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- Hey Everyone🙋♀️ In today's video, I wanted to just open up and chat about my absence on my channel, and have an open dialog with you all. Thank you for allowing me to be vulnerable, and patient with me while i have been working through some things. I appreciate it, more than you know🩷
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I cannot love this enough. I do think these years where our hormones start changing at the same time people that we love or that dotted our youth/lives start passing bring up so many feelings. We start to realize time is never going to go back or even pause so we can catch our breath. The complicated relationships we have…and most are…aren’t going to have some magical resolution. Closure usually doesn’t happen, and we see that time is up too soon. Sometimes we don’t get to tell those we loved what a significant impact they had on us good or bad. We can’t go back and change anything or be the person we started out as.
I think a lot of us have felt like you are, and I do think the pandemic made it amplified. I am in my 50s, and I went through this starting in my early 40s. I can’t say it has passed, but I do feel more resigned to the fact that this is a part of life especially as we hit midlife. I now have some classmates who have died or have serious diseases they are fighting. Someone loses a parent weekly it seems. While those don’t bring issues up in my mind, they hurt and make me very aware of the tenuous grip we have on life and my own/my husband’s mortality; our parents are passing and we are next. Life sometimes takes little pieces of you before it comes for the rest of you. During this time, we get to a place in our life where we have built a wonderful life for ourselves sometimes due to and more often despite of our childhoods. We have come into our own and whatever happened to us we truly are able to say out loud was wrong. I hope you see that as a strength. I would suggest therapy, but also to sit in the sunlight each morning in the meantime. Name all the blessings individually you have that you are grateful for. It doesn’t have to be a religious exercise, but it can be. Spend ten minutes soaking in the sun and being grateful. It will make things seem brighter. Thank you for this video.
Thank you SO MUCH for commenting and sharing all you shared🙏👏 I am so grateful, and I couldn't agree more. My husband is turning 59 next week and he said "Once you adjust to being in your 40's, before you know it, you'll be in your 50's" lol. No matter what, it's about being grateful every day to be alive and have another day with your family🙏 My husband has been walking 10 miles a day (even during the winter as long as it's not snowing and roads are clear) and he spends that time with God. He prays, and thanks him for all his blessings. He has been doing it for 6 months now and he's a totally different person. Things in the world happening that would normally upset him, he could care less. He is now focused on the great things in life, not the negative. I am definitely going to try spending 10 minutes in the sunshine. Even if it's cold outside, if the sun is shining, I'll bundle up and do it. I didn't even think of that. I knew it had helped my hubby, but, I didn't want to walk 10 miles to do it🤪 Thank you so much for that suggestion, and again, taking the time to comment. I appreciate it, more than you know🙏👏 I'm going to Pin 📌 it to the comments so I can always come back to it and read it❤️ Have a great weekend, my friend💋
So I have a PhD in psych and I’m a psych professor. What you are describing is depression. We all experience it to some degree. No, not always to the point of meeting diagnostic criteria, but that doesn’t mean you don’t suffer if yours isn’t that severe.
Therapy would be amazing for you. You don’t have to have a diagnosis to get therapy. Just dealing with stress is enough. But you need to have someone help you deal with the trauma of your upbringing and the stress you feel now. Learning how to deal with things will be such a help! You need to put yourself first. Focusing on yourself helps you be a better support for others ❤
You aren’t alone in this!
Same degree here and also agree with you ❤
Thank you so much for the advice, I appreciate it and I'm happy to report, I have found a therapist, and my first appt is next week. I'm actually excited, and don't feel this weird shame or embarrassment. Once I faced it, booked the appt, I felt relieved 🙏❤️
@@TaraLynnbeauty I’m so excited for you!!! And very proud. That first step is typically the hardest!!
