i didn’t realise i was in a depressive spell for a couple months and i just came home every night and binge watched your videos. and the spell finally broke 2 nights ago after watching a bunch of your videos and i got motivation to clean. i appreciate your content so much. your mental health struggles are super relatable and valid. 💗💗
I really appreciate that you are so open about your PMDD. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar and actually just got diagnosed with PMDD. It’s extreme. I feel like I am constantly rebuilding my life after a depressive episode. The best thing I’ve done for myself is adapt my life to it. I’m fortunate enough to have a job right now where I can take some time to myself as needed and it’s made all the difference! Thank you for being so open! It’s really nice to know I’m not alone and crazy! ❤
the same thing happened to me where they misdiagnosed me with bipolar at first, even though that’s what they said it still didn’t feel right and i was glad i kept going back and got the proper diagnosis
the problem is people think bipolar is either mood swings within the week or what bpd is or simply just having an opinion or they think depression is a constant state of low or only su1c1da1 people when actual both things have a pattern to them such as depression actually coming in multiple bouts and having a middle ground in between the bouts. And bipolar isn't so much a spontaneous sudden daily switching its experiencing depressive episodes and bouts and also having middle grounds and also having highs that don't quite meet who you are in your natural state that don't feel altogether just happy and calm. Within each of any of these phases is where extra details occur such as chaos or spending or low thoughts or frustration or anger the details are different to everyone. Then of course there are things such as hormal disorders or hormonal influences, life experiences and or trauma and other possible disorders. Mental health journeys are on a spectrum from regular life to bad experiences to developing a condition to a chronic condition and can escalate or and be cyclical on this spectrum and it's really hard to manage when you're not entirely sure on the what's and whys and how's. Mental and physical health are so intertwined and I love that you're focusing on both the best you can and hope you can find peace and ways to feel okay no matter where you're at.
This is so relieving. I’ve never heard anyone, in person or online talk about this stuff so deeply and honestly, it’s all so real and brings me such peace knowing I’m not alone. It makes me kinda emosh haha. Thank you so much for being the person to talk about these important things, we all appreciate it more than you’ll ever know :)
Hi, watched all the way through and what you said resonated with me so much! :) I have also been struggling with anxiety and depression, and it is currently okay/very well for me, I am very creative and doing a lot. I started crocheting as well. (I learned in high school and enjoyed it then, seeing you do it in another video brought the interest back for me). I am writing and drawing a lot too, making videos of my process as well. It's been a lot of fun and I am grateful for the small audience I have who keep coming back to watch my videos :)
I literally started my youtube channel so that I'd be motivated to complete the activities that I was too depressed to do. To cultivate the community I lost in life. As I try to rebuild myself as a healthier person. It’s been very hard, sorta lonely in an unexpected at but I know im on the path to begin authentic and who I am internally. Watching your vulnerability has been such a beautiful thing. I super appreciate the time you’ve taken to share your thoughts through this season of your life
Girl i know I’m late to this but I’ve been feeling this EXACT way for a minute now. I don’t have depression, I have bipolar disorder and when you said “having to rediscover yourself and start all over again”… this is what I’m going through. Any time I have my periods of low foul moods I feel like I’m lost in life and that I don’t know what my purpose is anymore. I took a year off from content creation to figure my life out and I’m so glad I did. Sometimes it’s so good not having to worry about doing sht. You’ve always been one of the realest people I’ve followed. I started making videos again this spring but stopped because of school and now I feel like I fell out of my routine. Honestly sometimes I wonder why I even try so hard but as you said “there’s a greater purpose” in our lives and YES it DOES sound cheesy, but that doesn’t mean it’s not true! I always have to tell myself that it’s ok to feel like trash for days at a time, we’re so hard wired to be apart of hustle culture that we feel like if we don’t “achieve anything” all day we feel like crap. Sometimes it’s just good to exist and that’s it. We’ve missed you
When you said the line about things going well for a little while and then they come crashing down and the vicious cycle, I felt that. I’m doing better now and I’m genuinely handling my mental health in a healthy way but my junior year of college was one of the worst years of my life. Every few weeks, something would happen that sent me spiraling into some of the worst mental places I’ve been in and it was exhausting to have to wait it out. I didn’t know how long the “good” would last and I knew the “bad” would last longer. So I get what you’re saying. Thanks for being so open and honest in this video. It was wonderful to see you again, bestie! Zoey too! Have a good weekend! -Amber
sort of adding to my other comment - as harsh as it sounds you may never 'defeat' your depression, but you can find ways to make it easier to pick yourself up again. your hobbies or things that bring you joy, although small/silly they may seem to be, if they're a source of happiness it isn't silly. The purpose of our lives is to .. enjoy life, enjoy the seasons and the creatures along with people you cherish
This has honestly helped me so much. Struggling with mental illness that seemingly has no reason and is sooo debilitating is one of the most frustrating things to have to deal with. I struggle a lot with the same thing and have no clue what I’m doing with my life either and I feel that it just makes all my symptoms worse. I also feel so alone and I get so hard on myself because everyone else around me is doing things with their life and doesn’t have to struggle with what I do, so having you open up about your struggles helps me not feel so alone ❤
I completely resonate with you! I was always told I just had anxiety and was a perfectionist but continued to feel like something was missing since I felt like I was in an endless loop of high highs and low lows. This year I reconnected with my childhood bestfriend and she shared that she found out she had ADHD and that led me to finding out I also had ADHD. I had never even thought of that an an option I just thought I was lazy and couldn’t get my shit together… however now that I found that missing piece I feel a lot more validated and it’s brought me so much self love knowing I was truly doing the best I could. I hope you do find the right professionals to help you! Thank you for always sharing this honest content to make us feel less alone 💜
Heya. Thank you for being transparent about the struggles of mental health. I’ve struggled with Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar, OCD, and recently PTSD and I relate so much to the ups and downs. I thought about you the other day and was hoping you were okay. I’m glad to see you back and taking your mental health seriously. It’s a really tough thing to do. Keep lookin’ up. ❤
Being recently diagnosed with depression makes me feel really guilty when I don’t accomplish a lot of things during the day or when I fall behind on my coursework and the thing that gets me through it is that not everyday has to be super productive and that there is a chemical imbalance in my brain that makes me dip sometimes and I just have to take it day by day and be kind to myself and let myself feel all my emotions. I totally get you. Sending so much love and positive vibes. Glad to have you back bb! ❤❤
Thank you! I have been struggling through a depressive episode and just started surfacing back to myself. It helps so much to know that I'm not the only one and that even a small thing can help. Even if that is getting up of the floor and into a bed.
