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It will get better. After 53 years I finally learned to stop trying to live up to other peoples, spoken or unspoken expectations of me. Expectations cause resentments for me
Felt that bro....I'm so tired of living at this point.....everything I do that makes me happy everyone I care for is now hating me breaking me.....more than I can imagine.....
When your told "your never good enough" as a kid, you grow up believing it. And it can leave scars nobody can see. Live 24 years of it and tell me it does not change you, because it does. Only someone thats lived this truly understands the pain. And the only way to be safe is hide the pain. It is easy when you feel like such a failure to everyone for so long. Just bury it down.
I've somehow managed to live to 44 now, and even with a loving wife and a good career, the scars never go away. It's just so hard to get people to understand the pain
Citizen Soldier, you'll never dissapoint me. I've already heard your whole album but this song resonates to me the most. Your lyrics are more relateable and deep it makes me (and a lot of other people) feel understood and helps to get trough hard times. This whole song hits home for me and to think those things you sing on a daily basis can just fuck up your whole mindset - your Refrain for example. My heart paused for a Moment as the Refrain came up and had to swallow for a moment to be honest. I'm just so thankful to know your music because of all the points I've already made. Bless you all, we will all overcome our inner demons and the war we're fighting within us. Your music keeps me going. Just thank you for the work you're putting in your music.
Son of a Charlie comments like these make all of the hard work worth it. Thank you friend. We are glad you connect with the music and will continue to work hard to earn your continued support 🖤🤘🏻
It's only been a day and this band has hit so close to home in all aspects of my bottomless pit I can't stop bawling This band deserves more recognition seriously
"Why can't you be proud of me" I've never related more to lyrics than to this one. It feels like everyone is kicking me down for my little flaws and it's too much to handle sometimes. Part of the problem is my anxiety trying to take control of the wheel, and the fact that I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be. To me, this song represents my constant struggle to come to terms with the person I am and all of my flaws
NotWho YouThinkIAm sounds like you’ve been through so much. We hope that the music helps in some small way and we are so glad you connect with it. Much love to you friend 🖤🤘🏻
I convinced myself when I was young that I deserve to feel like this, that I deserved the misery. So I feel you. You're not alone. The best thing you can do is stay strong. if not for yourself but for the ones that love you.
"I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be." This. This!! You do not realise how true that statement is. You don't believe your friends and family who tell you they like you. So get input from new people. Go out there and be yourself, try something new, make new friends who don't know anything about your history. And find out what they think of you. [Spoiler alert: They don't secretly hate you. They actually think you're a pretty alright sort.] You'll be amazed. I did this and I couldn't believe they were thinking of the same person. I was like... didn't you just spend a week with me? Are you talking about someone else? Don't believe the voice inside your head that tells you no-one will ever like you, because that's a damn lie. Sorry if I'm expressing myself a little strongly, but it's the worst pain ever and it's all based on untruths. No-one should have to endure it.
"Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve" and "What you want I'll never be Why can't you just be proud of me" absolute shred my heart. These lyrics... damn y'all know how to express pain like this so damned authentically. Thank you for giving so many of us a voice.
Lyrics!) Here I am, once again Way too close to the edge Terrified, open eyes I'm seeing red I would rather die tonight Then let you down one more time One more time Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve Am I just so void of love That I'm never good, never good enough Demonize, criticize Your words eat me alive Just like knives Tearing me from the inside What you want I'll never be Why can't you just be proud of me Proud of me Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve Am I just so void of love That I'm never good, never good enough
I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace I never meant to be like this A grave mistake you can't forgive A filthy stain, oh what a shame Can you just wash me away Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve Am I just so void of love That I'm never good, never good enough
What I love about music in general is it can mean one thing to someone and something completely different to someone else. Music is a universal language and it speaks words that are hard to say otherwise. It helps us all understand one another. We can share experiences with musc. Especially if it speaks as loud as this
Hi, it's me again. I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to say that I'm actually glad I'm past the point where I can truly relate to this song. I still love it, but I've managed to win, for now. I have no doubt I'll fall back down at some points here, but for those of you that haven't been able to beat it yet, I urge you to try your damndest. Don't just resign yourself to your fate, because that's how you lose. Fight it, and when you eventually win, it'll be one of the best feelings you'll ever experience. It feels like you against the world, but you've got friends in places you'd never expect. Fight. Don't give up. Live.
I never felt good enough growing up. I felt smothered by judgement, my negative feelings unwanted, and people tried to "fix" me. But the idea of being "fixed" suggested they wanted me to be something or someone I wasn't. How could I be anything I'm not? Who I am is all I can be. I never tried to pretend for anyone, I wouldn't. I resented feeling that others wanted something from me that wasn't me. These needs were mine, from me as I was, and I would work my dang hardest to get them met. So the lyrics, "Demonize, criticize. Your words eat me alive just like knives tearing me from the inside. What you want I'll never be! Why can't you be proud of me? ... I never asked to be like this" really hit hard. Especially the proud of me part and how its sung. It brought tears to my eyes. Don't know if anyone else can relate, but I eventually learned that I defined "good enough" as permanently loved, accepted, and wanted. I believed if I could be "good enough," I would experience love as stable, consistent, and long-lasting... no wonder my soul yearned for it so badly and deeply. I never achieved "good enough." I still experience love as temporary; something that only exists in the moment, something that could be lost or withheld from me in the next moment.
