My OCD Told Me I Was Going To Die Today (And I Didn't)
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You are so intelligent, I feel I learn something new with every video of yours I watch. I do have a question though if you don't mind. Are intrusive thoughts exclusive to OCD?
**Trigger warning: Trauma/PTSD**
The reason I ask is because I relate to a lot of the things you said in the video, however I don't have OCD. When I go outside to smoke I have this irrational fear that someone is going to see me and assume I'm not old enough to be smoking (I look really young for my age) and that they are going to beat me up to teach me a lesson. (Even tho I'm 19). I can't get the image out of my mind so I've been taking a pocket knife outside with me for protection. I will sit there and create every scenario in my head that could take place and think of an escape route for all the scenarios I come up with. I was wondering if these types of thoughts are also considered intrusive thoughts?
Ocd is actually an anxiety disorder (in our current version of the DSM), and so many of its symptoms do, in fact, overlap with other anxiety disorders (including generalized anxiety itself, and PTSD).
So intrusive thoughts are actually characteristic/symptomatic of multiple anxiety disorders, and not necessarily exclusive to OCD itself!
I’m just talking about my own intrusive thoughts in reference to OCD in this video, as that is where they stem from for myself, personally.
I hope that made sense!
Aaron Ansuini ah, I have anxiety, I haven’t been diagnosed with ptsd but but like yeah... we love you Aaron, as Meg always said: I believe in you and I love you!
@@AaronAnsuini ah yes that does make sense! Thank you :)
Big same. It can be really hard for me to tell when it's the anxiety talking or when it's my intuition. And that's even harder for me to kinda let go of when I'm someone who looks for signs from the universe and stuff pretty often. Maybe you could call me... A Crystal Queer™ perhaps 💫✨💫
T i l l y 😂❤️
Aaron two videos in one week... & one that is so very personal. Thanks. ❤
Okay but imagine that not only religion was predicated on compulsions, but superstitions as well. I mean, I may know where most superstitions came from, but I can still think about it. Like knocking on wood for good luck, throwing salt over your left shoulder if you spill it, not walking under ladders, being scared of black cats, etc. There you go again with your rad videos making me think and go off on a thought-nado
I'm really grateful for this. I don't personally have OCD, but my sister suffers from it severely. It honestly helps a lot to know some of this more nuanced information in conjunction with her own anecdotes.
I’ve never heard anyone talking about this before and SAME. I grew up in a spiritual household and I’ve very recently realized how my anxiety and intrusive thoughts (mostly about my loved ones dying) are intertwined with my beliefs in a very unhealthy way. I’m learning to identify the intrusive thoughts, and it’s helping a lot. Thank you for sharing this! ❤️
Hi did it get better
Intrusive thoughts use to scare me so so much.. I use to be so scared I was going to hurt people and I was so scared I was going to act on those thoughts. I then learned it was part of OCD
I really like your idea about making plans after the intrusive thoughts. I'll try that
I Watched this *just* after having an internal argument with my impulsive thoughts, about whether or not my friends actually secretly hate or dislike me. And it really helped me connect your video to what had just happened, and realise they were intrusive thoughts, no matter how real the feeling is in the moment.
Thank you Aaron. Literally all of your content is either helpful or just really enjoyable and soothing to watch.
Oh, this makes so much sense. I have to travel three hours by train four days a week, and I get a lot of intrusive thoughts about train accidents. Your tip about focusing on what comes after seems so useful, I’ll definitely apply that technique in the future. Thank you so much for this video! It makes me feel less alone.
Just wanted to say I’m very grateful that you exist. Your videos are always so helpful and weirdly relevant to what I’m going through. Very much appreciate everything you do.💕
This is completely unrelated but I love your little tree shirt 🌲🙌🏻
Dude. You put that into words perfectly, I've never been able to explain that well. Thank you!!!
I love listening to you talk about anything basically
I can relate so so so sO much to this entire video.
With my OCD, it works in a really messed up 'karma' sort of way. Y'know how people say 'when something bad happens, something good happens to balence it out!' That's what my entire life is dictated by.