Hey bestie, I've missed you... I'm so sorry for what you've been through especially this month, it is so relatable for me.. It's so sad and exhausting when you feel good for a certain period of time and then anxiety and depression comes back AGAIN.. it's a vicious cycle and it seems there's no way out.. Anyways I'm glad to see you back again, I love you so much❤
So I just watched your vlog and you are a natural at sharing yourself and your experiences. That is your gift to us all. Your strength is unlimited even at your weakest times and I am so proud of you. Life is hard sometimes and we just have to feel and believe that better days are ahead. Even in our struggles we can find moments of happiness and peace if we slow down and show kindness to ourselves. The world is so lucky to have you sharing your ups and downs and reminding us that we are all in it together. And I am so blessed to have you as my daughter. Your are my light and fill my heart with hope and love. Keep being You ❤️
I’m so happy to see you back queen, in whatever capacity. Sending you endless love always, we depression baddies can get through this shit. We’ve made it through 100% of the hardest days we’ve ever experienced, and we can keep fucking doing it💕💕
Im so happy to see that you posted. Ive been casually consuming your content for years, but about 6 months ago I started binging your content. It got me through my tough depression. My up started shortly before you're down did, but Im so excited to see you back. Tysm.
I'm a 15 year old girl so yes I'm in my teens and I often had moments where I didn't feel understood by anyone then I found your channel, you are truly a special person and even just the fact that you talk about these things makes me feel less alone. I just wanted to say thank you.
Very big moods going on here. For the past two months or so, maybe longer, I haven’t been able to tell, I just haven’t been able to get control of my emotions. I’ve tried all my usual methods of journaling, venting to trusted friends, just letting myself feel my feelings, and for so long my emotions just stayed stuck in my chest. It’s like I was choking on them every day. One day at work I started shaking and crying and couldn’t stop. My boss let me go home and I was trying to stop crying long enough so I could see to drive home. And then it was taking a physical toll on my body. My knees, my feet, my shoulders, my neck, my back. Everything was in constant pain all the time. I think what was also contributing was that I was partially lying to myself about what was wrong. Literally November 17th I sat down and took the time to write out everything that was bothering me and being truthful about it. I didn’t leave anything out. It felt somewhat better but not a whole lot. Trying to listen to myself and what I know, and the help and advice my friends are trying to give me, and everything is a whirlwind. Not sure what I’m gonna do now but I think things are starting to look up. This morning I already feel better. But I don’t know how long it will last. Thank you for posting today. I was starting to get worried about you. I’m glad you’re okay and feeling better now. I’m really grateful for you sharing your experiences, especially because they are sometimes so similar to mine. I hope you have a good weekend ❤
Reese, it's so good to see you on my computer screen. You are an inspiration- literally. My depressive episode started last March and I believe I've come out the other side, but for so long I didn't think it was possible to feel again. Your videos kept me company and inspired hope when I had none. So thank you. I know it's tough when you have to pause everything to take care of yourself (and Bella), but I know that you're going to grow through this. I really just wanted you to know that your power is real, and I appreciate you❤
I take medication for depression and anxiety, it has helped me a lot but my psychiatrist tells me that therapy is key. I have learned to accept that it will never be a linear path and that it is very important to flow with each wave, embracing our ups and downs. We are a work in progress and every little step counts, even when what we do seems meaningless. You are not alone 🦋💪🏼✨
hi reese, i just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. i often feel the same way as you're feeling right now and the fact that you talk about it makes me feel seen and heard. i hope you'll figure it out one day, because you don't deserve it. love u endlessly
Love watching the thought process in your positioning of items! Very helpful! Your channel is so well put together and every detail is considered...from thumbnail pics, music, coordinating outfits with decor/ season. It's all beautifully done🎊🫂🎉🌲🎅🧑🎄🦌🌲🎄🍓
Thank you so much for sharing. I'm currently in the worst depressive episode I've had in a really long time and most days I'm unsure of if I'll get through it. It is so exhausting and feels never ending an frustrating. It feels less lonely knowing others feel the same feelings. I just appreciate the honesty and sharing your struggles.
I was just thinking about you yesterday and wondering if you were ok. Thank you for your honesty about your mental health, we need more people like you to break the stigma around mental health.
you're doing amazing, i don't like to speak about my struggles even to myself let alone to the whole internet so i quite admire how open and self aware you are, u got this bestie :)
Reese!! So glad to hear you’re feeling better, I assumed it was depression coming back with the last two videos you posted. I watched this all the way through because your content always makes me feel validated when I’m getting bad again. I’m in college, but I also do a lot outside of that so I struggle with a lot of anxiety and burnout. Every time I feel that way I try some of the activities you do and (I hope this doesn’t sound weird) it kinda of feels like you’re a big sister to me. Thank you for all that you do and even if your next few vids are mundane that’s okay!! You’re just getting back up on your feet and that’s amazing. Hope you can get access to new medication too
these past two months i have been showing symptoms for PMDD and it’s been rough but i’d like to thank you for opening up about your struggle with it because it’s helped me put a face to some of my mental health struggles that i wouldn’t have known otherwise 💗 sending you all the love reese 🫶🏽 hope you’re feeling okay these days :’)
hey i'm glad you're doing a little better. i've dealt with depression on and off for most of my life. it runs in my family. i used to be so crushed by it, but i quit blaming myself. it's outside my control. i have so many supportive people in my life that are there for me, but the depression always comes back. anyways i hope you have a better month and that you find some answers! but you're not alone in your struggles ❤ currently dealing with a low while also excited for the holidays (idk it's very confusing)
thank you for being so vulnerable with us. everything you talked about i deeply resonated with. 2022 was a really bad year for my mental health. I remember my therapist telling me that there’s no cure for depression so we literally have to live with this our whole lives. and I completely understand the whole ups and downs and feeling like a fraud when we’re better bc we know it’s gonna come back. it can really confuse you, and send you down a spiral. I’ve been in a good place so far, and I think it’s important to give ourselves grace and trust ourselves when things get tough because we’ve been through it so many times. you’re doing really good reese, be proud of yourself!
I just found and am watching your channel. I am glad you are talking about the mental health issues that are so prevalent this day and time. I am 67 years old and just finally was diagnosed with ADHD…already had the depression and anxiety diagnosis. Ask to do the test…there are a couple of videos that I felt I was watching myself. There are a lot of people on YT that talk about being diagnosed as a young adult…and older adults. Sending you a big hug and keep asking questions. We are our own advocate.
