Having an addictive personality is so annoying because it’s impossible to try and do ANYTHING indulgent because it might take up all your time 😞 It’s why I don’t play mobile games anymore because I’ll hyper focus and obsess over it, I used to refuse to draw, eat, or spend time with anyone until my phone/tablet would die because I thought gaming was more necessary 😩
I know I have an addictive personality type. I have noticed this through being an adult doll collector, I noticed I loved collecting for the hunt of it, getting all the Monster High and Ever After High Dolls, after the franchise died, it was not as fun to just having them. I am just glad that I have never enjoyed the taste of alcohole or smoking, because if I had, I think I could easily had become addictive (am Addicted to Pepsi Max, unhealtily addictive.) Only loke 2 or 3 years ago I started playing a gam, Sky ;Children of the light, nice and soothing, not really a gacha but there are things to collect and there is things to buy, though I would say that it helps alot that they don't showe it into your face all the time, in differenece to cookierun where they ALWAYS try to get you to buy different packages, ALL the time. I did go for the cheap ones in the beginning, but I realized luckily that it wasn't really worth it. Why do I play it ? Because I like the collecting aspect of it, and that will never end because they do come out with new cookies all the time.
Okay I know this is really not on topic but I read this as "Adult Toy collector" and was going to say "Omg I always wanted to be one" I feel ashamed. That being said... in the end games where you collect things are very very addicting indeed. The ones where everything is completely free (and no option to spend money in game, i.e. Breath of the Wild) are my faves still. Hope you have fun with whatever hobbies you end up taking in! And staying safe :')
All things considered a pretty mild story. Glad you got out of it when you did. V refreshing self awareness too. We can go so many ways to avoid introspection or certain feelings.
I recently had become obsessed with a game and had gotten a job for some spending money. The only problem was that I don't really have any friends and the one I did have was away for the summer so all I had to do outside of work was play the game and sit on cash because I had initially gotten the job in hopes of hanging out with said friend with the money. I started spending obscene amounts of money on the game in the end I spent quite a lot and for what? The game only ever made me angry and I was often a horrible person while I played it. It didn't help that someone close to me was almost always online and would kind of guilt trip me into playing with them which led to me playing all the time. All day on weekends, on my lunch break, and after work. Glad I've detached myself from it.
I had to give up gaming too - it's such a time vampire. As much as I miss it, it was hurting my life more than helping as it was getting in the way of me getting a lot of things done IRL - things that I really wanted to do weren't getting done because it was just more "fun" and easier to log onto a game and next thing I know hours and hours are gone. And over time that becomes weeks, and months, or longer - spent not leveling up your real life skills, but leveling up a character that is temporary. In the end, every single game will stop and no longer be available to play, every server will eventually go down, everything you've done in a game will be whipped out and gone, but everything you do IRL has more of a lasting impact on your life. I choose to level up my own skills and buy things for me or people in my life, then level up a character and buy things for a character that will eventually be deleted when the game is gone.
Playing games is only a waste of time if you see it that way. IMO every single experience is equally real. In the end if you enjoy what you do, it's never a waste of time, no matter what it is.
Definitely been here, my head perked up when you said genshin since I literally was playing it as you said it (ironic), but I think I also have an addictive personality. I have ADHD and a terrible social life with my own classmates so genshin has completely overtaken my free time. I spent 70$ on one character as someone with no job and it was traumatizing and still haunts me. I enjoy the game, but I should push myself to stop playing it daily and spending money on a Daily Login.
I know at the end of my life I won't be thinking "man, I wish I had spent more time leveling my character in X game", I'll probably be thinking that I wish I had spent more time doing something more meaningful in my life. So, for me at least, games had to become a thing of my past. Life is too short.
I definitely wasn't expecting this and it was great to listen to. Also loved the final outtro. Had just clicked another video but heard it as the page was loading and hit the back button, LOL.
