I would be lying if I said I haven’t cried in every episode, this is such a lovely documentary and you’ve captured the right moments in such a lovely way. I feel like I can relate to you in some way because of my past so I want to thank you SO much for putting this together 💗💗
Such a heartbreaking documentary and I’d be lying if I said I haven’t sobbed. My brother is an active heroin addict (30 years going now) and I started to grow hatred and anger towards him. But this documentary has highlighted a side of addiction that we are never able to see. You’re so strong and I’m sending you buckets of love ❤️
😭 you and your family are so strong!!!!!! your mum would be SO proud of you; the way you’ve told this story and speak of her has been done so beautifully but you’ve shared such an important message in a way that’s so impactful & i think so many people will learn from this & carry this with them. love you so much ❤️ and props to Elliot, this was such a heartbreaking documentary done so tastefully 👏🏼
I'm an addict and this hit so hard. Never cried so much. Since leaving rehab last year things have been pretty tough but this gives me motivation to keep trying. Thank you. So sorry to all of you for your loss ❤
I'll be honest, I've been where your mum's been. I moved cities to change and to get away from the lifestyle, but just like your mum it followed me. I'm only 22, but I know what I want in life and it's not this one. Your mum would be proudda you girl, thankyou for not having the opinion of every one else's thinking that just cause someone chooses to turn to something it doesn't define the person they are, or what they're like. I'm only a month clean but I really wanna get there. Awareness and programme's like this helps ❤️❤️
This documentary has really touched me; I haven’t been watching you long and stumbled across these videos; I’m 27 and I lost my mum when I just turned 9 too, the same like your mum but she used to take pharmaceutical drugs; so tablets she had been prescribed! And I witnessed her whole mental health journey, the ups and downs, the highs and lows, the self harm! Waking up to paramedics and police in my house near enough every other day; my brother is two years younger than me and I hid him from it all, I didn’t want him to ever see it; as I wanted him to have good memories! I remember everything still so clearly! And she then took and overdose on my 9th birthday, I found her when I got home from school; one too many and she was put on life support for 13 days when she was confirmed no life! It’s been hard growing up! But everything I do today is to make my mum proud! And what caused all of this was actually postnatal depression after my brother! And there wasn’t much help out there 18 years ago! But this documentary has made me want to do my own about my mums story! So thank you so much! I highly doubt you’ll see this as this video is from the beginning of the year now xxxxxx
I lost both my parents to alcohol. I was 15 when my mum died and 18 when my dad died. I’m now 26 and I’m having a daughter in June 💗 (never thought I’d get here as I’ve struggled really hard with depression) im doing so much better and my life could have been so different but you have to choose the right path even if it’s the hardest thing. These 3 videos are so so important and I feel lucky that I got to watch them. sending your family love xx
Sending you so much love❤️❤️, depression is the worst I have depression and anxiety so know what it's like, you should be super proud of yourself. Your mum and dad would be so proud of you!! Wishing you and your daughter a healthy happy life ❤️❤️❤️
Don’t know you. Never heard of your channel. This was in my recommended videos. I’ve just watched the whole series and it absolutely shattered me to pieces. Thank you for educating people. Your nanny is a brilliant, brave woman, you’re a beautiful intelligent young individual and so is your brother. I wish you all the best in the world, and I’ll keep your Mum in my thoughts. RIP Nikki.
