1 YEAR SOBER: The Story of an Alcoholic
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My Story
My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
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I'm at 785🎉🎉🎉🎉 I feel great and I have no plans for turning back!!! Tons of regrets related to drinking but, the one at the top of the list is I wish I could have stopped it sooner than I did. Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds so familiar in a lot of ways . Even the school story.
Bro, that was a rough ride.
I am 64 days sober. I just felt like sharing that somewhere.
Good for you, Greg. Keep up the good work!
Greg Brown keep going. You're in the right place ☕️☕️🍪🍶God Bless stay strong
Awesome! I have 6 days myself and feel fantastic :)
Mandy how are you doing?
Greg Brown how are you doing Greg?
45 days sober. I love how my life and health have changed. My wife loves the 12 lbs gone and the belly slowly disappearing! I’m 62 and it’s never to late to start!!!
Great message, wish you well brother!
I just passed 6 months... No meetings here... Just woke up one day and said enough is enough.
Were the withdrawals bad? I've been drinking for 10 years and really want to quit
@@MrMomoitin If you drink EVERY day and you're really gonna try to stop, I'd suggest doing it under medical supervision man, seizure risk is a definite concern. Its definitely doable man
@@MrMomoitin I drank every night for several years. Drank every day for several years and then, I stopped. Why.....blah, blah, doesn't matter. I stopped and am glad I did six months now. As far as withdrawl, I don't remember anything significant. The third night without alcohol I remember being very cold or at least shivering in bed.... who knows, maybe that was my D.T. moment. Regardless, I've just pushed on every day happy to wake up without shame and regret. I feel better, look a little thinner....and have an inner pride that keeps me from giving in. If I can do it, you can too. Anyone can. It just has to be a priority. Good luck.
That’s great will power my friend. I hope to have this will power too 🙏🏾
@@MrMomoitin
The first month was a little rough. But it gets easier with each passing day. I'm now at 10 months and going strong
Came back to this video today. It helped me. Last time I was trying to get sober. Today marks 1200 days. Sometimes, we do recover.
Finding this video for the first time today
@@adamrobertson2048 Four years later, still sober. Keep working. You will be glad you did brother.
@@sleeperno1215 congrats I realized the other day that I once went 40 days without drinking and it was the kindest stretch I've done in 16 years. I'm on day zero right now
@@adamrobertson2048 you were on day zero. You are closing in on day one. This is huge. Don’t give up. Please don’t give up.
@@sleeperno1215 thank you 🙏 I won't!
i havent had a drink in a year. thought id celebrate by finding other stories.
Congrats! Keep it up :)
well done! :)
Hey cheers . thanks. Btw This story sounds a lot like mine. I started training in BJJ when i quit drinking. It has just given that extra little something to keep me on the right side of myself.
you need to summon some serious strength from deep inside of yourself. ancient strength. like some Spartan shit. think of your ancestors , what they dealt with. mission impossible. join the gym. start running. get some good audio books to help you understand what your people are going through and that they need you.. im not joking. HARDEN UP. FIGHT
Congratulations. Day 12 for me, and I'm starting to feel like myself again. Life seems to be getting easier and easier, and I actually appreciate the sunlight again.
Good for you man... I'm on day 32 with no booze right now... life is a fucking trip at the momment... I'm 28 years old and I've been drinking since 16 years old... I haven't been sober for 30 days in 10 + years... what a fucking trip.... never going back to alcohol.. Feeling damn good about myself right now
+matt mazer never say never, take it one day at a time
Keep it up man! You can do it.
+matt mazer Keep it up Matt
congrats matt, and you should feel good about yourself! every day is a victory...368 and counting for me...
+matt mazer Keep it up buddy, you can do it !!!!
I'm happy to say that I now have 12 years of sobriety. I'm so grateful to all the people in my life that helped me. A sober life is possible. Much love to everyone here trying to maintain their sobriety. Also love to those who are contemplating quitting alcohol. Good luck to you all.
I lost my son to my alcoholism. He's with his dad and he is healthy and thriving but everyday I still struggle but wanting to get sober. Thank you for this, I now know that I can get through this and become better for not only myself but for my life and my baby boy.
How are you doing today? All the best to you, I believe you can do it!
3 years sober for me. Imagine waking up covered in piss and vomit after a 7 day binger, then walking to the bathroom only the throw up blood in the sink. Now also imagine the thing that caused that, to be the only thing you look forward to during the week. It's a hard decision, and I respect everyone who went through the process of giving it up. Best of luck to all of you
I've been studying quitting drinking and discovered an awesome website at Sebs Magic Tactic (check it out on google)
Well done, man. Total respect
God bless you,Man Kev.
I went on a 42 day binger and I’ve been clean for 2 months now and I’m struggling badly, I just never feel normal I feel like death 24/7 and I’m stuck in a dream I mean I feel a little better than I did will it just take time or is this permanent
Ty for all of your support Bro!!!
The worse thing I found about quitting drinking was finding out that 80% of my best friends had nothing in common with me at all except for drinking! After I quit they didn't even want to hang out or even talk to me it was like I was diseased ! But being sober isn't that bad I got into fun hobbies and I can be around people that drink I'm just not the life of the party lol !
