im 32 years old and have never felt more lost in my career
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 6 ก.ค. 2024
- Officially declaring Wednesday as talk it out Wednesday and thank you guys for being here as I talk things out with you today.
Since recording this video, I've launched a group trip I am excited for which feels good but I guess there just that lingering feeling of what if it doesn't work out.
I am very grateful for where I am and my incredible supportive husband. He's made this journey so much more lighter.
Heres to the chapters yet to come and hopefully you guys being here every step of the way.
Oh TosIn, I totally feel with you. I also turned 30 this year and the number suddenly felt big. Finding purpose is soo difficult and what is it in the end? Because is it a career? Is it a relationship? Is it your interests/hobbies? Is it having a marvellous garden? It is all these things I guess and yet especially a career and maybe also a relationships are the pillars people look at the most I feel. As if you are a full person if these are fullfilled. And being slow or just not knowing is easily considered a failure (I am also talking to myself here haha). Nobody, if they first meet you, would ask "What fulfills you?" or "Are you aligned with yourself?", they would rather ask "What is your job" and "Are you married?". And these things are so great to achieve but I would not want to be remembered by the work I have done (unless it made a positive impact for people) or if I was able to present partners to the outside world... yeah there is so much more. But Tosin you are so not alone in this and I think there is this weird pressure from society and in the end the pressure we put on ourselves. Let's have more grace ❤️
Thank you so much for taking your time to write it out. I loved reading it. I loved your statement of imagine if we started conversations with “are you aligned with yourself?” What if we did ask that instead. Sometimes I feel like certain jobs when answered even get better recognition than others. More of a “aw” than a “oh” . That’s a whole another conversations though. Thank you for this. It does mean a lot. 🫂
Thanks for sharing ❤
thank you for watching. ✨
“I don’t know.” Something that is constantly in my head. “I don’t know.” Something that I say when I want to say it all but don’t know how. “I don’t know.” What I say to avoid falling in the hole of all of the missing gaps in my life that I don’t know how to fill. “I don’t know.” Something that I say when even though everything is going wrong, somehow, I’ll figure it out. You are not alone. I struggle with knowing what to do with my life and often times, I am in a numb state because of it. Purpose is so scary and huge…Ive gone my whole life being scared of it. Why? I don’t know. I’m scared to fail, i’m scared to get in something and then that something turning out to be wrong or just not aligned with me. I’m scared of dreaming big because I don’t believe in myself enough. So I don’t know what to do about it. The little belief I have is the only thing keeping me going and making me want to change my mind and try. So I leave this with you, may you always remember that even in your wilderness, you are always accompanied by others around the world and we are all seeking to belong. You are never alone, and I don’t know if you believe in God, but He will sustain you, too through the wilderness. (Sorry if you don’t believe in God, please do not take this the wrong way.) I cried with you and crying for others like you, like me, that just want to find what our purpose is. I don’t know you, but you are loved and you matter. I hope you remember to love yourself through every season of your life because you deserve it. Be graceful, be patient, be open. You deserve that much. ❤️
What a beautiful comment. Wow. Thank you so taking the time to write it out. It means so much more than you know! You perfectly explained so many things. 🤍 Here’s to going through the wilderness.🫂
There's a lot of us, 32 by july, I too am no sure what im doing exactly, ive been in a long distance marriage, struggling business here, because it doesn't even suit the environment im in, now moving soon to a non English speaking country, starting over again, with lots of anxiety. Fear of not going to fit in, truth is i dont even plan to, fear of not getting a job, speaking the language... Woke up crying jes the other, hoping and praying i dont lose it..
Funny how i type all this online and find it hard to share with family for whatever reason
Thank you for sharing it with me. I also filmed this also as like a diary entry because it’s something I hadn’t talked to my friends about too.
I think sometimes the fear is there because we know we still have so much to give we just don’t know how to do it and then feel stuck. I’m sending so much love to you as navigate the new journey!! You got this! ✨🤍
Toxin, what if your journey is not meant to be just one but many paths. Like some people aren’t meant to be in a monogamous relationship. Some people aren’t meant to only do one job. Maybe you’re meant to master one at a time, but then move on to the next what if you try looking at it as “what do I want to do next” versus “what do I want to do forever? “Think about it you’ve mastered education and given it your time and attention. Now you’re ready to move on to the next step on your journey because your path isn’t linear. Just like some people aren’t meant to be with one person but many, Some people aren’t meant to take on just one role but multiple. And that should be OK too. What’s next versus what’s forever.
What a beautiful comment! Thank you so much for taking your time to write this. That’s been me motto now. What’s next. I’m very bad for wanting the future to be planned out and maybe that’s what makes that part so hard but in something as big as this, that’s what will make the journey more fun and take the pressure off. Thank you for the advice!
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@@Kosinfinityandbeyond you’re most welcome. And I apologize for accidentally misspelling your name. I too have been on this journey like you and battling with the feelings. It’s not easy. Life is tough and I hope however you decide to navigate forward, you share it with us as well. We can all use some advice 🙏🏾
Good morning beautiful queen donot feel bad about yourself life will turn over for you have have faith in God is tracing your foot print's in sand of life he know's the direction he is leading you to amen so chin up keep that sweet prefect smile on your very loveily face
Teacher Tosin you remember me ? My name is nick teacher I hope you get better soon na we love you so much we love when you happy and laugh teacher we here for u cmon I want that energy when you teach us I want that I don't want this we always love u teacher ❤❤you sad we sad ,you happy we happy , you laugh we laugh ❤❤we love you remember this word you will be okay.❤❤
Nick, of course I remember you! This is such a lovely message. Thank you! I miss and love you all! Happy you found me here so now we stay in touch! Wishing you all the best next term! Thank you again for this lovely message. ✨
@Kosinfinityandbeyond thank you teacher 😘
Maybe a life coach or a therapist may be able to help you figure things out. You are clearly struggling and may need someone experienced in helping people in your situation. Blessings ❤❤
You just reminded me I need to book another appointment with my life coach. 😂. I have both! I always say yes to support and help as I navigate all of my emotions. 😅
I guess this video was more to see if anyone else my age or close to my age is going through the same thing. 😕