I have been saying for a long time that the reason so many people are so messed up is due to going through a phase of depression... and instead of seeing in through they turn to meds... and live with an unresolved issue for the rest of their life... in a drone like state of comfort and numbness.... All while filling the pockets of pharma.
I like the thumbnail, Jean Delville is one of my favorite artists, especially the darker occult stuff. I really don't like the AI thumbnails they affect how I view the videos to be honest
I am a 19 yo guy from a third world country, I have to tell your channel is a blessing man. I have learnt alot and became a better person ever since stumbling upon your channel. Never stop posting videos and thanks alot!
I'm a bit older than you, but same here. This and other philosophy channels have introduced me to topics I've never knew I'd be interested in. The term "Self exploration" always seemed like nonsense to me until I started learning about the phylosophy of Carl Jung, Nietszche, Schopenhauer, And the sages of antiquity
I remember Jim Carrey quoting another person that the word "depressed" can mean "deep rest" - deep rest from the persona that we present to the world but is not our true authentic self. Sometimes depression is a signal that we are out of alignment with our inner self.
@@thec0untess It is because it doesn’t take into account wether or not there is actually a distinct inner and a distinct outer self. This is where philosophy NEEDS science. You can make up any philosophical concept you want to but if it doesn’t fit the evidence…..
@@cda6590The way out comes from within. Hell confines you through fear and illusion. The way out is the process of faith and facing your fear. When I was in my own Hell, living was a constant torture, and I could not imagine anything worse, no matter how much I tried. Even the idea of being physically tortured by another person couldn't invoke the possibility of making me more miserable.
As someone who did, my favorite quote of all time is from Albert Camus' book summer - "It was in the midst of winter, that I found within me an invincible summer."
You must never have had depression if you think it's an uplifting phenomenon. I assure you, as someone who has dealt with it for lost of my life, it is not.
My father passed away at the age of 75 last month. He had been bedridden for a few years leading up to his death. I thought that once he passed, the pain of letting him go would be easier than losing him all together. It wasn't. My father was my hero, my protector, and the one man who loved me unconditionally. He is a man who will be truly and forever missed by me. I am in a depressed state of mind. I have been here before but tried to drink and smoke (p@t) my way out of it. Today, I let myself feel the hurt that needs to be felt. It ebbs and flows, but, regardless, I FEEL it! I cry, I sit with myself, and I let myself understand that I have experienced one of the greatest losses I will ever feel in my life. It is huge to me, and I should respect it.
Grief is the most intense emotion a human can experience. I am too grieving the loss of my mom and i never thought i could feel so much pain. It hurts our soul, our body, our mind. It's hard.
As someone who lost his father at age 73 after a long, bed-ridden, illness in which he had multiple amputation surgeries. First it was his toe, then it was his toes, then his leg above the knee, then the other leg. Not to mention the dialysis-ridden diabetes he had, and the three heart attacks, the latter in which what finally took his life. At first I was relieved for him to be relieved of his suffering. But having my wife leave me 4 months before I lost my Dad (who I was caring for 5 days a week) and then my Grandma (his mom) exact two weeks after my Dad, well, I've been deeply depressed ever since. So you are not alone in your suffering. Nor are you alone in your hope. Hold on to the latter. There are many of us out there with similar life experiences. Through it all I know one thing God is good.
Allow yourself to feel it, despite how much it hurts. Your father still lives within you and permeates the invisible Life energy that makes up all of the world ❤
This video came at the right time lol . Im currently in a mental battle trying to fight off my old self. Its been a VERY tough battle these past days but I wont give up .
@@IDoThings490 appreciate the advice. I’m just trying to be consistent in being my natural self without going back to my old self but it's been hard. I just have a hard time people-pleasing, going back to negative friends, and relationships. The root issue is honestly not being loved and accepted when I was younger. Idk why im venting but I think it's the right time to lol. I grew up in an environment where I had to be someone I wasn't to fit in. Being smart, and having intellectual conversations wasn't accepted and looked upon as cool. I grew up in low-income housing Community ( the hood ) & they would praise the kid thats doing bad & accept the kid that funny so I had to become that kid. Like I mention, I always wanted to be accepted and loved and I would fill that hole by having friends and being in relationships but im tired of it. I want to honestly be my natural true self. I have seen visions of my true self & know exactly who he is … Im just ready for this fight to be over with. This is the loneliest I have ever been in my life. Changed my number, deactivated my Instagram, and just started to be by myself. It's a depressed feeling of being alone & it's uncomfortable. There’s One quote that has pushed me through these dark times.…. “To get to heaven, you have to go through hell “. Sorry if my grammar is bad lol, Im currently at the library and been meditating for a couple of minutes. I guess I needed to let this out.
No one will know the cost of this battle but yourself, I can only wish you good luck and know that there is someone who wishes you strength, take care of yourself.
This resonates with me so much. My whole life I have fought major depression. Recently I decided to "give up" fighting and just be depressed, and paradoxically I found relief in that action.
Take all your suffering- sorrows, pains, losses, fears, misery and the miseries of the world, and use them. They’re all vehicles for awakening. Each birth is precious and useful, a gift and a blessing. ~Ram Dass
There is an aspect of depression not addressed....some of it can be physiological. I had an underlying gum disease that led to low grade fevers, lethargy and impotence. Curing that, my outlook improved. Sugar, junk food, being out of shape can also cause a physical depression that no amount of therepy and or antidepressants can affect. If you had severe trauma, or family history is one thing, but also look for physical reason, which can be ameliorated physically.
@@di3486 yes but existential depression can be triggered by an underlying physiological cause, so this persons comment makes a very relevant point about the connection between physical health and mental health. They were just adding some nuance this video was missing, this channel has actually covered this topic in other videos though.
I have all of this severe trauma comlexe ptsd with a leaky gut problems 😂😂 Growing up in a like war environment made me this creature now!! Isolated for 9 months lost everything Or should i say i never had anything really i fought this demons since i was a kid and searched for an exit but people used me and made it worse !! Thank god i have lived all of this to know truly what it means that only our creator is the one to save us !! But first you need to save yourself or delete yourself !! I wish I’ll be dead soon even if everything becomes better and happier I’m done of this s.
I think trying to put a single cause to something like depression is always fruitless. You have to look to at every aspect of your life, it doesn’t seem to ever be just “this is the single reason I’m depressed”.
This aligns perfectly with my experience. Lifelong suicidal depression that culminated in personal and spiritual growth that I never expected. Never imagined possible. I had to face the darkness with no deceit or distraction. A lonely and painful process, the truth as merciless as it is necessary. It very nearly killed me. Yet now I feel so grateful to have suffered all of this that I laugh and cry in joy about it all. Academy of Ideas, your team is brilliant. Truly exceptional. You all have my gratitude and love. ❤
Depression is like a roaring wave: you either embrace it and ride it out or work against it and sink to the bottom, but even at the bottom, you can find your way back to the surface. There’s a spark of optimism there
I think this explains the all to common scenario where a man breaks up with his significant other, and through the depression caused by that relationship he comes out a better person over the coming years. You are put into a position where you have to dig down into your subconscious for gold.
Depression makes you realise what you don’t want in life (negativity). And after recovering, one’s mental health will be better than a person who hasn’t experienced depression because it’s a universal law that blessing is doubled after being tested
What if i told you that i felt this way but i relapsed in another episode Many episodes theought the past 10 years In total of them 4 years in isolation And diagnosed bipolar ! But it’s worst than that and i don’t take medication it’s all about environment family childhood and betrayal from loved once and of course all of this leads you to having nothing for yourself cause you lived to please others and in fear and traumatised you can achieve 0 goals in life and it makes more joyful 😂😂.
Very true in my life. Some yrs ago I was battling depression and anxiety.. it became hard to laugh to eat, sleep.. i would stay awake and start my day and battle with depression with no rest. Those were some difficult days man.. it came to the point where I asked my self, either I move or stay here and die.I ended a relationship where I wasnt happy , I went back to my familys roots back home for the first time in my life it was beautiful.. I got to spend Soo much time with my grandparents I got to learn so much from them we were able to have a beautiful relationship together. I received love from family that only knew me from pictures. I traveled my home country. I got to know a new part of my self , it was amazing beautiful, I would go threw the hell just to relive that again,sad to say my grandparents have passed , but I'm grateful that I went thew that, I would have never done it by my own accord.
You don't know what other people are experiencing. There are different kinds of depression and different levels of depression. You may as well give the same advice to someone with schizophrenia, "just don't let it consume you, that's how you beat it."
This means so much to me. I'm 40 and have struggled with depression since I was a teenager. But now I'm confronting it and have been since the pandemic, and no longer see it as a bad thing.
Working my way thru a divorce after 14-years. Easily the most isolating and depressive state I’ve ever experienced. This video was incredibly encouraging in all the isolation and darkness. Thank you.
Ever heard the 80s hit “Saved By Zero” by The Fixx? This is what they were singing about. Being saved by hitting rock bottom and having nothing left to lose and lifting up from there.
Been feeling bad for 10 years and I have to say that there is nothing positive about it. It makes you bitter towards life and people and turns your heart into a stone.
@@IN-FactoryI think the Bible means that suffering is more useful than laughter. As the video explains accurately, one can overcome their adversity once they face their suffering head on. Grace out of sorrow is increasingly rare, but a cause for grateful laughter just the same.