I lost my mum Julie when I was 10 due to addiction. I wish my family would be as open with their pain as yours are. This couldn't have been easy to make, but the man at the end is right, good will come from it
balling my eyes out😭 she’d be so proud of you and all your family, sharing your story is going to help so so many people! Sad to see the documentary end, looked forward to it every sunday xxx
Your mums a hero she saved so many people without even realising she saved her friends when they could have been in the same place as her. Syd this was so phenomenal 🙌🏻🦋 SHE IS AN ANGEL. Her story will always live on & by sharing will save so many more !🥰
Your nans heart is so big. Shes so strong and she loves you all. Bless her. Shes so sweet. Id love to give her a massive hug. Please hug her from us all. ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for making this documentary. I have journeyed with so many on this path over the last 12 years and I found your story so helpful and emotional. It has helped me understand a lot. I am better prepared to continue as a result. Thank you so much. God bless
I also just want to be able to come through the screen and give nan the biggest hug because there is a generation of grandparents raising there grandchildren because of addiction and I can’t imagine the pain of losing your child and having to get up everyday and raise those babies. She is the most incredible woman
So beautiful Sydney! Coming from a home where heroin addiction was prevalent, I can relate so much. Unfortunately you lost your beautiful mam. Nan is an earth angel and reminds me so much of my foster mam who’s now 76. Without them we wouldn’t be the amazing women we are today ❤️
As one who’s experience losing a parent from addiction, this really helps and is so comforting to see that you’re not alone. So eye opening and amazing ❤️
absolutely balled my eyes out, i felt like i knew nikki just by watching this. can’t imagine how painful this must have been for you and your family but it’s an amazing thing you have done. thank you for sharing nikki’s story. this documentary really showed the harsh reality of drugs, it can be quite easy romanticised on tv shows and social media and easy to get sucked into things but watching this has completely opened up my eyes to it all. 💞💞
Syd, thanks to you and your family for doing this as someone who suffered from a heroin addiction from 14 and only got clean 2 years ago at 28 I really appreciate you sharing your mums story. Now I’m clean I’d love to go into schools and speak to kids around the age I was when I started using. Drug addiction leaves you with permanent damage to your body and not only causes you hurt but leaves a trail of hurt in its path leaving families devastated. Love blue x x x
Oh Sydney and Joel, what amazing people you are. Your whole family are incredible, I had tears in my eyes throughout. I have learnt so much. Well done to you all for being so brave and opening up about your Beautiful Mum Nikki’s Drug Addiction and how it affected you and your family and her friends. It’s so educational and each video was a perfect way to educate us all. Thank you xx 😘
This series is incredible. It felt like a rollercoaster of emotions, I shed a tear at every stage. Mostly, my heart aches for Nicky and what she went through, how she must have been feeling. You’re an incredible family, you should be so proud of this series. X
Watched this a year ago and needed to watch it again due to loosing my brother over an accidental heron overdose your doing fab lass your nan is fabulous and your going to be a mum soon great times a head x
Joel is so similar to Lee! This series was so incredible, what an amazing way to remember your mum and tell her story. Well done for creating awareness, you are so brave x
God your nan is so special. Wonderful woman. So brave of every single one of you. I couldn’t have done this Sydney. So brave. No child should ever have to go through this. Horrendous. Sending every single one of you so much love - what a lovely documentary, put together so well. Well done xxxxxxx
I have never commented on anyones TH-cam video in the years I’ve been on TH-cam I just watch videos then come off but I just want to say this is probably the best thing I’ve watched on TH-cam from a TH-camr. You should be so proud of yourself. Honestly this documentary was incredible. Your mum would be so proud of you and your nan (and all the people around you) have done such an incredible job in honour of your mum x
What a beautiful tribute to your mother. Reminds us all addicts are people first and foremost with extended families who love them and but are affected by their choices. Your story WILL help others.
Valerie Rosso - Allow me to help you with that comment. It reminds us all addicts are at that point generally completely self-absorbed, short-sighted, value-less, God-less, and lawless people first and foremost with extended families who love them deeply, yet the addict is willing to sacrifice, abuse, ignore, violate, assault, and/or break those loving friends & family members hearts and cripple their minds forever because of their own selfishness and lack of self-control.
I wish I could put into words how incredibly proud I am of your amazingly brave family. Paul is right - your mum’s legacy will save lives. This was a hard watch but so important and I think it should be shown in schools and on TV! When you said it’s nice seeing a ‘moving person’ I feel like that describes the documentary well because it has such a big impact watching and hearing it all from people who have experienced it first hand. Your Nan and Grandad are two heroes and everyone in this video should be so proud of themselves. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us ❤️
So brave to bring this all backup again. I lost my Mum to breast cancer 2 and half years ago, loosing your Mum at such a young age is really tough. Should be proud xx
I was born same year as your mum , I did a helluva lot of drugs , people died , I left a heavily addicted and troubled partner ( who I met in a pysch ward ! ) and eventually got a better life ! Had a baby but have had struggles with alcohol and anorexia but managed to bring her up and she's great ( 28 now ) . You're a lovely family and I'm sorry nikki couldn't come thro the drugs , heroin was my thing , I relate to the ' cosy blanket feelin ' ! Crack and cocaine I dabbled but heroin was my main . These stories do so much good , addicts are people and alcohol is a big offender .. but its legal , but that's very dangerous . I wish you well this is amazin x ❤
this documentary is phenomenal. this has opened my eyes to the dangerous effects of drugs and i’m going to carry this with me for the rest of my life. the whole of your family is so strong. you and your mum are saving so many people
So beautifully captured 🤍 Thank you for being so honest and giving a voice to children with parents who struggle with addiction 🤍 You will have all helped to change and save lives through this documentary. You are the spitting image of your Mum! Congratulations and heaps of love - may your Mum rest in peace xxx
I lost my dad in 2018 due to his drug addiction and I remember being angry and asking him why he did it and he said ‘ it feels like getting a massive warm hug ‘ and I remember saying to him ‘ why don’t you just ask us for a hug ‘ I understand now that’s not how it works but it’s strange your nan explaining what your mum said it felt like
Amazing!! Sadly we’ve been on very similar journeys as I lost my stepdad gone 12 years on the 2nd January sadly he had a bad drug addiction that he managed to keep hidden from his kids and after a very long battle with it and reaching out for help for his mental health due to his drug addiction he sadly committed suicide, your documentary has opened a lot of emotions that I thought I was over!!
