edit: INSTRUMENTAL AND VSQX + SVP ARE AVAILABLE NOWWW hi all!! disclaimer, as with the last song; this one includes many difficult topics, including vague sexual trauma, abnormal sexual development, and bioessentialism.... in general, it's about all the worst aspects of being seen as a girl/woman. there are some archaic ideas and language used in this song, and that's intentional. but unfortunately, a lot of discussions surrounding sexism and women's rights online tend to be co-opted by TERFs, so before any of them potentially get into the comments, i want to clarify that this song, and all of my music + art in general, is not for TERFs. i am trans, and i want to stress that this song can be read from a transfeminine perspective. that's all. thank you to all the wonderful trans people who listen to my music... 🥰🥰🏳⚧🏳⚧🏳⚧
@@The_Markimator (Btw you can make life way easier for people with those problems by calling your dude bro friends or whoever out on their bs. Its impossible for a victim to say "Hey thats kinda fucked up bro" and save themselves, but to hear from someone in their social ring that its not fucking cool is much more convincing.)
I absolutely adore the double meaning in the line "to be a girl is to be game." Game as in an animal being hunted, yes, but also game as always being up for something. The lack of consent. The implication that she doesn't get say if things happen to her. That she has to always be game.
I love the duality of this- being told your body and organs are designed for reproduction while simultaneously being told it’s dirty and wrong to use them, the thing that you’re constantly told is what you’re for. That you must make yourself “presentable” to everyone, men and women, to make yourself “desirable” but if you’re desired then it must be your fault for making yourself that way; if you’re not desirable you’re shamed and belittled because “nobody will want you”, treating people like a collectible from the beginning.
Taxidermies usually happen to preserve hunting trophies, showing off kills by the hunter. Hunting is a traditional masculine hobby (not saying women can’t enjoy it, but due to the themes of how women are put into boxes based on traditional gender roles I feel it’s important to mention) and the character describes how she’s been raised to see herself as prey for men. It’s a beautiful double metaphor, showing her repressed sexual desires mixed with her upbringing of fearing men, but still needing to please them, god, this song fucking hits me right in the Catholic High School
I NEED to talk about the design for a moment because I haven't seen anyone do so, so far and someone COOKED with her. The song plays on the idea of traditional gender roles, that woman should remain pure, which is why I think she's wearing a flowy housewife-esque dress. However! She's wearing leather underneath which is something that can be seen as kinky. So his her blindfold, which is trying to protect her eyes from something sexual, in and of itself is a sexual thing as blindfolds are often also seen as kinky. The deer antlers as well tie into the fact she's seen as 'prey' by both the men and woman in her life Although this isn't a song I can really relate too it's still beautiful none the less
Coming back 2 weeks later from my original reply. Antlers are also a mostly male deer thing (except for like. Reindeer I think) so that could tie into the intersex reading of this song and character (Edited because my dumbass put deer instead of antlers??? Its past my bedtime/silly
as an intersex person raised a girl... this one hits deeper than i thought any song ever could. i really admire your storytelling paired with the amazing character designs. this project is truly a masterpice
Has nobody mentioned the background footage?? It's the Taxidermy Hall of Fame of North Carolina, a Christian-Owned one-room taxidermy museum made to "Preserve God's Creation" and, aparently, advocate against abortion? Now THAT is some poginiant background imagery. She wants to be taxidermy because she was taught that even if she lost her innocence (a sin to them already) she wouldn't even be able to go back. Oughhhh thank you Weevildoing can't wait for the album to be out on streaming
I love the repetition of “to be a girl is to be ___”, it really nails in the idea that society barely views women as human. And the animal metaphors are wonderful, they show how society wants women to be prey instead of predators, to submit to men. Wonderful song!
EXACTLY. it's like being a girl isn't being a girl at all - it's being lost, hunted, inhuman. what's advertised as flowers and pinks is really just a game of cat and mouse
her design just makes so much sense narritively its crazy how Weevildoing always hits the mark with their designs. the look of the housewife type dress over skin tight latex is such a good visual metaphor, and her covered eyes makes me think of another comment that mentioned the idea of "knowing it (sa)'s gonna happen but not knowing when" , and of course,, her antlers :))
Right?? I also think that the latex outfit + mask and the dress is so sexualized but doesn’t actually show much skin is so meaningful for the design!! It works into the idea of feeling gross, undesirable , and depersonalized but also implicitly sexualized.
1:59. this is a display abt canaries in the mine. chocolate box girl has a line abt canaries!! "the canary in the mine" methinks parallels as both deal w/ 'innocence and purity' and sa as themes!!!!
at 2:17, there's lyrics referencing caliber girl (deer standing in the headlights/begging you to take it's life vs a wild stallion reduced to a deer in the headlights) which i find interesting cause it implies a extra dimension to what caliber girl's about? i personally think that , among other things, it's a critique of "girlboss feminism" but whatever
i could've sworn i made a comment about this a while ago but idk When someone tells u to imagine deer antlers, the first thing that typically to mind is antlers that are pointed upwards, while in this video, Taxidermy's antlers are in a downward almost circular shape. It's most noticeable at the chorus, but I noticed Taxidermy's head silhouette kind of resembles the female reproductive system, with the antlers being ovaries.
I love all of the theming of this song so much, taxidermy itself is something many people gawk and marvel at, but also something disturbing and unnatural: preventing rot that would otherwise take place and that metaphor slots into the ‘preservation’ of innocence perfectly! I think it’s also good to mention this character on their post-traumatic manifesto page is mentioned to be 2spirit and native. Being a person of color seen as fem can exacerbate this purity vs sullied dynamic because most girls of color are treated as inherently more promiscuous, more ‘exotic’ than their white counterparts, much like a rare animal. I also haven’t seen anyone mention this either but the anti-abortion/religious imagery mixed in with the specimens lining up perfectly with the lack of bodily autonomy the singer feels, rightfully so. In some US states it's easier and more legal to get an abortion for an animal than it is for a person. (might add more notes later, I'm in love w this song!!)
I’d also like to bring up as a native person myself (though I’m white and Métis so don’t take my experience as everyone’s) that native women specifically get sexualized and objectified at a rate much higher than their non native peers. Almost all MMIWG2S are victims of intimate partner violence, over half of all native women report sexual violence vs less than one in ten amongst the general population, and when native women get hurt by their partners, much less is likely to happen and their deaths go unnoticed. The way people treat me when they know I’m Métis vs when they don’t know is stark and frequently goes from friendly to extremely uncomfortable very, very quickly. Native women are treated like objects for desire at large. Just food for thought. Also, in some nations, deer are associated with a specific monster (some have taboo around saying its name but I bet you know the one) that arises from cannibalism, so you could additionally take context from that connotation
reminds me of that quote. "godhood is just like girlhood, a begging to be believed", or something like that. this one is the most girl that has ever so far. i think Taxidermy here can speak for all people who fall victim to the horrible religion that is being feminine. absolute art 10/10 i have no further words edit: bonus thought - thank you, weevildoing, for normalizing the unorthodox sexual desires that come with trauma when so many of us are taught to be ashamed of it. it's no one's fault that it happens to them, so thank you so much for speaking on it. your characters having these desires makes them feel so much more real, even if it's a part of them they themselves don't take much pride in. it's beautifully natural writing and i'm sure it's made more people than just me feel better about themselves. edit 2: I have so many thoughts that I'm going to write an essay on this song LOL. I'll do that on tumblr tomorrow it's midnight
this song is SO good. i love the underlying theme feeling 'dirty' or 'unclean' for being desired sexually yet also wanting to be desired. The "If it's something I don't want, then it couldn't be my fault." is such an INSANELY good line and I was ranting about this exact sort of thing the other day. The sort of 'dark romance' genre that's especially popular nowadays with a common theme of being 'whisked away' by a man who *sounds* almost 'predatory' but is supposed to be built as a protector, with the dark fantasies that tend to follow this genre, stemmed from the exact emotions this song portrays. The concept that, if the man whisks me away and does what he wants with me, then it can't be MY fault. Nobody will blame me, because it wasn't my own choice, even if I wanted it. Yet the man is also portrayed as a protector and a safe house - commonly in some series, it will be a man related to another family member - who despite this demeanor, can reasonably can come to be seen as a safe space. Nobody will get mad at me for "letting him" or "giving myself to him" and they'll never blame me, but he's still also a "safe space" because he isn't ACTUALLY as predatory as he seems at first glance. A note on the side that this also slightly stems from a lot of Christian purity cultures, on top of normal societal ones. This song is so good and it portrays these emotions and so much more so well. This may be my new favorite post traumatic manifesto song, honestly. I heard those lyrics and I couldn't help but think about all of the 'dark romance' books I see and how they all inherently stem, unknowingly or not, from these emotions and feelings. This song is so fucking good. 10/10 almost made it worth being born a woman
No idea why no one is saying this but the sweet flower dress above the 'sinfulness' of the leather gloves and blindfold is such a nice contrast?? It really speaks kind little girl fighting against the sexuality of a grown woman and it's so cool, props to the artist!!!!
