Hi Erin. I'm 48 & this year is the 1st time I'm feeling the effects of Winter SAD, I usually don't mind this time of year but this year, it's taking everything in me some days to even get out of bed & go to work! I used to consider myself a mentally solid woman but this peri-menopause is indeed kicking my butt & testing my strength, focus & clarity! I agree about the thrifting budget, if it's items needed it shouldn't count. I love Harry Potter, I read the books & they listened to them on audible, Stephen Fry does a fabulous Hagrid, it's so much funnier seeing Ron's or the twins faces whilst hearing their funny lines in the books. I do love audible. One thing I've learnt over the years is that as long as the foundations & goals aren't forgotten, it's better to tweak something & make it work for yourself & your family, than to just give up because it's destroying your soul! You'll know when you're tweaked it to far & then, you just have to remember your foundations & goals. I'm going be of no use here but I really do like the paper either direction, however, doing it going across would be different, I don't think I've ever seen that but it may make the room feel smaller?? Have a fabulous day. ❤️
Thank you so much for the heartfelt words and thoughts. I always appreciate it. We have listened to some of the Harry Potter on audio, but am exploring the Libby app now and loving the potential there. Thank you for the kind words, once again ❤️
I love your videos ❤ - you have an amazing “creative” way of capturing reality - your house looks so warm and inviting! Give yourself GRACE - enjoy each day!
Just need to add to my earlier comment.... My daughter is your age, going through exactly everything youre experiencing as I did in my 40s. Be rest assured, if you power through, keep active, you'll get through it. It's a combination of everything, seasonal, mental health and your body is in transition.... PLUS detoxing from all those DELICIOUS Christmas treats throws you for a LOOP. YOU'VE GOT THIS! We all need to go through it. 💪👍🥰😊❤️
Thank you so much for sharing that! It’s so frustrating to do all the things that have worked to make me feel good in the past and feel the same…or worse. It’s no joke. Women are warriors.
Another beautiful video. Love seeing your little cozy walks. So fun. Also love seeing you in the kitchen with dinner etc. yes, that bread is so good and love the smell throughout the house. I’ve often thought how yummy it would be with Rosemary. I just wonder how much I would add. And loving all the book/author recommendations. I recently got back into cross stitching and you vlogs are so cozy to stitch to. ❤
Thank you so much! It warms my heart to know you’re enjoying these while stitching! I am so grateful for this bread recipe! It’s flawless! You’re right it would be good with rosemary! Definitely let me know if you try it!
I could live on your intros alone! I love that you document and are aware of your mental being. I know I’m a bit manic because I want to do all the THINGS and I’m doing ALL the things. I’ll be crashing soon I’m sure. I’m so proud of you Erin! It’s wonderful to see someone I’ve loved for so long doing well! Finally people Have caught on. Do you remember when I binged your channel last year and watched every single video and had to comment on each one and almost felt like a crazy person yet I couldn’t help it.
Haha! I do remember and you’re always so kind. I can be a bit manic as well, but trying to keep it level. Growth has slowed a bit for my channel again, but it’s ok. Just going to focus on all the lovely people who are already here because that’s wonderful and the only thing really in my control.
@@the.ellemars yes! They have chosen to be here and they will be the ones you want to keep. It’s the fellow readers, collectors, from scratch makers, creatives! All the people you would also love to spend your time with if you had all the time in the world. I’m always so grateful for those who watch my films all the way through, who actually chat in the comments like it’s a two way convo! I know how precious time is so I’m grateful for those who spend it with me as I’m positive you feel the same. Especially since you’re raising a family and cherishing your real moments in time while balancing this as well. It’s for sure not easy and time doesn’t stop for any of us. We must choose wisely and I know you do this too.
Yummy looking soup Erin! I'm also in Ontario (GTA). My suggestion for the high grocery bills is to temporarily live without all the expensive foods - just for a few months while you try and pay some stuff off. Like the grapes, chocolate, cashew nuts, protein drinks. They really add up. Plus grapes are full of pesticides - unless you get the organic, which are even more expensive. Love watching your videos!!
Yes, we could definitely trim more fat on our groceries, but life feels pretty bleak when you’re trying to diet, do 75 hard, low/no buy, $40 thrift budget for all thrifting, no eating out or fun little snack nights and rarely leaving the house. Our bills keep going up and I am struggling to find the joy in just working, cleaning and paying the bills. I would honestly like to cancel my subscription to adulting for a hot minute 🥴😏 I appreciate you taking the time to write.
It’s way expensive to buy healthier options and w young kids you just have to w the fruits etc. especially when Clem needs anti inflammatory diet. Soooo. I don’t see any way of further trimming w a family of 5. I thing your doing great Erin! The grapes are SO expensive and apples lol u almost paid 40 bux on LOL. I am hopeful w new Admin in USA the food prices drops. Eggs just went up to TEN dollars. How insane, really ❤❤❤
I loved this. How I can relate to the perimenopause - I’m turning 38 this year and I’ve been fighting it for years. That brain fog and lack of energy really get me during certain times of the month. Thanks for sharing! So glad the algorithm brought me here! ❤
Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed and I’m so glad you’re here too! It’s pretty brutal, isn’t it?? I think it’s important that we all talk about our experiences more.
I loved your video today. Yes, great reminder for everyday all day….follow the plan not the mood. I’m going to watch again “as a cooking show” 😉😋 while I make the soup!
Good for you for taking care of yourself! I take antidepressants too, and my life would be miserable otherwise. I recently added exercise to my routine and it helps a ton. Take care!
Thank you for sharing! I got really tired of the roller coaster…and it’s still a bit of a ride, but the antidepressants take the edge off for sure! Exercise is an incredible help for so many things, I’m glad you’ve added it in.
I love watching your vlogs. There’s something very comforting about them - like I said before, you’re real. I can’t imagine having snow for all of those months. I live in California - born & raised - I get cranky if we have more than three days of rain - I know SAD is a very real thing. I think you’re doing a great job sticking with your plan & budget! Love watching you cook - I love soups. I’ve never made anything with paneer - I will now be on a mission to cook with it. I made the dates/peanut butter/ chocolate and they were soooo decadent - my husband loved them.