Syd you're an incredible lady xx I watched this at work and cried my eyes out, having lost my own mother at a young age this really hit me xx Keep smiling beautiful girl!!
I am so thankful you have shared your story to us with it being so hard for all of you to speak about, there is no doubt you will help so many people & save so many lives. Your mum would be so so proud of you all, love you so much Syd, you are so strong ❤️
I didnt think I’d be able to wretch this series but for some reason I watched this one did and now I have to go back and watch it all. You have such an amazing family Sydney and you are an absolute credit to your Nan and your Mum ❤️💕
Syd, this was such a heartbreaking story. You didn’t mention much about your father, Ray. Is he in your life? I hope he is supportive of you. I have no family at all, and although my life is not affected by addiction, I could relate to your Mum’s feelings of loneliness. Thank you for sharing your story, and I wish you and your lovely family lots of love xx
so proud of you Syd. this documentary was not only eye opening but truly incredible. your mum would be so proud of how many people you are going to help from this documentary. x
This is one of the best things to come out of social media ever!! I cried so much and I think this story is so heartfelt and deep it honestly beautiful to see all the love you guys have ❤️
A truly beautiful family inside and out. I cried with you every time Sydney. How beautiful for you to have quite evidently inherited your nans amazing traits too. Her level of empathy, patience, understanding and strength has blown me away, it’s easy for people to say that they would be those things if in the same situation, but it’s not so common for people to actually be. I’m so glad you have each other ❤️
Your mum was BEAUTIFUL! thankyou so much for this series, it resernated alot with me, my mum came from your mums world too..I have looked forward to each part every week, I found it so interesting and inspirational..you have a wonderful family and your nan is amazing! I hadn't heard of you before Sydney..it was the title 'Drugs came first' caught my eye..now I've watched some of your vlogs..your a beautiful well rounded lovely person and your mum will be so proud of you..thankyou so much for sharing, to you and everyone involved in making this..xxx
What a beautiful family. Your mum will be so unbelievably proud of you. Huge love to Nan, she really is incredible. Hugs from mine to yours Syd, so proud 💖xxxxxxxx
As a teenage girl who is currently dealing with the repercussions of addiction in her family thank you this is inspiring. Sending much love to you and your family xx
i have cried every single episode and this hits so so so hard to home for me,im so so sorry you went through this syd,i admire you in every single episode and every single way after this - thank you for capturing your mums life with zero judgement and shedding light on how awful drug addictions can be,so sorry again syd🥺✨🫶🏻
This was heartbreaking yet so heartwarming to watch. I cried throughout- you’re all so brave. Thank you for sharing ur experiences, captured so beautifully x
I have no words. This has broken me, I can’t imagine what you and your family have been through. You’re beyond inspirational and so brave. Your mum would be so proud of you all. ❤️
You are all so brave. As a mother this is how I want to educate my children about the risks associated with drugs. What a great resource to show the human side surrounding drug related deaths. You should all be so proud.
Oh syd this one broke my heart. You are so so strong you should be so very proud of yourself for sharing such a story close to you and your family’s hearts. Your documentary is going to go so far and is 100% going to save lives. You are all amazing lots of love💗💗
Thank you so much for this, it's struck some personal cords as I lost my father to heroin. I also struggle with addictions and have a daughter. I stumbled upon this a few days ago while wishing for some strength to be able to put my life in order and live free from dependency. I can't thank you enough for sharing your journey as I feel this would of impacted positively, even through the heartbreak. Sending you and your family so much love xx
Syd, your Mum will be SO proud of you. You’re so amazing for creating this to raise awareness & honour your Mum. She was clearly a beautiful soul just like you are. Your family is also incredible & the bond you have with your Nan is beautiful.