As a transmasc this hits pretty close because, despite not being a woman, I'm constantly held to the same standards as both woman and men. I'm supposed to be strong and sportsly or else I'm not REALLY a man, but I'm also supposed to be small, dainty, and androgynous or else I'm too masculine and not allowed because I'm too dangerous despite that "ideal" appearance getting me MISGENDERED ME AT PRIDE despite the trans pin I had on. It just feels like I'm trapped reaching for something I can never obtain because my ideal body goal isn't what the LGBT community deems acceptable, and the way I look now (small, dainty, androgynous) means no one is going to see me as a man, ever. Being a girl even once mean you're trapped forever.
As someone with extreme genophobia(fear of s3xual intimacy) this song really describes the fear and distress I feel towards s3xual topics, thank you weevildoing!!
As a trans man, this song hits hard; it displays the traumatic aspects of girlhood that I experience[d], yet from the perspective of someone who no longer identifies with femininity, it feels like that suffering was for nothing.
and the red ribbon reminds me of lucia; a red band around the middle to represent blood from a stab wound (and also lucia being: - a christian saint - married away by her mother - killed by being accused by a rejected suitor - modernly used a symbol for women's (girl's) power in marriage disputes - got eyes scooped out before execution and therefore depicted with a blindfold like the character has. am i reaching? i am, who cares
@@alicepersson9568 "got eyes scooped out before execution so depicted with a blindfold" OH MY GOD. HAVE YOU READ THE MOST RECENT ??? UPDATE ON TPTM CARRD? if u havent and are fine with me spoiling it to you let me know
My mom told me that at my Catholic school parent-teacher conferences, our teacher (a Sister) said she could tell which of the kids were doing /stuff/ on the internet by looking at the shame in their eyes. This song reminded me of that, always feeling dirty.
i've noticed that both this song and chocolate box girl, both about SA, uses metaphors of being consumed to refer to being assaulted. In Chocolate Box girl, it refers to himself as a chocolate to be consumed. Here, this character refers to themself as prey to be hunted and consumed, either by a predator or a hunter.
As a non-binary AFAB who was a victim of SA, this hits deep. I knew it was going to happen eventually according to the statistics, but I never saw it coming until it happened. Not to mention the amount of dysphoria with knowing very very well what parts I was born with.
the lyrics in this song is one of the most powerful you've written, it emphasized exactly what it's like to grow up as a woman and to be put on a stage
The irony of this whole display of taxidermy paired with the anti-abortion sign (2:16). The cognitive dissonance is a sight to behold, countless animals hunted down and put on display, and right under is a condemnation of abortions justified by the commandment “thou shalt not kill”. Whoever put this together, just wow. I am not saying that taxidermy is inherently wrong, but it’s strange to be so fixated on the wellbeing of embryos while having all your kills stuffed on the wall. The embryo is a hypothetical life that is worshipped, meanwhile the person who has to sacrifice to give life to that embryo is seen as nothing but an animal that will live out their “purpose” and be put on display after their death. At some point I wanna sit down and analyze all the signs as they relate to the song.
AAA AAAAHHH AHHH AAHHHH AHAHHHHHHH OK I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ON THUIS..... THIS SONG IS SO GOOD IT'S THEMES R SO GOOD taxidermy girl came at like the perfect time in my life cuz i've been reflecting a lot on my views of sexuality and sex based on my upbringing,, u can probably see that specifically in dysgoreia, but it's been something that's followed me my entire life something i've specifically been thinking about a lot is the way in which sexual development can turn dysfunctional in a lot of cases. like,, in ur core sexual development phase, your brain will latch to ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to associate with sex and implement into your larger emotional profile. when you've been raised to believe sex is inherently evil, sinful, something to be ashamed of, something that will dirty you, you will begin to associate those specific feelings with what sex looks like, and when you have such an unhealthy view of sex, every way you may choose to explore your sexuality will also be unhealthy in-turn and like...the really upsetting thing is that ideas of morality or normativity are largely human-made construct. the psychosexual brain does not give a single FUCK about how morally-acceptable or discomforting something may be, it'll make you experience these feelings regardless of whether or not you want to experience them, and that makes assigning moral values to sex so much more difficult to navigate, especially for people who may struggle with having kinks or fetishes born out of sexual trauma this is also like,, part of the reason i'm obsessed with taxidermy girl having themes strongly surrounding BDSM (both in her design and carrd profile), because will the BDSM community does get constantly reduced to being sexual deviants or perverts or whatever, they're some of the kindest and most accepting people you'll meet. the cornerstones of BDSM are comprised of consent and reclamation, reclamation of trauma-based associations surrounding sex. the whole point of BDSM is to be able to practice what may give you sexual satisfaction in an environment where everything is safe, sane, and consensual. bc our sexual needs are, well, needs, and ppl deserve to b able to express themselves sexually in contexts where they won't hurt themselves or others IDK I'M JUST... .I LOVE TAXIDERMY GIRL SO MUCH AN D I LOVE EVERYTHING ABT HER.... AHAAHHHUUHHHHHHH
Trans girl here! Thank you for making this song, the lyrics flow so well and do a great job at giving away the idea behind the song through metaphors. I am a big fan of the vocal flow and the composition of the song as well, it's really rare to see a Maika song nowadays! I hope this will inspire more people to use her too. The illustration and MV are also very helpful at conveying the message and giving context to the lyrics. (The character art is very fitting to both the color composition and song themes in the MV, imo) I will be looking forward to your future songs and the rest of TPTM series, which I've been a fan of for a while. Great job to everyone involved! Thank you for making this series/project.🧡🤎
i agree with everything you said! Weevildoing's lyrics are amazing and deep, i always spend a lot of time trying to understand them,and the mv are so simple yet so good at conveing the message ˆ_ˆ
The comparison between the fear and desire to be abused and hurt with a deer in headlights is genuinely the best I've ever heard it put. This is incredible,, keep up the good work Weevil ^u^
The instrumental is innocent and elegant yet has a sinister undertone to it. The lyrics that stick out to me the most are "in love with the idea of me, mount my head on a wall" and "An innocence forever intact". The first lyric is probably the singer's skewed view of wanting admiration, as women often compared to/seen as like a trophy or property. The second one could either be the singer trying to and maybe succeeding in keeping their innocence but in a catastrophically wrong way or my personal guess is it's referring to how women are stereotyped as "innocent" and deemed they can do no wrong(?) but that's just my take on those lyrics. This and Chocolate Box Girl are my two favorites from this album so far ^^
I love the way these songs portray sexual traumas. Its so theraputic honestly. Especially this one with the development of 'abnormal' desires and such,, its something that i feel isnt. Depicted in media enough and tptm does it so well
Seeing a new TPTM the day after I get discharged from the hospital after a rough surgery is such a treat, i'm so excited to see waaaa!!! keep cooking weevil!!!
idk if youll read this comment but honestly these songs are so so so important to me with regards to themes of like, intrusive thoughts that often merge/seep into masochistic feelings, if that makes any sense? uncomfortable and unwanted feelings that to cope with the mind takes and almost sort of ‘translates’ into something reminiscent of a self destructive/masochistic fantasy and all the conflicting and messy feelings of guilt and shame that come with that, and then that shame and guilt fuelling more self-destructive thoughts of deserving abuse which fuels that cycle… AUGH it’s super hard to explain but weevildoing your songs, this one as well as the other PTM songs and deviant just… capture that confusing and messy and shameful feeling in such such an impactful way. It really means alot to me, thank you for making the songs you do and putting these sorts of messy and ugly feelings into art.
