Joice Meyer testimony | Abusive father raped me more than 200 times

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  • @anudaniell6007
    @anudaniell6007 2 ปีที่แล้ว +80

    Every applause and every clap is a punch on the devil ! To God be all the glory!

  • @ms.independent8935
    @ms.independent8935 3 ปีที่แล้ว +125

    This broke me down 😞😢😭 you never know what a person has gone through in their lives.....I give lots of respect to Joyce Meyer and others who have been through sexual abuse or any kind of abuse, and to actually forgive that person/people who did you wrong is extremely powerful!!!!

    • @Peekaboo-Kitty
      @Peekaboo-Kitty ปีที่แล้ว +6

      There is no forgiveness without Repentance and Restitution. Not even God forgives without Repentance!

    • @karenwyatt1999
      @karenwyatt1999 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      No forgiveness until they acknowledge what they did!

    • @OribellaC
      @OribellaC ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ♥️ thanks

    • @rondacornwell7158
      @rondacornwell7158 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Amen Mine was not my dad...He was the most loving kind man. Other people Who knew my family. They were the abusive people. More then one for me.

    • @rondacornwell7158
      @rondacornwell7158 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you I had to not to take. My own life. I struggle with PTSD.

  • @cindyhughes3118
    @cindyhughes3118 4 ปีที่แล้ว +142

    Amen. I needed this.
    I too was sexually abused and raped by an older cousin, when I was only 8-yrs old.
    I kept this secret for exactly 8-yrs. Then @ the age of 16, I attempted suicide and that's when the truth came out.
    I always felt so dirty, I hated what happened to me, but Thankfully after the truth came out, I was given Christian counseling and got saved and baptized.
    I am now 50 and Married and have Only-One child who is Now 28. God has been good to me and carried me through
    God Is Alive In Me and Carried me through this time in my childhood.

    • @stanislava7415
      @stanislava7415 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Oooo sweetie, God Bless you, what you went through is horrible. But You went through this and you have a good life. Life is like water under the bridge , goes away and you can start over and over again. I was not raped physically but raped emotionally by narcist sister, doctors say she has a problem...what problem when her life is splendid and she is functioning excellent while I feel like buried alive and I start having problem: depression, anxiety, OCD...horrible. I came to Canada for her she borrowed me money for me and my daughter then 10yrs, took my money , kicked me and almost killed me. This is what God gives her and me. So I accept. When we were little she had so much malice and greediness , while I was always happy when I see people achieved a lot. manipulator, cheating always , very sneaky and God LOVES her gives her with full hands.....So I told you so much just to help you to extract all bad memories about your rape. It wasn't lasting 18 yrs as my emotional rape. God Bless You !

    • @stanislava7415
      @stanislava7415 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      In life ppl might do many bad things to you. This could mean losing relatives and maybe even your mind.
      It could mean not eating for three or four days.
      It could mean derision, isolation. And at the same time God to put you on the top. As I got now everything. God decided this. So one thing I learned IT IS NOT IMPORTANT WHO BETRAYED YOU . IT IS IMPORTANT GOD NOT TO BETRAY YOU. WHEN HE IS WITH YOU . YOU HAVE EVERYTHING ALL THE REST IS NOTHING

    • @freddybukasa1365
      @freddybukasa1365 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Don't follow the people asking you money it's not joyce meyer's compte.if you want to help people look in the crying look truth compt of him.

    • @susiediaz8320
      @susiediaz8320 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I can feel your pain i know how that's hurt you .every time I share my story I feel dirty and angry but God save me I couldn't imagine this painful situation but I'm still alive.

