after 25 yearson benzos. I am now healthy and have my life back in all ways. It's worth doing and it can be done....no...it's REALLY worth doing. Gotta be strong( you're stronger than you think)have a good attitude and in the face of extreme fear, trust.(I like the higher power approach). take care of your body...exercise. its hard to believe but the withdrawal is temporary..Be patient.
Your videos are awesome! Your info is spot on. I am at 3 years and 3 months off. The relief of anxiety, when I finally reached it at 2.5 years was phenomenal. It is a long hard road but doable. Reducing ones stressors beyond the absolute minimal needed to survive was critical to my survival. I still have the occasional bad day but overall I am on the other side, finally. ....and like you, I cannot believe I survived this! Keep up the videos, you help others more than you realize! ❤️
Black Bird Hollow , I am at 43 months and I sometimes still have problems. I am so much better. But I guess I'm very scared b/c I'm in a wave. This is the first time this is happened in a while.
Those 911 call and pulling over scared ur dying... Ur the first person I've heard reiterate what I'm living and I feel so much better that it's in you past
These videos have helped me so much. I have taken Xanax off and on for years. I’ll go months without it but use it for anxiety. Very low dose and not consistently and thank goodness never had issues. After watching lots of these now I’m sooooo careful only to take it once in a blue moon if I’m public speaking, flying, etc... I told my doctor about what these videos talk about- getting damaged like this and straight up said it’s not real and said, “Those people had problems before the meds” I believe everyone making these videos over my doctor and it made me so much more careful so this won’t happen to me. So thank you!!!
Stay the fuck away from the Xanax, unless you know you can only take it once in awhile and be fine. I almost killed myself withdrawing off this shit recently. If I would have had a bullet I honestly would have ate it during the withdrawal. I was literally insane for 28 days, bat shit crazy, but I knew I was crazy type of crazy. I just wanted to escape the pain, which was extreme.
Anthony You are wise beyond your years. Your videos have been a very big part for my recovery. I watch them over and over again. It is so refreshing to see someone of your age so mature, thoughtful, articulate and willing to give others such help. Kudos to you. When I'm healed I am planning to travel to the states (form Australia) and I hope I can catch up with you to shake your hand, buy you a meal and thank you face to face. It is the least I can do for the unknown help that you give to so many............ Doctors and Psych don't know shit!
My doctor just basically decided to cut me off and wanted to save his ass and send me to rehab, he was only worried about his license and the state was on him, I was on a total of 5mg of xanax in a 24hr period, I weaned down to 1mg from April of this year to mid June then I stayed on 1mg till July 18th I was going to try going to .5 but I thought I was dying but I'm down .75 in a 24 hour period right now. hell is right, I wish I never would have taken this prescription for 8 years....thank you for sharing I needed this tonight 💜
Same here!! State of Illinois is horrible now with any narcotic scripts, been on Xanax for 18 years and just cut my husband off this month, we both are prescribed Xanax but now my husband is admitting himself into hospital thank goodness!! He has horrible thoughts and I am extremely worried about him! Now I’m worried about myself I want off but I’m told don’t stop cold turkey? I know im addicted I am done from 5gm a day to 3mg a day I tried to go lower but I thought I was gonna die litterly went to Er last year 137x saying I couldn’t breathe my heart was racing something was wrong but no nothing was wrong it was just horrible panic attacks extreme anxiety they said no you can’t just stop! But here we are now with my husbands dr “ we do not see same dr” and cut him off he has 6 days left of medicine and if the hospital don’t help then I guess I will have to go to the streets and find them! This is horrible and ridiculous! I wish I never would have taken even 1 !!!
dewi indriani yes I did and still do. Which is weird I just started getting them this last year! Am I the only one? Or do other people get the muscle twitching to??
I'm glad I stuck it through the most difficult days, I truly didn't know if I could survive through it. I wouldn't have been able to do it without the online community and my family. I was disabled for a month, everyday was excruciating. I needed a phych ward to be honest and I thought my mind was lost for good. Finally my phychosis eased up on day 30. Anybody going through this, please fight through, it does get better, it takes time.
Anthony, I've watched a few of your videos and your such a great voice out there for people going though this. I've been intolerant for 8 yrs to these drugs and im finally finding answers and getting my life slowly back, because of people like you making these videos and spreading the truth about these evil, wicked drugs. I just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Please continue to speak out about this
Well Ant, it's 36 years, this month, since I got off oxazepam, so it's possible to put benzo garbage behind one for good. Yipee! I've done it. You've done it. So other people can do it, too! Hooray for all of us! 🎆🎈🎖
Every day is still fresh and new and full of exciting possibilities for me. (Not like when I was hopelessly addicted to that benzo garbage and thought I was gonna be a slave forever! lol) I am glad things are going so well for you, now, too! I can see you've got a happy and creative life ahead of you! Yippee! 🍰😋💙💜😃🍰🌻🐀🐁🐇🐥🐒🎊🎉🎆🎈🎁
zuditaka - enjoyed reading of your transformation and many years past Benzos. Appears you live a tremendously interesting style and this is encouraging to those at only 18 months. Life Beyond Benzos are words needed when in the throes of 'the nastiness'. Thanks!
Yes, you can do it. Anyone can do it if I can. My life was ruined and I was a slave to benzos. If I could offer my younger self advice, back then, getting off, and after getting off, it would be to read Norman Vincent Peale's *The Power of Positive Thinking* and Shakti Gawain's *Creative Visualization* . One has to start teaching oneself how to think positively and IMAGE success and happiness for oneself. If I had been capable of positive autosuggestion and of visualising my own success, happiness and wisdom, I wouldn't have gone down such a drug-stupified path in the first place. So good luck to you, too, and I hope life is a happy journey for you. You gotta make it a happy journey for you, and that requires wise autosuggestion and wise imaging, which becomes happy life actualizations. I'd also recommend using the arts to express oneself in. 🖌🖍🖼 Mona Brookes "Drawing with Children and Adults" taught me how to be an artist, almost overnight, and it's lots of fun, too. The ukulele, too, is so fun and easy to learn, with lots of free music sheets online and instructions on TH-cam. 🎸🎶 Creative writing like journalling can be a fun form of self-expression. Oh, and we must get back in touch with nature again. Nature-deficit disorder is the source of not a few causes of anxiety. So, yes, read "The Secret Garden" aloud, and find the secret garden, again, that was always in your own mind all along! lol 🌸🌷🌹🌻🌺🌼
It's been 39 months off the benzo for me and I struggle with a few lingering symptoms. Inner tremors , gastric problems , muscle and bone pain , but a lot of my most horrible symtoms are gone . Been there and done that with the trips to the ER . But I feel we all heal , but some people heal faster than others . Yes , distracting yourself with something is the best advice ever, thanks for posting !!
Everything I have been feeling still after 5 months has been validated by your video. I went to the er yesterday because I just couldn’t believe that I was still withdrawing and knew something was really wrong. All of my blood work, urine, mri, cat scan came back completely normal. They wanted to give me a sedative for the mri but when I found out it was a benzo I refused it. Relieved but frustrated because I knew something is wrong. I can’t thank you enough for putting my thoughts out loud knowing that I will get better. It’s very hard to articulate what you are feeling to someone. Even now I’m struggling to write this comment. The head, jaw, neck, back, leg, foot pain is incredible. You are so right. The absolute worst. Thank you for the encouragement.
I'm just at 4 years off Xanax. Finally starting to feel better. The good thing that came out of this mess was that I found my breath, through meditation. Completely changed my life. So yeah I lost seven years but I came out of it stronger than I ever would have imagined myself. As I'm typing this you're basically saying alot of what i'm experiencing/have experienced. Good for you. Glad to see another survivor.
I agree with you. I am a survivor. I'd love to talk to you. We can work together and do videos to help others. I'm in school for substance abuse counseling. My goal in life is to help others. With your assistance we can help alot of people who used to be in our shoes.
I have the most anxiety at night and when I did sleep, I have bad dreams so the moment I wake up I'm so depressed. I can't sleep in my bed cuz I have such negativity attached to that bed so I have sleep anxiety as well. watching your survival story gives me hope that this WILL pass.
Ghoulin Rouge nightmares and vivid dreams are a indication that your brain is healing,that's a great sign.. That anxiety is horrendous. The only thing that can help it is shocking the (central nervous system) and laying a scientific ice pack on your feet and it will help shock the system lessening the intensity of the anxiety,and try lots of magnesium lotion.. But when your better you won't even have anxiety anymore,it's all chemical.
Hey how the heck are you? I hope you’re doing great. You sure do sound great in the videos. I’m pretty much there also so Woop Woop for us. I cold turkey all that bullshit after 12 years high dose as prescribed bullshit. The only thing I gained from this was superpowers to be able to tell what the fuck bothers my body and I lost all the negative bullshit people in my fucking life. Evidently that was everyone. I hope you’re having a good day things do get better we have to live life for us, not others. I’ve got all my shit logged. I just haven’t been able to post it since I’ve been gone through divorce to try and get my kids back. I will be sharing my story now soon on what I went through. Thank you for your videos.
Gosh, how were you able to go into your doctor's office and get refills and still hold youself together? I can barely put sentences together, let alone sit still.. And how would a regular routine day be like for you when you went through benzo withdrawal? Your videos and stories are SO helpful and you are saving so many lives around the world. I look forward to your next video!
Dan Nguyen I had to updose alot to go the the doctors,and a regular day consisted of me stairing at my blue wall in my room.. Lol...and being mad at the world. Every single day was hell,but now everyday is fun,just like it will be for you again.
Dan Nguyen thanks for this question! I'm currently tapering and terrified of my pdoc. she's not as supportive as I hoped. I've had to updose and when I told her she was pretty rude about it and then tried to shove another medication down my throat. my next appointment is next week, and I'm already dreading it....
ANT1714 Thank you for your response back. Been crappy lately but just wanted to thank you for your time. The benzo community is blessed to have you and your knowledge of this drug. I still think about your old comments, "to survive I have me, my friend the Ashton Manual and Jesus Christ. That's forreal.
ANT1714 Can we email? I tried sending a pm through TH-cam but it didn't work and I don't have fb. My email address is weekuhtwo@gmail.com. Thank you so much!
I went from 34 MGS diazepam down to 12 in 3 years now back to 20 and ready to finally accept I have to taper. I'm hoping to get somewhat stable before resuming my taper, Thanks for the video you're more chilled and Laid back than some other horrific vids... Congrats & continued healing
Cathy Nistico try to get stable and then make small reduction’s, I have created a support group recently, it is under my recent video that I just made. There is a link.