God bless you Camshaft. be happy that you found out they were not your friends. one good friend is better than thousands of fake so called "friends."
Those weren't your friends, then
Yes, there will be people who just don't understand recovery, it took about 2 and a half years in recovery to start getting back into doing the things that i loved doing again. Just keep moving forwards in life one day at a time, you will meet lots of other people in recovery that will enjoy hanging out doing all kinds of fun stuff.
Fuck the friends,social part is what keeps most people drinking.If you dont like me sober you are not my friend.I rather live with no friends,then with ones imposing something on me.
@@gav321 I can appreciate this comment.
Today is my 50th day sober 👊 Heres to many more !
Thanks for helping those you have worked with.
50 years is a long time.
Congrats........
I want to get sober, currently 6 hours sober and I’ve been going through it. Was on a three day bender back to back drinking hard liquor and blacking out. I haven’t eaten in 3 days. I had tremors like crazy. I experienced alcohol neuropathy and lost feelings in my hands and feet. I was freaking out. I literally thought that I was going to die. I can’t keep doing this to myself. I’m only 19 years old and I’ve been drinking since I was 11. After last night I’m done. I cannot live like this any longer. Alcohol has always done me more harm than good. It is the devil.
Please stop now! Youre way too young. I started at 14 now I'm 27 and alcohol has caused me nothing but trouble. Last week I went on a 5 day binge drinking session, ended up in the hospital...Trust me girl, you dont want more years of this. I wish I would have gotten sober when I was your age. So many years wasted, literally. Please save yourself now.
I’ve had to get benzodiazepines off my doctor today to help me with withdrawals and anxiety/ insomnia I’m 40 I just can’t do this no more 🙏🏽🙏🏽
One thing that really helped me was to go running for two miles. It gets a lot of the alcohol out of your system and you don’t have that warm slimy thing in your brain whispering to you.
And take vitamin b complex. Alcohol depletes you of it, especially thiamin which is a major cause of neuropathy if you don’t have it.
If youre truly an alcoholic you cant just decide to stop. You should consider the 12 steps if you believe you are an alcoholic. For me the solution described in the Alcoholics Anonymous book was the only way.
If you give the program an honest and thorough effort, I have no doubt that anyone can recover. I know it sounds cheesy and ridiculous when youre in the horrible depths of alcoholism or addiction but why not give it a real try if nothing else has worked?
Everyone who is trying to stay sober or is CONGRATULATIONS !
8 months sober
I’ve focused on career
Woke up and smelled the coffee.
Yea, for some people... you can literally wake up and change... you just suddenly come to a realization that’s too obvious to ignore... but for other people... it’s definitely not like that. Congratulations.
Just passed my one year sober a couple of days ago! To all of you starting out, stick with it, you can do it!! Looking forward to the next year now.
Are you still sober after 6 years?
6 months alcohol free. Temptation hits every day. My mind is stronger than that. Every day it gets easier. We are no better or worse than anyone else. We do it for us. Keep going, brother. Glad you’re keeping it moving.
Intelligent, determined, articulate and strong. God bless and thank you.
+Larry Lantz you're very kind Larry. God bless you too.
+Larry Lantz
I agree
Hey Jon--fuck off--why, you jealous?
No shit,he's probably never had a problem.Or had someone close to you going thru it.
Why do you say that?
I started drinking when I was 13. By the time I was 16 I was hooked. I never went anywhere without a case of beer or a bottle of booze. In my mid 20's I dropped the beer and only drank the hard stuff. By the time I was 30 I was up to a half gallon of Jim Beam a day. I lost my job, girlfriends that left cause they were not going to stick around to see me kill myself. My Mom died of cancer in 2011 and I got worse, the I don't care if I live or die attitude. When they say you have to hit rock bottom it is true. I always knew I was an alcoholic and never hid it or denied it. As a matter of fact it was like a badge of honor where I live. Finally in January of 2013 I just decided I had enough. Within tree days I was in rehab, and what I learned was I didn't need rehab, I just needed some time away where I can't drink. It took over a year till my body adjusted. If I would have known it would only take 30 days to quit drinking and smoking I still would not have went, because I never WANTED to quit. Once the decision was made to quit it was much easier than I expected. For everyone out there who thinks it is impossible to quit you are wrong. I never even went to an AA meeting. My Dad shot himself two months after I came out of rehab and still did not pick up a drink. Almost five years now and I hardly even think about booze. The key is you have to WANT to quit. If you want something bad enough nothing will stop you. Good luck to all who are now sober, and to all who want to get sober.