I started Final Fantasy Record Keeper in 2019 (on my 23rd birthday of all things) because I liked that the graphics replicated my first Final Fantasy game and I thought it was pretty cool how every Final Fantasy characters (or at least most) where playable. Little did I know that it was a gacha game, and that most of the stuff you pulled for was dated and useless for what players called the endgame content. Still, as I progressed through the game, I really didn't spend too much money on it, and usually just stook to pulling for my favorites. I only really got serious with it during the pandemic for several reasons I don't want to get into. I don't think I've ever spent too much money on it at once, (I think I've spent a total of £600+ on in like a 3 year span, but I've never made enough money to throw at the game all at once so...) but for a while it was the only thing keeping me going, so I felt like it was worth it. Any money I spent on anything else felt like a waste, usually - that's how much I cared about that game. I say cared, because the GL version ended last week, but I've since made the jump to the JP version of the game which is still running and going strong - that and Dissidia Final Fantasy Opera Omnia, where I've probably spent £60 on two costumes for my lads Tidus and Jecht lol (though that game requires zero money for anything, and is the most generous gacha game on the market)
this video was nice to listen to :DD I don't hear much talk about gaming addiction-- which is a real shame. addictive personality is seriously evil, !! AND ALSO CONGTRATS ON 10k :DD I've only been watching for a short while but your perspectives and things you say have been cool to Listen To so far ^o^
A while back I used to have a gacha addiction on a game I played. I remember deleting the game for an entire year because of the amount of money I was spending ._.
I used to tell myself that "I don't REALLY spend much money on the games I play, so it's ok", but I've come to really understand the truth of the saying that "Time is Money". And the time I was spending getting things "done" in a game was time I was wasting not getting things done in real life. I know some people need to play games, it's a way for them to relax and unwind, but for me I don't know how to do "moderation", I don't know how to play for just one hour a day an log off. I also have an addictive personality and games, for me, are time vampires. Time is precious and life is too short. So, for me, I realized I had to just quit games cold turkey. As much fun as they are and as much as I miss them, it's not worth the countless hours I lose when playing them.
I tried Genshin for a few hours and got bored of it quickly. Ironically I think the gacha elements are what turned me off the game since it meant that I couldn't just grind to get the things I want. Meanwhile, Splatoon 3 has me hooked, lol, because I can grind to get the things that I want without paying in game money.
@@Fionapollo yeah, but it does eat up a lot of my time, which is really not good since I'm trying to get into artschool. Ironically, the game does have a gachapon machine that only takes in-game money. That's why it's such a time sink for me.
I spent money on both mihoyo games honkai and genshin, I don't actually regret spending money on genshin tbh and I don't do it alot outside of welkin and battlepass but sometimes I do spend on genesis crystals, I honestly just see it as investing in a game that I enjoy otherwise the money would just go into junk food, with honkai however I majorly regret it and it sucks lol
I had my stint with a gacha game where the butcher's bill came to $5000 in one year. I'm fortunate enough to have a career and lifestyle that allowed me to afford that comfortably, but it was still a wakeup call. That was more than I spent on my computer build. That money could have been used for any number of things, and while value is subjective and I do feel like I got plenty of enjoyment out of the game, I'm glad I abandoned the game. I've since picked up modeling as my hobby, which is similarly expensive in start-up costs (all the tooooooools....) but feels more fulfilling and permanent.
When I got a new phone I downloaded Pokemon Masters and man, the money I can waste on that. The worse feeling is spending all that money and STILL not getting the character you were rolling for. Luckly, I'm in a spot where I can currently grind all my characters. Maybe I'll get bored of it, maybe I won't.
FTP Genshin player here ! I just try to save as much as I can, I enjoy the game, and I wish it didn't happen to have as many problems as it does. Tho I'm not much of a gamer myself so I don't really understand spending so much money on a game
Recent Genshin uninstaller here. Fun character designs, fun world to explore, combat mechanics that still make me swoon (seriously, the main reason I miss it), aaaaaaaaand yeah, 101% colorism. ::sigh:: It was that last one that finally pushed me over the edge, but even before that fully reared its head, the game is set up to consistently and mercilessly FOMO you into spending cash (which I originally considered an occasional "investment into a game I like" only for the game to not be happy enough with just that) and just spending as much time in it as possible via your usual mobile game "engagement" mechanics, and temporary events containing expiring, "get-this-now-or-it'll-be-gone-forever" weapons and bonuses and such (usually really good ones). This on top of gacha and RNG pasted all over the things you need to make the game more fun (characters, equipment, etc). You CAN play the game "F2P", but it does take a ton of willpower, and even more of a time investment if you enjoy the feeling of your team consistently growing in power/utility. Your story sounded a lot like mine (I started GI during a tough place in my life), so, first off, sorry that happened, that bites, and, uh... yeah, you're absolutely better off not touching Genshin with a ten-foot pole. ^^; I still dabble in Final Fantasy XIV, but that's subscription-based so it has no reason to pull the mobile gacha nonsense and I can play it at my leisure, on my own schedule, without missing out on any of what makes it fun. You know, like a video game. :D The producer even encourages players to cancel their sub when not actively playing and only come back when they really want to. Great video! I'm a bit squeamish so I thought I wouldn't be able to hang with the drawing, but it ended up being fascinating to watch unfold, if nothing else.
