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It will get better. After 53 years I finally learned to stop trying to live up to other peoples, spoken or unspoken expectations of me. Expectations cause resentments for me
Felt that bro....I'm so tired of living at this point.....everything I do that makes me happy everyone I care for is now hating me breaking me.....more than I can imagine.....
Citizen Soldier, you'll never dissapoint me. I've already heard your whole album but this song resonates to me the most. Your lyrics are more relateable and deep it makes me (and a lot of other people) feel understood and helps to get trough hard times. This whole song hits home for me and to think those things you sing on a daily basis can just fuck up your whole mindset - your Refrain for example. My heart paused for a Moment as the Refrain came up and had to swallow for a moment to be honest. I'm just so thankful to know your music because of all the points I've already made. Bless you all, we will all overcome our inner demons and the war we're fighting within us. Your music keeps me going. Just thank you for the work you're putting in your music.
Son of a Charlie comments like these make all of the hard work worth it. Thank you friend. We are glad you connect with the music and will continue to work hard to earn your continued support 🖤🤘🏻
It's only been a day and this band has hit so close to home in all aspects of my bottomless pit I can't stop bawling This band deserves more recognition seriously
Lyrics!) Here I am, once again Way too close to the edge Terrified, open eyes I'm seeing red I would rather die tonight Then let you down one more time One more time Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve Am I just so void of love That I'm never good, never good enough Demonize, criticize Your words eat me alive Just like knives Tearing me from the inside What you want I'll never be Why can't you just be proud of me Proud of me Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve Am I just so void of love That I'm never good, never good enough
I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace I never meant to be like this A grave mistake you can't forgive A filthy stain, oh what a shame Can you just wash me away Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve Am I just so void of love That I'm never good, never good enough
"Why can't you be proud of me" I've never related more to lyrics than to this one. It feels like everyone is kicking me down for my little flaws and it's too much to handle sometimes. Part of the problem is my anxiety trying to take control of the wheel, and the fact that I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be. To me, this song represents my constant struggle to come to terms with the person I am and all of my flaws
NotWho YouThinkIAm sounds like you’ve been through so much. We hope that the music helps in some small way and we are so glad you connect with it. Much love to you friend 🖤🤘🏻
I convinced myself when I was young that I deserve to feel like this, that I deserved the misery. So I feel you. You're not alone. The best thing you can do is stay strong. if not for yourself but for the ones that love you.
"I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be." This. This!! You do not realise how true that statement is. You don't believe your friends and family who tell you they like you. So get input from new people. Go out there and be yourself, try something new, make new friends who don't know anything about your history. And find out what they think of you. [Spoiler alert: They don't secretly hate you. They actually think you're a pretty alright sort.] You'll be amazed. I did this and I couldn't believe they were thinking of the same person. I was like... didn't you just spend a week with me? Are you talking about someone else? Don't believe the voice inside your head that tells you no-one will ever like you, because that's a damn lie. Sorry if I'm expressing myself a little strongly, but it's the worst pain ever and it's all based on untruths. No-one should have to endure it.
"Am I a failure from birth Is misery what I deserve" and "What you want I'll never be Why can't you just be proud of me" absolute shred my heart. These lyrics... damn y'all know how to express pain like this so damned authentically. Thank you for giving so many of us a voice.
I never felt good enough growing up. I felt smothered by judgement, my negative feelings unwanted, and people tried to "fix" me. But the idea of being "fixed" suggested they wanted me to be something or someone I wasn't. How could I be anything I'm not? Who I am is all I can be. I never tried to pretend for anyone, I wouldn't. I resented feeling that others wanted something from me that wasn't me. These needs were mine, from me as I was, and I would work my dang hardest to get them met. So the lyrics, "Demonize, criticize. Your words eat me alive just like knives tearing me from the inside. What you want I'll never be! Why can't you be proud of me? ... I never asked to be like this" really hit hard. Especially the proud of me part and how its sung. It brought tears to my eyes. Don't know if anyone else can relate, but I eventually learned that I defined "good enough" as permanently loved, accepted, and wanted. I believed if I could be "good enough," I would experience love as stable, consistent, and long-lasting... no wonder my soul yearned for it so badly and deeply. I never achieved "good enough." I still experience love as temporary; something that only exists in the moment, something that could be lost or withheld from me in the next moment.
Hi, it's me again. I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to say that I'm actually glad I'm past the point where I can truly relate to this song. I still love it, but I've managed to win, for now. I have no doubt I'll fall back down at some points here, but for those of you that haven't been able to beat it yet, I urge you to try your damndest. Don't just resign yourself to your fate, because that's how you lose. Fight it, and when you eventually win, it'll be one of the best feelings you'll ever experience. It feels like you against the world, but you've got friends in places you'd never expect. Fight. Don't give up. Live.
"sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" It always feels like your letting people down, but in reality your probably the person your letting down the most. We always have high expectations that we may never meet, or cant meet in that moment. And we beat ourselves up about it. Life's hard, but knowing that these guys know how were feeling definetly helps motivate me, and make me feel better 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier Yes we are and I hope you guys never give up when facing your own demons and problems. Your music is gold. thank you for respondingggg
What I love about music in general is it can mean one thing to someone and something completely different to someone else. Music is a universal language and it speaks words that are hard to say otherwise. It helps us all understand one another. We can share experiences with musc. Especially if it speaks as loud as this
The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.
Last night my husband told me I need to stop listening to your music. The words make him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me. I told him that I need to know that there is at least one person out there who understands my pain. ' I love his voice and he make me feel.'
@@twistedreality997 It was coming from a place of love because he knows that loud noises and angry voices trigger my PTSD. After I told him that listening to someone who understands my pain helps so much, he did his best to understand. Truthfully, I am so glad he doesn't understand. He just loves me through it all.
@@twistedreality997 Or he is somebody that has never been depressed and doesn't understand how someone can feel these emotions. He obviously cares about them because "he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me". He's not being condescending or showing a red flag, he's just never been in our situation and he's trying to give genuine, good advice. Situations like this is just a muddled cloud of grey, and even if you have the entire context of the situation (unlike a 1 throwaway YT comment in a time when you feel vulnerable) there can still be no clear answer (e.g. go outside, you'll feel better, so you go outside and still feel just as bad. You are going to feel worse if you are inside all day, but going outside won't necessarily make you feel any better. You might feel better, but it didn't work, but hey at least you gave it a shot). See how in an example like this there isn't any clear black or white but instead a muddy grey cloud that you will never get a true answer from? .At the end of the day, the best we can do is be empathetic because we know that the husband is trying to help the best he can
I've been a fan for a while now and I'm impressed. Usually I only like one or two of bands songs but with all your songs I love. I love your new album too, especially kill my memory.
