I Couldn't Stop Smoking: Here's What I Did
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Smoking had Everything to do with my childhood trauma, and my CPTSD symptoms made it feel impossible to stop. In this video I talk about my addiction, and how the surprising way I finally stopped permanently.
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I quit smoking after 20+ years when I got diagnosed with cancer, and realized that smoking on my way to chemo was just insane. I started when I was 11, and never thought I could quit. It's been 16 years. Yay 🥳
Yay! Congratulations!!
-Cara@TeamFairy
“The really wonderful religious people are really low key about it.”
THANK YOU
Preach the Gospel without using words.
Yes.
This is 100% the truth!!!
Whenever possible, right🥰🙏
@@joeljoy4144 This is true, be he called out his home town the most. “To none of these that Elijah was sent, but to a widow in Zaraphath.” He also said “first take the log out of your own eye.” As believers, we should spend most of our energy scrutinizing ourselves, not the world.
@@joeljoy4144 that's false. Jesus only offended the leaders because they didn't know the truth.
It will be 20 years January 1, 2022. I was 2-3 packs a day in the end. I considered it "An Act of Grace" that allowed me to quit. And that's exactly how it felt.
Well said, me too :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Imagine Now it’s nine bucks a pack!!?? Whoa
Could not be more timely! I just yesterday did something I never do either, I asked my higher powers to help me quit smoking. This feels like a personal message. Thank you so much for your bravery in sharing this, I am inspired on multiple levels ☺️
Read Allan Carrs book Easyway to stop smoking. It is golden with 85% success rate after 3 months. Hope you give it a try. Bless you!
@Kara_Marie it's very personal! Thank you for sharing
-Cara@TeamFairy
Me too, with the grace of God. I’ve smoked for 50 years😔but, as Bessel Van Der Kolk said: “forgive yourself for doing what you had to do to survive.”
You changed your brain with your consistency in praying and meditation and intention.
That's right!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I quit smoking cold turkey after fifteen years when I decided to have a family. (I loved smoking. I still miss it.) My addiction is poor eating and binge eating. I remember the moment I made eating my slow suicide -- "I don't even care if I die," I thought, twenty-one years ago when a major family loss happened and I started self-soothing with awful food choices. I believe in prayer and I believe healing is there for me, if I can accept it. I am so very tired. Thank you for sharing your story. xoxo
Thank you for sharing with us, behind your facing this and healing 100%
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thanks for sharing
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Yes!!
Whew Over eating is a slow suicide
They say that's the hardest addiction to overcome. Good for you, however you found help. Now you're healthy, free and "not bound," you're in control, rather than controlled by some habit.
Because of God, she is free. 🙋
@Vickie_Lewallen thanks for watching!
-Cara@TeamFairy
happy you found a way to overcome this addiction. .growing up as a city kid in the 1960s it wasn't unusual for a 9 year old to pick up this habit. Soon a two pack a day addiction for 27 years was taking a toll on my health. A diagnosis of cancer didn't phase me as a young father. getting released from hospital stays from radiation sickness couldn't get me to stop. I would tell family i would stop smoking 20 minutes after being cremated. I smoked my last cigarette on June 8th 1998 when my then 6 year old son confronted me and expressed his fear that i would die and leave him without a dad. I still consider myself a smoker. Ive just gone a long time between cigarettes. What works for me regarding addiction is to take one day at a time. I will never be able to say I've quit . I just make the decision that i am continuing to be in the process of quitting. It has worked every day since june 8th, 1998
I am an atheist and understand exactly what you are saying
To me meditation is probably like the prayer for someone who does believe in a creator.
Thank you for your honest story about how you quit smoking. My lungs can't take any more, they are hurting and screaming out to me
I will follow your example. Journaling and meditation as of tomorrow. Today I start deep cleaning the house...
Excellent, good luck and there is more support for you at Crappy Childhood Fairy bit.ly/2rukHvh
-Cara@TeamFairy
I believe you 💯% can and will and are doing it!! 🎉 Congrats 👏
What a powerful, transparent, welcoming testimony! Cigarettes and alcohol are woven through many of our stories... Thank you again, CCF!!!
They sure are!
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Just when I think I could not possibly appreciate you more. this is a really great video. your content is higher quality. thank you
I resonate with so many aspects of your story Anna. I used to smoke for exactly the same reasons as you. Also I quit (heavy) smoking in a day 11 years ago because I had a spiritual awakening that probably saved my life. Thank you for being always so open and honest. You are modelling how to release those hidden pockets of shame and guilt that are so heavy and disempowering in the healing process.