I think this song hurt more than anything I’ve listened to in a while, because Jesus Christ is this something I lived through when I was younger. I’m so glad I don’t think like that anymore but I don’t think many people ever really talk about just how damaging it is to grow up being told that you’re dangerous and disgusting and abhorrent for having desires that are, for many, just… sort of a part of the human experience (not for everyone obviously, but a majority of people still). It rubs off on how you view yourself and others. The mystification and ritualization of sex and sexual experiences leads to people who live with unhealthy sexual lives, unhealthy relationships, and unhealthy views of themself. It’s sad. This song makes me want to cry a little.
I also love the comparisons you’ve made with how this sort of upbringing can correlate so heavily with very intense forms of BDSM and kink like noncon (at least that’s the impression I got). Because that’s something else I’ve also experienced from being raised like this, to believe my body, and the bodies of other women, exist for the use of others. Used by men for sex, used to create a life, and yet both of things are also dirty and immoral. God this is a good song
Not only is this song really good but it hit hard, my family has been silently trying to make me be more feminine even though they've accepted my older sister being a butch lesbian for years. That they tell me to be free with my expression of myself yet have taught me to feel shame for my exposed skin and for my gender not being in typical perception of a girl or a boy or even human. This songs feeling of being stuck and no one being happy with your appearance really hits because I was always told to not care what other people thought of me but the moment I expressed my own ideas I was judged and told I would be hated and that it was wrong. My family (mainly my mothers side of the family) trying to get me to open up so that they could trap me and expose me to the rest of the family so they could make fun of me and then tell me to be less offended. God this song comforts me in ways I didn't know possible
While I can't relate to this song on everything its theming makes me feel a bit better that I'm not alone. The themes of forced femininity, repressing of sexual urges, religious pressure, the pain of growing up around people who only want to control you, and having to fight to be considered equal to men are things I've experienced. I've never really been able to find a comfort song before but this just makes me feel seen. Thank you Weevildoing!
I don't normally comment on videos a lot but I relate to this song the most out of the TPTM. As someone who has unfortunately been exposed to a lot of inappropriate media at a young age and is currently struggling with hypersexuality and my own gender, this song hit me like a truck. I feel seen with this song and I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who's experienced something like this. Thank you for making this song and this whole song series too.
I'll just directly quote a conversation I had with a female friend, "The worst a bear can do is *just* kill you, men on the other hand-" The implication that men can and have done and will do much worse than something as bad as murder...? Its bone chilling, I can't help but consider this as being trans femme. Which, the conversation was adjacent to the subject of my trans femininity since that is what we were last talking about. What are my fellow trans fems opinions on becoming a person with such a higher chance of being a victim of violence? Has this in any way made you worried about being fem in public? People who have already transitioned fully (I have not in the sense that I am still 18 and unfortunately live with my parents), what have you noticed first hand when it comes to mistreatment due to being a woman (not a transwoman specifically)?
Women can do the exact same bad things to you as a man can. According to research, men and women actually have the same rate of being sexually assaulted, so no you are not actually at a higher risk of violence due to being a woman, you're at a higher risk of violence cause you're trans, be glad you're not a trans man, they have the highest rate in the lgbtq community of being correctively raped. The reason it seems like women are more likely to be victimized is because women can talk about that kind of thing when it happens to them and men can't
I am AFAB, but I have noticed...When someone wants to hurt a man, they beat them up. When someone wants to hurt a woman, they sexually assault them. Even if they have no sexual motive. Women are so deeply ingrained as sexual beings that people default to shifting their violence against them to a more sexual or sadistic manner.
yk, i find it interesting that the song is all about being biologically female, but antlers are typically only on male deer, with them being used to fight. not only does this make me think of transmasculine connotations, but it also resonates with me with the idea of reclaiming how people see you into something sexually liberating. itd be impossible to tell she was a deer if she didn’t have the antlers, almost as if she’s just embodying the ‘idea’ of being prey. these character designs always make me think theyre so damn layered
Edit: Didn't guess it right bt the actual meaning rules!!! Makes a lot of sense. Weevildoing your lyrics never cease to amaze. Actual poetry My bet is maybe familial abuse or domestic abuse; taxidermy as a metaphor for an attempt to control the way a person is, to make them stay who you want them to be and not the person they have changed into. Just thinking about how some people get their dead pets taxidermied as a way to cope with grief, but also how hunters will put their taxidermied kills on display as trophies, the same is often done to children by overbearing and selfish parents. I saw someone mention that the girl might feel as if she is dead, so it could also be about depersonalization? I know whenever I feel depersonalized it's like I'm stuffed with cotton. So that'd be a vibe.
I'm so glad I discovered TPTM. I've never felt so seen by any music. I have a lot of trauma, and nothing has encapsulated my mindsets and feelings more than this album, and it's helping me get through a really tough stage since a relatively recent arc's trauma is finally starting to set in. I love your music, please don't spontaneously combust
I've always had gender dysphoria ever since i could feel. It's not only been put on stage, i feel non-existent in people's eyes no matter how intensily i express my autonomy. Reinforcing gender roles can give even cis people gender dysphoria. They don't love the authentic you, just the idea of you. You're the fucking poem instead of the poet. I never felt a connection to any gender, i only found myself through art, so i dont even know how to express that through gender identity. Even appreciating/highlighting my disconnected appearance makes me feel dysphoric and caged, but trying to pinpoint why feels wrong
hits close to home as a transmasc genderfluid who suffered from precocious puberty, my experience has been very painful and i've had so many terrible thoughts due to it :( thanks so much weevildoing, i already had predictions about this being about precocious puberty but this was a lot more than i expected ! in a great way of course
This ones a big SAME to be tbh, been listening it over and over since it dropped bc somehow, it helped me to understand why my desires of having something more "close" with my partner feels so scary to me. Im a lesbian, no one on my family knows yet bc i know they will heavily dissaprove (theyre evangelic/catholic and they have been REALLY clear that they despise homosexuals in so many levels) and sometimes i cant help but feel dirty for wanting something Sexual, dirty for even liking women, dirty for not being what everyone else expected from me like ive been taught to. This is an absolute masterpiece and i wanna say thank you for helping me to understand myself a bit better.
THE WAY I SCREAMED IN EXCITEMENT OVER SEEING THIS ON MY RECOMMENDED. Taxidermy huhh? So I'm guessing it's gonna be like of someone who is put on display or something. Based off the name but IM SO EXCITED AAAAAAAAHH
idk if its my headphones making the pitch slightly lower or if its because im sick but oh my GODDDD im convinced that all songs sound better with a slightly lower pitch
i always have to be careful when i listen to these songs. 1: bc they involve trauma and trigger warnings, but 2: BECAUSE THEY'RE SUCH BANGERS AND IF I LISTEN TO IT ONCE I'LL SPEND THE NEXT 3 HOURS LISTENING TO IT ON REPEAT UNTIL I CANNOT STAND THE SONG ANYMORE
Incredible. Just incredible. Chords are super crazy, lyrics are gut wrenchingly clear yet still artistic... Everything is so mechanical and stiff in a good way.
Im kinda late but, the instrumentals feel so chaotic and yet so gentle i love it, and the lyrics are really good and relatable to me in a way. Another amazing song weevil!
are past updates of the ??? page going to be available to read again once the project is over? since the new ??? update obviously overrides the old one, im wondering if there is/will be a way to read all the past ??? updates again./nf
Commenting so this song can reach more people that might need it. I love the lyrics in this one. They sound and flow very well, and are deeply meaningful+ tie into the theming well without being overly cryptic. I think the only thing I might have a bit of reservation' about is that the song goes very suddenly from prechorus to chorus, and then out of the chorus I just feel like there could be a few more seconds of music between the lyrics to allow for a smoother transition. But overall, this is really nicely made! I enjoyed it. You're doing amazing work by making these songs, and I adore the characters you've created. I wish you the best!
I was thinking the pro-"life" imagery and bible quotes alongside animals that were killed just to serve as display pieces (I noticed even the sign about the OCTOPUS has a bible verse cited for no reason???) is very reminiscent of the state I grew up in. Lo and behold, it literally is in NC. 💀 I'm not great with words, but the theme of contradictions between the "values" we're ingrained with from a young age vs the general disregard for life in culture, plus the cognitive dissonance it creates, really resonates with me.
I wish this song could have been here when I was younger. It still feels very cathartic for my inner 20-year-old, and even inner child. No one ever did anything bad to me I don't think, my trauma was more from absorbing purity culture and rape culture from the zeitgeist around me as a young child, dealing with my feelings alone, as well as being alone with my gender dysphoria. I've never seen a piece of art that really made me feel understood like this song does. Thank you for making this.