@@goddessvibes08 It has been 7 years ago since I quit the Benzo`s cold turkey so I can`t remember the exact dose. I would also like to mention, that at the same time I had also quit taking prescribed opiates cold turkey. My withdrawal symptoms as a result, were from two drugs which made my experience all the more hellish. I don't remember all of what I went through, but I do remember having lots of paranoia, anxiety, diarrhea, puking (dry heaves), trouble sleeping, loss of appetite, headache, electrical shocking sensations throughout my body. I had bouts of rage (homicidal) tendencies. Also one very bazaar side effect. My left arm started moving all by itself. My arm would reach up to the ceiling stay there for close to 30 seconds then drop back down only to shoot right back up in the air. This went on for several days. I went to the hospital emergency dept. in desperation, and was told I could go back on the Benzo`s to make it stop. I wasn't prepared to do that, so I just went home and tolerated what was happening to me. My body felt like it had been completely hijacked by "something". I couldn't perform simple tasks like writing my next dr.s appt. on the calendar, that would take up to 45 mins. just to do that. I wasn't working at the time, but had I had a job, there is no way I would have been able to work like this. Forget about driving (not a good idea). I don't recommend anyone go off benzo`s cold turkey, I did it out of utter desperation. You need to understand what is really happening to you when you are on those drugs. I call it possession in a pill, that is exactly what it is. When you are taking these drugs you are being dragged into the pit of hell. Entity(s) hijack your mind, body, & spirit, these drugs are pure evil no other way to say it. I had a water purifier a really good one "Berkey" (with the fluoride & arsenic removal filters), I flooded my body with purified water which I had several quartz crystals( and other stones) placed in the bottom of the water filter. I drank as much water as I could, to flush out the poison (drugs). I went to church (normally I don't) & asked people to pray for me. I knew these drugs caused a possession to occur in my mind, body & spirit, and I was willing to try anything in the arsenal to end the evil. If you can get off the Benzo`s do it, these drugs are PURE EVIL, they should never have be legalized in the first place. Look up pharmakeia (sorcery) that is what is being done to the prescription drugs before selling them to the public). After I learned the truth about drugs prescribed and also over the counter, I vowed to live a drug free existence. I don't smoke, drink, or use any kind of drug (whatsoever). I eat healthy organic (non GMO`s) I intermittent fast regularly to maintain my health & wellbeing. Educate yourself about possession via drugs (prescription & street drugs) save yourself while you still can, those that didn't in time ended up permanently locked up in the nuthouse or dead. Bless you in your healing journey.
@@ladygrace2741 Thanks for sharing your experience and success story. I also had a long and difficult process recovering from psychiatric drugs which I had been taking for over 15 years and came off too fast. I also learned a lot through the process, really cleaned up my life, learned how to take care of myself and now live a much healthier and happier life. I also will never take another psychiatric drug. I rarely visit a doctor these days or take any medication at all, besides the occasional aspirin.
wow man you an the rest of you guys stepping up is so encouraging! its seemingly impossible to describe but losing my family videos like this really help. thanks guys! right on the money...
Clint Daugherty ya family has not a clue how bad this really is!!!! And unless they been thru it they will never truely understand your hell,but it will be worth it when your healed,you'll be stronger and wiser...on top of fearless.
Same here Hun my realtionship as been ruined with my only child...I was CT off 3 drugs & had them reinstate me back on Valium...it’s so scary but we have to believe in those that have gone before us xxx
I was there in the 80s I actually got preggers with my first and she was born with a clefting disorder even though I got off cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant. So for 9 months I was off benzos. I did find remission for the pregnancy. My symptoms came back. So I got back on them..catch 22!
Several years of my relationship with my daughter was also stolen from me. I was extremely sick while she grew up, became a woman and moved into her own home. I lost those valuable years of her life and she had to manage without my support. Thankfully, she's doing great now, but I will always be sad about not being part of that stage of her life. I'm sorry for all the losses caused by these drugs, for everyone who goes through it.
My waves usually aren't so bad now, but I took some vitamin D about 3 months ago and had a bad reaction to it, worst wave in a long time, but I'm over it now and back at my baseline, but I still can't tolerate caffeine, alcohol, intense exercise or stress. I'm in protracted SSRI and benzo withdrawal.
@@Cheesygarlicccc Hi Brian, thanks for asking. I'm over 8 years off now, I was withdrawing from both benzo and antidepressants. I started taking the benzos to help me with the antidepressant withdrawal, and became dependent on that too. I'm mostly back to normal now, but I'm still vulnerable to stress. So I live a very simple, stress free life as much as possible. If I overdo it, I will get very mild symptoms early in the morning, like a mild wave which lasts a few days. Apart from that, I feel a lot better. I'm able to take vitamins again, drink coffee and anxiety has gone. I can't push my nervous system like I used to though, it's still quite vulnerable. But I'm very grateful to have survived and to be able to live a pleasant and comfortable life again. Every day is a blessing now and I will never take another psychiatric drug.
I am 7 months off after a 10 month taper. Was on Kpins for over 7 years. I'm VERY slowly getting my life back and I'm so glad I took the initiative to get better. I still have a lot to go through but it's getting better. Thanks for these videos, they are 100% spot on!
Sorry to hear about your dad, I’m sure what you feel is grieving and situational depression. Thank you so much for the encouragement. I need this, I’m really in a horrible way, but I’m holding on. I’m glad you are better.
You honestly are saving people’s lives with your encouragement and what you went through I know EXACTLY what you were going through in your early videos too
Great video, what you said about being stronger after the process not even doing justice to what you feel was spot on. And i'm not even off yet, still tapering 3 months. But I definitely have been feeling the same thoughts. Thanks for the vid, much love man hope all is well Keep on keepin' on
These drugs steal your damn soul. Im 7 days clean from lorazapam. I went from half a 1mg tablet to nothing. The first 5 days were hell . I couldnt sleep, i can hardly eat i have extreme muscle tention. Burning in ny neck and pain in my lower back . The dr told me withdrawal lasts a week yea fucking right lol. Did i tamper off too fast ? Did you have neck or back pain ? When im healed from this i will cry happy tears everyday i want my life back
Thank you for putting up this video. Finally someone is knows what hell I am going thru. I have had 5 sucidal attempts so far. I tried really really hard but still don't know what else I can do anymore but to die alone . I don't know what to expect anymore. My whole body is shutting down .
hey your a sincere guy truth is powerful keep up the work man i got this on a day that it was very needed long lonely mad days eh and i live alone so no support especially fro dr so i have been making lots of mistakes not knowing how many tabs i am takeing and cutting down here and there so now i willmake a bettereffort in seeing what i do diazapine phew
sirchristopherwren52 i’ve created a support group, it’s a Facebook group. There is a link on my recent video that I just made... you can feel free to join. It will get better
I'm tapering off 6 milligrams right now I'm down to 4.5 milligrams now and you are right it is complete hell I just pray to God that this is over one day but it feels like it never will end but I have faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that everything will be okay. Your videos give me hope.
Hey Anthony great videos, you are giving inspiration to those of us that are still suffering. I have been off for 23 months and I am still having a rough time.
Scott Buxton 23 months for a lot of people can still be early, depending on if you tapered or cold turkey.. Do not panic, all the symptoms will diminish in time.
I worry because my primary symptom is PAIN. It's either muscle pain or nerve pain, I can't tell. Pain is why clonazepam was prescribed to me around 20 years ago. I am in disbelief that this medication can cause this much pain but I shouldn't be, should I?? I appreciate your response. Thank you.
Psychiatric drugs don't cure anything, at best, they suppress symptoms for a while, but cause worse problems of their own, so you are left worse off than when you started. I'm sorry you are still dealing with pain, your original pain and also the additional suffering from the benzo. I wish I had never taken a psychiatric drug in the first place, but had instead been helped with a proper treatment to address my original symptoms. So many of us have been mislead and harmed by psychiatry and the pharmaceutical companies in their quest for more money and power. I hope you discover the cause of your pain and find a way to manage or cure it safely.
I'm terrified. My doc gave me Xanax for anxiety. I take it EVERY DAY, 3 or 4 times a day. Sometimes 5 times a day. And I have been for the last 3 years. I happened to come across a Xanax withdrawal video .. And I was like. Xanax withdrawal?? Never heard of it. So I watched it and it scared this shit out of me. I HAD NO IDEA this drug would have these effects on me if I stop. I heard on another video that it's more addictive than heroin!! Is that even true?? I've been binge-watching these withdrawal videos all night. I've heard people say it took 3 years to feel normal, again! Three years??? I also take Paxil .. and I'm seeing "Paxil Withdrawal" horror stories that I haven't even watched yet! I have gone through opiate withdrawals (4 blown discs in my lower back) .. and THAT was HELL!! So, wtf, Xanax? Why didn't my doctor warn me?? Now I don't want to take these ... I'm afraid to stop. What do I do??
I've been on 3 and sometimes 4 2mg bars a day for over 20 years. I don't think at this point, I would survive a benzo detox without dying. I was put in jail for 9 days and I was hallucinating so bad. I didn't leave my cell. I thought people were conspiring against me, especially the C.O.'s. After I got released, I went home and took 1 and in 20 minutes I felt fine. The problem is that no Dr's want to prescribe them anymore. Idk if it's just in Pennsylvania state or everywhere? I'm terrified. This doc I'm seeing now is willing to detox me very slowly. I've also been on 10 mg of Ambien for the same length of time. We've been detoxing me for about 6 months, but only the Ambien. She wanted to do both at once and kept changing her mind. Luckily, my Therapist is in the same office and is actually the Director. I told her that the Dr kept changing up the plan and so now she comes into my Dr's appts with me so nothing shady will happen. I'm down to 4 10mg's a week alternating 5mg's every other day. I'm losing a lot of sleep and it's very hard to focus. I wish I had the equipment and knowledge to make a TH-cam video of my full detox and if I'm successful or if I will die. I've seen many TH-cam videos of people who have just been on them for a couple few years. No where close to the 23 years I've been using benzo's. I've always had them legally prescribed by a Dr. If anyone sees this and has successfully come off of them alive and sane, for even 15 years, please let me know. Thank you and God bless you.
I was taking 3-4 xanax bars a day, total abuse. 2 months clean now, struggling with derealization/depersonalization. Has anyone else came across these?
money madem , I have depersonalizatio and derealization. It hit me 2 weeks after I ct .05 ativan which I only took couple times per week..is the brain's mechanism to protect itself and you from further damage. Nothing feels or looks real not even youurself.. Is getting better as time goes on
money madem Yes! I felt like someone kidnapped me and put me on a spaceship and I was outside of my body controlling it with strings. Like a puppet. It really sucks because your brain is in such a dense fog during acute withdrawals. But you do come back to yourself. And your sanity is restored. It just feels like forever.
