When are suicidal thoughts dangerous? | #79 Ask Kati Anything
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- Ask Kati Anything ep.79 - Kati Morton's Mental Health & Psychology Podcast
1) How much of our childhood is normal to remember? I remember some things, but not a ton. My family life was fine growing up, I had loving parents, but I experienced bullying at school and social isolation because of that. I'm wondering if me not remembering stuff is because of the "trauma" of bullying or if it is just normal not to... 1:59
2) Are suicidal thoughts dangerous when they aren't exactly in the near future or planned? I personally had this thought that once I start university I won't be able to handle the extra fears as I... 14:11
3) I think you never talked about helicopter parents and the effects they have on children. What if instead of emotional neglect you receive so much attention and emotional presence from a parent you don’t learn how to operate on your own? How can one overcome the embarrassment... 32:26
4) I have recently started seeing a trauma therapist. I like her but I haven’t really opened up about anything yet since I’m scared she won’t believe me and I’ll shut down like I usually do in session. How do I overcome my fear of not being believed by my therapist? 39:34
5) How can I try not to let my depression take over too much when there are many changes going to happen? I´ll be moving soon and should start a program that helps me get better but I'm letting myself sulk in self pity and don't want to do anything but sleep all day. I fear I won't be able to get... 47:40
6) Is it still considered sexual abuse if it happens between children who are only a year apart in age? Like when one child is 8 and the other 9. Does there have to be a big age difference for it to be considered sexual abuse or does age not matter? Is it less traumatic if they are close in age? 53:38
7) How do I know if symptoms of one mental illness is their own illness or just part of another? After watching your videos on Borderline and googling the most common symptoms myself, I mustered up the courage to ask my therapist if she thought I might have certain Borderline tendencies. 59:58
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I'm not afraid of the danger, I'm afraid of repeatedly suffering day after day.
I feel you mate.
I dread waking up every morning nothing changes I wake up with a knot in my stomach, and nauseated
I survived cancer maybe I shouldn't have
I suffer from chronic depression. It was at its worst during the year, 2021. I'm thankful I'm still alive.
Regarding suicidal thoughts, I’ve had to tell a ton of mental health workers about my suicidal thoughts, and I don’t think I have ever had one panic and want to send me to inpatient. I have been encouraged to go to the hospital for help, and I’ve made safety contracts and safety plans, but so far, no one has panicked. 💜
If you are seeing a professional and they panic when you mention suicidal ideation, you might want to look for another provider.
I had to have my CPN come to my home for feeling like that, which started with refusing to eat for 4 days. She brought peer support workers and she saw my note too.
I've had a few panic and send me, even at times when that wasn't an issue. Now, I interview the people I consider for medical and mental health needs. My current therapist and I talked about what it looks like when I'm a threat to myself and when they are just thoughts needing to be dealt with and set aside. My medical doctors are also aware that I have them often, but I know what to do when they are a problem to be dealt with. I'm one of those people who are actually comforted by the fact that we don't live forever. This keeps me living as fully as possible even in depressive episodes
When you have betrayed yourself, so many times in your life,... and you become aware each time after.! And after,... yourself tells yourself What you just did ... again!!
I lost everything!! Everything!, material, friends, job, sanity.... I now hate myself so much. And I'm thinking always "how I had happiness , and how I ruined it" . And my regrets are horrible, and are despicable.
I have incredible grief, and regrets, and shame and my latest..... I did something I KNEW I shouldn't do!... told myself " no don't ".
but,.. I somehow decided too,... then LOST MY CAREER JOB!!.... then, I thought, WHY? I knew that would happen and did it anyways. Self hate!
It is so important to know how to talk with friends and family about depressed moods and asking if they are having suicidal thoughts. Talking about it does not make the person want to act on it more.
I had suicidal ideation without a plan in Florida and the utter mention of it put me in a mental house, as a woman, I was mixed with MEN. It was very traumatic and honestly, I lost hope in the "system" and I have stopped asking for any kind of help. All I asked for was a therapist. I can't afford one so I haven't seen one since then, I have used TH-cam as my therapy.
When I was inpatient there were men and women on the unit, only rooms were single gender. That is pretty typical from what I’ve seen of psych hospitals and hospitals in general for that matter.
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Thank you!