I think they can play it if they want, Genshin isn't a bad game , yes it has its problems but every game does , the colour thing is a problem I will admit but a lot of other games are like that too not just Genshin, sorry I deeply love the game and I think it's not too hard to get gems it's pretty ok , I would not tell people to stay away from the game tho because isn't that I little too extreme, one persons experience isn't going to be anothers , I deeply care for Genshin sorry, I just get stressed when people tell others to stay away from it , it's my special interest so sorry again
the only reason i don’t play genshin is because it didn’t want to load on my phone and i can be a bit of an impatient baby so i gave up on it. but in a way i’m kind of glad i don’t play to because i won’t get addicted to it or become obsessed with it. and yeah it sucks that i have to miss out on experiencing such a cool looking game, but it’s for the greater good of my mental health 😒 (that’s also the reason why i haven’t downloaded cookie run either but my curiosity is making me really want to check it out)
I got all the characters I wanted and enjoyed genshin while I had it and was interested as a f2p. I have pretty bad impulse control because of my adhd, but it was still relatively easy to work around because I cared more about the story and handful of characters rather than collecting them all. The reason I stoped playing because I got so frustrated with Sumeru. Like, how are you not going to put a single person darker than a Starbucks chai latte based of off Arabic culture?! oml🙄 But yeah, the game play loop was pretty addicting especially if you had to primo hunt or work on ascending a character.
Having an addictive personality is so annoying because it’s impossible to try and do ANYTHING indulgent because it might take up all your time 😞 It’s why I don’t play mobile games anymore because I’ll hyper focus and obsess over it, I used to refuse to draw, eat, or spend time with anyone until my phone/tablet would die because I thought gaming was more necessary 😩
Definitely wasn't the story I was expecting for this drawing but I did enjoy watching you make it
Lol gotta keep ppl guessing
I know I have an addictive personality type. I have noticed this through being an adult doll collector, I noticed I loved collecting for the hunt of it, getting all the Monster High and Ever After High Dolls, after the franchise died, it was not as fun to just having them.
I am just glad that I have never enjoyed the taste of alcohole or smoking, because if I had, I think I could easily had become addictive (am Addicted to Pepsi Max, unhealtily addictive.)
Only loke 2 or 3 years ago I started playing a gam, Sky ;Children of the light, nice and soothing, not really a gacha but there are things to collect and there is things to buy, though I would say that it helps alot that they don't showe it into your face all the time, in differenece to cookierun where they ALWAYS try to get you to buy different packages, ALL the time. I did go for the cheap ones in the beginning, but I realized luckily that it wasn't really worth it. Why do I play it ? Because I like the collecting aspect of it, and that will never end because they do come out with new cookies all the time.
Okay I know this is really not on topic but I read this as "Adult Toy collector" and was going to say "Omg I always wanted to be one"
I feel ashamed. That being said... in the end games where you collect things are very very addicting indeed. The ones where everything is completely free (and no option to spend money in game, i.e. Breath of the Wild) are my faves still. Hope you have fun with whatever hobbies you end up taking in! And staying safe :')
All things considered a pretty mild story. Glad you got out of it when you did. V refreshing self awareness too. We can go so many ways to avoid introspection or certain feelings.
microtransactions? Now that's spooky.
I recently had become obsessed with a game and had gotten a job for some spending money. The only problem was that I don't really have any friends and the one I did have was away for the summer so all I had to do outside of work was play the game and sit on cash because I had initially gotten the job in hopes of hanging out with said friend with the money. I started spending obscene amounts of money on the game in the end I spent quite a lot and for what? The game only ever made me angry and I was often a horrible person while I played it. It didn't help that someone close to me was almost always online and would kind of guilt trip me into playing with them which led to me playing all the time. All day on weekends, on my lunch break, and after work.
Glad I've detached myself from it.
Im sorry to hear that, but at least you were able to detach from it eventually
I had to give up gaming too - it's such a time vampire. As much as I miss it, it was hurting my life more than helping as it was getting in the way of me getting a lot of things done IRL - things that I really wanted to do weren't getting done because it was just more "fun" and easier to log onto a game and next thing I know hours and hours are gone. And over time that becomes weeks, and months, or longer - spent not leveling up your real life skills, but leveling up a character that is temporary. In the end, every single game will stop and no longer be available to play, every server will eventually go down, everything you've done in a game will be whipped out and gone, but everything you do IRL has more of a lasting impact on your life. I choose to level up my own skills and buy things for me or people in my life, then level up a character and buy things for a character that will eventually be deleted when the game is gone.