@@IN-FactoryBrother, a rock that hardens and hardens becomes brittle, and can be shattered easier. Underneath the rocky exterior is fullness of love. Contemplate your situation, are you making it worse than it is, how is being negative helping it, what steps are there to be taken? After that, just focus on your breath, keep coming back to it, let the mind do it's thing, but keep coming back to the breath. Do this daily and you will be able to sort out your issues, or at least approach them in an impersonal manner.
Depends on the level of depression, some times it’s so extreme with anxiety and insomnia and ocd rumination that it seems very hard to see anything positive in it when you feel agitated and sui cidal
So true! …the extreme anxiety and insomnia is the most torturous form of depression… there is no break, at all. The relentlessness of it is terrifying, depleting, consuming, to the point of wanting it all to end. The medical world tries to force sleep, force numbing and drag you back up to some kind of dull but stable state. The fortunate ones this will not work for. The key is, to discover the lie, that the black hole is just a hole. There are tunnels!…that when faced, crawled through… away from the old and false light, truth is gradually, gradually discovered! Rising into new light and back down repeatedly, making progress… through. The body needs support physically and a glimmer within and the most amazing journey can begin. With Truth at the heart.
OCD is a condition that is on a whole other level than depression and is analogous to being terrified of light switches rather than being terrified of dying alone, never getting married, etc. etc. As much as depression *can* be caused by a chemical imbalance, it isn't a sufficient condition; whereas OCD is definitively a faulty reaction of the brain. There are definitely times in certain people's lives where they just have to "toughen through it to the other side even if it's alone," but OCD isn't one of them. So if you're the person you are describing in this comment, please do not feel bad by conflating yourself with the audience of this video, who may simply need to overcome an existential crisis, and yourself. With that said, I was born with another neurological condition that has a high comorbidity rate with OCD and have thus known more than a handful of folks with OCD. Some of them, not agoraphobic in the slightest, found themselves unable to leave their houses for nearly a decade. One of them today is a bestselling author and travels the English-speaking world and the other is college-educated and happily married.
Very hard to see, but no less positive. I would actually argue that the worse the depression, the greater the potential for growth from it. Journal out your thoughts, introspect without any distractions.
Brilliant, I went through a 3+ year MDD. Imagine your worst FLU: no energy, no light, and it does not go away. On the other side, life is full of joy. I would not trade this for anything.
Reading through the comments, so many young people enduring hardships. For anyone reading this, the video presented here is very insightful and will be worth referring to for years to come. Save it or create a playlist specifically for this kind of viewing material.
What should i do I've been suffering from chronic depression, ADHD, severe anxiety attacks, panic attacks from the time covid started i went to a pyschiatrist he prescribed me sertraline oloft which is itself a drug that is very difficult to taper or leave as I've tried several times to stop taking those pills i have taken them for almost 5 years till today just switched from sertraline to venflaxine and im so done with life these pills make my every emotion numbed I'm still so young & i dont know what to do with life I'm turning 22 this year. The withdrawal symptoms are worst then anxiety attacks and depression. I don't know what to do man the doctors are of no help they just want their medicine to be sold. I've digged alot into this and the root cause analysis of depression and anxiety is not due to the low level of serotonin in brain but the brain getting adjusted to that addition of serotonin (by pills) that it certainly stops producing itself which causes the symptoms to explode I've tried tappering hyperbolically too I've had insanse thoughts of suicide recently had a breakup life's been a mess for me man it's hard alot hard. Hope you would understand of what I'm going through there's just so many things that i would want to say but aaaaaughh the suffering won't stop.
It fees like a higher force showed me this video at the exact right moment. I have been struggling with a very dark depression ever since I moved countries but this gave me an understanding of the purpose behind it. Thank you so much for making this video!
It's been five years. Five years of intense psychological pain. I've been alone during this time. Not a soul knows about my inner strife. There have been times when the pain felt as though it was ripping apart my soul. Intense arrows of pain would shoot into my throat and chest. Only one thing kept me going. I said to myself, "I want to understand my pain". And I just listened. Whatever thoughts, images, emotions came up - I gave them all a silent hearing. As I kept listening to them, two lessons bubbled up. One, I am worthy because of who I am, not what I do or how much I own. Two, I am capable of infinite love. The journey isn't over. I'm still learning. The pain still comes up. But I am peaceful in pain. I have learned to accept it totally.
This channel gives much insight to help understand oneself and our human experiences. For me, life's difficulties has brought much pain. For a long time, I used to avoid processing the pain because that feels even more painful , causes tears to flow and my head to ache and often made me sleepless. But it is through walking thro that dark valley of acknowledging the things done to me, and my immature reactions, and letting go things as I understand them, that healing slowly begins. And the Scriptures have been my solace in that process. At first nothing I read made sense. I looked for spiritual fast food. A word to make me feel ok in the moment, but the next moment I'm reeling under a wave of fear. But as I persevered and the depression raged (many years now), I got quieter on the outside, and my heart started dwelling in the Scriptures, looking at it, turning them over and over, and I must say a certain stillness has come to the raging and striving. And it says in Galations, that if the inheritance(good things?) is of the Law (my understanding, my work and striving), then it is no longer of promise, but God gave it to Abraham by promise. So God does the work, we give Him our trust, and in that way we aid Him in the process.
Dabrowski has a similar theory called positive disintegration, they highlight, overexcited, tendencies, or sensitivities… In progressing ones growth, it’s shedding the old layers and merging into ones most authentic self. Anyway, I’m progressing along the path of positive disintegration, but not without the help of JUNG, of course.
CRYING from the depths of the depression is the key to unlocking depression. It just NEEDS to grieve. One could relate it to deep sea pearl diving, pressure going down, decompression coming up “ slowly “ with pearls.
I had my first-ever session with my new therapist today. She asked me this exact question: what is the meaning of your depression? I couldn’t answer, but I felt the question land. It felt like a knot of simultaneous truths. It might haven taken me weeks to put it to words, but as it happens I came across this. This explanation was the knot’s loose end for me. This is the way through. Thank you.
This is one of the best videos on TH-cam I have seen in a while. You give such an in depth analysis from a psychoanalyst point of view and your explanations go far deeper than most ‘psychology’ TH-cam channels out there. I’m going through a dark night of the soul and your video has given me some peace to know that I can make it through and given me the courage to explore my own inner darkness to find my own treasures! Thank you!!! New sub!
Ive been in a void, a mental wilderness, a mild form of depression for 4 and half years now ~ all i can say is that it is impossible to see the way out, there are no new revelations, everything is just grey and boring, in essence everything becomes nothing, and the only light that stays lit is the everlasting faith and hope that endures forever. As it is written, these three remain, faith, hope and love.
_I have tested you in the furnace of affliction_ Imagine living a life without any agonizing, oppressive sort of condition or experience. What stories would you have to share with the world? What resiliences and insights would you be able to wield? What inspiration would you arouse in those who look to your example? While you may skip through life like a well thrown, slick stone, you’ll fail to penetrate the surface of reality, venture down into the darkness, and leave a radiant, resounding ripple from whence you sank.
This would only make sense to those who have hit bottom. When I went through harrowing depression I couldn't believe I made it through! I made it to the other side! I now see this as a process-and I am grateful 🙏
Sobriety greets us with the cold reality that pain and suffering constitute life, most substances and distraction act as a warm numbing agent to the truth of being. To accomplish anything in life requires sacrifice and struggle, yet we innoculate ourselves to forget the hard truths we all must bear to achieve success in any long meaningful endeavour. If you wish to feel good find something worth struggling for, otherwise relinquish yourself to mediocrity, half-assery, inebriation, and self espoused illusion. Find joy, solace, and freedom in meaningful pain, and liberate your mind from perceived dependence on the myriad distractions. The struggle never ends until you draw your last breath. Sober up, suck it up, and move on to find your path of personal virtue, reiterate this mantra and believe you can overcome the obstacles ahead.
One of your best episodes ever. I almost teared up at so many moments. This will be a great reminded next time i find myself in a depressive state. I love and appreciate depth and now i will look at suffering and depression through a new lens instead of resisting
I remember when i was much younger, i used to understand the utility of pain and its perception as it is the single factor that unites every phenomenon in life under the most significant relevance of all, since there is no more important question than of pain, whether somethings brings me pain or lessens it. Specifically, i noticed the same lesson that fellow who ran a business 8 months after his depression in this video mentioned, that once you've experienced the worst of the worst, everything seems easier in comparison and thus works in your favor as fear no longer blinds and restricts you. Aside from mere benefits of comparative perspectives, i also derived more technical benefits: perspective comes from contrast. As the saying goes, you don't know what you have until you lose it. That's because when perceiving a situation antithetical to the one before, i.e. having something then not having something, usually of high implicit value, you're now able to imagine both scenario X and anti-X, and see where the differences lie, thus seeing both individually. Without anti-X, you wouldn't be able to see X, just as how without a left, you wouldn't have a right. It's a bit abstract, but if i had to use an analogous concept, it's probably similar to triangulation in a sense, deducing the precise and valid location of a concept from two independent sources of data. And often times, i would notice that finding out this anti- perspective would be accompanied with pain. I lost my girlfriend because she cheated on me, but sifting through my past, i could see now my precise traits that rationally link to this break up: i had been boring and neglectful as a partner. Knowing this, i can change and move forward. Pain teaches. That is what i learned, just as what this video is getting at but deeper. So the natural optimal utilization of this is to seek pain everywhere every second. However, along the way, i'd gotten lost and forgotten or neglected this lesson of mine, and started allowing myself to indulge in expedient pleasures which shifted my perspectives and values to more local, fleeting ones. I started playing games, binging youtube, spending frivolously on drinks and snacks more often. I'd even forgotten my entire meaning for life: the deep satisfaction and excitement from learning the most important things in life, i.e. those pertaining to pain. I'd cushioned my routine so much that i nigh completely forgotten what pain felt like and how to derive from it an X and anti-X deduction again. Having about to graduate high school, hopefully i can pick up this lesson again and return myself on the right track. Maybe that should start by closing my phone and going to sleep as it is 1 am right now...