Prediction before the song premires: I think the song might be about being neurodivergent, with taxidermy being used a a way to study things. She probably has trouble not being perceived as a person, being too “wild” for other people and being likened more to a rabid animal. Either way I’m soooo hype!!!!
this song is so impactful i don’t think it’s possible to put into words what these experiences are like but this song almost embodies them. another beautiful song as always, love your work ❤
As an afab person who was abducted to a fascist state and barely escaped not so long ago when it felt like coming back from war, seeing this actually being recognised as a problem brought me to tears.
is the deer imagery in reference to Lady Deer? since taxidermy girl is native and i think it really really ties in closely with their story and themes. additionally - what nation(s) or region is taxidermy girl from ? :D
@@GOTHICNINJA yes i know ^w^ its why i asked ehe. and my second question is specifically what indigenous nation or region theyre from, cuz its very very broad and varied (also cuz i wanna draw them tradish.. i luv drawing native characters tradish :D). im plains native :3 /nm
@@catinatree1305weevildoing has mentioned on their tumblr they imagine some of the girls to be peruvian-quechuan (like themselves!) so thats what I assume, or at least headcanon!!
I'm transmasc with (what I'm guessing to be) Hypersexuality disorder, and secual trauma of some sort (almost every afab in my life has been sexually assaulted, I'm afraid I'm next. Also i had unrestricted access to the Internet at a young age.), and this song and character page hit so hard for me. Need to be pure, need to be sinful. Need to keep safe, need to let loose. Need to practice abstinence, need to give in to temptation. A reminder of what I'm supposed to be, carried on my body, a reminder of what I'm supposed to do, supposed to create, as much as the mere idea sickens me. I've envisioned myself as a rotting prey animal in vent art, so it jurs hits even closer when considering that.
i was a bit upset to have missed the premier by an hour, but i clicked as soon as i saw it on my home page! upon a second listen (now at 2am, and with earbuds this time) it hits so much harder. i will be sad when the series is over, but am excited to see how it concludes!
I’m really glad this song was made. As a trans girl, I obviously know that this song is more for and about the afab experience, but I can’t help but feel a connection tbh. It feels like all the things I felt I had to live up to in order to be considered a “real woman” by society. And the part about “urges” also spoke to me in two way: Both in the normal, more conventional sexual way (where anything I take pleasure in is going to be considered deviant by society just due to who I am) but also in the almost perverse honor I felt in being objectified by men. I felt that if I was feminine enough to be objectified, catcalled, etc. I was finally able to consider myself a “real woman”. (Also not to mention the bonkers notion of “autogynephilia” that exists in some people’s heads.) But that’s just my two cents, and while I’m in a better place now, this song really spoke to my earlier experiences in transition. Thank you.
I’d disagree with your point about it being solely for AFAB people, taxidermy girl is for anyone and everyone who gets gendered as a woman. This includes trans women. Just because you weren’t born with the corresponding genitalia doesn’t mean you still don’t get treated like a woman, including the nasty misogyny. Best of luck to you my friend.
@@Eosinophyllis oh yeah I’m not denying that there are readings of the song that transfem people can relate to, but there’s also a lot of bioessentialist language in there. And I recognize that it’s there for a reason. I just wanted to caveat my statement beforehand is all.
Hey, you feel the trauma, you get in the band wagon, bestie. Even the character featured in the video isn't a woman, they're two-spirit (IIRC). Hop on in, we're driving straight to hell, its gonna be lit.
I don't know if Weevildoing edited the pinned comment after you commented this, but they said this song can be read from a transfem perspective ❤ You're not stepping on anyone's toes by relating to it. Gender essentialism absolutely hurts trans women too
while i understand the meaning of the song is very much "the worst parts of being/being perceived as a woman", i feel like the repeated mentions of the idea of "being a woman = suffering" could easily also be applied to how ppl with "white guilt" tend to view black people - how many movies have you seen featuring black protagonists that ADDRESS their blackness that ISN'T centered entirely around their suffering? i've been personally noticing the turnabout of what i like to call "blackaboos". people so engrossed in african american culture that they try to mimick it like it's some sort of aesthetic. some i've noticed even say the n slur. i've jokingly said that "they wanna be black SO bad" but... damn. i haven't even gotten into people stealing AAVE and claiming it was something "the internet just spat out one day". white ppl are in love with the idea of a black person. EDIT: i feel like mentioning this read came from me thinking of making my own "girl" song about that subject as well as whitewashing (as in, a POC erasing their own culture in order to fit in with their white peers)
please tell me if I’m overstepping with this comment, but considering all your points could also be applied to indigenous people and taxidermy girl is 2spirit… this reading adds a lot
@@Eosinophyllisit's not overstepping at all! i mainly mentioned black stuff because i personally am black, but i could definitely see it being taken with the perspective of indigenous people instead!!
Been listening to the whole postraumatic manifesto so far, and when I was thinking about it, a new song appears! :D The work and effort on these songs are fantastic and wonderful, thank you for making these songs! Looking forward for more in the future
edit: INSTRUMENTAL AND VSQX + SVP ARE AVAILABLE NOWWW
hi all!! disclaimer, as with the last song; this one includes many difficult topics, including vague sexual trauma, abnormal sexual development, and bioessentialism.... in general, it's about all the worst aspects of being seen as a girl/woman. there are some archaic ideas and language used in this song, and that's intentional. but unfortunately, a lot of discussions surrounding sexism and women's rights online tend to be co-opted by TERFs, so before any of them potentially get into the comments, i want to clarify that this song, and all of my music + art in general, is not for TERFs. i am trans, and i want to stress that this song can be read from a transfeminine perspective. that's all. thank you to all the wonderful trans people who listen to my music... 🥰🥰🏳⚧🏳⚧🏳⚧
yes!!!!!
im so excited!!!! i cant waittt
weevildoing i love you (platonic)
Tysm!!!!
fuck yeah >:)
I'm Sorry Women
Rodrick heffley:
BRO LOL?!??! HAJHAJA we don't want sorry from people who literally have done nothing wrong
thanks.
@@SHinierthennyourforehead I didn't do anything wrong but it just sucks that people can feel like commodities due to various societal factors.
@@The_Markimator (Btw you can make life way easier for people with those problems by calling your dude bro friends or whoever out on their bs. Its impossible for a victim to say "Hey thats kinda fucked up bro" and save themselves, but to hear from someone in their social ring that its not fucking cool is much more convincing.)
I absolutely adore the double meaning in the line "to be a girl is to be game."
Game as in an animal being hunted, yes, but also game as always being up for something. The lack of consent. The implication that she doesn't get say if things happen to her. That she has to always be game.
I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT thats so smart!!
theres also only being seen as a source of 'entertainment'.
weevildoing writer of the century
I love the duality of this- being told your body and organs are designed for reproduction while simultaneously being told it’s dirty and wrong to use them, the thing that you’re constantly told is what you’re for. That you must make yourself “presentable” to everyone, men and women, to make yourself “desirable” but if you’re desired then it must be your fault for making yourself that way; if you’re not desirable you’re shamed and belittled because “nobody will want you”, treating people like a collectible from the beginning.
Taxidermies usually happen to preserve hunting trophies, showing off kills by the hunter.
