I Don’t Know Why I Still Post Videos.. ✩Speedpaint✩

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  • @anomicsly5854
    @anomicsly5854 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +228

    I've been watching you since middle school and its cool to see you still posting when I'm in uni now

    • @지선-t6r
      @지선-t6r 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

      Same 🥹

    • @dawrushesin
      @dawrushesin 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

      Same! I started watching when I was 12 and now I go to art school!

    • @Puppygirll
      @Puppygirll 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Me too!!! such a safespace

    • @Quarmacy
      @Quarmacy 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Exact same boat. Still use FireAlpaca, too!

    • @l.s2717
      @l.s2717 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      me too!! my first time ever doing digital art was with her firealpaca videos LOLL

  • @Rinspiritart
    @Rinspiritart 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +32

    Ahh i am more of a lurker but I remember watching your videos about 8 years ago when I first started to learn about Firealpaca! I think it was your How to Animate on FireAlpaca video~ Definitely inspired me a lot to branch out to other programs to learn them! I just wanted to say thank you for posting and sharing your stories and your art with us! I love listening to you ramble and draw your OCs!! Hearing you talk about your OCs and just giving them a lot of love is just so lovely to see! So even if you aren't consistent or wonder why do post these videos. I can say with full confidence that you inspired a lot of people and I am sure that you will continue to do so as well! Thank you for rambling your thoughts about all of this! 🍀
    PS. I also relate a lot about the overthinking and being anxious or nervous to reach out to other artists or even just interacting with them. Its scary but people are nicer than you think too! 🥹😭🍀

  • @skarpantre
    @skarpantre 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +44

    It's amazing how many people learned digital art starting with you and still are here like me

  • @AceTrainerKatie64
    @AceTrainerKatie64 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +47

    oh boy if this isn't the biggest mood. making content bc you want to is amazing. once it becomes you have to then something in my brain just goes "nuh uh" and next thing you know you're replacing aspiring with defunct in front of content creator in your social bios lmaooo. honestly you're really amazing for pushing through. it's the people like that who end up making it and inspire the next gen of creators

  • @praireroseforever
    @praireroseforever 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +61

    You're the reason I love making art!! Thank you so much for making videos in the first place!!

    • @LeslieLuMarie
      @LeslieLuMarie  3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

      you’re so sweet thank you!! i’m glad i could inspire someone to like making art hehe

  • @kassiny2
    @kassiny2 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I feel you. I too don't like opening up to people I know, including closest ones. It's so much easier with anonymouses who will never ever meet me or anyone I know personally.

  • @magnetichomeboy1805
    @magnetichomeboy1805 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    Please do what's best for you and your mental health! I've been watching you since I was 13, I'm 21 now and you've inspired me so much throughout the years. Whatever you do next in life, I'll always be grateful for your videos! (Also the journaling thing is so real, everytime I start I'm like "this is so cringe" and I have to stop lmao)

  • @지선-t6r
    @지선-t6r 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +35

    you've been my favorite (art) youtuber ever since 2016🥹 you inspired me sososos much!! whatever you decide on doing, me and many others will always be glad to see you post ^___^!!

    • @지선-t6r
      @지선-t6r 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

      Also I really miss owlsnest!!

    • @LeslieLuMarie
      @LeslieLuMarie  3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      @@지선-t6rthank youu!! and hahaha never thought someone could miss that series lolol maybe i’ll try something similar to it. 🤍

    • @monstai5632
      @monstai5632 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      @@LeslieLuMarie Owlsnest was my favorite content

  • @filipmacak7893
    @filipmacak7893 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I just came here to say that you got me into art 8 years ago. In the fire alpaca days, with my little Wacom tablet. I learned to draw eyes, line art, colors, basically everything from you. So yeah, thank you for that.

  • @Lasagna_Garfield_
    @Lasagna_Garfield_ 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    I followed you when I was around 20, in pushing 30 now 😭 thanks for everything, your vids inspired me to make art too

  • @fromandromedawithlove934
    @fromandromedawithlove934 6 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    you're so right about the changes in youtube, I actually sought out this channel because I missed simpler art youtube times.