Awe thanks! I’m so glad. Winter is definitely long…the length is definitely what gets us. It’s pretty brutal. I love soup too and paneer adds that little something to this one. Everyone in the house loves it. I’m so glad you guys loved the dates! Aren’t they so good?!
I adore your content. Thank you for a wonderful video ❤. I think what contributes to winter being a sad season is that all of nature is in a state of rest, and yet with the new year's motivations to start new things, we are trying to be in a season of growth. It's like we are trying to go against our own biology. I always say, winter is for rest and reflection (or it's the perfect time for dreaming and planning) and spring is for renewal and rebirth (growth and action). I wish the new year started in Spring. You are doing great, it's perfectly fine to have days where you need to nap on the couch. ❤
Thank you so much. I agree in a lot of ways. Summer makes me want to die in a different way 😂 and I find I feel good pushing myself on personal goals in the winter. We stay home a lot in winter and work on ourselves. In summer, we are on the go a lot more. I love the slowness and low expectations of winter ❤️
Hi! Your doing great! I often beat myself up this time of the year because I get a bit lazy lol but love this time of year for that very reason at the same time! I’ve come to accept it and tell myself it’s ok to rest, I believe that is what Winter is for. I’m always pushing myself the rest of the year so I look forward to Winter so much more now! I love the snowy woods! Nothing like a cold walk in nature to release all the bad unwanted energy that sometimes clings to us. Thanks for sharing all your thoughts with us 🥰🪵☃️🧣♥️
I would love a video where you talk about your first month (or more) being monetized, what the looks like, etc. I have dreams that this year I will make improvements/advancements on my TH-cam.
How wonderful! I have pretty much decided that I will share my first month and a bit of being monetized and share it all because I think it’s so helpful to know what is realistic. For sure!
Really enjoying your chats. I’m living in Southern Ontario, have just really started getting snow down here, so I’m sooo happy! I love winter walks too, esp at night! I’m a big Matt Haig fan too, and if you haven’t read it already, check out his Comfort Book,-a lovely little collection of his thoughts and reflections! I really enjoyed it
Nothing beats a winter walk! Yes, I actually have that book too, but I should pull it out again for daily reading because it’s just so good. Thank you for the reminder ❤️
both Ilene and I used that IUD as we approached menopause.. it was a blessing and I did not notice a change in emotional or mental mood. Even though I suffered from SAD my whole life.. I think menopause has helped with that. Keep that forward motion! progression! Like you said.. just show up. One of my favourite tunes.. Sing Sing Sing by Benny Goodman (from your Grandma's era.
It’s been a blessing in so many ways, but I wonder…it’s likely just perimenopause chaos 😭🫠🥴. I feel better again today so hopefully I’m back on the upswing ❤️
I continue to really enjoy your videos. I am in Ontario too, about an hour north west of Toronto in a small town. I love winter, but like you, suffer from SAD. I am going to try one of those light therapy things. Worth a try! Thank you for sharing your therapist's words of "Follow the plan, not the mood." I am putting that on my fridge to look at every day. Very true advice. Also, love the recipe ideas. I had to google Paneer....😂
Oh nice! Now I’m curious about what small town! I got one of those lights a few years ago and I do find it helps because I wake up at 5:30 or 6am, but it’s pretty harsh too…because it has to be basically right into your eyeballs. I could deal with it, but my husband is incredibly sensitive to bright lights and it drove him crazy 😏…I’m glad you like the quote and recipes! Let me know if you try them out.
I just LOVE your opening drawing of your kitchen. It’s signed Clementine so I assume she created it. She’s so talented! It’s darling ❤ Have you tried light therapy for SAD? Might help. Perimenopause/menopause wasn’t fun, but you’ll find ways to get through. I’ve even seen meds available now that help. I know you’re trying to cut back on meds but something to talk to your NP about. I vote for vertical stripe wallpaper. Make wall look taller. Pretty! I listened to Matt H. Book. It was interesting. Sort of magical realism. He’s good writer! Your soup looks delicious! I’m going to order that dicing gadget. Love your content and how you share good times and struggles. Glad you feel better. If the antidepressants help- take it!!!❤ Laura
Thank you! I will let Clementine know you love it! She drew it and then I animated it. I have tried a lamp, but the light is definitely aggressive 🥴 It’s such a handy little gadget! I hope you love it. Thank you for all the kind word ❤️
Lovely to spend time with you, and congratulations on monetization! 🎉👏👏 And glad for the mood pick up. I’ve struggled with depression in the past and the struggle is real. Mine did eventually lift and I hope that for you as well!
Erin, I don’t understand why you feel guilty when your body needs a nap. I don’t think it’s unusual at all. I’m always happy when a new video from you pops up.
This January has been rough for me too, also doing 75 hard and the scale has actually gone up from right after the holidays. I just made an appt to talk about perimenopause because i already want the hormone therapy 😂 For the soreness if you dont start foam rolling, it has helped my hips a lot!
Ugh, I find that the scale doesn’t want to move much either. So infuriating. I think it’s time to start asking for more help/hormone therapy. I do lots of stretching and foam rolling, but the pain is more…structural😂….like my lower back and hips have just been painful for years. Could be another perimenopause treat too 🥴. I’m sorry you’re also struggling. I’m starting to wonder if 75 hard is counter productive for the phase we/I am in honestly…is it raising my cortisol? Ugh.
Lovely Vlog Erin, I get really low mood this time of year as the majority of the time here in England it is just Gloomy Grey weather, I walk everyday which really helps & feed the Swans & Ducks, I also met a Fox today on the canal tow path, made my Day 🦊Looking at the Snow is Beautiful❄ & really lifted my mood, Thank You 🌞
As much as I would love the milder, shorter winters, the gloominess might wear on me too. That sounds lovely though! Feeding the deer used to give me so much joy, but the neighbours hate them. I’m glad my snowy landscape gave you some joy ❤️
I would do the wallpaper facing the second way you demonstrated but only from the baseboards up halfway to the center so it's half wallpaper and half paint. Just a thought!
I just turned 60, holy crap, when did I get so old?? Not gonna lie, my 40s were my hardest decade. I see so much of what I went through in your chats. I would do the stripes vertically, but you do you!