Suicide is my default. I know that andy therapist knows that. So when the feelings come up, we talk about it. No need to react as a crisis. It means I'm totally overwhelmed. It's my default that life is too hard. Knowing that about yourself if really good. Yeah, it's a feeling. Like anger, fear, guilt, shame. Talk about them. Doesn't need to be an action.
Bullying is super traumatizing. I’m so glad for that 1st question. I’ve been bullied A LOT throughout my life and I know it’s deeply affected me.
I have a alot of shame guilt and embarrassment
Honestly I’m learning so much from this and your other channel, like way more practical stuff then I’m learning in my psych degree. Also it’s just helped me so much over the years personally, especially when I couldn’t see a therapist. Thank you so much :)
I never see it as an option. Just because I never really believe I can do that. It's just I don't want to be here. And for the control, it makes me upset that I can't just tell my heart to stop beating. It's automatic regardless if I wanted to or not.
I'm giving myself two years
what you said at 39 mins made me get out of bed to eat dinner and have a shower, thank you
Good work! 💙
When I was diagnosed with BPD it was not a relief, it made me so angry and felt like my life had been ruined permanently. Like a had a scarlet letter on me. I still feel like this. I don’t understand why it’s suddenly popular to try to self diagnose. If you are suffering from extreme pain seek an evaluation from a psychiatrist but be prepared for the tidal wave of dysphoria afterwards.
It's so confusing to me that someone would care so much for someone else, that she would offer to do a check-in every few days. It breaks my heart and mind to hear there are nice people like that :/
My memories of my trauma came back on their own in my mid 30's.
This is what I'm going through right now being in my mid 30s. Trauma will always come back if it's not healed.
Thanks Kati. Your videos make me feel less alone. Love and light 💙🔥💯
I second this
Omg yay new episode! I get so excited to listen to this podcast every week that the days I don't get to hear a new episode, i relisten to it and then older episodes while i wait for a new one. These are so helpful even if the question doesn't completely apply to me, Kati's answers work for so much of my problems that I love hearing every answer. And she has such a calming best-friend voice. ❤
I guess my entire life is a whole trauma because I don’t have memory of almost anything 😢 I’m 51 years old. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD
I could never imagine how someone would feel before suicide ... until i used lyrica for four months. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me ... Within a week i went from feeling depressed to extremely suicial. My body shut down completely, i had no energy left for anything, when i tried to eat i threw up, i turned my back on frinds an family and was completly isolated ... I lost all control of my thoughts and actions and i thought i was going to die
My body basicly told me that it was time to. i couldnt even talk to someone even though may friends and family cared...
I took valium for a week and stopped taking Lyrica and it was way better afterwards. I think im still a little traumatized after that ... i dont know if it would heva helped me, if someone aked me if i had these thoughts ... but i think so.
If you feel someone is having such thoughts, please ask them, because they cant tell you!
Lyrica had also affected my mental health. Take care.
This randomly popped up on my suggested videos today. Can't thank you enough Kati. I've really been struggling BADLY recently with my mental health (depression, PTSD, gender dysphoria, anxiety... & Many other chronic rare illnesses) & this podcast really helped me today. Some of the advice you gave has really helped & made me think. I'll definitely be listening to your podcasts in the future. You gave some REALLY helpful advice.
Oh, FYI, it is Samaritans and also mental health matters is also a really good place to call over here in the UK ☺️ Thanks again Kati. Take care x
Suicide hotlines ain’t that good. I have a person once hang up on me angrily because she said I was bipolar and needed to see a doctor and be on meds. instead of calling the crisis line. She totally diagnosed me and just hung up on my face angrily. Terrible experience, very isolating.
Where do I find the podcast? What is the name? I lost my son 16 weeks ago. I have many questions. None of us knew. Not us parents, none of his siblings or friends knew. Is it a silent suicide? Could it have just happened? I have so many questions. He always came to me for everything so I just don’t understand!! I am lost & I feel as his mother I should have known something. I’m full of guilt because I didn’t know or because he didn’t come to me? I was in severe shock. And the way it was handled traumatized me. I relive it every day. I have panic attacks every time I sob. I was just diagnosed with ptsd, anxiety & rare severe wave panic attacks. I’m trying to learn so that I can understand & heal. My grief is consuming me. I am a twice suicide survivor. I lost my only sibling the same way. My brother was bipolar & he tried to commit suicide since I was a child & it traumatized me throughout my childhood, teenage years & even as a young adult. He completed at 40. Many years of coping with his depression. My son never said anything. Thank you. M’s mom F23💛🕊️
I understand his pain
I will not tell anyone close to me about my thoughts. I just pretend everything is fine. I think he might feel the same way.