You r the only one i listen to, besides 2 benzo meditations. I thank God for you.💟 I'm in a wave, but hanging in there. Alot of pressure in my head, and nerve painin neck and shoulders.🙏
I was a heroin, methadone xanax addict for 20 years , I have hung out for heroin as bad as you possibly can after shooting up subutex after 160mg of methadone, that experience is indescribable I had no control of my limbs my whole body was shaking violently and sicker than sick it was fucking horrible but there was worse to come, I was in my mid 20s at the time fast forward to my early 30s and the clinic that prescribed my done started me on xanax 4 2mg tablets a day one every 6 hrs, for 2 years I dosed 80mg of methadone and 4 xanax a day, then I got to the point where I wanted to change my life so I reduced off the methadone slowly and to my horror got cut off xanax cold turkey because they weren't going to be prescribed anymore, I didn't sleep for months, I would be awake shaking through every night for 3-4 weeks and then get to the point of exhaustion and get maybe 6hrs sleep and start the process again, thankfully I had my parents support and they just let me roll around on the floor for two years until I felt I could begin to rebuild my life, I can honestly say if I hadn't had immediate family members commit suicide and seen the affects it has on the people left behind I would have killed myself during that 2 years, I feel like I am dead inside after what I've been through, I would not wish what I went through and am still dealing with on anyone, I think xanax should be irradicated, they ruin lives and the doctors prescribing them should be force fed the same dose they give out then cut off themselves so they know what they are doing to people.
I have been on .05mg Klonopin/clonazepam as needed for anxiety/panic attacks since 2010. This year my psych doc upped the dose another .05mg, so I am now taking 1MG ( though my doc prescribed 1mg twice a day) as of Jan 2017. Well I decided earlier this month ( June 2017) that I really hate taking this pill because i want to be normal again. so I am now splitting the 1mg up and taking the .05 mg in the morning and at night. I will be doing this for a month then I will only start taking the .05 for a week or two. The symptoms i am seeing now ( even as i write this comment) as i am tapering off is that when my body needs a dose/fix it always starts with my heart. My heart will pound and pound hard and sometimes even race... and i try to prolong that symptom because i am telling myself that it's just the withdrawal symptom but then i cave in as soon as the shakiness, full body sweats and panic start, it is Then that i take the .05mg and the symptoms subside. But at least I am not taking 2mgs a day as i was prescribed in Jan 2017. My plan is to taper off and hopefully never look back at this pill again. Thanks so much for this video dude! And to anyone who feels me... lets stay strong and do this knowing that we WILL overcome this horrific life event. It sucks but you are NOT alone! -hugs- peace and love and good luck!! :)
Did you have horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this? And did you feel like your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I'm homebound, tapering Ashton manual, two times two quick and went badly wrong. Now have at least seven months to taper and I can't take this. I was confident active social person and now i'm alone mostly because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people. I fear everything. I have suicidal thoughts everyday and have to fight against them. I fear waking ups all day. I can't see anybody but mom when she helps me to get food. I can't function. I loved to excersise and can't. I fear I lose my partner, he is waiting. I feel depersonalization and derealisation and disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. I have heavy sleep medication because I didn't sleep barely at all, 200 mg of quetapine and 20 mg of temazepam and it is toi much but doctor says first I have to come down this 30 mg of diazepam. I have been in this hell for 1,5 years because of two failed quick tapers and then at summer I was prescriped klonopin and it didn't help my brain lock or anything and after six months of klonopin and suffering I said to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it. I was shocked when I realised how much of diazepam that was. Have tapered in over two months from 60 to 30 mg. Then it will go lower drops. Did you feel long that your brain doesn't function normally? I have lost everybody around me, at least temporarely. I'm scared to death. Thank you if you can answer.
Ty for this video, very encouraging... In June 2020 it will be 2yrs that I have been off benzo. I was on them almost 20 yrs, then cut off ct. Still hanging in there. God bless you all who are going through this...♥️🙏♥️
I’m telling y’all now I need HELP!! Been taking 5mg a day for 18 years now, and I want off!! Doctors are just taking people off without any tapering or absolutely nothing! How are they getting by doing this? Illinois is one HELL of a state! There is no cure there is nowhere to turn to?
hi listening to your video my hubby has good days and bad we go between 1 and ten ten being brilliant. he's 8 today we are coming to the end we hope after nearly 3 years please keep talking to us thank you keepsafe
I'm looking forward to your next video. My spouse is a malignant narcissist and she knows I'm ill and is using that to hurt me even more in my weakness. Since starting my WD (still tapering) I've developed prostate cancer too from the weakened immune system from chronic relationship stress (which is why I was on a benzo in the first place) and from all the cortisol from the stress of WD. I depend on her insurance for my healthcare so I can't leave her. What can I do to heal and cope? The thought of waiting years to get better and move on is terrifying. I'm no spring chicken. Your thoughts and prayers are appreciated.
Maxwell Bernstein i’m very sorry that you’re going thru this, take it one day at a time, and tried to be nice to her even though shes mean to you. Normal people do not understand. It’s going to get better.
You have to get rid of the narcissist for your own survival, you cannot go thru this type of withdrawal while being cruelly abused at the same time. Start making your exodus plan now, even if you end up in debt in the process. Your life is paramount here, narcs love to see you suffer, time to end the abuse forever and get out.
Yes, I'm angry at the hell I've had to endure and seeing others struggle and were damaged by what the doctor prescribed and injured folks. I'm still fighting benzo rage, it takes hours a day to push it all down. I see people who walked out of my life daily and my anger grows. I do hope that eases. I'll never forgive but I want how uncomfortable this is to go away. Controlling anger and anxiety daily. CT never ever do that!!! I was fortunate in that the last doctor I talked to agreed to give me the meds throughout my taper. I never saw him and still haven't seen him one year since I started in all of this. BUT I lost YEARS to tolerance and after 6 doctors, none of them realized what was impacting me. I diagnosed myself finally in desperation. I'm 5 months off benzos and still struggling with symptoms and the feelings of abandonment by those who refused to try and understand. I know I'm strong, stronger than most, but yes, we need to get through this the best we can and do it for us, ourselves. find a friend or family member or caregiver that can pick up those meds for your taper to ease stress. I wish everyone well.
I had pacing akathisia and was very suicidal and I took an overdose of alcohol and Tylenol six months ago and caused worse symptoms. I'm having some windows. Do you think I'll recover from a setback like this?
I’m having a hard time following rather than looking at your face moving around and stuff. In fact, the only reason I chose your video amongst the other ones was that your face is neither turning terrifying nor super ugly. So: Are these visuals normal? I’m thinking they might be caused by lack of sleep, which I actually got 3 hours of this night.
I’m only on .5 klonopin to sleep at night but I can’t go through all this! I have a business to run and am trying to adopt a child. I lost my daughter in 2015 and was put on klon for PTSD and sleep. I did wean off with no issues after a year but then I had a miscarriage 2 years ago and ended up with PPD - back on the klonopin. I’m terrified to come off but I know I have to. Wish I Never started!
Jesus...you have undoubtedly been through allot! Have you tried slowly tapering yet? I'm currently 16 months post Klonopin / All RX drugs after an initial grueling fifteen month taper. I still have along way to go however no two people are exactly the same with respect to all things Benzo Withdrawl.. PEACE and LOVE 😁
R C thank you ♥️ I have tapered off klonopin once but it’s funny at the time I had no idea there was a withdrawal and I pretty much weaned off in a month.. surprisingly I had no issues! Now that I know I guess I’m scared. I also have to wean off of Prozac and remeron. I’m not having any issues except weight gain but I’m just sick of taking this crap! I’ve just been through so much I don’t even know how I’ll be without the meds ya know!? How are you feeling now post taper? I hope you are well!!
I know Aston says :everybody;s different but I say do not drop more than .25 mg (Klonipin) every 2 weeks. Now if you are already at .25 mg every other day don't add any. My worst I was doing 5 mg per day for months. Ended up with a rapid one month detox. I say do not try this as it was hell. You know what else is hellish? Paxil withdrawals. I was watching a Paxil withdrawal video here, I had to stop watching as the description of the "brain zaps" was frightening, make that terrifying.
Glad your doing better. Did you have any muscle tightness, ear issues, throat issues, clenching and teeth pain? Did you have bad anxiety, panic and fear? What about agoraphobia? Would your symptoms be all day long, did you get waves and Windows? Would you have symptoms that lasted many months? Also when recovered did symptoms start easing up and then go away or you woke up one day and was recovered? Thank you for any information you can give me.
BAT T I had all of those exact symptoms. I hated that anxiety,I couldent relax and I was always getting rushed to the hospital. Thinking it was a heart attack.. Those symptoms will subside in time tho.
ANT1714 so waking up w random irregular heart rate is normal. I’m so scared even while tapering. I am only somewhat fine when I stay home. I have horrible anxiety I hope this is not going to last forever.
@@brittanynelson9114Hi, your message is old. Hope you are well. I have horror waking ups with heart racing. Did you feel ever your brain didn't function and understand a simple thing and normal life? I have it so bad. Third time of trying to taper, prescriped, two times were too quick and went badly wrong. Once I had this brain lock off when I was crossovered to valium from oxazepam (that was a fast taper) and i could have my normal life back, for few weeks i was my normal self, active, social. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong and brain lock came back. I'm homebound because of it. Bad agoraphobia and dr/dp. My partner and mom bring me food. Thank you if you can answer and give some hope. All the best.
Hey ANT1714 I hope you see this. I cold turkeyed 4 mg of xanax per night and I am 8 months clean and still struggling every day. I can leave my house and do certain things that 100% need to be done but its a struggle. Aside from that I just sit on my computer or in my bed all day every day. Please make another video soon no matter how redundant it is. You are one success story that I keep rewatching because you can actually see your true progress. Hope you make another video soon!
Dan Elkins I just created a support group, you can find it on my recent video that I just made, there is a link underneath, call jerky can be rough. Are you going to stay off? Or reinstate and taper?