  • @TriplxIce
    @TriplxIce 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    what helped me over the years when I feel like this (obviously I'm not a big creator or channel or anything) to just try and separate myself from the pressure that I or any other external factors set upon myself. What helped me was to just let go, and only make content or whatever when I got an idea that I thought would be fun. So it's just like, I don't know Try to find videos that you would enjoy making.
    Disregarding if it's gonna do good or not, like when you make the video and you watch it back, That you would tell yourself, man I made such a good video
    idk just an idea

  • @kennytime305
    @kennytime305 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    back in 2016 you were the sole reason I got a tablet and started digital art, and it’s pretty much the only thing I do to this day. i’m not sure if I ever would’ve gotten so passionate about it if I wasn’t obsessed with your videos, tumblr, and characters. i’ve been trying to make a career out of it but it’s harder than I thought. im starting my next “real job” tomorrow and have been really anxious and wanted to feel comforted, and I happened to see your upload and it feels like hanging out with a friend. thanks for posting still after all this time, every couple months I like to come back and binge all your videos and always have a good time ^__^

  • @Ashley-pj5zm
    @Ashley-pj5zm 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    If it means anything, I still enjoy seeing any uploads from you. Watched you religiously in middle school, and now I'm some years into college. You were a major factor in my art journey back in the day, man

  • @kee7374
    @kee7374 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I haven’t watched you in years around the same time I got depressed and stopped drawing. Then today I randomly got recommended this, the same time I started drawing again. I hope you can find joy in whatever you choose to do!

  • @canyyon247
    @canyyon247 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I've been watching you for years on and off. At this point whatever content you produce, it's just a comfort. Your calm manner of talking, the familiar art style and characters (Luka

  • @Jvooniprr
    @Jvooniprr 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    this is the realist video ive ever seen, i can be like this so much i dont no how to not be, thank u for makeing me feel lkie im not the only one in the world who is like this

  • @dreadthemadsmith
    @dreadthemadsmith 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    Wanting to share your work but being self conscious is the eternal torment of a creative type.

  • @elokibu
    @elokibu 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I've been subscribed to you since 2017-2018
    Always love your artwork

  • @coolcandies3051
    @coolcandies3051 16 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    i havent watched your videos in ages but i was looking through my old playlists and found all your old art tutorials i had saved, just really wanted to let you know that those kickstarted my digital art! i still use so many tips from back then, and you're literally the reason im curious about every art program feature nowadays. i used to watch those religiously! i still do the "colour everything blue to see if theres any holes in the base" thing!! i think about you so often yet somehow ive never sent a comment. thank you for helping out my 12 year old self :) now almost 10 years later idk where i would be if i hadnt seen your tutorials ❤

  • @FeelingWitchyArt
    @FeelingWitchyArt 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    100% I understand lol. I always wanted to be a TH-camr growing up so I posted videos, but it was super disheartening to not actually find an audience. Back in the day, I'm sure I would've had a better chance, but I'm not gonna try again lol. I've been watching you forever, and I'm always happy to see you still uploading. I love hearing you talk about your OCs and just anything haha

  • @kittyjosei
    @kittyjosei 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I don't even know you, but man, whata great video, it was so relatable hahaha , the over analysing, the over thinking, ASKING SORRY FOR NO ONE? LIKE WHO ARE YOU APOLOGIZINGGGG!!!!
    I really feel you, and tbh I would watch more videos like this one, if you feel like, post more!!!

    • @LeslieLuMarie
      @LeslieLuMarie  3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      yayyy someone who gets me lolol. thank so much! i could ramble for ages fr lol ill have to find another topic to rant about

  • @pariaayushi
    @pariaayushi 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    Wow! Time has flown, huh? It’s really been a while since I’ve last watch one of your vids but it always makes me smile whenever you post 😊 Keep making art (whenever you can) ^^

  • @damy_ien
    @damy_ien 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    i found your video about firealpaca like 8 years ago and got me a drawing tablet, youre the reason i started drawing digitally and that improved my art so much. thank you

  • @Nkanyiso_K
    @Nkanyiso_K 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Not all of us can be ProZD: he posts whatever he wants, whenever he wants. He's a voice actor & people love his sketches, but he wants to make videos about board games or reviews with his mom and he's never made a Thumbnail 😂 it's always an automatic screen shot from the video.
    I don't watch every video but I've been here a few years & I think these it was a good run. I appreciate that you made this

    • @LeslieLuMarie
      @LeslieLuMarie  3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      i don’t watch his stuff often but i follow him and he always looks like he just makes the content he wants haha and it’s cool pple are there for the ride. jenna marbles did the same if i remember lol her thumbnails were always generated by youtube. not many pple do that!

