I'm a trans guy and I clicked on this out of curiosity thinking it would be a silly meme and i was going to be like "MY MASCULINITY!!! NOOOOO" but this is actually really sweet. To anyone reading this, if you feel comfortable being a girl, then you're a girl. And you are AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL. Have a nice day
Yeah exactly, I can see how a trans egg would be like “I don’t feel bad as a guy, so I can’t be trans” but that’s not how it works, I mean sure feeling bad as a guy could be a big reason to transition, but it’s not the only reason to do so, a good analogy I saw is “I didn’t eat the burger (transitioning) because I was starving (dysphoria), I ate it because it was yummy (euphoria)”
@@Blaczoltliterally been feeling that exact way. I keep feeling like I’ve been fooling myself for questioning my gender identity because I didn’t hate being a man my entire life but when she said it’s not about how bad you feel as a boy it’s about how good you’ll feel as a girl like that really hit me
You are a girl then! And being told you are can feel nice! I still love being affirmed haha even after all this time! stay hydrated and know you are valid
Hey you, reading the comments! It's worth it. I didn't transition until I was 30 and it's been more than worth the struggle along the way. You can do it, girl!
I’m a cis guy, not trans but it’s honestly really nice to hear this, not needing to conform to what society says a “man” should do and I’m free to express myself how I want to. Stand tall all my trans friends out there, I love ya!
The exact same case here. Clicked on the video out of curiosity, and found it really touching. Unless they go around hurting others, people shoud be proud of whoever they are.
Im a biological man and im totally ok and happy with that. I just dont want society to define my gender identity. So i guess you could say im no binary or whatever, the term is not important for me. I am me. I like some "girly" things but many "manly" things aswell. My identity is like somewhere in between a girl and a boy. Some day i will have the courage to wear some girls clothes since i think they are beautiful🥰
@@sal7024same! I've been thinking I might be transfem, but eventually landed somewhere in-between and it's comfortable here. Just gotta find the courage to express it little by little!
I had an unaliving attempt last Wednesday and I got out of the hospital today. This brought me to tears because I’m a trans woman. This is so validating and beautiful 😢 thank you
The dysphoria has been hitting hard lately and is making me question whether or not I actually am trans, or just a femboy, but I do know this helps so very much, so thank you.
Idk if ur still questioning yourself but if you are here’s my advice if you want it if your thinking are you trans or just a femboy then just become a femboy for a bit because that can be undone at any point and once you’ve done that then see how you feel if you feel being one is too far then ur probably neither if it feels right then stay a femboy if it feels like it’s not enough then ur most likely trans
have you tried being a girl and a femboy? Like would you be happy as both a girl and a femboy if so what is stopping you. society well fuck society. Reject reality and substitute your own.
Trust me, if you're afraid of not being a trans girl, than I think that's a pretty strong case for actually being a girl I love you and have a great day!
recently, finally accepted that I’m a trans girl. I’m still very closeted and I only have a few friends who know about it so its really nice to have these affirmative videos. thank you update: I’ve been on HRT for a little over two months now and as hard as it has been with so many things in my life changing, I don’t think I’ve been this happy in a long time. to anyone reading this and going through hard times, things can and will get better. thank you again.
I'm 17 and have basically concluded that I have no choice but to come out to someone atp, I'm just scared that people will not believe me or get it. I've felt it young, with early memories in grade 2, 7 years old but whenever I expressed myself feminine I wouldn't be taken seriously. I've tried a lot to run from these thoughts over the years but they just keep following me. and since puberty started, it's been my biggest insecurity, secret and has put me through hell, I've had times on and off where I hopeless and really low mood because I knew I could never be myself. I've started referring to myself as "Julia" in my head and it does make me feel better but do get anxious that I might somehow slip up and respond to that name whenever I hear it or something like that.
You deserve to live authentically as ghe gender you feel more comfy as. People are often mean and don't take these experiences seriously but know that overtime you'll meet people that'll see you for you. Don't give up okay
@@fairyprincesslucy tysm 😭I'm hesitant telling people because it's hard to explain and people have this weird expectation of trans people. Some people always bring up bottom surgery as the first topic of trans people and I feel uncomfortable talking about it. I'm scared that people will keep asking me that question and won't take me seriously until I say I'd do it which makes me feel weird. Anyway, it feels good to have a supportive community online with people who have gone through the same thing as me, and where I feel safe being myself ❤
@@dodleblob people have very rigid images of 'a trans person' I've been living as a woman for like nearly a decade and I haven't had surgery ( I might in future just undecided as of now ) You don't need to fit boxes to be trans. And you can choose who you tell and when
Not long before I saw this in my suggested I was telling my cat about how I feel like a girl on the inside. And I know I'm not like other cis or trans girls, but that's okay. Because I can be my own kind of girl. I wish I realised this sooner, instead burying my feelings for not having dysphoria and feeling fine being a boy. And fine is fine, but being a girl would make me more than fine and this past week has showed me that.
PREACH SISTER PREACH!! I’ve always seen people venting on them not being able to look at themselves, and although I’m fine with my body, I’d just feel better if it had been a females. I just figured that this was just a weird feeling that I’d grow out of, but if it sticks with me some more than I could say for the long-term that I am transfem. But I always thought you had to feel some “ick” about your body, and hate yourself to do so. Reading this hit way close to home, because it’s near exactly what I’m feeling. I don’t feel dysphoria towards my body, but sometimes I take a good look at myself and go “man, this would’ve been better had I been a girl.” I’d just feel more comfortable and “me” if I were a girl, although my male body is “ok” with me as well. This really made me feel better, thank you.
I relate with this a lot. For basically my whole life aside from my vague early childhood memories I've been living... "fine" (in my early 30's now). It made my emotions flat most of the time, once or twice even I can remember almost breaking down for feeling like a robot or alien, but for the most part I've managed... But I do wish I could have just accepted being a girl about a decade ago when I first questioned my gender identity. I thought I'd make for a terrible girl (I'm a very boyish girl) so I decided to just live as a guy and bottle everything away. Part of me rationalised it away by telling myself that everyone has something they would change about themselves. I've only recently accepted myself and came out to most of my family and friends. Still haven't done much in the form of transitioning, but the acceptance I've been lucky enough to have has been so overwhelming I feel like an idiot for not embracing it sooner.
I started to transition @ 47, I am 55 now and my biggest regret was not transitioning when I was younger. Its been the best 7 years of my life!!! Live your life, not the life others want you to. Only then will you be able to find true happiness and contentment. I was the women I was looking for! It was not easy or pain free. How I feel is Priceless 🙂you got this girlfriend!
Yesterday, I put on my makeup, earrings and perfume. Then, I dawned on my skirt and a cute top. With my nails painted in pretty pink and hair in ponytails; I went out and took care of my weekly errands. This was my first time going out as a girl and I'm now 60. For the first time in my life, I truly felt happy, and at peace. More than that, when I looked in the mirror; for the first time in my life I felt like me.
Hey miss. I'm a trans woman, and I've been struggling with accepting that since I just felt that with all my tendencies and all my masculine traits, maybe I'm not actually trans and I'm just being dumb. I think this video really helped me realize I'm still a girl despite acting more like a masculine characature. Thank you. You've been very nice to listen to. Hopefully maybe me and my wife will get outta this rut. I hope your life will be well.
I am currently a teenager, and I have no idea how I discovered it, but I first knew about a year ago that I was trans. I at first dismissed the idea, and locked it up in the back of my head for a while. I kept getting the feeling that I didn't like who I was, and hated my strong-ish muscles and more masculine clothes. Day by day it just kept getting worse and worse until I decided to do something about it. I told a friend who knew that they were trans and they were so supportive and nice. I kept realizing that nothing would happen if i didn't do anything, so I made a leap of faith and told my family and friends. I never could have expected a better result. Everyone was just so nice and supportive, and I am currently waiting to go to the doctor to get a referral. I didn't think I would ever get this far, and that it would be this welcoming. I don't really know what to say. It is just amazing that people are so nice.
No matter what some people say, the people who make content like this (including you) are literally angels. Thank you for providing a safe and cozy space for people to express themselves. ❤💖❤️💖❤️
a few weeks ago I was hit with the realization that, infact, cis people dont REALLY wish they were the opposite sex and I've been in denial about being trans since (probably before then, honestly) and this video has helped so much. thank you for making this available to everyone
I'm 24 and I started questioning at 19. it was kind of a nightmare honestly. I felt like I had completely lost sense of who I was or who I wanted to be. Coming to the conclusion "I am trans" was unbelievably difficult for me. I spent months of not a full year just ignoring or in some cases denying the possibility; it was something I could not imagine. I think that's a big thing a lot of people don't understand or think about. You don't just wake up one morning and say "oh I'm a girl now hehe." It's a long process of questioning and confusion in what I can only call a gender crisis. I like to tell myself there were no signs, but they were there. I often looked at dresses and skirts thinking "what would it be like to wear them? Why can't I wear them? Why is that a rule?" I had an interest in purses, I still do. One time as a young child I tried painting my nails. They looked terrible because I didn't know what I was doing, but I didn't mind it. The other kids made fun of me for it, and I think that's the only reason I removed it. Nowadays I paint my nails often, and now I wonder what younger me would have thought. I'm not sure what the point of my comment exactly is haha. I guess I just wanted to share my experience. I really appreciate this video
I'm 18 and consider myself 'questioning' since about six months ago. 'Gender crisis' is an excellent way of putting it. Realizing and accepting you've never really been comfortable with your gender your entire life is terrible. A certain event broke the tipping point and made me really consider the possibility of transitioning, and it has simply stuck like glue to my consciousness. I've been bombarded with thoughts and questions, cravings and wishes that seem new, but also as if they had always been there buried. I've had crisis of rejecting and accepting my desire to be the opposite gender several times, trying to rationalize it away, etc. Couple that with an intense introvertedness and social anxiety and well....even accepting the wish internally, I still face an unsurmountable difficulty in actually coming out to anyone, and I often wonder if just supressing it forever would be less of a mental toll on me. Having to deal with social rejection, or the pressure of having to look enough like the opposite gender in public, fear of being judged and receiving hate, it's all seems so stressful I cry thinking about it. The path to my happiness is filled with rocks and spikes and I'm not sure I'm ready for it.
I so feel ya girl! Imposter syndrome can hit hard at times but remember it's just usually born out of a combination of our own dysphoria and societal imposed expectations etc. Damn! I wish I could heed my own advice sometimes lol
Not me crying reading the comments 😭 I recently learned that cis people indeed do not wish that they were a girl and finally learned that this is something that is actually a thing i can do (thanks Bridget from guilty gear lol). I just constantly worry that im wrong and that im just being idk wrong about myself. Thankfully the two people I have told (my closest friend and my partner) have been really supportive of me and I couldn’t be more grateful. I worry about telling my sister or my parents but that will be a while from now. Im just going to take things one step at a time. So all i can imagine thank you for this wonderful audio! Much thanks from some random person!
As a trans girl who is othered by family and unable to transition and othered by society, this made me cry. I really wish things could be different and i feel more dysphoric and rejected everyday but things like this give me strength to not give up on my life entirely. Thank you.