Allow yourself to heal and grieve. There will always be pain and suffering in the world, but don’t minimize your trauma just because it’s not relative to that of what is going on in the world. With faith you know that pain and suffering bring about compassion. You have a plan and purpose but trauma will always surface and manifest in some form or fashion. May God bless you and take time to enjoy the beauty of your own personal life and embrace the memories you shared. We are here for a short time but your mental health is just as important as your physical health. Sending a big hug - I’ve been a Counselor for over 20 years. God bless you.
Omg Tara I completely understand and agree with you and the weather being so cold and pitch dark at 5pm doesn’t help ❤ sending love and healing for peace of mind
Girl we all need the happy outlets and it’s helpful for all of us to hear that we aren’t alone in our struggles! Never feel like you need to put on an act for us- we love you!
I relate to a lot of what you said. I lost my mom and brother within 2 weeks of each other, 19 yrs ago and my dad, 8 years ago. Also all of my grandparents, aunts, and uncles are gone. I already suffer from depression and it has gotten worse. I also have health conditions that make everything that much harder. You have to find small things that bring joy and always be grateful for all you have. I like Nikki La Rose, she reminds me of Mel.
I'm so sorry you've experienced such pain with the loss of your loved ones, especially that close together. 💔 Thank you for sharing, it means so much 🩷🩷
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I’m glad you’ve been open about this. I’m 46 and going through perimenopause and it’s a physical and emotional roller coaster. We need to be more open with each other to help each other get through life’s challenges. Sending love. 🌻💛
I’m 50 and just started Hormones. I love them. Problem solved 😂😂
Me too…48…I totally agree with you.
Came here to say exactly this! Sounds like perimenopause and HRT may help.
I’m going through something similar. I’ve lost both my parents. Mom in 2021 and my dad 2022, both nearly a year apart. I’ve been postponing with my creativity and things that used to bring me joy. I really needed to hear this talk. Thank you for being so open and sharing! Perfect timing ❤
I’m going to be praying for you. I’m so sorry for the loss of your parents. If you ever need to talk, please reach out. I have had a close experience as what you have said & if you ever need to talk to understand you are not alone, I’m here.
Sorry to hear you’re going through that. We are here for you. Don’t think you’ll burden a therapist, that’s not how therapy works. They know how not to take it on but how to help you. I’d highly recommend you do it. I didn’t for so long and then when I did it helped me so fast and so completely that I kicked myself for resisting it for so long. ❤
I'm definitely going to look into therapy. I definitely feel it's time. Thank you so much for your support 🩷🙏 It means so so much🩷🩷
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Being vulnerable and being open is everything we need so thank you so much ❤
Love to you Tara. It’s tempting to downplay our struggles when compared to the pain and suffering of others, but truly… we are all connected. Just because it might seem that someone else has it worse doesn’t mean your pain isn’t real and valid. I am grateful for your openness and sending you love from Vermont.
Thank you for being so open and honest. The world needs real people like you! I have lost people who were very important to me and I learned that part of a healthy grieving proces is acceptance instead of resistance. Accepting what is; also your own ups and downs.😘
Totally going through the same! This has been quite the year for me as well! My marriage is over, my dog passed suddenly and I lost my Dad very unexpectedly as well all within 6 months time It has been very hard to process all of it! I think your video was exactly what I needed today❤
Sending you a big hug Florinda. Hang in there, thereś light at the end
of the tunnel. I promise you that. 💛💙💜
@florinadacacicio592 Florina I am so terribly sorry to hear what you are going through. Sending you lots of love and hugs your way. ❤🤗
Prayers Tara🙏🙏 we need you too, so we love seeing you & especially your honest reviews. If you need help, don’t hesitate to get it. We are here for you. God Bless xxx
I’m so sorry for your loss and for what you are going through. I pray you feel Gods peace and strength. You’re amazing and brave. I very much understand what you’re experiencing.