As someone who has suffered for a long time and hid it from my mum, my heart breaks for you. Please know that he won't have hidden it from you because he didn't think you cared. He was very unwell and wouldn't have been thinking. It sounds like you were very close, you can't always see the signs. I read recently that a lot of people who take their own life seem 'normal' and 'happy' in the days leading up. Please take care of yourself, be kind to yourself x
@@teemumiettinen7250 they wouldn't understand
I understand that it feels good to know that there's a possible way out of life even if one doesn't want to act on it now. I don't know how one can argue that life/living has an inherent value. Why is it such a big topic to prevent suicide? Dieing or living, does it matter? In 80 years we're probably dead, naturally or by suicide - how does it matter?
I wondered that, too. I think honestly it’s more about how it’d affect people closest to that person, but to me, that’s honestly selfish. People often say suicide is selfish, but I feel like it’s more selfish for people to expect people to try to live if they don’t really want to and are truly suffering.
I don’t know why people make life seem so grand. I think most people’s lives look mundane and boring. I just feel like it should be someone’s choice if they want to live.
Aaaand this is why I advocate for euthanasia. People accept it in animals but not for humans. If someone is genuinely suffering and doesn't want to keep going on living, has spoken to doctors, there's nothing that can be done to alleviate suffering or they've used up all treatment options... Why is it ok for humans to suffer?! It makes me so mad. I am chronically ill myself and I've seen my nan (who was my best friend) go downhill with dementia. She hated losing "her marbles" (it's what she used to say to me) & she felt like she was stupid all the time. She didn't want to get to the way she is now and wanted to go out with dignity. Just... *Grumbles* /rant over
@@erasier_1991 it's not the topic but as a German it is really strange for me that this word is used in normal conversation in other languages. In German I think one can't really use these word anymore due to the nazi regime.
But I understand your point.
For me, it is difficult to understand my own viewpoint. I think I am deeply influenced by some values, like the inherent value of life but not quite sure anymore if I agree with these.
I want to send some love though through the internet, random stranger ;)
I can agree that being sent to the hospital by a therapist is traumatising. It happened to me. Since that evening I can´t see an ambulance without being remembered of that event. It still bothers me.
In regards to question 3, I also think that it’s important to really sit and think what you want out of life. For example, you may have goals focused on independent living as far as doing laundry or time management. Making a list of things you want to learn may make this experience for digestible. Setting boundaries can also help. What will and won’t you allow others to do or have an opinion on. I had a ying/yang situation here I had your experience, but I developed a sense of hyper independence as well. Wish you the best of luck! Be proud of yourself!😊
hey kati, thank you for answering my question about my concerns about my brother being abused. Hearing your answer was really helpful. But it would be great if you could get more into the fact of why you would report it. I mentioned some signs and possible red flags I noticed with him and it would be great if you could say if any of these are red flags in your eyes. You don't have to talk about them specifically or read them out obviously, but how do you view these situations and behaviour as a therapist? I know that past sexually abusive behavior is a big red flag, but could the things I describe be an indicator of it as well, especially when adding up? And did you mean, that you would report it if you were in my situation or as a therapist? And you said, that I should tell them about my past abuse when reporting the suspicion. But I'm scared for my family to find out about it and what would happen with my mother in this scenario - is it selfish if I would rather not tell them that? And is me suspecting it with the other things I noticed going on with him enough reason to report without mentioning my abuse? How do I deal with the guilt and shame that comes along with reporting your own mother - especially if the suspicions were not proved to be true - how do I deal with how this is going to affect and potentially destroy my family knowing this was my fault?
FYI On July 16, 2020, the FCC adopted rules to establish 988 as the new, nationwide, 3-digit phone number for Americans in crisis to connect with Suicide Prevention Hotline.
What if the mere fact that the only one who wants to check on me is my therapist makes things worse
wow I feel so valid. the answers you give are incredable. and nr 6 (THANKYOU) for talking about that.
Suicide Hotlines for most countries:
en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
What’s considered a “suicide attempt”? I know someone that thought about taking their life. They were really close, but decided not to step on the “highway” because of how it may effect their loved ones.
God, Every bloody moment fighting with one thought which is ending this shity life however it's just my mother keeps me alive. One day she will be gone and then I will end this misery.