If the bus is late, for example, my brain goes 'okay so something good has to happen'
Yet if my bus is on time, instead of acting 'normally' and not thinking about it, my brain goes to 'this is a good thing that's happened! Something bad is gonna happen now to balence it all out!'
Good things just can't happen to me,,, just because. Something always has to balence it out, making everything netural
And it sucks so much ass
I've for sure had some pretty horrible intrusive thoughts (probably from trauma, yay!) and it means a lot to hear someone else share similar experiences. I haven't been diagnosed with OCD, but it's just super comforting to hear how someone else is coping with similar struggles.
also, this doesn't relate to your current video or OCD, but I want you to know that we all love and support you -- always, but especially right now. having to speak up against your abuser in a public forum is overwhelmingly difficult, but I want you to know how much it means to fellow survivors to see you stand up for yourself.
also also, tell Lamb that I appreciate him so much!! give him extra hugs for me please!
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Thank you so much for this ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much for making this. I've needed this recently and I'm glad to know (even though logically I already knew) that I'm not alone in this. You're amazing Aaron, and never ever stop being yourself unapologetically. 💖✌
My OCD very much contributes to my 'passive' suicidal thoughts and impulses and thankfully I've gotten to a point where I can ignore them ..now if only I could get there with my physical compulsions
My intrusive thoughts always involve my mom home needing me when I'm out having fun. It is so hard to ignore that feeling of dread. I just tell myself out loud that she made it this long without issue that she will be fine for the few hours I'm out.
People need to speak more about intrusive thoughts and OCD more! Thank you.
Hi Aaron. Thanks for making a video that many of your subscribers can relate to (including me) :-). Also the tiny trees on your shirt are so cute! Have a nice day🌸
This kinda reminds me of the "technique" I made up 🤔👍 Every time something bad happens or I have to do something I hate, I think of a moment in the future. For example "tomorrow evening". And when that specific time comes, I know I got though it and this shows me I will get through the hard times every time!! Even when I feel like shit and think "I can't do this", I remember the last 1000 times I did it. Actively proving yourself it ended good, works pretty good 👌
I hope this makes sense, it really hard to explain 😂😅
I deal with that a lot too, I often feel I can’t go to school or else I’ll feel a lot of pain. Which isn’t untrue, I often feel a lot of pain from hEDS and chronic Amplified pain syndrome, especially with a backpack. But I help myself by telling myself “I can take a bath when I get home” or “I’ll slap on some icy hot and just do my bare minimum at school”
Yes, I belive the lamb does help 😸❤
I feel this. For a long time I conceptualized these thoughts almost like a bully that lives in your head and fills you with a sense of dread( I have general anxiety myself). Until i was in therepy it really did feel like intuition, and even now they still get to me sometimes because even if you know logically they are wrong, they feel so true and real. It took me a long time to learn how to put them into context and deal with them. Though I dont have the same experience, I know you had to work so hard to deal with them, and I am so proud of you❤ thank you for sharing with us and talking to people about this.
I like the way you talked about religion, but where it becomes anxiety would fall into endoctrination, where one would impose their obsessions and make people around do the compulsion. Like a cult leader telling their followers that if they don't spread the news or pay a fee for the organisation, they would go to hell. I feel like it's a valid point though! I'm proud of your efforts to go out, you will be able to do it more often as time passes and you'll eventually feel better. There are ups and downs with ocd, you know, and while i may go out often, sometimes staying home is my only option if i don't want to feel exhausted and panic. Big hug!
Thank you for talking about OCD I relate bc I have OCD and I am trans
Great that you actually made the video! Maybe you can think back to this next time you're having some trouble driving somewhere or whatever, and it might help just a tiny bit.
