I’m a newer disabled person who has had mental disabilities my whole life (unknown) I’ve recently became chronically ill. It’s actually terrifying and it feels like my whole life is crashing around me. But this really gives me hope. Maybe I can make my life my own again. Thanks for the vid:3
woah you make furbys look so innocent and adorable! they haunted me when i was younger bc of that one movie lol edit: also yeah! thanks for addressing this
This feels incredibly validating to hear right now. I am an artist with some known mental disabilities, but I recently lost a really good job due to a health crisis that I have no answers to just yet. I have to wait months to see specialists and get the proper testing done, with no guarantee that they will find whats wrong with me. Since I have no diagnosis yet, I dont qualify for any kind of benefits. I've recently had to rely on commissions to get by, but I've been struggling to find an audience. I know my art is good enough, and the people that do commission me tend to give really high praise. I just don't have enough eyes on me and thats so frustrating. I used to be an exhibiting artist with decent support before this too, but I physically cant do that anymore. I'm lucky to at least have supportive family and friends to help me trudge through this hellscape... I hope things get better for all of us
I’m glad someone’s talking about this. I myself am a disabled artist and it can be so difficult at times. I can relate to being told “you’re gonna get nowhere in life if you keep acting like this.” (Which I was told because I was slower than most people due to mobility issues and because I’m easily overstimulated.) Art, despite not being able to do it sometimes due to my disability, has really helped. It really lets me spill my emotions into a piece and feel relieved; That’s what I love about art, you can do what you want. Anyway; Again, I appreciate you guys making this video. I hope you have a great day/afternoon/night.
As a wheelchair bound artist with arthrogryposis affecting both their arms and legs (legs are much worse), it’s really nice to see people bring this topic up.
As someone on the spectrum, I relate. The job market is hard for people with physical, mental and invisible disabilities. I hope to one day make a living off my art and I'm really glad I'm not the only one. In my previous job, I used to cry in the staff bathrooms all the time during my shifts and before my shifts. I felt like a zombie. Even though I no longer have a job, I have been a lot happier.💖
When I was around the age of 5 I got diagnosed with autism and adhd. Over the years I began drawings and art, it was my safe space were I could do anything and put my ideas. But as the years go on, beginning mostly in middle school, my focus got worse and the school things I used to fly through got hard because of even the smallest noises. It still happened today and I have very bad Stimms.
This is very very validating to me. I have a dissociative identity disorder and probably some more stuff going on, and it makes it extremely hard to do anything at all in my life. it's so hard to just live when your mind is so focused on the past trauma that it frequently forgets that your body and mind are safe now... Knowing that there are other people out there who suffer too, it kind of helps me, especially to know that you guys manage to keep going too! Sometimes just slowly inching forward is probably more than enough. Like, if we only have 10% of energy to give and we give those 10%, than we've technically still given 100%.
Oh gosh, I've been needing to hear this because sometimes I just feel so alone with all of it. I can relate with ableism in the work place A LOT. I've had ppl slow their speech and "dumb down" their words and have gotten bullied by coworkers and one of my hiring mangers. It got so bad to the point I've quit jobs because of it. It's been hard not feeling like a burden to my family because of my mental disabilities, so much so I've attempted a multitude of times. My art and friends are the only things keeping afloat atm. I hate being like this but I'm slowly coming into terms with it. And hearing you and your friend's experiences helps so much you have no idea. It's so cheesy to say but it makes me feel I'm not entirely alone in it.
Ty for making this, im autistic with ADHD and ive kinda realized im probably not gonna get a job (im autistic which means i will be less likely to be hired and i cant drive, i have a fear of it), my dads been wanting me to go to art college/school to 'get a job' even though ive told him over and over again i wont, mainly as i dont wanna spend thousands on something i wont need, art has been something ive adored for the longest time and have done, hell i sometimes do commisions, seeing this really does help
i'm really glad i saw this in my recommended! i've been coming to terms with being physically disabled the past year or so, and it's been so frustrating that even when i WANT to create, sometimes my fatigue or muscle pain or heart rate problems block me from doing so. so i'm trying to find ways to adapt my art to my limits, and have creative outlets even when i'm too weak to properly draw or animate like i want to. it sucks, but it's taught me a lot about prioritizing self care! also i LOVE the background art, i love furbies especially weird body mod ones like long furbies so it was a treat to see x)
Watching this as a non disabled artist gave me some insight into how it’s harder as a disabled artist just to make ends meet, thank you for making this :)! I wanted to recommend for your friend who struggles with getting commissions, to maybe try making a ToyHouse account to get commissions? I can spare a code for them as well! I get majority of my commissions from there, and maybe it’d help them as well? Just my thoughts! Have a nice day! Your art is lovely 💕
@@Candycadaver_art Hi, I personally use Toyhouse for commissions ! Basically I create "characters" for my commissions ! And when someone is interested, I suggest to discuss about it over Discord or via dms! I've got more clients than usual so it worked well for me :) I hope it helps ❤
Watching this as a disabled person, mentally and physically, i was glad to hear people speaking about this, I’m still currently in school but my teachers have repeatedly told me that I shouldn’t be in school because my physical disability causes severe pain in my hands and feet, I have a rare kidney condition called fabrys disease, my kidneys don’t work and therefore I can’t process sugar probably, it causes so many issues in my body, the cold and heat both causes major problems with pain so I have to use a wheelchair to get anywhere. I also have autism, ADHD, and possibly DID, so going to school isn’t the easiest especially when teachers refuse to listen. Art has helped me get through so much of it, it helps me vent it out, I love giving my OCS my issues as it makes me feel less alone :3
thank u for giving voice for disabled artists + ur friends . as an abled bodied person, it really is eyeopening hearing your struggles , goals and all.
Thank you very much for this video this is so hard to be in a world like this when you are disabled and/or have an illness The worst is when it is Invisible and people will just tell you to stop being lazy or pessimistic and just do it because it is so easy for them while it is very hard or impossible for us to do People wouldn’t tell a blind person to just see ? Or a deaf to hear ? I wish people could understand better Thank you very much
I'm mentally disabled, too autism, very severe adhd even with meds (meds dramatically helped tho), bpd and a plethora of other issues- I've had people judge me because of my "invisible disabilities" ur valid, ur disabilities are real, and it's very important that you are trying and I'm sure many of ur community are proud of you and see you keep strong! you got this, just keep doin ur best!
I started getting into drawing in the 1st grade. I got in trouble a lot for doodling on notes, homework, and tests. I took a year off and hated it. After going back to drawing, I was able to reach an agreement with my teacher that allowed me to draw in class as long as I looked up when they turned to face the class. In high school, art helped me with my anger and depression. In college, it helped me to find my notes for topics in study groups. Art will always be a part of my life. Now, at age 40, I still draw traditionally and sketch out some fun and sometimes disturbing things. I will always find a way to bring it with me and encourage others to make a mark on that blank page. Exercise that art muscle. You won't get better unless you try. You won't fail, you're learning. Things deemed a failure is just you learning a new skill. Art is awesome and is always there for you. Hugs for those who want them. You got this.
I'm lucky to have the job I've had for the last 2 years, but it took a couple jobs to get here. And even now I still struggle with my disabilities during it. It's frustrating when I mention that someone I know has a mental disability and can't work because of it, and then they respond with "Oh, there are jobs for those people. They just have to go through agency xyz." The jobs are never jobs that actually accommodate their disability. People with disabilities shouldn't be looked down upon or thought of as "lazy" just because they can't find a job that accommodates them, or because they've given up on looking for one outright. Edit: btw I did enjoy this video :] Thank you both for speaking out about it! It's nice to know we're not the only one who experiences this kind of stuff.
cw: related personal rant i wonder if i can make a living off writing. writing is my art, and i need to be out of my parents house in 2 years because im too much of a burden to them and they need me out. im mentally and physically disabled with a whole basket of diagnoses, and also going through an unknown physical illness or disorder which is pretty scary. im not too confident in my drawings since all i have is a phone and a finger, plus my paints and paint paper. but me and a few headmates have considered becoming an author for income. i dont think its all that reliable since i cant even get out of bed most days, but writing has been our favourite thing since we were young and writing poorly written fanfiction on wattpad and ao3. its a scary world, and i dont know if anyone even reads anymore, i sure dont. but i dont know where else to go.
this video rrly hit me hard /pos i recently had to come to terms w the fact that i am disabled, and traditional jobs/sources of income dont work with me as im left in far too much physical and mental pain. commissions have been something i’ve absolutely loved to do as to either make people smile or get just a little bit of money in my pocket to treat myself. amazing video
I'm glad you've found your crowd and have given voice to others as well. I sighed in relief that you haven't stepped into youtube shorts, it gets more engagement, but quickly notice the difference in the comments when random toxic ass people are air dropped into chill subscriber ecosystem. Thanks for the video and sharing this furby on this bountiful day
I am a young artist and I needed something to listen to while i’m working on art. This video caught my attention because i’m interesting in hearing the perspectives of disabled artists, but I also found some of these experiences relatable. I have general anxiety and clinical depression it makes it very difficult for me to do anything on a daily basis, especially if it has to do with school. I struggle with frequent panic attacks so hearing someone else talk about their stories and how art is used to make them feel better made me feel seen.
