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The only reason I remember 'left is right and right is wrong' is because my idiot father said it so much lol And yeah, I'm just over four years now 😀

That's a common misconception. When ABC initially aired it ran 4 episodes because they combined episodes 3 and 4. Subsequent airings and releases made 5 episodes as it was initially intended

@@CammyAtHomeActual I was young at time so I didn't know but glad you said and told me that and it's still was too good of a thing I liked so much at the time

I'm so glad I made this video because I've gotten to talk to so many other folks who also loved the show. Also, I absolutely love Robert Loggia in everything because he just chews through every bit of scenery he can get his jaws on

Ooh sweet, I haven't read that and love new recommendations

I agree. I don't remember if I said this in the essay but it's too bad it's kind of forgotten these days

@@CammyAtHomeActual You did mention that in the vid. It's incredible how we have access to SO MUCH media now, but at the same time, a majority of the media from the past remains inaccessible or lost. Streaming has been a huge cause of that...feels like we can access everything, but meanwhile that tsunami of content drowns a lot of media. Will be very interesting 50 years from now to review how much media has been genuinely lost.

I'm the kind of gay who will go to Dunkin for iced coffee in sub zero temps

That sounds weird and wonderful

Too bad about Regan though

That's awesome!

Same. I was pre-teen when I saw it but as an adult, mind blowing

If only HRT made my facial hair grow as slow as my head hair...

Mission accomplished! lol

To quote Ian McKellen, "no one ever regretted coming out." Also, don't let anyone tell you you're too old to transition. I was 38

@@CammyAtHomeActual omg really!? You were 38! That makes me feel better! You know? I think I'm going to DO this! First I've gotta let my hair grow out and then slowly wear more unisex clothing. I'm gonna play a little game, I'm gonna see how long it takes for my family to see what's up 😂. First thing when I get home from work tonight I'm gonna shave my beard. I've had this beard since 2012 and I think it's wayyy overdue for a shave! Dang, I feel good about this omg! I'm really gonna do it and it makes me happy.. huh.. I've never felt this giddy.

That's so awesome and I'm so happy for you! My only advice here is tell your significant other you are thinking about this. It's healthy to keep them in the loop and then you will have someone by your side though the hard parts. If they are not supportive, it's better to know now so you can move on to somewhere you can be yourself

@@CammyAtHomeActualI think she'll support me... I just wrote this actually and posted it on Reddit. I'd like to hear your thoughts. Let me start out with saying that I'm early, very early in my transition right now. I have been struggling with gender dysmorphia ever since I was 9 years old. I remember looking down at myself and wishing and pretending I was a woman, I have never felt comfortable in my own body, but I've had to hide myself from my ultra conservative family for years and years out of fear of rejection. But now? I don't care anymore.. I'm getting old, I feel like I have lost so much already, it wasn't until I was able to afford to get my own apartment three years ago that I was finally able to get away from years and years of indoctrination and now that I live far away from my family with my pretty progressive wife, I feel like I can really be myself now and it makes me HAPPY and giddy on the inside! It's like.. I have NEEDED this for so long you know? Right now I'm just focusing on growing my hair out to at least shoulder length first (right now it's just over my ears) wearing cute unisex t shirts and flared 70s "cowboy" jeans as I call them if anybody asks what the hell am I doing wearing those things . People just think I have a weird obsession with vintage clothing lol. I am still "in the closet" with everybody as I live in Alabama.. you know.. the state that is filled with people who thinks that everybody who is not white, Christian and MACHO/country boy as hell is going to hell... My wife is the only person I know who is accepting of LGBT people.. we live in a sundown town.. My wife would support me in this I know. She supported me when I told her I was an Atheist, she said that she would love me no matter what because of who I am on the inside 🥺. I've always been bisexual, but this woman is a very special person, she's very accepting of alternate lifestyles. We are a speck of blue in a sea of red. I think want to take things slow before I complete my transition.. it will be fun seeing if anyone reacts or even notices anything different as the months go by and I become more and more of a Feminine "Tomboy". I.. I think that's my goal. I honestly don't know if I could go all out with tons of makeup and cute, sexy dresses. Hell, my wife doesn't so I guess you can say she's a little bit of a tomboy too. She wears cute t shirts and the occasional low neck cut female t shirt and she has a handful of dresses that she wears on occasion, but she mostly wears what's comfortable and I think that's going to be me whenever I decide to start taking HRT & T blockers and fully commit to my transition. My wife just thinks I've become hyper fixated with grooming myself, she actually likes it though! So I've made the decision to shave completely, but I REALLY don't want to have to shave my chest and stomach for the rest of my life... Does HRT & T Blockers help with this? Or will I have to possibly start getting my chest and stomach waxed? Because this is a LOT of maintenance lol. My body naturally produces a lot of testosterone. My voice isn't that deep, but I was born with a TON of body hair.. thankfully my back is naturally bare though. So about me, I was born with straight hair, my eyelashes are very naturally thick, for SOME reason I have had manboobs my entire life (you can make them out in a tight t shirt), my hips have curves to them, I have pretty substantial love handles even being skinny (I'm 6ft/179lbs) currently working on gettig myself down to 165lbs again. I have slight bow legs? My knees very slightly bend inward. I think I have some feminine characteristics already, more so than others because I've seen men names before online (obviously) I THINK I have a chance at passing someday in the future when I fully commit to this? But my height is what scares me. Can I really pass and be 6ft?.