Honestly, I was so worried about you. I don't have any social apart from youtube, but I am so happy to see you post! I'm really proud of you for fighting depression. It's shit but the happy moments are worth the fight. One thing that helps me not be hard on myself is viewing my depressed-self as a friend that is coming to the happy-me for comfort and advice, almost like a friend popping round my house for a cup of tea. Sending you lots of love and hugs, and positive vibes! 💖 ❤
I dropped out of college 1.5 yrs ago for mental health reasons and my goals have become so much smaller, like cook food i like once a week or work on producing music i don't even want to share with the world that i literally only touch once every other week or build puzzles, and I'm doing so little and it's so spread out and I feel so bad because a 'normal' person should be able to do so much more and at such a higher frequency and have bigger goals. So I definitely feel you. Like I know logically I am doing fine and I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but it is so hard to actually feel that sometimes
So happy you are back and thankyou for being so honest about your depression. I was in it deep for the past few weeks too, but this week I finally felt like doing one of my hobbies, reading, again so I guess I’m slowly coming out of it ☺️💗
Hi reese, as someone who also struggles heavily with depression and anxiety please take all the time you need, you cannot pour from an empty cup. Be gentle and kind to yourself, its okay to take time for yourself. Flowers aren't constantly in bloom. My stomach wall lining eroded from years of intense anxiety from living in a toxic environment along with working retail, and when id have panic attacks itd bring me to the hospital. Mental health can 100% effect your physical body, so please take it easy on yourself and know you're not alone. Your worth is not based off of productivity
Your honesty is so helpful in making people feel less alone in mental health struggles ♥So glad to hear that you're doing better! I highly recommend the book "The Defining Decade" by Meg Jay. It talks about being in your 20's and gives advice for figuring stuff out if you're feeling lost. I'm currently in that stage, too, and I've found it really helpful ♥
I'm so sorry that you've been struggling, Reese. This last month I also had an incredibly bad PMDD/depression flare up, so I feel you unfortunately. Also your personal goals are not silly, reaching my goodreads yearly goal is also keeping me going right now. Thank you for sharing your experiences so the rest of us know we're not alone too
I'm a month late in watching this video (I'm catching up), but I just want to say that my favorite thing about you is how real you are. Most of us know how you feel concerning mental health. I hate that it's relatable for us, but it be like that. Thank you for being real 🫶
Sometimes the small goals, the baby steps and one day at a time is all you need to do. I go through depression and anxiety all the time and I can also be really hard on myself for not accomplishing it all, but the best thing I can do during those times is just take care of myself because if I don't, I can't show up for anything else. Thank you for sharing this, it's nice having a place on the internet I can go for virtual fellowship and support.
I’ve been watching you for years now, we literally grew up together. I love your videos queen and hope you are doing well❤️so glad to watch another vid(:
my favorite quote, which inspired my first tattoo, is what has helped me get through many depressive episodes and hard times in my life. it goes like this: “the purpose of life is to be defeated by greater and greater things.” it’s from a poem by my favorite poet, rainer maria rilke, and to me it means that our purpose comes from what makes us grow as people, which is often the harder things in life. and from that growth we are more prepared for what’s ahead. kind of grim, but i find a weird solace in it???? idk. but look up rilke bc he writes all about solitude and learning from yourself, etc. he’s great. and i hope this greater thing you’re facing is defeated soon 💕
Thank you so so much. I really needed to hear this. The past week I was feeling so depressed but it is still hard for me to not put the guilt on me. I hate being depressed so much but I’m also so tired of it. Thank you so much, you’re helping me every time me depression comes back ❤
i'm currently is one of the worst depressive episodes i've ever had and this video had such perfect timing in the sense that it has made me feel so seen and validated. i know that this is your goal with this channel, so i hope you know that you are most definitely achieving that. thank you endlessly reese
I can't relate personally to the PMDD thing and not being able to get out of bed. I wanted to hug you the whole time you were talking about that, gosh. I'm glad you're on an upswing, we missed you. Also I feel the fomo. My twenties were spent raising my kids so I have missed it ALL. Hang in there, little bee.
Thank you for that ! You're saying it like it is, and that's needed. No doubt it will be helpful to a lot of people, wherever they are on their journey with depression and finding ways to understand and live with it. You mentioned the guilt of "doing nothing" while knowing you have an abled body... one of the things I've realized over time is that the saying "mind overpowers body" is truer than it appears. Any athlete knows, you can push your body to extremes with mindpower, but it also means that if your brain is shortcutting your will (which is basically how depressive brains work) there is no way you'll be able to move an arm ! Also, about that "feeding myself and taking showers is all I've done for two months"... anyone with depression will know showering is a fu**ing struggle, so good job !! ❤
Heyy bestie, I missed you soo much. I started watching your channel a few months ago in the worst depressive episode of my life and you were really the thing that brought me out of that, motivated me to start doing things again, and made me feel all comfy for the first time in a long time. You really do make such a difference ❤❤ I hope you find peace on your journey soon
I watched all the way through, sent a dm on Instagram too, but I wanted to say, you’re not alone with the cyclical pain in the ass of depression. I’ve been there, been to ect, to therapy, to 20+ different meds. I’ve had to accept that my depression might be life long. I love your content and admire your vulnerability. Lots of love Reese. Hang in there ❤
It's sooooooooo good to see you back!! I've been constantly checking as I was worried. I know exactly how you feel, and with 2 kids, you can't just rot in your bed like you want to 😭 I too feel the exhaustion daily. Lots of love and hugs to you from UK xxxx
I relate so much. lately my anxiety has been compounding with my depression and I've been unable to do much. same w/ not really having a purpose. I hear you, and thank you for sharing this
Reese! Just now getting around to watching this as I am ALSO trying to pull myself back up after a really tough year. You are not alone, and looking through these comments I'm glad to see there seems to be a lot of us in this spot. The cycles of feeling horrible, working yourself up to good-ish, and then riding the good out until the rug is pulled out again is all too familiar. It's so frustrating that this seems to be life to those of us that struggle. Thank you for being so open❤
So glad you're back, Reese! We really are in this together and I'm so proud of your confidence and of how sincere you are when talking about your mental health journey. For me, the hardest thing is getting back on my feet after an episode, when I basically lose the concept of who or what I am, of what my goals are and what the whole point of everything is. It's just what you described, so I'm really glad to know I'm not alone in that particular struggle of finding myself again.That's the most frustrating aspect of depression for me. Thank you for sharing your story. 💞
no personal goals are meaningless!! i personally get better when i achieve a goal i kinda postpone bc to me its “not that important” and then im like “why dis i postpone??” jsbdbd anyway, im happy u are getting better!!
