Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone Time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie is the most effective way to deal with things you have no control over Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you Overanalyze every single word you hear "Was this a sign that things were going wrong?" No, no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them Stay up every single night staring at your phone Either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons, these constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream Or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself Always bring your notebook, never stop writing Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip Watch them smile as you get in your car Talk down on yourself whenever possible "My life is shit because I deserve it, right?" You must have done something really bad; It's nearly impossible for you to cry now Avoid your friends for weeks even though they're the only sense of consistency you have left in your life If they really wanted to see you they'd come, but they won't Who cares? Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love Watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you, don't fight it Become a secondary character in your own motion picture But most importantly drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach You're drinking bottled love now You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness You just needed to find a way to talk to it
Earlier today as I was complaining to my mother how nothing ever seems to get better, she said to me, “some people have it worse you know.” I’ve been told this countless times and I know it’s to gain a sense of perspective but, today it really hurt. So with this being said, I’m sorry my problems aren’t big enough, I’m sorry I can’t be the perfect daughter you always wanted. I really am sorry that during my 16 years of life all I did was minimize my pain and trauma and kept it locked away just to let it out and put it on you. I always knew my problems were nothing compared to yours and the rest of the world, so from the bottom of my heart mom, I’m sorry I voiced my tiredness.
just because your problems aren't 'big enough' doesn't mean they aren't valid because they are. they are just as valid. i hope your mom sees that for herself and i hope you find the peacefulness and happiness that you deserve
hi. I don't know you but I just wanted to say that your problems are absolutely valid and deserve to be heard. I am sorry that you feel like nothing ever gets better. I used to feel this way too, for years. And I know that might be hard to do but please believe me that it will get better. Hang in there
don’t listen to people who say that to you. sure, anyone could argue their problems aren’t as bad as some others, but it’s the biggest YOU’VE faced in your experience. and I think that means something.
It sounds to me more like she doesn't know how to help you. Not that what she's saying is true or the answer. I pray God will lead you to people who know how to help you in Jesus name! Just put your hope in Him until He helps you 🙂 And thank you if you read this!
i feel like i’m living in an endless loop. go to school, talk a bit to my friends, go home, do work, stress about it, go to sleep, repeat. why has nothing happened? why can’t it change for once?
Seek the change you desire, you’ve done half the battle by finding the pattern. Remember it’s about the enjoyment in the balance between the memories from the journey and completion of the destination
I almost never cry. It happens once or twice a year at best and I can squeeze out as much as one tear. But somehow whenever I come back to this audio I fall apart.
I feel the same way, sometimes I wonder why I feel the need to cry less and less as I get older. Maybe it’s not that I don’t need to but I don’t let myself.
Hello If you're reading this I hope you are having a great day im proud of you for making it this far I know things may be rough I hope you're doing great
its not that im sad, because im not, although i find sadness undeniably comforting. i see how i stopped trying to talk to people, i just let them talk to me. when they dont, it answers my questions that i didnt even need to ask. but then again, me jumping to conclusions isnt fair, because i know my friends love me, i just need reassurance. i feel annoying all the time. i feel like a different person with each person i interact with. i put on a front. my mom asks me what im doing this weekend, and i realize its thursday night and i have no plans yet. it hurts, not knowing why you're so sad when you return home from school. as it seeps into nighttime, i find myself staring off with the same thoughts as the night before. overthinking, im very good at that. i dont let myself have peace. or go with the flow. i overthink to the point where i dont even want to do anything anymore. my passion has gotten less and less and i wish life would slow down so i could step back and just realize, truly who i am and what is happening in the moment because i never know. i dont know anything, it feels like. i have no true reason to be sad, and i think thats what is confusing me the most. i wish i knew why i break into cry every other day while talking to my mom. she asks me am i okay and i say yes as if its a script in my mind already written out for me. i cry because of how insecure i am. i never let anyone see it but its all i think about. i feel so ugly all the time. my legs are weird and bowed and skinny. and i wish i wasn't as tall. i wish my teeth weren't crooked. i wish the right side of my face wasn't so ugly and different compared to the left. i am always hyper aware of how i look. its so exhausting. i think everyone calls me ugly behind my back. 1000 thoughts in my mind, always. i am always afraid to mess up, which often leaves me holding back or overthinking to the point of self destruction. i hate the thought of losing my friends, although as much reassurance they can give me, i feel replaceable. idk what my feelings are, but theyre getting worse. ill stare at myself in the mirror and ill just cry. i hate being asked if im okay, because i am. im just tired, thats all, i think.