You sound so much older and very much more experienced than a high school graduate to be. You must have unfathomable potential. I hope you will make the best and the most of it. You certainly have a talent for writing.
@@victoryamartin9773 ah why thank you, I know plenty of people legitimately smarter than me and I always have the default assumption that I'm stupid and clueless. Truth be told, i believe I was much smarter 10 years ago than I am now - not wiser perhaps but certainly smarter. But I appreciate the kind compliment. I hope I can utilize this potential as well as you'd hoped, hopefully further beyond even.
Thank you for the video. Each time I watch your videos it feels like I'm improving my understanding of being and this world. It's a therapy session of its own.
I just lost my grandma, and my mom just lost her only remaining parent. It has been so hard the last week, but I'm trying to let it make me better and stronger
Great timing as always! Being 19 and experiencing the psychological hell for almost 4 years now. I am so glad dwelling on these type of videos and it really helps more than a lot! As I struggle to tell anyone, even my closest families and friends what I have been really feeling down there. Truly, one must delve deeper into their soul and find out what must rather be accepted than to be fixed. Really, no one wants to stay in the same place for the rest of their lives, the world out there is big and there is much to see. Thank you please keep making more videos!
I was severaly depressed for at least 2.5 years and this video describes what i went through. I had to become creative and i had to destroy the biggest concepts i have ever imagined. I now am grateful for having unlocking my brains potential
It’s time you started digging into Rudolf Steiner’s ideas on every subject matter. You’re bringing up. This is a fantastic service to mankind you’re doing.
a great topic for a future video would be how to break free from self sabotage. AOI did a video on it years ago but I think it would be worth revisiting or doing a follow up video. Like why we self sabotage, how to recognize we're doing it, and how anxiety and low self-esteem can be contributing factors. With social media influencers we see it on full display a lot, people enjoy watching it and even cheer it on and/or encourage it. I think it's a bigger problem than we'd like to acknowledge, and almost everyone does it whether they know they're doing it or not.
Today I was driving my bike on my way home from work and I realized that I don't feel sad or depressed as I used felt like 5 years ago. I know that I change a lot during that time, but if you ask me what changed and why I don't feel these kind of feelings anymore I can't tell you exactly. There is a lot of things that I want to improve I'm myself and in my life, I'm working for it, slowly but steady. I'm 26 yo.
I agree with the thesis of this video and take it further into all sorts of negative incidents. I like to call it, Evil's Silver Lining. In my life, injuries, conflicts and depression have been very helpful in accelerating my personal growth. I've learned that taking time to ask the divine consciousness within my heart, "Why has this difficulty emerged?" "What is the lesson?" Surely we can follow our hearts to navigate life most perfectly, however, when we fail to follow the middle path of the heart a good kick in the ass can help us to find our way back to the straight and narrow. One of Jung's associates revealed that he believed in a divine inner consciousness, what I call the Superconscious-Soul. However, he rarely mentioned it and never wrote about it. During his life the inner divine soul was discarded from psychology. This was needed to allow psychology to sit at the table of materialistic science. In spite of that, more recently, materialism is being overturned to place consciousness at the foundation of reality. Even the pioneer of silicon microprocessors, Federico Faggin has become a supporter of a consciousness based reality. Videos featuring his personal transformation can be found on TH-cam.
I will always be adamant that my 1.5 year long depression was the most important & best thing to ever happen to me. This is not to diminish the damage of depression, sadly a young man, whom I didn't know, who my friends worked with didn't make it out. But if you can endure your souls cry for help it will change you into someone you never thought you could be. Its a long struggle, but stay strong
Today, i couldn't not get out of bed, i was swarmed with the feeling of totally hopeless, meaningless like i have no power to overcome it in anyways, i was contemplating of taking my own life god forgive me. I am so grateful for these video it has given me a great perspective to look at.
This episode is quite profound. I have to ask the following questions. How do I as an individual discover the purpose of my depression. How long does this search last. During that search, how do i retain my sanity. Any and all answers would be greatly appreciated. Thank you and stay blessed...
I agree that an episode of depression can lead to self transformation, but I disagree that those who experience it should aim to hit rock bottom. For some people, rock bottom means death (suicide). One should instead seek to interrupt it, which can be done in different ways. This is where an existential or cognitive behavioral approach can help. By monitoring our thoughts and preventing the negative thought spirals that prolong conditions such as depression, we can prevent it from getting worse/bouncing back from it faster.
The video adequately addresses your disagreements, so I suggest that you view it again with more discernment and with much dissection . Good luck to you especially where that is concerned.
@@classygary It accurately represents my reaction to viewing the video. I suggest that you reread my comment with the same discernment and dissection that you suggest.
@@classygaryThat is exactly what he did. Disagreeing with a specific point of view doesn't mean he was unable to comprehend what is being said in the video. In fact, I'm certain the author would not want to suppress any thoughts that challenge his own. Seems to me this author would welcome thoughtful dialogue.
Yeah you shouldn't make your life worse on purpose just to hit actual rock bottom. If you already notice you are near rock bottom that is enough, the fact that one is aware that there is a problem and there needs to be change in your life is the first step. I think the message was more like "don't run from your thoughts, don't hide from the depression, go into the depths of your psyche and explore it" I don't think they necessarily were talking about actual rock bottom, but more like the depths of your psyche. If you just run from your problems you just turn into an alcoholic or drug user so it's probably better to allow yourself to feel the pain and process it.
Depression and Self-Transformation: The concept of depression as a catalyst for self-transformation is both profound and deeply resonant. The Academy of Ideas’ exploration of this topic sheds light on the often overlooked potential within periods of intense emotional struggle. Depression, while commonly perceived as a debilitating condition, can also serve as a powerful impetus for profound personal growth and change. In the throes of depression, one might feel ensnared in a labyrinth of despair, but this very experience can compel a deeper introspection and reevaluation of life’s direction. It is in these dark moments that the seeds of transformation are sown. As we confront our innermost fears and sorrows, we are presented with the opportunity to forge a new path, one that is more aligned with our authentic selves. The journey through depression is not one to be undertaken alone. It is a path that calls for support, understanding, and compassion from others. Yet, it is also a deeply personal voyage that requires one to face the shadows within. By embracing the pain, rather than fleeing from it, we can emerge on the other side with a renewed sense of purpose and vitality. The Academy of Ideas’ video serves as a reminder that our darkest moments can lead to the greatest awakenings. It encourages viewers to look beyond the surface of suffering and to recognize the transformative power that lies within the heart of depression. This perspective is not only enlightening but also offers a beacon of hope to those who may be navigating the turbulent waters of their own psyche. In conclusion, depression can indeed facilitate self-transformation. It challenges us to break free from the shackles of our former selves and to step into the light of a new dawn. With each step forward, we can transform our pain into wisdom, our struggles into strength, and our experiences into the very fabric of our growth. This is the essence of the human spirit - the relentless pursuit of becoming more than we were yesterday.
Depression is the feeling, but the goal is growth and learning. You can be depressed and not learn, just as you dont have to be depressed to learn, but the depression may be the effect of deep learning where much of a person must be burned off. This does not make the thing go away, but it does call attention to it, and the depression may come back if its not rectified. The goal has and always will be to know what part of you is good and keepable, and what must be discarded.
Often we have no say in what life throws at us externally or internally. Depression can be inevitable, but it is okay to make the best out of the situation. Maybe one can be the alchemist who transmutes the depression into gold
Man your comment is absolutely brilliant. I'm gonna screen shot it to look at later to keep reminding me of why I struggle and challenge myself for self improvement. I'm gonna gold smith myself out of the depression! Haha what a positive way to look at it. This whole time I've looked at it from a negative angle and with extreme self doubt.
@@zebnemma im glad you found some value in these words. One can also start to doubt self-doubt. Doubt can work in two directions but i think people call that curiousity or coutious optimism.
I lost my hearing to a head injury at 22. i lost my fiancee,who i loved and loved me back. I did this exact work, at the recovery.. Its made me unstoppable. Im now a viltrumite, for lack of a better term, but i kind of misplaced my soul.
I wish I could have heard this message 10+ years ago when I was suicidal and felt like there was no hope for me. But even now I still struggle with depression. Not nearly as bad but more like down episodes and sometimes I feel fine too. This whole time I've struggled the most to just accept reality, that I will never get my old self back. But the message that I can transform into something better is something I never thought about. This whole time I felt like I was transforming into a worse version of myself, that depression has made me cynical and not able to trust. I felt like I was forever ruined. Yes I was a happy go lucky kid that turned into cynicism after depression. I'm basically the opposite now. But that's because I was severely naive and thus people took advantage of me for many years until I could not take it anymore. My ability to be more selective now with what people I give my trust to is something I did not have before the depression. So I guess it depends how you look at it. Good or bad? Both? I only could have stayed happy go lucky in a perfect world where people do not manipulate for selfish agendas. So my depression hit me at full force once my world view was shattered, I thought the world was good because I was good and I assumed people were like me. I did not know the concept of greed or manipulation back then. (struggles of being autistic with high morals)
If you're depressed; know that there are billion-dollar forces out there knowadays that are really REALLY trying to make you as confused and depressed as possible. It's all going as planned for certain people. The fact that so many smart people out there don't achknowledge that, is just...