Jobs need to be more accessible for people who have physical or/and metal disabilities, it's extremely frustrating. I deal with a multitude of mental health problems, the most extreme being anxiety (especially social) and depression. I want to get a job but the fear of being judged or/and treated unfairly gets in the way, so I have to rely on SSDI. I'm an artist too, I'd love to start opening commissions and whatnot, but I am unable to atm. It's nice to know I'm not alone on these feelings I have about this topic. The art is absolutely adorable! ❤
Thank you for going more in dept of the struggles of being a disabled artist. I also have mental health issues that effect job prospects atho mine are less severe. At times, things can feel hopeless but this video helps me see that maybe it doesn't have to be so bleak. Thank you.
i thought furby in the title mightve been a typo but i was SO HAPPY to see that it was actually a furby omg i also relate with my anxiety disorder :') it's good to know we're not alone!
It’s cool to see everyone talk about their disabilities here! I personally am visually disabled, making art very hard for me to make in the first place. However, I still love making it. When everything is fuzzing and static clouds your entire vision, it can be hard to see where your pen goes or even get frustrated and stop entirely for the day. I am a art teacher personally, and that’s how I make my income. However, I would love if I could do commission full time
@@MyDarling_Emi I didn't mention in the video but I also have something called visual snow, which sounds similar! It can sure make art a struggle. I feel it deeply. I think it's incredible your an art teacher despite this! Can't be easy - Candy Cadaver
@@MyDarling_Emi it's rare you meet others with the condition.I wouldn't wish it on anyone, especially on the woser end. Still, I think it's incredible that we still do art despite it all. I think it's important. - Candy Cadaver
Thanks for this, I'm physically disabled since 11 (severe neuropathy, joint issue, chronic fatigue, no actual diagnoses cuz specialists dont do much) , can't and haven't worked a regular job. Only income is my art commissions and occasional adopts, sometimes I get all slots filled, sometimes nothing, but thats kinda how it is. Im glad im able to pay for a bit of food, only way im making it is bc of familial support. This video is really helpful for awareness regarding disability impacting artists, ill share it around
This video is very validating, I suffer from agoraphobia and chronic fatigue, I've been trying hard to build an audience of people who could like my art because I am unable to work and I'm afraid commissions will be the only source of income I will get, but without audience it is really hard... thanks for the vid :)
This makes me happy because I also go through this and it makes me feel like I’m not fully alone and knowing that other people also go through this everyday puts me at ease a little it :) I love ur artwork btw and ur oc is pretty cute and I really like the colors you used as well! ⭐️⭐️⭐️
It sometimes feels like I experience way more emotions and more intensely, and I always try to hold them back bc if a little spills then it might cause me to cry uncontrollably. Any little thing I overthink and it causes me to to feel physically stressed or tensed, and it’s hard to talk about the things that bother me bc of it, and I feel like school really screwed me up, especially when complete outsiders came to the conclusion that I was just being manipulative to get my way.Although it is not as bad as you, I definitely relate, I sometimes wish I could turn off these feelings to get through a normal conversation or interaction bc it always feels as if I’m talking with a predetermined script that my mind comes up so as to “play it safe” and I hate it bc it feels like nobody knows me as for my true me not even myself. And even writing this down makes me tear up. If anyone has the option for therapy then please go, bc just like any other illness it slowly weakens you from the inside and leaves you isolated from any outside help. First time writing this out and kinda feel a bit better, thank you
HELL YEA furby speedpaint!! im a young disabled artist myself and while i dont have a job yet as im still dealing with highschool and therapy and it would be too exhausting for me to juggle all at once, i am a little scared for whats to come since i know i probably can't do most jobs. im considering trying to build up to where i can possibly support myself via my art but i have no current means of payment and its all just. so confusing eugh maybe one day i'll figure it out
i don't know if i can call myself disabled but i do dread going to work due to fear and anxiety, always nearing the edge of a breakdown whenever i thought of it and i haven't even work a day yet. i feels so disappointed in myself and alone in my struggles but listening to your stories really resonate with me, thank you for sharing them.
I just found your channel and I love the art you make, such a cute style. It breaks my heart to see other artists struggling, it can be hard to get up and be motivated sometimes when things are so fdifficult but remember someone out there is rooting for you!
Thank you for posting this. I'm a 14 year old artist that can't get commissions, but right now they aren't for money. so for now it's fine im also disabled, struggling with anxiety and depression and agoraphobia. ive always thought " oh i will never get anywhere in life and will have to die " but this video comforts me. knowing i COULD have a future in which im successful like you. thank you.
I feel really validated as a disabled autistic artist myself watching this video. You honestly made my night a whole lot better and made me think on things. Back when 2020 became chaotic, (Class of 2020 graduating survivor here). I thought it would get better and I would still have a chance to go to college, hoping to make my family proud. Sadly my anxiety, manipulative daydreaming and depression got way worst when I was trying my best for these classes. It felt like I was the dumb one and nobody really wanted to be my friend either. Honestly It wasn’t as helpful either with the teachers and all of them there didn’t know how to teach or help somebody like me with a disability. To this day, I still struggle how it makes me feel like I was a failure for stepping out college and not getting to graduate/complete college. Yet, from all the other personal things happening all this time from terrible and better moments. Getting a not so fun job now, still having to live with parents, and not having really any irl friends. I then started to learn my long online friends, family and my parents are still with me and giving me that comfort of knowing they’re not going anywhere. Even taking the time to remind me to be kind to myself and that I’m a wonderful person to have around. Even reminding me that I wasn’t a failure for trying to take care of myself too. So here I am today, still breathing and trying my best to keep getting help even if it’s hard at most times. Taking the time to go to therapy, Now still playing with my first DND online group when available, spending more time to draw whenever I can, hang online with my friends to play or chat and get a chance to go out once in a while. Now I’m trying to get the courage and energy to start finally to do commissions with my art. So thank you for sharing your art and struggles you face. I’m glad to not be alone on this 🫶💖✨
Short rant: Dude, I'm going to be in a similar situation, my autism, adhd, and cptsd, idk if i could ever have a normal life. I love art and drawing, especially gore and violent art is so comforting. I don't think i could ever work a normal job (especially the recent possible contamination ocd symptoms). At this moment im trying to see if i can live in a community youth center before i turn 18 (when im going to kicked out).
This video is very comforting for me because (even though I am able-bodied and can somewhat function normal mentally) I don't know what a good job would be for me, Mind you I am not even close to being out of school. It's just the fact that prices are getting higher and no office job seems fun to work at. And not only that, But I am being told left and right to think of a job to work at when I am older which makes me feel so sick to my stomach. Though I would love to say this video does help me, I personally do art, so I might just do commission work. idk
Thanks for saying this, I'm also still in school and I'm not disabled (although I most likely have ADHD and/or Autism) It can be hard growing up in this crazy modern world! I'm also a bit scared for my future. Also, tip: Learn about money management! because that really can help! I'm learning about it now. It's funny how they don't even teach these things in school. Thank you, have a good day/night! I hope one day you'll find a good job that you'll really love :)
your artworks absolutely gorgeous oh my god!!!! i dont really have anything interesting to add to the discussion but i wish nothing but the best for you and your friends
Im very happy to see this... and. augh. its been very hard to work and think Im doing well. Dusabilotues physical and adhd/autism stuff not to mention my perfectionism. :| however. . I really appreciate this video . going to download it and listen when I feel worthless about my art + progress.