🍋Love your content!🍋
The way you explain things is just beautiful, I wish you had a Ted Talk :)
Aaron - you consistently blow me away. Your self expression is so spot on. Very relatable description - my anxiety attacks are much the same. My gut is in full flight mode. Might as well be a cougar chasing me. If I am to reclaim any control or agency in the moment, I have to have tricks, techniques, notes to myself, & sometimes phone a friend - all to override what my gut is telling me. Kudos for staying the course and seeing your way past the moment. I know how hard it can be. No shame or disappointment when pushing thru can't happen, but a moment of satisfaction & accomplishment when it can.
When I read the title of this video, I instantly felt relief. I have struggled with intrusive thoughts pretty much my whole life but as an adult it’s gotten increasingly worse as my PTSD has gotten worse. But, I didn’t know what I was experiencing was Intrusive thoughts. I grew up in the US south Bible Belt and I exactly relate to what you’re saying about feeling as if it’s a Divine message and it’s intuition and completely believing it. Just recently I suddenly had this happen to me where I had this horrible feeling come over me and was convinced that I would have to give my cats up. (Part of my PTSD is triggered by loss). I believed it so deeply and I became so severely depressed I felt myself disassociating. It felt as if the world around me was in a dream. I was crying a lot and I finally talked about it for the first time to my sister but she has no experience with it so wasn’t much help. Then I happened to get on the topic with a coworker and she said a lot of things that made me think deeper into “fate”, “divine messages”, “divine intuition”. She is not religious so she was coming from a different mindset and it was the first time I started to question everything. Is this REALLY my intuition? Is this fate, something I cannot change because God is sending me this message?
Then I saw this video and it CLICKED. it’s hard to distinguish because I am a very intuitive person, how do I know when it’s real and not real? When can I trust myself? It felt good to write this message out because I’ve been struggling with this for so long and I’ve kept it to myself out of shame and thinking no one would understand.
It is amazing how you push yourself and don't let yourself be defeated by these intrusive thoughts. Truely inspirational to those who suffer OCD and anxiety.
His voice is so calming to me, i just like his tone a lot, no matter what hes talking about
I have a really hard time leaving the house because i feel like i don't deserve to be out in the world with "real" people. And like being a burden to workers if I go out to eat. And I also have a hard time going out because I'm pre-t and it's exhausting to be constantly aware that everyone is misgendering me, and it makes me feel dysphoric af. Plus I'm just a really anxious person and I pick up on other peoples emotions really easily and unconsciously so it's draining to be around so many people.
You have such a relaxing vibe. Sometimes I’ll be listening to you in the background and really paying attention, but I feel a little more calm afterwards. Thank you for being so chill, I love listening to you talk about anything/everything! 🖤🖤
Thanks for posting this I now know that what I have is called intense thoughts and that I am not the only person! This has helped so much. Thank you.
I have agoraphobia and OCD too, which as gotten to the point of me essentially dropping out of school, and rarely leaving my room out of fear of encountering my OCD triggers (the worst of which being the number 6 and religous things), and you really do give me hope of being able to better cope with my triggers and and how my dysphoria affects my reactions to them. So thank you so so much for helping me keep going
"Hi, welcome to my channel. I'm a little weird." Dbfhjsjdjsksjss boyeee
I would love to hear you talk more about this. I also struggle with the same issues. Most recently, my 25th birthday was Sunday. Trigger warning for stress and briefly mentioning loved ones passing away.
Every single year since I was 16 something has gone horribly wrong on my birthday from loved ones dying a few days before, to them dying a few days after, hospitalizations, accidents, mishaps, and generally a bunch of crazy stuff that makes me fearful to celebrate my birthday. I live in Cincinnati Ohio, and my husband promised me if I stayed overnight in Columbus Ohio, we could go to a cartoon and illustration museum, and a zoo. Naturally I was so scared because if things go wrong from simply staying home, imagine the catastrophe that would happen if I left overnight.
Well, we went to the museum, stayed over night, we went to the zoo, we went to several comic book stores, and then we went home. And guess what- everything went fine. Nothing bad has happened. My loved ones are okay, my dog is fine, and I am fine.
Thank you so much for making this video. I know this is a long comment, but typing out a confession that the universe doesn't collapse on my birthday makes me feel better. Even though I feel like even just this comment is tempting fate and there is still time for something to go wrong, it's also somewhat comforting to put this out there, if that makes sense. TH-cam exposure therapy in a safe, judgment free community maybe? Anyway, thanks again!