    • @centerfold8
      @centerfold8 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Praise God for His healing

  • @yvettesanjuan4645
    @yvettesanjuan4645 3 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    It's difficult, I was physically, mentally and sexually abused, I"ve been raped many times in my adult life, however, I know without a doubt Holy Loving Father , Christ Jesus and the Holy Ghost will bring me through this and I know He will heal me of all that has happened to me, I'm forgiving, however, it's not forgetting that makes me cry. 😥

    • @karenwyatt1999
      @karenwyatt1999 ปีที่แล้ว

      WHY DIDNT THIS GOD RESCUE YOU FROM THIS HORRIBLE LIFE?

  • @clancyk8497
    @clancyk8497 3 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    I love Joyce meyers.
    She has been such an inspiration to me. Bless her 🙏

  • @tamilchristiantransformers162
    @tamilchristiantransformers162 4 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    God has a great plan u can recover from all the pain

  • @lisabrummett6075
    @lisabrummett6075 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I love you Joyce Meyers. You and your sermons have truly changed me and saved my life.

  • @ishayabulus1993
    @ishayabulus1993 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is the first time I am watching this. I didn't know such horrible thing could happen in human history. I thank God for keeping you Joyce Meyer. You are an epitome of God's grace and mercy. You are a winner. You went through "hell" like Jesus Christ so that your testimony and story can bless millions around the world. Someone said sometimes you have to go through the worst, to get the best! In all, we give glory to God for his deliverance.

  • @cherokeepurple4480
    @cherokeepurple4480 2 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    I so needed to hear this today. I was abused by my father and have cut off contact with him for almost 6 years along with my mother who defended his actions. I have forgiven in my heart but cannot find the courage to forgive to their faces. Toward the end of my contact with them, I would have panic attacks if I was called upon to see them or speak to them. Since then, my life has improved a hundredfold and I found God and Jesus. I’ve prayed about it and just want to know if honoring your parents involves having to maintain contact with them if they were abusive or neglectful. My priority is with my Heavenly Father and I want to be obedient to him. Thank you.

    • @arlyn515
      @arlyn515 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      No. That is not what honoring your parents means. Do not let anyone convince you that is what it means. Do not wrong them, but you are under no obligation to present yourself for further abuse.

    • @cherokeepurple4480
      @cherokeepurple4480 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@arlyn515 Thank you for the encouragement. He would always say “ honor your father and mother” when he was acting abusive so that’s always in the back of my mind.

    • @carololiveira2939
      @carololiveira2939 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sorry you went through it. Satan would use the scriptures in a distorted way to confuse and destroy people and lead them into sin. He even tried it with Jesus. Your father was using Satan tactics to do the same to you. Honoring you parents does not mean to let them abuse you as they sin against God and against you. You have to Holy Spirit to tell you the truth in the scriptures and guide you out of danger. Listen to the Holy Spirit and not to the guilty trip and mind games they did to you. You can forgive and keep your distance if they still represent a threat to your mental and physical well being.

    • @laynevictoriamusic
      @laynevictoriamusic 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Absolutely not. Forgiveness is not the same as reconciling with evil. If there is not safety and true repentance on his part, do not enable his abuse by putting yourself back in that.

    • @alinalemanska2029
      @alinalemanska2029 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I feel like God has used dogs to teach me these kind of lessons. I felt like He was showing me to do what the dogs do. Have you noticed how they behave when they are faced with abuse or anger. They take a step back and watch you quietly in silence, but as soon as they see any sighn of you doing better and willing to have contact with them they come with their teils waggling gently as if the were not sure but hopefully. They always give the next chance, but also take a step back if you become out of control.

  • @otisfloyd1404
    @otisfloyd1404 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    She has a powerful testimony I cried a little bit

  • @izio4408
    @izio4408 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    this is so heartbreaking

  • @onsplaaskombuis6482
    @onsplaaskombuis6482 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I love this woman. You have changed my life !!!