Thank you so much for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I had a miracle like you with giving up smoking. I literally felt the weight lift off my shoulders and walked out never wanting another cigarette again. And I was a solid smoker like yourself. Thank God for this miracle!!!
Thanks for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Alan Carr's book on quitting smoking really worked for my family. I was extremely skeptical that reading a book could make a difference but it did. 👍
Thanks for the tip!
-Cara@TeamFairy
This was the same for me and my family. We all quit smoking through this book. I smoked since I was 12 and had tried to stop so many times. I even had to try twice with this book! I was so addicted. Have had other addictions before and since, though smoking was definitely the worst. Also when I stopped smoking I got incredibly sick and became chronically ill with autoimmune disease. Have always wondered what that was about. Stopping smoking is one of the hardest things I've ever done.
If you relapse it doesn't work for a second time. Once you've quit don't ever go back.
Thanks for sharing your story. I resonate so deeply with this. I've smoked (on and off) for 15 years now. It's so embarrassing and shameful, I hate the way it smells, how it stops me breathing properly, and the cost. But I understand now that it's been a way to try and regulate my emotions. I haven't smoked for 2 weeks and I'm hoping it'll be permanent this time.
Good job! 🎉keep going!
I never smoked but I am an emotional eater . Thank you for this and all that you do here I’m very grateful .
Emotional eating is also a very hard habit to break, glad you're here!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Need prayers from those who pray. I picked up cigarettes again this year during a super hard life change. I tried to hide it as well, which realizing that I felt ashamed, I knew I HAD to stop. It definitely helps re-regulate, but it's not worth it in the long run.
I just quit, it's definitely difficult and it's all about God here...
I need his strength! 🙏💜
I'll pray for ya. I don't usually pray but cigarettes are awful and quite addictive, so I'll send you some good vibes. If you feel like reaching for a cig, try and put your finger to your lips as if you were smoking, take a deep breath, and do a very slow whistle through your lips with your finger in front of you. Try to draw the whistle out as long as you can, and as it gets quieter, imagine the craving leaving your body. On Instagram I was stunned, to see they are selling a fancy whistle on a necklace to help people with anxiety. All it really does is give you a small hole to exhale through slowly so your breath is regulated outward to calm anxiety. I realized I already do this by exhaling slowly through my tongue pressed against my front teeth to make a high pitched squeaking noise when I'm annoyed. I make a game out of it to see how clearly I can make the high pitched squeak. I can work to calm you down. I've never smoked cigarettes but I've come close...so sorry if these tips don't work. I have friends who have quit though. But I've smoked weed once and it irritated and hurt my lungs so I decided I don't like smoking anything..
@James_Child I feel for you-it's horribly addictive, but there is nothing to be ashamed about. We're rooting for you!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Praying for you James. Going to embark on this new chapter myself soon. We can do it! 🙏🏻 ♥️
As hard as I tried... nothing I could do could have stopped me from smoking. 37 years. Then one day while trying to convince my mother that I am an adult who is separate from her, it hit me.
Mother "allowed" me to smoke when I was in high school as a form of controlled rebellion. She used my smoking to justify her smoking again after many years of being quit, which then justified my father to restart smoking as well.
I realized at the moment all these memory fragments were falling into place, that my mother has secretly wanted me dead since I was born or shortly thereafter. Kids smoking, (even a child can figure out) was just a symptom of a negligent parent that a) doesn't care or b) actively participates in subverting their children's development. It is apparent, I was just the reason they needed to do what they wanted to do.
Its, been 2 months. Not even tempted alittle. I'm free. She isn't.
Since our relationship has turned from (delusional?) love in to concrete abhorrence over the last 3 years, and she refuses to admit any wrong doing ever, I feel she can suck it. And another.
It's a hard thing to realize your mother and father have offered no real tangible, practical protection ever. Not from the system. Not from each other. Everything they ever did was an act for others to judge. Nothing was ever "for" me. If they said it was, that was their way of letting you know who was going to be pulling your strings.
Congratulations on quitting! Its so hard :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Ty for Post! Really helps
Oh my goodness, you're telling my story!!!
When they killed my thyroid with radioactive iodine, I lost hair too, except my eyebrows never came back.
I smoked for years and ruined my health, I have COPD and Lupus.
God helped me quit drinking when I was 34 and I've been sober for 30 years on July 1st, 2021.
I think I need to listen to more of your videos because I am very dysregulated.