PS- I saw your Instagram stories and I also have the Miyazaki socks! The Spirited Away and Totoro socks are my favorite from the bunch haha
"there's almost no way to distinguish between my intuition and my intrusive thoughts" omg thank you so much for this video, aaron. so many people don't realize how awful intrusive thoughts are and how they make you question yourself all the time specifically because you *know* they're irrational. i've been dealing with ocd in various ways since i was like seven, and in the words of mara wilson, it's true that ocd "makes you terrified of your own mind." whenever i talk about my intrusive thoughts to people, i always, always have to emphasize that they're not my own...not that i'm literally hearing voices or anything, but that it feels so wildly off center from anything i would normally want or care to think about, that i feel like if the thoughts were a physical thing that could be like surgically removed, they would disappear. unfortunately, that's not how it works, and my thoughts and compulsions are pretty much an everyday little annoyance. like brain hiccups that i have to shake away like an etch-a-sketch.
I can relate to this 10000000%. My mind is so full of intrusive thoughts whether it be from me saying something to someone and I think they might be mad at me about it or think of me differently for it usually it being something small and harmless that I said, or something small and harmless they said to me that would make me feel like I'm annoying them or a burden. It hurts my head soooo much when this happens. Usually they don't last for more than 24 hours but I don't want them at all. I also have those intrusive thoughts you mentioned that something bad is going to happen. Not as often but it does happen. Like sometimes I won't be too lazy too COOK breakfast and then I will go somewhere and think "shit... did i remember to turn the stove off? no one but my dog is home..." or "did i remember to punch out after work?" which that's not a huge deal because i can text my manager telling her i don't remember if i did or not but that not remembering if i remembered to do something feeling does make me panic a lot until i realize yes i did turn the stove off lol
I think you explained so clearly why one with OCD and Intrusive thoughts cannot just trust their Gut feelings. Or think that what they strongly believe must be true. So important. Thanks
Thanks so much for this video! I also have OCD, and it always makes me feel less alone to hear about others having the exact same brain shit going on. Solidarity. Please keep making videos about OCD! x
I think I have OCD, but my intrusive thoughts are nothing like this. I just have this constant urge to do the same random thing or perform this weirdly specific mental "rituals" again and again and again (sometimes a previously established amount of times idk xD)... but as far as I'm aware, it's not because I fear something terrible will happen if I don't, it's just because it feels "wrong" not to do it and I grow quite anxious if I try to ignore that feeling of wrongness.
About more obsession-like intrusive thoughts, I have this tendency to constantly recreate in my head this recurring fictional scenarios. Over the months the "plot" of each scenario keeps slightly changing, but they are overall quite the same. They aren't anxiety-inducing at all though, I actually enjoy indulging in them, but I still see them as unwanted because they are very energy and time-consuming.
Yeah I talk about those more in my first video! I have that a lot with locking doors (having to lock, check, unlock, relock, check, and do this over and over)
Same with closing doors, having to touch something a certain number of times, a certain way
If I step on a tile with one foot, it needs to be even with the other foot, etc
It feels like I’m “unbalanced” if I don’t? It’s hard to explain lmao but yeah I totally get it
OCD is weird.. it took me a long time to realize that my intrusive thoughts were caused from the same condition as my door locking, crack stepping, compulsive counting ocd lol
@@AaronAnsuini yeah, totally agreed! Also I was diagnosed with autism last October and in my opinion autism can be quite "obsessive" too (the rate of comordibity between autism and OCD is quite high for example), so I think it can be difficult sometimes to differentiate between OCD and autism traits (for example sometimes things that I do related to my special interests start to feel invasive, too much time-consuming, repetitive, and even a bit like mental rituals, but I still kinda enjoy it because they are at the same time my special interests). I don't know if this is just me but I kind it quite confusing. But as I've said I don't even have an OCD diagnosis (yet) so idk.
