HRT Makes Me Svicidal
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 21 ส.ค. 2024
- I've certainly been better...
HRT is tricky and I haven't been without my issues as anyone who watches my stuff knows. Lately it's gotten pretty bad and part of that is, unfortunately my hormones
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sorry to hear that Cammy, I hope your journey goes smoother
Thanks. I'm sure it will, it's just rough for now
I have a dear friend who suffers from depression and often cuts her estrogen intake form time to time.
You have us for friends because we understand much of what you're dealing with. I don know what to suggest other then to supporting you. You tell us what you need to not only survive but to thrive.
I personally tend to be asexual as I was born with a intersex sexual development and my goal is to push myself into the female side of my body development.
Thanks, you're super sweet. Taking the estradiol intermittently is a good idea, I'll ask my endo about that and see what she thinks
@@CammyAtHomeActual Thank you. As a writer you know how powerful words are when they are delivered from the heart.
Be well my dear.
Hang in there 🫂🩷🫂🩷 you are being smart and dosing yourself (with doctors help)/following your instincts. You will figure this all out, just follow happiness whatever way that may be! ♥️♥️♥️
Thanks hun, you're the sweetest. I'm trying and it's always nice to know people out there care about me ❤️
@@CammyAtHomeActual of course! Always here if you ever need anyone 💕
Whatever goes on, please remember, you've got friends in your corner. And you know how to track me down if you need a friend to lean on.
Thanks girl, you're a sweetheart. I'm glad we're friends
As am I, friend! Just remember, I'm around, I'm here to pester, and make sure you hydrate!
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If you are wondering about external reference frames for the general state of reality, I'm also not doing good, and I'm not on HRT and was doing okay-ish earlier this year. I'm literally probably just rightly scared.
Try to remember that it is okay to be unproductive; you have an inherent right to exist, and that feeling terrible doesn't take that away. I've unfortunately been to the brink, and it really sucks. 😢
I really hope you can feel better soon.
The state of the world at large certainly is a big thing for me too. Life as a queer person is just plain scary these days. I'm sorry you're having a hard time too. I agree, it always sucks. I hope you feel better soon
An alternative to taking hormones is electrolysis, you can get a kit relatively cheap and learn to do it yourself at home if the cost is a deterrant.
From one Trans to another, I wish you luck in your journey.
I'm currently doing electrolysis at a place on my face and I love it. I've considered it for the rest of me but it's pretty expensive. I'm thinking I'll do it if I can't take the hormones
I got an at home kit and it worked okay but the hair just came back after a while. I use creams now because they're easier
EDIT: Correction, I'm doing laser and moving to electrolysis soon. In my defense, it was really early and I shouldn't comment before coffee lol
I've never felt comfortable in my body, ever since I was 9 I have wanted to be a girl, but growing up in a christian fascist household I never was able to be myself. Now I'm married to a sweet woman, but I really want to come out and transition 😢. I know my wife would accept me and still love me, how long can you still keep male features before someone starts suspecting you are transitioning into a woman? And should I take testosterone blockers first before estrogen? I'm 26 years old, is it too late for me?
To quote Ian McKellen, "no one ever regretted coming out." Also, don't let anyone tell you you're too old to transition. I was 38
@@CammyAtHomeActual omg really!? You were 38! That makes me feel better! You know? I think I'm going to DO this! First I've gotta let my hair grow out and then slowly wear more unisex clothing. I'm gonna play a little game, I'm gonna see how long it takes for my family to see what's up 😂. First thing when I get home from work tonight I'm gonna shave my beard. I've had this beard since 2012 and I think it's wayyy overdue for a shave! Dang, I feel good about this omg! I'm really gonna do it and it makes me happy.. huh.. I've never felt this giddy.
That's so awesome and I'm so happy for you! My only advice here is tell your significant other you are thinking about this. It's healthy to keep them in the loop and then you will have someone by your side though the hard parts. If they are not supportive, it's better to know now so you can move on to somewhere you can be yourself
@@CammyAtHomeActualI think she'll support me... I just wrote this actually and posted it on Reddit. I'd like to hear your thoughts.