30 years sober is a huge accomplishment!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I am so greatful you have the courage to share your story. God set me free from smoking cigarettes and weed. It is a miracle to be free from something so addictive. Bless you for all you do! Thank you for your honesty!
There’s information about addiction being a disconnection with spirituality… So, it makes sense that you connected with your own spirituality and that made the “trick”. I don’t think it was a miracle, you just found your spiritual connection.
Sounds like you've never had an addiction.
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I think she nailed it and reiterated what you said. Carl Jung advised the same to Bill Wilson- spiritus contra spiritum. Sounds like addiction and RECOVERY to me!!
The problem is, my family used religion to abuse and traumatize me. Having a therapist suggest prayer to address any problem is SUPER triggering.
Well, I'm not a therapist. And I teach people to heal their triggers so they can be at peace amongst other people, and their variety of experiences.
Unfortunately, I truly believe religion to be evil, so I have no desire to be comfortable amongst it. I cannot allow its influence to touch me in any way I can avoid. This belief is based both on my own personal experience and on the well documented history of the atrocities committed in the name of religion. I hope you can understand why some of us would choose to step away from the channel.
@@jennifershappyplace6938 Jesus was harsh with the religious leaders. He wasn't about that. Anna isn't advocating that kind of religion just because she talks about God. I get why you are triggered though. There is so many people who twist scripture to manipulate people.
@@jennifershappyplace6938 My therapist helped me realize I can never trust my parents and my particular grandparents as I would continually be traumatized as they are NOT trustworthy. However, it doesn't mean that I didn't need parents. I did. For my brain to heal from generational CPTSD we have been using EMDR and installing the images of IDEAL parents and it's been quite healing as I can now grasp that I would have felt loved and wanted and worthy with IDEAL parents. I grasped my current beliefs were "learned responses". In the same way, you have experienced trauma in a spiritual, "religious" context and have formed beliefs and conclusions from that trauma. Perfectly normal. However, Does your experience mean you don't need a relationship with your IDEAL Creator who made the planet, universe, and animals and food and more? Will we punish the one who truly is IDEAL because "religions" refused to listen to his standards and direction for humans? I had to realize my abusers were not listening and obeying the true God. Why should I punish God because of their hypocrisy? Or punish myself and cutting myself off from the one who gives life and the hope of eternal life in peace when ALL evil ones including false religion will be removed?
@@totally_cooked"god" was invented by humans to manipulate, control and abuse other humans. Religion and god are not different things.
It took a week for this to sink in. I remember feeling a pang of jealousy when you recounted your story and then suddenly while journaling (which I NEVER do anymore) the lightbulb went off. You did what you did not by your own strength and I will do what I need to not by my own. Thank you for sharing this. It’s not a new concept for me but I needed to hear this! 💗
Oh that's great, thanks so much for sharing that with us
-Cara@TeamFairy
I have come to realize that no matter what I call it, my belief in a higher power outside of myself has benefitted me and my life so much. Do I try to explain how my spiritual practice is just another way to "hack" my brain into better behavior that gets me real results in my everyday life? Yes. But I'm also working a twelve step program that asks me to just give an inkling of belief a chance. And my most useful prayer is "Please heal my fear based thoughts.". That's it and I repeat it any time I recognize that I am letting fear get the better of me. I'm so very grateful to have found your channel and the guidance you offer without judgment. You are an agent of positive change in my life. I could never thank you enough.
Beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing- 12 step is really great in that way, "just an inkling" is enough
-Cara@TeamFairy
Your storytelling really helps your viewers connect with your message. I’m not of the traditional faiths in the US, but my faith has grown deeper and deeper the more I follow your advise. If we don’t recognize the divine in us, we can feel fallen, becoming healed (in my small current state) feels like reconnecting with the divine inside. Thanks for all you do
That's beautiful, thanks so much for that comment!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I’m still not sure what words to use for what I believe in, but my whole life since childhood, every now and then I’ve been turning towards a ‘higher power’ in my most desperate moments. I was very suicidal growing up, and praying always helped me keep going. However small, something always happened to help me keep going. I never dared to keep praying regularly, though. Now looking back I think I just couldn’t let myself feel worthy enough for any kind of protection or having feelings of hope. I’m really happy to have started wondering about the spiritual part of myself and my life again lately, the world can be so much more beautiful when you open yourself up to things where you’re true to yourself and explore what you feel drawn to and connected with. I’m still struggling badly with binge eating and really terrible eating habits that I always fall back on to fill the emptiness inside me from childhood trauma, but I know a change is going to come soon. I can feel it.