So true! If hit rock bottom several times. I'm greatful for those dark days because now the success, happiness and living a great life tastes even better. Stay Uncommon!
This is a good theory for a therapist to know. As for use as self help for a depressed person, I'm not so sure. When you are depressed, you don't see the light at the end. I'm glad I was never told this when I was depressed. My courage apparently came from refusing to see it as just a meaningless, unfortunate happenstance (chemical imbalance b.s. etc.). I didn't ask what it meant, but I refused to accept it as meaningless.
From childhood we all form a "self" to get through life, as the world is so overwhelming. That self is a supportive structure but temporary, because life changes. At some point the self will constrict us and no longer suffice. Think of the hermit crab, who borrows a shell that fits perfectly. Until one day it doesn't, because he has grown. So he must leave the shell and be fully vulnerable until he can find a new fit.
For the past few years I occasionally get a video of yours recommended to me, I always finish watching them in complete focus, they are so interesting! Only some history channels manage to get me in a state like that. Thank you, also I never comment on videos so that should say something in and of itself haha
I think this is the best video I've seen on this channel, and given it's good content, that is saying a lot. Glad a buddy of mine recommended this channel and thought I'd find it interesting.
I really like certain aspects of stoicism but one thing that often stands out to me about it is that it kind of tells you to bury your head in the sand and deny the validity of a lot of human experiences that really help to fuel our success. Sure it’s not good to be overcome by self indulgent feelings like anger, jealousy, depression, etc., but I like the ideas in this video that while you don’t want to overdo something like depression, it exists for a reason and we should embrace it for the value it provides.
I have another word for depression where it leads to self misery but in the end you rise above: Climbing down the ladder upwards Self preservation, survival and fear, they are all the same thing. We live with them. I live with them. They are an instinct that made me survive. That made my ancestors survive. Bu it didn't help us thrive. When i look at people that seems to thrive, some of them really are in strong positions, acting like they are powerful, they don't even know what their weaknesses. But they know they are weak in some way but they can't admit it to their selves. From this fact, they act like they are really good at their business. So that they seem confident, without that leak they can't admit. And when i look upon me, I see myself as someone weak, not really knowing what he is doing. not confident enough. When i look upon myself, I see my vulnerabilities, I share them openly. Like I don't want people to think me as someone in a strong position? Why? When i look upon that behavior of myself, i see fear. Fear of knowing that when i get into a powerful state, there will people to challenge me, fairly and unfairly. When i get into competition, I know there will be people to hurt me. Because I've been hurt this way. When you were a kid back then and when you know too much in the class, other children often despise you. Even though you get a well done. When you pass the exam exceptionally, when you won the race, when you made something beautiful, when you express yourself in such a way that attracts people; often, there will be people to hate you. Because I was a high achiever and because I was doing all that with so less effort, some people actually despised me, started rumors about me. I even got into physical fights with them (I won the most of my figths too). I won't get into details of why they do that. But that is their own way of survival: removing the competition by eliminating others. All those experiences taught me one bad lesson: Don't show yourself. I've told myself if you show yourself too much, you will get into trouble. I put a part of myself in captivity. Ignored him and acted dumb. I actually played the fool, won't let people see my strengths. To preserve myself, I actually ran away from the things i am best at. Ran away from any competition. And what changed know? Well, it is hard to shut off your ears when someone is screaming inside. That voice always stand up strong in me. Even when i get into a lot of trouble and when i don't know what to do, that voice is always there, staying strong, confident and with full of wisdom. When i listen to it, I am almost like in an autonomous mode. People actually call this mode Flow state. One exception here was that I wasn't in flow, I was usually resisting to it. After seeing how helpful it can be, I started growing some trust in that side of me. That side of me started to be an escape way from my problems. Because it was solving my problems automatically. When I let my power to shine, all of sudden, everything was easier, clearer. So that trust in me led me here, writing and observing myself right now. I started as strong, some things made me withdrawn from my power, I choose to look weak. And now, that abondened part of me is coming back stronger than ever. The withdrawal of my power almost made turned it into something rare. Now, I know all the weak and strong and rare parts of me. When i talk with a confident person, I see what is really deep down there. Most of the time, they act powerful, they look at you and say thing, but only from their side. Their only power is seeing things as they want to see it. They see themselves powerful. They often don't know what to do in competition, because they never been in one. Their self oriented viewpoint makes poor strategies with others, because they often don't feel what others feel and want. And they only see positives in their selves and the negative in others. Almost like trying to cover up their negatives. Wow, I described a confident Narcissist! How rare are they? They are everywhere! What is in me right know is something entirely different from a confident narcissist. I know who I am! I know how to be powerful and how to be weak. Back then, I've been in many competitions, then stayed away from that for so long and put that side of me in prison. Now that side is coming back and I actually start to understand what all this is. All this is a game. And it is about playing the right move. Well, those confident Narcissist only play one move. Their weakness is they can't sacrifice anything of their power. They have no ability to change because they don't know how to be vulnerable. And I know how to be vulnerable, I actually played moves that made me vulnerable, I actually made my thoughts vulnerable to myself, such that i am open to any knowledge that can oppose my existing ideas. Well, there is a term for that too: being open minded. I actually climbed down the ladder upwards. While everybody was obsessed with going only upwards, I actually went into a process of going down and weakening myself and now, I am coming back stronger than ever. I feel like I finally started to find my missing piece. I actually started to not feel any fear about showing that side of me.
came just in a right time, 2am after a two-month descent into darkness. sharing this with my family and friends. depression is actually good for me, you see!
Pharmacueticals and other drugs just put off dealing with the depression. I decided to quit taking the drugs and a horrible onslaught of side effects followed. I thought death was near, I thought I really am crazy and this is probably a mental breakdown. Turns out I just needed to face my issues -not be treated with dangerous chemicals. Going through that period of hell will make the rest of my life a cake walk. Every day even bad days are great days.
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I have been saying for a long time that the reason so many people are so messed up is due to going through a phase of depression... and instead of seeing in through they turn to meds... and live with an unresolved issue for the rest of their life... in a drone like state of comfort and numbness.... All while filling the pockets of pharma.
@@psyoperatorWell said…❤
I like the thumbnail, Jean Delville is one of my favorite artists, especially the darker occult stuff. I really don't like the AI thumbnails they affect how I view the videos to be honest
Another great video.
The video was so good as broke as I am, I feel like I should support you. 😭🤣💯🇬🇧🇬🇧
I am a 19 yo guy from a third world country, I have to tell your channel is a blessing man. I have learnt alot and became a better person ever since stumbling upon your channel. Never stop posting videos and thanks alot!
I advise you to read more about Robert Adams. It's a well known secret of understanding life, which nobody follows
@@dobrenkijbog5156 sure, I will look into it.
Great! Kudos to you and your people, wherever you are!
I'm a bit older than you, but same here. This and other philosophy channels have introduced me to topics I've never knew I'd be interested in. The term "Self exploration" always seemed like nonsense to me until I started learning about the phylosophy of Carl Jung, Nietszche, Schopenhauer, And the sages of antiquity
“Third world” countries don’t exist. That’s only a way to enslave people’s minds. Such a derogatory term.
I remember Jim Carrey quoting another person that the word "depressed" can mean "deep rest" - deep rest from the persona that we present to the world but is not our true authentic self. Sometimes depression is a signal that we are out of alignment with our inner self.
a true depression with anhedonia is rare. What we call depression is largely DSM and drug company marketing
Compression is better to say than depression
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Idk I always thought that was lame
@@thec0untess It is because it doesn’t take into account wether or not there is actually a distinct inner and a distinct outer self. This is where philosophy NEEDS science. You can make up any philosophical concept you want to but if it doesn’t fit the evidence…..
The greatest moment in your life is when you realise that if you can endure hell, then you can endure anything else, including the way out.
That is, unless some asshole at the top severed the ties that had bound the rope leading to your own way out.
@@cda6590the fact that you realize that, means there was always a different way. No one else can stop it
@@cda6590 externalizing blame for an internal problem means you have yet to learn what you need to learn
@@cda6590The way out comes from within. Hell confines you through fear and illusion. The way out is the process of faith and facing your fear.
When I was in my own Hell, living was a constant torture, and I could not imagine anything worse, no matter how much I tried. Even the idea of being physically tortured by another person couldn't invoke the possibility of making me more miserable.
As someone who did, my favorite quote of all time is from Albert Camus' book summer - "It was in the midst of winter, that I found within me an invincible summer."
"Most people shoot for happiness but feel formed through suffering."
So true.
That last comment sticks with me too.
that comment says something about existence that is not pleasant. Happiness is secondary in life. Suffering is Life's true purpose.
It's inarguably resonant, couldn't deny it
Suffering is fire, a phoenix cannot rise from his own ash without being burned in the first place. Depression is like gas enhancing the fire.
The suffering is anomie
Anything which gives light must endure burning. Victor Frankl
It’s spelled Phoenix.
You must never have had depression if you think it's an uplifting phenomenon. I assure you, as someone who has dealt with it for lost of my life, it is not.
@@iExploder🤗 💪🏼❤️🔥💪🏼 I feel your pain…
My father passed away at the age of 75 last month. He had been bedridden for a few years leading up to his death. I thought that once he passed, the pain of letting him go would be easier than losing him all together. It wasn't. My father was my hero, my protector, and the one man who loved me unconditionally. He is a man who will be truly and forever missed by me.