That's pretty substantial but it's good to see you taking steps to understand who you are. I recommend looking up the Gender Dysphoria Bible. I'm on my phone so I don't have the link but it's easy to find It's important to be safe first and foremost. Otherwise, you don't need to have it all figured out right away. It's a journey of exploration and discovery so enjoy it It's a bit of shameless self promotion, but I have some supercuts of my transition videos if you want to see what I did. You can also check out the old channel for the individual videos and a bunch more. It's @cah-lockout I think. I think there is also a link in my about tab. I can't check from the YT Studio app on my phone Stay safe, enjoy life, be happy being yourself

lol Doesn't mean it isn't still great 😀

Awesome, I'm glad you liked it. Rewatching it for me like 25 years later was also a total trip down memory lane and I was so surprised how good it still is

@@CammyAtHomeActual After having watched a few more clips here YT from it, I think I am just going to order the DVD from eBay. I saw a bunch of copies there for the US region for only $20. It will be something to binge watch during the next heatwave when I am hiding out in the A/C.

You won't be disappointed 😀

Thanks hun, you're the sweetest. I'm trying and it's always nice to know people out there care about me ❤️

@@CammyAtHomeActual of course! Always here if you ever need anyone 💕

I'm currently doing electrolysis at a place on my face and I love it. I've considered it for the rest of me but it's pretty expensive. I'm thinking I'll do it if I can't take the hormones I got an at home kit and it worked okay but the hair just came back after a while. I use creams now because they're easier EDIT: Correction, I'm doing laser and moving to electrolysis soon. In my defense, it was really early and I shouldn't comment before coffee lol

Thanks. I'm sure it will, it's just rough for now

<3

I try to work out as often as I can, disability permitting. It helps with the pain quite a but. I've heard from a ton of people that it helps a lot with mood but I never noticed any effect

@@CammyAtHomeActual my big tip is rucking - Since it doesn't hurt the joints at all, it is so amenable, even I can do it often.

@@CammyAtHomeActual Also, lest we forget, fasted cardio is easy to do, just do IF, and schedule some walking while you're fasting.

Thanks, you're super sweet. Taking the estradiol intermittently is a good idea, I'll ask my endo about that and see what she thinks

@@CammyAtHomeActual Thank you. As a writer you know how powerful words are when they are delivered from the heart. Be well my dear.

The state of the world at large certainly is a big thing for me too. Life as a queer person is just plain scary these days. I'm sorry you're having a hard time too. I agree, it always sucks. I hope you feel better soon

Thanks girl, you're a sweetheart. I'm glad we're friends <3

As am I, friend! Just remember, I'm around, I'm here to pester, and make sure you hydrate!