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your story with us. It’s given me a lot to reflect on and reminded me what I might want to be more open to and explore myself. :)
Thank you for sharing. I wish you well in your healing. xx
@e thanks for sharing with us, you are worthy and I'm glad you're here
-Cara@TeamFairy
I was overjoyed to hear you say GOD and PRAYER. Your work in TH-cam has been a huge blessing. I clicked on this video because of a very serious health circumstance that is a direct consequence of CPSTD. It is going take Divine grace and mercy to survive this.
You are speaking to my heart. You are speaking to my soul. I've called myself a "post-Christian agnostic" for some years... but it's becoming insufficient. I sense you have appeared at a timely moment in my life. Thank you for your powerful work.
Thank you for that beautiful comment
-Cara@TeamFairy
I finally quit smoking for good when I realized that each cigarette was just staving off the withdrawal symptoms from the cigarette before, not giving me a break. There's a book by Carr titled "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" that pointed this out. Made me so mad that an addiction was controlling my life. Went cold turkey - thought I was going to die for the first 3 days - literally. On the 4th day, and since then, I didn't want to ever go through that withdrawal again. After 21 days, so much better. Now it's been 18 years and not even a thought.
That book saved my life too 🙌 November 6 2012- celebrating 10 years this year ❣️
@@bethtaylor9773 thanks and YAY u too ❣️
It's because i had to have hypnosis too.,i quit and but i like the effect on my brain.6 months later i started using the lozenges because it made me think better.
I dealt with similar sentiments in my family growing up. If you can't explain yourself through logic and reason, then you should be mocked. Religion and faith was ridiculed. Now as an adult, I still struggle to connect with my divine guidance due to internalized shame. Intellectualizing is a common defense mechanism in my family of origin.
I also relate to feeling ambivalent towards my future/life, so in the moment, it's much easier to continue to participate in harmful habits like smoking. Myself and some of my clients have admitted to regrets later, because we're certain we did a lot of harm to our bodies when we were younger. The persistent harm of childhood abuse and neglect is awful- it really makes you question what's the point of persevering subconsciously or consciously. Thank you for continuing to share great content and help lift others up.
Thank you @Ashley_Chang, for sharing your experience and helping make it OK for all here.
Thank you Anna for your courage to acknowledging God publicly. This is so needed since God can and does help!
Thanks for watching!
-Cara@TeamFairy
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Amazing!!! And same for me. I quit an addiction only trough prayer.💖💖
I feel like.. some things are sometimes bigger that us..we can't beat them by ourselves..
😊😊🤗God is amazing!😊
Appreciate your support!
-Cara@TeamFairy
First time in my life as a smoker (qutting and falling back all the time ) that I really easy could quit and stay that way was after a prayer. Im still free after many years since that sincere prayer. I was suprised myself, it felt like a miracle the craving was gone!
That's great!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I love this lady. So relatable.
Thanks for your support of the Fairy Channel
-Cara@TeamFairy
I can so much relat to the feelings, the anger, the loneliness and the need for space. I had so many attempts to stop smoking without success. I felt so disgusted by myself. And then I started to pray and meditate to have the strength to face the fear, anger, sadness that I regulated with smoking. Once I could really name and feel those feelings the desire to smoke was gone.
I love your honesty Anna - it's so helpful to me!!!! I've been doing the Daily Practice for almost 2 weeks now and it's so cool and I'll never stop again. I was resisting it - like really? "I already do guided meditation, I don't need that, how boring, I don't have time, I"m too smart, I'm too sophisticated...." I needed it!!!!!! I was stuck and repeating frustrating people pleasing and getting angry again and paranoid, etc. I don't know where this is all leading but it is wonderful and I'm feeling peace and I'm giving up control and THANK YOU!!! With love, Linda
I'm so glad you're incorporating DP into your life :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
❤️ I'm so proud of you, Anna ❤️. This is what we've done.
Thank you!
Anna, you are a brave heart ❤️
to speak from your heart no matter what reaction might come.
Your honest sharing of your journey is heart-warming and inspiring.