Congrats sir, i hope you're doing great
nice job man. i have quit the booze myself because it was making me feel sick as hell and i was getting brutal panick attacks the next morning. so literally i got sick and tired of FEELING sick and tired so i havent thought this way ever in my life but deffinitley when you hit rock bottom it can be a life saver man i hear you
ourlad 1970 thank you my dad is in that position right now makes me feel a lot more comfortable with everything
Wow you’ve had it hard 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💚
well I was born in 1970 if that is what your screen name's meaning is, I figured it might be but it might not be that, but I have three years of sobriety in as of july 2019, I added dieting, no sauces and no dips, no crunchy things, chips, crackers, cookies etc., no noodles or macaronis, no candy...….no food within food like tacos, sandwiches, burritos, pies as they are not right enough for the Lord to bless, try this because in all of the time of the no sauces no dips diet.....no endeepened harsh colds or flues maybe just a hack or a sneeze because of allergies in the spring and summer but no more real sicknesses. it has been great, I feel better and better every year. im in great shape, by going sober and dieting, I feel stronger, clearer in my overall unity with Christ, im ready for the prophecied end, I know I will endure as I know it all will happen very suddenly but I also know it brings the Lord back into the world! get ready my friend, he's coming again!
8 months sober today! Sobriety is like being born again. AA is the way
still sober? online aa meetings
january161992 two years now!
@@danielallen674 AWESOME!
@K Maxx just had 29 years last month
@@justanotherdrunk still sober! over 3 years now. I dont even think about drinking. complete freedom! well done for 29 years!! what an achievement
Only 3 days sober but I wanted to thank you for making this. Hope to have your strenght.
Good job buddy.. Stay strong bro. You're strong.. Each day is better than the day before.
How ru doing now?
Thank you for the upload. I've been an alcoholic for 12 years, I'm now 29, I've been sober for 7 days now. Just taking one day at a time :)
considering you made that comment a month ago i'm hoping its been 1 month 7 days sober
The Vegan Traveller naltrexone. .
Sonia Hema tried it, It does help with cravings but if your head isn't in the right place it doesn't target the problem. Sadly I'm not sober atm but hoping to be in the future. Thank you for the advice though it's much appreciated :)
The Vegan Traveller can you not get the injection..that's way you don't choose when you take it...
Sonia Hema wasn't aware of an injection.. I'll look into it :)
I gave up Alcohol about 6 years ago, it was the best decision of my life. If you can.find the courage and strength to persevere (fill the space with something positive) then life will shower subtle gifts upon you. Freedom from addiction is awesome. Do it.......it is the only way.
I'm crying as I listen to this, I relate sooo much to this. Started drinking at age 15 and I'm 28 today, had my fair share of relapses and numerous failed relationships...ect. I always felt like I needed alcohol because I always thought that's who I was. I'm so thankful I've found this video. Thank you so much for uploading this. This gives me so much hope
are you still sober?
@@justanotherdrunk yes
@@utahnnajones8887 AWESOME!
That’s kind of crazy I literally said to myself you look a lot like my friend named chantel and then I saw you have the exact same last name as her. I hope you are doing well.
Well done sober sister! Stay strong! ❤️🙏
15 years and going strong.1 day at a time.not looking back
I'm pretty sure this video just saved my life. Thank You!
Carson Hernandez 3 weeks sober here! stay strong
You guys still sober? Still praying for you.
able nin
sobriety sucks....the needle is better
I love seeing comments like this, always remember your a miracle, your worth it. and you matter!!!
I got three days my friend!!! Keep it up!!!!
Im 8 days sober
Thank you for sharing your story
So similair to mine
I hoe you have many more days of recovery today!!!!
Nevada Mareno how’s it going?
Thank you give me hope. I'm trying just like you. Don't know If The cigarets Will get me . Or the alcohol. I'm just like you. Thanks for posting. I don't. And I'm scared. Because it's hard. I'm not much different than you.
I had planned to only listen for a few minutes but 34 minutes later I have to say that I feel so connected you and your story because you truly spoke from your heart. Wish you all the best
Dude ur inspiration !
I was sober for two years and recently relapse and its really affected my kids and my family I'm now on the road to recovery 🙏
Going through my own battle with alcohol just now. Hand on heart I have so much respect for anyone who can admit they have a problem and face up to it, not easy at all.
As a 16 year old getting drunk once a week. watching this made me terrified. Im so happy for you
That's when I started same thing once a week then every three days then every night. If you got drunk at 16 then it is very possible that you are an alcoholic. you may not know it.I hope you don't think about this 30 years from now and say to yourself. hey that old man way right.
Don't let it become a habit
I’m 15 and I drink way to much like whenever alcohol is available it’s all gone within an hour and I’m scared
Sober for 2 weeks. İ feel good.
I've just completed 1 year of sobriety! It's not easy but is well worth it!!