To me it’s not a sad melody. To me it’s powerful, alive, yet peaceful melody that makes me appreciate the memories and also think of the ways to build new memories.
This song reminds me of some memories I’ve never Had. It reminds me of New York in winter. Of how I am walking through the Snow covered streets to the Central Park. Of how I am in my early 20-es, alone and sad. I kinda like being sad. It brings me a Weird comforting feeling. This song really makes me feel nostalgia I never Had. Heck I don’t even live in NY or America. It also reminds me of all those Years I spent going to hospitals. What a Weird, nostalgic and depressing yet comforting feeling this song brings me..How odd.
“there are kindness and love, care and all, in everyone’s heart. but some people cannot find it, give up and get corrupted by evilness.” “never give up.” - me
The warmth of your breath The sweetness of your lust The thumping from Ur heart That u hand to me with trust Ur addictive familiar scent Creates ecstasy in me And when Ur far I get withdrawals You got me fucked up, baby Your fingerprint patterns Deeply Engraved in my mind Creating daydreams about u on replay and rewind but ur eyes, they’re something different they tell me things that we don’t say If I could just stare into them forever All my doubts would fade away You’ve changed something in me, My love Something I can never undo It’s the person ive become From being loved by you
This song was on repeat when I was 13 to 14. I did a lot of stupid things, things I still have to deal with and don’t think I will speak about it for the rest of my life. I used to feel the comfort of this song like a friend. Now that it’s been years and i know I still have that scared little person in the back in my head. I still have the comfort and yet when it comes back I want to make it not be scary but be the friend I needed.
You are loved then you will ever know. I still reflect on the past because there is something that I have fix or needing to belong. I’m glad to still be living and understand the unique and strange world of day by day. I hope to gain more knowledge and fully love myself 100%.
This song makes me feel all the good times in my life and how I took it for granted,now looking back to it,it makes me feel so sad drand and unfulfilled,lifes become empty and boring,everyday I feel like there's nothing to do anymore and everyday when I wake up I do the same thing again and again it's a loop that never ends I hate how lifes right now,I want it to change so that I can have a happy life🙂
I just wanna go somewhere so that I can cry out all of my problems in my life I wanna cry really loud and let it all out,at a really young age I feel like this is to much to handle I just need peace and happiness in my life,I want people to stop acting like this people have really changed me when I started high school,after my birthday I got bullied bad and now am just mentally and physically sad I hate people who don't care about others and the mentally healthy
I really mean that I have a sweer heart and I would never ever hurt u are lie to u,I just want everyone to be like this so this world could be a better place❤️🙂
I miss my brother so much, he’s the love of my life and I can’t see him anymore… just to hug him will really make me happy again, please dad stop fighting for yourself I want to see my brother so bad, just to tell him that I love him and even if not there I’ll always be in his heart, please I pray for this every night, it’s been a long time since I annoyed him,played hide and seek, have dumb little kid conversations. If this is karma, please I have understood, just let me be with him one more time before I go.
i’m just so frustrated with my life nothing ever seems to get better, i’ve been told this countless times and to keep hope but how can i keep holding on? i’m getting impatient. it’s been almost half my life since i’ve felt this way don’t you understand how tired i am? i’m so fucking tired. it gets worse and worse everyday every month it all feels the same nothing changed nothing new in my life. and he continues to hurt me yet he promised not to ever again or that he’d “change”. they never do. once they hurt you once they’ll hurt you again and multiple times after. it’s exhausting having to beg for the simplest things and not been given it. it’s draining to be disappointed and told empty promises. i have so much anger and frustration inside of me that i have no one to express to. the one person i trusted with this went ahead and told my issues. it’s a never ending cycle of being hurt, abused and faulted for nothing. what did i do to deserve this? i must’ve been an awful person i don’t understand why. what have i ever done all i’ve ever wanted to do was to finally please people but i’m just never enough. the void inside of me begs and yearns to be filled but nothing is filling enough to. there’s so much sadness and regret inside of me and it eats me up alive everyday. now even the smallest little things can ruin my entire week and days ahead of me. i’ve tried to end it countless times and i can’t even do that right. can i do anything right? i’m typing this while sobbing into my phone covered in blood stains and tears, currently on top of a high end building on a busy street. i hope this time i will make it.