Of course I am sorry that you had to go through that, but its reassuring in a strange way that I am not the only disabled person who had these experiences with college and working. Everybody else struggles too, yeah, but not so badly that they actually have to drop out, it feels. Even the burn story. I had something similar, someone rammed one of these huge, heavy, metal lab doors against my foot and cut open my heel and I just continued in the lab for the rest of the day while I bleed over a quarter of my shoe. Glad you have found your way. Just hope I find mine.
I'm a disabled artist in both senses. Chronic pain and stomachaches so bad I can't even move for periods of time, combined with anxiety and some lingering childhood trauma, mean I find myself doubting if I'll ever be able to get a job (I've been going for retail because I've got volunteer experience in that field, but I've been applying to jobs since November last year and still nothing!) and while I haven't been able to make any money off art yet, I'm sort of hoping it'll work out because if it doesn't, what do I have left to try? This is a wonderful video, and it's so validating to hear it's not impossible for someone like me to earn some money doing what I love and not be a total burden on my parents :)
I have arthritis too, not rheumatoid but I know how it feels when you on some days just can't do anything because the pain in your hands is just too bad. None of us are alone in this, we as disabled artists are all in this together.
Oh my god, I'm glad I am not the only one, for being pretty much disabled myself due to the similar things because I was diagnosed with the exact same things, dropped out of college after a few months after stressful times because I never gotten a single bit of help with my disability which only grew worse and worse over time, and it got to the point where I always hiding behind tables, hiding in toilet stalls, hiding in just any small spaces I can fit into because of how extreme my panic attacks got to where I constantly cried to my own mother / grandpa to pick me up because I would end up having extreme episodes to the point I would either need medical help or need to go back into my comfort space which was my bed because of the extreme over stimulation I would go through from being even in a small group of people. I sadly don't know what its like to have a job because things like my therapist and my family has been telling me it is never a smart move due to how I am right now, I wish to try it because of how other things are but I'm scared to go get a job due to the interactions I will have to do as well with getting bossed around the place This is for those who go through similar stuff, You are not alone and you are all valid people❤ I am so glad someone is being open to stuff like this because it can be a touchy topic towards a lot of others who doesn't have the courage to speak up
Wow! The drawing is so pretty! Love the way you draw wings. And also, this was something that needed to be discussed. I am autistic, tho I am high masking and have low needs, I still don't think I'd qualify for certain jobs, and when i move out, I'll probably rely mostly on commissions as a source of income, specially since a traditional job like a food chain or something will take away many hours of my day that i need so i can do other things like exercise, eat or work on college homework
commenting to boost! Also, I am also a disabled artist, I have autism and tend to be anxious which makes it hard to talk to people I don't know, which sucks because I'm an extrovert, but I'm still in grade school and so I don't make money off of it or anything, its just a hobby, but I think I will likely do commissions in the future! I'm not sure if Ill be capable of getting a job or not but i do hope I can. :] i like sharing things lol.
I'm an disabled artist but i don't make money. I want a regular job but most of them would make my state worse and I don't have driver license yet so it would be impossible to get to the work place. I had a panic attack on my first drive lesson. At least I'm in a stable situation because i live with my parents and i have a pension (if that's what it's called) because we're in Poland. Art for me mostly gives me a purpose but also when i draw it's mostly my hyperfixations so I'm good at it mostly thanks to one of my disabilities
Lovely art piece ◡̈ And thank you for speaking up for Disabled(mentally or Physically) artists, We get it pretty rough and people kinda really don't care. ☹︎ Best of Luck to all disabled (and non Disabled) artists out there ✌︎
gosh such a good vid!! ur art is lovely and im so glad to see people touching on the subject of disability and sharing their experiences in the art space :]
Wow, that’s something as you went through a lot and senior too because I’ve only been out for the free for almost 20 years and yeah and a lot has happened over the years. All I can do is pretty much OK no matter what happens in my life and express it as I am a huge visual adult guy with Asperger Just wants to be loved even if the world doesn’t really do that but there are some that will it just depends on the ones you find . Back in choice support you especially your immediate family.
I also struggle with disabilty, i didnt go to school after elementary school due my phisical disabilty didnt let me go also bcuz my country isnt adaptes. Art is my way to get out of this.
Just a huge wall of vent. I relate to this so much. I had a job that lasted for a few months and then I had to put in my two weeks notice. I was still in school at the time and it was just too much for me. I would always cry when I realized I had to go to work. I would sometimes cry while at work but would make sure know one could see/hear me crying. I never understood why I felt so horrible when it came to work. Eventually I realized it was anxiety. Despite my anxiety I still hoped to at least make some friends at work. For years now most of my friends have been online. Nothing bad with that I just really wanted someone that I could do go to places and hangout with. I'm not good at initiating and continuing conversations but I still hope that at least someone would talk to me. However my coworkers would just pretend I wasn't there. There are people that I would work with often that I don't think ever even said a word to me. They were more social and outgoing too. I guess I just seemed that unapproachable? I was literally just a ghost to everyone there. The only person that would actually talk to me, like full on conversations, was my store manager. She was the only person I felt comfortable around at work. After high school I returned to the same workplace because I never had any plans to go to college. I was only able to last for over a year before my mental health took a decline again. Then I just stopped going to work. I ended up hurting my store manager because of that. I just knew that if I told her I wanted to put my two weeks notice in she'll probably ask why. I'm just not good at talking about my emotions so I just ghosted. I don't even talk about how I'm truly feeling to my family. My family sees me as a quirky and shy but functional human being. When in the inside I'm always anxious, depressed, and most likely neurodivergent. I can't afford an official diagnosis or therapy for anything though because 'Merica. I have another job now and I think I've gotten a little better at talking whenever I have to. I still can't seem to ask people for help because it just feels like I'm bothering them. The people here at least talk to me a little more compared to my coworkers at my old job. Mainly just greetings, goodbyes, and slight small talk here and there. I still really struggle with just wanting to be a shut-in and staying at home all the time. I think a lot of my anxiety stems from my appearance. Sometimes I don't care about my appearance and sometimes I'm extremely hyper aware of my body and wish that I could change every little thing. Possibly body dysmorphia. I know that I should just love my appearance but that's easier said then done. I like J-Fashion and I can't even wear most of the clothes from Japan because I'm too tall and too chubby to wear them. I have to live vicariously through my art. It sucks.
This video has found me at my most desperate. I have ADHD autism severe gerenalized anxiety disorder and depression and I struggle to make my art skill a carreer. I used to be on instagram and used to sell commissions but I'd like to have an online store and sell stuff that I drew instead of drawing what others ask of me. Idk how to start. I constantly have executive paralysis and I struggle with drawing enough art. I'm being medicated but even then I don't think it's enough. And no I refuse to do commissions I had traumatic events linked with them and I don't wanna draw always twhat other people want of me.
As a disabled artist thanks for speaking about this, I am physically disabled (deformed foot) and probably autistic… I have looked to art for a long time now, I am a teenager and am at the age where me and my peers are starting to get jobs in things like retail. I do not know if I can do this, my dream is and always has been to make a comic, art has been an escape from this life. And hopefully it will be enough to live off of, if not I do not know what I will do. Art is my only skill, I am an idiot who is probably not smart enough for a white collar desk job, and any labour is not really an option; hell even getting around school is difficult and exhausting. Art is and will be my life, it will likely be my job and somehow my death ( I’ll probably eat paint idk it looks yum ) , I’m okay with this but I’m still guilty for doing this. My other artist friends have dreams for an actual job, I sometimes envy them, sometimes pity them… I just hope I can really do this, I’m currently writing my comic.
I've been having a really hard time expressing myself in art lately, but I've found out how to express myself in clothing. The problem is my anxiety prevents me from doing this in public, since yesterday, for example, I wore mismatched shoes on purpose and got a lot of comments on it. It made me really self-conscious
@@Horrorfan123 honestly mismatched shoes sounds like it could look pretty cool! But I understand. I like expressing myself through clothing too and the looks one can get from being unique can be rather anxiety inducing. I think I might mismatch my shoes too! - Candy Cadaver
@Candyxxdog thanks for the support! It was a black doc Martin with the zippers on both sides, and a matching pink one, although the textures were different! My socks even matched the pink one, the socks had heart cutouts too :D
@@Horrorfan123 aw that actually sounds super cute! Now thinking of matching my pink boots with my white ones.. I'll have to try it! Thanks for the fashion tip
@@Candycadaver_art you're welcome! It's actually really nice to think someone likes the mismatch idea, I might start doing it more with my checkered converse
I'm on the autism spectrum with insomnia, anxiety, depression and possible Schizoaffective disorder (plus more that requires a doctor to diagnose me). Jobs were never something I ever wanted, but needed. I have really bad hearing sensitivity where if someone screams, it can break me down fast. I get overwhelmed insanely fast and can't handle more than two things at once (or even one on a bad day). I've managed to land a job as a cleaner but even that's really hard. These things have made me feel useless and I'm 19 with a really horrible family that doesn't support me much. But if people "worse than me" can do it, so can I, right?