Great video again, Aaron!
Thank you so much for making this.
Bless you for having a wait time while the text is on screen :'D lots of youtubers add texts
but don't add time and just expect you to pause and that's lowkey stressy to me~
And I totally feel you on the intuition vs anxiety related feelings :x
Thankfully with time one is able to learn some parts of the anxiety related ones (at least i was able to? for example there's often a time before appointments or activities that i feel a bit nauseous and like 'oh man i gotta cancel that' but if i'm able to push through that it turns out to be okay - obviously not always the case but yee)
I do realize this is more about ocd and intrusive thoughts and not actually about what i was describing here but i still felt it was slightly similar in one part :')
I hope you have a great day and week tpo!
Thanks so much for this video, it's actually reminded me of how far I have come in the last 3 and a half years. I started to have extreme and graphic intrusive thoughts about 5-6 years ago, to which point I couldn't leave my house and eventually attempted to take my own life. After a few years, my intrusive thoughts returned to the point where I could no longer eat, and eventually, those thoughts turned into delusions. 4 years ago I began to believe things like, I was an alien sent to earth to save people from white people, and then eventually themselves. I believed the government was watching and tracking my every move. I began to believe that people were trying to send me coded messages through the radio and by eye contact. I became extremely paranoid. Intrusive thoughts were initially seen by psychiatrists as OCD but soon became a schizoaffective disorder diagnosis. It is so crazy how things can snowball and how symptoms can sometimes be seen as one thing but become something else entirely. Since my Schizoaffective diagnosis, I started taking antipsychotics which have helped control my intrusive thoughts IMMENSELY; along with my delusions. It's so important to reach about these thoughts and try to find the right kind of help. I have no idea where I would be if I wasn't seeing a therapist already for borderline personality disorder. Thinking about my past makes me scared, and keeps me on track with my meds. Your video just reminded me how far I have come and I thought I would share a small portion of my story. Thank you for being so honest and open!
ok this has nothing to do with the video itself, but i love how you always tell us that we should take care of ourselves. It honestly makes me feel seen and loved. And it reminds me that I'm more than my problems
Thank you very much!
I kinda want to have another video about your random thoughts. It’s really nice to know that I’m not alone in my wondering imagination and my own mind. And also you have some really smart thoughts when you talk uninhabited.
Nodding along to this video like yep yep yep that’s me. 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚
im just slowly coming to terms with my ocd after being diagnosed the second time about a year ago and this helped me put my thoughts in perspective a lot. i feel like your ocd is similar to mine. thank you aaron!
My ocd keeps telling me I’m gonna die today , i needed this ❤️
First just want to say thank you, a lot of your videos are really helpful to me and helping others understand things that they might not experience. I’ve been struggling a lot with what I think are intrusive thoughts but they tend to not be related to anything going on (they don’t follow the ‘if you do this then this will happen’ train of events) Even though I’m experiencing something different it’s similar enough for this to help me and I’m really great full for that. Stay safe and hydrated and keep being you 🌱🌱
This video is so relatable. It might be a little triggering to here someone else talk about their intrusive thoughts but overall I think its actually super validating. Often times with my ocd, I convince myself that the reason I am thinking about these things is bc I am evil or something. I recently started using tarot cards and I IMMEDIATELY became very particular about how many times I shuffle them, how I cleanse them, who can touch them, etc. I wash my hands at least once in between each time I use them and I have to say certain things out loud and put them back a certain way. Lol it's a lot. And its strange that I do this now bc I went through all of this with Christianity. I would just unprompted go to church by myself. And that whole 'saving everyone so they dont go to hell' thing REALLY fucked with me. I felt like I HAD to talk to everyone or it would be my fault that they went to hell? Lol anyway, I immensely appreciate this video. Its nice to hear about something you relate to so deeply from someone who is also trans. Thank u!
Yeah this is the same way part of my OCD and pure OCD manifests ever since I was little. I grew up really Catholic and also obsessed with the occult so I would have times where either I was convinced my gut feeling was true and something bad would happen or that I caused something to happen cos I thought too much about it. So I feel you haha.
