I just really wanted to say that I am going through this. I was feeling really alone because there aren’t loads of resources for civilians who have PTSD/C-PTSD. The first video of yours I watched, I just started bawling because it felt SO VALIDATING and SO GOOD to hear someone else going through this and describe it. I frequently feel like I don’t have a sufficient language for what I’m going through. My boyfriend and I are going to watch some of these together later today so I can help him sort of understand. Thank you so much for this channel. It’s a literal life saver.
Jacqueline, kudos for not allowing the fact that you're not a war vet keep you from opening up about it. I am a veteran whose PTSD was caused by some childhood incedants and a horribley emotionally abusive marriage. Not exactly a John Wayne thing to admit. So it doesn't matter what caused our condition . What matters is that we stick together in whatever ways we can. And keep shedding light on the topic of invisible wounds.
Disabled veteran of the United States Marine Corps here. I can't tell you how much I appreciate you making yourself vulnerable and the respect I have for you in your personal journey. Mine is very similar, but for different reasons. I just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I support and respect you.
Having complex- post traumatic stress disorder is not fun. It's important to have a positive support system. Emotional service animals can also help as well. Counseling and having good doctors is also very important. I find that being in a calm environment also helps. Writing in a journal, music thepary and art thepary is very helpful for me. I like nature and wildlife taking pictures of these kind of things helps at times to keep my mind off of all the bad memories and years and years of stress and trauma.
I love that you love nature and taking pictures of it to help you. I love to listen to music, especially newage music. Not only do I have CPTSD, but I’m also on the autism spectrum, and I have a physical disability. I don’t mention publicly what my physical disability is. Just because people have asked me such ignorant questions about it. Or they see that I wrote out what my physical disability was, and they think I’m crazy because they see me typing this on the Internet. But I’m not crazy, I’m not making anything up. It’s real! I have a hard time being around unfamiliar people, because I have this feeling that they won’t care to understand the struggles of mental and physical struggles.
@@siennaprice1351 Oh I believe you 100% and I truly understand. People sometimes past judgement because they just make assumptions about others without really knowing. I've been through the same kind of things you have regarding other people. When people say ignorant or very rude comments. I ignore them and just think to myself that they just don't have the education or knowledge of some people's disabilities or they don't have a life of their own. Stand strong. I completely understand what you go through. Prayers and hugs.
@@kimberlydavis5034 I might as well tell you my handicap. I’m totally blind. And the way I navagate the internet with blindness is with an Iphone, and my Iphone has an accessible feature called Voiceover. My husband is also totally blind, and he uses an Iphone too. We also use bluetooth keyboards with our phones, and they have been such a help.
@@siennaprice1351 That's amazing that there's some technology that you and your husband can use that helps making you two's life a little easier for you. I'm completely deaf in one ear and I'm having problems with my other ear. I'm hard of hearing. I also have rheumatoid arthritis and osteoarthritis and other medical conditions. I've had 32 falls. I haven't been able to walk long distance in almost 10 years. I have to use a cane or walking stick and even at times my wheelchair to get around. My doctor is helping me get a motorized wheelchair because I really do need it. It's a daily struggle and I'm in excruciating pain everyday. I have a lot of respect for you for sharing your experiences with me. I can tell that your a strong, genuine person. May Our Creator of the Whole Universe bless you and your husband in abundance.
It makes absolute sense. Thank you for sharing. I often try to analyse the hell out of a bad day. I try to distill the exact thing that triggered me and turned my day upside down so i can use that information to go forward. Most of the time that specific trigger will go dormant for a couple of months and bite me when I least expect it. Its like being tracked by a pack of hungry wolves. Its just a matter of time before one of them catches me. I'm 53 and only got diagnosed with CPTSD 4 weeks ago. I thought my natural hyper state and the constant fantasy battles in my mind was just a part of what makes me me. I got badly teased and bullied for my stutter over many decades. I used exposure therapy to overcome it and now it hardly bothers me, but sometimes when triggered i still feel like that kid in the playground.
Thank you so much for sharing!! I was just officially diagnosed with CPTSD (although probably have had it for like 10 years)! Still learning my ways and filming my journey!!
I have just been diagnosed with CPTSD two months ago and am isolating hard core right now. I haven't had friends in over a year and stopped using my phone. I've been searching the internet for someone who has PTSD/CPTSD but the only things I can find are made by therapists. I'm so happy to have found someone I can relate to. Thank you for sharing your information and experiences. I feel a little less alone today.
I really appreciated this video. People do not understand. I was misdiagnosed for over 10 years before finally being diagnosed with CPTSD. Along with therapy, the things that helped my episodes subside the most was reading two books surprisingly lol. I would recommend The Body Keeps The Score:Brain, Mind and Body in the Healing of Trauma and Calming the Emotional Storm. Keeping the score is amazing as it teaches you about PTSD/CPTSD, how and why your body and mind response. This is why meditation and “mindfulness” are great tools in healing. To anyone..please don’t give up! Thank you for making videos like this, it gives a lot of lost people hope!
I have CPTSD. I’m also on the autism spectrum, and I have a physical handicap. I don’t really talk about my handicap, because I’ve been asked such rediculous questions about it, and people have saw that I put what handicap I had, and I’ve been bullied about it because people thought I was crazy because I was typing even though I said what disability I had. I love listening to music, especially newage music. It really helps me. I also use different fidgets and sensory items that really help me. I love reading also, especially fantasy books and mystery books like Nancy Drew. I have a hard time being around people, just because I feel like they won’t either get it, or they won’t care to understand my mental and physical struggles.