Im an artist with 1 disability diagnosed and a lot more suspected by my therapist (we dont have the money to get diagnosed and im scared to) and ufff,,, Its so so SO hard to want to keep going when i put my all into art, im trying to make it what i live off of and it just doesnt work and im terrified of going into the work force in fear that ill never find a niche that works for me I feel like through my whole life, Art has been the only thing that ive ever been good at that i could turn into a career- I dont have the brain for things involving large amounts of Numbers, i dont have the memory for things like storage, i dont have the physical demands for manual labor like construction, I feel like the only thing that im good for is art, but with everything happening as of late, i just feel like i dont have a future :( I dont yet have a job and i feel like im falling behind in life not to mention because im not diagnosed, even at 19 im still getting neglected from the help im SURE i need- hell even for the thing i AM diagnosed with, im not getting my meds or anything for it Lifes hard for us Buuuut we got no choice but to keep pluggin along :(
I’m 11, autistic, depressed and have generalised anxiety disorder, as well as (currently undiagnosed) possible schizophrenia. I’m homeschooled as I can’t cope in mainstream schooling, I am behind on studies and I am coming to terms with the fact I’ll most likely not have a normal life and a job when I’m older. This video made me feel less alone and thank you, I feel like god sent me this video somehow, like he knew I needed it right now. I’m at one of my lowest points and this made me feel so much better, thank you so much. :D
ah, im so sorry to hear that... but, im sure everything will be okay in your life! even if you feel bad, someday this will end and you'll feel better... promise! you're needed and loved 💛💛💛💛 - Psimya
I’m looking for a day job right now because being an independent artist just isn’t a viable career. I pay rent and bills by myself. The only thing available around here is food service… I don’t know how I’m going to do that again.
I have fallen behind my peers so much ever since middle school, I am almost old enough for a job and I know my parents will likely force me into one, I have been diagnosed with a few mental disorders but unfortunately stopped going to therapy because it was starting to become difficult lying to every therapist that I was doing better than I actually was because my mother is convinced I am making up things for attention and doesn't believe I'm actually mentally ill so if they thought I had something wrong with me my mom would punish and yell at me The problem I'm currently having is that I also have horrible crippling anxiety (one of the few things I actually was diagnosed with) and even the thought of working a job (especially a customer related one) has sent me spiraling into breakdowns multiple times I am just scared if I end up being self-employed, I will not receive any pension when I retire (something my mom has been talking to me about for forever saying how she won't be able to make ends meet because her pension is very small) does anyone have any pointers or would like to talk about this please I am very much lost and don't know how to even try to explain to my family that I most likely can't handle a "real" job and would much rather be self employed since art is a big passion and I almost never get tired of it
@@PvppySoda I'm really sorry your having such a hard time. And even more sorry your mother is acting like this. It can't make it easy... The pension and income is a real concern. Depending on where you live there may be disability services you could tap into for additional support including financial. Something like this could help support you while you also work from home. There are also many types jobs within art itself, different opportunities to get that income aswell. You just need to find the right fit for you. I'm sending all the love and positively I can muster. I wish you the best
@Candycadaver_art thank you! Your video really helped me not feel so alone in this situation, I already have been getting compensation for a few years now because by law I am (still with the little I have diagnosed) considered disabled, but I am so glad that I am finding more and more alternative ways of making money that suit my capabilities more and there's actual people out there doing this and surviving, it's not easy, I am aware, but your video makes me hopeful that I might have a chance and it definitely beats working in customer service that's for sure Thank you so much for your kind words they mean the world to me!
I have autism with mental disability I want to live a normal life so I could provide for myself and others so I wouldn't be alone anymore. But it seems I'm not meant to be useful or find friends/love.
I am also an older artist with a disability, and have been suffering from schizophrenia for many years since I was 19... (Thank goodness for medical care) But, by the way, hey, your art is so amazing, it's like a magical.
YOOO. I heard there's government disability for you disabled people so you don't have to rely on art. Please go to your local social security office (if you're in America) to tell them. They'll tell you what you need to apply.
I ..sorry hate if people use it for clout. To call themselves disabled artists. Almost eveyrone has some kind of mental illnesses more or less undiagnosted most of the time. Yet people don't call themselves disabled photographer, disabled cook etc. The most you say just is my situation as well without being able to have decent job, do to normal things others do easily etc. Yet I don't go around and push it. It's like saying "being an artist with migraines" (as example) you are not defined by your illnesses and they are more common in most cases. same with the commissions it is a general issue no matter if you have ilnesses or not, so it has nothing to do with it. and especially as artists it is not so big of a deal if I listen to your story. I get it that if you make a normal art episode with speedpaints and talk about slice of life it's ok but to me it really sounds like clout farming. Maybe it will help some, maybe it will help you. But as someone who in your terms is "also disabled artist" and having almost the same issues I absolutely don't like that way of promoting your art/videos.
All the artists in this video are considered legally disabled by their respective governments, so you can consider them not disabled, but you're wrong.
Well, that's your opinion. If you don't like it then go and dont look, nobody is forcing you. And now you just want to hurt artists feelings, just because you didn't liked something about the theme of the video ot smthn. You're an ableist after all...
Respectfully, for someone who claims to have similar issues to this artist, I'd thought you'd understand that everyone works differently. Anxiety can be so intense for some folk that they're crippled by it in many ways. That also included other mental disabilities. Some folk are more strong willed than others and will try and trudge through their problems and some who can't even go outside due to the mental stress it puts them through. In regards to not wanting to listen to their story, then just don't? You can't dictate what they talk about in their videos ESPECIALLY if they're being open about sensitive topics in regards to their own mental health and how it effects THEM. Go live your life to the best of your ability and quit talking down to others.
But not "almost everyone" experiences the same set of difficulties. It's like saying: "I get sad sometimes and don't feel like cleaning sometimes; being depressed isn't a big of a deal".. Also, If someone calls themself a "disabled artist" that's perfectly fine. It's not something they usually use to feel "better" than non-disabled artists. It's because they experience more difficulties than your "typical" artist. Of course you're not 'defined' by these things, but you ARE, living with them, and (depending on the illness/disability) It literally can change your whole set of view. In other words: Your problems can be just a fraction of what they go through. Problems are common, disabilities are not.
I’m a newer disabled person who has had mental disabilities my whole life (unknown) I’ve recently became chronically ill. It’s actually terrifying and it feels like my whole life is crashing around me. But this really gives me hope. Maybe I can make my life my own again. Thanks for the vid:3
@@dreamcloud2279 stay in there charley slimecicle 👍 try reading bible and look for help
woah you make furbys look so innocent and adorable! they haunted me when i was younger bc of that one movie lol
edit: also yeah! thanks for addressing this
Michels vrs machines
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@@Alianah-150 the elder still haunts my dreams at night😂
Bro we're talking about anxiety
@SuperCoolPersonCalledLillithsameee, that stuff gave me nightmares when I was younger lmaooo
This feels incredibly validating to hear right now. I am an artist with some known mental disabilities, but I recently lost a really good job due to a health crisis that I have no answers to just yet. I have to wait months to see specialists and get the proper testing done, with no guarantee that they will find whats wrong with me. Since I have no diagnosis yet, I dont qualify for any kind of benefits.
I've recently had to rely on commissions to get by, but I've been struggling to find an audience. I know my art is good enough, and the people that do commission me tend to give really high praise. I just don't have enough eyes on me and thats so frustrating.
I used to be an exhibiting artist with decent support before this too, but I physically cant do that anymore.
I'm lucky to at least have supportive family and friends to help me trudge through this hellscape...
I hope things get better for all of us
Aw, I wish you luck on your journey! Things will get better for you ❤
i wish i wasnt a child and i had money😭 would tottaly commision you
I’m glad someone’s talking about this.