i just found this song again in my old playlist after 2 years. this song resurfaces when i need it most, i just got out of the hospital and recovery has been so hard, im not going to give up though
Thank you for posting the instrumental. It brings me peace. Could you make a slowed+reverb version of the instrumental as well? I’d really appreciate it ❤️ thank you
my cat is getting put down on tuesday(12/19/2023). i am putting all my photos, videos, and anything else of her onto a video and using this song in the backround. i’m going to miss natalie so much, i love you kitty💗💗
“ to be a friend means to care, to love, to protect. some people break the friend boundary and go farther, or some can’t even hit the boundary. you protect, care, and love your heart like you are your own friend. the world is cruel. it’s a place of evil. look forward, straighten up, and put that smile on your face. be glad god chose you to live in this world. be glad he put you here for a reason. you have a purpose.”
this is like when you were younger, at elementary. seeing the seniors play at the playground, being inspired by them.. seeing the performances the schools hosted.. the fairs… being happy.. having fun.. it all went too fast. you don’t want it to end. halfway through the year, younger you would’ve been happy. ‘almost christmas!’ now all you want to do is go back in time. you see the seniors play with you. building a strong bond - only for them to disappear suddenly after that year goes by. going up to the tables to learn writing. playing games… now all you do is study and work. you slowly wish and wish it was 2016. 2017. 2018. 2019. just want to go back. and now, your just wishing for something that *wont happen.* please. make memories. go somewhere, do something. don’t hope for nothing.
this song is my life, it seems like it ppl might think that crying for the person who moved away from u and it is +3 yrs relationship might think its childish which is not they will feel uncomfortable with other ppl that it is not the person who moved away it hurts so bad when ur best friend or someone else moves away from u and schools ur not going to be with them and they will be alone or w someone else {friends} the last time i saw my best friend from school was December 20th 2022 5 months ago, about to be 6 it hurts a lot, ppl has to get that in their mind {this is what makes me feel like this song}
the things i used to let trap me and control me now have been left virtually unable and unwilling to bind me to them ever again.. things i was too afraid to escape from ended up just crumbling around me like a dry sandcastle.. the things that i was too afraid to breathe, to feel, to think began to naturally flow out of my body through every crevasse as the guilt thickened and cut off my circulation. i am me and everything that i am. i am a being and i am my being. and in my being so, i make the mistakes that are taught and i make the ones that aren't. i grow and i change and i crumble and i shine and i destroy. i am not alone, i have me and all of the little things i have with me that aren't mine and are not mine to keep. i am beautiful and i am free.
Moving out of my country was probably the worst and best decision I made at the same time. I have more job opportunities but I don’t really have anyone that I have a significant connection with, I feel so lonely
reminder that its okay to be disappointed in yourself love, its a lesson. do what you think is best at all costs. go with your heart, not what u want. hope you're doing better darling
It Will all be alright. Life is hard but God is always with u. At the end of your life you Will remember the fun times, the times with your loved once, and maybe these bad times that you have overcomed. God always has a plan for you and as long you still wake up every morning, he’s plan is not finished yet. Stay positive even if it is so so hard. There are always people that have it worse. Never forget the things u have and Thank the Lord Jesus Christ for everything. Make the best from everything and never give up. That bed you are laying in right now, or that food you had today? Kids in wars would be more then gratefull.. so always Thank Jesus for the “normall things” in life. It is a weird world we are living in but make the most of it while it is light. Go spend time with your loved once , friends, family ect. One day they be gone and one day you will be gone. Nothing is forever exept the Love from God. Forgive everyone around you, even tho they hurt you. Always forgive Because Jesus forgave you for all your sins. Love everyone around you. Dont judge, dont hate. It wont make anyones life better. Amen, I love you. Hope you have peace🙏🏽✝️❤
Is it wrong to feel a bit of self pity, just an ounce maybe. I know people have it worse but for once can someone look at me and tell me that my pain is valid. I want someone to sit in my presence and cry the way I have, the way I am right now, and feel bad for me. I don’t want to hear anything but the sound of a horrific whale of a cry, I want to know that what I’m feeling is a lot. I don’t want to know that I’m not overreacting or thinking too much. I just want to be validated. Advice or your opinion is something I don’t want, I just want you to let me know that my feelings, my past, my present, it’s a lot to deal with. I’m sick of helping myself, I’m sick of helping a decayed skeleton of who I once was. I want to feel selfish for once, I want to be able to scream my thoughts, my feelings, my “problems” and not be dismissed into a new perspective. Let me rot, and let me be allowed to do so.