Thank you
Thank you so much for sharing with us!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Anna, I appreciate you sharing your journey - you are lovely and soft towards us who struggle and I so appreciate that. But for those who aren't there on the spiritual side, it is possible to just quit in the physical. Here's my story (2002): I quit cold turkey 3.5 months ago - no spirituality involved. I enjoyed smoking and never really wanted to quit until I got up to one pack/day and realized that I didn't want to die from it. Nicotine is a very effective drug for just-ever-so-slightly dulling emotional inputs; that is, when I smoked, I could more easily overlook all the junk of negative and dysfunctional people I encounter (seems more so now in the U.S. than ever before) - seeing "their stuff" as their stuff and just allowing it to be without reacting. However, when I quit, that buffer was instantly gone and I was shocked at how raw life really was and how reactive I was to mean people, gossipy people, rude people, narcissists, rampantly-political people, etc. In order to not have people triggering me, I had to take a break, as much as possible, from all B.S. I avoided toxic and mean people both in person and online. Now a few months later, I can, again, not internalize other people's junk and allow it to trigger me. Sometimes, I still want to smoke - but not in a craving sense (more like "I'd sure like a hamburger today"). I always enjoyed smoking and never had a recurrent desire to quit - I just enjoyed it. But I realize that I have an addiction to it so casually smoking is something I cannot do.
Thanks for sharing! -Calista@TeamFairy
I am SO GLAD you said this!!! Prayer is what helped me kick it too... 3 years smoke free at this point.
Excellent!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Anna thank you so much for sharing your story. I remember myself going inside of the church and asking God to save me from PTSD behaviour that was destroying me and there was no other hope rather than for God.
Even though I was a Muslim at that time but I always knew that God speaks in all languages and is everywhere where we can connect with Him.
I cried a lot and loneliness was making me feel even worse.
But I am here and now I only have an obesity problem that I cannot control and you showed me the way I can heal myself.
Thank you so much 🧡🧡
So glad it was helpful, rooting for you!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I had a similar spiritual awakening so to speak as you with prayer in my darkest moments. I believe in a higher power but I'm not religious. Prayer and meditation definitely helped me become sober from hard drugs for 3 years and 1 year smoke free this month. Still working on the CPTSD. My family is snarky about God, too.
Congratulations!!! That is hard work and a great accomplishment
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thank you Anna! You are a huge help to my healing! I love your authenticity - you exude peace, kindness and grace. May God bless you for your courge to have provided he world with your experiences that help the rest of us. Lots of love - a South African viewer 🤗
Thank you! Thank you! I do not know how to heal without prayer!
Thanks for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Whooo, I see this as a sign of the universe. Currently on my second day of not drinking and also want to reduce or quit my smoking habits (40 a day too). Thank you for sharing and extra motivation 👏🏻👏🏻
Many quit (myself included) with Allen Carr's 'Easyway Method' and say goodbye to relapses. Check it out and see for yourself.
@Ootenba I'm rooting for you :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@flyingfig12 Thank you, will check this out 👏🏻
Thank you for your honesty, it's nothing to be ashamed of to pray 🙏 we need God !
Atheist here (I jokingly call myself militant agnostic, as in: "I don't know and neither do you"). I wouldn't follow your path personally, but I'm finding my own way to that healing. That's the only substantial difference IMHO. You still build that healing.
Well said, there is no need to follow anyone's exact path- that would just be silly :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Praying for you
For what it's worth, I like you even more that you believe in God. Thank you for sharing this. I pray the same happens for my husband one day, soon.
I appreciate that
🙏💕
We can't do it on our own. Anyone who's a smoker knows how this addiction has a grip on people ❤
I prayed for God to take the rotteness away from me whilst i was in my bath earlier today. And now i'm vaping. Your videos are so helpful in a caring gentle way. Thanks and many blessings for you and your family.
You got this!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I believe in miracles !
And I am beginning to believe in the hope my future has.
Awesome!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Anna, I am so grateful for you and the honesty you bring. You beautifully articulate the very things I thought only I was guilty of.
Thank you so much for saying that. I'm so glad you're here!
Well I love you and I love seeing you be honest. I love that you talk about God, that you shared prayer helped you. I am healing more and more over time thanks to the Fathers work through you!
I’ve smoked marijuana daily for nearly 13 years and tried to quit so many times. I can’t wait to implement this.
I love you ! Thank you!
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Thanks for sharing! This is the link to the Daily Practice free course bit.ly/3608opl
-Cara@TeamFairy
This is really beautiful, Anna. Thank you for sharing this story.
This explains why your skin looks so much better now. It looks better while aging I thought while watching your videos.
Happy for you
This did so much for me, and I am very much in a similar position right now. It almost feels like this story landed here for me in the most perfect time. Thank you for having the courage to share this. I appreciate this more than you know!!❤️
I'm so glad to hear that! Many ex-smokers are here on the other side, arms out to welcome you to the tribe!
