How does grief feel - British Sign Language

In this British Sign Language version of ‘How does grief feel’, Tina, Dan, Tasneem and Ella share their experiences. If you’ve been bereaved, you might find that there are some things you can relate to. But you might find that your experience is different - and that’s OK too.
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This video was originally created in 2020, with BSL version published in April 2023. If you have any feedback about it, please email us at [e-mail] or call the Marie Curie Support Line.

[@angels2435]

I love you and feel you all❤

[@retrofuturist9293]

I wish someone would talk about dark thoughts or thoughts of suicide during grief. Not like actionable thoughts but "oh I'm on a bridge, I could just jump off" kind of thoughts. I lost my best friend 4 months ago and after taking a trip to distract myself, getting back into work and self care, obviously therapy, I don't notice having thoughts like this anymore ❤ at the time it was hard to imagine they would go away but they did. To anyone watching or reading, the grieving doesn't stop but the healing does start.

[@Sudhakar-co9zw]

Yes they are very real. For someone like me who's fighting with depression all the time, grief has brought pain 10 folds. "What's the point living this worthless life" thoughts and numbness are like evil friends we carry on our back.

[@hayley8715]

The 'what's the point of life' is something I contend with most days. I used to discuss such things and was an interesting subject but now it's just dark. I cry most days when i come home to an empty place and the anxiety about this begins on the way home from work. I often sit and speak to I don't know what​ and ask 'what the hell is this place/this existence'?
Re the spider talk, if I see spiders or other insects I often talk to them, like a crazy person or think is this something sent to me from the person passed away. I've never killed anything intentionally but now that's escalated as I consider how easy it would be to end an existence however insignificant some may see it and then I think of humans and how our live's can suddenly end and this made me extremely careful not to kill any insect or thing, somesort of karma thing I guess. Sorry I probably sound nuts!
I've learnt stuff I wish I never had to @Sudhakar-co9zw