    • @KrystalHarwood-z1b
      @KrystalHarwood-z1b หลายเดือนก่อน

      someone said never say your glad it happened. she meant she was greatful God gave her something to go through so she would trust him

  • @hotpinkluvr1
    @hotpinkluvr1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    I needed to see this😭🙏

  • @northernlitez1
    @northernlitez1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    God blessed me with the most precious Dad and I miss him so much. Thank you Jesus for blessing me

  • @missylora9248
    @missylora9248 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    My fav preacher... Thank you for inspiring me and helping me through your own life 's experience during the most troubled days of my life and even as an adult now.
    Frm Nagaland

  • @kazza6799
    @kazza6799 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Never ever say your glad it happened. But God can always use your pain for a greater good! 💗x

    • @centerfold8
      @centerfold8 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Yeah what was done is not in anyway acceptable for a dad to do that

    • @krystalharwood7842
      @krystalharwood7842 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      all shes saying is shes glad god put her through that so he could get her to trust Him

    • @kazza6799
      @kazza6799 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I know this kind of pain. I know that God never wants or wishes for that. For some reason He can't stop it but I do know through that pain God is saying we can use that for a greater good. ❤️

    • @Peekaboo-Kitty
      @Peekaboo-Kitty ปีที่แล้ว

      She must have Stockholm Syndrome. Does does Rape turn anyone into a better person? What total nonsense!

    • @KrystalHarwood-z1b
      @KrystalHarwood-z1b 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@krystalharwood7842 almost like when god puts us through trials. it challenges us to trust

  • @chrissandrasingleton3167
    @chrissandrasingleton3167 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Hallelujah, Praise the Lord. Thank you Lord, for restoration in Joyce life

  • @beattysangurah3890
    @beattysangurah3890 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    OMG😥,God moulds His tough soldiers thru these tough battles indeed for His glory. I can't comprehend this, more grace to you servant of God and anyone who's gone thru any form of abuse

  • @alliewilson7036
    @alliewilson7036 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This woman is teaching me how to forgive and how to forget. I'm a virgin. I'm still flawed but she is fixing me. This woman has one of the craziest rape stories I have ever seen. And yet she still has so much grace. Thank you Joyce Meyers I really can't thank you enough.

    • @lightandshine4692
      @lightandshine4692 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      What u mean by craziest rape stories???. Do u mean she is fooling people.??

    • @jazmynbrown6820
      @jazmynbrown6820 ปีที่แล้ว

      Allie, keep up the journey girl!!! That’s so good to hear. I hope you’re still saving yourself.

  • @clairechase4751
    @clairechase4751 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Love this woman!!! Your just Amazing, so brave, courageous, beautiful! You’ve helped, help me so much. God bless you!! ❤️😘😘

  • @zamaprecious8104
    @zamaprecious8104 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I was also raped by my father and he also allow his friends to sleep with me, He abused me physically and emotionally.
    I remember when he invites the stranger in our house and he beg me to sllep with that old man, today I am HIV positive because of him. He told me that you'll never do anything because you have no one and your has committed suicide, I am still broken and hurt, till now

    • @gospelthronet
      @gospelthronet  3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      God can heal Aids, be healed in jesus name, all HIV virus in your body be dead n out of your body, be healed emotionally too. Amen

    • @yaayaakeli674
      @yaayaakeli674 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Stay strong and watch God wipe away your pain😯

    • @shadoraabraham1834
      @shadoraabraham1834 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      You can be healed!! May yiu be healed through the blood of Yashua!!!!!!! May it be so!!!

    • @heebadeeba7279
      @heebadeeba7279 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Praying for you

    • @Luna-fv7jo
      @Luna-fv7jo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I rebuke HIV off your body now in Jesus name, be healed by the blood of Jesus

  • @mbangsisandrineibemsi2842
    @mbangsisandrineibemsi2842 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Heartbreaking am encouraged!!!
    God bless you woman of God

  • @shantisharma4117
    @shantisharma4117 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    God heals the Broken Hearted.Only God can help us.💗

  • @boobuglouisville3851
    @boobuglouisville3851 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Such an inspiration and an amazing woman