Me too brother this life is hell
@@Vito-oo4my I feel you brother just focus on happiness.
Thanks Kati! Happy Thursday!
My daughter only eats certain foods, will only eat alone, can't have foods touch, will only eat small amounts several times a day. Will not eat dinner with family
Stumbled so gracefully upon you on the worst bday of my life.
Hey, there's no fate but what we make. Terminator truth. I refuse to self terminate!
Also I've woken up in the middle of the night because i can hear myself scream but i don't know why and there are other nights where my husband and kids say that i move as if I'm having bad dreams or trying to scream like I'm scared but when they wake me up i have no idea what they are talking about cause i don't remember any kind of dream or dream at all and there was this other time where I felt my body sit up and again i am screaming my kids ran to my room and as they turn the lights on and i see there scared lil faces along with my husband's confused faced i couldnt help but to laugh and then i realized how creepy that might have looked one minute I'm screaming and the next I'm laughing then i start to wonder what my mind or subconscious is hiding from me that it blocks any memory of what might have been going on that made me scream. I don't feel scared or feel my heart pounding like when u have a nightmare and you actually wake up scared. Im afraid of what goes on in my head that makes my body react that way but then has my brain block any memory of it.
I do not fear death on the suicide guide I'm a 4.5 out of 5
Hi Kati! Thanks for another upload🤍🤍
Kati, how about a video on the little inaccuracies of the human mind that the vast majority of people experience without knowing -including healthy people. Namely: false memories and brief hallucinations.
I mention this because they're a great example of a facet of the human mind that we all are culturally trained to stigmatize as signs of being mentally unwell.
But anyone who's stayed awake for way too long has likely experienced very very mild hallucinations. (I see little black fuzz balls moving like insects in my peripheral vision if i stupidly don't sleep for two days.)
And as for memories, isn't it well established that the human brain has a habit of "filling in the blanks" of our memories from time to time? I have s childhood friend who insists on having very definite memories of our childhood which i don't have - or remember very differently. Twice, I've quietly disproven his false memories by looking at old photographs. He's VERY sentimental about the past and i suspect that has meant he's pressured his brain to actually create false memories. I too had one childhood memory which, at age 40 i realized was false; in fact, it came from a dream.
So who are we saving ourselves from? I also use the option as a sense of control. What do we do when the pain of living is greater than the will to survive? Have you ever felt that pain? Pain that can either be triggered or come from nowhere and rationally you know that this deep, stabbing sadness is your disorder but it doesn't change the pain. Add on top of that how debilitating anxiety is plus RSD because you can't believe anyone truly loves you, that the ones that say they do have a motive, this can even be a spouse. Oh I've had my plan...it did involve Maui but I guess that's not good at the moment, it also included a jet-ski and a cooler full of Kaluah, Vodka, Milk and Ice securely duck taped to the front of the jet-ski. I would go out like "The Dude".
The thing is, there is no damn cure and it's constant. Every thought is negative, everyone is plotting against you. It never ends.
Hi Katie, what if we are suicidal and also have a plan
Very important video!!!
Happy Thursday Everyone ❤
Happy Thursday to you!
2nd Alter here named Mumma,
DO NOT get me started on the stupid 'BMI'! My two very healthy 4 & 6 year old's were told they were over weight when having a healthy little chubby tummy's I presume because they didn't have flat tummy's??? And then myself, at the time five foot zero, 70kgs and late 30's, wait for it obese! ikr ffs.
BMI's can be useful I'm assuming by an expert like yourself Kati but seriously, "Please Explain"???
Huge thank-you too Kati for your videos,
Much love & air-hugs from Rocky in Australia. 🤗
Omg that was my experience its like i blacked out but my brain and body where on auto pilot and playing out the lil clip of video of my suicide i woke up when i was in front of my house at 6am and not knowing how i put on my sweater and shoes and walked out i was walking towards the train tracks that's what I see what is there that i try not to think about and then i had this thought that maybe that's how a lot of people are able to go through with it maybe in there mind there gone already and your brain is in auto pilot playing out the part that is engraved in your brain because as i recall that day in my mind i was already walking towards the train tracks then waking up in front of my house really shocked me and i thought what if the lil clip that plays in my head was of me cutting my wrists the time i took on putting on a sweater and my shoes would have been more like walking to the kitchen and getting that knife i don't know or have any memory of getting ready or even waking up and getting out of my bed i honestly felt i couldn't trust myself and i turned around and headed straight to the urgent care mental health center where i was put on a 72 hr hold. I hope i make sense and that my mind wasn't too fast for my typing and maybe missed a word or two.