Hunting is a traditional masculine hobby (not saying women can’t enjoy it, but due to the themes of how women are put into boxes based on traditional gender roles I feel it’s important to mention) and the character describes how she’s been raised to see herself as prey for men. It’s a beautiful double metaphor, showing her repressed sexual desires mixed with her upbringing of fearing men, but still needing to please them, god, this song fucking hits me right in the Catholic High School
Well it’s good to know I was close to the main message of the story in song form
I NEED to talk about the design for a moment because I haven't seen anyone do so, so far and someone COOKED with her. The song plays on the idea of traditional gender roles, that woman should remain pure, which is why I think she's wearing a flowy housewife-esque dress. However! She's wearing leather underneath which is something that can be seen as kinky. So his her blindfold, which is trying to protect her eyes from something sexual, in and of itself is a sexual thing as blindfolds are often also seen as kinky. The deer antlers as well tie into the fact she's seen as 'prey' by both the men and woman in her life
Although this isn't a song I can really relate too it's still beautiful none the less
YEAH I LOVED THE JUXTAPOSITION OF THE LATEX SUIT UNDERNEATH THE DRESS
YES!!!! SHES SO COOL LOOKING HER DESIGN IS PERFECT
Coming back 2 weeks later from my original reply. Antlers are also a mostly male deer thing (except for like. Reindeer I think) so that could tie into the intersex reading of this song and character
(Edited because my dumbass put deer instead of antlers??? Its past my bedtime/silly
Никогда бы не подумал что повязка на глаза это что-то эротичное... А потом я вспомнил эти открытки из прошлого века
as an intersex person raised a girl... this one hits deeper than i thought any song ever could. i really admire your storytelling paired with the amazing character designs. this project is truly a masterpice
sorry for the insane shit you had to go through(
SAME SMAE
Has nobody mentioned the background footage?? It's the Taxidermy Hall of Fame of North Carolina, a Christian-Owned one-room taxidermy museum made to "Preserve God's Creation" and, aparently, advocate against abortion? Now THAT is some poginiant background imagery. She wants to be taxidermy because she was taught that even if she lost her innocence (a sin to them already) she wouldn't even be able to go back. Oughhhh thank you Weevildoing can't wait for the album to be out on streaming
This is such an important comment 4 context!! Tysm for pointing that out
@@raymanreal Thanks! Nice pfp too
I was very confused as to how weevildoing found a taxidermy museum that was somehow also anti abortion. That’s wild
@@Eosinophyllis ITS HONESTLY SO WEIRD imagine being so pro-life you end up making a museum of dead animals to show everyone you're pro-life
@@Eosinophyllis that’s just how it be in the south
I love the repetition of “to be a girl is to be ___”, it really nails in the idea that society barely views women as human. And the animal metaphors are wonderful, they show how society wants women to be prey instead of predators, to submit to men. Wonderful song!
EXACTLY. it's like being a girl isn't being a girl at all - it's being lost, hunted, inhuman. what's advertised as flowers and pinks is really just a game of cat and mouse
@@squishranger Girl, that's not normal, you need therapy.
@@cheyannegiles9772 the album is literally called the posttraumatic manifesto bro why do you think we're here lmao
who up derming they taxis
me me me.. i am...!
ME ME MEME
LMAOOO MEEE
lol me
wait when did i reply to this
her design just makes so much sense narritively its crazy how Weevildoing always hits the mark with their designs. the look of the housewife type dress over skin tight latex is such a good visual metaphor, and her covered eyes makes me think of another comment that mentioned the idea of "knowing it (sa)'s gonna happen but not knowing when" , and of course,, her antlers :))
Right?? I also think that the latex outfit + mask and the dress is so sexualized but doesn’t actually show much skin is so meaningful for the design!! It works into the idea of feeling gross, undesirable , and depersonalized but also implicitly sexualized.
antlers!!!!!!
1:59. this is a display abt canaries in the mine. chocolate box girl has a line abt canaries!! "the canary in the mine" methinks parallels as both deal w/ 'innocence and purity' and sa as themes!!!!
oh thats fucking genius!! i love the way both songs touch on the same theme but through two extremely different perspectives
at 2:17, there's lyrics referencing caliber girl (deer standing in the headlights/begging you to take it's life vs a wild stallion reduced to a deer in the headlights) which i find interesting cause it implies a extra dimension to what caliber girl's about? i personally think that , among other things, it's a critique of "girlboss feminism" but whatever
i could've sworn i made a comment about this a while ago but idk
When someone tells u to imagine deer antlers, the first thing that typically to mind is antlers that are pointed upwards, while in this video, Taxidermy's antlers are in a downward almost circular shape. It's most noticeable at the chorus, but I noticed Taxidermy's head silhouette kind of resembles the female reproductive system, with the antlers being ovaries.
“Thank you Weevildoing” we all say in unison
Thank you Weevildoing
Thank you Weevildoing 🙏
Thank you Weevildoing!!
thank you weevildoing!!
thank you weevildoing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love all of the theming of this song so much, taxidermy itself is something many people gawk and marvel at, but also something disturbing and unnatural: preventing rot that would otherwise take place and that metaphor slots into the ‘preservation’ of innocence perfectly!
I think it’s also good to mention this character on their post-traumatic manifesto page is mentioned to be 2spirit and native. Being a person of color seen as fem can exacerbate this purity vs sullied dynamic because most girls of color are treated as inherently more promiscuous, more ‘exotic’ than their white counterparts, much like a rare animal.
I also haven’t seen anyone mention this either but the anti-abortion/religious imagery mixed in with the specimens lining up perfectly with the lack of bodily autonomy the singer feels, rightfully so.
In some US states it's easier and more legal to get an abortion for an animal than it is for a person.
(might add more notes later, I'm in love w this song!!)
I’d also like to bring up as a native person myself (though I’m white and Métis so don’t take my experience as everyone’s) that native women specifically get sexualized and objectified at a rate much higher than their non native peers. Almost all MMIWG2S are victims of intimate partner violence, over half of all native women report sexual violence vs less than one in ten amongst the general population, and when native women get hurt by their partners, much less is likely to happen and their deaths go unnoticed. The way people treat me when they know I’m Métis vs when they don’t know is stark and frequently goes from friendly to extremely uncomfortable very, very quickly. Native women are treated like objects for desire at large. Just food for thought.
Also, in some nations, deer are associated with a specific monster (some have taboo around saying its name but I bet you know the one) that arises from cannibalism, so you could additionally take context from that connotation
reminds me of that quote. "godhood is just like girlhood, a begging to be believed", or something like that. this one is the most girl that has ever so far. i think Taxidermy here can speak for all people who fall victim to the horrible religion that is being feminine. absolute art 10/10 i have no further words
edit: bonus thought - thank you, weevildoing, for normalizing the unorthodox sexual desires that come with trauma when so many of us are taught to be ashamed of it. it's no one's fault that it happens to them, so thank you so much for speaking on it. your characters having these desires makes them feel so much more real, even if it's a part of them they themselves don't take much pride in. it's beautifully natural writing and i'm sure it's made more people than just me feel better about themselves.
edit 2: I have so many thoughts that I'm going to write an essay on this song LOL. I'll do that on tumblr tomorrow it's midnight
hit it right on the head. holy shit
cam u..... can u send the essay...
@@Captain_Ravioli7321 i would but i forgot to write it
@@squishranger real
this song is SO good. i love the underlying theme feeling 'dirty' or 'unclean' for being desired sexually yet also wanting to be desired. The "If it's something I don't want, then it couldn't be my fault." is such an INSANELY good line and I was ranting about this exact sort of thing the other day. The sort of 'dark romance' genre that's especially popular nowadays with a common theme of being 'whisked away' by a man who *sounds* almost 'predatory' but is supposed to be built as a protector, with the dark fantasies that tend to follow this genre, stemmed from the exact emotions this song portrays. The concept that, if the man whisks me away and does what he wants with me, then it can't be MY fault. Nobody will blame me, because it wasn't my own choice, even if I wanted it. Yet the man is also portrayed as a protector and a safe house - commonly in some series, it will be a man related to another family member - who despite this demeanor, can reasonably can come to be seen as a safe space. Nobody will get mad at me for "letting him" or "giving myself to him" and they'll never blame me, but he's still also a "safe space" because he isn't ACTUALLY as predatory as he seems at first glance. A note on the side that this also slightly stems from a lot of Christian purity cultures, on top of normal societal ones.
This song is so good and it portrays these emotions and so much more so well. This may be my new favorite post traumatic manifesto song, honestly. I heard those lyrics and I couldn't help but think about all of the 'dark romance' books I see and how they all inherently stem, unknowingly or not, from these emotions and feelings. This song is so fucking good. 10/10 almost made it worth being born a woman
ugghh that dark romance rant is so true tho
No idea why no one is saying this but the sweet flower dress above the 'sinfulness' of the leather gloves and blindfold is such a nice contrast??
It really speaks kind little girl fighting against the sexuality of a grown woman and it's so cool, props to the artist!!!!
As a transmasc this hits pretty close because, despite not being a woman, I'm constantly held to the same standards as both woman and men. I'm supposed to be strong and sportsly or else I'm not REALLY a man, but I'm also supposed to be small, dainty, and androgynous or else I'm too masculine and not allowed because I'm too dangerous despite that "ideal" appearance getting me MISGENDERED ME AT PRIDE despite the trans pin I had on.