Hi brother, I also was a drunk when I turned 38 God intervened in my life and with his help I was able to quit drinking. He had taken all the desire to drink away from me I'm 70 right now so it's been 32 yrs since I tasted any alcohol. I didn't need any aa or any programs. I just quit because of him.so if their is any of you out there struggling you might cry out to him. And ask him to help you. I know this doesn't happen to everyone,however that was my salvation. And just wanted to share I'm so proud of you and how you gained control of your life. Be blessed brother
Happened to me im 39 i prayed to God take the desire away and couple days latter i went to hospital for a A Fid they shock my Heart it was from drinking for 25 years Dec 12 2019 Sober Date
Thaspacegoat Æ so sorry you feel that way...be blessed
God can deliver you from anything.Amen
My name is jose and been Sober for 3 years I've used cocaine and alcohol for the past 17 years I decided to .make a change my my life . I got tired of being depressed and I did it on my own by working out and trying be be stored since both of my parents pasted away. If I can do it You can to just take it bay by day it's not easy trust me I now I thought of committing suicide.but life go on and every day you will start filling better. And you will get that natural happiness and that is what counts
Jose Feliciano
Hope u still ok
I’m 22 & just now trying to get sober. I’ve drank since I was 15. I moved in an apartment by myself a year ago & it got even worse after that.. I started to drink every night. Like you, my anxiety & depression started getting really bad. I never wanted to leave the house. I just wanted to stay there & drink by myself. I recently started seeing a therapist a month ago & I’m getting into a nursing program after many years of attempting to go to school & failing bc of my alcohol problem.. I started craving it tonight so I came to this video. Thank you so much ❤️ Wish me luck. My journey’s just beginning.
Hello all. I appreciate this man’s discussion about ETOH abuse. Hope all who are watching are inspired to get/stay sober. I’m 74 and started drinking booze at 15. I haven’t been a heavy drinker the entire time but certainly never abstained either. It’s a miracle my liver hasn’t become cirrhotic. I’m 6 months sober and intend to stay that way for the remainder of whatever time I have left in this life. Best wishes and good luck to all struggling with alcohol abuse. You can overcome this scourge and become the person you were meant to be.
Thank u
wow.. I'm a 24 year old heroin addict. I've been an addict for 12 years now... starting with alcohol at the age of 12. I'm going inpatient in less than 2 months... This time I won't go cold turkey.. I'll be in professional hands.. this video gave me so much hope. Thank you!
I wish you luck
So proud of you dear, hope everything will go well. Wishing you luck and sending happy vibes. You can do it and I believe in you. :)
I hope everything is working out for you
I wish you much luck in your drug recovery. I hope that whatever professional hands you end up in, they are able to help you successfully
thank you guys... never expected anybody to respond/comment.. thank you guys :)
Believe in yourself, and you can do anything. Surround yourself with positivity. Stay active, do some things you've never done before. Don't sit home and think about alcohol. Tell that alcohol Demon that HE CANT WIN ANYMORE! IT'S OVER! And mean it.
I told that demon that today.. I'm only a couple days sober right now and want to stop really bad .. I feel it's time for a change and I pray for strength...great comment
+Robert Maria I'm starting to kick it off today I'm tired of succumbing to alcohol
Yup
Unfortunately, it's not that easy.
Yes with the help of our holy father the powers of Jesus Christ we can pass threw this
I'm 6 hours sober
WOW!!!!
You got this!
Gotta start somewhere
Isaac Ibnoumaryama awesome
People dont like quilters you get a beer as soon as you wake up !!!
"Sometimes, I wish that this wasn't my story, but I do understand that it IS my story." I love that.
Today is the day I've decided to stop. 20 years of drinking, tanking my life over and over. I've gotten so many chances. My marriage was about drinking. That's what we had in common. Life of the party always ending in fights. I have two daughters rebuilt my life only to crash again. I'm shaking so bad it's even difficult to type. Tonight is going to be hell. I have to wait to go to the hospital because I have the girls. I'm covered in bruises and I know it's my liver because I don't even fall. They just appear. I have always joked like of course I am a drinker I'm an Irish broad. Almost impressed at my tolerance. Today I heard I yelled at my dear friends husband. I've told plenty of people off. My toughness an example of how hard I was when inside I was dying. Today it hit me I'm not tough I'm abusive, I'm falling a part and if I don't change I will die I have no doubt. My babies would have no one. I can't excuse away anymore and I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I'm so scared. But I'm looking forward to be present and available and not ruin every beautiful time. I really appreciate your video and I'm ready. I've never been before. Thank you for the hope
Hi Carolyna. I haven't managed to pull off more than a few non-drinking days in a row in over 10 years. Wife doesn't really drink so she doesn't understand the tremendous craving for alcohol that I get EVERY night around 5pm. NOTHING stops my anxiety like drinking. Of course it is a double-edged sword because it make it worse the next morning. Almost EVERY stupid thing I have done has been when I was drinking. I truly wish I could turn off the craving like you do a light switch. I wish you the very best as I try to figure my way out of this myself. God bless and good luck.
How are you doing now?
@@Tshoot098 I drank nightly for 16 years. At 8pm my cravings kicked in. It's how I unwound my stress and anxiety and dealt with depression. I was always pissed off every day until I had my drink. The only thing I looked forward to was my evenings drinking. I tried hard for 3 years to stop and managed 20 days 3 or 4 times. I finally quit and the first 3 months was hard but then it got a little easier. I had to learn to deal with my depression and anxiety without alcohol so I turned to intense exercise 4+ times a week. Now 28 months sober I've lost 40 lbs and love every day. I'm a changed person. The first year 6-9 months of suffering is so totally worth the payoff.