@@CitizenSoldier Yes we are and I hope you guys never give up when facing your own demons and problems. Your music is gold. thank you for respondingggg
"sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" It always feels like your letting people down, but in reality your probably the person your letting down the most. We always have high expectations that we may never meet, or cant meet in that moment. And we beat ourselves up about it. Life's hard, but knowing that these guys know how were feeling definetly helps motivate me, and make me feel better 🖤
Omg I just love you guys I've used a couple of your songs for my videos and your music just makes the video you are my go to band for awesome powerful music just thanx guys for existing xxxxxxx
@@CitizenSoldier so glad I came across your channel on TH-cam tonight. Your music speaks volumes on behalf of those who are stuck silent with mental health illnesses and afraid to speak out about their demons and being stigmatized.
The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.
Last night my husband told me I need to stop listening to your music. The words make him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me. I told him that I need to know that there is at least one person out there who understands my pain. ' I love his voice and he make me feel.'
@@twistedreality997 It was coming from a place of love because he knows that loud noises and angry voices trigger my PTSD. After I told him that listening to someone who understands my pain helps so much, he did his best to understand. Truthfully, I am so glad he doesn't understand. He just loves me through it all.
@@twistedreality997 Or he is somebody that has never been depressed and doesn't understand how someone can feel these emotions. He obviously cares about them because "he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me". He's not being condescending or showing a red flag, he's just never been in our situation and he's trying to give genuine, good advice. Situations like this is just a muddled cloud of grey, and even if you have the entire context of the situation (unlike a 1 throwaway YT comment in a time when you feel vulnerable) there can still be no clear answer (e.g. go outside, you'll feel better, so you go outside and still feel just as bad. You are going to feel worse if you are inside all day, but going outside won't necessarily make you feel any better. You might feel better, but it didn't work, but hey at least you gave it a shot). See how in an example like this there isn't any clear black or white but instead a muddy grey cloud that you will never get a true answer from? .At the end of the day, the best we can do is be empathetic because we know that the husband is trying to help the best he can
I've been binging this music because I've never felt so alone in my entire life but the words make it less so. Words I struggle to tell other people because I can't find them nor do I wish to be a problem for them. I've been so stressed and broken and defeated that despite having every reason to live (my unborn child), I want to disappear. Not exist anymore. Stop fighting. Stop trying. But I can't and it's becoming increasingly hard to not do that. But the music helps. Even just a little bit is keeping me from giving up
"Never good enough" Three words that can haunt a person for a long time and can mentaly destroy someone. I feel the same with my life, no matter how hard I try in life, it feels like I'm not good enough. Your songs are really inspirational and hopefully more people will be able to reconise your greatness. :)
I've been a fan for a while now and I'm impressed. Usually I only like one or two of bands songs but with all your songs I love. I love your new album too, especially kill my memory.
I used to feel like a letdown, someone who isn't good enough for anyone... I started working at a hospital in June as a Unit Assistant in Emerg, I started feeling rewarded and happy with who I've become over the last 4-5 months especially with all the amazing peeps I've met who've grown to care about me as much as I care about them Starting this job saved my life and I listen to this song as a reminder that I overcame myself and this state of mind Thank you Citizen Soldier
“Why can’t you be proud of me”.... damn that’s a deep line, i felt that Great song c’: i was missing to have a new song in my playlist, now there’s another one c:
Almost everyone I know tells me this all the time. This song hit hard but it’s nice that people like you are giving us a voice with your songs thank you so much Citizen Soldier
I still think this one is my favorite. Completely raw completely honest. And so descriptive of so many of our Lives. Thank you I am so grateful that I found your band. This might sound strange but I believe your anointed by God to reach the generation that needs to hear this. Hugs love always.
This song is how I feel living with depression and ptsd I thought I rather be dead than letting everyone down all the time I came very close to ending it someone found me and God said you are getting a second chance
I was here since day one and it makes me almost tear up seeing you guys have come this far. Great job as always. Never stop teling our stories through your songs!
I've never heard a song that understood me so well. I'm barely holding myself together. Citizen Soldier, keep making music. Keep impacting people. You make a difference.
I felt this bc my aunt yells at me all the time and says things like "you cant do anything right" so I ran to my room and this was on my recommendation page so I clicked it and gave it a listen and I am in love with this song thank you for making this masterpiece
So many people have made me feel like I'm never good enough. I want people to be proud of me at how far I've come instead of putting me down constantly
I just found this guy tonight, even tho this topic definitely describes my life by 100%, his melodic voice just turned the need to cut my arms from fingertips to shoulders..
I'm speechless. I only found you guys today and I'm already a huge fan, but as I write this the tears are streaming down my face. This song puts into words the thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis and it's just. so. perfect. I finally. FINALLY feel heard. Thank you Citizen Soldier, you have given me just a bit of hope that I can pull through this.
On our own, nobody will ever be "good enough" for God... But He loves us anyway. Even tho it isn't necessary, He proves His love by Jesus'death on the cross for the forgiveness of our faults, failures, and poor choices. Through Christ and the Holy Spirit, we CAN BE "Good Enough"!