Seeing validation videos like these and the comments and peoples stories are heart warming and pure. I wanted to open up my personal story. I am a guy (30 yo, 31 in a month) who doesn't feel to have gender dysmorphia, but there've been small moments I felt growing up and to this day that are experiences similar to some things mentioned, which did make me wonder about my identity super briefly before ADHD moved on to the next thing. I was the boy who hung out with the girls, cuz I liked hanging out with the girls a lot more than I did with the boys. I felt a lot more comfortable being in the company with ladies than I am with dudes, just in general. It also occured to me that I ran into most of my problems growing up with dudes. I figured it was cuz I am straight and just like girls, and the guys are all toxic. One of my favorite memories in elementary school was these girls one day where doing this little song dance thing during recess, I didn't know what to call it, didn't know how to ask what it was, just in the moment though I had fun. The words would stick with me for the rest of my life, "Misses Sally Walker walking down the street. (Beep Beep) She couldn't find her partner so she stopped in front of me." Though for me they changed it to Mister, but I didn't mind it. Just thought it was funny they let me in on the girls game, as I'm very positive they thought the same as well. I also remember this because not long before on a previous day, I did try to play with the boys, who would be playing this massive game of football ("American rugby", to clarify if needed) every single day that nobody really explained or coordinated. Nobody explained the rules, and hearing the teams plan was a first come first serve thing since nobody waited for the 20+ member team to huddle up. I figured I didn't want to get into playing sports after that. Also throughout my life in video games, I've always gravitated to playing female characters, cuz ladies are hot. This would especially be when its from a series that you normally would only play alloted to play a guy (Pokemon Ruby, Fable II, Assassins Creed... Still waiting on Zelda gosh darnit.) I was afraid of being seen as catfishing in MMOs since that's like this whole issue online and stuff, especially on roleplaying servers, and I've always had the anxiety of letting someone down, so I would have ghosted/deleted characters and made new if things got way too personal, and if i got uncomfortable (internet safety 101 for a minor really helped.) There was this one time I played on XBOX, think it was CoD Modern Warfare 2. was in a voice call with some random players. I was pre-puberty so my voice was high pitched, and it weirded these two guys out so much that I sounded like a girl to them despite saying "no I'm a guy." they were like "I uh gotta go so uh yeah. I hope you have a good day, sir or madam" and I couldn't help but remain silent stunned or laugh nervously which made it sound like giggling, which didn't help the situation. I also get called ma'am a lot at drive throughs, even post puberty. Right now I am 30 years old, happily married to my ace wife, and recently I've been having a lot of hindsights about my childhood after interacting with gender nonconforming friends, and the YT Algorithm doing its thing showing me more trans stuff recently. It occured to me that it would be believable for me to go down this path. This is especially so after this past year where I've been having thoughts about just how cute I'd be in certain outfits that I've seen recently, if my body shape were female. There was one set of novelty(?) clothes at the grocery store over the holidays where it sorta looked like this christmas elf overalls worker outfit but either the mannican or the outfit itself had like this really big butt (for SOME reason.) I had thought how cute/sexy I'd be in this tacky outfit without the undershirt on, but then I noticed the outfit was also meant for someone like 5'4" and I'm a solid 6'0". First time i took a picture of female clothing like that. And then literally today as I was scrolling through my YT feed waiting for things at work to come up there was this freakin adorable Sunflower Dress from like whatever site it was, on a female form that was just looked absolutely perfect for me! (Though admittedly I think the form wouldn't be my ideal since advertisers try to make their works be as appealing as possible, it did remind me of how i imagined what my ideal female body image would be if I were to transition. I can go into that but this is already really long RIP) I got some pretty good signs to be trans fem. However, I have my own personal reasons why I don't wish to transition. I know there's ways to get around this one thing, but one thing that would be a big indicator is my hairline. Its been expected of me to lose my hair on account both my grandfathers were bald. I've come to accept baldness when it comes to me naturally (got a few more years tho i think) cuz I always thought that monastic monk look was always cool. But yeah, thank you for doing this video, and reading my story if you found the time to. There were a lot more things that resonated with me than I realized. I think the earliest possible idea of having theoretical trans thoughts for me would also be 8 or 10 years, though I never actually reflected on ANYTHING (past or future, and just stuff in general) until I was I think 14. I was more worried about being with a/(any) girl and not being a creepo about how to talk to them with raging hormones as opposed to being one. I wish I lived in an area were LGBTQ wasn't super stigmatized. The idea of me being trans would likely happen a lot sooner. It was a sexual fantasy to imagine being my opposite gender, which it wasn't until much, MUCH later I sorta realized transition doesn't have to be sexually motivated - at all. If more people realize this, I think more people would be even more welcoming. ❤thank you again
Normally when I see suggested videos it takes me a couple days, but the immediate jump this video gave me was undescribable lmao. Thank you for doing your part in helping people accept themselves ^-^ Keep doing you
This is one of the nicest thing I've ever heard and just thank you so much for this. I'm just over a year in my transition but so much has been going on and it's just felt exhausting, and I think I've sort of forgotten how to be myself, as a girl. This was very gender affirming and just aaaaa again thanks so much for this im sure you helped so many other people too with this audio I'm sending this to my closted trans friend cause I think she really needs to hear this too.
Trans girl here, been transitioning for a year and while I know I’m a woman and accept myself it’s nice to have videos like this to hear if anything as a reminder when I don’t feel so great. Thank you for your kindness 💜🏳️⚧️
I realized I’m a trans girl recently and I love it. My name is Sam, birth name is Samuel but I prefer Sam all together as it sounds girlier. People like you who make these kind of videos makes me happy. Thank you! The mere idea of me waking up as the girliest girl and my sister calling me her sister is so amazing, and estrogen is already working wonders. :3 💙💙🙋♀️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️
Lots of aspects of being a girl locked away for 55 years. Releasing the inner person is a creative act, and a discovery, but it helps to have your affirming message. Thanks. ps I just fell asleep to your sleepover track, you have a gift!
Hi lucy, I found your channel a couple days ago and as a trans women just starting her transition, your channel as been an amazing source of euphoria and validation, and I just want to thank you for all that you do. Love you 💜.
awww thank you so much! sorry that I missed this comment somehow! I am really happy what I make is able to help you on your journey! stay hydrated and know you are valid!
I'm 14, and live in arguably one of the least accepting parts of my country. I realized I was trans around 7 months ago. I've been uncomfortable with my body as long as I can remember, but 7 months ago was when the internalized transphobia left to the point that I was able to consider it. I came out a few months ago to part of my family. One person was accepting. The rest provided *counterarguments* and keep trying to affirm whatever masculinity they can find in me. As a result of this, I've had to just hide myself and *not think* about my dysphoria for months. This self-censorship has led to my identity itself fading away. I haven't felt euphoria for months. This wasn't living, this was surviving. All that to say, thank you for making this video. Something I just offhandedly clicked turned into the first little ping of euphoria I've felt in what feels like forever. No longer is that part of me fading away slowly.
I came out when I was 12 so I was def in a similar "stage of life" when I came out, a lot of people weren't supportive sadly. I can relate to feeling like you have to be someone else just to avoid people arguing. Just know that who you are is valid and you DESERVE to live how you want to live. If you feel better as a girl, you are one. No one can argue that. Even if people are unaccepting, you'll find a way to be yourself! It won't be easy but I believe in you okay! I really needed someone to say something like that to be early on. It took a long time, but I think right now I'm living authentically as myself
i'm going through puberty and just recently been figuring this stuff out. i dont know who you are but thank you soo much. you dont understand. i havent cried for sooo long but this video got my tears streaming out like ariver. thank you for making this. it feels like my entire brain has been turned upside down and its terrifying. i love it. the plushie i've been clinging to this half hour is soaking wet. sincerely thank you
ty for making these videos hearing affirmation is always nice even if it can be a little scary to think of my gender identity sometimes. theres prob a reason i keep listening to these and maybe im a bit scared to admit it to myself fully, but i will do my best to be myself just as everyone else should
its sad that this isnt told to people more often its very validating to hear this thank you. Also this year was so bad so its nice to hear this the only amazing thing that truly impacted my life in a positive way is getting on E and i was gonna write the bad stuff to but im tired of pondering on it im about 4 months in i would rather think about that it makes me happy :) Dont forget about the hard things in life but dont let them drown u im trying to not let them drown me its very hard but u can do it its possible :) also so many good games came out this year that is another thing to be happy about
I don't normally listen to ASMR vids, but I needed this. The last year has been a mess of not knowing what I am doing & this makes it feel more bearable, like I'm not so out of place. Thank you.
8 months into hrt, but imposter syndrome (or maybe the far fetched hope that this would be some miraculous magic video that would make transition instant) made me click this, but yeah there's really no arguing against me being a girl when simply an audio file on the internet saying "you're a wonderful woman" makes me cry for 10 minutes
I initially thought this was some random meme video and clicked it for lulz...but then I saw the vid's length and that it was you who uploaded it. Now I realize that it's actually a serious video about transitioning, from what little I've seen so far!
I'm older than most of you. I've not transitioned medically, but finally allowed myself to tell my family I'm a girl inside, and my friends, acquaintances, the world, I've transitioned socially, and I am MUCH happier. I don't think I pass, but occasionally I get read as a girl, and what a delight. I definitely feared rejection, and still do, but I continually make effort to accept myself as a real girl, as an outwardly effeminate biological male, as a seeming crossdresser, now that I wear the clothes I've always wanted. Maybe I'm a bisexual girl, or a straight girl, or a lesbian girl, I cannot even answer those questions for myself. But I am a girl, I do know that much. I encourage everyone who wants to---just be a girl---if that's what you want. Being a girl makes me happy, I know that for certain.
Yeah I really needed to hear this so thanks ❤ I've known all my life. Finally managed to put it into words about how I felt at 13, now at 16 I've come out and socially transitioned and am currently trying to save money so I can move out and get my own wardrobe of what I want. Thought I was gay because I always liked believing that I was the girlfriend in the relationship, then listened to girl in red and the lyrics just made me smile and feel good deep down inside "you will be my girl" (don't remember the song title off the top of my head) but it just felt right. So to anyone else whose reading this in the future and us questioning themselves no matter how bad you feel right now you'll get through it, cause if I can everyone else can to. But to end on a slightly funnier and light hearted note I clicked on the video because I thought it was a witches curse where I go to sleep then suddenly wake up in the morning and am a cis gender woman. 😅😅😅
This video is reaching me just as my egg recently broke. I've spent 26 years in this body, in this identity, hating it every single day, feeling so revulsed by it that i've ended up being drawn to violence against this "self" that still today feels so foreign and invasive. I've referred to myself as being as good as dead already for years, but it turns out, maybe that's simply how far i've been able to drag this old inadequate skin, until now where I just have to discard it somehow. I used to inspect my own mental place by writing about a girl being able to visit it physically, that would try to repair all the damage that has been done there. At some point, a development emerged in my head where the boy character would be secretely terrified at the idea that he "invented" the girl, that she came from that same mental place that she investigates. This idea really stuck with me as a major problem in my story, but now that I have a clearer idea of what I am, I see : there's no reason to be terrified. Yes, that girl has been inside the whole time, but that doesn't mean she's not real. She was just silently developing until it was time to take it to the surface. I'm that girl, and I always have been. Watching informative/affirmation videos like this one are making me feel things that have grown so unusual to me that it has been kinda scary to be fair, i've even found tears in my eyes when it has become so hard for me to cry at all, no matter the circumstance. This is helping me alot to be more and more certain that this is the right thing for me, and I can't be thankful enough that those videos exist. Because in a way, they're helping me to be a person again, not just a husk that i have to drag in and out of bed every day, unable to enjoy anything. Thank you.