I am in a depressed state of mind. I have been here before but tried to drink and smoke (p@t) my way out of it. Today, I let myself feel the hurt that needs to be felt. It ebbs and flows, but, regardless, I FEEL it! I cry, I sit with myself, and I let myself understand that I have experienced one of the greatest losses I will ever feel in my life. It is huge to me, and I should respect it.
Sorry for your loss. I dont believe we ever really let go. It takes time ... to learn how to live with it.
@@shellbells339 Thank you.
Grief is the most intense emotion a human can experience. I am too grieving the loss of my mom and i never thought i could feel so much pain. It hurts our soul, our body, our mind. It's hard.
As someone who lost his father at age 73 after a long, bed-ridden, illness in which he had multiple amputation surgeries. First it was his toe, then it was his toes, then his leg above the knee, then the other leg. Not to mention the dialysis-ridden diabetes he had, and the three heart attacks, the latter in which what finally took his life.
At first I was relieved for him to be relieved of his suffering. But having my wife leave me 4 months before I lost my Dad (who I was caring for 5 days a week) and then my Grandma (his mom) exact two weeks after my Dad, well, I've been deeply depressed ever since. So you are not alone in your suffering.
Nor are you alone in your hope. Hold on to the latter. There are many of us out there with similar life experiences. Through it all I know one thing
God is good.
Allow yourself to feel it, despite how much it hurts. Your father still lives within you and permeates the invisible Life energy that makes up all of the world ❤
This video came at the right time lol . Im currently in a mental battle trying to fight off my old self. Its been a VERY tough battle these past days but I wont give up .
Same I stumbled upon it and am mind blown 🤯 I feel the change wanting to come out and it’s time transform and grow
@@Shewhocreatesforhim many blessings on your journey 🙌🏿
Be who you naturally are, I don't suppressing a side of yourself will ever be fruitful
Yes brother! Right there w you we got this tho!
@@IDoThings490 appreciate the advice. I’m just trying to be consistent in being my natural self without going back to my old self but it's been hard. I just have a hard time people-pleasing, going back to negative friends, and relationships. The root issue is honestly not being loved and accepted when I was younger. Idk why im venting but I think it's the right time to lol.
I grew up in an environment where I had to be someone I wasn't to fit in. Being smart, and having intellectual conversations wasn't accepted and looked upon as cool. I grew up in low-income housing Community ( the hood ) & they would praise the kid thats doing bad & accept the kid that funny so I had to become that kid. Like I mention, I always wanted to be accepted and loved and I would fill that hole by having friends and being in relationships but im tired of it. I want to honestly be my natural true self. I have seen visions of my true self & know exactly who he is … Im just ready for this fight to be over with. This is the loneliest I have ever been in my life. Changed my number, deactivated my Instagram, and just started to be by myself. It's a depressed feeling of being alone & it's uncomfortable. There’s One quote that has pushed me through these dark times.…. “To get to heaven, you have to go through hell “. Sorry if my grammar is bad lol, Im currently at the library and been meditating for a couple of minutes. I guess I needed to let this out.
No one will know the cost of this battle but yourself, I can only wish you good luck and know that there is someone who wishes you strength, take care of yourself.
And the same to you! Thank you! And fight the good fight!❤❤❤
This resonates with me so much. My whole life I have fought major depression. Recently I decided to "give up" fighting and just be depressed, and paradoxically I found relief in that action.
Hey, whatever works 👍
That makes sense tbb
Take all your suffering- sorrows, pains, losses, fears, misery and the miseries of the world, and use them. They’re all vehicles for awakening. Each birth is precious and useful, a gift and a blessing.
~Ram Dass
There is an aspect of depression not addressed....some of it can be physiological. I had an underlying gum disease that led to low grade fevers, lethargy and impotence. Curing that, my outlook improved. Sugar, junk food, being out of shape can also cause a physical depression that no amount of therepy and or antidepressants can affect. If you had severe trauma, or family history is one thing, but also look for physical reason, which can be ameliorated physically.
Existential depression is very specific of this video.
@@di3486 yes but existential depression can be triggered by an underlying physiological cause, so this persons comment makes a very relevant point about the connection between physical health and mental health. They were just adding some nuance this video was missing, this channel has actually covered this topic in other videos though.
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I have all of this severe trauma comlexe ptsd with a leaky gut problems 😂😂
Growing up in a like war environment made me this creature now!!
Isolated for 9 months lost everything
Or should i say i never had anything really i fought this demons since i was a kid and searched for an exit but people used me and made it worse !!
Thank god i have lived all of this to know truly what it means that only our creator is the one to save us !!
But first you need to save yourself or delete yourself !!
I wish I’ll be dead soon even if everything becomes better and happier I’m done of this s.
I think trying to put a single cause to something like depression is always fruitless. You have to look to at every aspect of your life, it doesn’t seem to ever be just “this is the single reason I’m depressed”.
This aligns perfectly with my experience. Lifelong suicidal depression that culminated in personal and spiritual growth that I never expected. Never imagined possible. I had to face the darkness with no deceit or distraction. A lonely and painful process, the truth as merciless as it is necessary. It very nearly killed me. Yet now I feel so grateful to have suffered all of this that I laugh and cry in joy about it all.
Academy of Ideas, your team is brilliant. Truly exceptional. You all have my gratitude and love. ❤
What was the length of the journey if I can ask?
2-8 months? Longer?
What were your changes?
Depression is like a roaring wave: you either embrace it and ride it out or work against it and sink to the bottom, but even at the bottom, you can find your way back to the surface. There’s a spark of optimism there
I think this explains the all to common scenario where a man breaks up with his significant other, and through the depression caused by that relationship he comes out a better person over the coming years. You are put into a position where you have to dig down into your subconscious for gold.
Depression makes you realise what you don’t want in life (negativity). And after recovering, one’s mental health will be better than a person who hasn’t experienced depression because it’s a universal law that blessing is doubled after being tested
What if i told you that i felt this way but i relapsed in another episode
Many episodes theought the past 10 years
In total of them 4 years in isolation
And diagnosed bipolar !
But it’s worst than that and i don’t take medication it’s all about environment family childhood and betrayal from loved once and of course all of this leads you to having nothing for yourself cause you lived to please others and in fear and traumatised you can achieve 0 goals in life and it makes more joyful 😂😂.
Very true in my life. Some yrs ago I was battling depression and anxiety.. it became hard to laugh to eat, sleep.. i would stay awake and start my day and battle with depression with no rest. Those were some difficult days man.. it came to the point where I asked my self, either I move or stay here and die.I ended a relationship where I wasnt happy , I went back to my familys roots back home for the first time in my life it was beautiful.. I got to spend Soo much time with my grandparents I got to learn so much from them we were able to have a beautiful relationship together. I received love from family that only knew me from pictures. I traveled my home country. I got to know a new part of my self , it was amazing beautiful, I would go threw the hell just to relive that again,sad to say my grandparents have passed , but I'm grateful that I went thew that, I would have never done it by my own accord.
Right
There is always two sides to every coin. Not letting depression or any mental illness consume you is where the victory lies.
You don't know what other people are experiencing. There are different kinds of depression and different levels of depression. You may as well give the same advice to someone with schizophrenia, "just don't let it consume you, that's how you beat it."
This means so much to me. I'm 40 and have struggled with depression since I was a teenager. But now I'm confronting it and have been since the pandemic, and no longer see it as a bad thing.
Working my way thru a divorce after 14-years. Easily the most isolating and depressive state I’ve ever experienced. This video was incredibly encouraging in all the isolation and darkness. Thank you.
Ever heard the 80s hit “Saved By Zero” by The Fixx? This is what they were singing about. Being saved by hitting rock bottom and having nothing left to lose and lifting up from there.
Wow nice
Ecclesiastes 7:3 Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.
Been feeling bad for 10 years and I have to say that there is nothing positive about it. It makes you bitter towards life and people and turns your heart into a stone.
@@IN-FactoryI think the Bible means that suffering is more useful than laughter. As the video explains accurately, one can overcome their adversity once they face their suffering head on. Grace out of sorrow is increasingly rare, but a cause for grateful laughter just the same.
@@IN-FactoryBrother, a rock that hardens and hardens becomes brittle, and can be shattered easier. Underneath the rocky exterior is fullness of love.
Contemplate your situation, are you making it worse than it is, how is being negative helping it, what steps are there to be taken?
After that, just focus on your breath, keep coming back to it, let the mind do it's thing, but keep coming back to the breath.
Do this daily and you will be able to sort out your issues, or at least approach them in an impersonal manner.
this is the best channel on youtube
It is
Depression gave me my greatest power, introspection.
Depends on the level of depression, some times it’s so extreme with anxiety and insomnia and ocd rumination that it seems very hard to see anything positive in it when you feel agitated and sui cidal
So true! …the extreme anxiety and insomnia is the most torturous form of depression… there is no break, at all. The relentlessness of it is terrifying, depleting, consuming, to the point of wanting it all to end.
The medical world tries to force sleep, force numbing and drag you back up to some kind of dull but stable state.
The fortunate ones this will not work for.
The key is, to discover the lie, that the black hole is just a hole.
There are tunnels!…that when faced, crawled through… away from the old and false light, truth is gradually, gradually discovered!
Rising into new light and back down repeatedly, making progress… through.
The body needs support physically and a glimmer within and the most amazing journey can begin.
With Truth at the heart.
That’s very relatable and understandable and is addressed quite astutely in this video.