Welcome back gorgeous. I have lived with waves of deep depression for as long as I can remember. I think you highlighted the biggest thing. It's SO frustrating how hard it is to build yourself back up. Again and again. Wave after wave. I'm so thankful for creators like you who share similar struggles. It really does help me feel a little less alone as I battle the latest attack on my brain. I also have a book reading goal this year! In the last 10 years of my life I have put myself on the back burner. And as a kid, I LOVED to read. It was my favorite thing. So this year I set a small goal. 12 books. One a month. And I'm so proud of myself because Im on book 14 baby! I have missed reading SO much. I can't wait to hear about your reads when you get back to it. Be well
I‘m feeling so much better whenever i hear u opening up about all of these things i am feeling as well. i have to say tho, i‘m also talking with my therapist when i am in a pretty stable episode, i find that soooo helpful as well!! xx
Needed an honest talk type of video rn. Not as depressed rn but struggling with my relationship with food and health. It sucks, but hearing others talk about their mental struggles helps. Thank you. Also, 6:30-6:45 I relate to so much.
i feel where youre coming from, on those days where u feel like u don’t wanna do anything. in those moments i remind myself that this moment and these feelings will pass. just like the good ones do. and i remind myself that i won’t be sad forever and i will experience good moments again.
I wish I could think of something to say to make you feel better, but can't think of anything. So I'll just tell you that I am glad you're on an upswing right now, crossing my fingers for you that it lasts a long time, and hope you're able to enjoy the holidays.
Thank you for speaking so honestly about the depression topic. I've been pretty depressed lately too and your videos on this really helped me, not feeling alone with this. Hang in there~ And don't pressure yourself :) Greetings from germany
I'm so glad that I found your channel. The way you describe your depression is so real and nearly identical to my own experience and it helps me feel validated with my own mental health struggle. I'm glad that you are doing better and hope that you can find peace as you go through it.
i related to so much of this, esp wishing something happened to make you depressed. i’m so thankful for you & your videos and i can’t wait to see you raise the kitten w so much love 💓
Reese!! I love you for this video. I literally started watching your videos when I was 11 maybe 12. Basically a long long time ago. I'm a similar age to you and I remember loving all of your morning routine and study videos and basically anything else you'd post. Life was somewhat simpler then haha. When I was 15 I became severely depressed and have been diagnosed with MDD ever since. With so many people telling me I would get through it and that it was just a 'rough patch', I don't think I was expecting to still be here, turning 20, struggling every day with the exact same thing. What I really wanted to say is that I appreciate you making this video, I really do. Because knowing that somebody I feel like i've 'known' for such a while has gone through a similar pain to me is very comforting. I really understand that exhausting feeling of knowing that no matter what good day you might have it is always going to come back. It's frustrating and feels almost annoying because there's 'no reason' for it - like why can I not just make it go away then?? A lot of people don't understand just how debilitating it is, so not only does this video help people to feel less alone, it also helps to raise some kind of awareness among anyone else who might be watching. Sending you so much love & prayers, and if you ever need to chat with someone who gets it my messages are always open (@bellestultiens on IG).
i resonate so much with the cycle you explained. i’m sorry you keep going thru that. i know i found a lot of understanding when i researched and explored an autism diagnosis. i thought my depressive episodes were mental illness but it was really autistic burnout. it really made everything else click and i’ve found such a deep acceptance of self & my cycles/patterns/needs. wishing you the best 🫶🏻
You are amazing, strong, kind and have such a beautiful soul. Keep being you and getting up when you feel down. You are never alone! I’m always here for you!!
Thank you for being so open and honest Reese❤. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, because I can relate a lot to you, hearing you say these things is incredible validating, good to hear and it has given me new (good/validating) things to think about☺!
thank you for being vulnerable and honest. i get so frustrated and embarrassed about continuously going through the same cycles for no apparent reason. i really needed to hear this and know that i’m not alone lol 💜
I feel this if it means anything your honesty helps me not give up on my dreams of content creating bc I am always worried that I dont have what it takes but you show me that for people who struggle there is space for them to create as well
Currently feeling the same, thank you for this video, thank you for being here and for being so open there needs to be more people like you! Everything you said was not 'a lot' or too much, it was exactly what a lot of people like myself need to hear so we don't feel so alone! this resonated a lot again thank you
I never get tired of these videos, and I totally understand the cycle of depression. I also deal with PMDD, anxiety disorder, and endometriosis so never ending cycle of chronic illness. I have to constantly remind myself that these are chronic illnesses and I will have to deal with them forever and learn self compassion. The cycles are the worst, but finding yourself over and over again is good in a way...rediscovering passions is like falling in love all over again so it's my thing to look forward to. Sending love and hugs 💛💛💛
Hello , I am Nada and I am really sorry to know what you are going through! really feeling you girl 😢 I went through a depressed mood 5 years ago when I started college and it was a terrifying feeling 💔 thank God I am doing good now and whenever I listen to Quran on youtube or read it as a book , i csn not describe how my heart feel ! such a cslm peaceful feeling even if I am alone . there where night where i was so sad and broken inside and felt scared to sleep , i felt like i want a company and i thought of opening a Quran video and turn the volume on and listen to it ! 😢 I literally slept feeling soooo peaceful omg such a calm feeling , i felt like my soul was hugged and felt calm 😢 I hope you get better and find the true meaning in life .❤️🌱
Your channel brings me so much comfort, I can't express how much better it makes me feel about not feeling okay and feeling stuck in my brain sometimes
Welcome back! One of the strongest things a person can do is take the time they need for themselves. Thank you for always being so transparent about your experiences, and it is truly so good to see you again 🥰
Thank you so much for sharing your struggles so vulnerably and bravely. Your videos have made me feel so much more understood and always calm me down in my worst states - keep it up!! The fight against mental illness is so worth it, you have so much to offer the world!
I literally am going through the same thing. I am pretty sure I have PMDD because like during my period I am like fear and sadness from inside out. I have so many breakdowns on my period for no reason.