Ha! Time flies. Ugh, it’s nice to hear because I feel less broken, but it’s also hard to hear because I don’t know how to make it better. I appreciate your sharing and input on the wallpaper. I’m still unsure.
@@the.ellemars You're not broken!! we all get a little bent out of shape sometimes. Keep sharing and I will keep encouraging. You are going through a rough patch, give yourself the same grace and you would give a friend if she was in the same situation. As for meds, they exist to help people like us. If you had diabetes or high blood pressure, you would take medication to help. Mental health is no different. I say go for it, put up the wallpaper, either direction. If you love it great! If you don't, there's always another pattern or paint color. Also, kids clothes are not part of your fun thrifting budget. 🙂
Some book recommendations for you! If you like slightly witchy and magical, the Practical magic series is great! I think there are two prequels, practical magic and then the sequel❤ Also if you liked the midnight library, I heard “the collected regrets of clover” is supposed to be good!
It certainly is not! I’m so glad others are finding that mantra helpful. He gave me so many helpful tools I just have a hard time remembering them all!
I totally thought that black wall was a hunter green. Love it but know dark walls can be hard to maintain. The wallpaper will look great. I think it would look really good hung horizontally. I think it is great that you speak honestly about mental health. It helps others know they are not alone. P.S., buying your kids clothes should definitely not be included in your thrifting money ;). Lol.
I started watching during vlogmas and really enjoyed that . I think its just interesting to see daily life in another part of the world. I'm in Cape Town South Africa and I will gladly swop with you right now for some cold weather. Its so hot here 😅. Your soup looks delicious.
Thank you for the kind words, and I feel you on the hot weather! I’d much rather be snowed in than overheating 🥵. The soup is a crowd pleaser in our house!
Nora Roberts ..all of her books are wonderful.. and I love the Alice Hoffman Practical Magic books there are 4 books in that series… ❤just my suggestions I read a lot all types I use that old rule of “Never Judge a book by its cover “
Beautiful and gorgeous vlog I hope you saved me some of the food hahaha God bless you and keep up the inspiring new people on your channel thankyou ❤🙏🥶
Thank you! I like the idea of the DJI Osmo Pocket 3 because it’s so compact but also a Sony vlogging camera that everyone seems to have seems more versatile so I’m leaning towards that one. Thank you! I agree it shouldn’t count against my “mad” thrifting money 😂
Again, your girl math is mathing... kids clothes don't count. (Sorry, Mike, it's just a fact.) I'm making the date Snickers today, as our son and his family are visiting from out of state. The date Snickers are "for the grandkids."😂 I'm impressed with your meal plan. Love the wallpaper. (Love the black wall too.) The horizontal stripes are speaking to me, but I'm no expert! "Follow the plan, not the more," love that! Thanks for all you shared. 💗
Ha! Thank you! I knew my girl math was, once again, correct! They are so good! Don’t tell them it’s a date. Clementine is a little weird about it. Thank you for your input on the wallpaper! Not sure what I will do. My family votes no because I asked if it was “giving Beetlejuice” 😏🫠 Thank you for always being here ❤️
Yes, I keep meaning to do that. I do take vitamin d supplements most of the year, but I’m Not sure how effective they are. Thank you for the reminder 🥰
I have been having anxiety and depression this week. Just hoping to get over it, but yeah sucks. I love Pooh too. IT is hard for me to create videos when in this state of mind. I was getting a lot of anxiety in my 40s and I am sure peri-menopause did amp it up. Now at 55 I should be more even keel, but sadly am not. Going to go on HRT and see if that helps. UGh. Hard being a woman. The Gathering looks great. I am going to look into that too. Reading helps my anxiety and depression. I love Matt Haig and Midnight Library was so good! Oh my gosh, I need to check that one out also.
Ugh! Such a challenging time! I hate feeling so out of it. I need to talk to my doctor about possible ways to manage it…I hope the HRT helps you! Thank you for sharing ❤️
Thank you for sharing. Regarding books, if you want to give high fantasy a try then I would recommend the Stormlight Archive series by Brandon Sanderson. I am finally reading book two of the series, and I’m totally engrossed in the story!
Thank you! I’m not sure high fantasy is my thing, but I feel like it’s having such a moment right now, I feel like I’m missing out! Going to take a look at that one though❤️
Ready for a random and all over the place comment? 😆😆😆 Fellow TH-camr here! I'm close to getting monetized, well I guess that's relative but it is something I maaaaaaay be able to accomplish this year. The watch hours are going to get me though so I'm trying to not get too focused on making that happen. I'm just enjoying showing up, creating, and using my brain for something outside homeschooling my boys and all our day to day stuff. It's been so good for me mentally! So if the monetization thing doesn't happen this year I still feel like I'm winning, ya know? I've said this before but it's been so neat to see your channel grow and hear all about how things are going for you! Totally cheering you on from the southern Utah mountains! 🎉 Okay onto the more random part of my comment.... 1. You're doing awesome listening to your body and trying to support it in ways that you feel with cause a positive shift. That can be really hard to be diligent with but you're doing it! 2. I LOOOOOVE all the snow you share on your videos, so stunning each and every time. 3. Did anyone recommend House in the Cerulean Sea? I didn't recommend it last time because I know you're trying to not spend but just in case, it's a heart huggin' book. The audio is awesome. There's different voices for all the little creatures. It will make you feel all the things in the most beautiful way. I read the book while listening to the audio at the same time and it was a dream. Book 2 is currently out but I've not read it yet.
I love a long random comment! It matches my long random video 😂😊! Congrats! I agree, this channel gives me a purpose outside of being a wife and mom. It’s good for my soul. I need to be careful that I don’t fall into the trap of hyper focusing on the outcome and forgetting to enjoy the process and people who are here. It can be hard not to get caught up in it. Someone did recommend it and I have read it! Such a sweet read! Under the Whispering Door was quite lovely too! Thank you for being here and I am cheering you on!