This is how I really feel about myself. It's not that I don't feel good enough for everyone else, I feel like I'm not good enough for myself. I'm disappointing myself..
No matter what happens it feels like Citizen Soldier will always be there. This music pulls me through every bad day and carries me through the worst. Like no matter where I end up I'm not alone. Thank you
Music that you can feel connected to or has serious meaning in general is the purest form of music and your music hits the nail on the head bands like you and skarlett riot deserve so much more attention
I only discovered this amazing band a few days ago and I come undone at every song! Bless you for putting music to the thoughts in my mind. But more importantly, thank you for letting countless others know they have worth even though they may feel these things. Forever a fan now. Thank you! ❣
It’s songs like this that convince me it’s not worth it, I’m gonna make a Citizen Soldier playlist on loop, so that next year when I’m found in my apartment people can just sit there and listen to my pain through the music as they stare at my lifeless body
This song hits hard ! Everyone is good enough dont let people put you down. Walk away from negativity it's not worth the heart ache .I was put down. All my life and believed it Not no more Thanks love the lyrics will be listening to other songs have a great day
A band that always knows how to get what I'm feeling almost everyday down right in a song always makes me smile that there are bands out there making music for lost souls like me..🖤🖤
YEEES! A new citizen soldier video, I'm only about two minutes through and I can already relate to this waay to much.how do you guys always hit so close to home??? Never stop what your doing, you have a real talent for it! ^-^
Before today i have NEVER heard of this bad and the three songs i have just listened to... NEVER RELATED MORE IN MY LIFE! Your music is ABSOLUTELY amazing!!!!
My new favorite band. They speak the words I've been searching for my whole life. Keep doing what you guys do cause it's working. Every song of theirs I feel in my soul. My life is hell I've had chronic PTSD since 3 years old spent half my life not even knowing. I'm always a second choice. I'm always hated or misjudged, my parents don't even help me through anymore I'm alone and IM NOT OKAY.. I'm never good enough. All anyone ever sees is a devil inside. If my scars could speak they would hear my pain. I'm battling daily and losing. I just want to be okay. I've been a mess for a decade my physical health is spiraling downward doctors have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me half of them said they've never encountered this before those words just make me feel even more alone. Nobody will talk to me I just need people to care cause I feel like I'm the only one going through this and it's such a lonely road I've been walking down. Please someone reach out. 😭😭😭
I’ve listened to this song too many times when I’m down. It’s a really good song and it hits me really hard. “Sick of coming undone~ Letting down everyone~” This lyric hits home really hard.
How is every song you guys write both amazing and relatable? It's so full of emotion that I want to cry everytime because of how much it seems like you've gone through everything in your lyrics. There's so much emotion in your voice. The instrumentals also compliment it so well and make it feel even more like you've poured everything into every song. Hopefully one day everyone will know who you guys are because I feel like your music could save a lot of lives..
Just when I thought a song couldn’t be more spot on than I Am Not Okay...dang this hit hard and it hit home. Great job for seeing deeper, for willing to write what is there that so many cannot put into words. You’re amazing.
This song explains my relationship with my grandpa I never feel good enough in his eyes But there are people out there who are proud of you pay attention to those people not the people that make you feel not enough
Im proud of anyone that has talent to be artistic and be able to express their emotions into words like in poems or in music or anything that makes them happy. Everyone deserves to be happy in doing what they love. If it makes them happy and makes others happy then thats a great accomplishment.
This band is so heavily underappreciated. I love them. So much. Near every song I can relate, just like millions of others. I just cannot get enough, and I don't believe I ever will. They are amazing! I swear this is now my new favorite band. Thank you. 🖤💙🖤
I fought so hard to get out of this dark place I’ve been in for six years and now I’m falling back down. You guys’ music is keeping me from going mental thank you for everything you have done
Citizen Soldier you are definitely not mediocre. Just finished listening to e every song and you have more talent than any of the garbage at TH-cam top trending. You will definitely be big one day.
@Citizen Soldier I have to say I can relate to all of your songs. You guys are one of the best bands I have found to listen to. My life feels so hopeless and I feel so unworthy all the time. Every moment I am in my feels and in my head I always turn to your songs. I try and try and try to keep pushing and I always end up feeling weak and that I have the most heaviest weight upon myself. I suffer from so many scars and suffer from so much pain. I would almost give anything to meet you guys. A band I connect with so much and helps me get through my every day suffering. The tracks "Kill my memory" "Let it burn", "Never good enough", "Weight of the world", "Devil inside", "Would anyone care", and "I'm not okay" and more is 100% on my saved playlist and turn to them always. Can be on repeat all day. Citizen Soldier you are amazing and thank you for what you guys do. I know this is years later comment but I really needed to write this to you guys.
Man, this song crossed my path right from the first verse! Hit hard but that’s why I love the song! No sugar coating, raw emotion and feeling! Much love to you guys ❤️❤️💯💯 You have made me fight another day :)
" what you want I'll never be, why can't you be proud of me" Cuts deep,way too deep I found this song through a playlist,and live citizen soldier never let's me down,never
Someone commented on another video about how Citizen Soldier has no bad songs... This is my fourth song in a row and I here to tell you they are absolutely right. I will be exploring more to prove this statement correct.
