We all missed you. It sounded like your therapist needed a therapist.i. I’m glad that you got another one. Don’t feel bad about something that she chose to do. Whoever she is, she had no business doing that to you and shouldn’t be a therapist. Hugs.
❤❤all your feelings are completely normal in that situation and I’m sorry that you had to deal with a break in trust and in a lot of ways intrusion ! First off my feelings would be the exact same - you build up a trust with a therapist and a lot to unlock that you wouldn’t always share with those you love to protect them from worrying - I feel it was COMPLETELY out of line and unprofessional to even make you feel that you had hurt her - that you had to worry about posting on YOUR outlet / channel - and that she even managed to put herself in your sessions as the one who was having to speak about her feelings- therapists imo should not do that - it’s an unbiased session. - a build on trust - a build on how to work with you and unlocking what works to HELP you - not further affect your life in a negative way ! Let’s hope now you have a positive relationship with a therapist and built that trust again - that your channel can become a place you enjoy again . Especially with a hobby you find peace and happiness with … and a community you can interact with / build friendships and connections ! Welcome back Lucy and I am glad to see you pop up in my notifications ! I hope you build your confidence again and find happiness in posting again ❤
Thank you so much Sammie! You're so lovely to comment and it means such a lot to know that I'm not alone in feeling this way and that I'm justified in feeling the way I do, thank you. It really did feel like a breech of trust, something she didn't seem to understand at all because it's allowed under therapy ethics guidelines. It's been very difficult trying to deal with it on my own and not be able to share about it here like I usually would but hopefully I can move forwards now. My new therapist is absolutely lovely, a much better fit for me and I feel able to ask questions or highlight issues if they arise and I feel much more equal than I ever have with a therapist before which is such a nice change for me! Thanks again for your lovely comment and support, this is exactly why I wanted to post here again because it's so helpful having all of you on my side so I'm not fighting the anxiety alone. Sending you so much love xxx
Dear Lucy, I'm so glad to finally hear from you again, after suspecting that you must have gone through an even rougher patch during your absent time. There's always the danger of not getting a suitable councillor/therapist, and I'm really happy for you that you were able to change them and found somebody who is not only working with you through your original issues, but also helped/helps you to repair the damage the previous therapist caused. Let me give you a big virtual hug and wish you all the best. Btw, nothing wrong reading from your script, I certainly wouldn't have been able to do this unscripted at all! Until next time! 😁
Thank you so much for commenting and bless you for noticing my absence. I always feel terrible not explaining where I am and often I disappear accidentally because time just passes and I don't know what to vlog about or I'm not coping well but it's never usually been for this length of time and I hate the idea that it makes people worry. I feel very lucky to have my new therapist, it's such a contrast from therapy before and it's given me back hope and I'm trying to rebuild my confidence and I feel much safer than before which is lovely. Huge hug to you too and thanks for being so supportive and lovely, you guys all make such a difference to my life and I'm really glad I finally took the plunge to get this space back!
Lots and lots of love to you ❤️ So strong of you to be able to talk about this, there is nothing right to be treated like that. I hope you will recover and that you will be able to start your coloring here again in your time. I have missed you and your videos. Lots of love and hugs to you ❤️🤗❤️🤗
Thank you so much! I've definitely missed comments from you, you're always so lovely and supportive. Thank you for being there. I hope to share more soon and get back to some of my hobbies again. Lots of love and hugs to you too! Xxx
What a terrible experience. I would have been shattered too. How unprofessional of her. I hope that you can soon come back and I look forward to seeing you. I'll subscribe so I'll know when you do 😊
I'm so sorry you've have had to go through this, and your reaction is completely valid. I've been through a lot of therapy. Enough to know without question the way she treated you was completely unprofessional, and unacceptable at every level. Especially given the fact you had done absolutely nothing wrong. Not only should she have spoken with her supervisor first, but she should never have rang you like that, even if you had done something wrong. That was never a conversation to have over the phone. I was so relieved when I got to the part where you said you have changed therapists. For anyone reading it is important to know that in the short term you can feel worse during therapy, because you are opening up old wounds, going places mentally that frighten you, and can retraumatise you. A good therapist will talk you through it, and explain this. It can be terrifying, and she would have, or definitely should have known you were extra vulnerable. I really, really hope that this video helps you to move forward. Your subscribers care, and I for one missed you. Hugs from across the Irish Sea ❤
Thank you so much for watching and taking the time to comment and you're so right, it definitely wasn't a conversation for on the phone. I definitely wasn't remotely prepared for how destabilised I got, something that hasn't happened to me in therapy before, it was incredibly scary and lasted for months and I had no skills to cope with it at all, it's part of why I vlogged about it at the time because it was the only way of getting some of those feelings out of my head. It's lovely to know that I've been missed and that I'm cared about by all of you, I've missed being here so much and I hope to be back soon to start moaning about my physical health issues amongst other things! 😂 Hugs to you too and thanks for being there!