It just feels like I'm trapped reaching for something I can never obtain because my ideal body goal isn't what the LGBT community deems acceptable, and the way I look now (small, dainty, androgynous) means no one is going to see me as a man, ever.
Being a girl even once mean you're trapped forever.
As someone with extreme genophobia(fear of s3xual intimacy) this song really describes the fear and distress I feel towards s3xual topics, thank you weevildoing!!
As a trans man, this song hits hard; it displays the traumatic aspects of girlhood that I experience[d], yet from the perspective of someone who no longer identifies with femininity, it feels like that suffering was for nothing.
hard agree. as another trans guy, this song really captures what its like growing up a girl and having these ideas drilled into your head
Yeeessss right??
same! even tho im a male i relate to the song
Non-binary here, I also really relate
Transmasc here! Completely agree
i like the latex. to be so covered yet still displayed through the tight constriction of the material
and the red ribbon reminds me of lucia; a red band around the middle to represent blood from a stab wound (and also lucia being:
- a christian saint
- married away by her mother
- killed by being accused by a rejected suitor
- modernly used a symbol for women's (girl's) power in marriage disputes
- got eyes scooped out before execution and therefore depicted with a blindfold like the character has.
am i reaching? i am, who cares
@@alicepersson9568 OH MY GOD????? I DIDN'T SEE THIS COMMENT BUT THIS IS GENIUS
@@alicepersson9568 "got eyes scooped out before execution so depicted with a blindfold" OH MY GOD. HAVE YOU READ THE MOST RECENT ??? UPDATE ON TPTM CARRD? if u havent and are fine with me spoiling it to you let me know
My mom told me that at my Catholic school parent-teacher conferences, our teacher (a Sister) said she could tell which of the kids were doing /stuff/ on the internet by looking at the shame in their eyes.
This song reminded me of that, always feeling dirty.
Wow that is like...There are LAYERS to unpack there. Wow. I hope those children all got the chance to unlearn the shame that was inflicted upon them.
i've noticed that both this song and chocolate box girl, both about SA, uses metaphors of being consumed to refer to being assaulted. In Chocolate Box girl, it refers to himself as a chocolate to be consumed. Here, this character refers to themself as prey to be hunted and consumed, either by a predator or a hunter.
Taxidermy girl and caliber girl (both of which are about societal expectations) make repeated references to deer!
As a non-binary AFAB who was a victim of SA, this hits deep. I knew it was going to happen eventually according to the statistics, but I never saw it coming until it happened.
Not to mention the amount of dysphoria with knowing very very well what parts I was born with.
SAME.
the lyrics in this song is one of the most powerful you've written, it emphasized exactly what it's like to grow up as a woman and to be put on a stage
The irony of this whole display of taxidermy paired with the anti-abortion sign (2:16). The cognitive dissonance is a sight to behold, countless animals hunted down and put on display, and right under is a condemnation of abortions justified by the commandment “thou shalt not kill”. Whoever put this together, just wow. I am not saying that taxidermy is inherently wrong, but it’s strange to be so fixated on the wellbeing of embryos while having all your kills stuffed on the wall. The embryo is a hypothetical life that is worshipped, meanwhile the person who has to sacrifice to give life to that embryo is seen as nothing but an animal that will live out their “purpose” and be put on display after their death. At some point I wanna sit down and analyze all the signs as they relate to the song.
AAA AAAAHHH AHHH AAHHHH AHAHHHHHHH OK I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ON THUIS..... THIS SONG IS SO GOOD IT'S THEMES R SO GOOD
taxidermy girl came at like the perfect time in my life cuz i've been reflecting a lot on my views of sexuality and sex based on my upbringing,, u can probably see that specifically in dysgoreia, but it's been something that's followed me my entire life
something i've specifically been thinking about a lot is the way in which sexual development can turn dysfunctional in a lot of cases. like,, in ur core sexual development phase, your brain will latch to ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to associate with sex and implement into your larger emotional profile. when you've been raised to believe sex is inherently evil, sinful, something to be ashamed of, something that will dirty you, you will begin to associate those specific feelings with what sex looks like, and when you have such an unhealthy view of sex, every way you may choose to explore your sexuality will also be unhealthy in-turn
and like...the really upsetting thing is that ideas of morality or normativity are largely human-made construct. the psychosexual brain does not give a single FUCK about how morally-acceptable or discomforting something may be, it'll make you experience these feelings regardless of whether or not you want to experience them, and that makes assigning moral values to sex so much more difficult to navigate, especially for people who may struggle with having kinks or fetishes born out of sexual trauma
this is also like,, part of the reason i'm obsessed with taxidermy girl having themes strongly surrounding BDSM (both in her design and carrd profile), because will the BDSM community does get constantly reduced to being sexual deviants or perverts or whatever, they're some of the kindest and most accepting people you'll meet. the cornerstones of BDSM are comprised of consent and reclamation, reclamation of trauma-based associations surrounding sex. the whole point of BDSM is to be able to practice what may give you sexual satisfaction in an environment where everything is safe, sane, and consensual. bc our sexual needs are, well, needs, and ppl deserve to b able to express themselves sexually in contexts where they won't hurt themselves or others
IDK I'M JUST... .I LOVE TAXIDERMY GIRL SO MUCH AN D I LOVE EVERYTHING ABT HER.... AHAAHHHUUHHHHHHH
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Trans girl here! Thank you for making this song, the lyrics flow so well and do a great job at giving away the idea behind the song through metaphors. I am a big fan of the vocal flow and the composition of the song as well, it's really rare to see a Maika song nowadays! I hope this will inspire more people to use her too.
The illustration and MV are also very helpful at conveying the message and giving context to the lyrics. (The character art is very fitting to both the color composition and song themes in the MV, imo)
I will be looking forward to your future songs and the rest of TPTM series, which I've been a fan of for a while. Great job to everyone involved! Thank you for making this series/project.🧡🤎
i agree with everything you said! Weevildoing's lyrics are amazing and deep, i always spend a lot of time trying to understand them,and the mv are so simple yet so good at conveing the message ˆ_ˆ
The comparison between the fear and desire to be abused and hurt with a deer in headlights is genuinely the best I've ever heard it put. This is incredible,, keep up the good work Weevil ^u^
The instrumental is innocent and elegant yet has a sinister undertone to it. The lyrics that stick out to me the most are "in love with the idea of me, mount my head on a wall" and "An innocence forever intact". The first lyric is probably the singer's skewed view of wanting admiration, as women often compared to/seen as like a trophy or property. The second one could either be the singer trying to and maybe succeeding in keeping their innocence but in a catastrophically wrong way or my personal guess is it's referring to how women are stereotyped as "innocent" and deemed they can do no wrong(?) but that's just my take on those lyrics. This and Chocolate Box Girl are my two favorites from this album so far ^^
I love the way these songs portray sexual traumas. Its so theraputic honestly. Especially this one with the development of 'abnormal' desires and such,, its something that i feel isnt. Depicted in media enough and tptm does it so well
Seeing a new TPTM the day after I get discharged from the hospital after a rough surgery is such a treat, i'm so excited to see waaaa!!! keep cooking weevil!!!
I hope your recovery goes well!!!
Right at the warning i knew this one was gonna reach into my soul and directly translate it into a song. “Vague sexual trauma” story of my life tbh
idk if youll read this comment but honestly these songs are so so so important to me with regards to themes of like, intrusive thoughts that often merge/seep into masochistic feelings, if that makes any sense? uncomfortable and unwanted feelings that to cope with the mind takes and almost sort of ‘translates’ into something reminiscent of a self destructive/masochistic fantasy and all the conflicting and messy feelings of guilt and shame that come with that, and then that shame and guilt fuelling more self-destructive thoughts of deserving abuse which fuels that cycle… AUGH it’s super hard to explain but weevildoing your songs, this one as well as the other PTM songs and deviant just… capture that confusing and messy and shameful feeling in such such an impactful way. It really means alot to me, thank you for making the songs you do and putting these sorts of messy and ugly feelings into art.
I think this song hurt more than anything I’ve listened to in a while, because Jesus Christ is this something I lived through when I was younger. I’m so glad I don’t think like that anymore but I don’t think many people ever really talk about just how damaging it is to grow up being told that you’re dangerous and disgusting and abhorrent for having desires that are, for many, just… sort of a part of the human experience (not for everyone obviously, but a majority of people still). It rubs off on how you view yourself and others. The mystification and ritualization of sex and sexual experiences leads to people who live with unhealthy sexual lives, unhealthy relationships, and unhealthy views of themself. It’s sad. This song makes me want to cry a little.
