Rachael. I can very much relate in terms of dreaming for things while not putting in the action. Motivation for me is so hard... Just today, I started this book called "Into The Magic Shop" by James R. Doty (MD). The book is essentially about the author's life and how he got into meditation and how it changed him. He randomly stepped into a magic shop when he was 12 years old while trying to escape his very troubling childhood growing up in poverty (with an alcoholic father/drug addicted depressed mom) and an older woman named Ruth was working in this shop and recognized his troubles and she taught the author how to meditate early on in life... Anywho, the author goes on in life to become a professor of neurosurgery at Stanford and ends up starting the Center For Compassion and Altruism Research and Education. In the book though, he talks a lot about the brain & body connection which I feel is somewhat relevant to Anorexia... I learned about him through Sam Harris' podcast "Making Sense". All that to say, you may find the book intriguing 🧐
That seems like such an interesting and engaging book! Sounds like the author has been on QUITE the adventurous life journey. I'm absolutely going to hunt it down and give it a read, thank you so much for giving me the recommendation. And yes, I agree that wishing while falling short in the follow through department is definitely not a tendency specific to eating disorders. Hopefully we can both implement being more proactive in all areas of our lives. Miss you, roomie. Love, me AND Gulliver 😉🐱
Bravo! So glad you have come to this realization! I had anorexia from age 10-28 and although weight restored at 28-42 was in quasi recovery. Still very worried about staying in the same weight range, still compensating etc. not true freedom. Four years ago relapsed and this past June I was like no! I want to be fullly recovered, not quasi! I stopped the Rules! No counting calories, listening to my hunger and eating more than the meal plan if hungry, no exercise rules except a limit of how much i could do. Food freedom and freedom from compulsive exercise opens the door to having a life based on your values! Has it been perfect or easy? No. Relieving and freeing and worth it? Yes!
Wow! Simply digging yourself out of that relapse is plenty impressive, but using it as an opportunity to choose FULL recovery rather than merely a return to the quasi state is so so admirable. Your commitment to an entirely free life is truly an inspiration, thank you for sharing. 🧡
Dear Rachel, no amount of superstition is going to help us I am afraid. Determination is the only way forward. I am no better than you, every 1st of a new month, my birthday, any other special date is a new start for me and has been for the past 20 years or so. I do have the answers from reading all the books but until I am going to do it there is not going to be an improvement and ED will still have the upper hand. Thanks for your openness go girl!😘
UGH I can so relate to procrastinating until some arbitrary special start date.... But then there's always a new reason supplied by the ED to put it off further!! Indeed, determination is the only way. Here's to us both pushing forward NOW. 🧡
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 it's my birthday on 24 October (53!) and I have already ordered and paid for the cake... invited my dad and his partner. I will eat cake!!!🍰🥳😊 No excuses!😄
I am so with you on this i make a wish on superstitious that this time i will recover and be successful yet i too dont eat my meal plan or push my work or life. as my mum would say wish in one hand pee inthe other see which is full first!! lets do less wishing and more eating xx
Hahaha that's quite the saying!! Sounds like your mom had a good sense of humor. 😂😂😂 And indeed, let's make the wish to food ratio more in favor of FOOD.
Rachael. I can very much relate in terms of dreaming for things while not putting in the action. Motivation for me is so hard... Just today, I started this book called "Into The Magic Shop" by James R. Doty (MD). The book is essentially about the author's life and how he got into meditation and how it changed him. He randomly stepped into a magic shop when he was 12 years old while trying to escape his very troubling childhood growing up in poverty (with an alcoholic father/drug addicted depressed mom) and an older woman named Ruth was working in this shop and recognized his troubles and she taught the author how to meditate early on in life... Anywho, the author goes on in life to become a professor of neurosurgery at Stanford and ends up starting the Center For Compassion and Altruism Research and Education. In the book though, he talks a lot about the brain & body connection which I feel is somewhat relevant to Anorexia... I learned about him through Sam Harris' podcast "Making Sense". All that to say, you may find the book intriguing 🧐
That seems like such an interesting and engaging book! Sounds like the author has been on QUITE the adventurous life journey. I'm absolutely going to hunt it down and give it a read, thank you so much for giving me the recommendation. And yes, I agree that wishing while falling short in the follow through department is definitely not a tendency specific to eating disorders. Hopefully we can both implement being more proactive in all areas of our lives. Miss you, roomie. Love, me AND Gulliver 😉🐱
Bravo! So glad you have come to this realization! I had anorexia from age 10-28 and although weight restored at 28-42 was in quasi recovery. Still very worried about staying in the same weight range, still compensating etc. not true freedom. Four years ago relapsed and this past June I was like no! I want to be fullly recovered, not quasi! I stopped the Rules! No counting calories, listening to my hunger and eating more than the meal plan if hungry, no exercise rules except a limit of how much i could do. Food freedom and freedom from compulsive exercise opens the door to having a life based on your values! Has it been perfect or easy? No. Relieving and freeing and worth it? Yes!
Wow! Simply digging yourself out of that relapse is plenty impressive, but using it as an opportunity to choose FULL recovery rather than merely a return to the quasi state is so so admirable. Your commitment to an entirely free life is truly an inspiration, thank you for sharing. 🧡
Guilty of wishful thinking 🙋🏼♀️I guess our aim should be action 7 - 11, not dreaming 11.11. Lots of love, strength and bravery to you💫
YES!! I like the way you so cleverly phrased it. 😉👍 Legwork over longing lol.
Dear Rachel, no amount of superstition is going to help us I am afraid. Determination is the only way forward. I am no better than you, every 1st of a new month, my birthday, any other special date is a new start for me and has been for the past 20 years or so. I do have the answers from reading all the books but until I am going to do it there is not going to be an improvement and ED will still have the upper hand. Thanks for your openness go girl!😘
UGH I can so relate to procrastinating until some arbitrary special start date.... But then there's always a new reason supplied by the ED to put it off further!! Indeed, determination is the only way. Here's to us both pushing forward NOW. 🧡
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 it's my birthday on 24 October (53!) and I have already ordered and paid for the cake... invited my dad and his partner. I will eat cake!!!🍰🥳😊 No excuses!😄
YES!!!! The best gift imaginable, and one that will persist long after your actual birthday ends. So so proud of your courage and commitment 👍🧡
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 thank you!
Oh to be a fluffy rabbit, blissfully eating carrots.
Honestly they just might be my recovery role model of the moment 😉👍
I am so with you on this i make a wish on superstitious that this time i will recover and be successful yet i too dont eat my meal plan or push my work or life. as my mum would say wish in one hand pee inthe other see which is full first!! lets do less wishing and more eating xx
Hahaha that's quite the saying!! Sounds like your mom had a good sense of humor. 😂😂😂 And indeed, let's make the wish to food ratio more in favor of FOOD.
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