I’m so glad you spoke about this, I’ve missed you and hearing you speak about feelings I’ve been experiencing myself helped me a lot. You and your channel mean a lot to me and I’ve never really said anything. Sending you good thoughts 🙏🏾
Tara I really appreciate you sharing with us! Not only is it relatable but it’s an outlet of support for you. I’m sorry you don’t feel completely supported in your everyday life but we are here for you. You are a strong woman ❤
Sending all the love and prayers your way. I went through something very similar when my grandfather died and it took a few years, therapy and even medication to help with the grief I experienced. You are so allowed to grieve and feel your thoughts. Take your time and don’t think your problems and sorrows are any less important than anyone else’s.
I am SO sorry that you have been having some struggles. Watching you open up just reinforces what a beautiful human being you are. You are not a robot and it is refreshing to hear that are like the rest of us. It takes courage to admit that not everything is perfect. You bring so much joy to us and we absolutely love and adore you! Sending you love and strength.
Tara, you are so brave to open up and share with your community. I have experienced very similar feelings these last few years, although some of the reasons are different. So you opening up was helpful to me in my own journey! Thank you! ❤
Oh my gosh, its ok. You will be ok. Listening to you talk it's almost like hearing myself. I went through this same thing and a month ago I finished 16 weeks of therapy which really helped me. I could say so much bc it is all so recent and but the biggest thing I can say is cliche and thats be kind to yourself and accept that this is your time to reach out and receive help and support which is alien to you, not at all what you are used to but its what you need really. It feels so awful but you'll be ok. Xx
I’m so happy that you’re opening up. It might feel very uncomfortable in the beginning but I know that there are beautiful lessons that you’re about to learn as a result of it.
One of them being - what’s most personal often is most common.
I see this all the time.
When we’re immersed in our “problems” they seem huge. And when we finally decide to open up, we realize that we’re not alone and that there are many other people experiencing similar challenges.
Talk about it. Please. For yourself and for all those women that feel exactly how you feel.
Sending ❤
Hugs and prayers. You have a lot of strength and YOU WILL get through it. 💜
Oh Tara I totally identify with this lately. Thank you for opening up about it and making me “own” my feelings and the ways I have also dealt with childhood trauma………..knowing the tools others can use doesn’t make us actually practice what we believe/preach. 🥰 Sending prayers from a very cold Scotland x
I’m sorry for what you’re going through, but listening to you was so relatable. I know what you mean when nothing gives much joy anymore. I’m in the same state in life as you and it’s a hard time. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your experience. I pray you find joy again and I’m so happy to see you back on TH-cam.
Girl I feel you. Talking about it does help. I bottle stuff up and keep it in. I too have lost so many loved ones so close together. Prayers for grandma and your entire family
Tara, thank you for sharing this with us and I am so sorry that you have to be going through this. You are one of the best people on TH-cam because you are so honest and you do such a good and thorough job with your content. I will be thinking about you and you will be in my prayers.
Happy Thanksgiving!! Keep your head up and never feel bad for the feeling you have. Yes some people are going through a lot worse, and some a lot less, but we all are human and are going through things. Sharing and talking about it is healing and helpful, to me anyway. And praying. You can’t be everyone’s rock, and that ok. You are such a beautiful person inside and outside. What you are going through is going to pass and better times are around the corner🥰🥰
I always appreciate when people are vulnerable and share their struggles. We all have our own problems, and I know I feel very alone, and that everyone else has their stuff together but me. It’s makes me not feel so alone. Sending hugs ❤❤
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Oh Tara!! I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. Your story is extremely similar to mine. Childhood trauma is the absolute worst. The BEST thing I’ve ever done for myself was intense counseling (do your research and follow your instinct when choosing one) I stuck with it for 1 1/2 years. It was so worth it in every way. It helped me work through all that childhood trauma and loss. It wasn’t easy. I think it will really help. I don’t like therapy but it changed my life. We’ve all missed your beautiful face!! I will be praying for you!! ❤😊🙏🏻
Let yourself feel all of it- I promise in the long run it will help you heal - I’m sorry you are hurting and going through it!! ❤
So sorry you have been going through all of this. I have depression in my family and I myself suffer from that and anxiety. I feel like nothing has been the same since the pandemic, in many ways but especially mentally.