I also love the comparisons you’ve made with how this sort of upbringing can correlate so heavily with very intense forms of BDSM and kink like noncon (at least that’s the impression I got). Because that’s something else I’ve also experienced from being raised like this, to believe my body, and the bodies of other women, exist for the use of others. Used by men for sex, used to create a life, and yet both of things are also dirty and immoral. God this is a good song
Not only is this song really good but it hit hard, my family has been silently trying to make me be more feminine even though they've accepted my older sister being a butch lesbian for years. That they tell me to be free with my expression of myself yet have taught me to feel shame for my exposed skin and for my gender not being in typical perception of a girl or a boy or even human. This songs feeling of being stuck and no one being happy with your appearance really hits because I was always told to not care what other people thought of me but the moment I expressed my own ideas I was judged and told I would be hated and that it was wrong. My family (mainly my mothers side of the family) trying to get me to open up so that they could trap me and expose me to the rest of the family so they could make fun of me and then tell me to be less offended. God this song comforts me in ways I didn't know possible
While I can't relate to this song on everything its theming makes me feel a bit better that I'm not alone. The themes of forced femininity, repressing of sexual urges, religious pressure, the pain of growing up around people who only want to control you, and having to fight to be considered equal to men are things I've experienced. I've never really been able to find a comfort song before but this just makes me feel seen. Thank you Weevildoing!
I don't normally comment on videos a lot but I relate to this song the most out of the TPTM. As someone who has unfortunately been exposed to a lot of inappropriate media at a young age and is currently struggling with hypersexuality and my own gender, this song hit me like a truck. I feel seen with this song and I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who's experienced something like this. Thank you for making this song and this whole song series too.
I love how maika rolls her Rs on Gracefully Declawed its sooo GGRGRVG (GRAAGAN RHAAAA AGRA AAAAAG very cool
I'll just directly quote a conversation I had with a female friend, "The worst a bear can do is *just* kill you, men on the other hand-" The implication that men can and have done and will do much worse than something as bad as murder...? Its bone chilling, I can't help but consider this as being trans femme. Which, the conversation was adjacent to the subject of my trans femininity since that is what we were last talking about. What are my fellow trans fems opinions on becoming a person with such a higher chance of being a victim of violence? Has this in any way made you worried about being fem in public? People who have already transitioned fully (I have not in the sense that I am still 18 and unfortunately live with my parents), what have you noticed first hand when it comes to mistreatment due to being a woman (not a transwoman specifically)?
Women can do the exact same bad things to you as a man can. According to research, men and women actually have the same rate of being sexually assaulted, so no you are not actually at a higher risk of violence due to being a woman, you're at a higher risk of violence cause you're trans, be glad you're not a trans man, they have the highest rate in the lgbtq community of being correctively raped. The reason it seems like women are more likely to be victimized is because women can talk about that kind of thing when it happens to them and men can't
I am AFAB, but I have noticed...When someone wants to hurt a man, they beat them up. When someone wants to hurt a woman, they sexually assault them. Even if they have no sexual motive. Women are so deeply ingrained as sexual beings that people default to shifting their violence against them to a more sexual or sadistic manner.
yk, i find it interesting that the song is all about being biologically female, but antlers are typically only on male deer, with them being used to fight. not only does this make me think of transmasculine connotations, but it also resonates with me with the idea of reclaiming how people see you into something sexually liberating. itd be impossible to tell she was a deer if she didn’t have the antlers, almost as if she’s just embodying the ‘idea’ of being prey.
these character designs always make me think theyre so damn layered
I think the antlers hint at her being canonically intersex !
Edit: Didn't guess it right bt the actual meaning rules!!! Makes a lot of sense. Weevildoing your lyrics never cease to amaze. Actual poetry
My bet is maybe familial abuse or domestic abuse; taxidermy as a metaphor for an attempt to control the way a person is, to make them stay who you want them to be and not the person they have changed into. Just thinking about how some people get their dead pets taxidermied as a way to cope with grief, but also how hunters will put their taxidermied kills on display as trophies, the same is often done to children by overbearing and selfish parents. I saw someone mention that the girl might feel as if she is dead, so it could also be about depersonalization? I know whenever I feel depersonalized it's like I'm stuffed with cotton. So that'd be a vibe.
I'm so glad I discovered TPTM. I've never felt so seen by any music. I have a lot of trauma, and nothing has encapsulated my mindsets and feelings more than this album, and it's helping me get through a really tough stage since a relatively recent arc's trauma is finally starting to set in. I love your music, please don't spontaneously combust
I've always had gender dysphoria ever since i could feel. It's not only been put on stage, i feel non-existent in people's eyes no matter how intensily i express my autonomy. Reinforcing gender roles can give even cis people gender dysphoria. They don't love the authentic you, just the idea of you. You're the fucking poem instead of the poet. I never felt a connection to any gender, i only found myself through art, so i dont even know how to express that through gender identity.
Even appreciating/highlighting my disconnected appearance makes me feel dysphoric and caged, but trying to pinpoint why feels wrong
This is genuinely one of the best vocaloid songs ive ever heard. I cannot stop blasting this song it is so PEAK
Making her a deer is actually so well-fitting in the sense of (typically men) showing off their flesh/heads as something to be proud of
hits close to home as a transmasc genderfluid who suffered from precocious puberty, my experience has been very painful and i've had so many terrible thoughts due to it :( thanks so much weevildoing, i already had predictions about this being about precocious puberty but this was a lot more than i expected ! in a great way of course
This ones a big SAME to be tbh, been listening it over and over since it dropped bc somehow, it helped me to understand why my desires of having something more "close" with my partner feels so scary to me.
Im a lesbian, no one on my family knows yet bc i know they will heavily dissaprove (theyre evangelic/catholic and they have been REALLY clear that they despise homosexuals in so many levels) and sometimes i cant help but feel dirty for wanting something Sexual, dirty for even liking women, dirty for not being what everyone else expected from me like ive been taught to. This is an absolute masterpiece and i wanna say thank you for helping me to understand myself a bit better.
THE WAY I SCREAMED IN EXCITEMENT OVER SEEING THIS ON MY RECOMMENDED.
Taxidermy huhh? So I'm guessing it's gonna be like of someone who is put on display or something. Based off the name but IM SO EXCITED AAAAAAAAHH
idk if its my headphones making the pitch slightly lower or if its because im sick but oh my GODDDD im convinced that all songs sound better with a slightly lower pitch
SOMEONE PLEASE PUT THIS SONG IN A FUCKING DAYCORE PLEAAAAAAAASE UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i love how melancholic the instrumental sounds with this one
i always have to be careful when i listen to these songs. 1: bc they involve trauma and trigger warnings, but 2: BECAUSE THEY'RE SUCH BANGERS AND IF I LISTEN TO IT ONCE I'LL SPEND THE NEXT 3 HOURS LISTENING TO IT ON REPEAT UNTIL I CANNOT STAND THE SONG ANYMORE
i resonate with this song so much that i don't even know what to say about how hard it hits that _won't_ turn into a traumadump. thank you weevildoing
Incredible. Just incredible. Chords are super crazy, lyrics are gut wrenchingly clear yet still artistic... Everything is so mechanical and stiff in a good way.
what the weevil doing
♡. я плачу от этой песни. это действительно затронуло.. но звучит просто невероятно красиво...
IM SO HYPED FOR THIS CHARACTER THEY HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DESIGN!!! :3
the 1:39 section genuinely hurts.
Im kinda late but, the instrumentals feel so chaotic and yet so gentle i love it, and the lyrics are really good and relatable to me in a way. Another amazing song weevil!
I LOVE TAXIDERMY AND IM PLANNING ON MAKING A TAXEDERMY-CORE PLAYLIST SO TY FOR THE SAUCE
are past updates of the ??? page going to be available to read again once the project is over? since the new ??? update obviously overrides the old one, im wondering if there is/will be a way to read all the past ??? updates again./nf
PLEASE WEEVILDOING... JUST MISS ONCE.... you've HIT me 7 TIMES and i KEEP COMING BACK FOR MORE!!!
Commenting so this song can reach more people that might need it.