Hello sir
I hope you're doing better
I PRAY YOU ARE ALL DOING BETTER even though I DOUBT it!
first day sober… again. i know this is gonna be the hardest thing for me to battle after getting sober time after time and dealing with many alcohol induced seizures , charges, wasted time im i’m alone now and the realization is starting to hit me more and more every second as the withdrawal gets worse . thank you for this story i highly relate , watching this while dealing with heavy insomnia .
Damn this touched me... Reminded me of when I got my second DUI when I was 20 years old, 12 years ago. In my home state that means a mandatory sentence of 60 days in jail for the second offence. The first thing I did when i was released from was take my check given to me by the jail for my unused canteen funds, find a place to cash it, and go to buy a bottle of rum at around 8am (I spent my 21st birthday in jail for the DUI, and could now legally purchase). I had a three hour walk to get home and I could have used that money to get a cab, but it was just enough for a bottle and a pack of cigarettes, all I wanted. My sister's came to town to be with my family so they could all support me and talk about my drinking problem. I ended up blacking out on my way home and passing out roughly 20 feet from the road, in a wooded area, before noon... and woken up by a jogger. They said they wanted to call somebody to help since they could tell I was not in a normal state of mind. I just started running as best as I could... anyway I made out to my brothers house like 8 hours after release and just passed out on his bed. My family was extremely upset with me and didn't want to talk to me for awhile after that. Alcoholism is no joke. Luckily I too have an amazing woman in my life these days... Thanks for the story man and stay strong, apologies for the essay
Well Done to everyone who is battling this horrible addiction! Watching guys like this are really helping me get to a better place in my life. Thank You 😀
I come from a long family history of alcoholics. The first time I drank I was 22 (nerd gamer not a party-er in high school) That first drunk was like exhaling after a years of holding my breath. I thought about all my struggles, tension, and depression throughout my early adulthood and said to myself "My god if I only knew about this everything could have been so much easier" From that exact night forward I was a drinker, literally planning my life around being able to drink within a few days of that first experience. I hardly ever partied or went to bars. I enjoyed drinking by myself more than anything. That solace and stillness that I always searched for it seemed I had found so easily with alcohol. Basically spent my entire mid 20's forward as a functioning alcoholic. I am a married 31 year old now and have stepped it down a lot but still drink at least once or twice a week (hard). Seeing my dads failing health (from alcoholism) has made me want to get serious about quitting altogether. Randomly found this channel tonight browsing around and I was captivated by your story. Congratulations on your year, Just wanted you to know that you really got me thinking. Thanks
+MurderScenePhoto Exactly the same with me, I first got drunk at 21 (same type of nerd) and it felt like I'd discovered the secret to life! lol
Drank by myself for a few years, I'm 24 now and I'm still off and on, but I'm drinking less for some reason, and less often (still maybe 1-2 bottles of vodka a week, which is too much), but I can't trick myself into thinking I can control it, because I know I'll just go back to regular blackouts eventually.
+MurderScenePhoto AAAWWWWWW Honesty peace and blessings !
That's the insidious nature of alcoholism. You'll think you have it under control by reducing it to once a week. Then, for one reason or another, you'll start drinking everyday
I am an alcoholic also. After 50 years I still need to remind myself of just how fortunate I’ve been to stop. Congratulations on your sobriety
In this day in age when a lot of people are starting to develop a drinking problem “ because of the Caronavirus and having to self isolate “ I’ve decided to take the opposite approach. I’m 22 days sober now and what’s helping me get thru it is watching videos like this so thank you for uploading your story to TH-cam.
I’ve been to rehab 5 times and have strung together anywhere from 2 weeks to 1.5 years of sobriety. Never once having any real intentions of being sober forever. Like you I’m not comfortable in my skin and use alcohol to ease that pain. However something happened this last time. I no longer get any pleasure or relief from drinking. In fact I feel worse.
I’ve started to throw up every morning, have terrible cramps that don’t go away, noticed all the wrinkles in my face, the pounds adding up on the scale, and just a general feeling of uneasiness. I get no relief anymore from being drunk.
The problem with a lot of alcoholics is amnesia. We tend to forget how miserable we are as alcoholics when we get some sober time and start to feel better. So what do we do? We go back to drinking thinking this time we’ll control it. That’s laughable isn’t it?
During this pandemic I’ve been watching a lot of videos regarding alcohol and alcoholics and how it completely destroys your life in all ways. It really has helped me stay sober for 22 days. I still don’t feel great, but compared to how I feel the day after drinking it’s a night and day difference.
I'm on day 177 of being sober, stoked that I am not drinking every day now.
I don't know you, but I'm proud of you. My dad died 2014, he was an alcoholic..
I find it easier to stop drinking altogether. I’m a binge drinker. I drink to get drunk and don’t know when to stop. It’s possible to drink in moderation or not at all but I know when I start I can’t stop so I decided to quit.
People think that because of a traumatic event I’ve been through, I’m drinking to cope. But it’s the other way round. Due to drinking I’ve ended up in awful situations because I’m not myself, I’m making stupid and bad decisions because I’m too drunk to make an informed choice.
I love drinking. I live for it and wouldn’t constantly never turn down a night out. I was going out three days a week, my days were either spent being hungover or waiting until the night to get ready for a night out.