Your work is so beautiful. Thanks for all the videos and for sharing your experiences. You have helped me a lot already.
commenting couple minutes into the video, so beautiful and brave of you to share this openly with us Fairy, thank you
I am truly grateful to have come across your page. ❤
Awesome video, thank you so much for sharing CCF Anna.
Thank you for what you do, it helps a lot.
My pleasure!
Thanks for the full explanation. I am sure it will help many people who struggle with addictions as a result of childhood trauma.
Thank you for bravely sharing your deeply personal experiences with us. Its so very moving to hear your testimonial
Thank you so much!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I was the same with smoking! I had a “smoking” jacket & always kept my hair back. I always hated it but struggled with quitting. Healing traumas have really helped.
Anna my story re smoking mirrored yours.The bother I went through to not smell vile took alot of time and effort. Absolutely hate the smell of tobacco. I had my last rolled cig one hour ago and I know it's my last. Your message has been the impetus I needed, thank you again.
Anna you popped up on my feed today an hour after I pledged to quit, that's why I know my quest was divinely driven. Blessings come in many forms, Amen. Arohanui from NZ.
Hey ✨ would love to know if you are smoke free since this comment and the last rolled cigarette. I’m sitting here contemplating to do the same..
I love this story. Thanks for sharing and for your vulnerability in doing so.
Thank you for this. You are an inspiration. I've quit and started smoking so many times. My last excuse was the COVID quarantine. My childhood trauma also runs deep.
I think a lot of us struggle with habits since COVID. I'm living proof it can take many tries!
I’m so grateful for finding you and your channel, thank you for creating ❤️
Thank you for the support of the channel!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thank you so much. I wish I could just give you a huge hug 🤗. Your story has inspired me to quit again, except this time I’m getting extremely honest with myself and developing a spiritual practice. I quit smoking for years and after getting really angry with my religion and becoming bitter, I picked up smoking again. I’ve been lying to myself about a lot in regards to smoking. I even justified my smoking by thinking of older people in my family who smoke and tell myself well they’re still alive 😭 I just discovered your channel last night and I will go through your videos for education because I seriously need help with sorting things out in my life. Childhood trauma unchecked will cause self destructing behaviors big time!! Thanks for sharing this powerful information ❤️
This is SO positive. You can do it!
Thank you for this wonderful, heartfelt, authentic record of your experiences and what has helped you. Your honesty and wisdom inspire me to keep going and healing. Thank you, thank you, thank you. 💞
Thank you so much for your kind comments :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
I was so convenced there was no way god cared about me let alone love me...it was at a 12 step OA meeting it dawned on me I deserved his love just as much as everyone else...and in therapy learning to love and have compassion for myself changed everything...and the more love and compassion I had for myself I saw I was having for others. ❤️
Beautiful, thanks for sharing!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thank you for this honest video! You are such a light!!
Thank you for supporting The Fairy
-Cara@TeamFairy
Never underestimate the power of prayer ...
Thanks Thomas!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I could not love this more. Thank you for your honesty . So much of your truth is also mine. ❤
Thank you for this beautiful truth. I could deeply relate. I needed to hear this. Finding your videos has been a Godsend.
Thank you 💜 I have found this to be very enlightening and heart warming . I too struggle with the addiction of smoking.
I'm glad it resonated :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thanks Anna. Lovely story. You're looking healthy and rosy cheeked too 💖
Thank you @Noreen_O_Donovan!
Thank you Anna...
I have just recently discovered you and have been watching your videos.
Thank you for your work... Very helpful...