I cannot begin to explain the amount of peace you give me. I know now I'm not alone in this pain, none of us are
Thank you
Thank you for being so candid
i didn’t realise i was in a depressive spell for a couple months and i just came home every night and binge watched your videos. and the spell finally broke 2 nights ago after watching a bunch of your videos and i got motivation to clean. i appreciate your content so much. your mental health struggles are super relatable and valid. 💗💗
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I really appreciate that you are so open about your PMDD. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar and actually just got diagnosed with PMDD. It’s extreme. I feel like I am constantly rebuilding my life after a depressive episode. The best thing I’ve done for myself is adapt my life to it. I’m fortunate enough to have a job right now where I can take some time to myself as needed and it’s made all the difference! Thank you for being so open! It’s really nice to know I’m not alone and crazy! ❤
the same thing happened to me where they misdiagnosed me with bipolar at first, even though that’s what they said it still didn’t feel right and i was glad i kept going back and got the proper diagnosis
the problem is people think bipolar is either mood swings within the week or what bpd is or simply just having an opinion or they think depression is a constant state of low or only su1c1da1 people when actual both things have a pattern to them such as depression actually coming in multiple bouts and having a middle ground in between the bouts. And bipolar isn't so much a spontaneous sudden daily switching its experiencing depressive episodes and bouts and also having middle grounds and also having highs that don't quite meet who you are in your natural state that don't feel altogether just happy and calm. Within each of any of these phases is where extra details occur such as chaos or spending or low thoughts or frustration or anger the details are different to everyone. Then of course there are things such as hormal disorders or hormonal influences, life experiences and or trauma and other possible disorders. Mental health journeys are on a spectrum from regular life to bad experiences to developing a condition to a chronic condition and can escalate or and be cyclical on this spectrum and it's really hard to manage when you're not entirely sure on the what's and whys and how's. Mental and physical health are so intertwined and I love that you're focusing on both the best you can and hope you can find peace and ways to feel okay no matter where you're at.
This is so relieving. I’ve never heard anyone, in person or online talk about this stuff so deeply and honestly, it’s all so real and brings me such peace knowing I’m not alone. It makes me kinda emosh haha. Thank you so much for being the person to talk about these important things, we all appreciate it more than you’ll ever know :)
Hi, watched all the way through and what you said resonated with me so much! :) I have also been struggling with anxiety and depression, and it is currently okay/very well for me, I am very creative and doing a lot. I started crocheting as well. (I learned in high school and enjoyed it then, seeing you do it in another video brought the interest back for me). I am writing and drawing a lot too, making videos of my process as well. It's been a lot of fun and I am grateful for the small audience I have who keep coming back to watch my videos :)
I literally started my youtube channel so that I'd be motivated to complete the activities that I was too depressed to do. To cultivate the community I lost in life. As I try to rebuild myself as a healthier person. It’s been very hard, sorta lonely in an unexpected at but I know im on the path to begin authentic and who I am internally.
Watching your vulnerability has been such a beautiful thing. I super appreciate the time you’ve taken to share your thoughts through this season of your life
Girl i know I’m late to this but I’ve been feeling this EXACT way for a minute now. I don’t have depression, I have bipolar disorder and when you said “having to rediscover yourself and start all over again”… this is what I’m going through. Any time I have my periods of low foul moods I feel like I’m lost in life and that I don’t know what my purpose is anymore. I took a year off from content creation to figure my life out and I’m so glad I did. Sometimes it’s so good not having to worry about doing sht. You’ve always been one of the realest people I’ve followed. I started making videos again this spring but stopped because of school and now I feel like I fell out of my routine.
Honestly sometimes I wonder why I even try so hard but as you said “there’s a greater purpose” in our lives and YES it DOES sound cheesy, but that doesn’t mean it’s not true! I always have to tell myself that it’s ok to feel like trash for days at a time, we’re so hard wired to be apart of hustle culture that we feel like if we don’t “achieve anything” all day we feel like crap. Sometimes it’s just good to exist and that’s it.
We’ve missed you
When you said the line about things going well for a little while and then they come crashing down and the vicious cycle, I felt that. I’m doing better now and I’m genuinely handling my mental health in a healthy way but my junior year of college was one of the worst years of my life. Every few weeks, something would happen that sent me spiraling into some of the worst mental places I’ve been in and it was exhausting to have to wait it out. I didn’t know how long the “good” would last and I knew the “bad” would last longer. So I get what you’re saying. Thanks for being so open and honest in this video. It was wonderful to see you again, bestie! Zoey too! Have a good weekend! -Amber
sort of adding to my other comment - as harsh as it sounds you may never 'defeat' your depression, but you can find ways to make it easier to pick yourself up again. your hobbies or things that bring you joy, although small/silly they may seem to be, if they're a source of happiness it isn't silly. The purpose of our lives is to .. enjoy life, enjoy the seasons and the creatures along with people you cherish
This has honestly helped me so much. Struggling with mental illness that seemingly has no reason and is sooo debilitating is one of the most frustrating things to have to deal with. I struggle a lot with the same thing and have no clue what I’m doing with my life either and I feel that it just makes all my symptoms worse. I also feel so alone and I get so hard on myself because everyone else around me is doing things with their life and doesn’t have to struggle with what I do, so having you open up about your struggles helps me not feel so alone ❤
I completely resonate with you! I was always told I just had anxiety and was a perfectionist but continued to feel like something was missing since I felt like I was in an endless loop of high highs and low lows. This year I reconnected with my childhood bestfriend and she shared that she found out she had ADHD and that led me to finding out I also had ADHD. I had never even thought of that an an option I just thought I was lazy and couldn’t get my shit together… however now that I found that missing piece I feel a lot more validated and it’s brought me so much self love knowing I was truly doing the best I could. I hope you do find the right professionals to help you! Thank you for always sharing this honest content to make us feel less alone 💜
Heya. Thank you for being transparent about the struggles of mental health. I’ve struggled with Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar, OCD, and recently PTSD and I relate so much to the ups and downs. I thought about you the other day and was hoping you were okay. I’m glad to see you back and taking your mental health seriously. It’s a really tough thing to do. Keep lookin’ up. ❤
Being recently diagnosed with depression makes me feel really guilty when I don’t accomplish a lot of things during the day or when I fall behind on my coursework and the thing that gets me through it is that not everyday has to be super productive and that there is a chemical imbalance in my brain that makes me dip sometimes and I just have to take it day by day and be kind to myself and let myself feel all my emotions. I totally get you. Sending so much love and positive vibes. Glad to have you back bb! ❤❤
I’m just gonna say, from experience, cats do make it better. My cat is just pure joy and I really need that.
Thank you! I have been struggling through a depressive episode and just started surfacing back to myself. It helps so much to know that I'm not the only one and that even a small thing can help. Even if that is getting up of the floor and into a bed.
Hey bestie, I've missed you... I'm so sorry for what you've been through especially this month, it is so relatable for me..
It's so sad and exhausting when you feel good for a certain period of time and then anxiety and depression comes back AGAIN.. it's a vicious cycle and it seems there's no way out..
Anyways I'm glad to see you back again, I love you so much❤
thank u so much for being so honest and vulnerable on here
So I just watched your vlog and you are a natural at sharing yourself and your experiences. That is your gift to us all. Your strength is unlimited even at your weakest times and I am so proud of you. Life is hard sometimes and we just have to feel and believe that better days are ahead. Even in our struggles we can find moments of happiness and peace if we slow down and show kindness to ourselves. The world is so lucky to have you sharing your ups and downs and reminding us that we are all in it together. And I am so blessed to have you as my daughter. Your are my light and fill my heart with hope and love. Keep being You ❤️
I’m so happy to see you back queen, in whatever capacity. Sending you endless love always, we depression baddies can get through this shit. We’ve made it through 100% of the hardest days we’ve ever experienced, and we can keep fucking doing it💕💕
Im so happy to see that you posted. Ive been casually consuming your content for years, but about 6 months ago I started binging your content. It got me through my tough depression. My up started shortly before you're down did, but Im so excited to see you back. Tysm.