Playing games is only a waste of time if you see it that way. IMO every single experience is equally real.
In the end if you enjoy what you do, it's never a waste of time, no matter what it is.
Definitely been here, my head perked up when you said genshin since I literally was playing it as you said it (ironic), but I think I also have an addictive personality. I have ADHD and a terrible social life with my own classmates so genshin has completely overtaken my free time. I spent 70$ on one character as someone with no job and it was traumatizing and still haunts me. I enjoy the game, but I should push myself to stop playing it daily and spending money on a Daily Login.
I know at the end of my life I won't be thinking "man, I wish I had spent more time leveling my character in X game", I'll probably be thinking that I wish I had spent more time doing something more meaningful in my life. So, for me at least, games had to become a thing of my past. Life is too short.
I definitely wasn't expecting this and it was great to listen to. Also loved the final outtro. Had just clicked another video but heard it as the page was loading and hit the back button, LOL.
I started Final Fantasy Record Keeper in 2019 (on my 23rd birthday of all things) because I liked that the graphics replicated my first Final Fantasy game and I thought it was pretty cool how every Final Fantasy characters (or at least most) where playable. Little did I know that it was a gacha game, and that most of the stuff you pulled for was dated and useless for what players called the endgame content.
Still, as I progressed through the game, I really didn't spend too much money on it, and usually just stook to pulling for my favorites. I only really got serious with it during the pandemic for several reasons I don't want to get into.
I don't think I've ever spent too much money on it at once, (I think I've spent a total of £600+ on in like a 3 year span, but I've never made enough money to throw at the game all at once so...) but for a while it was the only thing keeping me going, so I felt like it was worth it. Any money I spent on anything else felt like a waste, usually - that's how much I cared about that game.
I say cared, because the GL version ended last week, but I've since made the jump to the JP version of the game which is still running and going strong - that and Dissidia Final Fantasy Opera Omnia, where I've probably spent £60 on two costumes for my lads Tidus and Jecht lol (though that game requires zero money for anything, and is the most generous gacha game on the market)
this video was nice to listen to :DD I don't hear much talk about gaming addiction-- which is a real shame. addictive personality is seriously evil,
!! AND ALSO CONGTRATS ON 10k :DD I've only been watching for a short while but your perspectives and things you say have been cool to Listen To so far ^o^
A while back I used to have a gacha addiction on a game I played. I remember deleting the game for an entire year because of the amount of money I was spending ._.
I used to tell myself that "I don't REALLY spend much money on the games I play, so it's ok", but I've come to really understand the truth of the saying that "Time is Money". And the time I was spending getting things "done" in a game was time I was wasting not getting things done in real life. I know some people need to play games, it's a way for them to relax and unwind, but for me I don't know how to do "moderation", I don't know how to play for just one hour a day an log off. I also have an addictive personality and games, for me, are time vampires. Time is precious and life is too short. So, for me, I realized I had to just quit games cold turkey. As much fun as they are and as much as I miss them, it's not worth the countless hours I lose when playing them.
I tried Genshin for a few hours and got bored of it quickly. Ironically I think the gacha elements are what turned me off the game since it meant that I couldn't just grind to get the things I want.
Meanwhile, Splatoon 3 has me hooked, lol, because I can grind to get the things that I want without paying in game money.
Oof yeah i see so many ppl obsessing abt splatoon. Luckily Nintendo doesn't seem to buy into the gacha model often
@@Fionapollo yeah, but it does eat up a lot of my time, which is really not good since I'm trying to get into artschool.
Ironically, the game does have a gachapon machine that only takes in-game money. That's why it's such a time sink for me.
I spent money on both mihoyo games honkai and genshin, I don't actually regret spending money on genshin tbh and I don't do it alot outside of welkin and battlepass but sometimes I do spend on genesis crystals, I honestly just see it as investing in a game that I enjoy otherwise the money would just go into junk food, with honkai however I majorly regret it and it sucks lol
HEYO! I haven’t watched your videos in a while and you’re still grinding and being amazing! Keep up the great work.
beautiful artwork! VEry good video! im glad u shared this story with us!
I find it kinda funny that your gorey piece is more gorey than Hiten's gorey pieces, and gore is her thing
I love the art, amazing job!
Oh dam I have an addictive problem.