How do you defeat your active suicidal thoughts when you are stuck in a place that you can't cope in when your spouse doesn't seem to understand how or why you are feeling depressed and suicidal even if you tried to explain it? We moved to a place where I have never been able to cope and since we've been here our relationship has been under strain because of how I feel and because my spouse says he doesn't know how to deal with me. I have been harming myself and have a plan to commit suicide. Currently my financial circumstances doesn't allow us to move away from here and I am not sure how long I can try and cope with this anymore. I feel trapped and alone in this whole situation. I need to get out of here as soon as possible
I hope you are still here and doing better. Sending hugs.
Hi Kati I was listening to your audio book on Audible Through the night and in the morning I had the biggest flashback I've ever experienced and I've been accessing memories in huge floods since then. Is this normal? Anyone else had this ?
Sounds like you over did it. Trauma books are not meant to be consumed in one sitting. Just because it's Kati doesn't mean it's not going to trigger you. Please be careful. Flooding yourself is a terrible thing to do.
@@AmethystWoman I agree.
It can be difficult for me to balance how much mental health content I consume in a week/day because it's also apart of my job and, more importantly its a way I've learned to cope with my mind and symptoms. Consuming information or just listening to discussions on mental health both soothe me and can trigger me.
I haven't touched it for a few days and even had to stop this podcast because I was beginning to feel vulnerable during it and went okay.. still not ready to consume this content - got it.
I appreciate your video
Suicidal thoughts aren’t even remotely dangerous. It’s the suicidal actions that get ya
I’m wondering if you would do an audio version of your new book? I go thru a lot of books on Audible.
There is one. I have it on Audible
@@nikkiellery759 awesomesauce!!! Got it!
Hi Kati,
I had two older brothers who sexually abused me. I was 3 or 4 the first time and my foster brother was I think 16 - 18. The next time I was 8 and the brother 12. WOW I haven't actually written this down for a long time it feels weird!!!
Anyways, just wanted to comment as you asked and of cause to maybe help?
FYI, I love the way you talk, it cracks me up so please don't "poo poo my thoughts"...
LOLZ Rochelle (+ two Alters).
How & where do I leave a question? Thx
What kind of nails did you get done and what are they called?
Understandably you focus on obvious victims of COCSA, the one who got abused in that situation and has the right to feel that way.
But could you do video on the offender as well, like in this question a 8 year old who abuses another kid their age. How can they deal with the guilt they feel when they start to understand what they did?
I wish that you could be my therapist and I bet that others in the comments wants the same
Please can you talk about FND
I wanna die so badly. I can't take it anymore. There is no hope for me. Everyone would be better off not having to deal with my shit.
What do you know about the association between temporal lobe epilepsy and any psychological or psychiatric issue?
Can the first cause the later?
I have Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. Look up symptoms of TLE. Anger can be a seizure. The focus of the missed electrical firing is in the temporal Lobe. The seat of the emotions. So seizures can look like many things. I've had times when flashing lights has made me have a rage attack. It was a seizure. Good luck. There is tons online about TLE. It's not all in your head so to speak. It's very real and some some the seizures can look like out of control emotions. It can also be hard to diagnose as the area where the impulses are can be very deep in the brain. Many times they need to insert probes into the sides of your jaw to pick up seizure activity when it can't be picked up by skin leads because it's too deep.
@@jplum7708 I hope you are doing well and improving after the surgery, seizure control wise, and I hope you get better emotionally.
I just went to the neurologist to get my EEG report, it stated that I have "bitemporal epileptogenic dysfunction with secondary generalization for clinical correlation", transients of moderate voltage sharp slow waves in my temporal lobe with tendency to generalize. He says it's not epilepsy tho.