I'm a 15 year old girl so yes I'm in my teens and I often had moments where I didn't feel understood by anyone then I found your channel, you are truly a special person and even just the fact that you talk about these things makes me feel less alone.
I just wanted to say thank you.
Very big moods going on here. For the past two months or so, maybe longer, I haven’t been able to tell, I just haven’t been able to get control of my emotions. I’ve tried all my usual methods of journaling, venting to trusted friends, just letting myself feel my feelings, and for so long my emotions just stayed stuck in my chest. It’s like I was choking on them every day. One day at work I started shaking and crying and couldn’t stop. My boss let me go home and I was trying to stop crying long enough so I could see to drive home. And then it was taking a physical toll on my body. My knees, my feet, my shoulders, my neck, my back. Everything was in constant pain all the time. I think what was also contributing was that I was partially lying to myself about what was wrong. Literally November 17th I sat down and took the time to write out everything that was bothering me and being truthful about it. I didn’t leave anything out. It felt somewhat better but not a whole lot. Trying to listen to myself and what I know, and the help and advice my friends are trying to give me, and everything is a whirlwind. Not sure what I’m gonna do now but I think things are starting to look up. This morning I already feel better. But I don’t know how long it will last.
Thank you for posting today. I was starting to get worried about you. I’m glad you’re okay and feeling better now. I’m really grateful for you sharing your experiences, especially because they are sometimes so similar to mine. I hope you have a good weekend ❤
Reese, it's so good to see you on my computer screen. You are an inspiration- literally. My depressive episode started last March and I believe I've come out the other side, but for so long I didn't think it was possible to feel again. Your videos kept me company and inspired hope when I had none. So thank you. I know it's tough when you have to pause everything to take care of yourself (and Bella), but I know that you're going to grow through this. I really just wanted you to know that your power is real, and I appreciate you❤
I take medication for depression and anxiety, it has helped me a lot but my psychiatrist tells me that therapy is key. I have learned to accept that it will never be a linear path and that it is very important to flow with each wave, embracing our ups and downs. We are a work in progress and every little step counts, even when what we do seems meaningless. You are not alone 🦋💪🏼✨
hi reese, i just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. i often feel the same way as you're feeling right now and the fact that you talk about it makes me feel seen and heard. i hope you'll figure it out one day, because you don't deserve it. love u endlessly
I love how honest you are because it's so relatable
Love watching the thought process in your positioning of items! Very helpful! Your channel is so well put together and every detail is considered...from thumbnail pics, music, coordinating outfits with decor/ season. It's all beautifully done🎊🫂🎉🌲🎅🧑🎄🦌🌲🎄🍓
Thank you so much for sharing. I'm currently in the worst depressive episode I've had in a really long time and most days I'm unsure of if I'll get through it. It is so exhausting and feels never ending an frustrating. It feels less lonely knowing others feel the same feelings. I just appreciate the honesty and sharing your struggles.
I was just thinking about you yesterday and wondering if you were ok. Thank you for your honesty about your mental health, we need more people like you to break the stigma around mental health.
you're doing amazing, i don't like to speak about my struggles even to myself let alone to the whole internet so i quite admire how open and self aware you are, u got this bestie :)
Reese!! So glad to hear you’re feeling better, I assumed it was depression coming back with the last two videos you posted. I watched this all the way through because your content always makes me feel validated when I’m getting bad again. I’m in college, but I also do a lot outside of that so I struggle with a lot of anxiety and burnout. Every time I feel that way I try some of the activities you do and (I hope this doesn’t sound weird) it kinda of feels like you’re a big sister to me.
Thank you for all that you do and even if your next few vids are mundane that’s okay!! You’re just getting back up on your feet and that’s amazing. Hope you can get access to new medication too
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these past two months i have been showing symptoms for PMDD and it’s been rough but i’d like to thank you for opening up about your struggle with it because it’s helped me put a face to some of my mental health struggles that i wouldn’t have known otherwise 💗 sending you all the love reese 🫶🏽 hope you’re feeling okay these days :’)
hey i'm glad you're doing a little better. i've dealt with depression on and off for most of my life. it runs in my family. i used to be so crushed by it, but i quit blaming myself. it's outside my control. i have so many supportive people in my life that are there for me, but the depression always comes back. anyways i hope you have a better month and that you find some answers! but you're not alone in your struggles ❤ currently dealing with a low while also excited for the holidays (idk it's very confusing)
thank you for being so vulnerable with us. everything you talked about i deeply resonated with. 2022 was a really bad year for my mental health. I remember my therapist telling me that there’s no cure for depression so we literally have to live with this our whole lives. and I completely understand the whole ups and downs and feeling like a fraud when we’re better bc we know it’s gonna come back. it can really confuse you, and send you down a spiral. I’ve been in a good place so far, and I think it’s important to give ourselves grace and trust ourselves when things get tough because we’ve been through it so many times. you’re doing really good reese, be proud of yourself!
I just found and am watching your channel. I am glad you are talking about the mental health issues that are so prevalent this day and time. I am 67 years old and just finally was diagnosed with ADHD…already had the depression and anxiety diagnosis. Ask to do the test…there are a couple of videos that I felt I was watching myself. There are a lot of people on YT that talk about being diagnosed as a young adult…and older adults. Sending you a big hug and keep asking questions. We are our own advocate.