Sydney, thank you so much for being brave enough to share your story. You continue to inspire young girls and this not only tells the story of drugs but the importance of the impact of trauma on young people. You have achieved incredible things in incredible circumstances and will continue to do so. Thank you for being here, this corner of the internet truly makes me feel safe and not alone🤍
Absolutely balled my eyes out watching all of these Syd. Such a brave beautiful soul sharing your mums story to help others. Sending yourself, Joel and the rest of the family all the love in the world. Thank you for sharing this Syd❤️
Wow, what an emotional rollercoaster it has been watching this series. The way you’ve managed to capture everything is amazing. You truly are talented and your family must be so proud! 💕
Sydney, I just wanted to say thank you for making this and I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. I've been following your pregnancy journey as I'm due to have my own little girl any day now and I feel that we have a connection as my parents were drug addicts. I think you are so strong and your mum would be proud of you and the light she carried with her is shown through you. I know we can both be the mums we needed when we were young x
These have been my favourite ever videos on TH-cam, so informative, emotional and inspirational. Even though I don’t know you I am proud of you all and thank you all for showing your vulnerability to potentially help others. So well done and thankyou all. This is what TH-cam should be all about, life experiences and everyone taking away something from the video whether that’s more knowledge or taking a step to help them improve their lives! ♥️ xx
What an incredible story ✨your nan is an amazing woman, and they have raised you and your brother so well, considering what you went through at such a young age. Your mum lives on in you both xxx
Cried so much so heartbreaking. You all should be so proud of yourselves for raising awareness of addiction. Thank you for sharing the story of a beautiful angel xx
This is the most beautiful thing I’ve watching. Ur so strong you should be so proud of yourself and so should ur family. Ur incredible and she would be proud of you ❤️❤️
Beautiful, emotional and so powerful. I cried my way through that episode. You should be so proud Syd and I know your mom is watching and is proud of you too. It might’ve been only 3 episodes long but I know this series will stay with me for a long time
I am a new follower of the beautiful Sydney this is so very sad and I can only admire and respect you and your family very brave your mum was so lovely x
You are all so strong for telling your mums story! I hope people can watch this and understand what it’s like as a family in your situation! So brave 💕
It must have been so hard to film this, so proud of you ❤️ brave beautiful girl! X
I would be lying if I said I haven’t cried in every episode, this is such a lovely documentary and you’ve captured the right moments in such a lovely way. I feel like I can relate to you in some way because of my past so I want to thank you SO much for putting this together 💗💗
Oh Syd, I cried my eyes out the whole way through. I’m so proud, you’ve done amazing with this! Can’t wait to give you a big hug when I see you ❤️❤️❤️
Such a heartbreaking documentary and I’d be lying if I said I haven’t sobbed. My brother is an active heroin addict (30 years going now) and I started to grow hatred and anger towards him. But this documentary has highlighted a side of addiction that we are never able to see. You’re so strong and I’m sending you buckets of love ❤️
You should be so proud of yourself for sharing this. I cried the whole way through. Your mum was so beautiful. Love you lots ❤️
😭 you and your family are so strong!!!!!! your mum would be SO proud of you; the way you’ve told this story and speak of her has been done so beautifully but you’ve shared such an important message in a way that’s so impactful & i think so many people will learn from this & carry this with them.