  • @jerrimclaughlin8432
    @jerrimclaughlin8432 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I so feel your pain it happened to me , but not as bad as you. If we let God in then he will heal us. Thank you Joyce for sharing not sure if I could talk so much about it, but I am glad you did your so real

  • @kayeononyeka
    @kayeononyeka 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is heartbreaking but thank God for this testimony

  • @angelcox6136
    @angelcox6136 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You are incredible and beautiful Joyce and I'm so proud of you and honored to know you! 🥰

  • @clancyk8497
    @clancyk8497 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Thank God for Joyce Meyer 🙏

  • @arisefire84
    @arisefire84 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    God is a healer and a deliverer no matter what you've gone through he will wipe away every tear and comfort you in his love.

  • @jessegarza5394
    @jessegarza5394 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Strong minded woman of GOD! U ARE AMAZING JOYCE !

  • @AbianahTheGemini
    @AbianahTheGemini 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    She’s so strong. God has a hold on her life.

  • @bluesrockguitaristmikesall2708
    @bluesrockguitaristmikesall2708 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Forgiveness makes us better people.

  • @ibolyaszombathy51
    @ibolyaszombathy51 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    😢😢😢😢, I'm so sorry 😞 you went through this awful tough experience grrr 😢😢😢😢

  • @faithtroyer75
    @faithtroyer75 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you, Joyce ❤ I appreciate you giving people hope and encouragement and reminding us that God loves us beyond measure. I didn’t have a good relationship with my father , and still don’t. But I belong to Jesus and I’m so thankful

  • @marymajgaonkar7505
    @marymajgaonkar7505 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Praise the lord.. in the name of Jesus..🙏Amen..You are the strongest women of God 😊

  • @kiaraosorio7276
    @kiaraosorio7276 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    The police officer part really killed me

  • @nuwaherezacaroline8747
    @nuwaherezacaroline8747 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Joyce Meyer you inspire me , God bless you

  • @centerfold8
    @centerfold8 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    May God help those who are praying for God to help them and it seems like it’s not working. May God help those still on that road of trying to recover and feeling lost and alone.

    • @henrietta9206
      @henrietta9206 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I claim this, amen. It really seems like "it's not working" but I hang on.

  • @trascott531
    @trascott531 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I first heard this in 09 and I been a Joyce Meyer fan since I gave my life to Christ in 2006 and this made me bawl when I first heard this

  • @delphinedemerua
    @delphinedemerua ปีที่แล้ว +2

    She is so brave. She has made it through thank you God for helping such a wonderful person 😢❤

  • @shruthibollam4626
    @shruthibollam4626 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love ur preaching since my childhood ma'am n i love u ma'am

  • @derrickbarber9958
    @derrickbarber9958 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I can relate to this with my own father and we're of the same sex my father treated me like a dog when I went to live with him and yes I did something stupid but he didn't have a right to treat me that way and I was just so afraid of him so afraid to stick by him so afraid to even talk to him and I'm glad I have nothing to do with him anymore but I do pray for him

    • @lifessensational2944
      @lifessensational2944 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Prayers for you brother..keep your head up

    • @laynevictoriamusic
      @laynevictoriamusic 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am so sorry you went through this horror. May God bring you healing in His presence and with His people.🙏

    • @derrickbarber9958
      @derrickbarber9958 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@laynevictoriamusic amen sis pray for you and your family as well ❤️.

    • @hollikrebs
      @hollikrebs ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes pray for your enemy!! Matt. 5:44

  • @kristineozment977
    @kristineozment977 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you Miss Joyce for sharing your testimony it has helped many people you are a blessing to the kingdom of God!

  • @cynthiapolzin315
    @cynthiapolzin315 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you Joyce! Thank you God n Jesus!!