Even if it's not been up for debate if I'm a woman or not for a long while now. This kinda affirmation is so pleasant to hear. With how hard things are it's reinvigorating to listen to any kind of positivity
I think i get it now. Your videos are comforting not because they affirm a desire to be trans, but because they affirm the security i have with myself. I can listen to you telling me I'm a girl, and i don't feel shame or anxiety, or other reflexes someone might have who is in the closet. even though people have described me as more feminine than masculine i am perfectly comfortable in my body and my behavior. I don't need to be a girl to like cute things, to be cuddly or overly affectionate. trans rights empower all of us, not just trans people. + your voice is just super gentle and soothing
I just want to start by saying thank you! I really appreciate what you’re doing. As a trans woman I really want to listen to this video and hear your message, but my autism won’t let me. I tried a few times but only managed to make it a few minutes in. Despite that, what I did hear was wonderful! Please keep reminding girls like me that we belong!
As a transfem and a minor, this makes me extremely happy. Still currently watching this video but AGHHH i think i'll edit this comment after i transition :3
I clicked on the video, because everything inside me is aching to become a girl. I am terrified of transitioning and I am scared that I might obsess too much over it all, and end up being wrong. I've only ever questioned my gender after a situation a couple months ago were I was perceived feminin due to my long hair and bad lighting. I felt extremely happy. Looking for signs revealed a lot from my past saying that I always were trans, but there is still this nagging doubt that I might be gaslighting myself into just believing it. I wished I knew how to eliminate this last bit of doubt. I fear if I get vocal about it, that would lead to me getting the necessary steps to transitioning denied
Here's the test I use to confront the question of self-deception: -When you think about transitioning, is it from a desire to become someone else, or to be yourself? -How much money would somebody have to pay you to press a button that said "remain a man forever"? How does thinking about this make you feel? On your last line, fear of rejection understandable and a valid pain. I've only come to realize recently how much of my life I've spent just hiding away, trying to keep myself safe from ever being rejected or denied. It's cost me a lot of opportunities. I will say this: Any path that would deny you help just because you admit you need help was never a real path in the first place. I can't say you'll never face rejection or setbacks, but I do give you permission to go full "sour grapes" on them and look for another path. There's _always_ a way forwards.
@@HansLemurson To the questions: 1. I feel like I have always lived for others, in a way I would blend in, I would face close to no adversity. I view transition as a path to get back in touch with the parts of me I left long ago, picking up my pieces and feeling whole again, maybe even for the first time. While I know it is not a quick fix, many issues will remain and many will arise, I feel it is a necessary step. 2. I don't know... It feels like I'd be selling my chance of having a future. I know it wouldn't kill me, but it feels like it would kill an important part of me, or at least an important hope that keeps me going
@@glarak9819 It seems like you're pretty clear about what you need and want. (Not that I really had any doubts, but sometimes it's good to write your thoughts out clearly. Poorly formed ideas rarely survive the light of day.) Changing from "living for others" and giving yourself permission to do things for yourself is a difficult thing. Especially when it's from habits formed to protect yourself against outside attack. Trying to express yourself can feel vulnerable and terrifying, since you're letting your defenses down, showing what was hidden. Fear makes it easy to believe you are wrong when being right feels dangerous. If there's been any gaslighting, it's been in the other direction. "If I'm not permitted to do this, it must not be real!" But for what it's worth, this random internet stranger believes you and gives you permission to be yourself! (And replay from timestamp 19:55 as many times as you need.)
@@HansLemursonThank you. I've looked back at this conversation quite a bit the last couple of days. Even if you are a stranger on the internet. Those tokens of kindness mean a lot to me. I hope I can gather the courage to go forward despite any guarantee that it'll turn out fine. For what it's worth I am unsure if it is better to live for others and safe or for myself and possibly with a lot of dangers involved. Even when the first path is slowly eating me alive
@@glarak9819 I'm glad I can be of some help to you. Living for others can be noble, but remember that there's a reason that the instructions for oxygen masks in airplanes say "put on your own mask first". If you're not healthy and whole you can't be much help to others. Starving people can't donate blood. Your reservoirs of love can run low when you're not allowed to love yourself. Bravery can be very hard when you've been suppressing your own identity, when you don't know what cause you fight for. But remember that bravery is not the absence of fear (that is stupidity) but the ability to continue forwards even as you quiver and shake and your insides turn to jelly, because you know you're fighting for something even more important. To find that, try looking into a mirror, looking deep into your own eyes, and tell yourself "I'm a grown-ass woman, and I can make my own decisions." (Have a box of tissues handy.) You have permission to feel and permission to live.
I found this youtube channel a few days ago, this being my second listening. I have gone through a lot of your audios and they have really helped me. While i am still struggling and not 100% sure if i am trans yet, struggling more with accepting it than my friends and family probably will. Through these audios and a great trans person i know that allowed me to vent to her, i have mostly come to accept it though, and slowly but surely i am getting ready to start telling people. Part of me is still scared to let go of that boy living in blissful ignorance about his gender, and its not gonna be easy but i am slowly getting there
everything about this video is brilliant. it's very attention grabby for those who need it the most and you clearly speak out of experience. you're awesome, i love everything about this. thank you.
I am continuing my transition and once completed, I will click on this video again and be able to say that it worked! I have discovered that taking Hrt pills can create many different positive effects. If nothing else, it has already improved my overall health and well being. It took away certain repressive chest pains that I used to have, amongst other poor self standards of living that I used to endure. I have already gained a lot even if I never quite finish transitioning.
i’m a teenage trans girl. i started transitioning when i was 13-14 and while i suffer from depression it has made my life better. i love being a girl so much and this video was so amazing and validating ❤❤❤. thank you
Never more have I resonated with the words "you never got to pick your clothes, you never got to pick your friends" I never thought about presenting feminine in my youth, although I had expressed that I'd be happier as a girl, I dismissed the idea, because it felt "outlandish" Here we are, 12 years later, when it just ocurred to me again one day. I held that thought for two years, figuring out who I was very slowly, but sure enough the pieces fit, and then it hit me. It isn't about who I was, it's about who I am, and who I want to be. Thank you for making this video, I'm having trouble sleeping tonight, as tomorrow I will be getting an appointment to start HRT, after finishing the infinite quest of paperwork that my country requires.
I watched this video a few days ago because it made me realize that im trans and i can't thank you enough for this amazing video. Thank you also for the Euphoria Valley video (i forgot its name) that one made a brake down crying as i vividly imagined everything in that video happening once again thank you
Thank you so much for sharing you insights and experience, so much empathy and generosity of spirit you express for one so (relatively) young! As a late bloomer trans gal (only came out to myself in 2016 at age 56), I can tell you your thoughts about older transitioning are spot on; in my day we didn't really have the awareness or language to describe what we were going through. I did not have the experience of "knowing" and insisting I was a girl early on as you sometimes hear, but I always knew I was "different"; and in 20/20 adult hindsight I can see I had many, many hints as to what was going on. Transitioning has been the adventure of my lifetime. I love the woman I've become, I feel comfortable in my own skin now, and actually like what I see in the mirror for the first time in my life. I fall ever more in love each day with that girl I've discovered in that mirror.
I already knew who I was before clicking this video. I needed something affirming, this video was very helpful. I grew up having an easier time making friends with girls than boys, I was yelled at for playing with a friend's barbie dolls instead of her brother's GI Joe action figures. I was sent to conversation camp for trying on my mother's clothing, I was always interested in fashion and makeup. On a morning that got to be overwhelming this helped, thank you.
Sorry you had to experience so much hate, I hope this video helped you heal even if it's a small step it's still a step in healing, stay hydrated and know you are valid!
Clicked on this thinking it was a meme, stayed because your voice is oddly calming. I'm not really looking to transition, but it's still a nice video that someone needs to hear.
Im a guy, and I simply clicked because I was curious and about 90% sure this was going to be a meme. But I always have been feminine for a guy (at least for my country's standards). Not to mention, Ive been kind of moving towards becoming more of a femboy, but my gender is very much male. Not that I mind being called a girl, because to be honest, I dont (I used to, but now I dont). But I am still definitely a guy.
its funny you put Dawn as the image. ive always thought since i was young my chosen name would be Dawn. ive even lived as Dawn for a bit but i couldnt transition and since ive always left it as a desire in the back of my mind, but the planets seem to be aligning too much recently Wahaha! i know it deep down but we will have to see i supose, i wish it was as easy as clicking this video maybe thats why i did. thank you for these words i like your voice. i feel peaceful
ive always resonated harder with feminine things and the boy stuff always sorta put me off, i came out to myself and my friends about 2 weeks ago after denying it for years because it felt like too much work. ive never realized how much i love being a girl and sure it really sucks that im not there yet but i'm really hoping to get to where i wanna be, this video helped me so much in accepting that im just as much as a woman as anyone else, even though it took me so long to realize
That really sucks :/ same tho, so I can't really help. Sry. Maybe try little things? I have, but I've always done a lot of little things, so people are kinda used to it from me. Anyway, be safe, be as happy as you can find, do good for yourself, and have a good day. And eat a waffle.
Just have a few comments about the audio, #1: I appreciated it :D, like every bit of euphoria I can get lol. #2: coming out at only 12 is pretty admirable, so 🎉on that. #3: Good choice on Dawn lol, good character. secret #4: not really related to the video at all ig but a friend said I sounded like you lol (I personally don’t think so but :p) anyways thanks for reading, farewell now!
I'm glad you enjoyed the audio! I'm happy to hear that! I feel Dawn was the right pick for the thumbnail cause like, little kid me wanted to be her real bad LOL so I felt it was nice to make the thumbnail. Coming out at 12 was really tough but I'm proud of myself. Also If our voices are similar that's fun I think haha
I'm a cis man and I clicked thinking it was ironic because of the all capital title, but it wasn't, I watched like 5 minutes of it though, and this is probably gonna help someone (and looking at comments, already has) so I figured it'd be best to comment to help drive engagement
I've known since like 8th Grade, about 10 years now (oh wow 10 years now😳), but even after all this time, it still means a lot to hear something like this video, so thank you 💜
This is like the first comment I leave on a TH-cam video ever, I hope you see it Lucy even tho it's been like five months. I've started questionning last summer, but I've never had any problems as a boy before that. And since then I've watched a lot of trans related videos in the hope of relating to someone, anyone, but it never felt quite like my experience. You know, everyone tells you that you're valid but I've always doubted it since I couldn't find anyone I could relate to. Up until I found your channel today, and this video. That part where you say "even if you had no idea you wanted this until, even yesterday" around the 7:00 mark, this was the first time I've *actually* felt validated in my trans-ness. Like, me, *specifically me*, is valid in those feelings. It was like the weight of all my self-doubt and my impostor syndrome lifted from my shoulders, i couldn't stop crying for the rest of the video. I think this sentence single-handedly gave me the push I needed to accept myself, thank you a thousand times Lucy. I guess it's fair to say you're my hero, thank you thank you thank you!