love you so much ❤️ and props to Elliot, this was such a heartbreaking documentary done so tastefully 👏🏼
I'm an addict and this hit so hard. Never cried so much. Since leaving rehab last year things have been pretty tough but this gives me motivation to keep trying. Thank you. So sorry to all of you for your loss ❤
Keep trying ❤
I'll be honest, I've been where your mum's been. I moved cities to change and to get away from the lifestyle, but just like your mum it followed me. I'm only 22, but I know what I want in life and it's not this one. Your mum would be proudda you girl, thankyou for not having the opinion of every one else's thinking that just cause someone chooses to turn to something it doesn't define the person they are, or what they're like. I'm only a month clean but I really wanna get there. Awareness and programme's like this helps ❤️❤️
You’re doing amazingly, you’ve got this ❤️
You're doing great! You can do it xxx
Well done keep going ! 🥰
God bless you i lost my brother to addiction in 2022 i believe our loved ones have finally found peace and freedom ❤
This documentary has really touched me; I haven’t been watching you long and stumbled across these videos; I’m 27 and I lost my mum when I just turned 9 too, the same like your mum but she used to take pharmaceutical drugs; so tablets she had been prescribed! And I witnessed her whole mental health journey, the ups and downs, the highs and lows, the self harm! Waking up to paramedics and police in my house near enough every other day; my brother is two years younger than me and I hid him from it all, I didn’t want him to ever see it; as I wanted him to have good memories! I remember everything still so clearly! And she then took and overdose on my 9th birthday, I found her when I got home from school; one too many and she was put on life support for 13 days when she was confirmed no life! It’s been hard growing up! But everything I do today is to make my mum proud! And what caused all of this was actually postnatal depression after my brother! And there wasn’t much help out there 18 years ago! But this documentary has made me want to do my own about my mums story! So thank you so much! I highly doubt you’ll see this as this video is from the beginning of the year now xxxxxx
you’re so strong, i’m proud
I lost both my parents to alcohol.
I was 15 when my mum died and 18 when my dad died. I’m now 26 and I’m having a daughter in June 💗 (never thought I’d get here as I’ve struggled really hard with depression) im doing so much better and my life could have been so different but you have to choose the right path even if it’s the hardest thing.
These 3 videos are so so important and I feel lucky that I got to watch them. sending your family love xx
Sending you so much love, I wish you all the best for when you have your daughter ❤️
Sending you so much love❤️❤️, depression is the worst I have depression and anxiety so know what it's like, you should be super proud of yourself. Your mum and dad would be so proud of you!! Wishing you and your daughter a healthy happy life ❤️❤️❤️
🙏🤍you are all amazing . Getting through such tragedy is remarkable 🙏
Don’t know you. Never heard of your channel. This was in my recommended videos. I’ve just watched the whole series and it absolutely shattered me to pieces. Thank you for educating people. Your nanny is a brilliant, brave woman, you’re a beautiful intelligent young individual and so is your brother. I wish you all the best in the world, and I’ll keep your Mum in my thoughts. RIP Nikki.
I lost my mum Julie when I was 10 due to addiction. I wish my family would be as open with their pain as yours are. This couldn't have been easy to make, but the man at the end is right, good will come from it
So proud of you syd! Love you 🤍
balling my eyes out😭 she’d be so proud of you and all your family, sharing your story is going to help so so many people! Sad to see the documentary end, looked forward to it every sunday xxx
Your mums a hero she saved so many people without even realising she saved her friends when they could have been in the same place as her. Syd this was so phenomenal 🙌🏻🦋 SHE IS AN ANGEL. Her story will always live on & by sharing will save so many more !🥰
Your nans heart is so big. Shes so strong and she loves you all. Bless her. Shes so sweet. Id love to give her a massive hug. Please hug her from us all. ❤❤❤
Oh Sydney this ep really broke my heart. Don’t know you but have followed you for years and I’m so proud of you. This has been such a special series.
Thank you so much for making this documentary. I have journeyed with so many on this path over the last 12 years and I found your story so helpful and emotional. It has helped me understand a lot. I am better prepared to continue as a result.
Thank you so much. God bless
Watched the whole series. You and you family are so inspiring. This is beautiful to keep your mums memory alive ❤😢
I was not expecting to cry this much on a Sunday. Wow, you should be so so so proud of yourself and all your family for this! It has been amazing 💜
I also just want to be able to come through the screen and give nan the biggest hug because there is a generation of grandparents raising there grandchildren because of addiction and I can’t imagine the pain of losing your child and having to get up everyday and raise those babies. She is the most incredible woman
What a beautiful courageous family. This is probably one of the most emotional things I’ve ever watched.