I myself am a disabled artist and it can be so difficult at times. I can relate to being told “you’re gonna get nowhere in life if you keep acting like this.” (Which I was told because I was slower than most people due to mobility issues and because I’m easily overstimulated.) Art, despite not being able to do it sometimes due to my disability, has really helped. It really lets me spill my emotions into a piece and feel relieved; That’s what I love about art, you can do what you want.
Anyway; Again, I appreciate you guys making this video. I hope you have a great day/afternoon/night.
As a wheelchair bound artist with arthrogryposis affecting both their arms and legs (legs are much worse), it’s really nice to see people bring this topic up.
Hello fellow wheelchair user artist! :]
@@s0larii0np4wzz Oh, hiii :D
As someone on the spectrum, I relate. The job market is hard for people with physical, mental and invisible disabilities. I hope to one day make a living off my art and I'm really glad I'm not the only one. In my previous job, I used to cry in the staff bathrooms all the time during my shifts and before my shifts. I felt like a zombie. Even though I no longer have a job, I have been a lot happier.💖
When I was around the age of 5 I got diagnosed with autism and adhd. Over the years I began drawings and art, it was my safe space were I could do anything and put my ideas. But as the years go on, beginning mostly in middle school, my focus got worse and the school things I used to fly through got hard because of even the smallest noises. It still happened today and I have very bad Stimms.
This is very very validating to me. I have a dissociative identity disorder and probably some more stuff going on, and it makes it extremely hard to do anything at all in my life. it's so hard to just live when your mind is so focused on the past trauma that it frequently forgets that your body and mind are safe now... Knowing that there are other people out there who suffer too, it kind of helps me, especially to know that you guys manage to keep going too! Sometimes just slowly inching forward is probably more than enough. Like, if we only have 10% of energy to give and we give those 10%, than we've technically still given 100%.
As someone with chronic pain, I really feel this! Thank you for your video. You just put into words all my struggles with digital art. :,(
Oh gosh, I've been needing to hear this because sometimes I just feel so alone with all of it. I can relate with ableism in the work place A LOT. I've had ppl slow their speech and "dumb down" their words and have gotten bullied by coworkers and one of my hiring mangers. It got so bad to the point I've quit jobs because of it. It's been hard not feeling like a burden to my family because of my mental disabilities, so much so I've attempted a multitude of times. My art and friends are the only things keeping afloat atm. I hate being like this but I'm slowly coming into terms with it. And hearing you and your friend's experiences helps so much you have no idea. It's so cheesy to say but it makes me feel I'm not entirely alone in it.
Ty for making this, im autistic with ADHD and ive kinda realized im probably not gonna get a job (im autistic which means i will be less likely to be hired and i cant drive, i have a fear of it), my dads been wanting me to go to art college/school to 'get a job' even though ive told him over and over again i wont, mainly as i dont wanna spend thousands on something i wont need, art has been something ive adored for the longest time and have done, hell i sometimes do commisions, seeing this really does help
As a disabled artist myself I am glad somebody is talking about this. Keep it up!
i'm really glad i saw this in my recommended! i've been coming to terms with being physically disabled the past year or so, and it's been so frustrating that even when i WANT to create, sometimes my fatigue or muscle pain or heart rate problems block me from doing so. so i'm trying to find ways to adapt my art to my limits, and have creative outlets even when i'm too weak to properly draw or animate like i want to. it sucks, but it's taught me a lot about prioritizing self care!
also i LOVE the background art, i love furbies especially weird body mod ones like long furbies so it was a treat to see x)
Watching this as a non disabled artist gave me some insight into how it’s harder as a disabled artist just to make ends meet, thank you for making this :)!
I wanted to recommend for your friend who struggles with getting commissions, to maybe try making a ToyHouse account to get commissions? I can spare a code for them as well! I get majority of my commissions from there, and maybe it’d help them as well? Just my thoughts! Have a nice day! Your art is lovely 💕
oh!! we both have TH accounts, but we didnt knew that we can sell comms there??? how do u do that??
- Psimya
@@Candycadaver_art Hi, I personally use Toyhouse for commissions ! Basically I create "characters" for my commissions ! And when someone is interested, I suggest to discuss about it over Discord or via dms!
I've got more clients than usual so it worked well for me :) I hope it helps ❤
Watching this as a disabled person, mentally and physically, i was glad to hear people speaking about this, I’m still currently in school but my teachers have repeatedly told me that I shouldn’t be in school because my physical disability causes severe pain in my hands and feet, I have a rare kidney condition called fabrys disease, my kidneys don’t work and therefore I can’t process sugar probably, it causes so many issues in my body, the cold and heat both causes major problems with pain so I have to use a wheelchair to get anywhere. I also have autism, ADHD, and possibly DID, so going to school isn’t the easiest especially when teachers refuse to listen. Art has helped me get through so much of it, it helps me vent it out, I love giving my OCS my issues as it makes me feel less alone :3
thank u for giving voice for disabled artists + ur friends . as an abled bodied person, it really is eyeopening hearing your struggles , goals and all.
Thank you very much for this video this is so hard to be in a world like this when you are disabled and/or have an illness
The worst is when it is Invisible and people will just tell you to stop being lazy or pessimistic and just do it because it is so easy for them while it is very hard or impossible for us to do
People wouldn’t tell a blind person to just see ? Or a deaf to hear ? I wish people could understand better
Thank you very much
I'm mentally disabled, too
autism, very severe adhd even with meds (meds dramatically helped tho), bpd and a plethora of other issues- I've had people judge me because of my "invisible disabilities"
ur valid, ur disabilities are real, and it's very important that you are trying and I'm sure many of ur community are proud of you and see you
keep strong! you got this, just keep doin ur best!
this comment 😭❤️🫂
I started getting into drawing in the 1st grade. I got in trouble a lot for doodling on notes, homework, and tests. I took a year off and hated it. After going back to drawing, I was able to reach an agreement with my teacher that allowed me to draw in class as long as I looked up when they turned to face the class. In high school, art helped me with my anger and depression. In college, it helped me to find my notes for topics in study groups. Art will always be a part of my life. Now, at age 40, I still draw traditionally and sketch out some fun and sometimes disturbing things. I will always find a way to bring it with me and encourage others to make a mark on that blank page. Exercise that art muscle. You won't get better unless you try. You won't fail, you're learning. Things deemed a failure is just you learning a new skill. Art is awesome and is always there for you. Hugs for those who want them. You got this.
I'm lucky to have the job I've had for the last 2 years, but it took a couple jobs to get here. And even now I still struggle with my disabilities during it. It's frustrating when I mention that someone I know has a mental disability and can't work because of it, and then they respond with "Oh, there are jobs for those people. They just have to go through agency xyz." The jobs are never jobs that actually accommodate their disability. People with disabilities shouldn't be looked down upon or thought of as "lazy" just because they can't find a job that accommodates them, or because they've given up on looking for one outright.
Edit: btw I did enjoy this video :] Thank you both for speaking out about it! It's nice to know we're not the only one who experiences this kind of stuff.
I love the slime rancher music playing
cw: related personal rant
i wonder if i can make a living off writing. writing is my art, and i need to be out of my parents house in 2 years because im too much of a burden to them and they need me out. im mentally and physically disabled with a whole basket of diagnoses, and also going through an unknown physical illness or disorder which is pretty scary. im not too confident in my drawings since all i have is a phone and a finger, plus my paints and paint paper. but me and a few headmates have considered becoming an author for income. i dont think its all that reliable since i cant even get out of bed most days, but writing has been our favourite thing since we were young and writing poorly written fanfiction on wattpad and ao3. its a scary world, and i dont know if anyone even reads anymore, i sure dont. but i dont know where else to go.
this video rrly hit me hard /pos
i recently had to come to terms w the fact that i am disabled, and traditional jobs/sources of income dont work with me as im left in far too much physical and mental pain. commissions have been something i’ve absolutely loved to do as to either make people smile or get just a little bit of money in my pocket to treat myself. amazing video
I'm glad you've found your crowd and have given voice to others as well.
I sighed in relief that you haven't stepped into youtube shorts, it gets more engagement, but quickly notice the difference in the comments when random toxic ass people are air dropped into chill subscriber ecosystem.