"Never good enough" Three words that can haunt a person for a long time and can mentaly destroy someone. I feel the same with my life, no matter how hard I try in life, it feels like I'm not good enough. Your songs are really inspirational and hopefully more people will be able to reconise your greatness. :)
Omg I just love you guys I've used a couple of your songs for my videos and your music just makes the video you are my go to band for awesome powerful music just thanx guys for existing xxxxxxx
@@CitizenSoldier so glad I came across your channel on TH-cam tonight. Your music speaks volumes on behalf of those who are stuck silent with mental health illnesses and afraid to speak out about their demons and being stigmatized.
I still think this one is my favorite. Completely raw completely honest. And so descriptive of so many of our Lives. Thank you I am so grateful that I found your band. This might sound strange but I believe your anointed by God to reach the generation that needs to hear this. Hugs love always.
“Why can’t you be proud of me”.... damn that’s a deep line, i felt that Great song c’: i was missing to have a new song in my playlist, now there’s another one c:
I used to feel like a letdown, someone who isn't good enough for anyone... I started working at a hospital in June as a Unit Assistant in Emerg, I started feeling rewarded and happy with who I've become over the last 4-5 months especially with all the amazing peeps I've met who've grown to care about me as much as I care about them Starting this job saved my life and I listen to this song as a reminder that I overcame myself and this state of mind Thank you Citizen Soldier
Almost everyone I know tells me this all the time. This song hit hard but it’s nice that people like you are giving us a voice with your songs thank you so much Citizen Soldier
On our own, nobody will ever be "good enough" for God... But He loves us anyway. Even tho it isn't necessary, He proves His love by Jesus'death on the cross for the forgiveness of our faults, failures, and poor choices. Through Christ and the Holy Spirit, we CAN BE "Good Enough"!
This song is how I feel living with depression and ptsd I thought I rather be dead than letting everyone down all the time I came very close to ending it someone found me and God said you are getting a second chance
I’ve listened to this song too many times when I’m down. It’s a really good song and it hits me really hard. “Sick of coming undone~ Letting down everyone~” This lyric hits home really hard.
I was here since day one and it makes me almost tear up seeing you guys have come this far. Great job as always. Never stop teling our stories through your songs!
This is how I really feel about myself. It's not that I don't feel good enough for everyone else, I feel like I'm not good enough for myself. I'm disappointing myself..
No matter what happens it feels like Citizen Soldier will always be there. This music pulls me through every bad day and carries me through the worst. Like no matter where I end up I'm not alone. Thank you
Someone commented on another video about how Citizen Soldier has no bad songs... This is my fourth song in a row and I here to tell you they are absolutely right. I will be exploring more to prove this statement correct.
I just found this guy tonight, even tho this topic definitely describes my life by 100%, his melodic voice just turned the need to cut my arms from fingertips to shoulders..
I felt this bc my aunt yells at me all the time and says things like "you cant do anything right" so I ran to my room and this was on my recommendation page so I clicked it and gave it a listen and I am in love with this song thank you for making this masterpiece
*How I am when it comes to my best friends* “I would rather die tonight. Than let u down one more time. Sick of coming undone. Letting down everyone” *When it comes to my family* “What you want I’ll never be! Why can’t u be proud of me!? Sick of coming undone letting down everyone mediocre at best maybe better off dead am I a failure from birth is misery what I deserve!?” *How I am with my friends and family* “I hate to disappoint you. Everything you give me. I SOMEHOW WILL DISGRACE! I NEVER ASKED TO BE LIKE THIS. A GRAVE MISTAKE. YOU CANT FORGIVE. A FILTHY STAIN. OH WHAT A SHAME. CAN YOU JUST WASH ME AWAY!?”
Citizen Soldier ur very welcome. Everyone needs a chance. And i tend to replay each of ur songs to the point I can sing them word for word. I memorized Caroline and 15 minutes of fame that I can sing them perfectly without looking at the words
So many people have made me feel like I'm never good enough. I want people to be proud of me at how far I've come instead of putting me down constantly
I'm speechless. I only found you guys today and I'm already a huge fan, but as I write this the tears are streaming down my face. This song puts into words the thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis and it's just. so. perfect. I finally. FINALLY feel heard. Thank you Citizen Soldier, you have given me just a bit of hope that I can pull through this.
Music that you can feel connected to or has serious meaning in general is the purest form of music and your music hits the nail on the head bands like you and skarlett riot deserve so much more attention
"I rather die tonight, then let you down one more time". That fucked up me up for a couple hours and so. This song really captures how I feel when it always came to pleasing my parents. They would always say they were proud of me, but they were always proud of me for things I wasn't proud of. They'd only be proud of me for things they wanted me to do. "Why can't you be proud of me". That line just stole the show, and whenever you mentioned "I hate to disappoint you, but it's in my DNA", that is how I feel nowadays. Spent so long letting people down, that I really think letting people down, and disappointing people is seriously in my DNA. I can't believe how many songs you guys have that I relate to, to a fucking T. As a metalhead, I love screaming, but I've also learned to love cleans. When the singer screamed/sing near the end, was like the perfect mixture of the two. It's scary how accurate this song is to me, but once again, even though I always feel alone, it's always good to know that I'm never really alone. -Travis
A band that always knows how to get what I'm feeling almost everyday down right in a song always makes me smile that there are bands out there making music for lost souls like me..🖤🖤
''I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time'' ''Mediocre at the best'' ''Never good enough'' ''Your words eat me alive'' ''why can't you be proud of me?'' ''I never asked to be like this'' 💔
I've never heard a song that understood me so well. I'm barely holding myself together. Citizen Soldier, keep making music. Keep impacting people. You make a difference.
Just when I thought a song couldn’t be more spot on than I Am Not Okay...dang this hit hard and it hit home. Great job for seeing deeper, for willing to write what is there that so many cannot put into words. You’re amazing.