i have major senioritis right now. it’s to the point where im getting no homework done at home and im sleeping all the time. these next few weeks are going to be the hardest weeks to get through. i have a 16 page zine i was supposed to do that is due tomorrow and im only 1 page in. everyday is the same and all i ever want to do is sleep. im angry and irritated at everyone and everything and i just want to move on. im desperate for a huge change to happen in my life and its 3 months away when i dont ever have to see people im forced to be around ever again.
![pov: you tried your best to stop your friend but couldn't // [playlist]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/FP6gF0PEa2k/mqdefault.jpg)
“Stop looking for happiness in the same place you lost it.”
Ouch
That’s so real
ouch
🙁
😭
this song sounds like the permanent void left inside after trauma
yea…
Yeah, that's dandelion hands for you
This sounds like swimming in a pool at nighttime, submerging yourself completely and being able to hear the lamps on the pool walls buzz
💗💗
you described it perfectly
Ironically, this song feels like healing to me. Like a deep breath after a long storm
YES.
It's like the musical message of "let me feel low"
"You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
You just needed to find a way to talk to it"
that hits hard
isnt it sad how the ones we want comfort from are the ones who hurt us in the first place
Damn
that hit hard
I normally hate these comments but this one fuckin hit
@@a4h426 yea me too i find it so cringe but i was in a MOODY mood when i wrote this haha
Lol wow
Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
Time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie is the most effective way to deal with things you have no control over
Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
Overanalyze every single word you hear
"Was this a sign that things were going wrong?"
No, no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them
Stay up every single night staring at your phone
Either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons, these constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
Or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love
Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
Always bring your notebook, never stop writing
Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
Watch them smile as you get in your car
Talk down on yourself whenever possible
"My life is shit because I deserve it, right?"
You must have done something really bad;
It's nearly impossible for you to cry now
Avoid your friends for weeks even though they're the only sense of consistency you have left in your life
If they really wanted to see you they'd come, but they won't
Who cares?
Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
Watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you, don't fight it
Become a secondary character in your own motion picture
But most importantly drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum
Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat
Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach
You're drinking bottled love now
You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
You just needed to find a way to talk to it
Musical masterpiece
Earlier today as I was complaining to my mother how nothing ever seems to get better, she said to me, “some people have it worse you know.” I’ve been told this countless times and I know it’s to gain a sense of perspective but, today it really hurt. So with this being said, I’m sorry my problems aren’t big enough, I’m sorry I can’t be the perfect daughter you always wanted. I really am sorry that during my 16 years of life all I did was minimize my pain and trauma and kept it locked away just to let it out and put it on you. I always knew my problems were nothing compared to yours and the rest of the world, so from the bottom of my heart mom, I’m sorry I voiced my tiredness.
just because your problems aren't 'big enough' doesn't mean they aren't valid because they are. they are just as valid. i hope your mom sees that for herself and i hope you find the peacefulness and happiness that you deserve
hi. I don't know you but I just wanted to say that your problems are absolutely valid and deserve to be heard. I am sorry that you feel like nothing ever gets better. I used to feel this way too, for years. And I know that might be hard to do but please believe me that it will get better. Hang in there
@Megan Boudreau I hope it gets better for you.
don’t listen to people who say that to you. sure, anyone could argue their problems aren’t as bad as some others, but it’s the biggest YOU’VE faced in your experience. and I think that means something.
It sounds to me more like she doesn't know how to help you. Not that what she's saying is true or the answer. I pray God will lead you to people who know how to help you in Jesus name!