ANT1714 I am going to stay off forsure. 3 months after I c'td on new years I had a week where I was drinking alcohol. I have had no professional help and had no idea alcohol can kindle you. After the alcohol I couldnt sleep for a few days and stupidly decided to take xanax that night. After that night I have felt totally insane. Horrible intrusive thoughts. I also have irrational fears such as afraid of the volume dial on my car and idk why. I cant focus nothing registers. Dr/dp thru the roof. I have not drank or touched xanax since that alcohol binge and 1 time dose. So its really been 5 months since alcohol and benzo set back and 9 months since ct. I see small improvements but its so slow it took 5 months to see any improvement. I feel like dying. I just need reassurance that I will heal. I will never touch alcohol or benzos again or anything gabaergic for that matter. I just ordered magnesium glycinate so I hope that helps. Thanks man. Appreciate your vids.
my dr. prescribed 3 bars a day for 10 yrs straight. my with draw was insane. muscles tunnel vision, fire ants!! i litterally slapped my skin!! and extreme paranoia! i couldn't use the damn toilet lol, my dr. moved to al. and pretty much said ur on ur own adios! im still on subs and went through the worst part of xannie w.d but now im practicaly agoraphobic. geez whatva mess some1 give me a dead line! i camt do this!!
don't do this but alcohol is my help. i cant afford rehab and i cant tell my dad. my mom died od. and i cant put him through this shit. i cant function, i have 2 kids we should be swimming, but shh i dnt wanna leave the house and dinners a chore. wtf??
killer leaf that agrophobia was horrific. I had it for years,and that DR and disassociation and depersonalization. O my god,you'll be able to leave the house again when your better,and you'll love it. I use to look out my windows and be like I can't even go outside:( and now I'm like running outside lol... Better days to come.
You’re video helped me a lot, the doctor that wrote me a script wouldn’t write me a script to get off. And thankfully I found a doctor that will help me get off but he said it will probably take a year.
How do I know if I'm tapering too fast? don't want to get PWS. my plan is to get off 0.325 mgs of xanax in 2 months. been on for a year. I'm 3 weeks in and the symptoms are already very bad. wondering if I should press on or slow down a bit. thanks
every night for three months I felt like I was dying ...of course I've improved at 23 months ...but I still have ear splitting tinitus headaches muscle aches fatigue crying suicidal thoughts depression anxiety I don't trust anybody I'll never trust another doctor as long as I live most likely I would rather die than take a pharmacologically created drug
and how can all these doctors in emergency rooms keep telling all these thousands and thousands of people that keep coming to them telling them it's benzos that's doing this to them how can they keep telling us it's not when there are so many of us how can they be clueless it's more of a fucking bullshit trying to cover their asses story
The doctors are pill pushers, more people are becoming aware. Especially about psychiatry and how they hand these pills out like candy. But in the end we get better and we survive.
One week off and in complete hell. Can't even walk straight as the world seems to be moving at all times around me. Anything help dur ng your withdrawal??
TFemm44 If you didn't taper very slowly get back on a long action Benzo like Valium and go extremely slow. If you come off too fast you may be screwed up for years. I'm 16 months off and wish I would've tapered much slower...
TFemm44 nothing but time, and maybe magnesium lotion, that’s about it. The healing is a really really slow process,But becoming a stronger version of yourself is totally worth it.
Brandon D I just seen this comment and figured that I'd answer.. I was on 2 mg of Xanax daily and switched to Valium. I weaned down over 8 months of time. I'm 25 months off now and thought that I was healed around 18 months but I continue to have lingering symptoms off and on but I'm healed for the most part..
love watching your videos.2 month into my withdrawal.feel terrible.been taking zopiclone to sleep a few times a week.have I been making a mistake ? apparently they work on gaba too.would you say these last 2 months have been pointless ? as in recovering ?
im currently abusing xanax Taking upwards of 9mg a day but have a decent supply and wanting to taper. I have been Abusing high doses for over 2'months and am having withdrawal symptoms from reducing my dose to 1.5mg at a time and have new anxiety issues . what is a good taper plan this video helped me understand the reality of the drugs effect on the brain
It’s now been a week off xanax for me... been my toughest fight ever, and absolute HELL... but I still go to work and I know it’s not safe but I cold turkeyed... had a scare, I don’t want to touch a benzo again
hi i came across your videos and found them really informative i have been on benzos for about a couple of months and want to quit after watching your videos will i have any withdrawal effects and how long will they last please do let me know bro.
im going through benzo withdrawl valium and im tremoring like a mutha fucker slightly euphoric for a short time so not sure if i missed my AD Dose going into a clinic in a few weeks but i had to taper off valium long term use my anxiety led me to pharmacy of questions without answers
Humberto have you joined support groups online? They are a lifesaving support system. I'd never have survived this without them. Support, information, messaging on social media, personal calls. So many good people reaching out to each other. Don't hesitate to ask for help. The sooner you stick to it and taper off the sooner it will all behind you. :)
I can’t go to hospital this sickness is causing the end I’m seventy years and my anxiety depression is hurting i am disabled and alone and they want to put me in hospital mental hospital I’m all alone
@@whateverfloatsyourboat2181 I've went off the klonopin cold turkey, 7 years ago. I sleep like a baby at night, have a healthy appetite, I avoid all toxic people & situations and practise self love. I avoid doctors and don't smoke, drink or take any drugs whatsoever. STAY STRONG~Little tiny baby steps.
Hey man I c/t'd off of 4mg of xanax a day in January this year. After two weeks of hell, I felt reborn. No symptoms were noticeable whatsoever. Maybe I didn't notice some of the smaller symptoms because I had just came out of literal hell and those symptoms wouldn't phase me. But in april 4 months after I c/t'd I was having trouble sleeping and took a 3mg dose to go to sleep. Yes I know 3mg with no tolerance is retarded. Essentially ever since the morning after that I've felt like I am back in withdrawal. It has been 3 months and symptoms have not subsided but have barley improved if at all. I have not taken benzos since that 1 night and I have only taken a benzo that one night since I have c/t'd. I also have to mention that prior to the 3mg dose in april I was binge drinking for a couple of weeks. I learned about kindling and am wondering if you think I kindled my self. I had ZERO SYMPTOMS AFTER C/T until I took a "rescue dose" in april. I don't know what I was thinking I just wanted sleep. Now I am totally fucked and kindled. Every day I want to die! Your videos are the only thing keeping me going. Thanks man for being my hope and light.
Dan Elkins I use to updose all the time. Don’t beat yourself up about it, this is going to be a faded memory. I want drink alcohol on these meds. Try to be as patient as possible and taper slow stable, many people do kindle, and there is a saying that people that kindle take longer to heal. Everyone is different, I put the poison back in my body all the time in my withdraw, and I healed pretty fast. Keep fighting it’s going to get better
Jesus christ..I'm on 5mg.i only ever take a quarter or 2 days I feel anxious. I take it because I have generalized anxiety wtf should I do guys. Not addicted but I wanna avoid negative effects like this at all costs
You are spot on. N everything you said We need a class action lawsuits At least we will put a spotlight on this mess Who is with me
Someone needs to be held accountable for these horrific drugs! Pharmaceutical companies and doctors should be put in jail for these drugs!
@@lallymcghie9312 it is hell coming off lexapro. What meds you coming off
@@lallymcghie9312 hell ya,,,, going olff lexapro and ambiean is hell what meds you delt with,,,,need the support
after 25 yearson benzos. I am now healthy and have my life back in all ways. It's worth doing and it can be done....no...it's REALLY worth doing. Gotta be strong( you're stronger than you think)have a good attitude and in the face of extreme fear, trust.(I like the higher power approach). take care of your body...exercise. its hard to believe but the withdrawal is temporary..Be patient.
theonlysaltspring, your WORDS are so true! God bless you💗
theonlysaltspring it just keeps getting better and better.
whiteguysboxing , did you ever feel like you've lost your mind before you recovered
Belin Romero everyday I thaught I was nuts / losing it Yes
@@garysimone4977 how long did it take you to heal?
Your videos are awesome! Your info is spot on. I am at 3 years and 3 months off. The relief of anxiety, when I finally reached it at 2.5 years was phenomenal. It is a long hard road but doable. Reducing ones stressors beyond the absolute minimal needed to survive was critical to my survival. I still have the occasional bad day but overall I am on the other side, finally. ....and like you, I cannot believe I survived this! Keep up the videos, you help others more than you realize! ❤️
Black Bird Hollow keep going the rest of the anxiety will fade away...
All of it....keep fighting.
Black Bird Hollow , I am at 43 months and I sometimes still have problems. I am so much better. But I guess I'm very scared b/c I'm in a wave. This is the first time this is happened in a while.
💖🙏💖
@@twilightsprite1 how r u now my frd
@@sangeetalambh6389 I am better...Thank You!
Those 911 call and pulling over scared ur dying... Ur the first person I've heard reiterate what I'm living and I feel so much better that it's in you past
These videos have helped me so much. I have taken Xanax off and on for years. I’ll go months without it but use it for anxiety. Very low dose and not consistently and thank goodness never had issues. After watching lots of these now I’m sooooo careful only to take it once in a blue moon if I’m public speaking, flying, etc...
I told my doctor about what these videos talk about- getting damaged like this and straight up said it’s not real and said, “Those people had problems before the meds”
I believe everyone making these videos over my doctor and it made me so much more careful so this won’t happen to me. So thank you!!!
Stay the fuck away from the Xanax, unless you know you can only take it once in awhile and be fine. I almost killed myself withdrawing off this shit recently. If I would have had a bullet I honestly would have ate it during the withdrawal. I was literally insane for 28 days, bat shit crazy, but I knew I was crazy type of crazy. I just wanted to escape the pain, which was extreme.
Anthony
You are wise beyond your years. Your videos have been a very big part for my recovery. I watch them over and over again. It is so refreshing to see someone of your age so mature, thoughtful, articulate and willing to give others such help.
Kudos to you. When I'm healed I am planning to travel to the states (form Australia) and I hope I can catch up with you to shake your hand, buy you a meal and thank you face to face. It is the least I can do for the unknown help that you give to so many............
Doctors and Psych don't know shit!
Are you healed?
My doctor just basically decided to cut me off and wanted to save his ass and send me to rehab, he was only worried about his license and the state was on him, I was on a total of 5mg of xanax in a 24hr period, I weaned down to 1mg from April of this year to mid June then I stayed on 1mg till July 18th I was going to try going to .5 but I thought I was dying but I'm down .75 in a 24 hour period right now. hell is right, I wish I never would have taken this prescription for 8 years....thank you for sharing I needed this tonight 💜
he gave me a total of a month and a half thank God I had an extra bottle and so extra here and there from monthly scripts
How are you now? Still tapering off from xanax?
Same here!! State of Illinois is horrible now with any narcotic scripts, been on Xanax for 18 years and just cut my husband off this month, we both are prescribed Xanax but now my husband is admitting himself into hospital thank goodness!! He has horrible thoughts and I am extremely worried about him! Now I’m worried about myself I want off but I’m told don’t stop cold turkey? I know im addicted I am done from 5gm a day to 3mg a day I tried to go lower but I thought I was gonna die litterly went to Er last year 137x saying I couldn’t breathe my heart was racing something was wrong but no nothing was wrong it was just horrible panic attacks extreme anxiety they said no you can’t just stop! But here we are now with my husbands dr “ we do not see same dr” and cut him off he has 6 days left of medicine and if the hospital don’t help then I guess I will have to go to the streets and find them! This is horrible and ridiculous! I wish I never would have taken even 1 !!!