I love your videos 💗 what do you use for your music on your videos now? I remember in one of your vlogs you said you changed? I want to put music to my videos but not sure what to use. Thanks so much 💗
Thank you! I actually decided to keep Epidemic Sound because it was a step I had missed in safe listing my channel. They corrected it swiftly. I do use some TH-cam studio music too though! I hope that helps
@@the.ellemarsok awesome. Oh gosh I need to learn more. I don’t even know what safe listing your channel means. I’m just over here trying to post. Haha
I wish I did, but they’re both just thrifted items I was lucky to find 😬. The cowl is Joe Fresh and the hat is definitely handmade by some lovely soul.
I prefer peameal bacon, but my husband prefers this (he was raised on a lot of bologna 😬). Bacon is loaded with saturated fats which we are trying to avoid for cholesterol reasons, but it is delicious
Erin, you've got me on a hunt for some new books to stock pile for future reads 🙂 I've heard good reviews about a trilogy (series) Foundryside by author Robert Jackson Bennett, and books by Juliet Marilles (sp?) her books tend to be about woodsy, forest, nature, herbalist things 💖
Just from a woman I am thinking over 10 years older than you it probably is all the above that you mentioned why you feel the way you do. I suggest HRT. I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but for me it has not gotten better. I started feeling like shit probably when I was 45 and now I am 55 post menopause. However, that is my story and may not be yours. I am going on HRT and actually starting my first dose tonight. On that note, I have had depression since childhood and also anxiety so that I cannot blame on hormones as much. But it had gotten worse when hitting peri and then meno. And there are a lot of women who do feel better after meno so maybe I am just one of the unlucky ones. For me it is the anxiety that makes life really hard.
@@the.ellemars Not too early for you. But it depends on if you are getting hot flashes and other symptoms. I think you said you are 42? Women do not have to wait until post-menopause to go on HRT. And now they are saying to go on it before menopause. It is all very confusing though. Also, they are saying women need to be on it for life and losing estrogen is like being deficient since we need estrogen. So basically, it is like if we are deficient in something we need to take a supplement. Or like if you are hypothyroid you need to go on a hormone to balance it. And one more thing lol Every woman has to be on estrogen cream even before menopause. falling estrogen gives every women atrophy which can have many issues like more bladder infections and can be painful. Yeah, sucks, but better know this sooner than later.
And now days it is safer to go on HRT than it was in the past. They use different types of hormones now and the study in the early 2000's called the WHI Women's Health Initiative had lots of flaws in the study. I researched of this a lot. It is also talked about on many credible channels on TH-cam with board certified gynecologists'. Not sure about how it is in Canada but you should talk to your doctor about it.
My friend Mollie. I started to feel terrible at age 40. Always depressed and completely wondered who the heck am I? I would wake at 3 almost each morning and walk in the garden, journal, watch tv. I’m so excited for my physical end of this month to ask about hormones. It’s so wonderful to be amongst woman who get it.
Hello friend love seeing you and please please please know how much I enjoy your channel. I talk back to you like we’re having a girls chat🤣😂 Link your items so you can get paid when we purchase your recommendations.
You are so incredibly kind! I love that you talk back to me like that ❤️. Yes! I really do need to get better at linking things I mention. I will add the links to my description now. Thank you for reminding me ❤️
You’re 44. Suggest getting your hormones checked by a hormone specialist. Most likely perimenopause is kicking in. Going through menopause currently(not nice). I’m on HRT it does help relieve numerous of symptoms, but it does change, regular checks is a must. Breathe take time for yourself to help with anxiety. Watch your stress levels and detach from stressful things. I wish someone told me this when it started for me. 🥰. Congrats on getting monetized. I love doing TH-cam. Community is great here.
Yes, that’s the tricky thing is that they fluctuate all month long 🫠…I am definitely going to start looking into more options and treatments. I hate feeling like this. Thank you for sharing with me ❤️
Hi Erin. I'm 48 & this year is the 1st time I'm feeling the effects of Winter SAD, I usually don't mind this time of year but this year, it's taking everything in me some days to even get out of bed & go to work! I used to consider myself a mentally solid woman but this peri-menopause is indeed kicking my butt & testing my strength, focus & clarity!
I agree about the thrifting budget, if it's items needed it shouldn't count.
I love Harry Potter, I read the books & they listened to them on audible, Stephen Fry does a fabulous Hagrid, it's so much funnier seeing Ron's or the twins faces whilst hearing their funny lines in the books.
I do love audible.
One thing I've learnt over the years is that as long as the foundations & goals aren't forgotten, it's better to tweak something & make it work for yourself & your family, than to just give up because it's destroying your soul! You'll know when you're tweaked it to far & then, you just have to remember your foundations & goals.
I'm going be of no use here but I really do like the paper either direction, however, doing it going across would be different, I don't think I've ever seen that but it may make the room feel smaller??
Have a fabulous day. ❤️
Thank you so much for the heartfelt words and thoughts. I always appreciate it.
We have listened to some of the Harry Potter on audio, but am exploring the Libby app now and loving the potential there.
Thank you for the kind words, once again ❤️
I love your videos ❤ - you have an amazing “creative” way of capturing reality - your house looks so warm and inviting! Give yourself GRACE - enjoy each day!
That’s very kind of you. I’m so glad you’re enjoying my videos ❤️
I so adore the coziness of your vlogs and life. Please know your life is never boring or uninteresting. I love the content you deliver. ❤
That means so much. My anxiety is playing with me and I’m feeling extra vulnerable every time I post so it means everything to hear that.
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Thank you for another raw and delightful reality vlog! 😊❤️🤗
Thank you for always watching ❤️
Just need to add to my earlier comment.... My daughter is your age, going through exactly everything youre experiencing as I did in my 40s. Be rest assured, if you power through, keep active, you'll get through it. It's a combination of everything, seasonal, mental health and your body is in transition.... PLUS detoxing from all those DELICIOUS Christmas treats throws you for a LOOP. YOU'VE GOT THIS! We all need to go through it. 💪👍🥰😊❤️
Thank you so much for sharing that! It’s so frustrating to do all the things that have worked to make me feel good in the past and feel the same…or worse. It’s no joke.
Women are warriors.
Another beautiful video. Love seeing your little cozy walks. So fun. Also love seeing you in the kitchen with dinner etc. yes, that bread is so good and love the smell throughout the house. I’ve often thought how yummy it would be with Rosemary. I just wonder how much I would add. And loving all the book/author recommendations. I recently got back into cross stitching and you vlogs are so cozy to stitch to. ❤
Thank you so much! It warms my heart to know you’re enjoying these while stitching!