I only discovered this amazing band a few days ago and I come undone at every song! Bless you for putting music to the thoughts in my mind. But more importantly, thank you for letting countless others know they have worth even though they may feel these things. Forever a fan now. Thank you! ❣
My new favorite band. They speak the words I've been searching for my whole life. Keep doing what you guys do cause it's working. Every song of theirs I feel in my soul. My life is hell I've had chronic PTSD since 3 years old spent half my life not even knowing. I'm always a second choice. I'm always hated or misjudged, my parents don't even help me through anymore I'm alone and IM NOT OKAY.. I'm never good enough. All anyone ever sees is a devil inside. If my scars could speak they would hear my pain. I'm battling daily and losing. I just want to be okay. I've been a mess for a decade my physical health is spiraling downward doctors have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me half of them said they've never encountered this before those words just make me feel even more alone. Nobody will talk to me I just need people to care cause I feel like I'm the only one going through this and it's such a lonely road I've been walking down. Please someone reach out. 😭😭😭
" what you want I'll never be, why can't you be proud of me" Cuts deep,way too deep I found this song through a playlist,and live citizen soldier never let's me down,never
How is every song you guys write both amazing and relatable? It's so full of emotion that I want to cry everytime because of how much it seems like you've gone through everything in your lyrics. There's so much emotion in your voice. The instrumentals also compliment it so well and make it feel even more like you've poured everything into every song. Hopefully one day everyone will know who you guys are because I feel like your music could save a lot of lives..
Before today i have NEVER heard of this bad and the three songs i have just listened to... NEVER RELATED MORE IN MY LIFE! Your music is ABSOLUTELY amazing!!!!
This song hits hard ! Everyone is good enough dont let people put you down. Walk away from negativity it's not worth the heart ache .I was put down. All my life and believed it Not no more Thanks love the lyrics will be listening to other songs have a great day
This song explains my relationship with my grandpa I never feel good enough in his eyes But there are people out there who are proud of you pay attention to those people not the people that make you feel not enough
This one too hits really close to home. I wish it wouldn't but it's entirety reminds me of my mother. No matter what I do, I feel like it's never right. I'm never good enough. The lines "maybe better off dead" and "why can't you be proud of me" resonates in a very specific way when you combine it with the bridge "I never asked to be like this, a grave mistake you can't forgive. A filthy stain, oh what a shame. Can you just wash me away?". It resonates with me because I was born to a young mother, she was around my current age (20) when she had me, so in the back of my mind the question " was I conceived knowingly or was I a surprise?" lingers. Plus, right from the start I wasn't what she thought I was going to be. I was born with a kind of heart condition that doctors in our area at the time could not seem to diagnose and they would always tell my parents I wouldn't live longer than a year. So they worked their butts off to find someone able to help us and they did. I was told that story countless times, from a very early age. And when years went by, bringing their cargo of new experiences (most of which were bad ones but I hold on to the good ones now), I often found myself wondering if my family wouldn't have been better off if I had actually died. I actually still do because I can't seem to get rid of the guilt knowing all the time and money they must have used to keep me.. Anyways that's a longer story and this comment is long enough as it is. Once again thank you Citizen Soldier for creating and producing such great pieces and sharing them with us.. 🌹 To anyone reading : take care and keep shining, you might end up brighten someone's day up 🌹
What a story. Thanks for sharing it. You are exactly what we want to be about, a support group for people to strengthen and love eachother through their darkest days. You are amazing for what you have been through and sharing light with others. Never doubt that. Any ideas for what we should write about in 2020? We want our music to represent your journey and would love your ideas :)
@@CitizenSoldier That is why I love you guys so much. You've brought together, thanks to your talent and selflessness, people from very different backgrounds and created a safe place for us to enjoy great music and vent. We will never be able to thank you enough. I truly believe though that it should be normal for people to share experiences and/or advices. I never would want anyone to make the mistakes I made (that's why I shared another story under "Kill my memory") and that's why I speak up and i find hard to see why that makes me "amazing", because it shouldn't. Some friends and I actually went to a journal and testified of what we had lived and witnessed during our time in one of our schools, because we had heard that the same kind of problems were still going on there. You don't have to change anything, your music represents my journey among a lot of others, and I can't sit here and pretend to know what everyone would like to hear about. But I believe that, in the same tone of Buried Alive where it was about people being misunderstood/unheard/mental health problems, a song about being used/taken advantage of could be very cathartic to a lot of people. Because when I first heard "Buried Alive" it automatically drove me (and I assume unfortunately many others) back into my early teenage years (full of bullying, people being manipulative, and sexual assaults to name a few) and it also made me remember how dealing with the consequences of these experiences made me the person I am today. Not necesseraly stronger, but wiser. That's also what made me realize how ephemeral things are (and made me call myself Mayfly, which is a pseudo I use everywhere, especially when I publish writings on the internet). Thank you guys again, a lot. You rock ! Lots of love ♥
Im proud of anyone that has talent to be artistic and be able to express their emotions into words like in poems or in music or anything that makes them happy. Everyone deserves to be happy in doing what they love. If it makes them happy and makes others happy then thats a great accomplishment.
YEEES! A new citizen soldier video, I'm only about two minutes through and I can already relate to this waay to much.how do you guys always hit so close to home??? Never stop what your doing, you have a real talent for it! ^-^
This song hit a lot of points in me. All the things in the chorus is something ive all thought about a lot of times. And always something ive held myself against. Cause of the feeling of not being good enough to live up to others expectations or never reaching the goals ive wanted to hit. Both family and love is not easy for me because of this
This is exactly how i feel alot of times. I try and try my best to make a better life for myself, my kids, some of my family, trying to have a better relationship with someone who wants me, and will love me uncondtionally, without judgement. Im a very openminded woman, creative, like to be different and try new things. Ive had bad telationships throughout my life. Have been a sidepiece to men which doesnt feel good at all. Not anymore though. I put my foot down about that. I also wont be the other woman in a relationship. When im with someone i tend to stay faithful and committed. Im not perfect though, ive cheated in the past on boyfriends but that was when i was younger. Thats not who i am now. Ive been depressed and sad lately. Just not happy in my current situation. Im not going to get into that, ive gotten to the point that ive started to almost feel numb, like my life doesnt matter, or my feelings.
Some say these sorts of songs that sing about this sort of things are depressing... BUT I find these songs uplifting and full of hope, just knowing someone else knows how you feel, that you are not alone.. Thank you for such brilliant and beautiful songs x
This band is so heavily underappreciated. I love them. So much. Near every song I can relate, just like millions of others. I just cannot get enough, and I don't believe I ever will. They are amazing! I swear this is now my new favorite band. Thank you. 🖤💙🖤
Citizen Soldier you are definitely not mediocre. Just finished listening to e every song and you have more talent than any of the garbage at TH-cam top trending. You will definitely be big one day.