Oh, that sucks :/ I hope you find ways to deal with your instrusive thoughts! Completely unrealted to your comment I also just wanted to say if that's you in your profile picture: You hair looks amazing! :)
My ocd revolves around basically the same thing, I grew up christian and am obsessed with learning about the occult and my ocd is really convincing that its gonna make me sick or something
@@monamaennchen Thank you, luckily I've got a great therapist, CBT, meds and just overall figured out how to dial them back so they don't bother me as much! And thanks, sadly my hair isn't rainbow anymore but at least I have pics to remember it by haha
@@connorellis5085 Aw man that sucks, if you haven't tried any CBT I highly suggest it for intrusive thoughts!! It's definitely the biggest thing that helped me deal, along with a therapist and meds haha
Aaron you are honestly such an amazing person and you deserve so much happiness and good things in life.(also I love your nails ahhhhh)
thanks, aaron. this really helped a lot
your perspective here is so interesting, it feels like everytime you do a video, somehow you approach a topic in way that feels new. Anyway, the idea you brought up is alarming to me (not alarming maybe but it should be reflected on). In the current global political/societal climate, when our society is becoming more stressful and violent, intrusive thoughts and spirituality can be a dangerous combo. You were able to decipher the difference but what if someone is not in that space of such self awareness yet? How destructive it can be when internalized so-many-things push someone toward a path of a spiritual journey that just opens more harmful doors? Well, I've never thought about it this way and actually it makes so much sense and makes me think about so many things and people in my own life. So thank you again. Sending much love your way
OMG I CAN HEAR CAELUM PURRING
Thank you for being you and making the videos that you make!
omg im realizing i probably have OCD. im autistic and asexual as well! thanks for making these videos and making me feel less weird
I'm glad you're learning how to manage your intrusive thoughts! My intuition is super accurate, but until I started going to therapy and taking my meds, telling the difference between intuition and anxiety was difficult. I wouldn't know if I was worried for a legitimate reason or because I'm just an anxious bab. I still have anxiety sometimes, but now I can tell the difference, and I learned how to self soothe my anxiety so that it doesn't have as much power over me.
Hey Aaron. As an aspiring Mystic, Witch, and Tarot Reader, engaging with my intuition is important to my work. After many years, I personally still struggle with deciphering the line between what my thoughts are and what is my own intuition.
As a Spiritist, I work with my personal group of spirit guides. I can tell what the difference is between one of my spirits giving me an integral piece of information and what are my own thoughts suggesting something. To me, a spirit’s message feels like a surety. Something that sounds as right as though I was being told the sky is blue or the grass is green. Objective information that also /feels right/. My thoughts alone may be objective, but there’s no feeling being that thought which suggests a feeling of surety and truth, balance and in right accordance with everything else involved and connected to the situation or environment. Intuitive thoughts and spirit information may also begin as a feeling, an emotional impression first, and then develop into information.
Think of the way you worked with your intrusive thoughts weeks ago. You tested them against the heat of your desire for wholeness and their facade melted away. You got home, and everything was fine. You’re still alive.
Just the same, I encourage you to commit to an engagement with your internal information. You’ve already started the process by identifying which thoughts you’re having are intrusive and which ones aren’t.
Breathe. Open space. When you can, when you’re ready, when you’re willing, take one step forward. Listen to your internal dialogue, and pay attention to the feelings behind your thoughts, and where they resonate in your body. I’ve heard the reason intuition is also called a “gut feeling” is because intuition is often accompanied by a feeling resonating deep in the belly. Decipher which thoughts are yours and all around objective, which are intrusive, and which are intuitive ring true in your body.
Belonging to such a spiritual family, I have no doubt you’ve already had intuitive thoughts, many times over throughout your life. This work takes some practice, as do most things worthwhile in life.
Be well, love🧡
P.S- I don’t have OCD- related intrusive thoughts. But I do have other kinds of intrusive thoughts as well as minor symmetrical OCD, so I’m trying to put myself in your shoes as best I can.😅
My anxiety does make me have intrusive thoughts but I'm still able to separate those from my intuition. so I know I'm okay to continue going into like spirituality/paganism stuff.