  • @Gamingpandacat
    @Gamingpandacat 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    its all about money + fame and we yearn for simpler times, I'm trying to gun for that time when I just did stuff because it was fun and that is so hard let me tell you, I'm constantly putting myself down because of no income from the things I do and pushing through that and making art for yourself is crushing in our current society

  • @nxcotined0ll175
    @nxcotined0ll175 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Dont feel pressured to stay on youtube if that isn't the right choice for you in the long run. But please know you've made such a big impact on youtube. Ive been watching you since I was 11-12, I'm 17 now. You introduced me and so many people to firealpaca. I've learned so much from you, truly you sparked my love for digital art. On a side note, I find your commentary so funny and your voice very calming. Truly you mean so much more then you think. I found this video because papaya popped into my head, and I immediately got so excited. Personally you've entertained and helped me through so much. Thank you so much for everything you've done.

  • @sammak9.0
    @sammak9.0 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You basically taught me digital art. I always look for your videos whenever I'm overwhelmed with all the tutorials. Thanks a lot for all the videos.

  • @Kationanionn
    @Kationanionn 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I have learned so much from your videos! Back then I was so afraid to even start drawing on FireAlpaca, but now I feel so comfortable drawing on any art program, so I'm really grateful that I found your channel :) !

  • @NickNitro
    @NickNitro 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I feel you man, I've been in the boat for a while. I keep having to reinvent my content & try new things.
    it's to the point where I'm taking longer breaks from youtube to work on an original video game, sometimes it's either time to hit the trail for your own well being or it's time to try something new that's not for your audience. but you! :D

  • @elysehess252
    @elysehess252 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    You don’t need to justify not posting, we totally get it ❤. You aren’t obligated to make something if it’s not enjoyable to you anymore. I still love your content but trust when we say we want the best for you

  • @kyeverbrite
    @kyeverbrite 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Your struggles are the exact same reason why I think I've just never actually brought myself to posting anything... I draw all the time and have dreamed about having a super cute channel for years now mostly just for fun, but I'm scared about family and people I know watching me -- it's like some kind of performance anxiety I think
    That, and the "gotta go big or go home" mentality, so many ideas mulled on for too long or never done because of it -- TH-cam is so big now, it feels like a competition every time
    I've been watching your channel for years and yes, I do remember your ASMR, especially the sticker tracing one ♥

  • @lezloart4597
    @lezloart4597 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    You can complain all you want! I'd still listen! (:

  • @citruss4676
    @citruss4676 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I never comment on youtube but I gotta say that I'm so thankful for your videos. You're the reason I started digital art and I was always so inspired by your OCs, stories and tutorials. Your style stood out so much from everyone else so I was always drawn into your videos above all the others at the time.
    Thank you for being the start of my digital art journey and I hope you do what makes you happiest going forward !! ^-^

  • @sashaarts5716
    @sashaarts5716 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I still enjoy watching your videos, even to this day. Your videos are very nice and chilling to watch with you talking about some stuff while drawing

  • @enter_boneman
    @enter_boneman 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    THE ASMR CHANNEL SHOUTOUT IS CRAZY!!!
    Lowkey I still listen to ASMR vids to go to sleep every single night and I got introduced to it solely because of you and I can't thank you enough

    • @LeslieLuMarie
      @LeslieLuMarie  3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@enter_boneman THATS CRAZY i never even thought I could introduce someone to ASMR ahahaha that’s amazing!!! Yeah same after I found it foreverrrr ago I listen to it almost every night to fall asleep. Like 99% of my nights lol. So yayy~🤍

  • @argentumargentum2851
    @argentumargentum2851 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Here since your firealpca tutorial days. You helped me a lot through a tough time esp when i was confined in a hospital. You're amazing! I

  • @amandastarfan
    @amandastarfan 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    i loved your owlsnest content and your asmr content !! you have such a nice voice that even these videos are relaxing to watch on their own :) i’ve been watching you for many years and you have been a consistent inspiration ❤️ i hope you take the time to improve your mental health and become happier because you deserve it ❤️❤️