@@2shortshorty436 did u have muscle twitching or contraction?
dewi indriani yes I did and still do. Which is weird I just started getting them this last year! Am I the only one? Or do other people get the muscle twitching to??
I'm glad I stuck it through the most difficult days, I truly didn't know if I could survive through it. I wouldn't have been able to do it without the online community and my family. I was disabled for a month, everyday was excruciating. I needed a phych ward to be honest and I thought my mind was lost for good. Finally my phychosis eased up on day 30. Anybody going through this, please fight through, it does get better, it takes time.
Anthony, I've watched a few of your videos and your such a great voice out there for people going though this. I've been intolerant for 8 yrs to these drugs and im finally finding answers and getting my life slowly back, because of people like you making these videos and spreading the truth about these evil, wicked drugs. I just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Please continue to speak out about this
much LOVE ~
mason guritz thank you that means a lot to me, you are going to heal from this...That feeling of being healed is one of the greatest feelings ever.
@@ANT1714 thank you for being here 🙏 please find me @njladyliss on IG or Liss Considine on Facebook I would love to talk to you.
Mason how you doing now??
Bro, you are saying the truth! Glad to see somebody understands! THANKS!
G g you’re welcome, keep fighting.
It’s going to feel great to have everything back.
4 days off and I can hear everything and my thoughts are awful. This is hell
Hope your doing better, I'm praying for us all. 🙏
Chase crappell did u feel dereallization and stomach cramps in ur withdrawals please ans I m 107 days sober
Well Ant, it's 36 years, this month, since I got off oxazepam, so it's possible to put benzo garbage behind one for good. Yipee! I've done it. You've done it. So other people can do it, too! Hooray for all of us! 🎆🎈🎖
zuditaka yes!!!! We did do it!!! How have you been? Is anything new?
Every day is still fresh and new and full of exciting possibilities for me. (Not like when I was hopelessly addicted to that benzo garbage and thought I was gonna be a slave forever! lol) I am glad things are going so well for you, now, too! I can see you've got a happy and creative life ahead of you! Yippee! 🍰😋💙💜😃🍰🌻🐀🐁🐇🐥🐒🎊🎉🎆🎈🎁
zuditaka - enjoyed reading of your transformation and many years past Benzos. Appears you live a tremendously interesting style and this is encouraging to those at only 18 months. Life Beyond Benzos are words needed when in the throes of 'the nastiness'. Thanks!
Yes, you can do it. Anyone can do it if I can. My life was ruined and I was a slave to benzos. If I could offer my younger self advice, back then, getting off, and after getting off, it would be to read Norman Vincent Peale's *The Power of Positive Thinking* and Shakti Gawain's *Creative Visualization* . One has to start teaching oneself how to think positively and IMAGE success and happiness for oneself. If I had been capable of positive autosuggestion and of visualising my own success, happiness and wisdom, I wouldn't have gone down such a drug-stupified path in the first place. So good luck to you, too, and I hope life is a happy journey for you. You gotta make it a happy journey for you, and that requires wise autosuggestion and wise imaging, which becomes happy life actualizations. I'd also recommend using the arts to express oneself in. 🖌🖍🖼 Mona Brookes "Drawing with Children and Adults" taught me how to be an artist, almost overnight, and it's lots of fun, too. The ukulele, too, is so fun and easy to learn, with lots of free music sheets online and instructions on TH-cam. 🎸🎶 Creative writing like journalling can be a fun form of self-expression. Oh, and we must get back in touch with nature again. Nature-deficit disorder is the source of not a few causes of anxiety. So, yes, read "The Secret Garden" aloud, and find the secret garden, again, that was always in your own mind all along! lol 🌸🌷🌹🌻🌺🌼
zuditaka ~ 🌾🌿 🌴🌿🌾........ suggestion sounding super. Thanks!
Touche' with 'reaching out to the survivors'.......cause that's where we all want to be and grow; thanks for the video. You have lots to share
Kim Dennis you’re welcome, keep fighting this fight I can promise you it’s worth it.
It's been 39 months off the benzo for me and I struggle with a few lingering symptoms. Inner tremors , gastric problems , muscle and bone pain , but a lot of my most horrible symtoms are gone . Been there and done that with the trips to the ER . But I feel we all heal , but some people heal faster than others . Yes , distracting yourself with something is the best advice ever, thanks for posting !!
cathylynne22 you’re welcome, some people’s withdraws Are longer then others,Do not give up you’re going to get better.
How are you doing now? Hope you got better!
Everything I have been feeling still after 5 months has been validated by your video. I went to the er yesterday because I just couldn’t believe that I was still withdrawing and knew something was really wrong. All of my blood work, urine, mri, cat scan came back completely normal. They wanted to give me a sedative for the mri but when I found out it was a benzo I refused it. Relieved but frustrated because I knew something is wrong. I can’t thank you enough for putting my thoughts out loud knowing that I will get better. It’s very hard to articulate what you are feeling to someone. Even now I’m struggling to write this comment. The head, jaw, neck, back, leg, foot pain is incredible. You are so right. The absolute worst. Thank you for the encouragement.
Anonymous user how are you today?
I'm on my way! Wish me luck...
Gotta watch your thoughts. Don't react. As best you can..
So nice of you to make this, Keep paying it forward. You are a great person .
Thank you so much, you are very kind.
Keep fighting this fight it’s going to be worth it.
I'm just at 4 years off Xanax. Finally starting to feel better. The good thing that came out of this mess was that I found my breath, through meditation. Completely changed my life. So yeah I lost seven years but I came out of it stronger than I ever would have imagined myself.
As I'm typing this you're basically saying alot of what i'm experiencing/have experienced.
Good for you. Glad to see another survivor.
It took you 7 years to heal?????
Can you please tell me how your did it please help.
Are you healed?
@@Cheesygarlicccc Yes!
@@LynnMarieC-dl3fidid you have intrusive thoughts from withdrawal??? How long did it take to go away
I agree with you. I am a survivor. I'd love to talk to you. We can work together and do videos to help others. I'm in school for substance abuse counseling. My goal in life is to help others. With your assistance we can help alot of people who used to be in our shoes.
Contact me on IG at lovely_poisen088 or fb E Marie or my email eharrah2088@yahoo.com. I'd love to work with you.
I have the most anxiety at night and when I did sleep, I have bad dreams so the moment I wake up I'm so depressed. I can't sleep in my bed cuz I have such negativity attached to that bed so I have sleep anxiety as well.
watching your survival story gives me hope that this WILL pass.
Ghoulin Rouge nightmares and vivid dreams are a indication that your brain is healing,that's a great sign..
That anxiety is horrendous.
The only thing that can help it is shocking the (central nervous system) and laying a scientific ice pack on your feet and it will help shock the system lessening the intensity of the anxiety,and try lots of magnesium lotion..
But when your better you won't even have anxiety anymore,it's all chemical.
get a new bed
Cbd oil helped me alot when I was in the thick of it with insomnia and dp/dr. Look into it
How are you now
@@ANT1714 vivid dreams is a sign that,brain healing
Omg I need to talk to someone like you. Seeing all the horror stories is a mindfuck.
How are you?
Hey how the heck are you? I hope you’re doing great. You sure do sound great in the videos. I’m pretty much there also so Woop Woop for us. I cold turkey all that bullshit after 12 years high dose as prescribed bullshit. The only thing I gained from this was superpowers to be able to tell what the fuck bothers my body and I lost all the negative bullshit people in my fucking life. Evidently that was everyone. I hope you’re having a good day things do get better we have to live life for us, not others. I’ve got all my shit logged. I just haven’t been able to post it since I’ve been gone through divorce to try and get my kids back. I will be sharing my story now soon on what I went through. Thank you for your videos.
Gosh, how were you able to go into your doctor's office and get refills and still hold youself together? I can barely put sentences together, let alone sit still.. And how would a regular routine day be like for you when you went through benzo withdrawal? Your videos and stories are SO helpful and you are saving so many lives around the world. I look forward to your next video!
Dan Nguyen I had to updose alot to go the the doctors,and a regular day consisted of me stairing at my blue wall in my room..
Lol...and being mad at the world.
Every single day was hell,but now everyday is fun,just like it will be for you again.
Dan Nguyen thanks for this question! I'm currently tapering and terrified of my pdoc. she's not as supportive as I hoped. I've had to updose and when I told her she was pretty rude about it and then tried to shove another medication down my throat. my next appointment is next week, and I'm already dreading it....
when you would updose for doctor appointments, would you just do it for that day? also how would that effect your taper /withdrawals?
ANT1714 Thank you for your response back. Been crappy lately but just wanted to thank you for your time. The benzo community is blessed to have you and your knowledge of this drug. I still think about your old comments, "to survive I have me, my friend the Ashton Manual and Jesus Christ. That's forreal.
ANT1714 Can we email? I tried sending a pm through TH-cam but it didn't work and I don't have fb. My email address is weekuhtwo@gmail.com. Thank you so much!
I went from 34 MGS diazepam down to 12 in 3 years now back to 20 and ready to finally accept I have to taper.
I'm hoping to get somewhat stable before resuming my taper, Thanks for the video you're more chilled and
Laid back than some other horrific vids... Congrats & continued healing
Cathy Nistico try to get stable and then make small reduction’s, I have created a support group recently, it is under my recent video that I just made.
There is a link.
Went off Benzos cold turkey & lived to tell about it.
Proud of you! 💖👍
What was your dose and duration? Please share your symptoms x
@@goddessvibes08 It has been 7 years ago since I quit the Benzo`s cold turkey so I can`t remember the exact dose. I would also like to mention, that at the same time I had also quit taking prescribed opiates cold turkey. My withdrawal symptoms as a result, were from two drugs which made my experience all the more hellish. I don't remember all of what I went through, but I do remember having lots of paranoia, anxiety, diarrhea, puking (dry heaves), trouble sleeping, loss of appetite, headache, electrical shocking sensations throughout my body. I had bouts of rage (homicidal) tendencies. Also one very bazaar side effect. My left arm started moving all by itself. My arm would reach up to the ceiling stay there for close to 30 seconds then drop back down only to shoot right back up in the air. This went on for several days. I went to the hospital emergency dept. in desperation, and was told I could go back on the Benzo`s to make it stop. I wasn't prepared to do that, so I just went home and tolerated what was happening to me. My body felt like it had been completely hijacked by "something". I couldn't perform simple tasks like writing my next dr.s appt. on the calendar, that would take up to 45 mins. just to do that. I wasn't working at the time, but had I had a job, there is no way I would have been able to work like this. Forget about driving (not a good idea). I don't recommend anyone go off benzo`s cold turkey, I did it out of utter desperation. You need to understand what is really happening to you when you are on those drugs. I call it possession in a pill, that is exactly what it is. When you are taking these drugs you are being dragged into the pit of hell. Entity(s) hijack your mind, body, & spirit, these drugs are pure evil no other way to say it. I had a water purifier a really good one "Berkey" (with the fluoride & arsenic removal filters), I flooded my body with purified water which I had several quartz crystals( and other stones) placed in the bottom of the water filter. I drank as much water as I could, to flush out the poison (drugs). I went to church (normally I don't) & asked people to pray for me. I knew these drugs caused a possession to occur in my mind, body & spirit, and I was willing to try anything in the arsenal to end the evil. If you can get off the Benzo`s do it, these drugs are PURE EVIL, they should never have be legalized in the first place. Look up pharmakeia (sorcery) that is what is being done to the prescription drugs before selling them to the public). After I learned the truth about drugs prescribed and also over the counter, I vowed to live a drug free existence. I don't smoke, drink, or use any kind of drug (whatsoever). I eat healthy organic (non GMO`s) I intermittent fast regularly to maintain my health & wellbeing. Educate yourself about possession via drugs (prescription & street drugs) save yourself while you still can, those that didn't in time ended up permanently locked up in the nuthouse or dead. Bless you in your healing journey.