Witchcraft also eases my anxiety a bit because it gives me some power over myself and to protect. It may be silly to some people but witchcraft is very close to my heart in a way that it has helps me cope and now I'm beginning to be able to talk about my mental health with people and get the help I need from professionals.
Thanks for another educational video Aaron! And congrats on beating your intrusive thoughts that day! While watching a question came to my mind: Can one have compulsions without intrusive thoughts? Because I have a few compulsions I can't really explain, but they are not as life altering as the ones you described. For example, whenever I'm driving in the passangers seat something tells me to lift my feet slightly whenever another car or obstacle comes by, so it can pass under it. Kind of like if there was a barrier to my feet attached It's weird and hard to explain, but I never thought about it until just now. And whenever a draw, at some point I get the compulsion to touch the outer corner of my left eye with my left hand and I have no clue why! Also there is, of course, the not stepping on cracks in the sidewalk or following certain patterns with my steps complusion. As I already said, these aren't really bad or life altering in any way, I just wonder where they might come from. I never experience any intrusive thoughts with them, i just follow these rules subconciously and it feels easier and relaxing to do so. Does anybody have similar experiance? And do you guys think this is possibly OCD, or just random stuff without an explaination?
Also, I think you have a point about religion and ritual, because way back whenever you had literally no explanation for anything, no scientific understanding and the world really sucked. It would be really easy to try to look for a way to try and control your surroundings somehow. Man, even knowing modern scientific realities my anxiety still tries to go "but.... what if.....science is wrong" about the most basic things. Luckily, the religion I practice is very chill and doesn't rely on almost any strict ritual. It's always been a place that helps me cope and be around people who want to build eachother up. I even found other people who dealt with anxiety and understood how I was feeling.
thank you for this. i needed it. ❤ sending love
Intrusive thoughts and compulsive behavior as a form of communion with a god and a way to honor them is explored in Xenocide, a book of the Ender series by Orson Scott Card! It's a really interesting scifi series :)
Oh cool!!!! Thank you, I’m going to look for the book!
Thank you for sharing this
Hi how are you doing right now?
love videos like this. glad you shared your thoughts:)
this is so helpful... thanks.... just, thanks
Ok so first of all I would like to say i love your channel and its content. Overall you just seem like a really wholesome and kind person! Secondly i have issues with leaving my house sometimws too or even going in the backyard. It can sometimes be that im scared to go in the living room or kitchen because i feel like theres someone out there just waiting. I dont know how to explain it but i feel like im being watched often and it freaks me out so much that i can sometimes end up sitting in a corner until i hear or see someone else. Ill get these moments where Ill have panic attacks because i think that someone is looking at me weird or theres too many people and I feel like Im going to suffocate. Is this all part of anxiety??? I hate it I just want these things gone.
I get what you mean, I just want you to find comfort, Megan was my rock, she loved and protected anyone I was fond of, I’m fond of you, little brother, she’s looking out for you, I feel like your a very spiritual person but it’s just different for you, my spirituality isn’t really like your moms, not completely, it’s a mixture of hers and Buddhism, inner peace and positive vibes pretty much
Hey Aaron. I miss your podcast.
Woa. Sorry dude. I had no Idea.
I liked the video 👍 would love more
Aaron!!! I love your shirt!!!! Do you happen to remember where you got it?
Also thank you for making this video and sharing your experience! While I personally can't relate I'm glad you're making content that's educational and can help others! You're one of my favourite youtubers :)
This is somewhat similar to the intrusive thoughts that power my anxiety, although mine are to a lesser extent. Also, Caelum is best boy. I can't not mention him. 💙
YEH PROUD OF YOU BUD! :D
Before I knew what anxiety was as a child (say 7-11) I'd get these days maybe once a month that I was sure something bad was going to happen, I didn't know what but something bad. This translated over the years into generalized anxiety and some agoraphobia now. For the longest time I didn't understand intrusive thoughts and when my therapists would ask me what my intrusive thoughts were somehow I would give the wrong answer. I am a spiritual person but less and less as I get older because it is really difficult to differentiate intuition from anxiety. So I have to draw the line at really diving into certain beliefs or belief systems.