War and battle isn't just about guns and blood. Some of us are fighting emotional battles that we can't explain or make sense of. And some of us have PTSD because of it. I am my own soldier. And these songs help me relate, and everyone else who fighting relate. Thank you so much for your words and your music. I don't know how to speak or explain the thoughts that are going through my head to the poeple I love, and these songs have helped, by playing them for someone in hopes that they can better understand us. Thank you so much. Bless you.
"I never asked to be like this" "A grave mistake you can't forgive" "A filthy stain oh what a shame" "Can you just wash me away?" This whole song hits hella close to home but especially this part hit me so damn hard.
This song is really speaking to me I have felt like this all my life trying to not lose hope I love your music and it gives me hope to fight another day
"I'd rather die tonight, than let you down one more time." Exactly what I've been trying to convey to people, I honestly am trying my best. Don't think they see though... 😔
Jesus dude, this band really knows how to tear your guts out and kick em around on the floor. These songs are too relatable. I also hear that pent up rage toward the end and I'd love to hear them let loose and let it all explode at least once. It would be a release for me to hear something not only relatable but to get that explosive release of rage and pain.
@@CitizenSoldier you guys are great, not only musically, but you connect with your fan base. That's something not many successful people do, and your fans appreciate it.
I just found you guys and I'm already in love with the music. I write stories to help me, but then there's times I can't think of the words to describe my emotions and you guys are either mind readers to understand how most people feel.
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this how I feel every single day
Just lost my brother don't know if it was suicide or just alcohol he died last night. I wish I could have help him
“Why can’t you be proud of me”. This hit so hard I’m crying
Isabelle Stiphout a gut punch for sure. Glad you felt the song 🖤🤘🏻
Citizen Soldier I love it, thank you so much❤️
Me too 💔
@@hannahwilliams5681 Only know one person with that nickname and it's my sister xD
@@WickerKing haha
"Mediocre at best, maybe better off dead" that one hit hard, damn.
TheGameBoss980 glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier may i use this song for my upcoming open world survival game that i am making
@@joshuabakerchainsaw I think you should rather contact them via email, more official and suiting for this kind of questions
Yeah, that hit me hard as well
Yep
"I'd rather die, then to let you down one more time." My favorite quote of this song.
Oh mine too...nothing more powerful than hatred. It gives you the guts to do what needs to be done.
Mine too
Who ever your talking about is so very lucky to have you in there life I could only wish to have somebody who cared so much
That seems like a poor prioritization list 💀
My favorite line as well
The slight blur in the lyrics on screen is a nice touch
Planet S our drummer Kyle did a great job making this. What did you think of the song? Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier love the track happy weekend 😀
The drummer is working double duty eh? Props to him lol
@@Aniimefaan I wish it was only double 😅
@@CitizenSoldier that drummer is talented !!!
Never thought I would find a song so perfect for my mental state rn.
Hope it helps! Hope things get better for you friend 🖤
It will get better. After 53 years I finally learned to stop trying to live up to other peoples, spoken or unspoken expectations of me. Expectations cause resentments for me
Felt that bro....I'm so tired of living at this point.....everything I do that makes me happy everyone I care for is now hating me breaking me.....more than I can imagine.....
@Caylin W same ;-;
@@CitizenSoldier you guys are great you mean a lot to a lot of people keep saving us🤘🤘🤘
That line...."I hate to disappoint you, but its my DNA" and the raw way he roars it...breaks me every time. So many chills and tears.
Me too, especially this one! The whole song reminds me of some hard conversations with my parents.
ME TOO
"Everything you give me, I somehow will disgrace!" 😭🙏
"Am I a failure from birth"
"Is misery what I deserve "
"Am I so void of love"
"AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH "
" NEVER GOOD ENOUGH "
💘💘💘
ㄥZ AMV glad you like it friend 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier I don't like it I LOVE it ❤
Yes you are... give urself more credit... 💖💖💖💖
@@zamv2643 funny thing is all i hear is Failure from birth, misery is what I deserve.
Those are the lyrics that got to me!!! this one runs deep in my veins.
Citizen Soldier, you'll never dissapoint me.
I've already heard your whole album but this song resonates to me the most. Your lyrics are more relateable and deep it makes me (and a lot of other people) feel understood and helps to get trough hard times. This whole song hits home for me and to think those things you sing on a daily basis can just fuck up your whole mindset - your Refrain for example. My heart paused for a Moment as the Refrain came up and had to swallow for a moment to be honest.
I'm just so thankful to know your music because of all the points I've already made. Bless you all, we will all overcome our inner demons and the war we're fighting within us.
Your music keeps me going.
Just thank you for the work you're putting in your music.
Son of a Charlie comments like these make all of the hard work worth it. Thank you friend. We are glad you connect with the music and will continue to work hard to earn your continued support 🖤🤘🏻
You're right It helps me through dark days
The refrain and chorus made me cry
I honestly don't connect that much, only a little. I just really love this song
@@thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741 lucky you
It's only been a day and this band has hit so close to home in all aspects of my bottomless pit I can't stop bawling
This band deserves more recognition seriously
You are so kind. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
Yes i relate too...i love this band
Lyrics!)
Here I am, once again
Way too close to the edge
Terrified, open eyes
I'm seeing red
I would rather die tonight
Then let you down one more time
One more time
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
Demonize, criticize
Your words eat me alive
Just like knives
Tearing me from the inside
What you want I'll never be
Why can't you just be proud of me
Proud of me
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
garik pazik thanks for sharing 🖤🤘🏻
I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA
Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace
I never meant to be like this
A grave mistake you can't forgive
A filthy stain, oh what a shame
Can you just wash me away
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
@@nurhanif5682 that was completely wrong =/
t con on les a sur la vidéo les lyrics 😑😑🖕🖕
@@TheBee7878 I know I am probably late but your wrong because if you look they only had one word wrong
"Why can't you be proud of me" I've never related more to lyrics than to this one.
It feels like everyone is kicking me down for my little flaws and it's too much to handle sometimes. Part of the problem is my anxiety trying to take control of the wheel, and the fact that I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be. To me, this song represents my constant struggle to come to terms with the person I am and all of my flaws
NotWho YouThinkIAm sounds like you’ve been through so much. We hope that the music helps in some small way and we are so glad you connect with it. Much love to you friend 🖤🤘🏻
I convinced myself when I was young that I deserve to feel like this, that I deserved the misery. So I feel you. You're not alone. The best thing you can do is stay strong. if not for yourself but for the ones that love you.