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this how I feel every single day
Just lost my brother don't know if it was suicide or just alcohol he died last night. I wish I could have help him
I've been listening to this for the last 3 hours!!
This resonates with me so much right now!!
"Mediocre at best, maybe better off dead" that one hit hard, damn.
TheGameBoss980 glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier may i use this song for my upcoming open world survival game that i am making
@@joshuabakerchainsaw I think you should rather contact them via email, more official and suiting for this kind of questions
Yeah, that hit me hard as well
Yep
“Why can’t you be proud of me”. This hit so hard I’m crying
Isabelle Stiphout a gut punch for sure. Glad you felt the song 🖤🤘🏻
Citizen Soldier I love it, thank you so much❤️
Me too 💔
@@hannahwilliams5681 Only know one person with that nickname and it's my sister xD
@@WickerKing haha
"I'd rather die, then to let you down one more time." My favorite quote of this song.
Oh mine too...nothing more powerful than hatred. It gives you the guts to do what needs to be done.
Mine too
Who ever your talking about is so very lucky to have you in there life I could only wish to have somebody who cared so much
That seems like a poor prioritization list 💀
My favorite line as well
Never thought I would find a song so perfect for my mental state rn.
Hope it helps! Hope things get better for you friend 🖤
It will get better. After 53 years I finally learned to stop trying to live up to other peoples, spoken or unspoken expectations of me. Expectations cause resentments for me
Felt that bro....I'm so tired of living at this point.....everything I do that makes me happy everyone I care for is now hating me breaking me.....more than I can imagine.....
@Caylin W same ;-;
@@CitizenSoldier you guys are great you mean a lot to a lot of people keep saving us🤘🤘🤘
That line...."I hate to disappoint you, but its my DNA" and the raw way he roars it...breaks me every time. So many chills and tears.
Me too, especially this one! The whole song reminds me of some hard conversations with my parents.
ME TOO
"Everything you give me, I somehow will disgrace!" 😭🙏
When your told "your never good enough" as a kid, you grow up believing it. And it can leave scars nobody can see. Live 24 years of it and tell me it does not change you, because it does. Only someone thats lived this truly understands the pain. And the only way to be safe is hide the pain. It is easy when you feel like such a failure to everyone for so long. Just bury it down.
I've somehow managed to live to 44 now, and even with a loving wife and a good career, the scars never go away. It's just so hard to get people to understand the pain
The slight blur in the lyrics on screen is a nice touch
Planet S our drummer Kyle did a great job making this. What did you think of the song? Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier love the track happy weekend 😀
The drummer is working double duty eh? Props to him lol
@@Aniimefaan I wish it was only double 😅
@@CitizenSoldier that drummer is talented !!!
Citizen Soldier, you'll never dissapoint me.
I've already heard your whole album but this song resonates to me the most. Your lyrics are more relateable and deep it makes me (and a lot of other people) feel understood and helps to get trough hard times. This whole song hits home for me and to think those things you sing on a daily basis can just fuck up your whole mindset - your Refrain for example. My heart paused for a Moment as the Refrain came up and had to swallow for a moment to be honest.
I'm just so thankful to know your music because of all the points I've already made. Bless you all, we will all overcome our inner demons and the war we're fighting within us.
Your music keeps me going.
Just thank you for the work you're putting in your music.
Son of a Charlie comments like these make all of the hard work worth it. Thank you friend. We are glad you connect with the music and will continue to work hard to earn your continued support 🖤🤘🏻
You're right It helps me through dark days
The refrain and chorus made me cry
I honestly don't connect that much, only a little. I just really love this song
@@thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741 lucky you
It's only been a day and this band has hit so close to home in all aspects of my bottomless pit I can't stop bawling
This band deserves more recognition seriously
You are so kind. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
Yes i relate too...i love this band
"Why can't you be proud of me" I've never related more to lyrics than to this one.
It feels like everyone is kicking me down for my little flaws and it's too much to handle sometimes. Part of the problem is my anxiety trying to take control of the wheel, and the fact that I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be. To me, this song represents my constant struggle to come to terms with the person I am and all of my flaws
NotWho YouThinkIAm sounds like you’ve been through so much. We hope that the music helps in some small way and we are so glad you connect with it. Much love to you friend 🖤🤘🏻
I convinced myself when I was young that I deserve to feel like this, that I deserved the misery. So I feel you. You're not alone. The best thing you can do is stay strong. if not for yourself but for the ones that love you.
"I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be." This. This!! You do not realise how true that statement is. You don't believe your friends and family who tell you they like you. So get input from new people. Go out there and be yourself, try something new, make new friends who don't know anything about your history. And find out what they think of you. [Spoiler alert: They don't secretly hate you. They actually think you're a pretty alright sort.] You'll be amazed. I did this and I couldn't believe they were thinking of the same person. I was like... didn't you just spend a week with me? Are you talking about someone else? Don't believe the voice inside your head that tells you no-one will ever like you, because that's a damn lie. Sorry if I'm expressing myself a little strongly, but it's the worst pain ever and it's all based on untruths. No-one should have to endure it.