Let me start out with saying that I'm early, very early in my transition right now. I have been struggling with gender dysmorphia ever since I was 9 years old. I remember looking down at myself and wishing and pretending I was a woman, I have never felt comfortable in my own body, but I've had to hide myself from my ultra conservative family for years and years out of fear of rejection. But now? I don't care anymore.. I'm getting old, I feel like I have lost so much already, it wasn't until I was able to afford to get my own apartment three years ago that I was finally able to get away from years and years of indoctrination and now that I live far away from my family with my pretty progressive wife, I feel like I can really be myself now and it makes me HAPPY and giddy on the inside! It's like.. I have NEEDED this for so long you know?
Right now I'm just focusing on growing my hair out to at least shoulder length first (right now it's just over my ears) wearing cute unisex t shirts and flared 70s "cowboy" jeans as I call them if anybody asks what the hell am I doing wearing those things
. People just think I have a weird obsession with vintage clothing lol.
I am still "in the closet" with everybody as I live in Alabama.. you know.. the state that is filled with people who thinks that everybody who is not white, Christian and MACHO/country boy as hell is going to hell... My wife is the only person I know who is accepting of LGBT people.. we live in a sundown town..
My wife would support me in this I know. She supported me when I told her I was an Atheist, she said that she would love me no matter what because of who I am on the inside 🥺. I've always been bisexual, but this woman is a very special person, she's very accepting of alternate lifestyles. We are a speck of blue in a sea of red.
I think want to take things slow before I complete my transition.. it will be fun seeing if anyone reacts or even notices anything different as the months go by and I become more and more of a Feminine "Tomboy". I.. I think that's my goal. I honestly don't know if I could go all out with tons of makeup and cute, sexy dresses. Hell, my wife doesn't so I guess you can say she's a little bit of a tomboy too. She wears cute t shirts and the occasional low neck cut female t shirt and she has a handful of dresses that she wears on occasion, but she mostly wears what's comfortable and I think that's going to be me whenever I decide to start taking HRT & T blockers and fully commit to my transition.
My wife just thinks I've become hyper fixated with grooming myself, she actually likes it though! So I've made the decision to shave completely, but I REALLY don't want to have to shave my chest and stomach for the rest of my life... Does HRT & T Blockers help with this? Or will I have to possibly start getting my chest and stomach waxed? Because this is a LOT of maintenance lol. My body naturally produces a lot of testosterone. My voice isn't that deep, but I was born with a TON of body hair.. thankfully my back is naturally bare though.
So about me, I was born with straight hair, my eyelashes are very naturally thick, for SOME reason I have had manboobs my entire life (you can make them out in a tight t shirt), my hips have curves to them, I have pretty substantial love handles even being skinny (I'm 6ft/179lbs) currently working on gettig myself down to 165lbs again. I have slight bow legs? My knees very slightly bend inward. I think I have some feminine characteristics already, more so than others because I've seen men names before online (obviously) I THINK I have a chance at passing someday in the future when I fully commit to this? But my height is what scares me. Can I really pass and be 6ft?.
That's pretty substantial but it's good to see you taking steps to understand who you are. I recommend looking up the Gender Dysphoria Bible. I'm on my phone so I don't have the link but it's easy to find
It's important to be safe first and foremost. Otherwise, you don't need to have it all figured out right away. It's a journey of exploration and discovery so enjoy it
It's a bit of shameless self promotion, but I have some supercuts of my transition videos if you want to see what I did. You can also check out the old channel for the individual videos and a bunch more. It's @cah-lockout I think. I think there is also a link in my about tab. I can't check from the YT Studio app on my phone
Stay safe, enjoy life, be happy being yourself
I find that it really helps to work out on basically a daily basis and doing intermittent fasting, preferably something like 16:8.
I try to work out as often as I can, disability permitting. It helps with the pain quite a but. I've heard from a ton of people that it helps a lot with mood but I never noticed any effect
@@CammyAtHomeActual my big tip is rucking - Since it doesn't hurt the joints at all, it is so amenable, even I can do it often.
@@CammyAtHomeActual Also, lest we forget, fasted cardio is easy to do, just do IF, and schedule some walking while you're fasting.