  • @DementiaSurvivor
    @DementiaSurvivor 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you so much for sharing this, in the blessed name of Jesus thank you so much

  • @angeliqueguce9647
    @angeliqueguce9647 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Amen. PRAISE GOD. JESUS IS THE BEST FATHER

  • @mssheepzzzz
    @mssheepzzzz 8 วันที่ผ่านมา

    I lost my baby and I know some day I’ll have the strength to share my story and do something great ❤

  • @user-ro1dk6yy6n
    @user-ro1dk6yy6n 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I wish I was strong enough to tell people my message I’m going through it as well suffering everyday I say god why is this happening to me ? Joyce gives me hope I believe I will make it if I don’t give up !

    • @shadoraabraham1834
      @shadoraabraham1834 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You can share! You don’t have to bear alone.

    • @carrienabes2341
      @carrienabes2341 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes, please

    • @kalipodcast
      @kalipodcast 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I am here for you like a sister in Christ

    • @moonsyoungestsun6550
      @moonsyoungestsun6550 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Please share your story. Keeping stuff bottled up creates depression.

  • @gamerknight1014
    @gamerknight1014 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I broke down on this message 🔥🙏🏻

  • @krystalharwood6359
    @krystalharwood6359 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    why do some people not believe her but they praise Joel Osteen and other false preachers?

  • @Kittyprimee
    @Kittyprimee 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for this testimony and praise god . Years ago I was dealing with terrible abuse from my narcissistic ex . I felt like I was losing my mind the devil threw EVERYTHING at me . God wanted me to forgive and not seek vengeance but I didn’t know how . Hearing Joyce’s testimony allowed me to receive gods message and I only could receive the message of forgiveness from someone who has experienced pain .

  • @jfr7587
    @jfr7587 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow powerful message at right time to reach me... Amen

  • @theindy79
    @theindy79 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Way she held after almost breaking has me amazed bless Joyce meyer that’s God magic in her

  • @sbella44
    @sbella44 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Oh my goodness🙇🏽‍♀️🤗🙇🏽‍♀️

  • @sakkshi12
    @sakkshi12 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Bullshit...rapist specially if they r blood relatives should never be excused but punished most brutally

  • @ii4him
    @ii4him 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you so much for sharing this.

  • @jothysangma6638
    @jothysangma6638 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    😥😥😥mam you are my inspiration 👍👍 you r the best

  • @sonakumari7634
    @sonakumari7634 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Amen god is really great and alive
    He is very kind

  • @yogitaram5102
    @yogitaram5102 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    She is absolutely correct, God has took me out from my situation and took me to a better place.

  • @SerahMoyo-wk4lm
    @SerahMoyo-wk4lm 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I needed to hear this 😭😭

  • @Nimue333
    @Nimue333 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ never be glad of a child being sexually abused! Religious people are pretty fu!

  • @fame5874
    @fame5874 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Im so sorry to hear this my family got me into drugs were abusive and minipulative it got me into all types of hell all of my life

  • @mamasram
    @mamasram 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I FEEL LIKE I AM LISTENING TO MYSELF I UNDERSTAND THANK U 💜💚🙏🤗

    • @laynevictoriamusic
      @laynevictoriamusic 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same, sis♥️ I’m so sorry for what you went through. May God heal and restore your broken heart♥️

  • @ThatTalkinGal
    @ThatTalkinGal 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    This should be her Hallmark Speech. This is for the Evangelical History Books.

  • @Prius808
    @Prius808 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Your so great . God bless you.

  • @ralphgomez7808
    @ralphgomez7808 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Joyce Meyer GOD bless you🙏Praise the LORD❤🙏

  • @deboamare5171
    @deboamare5171 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    wow am learned perfectly bless Joyice

  • @blessingisire3253
    @blessingisire3253 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    God is indeed awesome. Hallelujah

  • @enatshow5911
    @enatshow5911 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Jesus shout his holy name

  • @blessingisire3253
    @blessingisire3253 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    God is indeed a good and awesome God! Hallelujah!