Split Second and Nemesis, both from 1992, are some of my favorite 90's cyberpunk. I have a real love for those low budget sci-fi B movies from the era. I could talk forever about them. I used to have a TH-cam channel all about that kind of movie but I shut it down. Strange Days is a beast of a movie too, I think I even say that in the video :D I'm glad you like this though, this kind of video is a lot of work

Ooh sweet! I'll have to track down a copy

Thanks, I'm glad you like my nonsense. The companion video to this one that will be up next week I talk a bit about being disabled I also love TTRPG writing too and spend a lot of creative effort on it even though I don't have a group to play with right now Desktop is prob your best bet right now but if you have android or iphone you could always go with the Kindle app. Once I get my slate of books out and listed I'm going to figure out how to sell on other platforms than KDP

Yeah, it's def not a fit for everyone but if you find ways to have fun with it then that's pretty awesome :D

That sounds like it might cause the laser to target the wrong thing and could burn pretty badly. I don't know though, that's purely a guess I'm officially jealous of your lack of hair lol It sounds like you wouldn't be a good candidate for laser and would be better off jumping right to electrolysis if it's something you want

@@CammyAtHomeActual My lack of body hair is one of the few great aspects of my condition. I also deal with gender dysphoria similar to what transexuals deal with. In my case I cannot take estrogen as a way of coping.my body developed. I developed almost stage four testicualr cancer that is based on ovarian cancer.One of my testis was a ovotestis. Along with a bunch of massive germ cell teratoma. So it is me who is jealous Cammy of you.for being able to take estrogen. Today at 1:30 I will be taking more testing so as to asertain just what form of estrogen will cause my cancer to return if I were to try to take estrogen. If the results find the exact form of estrogen would pose a hazard for me I may be able to at last take something that will let me become my true self. The one remaining testis never fully developed as such and may even be in part a ovotestis as other blood tests may suggest. Even the Mayo Clinic doesn't fully understand my body chemistry. Because of my chronic low testosterone I should have Bone density issues yet after recovery from chemo my bones density returned to that of a 30 year old. Strange. Three years of osteoporosis and some broken bones and then my bone density recovered fully. really strange I continue to wish you well on your path. Keep doing what you need to do to thrive.. I will follow you as you make your way.

Right now I’m working on getting hormones that will not cause my cancer to return. I hardly survived the last round of chemotherapy and surgery.

I really don't know why this isn't more popular

@@CammyAtHomeActual well my sweet summer child that's partially due to Twin Peaks. Everyone had kinda had enough of weirdness after it left us. After that I think it has been so obscure even though it is full of talent. After 9/11 I thought it would have more popularity but it didn't. We're an exclusive gang. Hello I must be going. I cannot stay. I came to say I must be going.

@@FionnigantheCinemaHeretic From a 2024 perspective one could make the argument that the character of a media figure turned politician turned cult leader might tickle some fancies today. Although maybe that hits too close to home. To quote Kreutzer: "I have all the traits of a popular politico. Bad breeding, vulgar manners and one hell of a tan" ... or spray tan. Sounds awfully familiar. Similar levels of ciminality and insanity, too. It's doubtful that this will get Wild Palms a new audience.

If all goes well, the followup video should be up next week :D

Summer is just a state of mind lol

#triggeredsnowflake

Same. I have so much fun worldbuilding. I usually just lift towns and dungeons from pre-written adventures then fit them into the plot and world and so on As Hemingway said, "All DM's steal stuff, hell even Matt Mercer did it on stream." Or something like that, I don't know he was weird

One of these days I'll get you to do a WoT video...

I agree, you def have a type. lol I haven't read a lot of the books on my shelf either so don't feel bad. I buy books that look neat and then they hang out with the others until I get around to them which from what I gather is pretty normal I've actually heard of that Russian one on a video talking about weird conspiracy theories not that long ago. It sounds insane