OCD is a condition that is on a whole other level than depression and is analogous to being terrified of light switches rather than being terrified of dying alone, never getting married, etc. etc. As much as depression *can* be caused by a chemical imbalance, it isn't a sufficient condition; whereas OCD is definitively a faulty reaction of the brain.
There are definitely times in certain people's lives where they just have to "toughen through it to the other side even if it's alone," but OCD isn't one of them.
So if you're the person you are describing in this comment, please do not feel bad by conflating yourself with the audience of this video, who may simply need to overcome an existential crisis, and yourself.
With that said, I was born with another neurological condition that has a high comorbidity rate with OCD and have thus known more than a handful of folks with OCD. Some of them, not agoraphobic in the slightest, found themselves unable to leave their houses for nearly a decade.
One of them today is a bestselling author and travels the English-speaking world and the other is college-educated and happily married.
I think ocd was meant hyperbolically. When your mind is ruminating compulsively, and it’s difficult to stop.
Very hard to see, but no less positive. I would actually argue that the worse the depression, the greater the potential for growth from it. Journal out your thoughts, introspect without any distractions.
Brilliant, I went through a 3+ year MDD. Imagine your worst FLU: no energy, no light, and it does not go away. On the other side, life is full of joy. I would not trade this for anything.
Reading through the comments, so many young people enduring hardships. For anyone reading this, the video presented here is very insightful and will be worth referring to for years to come.
Save it or create a playlist specifically for this kind of viewing material.
What should i do I've been suffering from chronic depression, ADHD, severe anxiety attacks, panic attacks from the time covid started i went to a pyschiatrist he prescribed me sertraline oloft which is itself a drug that is very difficult to taper or leave as I've tried several times to stop taking those pills i have taken them for almost 5 years till today just switched from sertraline to venflaxine and im so done with life these pills make my every emotion numbed I'm still so young & i dont know what to do with life I'm turning 22 this year. The withdrawal symptoms are worst then anxiety attacks and depression. I don't know what to do man the doctors are of no help they just want their medicine to be sold. I've digged alot into this and the root cause analysis of depression and anxiety is not due to the low level of serotonin in brain but the brain getting adjusted to that addition of serotonin (by pills) that it certainly stops producing itself which causes the symptoms to explode I've tried tappering hyperbolically too I've had insanse thoughts of suicide recently had a breakup life's been a mess for me man it's hard alot hard. Hope you would understand of what I'm going through there's just so many things that i would want to say but aaaaaughh the suffering won't stop.
We are the sacrifice made by the elders and the sick society that they complied for creating it in dystopian matter
Depression is stop finding meaning in life to the point that being alive or dead does not make any diference. Depression is living in hell.
Right?
Who thinks depression is good
Accept depression? Then we'll be dead
My worry with depression is when it gets so bad it truly is the call of the void.
Family, pets and friends help
Underrated channel, I have learned so much about my own life from this channel, and a lot about the world and how people think.
I couldn’t have said it better myself! Literally a blessing
It fees like a higher force showed me this video at the exact right moment.
I have been struggling with a very dark depression ever since I moved countries but this gave me an understanding of the purpose behind it. Thank you so much for making this video!
It's been five years. Five years of intense psychological pain. I've been alone during this time. Not a soul knows about my inner strife. There have been times when the pain felt as though it was ripping apart my soul. Intense arrows of pain would shoot into my throat and chest.
Only one thing kept me going. I said to myself, "I want to understand my pain". And I just listened. Whatever thoughts, images, emotions came up - I gave them all a silent hearing. As I kept listening to them, two lessons bubbled up. One, I am worthy because of who I am, not what I do or how much I own. Two, I am capable of infinite love.
The journey isn't over. I'm still learning. The pain still comes up. But I am peaceful in pain. I have learned to accept it totally.
Iosif Andriasov Quote: “A person’s will is worked on for many years and is expressed in overcoming harmful attachments.”
Thank you for making this. Some of us needed to hear this message today.
This channel gives much insight to help understand oneself and our human experiences.
For me, life's difficulties has brought much pain. For a long time, I used to avoid processing the pain because that feels even more painful , causes tears to flow and my head to ache and often made me sleepless.
But it is through walking thro that dark valley of acknowledging the things done to me, and my immature reactions, and letting go things as I understand them, that healing slowly begins.
And the Scriptures have been my solace in that process. At first nothing I read made sense. I looked for spiritual fast food. A word to make me feel ok in the moment, but the next moment I'm reeling under a wave of fear. But as I persevered and the depression raged (many years now), I got quieter on the outside, and my heart started dwelling in the Scriptures, looking at it, turning them over and over, and I must say a certain stillness has come to the raging and striving.
And it says in Galations, that if the inheritance(good things?) is of the Law (my understanding, my work and striving), then it is no longer of promise, but God gave it to Abraham by promise. So God does the work, we give Him our trust, and in that way we aid Him in the process.
I cried reading the end of it we should give our trust to our creator.
Dabrowski has a similar theory called positive disintegration, they highlight, overexcited, tendencies, or sensitivities… In progressing ones growth, it’s shedding the old layers and merging into ones most authentic self. Anyway, I’m progressing along the path of positive disintegration, but not without the help of JUNG, of course.
CRYING from the depths of the depression is the key to unlocking depression. It just NEEDS to grieve. One could relate it to deep sea pearl diving, pressure going down, decompression coming up “ slowly “ with pearls.
depression --> Insomnia --> Survive that shit = reconstruct your DNA --> rebirth of a new corporeal body...
I had my first-ever session with my new therapist today. She asked me this exact question: what is the meaning of your depression?
I couldn’t answer, but I felt the question land. It felt like a knot of simultaneous truths. It might haven taken me weeks to put it to words, but as it happens I came across this. This explanation was the knot’s loose end for me. This is the way through.
Thank you.
This TH-cam channel is a blessing, I’ve been watching these videos from 18-21 years old and it’s been a great attribution for me to develop and grow.
This is one of the best videos on TH-cam I have seen in a while. You give such an in depth analysis from a psychoanalyst point of view and your explanations go far deeper than most ‘psychology’ TH-cam channels out there. I’m going through a dark night of the soul and your video has given me some peace to know that I can make it through and given me the courage to explore my own inner darkness to find my own treasures! Thank you!!! New sub!
Ive been in a void, a mental wilderness, a mild form of depression for 4 and half years now ~ all i can say is that it is impossible to see the way out, there are no new revelations, everything is just grey and boring, in essence everything becomes nothing, and the only light that stays lit is the everlasting faith and hope that endures forever. As it is written, these three remain, faith, hope and love.
I am with you in that
I felt the same way
The days just keep coming though
And im beginning to feel the strength to mold my new path
@@ryryry_25 the lord gave me a vision, and its that same vision that sustains me in the void, i hope you find your purpose, as i am still searching
_I have tested you in the furnace of affliction_
Imagine living a life without any agonizing, oppressive sort of condition or experience. What stories would you have to share with the world? What resiliences and insights would you be able to wield? What inspiration would you arouse in those who look to your example? While you may skip through life like a well thrown, slick stone, you’ll fail to penetrate the surface of reality, venture down into the darkness, and leave a radiant, resounding ripple from whence you sank.
This channel is a rare gem in the mud of TH-cam. Thank you for the many well thought out videos.
I hope you all find the courage to be a light in the darkness. Never give up! Everything is going to be alright!
By itself?
This would only make sense to those who have hit bottom. When I went through harrowing depression I couldn't believe I made it through! I made it to the other side! I now see this as a process-and I am grateful 🙏
I made it through a deep darkness life
Wouldn’t have been able to do it without listening to Jesse Lee Peterson. It all makes sense now.
Thank you. Most relevant information one could run across as a depression takes hold of me after a traumatic loss. You’ve just gained a new member.
Sobriety greets us with the cold reality that pain and suffering constitute life, most substances and distraction act as a warm numbing agent to the truth of being. To accomplish anything in life requires sacrifice and struggle, yet we innoculate ourselves to forget the hard truths we all must bear to achieve success in any long meaningful endeavour. If you wish to feel good find something worth struggling for, otherwise relinquish yourself to mediocrity, half-assery, inebriation, and self espoused illusion. Find joy, solace, and freedom in meaningful pain, and liberate your mind from perceived dependence on the myriad distractions. The struggle never ends until you draw your last breath. Sober up, suck it up, and move on to find your path of personal virtue, reiterate this mantra and believe you can overcome the obstacles ahead.
sobriety is not that important
One of your best episodes ever. I almost teared up at so many moments. This will be a great reminded next time i find myself in a depressive state. I love and appreciate depth and now i will look at suffering and depression through a new lens instead of resisting
I remember when i was much younger, i used to understand the utility of pain and its perception as it is the single factor that unites every phenomenon in life under the most significant relevance of all, since there is no more important question than of pain, whether somethings brings me pain or lessens it.
Specifically, i noticed the same lesson that fellow who ran a business 8 months after his depression in this video mentioned, that once you've experienced the worst of the worst, everything seems easier in comparison and thus works in your favor as fear no longer blinds and restricts you. Aside from mere benefits of comparative perspectives, i also derived more technical benefits: perspective comes from contrast. As the saying goes, you don't know what you have until you lose it. That's because when perceiving a situation antithetical to the one before, i.e. having something then not having something, usually of high implicit value, you're now able to imagine both scenario X and anti-X, and see where the differences lie, thus seeing both individually. Without anti-X, you wouldn't be able to see X, just as how without a left, you wouldn't have a right. It's a bit abstract, but if i had to use an analogous concept, it's probably similar to triangulation in a sense, deducing the precise and valid location of a concept from two independent sources of data.