I don't even know if you will see this, but I just listened to your story and oh my goodness do we have so so much in common. My grandmother is also struggling, she's in the final stages of dementia, and myself, my mother and my daughter are her care givers. The issue is, my mother and grandmother have also NEVER gotten along, and still don't. Because of that my grandmother made me her full power of attorney when she had her mind. I'm 43 and keep getting told to put her in a home, but I cannot turn my back on her. My gram was always my rock, my bff all the way until she was diagnosed and no longer had her full mind. As stressed as I am, I can't put her in a home. My father who passed away at 47 years young was also was my rock and best friend, and losing him affected me terribly and still does 17 years later. And to see my grandmother going through dementia, I feel like I've lost her as well. She's someone else living in the shell of my gram. But my gram and my dad were there for my brothers and I all through our childhood, so I truly despise what she's going through. This all being said, I too have been struggling with depression and anxiety. It's so much stress on our shoulders, and others in the same boat as us. Put it in gods hand, thats all we can do. I keep praying on the things I have no control over, god will see it through. 🙏🏼 God Bless you, and if you ever need to chat with someone who can totaly relate, please feel free to reach out to me! ❤ Stay strong friend, we've got this, it just might take some time to heal and get through what we have been and are still going through. P.s. I also can't stand the dark cold winters, I need to move to a warmer climate as well lol! Ny is no fun this time of year when you're already down and out! Xo friend, stay strong ❤ Amanda
I’m the same way as you ❤ you are not alone. Much love and hugs. You will get through.
Prayers for your healing sweet Tara.🙏
Thank you for sharing your life with us as you do. I hope that opening up in this way helps you process the loss and heartbreak you are struggling with. I’m so sorry you are in pain- your grandfather sounds like a true angel and I’m certain he is still with you. You don’t need advice from a stranger, but what stands out to me is what a wonderful life you have created for yourself- your husband, your children, your friends… they are your reality and they love you for you- today. Let them love you, let them see your pain. I SO relate to your feelings of guilt and feeling selfish for hurtling. Boy do I get it. I have a different backstory but the result is the same: I’m not allowed to have problems or pain bc it is so much worse for others. I get it. We know better- let’s make sure our kids never feel this way! Bless you, hon. You will be okay.
Sending you positive Energies Tara. You are such a strong, amazing person YET please remember that we ALL need some love, care, gentleness and the loving attention of other people from time to time!
I'm so glad you have a safe place to talk through your feelings. Many, many , of us are truly here for you. I, will be praying over you. 🙏🏼❤️
Thank you for opening up and sharing. I know this video will find so much empathy with so many people. One note, please be kind to yourself. Your fans DO care about you. Your personal depression IS valid, unrelated to any other person. How you feel matters. It is valid. It is fair to feel your feelings and share (or not share) as much as you want. You are a beautiful, kind, amazing human and we are all cheering for you.
Also, side note.. if you did cooking videos I would 10/10 watch.
I’ve missed your videos and completely empathize with what you’ve been going through. ❤❤❤
Im so sorry for your loss Tara. As time passes, I'll get easier. Grief just takes a while...unfortunately. Sending blessings your way.
Hey, Tara, sending love, and grace to you during your mourning and grief. Everyone is different. I am going through very similar grieving with a similar family dynamic instead of my grandpa it was my aunt who was technically my "mom."
Therapy taught me to unpack,cope, and the tools to find joy again. ❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You’re a true gem with a beautiful spirit. I’m rooting for you. Blessings to you and your family!! ❤
This was so refreshing to see you so open about your own struggles. As someone with clinical depression this resonates with me so much. One thing about bottling things like grief, trauma & pain is that it will all catch up if it’s not dealt with eventually. I encourage you to go speak to someone & purge all crap out of your mind, body & soul. Trust me it took me along time ask for help, but for me personally it was best thing I ever did. Good luck & God Bless 🙏🏻🥰
I hope you find your place and be happy again❤️ support and being so understanding with
I am glad you are back and sharing your feelings. I truly missed your videos ❤❤❤
It is brave opening up, and it is the first step towards healing! ❤
Sending prayers and healing . I went through things a few years ago and found hobbies doing things I loved really helped me.❤
I’m so sorry that u have + r going thru so much of life’s ‘down’ challenges. Tho we’ve heard it, it’s true… death is an enemy… whether fast or slow.