Honestly, I was so worried about you. I don't have any social apart from youtube, but I am so happy to see you post! I'm really proud of you for fighting depression. It's shit but the happy moments are worth the fight. One thing that helps me not be hard on myself is viewing my depressed-self as a friend that is coming to the happy-me for comfort and advice, almost like a friend popping round my house for a cup of tea. Sending you lots of love and hugs, and positive vibes! 💖 ❤
I dropped out of college 1.5 yrs ago for mental health reasons and my goals have become so much smaller, like cook food i like once a week or work on producing music i don't even want to share with the world that i literally only touch once every other week or build puzzles, and I'm doing so little and it's so spread out and I feel so bad because a 'normal' person should be able to do so much more and at such a higher frequency and have bigger goals. So I definitely feel you. Like I know logically I am doing fine and I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but it is so hard to actually feel that sometimes
So happy you are back and thankyou for being so honest about your depression. I was in it deep for the past few weeks too, but this week I finally felt like doing one of my hobbies, reading, again so I guess I’m slowly coming out of it ☺️💗
I just pray that god gives you more strength. sending u all the happiness. love❤
Hi reese, as someone who also struggles heavily with depression and anxiety please take all the time you need, you cannot pour from an empty cup. Be gentle and kind to yourself, its okay to take time for yourself. Flowers aren't constantly in bloom. My stomach wall lining eroded from years of intense anxiety from living in a toxic environment along with working retail, and when id have panic attacks itd bring me to the hospital. Mental health can 100% effect your physical body, so please take it easy on yourself and know you're not alone. Your worth is not based off of productivity
Your honesty is so helpful in making people feel less alone in mental health struggles ♥So glad to hear that you're doing better! I highly recommend the book "The Defining Decade" by Meg Jay. It talks about being in your 20's and gives advice for figuring stuff out if you're feeling lost. I'm currently in that stage, too, and I've found it really helpful ♥
You have helped me through my depressive episodes in the past and present 💕💕💕💕 Keep on fighting. You got this
I'm so sorry that you've been struggling, Reese. This last month I also had an incredibly bad PMDD/depression flare up, so I feel you unfortunately. Also your personal goals are not silly, reaching my goodreads yearly goal is also keeping me going right now. Thank you for sharing your experiences so the rest of us know we're not alone too
I also struggle with depression, anxiety, and pmdd. Thank you so much for being so open, you’re helping more people than you know
I'm a month late in watching this video (I'm catching up), but I just want to say that my favorite thing about you is how real you are. Most of us know how you feel concerning mental health. I hate that it's relatable for us, but it be like that. Thank you for being real 🫶
Sometimes the small goals, the baby steps and one day at a time is all you need to do. I go through depression and anxiety all the time and I can also be really hard on myself for not accomplishing it all, but the best thing I can do during those times is just take care of myself because if I don't, I can't show up for anything else. Thank you for sharing this, it's nice having a place on the internet I can go for virtual fellowship and support.
I’ve been watching you for years now, we literally grew up together. I love your videos queen and hope you are doing well❤️so glad to watch another vid(:
my favorite quote, which inspired my first tattoo, is what has helped me get through many depressive episodes and hard times in my life. it goes like this: “the purpose of life is to be defeated by greater and greater things.” it’s from a poem by my favorite poet, rainer maria rilke, and to me it means that our purpose comes from what makes us grow as people, which is often the harder things in life. and from that growth we are more prepared for what’s ahead. kind of grim, but i find a weird solace in it???? idk. but look up rilke bc he writes all about solitude and learning from yourself, etc. he’s great. and i hope this greater thing you’re facing is defeated soon 💕
I’m so glad you’re back and getting better, missed you girly ❤❤
Thank you so so much. I really needed to hear this. The past week I was feeling so depressed but it is still hard for me to not put the guilt on me. I hate being depressed so much but I’m also so tired of it.
Thank you so much, you’re helping me every time me depression comes back ❤
i'm currently is one of the worst depressive episodes i've ever had and this video had such perfect timing in the sense that it has made me feel so seen and validated. i know that this is your goal with this channel, so i hope you know that you are most definitely achieving that. thank you endlessly reese
I can't relate personally to the PMDD thing and not being able to get out of bed. I wanted to hug you the whole time you were talking about that, gosh. I'm glad you're on an upswing, we missed you. Also I feel the fomo. My twenties were spent raising my kids so I have missed it ALL. Hang in there, little bee.
Thank you for that ! You're saying it like it is, and that's needed. No doubt it will be helpful to a lot of people, wherever they are on their journey with depression and finding ways to understand and live with it.
You mentioned the guilt of "doing nothing" while knowing you have an abled body... one of the things I've realized over time is that the saying "mind overpowers body" is truer than it appears. Any athlete knows, you can push your body to extremes with mindpower, but it also means that if your brain is shortcutting your will (which is basically how depressive brains work) there is no way you'll be able to move an arm !
Also, about that "feeding myself and taking showers is all I've done for two months"... anyone with depression will know showering is a fu**ing struggle, so good job !!
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Heyy bestie, I missed you soo much. I started watching your channel a few months ago in the worst depressive episode of my life and you were really the thing that brought me out of that, motivated me to start doing things again, and made me feel all comfy for the first time in a long time. You really do make such a difference ❤❤ I hope you find peace on your journey soon
I watched all the way through, sent a dm on Instagram too, but I wanted to say, you’re not alone with the cyclical pain in the ass of depression. I’ve been there, been to ect, to therapy, to 20+ different meds. I’ve had to accept that my depression might be life long. I love your content and admire your vulnerability. Lots of love Reese. Hang in there ❤
Thank you
It's sooooooooo good to see you back!! I've been constantly checking as I was worried. I know exactly how you feel, and with 2 kids, you can't just rot in your bed like you want to 😭 I too feel the exhaustion daily. Lots of love and hugs to you from UK xxxx
I relate so much. lately my anxiety has been compounding with my depression and I've been unable to do much. same w/ not really having a purpose. I hear you, and thank you for sharing this
Reese! Just now getting around to watching this as I am ALSO trying to pull myself back up after a really tough year. You are not alone, and looking through these comments I'm glad to see there seems to be a lot of us in this spot. The cycles of feeling horrible, working yourself up to good-ish, and then riding the good out until the rug is pulled out again is all too familiar. It's so frustrating that this seems to be life to those of us that struggle. Thank you for being so open❤
hey reese! thank you for sharing your struggles with us
So glad you're back, Reese! We really are in this together and I'm so proud of your confidence and of how sincere you are when talking about your mental health journey. For me, the hardest thing is getting back on my feet after an episode, when I basically lose the concept of who or what I am, of what my goals are and what the whole point of everything is. It's just what you described, so I'm really glad to know I'm not alone in that particular struggle of finding myself again.That's the most frustrating aspect of depression for me. Thank you for sharing your story. 💞
no personal goals are meaningless!! i personally get better when i achieve a goal i kinda postpone bc to me its “not that important” and then im like “why dis i postpone??” jsbdbd anyway, im happy u are getting better!!