  • @Ewaszczypior1
    @Ewaszczypior1 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I am one of the lurkers on this channel, where every so often I remember your name and binge-watch every video that has been released. And I can also kind of understand the TH-cam struggle, even if for me it was really short lived. Making videos just isn't for everyone, and it wasn't something for me. I loved doing it, I did enjoy editing, but knowing that there is a pressure to put out more stuff afterwards? It crushed me, and I had to mute comments because receiving "omg I am so waiting for the next video!!!" just stressed me. And in the meantime, you went on for 8 years, which is really impressive!
    I think it's not a bad thing to consider "if's" about TH-cam. You're probably not planning to be 50 and posting videos, so someday between that day and today you will probably stop. And if you're out of steam and energy, you can just go out on a high and close the TH-cam channel. You don't have to think about "oh, the audience will miss me", because it will just make you guilt yourself - we already got so much time with you, that we can reminiscence the past and keep the good memories.
    Do what your heart desires, you're not tied to anything forever. I'm glad you were a part of my childhood too, and I wish you the best with whatever you do in the future

  • @ukapuu
    @ukapuu 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    i would LOVE to watch you just tell stories!! i love your art a lot! i also really really love you and your personality ❤️ i've stuck around for at least 8 years because of you!!!!! i look forward to every upload no matter what it is 😊 if you wanna post something please do! people will watch it (not that it matters either way) and be happy to just see you !

  • @shitocodone8940
    @shitocodone8940 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I used to watch you when I was maybe 14 first learning to draw. For some reason you’re the only channel I get notifs for on TH-cam maybe due to how early I was subbed. I still watch every now and then still I’m 21. Do something out of ritual because you enjoy it. I do music for the same reason I don’t really post it anymore but haven’t stopped. If anything at my most active point. Just have fun . Have a good day.(to this day I still use fire alpaca entirely out of habit.)

  • @felsemheimer
    @felsemheimer 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I also tell people to not schade with black as a little tip, especially for Digital art. I also tell them to stay away from the air brush.
    Because, yes there are many great styles that shade with Black or with an Airbrush, those tend to be skilled artist that know what they doing. If you just start out its hard enough to make something half decent and not get discouraged. So I just tell them to stay away from it.
    So I do not think the Statement is totally wrong. It just needs an asterix attached, but then again, this is something you can say about everything in art

  • @RuthlessxNexus
    @RuthlessxNexus 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I used to watch your channel all the way back when I was just starting high school ten years ago. I didn’t know originally but when you started making videos, I wasn’t so sure what form of art I wanted to get into, but I knew I wanted to get into some form of art regardless. I went to college for graphic design, learned the ins and outs of art (Looking back at it, should have never gone to uni imo.), and I ended up getting my bachelors in Fine Arts in 2022. 2024 rolls around, I’m not able to do much of anything, but now I’m deciding to get back into art. I think, and I could be wrong, correct me if I’m wrong, but despite you not using krita, and using FireAlpaca, you were one of the few TH-camrs that got me into Krita as a form of art illustration. Crazy to think about, and I haven’t even touched Krita in over… 10 years I think? My only true opinion on the feelings that you have is this: everyone in their lives have their ups and downs in their journey, and tbh, a couple of thousand views is nothing to scoff at, that’s still pretty good. If anything Illustration for me is sort of the way to go because, I just love getting myself into that, logo design, etc., idk about UI/X, but there’s just things I’ve learned overtime that makes me think I’ve solidified myself into the world of art that makes me think “Oh yeah, it’s all coming together.”.

  • @thelingeringartist
    @thelingeringartist 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I feel like a lot of what you’re talking about is resonating with me as I’ve now started TH-cam (I’ve changed my icon but I’ve commented plenty on ur channel haha)
    I can’t really put into words a lot of how I felt about TH-cam currently but you did that well for me. It makes me kinda sad that we probably won’t?? Ever be able to experience an internet like back then ever again?? Or even earlier?? But recently there’s been a surge of ppl who have been wanting to make the internet feel more personalized via making their own websites and stuff… which is cool..
    I kind of started making videos personally cause I just love to rant about stuff. Especially my OCs. I don’t upload all the time or consistently tho cuz it’s not… necessary 😅 for me like but I wouldn’t call it a hobby for me either, it’s definitely something different than that. Aaah anyway thank you for making this vid!