🤔 That is interesting and I could honestly see that happening. But I have terrible anxiety but I am spiritual in many ways. Though I definitely understand how it can be hard sometimes. Well I just happy you've found things that help you friend.
Oh this isn’t at all intended to bash spirituality!! It was more like... i come from a spiritual background and I want to do badly share this connection with my family, but my brain isn’t in the right place to do it at the moment
It’s not to say I don’t believe it any of it isn’t true! It’s more like... anxiety makes everything very murky for me and until my anxiety is under control, I have to detach from a lot of my family’s spiritual beliefs in order to not give my anxiety free reign (I hope that made sense!)
Aaron Ansuini Oh. I never intended for you to think I thought that. I was just saying I completely understand since I have bad anxiety. 😅 But I’m sorry it makes it so hard for you bb.
You deserve to take as much time as you need. ❤️ But I hope one day you can be in the place you want to be so you can join them, if you become ready. Spiritually journeys of any kinds can be taxing especially when your own mind is making it harder. I’ve been trying to meditate to help me but sometimes I even have days, I have to take care of my mental health. And not practice anything spiritually for a week or so, if need be.
Thank you for sharing this. I think I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts sometimes (not diagnosed with anything tho) and it really stressed me out. I'll try making plans for after the situation now and see if it helps c:
Also thank you for making videos like this. I've learned so much about mental health and disabilities over the past few months I binged your videos c:
I love you, you are super awesome and an inspiration to me x
i feel like my brain is genuienly unable to distinguish the difference between reality and intrusive thought and it is genuinely bugging me so much but it will only dictate my life if i allow it right? i guess? i dont know i need help idk.
You're not going to die any time soon Aaron. You still have another 50 years left. Don't count the days. You are a neat guy. Bye.
I was watching you and my cat was also messing with me and annoying me.
I also have pretty bad anxiety and intrusive thoughts, and slight ocd (not bad but it's still their to this day) i don't leave the house unless absoutley necessary pretty much
Bye, so long, Bye!
I am the same way although I have derealization along with depression generalized anxiety adhd along with ocd
I have had an agoraphobic thought that pops up from time to time that I should say home most of the time because you can control the factors that could cause your death at home whereas you can't really in public, so you, therefore, are safer. I ignore the thought and do the opposite now, go into public more than stay at home. This also affects My Social Life when I was in My Last Year and a Half of College, I would mainly after the school week stay in My On-Campus Apartment all weekend long and currently, I don't go very far from My Municipality currently most of the time, unless I am getting a ride there and back from My Younger Brothers or Mother or Father, as I don't drive and would have to take the public bus there and back or there and the bus back or the bus there and the car back. It is partly because the bus takes forever to get you there and forever to get you back and is often very late going there or going back, but also I'm afraid of the danger that is out of My Control, like bus accidents.
ok, the comment on religions made me think about something: I went to a Catholic girls school for 12 years ... therefore I know many catholic prayers ... and even though I do not believe in God since I was 13 years, to this day I recite a couple of those prayers, especially when I feel lost, because they remind me that I'm not alone, that I have my friends, or just because they calm me down ... I do not know ... is a thing i do...
omg the writing of that comment is terrible, I'm so sorry
Thanks for this ♡♡♡♡
Hi, I keep hearing to talk about compression wraps, and while I don't want one for free, was hoping you could shoot me the link for one. I can't seem to find them anywhere, and I have PTSD, and feel this could really help me. Unfortunately I can't use weighted blankets, for a number of reasons. If anyone can throw a link my way, I'd be more than grateful!
Where’d you get that flannel though
At a store called Simons!
Great video, also, you cute
Dang..I want to watch this video now but I'd be really triggered... Guess I'll put it in watch later :/