That desire is something I felt so strongly in my early gender questioning. I just wanted someone to tell me what I am. I wanted a doctor to diagnose me, or a trans person to tell me if I'm trans or not since they've been through it and they would know, but the scary truth of the matter is that you are the only one with answers. No one else can tell you who you are inside. However, something that really helped me is a friend teaching me to find the courage to be wrong. To take a chance, put myself out there, declare myself as something new and accept that it's possible I could be wrong, and that there are no consequences to being wrong, that it can only lead you closer to the truth. I hesitated on declaring myself to be a girl for so long because I was afraid I'd be wrong, I was afraid I was making it up, and when I finally did declare myself to be a girl, I was still unsure, I was still scared, but it was important for me to declare regardless, because accepting the fact that it was possible I could be wrong let me move forward on a path, any path, even if it was the wrong one, though thankfully, I discovered as I walked along it that it was the right one for me. I can't tell you whether you're trans or not. I wish I could, but I can't. If you think it's a possibility, though, then try walking that path and see how you feel. If you realize it's not for you, then you still learned something from it, gained valuable new experiences, and you can return to the start, cross off that path, and pick a new one. Or, if you realize that it is the right path, then that's even better. Regardless of the outcome, know that you'll have people there to support you in figuring it out.
The thing that got me was realizing how much I thought about this sort of thing. Like, how many days of the week. And then I asked myself, what cis man thinks about this sort of stuff THIS MUCH 😅
I'm a guy, I like being a guy. But I've always liked feminine things, and I feel like if I was a girl I could express myself more.. I'm chaotic and I love running and shouting and screaming it makes me feel better but I feel like if i was a girl, doing everything I do would just feel better... there is no magic button to just become a female, but in the next life if there is one I hope I'm a girl 🖤🖤🖤
I'm not out. I've been thinking about this for a long time. If this video could magically do it, yes I'd want it to. Not sure why youtube recommended this to me, but I'm glad I did. you do not understand how comforting this was, and what it means. I wish I were a woman, I look nothing like one, but I'd love to be. Thanks for this...
@@fairyprincesslucy Your videos have really helped me open up and be honest with myself. thank you so much for them. Please stay as good and supportive as you are. It's so refreshing.
my (currently boy)friend saved this to his playlist of videos, conglomerate even, and we've been talking a lot about him possibly being transfem. i love him so much and am so happy to have a girlfriend if thats who he is. ❤ im transmasc myself, t4t sounds awesome!!! thank you for this amazing video, its so sweet and kind. i hope you have a wonderful lifetime, and to anyone reading this, you too :3
Whats a shame is that I had played the role of a little boy so well that there shouldve been no doubt Id grow into a good man. Even when I would daydream for several hours to capture an artifact that I only wanted as Itd turn me into a hot goth girl.. by that point I had even long convinced even myself into believing I was a boy. But now the only thing I want is to be one of the girls, and I wish I couldve done so from birth. My height used to be something I was proud of, now I wish every day I couldve stopped growing when I was a small child, as I was very fast to grow tall. If anyone reads this, I tell you two things. Do not give up. If your mind tells you it wants to be a girl, than it is your destiney to live as a girl from here on, and you will successfully do so. Secondary, do not listen when people talk of "trans women beating the cis women in sports" Ive made that mistake and all that does is give you doubt. Yet the last time I heard of it, the only evidence the guy could give was a single time a MENS high school rugby team beat a pro womens team in a quickmatch. Dont let someone who fails to understand what hormones are make you feel bad. Such people cannot keep you from your destiny
As a child i was kinda gender apathetic. There were signs that i was not a boy but they were ignored because it wasn't a huge deal until puberty. One of the things that i remember is when my sexuality first was developing i often fantasized about my future relationship(s)... and while many things changed from dream to dream, a few things seemed to stay consistent, i was always with another girl, we were carefree, and we took turns having babies... it wasn't until much later that i discovered boys couldn't give birth... i was devistated... probably spent the better part of 2-3 years apathetic to life despite regularly finding myself interested in what other girls were doing and i was beginning to realize just how often people made fun of me because of the feminine way i tended to act, (i giggled, i instinctively crossed my legs, and skipped and while I wasn't as elegant as I am now i found my regular resting positions emulated the other girls. I was called gay regularly despite not being attracted to boys or showing any signs that I was. (Spoiler alert: i was gay af i was just a girl;p) my first sign, although I didn't see it as a sign until I was in high school, was watching Mulan.... something about her seemed relatable in a way that I wasn't interested in exploring because i was like a 6 year old tomboy and accepted that it was just my favorite movie 😊 Puberty was the nail in the coffin tho.. it didn't hit me very hard(thank God), but every subsequent change made me dislike it more and more until i broke during my first semester of college. I was trying to convince myself that either id get over it or i could at least make it through a 4 year degree and have the money to fix things... and here i am 8isg years later struggling to stay motivated to be awake most days and getting the hot potato treatment as i try to find where i should go from here... the only thing that ive accomplished is ive learned my esthetic and how to make due with my androgeny... and ive managed to stay alive despite burning myself out... and im reletively wise when it comes to internal things despite not having the confidence to say it with my voice...
I know this is probably weird but I'm going to make this video a mark for me, when I fully transition and I'm happy in my body I'll come back to this video to this comment and see what pasted me said and was like... 2023 December 9, I want my name to be Lizz, I'm 16 and I've hated my body for a long time now, I first did a trans thing and make a version of myself that was literally just me as a girl when I was 6. And I hope that when I come back to this video I can say that I've become who I am and not who people see me as... Love you all see you in a long time ...
Thank you. This showed up days after i finally "cracked the egg" and came out to my childhood friend. Im 26, and had been worried that i was too late, that it would be to difficult for me now, and ofc living in the good old USA, so even when coming out i was scared. But this was so reaffirming, and i jeeded to hear this. I hope to start HRT at the beginning of the year.
4:35 "its not about how miserable you are as a boy; its about how much happier you think you'd be as a girl" when i decided to listen to this audio back in may of this year, that was the exact moment that my egg cracked. thank you for helping me realize that im trans
This video might be a turning point for me in my transition because it uncovered a lot of buried memories that show i wanted to be a girl for a really long time. I haven’t shed tears because of TH-cam ever but this video made me cry to myself
thinking back, there were some hints from before i even knew of the LGBT+ community. at 15 or smth "boobs are great, what would it feel like to have some?" followed by "but that wont happen... but what if it did?" and things like "what would it feel like to be pregnant" that even before 15 actually. im 20 now, still closeted to my family (they are supportive and i even have a sister who figured it out for herself before me, its just... idk, my egg fully cracked literally yesterday and i dont feel ready to come out yet) i identified as agender for like 2 months (also closeted) because i certainly knew i wasnt a boy, and im still not sure if i am a full on girl or somewhere on the enby spectrum. i love your audios, they give me the feeling of being valid (even though i know i am, im in so many trans fem communities where everyone says im valid, idk why your videos hit different) thank you for making them and ill be sure to listen to this multiple times, because i need it 💚🖤 it also takes like 9 months to be eligible for HRT over here so thats another roadblock... 22:00 yes, please, right now
9 months may seem like an eternity in the moment, but as you enter the "adult time warp" it will pass sooner than you think. The sooner you get started, the sooner you can begin. Try to think of some sort of ambition, quest, or project to focus on so you don't go stir-crazy while you fight the slow battle with bureaucracy over the next year.
That’s so sweet❤️ I really needed to hear that, even as a straight cis guy. Thank you! I clicked on this expecting it to be a meme Video tbh, but this is actually really wholesome 😭 Also Girls that play Video Games are amazing!
I'm a trans guy and I clicked on this out of curiosity thinking it would be a silly meme and i was going to be like "MY MASCULINITY!!! NOOOOO" but this is actually really sweet. To anyone reading this, if you feel comfortable being a girl, then you're a girl. And you are AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL. Have a nice day
Thanks dude!! I hope you get your fair share of affirmation too bro, you deserve it!
This is what real men do and say.
@@rodicow3491 YAY
@@OmeletteGirl awww, thanks to you too
So did I lol XD
Omg that “it’s not how bad you feel as a boy, it’s about how good you feel as a girl” made me cry, beautiful words!
Same 🥹💖🫂
God it made me cry too like.. what the heck are all these line that are the exact things I need to hear lol
Yeah exactly, I can see how a trans egg would be like “I don’t feel bad as a guy, so I can’t be trans” but that’s not how it works, I mean sure feeling bad as a guy could be a big reason to transition, but it’s not the only reason to do so, a good analogy I saw is “I didn’t eat the burger (transitioning) because I was starving (dysphoria), I ate it because it was yummy (euphoria)”
Same🥲
@@Blaczoltliterally been feeling that exact way. I keep feeling like I’ve been fooling myself for questioning my gender identity because I didn’t hate being a man my entire life but when she said it’s not about how bad you feel as a boy it’s about how good you’ll feel as a girl like that really hit me
Allegedly I am already a girl but being told I’m a girl always feels nice
You are a girl then! And being told you are can feel nice! I still love being affirmed haha even after all this time! stay hydrated and know you are valid
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Whew, sorry I couldn’t stop myself
Girl ++ acquired
@@skojdotcom5379 unlocking new tiers in the girl skill tree
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Hey you, reading the comments! It's worth it. I didn't transition until I was 30 and it's been more than worth the struggle along the way. You can do it, girl!
Proud of you and everyone else with their journeys
WAIT IM 30 THO
Oh good that means i have 11 years left to take that step
I started transitioning at 24. My only regret about it is not acting on it sooner
Thanks mom. Preciate the comfort
I’m a cis guy, not trans but it’s honestly really nice to hear this, not needing to conform to what society says a “man” should do and I’m free to express myself how I want to. Stand tall all my trans friends out there, I love ya!
The exact same case here. Clicked on the video out of curiosity, and found it really touching. Unless they go around hurting others, people shoud be proud of whoever they are.
valid
Im a biological man and im totally ok and happy with that. I just dont want society to define my gender identity. So i guess you could say im no binary or whatever, the term is not important for me. I am me.
I like some "girly" things but many "manly" things aswell. My identity is like somewhere in between a girl and a boy. Some day i will have the courage to wear some girls clothes since i think they are beautiful🥰
@@sal7024same! I've been thinking I might be transfem, but eventually landed somewhere in-between and it's comfortable here. Just gotta find the courage to express it little by little!
@@kefir321 Yey! Good luck on your journey to discovering more things about yourself and expressing yourself! 🥰
Okay this audio has been chosen by the algorithm i think whoa! Hello new people!!! If you wanna see more audios be sure to subscribe
hiii i’m a month late but OMG IM A FUCKING GIRL I DIDNT EVEN KNOW UNTIL LIKE A FEW MONTHS AGO
This video made me cry tears of joy. Thank you. ❤🏳️⚧️❤️
read Parenti >:3
I am mentally in pain . I think I have dysphoria. i will do anything in my ability to biologically female.
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I had an unaliving attempt last Wednesday and I got out of the hospital today. This brought me to tears because I’m a trans woman. This is so validating and beautiful 😢 thank you
Sorry to hear what happened :( I don't know your full situation but I want you to know that I am glad you are here
do you mean suicide attempt, wtf is unalive
@@JohnnyHibner yeh, it has actually become a very common synonym because many platforms don't allow such explicit language to be posted/commented
@@JohnnyHibner yeah, a suicide attempt. do you not understand English?