Aw bless you , sending big hugs from someone who has a teen with huge anxiety this would have had a huge impact on her mental health too. I hope you can move on, well done for being brave and posting today I bet it wasn't easy xx
Thank you so much! This is exactly why I've missed posting because you're all so supportive and lovely. It's been so hard trying to write the script and practice it and actually record it and hit upload but I'm sick of having this hanging over me when I didn't do anything wrong. Thanks so much for your lovely words and I'm so sorry your teen is struggling with anxiety, I hope she's doing ok and getting support. Xxx
Oh Lucy, my lovely, you have done nothing wrong. I know it doesn’t matter if 1000 people say that when the washing machine of thoughts gets going and you can see no way round it. I am so glad to see you. Scripted isn’t you 😊 but in this case was the correct choice, please trust yourself. I so hope it will not be long before we see you again. Take care my lovely, Merry Christmas if you celebrate, peace & kindness to you. x
I'm here, I hear you and I'm 100% backing you up. In this day and age internet is not a "separate space" from our daily lives and should be treated (for better or worse) as a component of all the "load" we have to wash with healthcare providers. If it affects us in any shape or form, it is a part of us. Said that, you should not be rerestricted of what you decide to share on your platforms because you would not do the same if you were talking to a friend for example. What people have to realize is that there is unethical people and they will not stop just because it is "the interwebz", would she call every single patient who have shared something about therapy with their friends? Oh wake up lady! You felt attacked over a work related problem go seek the proper meanings and report it, we don't seek mental health care at a restaurant, do we? My gosh the world we live in that we have to treat our own therapist 🤣 There are a lot of bad professionals in every field, and heck I just spent 2 years on a heavy anti depressant feeling like a zombie every day because following along my chronic depression I had undiagnosed ADHD and if the medication doesn't fit the state I'm in mentally my world turns either to "crazy town" or "the walking dead" pretty quickly 😆 all of it because adding to the lack of appointments during a 2yr period my psychiatrist didn't bother to look deeper into what I was experiencing. My new one took care of me like no other, listened and adapted, and just simply is in the right field 😍 I have to learn to accept what I cannot change and learn to live the best life I can with it having the support of a trained professional to teach and guide me. We need support, in every aspect of our lives, we don't need more problems, and if we have to vent on social media we will just so we can take it out of us and put it to the universe. What other people understand/think about what we share should not be our problem to bear. They deal with their problems, we deal with ours and support people we feel a connection to. Again, I'm here for you, my adhd LOVES to overshare, and even living in Portugal just give it a shout and I'll be here, love 😘 keep strong and I'll be here adventuring my way to begin coloring my mind out ☺
I hope you post again. I'm agoraphobic too and it's nice to see and hear from someone else who understands what my life is like. I also hope you post again because you got so much out of it before your old therapist did that horrible thing to you.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're agoraphobic too, I hardly know anyone who is and that's part of why I started sharing online 9 years ago to help people to understand. I've written lots of posts about it on my blog, In The Midst Of Madness in case you've not seen it. I will do my best to post again soon because I've really missed sharing here and the support from all of you had been amazing, I'm so lucky to have such lovely followers. Take care and thanks so much for watching and commenting. ❤
Therapists are there to help you, not make you feel like you do/did. To make you feel even worse than you were already feeling is,unprofessional and contradictory to their purpose of helping people. She should never have spoken to you about her feelings about you! Therapist's have their own mentor/ support that they talk to to unpack all the traumatic stuff they have to listen to this person is NOT their patients. Life's hard enough for you it seems without having to deal with that kind of stupidity. Get back to doing what you love. Time will help and it sounds like you've got a good therapist now. All the very best with your mental health healing😊
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It’s so good to see you back! I hope you feel up to sharing more regularly again soon and I’m glad your current therapist has supported your return.
We all missed you. It sounded like your therapist needed a therapist.i. I’m glad that you got another one. Don’t feel bad about something that she chose to do. Whoever she is, she had no business doing that to you and shouldn’t be a therapist. Hugs.