I had my stint with a gacha game where the butcher's bill came to $5000 in one year. I'm fortunate enough to have a career and lifestyle that allowed me to afford that comfortably, but it was still a wakeup call. That was more than I spent on my computer build. That money could have been used for any number of things, and while value is subjective and I do feel like I got plenty of enjoyment out of the game, I'm glad I abandoned the game. I've since picked up modeling as my hobby, which is similarly expensive in start-up costs (all the tooooooools....) but feels more fulfilling and permanent.
Huh, the more I watch your channel the more I need to talk to my Psychiatrist about things I possibly have.
When I got a new phone I downloaded Pokemon Masters and man, the money I can waste on that. The worse feeling is spending all that money and STILL not getting the character you were rolling for.
Luckly, I'm in a spot where I can currently grind all my characters. Maybe I'll get bored of it, maybe I won't.
Guess you must have been THAT passionate about getting that ragnarok armor! ;)
FTP Genshin player here ! I just try to save as much as I can, I enjoy the game, and I wish it didn't happen to have as many problems as it does. Tho I'm not much of a gamer myself so I don't really understand spending so much money on a game
When I played and when I go back to Genshin, I made a vow to Never use real world currency
I have a similar issue, but thus far haven’t spent any real money on games, and I’m going to try and stick to that
When I go back to genshin, I am sticking to using ONLY primogems
Recent Genshin uninstaller here. Fun character designs, fun world to explore, combat mechanics that still make me swoon (seriously, the main reason I miss it), aaaaaaaaand yeah, 101% colorism. ::sigh:: It was that last one that finally pushed me over the edge, but even before that fully reared its head, the game is set up to consistently and mercilessly FOMO you into spending cash (which I originally considered an occasional "investment into a game I like" only for the game to not be happy enough with just that) and just spending as much time in it as possible via your usual mobile game "engagement" mechanics, and temporary events containing expiring, "get-this-now-or-it'll-be-gone-forever" weapons and bonuses and such (usually really good ones). This on top of gacha and RNG pasted all over the things you need to make the game more fun (characters, equipment, etc). You CAN play the game "F2P", but it does take a ton of willpower, and even more of a time investment if you enjoy the feeling of your team consistently growing in power/utility.
Your story sounded a lot like mine (I started GI during a tough place in my life), so, first off, sorry that happened, that bites, and, uh... yeah, you're absolutely better off not touching Genshin with a ten-foot pole. ^^; I still dabble in Final Fantasy XIV, but that's subscription-based so it has no reason to pull the mobile gacha nonsense and I can play it at my leisure, on my own schedule, without missing out on any of what makes it fun. You know, like a video game. :D The producer even encourages players to cancel their sub when not actively playing and only come back when they really want to.
Great video! I'm a bit squeamish so I thought I wouldn't be able to hang with the drawing, but it ended up being fascinating to watch unfold, if nothing else.
I think they can play it if they want, Genshin isn't a bad game , yes it has its problems but every game does , the colour thing is a problem I will admit but a lot of other games are like that too not just Genshin, sorry I deeply love the game and I think it's not too hard to get gems it's pretty ok , I would not tell people to stay away from the game tho because isn't that I little too extreme, one persons experience isn't going to be anothers , I deeply care for Genshin sorry, I just get stressed when people tell others to stay away from it , it's my special interest so sorry again
Hi i love your vid its truely inspired!
the only reason i don’t play genshin is because it didn’t want to load on my phone and i can be a bit of an impatient baby so i gave up on it. but in a way i’m kind of glad i don’t play to because i won’t get addicted to it or become obsessed with it. and yeah it sucks that i have to miss out on experiencing such a cool looking game, but it’s for the greater good of my mental health 😒 (that’s also the reason why i haven’t downloaded cookie run either but my curiosity is making me really want to check it out)
I got all the characters I wanted and enjoyed genshin while I had it and was interested as a f2p. I have pretty bad impulse control because of my adhd, but it was still relatively easy to work around because I cared more about the story and handful of characters rather than collecting them all. The reason I stoped playing because I got so frustrated with Sumeru. Like, how are you not going to put a single person darker than a Starbucks chai latte based of off Arabic culture?! oml🙄
But yeah, the game play loop was pretty addicting especially if you had to primo hunt or work on ascending a character.
As a person who loves video games, I want to remind everyone that even gamers HATE HATE HATE loot boxes
i've already thrown over 850 dollars into the hobby (i can stop anytime)
I have the same problem, roblox is kinda consuming my life rn I've spent over 1000 dollars on that game.