I’m sorry to hear that you went through that but I’m glad you came back from it
The dysphoria has been hitting hard lately and is making me question whether or not I actually am trans, or just a femboy, but I do know this helps so very much, so thank you.
I'm glad this audio helps even if its just a little bit, stay hydrated and know you are valid!
Idk if ur still questioning yourself but if you are here’s my advice if you want it if your thinking are you trans or just a femboy then just become a femboy for a bit because that can be undone at any point and once you’ve done that then see how you feel if you feel being one is too far then ur probably neither if it feels right then stay a femboy if it feels like it’s not enough then ur most likely trans
have you tried being a girl and a femboy? Like would you be happy as both a girl and a femboy if so what is stopping you. society well fuck society. Reject reality and substitute your own.
Trust me, if you're afraid of not being a trans girl, than I think that's a pretty strong case for actually being a girl
I love you and have a great day!
this is too relatable ngl
DRATS! FOILED AGAIN.
(one of these days i will find the video thats going to magically give me the body i want)
Literally why I clicked this video "maybe this one will work"
One day we shall achieve our goal, one day.
soon enough lass'es, soon enough
if you find it send a link please!!!,!
99% OF TRANS GIRLS JUST GIVE UP AND ACTUALLY TAKE REAL STEPS TO TRANSITIONING BEFORE THEY FIND THE AUDIO THAT ACTUALLY JUST MAGICALLY WORKS!!!!
recently, finally accepted that I’m a trans girl. I’m still very closeted and I only have a few friends who know about it so its really nice to have these affirmative videos. thank you
update:
I’ve been on HRT for a little over two months now and as hard as it has been with so many things in my life changing, I don’t think I’ve been this happy in a long time. to anyone reading this and going through hard times, things can and will get better. thank you again.
I'm glad they help
This is the best and most helpful "clickbait" ive ever seen
We love some affirming clickbait hahaha, but everyone clicking likely already was a girl so....teeechnically it's not clickbait lol
I'm 17 and have basically concluded that I have no choice but to come out to someone atp, I'm just scared that people will not believe me or get it. I've felt it young, with early memories in grade 2, 7 years old but whenever I expressed myself feminine I wouldn't be taken seriously. I've tried a lot to run from these thoughts over the years but they just keep following me. and since puberty started, it's been my biggest insecurity, secret and has put me through hell, I've had times on and off where I hopeless and really low mood because I knew I could never be myself. I've started referring to myself as "Julia" in my head and it does make me feel better but do get anxious that I might somehow slip up and respond to that name whenever I hear it or something like that.
You deserve to live authentically as ghe gender you feel more comfy as. People are often mean and don't take these experiences seriously but know that overtime you'll meet people that'll see you for you. Don't give up okay
@@fairyprincesslucy tysm 😭I'm hesitant telling people because it's hard to explain and people have this weird expectation of trans people. Some people always bring up bottom surgery as the first topic of trans people and I feel uncomfortable talking about it. I'm scared that people will keep asking me that question and won't take me seriously until I say I'd do it which makes me feel weird. Anyway, it feels good to have a supportive community online with people who have gone through the same thing as me, and where I feel safe being myself ❤
@@dodleblob people have very rigid images of 'a trans person' I've been living as a woman for like nearly a decade and I haven't had surgery ( I might in future just undecided as of now )
You don't need to fit boxes to be trans. And you can choose who you tell and when
Stay strong Julia, you are loved ❤
My best advice, come out to another trans person. Makes it easier (atleast for me)
Not long before I saw this in my suggested I was telling my cat about how I feel like a girl on the inside. And I know I'm not like other cis or trans girls, but that's okay. Because I can be my own kind of girl. I wish I realised this sooner, instead burying my feelings for not having dysphoria and feeling fine being a boy. And fine is fine, but being a girl would make me more than fine and this past week has showed me that.
You don't have to be like cis and trans girls around you
PREACH SISTER PREACH!!
I’ve always seen people venting on them not being able to look at themselves, and although I’m fine with my body, I’d just feel better if it had been a females.
I just figured that this was just a weird feeling that I’d grow out of, but if it sticks with me some more than I could say for the long-term that I am transfem.
But I always thought you had to feel some “ick” about your body, and hate yourself to do so.
Reading this hit way close to home, because it’s near exactly what I’m feeling. I don’t feel dysphoria towards my body, but sometimes I take a good look at myself and go “man, this would’ve been better had I been a girl.”
I’d just feel more comfortable and “me” if I were a girl, although my male body is “ok” with me as well.
This really made me feel better, thank you.
I relate with this a lot. For basically my whole life aside from my vague early childhood memories I've been living... "fine" (in my early 30's now). It made my emotions flat most of the time, once or twice even I can remember almost breaking down for feeling like a robot or alien, but for the most part I've managed... But I do wish I could have just accepted being a girl about a decade ago when I first questioned my gender identity. I thought I'd make for a terrible girl (I'm a very boyish girl) so I decided to just live as a guy and bottle everything away. Part of me rationalised it away by telling myself that everyone has something they would change about themselves.
I've only recently accepted myself and came out to most of my family and friends. Still haven't done much in the form of transitioning, but the acceptance I've been lucky enough to have has been so overwhelming I feel like an idiot for not embracing it sooner.
I started to transition @ 47, I am 55 now and my biggest regret was not transitioning when I was younger. Its been the best 7 years of my life!!! Live your life, not the life others want you to.
Only then will you be able to find true happiness and contentment. I was the women I was looking for! It was not easy or pain free. How I feel is Priceless 🙂you got this girlfriend!
Yesterday, I put on my makeup, earrings and perfume. Then, I dawned on my skirt and a cute top. With my nails painted in pretty pink and hair in ponytails; I went out and took care of my weekly errands. This was my first time going out as a girl and I'm now 60. For the first time in my life, I truly felt happy, and at peace. More than that, when I looked in the mirror; for the first time in my life I felt like me.
From trans woman to girl.... Which means I have gotten younger.... So long as this video is here I shall be ETERNAL!!!!! Mwahahahaha
Hey miss. I'm a trans woman, and I've been struggling with accepting that since I just felt that with all my tendencies and all my masculine traits, maybe I'm not actually trans and I'm just being dumb. I think this video really helped me realize I'm still a girl despite acting more like a masculine characature. Thank you. You've been very nice to listen to. Hopefully maybe me and my wife will get outta this rut. I hope your life will be well.
This comment was so nice to read also, I've been feeling the same 🥹
I am currently a teenager, and I have no idea how I discovered it, but I first knew about a year ago that I was trans. I at first dismissed the idea, and locked it up in the back of my head for a while. I kept getting the feeling that I didn't like who I was, and hated my strong-ish muscles and more masculine clothes. Day by day it just kept getting worse and worse until I decided to do something about it. I told a friend who knew that they were trans and they were so supportive and nice. I kept realizing that nothing would happen if i didn't do anything, so I made a leap of faith and told my family and friends. I never could have expected a better result. Everyone was just so nice and supportive, and I am currently waiting to go to the doctor to get a referral. I didn't think I would ever get this far, and that it would be this welcoming. I don't really know what to say. It is just amazing that people are so nice.
No matter what some people say, the people who make content like this (including you) are literally angels.
Thank you for providing a safe and cozy space for people to express themselves. ❤💖❤️💖❤️
a few weeks ago I was hit with the realization that, infact, cis people dont REALLY wish they were the opposite sex and I've been in denial about being trans since (probably before then, honestly) and this video has helped so much. thank you for making this available to everyone
Glad you enjoyed! Self discovery is tricky but I'm proud of your progress! Do what feels right! Stay hydrated and know you are valid
"If you already know who you are"
Why do I simultaneously feel so called out and also feeling like I can't relate at the same time? xD
maybe you are at an inbetween point of not knowing and knowing? Its often not quite linear haha. You'll figure it out
I‘m crying because of this video
That „you don’t need to feel dysphoria, it’s about the euphoria“ part really hit me
Disphoria is common but sometimes the individuals are gender apathetic to their current sex. I was before puberty.
I'm 24 and I started questioning at 19. it was kind of a nightmare honestly. I felt like I had completely lost sense of who I was or who I wanted to be. Coming to the conclusion "I am trans" was unbelievably difficult for me. I spent months of not a full year just ignoring or in some cases denying the possibility; it was something I could not imagine. I think that's a big thing a lot of people don't understand or think about. You don't just wake up one morning and say "oh I'm a girl now hehe." It's a long process of questioning and confusion in what I can only call a gender crisis.
I like to tell myself there were no signs, but they were there. I often looked at dresses and skirts thinking "what would it be like to wear them? Why can't I wear them? Why is that a rule?" I had an interest in purses, I still do. One time as a young child I tried painting my nails. They looked terrible because I didn't know what I was doing, but I didn't mind it. The other kids made fun of me for it, and I think that's the only reason I removed it. Nowadays I paint my nails often, and now I wonder what younger me would have thought.
I'm not sure what the point of my comment exactly is haha. I guess I just wanted to share my experience. I really appreciate this video
I'm 18 and consider myself 'questioning' since about six months ago. 'Gender crisis' is an excellent way of putting it. Realizing and accepting you've never really been comfortable with your gender your entire life is terrible. A certain event broke the tipping point and made me really consider the possibility of transitioning, and it has simply stuck like glue to my consciousness. I've been bombarded with thoughts and questions, cravings and wishes that seem new, but also as if they had always been there buried. I've had crisis of rejecting and accepting my desire to be the opposite gender several times, trying to rationalize it away, etc. Couple that with an intense introvertedness and social anxiety and well....even accepting the wish internally, I still face an unsurmountable difficulty in actually coming out to anyone, and I often wonder if just supressing it forever would be less of a mental toll on me. Having to deal with social rejection, or the pressure of having to look enough like the opposite gender in public, fear of being judged and receiving hate, it's all seems so stressful I cry thinking about it. The path to my happiness is filled with rocks and spikes and I'm not sure I'm ready for it.
as a trans girl that questions my transness a lot, this was incredible and I cried a lot~
I'm glad you enjoyed it
We felt the same, girl, but I can't show my feelings due to strict education
I so feel ya girl! Imposter syndrome can hit hard at times but remember it's just usually born out of a combination of our own dysphoria and societal imposed expectations etc. Damn! I wish I could heed my own advice sometimes lol
I've never clicked on a video faster in my life xd
also, thank you so much for this, it's really comforting to listen too.
whoa you were fast!! I'm so happy to hear you are enjoying it! glad it gives comforting vibes
Not me crying reading the comments 😭 I recently learned that cis people indeed do not wish that they were a girl and finally learned that this is something that is actually a thing i can do (thanks Bridget from guilty gear lol). I just constantly worry that im wrong and that im just being idk wrong about myself. Thankfully the two people I have told (my closest friend and my partner) have been really supportive of me and I couldn’t be more grateful. I worry about telling my sister or my parents but that will be a while from now. Im just going to take things one step at a time. So all i can imagine thank you for this wonderful audio!
Much thanks from some random person!
I really needed this right now. Thank you! 🏳️⚧️
glad it could help
As a trans girl who is othered by family and unable to transition and othered by society, this made me cry. I really wish things could be different and i feel more dysphoric and rejected everyday but things like this give me strength to not give up on my life entirely. Thank you.