  • @neekitsart
    @neekitsart 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I used to watch your channel a lot and I always really enjoyed your videos! I still very vividly remember your ocs and your art style and I recognized them whenever a video would pop up on my subscriber page, back when that was still a thing. I so deeply relate to the feeling that the easy and approachable TH-cam passed me by and the intense regret of letting anxiety get in the way of good opportunities when I was younger. The fact that you got on TH-cam and made content at all, and got an audience that knows your style and your OCs is so valuable in and of itself. I think it's more than enough to be proud of. And I very much used to have this same kind of social fear. It never went away, necessarily, but I met some people I've really connected with and the fear is so much less intense since I've let them get to know me. I was very lucky to find them though. It's brave and very cool of you to make this kind of video, and I hope whatever you end up doing next, whether its on this channel or not, feels fun and comfortable the way the channel used to for you. I believe in things getting better over time, and I'll be excited to see what you end up doing if you come across my home page again. Best wishes and good luck! P.S. Luka is still such a cool OC design

  • @jayplaays3194
    @jayplaays3194 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Your coloring techniques had me start my art journey. The first ever video I watched was how you shadow. I did moved on to another artstyles but your art has been a huge part of my srt journey. I was like in highschool and now I am in college when I first watched you.
    This video is such a mood, I also have a lot of things I wanna rant at least you got to took it out. haha

  • @farbeneath6581
    @farbeneath6581 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    It sounds like you are going through a lot mentally. It’s okay, take things one day at a time, find some goals you want to work towards (learning to talk to people irl, caring less about what people think about you etc) and work on them slowly one by one. Challenge yourself in little ways and it will snow ball into bigger things. You’ll start to enjoy things again if you learn what you care about and who you are. I’ve been doing this myself and it’s not easy but it helps a lot!!
    I’ve been watching you since 2017
    Love you!

  • @meltedshrimp
    @meltedshrimp 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    you were literally my biggest inspiration when i first started digital art back in middle school, and i definitely wouldn't be the artist i am without you! i started using firealpaca because of all the tutorials you made, i took lots of inspiration from your style and color choice, and heck i even started getting invested in making OCs because of luca and papaya! it's really good to still see you around :)

  • @crispytyph
    @crispytyph 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    please tell the mountain lion story if you still want to 🙏

  • @darkartexorcist
    @darkartexorcist 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    ngl I did miss your asmr stuff, it was cozy in the same way your owlsnest videos were. you were one of my biggest inspirations for starting my own art channel and was the reason I almost started an asmr channel till I chickened out lmao. it's been fun watching just how much you've grown over the 8 years I've been watching and I'm glad you still post on the odd occasion. alot of people seems to be burned out of youtube for the same reasons as you so you aren't alone in these feelings, youtube has changed and probably not for the best, too much pressure to create very high quality content (the pressure is why I stopped posting and I'm barely a youtuber lmao). doesn't matter how your audience feels just do whats best for yourself. I've seen a few people people go back to making similar content to what youtube used to be like so don't worry about what youtube wants you to make and just do what you'd like.
    we like you for who you are not what the algorithm wants you to be. thank you for making videos💖

  • @saffy-14
    @saffy-14 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    oh may god rip

  • @TheRealArtDoctor
    @TheRealArtDoctor 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I've been seeing your videos since late middle school. If you do decide to stop, id be ok with but id be really sad. But you do you gurl. Ur not just living the moment, you are the moment. I think maybe still having a channel could be good to release stress and just rant whenever you want. Maybe give your OCS a story or something. Just have fun.

  • @NKC228
    @NKC228 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I think videos every 3+ months is pretty fine. Like an occasional life/art update. I've been watching you for around 5 years or more now and enjoyed all your little rambles and art.
    I think personality > art in general, it is what makes watching TH-cam videos more fun :p

  • @ragu1319
    @ragu1319 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Just wanted to say thank you for posting your art. Always loved your energy, and you really inspired me to make my own ocs and draw :D

  • @ladytanyeta4687
    @ladytanyeta4687 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Goodness I've been watching your videos for a good four years now. I remember when you wished me well after I had my surgery 🫧

  • @canjica_
    @canjica_ 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I feel you so much, Even though I don't make videos I have a close friend who struggles with anxiety that is became so much worse when he started making yt videos. I hope you find your passion again even if it means an indetermined hiatus. Take care

  • @creation9224
    @creation9224 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Been watching ya since the firealpaca days cause of you my art had improved over the years so thanks but its fine if your an introvert do what makes you happy.