@@ladygrace2741 Thanks for sharing your experience and success story. I also had a long and difficult process recovering from psychiatric drugs which I had been taking for over 15 years and came off too fast. I also learned a lot through the process, really cleaned up my life, learned how to take care of myself and now live a much healthier and happier life. I also will never take another psychiatric drug. I rarely visit a doctor these days or take any medication at all, besides the occasional aspirin.
@@Jen.K how r u now frd
wow man you an the rest of you guys stepping up is so encouraging! its seemingly impossible to describe but losing my family videos like this really help. thanks guys! right on the money...
Clint Daugherty ya family has not a clue how bad this really is!!!! And unless they been thru it they will never truely understand your hell,but it will be worth it when your healed,you'll be stronger and wiser...on top of fearless.
You are good. You get it.
This is a great video to share with EVERYONE. So sorry about your dad Anthony❤️
I'm early into taper on Ativan, I'm struggling, these doctors are poisoning us. I cant be a mom, its a shame.
Same here Hun my realtionship as been ruined with my only child...I was CT off 3 drugs & had them reinstate me back on Valium...it’s so scary but we have to believe in those that have gone before us xxx
I was there in the 80s I actually got preggers with my first and she was born with a clefting disorder even though I got off cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant. So for 9 months I was off benzos. I did find remission for the pregnancy. My symptoms came back. So I got back on them..catch 22!
pHARMAcreates Customersnotcure any better
Several years of my relationship with my daughter was also stolen from me. I was extremely sick while she grew up, became a woman and moved into her own home. I lost those valuable years of her life and she had to manage without my support. Thankfully, she's doing great now, but I will always be sad about not being part of that stage of her life. I'm sorry for all the losses caused by these drugs, for everyone who goes through it.
Thank you. Just over 4 years off and in a bad wave. Recovery/survivor stories are so so so important to help the rest of us keep going.
Jen K You're still having bad waves at 4 years off?
My waves usually aren't so bad now, but I took some vitamin D about 3 months ago and had a bad reaction to it, worst wave in a long time, but I'm over it now and back at my baseline, but I still can't tolerate caffeine, alcohol, intense exercise or stress. I'm in protracted SSRI and benzo withdrawal.
Jen K yes they are, without them I probably would not have made it.
It’s great to know that all this is a faded memory One day.
@jen K how are you now?
@@Cheesygarlicccc Hi Brian, thanks for asking. I'm over 8 years off now, I was withdrawing from both benzo and antidepressants. I started taking the benzos to help me with the antidepressant withdrawal, and became dependent on that too. I'm mostly back to normal now, but I'm still vulnerable to stress. So I live a very simple, stress free life as much as possible. If I overdo it, I will get very mild symptoms early in the morning, like a mild wave which lasts a few days. Apart from that, I feel a lot better. I'm able to take vitamins again, drink coffee and anxiety has gone. I can't push my nervous system like I used to though, it's still quite vulnerable. But I'm very grateful to have survived and to be able to live a pleasant and comfortable life again. Every day is a blessing now and I will never take another psychiatric drug.
I am 7 months off after a 10 month taper. Was on Kpins for over 7 years. I'm VERY slowly getting my life back and I'm so glad I took the initiative to get better. I still have a lot to go through but it's getting better. Thanks for these videos, they are 100% spot on!
How are you now?
Are you healed?
Sorry to hear about your dad, I’m sure what you feel is grieving and situational depression. Thank you so much for the encouragement. I need this, I’m really in a horrible way, but I’m holding on. I’m glad you are better.
You honestly are saving people’s lives with your encouragement and what you went through
I know EXACTLY what you were going through in your early videos too
Great video, what you said about being stronger after the process not even doing justice to what you feel was spot on. And i'm not even off yet, still tapering 3 months. But I definitely have been feeling the same thoughts. Thanks for the vid, much love man hope all is well
Keep on keepin' on
The GoD Reality you were going to be feeling on top of the world after this.
Slow and stable tapering wins the race.
This will pass.
These drugs steal your damn soul.
Im 7 days clean from lorazapam. I went from half a 1mg tablet to nothing. The first 5 days were hell . I couldnt sleep, i can hardly eat i have extreme muscle tention. Burning in ny neck and pain in my lower back . The dr told me withdrawal lasts a week yea fucking right lol. Did i tamper off too fast ? Did you have neck or back pain ? When im healed from this i will cry happy tears everyday i want my life back
sarah falkner same 5 month CT only used for 6 weeks .5 Still really bad
Thanks so much glad you made these vids everything your talking about is what I'm going through, hope your going well these day.
Thank you for putting up this video. Finally someone is knows what hell I am going thru. I have had 5 sucidal attempts so far. I tried really really hard but still don't know what else I can do anymore but to die alone . I don't know what to expect anymore. My whole body is shutting down .
How are you now?
"Life gets so beautiful"
Thank you.
Im currently withereing away in bed in withdrawls
My condolences to you.🙏🏽🙏🏽
Browngirl thank you
hey your a sincere guy truth is powerful keep up the work man i got this on a day that it was very needed long lonely mad days eh
and i live alone so no support especially fro dr so i have been making lots of mistakes not knowing how many tabs i am takeing and cutting down here and there so now i willmake a bettereffort in seeing what i do
diazapine phew
sirchristopherwren52 i’ve created a support group, it’s a Facebook group.
There is a link on my recent video that I just made... you can feel free to join.
It will get better
I'm tapering off 6 milligrams right now I'm down to 4.5 milligrams now and you are right it is complete hell I just pray to God that this is over one day but it feels like it never will end but I have faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that everything will be okay. Your videos give me hope.
Hey Anthony
great videos, you are giving inspiration to those of us that are still suffering.
I have been off for 23 months and I am still having a rough time.
Scott Buxton 23 months for a lot of people can still be early, depending on if you tapered or cold turkey..
Do not panic, all the symptoms will diminish in time.
How are you now?
I worry because my primary symptom is PAIN. It's either muscle pain or nerve pain, I can't tell. Pain is why clonazepam was prescribed to me around 20 years ago. I am in disbelief that this medication can cause this much pain but I shouldn't be, should I??
I appreciate your response. Thank you.
Psychiatric drugs don't cure anything, at best, they suppress symptoms for a while, but cause worse problems of their own, so you are left worse off than when you started. I'm sorry you are still dealing with pain, your original pain and also the additional suffering from the benzo. I wish I had never taken a psychiatric drug in the first place, but had instead been helped with a proper treatment to address my original symptoms. So many of us have been mislead and harmed by psychiatry and the pharmaceutical companies in their quest for more money and power. I hope you discover the cause of your pain and find a way to manage or cure it safely.
Well done young man keep it up great vidieo!
I'm terrified. My doc gave me Xanax for anxiety. I take it EVERY DAY, 3 or 4 times a day. Sometimes 5 times a day. And I have been for the last 3 years. I happened to come across a Xanax withdrawal video .. And I was like. Xanax withdrawal?? Never heard of it. So I watched it and it scared this shit out of me. I HAD NO IDEA this drug would have these effects on me if I stop. I heard on another video that it's more addictive than heroin!! Is that even true?? I've been binge-watching these withdrawal videos all night. I've heard people say it took 3 years to feel normal, again! Three years??? I also take Paxil .. and I'm seeing "Paxil Withdrawal" horror stories that I haven't even watched yet! I have gone through opiate withdrawals (4 blown discs in my lower back) .. and THAT was HELL!! So, wtf, Xanax? Why didn't my doctor warn me?? Now I don't want to take these ... I'm afraid to stop. What do I do??
Desaree Bourdon from what I understand it’s different for everyone. Some have very little trouble but many suffer.
Wished..seen this before.
Today-> 3mo. 2days.
Hardest thing I've ever done...
Thank you for so much much needed HOPE!!!
I've been on 3 and sometimes 4 2mg bars a day for over 20 years. I don't think at this point, I would survive a benzo detox without dying. I was put in jail for 9 days and I was hallucinating so bad. I didn't leave my cell. I thought people were conspiring against me, especially the C.O.'s. After I got released, I went home and took 1 and in 20 minutes I felt fine. The problem is that no Dr's want to prescribe them anymore. Idk if it's just in Pennsylvania state or everywhere? I'm terrified. This doc I'm seeing now is willing to detox me very slowly. I've also been on 10 mg of Ambien for the same length of time. We've been detoxing me for about 6 months, but only the Ambien. She wanted to do both at once and kept changing her mind. Luckily, my Therapist is in the same office and is actually the Director. I told her that the Dr kept changing up the plan and so now she comes into my Dr's appts with me so nothing shady will happen. I'm down to 4 10mg's a week alternating 5mg's every other day. I'm losing a lot of sleep and it's very hard to focus. I wish I had the equipment and knowledge to make a TH-cam video of my full detox and if I'm successful or if I will die. I've seen many TH-cam videos of people who have just been on them for a couple few years. No where close to the 23 years I've been using benzo's. I've always had them legally prescribed by a Dr. If anyone sees this and has successfully come off of them alive and sane, for even 15 years, please let me know. Thank you and God bless you.
Tracey Ryche White I know people that were on Benzos Over 40 years and got their life back, and you will too.
Please do not give up this fight.
How are you now
I was taking 3-4 xanax bars a day, total abuse. 2 months clean now, struggling with derealization/depersonalization.