"Am I a failure from birth"
"Is misery what I deserve "
"Am I so void of love"
"AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH "
" NEVER GOOD ENOUGH "
💘💘💘
ㄥZ AMV glad you like it friend 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier I don't like it I LOVE it ❤
Yes you are... give urself more credit... 💖💖💖💖
@@zamv2643 funny thing is all i hear is Failure from birth, misery is what I deserve.
Those are the lyrics that got to me!!! this one runs deep in my veins.
"Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve" and "What you want I'll never be
Why can't you just be proud of me" absolute shred my heart. These lyrics... damn y'all know how to express pain like this so damned authentically. Thank you for giving so many of us a voice.
I never feel like I’m good enough and this song hits me hard. I cry everyone I hear it.
melinda watson you are enough friend. Know that 🖤
Lyrics!)
Here I am, once again
Way too close to the edge
Terrified, open eyes
I'm seeing red
I would rather die tonight
Then let you down one more time
One more time
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
Demonize, criticize
Your words eat me alive
Just like knives
Tearing me from the inside
What you want I'll never be
Why can't you just be proud of me
Proud of me
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
garik pazik thanks for sharing 🖤🤘🏻
I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA
Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace
I never meant to be like this
A grave mistake you can't forgive
A filthy stain, oh what a shame
Can you just wash me away
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
@@nurhanif5682 that was completely wrong =/
t con on les a sur la vidéo les lyrics 😑😑🖕🖕
@@TheBee7878 I know I am probably late but your wrong because if you look they only had one word wrong
What I love about music in general is it can mean one thing to someone and something completely different to someone else. Music is a universal language and it speaks words that are hard to say otherwise. It helps us all understand one another. We can share experiences with musc. Especially if it speaks as loud as this
Thanks 💜;
Such powerful lyrics, they cut deep. I dont quite know why, but this whole album sums up half my life
Right there with you.
Thank you for your kind words, hope you're staying safe friend.
Hi, it's me again.
I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to say that I'm actually glad I'm past the point where I can truly relate to this song. I still love it, but I've managed to win, for now. I have no doubt I'll fall back down at some points here, but for those of you that haven't been able to beat it yet, I urge you to try your damndest. Don't just resign yourself to your fate, because that's how you lose. Fight it, and when you eventually win, it'll be one of the best feelings you'll ever experience. It feels like you against the world, but you've got friends in places you'd never expect. Fight. Don't give up. Live.
Alex Laws such an incredible message. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. We admire your strength. Everyone needs a friend like you 🖤🤘🏻
I never felt good enough growing up. I felt smothered by judgement, my negative feelings unwanted, and people tried to "fix" me. But the idea of being "fixed" suggested they wanted me to be something or someone I wasn't. How could I be anything I'm not? Who I am is all I can be. I never tried to pretend for anyone, I wouldn't. I resented feeling that others wanted something from me that wasn't me. These needs were mine, from me as I was, and I would work my dang hardest to get them met. So the lyrics, "Demonize, criticize. Your words eat me alive just like knives tearing me from the inside. What you want I'll never be! Why can't you be proud of me? ... I never asked to be like this" really hit hard. Especially the proud of me part and how its sung. It brought tears to my eyes.
Don't know if anyone else can relate, but I eventually learned that I defined "good enough" as permanently loved, accepted, and wanted. I believed if I could be "good enough," I would experience love as stable, consistent, and long-lasting... no wonder my soul yearned for it so badly and deeply. I never achieved "good enough." I still experience love as temporary; something that only exists in the moment, something that could be lost or withheld from me in the next moment.
i never feel good enough but the music you put through here helps me. thank you. we're all fighters
We're all fighting! 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier Yes we are and I hope you guys never give up when facing your own demons and problems. Your music is gold. thank you for respondingggg
"sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" It always feels like your letting people down, but in reality your probably the person your letting down the most. We always have high expectations that we may never meet, or cant meet in that moment. And we beat ourselves up about it. Life's hard, but knowing that these guys know how were feeling definetly helps motivate me, and make me feel better 🖤
“ I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time.” That hit too close to home for me to accept
Omg I just love you guys I've used a couple of your songs for my videos and your music just makes the video you are my go to band for awesome powerful music just thanx guys for existing xxxxxxx
Herondales Angel we wouldn’t exist without your kind support. Appreciate you more than you know 🖤
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@@CitizenSoldier so glad I came across your channel on TH-cam tonight. Your music speaks volumes on behalf of those who are stuck silent with mental health illnesses and afraid to speak out about their demons and being stigmatized.
Can I just say. I love your name. I loveeeeeeee the Heronadales, Will, Jace, James all of them.
@@amals4316 thanx so much I love them also ❤
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This is one of greatest things i heard in a while!
Yequxor Howler thank you so so much. That means the world. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier not yet but soon!
I am mega hyped for it!
“i hate to disappoint you… but it’s in my DNA” is a DEEP line for me. love it
The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.
Thank you so much. That means everything to us. So glad you found us 🖤🤘🏻
Three days grace suck live however I love em so much. Their songs helped me when i was young get through some tough shit.
