I never wanted to be alone, I just didn't like being around toxic people. I will never be whole, alone. I have witnessed true beauty, but I couldn't taste it. I keep going purely on hope, hope that I can make things go right.
I had this type of moment yesterday. I was just driving going 80 on a 55 thinking about all the stress and constant pressure that’s been thrown on me by parents and people alike. I don’t have time to hang out with friends and I’m always trying to make my dad feel proud of me. I want him to say I love you without me doing anything or saying I love you fist. I’ve been counting and it’s been 2 years since he said I Love You with out me doing anything.
People saying to have a “poker face” ALL THE TIME and not showing emotion is completely bull. it leads to loneliness ur not seen as comforting or warm, just some cold guy that u can’t have a conversation with.
its that same feeling as waking up at 1am, youre tired but cant get yourself to sleep you got something, or rather someone in your mind you think about them you think if theyre real you question yourself "do i deserve this?" you feel like you dont you wanna text them but youre afraid they dont like texting you and you wonder yet again do i deserve this? is this real? can i trust this? no matter how many times no matter how many times you have proof you deserve it if the world has been telling you something and randomly at some point in your life youre told otherwise by someone will you believe it? you look at yourself in the mirror you agree to the world, as much as you didnt want to you feel like youre never enough at the slightest hint of disappointment you think they hate you but deep down you know its not that, at least you wanna believe it isnt but in the end, you just dont know, and just cant trust it either. and you live with that till the day it's proven the contrary comes.
I was never scared to care about to love someone. Theres a price if i do that. Youll get hurt. I chose to be alone not that im scared. I dont want to be hurt anymore and lose someone i care about
How did you have that much cars..? is it private map or server ? and how to put cars in private ? i can't have cars by looking tutorials, it's not working
I feel alone right now ngl I have a gf who stresses me tf out Like is she cheating or not? And people at school and on my football team with me just f--k me up And my past man Just everything hurts I feel more alone than ever rn and I'm not alone I'm confused
I enjoy company, but I don't want negativity to where it's a problem. I want to be loved, but not to where it's overdone and gives off red flags on being with you. I'm easygoing, but I don't want boring things to come into my life. Is it difficult to be accepted, but not to where I look desperate?
We Sometimes Think We Want To Disappear, But All We Really Want Is To Be Found
Real
True.
Yes, but I'm not found yet
So true 😂
R E A L
I never wanted to be alone, I just didn't like being around toxic people.
I will never be whole, alone.
I have witnessed true beauty, but I couldn't taste it.
I keep going purely on hope, hope that I can make things go right.
Ain't nobody gonna talk about how amazing this video was? Ya'll just talking about the mods or shi. Damn bro, this is a masterpiece!
@@XB_HaidyX thank you broo♥️🙏🏽🙏🏽
It hits crazy different when you become so alone after a long time you try to fit in and TH-cam gives you this !!
I had this type of moment yesterday. I was just driving going 80 on a 55 thinking about all the stress and constant pressure that’s been thrown on me by parents and people alike. I don’t have time to hang out with friends and I’m always trying to make my dad feel proud of me. I want him to say I love you without me doing anything or saying I love you fist. I’ve been counting and it’s been 2 years since he said I Love You with out me doing anything.
I love my daughters Rochelle and Sarah
@ great parent
You watching Berserk or J^P^N Gates music video on the car screen either way nice touch 🤌🏼
The only thing I won,
"is Being alone".
i really needed that space i been pushin people away way too much recently thank you brother
Got 2 utube accnts. 1 for music & 1 for entertainment.
This account is awesome. Combining: music, visuals, podcasts & inspiration.