Thanks for the video and sharing this furby on this bountiful day
As a disabled artist, this was amazing to hear everyone’s story and this video, yall keep going and don’t give up!♥️
I am a young artist and I needed something to listen to while i’m working on art. This video caught my attention because i’m interesting in hearing the perspectives of disabled artists, but I also found some of these experiences relatable. I have general anxiety and clinical depression it makes it very difficult for me to do anything on a daily basis, especially if it has to do with school. I struggle with frequent panic attacks so hearing someone else talk about their stories and how art is used to make them feel better made me feel seen.
Jobs need to be more accessible for people who have physical or/and metal disabilities, it's extremely frustrating. I deal with a multitude of mental health problems, the most extreme being anxiety (especially social) and depression. I want to get a job but the fear of being judged or/and treated unfairly gets in the way, so I have to rely on SSDI. I'm an artist too, I'd love to start opening commissions and whatnot, but I am unable to atm. It's nice to know I'm not alone on these feelings I have about this topic. The art is absolutely adorable! ❤
Very cute art, thank you for sharing your story!
Thank you for going more in dept of the struggles of being a disabled artist. I also have mental health issues that effect job prospects atho mine are less severe. At times, things can feel hopeless but this video helps me see that maybe it doesn't have to be so bleak. Thank you.
i thought furby in the title mightve been a typo but i was SO HAPPY to see that it was actually a furby omg
i also relate with my anxiety disorder :') it's good to know we're not alone!
It’s cool to see everyone talk about their disabilities here! I personally am visually disabled, making art very hard for me to make in the first place. However, I still love making it. When everything is fuzzing and static clouds your entire vision, it can be hard to see where your pen goes or even get frustrated and stop entirely for the day. I am a art teacher personally, and that’s how I make my income. However, I would love if I could do commission full time
@@MyDarling_Emi I didn't mention in the video but I also have something called visual snow, which sounds similar! It can sure make art a struggle. I feel it deeply. I think it's incredible your an art teacher despite this! Can't be easy
- Candy Cadaver
@@Candycadaver_art yeah! That’s what I have! Mine is on the very very bad end of the spectrum tho, it’s a really whomp whomp moment
@@MyDarling_Emi it's rare you meet others with the condition.I wouldn't wish it on anyone, especially on the woser end. Still, I think it's incredible that we still do art despite it all. I think it's important.
- Candy Cadaver
Thanks for this, I'm physically disabled since 11 (severe neuropathy, joint issue, chronic fatigue, no actual diagnoses cuz specialists dont do much) , can't and haven't worked a regular job. Only income is my art commissions and occasional adopts, sometimes I get all slots filled, sometimes nothing, but thats kinda how it is. Im glad im able to pay for a bit of food, only way im making it is bc of familial support. This video is really helpful for awareness regarding disability impacting artists, ill share it around
Commenting to boost because this video needs more attention, also I love how it says summoning "friends"
I can only work part time so like, I get it. Any more than 3 days a week consistently and I die haha
This video is very validating, I suffer from agoraphobia and chronic fatigue, I've been trying hard to build an audience of people who could like my art because I am unable to work and I'm afraid commissions will be the only source of income I will get, but without audience it is really hard... thanks for the vid :)
This makes me happy because I also go through this and it makes me feel like I’m not fully alone and knowing that other people also go through this everyday puts me at ease a little it :) I love ur artwork btw and ur oc is pretty cute and I really like the colors you used as well! ⭐️⭐️⭐️
I’m a disabled artist as well. Epilepsy, autism, and adhd. Have anxiety, depression and trauma as well.
It sometimes feels like I experience way more emotions and more intensely, and I always try to hold them back bc if a little spills then it might cause me to cry uncontrollably. Any little thing I overthink and it causes me to to feel physically stressed or tensed, and it’s hard to talk about the things that bother me bc of it, and I feel like school really screwed me up, especially when complete outsiders came to the conclusion that I was just being manipulative to get my way.Although it is not as bad as you, I definitely relate, I sometimes wish I could turn off these feelings to get through a normal conversation or interaction bc it always feels as if I’m talking with a predetermined script that my mind comes up so as to “play it safe” and I hate it bc it feels like nobody knows me as for my true me not even myself. And even writing this down makes me tear up. If anyone has the option for therapy then please go, bc just like any other illness it slowly weakens you from the inside and leaves you isolated from any outside help. First time writing this out and kinda feel a bit better, thank you
HELL YEA furby speedpaint!! im a young disabled artist myself and while i dont have a job yet as im still dealing with highschool and therapy and it would be too exhausting for me to juggle all at once, i am a little scared for whats to come since i know i probably can't do most jobs. im considering trying to build up to where i can possibly support myself via my art but i have no current means of payment and its all just. so confusing eugh
maybe one day i'll figure it out
i don't know if i can call myself disabled but i do dread going to work due to fear and anxiety, always nearing the edge of a breakdown whenever i thought of it and i haven't even work a day yet. i feels so disappointed in myself and alone in my struggles but listening to your stories really resonate with me, thank you for sharing them.
I just found your channel and I love the art you make, such a cute style. It breaks my heart to see other artists struggling, it can be hard to get up and be motivated sometimes when things are so fdifficult but remember someone out there is rooting for you!
It's nice to see you again after all these years glad to see you back. Ps. You're an amazing artist.
Thank you for posting this. I'm a 14 year old artist that can't get commissions, but right now they aren't for money. so for now it's fine
im also disabled, struggling with anxiety and depression and agoraphobia. ive always thought " oh i will never get anywhere in life and will have to die " but this video comforts me. knowing i COULD have a future in which im successful like you. thank you.
I feel really validated as a disabled autistic artist myself watching this video. You honestly made my night a whole lot better and made me think on things.
Back when 2020 became chaotic, (Class of 2020 graduating survivor here). I thought it would get better and I would still have a chance to go to college, hoping to make my family proud. Sadly my anxiety, manipulative daydreaming and depression got way worst when I was trying my best for these classes. It felt like I was the dumb one and nobody really wanted to be my friend either. Honestly It wasn’t as helpful either with the teachers and all of them there didn’t know how to teach or help somebody like me with a disability. To this day, I still struggle how it makes me feel like I was a failure for stepping out college and not getting to graduate/complete college.
Yet, from all the other personal things happening all this time from terrible and better moments. Getting a not so fun job now, still having to live with parents, and not having really any irl friends. I then started to learn my long online friends, family and my parents are still with me and giving me that comfort of knowing they’re not going anywhere. Even taking the time to remind me to be kind to myself and that I’m a wonderful person to have around. Even reminding me that I wasn’t a failure for trying to take care of myself too. So here I am today, still breathing and trying my best to keep getting help even if it’s hard at most times. Taking the time to go to therapy, Now still playing with my first DND online group when available, spending more time to draw whenever I can, hang online with my friends to play or chat and get a chance to go out once in a while. Now I’m trying to get the courage and energy to start finally to do commissions with my art.
So thank you for sharing your art and struggles you face. I’m glad to not be alone on this 🫶💖✨
I very much appreciate the use of slime rancher music
Short rant:
Dude, I'm going to be in a similar situation, my autism, adhd, and cptsd, idk if i could ever have a normal life. I love art and drawing, especially gore and violent art is so comforting. I don't think i could ever work a normal job (especially the recent possible contamination ocd symptoms). At this moment im trying to see if i can live in a community youth center before i turn 18 (when im going to kicked out).
This video is very comforting for me because (even though I am able-bodied and can somewhat function normal mentally) I don't know what a good job would be for me, Mind you I am not even close to being out of school. It's just the fact that prices are getting higher and no office job seems fun to work at. And not only that, But I am being told left and right to think of a job to work at when I am older which makes me feel so sick to my stomach.
Though I would love to say this video does help me, I personally do art, so I might just do commission work. idk
Thanks for saying this, I'm also still in school and I'm not disabled (although I most likely have ADHD and/or Autism) It can be hard growing up in this crazy modern world! I'm also a bit scared for my future. Also, tip: Learn about money management! because that really can help! I'm learning about it now. It's funny how they don't even teach these things in school. Thank you, have a good day/night! I hope one day you'll find a good job that you'll really love :)
your artworks absolutely gorgeous oh my god!!!! i dont really have anything interesting to add to the discussion but i wish nothing but the best for you and your friends
Im very happy to see this... and. augh. its been very hard to work and think Im doing well. Dusabilotues physical and adhd/autism stuff not to mention my perfectionism. :|
however. . I really appreciate this video . going to download it and listen when I feel worthless about my art + progress.