Seeing validation videos like these and the comments and peoples stories are heart warming and pure. I wanted to open up my personal story.
I am a guy (30 yo, 31 in a month) who doesn't feel to have gender dysmorphia, but there've been small moments I felt growing up and to this day that are experiences similar to some things mentioned, which did make me wonder about my identity super briefly before ADHD moved on to the next thing. I was the boy who hung out with the girls, cuz I liked hanging out with the girls a lot more than I did with the boys. I felt a lot more comfortable being in the company with ladies than I am with dudes, just in general. It also occured to me that I ran into most of my problems growing up with dudes. I figured it was cuz I am straight and just like girls, and the guys are all toxic.
One of my favorite memories in elementary school was these girls one day where doing this little song dance thing during recess, I didn't know what to call it, didn't know how to ask what it was, just in the moment though I had fun. The words would stick with me for the rest of my life, "Misses Sally Walker walking down the street. (Beep Beep) She couldn't find her partner so she stopped in front of me." Though for me they changed it to Mister, but I didn't mind it. Just thought it was funny they let me in on the girls game, as I'm very positive they thought the same as well. I also remember this because not long before on a previous day, I did try to play with the boys, who would be playing this massive game of football ("American rugby", to clarify if needed) every single day that nobody really explained or coordinated. Nobody explained the rules, and hearing the teams plan was a first come first serve thing since nobody waited for the 20+ member team to huddle up. I figured I didn't want to get into playing sports after that.
Also throughout my life in video games, I've always gravitated to playing female characters, cuz ladies are hot. This would especially be when its from a series that you normally would only play alloted to play a guy (Pokemon Ruby, Fable II, Assassins Creed... Still waiting on Zelda gosh darnit.) I was afraid of being seen as catfishing in MMOs since that's like this whole issue online and stuff, especially on roleplaying servers, and I've always had the anxiety of letting someone down, so I would have ghosted/deleted characters and made new if things got way too personal, and if i got uncomfortable (internet safety 101 for a minor really helped.)
There was this one time I played on XBOX, think it was CoD Modern Warfare 2. was in a voice call with some random players. I was pre-puberty so my voice was high pitched, and it weirded these two guys out so much that I sounded like a girl to them despite saying "no I'm a guy." they were like "I uh gotta go so uh yeah. I hope you have a good day, sir or madam" and I couldn't help but remain silent stunned or laugh nervously which made it sound like giggling, which didn't help the situation. I also get called ma'am a lot at drive throughs, even post puberty.
Right now I am 30 years old, happily married to my ace wife, and recently I've been having a lot of hindsights about my childhood after interacting with gender nonconforming friends, and the YT Algorithm doing its thing showing me more trans stuff recently. It occured to me that it would be believable for me to go down this path. This is especially so after this past year where I've been having thoughts about just how cute I'd be in certain outfits that I've seen recently, if my body shape were female. There was one set of novelty(?) clothes at the grocery store over the holidays where it sorta looked like this christmas elf overalls worker outfit but either the mannican or the outfit itself had like this really big butt (for SOME reason.) I had thought how cute/sexy I'd be in this tacky outfit without the undershirt on, but then I noticed the outfit was also meant for someone like 5'4" and I'm a solid 6'0". First time i took a picture of female clothing like that. And then literally today as I was scrolling through my YT feed waiting for things at work to come up there was this freakin adorable Sunflower Dress from like whatever site it was, on a female form that was just looked absolutely perfect for me! (Though admittedly I think the form wouldn't be my ideal since advertisers try to make their works be as appealing as possible, it did remind me of how i imagined what my ideal female body image would be if I were to transition. I can go into that but this is already really long RIP)
I got some pretty good signs to be trans fem. However, I have my own personal reasons why I don't wish to transition. I know there's ways to get around this one thing, but one thing that would be a big indicator is my hairline. Its been expected of me to lose my hair on account both my grandfathers were bald. I've come to accept baldness when it comes to me naturally (got a few more years tho i think) cuz I always thought that monastic monk look was always cool.
But yeah, thank you for doing this video, and reading my story if you found the time to. There were a lot more things that resonated with me than I realized. I think the earliest possible idea of having theoretical trans thoughts for me would also be 8 or 10 years, though I never actually reflected on ANYTHING (past or future, and just stuff in general) until I was I think 14. I was more worried about being with a/(any) girl and not being a creepo about how to talk to them with raging hormones as opposed to being one. I wish I lived in an area were LGBTQ wasn't super stigmatized. The idea of me being trans would likely happen a lot sooner. It was a sexual fantasy to imagine being my opposite gender, which it wasn't until much, MUCH later I sorta realized transition doesn't have to be sexually motivated - at all. If more people realize this, I think more people would be even more welcoming.
❤thank you again
Normally when I see suggested videos it takes me a couple days, but the immediate jump this video gave me was undescribable lmao. Thank you for doing your part in helping people accept themselves ^-^ Keep doing you
This is one of the nicest thing I've ever heard and just thank you so much for this.
I'm just over a year in my transition but so much has been going on and it's just felt exhausting, and I think I've sort of forgotten how to be myself, as a girl.
This was very gender affirming and just aaaaa again thanks so much for this im sure you helped so many other people too with this audio I'm sending this to my closted trans friend cause I think she really needs to hear this too.
Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it! It means a lot! Glad it could help
Trans girl here, been transitioning for a year and while I know I’m a woman and accept myself it’s nice to have videos like this to hear if anything as a reminder when I don’t feel so great. Thank you for your kindness 💜🏳️⚧️
I realized I’m a trans girl recently and I love it. My name is Sam, birth name is Samuel but I prefer Sam all together as it sounds girlier. People like you who make these kind of videos makes me happy. Thank you! The mere idea of me waking up as the girliest girl and my sister calling me her sister is so amazing, and estrogen is already working wonders. :3 💙💙🙋♀️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️
Lots of aspects of being a girl locked away for 55 years. Releasing the inner person is a creative act, and a discovery, but it helps to have your affirming message. Thanks. ps I just fell asleep to your sleepover track, you have a gift!
Hi lucy, I found your channel a couple days ago and as a trans women just starting her transition, your channel as been an amazing source of euphoria and validation, and I just want to thank you for all that you do. Love you 💜.
awww thank you so much! sorry that I missed this comment somehow! I am really happy what I make is able to help you on your journey! stay hydrated and know you are valid!
I'm 14, and live in arguably one of the least accepting parts of my country. I realized I was trans around 7 months ago. I've been uncomfortable with my body as long as I can remember, but 7 months ago was when the internalized transphobia left to the point that I was able to consider it. I came out a few months ago to part of my family. One person was accepting. The rest provided *counterarguments* and keep trying to affirm whatever masculinity they can find in me.
As a result of this, I've had to just hide myself and *not think* about my dysphoria for months. This self-censorship has led to my identity itself fading away. I haven't felt euphoria for months. This wasn't living, this was surviving.
All that to say, thank you for making this video. Something I just offhandedly clicked turned into the first little ping of euphoria I've felt in what feels like forever. No longer is that part of me fading away slowly.
I came out when I was 12 so I was def in a similar "stage of life" when I came out, a lot of people weren't supportive sadly. I can relate to feeling like you have to be someone else just to avoid people arguing.
Just know that who you are is valid and you DESERVE to live how you want to live. If you feel better as a girl, you are one. No one can argue that. Even if people are unaccepting, you'll find a way to be yourself! It won't be easy but I believe in you okay! I really needed someone to say something like that to be early on. It took a long time, but I think right now I'm living authentically as myself
@@fairyprincesslucy Thank you for that and for making this!!!
i just saw the mirror (havent started hrt yet) so i really needed this
i'm going through puberty and just recently been figuring this stuff out. i dont know who you are but thank you soo much. you dont understand. i havent cried for sooo long but this video got my tears streaming out like ariver. thank you for making this. it feels like my entire brain has been turned upside down and its terrifying. i love it. the plushie i've been clinging to this half hour is soaking wet.
sincerely thank you
ty for making these videos hearing affirmation is always nice even if it can be a little scary to think of my gender identity sometimes.
theres prob a reason i keep listening to these and maybe im a bit scared to admit it to myself fully,
but i will do my best to be myself just as everyone else should
doing your best is important
its sad that this isnt told to people more often its very validating to hear this thank you.
Also this year was so bad so its nice to hear this the only amazing thing that truly impacted my life in a positive way is getting on E and i was gonna write the bad stuff to but im tired of pondering on it im about 4 months in i would rather think about that it makes me happy :)
Dont forget about the hard things in life but dont let them drown u im trying to not let them drown me its very hard but u can do it
its possible :)
also so many good games came out this year that is another thing to be happy about
This literally made me cry. I feel so seen omg! Thank you so much for this video, your voice is so pretty!
I don't normally listen to ASMR vids, but I needed this. The last year has been a mess of not knowing what I am doing & this makes it feel more bearable, like I'm not so out of place.
Thank you.
8 months into hrt, but imposter syndrome (or maybe the far fetched hope that this would be some miraculous magic video that would make transition instant) made me click this, but yeah there's really no arguing against me being a girl when simply an audio file on the internet saying "you're a wonderful woman" makes me cry for 10 minutes
I initially thought this was some random meme video and clicked it for lulz...but then I saw the vid's length and that it was you who uploaded it.
Now I realize that it's actually a serious video about transitioning, from what little I've seen so far!
Legit thought this was like a meme or something 😂
hats off too you folks who have had the guts for your transition but imma head out
I'm older than most of you. I've not transitioned medically, but finally allowed myself to tell my family I'm a girl inside, and my friends, acquaintances, the world, I've transitioned socially, and I am MUCH happier. I don't think I pass, but occasionally I get read as a girl, and what a delight. I definitely feared rejection, and still do, but I continually make effort to accept myself as a real girl, as an outwardly effeminate biological male, as a seeming crossdresser, now that I wear the clothes I've always wanted. Maybe I'm a bisexual girl, or a straight girl, or a lesbian girl, I cannot even answer those questions for myself. But I am a girl, I do know that much. I encourage everyone who wants to---just be a girl---if that's what you want. Being a girl makes me happy, I know that for certain.
Yeah I really needed to hear this so thanks ❤
I've known all my life. Finally managed to put it into words about how I felt at 13, now at 16 I've come out and socially transitioned and am currently trying to save money so I can move out and get my own wardrobe of what I want.
Thought I was gay because I always liked believing that I was the girlfriend in the relationship, then listened to girl in red and the lyrics just made me smile and feel good deep down inside "you will be my girl" (don't remember the song title off the top of my head) but it just felt right.
So to anyone else whose reading this in the future and us questioning themselves no matter how bad you feel right now you'll get through it, cause if I can everyone else can to.
But to end on a slightly funnier and light hearted note I clicked on the video because I thought it was a witches curse where I go to sleep then suddenly wake up in the morning and am a cis gender woman. 😅😅😅
proud of you! you are doing it! it'll get easier overtime too
This video is reaching me just as my egg recently broke. I've spent 26 years in this body, in this identity, hating it every single day, feeling so revulsed by it that i've ended up being drawn to violence against this "self" that still today feels so foreign and invasive. I've referred to myself as being as good as dead already for years, but it turns out, maybe that's simply how far i've been able to drag this old inadequate skin, until now where I just have to discard it somehow.