So beautiful Sydney! Coming from a home where heroin addiction was prevalent, I can relate so much. Unfortunately you lost your beautiful mam. Nan is an earth angel and reminds me so much of my foster mam who’s now 76. Without them we wouldn’t be the amazing women we are today ❤️
As one who’s experience losing a parent from addiction, this really helps and is so comforting to see that you’re not alone. So eye opening and amazing ❤️
I agree I’ve had the same thing too and it’s so hard 😭 and it’s very comforting seeing this x
absolutely balled my eyes out, i felt like i knew nikki just by watching this. can’t imagine how painful this must have been for you and your family but it’s an amazing thing you have done. thank you for sharing nikki’s story. this documentary really showed the harsh reality of drugs, it can be quite easy romanticised on tv shows and social media and easy to get sucked into things but watching this has completely opened up my eyes to it all. 💞💞
Syd, thanks to you and your family for doing this as someone who suffered from a heroin addiction from 14 and only got clean 2 years ago at 28 I really appreciate you sharing your mums story. Now I’m clean I’d love to go into schools and speak to kids around the age I was when I started using. Drug addiction leaves you with permanent damage to your body and not only causes you hurt but leaves a trail of hurt in its path leaving families devastated. Love blue x x x
Oh Sydney and Joel, what amazing people you are. Your whole family are incredible, I had tears in my eyes throughout. I have learnt so much. Well done to you all for being so brave and opening up about your Beautiful Mum Nikki’s Drug Addiction and how it affected you and your family and her friends. It’s so educational and each video was a perfect way to educate us all. Thank you xx 😘
What a kind, forgiving, loving family.
This series is incredible. It felt like a rollercoaster of emotions, I shed a tear at every stage. Mostly, my heart aches for Nicky and what she went through, how she must have been feeling. You’re an incredible family, you should be so proud of this series. X
Watched this a year ago and needed to watch it again due to loosing my brother over an accidental heron overdose your doing fab lass your nan is fabulous and your going to be a mum soon great times a head x
Joel is so similar to Lee! This series was so incredible, what an amazing way to remember your mum and tell her story. Well done for creating awareness, you are so brave x
God your nan is so special. Wonderful woman. So brave of every single one of you. I couldn’t have done this Sydney. So brave. No child should ever have to go through this. Horrendous. Sending every single one of you so much love - what a lovely documentary, put together so well. Well done xxxxxxx
I have never commented on anyones TH-cam video in the years I’ve been on TH-cam I just watch videos then come off but I just want to say this is probably the best thing I’ve watched on TH-cam from a TH-camr. You should be so proud of yourself. Honestly this documentary was incredible. Your mum would be so proud of you and your nan (and all the people around you) have done such an incredible job in honour of your mum x
What a beautiful tribute to your mother. Reminds us all addicts are people first and foremost with extended families who love them and but are affected by their choices. Your story WILL help others.
Valerie Rosso -
Allow me to help you with that comment.
It reminds us all addicts are at that point generally completely self-absorbed, short-sighted, value-less, God-less, and lawless people first and foremost with extended families who love them deeply, yet the addict is willing to sacrifice, abuse, ignore, violate, assault, and/or break those loving friends & family members hearts and cripple their minds forever because of their own selfishness and lack of self-control.
The story of your mum was told so beautifully, I could have watched you all speak for hours😭❤️ so touching
I wish I could put into words how incredibly proud I am of your amazingly brave family. Paul is right - your mum’s legacy will save lives. This was a hard watch but so important and I think it should be shown in schools and on TV! When you said it’s nice seeing a ‘moving person’ I feel like that describes the documentary well because it has such a big impact watching and hearing it all from people who have experienced it first hand. Your Nan and Grandad are two heroes and everyone in this video should be so proud of themselves. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us ❤️
So brave to bring this all backup again. I lost my Mum to breast cancer 2 and half years ago, loosing your Mum at such a young age is really tough. Should be proud xx
Wow you are so brave. It must have been so so hard sharing this. Your story will help many other families experiencing the same thing❤️xxxx
Sydney you’ve honestly changed my life with this documentary.
Your nan reminds me a lot like mine, such remarkable women
I was born same year as your mum , I did a helluva lot of drugs , people died , I left a heavily addicted and troubled partner ( who I met in a pysch ward ! ) and eventually got a better life ! Had a baby but have had struggles with alcohol and anorexia but managed to bring her up and she's great ( 28 now ) . You're a lovely family and I'm sorry nikki couldn't come thro the drugs , heroin was my thing , I relate to the ' cosy blanket feelin ' ! Crack and cocaine I dabbled but heroin was my main . These stories do so much good , addicts are people and alcohol is a big offender .. but its legal , but that's very dangerous . I wish you well this is amazin x ❤
this documentary is phenomenal. this has opened my eyes to the dangerous effects of drugs and i’m going to carry this with me for the rest of my life. the whole of your family is so strong. you and your mum are saving so many people
So beautifully captured 🤍 Thank you for being so honest and giving a voice to children with parents who struggle with addiction 🤍 You will have all helped to change and save lives through this documentary. You are the spitting image of your Mum! Congratulations and heaps of love - may your Mum rest in peace xxx
I lost my dad in 2018 due to his drug addiction and I remember being angry and asking him why he did it and he said ‘ it feels like getting a massive warm hug ‘ and I remember saying to him ‘ why don’t you just ask us for a hug ‘ I understand now that’s not how it works but it’s strange your nan explaining what your mum said it felt like
Syd’s Nan is an angel in human form!!! 💕✨ so so incredible!!!