I am so grateful for this bread recipe! It’s flawless! You’re right it would be good with rosemary! Definitely let me know if you try it!
I could live on your intros alone!
I love that you document and are aware of your mental being. I know I’m a bit manic because I want to do all the THINGS and I’m doing ALL the things. I’ll be crashing soon I’m sure.
I’m so proud of you Erin! It’s wonderful to see someone I’ve loved for so long doing well! Finally people
Have caught on. Do you remember when I binged your channel last year and watched every single video and had to comment on each one and almost felt like a crazy person yet I couldn’t help it.
Haha! I do remember and you’re always so kind.
I can be a bit manic as well, but trying to keep it level. Growth has slowed a bit for my channel again, but it’s ok. Just going to focus on all the lovely people who are already here because that’s wonderful and the only thing really in my control.
@@the.ellemars yes! They have chosen to be here and they will be the ones you want to keep. It’s the fellow readers, collectors, from scratch makers, creatives! All the people you would also love to spend your time with if you had all the time in the world. I’m always so grateful for those who watch my films all the way through, who actually chat in the comments like it’s a two way convo! I know how precious time is so I’m grateful for those who spend it with me as I’m positive you feel the same. Especially since you’re raising a family and cherishing your real moments in time while balancing this as well. It’s for sure not easy and time doesn’t stop for any of us. We must choose wisely and I know you do this too.
Yummy looking soup Erin! I'm also in Ontario (GTA). My suggestion for the high grocery bills is to temporarily live without all the expensive foods - just for a few months while you try and pay some stuff off. Like the grapes, chocolate, cashew nuts, protein drinks. They really add up. Plus grapes are full of pesticides - unless you get the organic, which are even more expensive. Love watching your videos!!
Yes, we could definitely trim more fat on our groceries, but life feels pretty bleak when you’re trying to diet, do 75 hard, low/no buy, $40 thrift budget for all thrifting, no eating out or fun little snack nights and rarely leaving the house.
Our bills keep going up and I am struggling to find the joy in just working, cleaning and paying the bills.
I would honestly like to cancel my subscription to adulting for a hot minute 🥴😏
I appreciate you taking the time to write.
It’s way expensive to buy healthier options and w young kids you just have to w the fruits etc. especially when Clem needs anti inflammatory diet. Soooo. I don’t see any way of further trimming w a family of 5. I thing your doing great Erin! The grapes are SO expensive and apples lol u almost paid 40 bux on LOL. I am hopeful w new Admin in USA the food prices drops. Eggs just went up to TEN dollars. How insane, really ❤❤❤
I loved this. How I can relate to the perimenopause - I’m turning 38 this year and I’ve been fighting it for years. That brain fog and lack of energy really get me during certain times of the month. Thanks for sharing! So glad the algorithm brought me here! ❤
Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed and I’m so glad you’re here too! It’s pretty brutal, isn’t it?? I think it’s important that we all talk about our experiences more.
Thanks!
Awe! Thank you mom ❤️
You didn’t have to do that, but your support always means the world to me 🥰
I loved your video today. Yes, great reminder for everyday all day….follow the plan not the mood.
I’m going to watch again “as a cooking show” 😉😋 while I make the soup!
I’m so glad! Yes it’s a great reminder to keep in your back pocket for sure!
I love that you’re making the soup! Enjoy ❤️
Good for you for taking care of yourself! I take antidepressants too, and my life would be miserable otherwise. I recently added exercise to my routine and it helps a ton. Take care!
Thank you for sharing! I got really tired of the roller coaster…and it’s still a bit of a ride, but the antidepressants take the edge off for sure!
Exercise is an incredible help for so many things, I’m glad you’ve added it in.
Thank you for making amazing and honest videos……..I really look forward to every time there is something new from you ❤
Your kind words mean so much! My anxiety is making me question everything. Your kindness hits the mark. ❤️
I love watching your vlogs. There’s something very comforting about them - like I said before, you’re real. I can’t imagine having snow for all of those months. I live in California - born & raised - I get cranky if we have more than three days of rain - I know SAD is a very real thing. I think you’re doing a great job sticking with your plan & budget! Love watching you cook - I love soups. I’ve never made anything with paneer - I will now be on a mission to cook with it. I made the dates/peanut butter/ chocolate and they were soooo decadent - my husband loved them.
Awe thanks! I’m so glad.
Winter is definitely long…the length is definitely what gets us. It’s pretty brutal.
I love soup too and paneer adds that little something to this one. Everyone in the house loves it.
I’m so glad you guys loved the dates! Aren’t they so good?!
I adore your content. Thank you for a wonderful video ❤.
I think what contributes to winter being a sad season is that all of nature is in a state of rest, and yet with the new year's motivations to start new things, we are trying to be in a season of growth. It's like we are trying to go against our own biology. I always say, winter is for rest and reflection (or it's the perfect time for dreaming and planning) and spring is for renewal and rebirth (growth and action). I wish the new year started in Spring. You are doing great, it's perfectly fine to have days where you need to nap on the couch. ❤
Thank you so much.
I agree in a lot of ways. Summer makes me want to die in a different way 😂 and I find I feel good pushing myself on personal goals in the winter. We stay home a lot in winter and work on ourselves. In summer, we are on the go a lot more.
I love the slowness and low expectations of winter ❤️
@the.ellemars totally agree, summer is definitely a hibernation season for me during the scorching days 😂☀️
Hi! Your doing great! I often beat myself up this time of the year because I get a bit lazy lol but love this time of year for that very reason at the same time! I’ve come to accept it and tell myself it’s ok to rest, I believe that is what Winter is for. I’m always pushing myself the rest of the year so I look forward to Winter so much more now! I love the snowy woods! Nothing like a cold walk in nature to release all the bad unwanted energy that sometimes clings to us. Thanks for sharing all your thoughts with us 🥰🪵☃️🧣♥️
It’s definitely a time to slow down in so many ways! Thank you for being here and for taking the time to write ❤️
I would love a video where you talk about your first month (or more) being monetized, what the looks like, etc. I have dreams that this year I will make improvements/advancements on my TH-cam.