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❤❤all your feelings are completely normal in that situation and I’m sorry that you had to deal with a break in trust and in a lot of ways intrusion !
First off my feelings would be the exact same - you build up a trust with a therapist and a lot to unlock that you wouldn’t always share with those you love to protect them from worrying - I feel it was COMPLETELY out of line and unprofessional to even make you feel that you had hurt her - that you had to worry about posting on YOUR outlet / channel - and that she even managed to put herself in your sessions as the one who was having to speak about her feelings- therapists imo should not do that - it’s an unbiased session. - a build on trust - a build on how to work with you and unlocking what works to HELP you - not further affect your life in a negative way !
Let’s hope now you have a positive relationship with a therapist and built that trust again - that your channel can become a place you enjoy again .
Especially with a hobby you find peace and happiness with … and a community you can interact with / build friendships and connections !
Welcome back Lucy and I am glad to see you pop up in my notifications !
I hope you build your confidence again and find happiness in posting again ❤
Thank you so much Sammie! You're so lovely to comment and it means such a lot to know that I'm not alone in feeling this way and that I'm justified in feeling the way I do, thank you. It really did feel like a breech of trust, something she didn't seem to understand at all because it's allowed under therapy ethics guidelines. It's been very difficult trying to deal with it on my own and not be able to share about it here like I usually would but hopefully I can move forwards now.
My new therapist is absolutely lovely, a much better fit for me and I feel able to ask questions or highlight issues if they arise and I feel much more equal than I ever have with a therapist before which is such a nice change for me!
Thanks again for your lovely comment and support, this is exactly why I wanted to post here again because it's so helpful having all of you on my side so I'm not fighting the anxiety alone. Sending you so much love xxx
Dear Lucy, I'm so glad to finally hear from you again, after suspecting that you must have gone through an even rougher patch during your absent time. There's always the danger of not getting a suitable councillor/therapist, and I'm really happy for you that you were able to change them and found somebody who is not only working with you through your original issues, but also helped/helps you to repair the damage the previous therapist caused. Let me give you a big virtual hug and wish you all the best. Btw, nothing wrong reading from your script, I certainly wouldn't have been able to do this unscripted at all! Until next time! 😁
Thank you so much for commenting and bless you for noticing my absence. I always feel terrible not explaining where I am and often I disappear accidentally because time just passes and I don't know what to vlog about or I'm not coping well but it's never usually been for this length of time and I hate the idea that it makes people worry. I feel very lucky to have my new therapist, it's such a contrast from therapy before and it's given me back hope and I'm trying to rebuild my confidence and I feel much safer than before which is lovely. Huge hug to you too and thanks for being so supportive and lovely, you guys all make such a difference to my life and I'm really glad I finally took the plunge to get this space back!
You go, girl! 👍😁
Lots and lots of love to you ❤️ So strong of you to be able to talk about this, there is nothing right to be treated like that. I hope you will recover and that you will be able to start your coloring here again in your time. I have missed you and your videos. Lots of love and hugs to you ❤️🤗❤️🤗
Thank you so much! I've definitely missed comments from you, you're always so lovely and supportive. Thank you for being there. I hope to share more soon and get back to some of my hobbies again. Lots of love and hugs to you too! Xxx
Lovely to see and hear from you again 💗💜💗
Thank you! It's lovely to be here again!
What a terrible experience. I would have been shattered too. How unprofessional of her.
I hope that you can soon come back and I look forward to seeing you. I'll subscribe so I'll know when you do 😊
I'm so sorry you've have had to go through this, and your reaction is completely valid. I've been through a lot of therapy. Enough to know without question the way she treated you was completely unprofessional, and unacceptable at every level. Especially given the fact you had done absolutely nothing wrong. Not only should she have spoken with her supervisor first, but she should never have rang you like that, even if you had done something wrong. That was never a conversation to have over the phone.
I was so relieved when I got to the part where you said you have changed therapists.
For anyone reading it is important to know that in the short term you can feel worse during therapy, because you are opening up old wounds, going places mentally that frighten you, and can retraumatise you. A good therapist will talk you through it, and explain this. It can be terrifying, and she would have, or definitely should have known you were extra vulnerable.