Hi PTV, I just came across your video and thought I would drop in and introduce myself. I hear you about CPTSD not having a cure. I am 77yo and have been in therapy for over 50 years. I have come a long way "getting a handle on it" with the help of a very good therapist. I too would like to educate people about PTSD and CPTSD. I believe many people are afflicted with one or the other and the world will be a better place if we learn about it, especially if it will result in better parenting and safer and kinder raising of children. One of my particular areas of interest because it affects so many is circumcision of infants. It affects so many male babies in the U.S. but in some other cultures, girls are also affected. If you or anyone reading this would like to comment on this subject, I would be interested in listening. Another subject of interest to me is the affects of trauma on the preverbal, that is infants and children who have not yet learned language when they are traumatized. Though they don't have language or experience with which to form memories as would a person with the benefit of language, they do have memories of fear and pain, for instance. That's all for now. CU.
My father slammed me with his fists when I was 5 months old and then threw me across the room . . . I was a "crybaby". They tied me down in my crib, across a broken collar bone, didn't know it at the time. So I had what the doctor called "night terrors", woke up screaming every night, I had terrible dreams every single night until I was 8 and a half, realized one glorious morning I can say "no" to these things, decided I wanted better dreams. I am hyper-vigilant, people figured out a long time ago it's fun to sneak up behind me and say "boo", i jump to the ceiling and scream before my brain knows what i'm doing, it's very entertaining to them. If you're pre-verbal when this happens, your dreams are very colorful and vivid images full of FEELINGS, they are yours alone, but they are not reality, you get to choose whether you keep them. Bless you for asking.
It made all the sense to me love and it also made me burst into tears, which I so needed and is always afraid to do under conditions of others who hasn't lived it or don't clearly understand. No 🎻 but I've been misdiagnosed, misunderstood, misrepresented, misled bc what I know now is C.P.S.T.D on top of blaming and looking down on myself sense I was a child on up til today 11/6/2019. Thank you I appreciate your video, bc Iknow now I'm not alone seriously and I thank God for letting me see and cross this video, along with some others that I needed to see and hear🙏😘
I do similar things to myself. I tell myself to bottle it up, and get the hell over myself. I even ask myself, what the hell is your problem? You better start changing overnight, right now! I even smack myself if I notice myself showing any emotions that are not linked to happiness. People tell me that I’m way too hard on myself, which I do agree. But other times, I feel like I’m just giving myself tough love.
would you mind doing a dissociation video? disassociation is a constant companion for me. i thought emdr would knock it out and it has not. it comes to (save me?) all the time even when i don't know why. thanks for the video!
Hello. I am 18 and I have been struggling with PTSD for 2 years now... That with my family history of Bipolar disorder, and teen aged hormones in general, things have been difficult. I want to say thank you. I have spent so long feeling alone and you are someone i can relate to and find words of wisdom in. Thank you so much.
I find that anything to do with mental struggles, a lot of people try to oversimplify them in an attempt to understand them on their own. You’re right, it’s always with the best intentions, but you wish you could have a much longer conversation with them to help them understand the complexities. I do not have PTSD, I have something simply described as food anxiety, but I get the same sort of conversations.
I love the way you explain things. Some of it just doesn’t make sense!! And I like that you point it out. Helps me feel not alone. Was diagnosed with PTSD this year. “PTSD is real”
When someone compares your response to someone else: lots of people went through the same thing and came out stronger. Like if I just want to be stronger, I will. This attitude hurts more than any other in every sense, highlighting the shame I already feel. It also kills any hope I have for recovery.
Your video saved me from going down in the dumps today. I wanna thank you for this, thank you for posting such a great video talking about cptsd in such a way that actually makes a person feel all around better about it. Your sense of humor is awesome and i know humor helps us out in many ways. A million thank yous
I completely understand what your trying to say and I know it's not always easy, thank you for sharing I'm new to your channel but deeply appreciate take care and keep it up.
It's honestly so hard to explain how actually complex complex-ptsd is. There are so many symptoms beyond those of ptsd, It's so much beyond the flashbacks and memories which people usually expect, It's layers upon layers of triggers and behaviors in the present that at times you don't even realise are caused by the trauma. It's a whole way of looking at your life and experiencing it because of the past. It truly affects everyday life in a larger sense. And sometimes it's even difficult for YOU to explain.
I experienced a medical trauma in 2014 (a had an incorrect organ removed… it’s a long story), and whenever I’m in the hospital I have seizures. I often wonder if this is ptsd or c-ptsd. I can’t seem to get a definitive medical opinion. It doesn’t get better, it just gets different in my opinion.
I absolutely feel you on the “not better, just different” thing, I often feel that way too 💚 (I’m still holding on to hope that it WILL be better for all of us someday though, even just for one day)
Love you and your channel . I find our conditions and experiences similar . Do you ever see things that arent there or feel like people are creeping up on you even if you are alone . I often donr know if what i see is real or not ? And struggle a ton with this and my hypervigilence
First person on TH-cam or anyone at all that explains what I go through to the point. The feelings and experiences can be pretty nerve racking and tbh scary. Worst times would be in a car. I don't know anyone that goes through what I go through. You do go past it you learn to live with it. I haven't been happy lately been struggling but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... right? Thanks for your insight and knowledge and I look forward to more videos about PTSD and mental illness. Thanks you made my day. :D
Thank you so much!!! I have cptsd and a tbi....things have gotten a lot worse since my last concussion. What used to work no longer does. My dear sweet loving kind husband always says.."you know things will never change with them."....or "what do you want me to do?"...or "I don't know how to fix this".....that last one was just said a short while ago. I didn't respond well to that. I KNOW he can't fix it...it also isn't about him....I was just having a hard time. I love him so much and I am so grateful he sticks with me even when I can be mean. I don't dwell on stuff, stuff affects me and sometimes I am not good at dealing with it. Thank you to any body who cares and loves for another who has CPTSD andTBI. Thank you for making this video and others. I am going to tell my husband for the billionth time that I am sorry. But I am also going to Thank him again for loving me. One other thing I would like to add is.."just let it go" is a real quick way to bigger episode, so please don't any body say that.