"I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be." This. This!! You do not realise how true that statement is. You don't believe your friends and family who tell you they like you. So get input from new people. Go out there and be yourself, try something new, make new friends who don't know anything about your history. And find out what they think of you. [Spoiler alert: They don't secretly hate you. They actually think you're a pretty alright sort.] You'll be amazed. I did this and I couldn't believe they were thinking of the same person. I was like... didn't you just spend a week with me? Are you talking about someone else? Don't believe the voice inside your head that tells you no-one will ever like you, because that's a damn lie. Sorry if I'm expressing myself a little strongly, but it's the worst pain ever and it's all based on untruths. No-one should have to endure it.
"Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve" and "What you want I'll never be
Why can't you just be proud of me" absolute shred my heart. These lyrics... damn y'all know how to express pain like this so damned authentically. Thank you for giving so many of us a voice.
I never feel like I’m good enough and this song hits me hard. I cry everyone I hear it.
melinda watson you are enough friend. Know that 🖤
I never felt good enough growing up. I felt smothered by judgement, my negative feelings unwanted, and people tried to "fix" me. But the idea of being "fixed" suggested they wanted me to be something or someone I wasn't. How could I be anything I'm not? Who I am is all I can be. I never tried to pretend for anyone, I wouldn't. I resented feeling that others wanted something from me that wasn't me. These needs were mine, from me as I was, and I would work my dang hardest to get them met. So the lyrics, "Demonize, criticize. Your words eat me alive just like knives tearing me from the inside. What you want I'll never be! Why can't you be proud of me? ... I never asked to be like this" really hit hard. Especially the proud of me part and how its sung. It brought tears to my eyes.
Don't know if anyone else can relate, but I eventually learned that I defined "good enough" as permanently loved, accepted, and wanted. I believed if I could be "good enough," I would experience love as stable, consistent, and long-lasting... no wonder my soul yearned for it so badly and deeply. I never achieved "good enough." I still experience love as temporary; something that only exists in the moment, something that could be lost or withheld from me in the next moment.
Such powerful lyrics, they cut deep. I dont quite know why, but this whole album sums up half my life
Right there with you.
Thank you for your kind words, hope you're staying safe friend.
Hi, it's me again.
I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to say that I'm actually glad I'm past the point where I can truly relate to this song. I still love it, but I've managed to win, for now. I have no doubt I'll fall back down at some points here, but for those of you that haven't been able to beat it yet, I urge you to try your damndest. Don't just resign yourself to your fate, because that's how you lose. Fight it, and when you eventually win, it'll be one of the best feelings you'll ever experience. It feels like you against the world, but you've got friends in places you'd never expect. Fight. Don't give up. Live.
Alex Laws such an incredible message. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. We admire your strength. Everyone needs a friend like you 🖤🤘🏻
“Maybe better off dead”
That’s powerful
Love this song
Corvus Corax glad you liked it! Appreciate the support friend 🖤
"sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" It always feels like your letting people down, but in reality your probably the person your letting down the most. We always have high expectations that we may never meet, or cant meet in that moment. And we beat ourselves up about it. Life's hard, but knowing that these guys know how were feeling definetly helps motivate me, and make me feel better 🖤
i never feel good enough but the music you put through here helps me. thank you. we're all fighters
We're all fighting! 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier Yes we are and I hope you guys never give up when facing your own demons and problems. Your music is gold. thank you for respondingggg
What I love about music in general is it can mean one thing to someone and something completely different to someone else. Music is a universal language and it speaks words that are hard to say otherwise. It helps us all understand one another. We can share experiences with musc. Especially if it speaks as loud as this
Thanks 💜;
“ I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time.” That hit too close to home for me to accept
The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.
Thank you so much. That means everything to us. So glad you found us 🖤🤘🏻
Three days grace suck live however I love em so much. Their songs helped me when i was young get through some tough shit.
Dream Smasher idk where you saw TDG at but when I saw them at Montage Mountain in PA they were badass.
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This is one of greatest things i heard in a while!
Yequxor Howler thank you so so much. That means the world. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier not yet but soon!
I am mega hyped for it!
Last night my husband told me I need to stop listening to your music. The words make him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me. I told him that I need to know that there is at least one person out there who understands my pain. ' I love his voice and he make me feel.'
I understand really I feel the same
I'd crank it even louder
your husband even trying to tell you what you should and shouldn't listen to is a whole red flag
@@twistedreality997 It was coming from a place of love because he knows that loud noises and angry voices trigger my PTSD. After I told him that listening to someone who understands my pain helps so much, he did his best to understand. Truthfully, I am so glad he doesn't understand. He just loves me through it all.
@@twistedreality997 Or he is somebody that has never been depressed and doesn't understand how someone can feel these emotions. He obviously cares about them because "he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me".
He's not being condescending or showing a red flag, he's just never been in our situation and he's trying to give genuine, good advice.
Situations like this is just a muddled cloud of grey, and even if you have the entire context of the situation (unlike a 1 throwaway YT comment in a time when you feel vulnerable) there can still be no clear answer (e.g. go outside, you'll feel better, so you go outside and still feel just as bad. You are going to feel worse if you are inside all day, but going outside won't necessarily make you feel any better. You might feel better, but it didn't work, but hey at least you gave it a shot). See how in an example like this there isn't any clear black or white but instead a muddy grey cloud that you will never get a true answer from?
.At the end of the day, the best we can do is be empathetic because we know that the husband is trying to help the best he can
This is possibly my new favourite song coming from my favorite band
jayden juggernaut that is amazing to hear! Thank you so much friend 🖤 this song means a lot to us too.
I've been a fan for a while now and I'm impressed. Usually I only like one or two of bands songs but with all your songs I love. I love your new album too, especially kill my memory.
Katie Rose Pritchard so glad to hear this Katie. Thank you for the amazing support 🖤🤘🏻
These guys deserve more attention, clever lyrics is an understatement.
Thank you Tyson
this song is so good! you are very talented!
i love it!!
"i hate disappoint you
but it's in my DNA!"
martina; bts love that line! Glad you connected with it. Have you heard the rest of our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier yess i did!
and all the songs are as goog as this song!
honestly one of the bes lines
"Never good enough" Three words that can haunt a person for a long time and can mentaly destroy someone. I feel the same with my life, no matter how hard I try in life, it feels like I'm not good enough.
