction for two decades. Its hell. I hope other people find peace
lol those stories. at the beginning. i feel ur pain
Coke is like readiing a chapter in a book without punctuation like commas and periods out loud. Speed is a whole book without punctuation out loud.
Dude you were wildin out!
Relapsed recently went on a 3 day bender. Was sober for 3 years before but my girl left me and it kind of drove me into it. Did everything drank, did coke, hooked up with loose women and now today im awake sober had a talk with god asked him for strength. By all means recovery isnt easy but with a little bit of faith and discipline god will show you the way.♥️
Same here
Psychosis. I wish you all the best.
AS AN ADDICT YOUR GIRL LEAVING YOU WAS THE PERFECT EXCUSE
You'll always be in recovery . You just took it for an excuse
@@jonesmorales-tu6kq you're right it was the perfect excuse. I still regret it and I hope I get to the point where i can overcome these moments of weakness. Since that comment though 3 weeks ago I've been sober and haven't had a craving hopefully this time I'll last 6 years without drugs and alcohol. It's about getting better everyday and that's what I'm striving for
Im really sorry for you and your wife. Im glad youre doing better now.
Thanks for your testimony man.
On in$ta
He's got psyches and other good stuffs
Forcing yourself to eat as a coke addict is the most vile shit ever. Gagging and chewing and downing water just cuz you know you need something in your system for you to comfortably do drugs the rest of the day, not cuz my body needed it. Been clean for 5 months and I don’t miss it. I literally would call out of work if I don’t have my bag for the next day. It was so bad. I can’t imagine living like that
Im going thru withdrawal right now, I feel terribly alone. Your video made me feel a little less so, I wish none of us had to go thru this. It feels like a curse.
Jesus Christ. I’m glad you came out the other end ok. Thanks for sharing.
man when you said the dripping and made that face.. i could feel my throat go numb and I haven't used any of that in years.
The manager of an RV lot makes 50k a month?
WTF.
We need a video how we can make 40-50k in sales a month ngl
$12k-$15k on the addiction per mn
Yeah wtf
@@SonyPSP1001 still making 400k/yr
I call bs
50k a month yeah right
Lmao I feel you bro!!! Been there done that! Been sober for 6 or so years now. Glad u good now
Question : Did you ever manage to get any work done during your cocaine and alcohol binges during the day while you were doing the receptionist?
Complete bullshit of course
Sales?? Most very much so.
imagine being an addict and still SNIFFING coke, instead of smoking ready
Its scary how similar this story is to mine. Im 31 years old, & even though im no longer using cocaine, I am still drinking. My girlfriend also unalived herself back in january 30, 2019, and that sent me into a dark place, I was also in a motel using drugs by myself, and actively making plans to unalive myself. I was lucky to have people who loved me enough to track down what motel I was by analyzing the room I was in when I sent a goodbye video to my loved ones. I'm still having trouble with drinking while im at work and ive lost multiple jobs because of it.
Used for 29 years until one day I said that is it..... I can't stand suffering anymore 15 years ago till now. It is s Living HELL to be trapped in that vicious cycle. You can stop.... just fucking stop.... if I did it ,then you can also. It will get worse if you don't.
This has been nearly my exact experience. I have 10 years clean now and same as you I was just DONE one day. "I'll go through whatever but I won't do this anymore!".
This may seem crazy and outrageous, but I have known very many people throughout my life who have been this deep into drugs and alcohol and most of them didn't make it out of their prime years alive. The very few who did still struggle to this day trying to stay sober, but I commend anyone and everyone who get up everyday and fight the good fight to stay sober and alive. Unfortunately Life doesn't get easier, but all Life is worth fighting for because time alive is far too short to throw away on drug and alcohol addictions.
Lol this guy telling this story like we’re supposed to think “what a monster” bro you was having fun!
Thank you.
Bro this shit is wild!
This adequately explains management to me.
Right!!!
My experiences at a car dealership when I was younger now make sense...
Probably about 10% truth in his story.
Explain
@@JustMe-ub9yobeing an addict isn’t very interesting, it’s actually usually boring and pathetic. Most functional alcoholics are functional because they keep their drinking and drug usage to low levels and at certain times. Getting wasted at 8 am and being functional at work isn’t realistic. You wouldn’t get any work done and everyone would know, you’d get canned almost immediately. He’s describing the life of a rockstar not an average addict
@@StinkySkunk100 wrong
@@StinkySkunk100It sounds like the RV lot isn't your typical / professional / corporate type of work place. Some workplaces are just like this and full of addicts... Especially ones that revolve around sales. And there are many people who can handle large amounts of substances and you wouldn't even know it.
@@SalamHerbs-db5nt I know they’re full of addicts but I also know addicts lie about how much they consume and how much they can handle while being functional. Having a few beers when you wake up and a few shots of vodka before you go in is believable I’ve known people like that. Maybe sales people are more lenient but what he describes is not something anyone can do and be functional
Fascinating how different people are. 20 years ago I took cocaine every weekend but never developed any addiction problem with it. But I was an alcoholic, sober now
Fuck, I remember those mornings. The alcohol got rid of the shakes and the cocaine levels you out. Problem is how fast it wore off. So you’re stuck in an all day cycle to maintain just ok… not good but just okay. Thanks for the story.today it served as a reminder of where i came from.
Sounds like a pretty awesome commute to work
Hey bro, how many years exactly did you do this for and was it everyday for this time? Glad your doing well now bro ❤
Geeked up
It’s amazing u never got a DUI
He’s lying
@@alexanderbayer4348I think so too 🙄
Bro I got a dui for weed and I didn’t do shit they just pulled me over for smelling like it
@@Udontlikeice still don't believe ye,your pants are the only thing smoking.... before they go on fire
He never got a dui because white privilege, if he were latino or black 10 years in prison and probably shot to death!!
“Tomorrow’s fun today” as the great Robin Williams would say about coke.
Top man
As a recovering addict myself I feel like sometimes we justify using and are to empathetic on our self 💯
HELL YEAH BROTHER SOUNDS LIKE THE DREAM
Sales people are insane. This sounds like a typical dodge sales manager.
I can relate. If I told you the industry I worked in you’d say no…can’t be. Yes it can be
Bro, no need to sell me the lifestyle, I'm already in 🤣
Happy for ya
Tires on Netflix needs to do something like this for season 2
Man I’m so sorry 💙
This is wild can’t believe it’s even real