Just put your hope in Him until He helps you 🙂
And thank you if you read this!
This song is so beautiful, I’ve been listening to it on repeat
i feel like i’m living in an endless loop. go to school, talk a bit to my friends, go home, do work, stress about it, go to sleep, repeat. why has nothing happened? why can’t it change for once?
Seek the change you desire, you’ve done half the battle by finding the pattern. Remember it’s about the enjoyment in the balance between the memories from the journey and completion of the destination
I almost never cry. It happens once or twice a year at best and I can squeeze out as much as one tear. But somehow whenever I come back to this audio I fall apart.
I feel the same way, sometimes I wonder why I feel the need to cry less and less as I get older. Maybe it’s not that I don’t need to but I don’t let myself.
Hello If you're reading this I hope you are having a great day im proud of you for making it this far I know things may be rough I hope you're doing great
this started playing in my airpods during school and it was so hard not to bawl my eyes out 😭 this song is so important and so special to me.
this song sounds like being by yourself at night and just wandering
its not that im sad, because im not, although i find sadness undeniably comforting. i see how i stopped trying to talk to people, i just let them talk to me. when they dont, it answers my questions that i didnt even need to ask. but then again, me jumping to conclusions isnt fair, because i know my friends love me, i just need reassurance. i feel annoying all the time. i feel like a different person with each person i interact with. i put on a front. my mom asks me what im doing this weekend, and i realize its thursday night and i have no plans yet. it hurts, not knowing why you're so sad when you return home from school. as it seeps into nighttime, i find myself staring off with the same thoughts as the night before. overthinking, im very good at that. i dont let myself have peace. or go with the flow. i overthink to the point where i dont even want to do anything anymore. my passion has gotten less and less and i wish life would slow down so i could step back and just realize, truly who i am and what is happening in the moment because i never know. i dont know anything, it feels like. i have no true reason to be sad, and i think thats what is confusing me the most. i wish i knew why i break into cry every other day while talking to my mom. she asks me am i okay and i say yes as if its a script in my mind already written out for me. i cry because of how insecure i am. i never let anyone see it but its all i think about. i feel so ugly all the time. my legs are weird and bowed and skinny. and i wish i wasn't as tall. i wish my teeth weren't crooked. i wish the right side of my face wasn't so ugly and different compared to the left. i am always hyper aware of how i look. its so exhausting. i think everyone calls me ugly behind my back. 1000 thoughts in my mind, always. i am always afraid to mess up, which often leaves me holding back or overthinking to the point of self destruction. i hate the thought of losing my friends, although as much reassurance they can give me, i feel replaceable. idk what my feelings are, but theyre getting worse. ill stare at myself in the mirror and ill just cry. i hate being asked if im okay, because i am. im just tired, thats all, i think.
u have no idea how u just put my feelings all into words. It’s something that I could never grasp and that just made me even sadder.
i love you, i hope your doing better.
You don’t understand how youve just put how I feel into words I’m crying all over again
@@alfredsmixI’m actually so happy right now I barely remember me typing this, thank you so much ❤️
I just find comfort in audios like this
the fact of when I tell myself in my head "Its okay...your alright, everythings going to be okay" and i tear up....that says something
i needed this.. for years.. now i can listen
i need one hour of this immediately!!!!
put it on loop :)
To me it’s not a sad melody.
To me it’s powerful, alive, yet peaceful melody that makes me appreciate the memories and also think of the ways to build new memories.
This song reminds me of some memories I’ve never Had. It reminds me of New York in winter. Of how I am walking through the Snow covered streets to the Central Park. Of how I am in my early 20-es, alone and sad. I kinda like being sad. It brings me a Weird comforting feeling. This song really makes me feel nostalgia I never Had. Heck I don’t even live in NY or America. It also reminds me of all those Years I spent going to hospitals. What a Weird, nostalgic and depressing yet comforting feeling this song brings me..How odd.
I find comfort in this I really needed that thank you.
I js burst into tears whenever i listen to this song omg
“there are kindness and love, care and all, in everyone’s heart. but some people cannot find it, give up and get corrupted by evilness.”
“never give up.”