  • @evilpanda27
    @evilpanda27 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    oh wow. I havent logged into this account in a long time and I instantly got hit with nostalgia when I saw your video. I actually learned how to draw through your videos when I was maybe in middle school and I still apply the techniques I learned from you till this day. I am a 3D artist now. Thank you for being part of my beginning

  • @SpinnyBrinny
    @SpinnyBrinny 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    i havent seen your videos on the home page in ages! i wathed your videos when i was little, and you gave me so much inspiration! I named my cat after one of your OCs, Papaya

  • @TrebiAylo
    @TrebiAylo 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I remember I first joined ur channel bc of the oc color swap of papaya and Luca and it inspired me to actually make art and my own OCS. I remember listening to the all about Luca videos as I was drawing my own bc it made me feel less alone listening to another artist. Your videos were very important to baby artist me, even now on occasion I find myself coming back.
    Your videos always bring in a feeling of being able to relate because they're not polished and perfect like every other video on TH-cam now. Id call it one of your channels biggest strengths. And I'd say if I'm still coming back to listen to you as I draw 8 years later because of that relatability regardless of video topic, then you're doing something right.

  • @hunniluka
    @hunniluka 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    i started watching you in middle school and im a college student now. you were actually the reason i chose to try out digital art! you're such an inspiration to me and so many other people. thank you so much for your content

  • @aaroma_
    @aaroma_ 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I honestly relate a lot to what you're saying, I struggle a lot at networking in my own art/creations/niche and it's so hARRRDDD I envy people who're just good at it naturally,, I don't know if it's the anxiety or the "performing" that I dislike, it feels so fake and this has been an issue forever with me .😔😔
    But I think this relatable feeling I have is why I've always found your videos entertaining, it feels like a conversation with a friend, whatever the topic is, even if it's not related to the current art or video that you're drawing, it's fun to listen to!
    So I want to thank you for keeping somewhat regular uploads haha
    I still enjoy them a lot
    The eternal struggle of wanting to be up to date with the youtube tm and having your own little thing where you can ramble......

  • @MafiaRen88
    @MafiaRen88 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    Maybe try changing contents? Mixing it up 🫶 love your videos ❤

  • @MariAnimates
    @MariAnimates 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I've watched you since middle school, you got me into digital art. I used your tutorials to figure out how to do it. I'm glad that you're still going, but if you decide to stop that's okay too! Just know we love you

  • @mxchael_the_edamame
    @mxchael_the_edamame 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I'm 23. I started watching your videos around freshman year of high school. Your videos helped me get started with making digital art and helped shape me into the artist I am today. I appreciate your dedication to posting videos, even though TH-cam has an absolutely awful algorithm when it comes to artists.

  • @Puppygirll
    @Puppygirll 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Dont force yourself to do anything youre not happy with! I wish you the best and all the strength you need to find joy in life.

  • @trigger_core
    @trigger_core 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Hey uhmm, you literally helped me so much with firealpaca to the point where i cant use any other software (this is a veiled compliment) I'd love the hear that mountain lion story cause WHAT??? I'm from aus but we don't have god dam big cats running around, holy shit!

  • @furuyawn
    @furuyawn 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    i think something that contributes to that feeling of not wanting to post stuff if it won't get attention even if it were to make you happy just to post it - at least in my case - is the feeling that if it doesn't get as much attention as something else you've posted then it means your happiness doesn't actually matter to other people. even though that's not true and it's more just a matter of the algorithm deciding how relatable/applicable your post is to a wider audience, it's still a difficult feeling to fight off. 🥲
    i hope that whether you keep posting for the sake of posting or take time to focus on finding other stuff that truly does make you happy without the pressure of feeling obligated to do it, you'll be content with your decision.

  • @steffy23456
    @steffy23456 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I love this beautiful and positive comment section so I feel the urge to contribute.
    When I first started watching your art videos I was 14 and starting high school. I ate up your videos of old art showcases and digital art tips as if they were the world fanciest dishes. You were genuinely one of my biggest inspirations back then. Right now, I'm in my last year of bachelor's and still love art, still love OCs. And I thank you for that. Please take any rest you need and do what you feel is best. I and, from what I have seen, many others will understand

  • @Vampyrjellyfish
    @Vampyrjellyfish 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I've been watching you since I was pretty young, It makes me happy you still post because it's been a constant in my life when so many things haven't been. You influenced my digital art so much and I admire you so much for being open about stuff