  • @kiaraosorio7276
    @kiaraosorio7276 ปีที่แล้ว

    The pain. Thankuou for this. Amen. I know he is able to heal.

  • @elvinajames8791
    @elvinajames8791 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hope you're having a good life God bless you 🙏 and all the best in life 💕

  • @tiaheggs6709
    @tiaheggs6709 ปีที่แล้ว

    Jesus thank u Jesus I know people now went through stuff like this praise God for deliverance thru Jesus

  • @Ladybirdpaint
    @Ladybirdpaint ปีที่แล้ว +1

    She is brave in Christ to talk about this very important topic as it is all too common for girls and boys

  • @shellyall12
    @shellyall12 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Lord Have Mercy!!😥🙏🙏
    Praise God You Have Been Redeemed In Spit Of...

  • @lifeasoshin7845
    @lifeasoshin7845 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    God is able thanks for sharing your story

  • @cyrilpankaj5726
    @cyrilpankaj5726 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    God is a Good Father😇😇

  • @frederickanyang4476
    @frederickanyang4476 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    And today look at the numbers... Glory be to God

  • @lsamoni4143
    @lsamoni4143 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Wow that was deep.

    • @krystalharwood7842
      @krystalharwood7842 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      love this woman but the only thing i found a little off about this was she said ''of all the ridiculous places he took me'' made it sound like she wanted to say ''he could have done it somewhere else like my bedroom''

    • @nicoleteakm
      @nicoleteakm 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@krystalharwood7842 you're missing the point. don't make a little thing into a big deal. that is not what she meant

    • @jameswilliams-zr8co
      @jameswilliams-zr8co 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      as it should be, god is not a shallow god.. this world is so empty, lonely and shallow.. god is bigger and deeper than this world

  • @rajuchamarayanakote4678
    @rajuchamarayanakote4678 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Glory to jesus,,,
    God is good All the time ,,,

  • @kiaraosorio7276
    @kiaraosorio7276 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Poem or pain
    If you didn’t know
    If you didn’t know my joy was stolen
    Let me explain
    As I Laid by the leaves in darkness and terror but soul left my body
    As I descended to heaven I felt and knew God watched me as I died
    As these men in black mask made their way into something that was sacred
    Meant for my forever future to encounter and discover
    I asked why . The night felt so long.
    The days felt like years.
    But the dog that barked in my ear to keep my heart beating and alive and didn’t shutup, he was my angel you sent on a mission
    I asked you for water. I said God I’m so thirsty please
    You said let there be rain
    It rained on my face and my thirst was quenched
    But suddenly I realized I was drowning
    I felt like I was being punished and slowly faded away
    Now I’m left with the battle and pain of healing
    The confusion of how I got home after that
    How I could forget for so long
    The memories of my hospitalizations due to my mental illness also haunt me
    I was drugged, starved, cold and lonely
    And suffocated bye a nurse
    I had to play dead and I saw the stars
    One thing I didn’t let go of was my faith
    I had to be still and know that you are God
    You sent an army . To rescue me
    This will be a journey.
    But the worship song playing right now as I write this is called you’re going to be ok
    And the Holy Spirit is all around me as I drown in my tears
    It’s been two hours of this salt running down my face
    It stings
    My prayer is that now you know why
    I look different
    I don’t smile
    And if I do, it doesn’t look the same
    My prayer is that I fully see the rainbow
    Thank you for your strength God.
    I’m a survivor with a message.
    If I ever let go. Which I don’t want to,
    Share this message and tell my close ones I love them more than anything
    I’m holding on. As best as I can
    Deep breaths mom always said. That’s her thing for some reason
    Breathing techniques.
    I’ll try. I promise.

    • @hollikrebs
      @hollikrebs ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Dear one, let’s hold on to our Father God and our Savior Jesus. Hold onto the truth that He never ever never did those bad things to you. It’s a dark valley but let’s hold onto God. He is Love. At the end of this we will be with Him. Satan hurts us to turn us away from knowing the truth of our God.