- me
i feel forgotten by everyone that’s ever known me
thank you so much for posting this omg i love it
The warmth of your breath
The sweetness of your lust
The thumping from Ur heart
That u hand to me with trust
Ur addictive familiar scent
Creates ecstasy in me
And when Ur far I get withdrawals
You got me fucked up, baby
Your fingerprint patterns
Deeply Engraved in my mind
Creating daydreams about u
on replay and rewind
but ur eyes, they’re something different
they tell me things that we don’t say
If I could just stare into them forever
All my doubts would fade away
You’ve changed something in me, My love
Something I can never undo
It’s the person ive become
From being loved by you
thank you for this masterpiece
oh my god i needed this
dont we all
This song was on repeat when I was 13 to 14. I did a lot of stupid things, things I still have to deal with and don’t think I will speak about it for the rest of my life. I used to feel the comfort of this song like a friend. Now that it’s been years and i know I still have that scared little person in the back in my head. I still have the comfort and yet when it comes back I want to make it not be scary but be the friend I needed.
You are loved then you will ever know. I still reflect on the past because there is something that I have fix or needing to belong. I’m glad to still be living and understand the unique and strange world of day by day. I hope to gain more knowledge and fully love myself 100%.
“to see you they’d come, but they won’t. who cares.”
sounds nostalgic.. reminds me of my childhood ❤️🩹
what happened to me
Idk bro, I’m asking myself the same thing
@@ambi_cc8464Same
Nothing that can’t be changed, you got this
Life's been rough.
I'm confused.
It feels tough.
I'm being used.
Time Flys by.
It feels the same.
I wanna say goodbye.
Life feels like a game.
flies*
@@lilbouey7380 sorry my English is not good 😅😅
hope you're doing better
a game that i cant win can i
How to never stop being sad
Repeat to yourself that they’re not really gone..
This song makes me feel all the good times in my life and how I took it for granted,now looking back to it,it makes me feel so sad drand and unfulfilled,lifes become empty and boring,everyday I feel like there's nothing to do anymore and everyday when I wake up I do the same thing again and again it's a loop that never ends I hate how lifes right now,I want it to change so that I can have a happy life🙂
I just wanna go somewhere so that I can cry out all of my problems in my life I wanna cry really loud and let it all out,at a really young age I feel like this is to much to handle I just need peace and happiness in my life,I want people to stop acting like this people have really changed me when I started high school,after my birthday I got bullied bad and now am just mentally and physically sad I hate people who don't care about others and the mentally healthy
I really hope that one day everyone will change and enjoy life with no problems and don't have to be treated bad,I really hope one day.
I really mean that I have a sweer heart and I would never ever hurt u are lie to u,I just want everyone to be like this so this world could be a better place❤️🙂
i just want to cry
❤️
it's gonna be ok dw
Dw it's okay to cry
this is what it sounds like inside my head
I miss my brother so much, he’s the love of my life and I can’t see him anymore… just to hug him will really make me happy again, please dad stop fighting for yourself I want to see my brother so bad, just to tell him that I love him and even if not there I’ll always be in his heart, please I pray for this every night, it’s been a long time since I annoyed him,played hide and seek, have dumb little kid conversations. If this is karma, please I have understood, just let me be with him one more time before I go.
I can relate ml hope things get better for you❤
i lost myself in her, and then she disappeared. now i am just a silhouette
This song makes me feel like I'm finally home.
i’m just so frustrated with my life nothing ever seems to get better, i’ve been told this countless times and to keep hope but how can i keep holding on? i’m getting impatient. it’s been almost half my life since i’ve felt this way don’t you understand how tired i am? i’m so fucking tired. it gets worse and worse everyday every month it all feels the same nothing changed nothing new in my life. and he continues to hurt me yet he promised not to ever again or that he’d “change”. they never do. once they hurt you once they’ll hurt you again and multiple times after. it’s exhausting having to beg for the simplest things and not been given it. it’s draining to be disappointed and told empty promises. i have so much anger and frustration inside of me that i have no one to express to. the one person i trusted with this went ahead and told my issues. it’s a never ending cycle of being hurt, abused and faulted for nothing. what did i do to deserve this? i must’ve been an awful person i don’t understand why. what have i ever done all i’ve ever wanted to do was to finally please people but i’m just never enough. the void inside of me begs and yearns to be filled but nothing is filling enough to. there’s so much sadness and regret inside of me and it eats me up alive everyday. now even the smallest little things can ruin my entire week and days ahead of me. i’ve tried to end it countless times and i can’t even do that right. can i do anything right? i’m typing this while sobbing into my phone covered in blood stains and tears, currently on top of a high end building on a busy street. i hope this time i will make it.