I love the lyrics in this one. They sound and flow very well, and are deeply meaningful+ tie into the theming well without being overly cryptic.
I think the only thing I might have a bit of reservation' about is that the song goes very suddenly from prechorus to chorus, and then out of the chorus
I just feel like there could be a few more seconds of music between the lyrics to allow for a smoother transition.
But overall, this is really nicely made! I enjoyed it.
You're doing amazing work by making these songs, and I adore the characters you've created. I wish you the best!
I was thinking the pro-"life" imagery and bible quotes alongside animals that were killed just to serve as display pieces (I noticed even the sign about the OCTOPUS has a bible verse cited for no reason???) is very reminiscent of the state I grew up in. Lo and behold, it literally is in NC. 💀
I'm not great with words, but the theme of contradictions between the "values" we're ingrained with from a young age vs the general disregard for life in culture, plus the cognitive dissonance it creates, really resonates with me.
just cried tears to this song despite having listened to it through yr patreon countless times before, this might be my favorite of yours
WE GOING IN THE WOODS WITH THIS ONE!!!!
I wish this song could have been here when I was younger. It still feels very cathartic for my inner 20-year-old, and even inner child. No one ever did anything bad to me I don't think, my trauma was more from absorbing purity culture and rape culture from the zeitgeist around me as a young child, dealing with my feelings alone, as well as being alone with my gender dysphoria. I've never seen a piece of art that really made me feel understood like this song does. Thank you for making this.
I love how the song just starts with a bang
Prediction before the song premires: I think the song might be about being neurodivergent, with taxidermy being used a a way to study things. She probably has trouble not being perceived as a person, being too “wild” for other people and being likened more to a rabid animal. Either way I’m soooo hype!!!!
I like this theory!
I've had Chocolate Box Girl on repeat, IM SO EXCITED FOR TONIGHT !!!
this song is so impactful i don’t think it’s possible to put into words what these experiences are like but this song almost embodies them. another beautiful song as always, love your work ❤
You’re probably the best lyricist in the vocaloid community omg 😭😭😭 love this
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR HER SINCE THE VERY FIRST MONTH WHEN I BECAME YOUR PATRON. I'M SO HAPPY :3
As an afab person who was abducted to a fascist state and barely escaped not so long ago when it felt like coming back from war, seeing this actually being recognised as a problem brought me to tears.
is the deer imagery in reference to Lady Deer? since taxidermy girl is native and i think it really really ties in closely with their story and themes. additionally - what nation(s) or region is taxidermy girl from ? :D
@@GOTHICNINJA yes i know ^w^ its why i asked ehe. and my second question is specifically what indigenous nation or region theyre from, cuz its very very broad and varied (also cuz i wanna draw them tradish.. i luv drawing native characters tradish :D). im plains native :3 /nm
@@catinatree1305 my dumbass thought you were asking if she was native oh my skibidi toilet rizz 😭😩👎👎👎
@@GOTHICNINJA dkjfhskdjf its okay 😭♥
@@catinatree1305weevildoing has mentioned on their tumblr they imagine some of the girls to be peruvian-quechuan (like themselves!) so thats what I assume, or at least headcanon!!
@@mr_alphabet0 thankyou so much! ^_^ :D
I'm transmasc with (what I'm guessing to be) Hypersexuality disorder, and secual trauma of some sort (almost every afab in my life has been sexually assaulted, I'm afraid I'm next. Also i had unrestricted access to the Internet at a young age.), and this song and character page hit so hard for me.
Need to be pure, need to be sinful. Need to keep safe, need to let loose. Need to practice abstinence, need to give in to temptation.
A reminder of what I'm supposed to be, carried on my body, a reminder of what I'm supposed to do, supposed to create, as much as the mere idea sickens me.
I've envisioned myself as a rotting prey animal in vent art, so it jurs hits even closer when considering that.
THEYRE BEAUTFILL IM SO ESCITED
Hi folly pfp
GAHSIDGDHD I already love her I can’t wait for this to be released :3
i was a bit upset to have missed the premier by an hour, but i clicked as soon as i saw it on my home page!
upon a second listen (now at 2am, and with earbuds this time) it hits so much harder. i will be sad when the series is over, but am excited to see how it concludes!
OMG THIS IS GONNA BOP
WAS LITERALLY LISTENING TO YOUR SONGS RN
I’m really glad this song was made. As a trans girl, I obviously know that this song is more for and about the afab experience, but I can’t help but feel a connection tbh. It feels like all the things I felt I had to live up to in order to be considered a “real woman” by society. And the part about “urges” also spoke to me in two way: Both in the normal, more conventional sexual way (where anything I take pleasure in is going to be considered deviant by society just due to who I am) but also in the almost perverse honor I felt in being objectified by men. I felt that if I was feminine enough to be objectified, catcalled, etc. I was finally able to consider myself a “real woman”. (Also not to mention the bonkers notion of “autogynephilia” that exists in some people’s heads.) But that’s just my two cents, and while I’m in a better place now, this song really spoke to my earlier experiences in transition. Thank you.
I’d disagree with your point about it being solely for AFAB people, taxidermy girl is for anyone and everyone who gets gendered as a woman. This includes trans women. Just because you weren’t born with the corresponding genitalia doesn’t mean you still don’t get treated like a woman, including the nasty misogyny. Best of luck to you my friend.
@@Eosinophyllis oh yeah I’m not denying that there are readings of the song that transfem people can relate to, but there’s also a lot of bioessentialist language in there. And I recognize that it’s there for a reason. I just wanted to caveat my statement beforehand is all.
Hey, you feel the trauma, you get in the band wagon, bestie. Even the character featured in the video isn't a woman, they're two-spirit (IIRC). Hop on in, we're driving straight to hell, its gonna be lit.
I don't know if Weevildoing edited the pinned comment after you commented this, but they said this song can be read from a transfem perspective ❤ You're not stepping on anyone's toes by relating to it. Gender essentialism absolutely hurts trans women too
while i understand the meaning of the song is very much "the worst parts of being/being perceived as a woman", i feel like the repeated mentions of the idea of "being a woman = suffering" could easily also be applied to how ppl with "white guilt" tend to view black people - how many movies have you seen featuring black protagonists that ADDRESS their blackness that ISN'T centered entirely around their suffering? i've been personally noticing the turnabout of what i like to call "blackaboos". people so engrossed in african american culture that they try to mimick it like it's some sort of aesthetic. some i've noticed even say the n slur. i've jokingly said that "they wanna be black SO bad" but... damn. i haven't even gotten into people stealing AAVE and claiming it was something "the internet just spat out one day". white ppl are in love with the idea of a black person.
EDIT: i feel like mentioning this read came from me thinking of making my own "girl" song about that subject as well as whitewashing (as in, a POC erasing their own culture in order to fit in with their white peers)
please tell me if I’m overstepping with this comment, but considering all your points could also be applied to indigenous people and taxidermy girl is 2spirit… this reading adds a lot
@@Eosinophyllisit's not overstepping at all! i mainly mentioned black stuff because i personally am black, but i could definitely see it being taken with the perspective of indigenous people instead!!
This fits my experiences so well, especially as a trans girl. You're making incredible art, Towne
literally just yesterday i was looking through your account again wondering where she was... so excited!
I will be sleeping when this releases, but man, will I have a banger to listen to when I wake up 🦋 🐜
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So excited
Been listening to the whole postraumatic manifesto so far, and when I was thinking about it, a new song appears! :D
The work and effort on these songs are fantastic and wonderful, thank you for making these songs! Looking forward for more in the future
brain buzzing violently, this is amazing ty for gracing us
SO SORRY IF THIS IS NOT THE RIGHT PLACE FOR IT BUT SEEING THE FISHER IN THE VIDEO MADE ME SO HAPPY THEYRE MY FAVOURITE ANIMAL
i had the same reaction when the bobcat appeared
This was my top song on youtube and idk if thats concerning or not
Hoollllyyy shit this is so good! I’m so glad I caught the premiere of this!
Honey wake up, the TPTM has been updated
I AM HITTING A JIG BRO
I LOVE THIS SERIES OMG
LET’S GO?????
YASS
I MISS PREMIRE BUT THIS HORRIFICALLY BEAUITUL YESS THANK YOU ALWASY
This song was so good!! I’m gonna listen to it for like an hour straight now!! another banger as always!! :D
this goes so hard i love your music