Allow urself time to heal… ur health comes first bc u’re no good to urself nor to family otherwise. Don’t ‘fret’ over giving YT entertainment bc those who care, will watch u whether funny or solemn. I watch YT for realness… other stuff… sparingly. My dad told me that… like u, I have mentally pushed traumatic things… to the back burner (of my mind). Well they r somehow now, making their way to the forefront. It’s ok not to ‘hide’ the ugliness, bc u r beautiful regardless. The world is crazy, but it doesn’t minimize ur own so it’s ok to give it the attention it truly needs.
My prayers for u❣️❤️🩹🙏🫶
You actually make a lot of sense. I definitely relate. I think you're a bit shell-shocked. And I hope talking about it helps you to reconcile the emotions. This has been a tough past 15 months for me as well, and I totally understand what you are going through as I too am usually the strong one. Hang in there! It'll take time.
So glad you shared this. I’ve been struggling for a year and gained about 50 lbs and can’t seem to get out of it. Beauty TH-cam especially your Chanel helps. Praying for you and so grateful you’re here
I have gained weight too. I feel like since 2020 I have been in a constant funk with short burst of energy. You are not alone.
I'm so sorry you're experiencing the same thing. I've gained 10 lbs and counting as well😩 and I agree with Stacy. This has to be Covid related. We were all locked up in fear when the pandemic hit, and it seems it was the beginning for so many of us, and depression started creeping in😞 But, after posting this video, and reading the comments, I'm realizing, I'm not alone.. I also decided to book the appt with a therapist and it's so weird, but, as soon as I booked it, I immediately felt better. I didn't tell my husband for a few days, and when I told him, I felt even better. It's like these, baby steps in facing it, and hopefully, I can start to heal 🙏 Thank you so much for all your support, sending you lots of hugs and love❤️❤️ You're not alone🙏
Me too guys, depressed and gained 30lbs since Covid... definitely not alone in this. 💀
Same thing for me. Weight gain. We aren’t alone 🩷
I’m sorry you’re going through this but I’m glad you were able to share it. I think therapy could be a big help - the right therapist can be such a valuable resource and share tools for dealing with the hard times. Sending you good energy.
Thank you for opening up with us. Please know you're not alone. I know there's a lot, a lot of stuff going on in the world right now, but it doesn't negate your feelings. As you mentioned, I think speaking to a therapist would be really good. You just have to take that leap and do it. I know it's scary. From how I understand it, it's situational depression. Please know you're not alone, and we are all here for you.
Tara-compartmentalization as a skill has its place but I always do better when I don’t bury things inside, however, every individual is different. Watching this has given me so much insight into what you’re going through…it’s making me realize how little I knew about you before. Thanks for being vulnerable & I really hope things improve & soon. You are in my heart, friend. Happy belated Thanksgiving to you & your’s♥️
Awww Tara, I’m so sorry you’re having a hard time. It’s ok. Today (Nov 24th) is exactly 8 weeks since we lost my mom. Yesterday, Thanksgiving was the first holiday without her. And what you said, I said to my sister last night. Mommy was the matriarch of the family. What do we do now without her? It was very bittersweet, and my children, who are in their 20’s are VERY close to my parents. One thing I do know is that what we suppress will always come to the surface. I’m glad you’re letting it out. And we all know the horrors of the world (I just listen enough to keep me in the know), then I leave it in God’s hands. It works for my mental health. I depend on my faith 100%. Don’t ever diminish what you’re going through just because of what’s going on in the world. Your pain & feelings are important too. We love you. You take all the time you need. We’ll be here. ❤️
Tara, your pain is real...give yourself grace...thank you for sharing...thats brave and can help others to open up! Your channel is one that allowed me to start my own...be well!