You deserve love, stranger 🧡
“Most men live a life of quiet desperation.”
It’s gonna be okay !! I promise
i just found this song again in my old playlist after 2 years. this song resurfaces when i need it most, i just got out of the hospital and recovery has been so hard, im not going to give up though
Thank you for posting the instrumental. It brings me peace. Could you make a slowed+reverb version of the instrumental as well? I’d really appreciate it ❤️ thank you
this song is so comforting
I’m drowning
me too
honestly.
it will get better i promise
wanna talk?
Learn how to swim
why I like these style music so much. so chilling to me
my cat is getting put down on tuesday(12/19/2023). i am putting all my photos, videos, and anything else of her onto a video and using this song in the backround. i’m going to miss natalie so much, i love you kitty💗💗
💔
I’m definitely transcending into the unknown.
“ to be a friend means to care, to love, to protect. some people break the friend boundary and go farther, or some can’t even hit the boundary. you protect, care, and love your heart like you are your own friend. the world is cruel. it’s a place of evil. look forward, straighten up, and put that smile on your face. be glad god chose you to live in this world. be glad he put you here for a reason. you have a purpose.”
this is like when you were younger, at elementary. seeing the seniors play at the playground, being inspired by them.. seeing the performances the schools hosted.. the fairs… being happy.. having fun..
it all went too fast. you don’t want it to end.
halfway through the year, younger you would’ve been happy. ‘almost christmas!’
now all you want to do is go back in time.
you see the seniors play with you. building a strong bond - only for them to disappear suddenly after that year goes by.
going up to the tables to learn writing.
playing games…
now all you do is study and work.
you slowly wish and wish it was 2016.
2017.
2018.
2019.
just want to go back.
and now, your just wishing for something that *wont happen.*
please. make memories. go somewhere, do something. don’t hope for nothing.
this song is my life, it seems like it
ppl might think that crying for the person who moved away from u and it is +3 yrs relationship might think its childish which is not
they will feel uncomfortable with other ppl that it is not the person who moved away
it hurts so bad when ur best friend or someone else moves away from u and schools
ur not going to be with them and they will be alone or w someone else {friends}
the last time i saw my best friend from school was December 20th 2022
5 months ago, about to be 6
it hurts a lot, ppl has to get that in their mind
{this is what makes me feel like this song}
the things i used to let trap me and control me now have been left virtually unable and unwilling to bind me to them ever again.. things i was too afraid to escape from ended up just crumbling around me like a dry sandcastle.. the things that i was too afraid to breathe, to feel, to think began to naturally flow out of my body through every crevasse as the guilt thickened and cut off my circulation.
i am me and everything that i am. i am a being and i am my being. and in my being so, i make the mistakes that are taught and i make the ones that aren't. i grow and i change and i crumble and i shine and i destroy. i am not alone, i have me and all of the little things i have with me that aren't mine and are not mine to keep. i am beautiful
and i am free.
ive been waiting for this forever
this sound reminds me of my childhood and all those good times when I was still innocent and my soul was still pure...
Keep Pushing.
You’re Doing Great.
I Miss You.
And I Love You…
I wish I could tell my younger self that it’s okay to be “different”
Just be thanful that you are alive. Some people have died while trying to accomplish their dreams , so dont give up just yet.
Moving out of my country was probably the worst and best decision I made at the same time. I have more job opportunities but I don’t really have anyone that I have a significant connection with, I feel so lonely
this makes me feel calm when something goes wrong..idk why
i have come to the realization that i will likely be forever stuck in the past.
i love this thank you
I wish I knew how to make her happy again, she always puts this song and now she passed it too me
If only i never did that mistake, none of this wouldve happened.
i wish to be loved the way i love. I wish to be happy
i miss you even if the you i miss isn’t the one you meant to show me in the long run
repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
This sounds like a dimly flickering candle that's slowly dying.
prettiest thing ive ever heard i live for this song tysm
i love u
i feel like i never learn
reminder that its okay to be disappointed in yourself love, its a lesson. do what you think is best at all costs. go with your heart, not what u want. hope you're doing better darling
@@sophiacunningham3429 i love you omg
i miss kurt so much i cry to this whilst thinking of the band
'My life is shitty bc i deserve it right?'