I lost my mom and younger brother to lung cancer. I have smoked (or I should say) inhaling since I was in a highchair with mom smoking right next to me. I really started actually smoking about age 12-13 and am now 65. Never a heavy smoker I am now smoking less due to the cost. Prayer is not religious it is communing with All That Is-
Well put, thank you :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
I just subscribed to your channel and have been binge watching your videos. I like hearing your stories and how u relate to what you are talking about . Seems a lot of people don't understand actually what they try and lecture about. Your voice is calming and you have me thinking in ways I hardly ever do. I can't wait to listen to more of your videos. You seem so enlightened and someone I find very book smart and street smart... I don't what I'm saying exactly and I hardly ever comment like this but I made a new years resolution in front of my sons about wanting to quit and im serious , like I have been really actually wanting to quit yet I smoked the first thing this morning and seen my youngest with a look of disappointment... it sucks I wanna change a lot of things and for my kids to see me succeed in my goals. Thanks for reading my comment... maybe I wanted to just vent lol
Your honesty is touching. I wish more could talk about smoking its such a huge issue for millions of ppl. Thank you for this video! I hope to stop smoking soon and Im so happy for you you got out 🌼
Appreciate you commenting!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Its so interesting to me that i happened upon this today. Thanks to you infinitely for your channel, sharing your experiences, love and authenticity. I hope you remember and realize each and every day how many people you are helping and how grateful we are. This morning i did the daily practice for the first time and after honestly asking for release from the "things" i wondered if the practice would lead me to quit smoking. So when i happened upon this...thank you for your story and your courage! I wont say, this is it, im done smoking as i don't trust myself and that feels way to heavy at this time. Im 65 years and learning there is a word for my "wierd sensations & checking out' is transforming my life! I don't like to go into my trauma which began around three years and was my very first memory. i have created so much trauma all on my own throughout my life. At times i feel ok, this is it, i understand i can move on easily, i find nope thats not the way it goes. I could beling to quite a few twelve step programs, and have found them very useful and liberating in the past. I can't physically get to one at this time, once i can i think i will. Your channel is so much more on point than any therapy i have ever experienced and there have been plenty! 😅 i see myself in so many of your videos and often feel shame for some of my poor behaviors. I have experienced so so many similar things as you & your writers have. We are all in a club that noone would ever join knowingly! The part that kills me is all the pain i accidentally put upon others. I hope and will pray for direction for others that need you so badly
Some of the behaviors you have made note of absolutely blow me away when you define the true meaning behind them!!! Once again shame & even disbelief i always felt that somehow my smoking was linked to my childhood trama. It really felt absolutely necessary and i couldn't see my life without smoking
I see in no uncertain terms that i use it to regulate - that is life-changing!!! Once again thank you for all that you have made available for so many of us. You have my gratitude beyond measure, i can see how you are changing my life for the better. I wish you riches beyond your wildest dreams and good health to enjoy all of it. Anna, Im not just happy for you, I'm so very PROUD OF YOU! 🫂❤️
Thanks Anna. You never cease to amaze me with your transparency. I quit smoking in 1998 after trying several times over 25 years, including a stop smoking course for women a therapist conducted that was finally effective. Hypnosis worked fabulously, except both times I did it, made the mistake of going to a bar and having a drink and thinking I could have just one smoke after having quit for a year. Less that a week later, both times, I was back to my pack-a-day. I know the struggle and very much appreciate the spiritual method you describe. I can now apply those spiritual principles to other addictions, mostly addictions of thought loops and anxiety. 🌹
Appreciate you sharing your experience!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I know that I also only sm9ke to regulate, just to be doing something with my hands. I've quit before and didn't feel the urge since I hated it anyhow but trouble came that I just couldn't deal with and I'm back at it again. I'm a believer and have been praying but true to cptsd form, not for my smoking habit and am going to start praying for that, thank you for all you do for us, these are my people and your work is loving on them, thank you and thank God for your resources and efforts helping us understand and heal.
This is the video I needed to hear. Thank you 🙏
Glad you heard what you needed to hear!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thank you for sharing, this is powerful!!
I immediately trust u more because u mention prayer. This habit has kept me isolated because of being a Christian
Remember God gets to judge you❤️ noone else gets to. May He bless you in a huge way
@bethnorris... or not judge you...(at least the way humans do, if you know what I mean).
@kimbers_123 So glad Anna's message resonated :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
Keep trusting ... He can help you. Is the isolation because of feeling judged? Remember, we all have issues that need God's help. Try not to care so much about people who judge you - they clearly don't care much - and find people who accept you for who you are and extend the grace we all need. The human judges have a judging habit, pride, they need to be cured of. They're no better than you. Be kind to yourself.
I am a fan and subscriber of your channel. I almost skipped this one b/c I have never smoked/never had the desire to smoke/am grossed out by cig smoke, however, I'm so glad I listened to the entire story. As I was calculating your 40 -50 cigs a day into the 16 hours you're awake I was horrified for you and then quickly realized that I make 40 trips to the fridge and pantry daily (mostly in the evenings) looking for snacks to quell my anxiety. I 'got away' with my secret food addiction for most of my life b/c I was athletic and fit, but menopause hit me like a train and I've been desperately trying to quit sugar for about 2 years now. Your story was deeply inspiring. I glean insights every time I visit your channel.
Thanks so much for commenting. Anna does have a food plan support group happening for CCF members bit.ly/2rukHvh
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you so much. I'll check it out.
I pray to my ancestors and spirit guides ✨
Beautiful!
-Cara@TeamFairy
God's grace is my best answer to every wound, trauma or survival pattern. He is so Good. Bless your honesty and courage - awesome.