Has anyone else came across these?
many.
money madem Yes, I had the derealization really bad And the depersonalization, it’s only a matter of time game till they go away.
money madem , I have depersonalizatio and derealization. It hit me 2 weeks after I ct .05 ativan which I only took couple times per week..is the brain's mechanism to protect itself and you from further damage. Nothing feels or looks real not even youurself.. Is getting better as time goes on
@@belinromero6577 how are you doing now?
money madem Yes! I felt like someone kidnapped me and put me on a spaceship and I was outside of my body controlling it with strings. Like a puppet. It really sucks because your brain is in such a dense fog during acute withdrawals. But you do come back to yourself. And your sanity is restored. It just feels like forever.
You r the only one i listen to, besides 2 benzo meditations. I thank God for you.💟 I'm in a wave, but hanging in there. Alot of pressure in my head, and nerve painin neck and shoulders.🙏
10mths, ct, klonipin. Was on them 15 yrs! Slowly getting better. Its still very hard.😕 But I won't give up! 🙏
We've got to put this in our hands... any psych meds. Any.
great video/message here .. be safe, be strong, keep living,
I was a heroin, methadone xanax addict for 20 years , I have hung out for heroin as bad as you possibly can after shooting up subutex after 160mg of methadone, that experience is indescribable I had no control of my limbs my whole body was shaking violently and sicker than sick it was fucking horrible but there was worse to come, I was in my mid 20s at the time fast forward to my early 30s and the clinic that prescribed my done started me on xanax 4 2mg tablets a day one every 6 hrs, for 2 years I dosed 80mg of methadone and 4 xanax a day, then I got to the point where I wanted to change my life so I reduced off the methadone slowly and to my horror got cut off xanax cold turkey because they weren't going to be prescribed anymore, I didn't sleep for months, I would be awake shaking through every night for 3-4 weeks and then get to the point of exhaustion and get maybe 6hrs sleep and start the process again, thankfully I had my parents support and they just let me roll around on the floor for two years until I felt I could begin to rebuild my life, I can honestly say if I hadn't had immediate family members commit suicide and seen the affects it has on the people left behind I would have killed myself during that 2 years, I feel like I am dead inside after what I've been through, I would not wish what I went through and am still dealing with on anyone, I think xanax should be irradicated, they ruin lives and the doctors prescribing them should be force fed the same dose they give out then cut off themselves so they know what they are doing to people.
Bro. How are you today? I’m so sorry for your struggles. I am there now.
I am thanking God for you right now
Thank-you and God bless you for these videos..🌈🌤️
Everyday I think I’m going to die, just knowing you went through it is comforting.
I’ve been on this journey since November, I’ve created fears that don’t make any sense
Will Jones very
Will Jones same here,I feel so bad it makes me think I'm going to die every day.
@@OuBigTex how are you now?
@@willjones4199 how are you now?
My doctor was hesitant to give me this
I have been on .05mg Klonopin/clonazepam as needed for anxiety/panic attacks since 2010. This year my psych doc upped the dose another .05mg, so I am now taking 1MG ( though my doc prescribed 1mg twice a day) as of Jan 2017. Well I decided earlier this month ( June 2017) that I really hate taking this pill because i want to be normal again. so I am now splitting the 1mg up and taking the .05 mg in the morning and at night. I will be doing this for a month then I will only start taking the .05 for a week or two. The symptoms i am seeing now ( even as i write this comment) as i am tapering off is that when my body needs a dose/fix it always starts with my heart. My heart will pound and pound hard and sometimes even race... and i try to prolong that symptom because i am telling myself that it's just the withdrawal symptom but then i cave in as soon as the shakiness, full body sweats and panic start, it is Then that i take the .05mg and the symptoms subside. But at least I am not taking 2mgs a day as i was prescribed in Jan 2017. My plan is to taper off and hopefully never look back at this pill again. Thanks so much for this video dude! And to anyone who feels me... lets stay strong and do this knowing that we WILL overcome this horrific life event. It sucks but you are NOT alone! -hugs- peace and love and good luck!! :)
Melicio DelTorro that’s not too big of a Dose, remember taper slow and stable.
This will be a faded memory one day and you’ll be on with life.
Did you have horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this? And did you feel like your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I'm homebound, tapering Ashton manual, two times two quick and went badly wrong.
Now have at least seven months to taper and I can't take this. I was confident active social person and now i'm alone mostly because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people.
I fear everything. I have suicidal thoughts everyday and have to fight against them.
I fear waking ups all day.
I can't see anybody but mom when she helps me to get food.
I can't function. I loved to excersise and can't.
I fear I lose my partner, he is waiting.
I feel depersonalization and derealisation and disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. I have heavy sleep medication because I didn't sleep barely at all, 200 mg of quetapine and 20 mg of temazepam and it is toi much but doctor says first I have to come down this 30 mg of diazepam. I have been in this hell for 1,5 years because of two failed quick tapers and then at summer I was prescriped klonopin and it didn't help my brain lock or anything and after six months of klonopin and suffering I said to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it. I was shocked when I realised how much of diazepam that was. Have tapered in over two months from 60 to 30 mg. Then it will go lower drops.
Did you feel long that your brain doesn't function normally? I have lost everybody around me, at least temporarely. I'm scared to death. Thank you if you can answer.
The NONSTOP ADRENALINE RUSH IS DRIVING ME CRAZY NOW!!!
Ty for this video, very encouraging... In June 2020 it will be 2yrs that I have been off benzo. I was on them almost 20 yrs, then cut off ct. Still hanging in there. God bless you all who are going through this...♥️🙏♥️
Keep going don’t give up
I’m telling y’all now I need HELP!! Been taking 5mg a day for 18 years now, and I want off!! Doctors are just taking people off without any tapering or absolutely nothing! How are they getting by doing this? Illinois is one HELL of a state! There is no cure there is nowhere to turn to?
hi listening to your video my hubby has good days and bad we go between 1 and ten ten being brilliant. he's 8 today we are coming to the end we hope after nearly 3 years please keep talking to us thank you keepsafe
peter noble I will and it will get better for him...just be there for him as much as you can...he will get better...
Are you healed?
I'm looking forward to your next video. My spouse is a malignant narcissist and she knows I'm ill and is using that to hurt me even more in my weakness. Since starting my WD (still tapering) I've developed prostate cancer too from the weakened immune system from chronic relationship stress (which is why I was on a benzo in the first place) and from all the cortisol from the stress of WD. I depend on her insurance for my healthcare so I can't leave her. What can I do to heal and cope? The thought of waiting years to get better and move on is terrifying. I'm no spring chicken. Your thoughts and prayers are appreciated.
Maxwell Bernstein i’m very sorry that you’re going thru this, take it one day at a time, and tried to be nice to her even though shes mean to you.
Normal people do not understand.
It’s going to get better.
You have to get rid of the narcissist for your own survival, you cannot go thru this type of withdrawal while being cruelly abused at the same time. Start making your exodus plan now, even if you end up in debt in the process. Your life is paramount here, narcs love to see you suffer, time to end the abuse forever and get out.
I'm still hanging in here
Benzo tiger how r u now
Thank you
Yes, I'm angry at the hell I've had to endure and seeing others struggle and were damaged by what the doctor prescribed and injured folks. I'm still fighting benzo rage, it takes hours a day to push it all down. I see people who walked out of my life daily and my anger grows. I do hope that eases. I'll never forgive but I want how uncomfortable this is to go away. Controlling anger and anxiety daily. CT never ever do that!!! I was fortunate in that the last doctor I talked to agreed to give me the meds throughout my taper. I never saw him and still haven't seen him one year since I started in all of this. BUT I lost YEARS to tolerance and after 6 doctors, none of them realized what was impacting me. I diagnosed myself finally in desperation. I'm 5 months off benzos and still struggling with symptoms and the feelings of abandonment by those who refused to try and understand. I know I'm strong, stronger than most, but yes, we need to get through this the best we can and do it for us, ourselves. find a friend or family member or caregiver that can pick up those meds for your taper to ease stress. I wish everyone well.
I had pacing akathisia and was very suicidal and I took an overdose of alcohol and Tylenol six months ago and caused worse symptoms. I'm having some windows. Do you think I'll recover from a setback like this?
Jennifer R how are you now?
How are you now?
Hoping my loved one gets off and out of the clutches of Big Pharma Hell
semidor1 he will,it's a journey but damn well worth it,make sure your there for him or her,cause it will be tough for them to do the easiest tasks..
I’m having a hard time following rather than looking at your face moving around and stuff. In fact, the only reason I chose your video amongst the other ones was that your face is neither turning terrifying nor super ugly.
So:
Are these visuals normal?
I’m thinking they might be caused by lack of sleep, which I actually got 3 hours of this night.
I’m only on .5 klonopin to sleep at night but I can’t go through all this! I have a business to run and am trying to adopt a child.
I lost my daughter in 2015 and was put on klon for PTSD and sleep. I did wean off with no issues after a year but then I had a miscarriage 2 years ago and ended up with PPD - back on the klonopin.
I’m terrified to come off but I know I have to. Wish I Never started!
Jesus...you have undoubtedly been through allot! Have you tried slowly tapering yet? I'm currently 16 months post Klonopin / All RX drugs after an initial grueling fifteen month taper. I still have along way to go however no two people are exactly the same with respect to all things Benzo Withdrawl.. PEACE and LOVE 😁
Your situation and many others just like it are why Dr's by law need to start giving their patients informed consent!
R C thank you ♥️ I have tapered off klonopin once but it’s funny at the time I had no idea there was a withdrawal and I pretty much weaned off in a month.. surprisingly I had no issues! Now that I know I guess I’m scared.
I also have to wean off of Prozac and remeron. I’m not having any issues except weight gain but I’m just sick of taking this crap! I’ve just been through so much I don’t even know how I’ll be without the meds ya know!?
How are you feeling now post taper? I hope you are well!!
I know Aston says :everybody;s different but I say do not drop more than .25 mg (Klonipin) every 2 weeks. Now if you are already at .25 mg every other day don't add any. My worst I was doing 5 mg per day for months. Ended up with a rapid one month detox. I say do not try this as it was hell. You know what else is hellish? Paxil withdrawals. I was watching a Paxil withdrawal video here, I had to stop watching as the description of the "brain zaps" was frightening, make that terrifying.
Glad your doing better. Did you have any muscle tightness, ear issues, throat issues, clenching and teeth pain? Did you have bad anxiety, panic and fear? What about agoraphobia? Would your symptoms be all day long, did you get waves and Windows? Would you have symptoms that lasted many months? Also when recovered did symptoms start easing up and then go away or you woke up one day and was recovered? Thank you for any information you can give me.
BAT T I had all of those exact symptoms.
I hated that anxiety,I couldent relax and I was always getting rushed to the hospital.
Thinking it was a heart attack..
Those symptoms will subside in time tho.