Of course I am sorry that you had to go through that, but its reassuring in a strange way that I am not the only disabled person who had these experiences with college and working. Everybody else struggles too, yeah, but not so badly that they actually have to drop out, it feels.
Even the burn story. I had something similar, someone rammed one of these huge, heavy, metal lab doors against my foot and cut open my heel and I just continued in the lab for the rest of the day while I bleed over a quarter of my shoe.
Glad you have found your way. Just hope I find mine.
I'm a disabled artist in both senses. Chronic pain and stomachaches so bad I can't even move for periods of time, combined with anxiety and some lingering childhood trauma, mean I find myself doubting if I'll ever be able to get a job (I've been going for retail because I've got volunteer experience in that field, but I've been applying to jobs since November last year and still nothing!) and while I haven't been able to make any money off art yet, I'm sort of hoping it'll work out because if it doesn't, what do I have left to try?
This is a wonderful video, and it's so validating to hear it's not impossible for someone like me to earn some money doing what I love and not be a total burden on my parents :)
Uejrjrjr, I really love this drawing, I'm totally obsessed with furbys I have, like a whole collection of this little guys ^__^🩵💙 excellent video :D
I have arthritis too, not rheumatoid but I know how it feels when you on some days just can't do anything because the pain in your hands is just too bad. None of us are alone in this, we as disabled artists are all in this together.
Oh my god, I'm glad I am not the only one, for being pretty much disabled myself due to the similar things because I was diagnosed with the exact same things, dropped out of college after a few months after stressful times because I never gotten a single bit of help with my disability which only grew worse and worse over time, and it got to the point where I always hiding behind tables, hiding in toilet stalls, hiding in just any small spaces I can fit into because of how extreme my panic attacks got to where I constantly cried to my own mother / grandpa to pick me up because I would end up having extreme episodes to the point I would either need medical help or need to go back into my comfort space which was my bed because of the extreme over stimulation I would go through from being even in a small group of people. I sadly don't know what its like to have a job because things like my therapist and my family has been telling me it is never a smart move due to how I am right now, I wish to try it because of how other things are but I'm scared to go get a job due to the interactions I will have to do as well with getting bossed around the place
This is for those who go through similar stuff, You are not alone and you are all valid people❤
I am so glad someone is being open to stuff like this because it can be a touchy topic towards a lot of others who doesn't have the courage to speak up
Wow! The drawing is so pretty! Love the way you draw wings. And also, this was something that needed to be discussed. I am autistic, tho I am high masking and have low needs, I still don't think I'd qualify for certain jobs, and when i move out, I'll probably rely mostly on commissions as a source of income, specially since a traditional job like a food chain or something will take away many hours of my day that i need so i can do other things like exercise, eat or work on college homework
commenting to boost! Also, I am also a disabled artist, I have autism and tend to be anxious which makes it hard to talk to people I don't know, which sucks because I'm an extrovert, but I'm still in grade school and so I don't make money off of it or anything, its just a hobby, but I think I will likely do commissions in the future! I'm not sure if Ill be capable of getting a job or not but i do hope I can. :]
i like sharing things lol.
I'm happy you found happiness in what you do! Keep up the great work and thank you for sharing your story. This video really warmed my heart.
I'm an disabled artist but i don't make money. I want a regular job but most of them would make my state worse and I don't have driver license yet so it would be impossible to get to the work place. I had a panic attack on my first drive lesson. At least I'm in a stable situation because i live with my parents and i have a pension (if that's what it's called) because we're in Poland. Art for me mostly gives me a purpose but also when i draw it's mostly my hyperfixations so I'm good at it mostly thanks to one of my disabilities
sorry to go off topic from the video but SIME RANCHER MUSIC AS THE BACKGROUND?!? new sub man.
yup, it is! :D
one of my favorite games
- psimya
@@Candycadaver_art :O
It's one of my faves too!!
:D
this video was really reassuring for me ^u^ love the video and the art!!
i love the art (summoning- NO nooot demons... friends!! :3
Lovely art piece ◡̈
And thank you for speaking up for Disabled(mentally or Physically) artists, We get it pretty rough and people kinda really don't care. ☹︎
Best of Luck to all disabled (and non Disabled) artists out there ✌︎
gosh such a good vid!! ur art is lovely and im so glad to see people touching on the subject of disability and sharing their experiences in the art space :]
I’ve had extremely similar experiences as you and it turned out I was autistic, not just anxious/depressed or awkward.
Wow, that’s something as you went through a lot and senior too because I’ve only been out for the free for almost 20 years and yeah and a lot has happened over the years. All I can do is pretty much OK no matter what happens in my life and express it as I am a huge visual adult guy with Asperger Just wants to be loved even if the world doesn’t really do that but there are some that will it just depends on the ones you find . Back in choice support you especially your immediate family.
OMG?? TOBY FOX MUSIC? AND A KINDA RELATABLE VIDEO? y e s
I also struggle with disabilty, i didnt go to school after elementary school due my phisical disabilty didnt let me go also bcuz my country isnt adaptes. Art is my way to get out of this.
I loved this video, thank you for making it!
i hope someone helps ou or cheers you up
Just a huge wall of vent.
I relate to this so much. I had a job that lasted for a few months and then I had to put in my two weeks notice. I was still in school at the time and it was just too much for me. I would always cry when I realized I had to go to work. I would sometimes cry while at work but would make sure know one could see/hear me crying. I never understood why I felt so horrible when it came to work. Eventually I realized it was anxiety.
Despite my anxiety I still hoped to at least make some friends at work. For years now most of my friends have been online. Nothing bad with that I just really wanted someone that I could do go to places and hangout with. I'm not good at initiating and continuing conversations but I still hope that at least someone would talk to me. However my coworkers would just pretend I wasn't there. There are people that I would work with often that I don't think ever even said a word to me. They were more social and outgoing too. I guess I just seemed that unapproachable? I was literally just a ghost to everyone there. The only person that would actually talk to me, like full on conversations, was my store manager. She was the only person I felt comfortable around at work.
After high school I returned to the same workplace because I never had any plans to go to college. I was only able to last for over a year before my mental health took a decline again. Then I just stopped going to work. I ended up hurting my store manager because of that. I just knew that if I told her I wanted to put my two weeks notice in she'll probably ask why. I'm just not good at talking about my emotions so I just ghosted. I don't even talk about how I'm truly feeling to my family. My family sees me as a quirky and shy but functional human being. When in the inside I'm always anxious, depressed, and most likely neurodivergent. I can't afford an official diagnosis or therapy for anything though because 'Merica.
I have another job now and I think I've gotten a little better at talking whenever I have to. I still can't seem to ask people for help because it just feels like I'm bothering them. The people here at least talk to me a little more compared to my coworkers at my old job. Mainly just greetings, goodbyes, and slight small talk here and there. I still really struggle with just wanting to be a shut-in and staying at home all the time. I think a lot of my anxiety stems from my appearance. Sometimes I don't care about my appearance and sometimes I'm extremely hyper aware of my body and wish that I could change every little thing. Possibly body dysmorphia. I know that I should just love my appearance but that's easier said then done. I like J-Fashion and I can't even wear most of the clothes from Japan because I'm too tall and too chubby to wear them. I have to live vicariously through my art. It sucks.
I love this video it makes me feel so seen
This video has found me at my most desperate. I have ADHD autism severe gerenalized anxiety disorder and depression and I struggle to make my art skill a carreer. I used to be on instagram and used to sell commissions but I'd like to have an online store and sell stuff that I drew instead of drawing what others ask of me. Idk how to start. I constantly have executive paralysis and I struggle with drawing enough art. I'm being medicated but even then I don't think it's enough. And no I refuse to do commissions I had traumatic events linked with them and I don't wanna draw always twhat other people want of me.
I love your sona
As a disabled artist thanks for speaking about this, I am physically disabled (deformed foot) and probably autistic… I have looked to art for a long time now, I am a teenager and am at the age where me and my peers are starting to get jobs in things like retail. I do not know if I can do this, my dream is and always has been to make a comic, art has been an escape from this life. And hopefully it will be enough to live off of, if not I do not know what I will do. Art is my only skill, I am an idiot who is probably not smart enough for a white collar desk job, and any labour is not really an option; hell even getting around school is difficult and exhausting.
Art is and will be my life, it will likely be my job and somehow my death ( I’ll probably eat paint idk it looks yum ) , I’m okay with this but I’m still guilty for doing this. My other artist friends have dreams for an actual job, I sometimes envy them, sometimes pity them… I just hope I can really do this, I’m currently writing my comic.