I am so glad to have found this channel to have found YOU! Almost everyone in my lopsided circle of peeps don’t quite get why one thing might trigger me,one day and the next time I don’t seem bothered at all by said trigger....*those peeps call it attention seeking * sigh.... I would rather not draw attention to myself,lolz....anyways love this channel,you are awesome and thanks
Same! I was so confused why some things triggered me some days and then other days it didn't. I felt like I was somehow being an impostor or something.
Hey there! I have C-PTSD too. Thanks for making this! The resources are so sparse and it helps to know and hear about others stories. It makes me feel so much less isolated. I often close myself up in my apartment spending hours researching therapies and what not. I found out recently that can be unhealthy too. I love your humor. Laughing makes it easier. Best of luck to you!! To all of us!
So glad I found this place. Education about this is really needed. My cousin offered support. I warned her it's not easy. She said she's a qualified therapist and fine with it. Im not entirely sure she is and gave her some info on cptsd which I know she's not read. 4 weeks ago she said for God's sake it's been 3 years of this. Get over it cos this isn't normal. She said this mid flashback and off I went to self isolate. What can I say? I know you'll understand. Iv long since put on my sane face to the world but felt safe to be myself with her. Boy was I wrong to trust that one. One trigger can be like ripples in a pond. Validation is key to someone with cptsd or ptsd. Just cus it's not a gaping wound on our foreheads doesnt t mean it's not real. Thank you for being here. Wish I was as brave to do what you're doing xxxx
Thank you so much for finally putting what I have been thinking to words. I get so frustrated to the point of panic attacks when people tell me that I will "get over it" one day. My parents feel like and act like this my ptsd isn't a life long issue and I sometimes want to scream at them saying "you don't know crap" but instead I smile and hold my tongue
Dude I have cptsd, there’s no bloody videos on the shite. I accidentally stabbed my hand trying to open a bottle a few months ago and now I’m scared to death of knives... and everything. Shit “I’m not broken”!
As someone with PTSD and now that I've seen your video maybe c-PTSD is more accurate. This was incredible to watch and made me feel very validated. Thank you
I’m new on your channel and I got to say I love you so much! I was just diagnosed with PTSD back in August of this year and I had so many questions about it and you seem to always help me. I love you so much you are such a wonderful person and I will always watch and support you ♥️.
I had loads hypnosis worked lots of it and cleared different patterns. Oh yes triggers are shut. I don’t know if I disassociate. There is a cure hypnosis, the subconscious rules the conscious mind which can change with hypnosis.
I always expect myself to “cure” it overnight. And if it’s still there, and if I find myself getting triggered over a flashback or something, I find myself saying things like, “really?! Get the hell over yourself! What is your problem? It could’ve been worse! People have more worse trauma than your’s! So you better force yourself to get working and get rid of it already!” I give myself, I guess you would say tough love.
Definitely. CPTSD is a very deep set of core wounds, on a spiritual level. God and Jesus are the only reason I’m still alive, because last year, I was so triggered I was having flashbacks that I don’t even remember having. And I wanted to die when I became delusional and thought I’d done things I hadn’t. I’ve scared my children and family, and I’m physically separated from them for their safety while I work on therapy and coping skills. I just learned this year, after being separated for over a year while going to therapy, that I have CPTSD. And I’ve probably had it since I was about 8 years old. I’ve had medical traumas since birth-4 years old, CSA, emotional neglect, witnessed lots of sibling violence, serious head trauma at 8 years old that probably heightened my sensitivity to my environment, and caused a whole host of other issues I’m just now realizing… But, I definitely believe there’s a spiritual component to it all as well.
I get mad when I cry. Because I feel as if I’m not allowed to exhibit any bad emotions. I feel like I only have to show good emotions that are related to happiness. And if I find myself getting upset, I tell myself, “don’t you dare start showing those emotions! You’re not allowed to do that! I’ll give you something to get mad about!” Or I smack myself on the head and say, “I’ll give you something to cry about!” I feel embarrassed and ashamed to show hard emotions, because I feel like it’s a weakness for me to say that I’m struggling.
If you don't mind I would like to correct a statement that people say about an on going issue. For something that is a short term thing like an illness which is once in a lifetime, or some type of an accident then that is what I call going through something. But! For something that you have to what some people call living with then it isn't something you can say that you're going through, if there's no end to it then it's something that you're dealing with, because it's not going anywhere it's a lifetime issue. So rather then say you're going through something that is a lifetime issue. Then it's not going away is it? Just I have something that I am dealing with?