How wonderful!
I have pretty much decided that I will share my first month and a bit of being monetized and share it all because I think it’s so helpful to know what is realistic. For sure!
Love your channel, an idea for your clock remodel, use pieces of left over plank flooring cut the width you need. You might only need 2-3 pieces.
Oh that’s a good idea. I think we have some in the garage! Thank you for that!
Really enjoying your chats. I’m living in Southern Ontario, have just really started getting snow down here, so I’m sooo happy! I love winter walks too, esp at night! I’m a big Matt Haig fan too, and if you haven’t read it already, check out his Comfort Book,-a lovely little collection of his thoughts and reflections! I really enjoyed it
Nothing beats a winter walk!
Yes, I actually have that book too, but I should pull it out again for daily reading because it’s just so good. Thank you for the reminder ❤️
Excellent episode! xo
Awe thank you❤️
both Ilene and I used that IUD as we approached menopause.. it was a blessing and I did not notice a change in emotional or mental mood. Even though I suffered from SAD my whole life.. I think menopause has helped with that. Keep that forward motion! progression! Like you said.. just show up. One of my favourite tunes.. Sing Sing Sing by Benny Goodman (from your Grandma's era.
It’s been a blessing in so many ways, but I wonder…it’s likely just perimenopause chaos 😭🫠🥴.
I feel better again today so hopefully I’m back on the upswing ❤️
I love your scarf!
Thank you! It’s thrifted😉
I continue to really enjoy your videos. I am in Ontario too, about an hour north west of Toronto in a small town. I love winter, but like you, suffer from SAD. I am going to try one of those light therapy things. Worth a try! Thank you for sharing your therapist's words of "Follow the plan, not the mood." I am putting that on my fridge to look at every day. Very true advice. Also, love the recipe ideas. I had to google Paneer....😂
Oh nice! Now I’m curious about what small town! I got one of those lights a few years ago and I do find it helps because I wake up at 5:30 or 6am, but it’s pretty harsh too…because it has to be basically right into your eyeballs. I could deal with it, but my husband is incredibly sensitive to bright lights and it drove him crazy 😏…I’m glad you like the quote and recipes! Let me know if you try them out.
@@the.ellemars Orangeville
I just LOVE your opening drawing of your kitchen. It’s signed Clementine so I assume she created it. She’s so talented! It’s darling ❤
Have you tried light therapy for SAD? Might help. Perimenopause/menopause wasn’t fun, but you’ll find ways to get through. I’ve even seen meds available now that help. I know you’re trying to cut back on meds but something to talk to your NP about.
I vote for vertical stripe wallpaper. Make wall look taller. Pretty!
I listened to Matt H. Book. It was interesting. Sort of magical realism. He’s good writer!
Your soup looks delicious! I’m going to order that dicing gadget. Love your content and how you share good times and struggles. Glad you feel better. If the antidepressants help- take it!!!❤ Laura
Thank you! I will let Clementine know you love it! She drew it and then I animated it.
I have tried a lamp, but the light is definitely aggressive 🥴
It’s such a handy little gadget! I hope you love it.
Thank you for all the kind word ❤️
The slow-motion carrot chop 😂
Ha! Glad you enjoyed 😉
Loved this ❤
I’m so glad 🥰
I dont like this month att all. I read that its normal to be tired this time. Still your videos cheer me up so much. So thank you❤
It’s a rough time no matter how hard we work to get through it. You’re right.
I’m so glad they cheer you up 😊❤️
Lovely to spend time with you, and congratulations on monetization! 🎉👏👏 And glad for the mood pick up. I’ve struggled with depression in the past and the struggle is real. Mine did eventually lift and I hope that for you as well!
Thank you! It definitely ebbs and flows, doesn’t it. It will lift again soon, I am sure.
Erin, I don’t understand why you feel guilty when your body needs a nap. I don’t think it’s unusual at all. I’m always happy when a new video from you pops up.
I often will have a weekend afternoon nap, but I just crashed so hard! It was just odd more than guilty. I’m so glad you love the videos ❤️
This January has been rough for me too, also doing 75 hard and the scale has actually gone up from right after the holidays. I just made an appt to talk about perimenopause because i already want the hormone therapy 😂 For the soreness if you dont start foam rolling, it has helped my hips a lot!
Ugh, I find that the scale doesn’t want to move much either. So infuriating. I think it’s time to start asking for more help/hormone therapy.
I do lots of stretching and foam rolling, but the pain is more…structural😂….like my lower back and hips have just been painful for years. Could be another perimenopause treat too 🥴.
I’m sorry you’re also struggling. I’m starting to wonder if 75 hard is counter productive for the phase we/I am in honestly…is it raising my cortisol?
Ugh.
Can’t wait to get home today and watch your voided .. one of my highlights of my day 🕺🕺🕺🕺
Awe! You’re so kind ❤️
Lovely Vlog Erin, I get really low mood this time of year as the majority of the time here in England it is just Gloomy Grey weather, I walk everyday which really helps & feed the Swans & Ducks, I also met a Fox today on the canal tow path, made my Day 🦊Looking at the Snow is Beautiful❄ & really lifted my mood, Thank You 🌞
As much as I would love the milder, shorter winters, the gloominess might wear on me too. That sounds lovely though! Feeding the deer used to give me so much joy, but the neighbours hate them.
I’m glad my snowy landscape gave you some joy ❤️
I would do the wallpaper facing the second way you demonstrated but only from the baseboards up halfway to the center so it's half wallpaper and half paint. Just a thought!
Oh that’s something I hadn’t actually thought of doing! Or maybe I could do like a wooden chair rail and do the top half. Thank you for that idea!
I just turned 60, holy crap, when did I get so old?? Not gonna lie, my 40s were my hardest decade. I see so much of what I went through in your chats. I would do the stripes vertically, but you do you!
Ha! Time flies.
Ugh, it’s nice to hear because I feel less broken, but it’s also hard to hear because I don’t know how to make it better.
I appreciate your sharing and input on the wallpaper. I’m still unsure.