I thought since I’m a student it was acceptable but everyone says to me I drink a lot for a student.
I wasted a lot of money on alcohol and clubs often to find that days never ended well. I got more depressed on drink and have ended up in hospital a lot because of stupid mistakes. I need to get out of my head that drink is the only way to have fun because it’s all I have in my life. I don’t have hobbies. I barely have friends but I do when I’m drinking because I’m more sociable and confident.
It’s difficult because alcohol became a problem and a solution. I found it fun and because I was doing it socially I didn’t really think it was a problem. But I was drinking a lot during the week with different people each time. So they were drinking once a week whereas I was drinking three times just with new people each time.
I don’t really think I’m depressed but because on alcohol I’ve felt low a lot I think it’s had a negative effect on my brain such as lowered the serotonin.
I’ve always been like this. Revolved my life around alcohol. Constantly buying it in hopes there’s a party soon.
I know the feeling. I used to binge on 40 beers a night for years and years. One day I quit cold turkey. The next couple of months after quitting are horrible. The solitude is terrible because wherever you go, you can’t seem to adapt. But with every day that passes, you are formatting your system into the life you should live, out of the mental hologram you are stuck on.
Life is much more beautiful without alterations of the mind, Helena. I hope you find the path one day.
Wow I can relate! Thank you for sharing this , I am not alone ❤️
Couldn't agree more. Drinking caused all my problems, it changed my personality to someone I didn't even recognise. That ridiculous saying about drinking being the real you lmao, it's so stupid. I did some truly destructive and frankly embarrassing things when hammered that wouldn't even cross my mind to do sober.
Sounds exactly like me too. Thanks for sharing
I am a recovered alcoholic as well and can relate to everything you’ve said. Jesus is good! He has broken me off of those chains and it has been 6 years in October that I have been sober from alcohol
I can completely relate to the feeling of just being completely uncomfortable in my skin, it’s the condition of being human
I can relate with your alcoholism on so many levels. I'm a weekend binge drinker but I can see where my life is going if I continue going down this road.I struggle with bipolar depression and drinking made my life seem manageable. I'm barely holding myself together. I can't make it past dates because I always get wasted. I know I have depression when I'm literally down all the time and the only time I feel happy is when I get a chance to drink. Thank you for sharing this video. It nice to know that I'm not alone. Having depression is hard as is but being a depressed alcoholic is probably one of the hardest things to have to live with.
Sorry for your struggle and thank you for the honesty.
For me, doctor's where bad new's and tried using scare tactic's on me, all that any medical person said to me when i was suffering from withdrawal's was stuff like, "do you want blood to start pouring out of your mouth, because that's what will happen if you carry on", it was far to late for scare tactic's and i think they knew it was.
i'm sad to say that did actually happen in the end so maybe they wern't just trying to scare me but at the time i really didn't need it because i couldn't go threw withdrawals without thinking it would happen
+McMarkj you poured blood out your mouth?
I don't actually remember but i've been told that, not pouring like vomit but blood oozing out my mouth or something yeah, there was ALOT wrong with me, so much i even have trouble remembering it all, but i wasn't in the right state of mind.
It was horrible though, i was lying in my own bodily fluids at some point and this wasn't even at my worst.
I was addicted to alcohol and multiple drugs, including weed, amphetamines, opioids and DXM-containing OTC cough syrup. I drank up to 1 L of vodka per day, almost died in a drunk and drugged driving accident, and could not sustain any sort of commitment to anything. I destroyed or lost through neglect almost every relationship. I had been to rehab/detox in some form or another on seven occasions and even attended AA meetings for several months while lying by saying I was sober. That ended when I went to a meeting after taking 4 mg of Xanax and 60 mg of Adderall.
I went to rehab for the last time in May of 2011. I was facing possible jail time after being arrested with 30 Concerta and a half-ounce of weed while awaiting sentencing for the DWI I got because of the car accident that resulted in weeks in the hospital. I was so physically sick at that point that I could hardly stand, as I continued to drink large quantities and was injecting up to 30 mg of Subuxone each day. I couldn't get out of bed for a week in the psychiatric floor and thought I was going to die.
I've now been sober for five years this coming June 15, 2016. In the time I've been sober, I've rebuilt relationships with my family, graduated from college with a 4.0 GPA as a molecular biology major, volunteered for thousands of hours in the community, published scholarly scientific papers, won academic awards, made friends, and figured out how to be a (relatively) normal, happy and healthy person. Best of all, I learned that if I set my mind to something and work on it a little bit each day, my dreams, too, can come to fruition. This August, I'll be starting medical school and hope to become an ophthalmologist or orthopedic surgeon.
If anyone reading this has a dream that has been made impossible for the time being because of substance abuse and addiction, please seek professional help and also educate yourself about all of the amazing scientific advancements regarding the pathophysiologic bases of addiction. Knowledge and abstinence are the keys to sobriety.
You do not need to believe in a higher power to be sober. You do not need AA. You do not need formal religion. You do not need to live in a hole or forever stay away from anyone who drinks even a drop of alcohol. If you find a way to keep the alcohol/drugs out of your body for long enough, you will find your own unique mix of support structures to help you regain your health and peace of mind.