Yeah! I have ptsd, and chronic PTSD plus I have approximately two hundred flash backs a day if not more, I say that because I really don't know how many of these stupid flash backs that I have but! I do know this they're life altering . My flash backs start soon after I wake up in the morning until I decide to go to bed at night, sometimes I tell people that I wish that I could sleep all day long because that's when I get some peace! But! Then if you say that to a so called professional they automatically think you're suicidal, that isn't the case. So try to watch what you say and who you say it to, because these so called professionals do not understand anything about why you a person might say that they wish they didn't have to wake up. I'm at the point where I don't care what I say because if the so called professionals had a brain cell they wouldn't just conclusions and ask questions then they might get the picture why some one would say that they wish that they didn't wake up. Right? Well! I just want to say that I know what ptsd, or cptsd is all & this isn't something that I going through this is something that I am dealing with. There's a lot of difference between going through something and dealing with it every single day. Ok?
I really appreciate your videos totally understand what you are talking about. I have cptsd but I'm not diagnosed with it probably because my insurance wouldn't cover that diagnosis. I've been physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually abused since I was a baby starting with my parents. I am reading the feeling good cognitive therapy book and starting to do some of the exercises and it seems to be helping me a lot. Thank you for giving me a better understanding and knowing that I am not alone, with a part of my mental illness that is never been address by mental health that I went to thinking that they could help me.
One thing about my PTSD is I cant have coffee and drink coffee with my co workers because I have constant anxiety. :( and it makes my chest cave in and I'd rather die
Love this!!! I was blessed* with it too! Amen on your 3 things...new relationship and it showed up heavier now we are going thru together because I’m lucky to finally have a man to fight for me not with me♥️
Thank you! There is little talk on cptsd and ptsd. Q: have you ever been told my mental health providers that you have all your tools and they can't help you?
viet vet here I have ptsd from childhood things I was drafted I was already damage good then I got a good dose of it in the army ao thank you I now know its complex
love your glasses and your cute hair style...anyway thanks for your videos...only the 2nd one i have seen so far..and your dogs are beautiful in the former one i just watched. but..yea...i have cptsd plus the dissociation..but love your info and good stuff in the videos....thanks
One thing that I hate about one of my triggers is when my mum leaves. Like for a quick errand or to the store for even 5 mins? One day I'm perfectly fine. Then the next I'm automatically triggered as soon as I hear the car start. I don't get it. But it's so terrible. Honestly I hate it. I'm 17 now for freaks sake!? WHY do I constantly get "upset" about small things like that?? Lol I mean it's life so whatever
i have a question and I hoope you might be able the give me an answer. I personally think I have C-PTSD, but I am not in a place right now where I can get a diagnosis or therapy. But this makes me feel not valid and my question really is: Can you say you have C-PTSD without having a diagnosis?
I would definitely get the opinion of a mental health professional! Discuss your symptoms with them, and see what they have to say about it - but you also don't have to accept a diagnosis that you KNOW is wrong (for example, I was once diagnosed with bipolar ii on a first visit with a psychiatrist, having never had a manic episode. Which is not how it works haha)
I just saw the part where you said you can't get therapy right now, sorry about that! It's definitely okay to discuss your symptoms and talk about what you think may be going on!
I don't have PTSD, but I do have an anxiety disorder and it is very much the same. Like I have never before in my life been particularly anxious around doctors, but last doctor's appointment I was like SUPER anxious. Can't tell you why it was different this time versus last. Brains are strange.
it is NOT the same!! not even close! YOu get "anxious" or anxiety before a text, PTSD, is COMPLETELY different. you dont get anxious as a result of trauma. PTSD you do.
Hi there, thank you so much for your video on the topic CPTSD :)) I am starting my journey in healing, although it's very scary and hard work I had a thought what do you do when your in one of those intense anger rages ? I try telling myself think of a resolution than to become upset. It helps to calm me for a bit but then I get angry about it maybe think how I can do it differently. If there isn't a cure why do we bother and accept it is who we are? So many questions
yes its REAL no there is you got it LOL your a blast not going to past it lol yes it did LOVE you your great I Have CPTsd LOLOLOLO yes you got it lack of ed on it well its ok tobe you
Hi my name is Eric I love your videos they inspire me and they give me hope and I think you are cute LOL but anyways with my PTSD I got a lot of nightmares and I love how my girlfriend took the time out and researched it and I know when I have nightmares in my sleep my girlfriend warms up to me while I'm sleeping and calms me down and I love that just because a lot of people don't know what to do so tell me if you would want to message me I would like to hear about you some more do you have really bad nightmares when you sleep and if you could could you make a video on that part and if so thank you and have a great one sweetheart
I just really wanted to say that I am going through this. I was feeling really alone because there aren’t loads of resources for civilians who have PTSD/C-PTSD. The first video of yours I watched, I just started bawling because it felt SO VALIDATING and SO GOOD to hear someone else going through this and describe it. I frequently feel like I don’t have a sufficient language for what I’m going through. My boyfriend and I are going to watch some of these together later today so I can help him sort of understand.
Thank you so much for this channel. It’s a literal life saver.
+Jacqueline Callaway ❤️❤️❤️
Jacqueline, kudos for not allowing the fact that you're not a war vet keep you from opening up about it. I am a veteran whose PTSD was caused by some childhood incedants and a horribley emotionally abusive marriage. Not exactly a John Wayne thing to admit. So it doesn't matter what caused our condition . What matters is that we stick together in whatever ways we can. And keep shedding light on the topic of invisible wounds.
Disabled veteran of the United States Marine Corps here. I can't tell you how much I appreciate you making yourself vulnerable and the respect I have for you in your personal journey. Mine is very similar, but for different reasons. I just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I support and respect you.