@@the.ellemars You're not broken!! we all get a little bent out of shape sometimes. Keep sharing and I will keep encouraging. You are going through a rough patch, give yourself the same grace and you would give a friend if she was in the same situation. As for meds, they exist to help people like us. If you had diabetes or high blood pressure, you would take medication to help. Mental health is no different. I say go for it, put up the wallpaper, either direction. If you love it great! If you don't, there's always another pattern or paint color. Also, kids clothes are not part of your fun thrifting budget. 🙂
Some book recommendations for you! If you like slightly witchy and magical, the Practical magic series is great! I think there are two prequels, practical magic and then the sequel❤ Also if you liked the midnight library, I heard “the collected regrets of clover” is supposed to be good!
I actually do have a couple from the series that I thrifted, but I haven’t heard of the collected regrets of clover! Such a great title! Thank you ❤️
40's are not for the faint of heart 😖🫣 but "follow the plan and not the mood" is such a good motto for this decade! 👏 thanks for sharing that!
It certainly is not!
I’m so glad others are finding that mantra helpful. He gave me so many helpful tools I just have a hard time remembering them all!
My all time favorite song is In the Mood by Glenn Miller! You can’t be in a bad mood when you listen to it.
That’s a great one and I think you’re right ❤️🥰
I enjoy your vlogs so much! 💓
I am so glad to hear that ❤️
I totally thought that black wall was a hunter green. Love it but know dark walls can be hard to maintain. The wallpaper will look great. I think it would look really good hung horizontally.
I think it is great that you speak honestly about mental health. It helps others know they are not alone.
P.S., buying your kids clothes should definitely not be included in your thrifting money ;). Lol.
That’s quite a few votes for horizontal stripes! Thank you.
I’m glad my sharing helps even a little.
Yes! Thank you! I agree ❤️😉
I started watching during vlogmas and really enjoyed that . I think its just interesting to see daily life in another part of the world. I'm in Cape Town South Africa and I will gladly swop with you right now for some cold weather. Its so hot here 😅. Your soup looks delicious.
Thank you for the kind words, and I feel you on the hot weather! I’d much rather be snowed in than overheating 🥵. The soup is a crowd pleaser in our house!
Nora Roberts ..all of her books are wonderful.. and I love the Alice Hoffman Practical Magic books there are 4 books in that series… ❤just my suggestions I read a lot all types I use that old rule of “Never Judge a book by its cover “
I'm definitely going to check those out, thanks for the recommendations!
Good for you to stay on top of your thrift budget and yes groceries are so expensive!!! You are doing a great meal planning job❤
Thank you so much! It’s getting harder and harder though 😭.
Beautiful and gorgeous vlog I hope you saved me some of the food hahaha God bless you and keep up the inspiring new people on your channel thankyou ❤🙏🥶
Haha! Come on over 😊
Always happy to see your face here ❤️
@@the.ellemars I would love to, but I'm from the UK unfortunately. But I would love to meet you 😊❤️
Another wonderful vlog. Which cameras are you looking into for vlogging? The clothes definitely don't count towards the budget
Thank you!
I like the idea of the DJI Osmo Pocket 3 because it’s so compact but also a Sony vlogging camera that everyone seems to have seems more versatile so I’m leaning towards that one.
Thank you! I agree it shouldn’t count against my “mad” thrifting money 😂
Again, your girl math is mathing... kids clothes don't count. (Sorry, Mike, it's just a fact.)
I'm making the date Snickers today, as our son and his family are visiting from out of state. The date Snickers are "for the grandkids."😂
I'm impressed with your meal plan.
Love the wallpaper. (Love the black wall too.) The horizontal stripes are speaking to me, but I'm no expert!
"Follow the plan, not the more," love that!
Thanks for all you shared. 💗
Ha! Thank you! I knew my girl math was, once again, correct!
They are so good! Don’t tell them it’s a date. Clementine is a little weird about it.
Thank you for your input on the wallpaper! Not sure what I will do. My family votes no because I asked if it was “giving Beetlejuice” 😏🫠
Thank you for always being here ❤️
Maybe think about checking vit D level?! (lack of sunshine & all that) Game-changer for me❤
Yes, I keep meaning to do that. I do take vitamin d supplements most of the year, but I’m
Not sure how effective they are. Thank you for the reminder 🥰
I have been having anxiety and depression this week. Just hoping to get over it, but yeah sucks. I love Pooh too. IT is hard for me to create videos when in this state of mind. I was getting a lot of anxiety in my 40s and I am sure peri-menopause did amp it up. Now at 55 I should be more even keel, but sadly am not. Going to go on HRT and see if that helps. UGh. Hard being a woman. The Gathering looks great. I am going to look into that too. Reading helps my anxiety and depression. I love Matt Haig and Midnight Library was so good! Oh my gosh, I need to check that one out also.
Ugh! Such a challenging time! I hate feeling so out of it. I need to talk to my doctor about possible ways to manage it…I hope the HRT helps you! Thank you for sharing ❤️
Thank you for sharing. Regarding books, if you want to give high fantasy a try then I would recommend the Stormlight Archive series by Brandon Sanderson. I am finally reading book two of the series, and I’m totally engrossed in the story!
Thank you! I’m not sure high fantasy is my thing, but I feel like it’s having such a moment right now, I feel like I’m missing out!
Going to take a look at that one though❤️
Ready for a random and all over the place comment? 😆😆😆 Fellow TH-camr here! I'm close to getting monetized, well I guess that's relative but it is something I maaaaaaay be able to accomplish this year. The watch hours are going to get me though so I'm trying to not get too focused on making that happen. I'm just enjoying showing up, creating, and using my brain for something outside homeschooling my boys and all our day to day stuff. It's been so good for me mentally! So if the monetization thing doesn't happen this year I still feel like I'm winning, ya know? I've said this before but it's been so neat to see your channel grow and hear all about how things are going for you! Totally cheering you on from the southern Utah mountains! 🎉
Okay onto the more random part of my comment....
1. You're doing awesome listening to your body and trying to support it in ways that you feel with cause a positive shift. That can be really hard to be diligent with but you're doing it!
2. I LOOOOOVE all the snow you share on your videos, so stunning each and every time.
3. Did anyone recommend House in the Cerulean Sea? I didn't recommend it last time because I know you're trying to not spend but just in case, it's a heart huggin' book. The audio is awesome. There's different voices for all the little creatures. It will make you feel all the things in the most beautiful way. I read the book while listening to the audio at the same time and it was a dream. Book 2 is currently out but I've not read it yet.