You are one hell of a weak individual.
I know right who the fuck needs to hear this guys story anyway?
Chris Reed I'm wealthy now...dummy LOL.
Your vulgar choice of words makes me believe you have not thrown away your old lifestyle. Plz step up your game and look in the mirror for once.
i was referring to your fucked up statement boscaar.
I’m saving your story. People like you give me so much hope for my brother. Hopefully one day he’ll overcome the battle as well. Thank you for sharing. What a great testimony.
I had no idea how much I needed to see your video today.... You helped me.
Thank you
4 years for me man feel fucking great keep it up the hardest part is over for you
it takes incredible courage to put yourself out there like this. it's admirable. Congrats on 1 year of sobreity.
jeremalaria I appreciate the kindness. Thank you.
I'm crying. I'm thankful for this video and you have inspired me to get better. Thank you
At 23 years of age I am watching this. I am loaded right now and I feel broken. Thank you for sharing your story. It's really inspired me to get sober.
21 years old here. I need to get better
Can totally relate to your story, sounds EXACTLY like mine tbh. I'm 26 & still drinking & feel so shitty dealing with the brainfog and feeling worthless. This video gives me hope, thank you so much man.
This very much describes my psychological addiction to smoking cannabis. I smoke copious amounts and it governs my life in a similar way to which alcohol governed yours. You sound like a smart man and I respect your honesty. Thanks for sharing.
+1
Thank you for telling your story. I’m so glad you were able to find help and get out of that nightmare. My friends and I have recently realized one of our friends is an alcoholic and this video has helped in my effort to find out how we can support him. Thank you so much.
Appreciate the realness, my man! Keep in mind that you have a ton of people who you've never met that are always in your corner and cheering you on. All the best bruh
Thankyou so much for this video. it's day 1 of sobriety for me and I'm ln bed going through some serious withdrawal symptoms. violent cramp in my legs and feet amongst others and it's scary as hell. your story has inspired me so much man!
Rick Graham
7 days for me, hang tough I'm already starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel!
Hope you've been keeping strong
Rick Graham hope you havent broke in, keep staying strong.
Rick hope you are still staying strong one day at a time.
Smoke some crack bro u feel better
You describing my life. I am 23 now and I get smash drunk 3-4 times a week. Always looking for an excuse to drink. I want to quit.
A sober night is a very depressing night for me. Alcohol has messed up my life and I get overwhelmed when im sober
This video is one of the videos I watched and rewatched in helping me to stay sober when I couldn"t get to a meeting! I've been inspired to start my own channel for recovery as well! thank you for your vulnerability! it changes and saves lives! keep pushing!
I'm on my 3rd week of staying sober. Thank you brother! Your story is an inspiration to me. I'm gonna keep going. I feel the difference already.
This is called, "GETTING" the program. He gets it because he "WANTS" it. God Speed to Noah.
1 month sober for me! gotta stay focused
@K Maxx lol weak troll game bro 😂😂
Ive struggled for years. The chains are tight. I broke them once before. I need the light.
I'm going through the same thing stay strong
Thank you so much, I bought a sketchbook 4 days ago and wrote my last will and testament delegating where my 17 guitars would go. I have been drinking from wake until passing out for the past 3 years and I'm 2 days in. You have an immense light inside of you that you should never deprive the world of.
Your video gave me a great feeling of relief. I felt alone in my state of fear until now. Thank you so much :)
alcohol is the worst motherfucking thing that has ever come into my life. if you can only know my story....
+NEPA FortyOz Why not discuss it here?
+NEPA FortyOz believe it or not, some of us do without you even having to tell it.
haha.
David Pahler
same
STAY AT IT BROTHER. PROUD OF YOU. MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU
I'm so happy you uploaded this video!! Even I watched this for the first time In 2019 ! But I'm praying for you!!
clean since sept 16,2014.still.......1 day at a time,my prayers to/for you all who are struggling,hang in there.It can be done.30* years
thanx
Thank you!!! I'm on a year and 10 months deep after deciding to take my life back from an addiction that was going to kill me! So grateful i got sick and tired of it and took responsibility for my life! Thank you!
I'm gonna kick this starting from today
John Feehan How you holding up?
@@gerardolourdes6501 few relapses no point lying but I'd defo say id cut down man !
How you doing? I'm on day one
Any update?
@@Wainfleetkx450f I have fallen down once but I got right back up.... I have decided never to be afraid to fall apart. It's an opportunity to rebuild myself the way I wish I'd been all along.
Much love bro ur not alone I’m here battling it too
We got this 💪
I am 4 months sober and do look to you for inspiration. I am very happy and proud of you!! One thing I have found is when I can feel my mind trailing off into a dark path of thoughts or self loathing, I always think the phrase to myself "not useful, these thoughts aren't useful to me", and I can redirect my flow of thoughts (not jedi style, of course, but to a certain extent it does cut it off!). You are a wonderful person and I hope you can see that for yourself!!! It makes me think of the song "I'll be your mirror" by velvet underground "when you think the night has seen your mind, that inside you're twisted and unkind, let me stand to show that you are blind. please put down your hands, cause i see you." Take care noah and don't be so hard on yourself you're a strong guy and mostly CONGRATS on this huge accomplishment in your life.