I used to inspect my own mental place by writing about a girl being able to visit it physically, that would try to repair all the damage that has been done there. At some point, a development emerged in my head where the boy character would be secretely terrified at the idea that he "invented" the girl, that she came from that same mental place that she investigates. This idea really stuck with me as a major problem in my story, but now that I have a clearer idea of what I am, I see : there's no reason to be terrified. Yes, that girl has been inside the whole time, but that doesn't mean she's not real. She was just silently developing until it was time to take it to the surface. I'm that girl, and I always have been.
Watching informative/affirmation videos like this one are making me feel things that have grown so unusual to me that it has been kinda scary to be fair, i've even found tears in my eyes when it has become so hard for me to cry at all, no matter the circumstance. This is helping me alot to be more and more certain that this is the right thing for me, and I can't be thankful enough that those videos exist. Because in a way, they're helping me to be a person again, not just a husk that i have to drag in and out of bed every day, unable to enjoy anything. Thank you.
Even if it's not been up for debate if I'm a woman or not for a long while now. This kinda affirmation is so pleasant to hear.
With how hard things are it's reinvigorating to listen to any kind of positivity
Sometimes we need the affirmation and that's okay
I think i get it now. Your videos are comforting not because they affirm a desire to be trans, but because they affirm the security i have with myself. I can listen to you telling me I'm a girl, and i don't feel shame or anxiety, or other reflexes someone might have who is in the closet. even though people have described me as more feminine than masculine i am perfectly comfortable in my body and my behavior. I don't need to be a girl to like cute things, to be cuddly or overly affectionate.
trans rights empower all of us, not just trans people. + your voice is just super gentle and soothing
This makes me feel warm and fuzzy
Thank you for this
thank you for listening to this
I just want to start by saying thank you! I really appreciate what you’re doing. As a trans woman I really want to listen to this video and hear your message, but my autism won’t let me. I tried a few times but only managed to make it a few minutes in. Despite that, what I did hear was wonderful! Please keep reminding girls like me that we belong!
Thank you. This really helped. Cryed like a baby, but now I'm feeling better. Now I will get myself some water to stay hydrated.
We love some water
I’m so glad I stumbled onto this.
I recently began questioning my gender and this has helped so much.
As a transfem and a minor, this makes me extremely happy. Still currently watching this video but AGHHH
i think i'll edit this comment after i transition :3
I clicked on the video, because everything inside me is aching to become a girl.
I am terrified of transitioning and I am scared that I might obsess too much over it all, and end up being wrong. I've only ever questioned my gender after a situation a couple months ago were I was perceived feminin due to my long hair and bad lighting. I felt extremely happy. Looking for signs revealed a lot from my past saying that I always were trans, but there is still this nagging doubt that I might be gaslighting myself into just believing it. I wished I knew how to eliminate this last bit of doubt. I fear if I get vocal about it, that would lead to me getting the necessary steps to transitioning denied
Here's the test I use to confront the question of self-deception:
-When you think about transitioning, is it from a desire to become someone else, or to be yourself?
-How much money would somebody have to pay you to press a button that said "remain a man forever"? How does thinking about this make you feel?
On your last line, fear of rejection understandable and a valid pain. I've only come to realize recently how much of my life I've spent just hiding away, trying to keep myself safe from ever being rejected or denied. It's cost me a lot of opportunities.
I will say this: Any path that would deny you help just because you admit you need help was never a real path in the first place. I can't say you'll never face rejection or setbacks, but I do give you permission to go full "sour grapes" on them and look for another path. There's _always_ a way forwards.
@@HansLemurson To the questions:
1. I feel like I have always lived for others, in a way I would blend in, I would face close to no adversity. I view transition as a path to get back in touch with the parts of me I left long ago, picking up my pieces and feeling whole again, maybe even for the first time. While I know it is not a quick fix, many issues will remain and many will arise, I feel it is a necessary step.
2. I don't know... It feels like I'd be selling my chance of having a future. I know it wouldn't kill me, but it feels like it would kill an important part of me, or at least an important hope that keeps me going
@@glarak9819 It seems like you're pretty clear about what you need and want. (Not that I really had any doubts, but sometimes it's good to write your thoughts out clearly. Poorly formed ideas rarely survive the light of day.)
Changing from "living for others" and giving yourself permission to do things for yourself is a difficult thing. Especially when it's from habits formed to protect yourself against outside attack. Trying to express yourself can feel vulnerable and terrifying, since you're letting your defenses down, showing what was hidden. Fear makes it easy to believe you are wrong when being right feels dangerous. If there's been any gaslighting, it's been in the other direction. "If I'm not permitted to do this, it must not be real!"
But for what it's worth, this random internet stranger believes you and gives you permission to be yourself! (And replay from timestamp 19:55 as many times as you need.)
@@HansLemursonThank you. I've looked back at this conversation quite a bit the last couple of days. Even if you are a stranger on the internet. Those tokens of kindness mean a lot to me. I hope I can gather the courage to go forward despite any guarantee that it'll turn out fine. For what it's worth I am unsure if it is better to live for others and safe or for myself and possibly with a lot of dangers involved. Even when the first path is slowly eating me alive
@@glarak9819 I'm glad I can be of some help to you.
Living for others can be noble, but remember that there's a reason that the instructions for oxygen masks in airplanes say "put on your own mask first". If you're not healthy and whole you can't be much help to others. Starving people can't donate blood. Your reservoirs of love can run low when you're not allowed to love yourself.
Bravery can be very hard when you've been suppressing your own identity, when you don't know what cause you fight for. But remember that bravery is not the absence of fear (that is stupidity) but the ability to continue forwards even as you quiver and shake and your insides turn to jelly, because you know you're fighting for something even more important.
To find that, try looking into a mirror, looking deep into your own eyes, and tell yourself "I'm a grown-ass woman, and I can make my own decisions." (Have a box of tissues handy.) You have permission to feel and permission to live.
I found this youtube channel a few days ago, this being my second listening. I have gone through a lot of your audios and they have really helped me.
While i am still struggling and not 100% sure if i am trans yet, struggling more with accepting it than my friends and family probably will.
Through these audios and a great trans person i know that allowed me to vent to her, i have mostly come to accept it though, and slowly but surely i am getting ready to start telling people.
Part of me is still scared to let go of that boy living in blissful ignorance about his gender, and its not gonna be easy but i am slowly getting there
The journey is often slow, but you'll find what makes you happy! I'm glad these audio's help! Stay hydrated and know you are valid
this video breaks the 4th wall, i’m overwhelmed!
edit: AND YOUR WORDS GO HARD! legit i cried like 4 times AND counting, i can’t believe it!
everything about this video is brilliant. it's very attention grabby for those who need it the most and you clearly speak out of experience. you're awesome, i love everything about this. thank you.
I'm so happy you enjoyed! Stay hydrated and know you are valid
"You don't lose the right to be a girl just because you've lived as a boy for a long time." Needed that. Thank you.
I am continuing my transition and once completed, I will click on this video again and be able to say that it worked!
I have discovered that taking Hrt pills can create many different positive effects.
If nothing else, it has already improved my overall health and well being. It took away certain repressive chest pains that I used to have, amongst other poor self standards of living that I used to endure.
I have already gained a lot even if I never quite finish transitioning.
transition is a process
i’m a teenage trans girl. i started transitioning when i was 13-14 and while i suffer from depression it has made my life better. i love being a girl so much and this video was so amazing and validating ❤❤❤. thank you
i clicked as a joke but now i got mad dysphoria
Never more have I resonated with the words "you never got to pick your clothes, you never got to pick your friends"
I never thought about presenting feminine in my youth, although I had expressed that I'd be happier as a girl, I dismissed the idea, because it felt "outlandish"
Here we are, 12 years later, when it just ocurred to me again one day. I held that thought for two years, figuring out who I was very slowly, but sure enough the pieces fit, and then it hit me.
It isn't about who I was, it's about who I am, and who I want to be.
Thank you for making this video, I'm having trouble sleeping tonight, as tomorrow I will be getting an appointment to start HRT, after finishing the infinite quest of paperwork that my country requires.
Thanks for this, This is helpful for the time I don't feel like I can be a girl! Ty you are so so helpful : )
I watched this video a few days ago because it made me realize that im trans and i can't thank you enough for this amazing video. Thank you also for the Euphoria Valley video (i forgot its name) that one made a brake down crying as i vividly imagined everything in that video happening once again thank you
I hateee the closet, your videos help a little
the closest is awful BUT, you won't always be in it. I believe in you! stay hydrated and know you are valid
@@fairyprincesslucy thank you. Someday I'll be in the comments with better news!
Thank you so much for sharing you insights and experience, so much empathy and generosity of spirit you express for one so (relatively) young!
As a late bloomer trans gal (only came out to myself in 2016 at age 56), I can tell you your thoughts about older transitioning are spot on; in my day we didn't really have the awareness or language to describe what we were going through.
I did not have the experience of "knowing" and insisting I was a girl early on as you sometimes hear, but I always knew I was "different"; and in 20/20 adult hindsight I can see I had many, many hints as to what was going on.
Transitioning has been the adventure of my lifetime. I love the woman I've become, I feel comfortable in my own skin now, and actually like what I see in the mirror for the first time in my life. I fall ever more in love each day with that girl I've discovered in that mirror.
I havent cried at pretty much anything in 5-6 years... But this got me as close as ive been in a long time. Thank you ❤
Hope that helped
I already knew who I was before clicking this video. I needed something affirming, this video was very helpful. I grew up having an easier time making friends with girls than boys, I was yelled at for playing with a friend's barbie dolls instead of her brother's GI Joe action figures. I was sent to conversation camp for trying on my mother's clothing, I was always interested in fashion and makeup. On a morning that got to be overwhelming this helped, thank you.
Sorry you had to experience so much hate, I hope this video helped you heal even if it's a small step it's still a step in healing, stay hydrated and know you are valid!
The birds in the background make this so relaxing and such a beautiful affirmation while I work out. We’re all gonna make it girls ❤
yeah I kinda just embrace the birds at my window haha, they love chirping whenever I record, its quite relaxing
Clicked on this thinking it was a meme, stayed because your voice is oddly calming. I'm not really looking to transition, but it's still a nice video that someone needs to hear.
Im a guy, and I simply clicked because I was curious and about 90% sure this was going to be a meme. But I always have been feminine for a guy (at least for my country's standards). Not to mention, Ive been kind of moving towards becoming more of a femboy, but my gender is very much male. Not that I mind being called a girl, because to be honest, I dont (I used to, but now I dont). But I am still definitely a guy.
“And I said ‘promise?’”
its funny you put Dawn as the image. ive always thought since i was young my chosen name would be Dawn. ive even lived as Dawn for a bit but i couldnt transition and since ive always left it as a desire in the back of my mind, but the planets seem to be aligning too much recently Wahaha! i know it deep down but we will have to see i supose, i wish it was as easy as clicking this video maybe thats why i did. thank you for these words i like your voice. i feel peaceful
Im genderfluid and also a femboy so this is incredibly validating 🤧💚
ive always resonated harder with feminine things and the boy stuff always sorta put me off, i came out to myself and my friends about 2 weeks ago after denying it for years because it felt like too much work. ive never realized how much i love being a girl and sure it really sucks that im not there yet but i'm really hoping to get to where i wanna be, this video helped me so much in accepting that im just as much as a woman as anyone else, even though it took me so long to realize
I wish i could transition but no one around me is supportive at all
That really sucks :/ same tho, so I can't really help. Sry. Maybe try little things? I have, but I've always done a lot of little things, so people are kinda used to it from me. Anyway, be safe, be as happy as you can find, do good for yourself, and have a good day. And eat a waffle.