Thanks for being here!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Needed this and love hearing twelve step language in your tools
Thank you for your honest sharing, feels like I’m listening to a best friend or guru because you understand it so well. Most well meaning conversations about this are really lectures about why they don’t like it. Your road trip sounds inspiring, especially the mountain camping. I was brought up with disdain for religion, and haven’t found it as an adult, but I’ve experienced moments of spirituality enough to whole heartedly thank you, and wish you all that is well and wonderful x
Thanks so much for the support of Anna's work :)
-Cara@TeamFairy
As a Christian, I greatly appreciate your honesty and kindness as you try to help people. In general, living life being honest and kind would help anyone, anywhere at anytime. Thank you.
A lot of my early trauma was due to being a literal 'captive' in a very harmful, abusive religious cult. I can't get over how much your story you related here is like mine - a spiritual awakening at 11 years old (which was later exploited by religious abusers), addiction to tobacco (which I'm still trying to shake), & coming down with Graves Disease (which I'm still sick with, in spite of having my thyroid out - probably coz I'm still smoking). I have said so many 1000's of desperate prayers for help that nowadays my prayers are just angry "Why the f**k don't you help me, when I've been pleading for help for decades?!" prayers. I'm really at my total wits end. I wish prayer worked for me like it did for you. I'm chronically ill, all alone, & so broke I haven't even been able to afford to take your 'regulation boot camp' (which I'm hoping to be able to afford soon). Thanks for sharing. It brought me to tears just feeling understood.
Do try out the Daily Practice :) bit.ly/3608opl
-Cara@TeamFairy
Hi Evie, I hope you don't mind me suggesting this. I've found that when you pray while anxious and desperate..it doesn't get through. It's ironic as your need feels so great and is great. I went thru the same stages. But I found when I took a long time to pray, and slowly..maybe in the bath..I just Talk..to Jesus and that becomes my prayer. That works better. I know if you are overwhelmed with issues it can be hard but I hope you can try this. Asl for Angel's too. Angels of kindness and with your best interests at heart.
That is the most beautiful story. Thankyou for sharing. God bless you.x
Thank you so much for commenting!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I have to quit my health my kids need me to be around pray for me please
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@sue that was a big motivator for me as well
-Cara@TeamFairy
Not to diminish anyone's experience but just because prayer can work to focus an individual's consciousness around a desired personal change absolutely doesn't mean there is a God who will actually intervene to produce that change.
Truly love your content and will not even consider unsubscribing! ❤
100% spot on. The good news for the non-religious is that whatever belief structure is attributed, Anna achieved this completely on her own.
Silly to insist that there's a deity out there who listens and answers one person's prayer (to stop smoking for instance) and completely ignores millions of others dying of abuse, disease and starvation. It's not mysterious ways - it's false attribution.
Interesting that wherever you are born on the planet, the local religion is the 'true' one.
I quit smoking cold turkey when I saw the positive pregnancy test (day of my missed period, so very early). The ways I tried to quit smoking before that were hilarious. I usually smoked 15 per day. Once I intentionally made myself sick by chain smoking all day, I was sick for a couple of weeks and stopped smoking for a few months. I would put all my cigarette butts in a jar with water, put in the sun, and whenever I had a craving I would sniff the nasty "cig tea". That helped for a bit. I quit for my unborn baby and cigarettes smelled terrible to me when I was pregnant. Once I quit for the duration of my pregnancy, cravings were gone. Smoking is also a great way to get out of uncomfortable conversations or to self-isolate.
I’ve been through a lot of addictions from CPTSD - I’m 22 years off alcohol but still smoke I want to stop my brother died I feel he will help me so I get the spiritual part I pray everyday 🙏❤️
OMG… I’ve been doing those exact things with the smoking jacket and towel on my hair!!! 🙏Thank you for the insight you’ve given with this video!!
Good luck!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Love that you talk about God.
The spirit has helped in ny life a lot.
May his love bless everyone 💗
Thank you for watching!
-Cara@TeamFairy
I quit cigarettes but having a hard time with pot. Thank you for this!
Thank you for watching, good luck!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Addictions suck. Me its not pot but cigarettes.
It’s interesting that your highest fear (if I understood properly from the different videos) was to say publicly your story, to be honest and “real yourself”. But, if you see comments, you can actually find that most people appreciate exactly that, your honesty. Isn’t it interesting? It looks like sometimes our fears hide our strength and road to healing and well-being. It’s great to have you Ana, thank you 💕