Also your uncle Lee is amazing for what he does, bless him, you can see he idolised his sister..what he is doing is fantastic! Xx
Amazing!! Sadly we’ve been on very similar journeys as I lost my stepdad gone 12 years on the 2nd January sadly he had a bad drug addiction that he managed to keep hidden from his kids and after a very long battle with it and reaching out for help for his mental health due to his drug addiction he sadly committed suicide, your documentary has opened a lot of emotions that I thought I was over!!
Syd you're an incredible lady xx
I watched this at work and cried my eyes out, having lost my own mother at a young age this really hit me xx
Keep smiling beautiful girl!!
Your nan is truly the most wonderful lady❤️
What a wonderful lady your nan is ❤️
I am so thankful you have shared your story to us with it being so hard for all of you to speak about, there is no doubt you will help so many people & save so many lives. Your mum would be so so proud of you all, love you so much Syd, you are so strong ❤️
I’m sobbing omg! 😭 thank you, thank you so much for letting us into this part of your life! ♥️
This series has been a huge eye opener. You should be very proud of yourself x
I didnt think I’d be able to wretch this series but for some reason I watched this one did and now I have to go back and watch it all. You have such an amazing family Sydney and you are an absolute credit to your Nan and your Mum ❤️💕
Syd, this was such a heartbreaking story. You didn’t mention much about your father, Ray. Is he in your life? I hope he is supportive of you.
I have no family at all, and although my life is not affected by addiction, I could relate to your Mum’s feelings of loneliness. Thank you for sharing your story, and I wish you and your lovely family lots of love xx
This had me crying my eyes out 😭 you just can’t imagine if you have not been there yourself… you are all amazing 💖
Big tears but just wanted to say thank you for sharing your family stories and I know this is going to help so many others!
so proud of you Syd. this documentary was not only eye opening but truly incredible. your mum would be so proud of how many people you are going to help from this documentary. x
This is one of the best things to come out of social media ever!! I cried so much and I think this story is so heartfelt and deep it honestly beautiful to see all the love you guys have ❤️
A truly beautiful family inside and out. I cried with you every time Sydney. How beautiful for you to have quite evidently inherited your nans amazing traits too. Her level of empathy, patience, understanding and strength has blown me away, it’s easy for people to say that they would be those things if in the same situation, but it’s not so common for people to actually be. I’m so glad you have each other ❤️
Your mum was BEAUTIFUL! thankyou so much for this series, it resernated alot with me, my mum came from your mums world too..I have looked forward to each part every week, I found it so interesting and inspirational..you have a wonderful family and your nan is amazing! I hadn't heard of you before Sydney..it was the title 'Drugs came first' caught my eye..now I've watched some of your vlogs..your a beautiful well rounded lovely person and your mum will be so proud of you..thankyou so much for sharing, to you and everyone involved in making this..xxx
Thank you for being so open and honest on this documentary. You are such a strong and brave girl! 😭❤️
Thank you so much for sharing and using your platform for good, you will probably never know how much this will help people ❤
What happened to Ray? Did him and Nikki ever split up for good or were they together until the end?
This had me my crying my eye out😭 can't imagine how hard it was to film , you are all amazing ❤
What a beautiful family. Your mum will be so unbelievably proud of you. Huge love to Nan, she really is incredible. Hugs from mine to yours Syd, so proud 💖xxxxxxxx
Your mum would be proud of you. You are so strong. Keep going xxx
So Heartbreaking. So happy you have your nanny in your life. She seems so lovely and amazing. 💕💕💕
As a teenage girl who is currently dealing with the repercussions of addiction in her family thank you this is inspiring. Sending much love to you and your family xx
so proud of you! thank you for spreading awareness x
i have cried every single episode and this hits so so so hard to home for me,im so so sorry you went through this syd,i admire you in every single episode and every single way after this - thank you for capturing your mums life with zero judgement and shedding light on how awful drug addictions can be,so sorry again syd🥺✨🫶🏻
This was heartbreaking yet so heartwarming to watch. I cried throughout- you’re all so brave. Thank you for sharing ur experiences, captured so beautifully x
I have no words. This has broken me, I can’t imagine what you and your family have been through. You’re beyond inspirational and so brave. Your mum would be so proud of you all. ❤️
I’m crying my eyes out. Wow Thankyou for posting this. I am so sorry, keep doing her proud!💗
You are all so brave. As a mother this is how I want to educate my children about the risks associated with drugs. What a great resource to show the human side surrounding drug related deaths. You should all be so proud.