It Will all be alright. Life is hard but God is always with u. At the end of your life you Will remember the fun times, the times with your loved once, and maybe these bad times that you have overcomed. God always has a plan for you and as long you still wake up every morning, he’s plan is not finished yet. Stay positive even if it is so so hard. There are always people that have it worse. Never forget the things u have and Thank the Lord Jesus Christ for everything. Make the best from everything and never give up. That bed you are laying in right now, or that food you had today? Kids in wars would be more then gratefull.. so always Thank Jesus for the “normall things” in life. It is a weird world we are living in but make the most of it while it is light. Go spend time with your loved once , friends, family ect. One day they be gone and one day you will be gone. Nothing is forever exept the Love from God. Forgive everyone around you, even tho they hurt you. Always forgive Because Jesus forgave you for all your sins. Love everyone around you. Dont judge, dont hate. It wont make anyones life better. Amen, I love you. Hope you have peace🙏🏽✝️❤
It's been so hard without you. I dream about you sometimes. Please help me let you go. I can't live like this anymore.
This song is beautiful
"How to never stop being sad" hits hard
Makes me nostalgic of my CASIO keyboard from when I was 12
"You're drinking bottled love now."
Reminds me of when i hid in the bathroom at my own birthday party
I’m going crazy and I can’t stop it
are you ok?
@@EmotionalGarbage no I’m loosing myself and there’s nothing I can do about it
hey, how are you doing?
Is it wrong to feel a bit of self pity, just an ounce maybe. I know people have it worse but for once can someone look at me and tell me that my pain is valid. I want someone to sit in my presence and cry the way I have, the way I am right now, and feel bad for me. I don’t want to hear anything but the sound of a horrific whale of a cry, I want to know that what I’m feeling is a lot. I don’t want to know that I’m not overreacting or thinking too much. I just want to be validated. Advice or your opinion is something I don’t want, I just want you to let me know that my feelings, my past, my present, it’s a lot to deal with. I’m sick of helping myself, I’m sick of helping a decayed skeleton of who I once was. I want to feel selfish for once, I want to be able to scream my thoughts, my feelings, my “problems” and not be dismissed into a new perspective. Let me rot, and let me be allowed to do so.
your pain is valid, regardless of other people’s.
thank you oh my god
Thank you ❤️
i have major senioritis right now. it’s to the point where im getting no homework done at home and im sleeping all the time. these next few weeks are going to be the hardest weeks to get through. i have a 16 page zine i was supposed to do that is due tomorrow and im only 1 page in. everyday is the same and all i ever want to do is sleep. im angry and irritated at everyone and everything and i just want to move on. im desperate for a huge change to happen in my life and its 3 months away when i dont ever have to see people im forced to be around ever again.
i hope you graduated babe 🫶
you should make a longer version:)
You can put the video on loop. That’s what I do.
how long do you think?
@@jilly6982 10 hours 💔 I want to just cry 😭
@@jilly6982 maybe you should do a slower version without the lyrics
Man it’s all too much, I was a child a couple years ago. how did everything become worse? One day I’ll go back to my maker and finally be happy
This brings me back to last year when I was super fucking depressed, not a fun experience. Still a nice little tune though
How are you doing now?
@maddyancheta1001 much better, I'm glad I got out of that pit. Thank you for asking!
i saw this in an overwatch montage and it was the funniest thing ever
im never gonna be the same again am i
I don't want to be alone anymore.
milo please if your still alive talk to me. please I don’t know where you went but I need you.
my godmother passed away a 2 days ago, she was my second mother and idk how to feel what do u do w greif? how am I supposed to feel. miss you 🤍
I'm am but a husk of the emotion-full child I wish I could be again
Sad
Beat sounds so sad shi made me cry
i don't wanna be alone 😢😢😢
~ Donnie Darko
I never got to say goodbye.