Dream Smasher idk where you saw TDG at but when I saw them at Montage Mountain in PA they were badass.
Last night my husband told me I need to stop listening to your music. The words make him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me. I told him that I need to know that there is at least one person out there who understands my pain. ' I love his voice and he make me feel.'
I understand really I feel the same
I'd crank it even louder
your husband even trying to tell you what you should and shouldn't listen to is a whole red flag
@@twistedreality997 It was coming from a place of love because he knows that loud noises and angry voices trigger my PTSD. After I told him that listening to someone who understands my pain helps so much, he did his best to understand. Truthfully, I am so glad he doesn't understand. He just loves me through it all.
@@twistedreality997 Or he is somebody that has never been depressed and doesn't understand how someone can feel these emotions. He obviously cares about them because "he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me".
He's not being condescending or showing a red flag, he's just never been in our situation and he's trying to give genuine, good advice.
Situations like this is just a muddled cloud of grey, and even if you have the entire context of the situation (unlike a 1 throwaway YT comment in a time when you feel vulnerable) there can still be no clear answer (e.g. go outside, you'll feel better, so you go outside and still feel just as bad. You are going to feel worse if you are inside all day, but going outside won't necessarily make you feel any better. You might feel better, but it didn't work, but hey at least you gave it a shot). See how in an example like this there isn't any clear black or white but instead a muddy grey cloud that you will never get a true answer from?
.At the end of the day, the best we can do is be empathetic because we know that the husband is trying to help the best he can
It's so comforting knowing someone understands your pain.
this song is so good! you are very talented!
i love it!!
"i hate disappoint you
but it's in my DNA!"
martina; bts love that line! Glad you connected with it. Have you heard the rest of our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier yess i did!
and all the songs are as goog as this song!
honestly one of the bes lines
“Maybe better off dead”
That’s powerful
Love this song
Corvus Corax glad you liked it! Appreciate the support friend 🖤
I've been binging this music because I've never felt so alone in my entire life but the words make it less so. Words I struggle to tell other people because I can't find them nor do I wish to be a problem for them. I've been so stressed and broken and defeated that despite having every reason to live (my unborn child), I want to disappear. Not exist anymore. Stop fighting. Stop trying. But I can't and it's becoming increasingly hard to not do that. But the music helps. Even just a little bit is keeping me from giving up
I really hope you feel better soon ❤❤
@@Rosie-uw1gi thank you I hope so too 😕
"Never good enough" Three words that can haunt a person for a long time and can mentaly destroy someone. I feel the same with my life, no matter how hard I try in life, it feels like I'm not good enough.
Your songs are really inspirational and hopefully more people will be able to reconise your greatness. :)
Asylum117 glad you connect with them. Thanks for your kind words and support 🖤🤘🏻
I've been a fan for a while now and I'm impressed. Usually I only like one or two of bands songs but with all your songs I love. I love your new album too, especially kill my memory.
Katie Rose Pritchard so glad to hear this Katie. Thank you for the amazing support 🖤🤘🏻
I used to feel like a letdown, someone who isn't good enough for anyone... I started working at a hospital in June as a Unit Assistant in Emerg, I started feeling rewarded and happy with who I've become over the last 4-5 months especially with all the amazing peeps I've met who've grown to care about me as much as I care about them
Starting this job saved my life and I listen to this song as a reminder that I overcame myself and this state of mind
Thank you Citizen Soldier
This is possibly my new favourite song coming from my favorite band
jayden juggernaut that is amazing to hear! Thank you so much friend 🖤 this song means a lot to us too.
“Why can’t you be proud of me”.... damn that’s a deep line, i felt that
Great song c’: i was missing to have a new song in my playlist, now there’s another one c:
Hector Jara Kenway glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻
Almost everyone I know tells me this all the time. This song hit hard but it’s nice that people like you are giving us a voice with your songs thank you so much Citizen Soldier
These guys deserve more attention, clever lyrics is an understatement.
Thank you Tyson
I still think this one is my favorite. Completely raw completely honest. And so descriptive of so many of our Lives. Thank you I am so grateful that I found your band. This might sound strange but I believe your anointed by God to reach the generation that needs to hear this. Hugs love always.
That is so kind and means so much to me. Thank you, truly
This song is how I feel living with depression and ptsd I thought I rather be dead than letting everyone down all the time I came very close to ending it someone found me and God said you are getting a second chance
The lyrics.. it helps to listen and related to that. It helps realize we’re not alone 💜
I dont think Citizen Soldier is capable of making a bad song. This is my favorite so far. Such an amazing band.
Multitalented Prankster thank you so much. Your support is everything 🖤🤘🏻
Never thought id find the song the shows how i feel right now thank you
"I am just so void of love that I'm never good enough"
Such a relatable song
Jodynelis so glad you relate to it. Appreciate you 🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier 🖤
I was here since day one and it makes me almost tear up seeing you guys have come this far. Great job as always. Never stop teling our stories through your songs!