Thanks for "
one year feels terrific but have been there a few times......15 years now finally...please don't get too over confident too soon......blessing and respect..and CONGRATS !!!!!
Hey dude I can honestly say you're one of the most motivating channels on youtube, I lost my my mom I=in July to alcholism and that shit sent me off hard... to see someone make it out the other side is inspiring
I've been sober for 4 months. Cold turkey. I have a Dan Murphys shop across the road. I can see it outside my bedroom window. I'm so happy I can walk past it and have no feelings to drink. Im 42. I've been in hospital full yellow skin had to have so much fluid in my stomach that had to be drained. When I saw my sister cry when she saw me . I new I had to stop. I'm never going to drink again. I can't wait to tell my 3 sister's when I I've been sober for 1 year. I wish everyone the best . Life is the best when your sober.♥️🤟🤟🤟🤟
Im now 3 months sober and i feel awesome and blessed!! Thank you God!!
sobriety is hard I live alone loneliness made me relapse
That's what caused me to drink loneliness
Same. I thought getting my own place would somehow fix things, but the extra privacy just enabled me at first. Hope you’re doing well now 💙
Only gunna get more lonely with that bottle my friend
You're not alone though. 🙏
@@Noah204. The bottle has been my only friend for a long time, and it hasn't been a very good friend to me.
This guy is a inspiration, he is a decent guy inside I hope he stays of the booze because he deserves great things. I am not a heavy drinker but i started to drink wine every night only for couple of months and watching this video helped me understand my feelings and the warning signs even though i wasn't 100 percent addicted I knew what road I would be going down and having 4 kids and a loving husband I couldn't put them through that with what I suffered in my head and my depression I haven't touched a drop since so this guys existence he shouldn't feel depressed because he saved me in more ways from this video
You’re lucky you beat this disease next week will be a year since my dad lost his journey and passed. I’ve been watching more videos trying to understand addiction but I’m sad and angry he’s gone. Congratulations to you !
im sorry for your loss
I’m 27 and am 4 months sober from alcohol and started drinking at 17 so this really spoke to me, but I’m trying to stay strong and keep I hope you stay sober man and I hope I can stay sober too, I wish you all the best
Reminds me of myself. I’m 28 and started when 17. And I have 4 months sober. We’ve got this. Just stay in the loop.
4 months is a good amount of time bro, you might as well just keep it up..
I appreciate you posting this video, I have been struggling for many years with depression and alcohol. Many things you said I can relate to. I am attending my first ever AA meeting as I am so so desperate to stop. I hope I can do it. Good effort to you and keep it up fella
Thanks Bro, Congratulations! I totally relate to your whole story. I wish you the very best. One day at a time. God bless you and all the sick n suffering that are still out there.
Thank you for being so honest about your story. I'm in the ER in detox- day 2. I'm scared about what happens when I leave hear. Your story inspires me. Thank you and keep strong!
I know how you feel. Friends graduating college, you at the same small town bar. There's got to be more to life. Proud of you man
thank you for sharing this! it's been a very very very hard 40 days for me already, but also very exciting at the same time like you've said. keep it up and i can relate a lot of what you've said.
Thank you for this brave speech. I have two amazing little babies that I need to be sober for and this truly means a lot to hear from a person who can relate rather than crowd of folks in a room with the same situation with nothing really to get in terms of relating. I hope nothing but positive outcomes and good vibes.
Omg! You are so open & honest, its great to see your video’s.
Youre amazing Jessie
I never went to rehab. I quit because I didn't want to lose my wife. I was in a death spiral and had to drink everday. I always thought about drinking when I wasn't. I put myself and my wife through so much. I've had a sip of alcohol 4 years ago but haven't been drunk in 7 yrs.
Don't take that sip. I found out many times what can happen. I'm 32 years sober now and there is no way you could get me to take a sip. If I did I would be drunk in about an hour. many times did I see one small can of beer turn into days of drinking.
I'm losing my fiance because I keep drinking and it goes ok for awhile when I start back up and it always ends the same me drinking all the time and I act stupid because the alcohol starts talking. I don't know what's wrong with me or why I keep making the same mistakes over and over I keep falling back into it. Last night I got drunk and yelled at her and told her to leave and she did and now I don't think I can make it ok again because this isn't the first time. I'm saying this because it seems like you have went through something similar
thewraith50 Show her you are fighting for sobriety. My relationship is rocky and my woman loves me so much and I would kill for her. So glad I never put my hands on her. I don't know if I can fix it but I'm going to fight. Good luck.
David Green she found someone else and it's official over she wanted me gone and now I am. I can never trust her again. What kills me is its only been like 4 days. Iv never felt so betrayed in my life
"It just stopred being fun". Thank you so much for this video- I can definitely relate with much of this. Just thank you thank thank you.
+Daniela Morgan :)
Thankyou for ur talk . I've been sober a year and a half and like u I'm so greatful. Im really happy u are sorting ur life out... brilliant xx