Your songs are really inspirational and hopefully more people will be able to reconise your greatness. :)
Asylum117 glad you connect with them. Thanks for your kind words and support 🖤🤘🏻
“i hate to disappoint you… but it’s in my DNA” is a DEEP line for me. love it
"I am just so void of love that I'm never good enough"
Such a relatable song
Jodynelis so glad you relate to it. Appreciate you 🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier 🖤
I dont think Citizen Soldier is capable of making a bad song. This is my favorite so far. Such an amazing band.
Multitalented Prankster thank you so much. Your support is everything 🖤🤘🏻
It's so comforting knowing someone understands your pain.
Omg I just love you guys I've used a couple of your songs for my videos and your music just makes the video you are my go to band for awesome powerful music just thanx guys for existing xxxxxxx
Herondales Angel we wouldn’t exist without your kind support. Appreciate you more than you know 🖤
👊😘😘
@@CitizenSoldier so glad I came across your channel on TH-cam tonight. Your music speaks volumes on behalf of those who are stuck silent with mental health illnesses and afraid to speak out about their demons and being stigmatized.
Can I just say. I love your name. I loveeeeeeee the Heronadales, Will, Jace, James all of them.
@@amals4316 thanx so much I love them also ❤
''so sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" dear deer, that hit me like a stone
I still think this one is my favorite. Completely raw completely honest. And so descriptive of so many of our Lives. Thank you I am so grateful that I found your band. This might sound strange but I believe your anointed by God to reach the generation that needs to hear this. Hugs love always.
That is so kind and means so much to me. Thank you, truly
“Why can’t you be proud of me”.... damn that’s a deep line, i felt that
Great song c’: i was missing to have a new song in my playlist, now there’s another one c:
Hector Jara Kenway glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻
Honestly I feel like this all the time. I never thought a song would be able to capture this so perfectly.
It definitely came from the heart. It hits close to home for me for sure 🙏🏻
I used to feel like a letdown, someone who isn't good enough for anyone... I started working at a hospital in June as a Unit Assistant in Emerg, I started feeling rewarded and happy with who I've become over the last 4-5 months especially with all the amazing peeps I've met who've grown to care about me as much as I care about them
Starting this job saved my life and I listen to this song as a reminder that I overcame myself and this state of mind
Thank you Citizen Soldier
I cry to almost every song because it relates so much to me
Yeah, me too. I am never good enough.
Almost everyone I know tells me this all the time. This song hit hard but it’s nice that people like you are giving us a voice with your songs thank you so much Citizen Soldier
On our own, nobody will ever be "good enough" for God... But He loves us anyway.
Even tho it isn't necessary, He proves His love by Jesus'death on the cross for the forgiveness of our faults, failures, and poor choices.
Through Christ and the Holy Spirit, we CAN BE "Good Enough"!
How do all your song speak to me on such a personal level? It's how a feel and what goes through my mind all the time. Love this song🔥🔥🔥🔥
A band that feels like it represents my very heart and mind. Amazing song, one I can truly relate too.
Good to hear that! 🖤
This song is how I feel living with depression and ptsd I thought I rather be dead than letting everyone down all the time I came very close to ending it someone found me and God said you are getting a second chance
The lyrics.. it helps to listen and related to that. It helps realize we’re not alone 💜
I’ve listened to this song too many times when I’m down. It’s a really good song and it hits me really hard.
“Sick of coming undone~ Letting down everyone~”
This lyric hits home really hard.
same bro :/
This song is helping me extremely with problems with my dad. Thank you, Citizen Soldier.
I was here since day one and it makes me almost tear up seeing you guys have come this far. Great job as always. Never stop teling our stories through your songs!
We won't stop. Thank you
This is how I really feel about myself. It's not that I don't feel good enough for everyone else, I feel like I'm not good enough for myself. I'm disappointing myself..
Appreciate you Emilie 🖤 Stay strong
No matter what happens it feels like Citizen Soldier will always be there. This music pulls me through every bad day and carries me through the worst. Like no matter where I end up I'm not alone. Thank you
Of course. We will always be here 🖤🙏🏻
Wow bro my favorite song 💥🔥🔥🔥
me too Otaku amv 🔥🔥🔥
Otaku amv so glad you liked it friend. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
Citizen Soldier of course I heard it and I like it so much ❤️❤️❤️
"everything you give me, I will somehow disgrace" damn this is exactly how I feel about things I've been given
Someone commented on another video about how Citizen Soldier has no bad songs...
This is my fourth song in a row and I here to tell you they are absolutely right. I will be exploring more to prove this statement correct.
You're too kind. Thanks 🖤
I just found this guy tonight, even tho this topic definitely describes my life by 100%, his melodic voice just turned the need to cut my arms from fingertips to shoulders..
Glad you found us 🖤
another great song with which I feel connected, I love the music of this band and I hope that it receives the fame it deserves in the future
ss blastoise ftw we appreciate that support friend. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻
"everything you give me I somehow will disgrace" it hitted me with tears
I felt this bc my aunt yells at me all the time and says things like "you cant do anything right" so I ran to my room and this was on my recommendation page so I clicked it and gave it a listen and I am in love with this song thank you for making this masterpiece
*How I am when it comes to my best friends*
“I would rather die tonight. Than let u down one more time. Sick of coming undone. Letting down everyone”
*When it comes to my family*
“What you want I’ll never be! Why can’t u be proud of me!? Sick of coming undone letting down everyone mediocre at best maybe better off dead am I a failure from birth is misery what I deserve!?”
*How I am with my friends and family*
“I hate to disappoint you. Everything you give me. I SOMEHOW WILL DISGRACE!
I NEVER ASKED TO BE LIKE THIS. A GRAVE MISTAKE. YOU CANT FORGIVE. A FILTHY STAIN. OH WHAT A SHAME. CAN YOU JUST WASH ME AWAY!?”
Raven the Rebel I think a lot of people feel the same way. Glad you’re connecting with our music and lyrics. Thanks for giving us a chance 🖤🤘🏻
Citizen Soldier ur very welcome. Everyone needs a chance. And i tend to replay each of ur songs to the point I can sing them word for word. I memorized Caroline and 15 minutes of fame that I can sing them perfectly without looking at the words
Same...just same
Same😔😥
So many people have made me feel like I'm never good enough. I want people to be proud of me at how far I've come instead of putting me down constantly
I'm speechless. I only found you guys today and I'm already a huge fan, but as I write this the tears are streaming down my face. This song puts into words the thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis and it's just. so. perfect. I finally. FINALLY feel heard. Thank you Citizen Soldier, you have given me just a bit of hope that I can pull through this.