We won't stop. Thank you
Literally word for word how I feel.
same :/
How do all your song speak to me on such a personal level? It's how a feel and what goes through my mind all the time. Love this song🔥🔥🔥🔥
Wow bro my favorite song 💥🔥🔥🔥
me too Otaku amv 🔥🔥🔥
Otaku amv so glad you liked it friend. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
Citizen Soldier of course I heard it and I like it so much ❤️❤️❤️
I've never heard a song that understood me so well. I'm barely holding myself together. Citizen Soldier, keep making music. Keep impacting people. You make a difference.
I felt this bc my aunt yells at me all the time and says things like "you cant do anything right" so I ran to my room and this was on my recommendation page so I clicked it and gave it a listen and I am in love with this song thank you for making this masterpiece
Honestly I feel like this all the time. I never thought a song would be able to capture this so perfectly.
It definitely came from the heart. It hits close to home for me for sure 🙏🏻
In slowly moving on and your songs are helping me
I was wrong im just going to do it fuck it every one has already proven they don't care about me
@@AndrewBreland04 don't give up, people cares of you
I cry to almost every song because it relates so much to me
Yeah, me too. I am never good enough.
''so sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" dear deer, that hit me like a stone
So many people have made me feel like I'm never good enough. I want people to be proud of me at how far I've come instead of putting me down constantly
I just found this guy tonight, even tho this topic definitely describes my life by 100%, his melodic voice just turned the need to cut my arms from fingertips to shoulders..
Glad you found us 🖤
I'm speechless. I only found you guys today and I'm already a huge fan, but as I write this the tears are streaming down my face. This song puts into words the thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis and it's just. so. perfect. I finally. FINALLY feel heard. Thank you Citizen Soldier, you have given me just a bit of hope that I can pull through this.
On our own, nobody will ever be "good enough" for God... But He loves us anyway.
Even tho it isn't necessary, He proves His love by Jesus'death on the cross for the forgiveness of our faults, failures, and poor choices.
Through Christ and the Holy Spirit, we CAN BE "Good Enough"!
This is how I really feel about myself. It's not that I don't feel good enough for everyone else, I feel like I'm not good enough for myself. I'm disappointing myself..
Appreciate you Emilie 🖤 Stay strong
No matter what happens it feels like Citizen Soldier will always be there. This music pulls me through every bad day and carries me through the worst. Like no matter where I end up I'm not alone. Thank you
Of course. We will always be here 🖤🙏🏻
So far this band provided only songs that hit too hard to home from what I heard so far, something I can finally cry to, so thank you.
Thanks 💜!
"everything you give me, I will somehow disgrace" damn this is exactly how I feel about things I've been given
A band that feels like it represents my very heart and mind. Amazing song, one I can truly relate too.
Good to hear that! 🖤
Thank You.... I now have chills running up and down my spin and tears running down my face....
28 years old... and I still feel this exact same way. Will it ever actually get better ?!
We're in it together, we can continue the fight and live for the things worth living for.
@@CitizenSoldier ♥️♥️♥️
Music that you can feel connected to or has serious meaning in general is the purest form of music and your music hits the nail on the head bands like you and skarlett riot deserve so much more attention
"everything you give me I somehow will disgrace" it hitted me with tears
I only discovered this amazing band a few days ago and I come undone at every song! Bless you for putting music to the thoughts in my mind. But more importantly, thank you for letting countless others know they have worth even though they may feel these things. Forever a fan now. Thank you! ❣
Favorite song from you guys. Keep up the amazing work. I’m a pretty big fan of you guys ❤️
Star Boy that means the world to us. Thank you. Appreciate you 🖤🤘🏻
It’s songs like this that convince me it’s not worth it, I’m gonna make a Citizen Soldier playlist on loop, so that next year when I’m found in my apartment people can just sit there and listen to my pain through the music as they stare at my lifeless body
another great song with which I feel connected, I love the music of this band and I hope that it receives the fame it deserves in the future
ss blastoise ftw we appreciate that support friend. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻
This song hits hard ! Everyone is good enough dont let people put you down. Walk away from negativity it's not worth the heart ache .I was put down. All my life and believed it Not no more Thanks love the lyrics will be listening to other songs have a great day
I’ve been there friend. Thanks for sharing the kind words 🖤🙏🏻
A band that always knows how to get what I'm feeling almost everyday down right in a song always makes me smile that there are bands out there making music for lost souls like me..🖤🖤
Oh my gosh I feel this song on a personal level. I feel like I’m never good enough
I have felt that too. We need to be there for eachother
This song describes me perfectly.
YEEES! A new citizen soldier video, I'm only about two minutes through and I can already relate to this waay to much.how do you guys always hit so close to home???
Never stop what your doing, you have a real talent for it! ^-^
•Nìghtshade Edìts• that’s the goal every time. To connect to amazing people like you. Glad you felt it friend. Much love 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier well you definitely hit it! Thankyou😊
Before today i have NEVER heard of this bad and the three songs i have just listened to... NEVER RELATED MORE IN MY LIFE! Your music is ABSOLUTELY amazing!!!!
That is honestly an honor to hear 🖤🙏🏻 so glad you found us. Welcome to the family 🖤🙏🏻
To my brothers, my sisters, my fathers, my previous friends, society as a whole. This group makes dedicating music easy for me.