I love a long random comment! It matches my long random video 😂😊!
Congrats! I agree, this channel gives me a purpose outside of being a wife and mom. It’s good for my soul. I need to be careful that I don’t fall into the trap of hyper focusing on the outcome and forgetting to enjoy the process and people who are here. It can be hard not to get caught up in it.
Someone did recommend it and I have read it! Such a sweet read! Under the Whispering Door was quite lovely too!
Thank you for being here and I am cheering you on!
I love your videos 💗 what do you use for your music on your videos now? I remember in one of your vlogs you said you changed? I want to put music to my videos but not sure what to use. Thanks so much 💗
Thank you!
I actually decided to keep Epidemic Sound because it was a step I had missed in safe listing my channel. They corrected it swiftly.
I do use some TH-cam studio music too though! I hope that helps
@@the.ellemarsok awesome. Oh gosh I need to learn more. I don’t even know what safe listing your channel means. I’m just over here trying to post. Haha
@ haha! I didn’t know either obviously!
TH-cam music is free and epidemic sound is a paid subscription. One thing at a time! Just keep posting!
I like the wallpaper and think you should go vertical
Thank you! I’m still not sure what I will do!
I couldn’t get into the Maas Thorn and Roses book. I tried, but just couldn’t get lost in the story.
Interesting! I feel like I’m missing something, but maybe it’s just not for me.
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Thank you for watching ❤️
First here... again. Don't want you to think I'm stalking you or anything 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣!!! (The Tao of Pooh is a brilliant book❤️).
Haha! I love it!
It’s still scary every time I post a video, so it’s always nice to see a friendly face when I do ❤️🥰✨
If you knit your beautiful cowl and hat would you share your pattern.❤
I wish I did, but they’re both just thrifted items I was lucky to find 😬. The cowl is Joe Fresh and the hat is definitely handmade by some lovely soul.
@ thank you so much for replying:) They both look gorgeous on you - especially the red hat!
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The snow is so beautiful 😍
ooh, can you share your eggs benedict recipe? I've never made it before.
Hmmm, we cheated by using a packet for the sauce…really not fancy 😉
p.s I'm glad you showed up today!
I just finished last night When Among Crows by Veronica Roth, it was so interesting quick and engaging. Polish folklore
Oh I need to add that to my list! I love crows and it sounds like my kind of book!
Just curious why the turkey bacon? I believe pork bacon is less expensive and fewer chemicals added
I prefer peameal bacon, but my husband prefers this (he was raised on a lot of bologna 😬). Bacon is loaded with saturated fats which we are trying to avoid for cholesterol reasons, but it is delicious
You are so gorgeous!
That's so kind, thank you! 🥰
Erin, you've got me on a hunt for some new books to stock pile for future reads 🙂
I've heard good reviews about a trilogy (series) Foundryside by author Robert Jackson Bennett, and books by Juliet Marilles (sp?) her books tend to be about woodsy, forest, nature, herbalist things 💖
Oh awesome! Thank you for sharing! I love witchy forest nature vibes more than high fantasy, I think…definitely going to look into that!
Just from a woman I am thinking over 10 years older than you it probably is all the above that you mentioned why you feel the way you do. I suggest HRT. I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but for me it has not gotten better. I started feeling like shit probably when I was 45 and now I am 55 post menopause. However, that is my story and may not be yours. I am going on HRT and actually starting my first dose tonight. On that note, I have had depression since childhood and also anxiety so that I cannot blame on hormones as much. But it had gotten worse when hitting peri and then meno. And there are a lot of women who do feel better after meno so maybe I am just one of the unlucky ones. For me it is the anxiety that makes life really hard.
Ugh. I hope you get some relief…I don’t even know at what point HRT can be helpful vs harmful age wise…I assume it’s too early for me?
Sending hugs❤️
@@the.ellemars Not too early for you. But it depends on if you are getting hot flashes and other symptoms. I think you said you are 42? Women do not have to wait until post-menopause to go on HRT. And now they are saying to go on it before menopause. It is all very confusing though. Also, they are saying women need to be on it for life and losing estrogen is like being deficient since we need estrogen. So basically, it is like if we are deficient in something we need to take a supplement. Or like if you are hypothyroid you need to go on a hormone to balance it. And one more thing lol Every woman has to be on estrogen cream even before menopause. falling estrogen gives every women atrophy which can have many issues like more bladder infections and can be painful. Yeah, sucks, but better know this sooner than later.
And now days it is safer to go on HRT than it was in the past. They use different types of hormones now and the study in the early 2000's called the WHI Women's Health Initiative had lots of flaws in the study. I researched of this a lot. It is also talked about on many credible channels on TH-cam with board certified gynecologists'. Not sure about how it is in Canada but you should talk to your doctor about it.
My friend Mollie. I started to feel terrible at age 40. Always depressed and completely wondered who the heck am I? I would wake at 3 almost each morning and walk in the garden, journal, watch tv. I’m so excited for my physical end of this month to ask about hormones. It’s so wonderful to be amongst woman who get it.
@ the 40s were hard. Yes, I am so glad we are supporting each other.
Hello friend love seeing you and please please please know how much I enjoy your channel. I talk back to you like we’re having a girls chat🤣😂 Link your items so you can get paid when we purchase your recommendations.
You are so incredibly kind! I love that you talk back to me like that ❤️.
Yes! I really do need to get better at linking things I mention. I will add the links to my description now.
Thank you for reminding me ❤️
You’re 44. Suggest getting your hormones checked by a hormone specialist. Most likely perimenopause is kicking in. Going through menopause currently(not nice). I’m on HRT it does help relieve numerous of symptoms, but it does change, regular checks is a must. Breathe take time for yourself to help with anxiety. Watch your stress levels and detach from stressful things. I wish someone told me this when it started for me. 🥰. Congrats on getting monetized. I love doing TH-cam. Community is great here.
Yes, that’s the tricky thing is that they fluctuate all month long 🫠…I am definitely going to start looking into more options and treatments. I hate feeling like this. Thank you for sharing with me ❤️