  • @syringegutz
    @syringegutz 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I've said it before but I've followed you since your Haikyuu comic days and you have always stood out as one of my favorite artists. I got invested in your ocs (more than my own for years), and many of your art habits have now become my art habits. I remember being sad when you started posting less because your videos always interested me. Sometimes I still rewatch the glow tutorial because it makes me smile and picks me up when I'm feeling down. Hell, I watched all of Owl's Nest, your ASMR (even though I'm not a fan of ASMR in general), and I've tried to always show you support because you are so talented. Watching this made me cry a bit, as it felt like over these past 10 years you have let your followers into your life. I always write notes to myself whenever drawing because you do, I copy your eyebrows, and I sincerely love what you create. I'm but a stranger online, however I think what you do is so cool and it's inspired me and continues to inspire me. I hope you can one day be vulnerable and open up, and I relate to a lot of what you said. I know the pain from my own perspective, and I really really wish you nothing but happiness. Thank you for allowing us to see you and I hope we can keep seeing you around, even if it is once every few months, I'm more than satisfied with that.

  • @tuffigk8235
    @tuffigk8235 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    i knew of digital painting but it was You who introduced me to How to digital painting. Still use firealpaca :)

  • @jaytab304
    @jaytab304 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    ive always loved your videos, i think i found you when i was NINE and now im in my senior year of highschool, you inspired me so much when i was younger and still do! ill always love your content.

  • @glass-halo
    @glass-halo 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Honestly I've been watching you since I was like 13 and keeping up with your videos is still awesome. It's cool to see you grow and become your own person idk. Even if you don't post consistently idc I love your videos and it's refreshing to hear someone just ramble unscripted C:

  • @stargazes7181
    @stargazes7181 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I've been following since 2017 and loved watching your ocs videos, tutorials, and speedpaints! ^^ I've learned a lot just by watching your videos when I was younger and I'm really appreciative that I got to watch you and your art grow on your channel! 💖

  • @crescentrose3549
    @crescentrose3549 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I’ve been watching since around 2014/2015 or since I was in early high school. You motivated me to draw digitally and made me want to be a TH-camr for a long time( I still want to be). Even if you only post every 4 months I’d watch (if it would come in my frickin subscription box TH-cam🙄) because I really like your art, voice and old TH-cam vibes. Anyway I think therapy is good because the things you talked about I relate to a lot and now I’m in therapy and my life has improved a lot (it’s not perfect and I still haven’t hit every goal and stuff but it would have taken me YEARS to get this far without it). Push through the fears and see what will happen cause just biting the bullet and living with social anxiety or anxiety in general with no professional help is no way to live. ( also I would love to edit a video for you even if just for practice since I kinda enjoy it and want more practice)

  • @jacrispy7386
    @jacrispy7386 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I’ve been watching you since I was 12,I’m turning 21 this November and you were the one who helped me and inspired me to switch from traditional to digital art, so I think you definitely should keep going🫵🏼

  • @monstai5632
    @monstai5632 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you for sharing. It seems like you're very self aware of your situation and surroundings. From what you told it feels like you enjoy a lot of what youtube was for you, but the expectations give you anxiety. TH-cam equals success to a lot of people, a lot more content creators take it very seriously, and I think the simplicity of a community and sharing what you love is what draws you into making content. Nowadays theres a lot more expectations on what the next step for your channel should be, the standard grows higher through the years, and thats hard to keep up with. I'd like to reassure you that it is okay to not be overproduced, theres worth in the content you make, even if it isn't "the super bombastic original entertaining exclsuive content!!". I'm drawn to your personality and authenticity of your content, it's personal and human. I always watch your life updates, to see how you've grown in art through the years (I love to see how you shade btw). I'm sure theres a lot of your audience that loves that too. People crave humanity, specially now more than ever. Expectations are scary, but I'm sure you can rekindle your hobbies and find pleasure in things again. If you ever wish to go to therapy again I hope it helps you heal all of these things you feel stuck on

  • @Ty.ehe.r
    @Ty.ehe.r 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I always like hearing from u cuz u inspired me to get into digital art back in like 2018. I also relate to your social anxiety and lack of motivation and I hope u will go to a professional for help like u mentioned in the video (I need too as well lol)

  • @lezloart4597
    @lezloart4597 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Always loved your videos! I haven't had time to sit down and watch TH-cam much for quite awhile, I remember when I was younger thinking 'omg another Leslie that loves art!' Because my name is Leslie also, but I hope you're able to find your motivation again! If there's one thing I understand, it's anxiety and mental health problems.. they take a toll on us. Take care of yourself Leslie!