Welcome back gorgeous. I have lived with waves of deep depression for as long as I can remember. I think you highlighted the biggest thing. It's SO frustrating how hard it is to build yourself back up. Again and again. Wave after wave. I'm so thankful for creators like you who share similar struggles. It really does help me feel a little less alone as I battle the latest attack on my brain. I also have a book reading goal this year! In the last 10 years of my life I have put myself on the back burner. And as a kid, I LOVED to read. It was my favorite thing. So this year I set a small goal. 12 books. One a month. And I'm so proud of myself because Im on book 14 baby! I have missed reading SO much. I can't wait to hear about your reads when you get back to it. Be well
woo yay for completing your goal!!
thank you for being real and vulnerable
I‘m feeling so much better whenever i hear u opening up about all of these things i am feeling as well. i have to say tho, i‘m also talking with my therapist when i am in a pretty stable episode, i find that soooo helpful as well!! xx
Needed an honest talk type of video rn. Not as depressed rn but struggling with my relationship with food and health. It sucks, but hearing others talk about their mental struggles helps. Thank you. Also, 6:30-6:45 I relate to so much.
you should definitely have a podcast! i love this videos so much and you can talk about so many things 🫶
I'm glad you didnt quit. Welcome back, love!
I thank you for sharing your story, I appreciate hearing I’m not alone in this fight.
Thankyou so much for just checking in to let us know how you're doing because we all care about you.
i feel where youre coming from, on those days where u feel like u don’t wanna do anything. in those moments i remind myself that this moment and these feelings will pass. just like the good ones do. and i remind myself that i won’t be sad forever and i will experience good moments again.
I wish I could think of something to say to make you feel better, but can't think of anything. So I'll just tell you that I am glad you're on an upswing right now, crossing my fingers for you that it lasts a long time, and hope you're able to enjoy the holidays.
Thank you for speaking so honestly about the depression topic. I've been pretty depressed lately too and your videos on this really helped me, not feeling alone with this. Hang in there~ And don't pressure yourself :) Greetings from germany
I'm so glad that I found your channel. The way you describe your depression is so real and nearly identical to my own experience and it helps me feel validated with my own mental health struggle. I'm glad that you are doing better and hope that you can find peace as you go through it.
This video feels like a hug. Validating and comforting and a reminder to not be hard on myself. Some days are great and some are straight up 💩
Missed uuuuu!!! Thanks for this video💓🫶🏽
i related to so much of this, esp wishing something happened to make you depressed. i’m so thankful for you & your videos and i can’t wait to see you raise the kitten w so much love 💓
Reese!! I love you for this video. I literally started watching your videos when I was 11 maybe 12. Basically a long long time ago. I'm a similar age to you and I remember loving all of your morning routine and study videos and basically anything else you'd post. Life was somewhat simpler then haha. When I was 15 I became severely depressed and have been diagnosed with MDD ever since. With so many people telling me I would get through it and that it was just a 'rough patch', I don't think I was expecting to still be here, turning 20, struggling every day with the exact same thing. What I really wanted to say is that I appreciate you making this video, I really do. Because knowing that somebody I feel like i've 'known' for such a while has gone through a similar pain to me is very comforting. I really understand that exhausting feeling of knowing that no matter what good day you might have it is always going to come back. It's frustrating and feels almost annoying because there's 'no reason' for it - like why can I not just make it go away then?? A lot of people don't understand just how debilitating it is, so not only does this video help people to feel less alone, it also helps to raise some kind of awareness among anyone else who might be watching. Sending you so much love & prayers, and if you ever need to chat with someone who gets it my messages are always open (@bellestultiens on IG).
i resonate so much with the cycle you explained. i’m sorry you keep going thru that. i know i found a lot of understanding when i researched and explored an autism diagnosis. i thought my depressive episodes were mental illness but it was really autistic burnout. it really made everything else click and i’ve found such a deep acceptance of self & my cycles/patterns/needs. wishing you the best 🫶🏻
glad you’re back reese! hope you’re doing better :)
you're the safest corner on youtube, i love u R, thank u for everything, i'm proud of u
I've missed your videos! Sending you all the love here 💗💗💗
You are amazing, strong, kind and have such a beautiful soul. Keep being you and getting up when you feel down. You are never alone! I’m always here for you!!
Thank you for being so open and honest Reese❤. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, because I can relate a lot to you, hearing you say these things is incredible validating, good to hear and it has given me new (good/validating) things to think about☺!
Prayers are coming your way dude 💗 I love your videos and the topics u talk about are really helpful, to so many people. 💌
thank you for being vulnerable and honest. i get so frustrated and embarrassed about continuously going through the same cycles for no apparent reason. i really needed to hear this and know that i’m not alone lol 💜
I feel this if it means anything your honesty helps me not give up on my dreams of content creating bc I am always worried that I dont have what it takes but you show me that for people who struggle there is space for them to create as well
Your doing your best, thts all you can do. Were all so proud of you and love you!
I'm really glad you're feeling better
Currently feeling the same, thank you for this video, thank you for being here and for being so open there needs to be more people like you!
Everything you said was not 'a lot' or too much, it was exactly what a lot of people like myself need to hear so we don't feel so alone!
this resonated a lot
again thank you
I never get tired of these videos, and I totally understand the cycle of depression. I also deal with PMDD, anxiety disorder, and endometriosis so never ending cycle of chronic illness. I have to constantly remind myself that these are chronic illnesses and I will have to deal with them forever and learn self compassion. The cycles are the worst, but finding yourself over and over again is good in a way...rediscovering passions is like falling in love all over again so it's my thing to look forward to. Sending love and hugs 💛💛💛
Hello , I am Nada and I am really sorry to know what you are going through! really feeling you girl 😢 I went through a depressed mood 5 years ago when I started college and it was a terrifying feeling 💔 thank God I am doing good now and whenever I listen to Quran on youtube or read it as a book , i csn not describe how my heart feel ! such a cslm peaceful feeling even if I am alone . there where night where i was so sad and broken inside and felt scared to sleep , i felt like i want a company and i thought of opening a Quran video and turn the volume on and listen to it ! 😢 I literally slept feeling soooo peaceful omg such a calm feeling , i felt like my soul was
hugged and felt calm 😢 I hope you get better and find the true meaning in life .❤️🌱
Your channel brings me so much comfort, I can't express how much better it makes me feel about not feeling okay and feeling stuck in my brain sometimes
That is do awesome that you share this with people, thanks for that 💕💕
You are so strong❤
Welcome back! One of the strongest things a person can do is take the time they need for themselves. Thank you for always being so transparent about your experiences, and it is truly so good to see you again 🥰
Thank you so much for sharing your struggles so vulnerably and bravely. Your videos have made me feel so much more understood and always calm me down in my worst states - keep it up!! The fight against mental illness is so worth it, you have so much to offer the world!
Sending so much love and thank you for opening up
I literally am going through the same thing. I am pretty sure I have PMDD because like during my period I am like fear and sadness from inside out. I have so many breakdowns on my period for no reason.
So happy your back!! I’ve really missed you uploads! This is such a helpful video your videos are always so thought out and inspiring 💕