And often times, i would notice that finding out this anti- perspective would be accompanied with pain. I lost my girlfriend because she cheated on me, but sifting through my past, i could see now my precise traits that rationally link to this break up: i had been boring and neglectful as a partner. Knowing this, i can change and move forward.
Pain teaches. That is what i learned, just as what this video is getting at but deeper.
So the natural optimal utilization of this is to seek pain everywhere every second.
However, along the way, i'd gotten lost and forgotten or neglected this lesson of mine, and started allowing myself to indulge in expedient pleasures which shifted my perspectives and values to more local, fleeting ones. I started playing games, binging youtube, spending frivolously on drinks and snacks more often. I'd even forgotten my entire meaning for life: the deep satisfaction and excitement from learning the most important things in life, i.e. those pertaining to pain. I'd cushioned my routine so much that i nigh completely forgotten what pain felt like and how to derive from it an X and anti-X deduction again.
Having about to graduate high school, hopefully i can pick up this lesson again and return myself on the right track. Maybe that should start by closing my phone and going to sleep as it is 1 am right now...
You sound so much older and very much more experienced than a high school graduate to be. You must have unfathomable potential. I hope you will make the best and the most of it. You certainly have a talent for writing.
@@victoryamartin9773 ah why thank you, I know plenty of people legitimately smarter than me and I always have the default assumption that I'm stupid and clueless. Truth be told, i believe I was much smarter 10 years ago than I am now - not wiser perhaps but certainly smarter. But I appreciate the kind compliment. I hope I can utilize this potential as well as you'd hoped, hopefully further beyond even.
Been listening for years. This is your best work. Perfect timing. Many thanks
Thank you for the video. Each time I watch your videos it feels like I'm improving my understanding of being and this world. It's a therapy session of its own.
I just lost my grandma, and my mom just lost her only remaining parent. It has been so hard the last week, but I'm trying to let it make me better and stronger
Great timing as always! Being 19 and experiencing the psychological hell for almost 4 years now. I am so glad dwelling on these type of videos and it really helps more than a lot! As I struggle to tell anyone, even my closest families and friends what I have been really feeling down there. Truly, one must delve deeper into their soul and find out what must rather be accepted than to be fixed. Really, no one wants to stay in the same place for the rest of their lives, the world out there is big and there is much to see. Thank you please keep making more videos!
Throughout this discussion, I kept thinking about the question of whether free will exists. I may not have free will, but my depression has a purpose.
Sometimes....a break down is a break through.
I was severaly depressed for at least 2.5 years and this video describes what i went through. I had to become creative and i had to destroy the biggest concepts i have ever imagined. I now am grateful for having unlocking my brains potential
Depression is like a psychological fever. It’s literally burning the old you away.
Bam!💥 That’s awesome Natalie. Thank you for sharing! 🔥 😊
Old me?
It's always been here
I wish I could have your delusions
Mushrooms do that, too
It’s time you started digging into Rudolf Steiner’s ideas on every subject matter. You’re bringing up. This is a fantastic service to mankind you’re doing.
This was an excellent video. Couldn't come at a more appropriate time in my life. Thank you for sharing!
a great topic for a future video would be how to break free from self sabotage. AOI did a video on it years ago but I think it would be worth revisiting or doing a follow up video. Like why we self sabotage, how to recognize we're doing it, and how anxiety and low self-esteem can be contributing factors. With social media influencers we see it on full display a lot, people enjoy watching it and even cheer it on and/or encourage it. I think it's a bigger problem than we'd like to acknowledge, and almost everyone does it whether they know they're doing it or not.
Today I was driving my bike on my way home from work and I realized that I don't feel sad or depressed as I used felt like 5 years ago. I know that I change a lot during that time, but if you ask me what changed and why I don't feel these kind of feelings anymore I can't tell you exactly. There is a lot of things that I want to improve I'm myself and in my life, I'm working for it, slowly but steady. I'm 26 yo.
I agree with the thesis of this video and take it further into all sorts of negative incidents. I like to call it, Evil's Silver Lining. In my life, injuries, conflicts and depression have been very helpful in accelerating my personal growth. I've learned that taking time to ask the divine consciousness within my heart, "Why has this difficulty emerged?" "What is the lesson?" Surely we can follow our hearts to navigate life most perfectly, however, when we fail to follow the middle path of the heart a good kick in the ass can help us to find our way back to the straight and narrow. One of Jung's associates revealed that he believed in a divine inner consciousness, what I call the Superconscious-Soul. However, he rarely mentioned it and never wrote about it. During his life the inner divine soul was discarded from psychology. This was needed to allow psychology to sit at the table of materialistic science. In spite of that, more recently, materialism is being overturned to place consciousness at the foundation of reality. Even the pioneer of silicon microprocessors, Federico Faggin has become a supporter of a consciousness based reality. Videos featuring his personal transformation can be found on TH-cam.
I will always be adamant that my 1.5 year long depression was the most important & best thing to ever happen to me. This is not to diminish the damage of depression, sadly a young man, whom I didn't know, who my friends worked with didn't make it out. But if you can endure your souls cry for help it will change you into someone you never thought you could be. Its a long struggle, but stay strong
Today, i couldn't not get out of bed, i was swarmed with the feeling of totally hopeless, meaningless like i have no power to overcome it in anyways, i was contemplating of taking my own life god forgive me. I am so grateful for these video it has given me a great perspective to look at.
Excellent content and excellent narrator. Among the best I've seen and heard on TH-cam.
Beautiful video. It made see my depression in another light. Thank you.
My depression led me to move to a new city. It has been a very very rough 3 years. I hope i have this self transformation.
Moving cities helped me a lot! Hope it’s going well for you.
This episode is quite profound. I have to ask the following questions. How do I as an individual discover the purpose of my depression. How long does this search last. During that search, how do i retain my sanity. Any and all answers would be greatly appreciated. Thank you and stay blessed...
I agree that an episode of depression can lead to self transformation, but I disagree that those who experience it should aim to hit rock bottom. For some people, rock bottom means death (suicide).
One should instead seek to interrupt it, which can be done in different ways. This is where an existential or cognitive behavioral approach can help. By monitoring our thoughts and preventing the negative thought spirals that prolong conditions such as depression, we can prevent it from getting worse/bouncing back from it faster.
The video adequately addresses your disagreements, so I suggest that you view it again with more discernment and with much dissection . Good luck to you especially where that is concerned.
@@classygary It accurately represents my reaction to viewing the video. I suggest that you reread my comment with the same discernment and dissection that you suggest.
@@classygaryThat is exactly what he did. Disagreeing with a specific point of view doesn't mean he was unable to comprehend what is being said in the video. In fact, I'm certain the author would not want to suppress any thoughts that challenge his own. Seems to me this author would welcome thoughtful dialogue.
@@jesusguerrero8786I left a comment before seeing you had already responded. 😀
Yeah you shouldn't make your life worse on purpose just to hit actual rock bottom. If you already notice you are near rock bottom that is enough, the fact that one is aware that there is a problem and there needs to be change in your life is the first step. I think the message was more like "don't run from your thoughts, don't hide from the depression, go into the depths of your psyche and explore it" I don't think they necessarily were talking about actual rock bottom, but more like the depths of your psyche. If you just run from your problems you just turn into an alcoholic or drug user so it's probably better to allow yourself to feel the pain and process it.
I'm eternally grateful for ALL of the videos on chis channel! The brothers behind it are true alchemists of truth, love & wisdom.
Depression and Self-Transformation:
The concept of depression as a catalyst for self-transformation is both profound and deeply resonant. The Academy of Ideas’ exploration of this topic sheds light on the often overlooked potential within periods of intense emotional struggle. Depression, while commonly perceived as a debilitating condition, can also serve as a powerful impetus for profound personal growth and change.
In the throes of depression, one might feel ensnared in a labyrinth of despair, but this very experience can compel a deeper introspection and reevaluation of life’s direction. It is in these dark moments that the seeds of transformation are sown. As we confront our innermost fears and sorrows, we are presented with the opportunity to forge a new path, one that is more aligned with our authentic selves.
The journey through depression is not one to be undertaken alone. It is a path that calls for support, understanding, and compassion from others. Yet, it is also a deeply personal voyage that requires one to face the shadows within. By embracing the pain, rather than fleeing from it, we can emerge on the other side with a renewed sense of purpose and vitality.
The Academy of Ideas’ video serves as a reminder that our darkest moments can lead to the greatest awakenings. It encourages viewers to look beyond the surface of suffering and to recognize the transformative power that lies within the heart of depression. This perspective is not only enlightening but also offers a beacon of hope to those who may be navigating the turbulent waters of their own psyche.
In conclusion, depression can indeed facilitate self-transformation. It challenges us to break free from the shackles of our former selves and to step into the light of a new dawn. With each step forward, we can transform our pain into wisdom, our struggles into strength, and our experiences into the very fabric of our growth. This is the essence of the human spirit - the relentless pursuit of becoming more than we were yesterday.
AI generated, Gemini?
Oh hey there ChatGPT.
Welcome to Whose AI is it Anyway, where the comments are fake and the likes don’t matter!
Well, lifelong chronic depression is hardly worth the fleeting moments of joyous self-actualization.
@@victoryamartin9773 It’s up to you to create meaning in your life sufficient to justify your suffering. No one else can do it for you.