ANT1714 so waking up w random irregular heart rate is normal. I’m so scared even while tapering. I am only somewhat fine when I stay home. I have horrible anxiety I hope this is not going to last forever.
@@brittanynelson9114Hi, your message is old.
Hope you are well.
I have horror waking ups with heart racing.
Did you feel ever your brain didn't function and understand a simple thing and normal life?
I have it so bad.
Third time of trying to taper, prescriped, two times were too quick and went badly wrong. Once I had this brain lock off when I was crossovered to valium from oxazepam (that was a fast taper) and i could have my normal life back, for few weeks i was my normal self, active, social. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong and brain lock came back.
I'm homebound because of it. Bad agoraphobia and dr/dp.
My partner and mom bring me food.
Thank you if you can answer and give some hope. All the best.
Hey ANT1714 I hope you see this. I cold turkeyed 4 mg of xanax per night and I am 8 months clean and still struggling every day. I can leave my house and do certain things that 100% need to be done but its a struggle. Aside from that I just sit on my computer or in my bed all day every day. Please make another video soon no matter how redundant it is. You are one success story that I keep rewatching because you can actually see your true progress. Hope you make another video soon!
Dan Elkins I just created a support group, you can find it on my recent video that I just made, there is a link underneath, call jerky can be rough.
Are you going to stay off? Or reinstate and taper?
ANT1714 I am going to stay off forsure. 3 months after I c'td on new years I had a week where I was drinking alcohol. I have had no professional help and had no idea alcohol can kindle you. After the alcohol I couldnt sleep for a few days and stupidly decided to take xanax that night. After that night I have felt totally insane. Horrible intrusive thoughts. I also have irrational fears such as afraid of the volume dial on my car and idk why. I cant focus nothing registers. Dr/dp thru the roof. I have not drank or touched xanax since that alcohol binge and 1 time dose. So its really been 5 months since alcohol and benzo set back and 9 months since ct. I see small improvements but its so slow it took 5 months to see any improvement. I feel like dying. I just need reassurance that I will heal. I will never touch alcohol or benzos again or anything gabaergic for that matter. I just ordered magnesium glycinate so I hope that helps. Thanks man. Appreciate your vids.
@@DanCourtneyElkins how are you now?
sorry for your loss
AussieBattler46 thank you
Sorry about your dad.
Thank you mate this helped me a lot
my dr. prescribed 3 bars a day for 10 yrs straight. my with draw was insane. muscles tunnel vision, fire ants!! i litterally slapped my skin!! and extreme paranoia! i couldn't use the damn toilet lol, my dr. moved to al. and pretty much said ur on ur own adios! im still on subs and went through the worst part of xannie w.d but now im practicaly agoraphobic. geez whatva mess some1 give me a dead line! i camt do this!!
don't do this but alcohol is my help. i cant afford rehab and i cant tell my dad. my mom died od. and i cant put him through this shit. i cant function, i have 2 kids we should be swimming, but shh i dnt wanna leave the house and dinners a chore. wtf??
killer leaf that agrophobia was horrific.
I had it for years,and that DR and disassociation and depersonalization.
O my god,you'll be able to leave the house again when your better,and you'll love it.
I use to look out my windows and be like I can't even go outside:( and now I'm like running outside lol...
Better days to come.
I hope you are well.
You’re video helped me a lot, the doctor that wrote me a script wouldn’t write me a script to get off. And thankfully I found a doctor that will help me get off but he said it will probably take a year.
How do I know if I'm tapering too fast? don't want to get PWS. my plan is to get off 0.325 mgs of xanax in 2 months. been on for a year. I'm 3 weeks in and the symptoms are already very bad. wondering if I should press on or slow down a bit. thanks
23 months off a CT klonopin... still having WD symptoms
every night for three months I felt like I was dying ...of course I've improved at 23 months ...but I still have ear splitting tinitus headaches muscle aches fatigue crying suicidal thoughts depression anxiety I don't trust anybody I'll never trust another doctor as long as I live most likely I would rather die than take a pharmacologically created drug
and how can all these doctors in emergency rooms keep telling all these thousands and thousands of people that keep coming to them telling them it's benzos that's doing this to them how can they keep telling us it's not when there are so many of us how can they be clueless it's more of a fucking bullshit trying to cover their asses story
THEY KNOW... how can they not make the correlation
The doctors are pill pushers, more people are becoming aware.
Especially about psychiatry and how they hand these pills out like candy.
But in the end we get better and we survive.
Featfetish this makes me worry
One week off and in complete hell. Can't even walk straight as the world seems to be moving at all times around me. Anything help dur ng your withdrawal??
TFemm44 If you didn't taper very slowly get back on a long action Benzo like Valium and go extremely slow. If you come off too fast you may be screwed up for years. I'm 16 months off and wish I would've tapered much slower...
Snide 2 How fast did you taper and from what dose?
TFemm44 nothing but time, and maybe magnesium lotion, that’s about it.
The healing is a really really slow process,But becoming a stronger version of yourself is totally worth it.
Brandon D
I just seen this comment and figured that I'd answer.. I was on 2 mg of Xanax daily and switched to Valium. I weaned down over 8 months of time. I'm 25 months off now and thought that I was healed around 18 months but I continue to have lingering symptoms off and on but I'm healed for the most part..
I don't know how I can I survive this, already been to homeless shelter twice...
theyre killing me
Jolie Espinoza breathe slow, this is going to get better I promise you..
Please do not give up
love watching your videos.2 month into my withdrawal.feel terrible.been taking zopiclone to sleep a few times a week.have I been making a mistake ? apparently they work on gaba too.would you say these last 2 months have been pointless ? as in recovering ?
Dale Austin zopiclone is also a benzo so you shouldn't take it.
im currently abusing xanax Taking upwards of 9mg a day but have a decent supply and wanting to taper. I have been Abusing high doses for over 2'months and am having withdrawal symptoms from reducing my dose to 1.5mg at a time and have new anxiety issues . what is a good taper plan this video helped me understand the reality of the drugs effect on the brain
Lisa Mutti make smaller reductions.
Are you tapering with a Xanax?
Hey thanks for your video ! Very good information !
It’s now been a week off xanax for me... been my toughest fight ever, and absolute HELL... but I still go to work and I know it’s not safe but I cold turkeyed... had a scare, I don’t want to touch a benzo again
Time is money how are you now
TimeIS Money did you heal
ive been taking xanax 3mg a day for 7 years im gonna try a medical detox from it im sick of this drug controlling my life any advice?
hi i came across your videos and found them really informative i have been on benzos for about a couple of months and want to quit after watching your videos will i have any withdrawal effects and how long will they last please do let me know bro.
I don't think I can come off clonazepam with PTSD and PMDD.... Also C-PTSD and SAD. I am one giant Acronym.
You can !!!
I did it, (cold turkey) PTSD & CPTSD & all the other acronyms. Consider the alternative if you stay on the evil poison.
For anyone else with CPTSD, a good place to start is with a book by Pete Walker called 'CPTSD from surviving to thriving"
im going through benzo withdrawl valium and im tremoring like a mutha fucker slightly euphoric for a short time so not sure if i missed my AD Dose going into a clinic in a few weeks but i had to taper off valium long term use my anxiety led me to pharmacy of questions without answers
AussieBattler46 Tremoring and severe body shaking is all normal.
Do not stop any psychiatric medication cold turkey.
benzo is hell i hate it ive failed many times to get off
Humberto Alanis i’m very sorry it truly is a living hell, but do not give up the fight because it’s like A miracle when you’re healed.
Humberto have you joined support groups online? They are a lifesaving support system. I'd never have survived this without them. Support, information, messaging on social media, personal calls. So many good people reaching out to each other. Don't hesitate to ask for help. The sooner you stick to it and taper off the sooner it will all behind you. :)
All why do these docs and drug Co get a pass on all this
Good question.. Its all about 💰
Its called corruption pure & simple. They want lifetime customers of their poison pills, first addict you then sit back and relax with the popcorn.
I can’t go to hospital this sickness is causing the end I’m seventy years and my anxiety depression is hurting i am disabled and alone and they want to put me in hospital mental hospital I’m all alone
So sorry Tony.
Man thanks so much for the inspiration im on day 7 of clonazepam from 3mg a day to 0 after 10 years.
👍 i am on mth 11, coldturkey, off klonipin, was on it 15yrs, I'm praying for us all..🙏
suzy s ugh did u go through the convulsions too?
@@willydeezle just mild ones but yes it was extremely horrific in the beginning...
@@whateverfloatsyourboat2181 I've went off the klonopin cold turkey, 7 years ago. I sleep like a baby at night, have a healthy appetite, I avoid all toxic people & situations and practise self love. I avoid doctors and don't smoke, drink or take any drugs whatsoever. STAY STRONG~Little tiny baby steps.
@@ladygrace2741 Thanks that helps + gives me some hope too. Its hard loving myself right now, I need to work on that.
Hey man I c/t'd off of 4mg of xanax a day in January this year. After two weeks of hell, I felt reborn. No symptoms were noticeable whatsoever. Maybe I didn't notice some of the smaller symptoms because I had just came out of literal hell and those symptoms wouldn't phase me. But in april 4 months after I c/t'd I was having trouble sleeping and took a 3mg dose to go to sleep. Yes I know 3mg with no tolerance is retarded. Essentially ever since the morning after that I've felt like I am back in withdrawal. It has been 3 months and symptoms have not subsided but have barley improved if at all. I have not taken benzos since that 1 night and I have only taken a benzo that one night since I have c/t'd. I also have to mention that prior to the 3mg dose in april I was binge drinking for a couple of weeks. I learned about kindling and am wondering if you think I kindled my self. I had ZERO SYMPTOMS AFTER C/T until I took a "rescue dose" in april. I don't know what I was thinking I just wanted sleep. Now I am totally fucked and kindled. Every day I want to die! Your videos are the only thing keeping me going. Thanks man for being my hope and light.
Dan Elkins Alcohol and a rescue dose is what did it. Just hang in there as it will get better. No alcohol for a couple of years and no rescue doses..
Dan Elkins I use to updose all the time.
Don’t beat yourself up about it, this is going to be a faded memory.
I want drink alcohol on these meds.
Try to be as patient as possible and taper slow stable, many people do kindle, and there is a saying that people that kindle take longer to heal.
Everyone is different, I put the poison back in my body all the time in my withdraw, and I healed pretty fast.
Keep fighting it’s going to get better
Did you have looping thoughts at all or exhasution
Jesus christ..I'm on 5mg.i only ever take a quarter or 2 days I feel anxious. I take it because I have generalized anxiety wtf should I do guys. Not addicted but I wanna avoid negative effects like this at all costs
I wished i could talk to someone like you.....I need support and have no one to talk to