you are totally right keep your channel going, you have so many people that love you and your channel Tee!! Love you always your Dad!!❤❤❤❤
Oh Tara, I'm so sorry to hear you've had to deal with all of this. I hope you give yourself the time you need but also if this space gives you a break then we will always be here for you. Love you ❤❤
An important and profound video on how vulnerable we all really are, just under the surface. Thank you so much for sharing, I learned a lot.
Aww, I enjoy your presence and personality just as much as any makeup review that you do. These last few years have been very hard. You are not alone.
Awww Tara, give yourself some grace. I have gone through my momemts of lows and still am dealing with childhood trauma. I didnt realize how much my parents divorce affected me until now. I can relate and as a woman in my 40's I am learning about myself and who I am as a person. Thank you for sharing. I hope in time you get to a better place. ❤❤
We are always here for you Tara it doesn’t matter how long you need away, just waiting in the wings for your return. Your loyal subscribers will always support you and be prepared to listen whenever you need to talk to us because I am sure many of us can relate to everything you say. That guilt fretting about our own problems when there is so much suffering in the world presently I know, I do it myself but our own life worries and sadness is something we can deal with whereas there is nothing we can do about the fighting going on in the world. Be gentle with yourself and take your time, see a therapist if you think it would help that’s what they are there for and look into the mirror every morning and tell yourself what a wonderful human being you are! I’ve really missed your videos over the last few months you are so professional when reviewing a product and such a pleasure to listen to.🥰💜
Glad to see you back ! Big hug to you 🥰
Thank You Tara. you are so brave. It gives me hope to open up one day.
Thank you for sharing your heart, Tara. My Mom and Grandma had Dementia and passed away. It’s so hard on family, especially when your loved one no longer recognizes you. I am praying for you. ❤
I can so relate to so many of your life experiences and who you became because of it in growing up in chaos (though in an intact family) and becoming the fixer, the helper, the diplomat, etc..Thank you for sharing your story. I can share that counseling helping me process and grow. Part of you is begging to stand up and be heard and to nurture yourself.
Ahhh, thank you so much for sharing that🩷 Sometimes it helps just knowing you're not alone. The break i took, has helped me TREMENDOUSLY. I was going non stop and now with my Grandma only having a few weeks to live at this point, I needed to be present, but my mental health has gotten so much stronger. And I'm so grateful 🩷 Thanks for all your support, it truly means so much to me🩷🩷🩷 Sending you all my love and prayers, we are women hear us roar 🤜🤛
I wish you every good thing as you walk through this. I know you’ll be able to get to a better place. ❤
Authenticity is key and that’s who and what you are ❤ stay true to yourself as you are, you will heal in your way in your time ❤ we have missed you but understand and will always support you ❤
TY for sharing! And BTW, I really appreciate it when you capture how your makeup wears throughout the ENTIRE DAY! I haven’t found anyone else who takes the time to do that!
Hi Tara,
Thank you for sharing what you have been going through.
My parents passed three months apart 4 years ago. And bit by bit I was thrown into full blown depression. It sneaks up on you and you do pretend until you can’t any more. I actually felt suicidal but only for a moment. I learned that I have to fight for myself. I had to grieve my own way and for as long as it takes. I’m only now starting to feel better. I take walks and try to be kind to myself. Take the time to grieve and do things that make you happy. Take care, Lisa xo
I can relate to a lot of what you are saying Tara. I am also not close with my mom - not by choice - more of by circumstance if that makes any sense. I also keep things to myself and keep busy to distract myself from getting into my own head. A lot of what you say you do, I do too so I can relate so much. I hope you decide to talk with someone. Not because I think you need it, but you have dealt with a LOT of sadness in your life and talking about it may help. I miss Mel too, even though I was just a viewer of her channel but it’s amazing how much you can grow to love someone just from that. I love you and your channel too. We’ll be waiting for you when you decide to be here. I am just as happy when you post as it sounds like you need it too. I hope things start falling on your side Tara. Having the dogs sure helps though …. I got one again after mine tragically got hit by a car and I said never again, but here we are and I love having her around. ❤️ Take care Tara.