I've been having a really hard time expressing myself in art lately, but I've found out how to express myself in clothing. The problem is my anxiety prevents me from doing this in public, since yesterday, for example, I wore mismatched shoes on purpose and got a lot of comments on it. It made me really self-conscious
@@Horrorfan123 honestly mismatched shoes sounds like it could look pretty cool! But I understand. I like expressing myself through clothing too and the looks one can get from being unique can be rather anxiety inducing. I think I might mismatch my shoes too!
- Candy Cadaver
@Candyxxdog thanks for the support! It was a black doc Martin with the zippers on both sides, and a matching pink one, although the textures were different! My socks even matched the pink one, the socks had heart cutouts too :D
@@Horrorfan123 aw that actually sounds super cute! Now thinking of matching my pink boots with my white ones.. I'll have to try it! Thanks for the fashion tip
@@Candycadaver_art you're welcome! It's actually really nice to think someone likes the mismatch idea, I might start doing it more with my checkered converse
unrelated but i love your oc so much its so pretty!
I'm on the autism spectrum with insomnia, anxiety, depression and possible Schizoaffective disorder (plus more that requires a doctor to diagnose me). Jobs were never something I ever wanted, but needed. I have really bad hearing sensitivity where if someone screams, it can break me down fast. I get overwhelmed insanely fast and can't handle more than two things at once (or even one on a bad day). I've managed to land a job as a cleaner but even that's really hard. These things have made me feel useless and I'm 19 with a really horrible family that doesn't support me much. But if people "worse than me" can do it, so can I, right?
This is exactly what I’m going through right now with my job
Cool art and video I dont really have anything to say I just think this is neat
THE SLIME RANCHER MUSIC!?!?
Im an artist with 1 disability diagnosed and a lot more suspected by my therapist (we dont have the money to get diagnosed and im scared to)
and ufff,,, Its so so SO hard to want to keep going when i put my all into art, im trying to make it what i live off of and it just doesnt work and im terrified of going into the work force in fear that ill never find a niche that works for me
I feel like through my whole life, Art has been the only thing that ive ever been good at that i could turn into a career-
I dont have the brain for things involving large amounts of Numbers, i dont have the memory for things like storage, i dont have the physical demands for manual labor like construction,
I feel like the only thing that im good for is art, but with everything happening as of late, i just feel like i dont have a future :(
I dont yet have a job and i feel like im falling behind in life not to mention because im not diagnosed, even at 19 im still getting neglected from the help im SURE i need- hell even for the thing i AM diagnosed with, im not getting my meds or anything for it
Lifes hard for us Buuuut we got no choice but to keep pluggin along :(
SLIME RANCHER OST YIPEPEPEPPEPEPEPEPEPEOE
I’m 11, autistic, depressed and have generalised anxiety disorder, as well as (currently undiagnosed) possible schizophrenia. I’m homeschooled as I can’t cope in mainstream schooling, I am behind on studies and I am coming to terms with the fact I’ll most likely not have a normal life and a job when I’m older. This video made me feel less alone and thank you, I feel like god sent me this video somehow, like he knew I needed it right now. I’m at one of my lowest points and this made me feel so much better, thank you so much. :D
ah, im so sorry to hear that... but, im sure everything will be okay in your life! even if you feel bad, someday this will end and you'll feel better... promise!
you're needed and loved 💛💛💛💛
- Psimya
Ur sona matches ur voice!! /pos
It's so cool🤩
I’m looking for a day job right now because being an independent artist just isn’t a viable career. I pay rent and bills by myself. The only thing available around here is food service… I don’t know how I’m going to do that again.
I relate
I have fallen behind my peers so much ever since middle school, I am almost old enough for a job and I know my parents will likely force me into one, I have been diagnosed with a few mental disorders but unfortunately stopped going to therapy because it was starting to become difficult lying to every therapist that I was doing better than I actually was because my mother is convinced I am making up things for attention and doesn't believe I'm actually mentally ill so if they thought I had something wrong with me my mom would punish and yell at me
The problem I'm currently having is that I also have horrible crippling anxiety (one of the few things I actually was diagnosed with) and even the thought of working a job (especially a customer related one) has sent me spiraling into breakdowns multiple times
I am just scared if I end up being self-employed, I will not receive any pension when I retire (something my mom has been talking to me about for forever saying how she won't be able to make ends meet because her pension is very small) does anyone have any pointers or would like to talk about this please I am very much lost and don't know how to even try to explain to my family that I most likely can't handle a "real" job and would much rather be self employed since art is a big passion and I almost never get tired of it
@@PvppySoda I'm really sorry your having such a hard time. And even more sorry your mother is acting like this. It can't make it easy...
The pension and income is a real concern. Depending on where you live there may be disability services you could tap into for additional support including financial. Something like this could help support you while you also work from home. There are also many types jobs within art itself, different opportunities to get that income aswell. You just need to find the right fit for you.
I'm sending all the love and positively I can muster. I wish you the best
@Candycadaver_art thank you! Your video really helped me not feel so alone in this situation, I already have been getting compensation for a few years now because by law I am (still with the little I have diagnosed) considered disabled, but I am so glad that I am finding more and more alternative ways of making money that suit my capabilities more and there's actual people out there doing this and surviving, it's not easy, I am aware, but your video makes me hopeful that I might have a chance and it definitely beats working in customer service that's for sure
Thank you so much for your kind words they mean the world to me!
this is a good video 💛💛
I have autism with mental disability I want to live a normal life so I could provide for myself and others so I wouldn't be alone anymore. But it seems I'm not meant to be useful or find friends/love.
Great video :)
I understand you girl 😔✊ your not alone
I am also an older artist with a disability, and have been suffering from schizophrenia for many years since I was 19...
(Thank goodness for medical care) But, by the way, hey, your art is so amazing, it's like a magical.
❤❤❤
YOOO. I heard there's government disability for you disabled people so you don't have to rely on art. Please go to your local social security office (if you're in America) to tell them. They'll tell you what you need to apply.
I ..sorry hate if people use it for clout. To call themselves disabled artists. Almost eveyrone has some kind of mental illnesses more or less undiagnosted most of the time. Yet people don't call themselves disabled photographer, disabled cook etc. The most you say just is my situation as well without being able to have decent job, do to normal things others do easily etc. Yet I don't go around and push it. It's like saying "being an artist with migraines" (as example) you are not defined by your illnesses and they are more common in most cases. same with the commissions it is a general issue no matter if you have ilnesses or not, so it has nothing to do with it.
and especially as artists it is not so big of a deal if I listen to your story. I get it that if you make a normal art episode with speedpaints and talk about slice of life it's ok but to me it really sounds like clout farming.
Maybe it will help some, maybe it will help you. But as someone who in your terms is "also disabled artist" and having almost the same issues I absolutely don't like that way of promoting your art/videos.
All the artists in this video are considered legally disabled by their respective governments, so you can consider them not disabled, but you're wrong.
Well, that's your opinion. If you don't like it then go and dont look, nobody is forcing you.
And now you just want to hurt artists feelings, just because you didn't liked something about the theme of the video ot smthn. You're an ableist after all...
Respectfully, for someone who claims to have similar issues to this artist, I'd thought you'd understand that everyone works differently. Anxiety can be so intense for some folk that they're crippled by it in many ways. That also included other mental disabilities. Some folk are more strong willed than others and will try and trudge through their problems and some who can't even go outside due to the mental stress it puts them through.
In regards to not wanting to listen to their story, then just don't? You can't dictate what they talk about in their videos ESPECIALLY if they're being open about sensitive topics in regards to their own mental health and how it effects THEM. Go live your life to the best of your ability and quit talking down to others.
@@awooooooof please dont be rude!!! everyone haves the right to have their own opinions, we're not offended
But not "almost everyone" experiences the same set of difficulties. It's like saying: "I get sad sometimes and don't feel like cleaning sometimes; being depressed isn't a big of a deal"..
Also, If someone calls themself a "disabled artist" that's perfectly fine. It's not something they usually use to feel "better" than non-disabled artists. It's because they experience more difficulties than your "typical" artist.
Of course you're not 'defined' by these things, but you ARE, living with them, and (depending on the illness/disability) It literally can change your whole set of view. In other words: Your problems can be just a fraction of what they go through. Problems are common, disabilities are not.