My new favorite band. They speak the words I've been searching for my whole life. Keep doing what you guys do cause it's working. Every song of theirs I feel in my soul. My life is hell I've had chronic PTSD since 3 years old spent half my life not even knowing. I'm always a second choice. I'm always hated or misjudged, my parents don't even help me through anymore I'm alone and IM NOT OKAY.. I'm never good enough. All anyone ever sees is a devil inside. If my scars could speak they would hear my pain. I'm battling daily and losing. I just want to be okay. I've been a mess for a decade my physical health is spiraling downward doctors have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me half of them said they've never encountered this before those words just make me feel even more alone. Nobody will talk to me I just need people to care cause I feel like I'm the only one going through this and it's such a lonely road I've been walking down. Please someone reach out. 😭😭😭
Appreciate you Justin 🖤 We hear you
I’ve listened to this song too many times when I’m down. It’s a really good song and it hits me really hard.
“Sick of coming undone~ Letting down everyone~”
This lyric hits home really hard.
same bro :/
How is every song you guys write both amazing and relatable? It's so full of emotion that I want to cry everytime because of how much it seems like you've gone through everything in your lyrics. There's so much emotion in your voice. The instrumentals also compliment it so well and make it feel even more like you've poured everything into every song. Hopefully one day everyone will know who you guys are because I feel like your music could save a lot of lives..
This makes me want to headbang and cry at the same time
TasteTheCringe we feel the same way 😭😂🤘🏻🖤 glad you enjoy the track!
Just when I thought a song couldn’t be more spot on than I Am Not Okay...dang this hit hard and it hit home. Great job for seeing deeper, for willing to write what is there that so many cannot put into words. You’re amazing.
Thanks for listening 🖤
This song explains my relationship with my grandpa I never feel good enough in his eyes
But there are people out there who are proud of you pay attention to those people not the people that make you feel not enough
Guys, you deserve more fans and views 😭❤️
Thanks Melody! Please share our music and that will make it happen 🙏🖤
Citizen soldier for ever, BEST BAND EVER
The black Cat thank you so much. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier yw 😊 btw keep up all the amazing songs and work
I came to this band a year ago and I am very happy to have found this unique band.🙂
they are the best for me 😊
@@alicekuze9560 same
Im proud of anyone that has talent to be artistic and be able to express their emotions into words like in poems or in music or anything that makes them happy. Everyone deserves to be happy in doing what they love. If it makes them happy and makes others happy then thats a great accomplishment.
This band is so heavily underappreciated. I love them. So much. Near every song I can relate, just like millions of others. I just cannot get enough, and I don't believe I ever will. They are amazing! I swear this is now my new favorite band. Thank you. 🖤💙🖤
Appreciate you so much friend
Man I found this band a week ago. Love every song. You guys should be viral!
Glad you found us Karli 🖤
I fought so hard to get out of this dark place I’ve been in for six years and now I’m falling back down. You guys’ music is keeping me from going mental thank you for everything you have done
I write stories, your guy's music is awesome inspiration
Meizawesomez so glad to hear that. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier no, at least not all of it yet. But slowly I am.
Citizen Soldier you are definitely not mediocre. Just finished listening to e every song and you have more talent than any of the garbage at TH-cam top trending. You will definitely be big one day.
Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻
This is a true fact and has ( somewhat) come true
@@CitizenSoldierthere is no band better then you you are better then imagine dragons and bts
@Citizen Soldier I have to say I can relate to all of your songs. You guys are one of the best bands I have found to listen to. My life feels so hopeless and I feel so unworthy all the time. Every moment I am in my feels and in my head I always turn to your songs. I try and try and try to keep pushing and I always end up feeling weak and that I have the most heaviest weight upon myself. I suffer from so many scars and suffer from so much pain. I would almost give anything to meet you guys. A band I connect with so much and helps me get through my every day suffering. The tracks "Kill my memory" "Let it burn", "Never good enough", "Weight of the world", "Devil inside", "Would anyone care", and "I'm not okay" and more is 100% on my saved playlist and turn to them always. Can be on repeat all day. Citizen Soldier you are amazing and thank you for what you guys do. I know this is years later comment but I really needed to write this to you guys.
Man, this song crossed my path right from the first verse! Hit hard but that’s why I love the song! No sugar coating, raw emotion and feeling! Much love to you guys ❤️❤️💯💯 You have made me fight another day :)
Jonathan Katz happy to help friend. Thanks for the amazing support 🖤🤘🏻
" what you want I'll never be, why can't you be proud of me"
Cuts deep,way too deep
I found this song through a playlist,and live citizen soldier never let's me down,never
Glad you found us Chloe 🖤
Praying for everyone in these comments and stay strong and God bless ❤️
Someone commented on another video about how Citizen Soldier has no bad songs...
This is my fourth song in a row and I here to tell you they are absolutely right. I will be exploring more to prove this statement correct.
You're too kind. Thanks 🖤
I wish everyone who clicked on this video the most love, peace and abundance. You’re so much closer than you realize. Godspeed ⚡
Thank you. I needed that.
Hit so hard. I have raised, that i am never good enough
It's hard to feel that way, but you're stronger than you know 🖤
This is my new favorite song
Bryce Branch love to hear that. Have you heard our album RELENTLESS yet?
sadly not yet