Just wanted to pay my respects to you good sir. I didn’t serve myself but have CPTSD, my war was closer to home.
Having complex- post traumatic stress disorder is not fun. It's important to have a positive support system. Emotional service animals can also help as well. Counseling and having good doctors is also very important. I find that being in a calm environment also helps. Writing in a journal, music thepary and art thepary is very helpful for me. I like nature and wildlife taking pictures of these kind of things helps at times to keep my mind off of all the bad memories and years and years of stress and trauma.
I love that you love nature and taking pictures of it to help you. I love to listen to music, especially newage music. Not only do I have CPTSD, but I’m also on the autism spectrum, and I have a physical disability. I don’t mention publicly what my physical disability is. Just because people have asked me such ignorant questions about it. Or they see that I wrote out what my physical disability was, and they think I’m crazy because they see me typing this on the Internet. But I’m not crazy, I’m not making anything up. It’s real! I have a hard time being around unfamiliar people, because I have this feeling that they won’t care to understand the struggles of mental and physical struggles.
@@siennaprice1351 Oh I believe you 100% and I truly understand. People sometimes past judgement because they just make assumptions about others without really knowing. I've been through the same kind of things you have regarding other people. When people say ignorant or very rude comments. I ignore them and just think to myself that they just don't have the education or knowledge of some people's disabilities or they don't have a life of their own. Stand strong. I completely understand what you go through. Prayers and hugs.
@@kimberlydavis5034 I might as well tell you my handicap. I’m totally blind. And the way I navagate the internet with blindness is with an Iphone, and my Iphone has an accessible feature called Voiceover. My husband is also totally blind, and he uses an Iphone too. We also use bluetooth keyboards with our phones, and they have been such a help.
@@siennaprice1351 That's amazing that there's some technology that you and your husband can use that helps making you two's life a little easier for you. I'm completely deaf in one ear and I'm having problems with my other ear. I'm hard of hearing. I also have rheumatoid arthritis and osteoarthritis and other medical conditions. I've had 32 falls. I haven't been able to walk long distance in almost 10 years. I have to use a cane or walking stick and even at times my wheelchair to get around. My doctor is helping me get a motorized wheelchair because I really do need it. It's a daily struggle and I'm in excruciating pain everyday. I have a lot of respect for you for sharing your experiences with me. I can tell that your a strong, genuine person. May Our Creator of the Whole Universe bless you and your husband in abundance.
@@kimberlydavis5034 thanks so much! Your comment warmed my heart.
It makes absolute sense. Thank you for sharing. I often try to analyse the hell out of a bad day. I try to distill the exact thing that triggered me and turned my day upside down so i can use that information to go forward. Most of the time that specific trigger will go dormant for a couple of months and bite me when I least expect it. Its like being tracked by a pack of hungry wolves. Its just a matter of time before one of them catches me. I'm 53 and only got diagnosed with CPTSD 4 weeks ago. I thought my natural hyper state and the constant fantasy battles in my mind was just a part of what makes me me. I got badly teased and bullied for my stutter over many decades. I used exposure therapy to overcome it and now it hardly bothers me, but sometimes when triggered i still feel like that kid in the playground.
Thank you so much for sharing!! I was just officially diagnosed with CPTSD (although probably have had it for like 10 years)! Still learning my ways and filming my journey!!
I have just been diagnosed with CPTSD two months ago and am isolating hard core right now. I haven't had friends in over a year and stopped using my phone. I've been searching the internet for someone who has PTSD/CPTSD but the only things I can find are made by therapists. I'm so happy to have found someone I can relate to. Thank you for sharing your information and experiences. I feel a little less alone today.
I also have CPTSD. You’re definitely not alone, though I personally understand why you feel this way. It’s horribly isolating. 😑
I really appreciated this video. People do not understand. I was misdiagnosed for over 10 years before finally being diagnosed with CPTSD. Along with therapy, the things that helped my episodes subside the most was reading two books surprisingly lol. I would recommend The Body Keeps The Score:Brain, Mind and Body in the Healing of Trauma and Calming the Emotional Storm. Keeping the score is amazing as it teaches you about PTSD/CPTSD, how and why your body and mind response. This is why meditation and “mindfulness” are great tools in healing. To anyone..please don’t give up! Thank you for making videos like this, it gives a lot of lost people hope!
I have CPTSD. I’m also on the autism spectrum, and I have a physical handicap. I don’t really talk about my handicap, because I’ve been asked such rediculous questions about it, and people have saw that I put what handicap I had, and I’ve been bullied about it because people thought I was crazy because I was typing even though I said what disability I had. I love listening to music, especially newage music. It really helps me. I also use different fidgets and sensory items that really help me. I love reading also, especially fantasy books and mystery books like Nancy Drew. I have a hard time being around people, just because I feel like they won’t either get it, or they won’t care to understand my mental and physical struggles.
Hi PTV, I just came across your video and thought I would drop in and introduce myself. I hear you about CPTSD not having a cure. I am 77yo and have been in therapy for over 50 years. I have come a long way "getting a handle on it" with the help of a very good therapist. I too would like to educate people about PTSD and CPTSD. I believe many people are afflicted with one or the other and the world will be a better place if we learn about it, especially if it will result in better parenting and safer and kinder raising of children. One of my particular areas of interest because it affects so many is circumcision of infants. It affects so many male babies in the U.S. but in some other cultures, girls are also affected. If you or anyone reading this would like to comment on this subject, I would be interested in listening. Another subject of interest to me is the affects of trauma on the preverbal, that is infants and children who have not yet learned language when they are traumatized. Though they don't have language or experience with which to form memories as would a person with the benefit of language, they do have memories of fear and pain, for instance.