I think it was there before taking antidepressants, because when I was on them for 20 days I had symptoms of temporal lobe seizures mainly rising epigastric sensation "butterflies in my stomach" with a vague sense of fear. Then it developed into full fear and panic for few days; at one point my hearing was just too too sharp, every sudden noise would just get into my brain and cause an unreasonable somewhat painful fear response that would take over me for fractions of a second. Then when I stopped the medications I remember having the worst headache of my life, then two days later waking up suddenly at night then just painfully going stiff like when being electricuted with feeling something pulsating aggressively behind my forehead. The pain was so sudden and so severe that I just thought it was going to be it. Like death is what's next for me. Tried to move barely on the bed, whilst trying to hold onto something because of the pain, then I thought to myself that God is merciful, and that death would be a good thing for me at that time, because the level of pain reached my maximum threshold of tolerance. And then I accepted that I might die at any second. Then the "seizure" (or whatever it was) ended, the headache was gone, and in my head irritation was gone, but I found it very hard to read and comprehend after that for at least 2 weeks; like I became a 4 year old in terms ability to read and comprehend. Ever since it felt like a part of me got fried, like someone pressed Ctrl+delete and erased a part of me, and I was immediately "anhedonic", I was unable to feel pleasure, or sense it in any way, shape, or form, for like at least one year.
Is it ever to late to start trauma therapy? IE…25 years post.
never too late
Hah I knew it you're an immortal just like Keanu Reeves lol.
I know in my life, suicide is my default. I tell myself that's ok, I don't need to do it. It's just a thought. But last week, at my bday, which is always abad time for me because of abuse anni stuff that I haven't figured out yet (question of programming of an alter.)
So last week I called the text hotline and nobody ever came. I called a hotline and a man answered and I can't talk to a man safely. I called back later and the woman seemed like she could care less. Like she must have been knitting or just distracted. I hung up.
So I ended up taking doses every day so that I just slept for 5 days. (Safe doses but enough to knock me out.) I barely ate, drank or even peed but I lived through and in the end, that's all that matters.
My therapist is basically no contact between sessions. I can write her on the portal but her responses are just blah. Not helpful. So I don't unless I have info to tell her. I see her twice a week but on Friday I didn't see her again till the following Wednesday which was the day. So during the unsafe period I was in my own. I was so scared. I didn't want to but I kept hearing that I had to. I told her she flunked bday safety. I'm proud I was able to say it but it's the setup and not going to change. There is no emergency coverage etc. So, not overdosing and being safe about how much I took. Enough to sleep. I lived. I've had many attempts and in fact was DOA once. I am I guess high risk. But I have never felt so ony own. So I slept and I guess that was ok. She told me Wednesday she had faith that I would be ok. If it was 30 years ago, I might take that as a dare and anger to make her feel guilty later. Not so much now and maybe I just think I might. She is a trauma therapist and helps with DID. I'm new to my diagnosis and it's frightening. Ok. Long enough. I'll edit later. It was a scary week and everything I tried to do to help myself failed. Scary.
I have thoughts, plan and means, but I feel my life will be better next summer
I wish you were my friend here (in Germany 😅), or at least my therapeut 😘
(but i could imagine to be to boring for you as a depressed person).
2014/2015 habe ich ganz oft Kati's Videos geguckt und sie haben mir irgendwie Halt gegeben, ich habe sie jetzt jahrelang gar nicht mehr verfolgt- habe sie nun wieder "entdeckt", haha.
Ich wollte auch, dass sie meine Therapeutin ist, obwohl ich eine tolle Therapeutin habe.
Ich hoffe, dir geht es soweit okay.
I have intrusive thoughts and ocd Im just fucked
Trama work is " real fuckin hard"
CPS is fucking joke, all they ever did for me was toss me into therapy. Then the therapist would request my dad to get therapy and he would instead pull me out. Rinse wash and repeat...
when you said WWW I thought of this clip- the first 30 seconds will make you laugh th-cam.com/video/T294fsByAwI/w-d-xo.html
There are good things buried in the repressed childhood memories. Like watching Ramblin' Rod and mom reading to Wizard of Oz books to me. A 4th grade science teacher that was cute and she assigned us to memorize all the names in the human body. I did just to impress her and I still remember a lot of those bones today.🦴☺️ Sometimes I need a noggin joggin' to recall it but it is like a calm place in the storm to go to.
Are these memories or "repressed" memories. Usually if the are "repressed" it's for a reason. Childhood memories, good pleasant ones, might be forgotten till you see a picture, but they wouldn't really be called "repressed" as using a psych term for it? They are just forgotten. All memories don't need to be pathologized. 😃
@@AmethystWoman Good point. Sometimes it's a fuzzy line because good memories get tinged with bad and get lost in the clutter until something happy jogs my memory.
There is no help,..
I hear you
None.