Keep at it my dawg
@@gabrielfigueroa2618 I appreciate hope everything will go in your favor in the future keep working hard🫶🏽
You know if you start watching these you are one of the one% people that can change the world
People saying to have a “poker face” ALL THE TIME and not showing emotion is completely bull. it leads to loneliness ur not seen as comforting or warm, just some cold guy that u can’t have a conversation with.
the issue is when you are so accustomed to extreme emotion it becomes near impossible to show any emotion, thats the cruel part about life
@@n0vaplayer293this is the wording I couldn't find, thank you.
its that same feeling as waking up at 1am, youre tired but cant get yourself to sleep
you got something, or rather someone in your mind
you think about them
you think if theyre real
you question yourself "do i deserve this?"
you feel like you dont
you wanna text them
but youre afraid they dont like texting you
and you wonder yet again
do i deserve this? is this real? can i trust this?
no matter how many times
no matter how many times you have proof you deserve it
if the world has been telling you something
and randomly at some point in your life youre told otherwise by someone
will you believe it?
you look at yourself in the mirror
you agree to the world, as much as you didnt want to
you feel like youre never enough
at the slightest hint of disappointment
you think they hate you
but deep down you know its not that, at least you wanna believe it isnt
but in the end, you just dont know, and just cant trust it either.
and you live with that till the day it's proven the contrary comes.
I was never scared to care about to love someone. Theres a price if i do that. Youll get hurt. I chose to be alone not that im scared. I dont want to be hurt anymore and lose someone i care about
Berserk on the carplay is W
alone with alot of money is better than having friends with little money
REAL MAN I DONT HAVE NO FRIENDS NO ONE AND YES IT HURTS 🥲
Guess who won the "i love you more" game?
I want to go out like this
YO ITS THEO, YOU KNOW WHAT A BEE DO?!?!
so fucking real
yo thats my car i didnt even realize! this was very real bro very real
Now I need that immersiveness bro like how do you do that bro? Im talking about how the drivers head moves with the car i need it
real.
yo can you teach me how can i make my game like that?
learn yourself bro trust me it is more fun.
What song
link to voice line?
its theovaughn just look up the only thing i was was being alone and the original clip will most likely pop up
@@Billgatespanther on.soundcloud.com/Xes4uxFczWcqe8Qq8
@@Wiinter_Jay ty
✌️
cool vid
Guide griifith screen
Do you use reshade for your shaders and video quality? If so could you send me what settings you use for the gameplay?
💙
i need your presets homie !!
Dropped a sub.
Hey can I ask what the original audio to this is? I want to make my own version of this but with a different game in the background.
@@OCE-Winter._RL on.soundcloud.com/1vfjQFqHqQgSbGrC7
@@OCE-Winter._RL use SoundCloud mp3 to download the audio
@@Wiinter_Jay you’re the goat man, earned yourself another loyal sub!
@@OCE-Winter._RL thank you so much 🙏🏽
Background music?
Which BMW is this, the M340i? or the M3?
where can i get the lighting?
I regret having spoken
How did you have that much cars..? is it private map or server ? and how to put cars in private ? i can't have cars by looking tutorials, it's not working
bro how do u get the neck settings like that
I feel alone right now ngl
I have a gf who stresses me tf out
Like is she cheating or not?
And people at school and on my football team with me just f--k me up
And my past man
Just everything hurts I feel more alone than ever rn and I'm not alone
I'm confused
How do you get the youtube to load on android auto? It's just infinite loading for me. Good cuts fr
i know its been 3 months, but sadly its broken, ive searched for fixes and tried plenty and i havent got it working.
@@OverZealous429 Dang thats a shame
audio name?
Me arrepiento de haber hablado
For now.
WHATS THE LINK FOR THE CAR CAN YOU LEAVE IT IN THE COMMENTS
assettocorsamods.io/cars/street+race/bmw_335i_e92_2010_single_turbo_prvvy/
how are you making your vids in 4k?
is this a mod on assetto corsa? how do I get it?
neck fx?
acstuff.ru/s/EVfb3Z
@@Wiinter_Jay thank you!
song?
Scheming, ace savage
What game is this?
I enjoy company, but I don't want negativity to where it's a problem.
I want to be loved, but not to where it's overdone and gives off red flags on being with you.
I'm easygoing, but I don't want boring things to come into my life.
Is it difficult to be accepted, but not to where I look desperate?
Sllep ytu adnh adnm bhf yuate rty mzh fgr oulyyt byg d1 x db hgjkl cyauyt امغره سمريه زا عقل معده منوعه ذخان
Another teaching from someone who don't understand anything.
cring
ur jus young bro, youll understand sometime
@@kaidroc says the one that can't spell
@@jacobsong6199 "cring" you forgot the e so i guess where even
@@kaidroc *we're
@@jacobsong6199 1-2
Song?
Scheming, ace savage