Music that you can feel connected to or has serious meaning in general is the purest form of music and your music hits the nail on the head bands like you and skarlett riot deserve so much more attention
So far this band provided only songs that hit too hard to home from what I heard so far, something I can finally cry to, so thank you.
Thanks 💜!
"I rather die tonight, then let you down one more time". That fucked up me up for a couple hours and so. This song really captures how I feel when it always came to pleasing my parents. They would always say they were proud of me, but they were always proud of me for things I wasn't proud of. They'd only be proud of me for things they wanted me to do. "Why can't you be proud of me". That line just stole the show, and whenever you mentioned "I hate to disappoint you, but it's in my DNA", that is how I feel nowadays. Spent so long letting people down, that I really think letting people down, and disappointing people is seriously in my DNA. I can't believe how many songs you guys have that I relate to, to a fucking T. As a metalhead, I love screaming, but I've also learned to love cleans. When the singer screamed/sing near the end, was like the perfect mixture of the two. It's scary how accurate this song is to me, but once again, even though I always feel alone, it's always good to know that I'm never really alone.
-Travis
Appreciate that 🖤
Citizen soldier for ever, BEST BAND EVER
The black Cat thank you so much. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻
@@CitizenSoldier yw 😊 btw keep up all the amazing songs and work
I came to this band a year ago and I am very happy to have found this unique band.🙂
they are the best for me 😊
@@alicekuze9560 same
A band that always knows how to get what I'm feeling almost everyday down right in a song always makes me smile that there are bands out there making music for lost souls like me..🖤🖤
''I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time''
''Mediocre at the best''
''Never good enough''
''Your words eat me alive''
''why can't you be proud of me?''
''I never asked to be like this''
💔
Alexandra aly glad you connected with the lyrics!
28 years old... and I still feel this exact same way. Will it ever actually get better ?!
We're in it together, we can continue the fight and live for the things worth living for.
@@CitizenSoldier ♥️♥️♥️
I've never heard a song that understood me so well. I'm barely holding myself together. Citizen Soldier, keep making music. Keep impacting people. You make a difference.
This makes me want to headbang and cry at the same time
TasteTheCringe we feel the same way 😭😂🤘🏻🖤 glad you enjoy the track!
Just when I thought a song couldn’t be more spot on than I Am Not Okay...dang this hit hard and it hit home. Great job for seeing deeper, for willing to write what is there that so many cannot put into words. You’re amazing.
Thanks for listening 🖤
I only discovered this amazing band a few days ago and I come undone at every song! Bless you for putting music to the thoughts in my mind. But more importantly, thank you for letting countless others know they have worth even though they may feel these things. Forever a fan now. Thank you! ❣
My new favorite band. They speak the words I've been searching for my whole life. Keep doing what you guys do cause it's working. Every song of theirs I feel in my soul. My life is hell I've had chronic PTSD since 3 years old spent half my life not even knowing. I'm always a second choice. I'm always hated or misjudged, my parents don't even help me through anymore I'm alone and IM NOT OKAY.. I'm never good enough. All anyone ever sees is a devil inside. If my scars could speak they would hear my pain. I'm battling daily and losing. I just want to be okay. I've been a mess for a decade my physical health is spiraling downward doctors have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me half of them said they've never encountered this before those words just make me feel even more alone. Nobody will talk to me I just need people to care cause I feel like I'm the only one going through this and it's such a lonely road I've been walking down. Please someone reach out. 😭😭😭
Appreciate you Justin 🖤 We hear you
" what you want I'll never be, why can't you be proud of me"
Cuts deep,way too deep
I found this song through a playlist,and live citizen soldier never let's me down,never
Glad you found us Chloe 🖤
How is every song you guys write both amazing and relatable? It's so full of emotion that I want to cry everytime because of how much it seems like you've gone through everything in your lyrics. There's so much emotion in your voice. The instrumentals also compliment it so well and make it feel even more like you've poured everything into every song. Hopefully one day everyone will know who you guys are because I feel like your music could save a lot of lives..
Before today i have NEVER heard of this bad and the three songs i have just listened to... NEVER RELATED MORE IN MY LIFE! Your music is ABSOLUTELY amazing!!!!
That is honestly an honor to hear 🖤🙏🏻 so glad you found us. Welcome to the family 🖤🙏🏻
This song hits hard ! Everyone is good enough dont let people put you down. Walk away from negativity it's not worth the heart ache .I was put down. All my life and believed it Not no more Thanks love the lyrics will be listening to other songs have a great day
I’ve been there friend. Thanks for sharing the kind words 🖤🙏🏻
This song explains my relationship with my grandpa I never feel good enough in his eyes
But there are people out there who are proud of you pay attention to those people not the people that make you feel not enough
This one too hits really close to home. I wish it wouldn't but it's entirety reminds me of my mother.
No matter what I do, I feel like it's never right. I'm never good enough.
The lines "maybe better off dead" and "why can't you be proud of me" resonates in a very specific way when you combine it with the bridge "I never asked to be like this, a grave mistake you can't forgive. A filthy stain, oh what a shame. Can you just wash me away?".
It resonates with me because I was born to a young mother, she was around my current age (20) when she had me, so in the back of my mind the question " was I conceived knowingly or was I a surprise?" lingers. Plus, right from the start I wasn't what she thought I was going to be.
I was born with a kind of heart condition that doctors in our area at the time could not seem to diagnose and they would always tell my parents I wouldn't live longer than a year. So they worked their butts off to find someone able to help us and they did. I was told that story countless times, from a very early age.
And when years went by, bringing their cargo of new experiences (most of which were bad ones but I hold on to the good ones now), I often found myself wondering if my family wouldn't have been better off if I had actually died. I actually still do because I can't seem to get rid of the guilt knowing all the time and money they must have used to keep me..
Anyways that's a longer story and this comment is long enough as it is.