I really, really hope that this video helps you to move forward. Your subscribers care, and I for one missed you. Hugs from across the Irish Sea ❤
Thank you so much for watching and taking the time to comment and you're so right, it definitely wasn't a conversation for on the phone. I definitely wasn't remotely prepared for how destabilised I got, something that hasn't happened to me in therapy before, it was incredibly scary and lasted for months and I had no skills to cope with it at all, it's part of why I vlogged about it at the time because it was the only way of getting some of those feelings out of my head. It's lovely to know that I've been missed and that I'm cared about by all of you, I've missed being here so much and I hope to be back soon to start moaning about my physical health issues amongst other things! 😂 Hugs to you too and thanks for being there!
It’s so good to eat from you and I can’t believe that a therapist has done this to you! What an abuse of trust!
Thank you and yes, it really was an abuse of trust, it's taking a long time to get beyond.
Aw bless you , sending big hugs from someone who has a teen with huge anxiety this would have had a huge impact on her mental health too. I hope you can move on, well done for being brave and posting today I bet it wasn't easy xx
Thank you so much! This is exactly why I've missed posting because you're all so supportive and lovely. It's been so hard trying to write the script and practice it and actually record it and hit upload but I'm sick of having this hanging over me when I didn't do anything wrong. Thanks so much for your lovely words and I'm so sorry your teen is struggling with anxiety, I hope she's doing ok and getting support. Xxx
Oh Lucy, my lovely, you have done nothing wrong. I know it doesn’t matter if 1000 people say that when the washing machine of thoughts gets going and you can see no way round it.
I am so glad to see you. Scripted isn’t you 😊 but in this case was the correct choice, please trust yourself. I so hope it will not be long before we see you again. Take care my lovely, Merry Christmas if you celebrate, peace & kindness to you. x
I'm here, I hear you and I'm 100% backing you up. In this day and age internet is not a "separate space" from our daily lives and should be treated (for better or worse) as a component of all the "load" we have to wash with healthcare providers. If it affects us in any shape or form, it is a part of us. Said that, you should not be rerestricted of what you decide to share on your platforms because you would not do the same if you were talking to a friend for example. What people have to realize is that there is unethical people and they will not stop just because it is "the interwebz", would she call every single patient who have shared something about therapy with their friends? Oh wake up lady! You felt attacked over a work related problem go seek the proper meanings and report it, we don't seek mental health care at a restaurant, do we? My gosh the world we live in that we have to treat our own therapist 🤣 There are a lot of bad professionals in every field, and heck I just spent 2 years on a heavy anti depressant feeling like a zombie every day because following along my chronic depression I had undiagnosed ADHD and if the medication doesn't fit the state I'm in mentally my world turns either to "crazy town" or "the walking dead" pretty quickly 😆 all of it because adding to the lack of appointments during a 2yr period my psychiatrist didn't bother to look deeper into what I was experiencing. My new one took care of me like no other, listened and adapted, and just simply is in the right field 😍 I have to learn to accept what I cannot change and learn to live the best life I can with it having the support of a trained professional to teach and guide me. We need support, in every aspect of our lives, we don't need more problems, and if we have to vent on social media we will just so we can take it out of us and put it to the universe. What other people understand/think about what we share should not be our problem to bear. They deal with their problems, we deal with ours and support people we feel a connection to. Again, I'm here for you, my adhd LOVES to overshare, and even living in Portugal just give it a shout and I'll be here, love 😘 keep strong and I'll be here adventuring my way to begin coloring my mind out ☺
I hope you post again. I'm agoraphobic too and it's nice to see and hear from someone else who understands what my life is like. I also hope you post again because you got so much out of it before your old therapist did that horrible thing to you.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're agoraphobic too, I hardly know anyone who is and that's part of why I started sharing online 9 years ago to help people to understand. I've written lots of posts about it on my blog, In The Midst Of Madness in case you've not seen it. I will do my best to post again soon because I've really missed sharing here and the support from all of you had been amazing, I'm so lucky to have such lovely followers. Take care and thanks so much for watching and commenting. ❤
@@ColouringInTheMidstOfMadness Thank you. I'll take a look at your blog.
You have nothing to be embarrassed and ashamed about. You did nothing wrong. She was in the wrong. Don’t give her opinion any value.
Therapists are there to help you, not make you feel like you do/did. To make you feel even worse than you were already feeling is,unprofessional and contradictory to their purpose of helping people.
She should never have spoken to you about her feelings about you!
Therapist's have their own mentor/ support that they talk to to unpack all the traumatic stuff they have to listen to this person is NOT their patients.
Life's hard enough for you it seems without having to deal with that kind of stupidity.
Get back to doing what you love. Time will help and it sounds like you've got a good therapist now.
All the very best with your mental health healing😊