That's all for now. CU.
My father slammed me with his fists when I was 5 months old and then threw me across the room . . . I was a "crybaby". They tied me down in my crib, across a broken collar bone, didn't know it at the time. So I had what the doctor called "night terrors", woke up screaming every night, I had terrible dreams every single night until I was 8 and a half, realized one glorious morning I can say "no" to these things, decided I wanted better dreams. I am hyper-vigilant, people figured out a long time ago it's fun to sneak up behind me and say "boo", i jump to the ceiling and scream before my brain knows what i'm doing, it's very entertaining to them. If you're pre-verbal when this happens, your dreams are very colorful and vivid images full of FEELINGS, they are yours alone, but they are not reality, you get to choose whether you keep them. Bless you for asking.
Thank you for sharing. I have been contemplating sharing my story. Might be nice to talk about it matter-of-factly after 20 years now.
It made all the sense to me love and it also made me burst into tears, which I so needed and is always afraid to do under conditions of others who hasn't lived it or don't clearly understand. No 🎻 but I've been misdiagnosed, misunderstood, misrepresented, misled bc what I know now is C.P.S.T.D on top of blaming and looking down on myself sense I was a child on up til today 11/6/2019. Thank you I appreciate your video, bc Iknow now I'm not alone seriously and I thank God for letting me see and cross this video, along with some others that I needed to see and hear🙏😘
I love this. Thank you for sharing this and I hope people who don't grasp being traumatized watch this and learn from it.
Omg! Thanks. Just got a talking to yesterday about how I should THINK. arghh. But you understand!
I do similar things to myself. I tell myself to bottle it up, and get the hell over myself. I even ask myself, what the hell is your problem? You better start changing overnight, right now! I even smack myself if I notice myself showing any emotions that are not linked to happiness. People tell me that I’m way too hard on myself, which I do agree. But other times, I feel like I’m just giving myself tough love.
Spot on!!!! When you're feeling "normal" you feel like you're lying that you even have it.
I live in a world where im neglected and hated
would you mind doing a dissociation video? disassociation is a constant companion for me. i thought emdr would knock it out and it has not. it comes to (save me?) all the time even when i don't know why. thanks for the video!
Hello. I am 18 and I have been struggling with PTSD for 2 years now... That with my family history of Bipolar disorder, and teen aged hormones in general, things have been difficult. I want to say thank you. I have spent so long feeling alone and you are someone i can relate to and find words of wisdom in. Thank you so much.
I find that anything to do with mental struggles, a lot of people try to oversimplify them in an attempt to understand them on their own. You’re right, it’s always with the best intentions, but you wish you could have a much longer conversation with them to help them understand the complexities. I do not have PTSD, I have something simply described as food anxiety, but I get the same sort of conversations.
I love the way you explain things. Some of it just doesn’t make sense!! And I like that you point it out. Helps me feel not alone. Was diagnosed with PTSD this year.
“PTSD is real”
Very good points! I have no idea how you managed to explain something to complex so well. This is definitely helping someone somewhere.
Thank you so much!
Post Traumatic Victory Very welcome, friend! I sent you an email as well. I love what you do here.
When someone compares your response to someone else: lots of people went through the same thing and came out stronger. Like if I just want to be stronger, I will. This attitude hurts more than any other in every sense, highlighting the shame I already feel. It also kills any hope I have for recovery.
I have been diagnosed with cptsd and severe anxiety
Thank you so much for your candor with a sweet dose of warmth. I needed to hear your message today. Again, thank you!
Your video saved me from going down in the dumps today. I wanna thank you for this, thank you for posting such a great video talking about cptsd in such a way that actually makes a person feel all around better about it. Your sense of humor is awesome and i know humor helps us out in many ways. A million thank yous
I completely understand what your trying to say and I know it's not always easy, thank you for sharing I'm new to your channel but deeply appreciate take care and keep it up.
It's honestly so hard to explain how actually complex complex-ptsd is. There are so many symptoms beyond those of ptsd, It's so much beyond the flashbacks and memories which people usually expect, It's layers upon layers of triggers and behaviors in the present that at times you don't even realise are caused by the trauma. It's a whole way of looking at your life and experiencing it because of the past. It truly affects everyday life in a larger sense. And sometimes it's even difficult for YOU to explain.
I experienced a medical trauma in 2014 (a had an incorrect organ removed… it’s a long story), and whenever I’m in the hospital I have seizures. I often wonder if this is ptsd or c-ptsd. I can’t seem to get a definitive medical opinion. It doesn’t get better, it just gets different in my opinion.
I absolutely feel you on the “not better, just different” thing, I often feel that way too 💚 (I’m still holding on to hope that it WILL be better for all of us someday though, even just for one day)
thank you for your channel! i feel less alone today!