    • @saschaygrant3513
      @saschaygrant3513 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      That’s so beautiful thank you

  • @raminoodles9971
    @raminoodles9971 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Where can I find the full sermon

  • @BHill-rz9tg
    @BHill-rz9tg ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Joyce, you are crazy to forgive that bastard. He should have been under tge jail. You deserved a father who loved and protected you. Same as sons deserve a mother who would be a lioness for their sons and protect and love them no matrer what. I have toxic relatives too, not family though. Family loves you, supports you, and helps you to grow, holds you accountable for your mistakes, but all of that combined gives you the confidence to excell in this world. You have so many people that don't deserve to be called parents...i just don't know what to call them.

    • @jazmynbrown6820
      @jazmynbrown6820 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      She’s not crazy, she’s covered with the love of God. You wouldn’t understand because it’s not your story.

  • @ginjotomsonpala358
    @ginjotomsonpala358 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you jesus
    U saved me from horribile life now iam your child.... I want to be ur own 🙏🙏🙏

  • @penguinatedthings305
    @penguinatedthings305 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    PRAISE GOD! GLORY TO HIM!

  • @kevinmoss-ws2ei
    @kevinmoss-ws2ei 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    THE COUNT AINT ADDING UP MA'AM

  • @memorykamulaza9033
    @memorykamulaza9033 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    God is alive

  • @jebashanti2259
    @jebashanti2259 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    God is great Amen

  • @lindsaymartinez5341
    @lindsaymartinez5341 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Praise the lord

  • @Lea-iv4gn
    @Lea-iv4gn ปีที่แล้ว

    How does one still believe in God after going through so much!?

    • @Bian1223
      @Bian1223 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Only By the grace of God one can forgive

    • @princess_zemirah213
      @princess_zemirah213 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      First of all, just because you go through something hard, doesn’t mean you give up on God. You don’t give up on Him when things are good right? No. So why turn on him because you’re going through something? Then you’ll regret that while going to hell. He gives you strength to go through stuff. Your job is keep hope like Job.

  • @GraceFoundation-kq5vb
    @GraceFoundation-kq5vb 19 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Powerful🙌

  • @namitalama5168
    @namitalama5168 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Praise the Lord Amen

  • @debleeann81
    @debleeann81 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    thank you

  • @Norbituccio
    @Norbituccio 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Where can I see the full testimony? It used to be on youtube

  • @projectacuhope
    @projectacuhope ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I'm sure that "forgive those who trespass against us" is part of the Lord's Prayer because rape is so common. If the burden of forgiveness and not having a bitter heart falls on the victim, what is the point of sexually aggressive people holding back from sexual aggression? Nothing really. The victim is mandated by God to forgive anyway. There is simply no penalty for the perp. It's a win for them. I love the part at the end that she is glad that her father incested her, raped her and fornicated with her as a minor. With more rape in the world, it seems there is more forgiveness. How Christian.

  • @Linda-ud9lg
    @Linda-ud9lg 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I dont understand God… but Joyce is great, she is so strong! 😮

  • @Immahsurvivor
    @Immahsurvivor 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Joyce you have been found out. Your St. Louis hub lost its footage, what happened?

  • @abelmwansasu8918
    @abelmwansasu8918 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    My Lord my God thanks for everything

  • @cristalp.2710
    @cristalp.2710 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Just heart breaking 💔....!!

  • @moonsyoungestsun6550
    @moonsyoungestsun6550 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    What about encouraging therapy and pressing changes against parents like this? I know to give it to God, but in the meantime, the abused person has to suffer the ongoing flashbacks and mental anguish. We can't just let people get away with doing wrong and not, at least, try to get some justice. You can't change what happened but that doesn't mean that the offenders get to continue living like nothing happened. Many people who have kids definitely should not. Why have them if you are just going to sit back and let them be abused, which will mess them up for life.