Watching this video was like looking in a mirror. My grandparents raised me, they were more like my parents and I was also raised in chaos. Also what you're going through should not be diminished ❤ Depression also comes in different form, I've suffered throughout the years so try not to let it get to a bigger place that is harder to control. Prayers your way Tara, you're a strong women and i know you'll pull through.
Sweetie, thank you for opening up. What you are feeling, millions of moms and 40+ women feel. You speaking up of your feelings, really does free others to have a moment of a safe space to FEEL their feelings without guilt. You don’t sound like a downer, you sound human. The fact that you acknowledge others plights in the world makes you even more human. Also, being the giver, the family piler, it’s okay to release your feelings. So true about being in your 40’s! It’s when you get real about yourself! And there’s a lot of heaviness going on out there that weighs on a caring heart like yours, because you care beyond yourself. Also, you’re a sunshine girl! Darker skin like ours, needs more sunlight! You live in a cold climate like me, you body actually needs a higher dose of vit D 4000iu in the winters! Lighter skin needs less time in the sun. So we definitely get affected come winter months. Try to up your vit D through supplements AND omega 3 fatty fish oil enteric coated for absorption and you might start feeling a a better mood change. Avocados are also known to be excellent mood boosters. Combining diet, with releasing your emotions, and continuing to be vocal and open, you will get through depressing emotions! Lots of love! A
You helped a lot of us by giving voice to where you at. Thank you for sharing this. It was a brave choice.
Hi Tara! Thanks so much for sharing how you feel and this impacted me in so many ways.
Love you, Tara. Sounds like you are on a healing journey. Take whatever time you need. For what it’s worth, I think you would love therapy! ❤
Thank you for sharing this with us Tara ❤ you’re not alone! Hope you’re doing well 🙏🏻💕
I can relate to sooooo much of what you were describing. I am approaching retirement age with aging parents, and have struggled with life changes, etc. And, for a long time I felt guilty feeling sadness, if that makes sense. We all experience things differently, but we can all relate to one another. I am sending hugs and positive and supportive thoughts! So glad you are back to filming, but completely understand when you need some down time to take care of yourself.
I can relate too. Sometimes when I am happy I start to feel guilty about all the people that are no longer here due to the pandemic or all the people suffering right now. And also fear of what is happening in the world and what our future could look like.
Awww, Tara! I feel this to my core. Very sad to know you are going through all of this. 😭❤
heartwrenching to hear your pain...You deserve to be happy, do not be afraid to ask for therapy/help. You don't always have to be strong, it is ok to not be ok. Sending you prayers, love and support. Thank you for sharing your most vulnerable moments with us, we have your back
Hi Tara 👋
I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. Both my grandma and mom have passed away. We didn't have the smoothest of relationships but I miss them dearly. My mother had dementia and I remember her telling me that she learned what love was through me and it was heartbreaking to hear. I dream about them often.
I also worry that I may experience what my mother went through and also now that I turned 50 this month I realize that life is truly short and that we must enjoy the little things in life, show our loved ones how much we truly care, self care is super important and building a strong relationship with our source and creator is essential for the overall sense of well-being. Also keeping in mind that to everything there's a season, we must feel in order to heal and keep a sense of gratitude for all the great things that happens to us.
My heart goes out to you and what you're going through.
Sending prayers and so much love your way 🙏❤️🕊️
I lost my mum really suddenly to cancer 2 yrs ago and grief counselling really helped me. If you can find a good one you click with they are worth their weight in gold.