Love you and your channel . I find our conditions and experiences similar . Do you ever see things that arent there or feel like people are creeping up on you even if you are alone . I often donr know if what i see is real or not ? And struggle a ton with this and my hypervigilence
First person on TH-cam or anyone at all that explains what I go through to the point. The feelings and experiences can be pretty nerve racking and tbh scary. Worst times would be in a car. I don't know anyone that goes through what I go through. You do go past it you learn to live with it. I haven't been happy lately been struggling but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... right? Thanks for your insight and knowledge and I look forward to more videos about PTSD and mental illness. Thanks you made my day. :D
Thank you so much!!! I have cptsd and a tbi....things have gotten a lot worse since my last concussion. What used to work no longer does. My dear sweet loving kind husband always says.."you know things will never change with them."....or "what do you want me to do?"...or "I don't know how to fix this".....that last one was just said a short while ago. I didn't respond well to that. I KNOW he can't fix it...it also isn't about him....I was just having a hard time. I love him so much and I am so grateful he sticks with me even when I can be mean. I don't dwell on stuff, stuff affects me and sometimes I am not good at dealing with it. Thank you to any body who cares and loves for another who has CPTSD andTBI. Thank you for making this video and others. I am going to tell my husband for the billionth time that I am sorry. But I am also going to Thank him again for loving me. One other thing I would like to add is.."just let it go" is a real quick way to bigger episode, so please don't any body say that.
I am so glad to have found this channel to have found YOU! Almost everyone in my lopsided circle of peeps don’t quite get why one thing might trigger me,one day and the next time I don’t seem bothered at all by said trigger....*those peeps call it attention seeking * sigh.... I would rather not draw attention to myself,lolz....anyways love this channel,you are awesome and thanks
Same! I was so confused why some things triggered me some days and then other days it didn't. I felt like I was somehow being an impostor or something.
Hey there! I have C-PTSD too. Thanks for making this! The resources are so sparse and it helps to know and hear about others stories. It makes me feel so much less isolated. I often close myself up in my apartment spending hours researching therapies and what not. I found out recently that can be unhealthy too. I love your humor. Laughing makes it easier. Best of luck to you!! To all of us!
So glad I found this place. Education about this is really needed. My cousin offered support. I warned her it's not easy. She said she's a qualified therapist and fine with it. Im not entirely sure she is and gave her some info on cptsd which I know she's not read. 4 weeks ago she said for God's sake it's been 3 years of this. Get over it cos this isn't normal. She said this mid flashback and off I went to self isolate. What can I say? I know you'll understand. Iv long since put on my sane face to the world but felt safe to be myself with her. Boy was I wrong to trust that one. One trigger can be like ripples in a pond. Validation is key to someone with cptsd or ptsd. Just cus it's not a gaping wound on our foreheads doesnt t mean it's not real. Thank you for being here. Wish I was as brave to do what you're doing xxxx
Thank you so much for finally putting what I have been thinking to words. I get so frustrated to the point of panic attacks when people tell me that I will "get over it" one day. My parents feel like and act like this my ptsd isn't a life long issue and I sometimes want to scream at them saying "you don't know crap" but instead I smile and hold my tongue
Dude I have cptsd, there’s no bloody videos on the shite. I accidentally stabbed my hand trying to open a bottle a few months ago and now I’m scared to death of knives... and everything. Shit “I’m not broken”!
As someone with PTSD and now that I've seen your video maybe c-PTSD is more accurate. This was incredible to watch and made me feel very validated. Thank you
Thank you. Seen several of your videos. But never commented. So now... Thank you.
I so understand this. Sometimes I feel like one trigger will hit and then it all of the triggers come after too.
I’m new on your channel and I got to say I love you so much! I was just diagnosed with PTSD back in August of this year and I had so many questions about it and you seem to always help me. I love you so much you are such a wonderful person and I will always watch and support you ♥️.
I have been diagnosed recently, thank you for doing these videos they help me a lot and I dont feel as alone.
I had loads hypnosis worked lots of it and cleared different patterns. Oh yes triggers are shut. I don’t know if I disassociate. There is a cure hypnosis, the subconscious rules the conscious mind which can change with hypnosis.
I like to think it can be overcome and won't necessarily be there forever. Small steps.
I always expect myself to “cure” it overnight. And if it’s still there, and if I find myself getting triggered over a flashback or something, I find myself saying things like, “really?! Get the hell over yourself! What is your problem? It could’ve been worse! People have more worse trauma than your’s! So you better force yourself to get working and get rid of it already!” I give myself, I guess you would say tough love.
Could there be a spiritual component to it? Does it seem sometimes like it might be?
Definitely. CPTSD is a very deep set of core wounds, on a spiritual level. God and Jesus are the only reason I’m still alive, because last year, I was so triggered I was having flashbacks that I don’t even remember having. And I wanted to die when I became delusional and thought I’d done things I hadn’t. I’ve scared my children and family, and I’m physically separated from them for their safety while I work on therapy and coping skills. I just learned this year, after being separated for over a year while going to therapy, that I have CPTSD. And I’ve probably had it since I was about 8 years old. I’ve had medical traumas since birth-4 years old, CSA, emotional neglect, witnessed lots of sibling violence, serious head trauma at 8 years old that probably heightened my sensitivity to my environment, and caused a whole host of other issues I’m just now realizing…
But, I definitely believe there’s a spiritual component to it all as well.
My PTSD makes me to cry, but Crying is a trigger for me but I don’t know why. I shut down and can’t move.
I get mad when I cry. Because I feel as if I’m not allowed to exhibit any bad emotions. I feel like I only have to show good emotions that are related to happiness. And if I find myself getting upset, I tell myself, “don’t you dare start showing those emotions! You’re not allowed to do that! I’ll give you something to get mad about!” Or I smack myself on the head and say, “I’ll give you something to cry about!” I feel embarrassed and ashamed to show hard emotions, because I feel like it’s a weakness for me to say that I’m struggling.
I wish others would understand these things about CPTSD/PTSD
Poverty and PTSD.