Depression is the feeling, but the goal is growth and learning. You can be depressed and not learn, just as you dont have to be depressed to learn, but the depression may be the effect of deep learning where much of a person must be burned off. This does not make the thing go away, but it does call attention to it, and the depression may come back if its not rectified.
The goal has and always will be to know what part of you is good and keepable, and what must be discarded.
This is the best view and description of a the true depressive experience that I have EVER come across. Thank you! 👍👏💥 Wow!
Often we have no say in what life throws at us externally or internally. Depression can be inevitable, but it is okay to make the best out of the situation. Maybe one can be the alchemist who transmutes the depression into gold
Man your comment is absolutely brilliant. I'm gonna screen shot it to look at later to keep reminding me of why I struggle and challenge myself for self improvement. I'm gonna gold smith myself out of the depression! Haha what a positive way to look at it. This whole time I've looked at it from a negative angle and with extreme self doubt.
@@zebnemma im glad you found some value in these words.
One can also start to doubt self-doubt. Doubt can work in two directions but i think people call that curiousity or coutious optimism.
I lost my hearing to a head injury at 22. i lost my fiancee,who i loved and loved me back.
I did this exact work, at the recovery..
Its made me unstoppable. Im now a viltrumite, for lack of a better term, but i kind of misplaced my soul.
Every period of rapid personal growth for me was preceded by depression, sometimes even despair.
I wish I could have heard this message 10+ years ago when I was suicidal and felt like there was no hope for me. But even now I still struggle with depression. Not nearly as bad but more like down episodes and sometimes I feel fine too. This whole time I've struggled the most to just accept reality, that I will never get my old self back. But the message that I can transform into something better is something I never thought about. This whole time I felt like I was transforming into a worse version of myself, that depression has made me cynical and not able to trust. I felt like I was forever ruined. Yes I was a happy go lucky kid that turned into cynicism after depression. I'm basically the opposite now. But that's because I was severely naive and thus people took advantage of me for many years until I could not take it anymore. My ability to be more selective now with what people I give my trust to is something I did not have before the depression. So I guess it depends how you look at it. Good or bad? Both? I only could have stayed happy go lucky in a perfect world where people do not manipulate for selfish agendas. So my depression hit me at full force once my world view was shattered, I thought the world was good because I was good and I assumed people were like me. I did not know the concept of greed or manipulation back then. (struggles of being autistic with high morals)
You described my psychological life to a tee, including the autistic conclusion. Amazing.
If you're depressed; know that there are billion-dollar forces out there knowadays that are really REALLY trying to make you as confused and depressed as possible. It's all going as planned for certain people.
The fact that so many smart people out there don't achknowledge that, is just...
So true! If hit rock bottom several times. I'm greatful for those dark days because now the success, happiness and living a great life tastes even better. Stay Uncommon!
This is a good theory for a therapist to know. As for use as self help for a depressed person, I'm not so sure. When you are depressed, you don't see the light at the end. I'm glad I was never told this when I was depressed. My courage apparently came from refusing to see it as just a meaningless, unfortunate happenstance (chemical imbalance b.s. etc.). I didn't ask what it meant, but I refused to accept it as meaningless.
Sounds like you agree with the video more than you think you do.
From childhood we all form a "self" to get through life, as the world is so overwhelming. That self is a supportive structure but temporary, because life changes. At some point the self will constrict us and no longer suffice. Think of the hermit crab, who borrows a shell that fits perfectly. Until one day it doesn't, because he has grown. So he must leave the shell and be fully vulnerable until he can find a new fit.
This was timely and profound. Perfect quotes. Thank you. Much food for thought.
For the past few years I occasionally get a video of yours recommended to me, I always finish watching them in complete focus, they are so interesting! Only some history channels manage to get me in a state like that. Thank you, also I never comment on videos so that should say something in and of itself haha
I think this is the best video I've seen on this channel, and given it's good content, that is saying a lot. Glad a buddy of mine recommended this channel and thought I'd find it interesting.
This was perfectly on time especially on Shabbat ✡️✝️🙏🏾 excellent
Ew gross
Great topics covered in your videos. Love your delivery too, so calm and soothing.
Your skillful art curating is an art in itself. Thanks you for these beautiful and edifying videos 💜
I really like certain aspects of stoicism but one thing that often stands out to me about it is that it kind of tells you to bury your head in the sand and deny the validity of a lot of human experiences that really help to fuel our success. Sure it’s not good to be overcome by self indulgent feelings like anger, jealousy, depression, etc., but I like the ideas in this video that while you don’t want to overdo something like depression, it exists for a reason and we should embrace it for the value it provides.
This was just beautiful. While watching I felt the dark angel approaching. It’s time talking to him.
I have another word for depression where it leads to self misery but in the end you rise above: Climbing down the ladder upwards
Self preservation, survival and fear, they are all the same thing. We live with them. I live with them. They are an instinct that made me survive. That made my ancestors survive.
Bu it didn't help us thrive.
When i look at people that seems to thrive, some of them really are in strong positions, acting like they are powerful, they don't even know what their weaknesses. But they know they are weak in some way but they can't admit it to their selves. From this fact, they act like they are really good at their business. So that they seem confident, without that leak they can't admit.
And when i look upon me, I see myself as someone weak, not really knowing what he is doing. not confident enough. When i look upon myself, I see my vulnerabilities, I share them openly. Like I don't want people to think me as someone in a strong position?
Why?
When i look upon that behavior of myself, i see fear. Fear of knowing that when i get into a powerful state, there will people to challenge me, fairly and unfairly. When i get into competition, I know there will be people to hurt me. Because I've been hurt this way.
When you were a kid back then and when you know too much in the class, other children often despise you. Even though you get a well done. When you pass the exam exceptionally, when you won the race, when you made something beautiful, when you express yourself in such a way that attracts people; often, there will be people to hate you.
Because I was a high achiever and because I was doing all that with so less effort, some people actually despised me, started rumors about me. I even got into physical fights with them (I won the most of my figths too). I won't get into details of why they do that. But that is their own way of survival: removing the competition by eliminating others.
All those experiences taught me one bad lesson: Don't show yourself.
I've told myself if you show yourself too much, you will get into trouble. I put a part of myself in captivity. Ignored him and acted dumb. I actually played the fool, won't let people see my strengths.
To preserve myself, I actually ran away from the things i am best at. Ran away from any competition.
And what changed know? Well, it is hard to shut off your ears when someone is screaming inside. That voice always stand up strong in me. Even when i get into a lot of trouble and when i don't know what to do, that voice is always there, staying strong, confident and with full of wisdom. When i listen to it, I am almost like in an autonomous mode. People actually call this mode Flow state. One exception here was that I wasn't in flow, I was usually resisting to it.
After seeing how helpful it can be, I started growing some trust in that side of me. That side of me started to be an escape way from my problems. Because it was solving my problems automatically. When I let my power to shine, all of sudden, everything was easier, clearer.
So that trust in me led me here, writing and observing myself right now.
I started as strong, some things made me withdrawn from my power, I choose to look weak. And now, that abondened part of me is coming back stronger than ever. The withdrawal of my power almost made turned it into something rare. Now, I know all the weak and strong and rare parts of me.
When i talk with a confident person, I see what is really deep down there. Most of the time, they act powerful, they look at you and say thing, but only from their side. Their only power is seeing things as they want to see it. They see themselves powerful. They often don't know what to do in competition, because they never been in one. Their self oriented viewpoint makes poor strategies with others, because they often don't feel what others feel and want. And they only see positives in their selves and the negative in others. Almost like trying to cover up their negatives.
Wow, I described a confident Narcissist! How rare are they? They are everywhere!
What is in me right know is something entirely different from a confident narcissist. I know who I am! I know how to be powerful and how to be weak. Back then, I've been in many competitions, then stayed away from that for so long and put that side of me in prison. Now that side is coming back and I actually start to understand what all this is.
All this is a game. And it is about playing the right move. Well, those confident Narcissist only play one move. Their weakness is they can't sacrifice anything of their power. They have no ability to change because they don't know how to be vulnerable.
And I know how to be vulnerable, I actually played moves that made me vulnerable, I actually made my thoughts vulnerable to myself, such that i am open to any knowledge that can oppose my existing ideas. Well, there is a term for that too: being open minded.
I actually climbed down the ladder upwards.
While everybody was obsessed with going only upwards, I actually went into a process of going down and weakening myself and now, I am coming back stronger than ever.
I feel like I finally started to find my missing piece.
I actually started to not feel any fear about showing that side of me.
I think i have some depression right now, and this video might help me, thanks a lot, i love it!
came just in a right time, 2am after a two-month descent into darkness. sharing this with my family and friends. depression is actually good for me, you see!
This really helps with understanding my depression journey. Thank you
Thank for stating this - People have thought I was sick to claim this - I was crazy to refuse anti-depreents.
The compost heap of death, decay and waste is the greatest of potentials asleep...
Pharmacueticals and other drugs just put off dealing with the depression. I decided to quit taking the drugs and a horrible onslaught of side effects followed. I thought death was near, I thought I really am crazy and this is probably a mental breakdown. Turns out I just needed to face my issues -not be treated with dangerous chemicals. Going through that period of hell will make the rest of my life a cake walk. Every day even bad days are great days.
I did the same. Not to the cake walk part yet, but getting thru the terrifying side effects after weaning off the meds for a couple of years.
Congratulations. I can't believe these drugs are allowed to be in circulation.
The best video I have ever watched about depression. Useful, really useful.
Wonderful video, I’ve had similar experiences as have been described, humans are meant to suffer, just like every other living organism