I follow who I follow because I need an escape. Therapy helped with the guilt for me. I also compartmentalize like you. When things have happened I suck it up because I feel like someone has to be in control. My mom has dementia, so I get it. Don’t forget to take care of you. You are like listening to a friend. ❤
Thank you for sharing Tara. I think seeing a therapist to talk, is a really good idea. You’ve suffered a lot of loss and it all affects you without you realising.
I’ve said a prayer for you and sending a big hug and love to you ❤
Usually a silent follower. This video is so relatable. I completely agree with everything you’re saying. Bam 42 can’t run. I love your channel. Thank you for being vulnerable, I respect and appreciate this so much!!
Thank you so so so much for your support 🙏🩷 I am so grateful to have such a safe place to talk about things and knowing we're not alone in all this🫶🏼 Thank you again, and hope you have a WONDERFUL weekend 🩷🎉 XOXO
Sending so much love Tara. I have had PTSD from severe childhood trauma and in recent years, grief from loss. I totally understand it being too much to consider dealing with, you think where do I start? What could it really do or help? But it really did ❤ when and if you become ready, look for the right person. You deserve healing and peace. You are a wonderful person ❤️
I am going through this and it bothers me but also good at hiding it, ty for sharing, appreciate you 💕
Beautiful look as always. I hope you feel better and better each day. Take care of yourself and give yourself some grace. You'll come out the other side.
We’ve missed you, Tara. Be kind to yourself & take all the time you need. Your TH-cam family will always be here for you! Sending you so much love 🩷 Xx
Anyone with a heart would understand the why and the how. Give yourself whatever is needed to get back to yourself, I for one completely understand. These last few years have been hellish here too…. Sending much love and prayers for comfort and strength, to you, and your family Tara 💕💕💕
This is my first time to see you on TH-cam. So glad you shared. I am so sorry of what you have been going through. God bless you through the holiday season and I will be praying for you. I went through this also, but it was when I went through my first divorce around 20 years ago. 20 years seems like a long time, but in my mind it doesn't. I gained a lot of weight. I went through counseling with 2 Christian ladies who helped me tremendously along with the help of the Holy Spirit. I have been married to a wonderful man since 2012. I thank God everyday for where I am now. Blessings to you.
This video was such a blessing to me. Thank you.
I understand some of your feeling, I have been struggling with feeling like do I film and talk about beauty/fashion when so much is going on in the world. But then I remind myself we all need outlets and sometimes beauty/fashion videos can be that for me and others.
I’ve really missed you Tara! I pray we see more you. I really relate so much with about just caring and giving to others so we don’t focus on our feelings. I hate feeling anything but joy and happiness, but then I don’t allow myself to be in pain especially in front of anyone. I always have to be that perfect person. Always the helper and the overachiever. I noticed I crave the praise and validation I get from others when I’m giving. But then I don’t allow anyone to give to me and get that same praise and validation. I’m kinda selfish when I think about it that way. I need to allow others the joy of caring and giving also.
So happy to see you back ❤
You are such a good soul and you need to heal. Take the time to talk to someone, and it will help to ease the burden of the grief.❤
Luv & miss you ❤. Take all the time you need....we'll all be here like a big, warm hug whenever you get back 🤗🤗🤗
Minus TH-cam and the loss of a grandfather (other major losses instead); you are speaking my story. Compartmentalizing has almost been a blessing and a curse for me. I choose not to live in the places that hurt or upset me but at times those boxes burst open and I almost don’t know what to do with all of it so I sink inside of myself so as not to inconvenience someone else with emotion or stress.
That's EXACTLY it. Refusing to live in that box of pain, hurt, and misery, I just push it to the side and keep it movin. 🤪 Thank you so much for sharing your own experiences, it means so much to have such amazing support 🙏🩷
Thanks so much for sharing, that was really brave of you.❤ Things will get better! There is always yin and yang! You are so sweet. And your laugh truly cracks me up girl 😂😂😂