If you don't mind I would like to correct a statement that people say about an on going issue. For something that is a short term thing like an illness which is once in a lifetime, or some type of an accident then that is what I call going through something. But! For something that you have to what some people call living with then it isn't something you can say that you're going through, if there's no end to it then it's something that you're dealing with, because it's not going anywhere it's a lifetime issue. So rather then say you're going through something that is a lifetime issue. Then it's not going away is it? Just I have something that I am dealing with?
Yeah! I have ptsd, and chronic PTSD plus I have approximately two hundred flash backs a day if not more, I say that because I really don't know how many of these stupid flash backs that I have but! I do know this they're life altering . My flash backs start soon after I wake up in the morning until I decide to go to bed at night, sometimes I tell people that I wish that I could sleep all day long because that's when I get some peace! But! Then if you say that to a so called professional they automatically think you're suicidal, that isn't the case. So try to watch what you say and who you say it to, because these so called professionals do not understand anything about why you a person might say that they wish they didn't have to wake up.
I'm at the point where I don't care what I say because if the so called professionals had a brain cell they wouldn't just conclusions and ask questions then they might get the picture why some one would say that they wish that they didn't wake up. Right? Well! I just want to say that I know what ptsd, or cptsd is all & this isn't something that I going through this is something that I am dealing with. There's a lot of difference between going through something and dealing with it every single day. Ok?
I am hypervigilant
I really appreciate your videos totally understand what you are talking about. I have cptsd but I'm not diagnosed with it probably because my insurance wouldn't cover that diagnosis. I've been physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually abused since I was a baby starting with my parents. I am reading the feeling good cognitive therapy book and starting to do some of the exercises and it seems to be helping me a lot. Thank you for giving me a better understanding and knowing that I am not alone, with a part of my mental illness that is never been address by mental health that I went to thinking that they could help me.
One thing about my PTSD is I cant have coffee and drink coffee with my co workers because I have constant anxiety. :( and it makes my chest cave in and I'd rather die
Thank you. The VA dismissed my PTSD-C for years. I was a Spook in the military, not a combat troop.
Love this!!! I was blessed* with it too! Amen on your 3 things...new relationship and it showed up heavier now we are going thru together because I’m lucky to finally have a man to fight for me not with me♥️
Wow I think I have ptsd but I was like it's not one thing! I just get into this zone where I'm in my trauma all over again
I'm new to your channel I have PTSD to.
Thank you! There is little talk on cptsd and ptsd.
Q: have you ever been told my mental health providers that you have all your tools and they can't help you?
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viet vet here I have ptsd from childhood things I was drafted I was already damage good then I got a good dose of it in the army ao thank you I now know its complex
love your glasses and your cute hair style...anyway thanks for your videos...only the 2nd one i have seen so far..and your dogs are beautiful in the former one i just watched. but..yea...i have cptsd plus the dissociation..but love your info and good stuff in the videos....thanks
One thing that I hate about one of my triggers is when my mum leaves. Like for a quick errand or to the store for even 5 mins? One day I'm perfectly fine. Then the next I'm automatically triggered as soon as I hear the car start. I don't get it. But it's so terrible. Honestly I hate it. I'm 17 now for freaks sake!? WHY do I constantly get "upset" about small things like that?? Lol I mean it's life so whatever
thank you for your videos
Thanks for the explanation. I no idea about this and this helped a lot.
i have a question and I hoope you might be able the give me an answer.
I personally think I have C-PTSD, but I am not in a place right now where I can get a diagnosis or therapy. But this makes me feel not valid and my question really is: Can you say you have C-PTSD without having a diagnosis?
I would definitely get the opinion of a mental health professional! Discuss your symptoms with them, and see what they have to say about it - but you also don't have to accept a diagnosis that you KNOW is wrong (for example, I was once diagnosed with bipolar ii on a first visit with a psychiatrist, having never had a manic episode. Which is not how it works haha)
I just saw the part where you said you can't get therapy right now, sorry about that! It's definitely okay to discuss your symptoms and talk about what you think may be going on!
I don't have PTSD, but I do have an anxiety disorder and it is very much the same. Like I have never before in my life been particularly anxious around doctors, but last doctor's appointment I was like SUPER anxious. Can't tell you why it was different this time versus last. Brains are strange.
it is NOT the same!! not even close! YOu get "anxious" or anxiety before a text, PTSD, is COMPLETELY different. you dont get anxious as a result of trauma. PTSD you do.
Hi there, thank you so much for your video on the topic CPTSD :)) I am starting my journey in healing, although it's very scary and hard work I had a thought what do you do when your in one of those intense anger rages ? I try telling myself think of a resolution than to become upset. It helps to calm me for a bit but then I get angry about it maybe think how I can do it differently. If there isn't a cure why do we bother and accept it is who we are? So many questions
yes its REAL no there is you got it LOL your a blast not going to past it lol yes it did LOVE you your great I Have CPTsd LOLOLOLO yes you got it lack of ed on it well its ok tobe you
Hi my name is Eric I love your videos they inspire me and they give me hope and I think you are cute LOL but anyways with my PTSD I got a lot of nightmares and I love how my girlfriend took the time out and researched it and I know when I have nightmares in my sleep my girlfriend warms up to me while I'm sleeping and calms me down and I love that just because a lot of people don't know what to do so tell me if you would want to message me I would like to hear about you some more do you have really bad nightmares when you sleep and if you could could you make a video on that part and if so thank you and have a great one sweetheart
10 stars from another viet vet.
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Your funny,not the topic though