Just have a few comments about the audio, #1: I appreciated it :D, like every bit of euphoria I can get lol. #2: coming out at only 12 is pretty admirable, so 🎉on that. #3: Good choice on Dawn lol, good character. secret #4: not really related to the video at all ig but a friend said I sounded like you lol (I personally don’t think so but :p) anyways thanks for reading, farewell now!
I'm glad you enjoyed the audio! I'm happy to hear that! I feel Dawn was the right pick for the thumbnail cause like, little kid me wanted to be her real bad LOL so I felt it was nice to make the thumbnail. Coming out at 12 was really tough but I'm proud of myself. Also If our voices are similar that's fun I think haha
@@fairyprincesslucy (now I randomly do voice reveal because why not let an internet stranger hear how I sound >:) :p), also, Dawn goals lol
I'm a cis man and I clicked thinking it was ironic because of the all capital title, but it wasn't, I watched like 5 minutes of it though, and this is probably gonna help someone (and looking at comments, already has) so I figured it'd be best to comment to help drive engagement
I've known since like 8th Grade, about 10 years now (oh wow 10 years now😳), but even after all this time, it still means a lot to hear something like this video, so thank you 💜
I am glad the audio can help! even after knowing for so long, a little affirmation can be quite wonderful! stay hydrated and know you are valid!
This is like the first comment I leave on a TH-cam video ever, I hope you see it Lucy even tho it's been like five months.
I've started questionning last summer, but I've never had any problems as a boy before that. And since then I've watched a lot of trans related videos in the hope of relating to someone, anyone, but it never felt quite like my experience. You know, everyone tells you that you're valid but I've always doubted it since I couldn't find anyone I could relate to. Up until I found your channel today, and this video. That part where you say "even if you had no idea you wanted this until, even yesterday" around the 7:00 mark, this was the first time I've *actually* felt validated in my trans-ness. Like, me, *specifically me*, is valid in those feelings. It was like the weight of all my self-doubt and my impostor syndrome lifted from my shoulders, i couldn't stop crying for the rest of the video. I think this sentence single-handedly gave me the push I needed to accept myself, thank you a thousand times Lucy. I guess it's fair to say you're my hero, thank you thank you thank you!
I just wish I could have a doctor or something tell me I am trans so I can stop suffering wondering whether or not I'm making it all up
That desire is something I felt so strongly in my early gender questioning. I just wanted someone to tell me what I am. I wanted a doctor to diagnose me, or a trans person to tell me if I'm trans or not since they've been through it and they would know, but the scary truth of the matter is that you are the only one with answers. No one else can tell you who you are inside. However, something that really helped me is a friend teaching me to find the courage to be wrong. To take a chance, put myself out there, declare myself as something new and accept that it's possible I could be wrong, and that there are no consequences to being wrong, that it can only lead you closer to the truth. I hesitated on declaring myself to be a girl for so long because I was afraid I'd be wrong, I was afraid I was making it up, and when I finally did declare myself to be a girl, I was still unsure, I was still scared, but it was important for me to declare regardless, because accepting the fact that it was possible I could be wrong let me move forward on a path, any path, even if it was the wrong one, though thankfully, I discovered as I walked along it that it was the right one for me. I can't tell you whether you're trans or not. I wish I could, but I can't. If you think it's a possibility, though, then try walking that path and see how you feel. If you realize it's not for you, then you still learned something from it, gained valuable new experiences, and you can return to the start, cross off that path, and pick a new one. Or, if you realize that it is the right path, then that's even better. Regardless of the outcome, know that you'll have people there to support you in figuring it out.
@@GameHero152 thank you for sharing your experience. This has helped me. I know it will help any others who feel the same
The thing that got me was realizing how much I thought about this sort of thing. Like, how many days of the week. And then I asked myself, what cis man thinks about this sort of stuff THIS MUCH 😅
Huh, is it normal to wonder if I'm a girl and think about HRT every day?
@@ashadow9094 super cis
I'm a guy, I like being a guy. But I've always liked feminine things, and I feel like if I was a girl I could express myself more.. I'm chaotic and I love running and shouting and screaming it makes me feel better but I feel like if i was a girl, doing everything I do would just feel better... there is no magic button to just become a female, but in the next life if there is one I hope I'm a girl 🖤🖤🖤
I'm not out. I've been thinking about this for a long time. If this video could magically do it, yes I'd want it to. Not sure why youtube recommended this to me, but I'm glad I did. you do not understand how comforting this was, and what it means. I wish I were a woman, I look nothing like one, but I'd love to be. Thanks for this...
If you'd wanna transform into a girl, know that you can obtain that. It all starts with acknowlgkng that's what you want
@@fairyprincesslucy Your videos have really helped me open up and be honest with myself. thank you so much for them. Please stay as good and supportive as you are. It's so refreshing.
I needed this today thank you❤
my (currently boy)friend saved this to his playlist of videos, conglomerate even, and we've been talking a lot about him possibly being transfem. i love him so much and am so happy to have a girlfriend if thats who he is. ❤ im transmasc myself, t4t sounds awesome!!! thank you for this amazing video, its so sweet and kind. i hope you have a wonderful lifetime, and to anyone reading this, you too :3
Whats a shame is that I had played the role of a little boy so well that there shouldve been no doubt Id grow into a good man. Even when I would daydream for several hours to capture an artifact that I only wanted as Itd turn me into a hot goth girl.. by that point I had even long convinced even myself into believing I was a boy. But now the only thing I want is to be one of the girls, and I wish I couldve done so from birth. My height used to be something I was proud of, now I wish every day I couldve stopped growing when I was a small child, as I was very fast to grow tall.
If anyone reads this, I tell you two things. Do not give up. If your mind tells you it wants to be a girl, than it is your destiney to live as a girl from here on, and you will successfully do so. Secondary, do not listen when people talk of "trans women beating the cis women in sports" Ive made that mistake and all that does is give you doubt. Yet the last time I heard of it, the only evidence the guy could give was a single time a MENS high school rugby team beat a pro womens team in a quickmatch. Dont let someone who fails to understand what hormones are make you feel bad. Such people cannot keep you from your destiny
As a child i was kinda gender apathetic. There were signs that i was not a boy but they were ignored because it wasn't a huge deal until puberty.
One of the things that i remember is when my sexuality first was developing i often fantasized about my future relationship(s)... and while many things changed from dream to dream, a few things seemed to stay consistent, i was always with another girl, we were carefree, and we took turns having babies... it wasn't until much later that i discovered boys couldn't give birth... i was devistated... probably spent the better part of 2-3 years apathetic to life despite regularly finding myself interested in what other girls were doing and i was beginning to realize just how often people made fun of me because of the feminine way i tended to act, (i giggled, i instinctively crossed my legs, and skipped and while I wasn't as elegant as I am now i found my regular resting positions emulated the other girls. I was called gay regularly despite not being attracted to boys or showing any signs that I was. (Spoiler alert: i was gay af i was just a girl;p)
my first sign, although I didn't see it as a sign until I was in high school, was watching Mulan.... something about her seemed relatable in a way that I wasn't interested in exploring because i was like a 6 year old tomboy and accepted that it was just my favorite movie 😊
Puberty was the nail in the coffin tho.. it didn't hit me very hard(thank God), but every subsequent change made me dislike it more and more until i broke during my first semester of college. I was trying to convince myself that either id get over it or i could at least make it through a 4 year degree and have the money to fix things... and here i am 8isg years later struggling to stay motivated to be awake most days and getting the hot potato treatment as i try to find where i should go from here... the only thing that ive accomplished is ive learned my esthetic and how to make due with my androgeny... and ive managed to stay alive despite burning myself out... and im reletively wise when it comes to internal things despite not having the confidence to say it with my voice...
I know this is probably weird but I'm going to make this video a mark for me, when I fully transition and I'm happy in my body I'll come back to this video to this comment and see what pasted me said and was like... 2023 December 9, I want my name to be Lizz, I'm 16 and I've hated my body for a long time now, I first did a trans thing and make a version of myself that was literally just me as a girl when I was 6. And I hope that when I come back to this video I can say that I've become who I am and not who people see me as...
Love you all see you in a long time ...
Good luck in your journey, I believe in you! You can be the person you see in yourself
Thank you. This showed up days after i finally "cracked the egg" and came out to my childhood friend.
Im 26, and had been worried that i was too late, that it would be to difficult for me now, and ofc living in the good old USA, so even when coming out i was scared. But this was so reaffirming, and i jeeded to hear this. I hope to start HRT at the beginning of the year.
me listening to this after being on hrt for 3 years:
4:35 "its not about how miserable you are as a boy; its about how much happier you think you'd be as a girl"
when i decided to listen to this audio back in may of this year, that was the exact moment that my egg cracked. thank you for helping me realize that im trans
fuck yeah dawg she has been cookin thank you so much
I'm glad you enjoyed! I hope you enjoyed what I've been cooking! I'm proud of it! hahaha stay hydrated and know you are valid!
this is so nice
you are so nice
@fairyprincesslucy I love ur voice, and it always helps me when I have dysphoria or loneliness hits! Thank you, much love!
awww thanks ! been working really hard on my voice
This video might be a turning point for me in my transition because it uncovered a lot of buried memories that show i wanted to be a girl for a really long time. I haven’t shed tears because of TH-cam ever but this video made me cry to myself
This is super super sweet ;o;
you are super super sweet
@@fairyprincesslucy awwww thank you! you too!
thinking back, there were some hints from before i even knew of the LGBT+ community. at 15 or smth "boobs are great, what would it feel like to have some?" followed by "but that wont happen... but what if it did?" and things like "what would it feel like to be pregnant" that even before 15 actually. im 20 now, still closeted to my family (they are supportive and i even have a sister who figured it out for herself before me, its just... idk, my egg fully cracked literally yesterday and i dont feel ready to come out yet) i identified as agender for like 2 months (also closeted) because i certainly knew i wasnt a boy, and im still not sure if i am a full on girl or somewhere on the enby spectrum. i love your audios, they give me the feeling of being valid (even though i know i am, im in so many trans fem communities where everyone says im valid, idk why your videos hit different) thank you for making them and ill be sure to listen to this multiple times, because i need it 💚🖤
it also takes like 9 months to be eligible for HRT over here so thats another roadblock...
22:00 yes, please, right now
proud of you and your journey so far. I am sending good vibes for the journey ahead
9 months may seem like an eternity in the moment, but as you enter the "adult time warp" it will pass sooner than you think. The sooner you get started, the sooner you can begin. Try to think of some sort of ambition, quest, or project to focus on so you don't go stir-crazy while you fight the slow battle with bureaucracy over the next year.
Joke’s on you, I already know I’m a girl
I love that for you! Stay hydrated and know you are valid
That’s so sweet❤️ I really needed to hear that, even as a straight cis guy. Thank you! I clicked on this expecting it to be a meme Video tbh, but this is actually really wholesome 😭
Also Girls that play Video Games are amazing!