Once again thank you Citizen Soldier for creating and producing such great pieces and sharing them with us.. 🌹
To anyone reading : take care and keep shining, you might end up brighten someone's day up 🌹
What a story. Thanks for sharing it. You are exactly what we want to be about, a support group for people to strengthen and love eachother through their darkest days. You are amazing for what you have been through and sharing light with others. Never doubt that. Any ideas for what we should write about in 2020? We want our music to represent your journey and would love your ideas :)
@@CitizenSoldier That is why I love you guys so much. You've brought together, thanks to your talent and selflessness, people from very different backgrounds and created a safe place for us to enjoy great music and vent. We will never be able to thank you enough. I truly believe though that it should be normal for people to share experiences and/or advices. I never would want anyone to make the mistakes I made (that's why I shared another story under "Kill my memory") and that's why I speak up and i find hard to see why that makes me "amazing", because it shouldn't. Some friends and I actually went to a journal and testified of what we had lived and witnessed during our time in one of our schools, because we had heard that the same kind of problems were still going on there.
You don't have to change anything, your music represents my journey among a lot of others, and I can't sit here and pretend to know what everyone would like to hear about.
But I believe that, in the same tone of Buried Alive where it was about people being misunderstood/unheard/mental health problems, a song about being used/taken advantage of could be very cathartic to a lot of people.
Because when I first heard "Buried Alive" it automatically drove me (and I assume unfortunately many others) back into my early teenage years (full of bullying, people being manipulative, and sexual assaults to name a few) and it also made me remember how dealing with the consequences of these experiences made me the person I am today.
Not necesseraly stronger, but wiser.
That's also what made me realize how ephemeral things are (and made me call myself Mayfly, which is a pseudo I use everywhere, especially when I publish writings on the internet).
Thank you guys again, a lot. You rock !
Lots of love ♥
Oh my gosh I feel this song on a personal level. I feel like I’m never good enough
I have felt that too. We need to be there for eachother
Im proud of anyone that has talent to be artistic and be able to express their emotions into words like in poems or in music or anything that makes them happy. Everyone deserves to be happy in doing what they love. If it makes them happy and makes others happy then thats a great accomplishment.
YEEES! A new citizen soldier video, I'm only about two minutes through and I can already relate to this waay to much.how do you guys always hit so close to home???
Never stop what your doing, you have a real talent for it! ^-^
•Nìghtshade Edìts• that’s the goal every time. To connect to amazing people like you. Glad you felt it friend. Much love 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier well you definitely hit it! Thankyou😊
This song hit a lot of points in me. All the things in the chorus is something ive all thought about a lot of times. And always something ive held myself against. Cause of the feeling of not being good enough to live up to others expectations or never reaching the goals ive wanted to hit. Both family and love is not easy for me because of this
So glad you felt it. So hard to feel this way. You're not alone.
This is exactly how i feel alot of times. I try and try my best to make a better life for myself, my kids, some of my family, trying to have a better relationship with someone who wants me, and will love me uncondtionally, without judgement. Im a very openminded woman, creative, like to be different and try new things. Ive had bad telationships throughout my life. Have been a sidepiece to men which doesnt feel good at all. Not anymore though. I put my foot down about that. I also wont be the other woman in a relationship. When im with someone i tend to stay faithful and committed. Im not perfect though, ive cheated in the past on boyfriends but that was when i was younger. Thats not who i am now. Ive been depressed and sad lately. Just not happy in my current situation. Im not going to get into that, ive gotten to the point that ive started to almost feel numb, like my life doesnt matter, or my feelings.
Some say these sorts of songs that sing about this sort of things are depressing... BUT I find these songs uplifting and full of hope, just knowing someone else knows how you feel, that you are not alone.. Thank you for such brilliant and beautiful songs x
This band is so heavily underappreciated. I love them. So much. Near every song I can relate, just like millions of others. I just cannot get enough, and I don't believe I ever will. They are amazing! I swear this is now my new favorite band. Thank you. 🖤💙🖤
Appreciate you so much friend
Citizen Soldier you are definitely not mediocre. Just finished listening to e every song and you have more talent than any of the garbage at TH-cam top trending. You will definitely be big one day.
Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻
This is a true fact and has ( somewhat) come true
@@CitizenSoldierthere is no band better then you you are better then imagine dragons and bts
This song is so amazing. It made me feel like what people say I am. Which I’m glad about that. I LOVE THIS SONG!
My number 1 favorite.
So happy you love it and relate to it 🖤
I write stories, your guy's music is awesome inspiration
Meizawesomez so glad to hear that. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?
@@CitizenSoldier no, at least not all of it yet. But slowly I am.
Man I found this band a week ago. Love every song. You guys should be viral!
Glad you found us Karli 🖤
War and battle isn't just about guns and blood. Some of us are fighting emotional battles that we can't explain or make sense of. And some of us have PTSD because of it. I am my own soldier. And these songs help me relate, and everyone else who fighting relate. Thank you so much for your words and your music. I don't know how to speak or explain the thoughts that are going through my head to the poeple I love, and these songs have helped, by playing them for someone in hopes that they can better understand us. Thank you so much. Bless you.
"I never asked to be like this"
"A grave mistake you can't forgive"
"A filthy stain oh what a shame"
"Can you just wash me away?"
This whole song hits hella close to home but especially this part hit me so damn hard.
🖤
Guys, you deserve more fans and views 😭❤️
Thanks Melody! Please share our music and that will make it happen 🙏🖤
Never thought id find the song the shows how i feel right now thank you
This song is really speaking to me
I have felt like this all my life trying to not lose hope I love your music and it gives me hope to fight another day
So glad it helps friend. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
"I'd rather die tonight, than let you down one more time." Exactly what I've been trying to convey to people, I honestly am trying my best. Don't think they see though... 😔
Jesus dude, this band really knows how to tear your guts out and kick em around on the floor. These songs are too relatable.
I also hear that pent up rage toward the end and I'd love to hear them let loose and let it all explode at least once. It would be a release for me to hear something not only relatable but to get that explosive release of rage and pain.
We hear you 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier you guys are great, not only musically, but you connect with your fan base. That's something not many successful people do, and your fans appreciate it.
Favorite song from you guys. Keep up the amazing work. I’m a pretty big fan of you guys ❤️
Star Boy that means the world to us. Thank you. Appreciate you 🖤🤘🏻
I just found you guys and I'm already in love with the music. I write stories to help me, but then there's times I can't think of the words to describe my emotions and you guys are either mind readers to understand how most people feel.
It’s all from the heart friend. Glad you found us 🖤🙏🏻
This and "I'm Not Ok" pretty much perfectly sum up my mental state in less than 4 minutes