Cried the whole way through! I cannot explain my gratitude to you Syd and your family! Ye are sooo bloody strong! You should be so proud of yourself x
Oh syd this one broke my heart. You are so so strong you should be so very proud of yourself for sharing such a story close to you and your family’s hearts. Your documentary is going to go so far and is 100% going to save lives. You are all amazing lots of love💗💗
Rest in peace to your beautiful mum who would be so proud of you and your family!
Your family is amazing and thank you for this amazing documentary!!
Thank you all for sharing your story. Sydney, your mum would be so proud.
Never cried so much watching something. Thank you so much for sharing this. You’re family are amazing. Sending you a big hug❤️
Thank you so much for this, it's struck some personal cords as I lost my father to heroin. I also struggle with addictions and have a daughter. I stumbled upon this a few days ago while wishing for some strength to be able to put my life in order and live free from dependency. I can't thank you enough for sharing your journey as I feel this would of impacted positively, even through the heartbreak. Sending you and your family so much love xx
I believe in you 💕
Syd, your Mum will be SO proud of you. You’re so amazing for creating this to raise awareness & honour your Mum. She was clearly a beautiful soul just like you are. Your family is also incredible & the bond you have with your Nan is beautiful.
Your nan is just amazing ❤️
Sydney, thank you so much for being brave enough to share your story. You continue to inspire young girls and this not only tells the story of drugs but the importance of the impact of trauma on young people. You have achieved incredible things in incredible circumstances and will continue to do so. Thank you for being here, this corner of the internet truly makes me feel safe and not alone🤍
this is so powerful, crying. so proud of you, incredible..
Sat in the car at work crying watching this
Absolutely balled my eyes out watching all of these Syd. Such a brave beautiful soul sharing your mums story to help others. Sending yourself, Joel and the rest of the family all the love in the world. Thank you for sharing this Syd❤️
Wow, what an emotional rollercoaster it has been watching this series. The way you’ve managed to capture everything is amazing. You truly are talented and your family must be so proud! 💕
Sydney, I just wanted to say thank you for making this and I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. I've been following your pregnancy journey as I'm due to have my own little girl any day now and I feel that we have a connection as my parents were drug addicts.
I think you are so strong and your mum would be proud of you and the light she carried with her is shown through you.
I know we can both be the mums we needed when we were young x
These have been my favourite ever videos on TH-cam, so informative, emotional and inspirational. Even though I don’t know you I am proud of you all and thank you all for showing your vulnerability to potentially help others. So well done and thankyou all. This is what TH-cam should be all about, life experiences and everyone taking away something from the video whether that’s more knowledge or taking a step to help them improve their lives! ♥️ xx
What an incredible story ✨your nan is an amazing woman, and they have raised you and your brother so well, considering what you went through at such a young age. Your mum lives on in you both xxx
Cried so much during this part, so proud of you Syd! You, your family, & Elliot did such an amazing job with this documentary!!
Cried so much so heartbreaking. You all should be so proud of yourselves for raising awareness of addiction. Thank you for sharing the story of a beautiful angel xx
This is the most beautiful thing I’ve watching. Ur so strong you should be so proud of yourself and so should ur family. Ur incredible and she would be proud of you ❤️❤️
Beautiful, emotional and so powerful. I cried my way through that episode. You should be so proud Syd and I know your mom is watching and is proud of you too. It might’ve been only 3 episodes long but I know this series will stay with me for a long time
This episode really really got me😭 syd ,Joel &family thank you for sharing your mums story 💖
Cried throughout this, what an amazing family you have and the most amazing person you are Syd. Sending all the love in the world 💗💗💗
I am a new follower of the beautiful Sydney this is so very sad and I can only admire and respect you and your family very brave your mum was so lovely x
This is amazing. Thank you so much for this, sending you lots of love and strength ❤️
You are all so strong for telling your mums story! I hope people can watch this and understand what it’s like as a family in your situation! So brave 💕