  • @Kat-oj8sl
    @Kat-oj8sl 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I usually dont comment on stuff like ever but i really feel the need to say that i really deeply appreciate you talking about this kind of thing. Im the Exact same way when it comes to being shy and just incapable of handling a lot of things and missing opportunities because of it, and its so nice to hear about someone who experiences the same things! Not only that but i just wanted to tell you that i, as well as so many others of your fans im sure, would watch absolutely anything youd put out. Ive been with you on this journey since i began as an artist years ago watching your tutorials and fumbling through art right along with you. I love your candidness and the way you forgo writing a script, it really makes me feel like im just listening to a friend ramble while i draw which is deeply comforting. I really hope you continue making videos, about art about your life about anything or nothing at all, whatever inspires you. But even if you dont, i hope you know thats okay too! We love you and we’re here for you 🧡

  • @meowsclemilk
    @meowsclemilk 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Always going to support any video you make!!! ❤ thank you for keeping in touch! Always going to support what makes you happy!!!

  • @Kim-sr5xs
    @Kim-sr5xs 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I watched you a LOT, I found you so randomly on youtube and exactly when I needed to. I loved your stories whilst drawing videos and used to draw with you whilst listening to your rants. You helped me with so much as I was going through something similar and it helped to know someone else was going through some stuff. I care a lot!! Whatever you decide to do with the art and your channel, just know you did help and I cared about everything. I dont have many friends, and the few I do have done really do anything arty, so it was nice to feel like I was sitting and drawing along side someone.
    At the end of the day, you need to do what makes you happy!

  • @aurelateraku8963
    @aurelateraku8963 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I love this girl soooo much, love uuuu

  • @twizzle_r7317
    @twizzle_r7317 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    your videos made me beg my parents to get a little wacom intuos tablet of my own and start drawing digitally ONLY on firealpaca

    • @twizzle_r7317
      @twizzle_r7317 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ..and for reference,. one of my first ever ocs was a demon boy named "lucy". so yeah if that tells you anything LMAO

  • @setsunakitsuna6537
    @setsunakitsuna6537 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Leslie your content is amazing!! I feel so bad that you feel obligated to post instead of having fun with it!! Hopefully in the future you’ll get to a point where you can just have fun positing again! I love your videos and I hope in the near future you can just do something nice and silly and have fun doing it!!! 🥹💖

  • @deitycore
    @deitycore 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I’m honestly rlly glad that I found your channel, I’ve been watching and following you on other social media since I was in high school and your art inspired me a lot with my own art (and still does)!

  • @CreativaArtly
    @CreativaArtly 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I’ve been watching you what feels like forever. Love you LesLu.

  • @anxieturt
    @anxieturt 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    off topic but is that the game grumps font on the thumbnail
    edit after finishing the video: my advice is to have a list of bullet points of main things you wanna talk about so you don’t go too off track! so you won’t be really having a script, but you can still hit on topics you want to talk about.

  • @liathespecter6260
    @liathespecter6260 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I love watching you upload simply to see updates on your life and characters!! You can post literally anything and I'll watch it

  • @slowspectre9612
    @slowspectre9612 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    OH MY GOD I HAVENT SEEN YOUR CHANNEL IN A HOT MINUTE

  • @occultcatart
    @occultcatart 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    hey, i don't know if this is any help, especially since i see this 3 days later, but i often check on your channel because i used to watch you a lot and it inspired me to really care about my ocs

  • @ikindoflikemangoes4951
    @ikindoflikemangoes4951 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Omg I was like 14 when I started watching you, I'm turning 22 tomorrow 💀💀

  • @pidge1700
    @pidge1700 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Been watching since I was like 14 I'm 22 now hahah

  • @naegiplush
    @naegiplush 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    i enjoyed the video ^0^

  • @wodyweaf
    @wodyweaf 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I hope you understand how unbelievably real this is, coming from someone who got a moderate amount of attention online when they were younger

  • @Acrimonious_Snake
    @Acrimonious_Snake 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    It's a process of observing your artistic self. Like looking in a mirror 🤷🏽

  • @Acrimonious_Snake
    @Acrimonious_Snake 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I think you're just subconsciously looking for people to be on the same spiritual vibe with you, but when you don't find that, you lose interest and close yourself off.

  • @Timegirls3301
    @Timegirls3301 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    But I love your videos ❤

  • @felsemheimer
    @felsemheimer 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I'm telling you who's watching this. People who want to do art with something in the background. Highly produced stuff demands too much attention visually